Living with Shaar HaBitachon - Mrs. Jen Airley

Tonight's shar um of sharon is sponsored by Abigail in memory of her mother Dora Bat Louise on her fourth year site her nishama should have an aliyah and uh she should continue to inspire and encourage learning. Okay. um Azalas. So last week we discussed the seven traits that um if we try and find in someone in a creation in a person can we and we'll go through those. We went through them briefly. Now those who do have the book um we read them in chapter 2 you can kind of skim with me or just listen because we're just going to go through them as a um review. So the first one was that the person should have compassion, empathy, love. The person should this friends should be able to just feel care and support. Um and the second one um was that that the person should um never ignore, be lax or be lazy in and should make every effort possible in order to fulfill the needs of their friends. Um the person should be reliable. Again, we discussed the seven as um just a brief overview again just we discussed the seven that can we find somebody that has not just one or two or three of these traits but all seven. Can somebody actually have all seven? So we're just going through because you'll see that it's very possible that some of them somebody can have. It's very possible to find somebody that's so caring and so loving and so wants to do and actually even capable. What if I just put this next to me? Oh, it's not even on. It's not on. Y'all can hear me, right? Okay. Um and it was somebody last week that had Okay. Um Okay. Number three was somebody is is this person actually able actually able to do what it is that is needed? Are they physically capable making sure no one will get in their way and stop them from doing what it is that needs to get done? Right. Number four was, and this is uh I think the most amazing one, but who am I? Does this person have your best interest in mind? Does this person know I love having the serenade in the background? Does this person have a clear knowledge of really what is completely beneficial for you? Um, number five, do they have um were they there from the very beginning of your existence in this world in uterero all the way till the end till your ripe old age of 120? Were they there? Were they have they been there? Will they always be there through every moment and able to watch over you at every single stage in your life? Number six was will they have complete shity that no one is going to cause you any harm. They can just protect you from all. And the last one which is really the crescendo of beton and that is whether or not you are deserving will they take care of you. Why do I say that? That's actually the the sea of beton. Remember this is interactive. What's the difference? What did we discuss about amun and what was the difference right? Amuna being Yeah. Okay. Exactly. That was one of the explanations that we gave. Yes. Yes. having like I know Hashem is in charge. I know Hashem is capable but is but I know Hashem is looking out for me but what if I like Jacob yeah what if I did something wrong and I'm afraid was afraid had to tell him don't be afraid yeah maybe I'm not deserving I didn't do enough I didn't rise enough I didn't accomplish enough I'm I'm not worthy so what if I wonder maybe I used up all my rewards maybe I'm deserving maybe my you know I I I have sins that because of my sins I should be deserving of some suffering. So amuna is understanding Hashem is capable of making that decision. But is having faith that Hashem still will treat me with kindness and look out for what I need. That's the next level. Is there a person that can do that? that you can drive them absolut do hor do things ignore them, disagree, do things that they don't want and they're still going to just shower you with what is good for you maybe, but definitely not all seven. Okay, so that's a review of the seven um qualities that we look to see if a person can have. Okay. So, now we're opening up to um Perk Sheni the um we're going to go to the seven qualities are found in Hashem. So, if you have this book, it's page 50. Um and now here we're going to go through them again with uh with proofs. Right? So now is going to give a proof for each of these and prove it in sources of saying from different places in Tanak by the way to him these are all very obvious in fact to him because he knows Tanak like that maybe you all do but I don't but when he sees these he thinks of the qualities of Hashem and he comes back in his mind oh I just read oh I Hashem is the compassionate one to him it's like such an obvious thing I need to do it the other way around and and thank you that you know you put it in the book that way. Okay. Um so I I'm very happy to make this again interactive. We can do this together. Um this is this is meant to be a little more kabura e style. So um let's read. Um different people can volunteer to read. We'll just go through these seven qualities and then I'm going to sum up afterwards. You'll see. But um you can do it in Hebrew and English both. Um obviously I personally feel that the English is harder when it comes to the Hebrew is always easier to understand in the for translating a puzzle look itself but everyone do as they uh whatever. Um so these are the seven conditions that we will not find them in any at all in any of the creations. However, we will find them in the creator. Okay. So yala who's taking away number one? I know it means the people with the book are doing this, but