Look Inside Yourself

very often our children's behavior at any age triggers us in ways like nothing else triggers us you sometimes observe the behavior of your child and i'm so triggered i'm angry i'm frustrated i'm depleted i'm exhausted i fall into the spear i get sad i get mad instead of right away judging and taking all that anger and lashing it out of the child can i go inwards and say what just happened inside of me what just came up for me why was i just overwhelmed why did i get startled why am i so angry why do i have to eliminate this problem and have my child go to school right now and if not i will feel like an eternal colossal failure we have been trained certain ways and we like to fix problems right we want the house to run on a good schedule and if there's a problem we like fixing it we like to do that in our jobs with our computers and our cars in our marriages and with our children the problem is that souls are not machines every soul has a journey and every soul has a unique infinite light and yes i want to teach my child discipline and structure and positive choices and how to make decisions and how to confront my own challenges but if i'm not tuning into your soul if i'm not tuning into your heart if i'm not tuning into your challenge if i'm not letting you be and grow from within if i'm just trying to squash your energy and make it look good on the outside what happened i didn't deal with the person i didn't help the person i just covered up the wound through a band-aid and it's going to emerge a few years later [Music] the yeshiva.net