One Day, It All Adds Up

I just asked my father. I said, "Are you masculine to me the reason why you perhaps sent me to all these different you know I went to Dora which is regular literary school. Then all of a sudden I went to to Minkach and Klin and then I go to Panovich and all these different places. Then I lived in uh Lincolnwood. Most of my neighbors were modern orthodox for many years. And then all these things I said, are you asking to me that this all happened because I was going to be in Mach and I needed to speak Yiddish and and and get along with all the modern Orthodox and get along with understand not get along understand them. And so he said he said 100%. He said I didn't send you to these schools send you these places. I'm asking him 100%. I have zero tightness on him and I have I don't think I have any trouble for him. Maybe I do deep down. Who knows? Aapon. No, no, it's not this matarif. This thing that maybe it took me I'm not I'm not exaggerating. It took me 45 years to understand this thing. One day, one day it's mutarif. All these things why you went through this trauma and why you lived in over here and why it happened over there and why you married this person. I call everything to starve for