let's try. Number one, who's doing it? Go for it. Um, the fact that God has compassion for his creations is supported by the scripture as it is written, um, the Lord is merciful and gracious and as it says in Jonah 41. Now, should I only should I not take pity on the Okay, do you know what? Maybe it'll help. Do you mind just closing the door? I'm like wondering if that will help listening to the beautiful choir. I don't know. Or is that I don't know where it's coming from, but breaks through the music. Yeah, I don't know. It It's It is entertaining for me, but uh um I don't usually get to listen to live choirs, but Okay. Um Okay. So, he's bringing to Hashem again. So, now he's going through one by one. So, he's talking about being comp having compassion for all his creations. So he's Hashem is merciful and gracious and he also talks about shall not take pity on Ninve again this is the story of Yonah why is he bringing tupsukum here what what is what yeah um with the kayon that he was upset when Hashem took away the kayon and Hashem said you had no Rahmanis on my city and yet you're so upset when I destroyed this plant that was giving you shade okay so but why how are we learning Hashem's compassion here that Hashem wanted to give everybody a chance. So he asked Yona if he would tell the people to do so they could be rescued. So he's essentially enulling something that was deserving a nulling. So Hashem has so these two sukim are exactly that. One is Hashem's compassion for somebody who's in pain and one is just letting us know that Hashem can um before punishment starts take it away. Right? We have both sides of it. Um he can protect a null not only be so gracious and compassionate and loving both sides. Okay, number two. Who's doing number two? Go for it. The fact that is not does not ignore those he cares for is supported by scripture as it is written for behold the guardian of Israel. Exactly. So, Hashem is he's he he's on guard at all times. Um, while our soldiers are, but Hashem does even better. Okay. Um, number three. Exactly. Number three. Go for it, Nicola. No, just joking. Number three. Anybody else? Go for it. Can I just read? Yeah. Yeah. That's very famous. Right. Invincible, all knowing, so clear. Hashem's completely mastered all these qualities. Yaf. Um now interestingly the fourth one which we said um was the one that Hashem knows what is in our best interest he's not going to address now he's actually skipping that um one reason it's so obvious it's so clear um it's so logical only Hashem obviously only Hashem knows what is best for other people for people and not people knowing best for people but um we're going to I almost feel like you saving the best for last. Um, he goes into it much deeper later. Okay. Number five, only Hashem from the beginning of formation and through development. Let's hear what he has to say here. Which sukim is he going to bring in as proofs? Number five, who's doing it? The fact that God is the only one who takes care of the person from the beginning of development is supported by scripture as it says, is he not your father, your master? He has made you and established you. And as it says, I relied on you from birth. For my mother's womb, you drew me. And as it says, you not for me like milk and curled me like cheese. And the rest of and the rest of the matter which is elaborated in a verse there until the end of the chapter, extoing the kindness God performs for a person from the beginning of his formation through his entire life. Again, you see this amazing development of just Hashem just like proving no no but not only is he the one that is watching you, he's creating this whole system. Um, by the way, all this the milk curdle, this is all talking about conception. Um, but yes, Hashem all these beautiful saying. Yeah. Yeah. Um, and it's just you just like, you know, it's like the author of the book, right? We can we can try and understand what the poem was that he was trying trying to make all of our own interpretations, but the artist himself or the painter, the poet, he knows exactly what he was doing. Even if we're not picking up all of his innuendos and all of his subtleties, he knew. And that was why he did that stroke over there and this mark over here and this word that he used in the poem over there. Right? These are the artists. Hashem is the master artist. Okay. Number six. Right. With number six we said was the complete shorty that no harm will come. He'll be able to completely protect anyone. The fact that the things that benefit him as well as harm him are not in the domain of any man but solely in the hands of the creator may be exalted is supported by scripture as it says who has commanded and it came pass unless the unless Hashem orain it by the command of the most high neither good nor evil come and as it says the grass shall dry out the blossom shall rose but the word of ours shall last forever and as it says in the preceding verse behold the people are grass this concept It's already been clarified sufficiently in the third gate of this book. The gate of the service of God. Okay. Shoda. So that but here again when Hashem is creating it, he understands exactly how it all needs to function and all needs to work. Um and lastly number seven. Um and again talking about um whether or not you are deserving. Who's doing number seven? Go for it. The fact that Hashem's good will extends to all of his kindness and envelops each and every creation is supported by scripture. As it says, Hashem is good to all and