Maamar B'chal Dor 5734 #3: How to Be Fully Present in the Moment

[Music] oh yeah that [Music] know I did I think I did [Music] okay huh we're good okay okay good morning everybody sorry for my delay welcome if you didn't get a copy there's more copies here thank you for the copies as always [Music] okay so we'll continue the today from we're up to page the second paragraph right before chapter five right before hea the second paragraph everybody remembers last class huh you remember [Laughter] [Music] gam that's is good okay I hope we'll be able to finish the MIM today B tomorrow we have a class for women 9:30 Thursday I'm away have a a lecture in California shabas those who are here we have this regular shabas sh and also the shabas a Dasha according to six and 10 giml everybody is invited men and women and children B on shabas today's class is dedicated by Reb Ezra D Phillip blessings for all of Israel and for all of the Jewish people may we celebrate PES this year in as is very happy and thanking hasem for celebrating his first PES as a Jew ma really have I met somebody else a few days ago you know niss and black niss and black so he told me that when he was before his conversion so uh on shab you know a non is not supposed to keep shabas what was he supposed to do chabas still shabas but he's not let to keep it so he said he would listen to my classes he would learn on chabas and listen and watch huh that's how he kept CHS so it's kill it's called killing two birds with one stone speak M chabas and he's learning chabas chabas but does he have a better time okay so what was the main the main when it says in every generation a person ought to see themselves as though they themselves left and as the adds the not just every day and that's why we mention every single day by day and by night so it really represents not just a memory from the past but work in the present and for that a person has to be able to identify two things first of all what what is my and what does it mean for me if I'm missing one of those two levels of awareness I can't go out to of MIT if a person can't acknowledge what their MIT is and as we explained MIT comes in the word which means those forces or those thoughts or those instincts or those paradigms or those patterns that keep a person stuck in a particular way of operating and thinking and functioning which is very restrictive it confines you it limits you it it suppresses you it represses you it turns me into a slave to forces maybe inside of me not outside of me but there it's it's slavery because it completely takes you away or at least partially takes you away from who you really are and in a way that's a worse slavery than any other slavery cuz slavery is identifiable slavery you know I'm a slave to somebody I'm working for somebody and it's horrible whatever it may be whatever it may look like but when I'm a slave to myself I could Define that as Gul there's nobody in control but really you know the the the the lowest Parts the the the most external the most uh wounded parts of me are controlling me so sometimes it's the worst form of slavy because it's like it's it's it seems like uh it's voluntary it's really not a person is a Slave so every person every day I need to identify you know what are my coping mechanisms that have been triggered today you know what am I doing because this is just how I cope and it's what I'm used to it's it's maybe a comfort zone but it's a gus it's a and how do we know that it's how do a person knows AOS they see the impact they see how it takes them away from their true self takes them away from their happiness from their Serenity from their living life fully from having an open heart from having an open mind from be able to live with with love and with truth with authenticity and with joy and with vulnerability person is lacked so I'm coping I'm surviving but I'm surviving in Exile and sometimes it's hard to identify what are those coping mechanisms because remember real MIT means it doesn't call itself MIT it calls itself G right P says this is your place you don't have another place and even the Jews themselves whenever there's a crisis in the desert what do they say let's go back toim was a sick place they were killing you and your kids but somehow there's a familiar evil that's better than an unfamiliar evil it's like at least I know what to expect you know it's like uh women who go back to It's called The stuck syndrome you know a battered woman syndrome it's like it's familiar you you know at least it's a place to call mine it's a very big challenge in life because par says this is your place where where you where you going there's no me hasem he tells M whoever heard of God who said he should go himself there's no such a thing it's all your imagination M this is the place and that's the most powerful thing about MIT that its appeal is this is reality this is reality so there's an inner voice ofu inside that says it's not reality it's called stuckness it's called illness it's called it's called wounds it's called coping it's called surviving it's not thriving it's it's Darkness it's not light it's misery it's not happiness but as a t says in when you have short breath rash says person works hard you could barely breathe somebody's choking I can barely breathe I can't even I can't hear mha not mha outside of me and not mha inside of me it's like it says in t every Jew has a little a little mha inside of him mha is not just outside mha is inside there's the voice of there's the voice of the Redeemer inside of you like it says thees in that the said that every Jew has a n of masiah and when every person actualizes their spark of Messiah together it creates the flame of mhia the collective redemption in the world so the person's inner AA sometimes people ask you know there's so much going on in the world it's a crazy world and between Iran and Hamas and Syria and has Balan and Biden and everything else in the world uh I hope I didn't lose any listeners just now okay they're not up yet huh so a person says what what I'm supposed to now focus on my own you know how many things are going on right the 1960s on the said a Jew says what you know how many things are going on in Vietnam who's going to advise President Johnson what he has to do in Vietnam if not me you want me to say a cap you want me to D you want me to learn somebody has to advise President Johnson what to do in Vietnam then everything was Vietnam Vietnam Vietnam so the truth is it's usually an excuse right near P I don't want to do what I have to do so I said there's a whole world going crazy what what what I'm going to do small things but the truth is it's usually it's a very good technique from theara for Jews who are busy with the whole world you know I'm I'm I'm a global person you want me to be a local person but the truth is it's much deeper than that and that is everything is connected and everybody is connected and everything is one when a person goes out of MIT inside their own heart it has a ripple effect on many many levels what we know and much more what we don't know that's what he said earlier in the the heart the world is in the heart of a person you know there's like a little globe in the heart of a person and when I shift things that's what the says when you reveal the N of G inside your little Globe it has a ripple effect it's not Stam you're dis you're disconnected you're not worried on the contrary it means that I am contributing my part the way I could the tools that Hashem gave me to show up in a situation of MIT of creating my Min and it's not so many it's pretty big the micro and the macro are very much connected so first I have to be able to identify what that is what are my coping mechanisms today and as I said M doesn't like the word coping likes the word this is it this is not everything else is coping this is reality but it's not and the second thing is and and therefore if it's if I'm short of breath I can't even begin and that's the best thing par understands what's the best thing to keep people under tyranny when mosa comes and asks him to liberate the Jewish people what does he say you're not working hard enough if they would be working a little harder they would stop having stupid dreams so he imposes a new quota that now they have to collect bricks so they could work even harder so now they don't have any time to breathe because when you don't have time to breathe you don't have time to think when you don't have time to think you don't have time to feel when you don't have time to feel you just function like a survival in a survival mode as a robot just get through another hour another day and it's true even emotionally not only it's true emotionally everybody knows right that sometimes being busy looks like a good thing and it is a good thing it's a good thing to be busy it's a good thing to but very often especially in today's generation busyness is used as a way of avoiding any awareness of life wait wait wait somebody got to pay the bills and