Mitzvos Hashekulos Torah (14)

Okay. We're in the middle of aleph, right? We're discussing the mem ches divrei Torah miknis bahem that are mem ches middos. They're um different attributes. And the when when a person has these 48 attributes, he makes himself into a vessel that can absorb and properly understand and connect with the Torah as it comes from the highest places, noislam min levanon. I know that we said I know that I'm smack in the middle of aleph, the second to last paragraph. A person learns Torah properly, they're absorbing Torah from the highest place possible for a human being to absorb from. Beyond Torah is already Hakadosh Baruchu. klal. It's obvious and completely unnecessary to say. And yet I'm going to say it. These 48 things are not chas v'shalom a um in place of like like I'm not going to learn the whole Torah, but I'll do the mem ches divrei. It's not in place of learning Torah. Ela na hu, the the truth is the exact opposite. After we know that we have to learn the entire Torah we have to learn the whole Torah. But in addition to learning the whole Torah a talmid chacham needs liyos mushlam b'chol ha mem ches divrei. A talmid chacham needs to be whole in all 48 things who may him yesh I make and from them he will draw from the depth of who's Russia right side and through this he will know how to forge a path through the Talmud. This is such an interesting thing that I saw last night somebody said You know like when we learn a Sugya in Yevamos so it's like almost this like sense especially when you learn Sugyas that Yeshivas have learned you know for a hundred years on the shelf is every Rosh Yeshiva and what this year he gave and when you come to the Sugya you're like okay you'll listen to share you'll know what was said you'll learn a couple of you'll know the Sugya So one of these said that's not the way you learn Torah You learn Torah then when you sit down to the Sugya this Sugya has never been seen by human eyes before You learn the Torah as if yesterday we got the Torah and today you're like woah Yevamos incredible you open it up What did no one's ever heard this about you know Ashrei Yisrael she kach sham'u and that's how you go through the Sugya and you find a path through the Sugya that's not their path and it's not the path maybe sometimes we have to rely on them to to to direct us and and and guide us but it's my path it's the Torah gave me because the Torah that gave you is the Torah of course there's one Torah, but Hashem wants my understanding of the Torah, that's one Torah, and Hashem wants your understanding of the Torah, and that's your Torah. And if you settle with my understanding of the Torah, you're settling. And that's what he's saying, we use the middos sh'asarei middos v'eim to make ourselves kaylim that we can apply ourselves to the Torah and we can find our path that matches our way of thinking and our yashrus and our svara and our netiyah, and that's a lifelong project to learn sugyas and to find not just to find the sugya but to find yourself in the sugya. The alydays a yayda lasays b'eima talmud derech hada find a path in the ocean of the Talmud uvimayim azim and in these strong waters sh'al pilpul haTorah of the discussions of the fiery discussions of Torah as hanesivah ham'veah l'halacha berurah the path that brings the clear halacha she'hi sod Hashem l'reiyav which is sod Hashem l'reiyav Hashem shares the secret with those who fear him Okay, base. Okay, following on the same the same logic, kol eisik haTorah the entire eisik haTorah involvement in Torah hu birur retzono yisbarach it's a clarification of Hashem's will b'chol sugya v'sugya in each and every sugya d'omek ha'iyun v'hayegiya in the depth of iyun and yegiya toil uv'yashrus ha'seichel I ha'rechavah, the hahavanah amukah, two things, right? Broad knowledge and deep understanding yotzei roshei s'dei tamid chacham. They form the tamid chacham. Be patient. Apply yourself to learning. Demand clarity. Even if it takes a while. And try to focus on two priorities. Number one, unrelenting clarity. Again and again and again until it's completely clear. Reb Chaim Shmulevitz, zecher tzaddik livracha, was a young boy and he became a yasom. He used to learn Torah. I think he worked during the day before he went to yeshiva. He used to learn Torah in a shul when he was young. And when he walked home at the end after he was all exhausted and it was time to go to sleep, he would walk home and every time he passed another landmark, he would say, "Oh, a li- a lamp post. What a good place to chazer the sugiyah." And he would go over again what the seder Abaye, Rava, Rav Shmuel, Rash, Ran. Again, just again and again and again. No magic. No magic. Just going through it again. Getting it clear. Building the clarity, the p'shat. Then he would get to