his mercies and his mercies are on all his works. And as it says, who gives bread to all flesh for his kindness is eternal. And as it says, you open your hand and satisfy every living thing with it. Right? So we know these sukim in Hebrew. Hashem, we this is and these are the intentions that we have when we're dabbing for these things is Hashem just just shower me right open up your hands graciously and give bisha um okay so intellect dictates that all these seven qualities are possessed by the creator alone and not by any of the other creations. And again, here's where he says, "I brought these sukim only so that you should remember the seven qualities." So that we should like like the most I would think you would have quoted them. Yeah. Like that was like such a simple. So why? Because it basically encapsulates the whole idea of amuna. So he um so the style that he shar is an incredibly methodical safer. It's as if he had like a perfect outline and then he builds up the case. You're giving the punch line, right? He's he's trying to build up slowly slowly. What does it mean to have trust? Oh, and what does it mean to trust somebody? One second. Can you trust somebody? Are they capable of everything? Oh, but let me let me show you of how Hashem is. Now, let me show you really what Hashem's all about. He's building the case first and then later it's going to be much more practical because now it's like, oh, I all the basics, the basis of everything now. I got it now. So, you're giving the answer. Oh, okay. No, but I'm saying you're just giving but that's he's trying to prove it. Oh, okay. He's showing us now. Llat. Okay. Um, so in Hashem we trust and he just says really good times, bad times. Hashem's the one that's completely uh overseeing all of it. Okay. Again, we're doing everything incredibly briefly. You know, I encourage you now you have a safer. You can go in much more depth and look in and questions of why these not others. But um but here we'll we don't have so many lessons. So we'll go through now uh we're going to open up parrot gimmel the third chapter um and again like I was just saying he builds with outlines. So this chapter he's first going to give five um these five concepts to understand um belief in and and then he's going to give um I'm just giving the overview of the chapter and then he's going to go to reasons of why we have to do in this world. Why do we have to work? One second. We're saying Hashem is completely capable. Why do I have to do my investment, my involvement? And he's even going to say sometimes sadikim don't even have to do their part of earning a livelihood. We'll get to that. And he's also going to discuss the famous question of Sadik Veral Rashov. Why is it that Sadik can have to live through some hardships and evil ones have might have it easy? He'll address he'll he'll address that as well. And then um he's and then one of the more practical things he also speaks about is how to choose a profession, how to choose an occupation um which is a fun one. Okay. Uh and also how to look at that in um how to see your job and uh okay we'll go through. So yeah. So we're going to first talk about these five introductory concepts. He says here that if you understand them, you're going to now really understand what it is to have, have complete trust in Hashem. Um, okay, this gets fun now. He's going to first go through um really he's going to go through the seven that we did um but with much more now focus on Hashem. Um okay so first he just says in an overall introduction we must believe um then and and clearly recognize that Hashem possesses all these seven qualities that we've discussed and once you do you can really start beginning to trust Hashem so deeply I already mentioned them in the previous chapter and commented them giving the sources and the verses so that we did okay now the first quality now we're going to be talking about hashem Um, who wants the first one? The middle of page 59? Anyone? Go for it. The first quality, the creator, may may he be blessed has more compassion on a person than any other compassion. Just keep going. Yeah. Yeah. In fact, any compassion, mercy that a person receives from anyone else ultimately comes from God's compassion and mercy because he is the one who stirs mercy and compassion in the heart of the toward him as the verse says and he will grant you compassion and be compassionate with you and multiply you. Okay. Wait. Yeah. So, um yeah. First of all, isn't that awesome? You want to understand why you see people as having raim as compassion and people having that love. They learned it from me says Hashem. I gave them the compassion. I exemplified compassion. So, Hashem's again the master artist, the master creator. I created compassion and I've taught I right he's he's that wasn't what he quoted um he gave okay um which again this obviously doesn't only apply to compassion it applies to everything everything um but that's not only compassion yeah someone asked the question. What about what about the negative qualities, anger or any of that? Do we learn that from Hashem? No. Choice. What? We have the But does that mean Hashem has those and we're learning it from him? Yeah. So, Kas, I think, is one of the ones But let's use a different example. Um, nikama or vengeance. Revenge. Revenge. What? So, right. Because anger is is a is one of the midos I think that we're not supposed to have, right? Isn't that displayed? He was zealous. Um, but all these other ones, right? I I I don't And I feel like