it's true somebody has to pay the bills and somebody has to work but very often there's so much pressure to do that without the pause I can't even begin to hear what has to say the inside of me because there's always another thing and another thing and another thing right the pause is critical that's the whole idea of shabas of yam pause why do you have to pause because without pausing without pausing it's just it's everything is a wrote they say there was a very famous pianist he did it was world renowned so his friend who studied with him asked him I also play piano just like you I also know how to read notes eloquently well how did you reach such success such faith we both I play the notes and you play the notes he said it's the pauses that make the difference it's the pauses it's the silence between the notes he said that's what I mastered you didn't Master it's a very deep answer in life we're all playing notes everybody M Knack and knack it's the pause it's the silence it's h the word is so it's the pause that they could pause and suddenly things start coming up and like wow and it's the Curiosity that one must have to what's happening inside just to be curious cuz when I'm curious I could start asking uncomfortable questions when I start asking uncomfortable questions it's saying oh wow there's a PO here there's an Egypt there's a here there's a from the says it says tells there the four languages of we drink the four cups says in be parallel to those four languages the first one is I will take you out so the expression is I will take you out from the C of so literally it's translated Cil as seil is the suffering the lien the burden the burden of M civil I think actually says the burden the heaviness of the crushing the crushing pressure of but the says that the word Civ actually in itology comes from the word like we say today in Hebrew saut what does saut mean yeah if you're online in Israel yeah they say saut yeah and if you don't have sa they'll smack you in the face patience patience patience the word saut comes from which means to tolerate tolerate tolerance right tolerate don't react so says I'm going to liberate you from your tolerance of from your you hear how long are you g to have for such dysfunction for such evil for such abuse right it's what the Israeli leaders need to get liberated from saut saut the whole world saut saut that's the Jewish motto today you know what La Means La Means in the face of evil you're quiet so you don't make waves in the name of that saut is a beautiful quality to have patience to be calm to control your temper but sometimes like every good mid is an evil mid it's a horrible horrible mid right saw an Egyptian beating a Jew he didn't have they could have also told him we'll think about it how to respond when to respond I'll make an alliance with with with my mother baa we'll do a lot of interesting things by that time the Jew would be dead so M what he did was this is this is how M thinks because m is G and when a person is in G they think a certain way it's how G thinks and how gas thinks but if there's no pause I'm so stuck in it and then becomes part of it I have to become sick and tired of being sick and tired when you become sick and tired of being sick and tired you don't have to be sick and tired that was very profound no Med the second thing I have to understand is what G looks like it's very nice to say this is MIT and where you're heading were you going to a desert where you what's your substitute for MIT another MIT another part if I go out of MIT to go into another MIT I leave one party to go to another par stay ready by the first party at least you don't have to go through through this whole Ruckus and that's the second challenge I have to know what Gus is and I have to know what G looks like if I have one without the other it's very hard to go through this transformation so this is the to be able to identify today what is what does stuckness look like today in my own personal that I need to leave and to what am I leaving and one of the main points that the brought out that this is expressed in the says what is it right I'm sorry you remember after saying can exist on so many different levels and sometimes it doesn't call itself M it can even call itself G sometimes could call Itself by the name of G but relative to the EMS the ultimate truth and the Ultimate Reality and the Ultimate Reality of your own soul and what your soul really is and really craves and really yearns it's a it's a jail it's maybe a beautiful jail it's a sophisticated jail maybe even a holy jail maybe but it's still a jail and that's what he brought says that during his would often say as see I don't want anything I don't want this world I don't want the next World I don't want the lower Paradise the lower level of paradise I don't want the higher level of paradise and the way he said it in was I don't want your G I don't want your I don't want your lower level of paradise your higher Lev what do I want so what do I want it's not that I don't want nothing I'm not numb I want I want a lot but I want you and as he said he didn't only say I want you he say I want you alone the way you are in your essence which is alone how can I want you alone so there's no I and the answer is cuz that's the real eye the real eye is that it's part and one of M what's not just you alone nothing else he said I want you it's you it's not somebody else I want you the way you're Al Alain and Alain is that deepest core of reality of where everything is part of you in the true meaning of that everything is a derivative of of the undefined unity and in a person's life what does that mean on one hand it looks like it's such a lofty and Sublime level that's like Beyond everything even ganaden is not tempting it's hard enough to deal with Temptations and now you telling ganaden is a good thing people work their whole life to get to get and to be dismiss this what everybody's working for a lot of say the of everything is to get and here he says yeah it takes a lot of Courage takes a lot of courage question is huh yeah yeah yeah so that's what he says right's not alone anymore if I'm there so he's not alone right so I say I want to be with you in the room when you're there alone so then I can't be there and here it's not just a technical issue like if you're alone alone means that there's no other reality so that means that that's really what the Nish is looking for the Nish is looking for not to be but to be not to cease to be in other words the deepest desire of the Nish is complete complete vacus complete Oneness where there's absolutely no differentiation so the deepest eye is that the eye is [Music] completely and it's not somebody who says oh you want me to be AATA you want me to be a doormat no a doormat is in the room it's not if you're a doormat if you think you're that's not means you are if I'm it's not there's you and there's a it's called me the deepest B the deepest B is the most infinite form of empowerment and it and it's complete B because there's no differentiation between the person and and and and Hashem and that's like in is like the person who sent Himel has a he says in there three levels of one is that what I do counts like the one who sent me did it counts for him doing it other words I dispense it I do it for you the second level of is like an extended arm so it's like I'm an extension it's his action through me and the third level is that the is the that when it comes to the you are the you your your identity is a manifestation it's a personification it's an embodiment of the one who sent has an expression M so that's a similar concept or the servant of the m is the Mel in in its ultimate sense there's no differentiation why is it so hard to be that the truth is it's the easiest thing to be that but it's also the hardest thing to be it it's the easiest thing to be it because it's the most natural state of reality but it's the hardest to be it because par inside keeps on screaming you're you're crazy and you're sick and you have a big ego it's the thoughts that I'm separated from that that keep me away from that and that's why it's really the easiest thing but it's also the hardest thing it's really about letting go of everything else was saying I want to let go of every definition outside of the truth I don't want any def I don't need any definitions essentially it's it's it's the most liberating experience in life because it's the only real need of the Soul it's hard because the world comes from the word the world comes from the word hel and the concealments and the blockages always have a different message no you need this you need this you need this you need this you need this at least you need Gaden at least you need a spiritual fulfillment of Gan what's ganen G Is Not a Bad Thing G is a beautiful thing and especially as he says here d g you're G but as the B says I go to the palace and there's amazing amazing rooms and even if I know it's from the king I can get stuck there and I never