a fence and he would like, "Oh, a fence. What an appropriate place to chazer the sugiyah." And he would chazer it again. I think it was with a chaverusa that part. They would like walk together and they would chazer. When he got back to wherever he stayed, wherever his house was, he would get into bed, he would put his face into the pillow, and he would scream the sugiyah the pillow until he fell asleep. And you are shocked that he became a kind of small rabbit. Of course, someone who does that becomes a kind of small rabbit. Because he was unrelenting in his pursuit of Yediah's and shots. And that's this these words. I Yediah broad knowledge and deep understanding Yoid is a Talmud they form the Talmud of God. And just like the Talmud of God. He's a virus Sugya he's accustomed to clarifying Sugyas of shots. By searching for truth and the truth of Torah. Again, unrelenting clarity. Do we do that? Unrelenting. You know, we don't take we don't take a we don't You know what happens in Yeshiva? It happens to you. Everyone's nodding and they understand it. So you're like I guess I like I guess I understand it, too. Don't do that. Have confidence. Call it out. The emperor has no clothes the emperor has no clothes. Call it out. This doesn't make sense. I don't understand what A has to do with B. I don't understand how the small attracts. I don't understand how it makes sense. Maybe it's your mistake or maybe it's kosher. It doesn't really matter. Either way it needs to be clarified. And you go through it again. Just like the Talmud is accustomed to clarifying the Sugyas of shots in search of the truth by me to show Torah Kahuna game came Sugyas the Torah this is one of the very big fundamental you say this. Of the of the of the of the world. That just like a town with Gotham. Clarifies the Torah with his life. He clarifies his life with the Torah. And through learning his own life starts to become clear. And he understands himself better. And he connects himself to the clear world of the of the Torah. Rabbi Ben Levi Ben Levi got sick and he died. He died. Rabbi um um Rabbi Ben Levi got sick and he died. He had a when he returned. So nice I was like, yeah, well obviously it is amazing. When he returned. Um. His father said to him. My this is the in the first paragraph of Baba Basra as well. My what did you see there in Shamayim? He answered his father. I love how I see. I saw an upside down world. When I came to Shamayim I saw an upside down world. The only I love her. Those who in this world are considered prestigious and famous and respectable. In Shamayim they're nobodies. The only I love her. And those that in this world are despised and pushed to the side and unnoticed. In Shamayim they hold them in very high esteem. His father said to him, my son you didn't see an upside down world. I love how I see. You saw a clear world. You saw you just saw this world is a very fake world. You saw with clarity. What about us Israel? How did we look up here? And we have are we there? Just like we are down here, that's what we are up here. Nothing changed. In other words, we live a life of such MS that the MS is MS in this world and the next world. And I heard that they were saying as me shall follow God. Fortunately someone who comes here the Talmud be added and his learning is in his hand. Meaning his learning is in his hand. Meaning that that is how he became the the um We we we are people that are consistent in where where we are and who we are and how we understand our place in the world because we learn tire of it all would I be added because of our our our the serious to tire. Can get a little closer over here has all revealed Tell me the common live in this world. I would say this is a very very very special Madrega and anyone is invited to be on this Madrega. We just have to apply ourselves to our learning. Tell me the common live in this world but I will borrow in a clarity with a in a clear world I shall share all the magic in the world and most people reach in the world and I want to give you a martial. I was reading a book last night about fascinating inspiring book. You should all read it. The recent article book about Elia Elia Mayor Aratskin in the Shiva of Springfield who was nifter a few years ago. And I I I think I knew him when his Shiva started it started in the area of Toronto and Black Bush by the Swart and I used to hang out there a little bit. So I the time when I was younger, I was vaguely aware that there was a Yeshiva starting Yeshiva is a place, whatever. I didn't know that much about it. I was reading the book. It was a lot of very very very very inspiring things there. It's not the type of book that I'm usually interested in but I can't put it down. Anyway, but okay, I'll talk about the stories about him another time. But what