also bulmer we can do a little uh rabi shimon you know there's a black Torah and the white Torah. Yeah there's there's a Torah that we see in the Torah that is the white that's all the background. We can also learn from what not when we see what there is. So that you can channel like a bad behavior channel behavior in the right way. Totally like a thousand%. And we say this, right? Somebody has a for blood, somebody has a desire for blood and instead of using it for murder, use it for being a moel orita work or right for sure. And this applies to all the midot. Yes, we're supposed to be channeling everything. Um, but does it mean that Hashem has these? It can also I feel like I've heard like display anger without being the ingredient in order to like teach a lesson like classic examples like a kid crossing the street to display anger so he knows the seriousness of the situation. So it could be something similar like Hashem will display anchor to for whatever reason. Sure. And so like that's something that the tough love and the safety secret a thousand% right. It doesn't mean that we're jealous. It means first of all so that's right. But there's also we're giving these terms to Hashem. Hashem, this is like the piece of it. Hashem is bigger. We can't actually label him. We can't actually label his midot first of all who are we to give a label to something but this is the way we can relate. So it's so that we can learn we are putting a word a description to Hashem's attributes that we Yes. So if you talk about the mitos of Hashem for example during Spirro and you know you talk about the spiros you don't really have any negative mitos you really just have the positive I mean that's the goal that's what we're working on during this yes maybe all those flippry of the negative they things like that. This is our whole tap in life. This is really our whole job. This is our whole life process. This is what we're here for is to be working on our midot to perfect ourselves. Every muser says, you know, this is this is what it's all about. Yeah. Exactly. And uh and this is how we get closer to Hashem. to try and be like Hashem is taking any traits that we do have and channeling them, switching, flipping, however we want to express that to to the good. Yeah. Okay. Um, second quality number two, page 60. Who's got this one? Anyone? Awesome. The second person must believe that the person Okay. Yeah. Just continue. Logic dictates the person's hands as well as the troubles that may catch all of it. The the ways in which he becomes ill as well as than the one who prayed to death. So this, if you notice, is a little bit more is really like the number four. The one that he didn't give a proof for. This is really what is your best interest. He's actually referring to this. Now, these seven he's not he's not going in order. They're not all in order. Um I don't know the history and the reason, but it's not. But um but this one is really Yes. Uh Hashem's handsy work. No one knows really what's good, really what's bad. Hashem knows and therefore we don't know what the best interests might be, but Hashem definitely does know. Um, and then he's going to go on even further with this. Who wants to take this bottom paragraph? This is actually really, really important. It's my favorite one. Come on, somebody do it. Go for it. If we find this to be true regarding objects made by human beings who do cannot actually create anything new through their actions other than the external form of the raw material and who have no skill or power to create the raw material itself. Then all the more so must it be true regarding Hashem who creates the raw material itself from which the person is made as well as his forms, characteristics and the way he is composed of the body and the soul as well as the interaction between the various bodily parts. It therefore follows that he's certainly the wise one who knows what will benefit the person and what will harm him and what is good for him both in this world and in the world to come. I think this this is so big first of all again so just on a basic level Hashem is creating this he knows exactly what he put into the system he knows exactly what it's made of and he did it on purpose okay um but to know really what the benefit of every bit of it is and what will harm him is something that no person only Hashem can say and see and do. But not just that, understanding what's best in this world and what's best in the next world is something that we can't we can't even actually understand when we're saying these words, but we can't understand. Um, I know I gave I'm pretty sure I gave the example of my like I know right anything that you might see I'm really the one that is healing you but um I'm pretty I I I can't remember if I told you this but um I might have. So I have a friend who her sister pretty sure I told right her sister's very her sister was very sick and uh and in the of her sister's rifua in her sister you know to help her sister heal she literally opened up she started girl people saying nishma she started you know people doing learning zeram and people doing and people projects you name it she was doing this for her sending out every day and literally hundreds of people were doing things on a constant basis of her sister Beth and it was the amount of energy she put into all these programs and it was really it was wild how many people were involved in trying to help Beth get better and ultimately Beth did not make it right but all I kept thinking about