meet the king what's the that I shouldn't get stuck in anything it possible that he means that even though I have to be involved with all these you know they got God a and everything he wants excellent how do I not get addicted yeah that's what said it's not it's not about being somewhere not somewhere else it's wherever I am I'm fully present there it's full presence wherever I am now this itself if it's not understood could become another Obsession you know what I mean I don't have like in other words it's painful to say this but OCD can use these types of stuff in the worst way it's like now I'm going to reach Theus of the Al and you become cucko you're like not a normal like you become detached from normaly from emotions from humans like I don't have needs I don't know anybody I don't know myself everything you have to understand even the holiest things when they're not integrated they can be misconstrued and become sources of terrible dysfunction when a person is not ready to face their whenever these don't create a deeper and more presence of mind and heart you know that there's something off it's just another Obsession I'm holding on to it's another crankshaft you understand what I'm saying or not huh yeah no it's just another I I have to deal with stuff and I'm not ready to deal with it so I I latch on to things to madas I'm looking for madas and [Music] levels it's we're talking about an organic experience that a person is connected to and they can always make parts make space for all the other parts of themselves cuz if not you you can't go out of MIT if you don't identify MIT so there's always an acknowledgement of what MIT looks like so there's it's not like if if you decide that you're in a different space you know I could become like a computer like we speak about you know artificial intelligence I'm artificial when you're artificial you could have all the madas it's not there's no person huh huh right integration integration you want to know how that fits in with this okay but you don't have to be Mah more I don't mean you count it's one of 64 the mar says it's one of 64 because if it's less it's already giml which is gas the mar says if it's if it's less than one of 64 63 is is gas arrogance GS okay see have it also in a person's life and some in a very practical way [Music] in a practical way it's a very powerful liberating experience from different pressures that we have person sometimes has so much pressure so much pressure so much overwhelming pressure and the reason is cuz my mind is telling me I need this and I need this and I need this a few days ago I was after the she I don't was a few days ago we would learn Thursday I know that day the next day whatever it was a few days ago not after the after last CL so I don't know suddenly middle of the day I had like like 50 responsibilities and they were all good things and important things and vital things and a lot of people depended on some things and I was just feeling overwhelming you know when you don't know what to do first like and everything so like you do nothing and everything comes crashing that go what are you going to do first it's one of those moments and you know objective reasoning and Analysis doesn't work cu the pressure was so intense and then I I I I said you know what let's let me start from the beginning what do I really need what do I need here what is Al say Al says I don't need it what do I need I don't need to impress this person I don't need to impress that person I don't need to impress me what what do I need yeah but this he's waiting for this she's waiting for this they're waiting for this this something in Israel whatever like all these bunch of deadlines of 50 deadlines that came together and you know in a half an hour and everybody's with their pressures and this and then I said I can't do what do I need here well this one will dis I don't need I don't need what does what do I need and then I feel with what what's the only thing I really need then I said you know what I have have I forgot I had to also DAV still had to DAV was in the morning I didn't DAV yet so I said the only thing I need only thing the in its core and in its core really needs is only one thing everything else is a distraction even if it doesn't seem that way so then I said to myself you know what I'm going to ask myself one question what does Hashem want for me right now what does aab want yeah but but I hear I I know all the butts I know the billion expectations and being pulled here and this one but what does Hashem want that's that's only one need then I said he probably wants aav now but I'm talking now an internal experience not in words this we carry so much on our shoulders right Jewish fathers and Jewish Mothers another you know add that another billion times we carry so much on our shoulders and it gets overwhelming this doesn't mean a person is not responsible it means they're much more responsible but the responsibility is not of being scattered in the whole world until you're thin and there's nothing left it's the responsibility is from showing up to the truest truest meaning of this moment right here right now and the real question is what does Hashem want for me what what's my need I don't know let me ask what's your need that's my mits we we make believe we have another msus you don't you don't need another msus every other MIT is that we to make ourselves in just creates unnecessary ego and pressure I know there's parts of me that don't agree with this I get it that's true that's part of that's why you have to but in the most Lucid space in the most open space what was describing wasn't a m for certain you know for one sadic in in in centuries he's describing the true design of what aama looks like in other words in your deepest space this is this is what you're looking for what's wrong with G nothing is wrong with G but G still my need it's my need for Spiritual fulfillment spiritual experience that's not needs even that is already a distraction from the truth it's hard for some people to hear what do you mean that's everything no it's not everything it's yeses it's spiritual yeses and the reason was revealed in Our Generations is because today this is oxygen today this is not luxury this is oxy as I told you last time sometimes people are dealing with different struggles especially when their marriage or their children or themselves mental or emotional or spiritual or physical or financial right there's a lot a lot of struggle a lot of pain a lot of anxiety the ultimate deepest remedy for anxiety is this but this can also be a source of anxiety oh I'm not feeling it so now let me be more anxious and here again we become obsessive I mentioned last time about when I was in T I was there with Rabbi vosner in the panel out of shabas that a a fellow told me you know that he has he's very close to his daughter I mean he asked a question in public shabas and he's not seeing the Tas there's no G in his house there's only gam in his house so to speak right he didn't use those words but his point was he's love love and love and love and his daughter is not responding he's not getting the nas he wants so we're not talking about a narcissistic father or mother who couldn't care less about their kids they just want to look good for the pictures we're not talking about that so that's you need help your neighbors don't come before your kids your relatives don't come before your kids your community doesn't come before your kids that's P but I'm talking about an a good person what he's really I told him what you're really asking for is he ask if for in other words when you're asking for you don't even know who you are you're not asking for Gade what you really want is and this daughter is giving you an opportunity for that this daughter is giving you an opportunity and this comes with pain because to let go of ganen is painful but it's very liberating so you shed a few tears or maybe more than a few tears and you let go and then you say and in this moment the deepest pain reaches the deepest joy and the deepest Bliss it's a moment it's a it's an internal core it's this is and in that moment there's a even if in a half an hour I'm going to have to go out of B him again that's fine it's fine he has to accept also yeah he to goem is in every moment what does hem need for me right now what does hem want for me right now and that's the only thing that is this moment right here right now and then I could let go of everything else what's my S supposed to look like I don't know ask God it's embracing reality with your full presence of mind and every moment is a moment of redemption even if for somebody else it's like Darkness Darkness is a relative term who decides what's darkness how do you know what's darkness I told you last time sometimes one person's darkness is a lot more bright than another person's light they say that had a son his youngest son was the fourth and he lived with with that was his so he once built himself a house in the city of