I want to say is that just a silly story so silly a small story but it brings out a point of of island butter. What was it means so much more than what I'm saying now but just to get some sense what I mean by clarity. Just to understand what I mean. Just that we should go to the Lag B'Omer with the with a brand, you know. Can't be in front of a fire without a brand. You know what brand means? Yeah, but it means brand is a lot of burning. Like like a flame. A brand means burned up. Um so so they call it the farbrangen chosid. Like a consumed chosid. Anyway, um so it says there that when his when his son got married the kallah was the from a from the mishpacha of the Rosh Yeshiva in Telz, Chicago. So the chosid was in Chicago. And usually the chosid's family will show up the night before and stay in a hotel and go do makeup and gowns and the the the well, you may have to say sheur that morning of the chosina. It's a Thursday morning. Insisted it has to be before an off Shabbos. The Thursday morning has to say sheur. So um he said he's going to come after sheur. Like what if the plane is delayed? Like I don't know what to tell you. I have to come after sheur. He showed up in the Chicago the day of his son's It says in the book the day of his son's chosina at 4:45 p.m. You know what that means? I made some chosids, okay? My heart started racing. Okay? The chosid's father showed up at 4:45 p.m. to the airport. Crazy story, right? Wow, he was really extreme. This is the point I want to bring out. Is it really a crazy story? Is there really in the world something more important than teaching Tyra to tell me that and giving them a grasp of the eight Tyra of their entire future? Is there really anything more important? Tell me really. There's nothing more important. But it's your son's wedding. Okay, very nice. So it'll be delayed, but I have them If the president's son is getting married and war breaks out, you think he'll be like, "I'm sorry, but I'm at my son's wedding." No, he'll say the wedding will happen later. I got to deal with the war, right? Cuz that's the most important thing in the world. What's the truth? The real truth, not the come on be normal. I know come on I tried that I do that. Come on be normal. But let's put aside come on be normal for a minute and let's think about what is the real real real MS. When we go up to Shamayim, what's going to be the most important thing? The sheer, no? So he just lived in this world with the pastus of what's going to be obvious in the next world. Is that a life? Amazing. Couple of months ago, I was here in Yeshiva very very very late at night taking care of doing something. So I decided I was going back to Waterbury very very late at night. I didn't say sheer the next day. The Yeshiva called me over. He said, "You didn't say sheer." I said it was impossible. I was up very very late then I traveled 2 hours back to Waterbury and it was Motzei Shabbos. I had been here since Thursday. I guess I was here Thursday, Friday, Shabbos. I hadn't been home. I got home like 1:00 in the morning Motzei Shabbos. I didn't say sheer on Sunday. So he said, "I understand." He said, "You don't mind if I give you mussar, right?" Yeshiva, I love it. How many 50-year-olds get a chance to have someone be their rebbe? He said, "In this Yeshiva, sheer is sacrosanct." Which is an English word that you should look up. Okay? But it means there's nothing more important. We give shiur. He said, "You you you need your sleep, and you have to have kayach. He knows that I'm not him." So, he said you shouldn't have stayed up much of Shabbos. I wish you even needed you. We don't need anything more important than that you should should say shiur. I haven't missed a shiur since, okay? Because my voice told me that this was the most important thing, and I feel good about it. Like I made I have 25 guys for Shabbos. What I do on Sunday? I came here and I gave shiur. I would have never done that. I have 25 guys for Shabbos. I think I deserve a little break. I was basically giving shiur the whole Shabbos. But the Yeshiva taught me nothing more important than shiur. You know why? Because that's truth. That's emes. I'm fortunate to get mussar. I have no resentment. I would not be saying it and letting it be recorded if I had a resentment about it. Because it's truth. Olam Baruch is the clarity of the real value system that's real, the emes value system guiding me in this world, and then showing up in the next world and like, "Well, hello. Yeah, well, obviously, that was the real value system." So, it's the real value system in either. But we fall prey to a childish value system, and that ends up affecting us. We get up there, we're like suddenly shocked. What's going on here? Because the values changed. That's Olam Baruch. Good mussar, right?