was this like I don't understand Hashem's ways. I claim nothing but from an outsider to see how much both of these sisters are earning earned did what she was doing for her sister with the six sister was getting gathering up in Shmayim. Again, I'm not claiming I understand any of this, but it but you just have to take at face value something that we can't understand Hashem's. We can't understand anything, but what was going on, the amount of women that were charged and doing. I I can't help but think of so much that she got. We don't understand. But there is definitely something that Hashem does of understanding what we need in this world and in the next world. Hashem, we have a whole lifetime to live in this world to earn all our brownie points and then uh after 120 we'll learn what it's all about. But only Hashem can have such calculations. Okay. Um and he brings to prove this. I will lead you in the way you're supposed to go. That's from and Hashem rebukes the one he loves like you were saying before as a father works with his child placates a son. Um and then he's going to um right you were saying Hashem sometimes needs to show other characteristics because he knows what is really best for us. Okay. Third quality. Um and this was the um Hashem is doesn't ignore. Who's taking number three? I want to get all this in. Yala. Who's doing number three? Go for it. The third quality, the creator made stronger than any other strong words and no one can overrule his decisions. Okay. He's completely capable. No one can bully Hashem's decision around. He decides something and it is okay. Y straightforward. Number four. Uh oh. And then he brings a few sukim. Um let's just skip forward because I really want to be able to finish all seven. The fourth quality. Yala, anyone? We can just go for it. Perfect. The fourth quality. The fourth quality. Hashem is mindful to his governance of all person's affairs. He does not forsake them. Rather, he helps them with all their needs. He does not ignore them. But when they are in a time of hardship, nor are any of their matters concealed from him, whether small or large, nor does his being involved in one matter cause him to forget about another matter. So, this was referring to like the second one where we said that he doesn't ignore, he's not lax in doing it. We're going to skip the verses for now and move on to the fifth one because I want to just move forward a little bit. Um, even though again I encourage you, especially now that you have the books, go through really great material in here. The fifth quality who wants go for it. Sure. Okay. So, no creation has the power to help himself or harm himself unless Hashem wants it. Okay. Carry on. [Music] Okay. Do you want to just give a little explanation or you want me to? So he says if a if a slave that they are certain has more than one master he can't trust either because one will do more benefit or which one timing and essentially oh you want to follow that one right um you can't compete masters Hashem's like you want to go trust somebody else I'll I'll leave you to it I'm not going to fight it but Do you trust to follow me? I'll cover you. I got your back forever. Um, okay. Um, if one of them is able to help him or cause him harm, he will be forced to rely on him alone because he does not expect to be helped by anyone other than him. And similarly, when a person feels that no creation can help can either help him or harm him without the permission of Hashem, this will cause him to cease being afraid of other people causing him harm and to cease relying on them and only turn to Hashem. When you realize that those cannot do anything to you, you will only turn to Hashem. And you realize you have nothing else to fear. Yeah. How does this work? Um when you think that normally works within the regular rules of creation. So you know let's say a s person who has not very high chance of surviving has not very high chance of surviving. Yes, in theory Hashem is always so it's hard to see, you know, the how Hashem is having an impact directly on this person. He's created certain rules of how the world generally works and how certain illnesses generally impact people. So, how can we separate this from you know this now specific person who says well is all capable and think of things that you know maybe something different but you know should you really believe this so first of all amazing question right do we do we understand what we see in front of our eyes with tea or are we expecting beyond tea to come beyond nature to come into into action right are we expecting Hashem to pull through in what we see as supernatural, right? And what are we counting on? What are we asking for? What are we trying to make happen? And these are very massive questions. Yes. Um and I don't first of all I have no answers. I can I'm only like relaying things that I I've come across. I don't know anything. But I think that we're expected to have that and that really is Hashem really can. I don't even want to say it's not going to harm us to have because we're not supposed to be doing it in a oh it's not going to hurt to have so I might as well have no it's we're really from the beginning supposed to be and can we say if I have complete faith and really then hashem will help me da and that was the example I was just proving I was just using not that doesn't necessarily mean and they tried and They begged and pleaded for for Beth and they did everything and with a full heart they really thought she was going to have