laich it's a little derful but relatively it had big Windows it had big windows so his father theed came to take a look at the new house and he sees big Windows it was like a little you know I don't know modern it was like a little Progressive so he says what do you need these he I he tells his father I want brightness I want light in my house tells him by the grandfather no such large windows so says he didn't have big Windows it was probably dark in the room so said I looked at him and said is but was bright and more bright and more bright wasn't dark in the room they say that there was a the Magid had a student they called him the vulpa you ever heard of the vulpa it's a complicated story he was one of the of the the everyone went into ecstasy would faint this one would jump would start jumping on the table the two people that maintained balance was the Al and the and then unfortunately he became an alcoholic he became a sh and he became a beggar it's a tragic story he's known as the so they say that he once came into a he he was a beggar and he once came tole and he uh and there was of shabas and the r of the SCH over there was lighting candles before shabas and he lit 702 candles so the vula said what's this he says he has a minic to light candles communion shabas shabas Shin B is 702 candles so he says what do you need it so he says it should be so the Tells I'm say my point is you could some people could light 702 candles right another person could light two candles right they can have a big window and a small window sometimes what one person calls one person's darkness is a lot more light than another person's light why because cuz you're [Music] there yeah yeah yeah yeah the word is means one no it was very helpful when when I thought about this it wasn't thinking cuz cu the nervous system is going crazy so it's not thinking it's not a philosophy I'm talking about I had to meditate on it right but like says we have to do this every day it's not like I did it once in the next 10 years because comes right back in there's always part says come back come back to here I have control of the situation somebody got to make a living here somebody got to be responsible what's your there's always the voice of come back come back that's why every day after go out of M again so it's not a one-time experience and then boom I'm a free man freedom is something we is freedom is a muscle you use it or you lose it and like all muscles you need to exercise it freedom is something you have to exercise with exercise you don't say I exercised a year ago no the body needs to constantly function be activated if not things get they get congealed they get dried out but at that moment when I was meditating on it it was really Letting Go letting go this one has an expectation this one has an expectation and it's not really their expectation it's the way I'm perceiving their expectation right I'm going to let down this one and then this one and then there's a deadline and it's just late and late and Al I couldn't do it all right so either I could just get into into a bad mood you know and just start eating that's what we usually some of us do other people do other stuff whatever they do delay everybody according to them it's or it was really really you know letting go of everything and asking one question and the one question is what does Hashem want from me right here right now at this moment can we always find the right answer can we always find the right answer that's a good question we just Lear that how did I know that hasem wants me to go DAV first excellent question right because if I was in there was call and I would say no hasm wants me to go DAV that's that's called right like it says in if somebody says it's shabas and I can't be I ra right it says somebody starts asking sh I'll tell you how I know let me just answer this question okay all your best the best what you can do that's that's that's what it is and what's the best you can do it's not the best that you can do it's going out of you is not the best you can do means going out of the ego that's but it's going to be the best once you go out you know it's like when you go out of gravity you know when the there's the rocket space how long does it take you ask if it's easy or hard it's much like the rocket ship I just realized how long does it take for the rocket ship to go out of the space with his gravity you know how long huh M yeah a minute two minutes those two minutes obviously are critical cuz it's launch but once it's there there's no gravity anymore nothing SS you what does that mean I we live in in in in in in a pressure cooker of gravity right you're slepping you're everybody's being slep slep slep and the heavier you are right the heavier you are and the more gravity there is gravitas the the more intense the power and the schlep and whatever that means in a person's life what creates in some people you know more gravity so that's the challenge the challenge is you know liberating myself from that grip that grip of the ego that grip of of of insecurity that grip of Fear in the heart once a person is not is not in grip of that there's a freedom because basically I don't need anything over there the the the need the the the obsession of need I don't need you know the liberation of not having needs so you say oh so so let the bank take away your house fine let your kid starve brilliant that's that that's what that's P love saying that oh I know other people who who sit and learn all day and and nobody has what to eat fine brilliant cuz they don't have needs at the expense of their wife they have no needs there's nothing to eat for there's not a need for p nobody can get a new suit cuz I don't have needs this is not on other people's this not the for that's why I'm saying everything could be misconstrued you understand if it's not um if it's not Al not having these types of needs makes you a much more responsible person at the end not a less responsible person you don't also have the need to be a heong you don't have the need to be a you don't have the need to Fon on everybody you don't have the need yeah to be separate from your spouse you don't have the need to be detached you don't have the need to be emotionally disassociated don't forget that you don't have the need for gash you don't have the need to be dysfunctional you don't have the need to be afraid you don't have the need to be in trauma you don't have the need to get upset you don't that that those are the needs you don't have you don't have the needs to get compliments and inv validation and if your kid is not complimenting you the way they you will need them to be you blow up because I need my kid to tell me what an acceptional father I am that a hero like me never existed since ad marish and if not I have a disappointment because my whole family disrespects me you can actually be normal you could be normal and as you know it's not so easy to be normal says a says I'm to be simple is not so simple said his problem is the opposite his kids T think that he's the biggest hero since all the what should he do with that should he daa Let it Go's exception then good keep it dream on baby and your wife also thinks so okay listen you're an exception there's always a sadar who uh gets it right what do you need from me right now and that's what I need I don't have another need I don't have another msus it's not like we call it surrender it's not surrender it's called reality it's there's no other means it's not I'm surrendering to some big guy cuz I don't have control no this is this is called having control this is the best control it's being a channel for truth I just want to be a channel for truth and when the soul can let go of everything else actually experiences the deepest Bliss and the deepest Bliss it says in is not the tin of the N it's the tining of the it's the Bliss of the Creator himself but the only way I can do this is if I know my MIT which means practically if you don't know the other parts in you it's not going to be real you understand it's going to be an escape it's going to be another mishas and then you get disappointed with yourself then I become even more muga like oh why don't why why why am I not like this why do I and then you become then I like we have this now we start these expectations the whole expectations why do I have this why do I have that that's not that's also part of a that's where gim starts competing with G it's not g and it's not Gade now I'm competing I'm yesterday I was in Gade huh that's where I was so gu person can can listen to himself and himself okay I'm going Tois he goes into laziness right yeah I could start unless unless he knows his coping mechanism he's real yeah you have to be very aware of all the jails and all the traps all the mams I can't leave MIT if I don't know what it looks like CU I don't I don't know what I'm what I'm leaving and if the worst happen the worst thing happens I start defining MIT as Redemption and that becomes the worst MIT cuz this I'll never leave cuz it's Redemption this is who I am you know people say this is who I am like it or leave it it's not who you are you're wounded it's not who you are yeah yes very Wells there and he realizes where he has to go what he has to do but it's that yes yes yes very well I want to answer that by Margaret and Shila because it was a good question all the questions are good but I want to answer I think it'll be helpful he asked me how did I know that was the right thing that's what maybe want something else the answer is because all the other responsibilities were all responsibilities that required my mental uh creativity they were not responsibilities of uh you know driving somebody somewhere for an urgent situation which is sometimes exactly what Hashem wants from you right to drive somebody to whatever they need to do maybe I have to drive my daughter to this and this place and that's exactly what I need to do that's and that's right it's important to to to say that you know the story of the AL the story of the AL with kidre you know the story he was in the middle of kidre and he took off his talent and he took off his K and he went to the house of a woman who was giving who just gave birth and the whole and the whole family left cuz everybody wanted to go to kidre everybody wants to be in schul Kipper and the poor woman was uh the poor woman the poor baby was crying and she had no milk cuz she hasn't eaten SOA went and you know and he chopped up wood on Y kipet and he made a fire and he ignited the flame and he cooked soup and he fed her so she could nurse her baby so theb told over the story he heard it from his father-in and he said what's the of the story it's you don't send a child for because then people could think that it's only for children the greatest person is supposed to do it because it's saving a life is what's the question member knows it you get into that especially if the rabbi's in the middle of a sermon at night so it's even better you know and uh and uh and and you go off to the hospital wher you have to go so theb said it's the in middle of there was no WhatsApp message in leahna there were no whatsapps I don't know why they didn't have whatsapps in Lea but they didn't there were no whatsapps and there were no even walkie-talkies and whether they have beepers or beepers they didn't have beepers he felt it in middle ofid which is the ultimate and as he said even in a regular day this was this wasn't on so you can [Music] imagine I still remember he gave us fil felt and he's with atalis and he said it says in zo thatal is the talus is that the king envelops you so he's completely enveloped by right and it's not he's enveloped with AAL physically his was especially that a regular Jew is in and especially in in where there was no P there was nothing else wasn't like there were another billion things to do you know there were no clips there were no nobody got the news there was nothing else to do so even a regular Jew was in a different mat today you know it's hard to be present for six minutes anywhere you're saying six seconds well you've been you've been there already an hour almost an hour give yourself credit give yourself credit fil he felt the Cry of this of this woman that's what looks like how do you know means I should now maybe the is to give soup and that was his he knew that's what God wants so back to your question the responsibilities that I had were all responsibilities that were not technical they were technical stuff but it was it required my soul my Consciousness my output my work my creativity the only way I would be able to tune into any of that is with a DAV the good davening so I realized that without that that it's all going to be just a pressure cooker of living up to other people's expectations it's not going to be authentic it's not going to be real and therefore the output will also be compromised but on the other hand to DAV with you need a pause you need to go away from everything but there's so much so that's why I had to ask do I really need anything and if this one will be disappointed okay so you'll be disappointed like I could only show up with the tools I have if you'll ask me to uh to be something I'm not I can't I'm sorry if you if you can't accept that okay it's fine it's also fine we get rid of all the strings and all the ropes that attach us to so many things and they take us away from Full presence but it's an Ava it's an AV because the spaceship getting it out of the place of getting it out of the the environment of gravity there's a lot of push push back right huh but then the spaceship comes back it lands that's how it is that's also part of the power of is it doesn't look any certain way ganen has an image a beautiful image what does it look like sometimes it looks very bright sometimes it doesn't so what I'm not trying to control the situation I'm not looking for any benefits I don't even need results there'll be results also don't worry about it there'll be results but it's not it's not the inan there'll be results because truth produces results that's how it is there'll be results but that's not the issue sometimes you don't have the answer you're right usually you don't usually you don't yeah right the pause allows us to internalize to to make space to uh not to be slept into spaces that's why a person needs to that's why daving and and and meditation his b his it's so important because you know we're running and running and running and running but who's running you some people are operating on 2% of their personality it's like if you tune in to to 20% of your personality in one hour you'll do more than you're doing in a month because I'm mon is with 2% of my personality because I'm completely scattered and overwhelmed tune into yourself and then one hour you'll accomplish more than you did in a whole month cuz be person men it it it's also a lot of it paradoxically requires a lot of self-respect think about the respect you have to have for a person who's capable of saying this how much I don't know maybe I I don't know why this popped into me I'm going to say maybe it's not the right way to express myself how much self-respect did Al have that he knew he could that this is how he felt about himself how much self resect does that give you that that he could he could know that I am a person I don't want Gade and I want you and that's the ultimate B this self-respect is the ultimate B it's not oh I'm a big guy it's exact opposite it's self-respect really forain if this is who you are and this is what you're capable of it's actually respect for God and that's what real self-respect means self resect mean is not myak ego oh you disrespecting me because you argue with me CU you looked at me the wrong way this this is real self-respect how much self-respect do you have to have for your time for your space for your energy because if you know you're showing up fully with your whole heart and your whole love you need to respect that and here again like everything it can be terribly misconstrued like you know self-respect becomes an oh you're not respecting me you're not respecting me you're not respecting me here it's the exact opposite of it's self-respect you're like it's like's a called it's one of the a to protect to guard the why because needs to be guarded and the ra says it's not because of Thieves that it's even if there's no thieves needs protection it's a form of Honor you're protecting a anything that's precious needs to be protected this right when a person is was one with you need you need protection good protection here the self and the selfless are one what are the symptoms of knowing that this is dysfunctional the moment I'm thinking about these things and I'm becoming anxious and angry and overwhelmed and disappointed with everybody including me it's not this I need some help with my anxiety which is fine it's it's another time it's another coping mechanism not the right yeah it's I'm in place in of EX which is fine I have a p i have and MIT is going crazy okay get it that's what all all anxiety is MIT and for some of us anxiety is very very deep and it's incessant and you have to honor you have to honor that Journey you can't just say I have no anxiety I have no anxiety and your wife says why are you so anxious I'm anxious you're anxious ious I'm not anxious we're going to have a beautiful s tonight A Beautiful s day stop it how beautiful you know it says in right when people words of the wise are said with pleasantness with when it's not you yell right when so there was somebody once giving a and he said since I'm so whenever theas is not withas you understand it's important to it's important to make a and it's not to guilt a person because guilt is also a guilt by the way is one of the worst things I don't mean to burn down every other DES in one day but you know guilt is one of the worst Ms in the world and you look right what happens after guilt you get closer to your kids after guilt you feel more enthusiastic about life