her. Hashem still said no. Again, what is Hashem's plan? We don't know. But does that mean that we don't count on him to pull through with pull through with Hashem can is capable of everything? Hashem's absolutely capable of everything. And there are the miraculous stories. There are the things that defy all medical history. It depends on uh in my eyes like first of all where you're holding and how many times you read shi uh yeah like the old joke of um a little boy who wanted his truck to be repaired and he asked Hashem and he dabed and dabed and daved and his mother says well and he says Hashem answered me. He said no. Like I I um just uh this morning I arrived, we're just saying came back from England this morning from uh uh the Mizrai events. Yeah. And one of the um one of the sharim that I gave it was a it was not it was a mini one but it was hold on let's get the title. So, er um the power hold on let me get this right the power of the positive power of faith versus faith in the healing power. Okay? Meaning there's so much science to being positive and thinking positively. There's so much physiologically that it does when you are positive, when you feel that you can get better. There's stories where there's a patient that, you know, had this recovery and the doctor was so surprised and the patient said, "Why do you seem so surprised when I heard you outside the room saying, "I had a good chance of survival." He says, "I wasn't talking about you." But when he heard the doctor and he thought he was talking about him, he's like, "Okay, so I got this. There's so much of of this. I can I can I can it's going to be I can pull myself together. I can do this. I can heal. I can but then there's faith in the healing power. There's faith in Hashem. There's the faith in the healer himself. And that is another level that's not saying okay I can. It's saying what Hashem wants. I am putting myself completely. I'm putting myself completely in Hashem's arms. Yeah, I don't know. But this is what I believe. I believe in putting myself in his I believe that he is going maybe not to heal me because that might be the no, but I am putting myself in Hashem's hands. Whatever he's doing is what is right for me. That's the difference. Yeah. It's not that I'm turning to Hashem to say I believe I'm I'm doing everything I can. I'm believing in you, Hashem, that you are going to heal me versus I'm believing in you that you are going to do with me what you believe is right for me. Wouldn't do this regardless of what you believe, regardless of your level and of your, you know, whether you really believe that he does what's right for you, would do what's right for you. I I think you just read a different paragraph than that. No. of believing in other servants. No, I just I just mean that if we truly believe that Hashem does what's right for us, then Hashem does this regardless of our belief. It's not because we believe that he does. He just does. There are different ways it happens. I gave an example of the kalas and I'm just using this as like the simplest simplest example. gave an example of kalas that somebody we I collect we collect kalas that go to a certain destination and then somebody brought them past the deadline and she's like she had all these kalas and I was like I I don't need them I already like delivered the kalas and then afterward she calls me an hour whatever later and she's like okay don't worry I found out where to get them to and where did she get them to she brought them to the same place that I brought them to I completely missed out on the opportunity to bring those kalas they got there, but I missed out on the process big time. Hashem can heal, but what's happening in between that lots? Did you rise up? Did that person dab? Did that gather troops? Did that change the things up at it might be? Yes. The you're getting to the finish line perhaps? Maybe yes, maybe no. But let's just say Hashem wanted you to get to the finish line. What's happening in the course of that finish line? And just like we read what's happening up in Shamim in the world to come, there's so much more that's involved in it. I I don't have answers. I don't know if that like I'm the floor is open. But yeah, can I maybe like address it a little bit? Did you ask that question? Um yeah. No, it's I mean it's um like one cance the point obviously regardless of what you believe God will do. It's but it is hard to kind of like first of all it's it's not about God, it's about you, you know, and how and how your beliefs affect you and how they affect your actions, which is what you're getting to. Like if if you kind of like detach and say, "Well, it doesn't matter because God's going to do any whatever it is anyway," then you have no incentive at all, you know, to to do anything. Totally. But once you say, "Well, actually, my actions do make a difference on some level, I don't necessarily see it immediately. I don't know how but somewhere up there and down below like this person who was doing it for her sister then it creates an incentive and and and we also know that there's the says so even though it's not it's actions that affect so maybe having can have an effect on some level all this has an exact For sure. For sure. First of all, there are ways to affect that's for sure. You were coming at it from a different perspective just as far as how we seeing the outcome. He is going to get to this much more. I I'm not going to say, but that's proving in a very extreme way. One second. It's going to happen that way anyway. Why? Why do the righteous have to suffer? Why do the sinners get it so easy? The hap the end is the same thing. We're going to get to all of that. That's that he's going to address plenty of. Did you have something? Just like an example. I was working on the diialysis and there was a whole section on um kidney transplant and in my head in when I was on the diialysis I was like I saw like reasons for things I was like okay that makes sense why that person's dialis why the next person's on and then I saw and there were some cases which I just completely didn't understand and then in the kidney transplant I was like how does someone decide who gets the kidney and who and who gets a sorry a second chance and I was like it's all Hashem like the match if someone kidney gets rejected I'm like it just doesn't sometimes things don't make sense look I I I'll tell you this like as a personal trainer because it's the one thing that I do know a little more of we can do all that we can exercise eat healthy cut out sugar processed food blah blah blah do all of that still get sick. How's that happen? How does it hap? Forget about the getting hit getting run over falls. Forget about I'm talking actual health. I've done I've I've been doing good. I've I've been training. I've been doing all my breathing. How's that still happen? There no guarantees. And this is again taking it totally to just a physical simple example because it can. Does that mean that my life was not incredibly enhanced? My activity, my my quality of life was not enhanced all the process until then it enhanced tremendously. The end result might not be what was expected but the process was amazing. Yeah. You say that the process is more important than the product. The journey is more important than the result only because we don't understand Hashem. We don't understand his because he can see things. We're only seeing one side of the tapestry. Is this a completely separate point when like how we can change decrees through and like Hashem knows what's best for us, but it's also what's best for us at any given moment. Like by giving the by doing the you're changing yourself. So maybe what was best for you then is different. what's best for you now like is that a completely separate point to to what you're saying or is it it's a complete it is separate okay this is the chua process we talk about the yipper what does it mean that the gates are locked the gates are open no I can't I don't know I don't know um I really was hoping we would um okay I really in the next four minutes um want to do shishi and because I would really like to be able to start in the next one next week. Um and the sixth one um which is really like uh this piece that we discussed as number seven. Um the sixth quality here we're recognizing the great kindness that Hashem bestows upon his people and how he began to be so kind and good. I'm at page 65. Um from the beginning of a person's formation all the way with without his being deserving of it without Hashem needing him. rather it's out of Hashem's generosity, goodness, kindness that he does. And this is talked about in um but here is talking about you have done great things. You, Hashem, my Hashem, your wonders, your thoughts are all for us. There is none equal to you. Were I to tell and speak of your wonders, they would be too many to tell. This is the nishmat. This is saying how much Hashem does for us. We are not necessarily deserving on any any any level. But Hashem is showering us with all of his kindness regardless. And here um the seventh quality should be clear to the person that all things in existence in this world both those that are essential referring to beings and objects themselves that were brought into creation and those that are incidental referring to the events that happened to those objects and beings you have have a clear and defined limit. Again, this is talking this is actually really more like number five that Hashem really recognizing from the beginning of us until the very end of us that um have a clear and defined limit and it's impossible to add or subtract from the limit that Hashem has decreed. A person cannot change an object's quality, quantity, time, place. He can't increase that which has been decreed to be few, nor can he decrease that which is decreed to be many. Similarly, a person will not be able to delay something that has not been decreed that has been decreed to be early and change something to be earlier that has been decreed to be later. Um, a person this is I I this is understanding that Hashem has complete control. We can try, we can do and we do do and we do try and that is what you were referring to and you were referring to. We do do our part. But ultimately, Hashem is in charge of all of this. He's in charge of time. He's in charge of how much, how little, how early, how late, how big, how small, and everything. We can fight the system or we can say, "Hashem, I'm in your arms. I'm trusting you in the process because I know you know better than me." That's Rabbi D's like greatest line, all the what ifs. What if this and what if that? And Rabbi Leod says, "But what if Hashem really knows better? What if I believe Hashem really is in charge and he knows much better than I do? That's the real what if to ask. But we should be z to have this complete am trust faith in Hashem to feel that he is ultimately in charge of every blessed little and big thing in our lives. And with that we will continue next week. Have a good one. Thank you dear.