there's more love in you h i d with more I learn with more I do a Mitzvah with more love and passion I have more usually it's not what happens after guilt so you right away know it's it's a gal coping mechanism to keep you underwater to keep you stifled to keep you crushed to keep you angry and anxious guilt doesn't mean chuva chva is not guilt chuva means I want to become better I I I can improve yeah I learn about my yesterday's M so today I could liberate myself that's not guilt that's be that's beautiful that's amazing it's incredible guilt is a voice that wants to make sure that you know how horrible you are and that's not going to help you ever you could say I did something that was a bad mistake and maybe I did not know who I was and I want to learn from it and learn primarily what was the voice inside of me that got me into this place that's very good that's beautiful that's called tra and here oh if I would have been after daving then I would have to I would have to Davin again there was no a for me only daving there was no a it was all mental stuff there's also you know we also have that little sense of humor gra you know somebody called me one day and he says he needs an I said what do you need an for he says I have nothing to do with my life I have nothing to do with my life I wake up in the morning and I don't know what to do the guy told me he watches television 6 hours every night he's not interested in learning so he goes comes home from work early 6 hours and this is an adult he's my he's my age I'm saying so you have to also have gra gratitude right another guy called me he doesn't know what not to do cuz he's overwhelmed I say be thankful that you know that you feel needed so we just have to have gratitude for that but generally if it's a mental issue uh if it's if it's a mental if it's a mental responsibility we have to go much deeper I'm telling you when you show up with with 2% of yourself you're doing everything and you're doing nothing it's like your wife asks you if you could spend some time with her so you say well we're going to Kasa anyway let's kill two birds with one stone we'll shop in Kasa and we'll spend time it's usually not an answer that works why not 7 hours is that enough the answer is you won't be in Casco you won't be better 10 minutes of a of a intimate conversation than seven hours of I'm on my phone it says says open up the door for me the window for me like a is the the point the eye the point of a needle open up in other words what's it's a tiny opening he said nor Hashem tells a Jew give me five minutes but these five minutes should be mine should belong only to me give me five minutes but those five minutes should be mine in other words should be you and me that's it nothing else I can give five hours but it's uh it's scattered and then there there and and because once you give those five minutes the rest of the day is already also going to be different you understand that once you have five minutes of so then 23 hours and 55 minutes will already also be different trust me you know when a husband and a wife have moments that it's it's complete Oneness even when everybody goes back to their own world it's already different CU you're in a relationship you have a real relationship once you touch a real relationship even when you're on your own you're in a relationship a relationship ship is constant there's no connection if I'm connect if I'm one with you I'm one with you even if I'm in Australia I'm still one with you right you're logged in so five minutes of that level of authenticity redefines the whole day it's whatever you wherever you are it's is to be really means to be fully present full presence full presence means the opposite of presence I can't be fully present and and we all know what's happening in our head how present do we know how to be I'm asking all of you I know with me how pre the head is so muga these days and then bar many of us have this so if the head is not muga for two minutes there's something else over there makes you [Music] muga and what I mean by muga is how can I be present to anything and then there's a part of you what a bin your well you have nothing to do but be present presence who has time to be present come P come on what presents P you're going to be present on PES p is supposed to be miserable presence present on [Music] P every one said that Al when he was in M Rich he lived in one bedroom he had a little tiny bedroom was very very poor he had one shirt and he would go shabas to the out of shabas to the river and bathe it wash it so he had a a clean shirt for shabas that was the level of poverty so when he was by the mag of M I mean after that was also very poor but over there he was exteme so he had one little bedroom so he said but took him a whole night and he said he didn't have a pantry with 20 bottles of maska and in the freezer pizza and in the freezer cheesecake and cush cake it was one little room so I don't know so somebody so some said it over so somebody asked him it's a little room so what are you going to be biting and what did he have already what did he store there and how long does it take to put up to put up so he said the night of right you have to check says what's start what's he says you have to take the and you have to check 14 the seven mid of the and the Seven mid of the and then the question is how do you do it in one night that's the question my point is even was pres could be a g and it could be a g and it could be and whatever it is it is and everybody has we're talking about the inner and what what what allows for real presence for full presence even ganaden could be a distraction that's the V right cuz I'm looking for results and I'm looking to control or at least I'm looking for the experience and if I'm looking for the experience there's also room for terrible disappointment and frustration because I don't have the experience means I'm fully present to whatever is in this moment because in this moment one thing you have maybe you don't have any experience but you have you have it's a very deep it's a very deep experience this it's not it's not words it's a deep experience I think our generation has a that a lot of the children are challenging their parents to touch this place because the only way you could be fully present for your children even when there's a lot of pain and disappointment is with this if you're stuck in ganaden it's it's going to gets very hard because I'm always I'm looking for the experience of yish I want the shabas table I want the Ambiance is Ultimate but it'ses with with pleasure it's not missus neish of I'm I'm I'm a I'm a I'm a martyr I'm a martyr I murder myself for my kids that's not the word the worst thing that kids want to hear is that their parents are Martyrs it's the worst thing cuz they blame themselves I killed my parents sometimes parents want their children to feel that they're Martyrs and the poor kids are now they're sensitive kids right you should know that a lot of kids who live testify one of the worst things that kills them deep down is they know that they destroyed their parents' life and that doesn't let them heal because they look at themselves as evil so the more the parents make them see how they destroyed their whole family the less they can heal because look how evil I am it's very deep but the father destroyed my life destroyed my life what's the answer to that the answer to that is only how do you know what's called a destroyed life how do you know what's a destroyed life what's a destroyed family why because the the Y across the street says that it's a destroyed family the yent defines reality I don't mean could be a male y whatever huh no it's very deep once the father gives a message the child how didn't destroy his still on the other hand the father what am I going to lie it has to be authentic yeah you did shake up our life yeah we thought we have the perfect child we hatched you we matched you we wanted to dispatch you and now we're [Music] busy going to K going to going very good so so so for our imaginary third that we built so it's really only when the father and mother transform themselves to become L then no you didn't destroy my life you actually made me you made me Divine you actually made me Divine you liberated me from the religious ego and that's that's changes everything but this is a very this is a very it's a very emotional shift it's not uh it's an emotion this doesn't come without tears this is not a this is not a fake shift it's a very deep emotional shift and it doesn't mean a person shouldn't want and pray for for revealed goodness of course everybody wants that but it means wherever I am right now there's the opportunity of showing up here fully and it's not tomorrow and the next day and uh as and I said last time in the last sh you know what looks right now like geh could be much deeper than ganen if it's connected to the truth and then it's okay this was a much longer introduction than I thought it was but it was worth it mamino or not huh okay it's only better than the text because there's text you understand that it's the pause it's the pause between the notes if there's no notes there's no pause so it's really the text that defines the pause you understand there's no shabas without Sunday through Friday if we just say let's just stop working so we can pause you know what that's going to look like yeah it's called a lady G let's pause life needs a pause okay we're all pausing the Buddhists like doing that you know they go up on a mountain and they pause and there's something to it you let go of the ego but the power of shabas is you know so the text are the words and then the pause is the silence and the the silence is defined by the by the words okay second paragraph on we'll learn bleda for another 15 minutes okay till 9:30 was the so in other words it's very nice that brings it but you know take your shoes off your feet it's like what do you want from people since this was sheared and was publicized in the whole world things that are not to people remain hidden the fact that felt that he wants to articulate and it wasp and the it he's saying it's because means a is um a glimmer of it a little particle of it is sh to every single how so he says this is essentially what the what is and is meant for every Jew is not something that the AL used to say only himself what is what does really mean he says what does it really mean hem is our God ISU it's our Consciousness hasem we say three names just say make it short the answer is you're saying something listen is is which is our Consciousness our experience it's all in other words and that's a very very profound idea that all everything is my Consciousness right it's the way it's restricted but it's all really in other words all the voices inside of me everything that's going on really it's all H it's all and that means as he says means that here is the potentiality of surrendering Soul or better better even aligning my soul with the whole Source where all I am and all I want is Oneness because that's who I am it's not an expectation as more as it's a description of reality and that's really so important to understand the word expectation you know when we talk about the word Mitzvah Mitzvah is commandment it says in says somewhere it says every Mitzvah he says is the word v in Hebrew means two things you should love you know what else it means you will love you will love that defines a Mitzvah a Mitzvah is not it's not only you should you will you know why you should because you will you understand a Mitzvah means to live with reality reality is going to take reality is going to Prevail because it's real either I could embrace it or fight it and until it takes over maybe maybe it's a little bit of a harsh example you know a doctor meets somebody and says listen you're going to have a heart attack and lose weight okay that's if you wait for three years but you know what you could do it nicely now and lose weight and respect your body and you won't have to lose weight through having a heart attack you understand what I'm saying a Mitzvah doesn't mean you should a Mitzvah means you will but you should it's not should like who who are you to tell me who are you it's like this is reality so when we describe we're describing the natural state of the soul the natural state of the soul is that's what he's revealing and that's what is Explain express it so you know it says you have to have when you say even other parts you don't have to you have to have what's the Cav of shma what should you think when you're saying shma so here is one of the main ideas that shma is conveying that real ability to let go of everything besides words is more likeing yeah yeah krishma is the the ultimate B so you're asking a question we're asking for things so and is higher than kishma so the truth is that explains that is a deeper we start off which means you open my lips and I'll just repeat what you're saying so it's like Hashem talking through you so it's not my it's not even my needs it's his [Music] needs it says he wanted in the ultimate wants complete vacas and Hashem says no no no I need a go back I need you to be healthy I need you to make money I need you to have parosa it's it's Paradox than what we think right think shma we're talking about Hashem we talking about ourselves it's the opposite you're talking about talking about he wants to I never came up with that idea nobody would have ever come up with the idea of just like nobody would have ever come up you know how do you know God exists who came up with the idea of marriage would any normal person the idea of marriage I would say B go to Bam's dormitories and girls go to girls dormitories so they can make a mess by the B and the girls can be clean in the girls dormitories hasm said no the dormitor is good in yes and then you get married to each other it's only a Divine idea marriage is a Divine idea but it's good news because what it means is that it's it's a Divine idea in other words for to make it work you need to be divine you heard what I just said to make marriage work you need to be divine you have to have B so is God's idea so this is idea of and this is means as I said beyond beyond what I'm saying I am now we'll understand why is in there's a to mention when do we mention so say they put it into krishma it's in krishma that's why we say every day so the asks a famous question why they put the two Mitzvah together they should have put the Mitzvah of kishma is a MIT of krishma put the two together it's an interesting thing I think it's the only they took two separate and they made one CH out of them what's the so the is going to explain the only way you can go out forish it's not they took two separate things there a Mitzvah to say the of before kishma a person is still in what not necessarily it could be a holy I told you could look holy it could be holy it could look holy I'm very holy but I have a big big holy ego or big big holy guilt or big big holy disappointment and anger it's all holy but it's m what's missing is the I still couldn't get out of me and as we learned in the last year it's called says the second is asks the how it says doesn't say makes the difference what's beyond the need for the self validation d i i i want a spiritual experience I want it I need it which means I'm in Gus I don't know I don't know myself my heart is still in jail I'm still locked up it's it's it's it's it's a lot better than other mits no question you're doing good things you're doing holy things you want holy things but I'm still busy wanting I'm still busy with that and you'll see the soul doesn't need it when the Soul liberates itself from that when we when we have that moment of of the Soul liberating itself from that the soul starts sobbing and it's a complete Oneness that I don't need even I don't I don't need I don't even need G at least the first the whole needs but the first needs it specially so the whole daving is to be able to go out of one's limitations this is the idea that my soul is completely dedicated completely committed to hem and to his and to his and then the whole day is different like we said before those five minutes of absolute connection and presence the whole day Your Heart is Open Li a it's an expression in in I am asleep but my heart is awake what's the ego the eye could be asleep it's fine a part of me is asleep but the heart is pumping the heart is awake it says even when I'm asleep in as that's how the describes it it says your is not my means what's very means very what's very for you for one person going out of their comfort zone means that instead of giving an $18 check they give a $36 check for another person it means instead of giving $2 million it means giving $3 million so somebody will say oh he just gave 36 let me also give 36 no no you know that's not means you're going out of is not yours so my is not your it's a different coping mechanism for some people being emotionally present is very easy that's not their problem sometimes they're too emotional they're very for another person that's not their issue but for another person that's their whole they they disconnect emotionally every person you have to know what so what does this mean my gets liberated from all will not control what my looks like the limitations that I impose myself in giving I liberate myself from it the limitations I impose a person imposes on this that he has in learning the limitations the that a person imposes on the limitations they have their in all these three things obviously he's talking about and I could live in my is that the person lets go of that and what happens is when I free myself internally the world around me gets liberated also from its limitations I create an energy in the world hem gives the person also Beyond limits the gives the Jew G and the Jew takes the GM and transforms it into Hashem gives us matter and we take the matter and convert it into energy so when the person opens themselves up to go to a place beyond in themselves and their and their their it has a ripple effect you know like in the laws of attraction and it affects also the world that I'm opened up to opportunities that Beyond limitation in the world that the flow is it's not just something inside of me but a person starts seeing the results around them we start seeing you know when my dance changes the dance of those around me also changes that's why people are more powerful than they think you know they think I can't affect anybody I can't affect anybody but I could affect me and when I affect me I affect everybody because the way we posture the way we hold our posture affects everybody else's posture that's what he says here so when a person in their own a can go out of limitations and what does it mean to go out of limitations means that all the limitations that I imposed on myself including those with guilt and anxiety and overwhelming pressure all these things that we spoke about it expresses itself and how a person gives to somebody else and how a person learns how a person Davin and I create these and I'm stuck in them and I can't get out of them and my heart is not open when a person can go out of that and that's what it's extremely liberating it's a Liberation from so my Seda which includes money or includes a favor includes my heart s exists on all it's fully open there's an open heart there I don't have to be stuck I don't have to be stingy emotionally financially physically spiritually I don't have to be stingy because I'm not busy protecting myself I'm not a anym I'm not a slave I'm a free person you know free love an open heart an open heart you know people who have an open heart they're not afraid they're not self-conscious now some somebody here is sitting and thinking what about boundaries you need boundaries if not people are going to use you doesn't mean that people use you it means that I'm not living as a slave because I'm busy projecting about how people are going to use me because that's the worst slavery I'm using myself then I'm using myself and the same is true with the the same is true with the T so now he goes to the last and that's why it says in like the days that you left I will show the question it should have said not was one day not the answer is no every day since continues the means during the days of it didn't happen once we left once but every day since every person needs to leave we when a person gives s it's beyond limitation Beyond measurements what does this look I didn't realize you see I see I say the introduction look what the says about daving he says even though they come to they're bothering a person is Ding and they come to him and they say come on you have a business to run or you have asanas to do you have a lot of asanas to do or whatever it is you have time for you have time for could be shorter but could take a long time you don't have time huh right yeah yeah so obviously right that come before ding you know whatever it is ETC but here we're talking about different of the world and the of the world impose all these limitations and it becomes very difficult there's all these voices in you that say no you know just get it over with and move on and means to let go of these voices to let go of these expectations why cuz taking all you away from the truth the truth is like you said earlier in the when it comes to it's a there's no there's no limitations you're beyond I go beyond I go beyond all those voices that want to confine me and put me into limitation the same is true with learning guy says I don't have time to learn every day no this person learns every day certain and here again beyond the limitations when a person lives this inside themselves first of all it nullifies the MIT of spirit spiritual MIT but it also obliterates the of of non Holiness and this ultimately nullifies literally MIT like we said before everything begins in the heart and it has a ripple effect so nullifying my MIT nullifies the spiritual in the world and then it nullifies the physical MIT in the world and that's what g means g means when this consciousness of Liberation from all those internal coping mechanisms that cause us to be enslaved to our lowest Angels we're liberated from it so the world becomes a liberated place you radiate a lifestyle of Redemptive Consciousness you understand you radiate a lifestyle of redemption and it has effects everywhere it has effects people who live with Redemption they radiate it to others around them and everybody's dance changes now he goes back to what he start in the beginning that's why we mention every day and even when Mia comes and the question was when comes there's going to be wonders even so why should we mention it then the answer is even comes there going to be a a wonder of the what's the there's two types of means to subd like means to transform like everything is going to be the darkness will be transformed into light today it's still you could still feel Darkness they go out of even in a state of such a that even comes we're going to have to mention that in other words there such a power in that even in a state of you mention the in a state of Cu till mhia comes we're all confronting voices of Darkness inside and outside so how do you go of so you have to bring in into the darkness that's not complete transformation it's a scaf scaf means I know that there's Darkness I can hear its voice I see its power I make space for it with compassion and then I choose not to be a slave but I have to choose not to be a slave because it's not transformed it's choices this is called esaf there's such a power in esaia in a way more than in his that even when mhia comes we're still going to be mentioning the Gul of MIT which was still in a state of esaia you the huh yeah obviously is much higher because it's transformed but there's a special you know sometimes you see people they did a lot of work on themselves and they they they went on a very deep journey and they came out on the other side and a lot of things were transformed and 6 months later a year or two years they don't recognize themselves but they're always going to miss you know that first moment when they had to confront so much darkness and they chose to liberate themselves from it there's a special appreciation for that moment it's not that you go back to there you don't want to go back to there because transformation is the purpose but there's a special uh Nostalgia there's a special tyo that exists in the in the resilience in the authenticity that comes out of nfia because of the struggle and that's why even comes we're going to mention the point's Glory extends in all the world and the word is in all the worlds but certainly in our world the physical world with the Jewish people are immersed in and doing the will of in of love with the whole heart and the whole soul and with your infinity and this brings closer the says in there's an end to Darkness K darkness is not infinite darkness is dark and anything that's dark has an end K all Darkness has an end end darkness is not unlimited why because darkness is the absence of Truth the absence of Truth can't be infinite Infinity only exists in truth what's infinity infinity means it's everything it's everywhere Darkness doesn't have that power how does it have everything and everywhere it can look like it has it sometimes and those people who are represented by Darkness that's what they want they want that the should extend forever so says Hashem made an end for the darkness the darkness serves a purpose it's not this P comforted the Jewish people for thousands of years the darkness has an end it should be speedily in our time the true and ultimate Redemption CU there were many gas in Jewish history but we're talking about the G the true Redemption and the of the complete Redemption and then then we'll see with our eyes of Flesh the Fulfillment of the prophecy of the like the days in which you left I will show you the wonders of May It Be Thursday there's no she oh I'm sorry been been in California California if you he you're not here [Music] shabas California everybody have a beautiful week and if I don't see you I and may we see the Jewish people are worthy of can happen already huh they deserve it yeah there was a here in the tent and he was saying some N Things some whatever so uh another you tells me he says listen I don't agree with them the end of the speech like this is the the is is start is conscious in the I cut it off whatever it is oh does that me yeah person is addict yeah his whole life his whole Consciousness is is in disease the indid yeah thank you so much sure thank you for being here thank you for being here for being moved sometimes a person is here the reactions they say that you say that some people wear their soul on their sleeve you're one of them it's a good thing they wear their soul on their sleeve huh someone yeah yeah [Laughter] yeah wo to the speaker who speaks you speak to ears of yeah yeah yeah I'm going to sh it yeah but we'll shut it e