Living With Emunah (Part 324) - He Arranges our Footsteps and Adventure

good morning good morning Boer to welcome back welcome back to our weekly support group that we in order to avoid a stigma call living with amuna but really he just a support group great to be back together again as always enormous gratitude and thanks to our series sponsors Dr Ai and Bella Morgan in memory ofab Dr Brian galet in memory of Bella's mother Dr Ellen shanzer enormous thank you to the Morgans also sponsored this morning by our dear friend henra gansburg in memory of her husband s be gansburg I know she listens from y so shout out sending a lot of love we miss you Hena by richel renski in memory of her brother Michael brenzel thank you Rachel for your generosity and Leadership by traan Andre and alen Li memory of director Howard tractenberg our beloved member we miss Dr tractenberg very special man beloved husband and father and by bayis Smith and gratitude to Hashem huge ma became a Bubby for having a grandchild Arian rify Kaplan Ma on the healthy baby boy have a lot of and a lot of and only Sim and only good things so thank you to all of our generous generous sponsors we're learning something new today if you didn't take yet and you'd like you could follow along inside also I have here some giveaways we used to have swag we sold it uh we're happy to share it and suggest a donation on the way out in the lobby there's a little iPad give whatever you like if you want to cover it this is a coffee cup I think they call these tumblers is that what they called beir CA with cavana have your coffee every morning I I drink every morning from one of these cups and every day when I see the sh caffeate with cavana it reminds me as I'm about to swallow the braa faster than I swallow the coffee it reminds me slow down pause think about what you're about to say be grateful for everything that goes into getting that coffee as we've spoken about many times the farmer person who plowed the land planted the Coffee Bean harvested it packaged it shipped it d distributed it ground it put it into the pod put it I don't know how big a snob you are in espresso or carig or or slow drip or depending on your level of coffee snobbery even more went into whatever it took to get it there anyway but when you say sh you're not just making that BR on the sip of coffee of which I'm Not a Human Being until I drink it well now with the ice whatever but I'm not a human being until I drink it that was uh two minutes 28 seconds at but anyway the whole Ambiance the whole world the whole life the whole with whom am I drinking this coffee where am I having it what what home am I sitting in while I drink it how what Peace of Mind do I have what kind of emotional relationship do I good cup of coffee with a pastry doesn't matter what's going on in your life it doesn't matter what you're facing doesn't matter what you're confronting doesn't matter what you have to overcome a muffin and a hot coffee sh sh I'm not saying it won't all be back and maybe some new problems because of the muffin right after you finish it I'm not saying that problems won't I'm just saying for a little window that P that good pastry a muffin and a coffee he knows for me like that emotion oh that's Gish anyway we have these cups here take whatever you want to donate credit card reader in the lobby feel free we also produce these if you remember in the past thank you for a new day Turn the Page little notebooks every day on top Turn the Page a new day we say every day every morning Hashem gives us this we get to start again Turn the Page Turn the Page it's a new day every day is a new day every week's a new week every month is a new month that's R KES every year rash is a new year every hour is a new hour every minute is a new minute we're constantly renewing refreshing we're starting again we don't have to be locked in we don't have to be stuck we don't have to be paralyzed in a certain Paradigm we have the ability to constantly constantly renew and having a little notebook that every day whatever you list you got to make whatever notes you want to take whatever you turn the page new page Turn the Page it's a new page it's a new beginning it's a fresh start so we're giving these away to those who faithfully and loyally come to Arun here you could fill your cup with a SL a slushy on the way out slushy with kavana it's the same slush is the same braa fill your cup on the way out feel free to make a donation let's get into a few letters then we'll get into our new text which I'm really excited to learn together today it should be a day that we hear BOS toos may we hear good news and good tidings we desperately need each and every day the hostages should come home it's it's not it's mindboggling that 400 plus days 14 months we're still talking it's just absolutely mindboggling the world is tolerating so may we hear good news the hostages come home soldiers return to their families RAB M Tagan a dear friend of our community who's been here many times son was injured in Lebanon two nights ago had an8 hour surgery yesterday to remove the shrapnel from his lungs and his legs please God I'll have a complete recovery but needs are feel us our heartfelt prayers all the soldiers have been injured physically injuries that we can see and injuries that are invisible they should all have speedy recoveries complete recoveries they are on our thoughts in our hearts every second of every day every second of every day dear Rabbi go I'm in nth I think grade and every single week I love to listen to living with Amun on Spotify I've always wanted to write an amuna email to you and this week I finally have a story it's so gratifying that people are like they're waiting for the story first of all you can just email and say hi hey hey Rabbi how's your day how was the pastry how was the coffee that's a doesn't have to be a special story just to be alive is a story cup of coffee that didn't spill on you you didn't burn yourself you got the right ratio whatever you put into your cof that in itself is an email living with them last night I was waiting at CBS for my pictures to print out for over an hour just to find out that the worker helping me messed up and my pictures never even went through so we had to send them again took a really long time within the first 10 minutes I was already losing my patience but then I thought of the with everyone sharing stories about having auna difficult times it helped me to stay calm remember I am wherever I'm supposed to be if I'm stuck at CVS for an hour and a half because Hashem wants me to be there and I'm not stuck at all I'm exactly what I meant to be thanks for the amazing sheer anonymously nth grade everybody's waiting so again there's consequential inconsequential big deal small deal the Yun equally helps us all through wherever we are and you go from being really annoyed at the person at CVS messed up your pictures over an hour why am I stuck here to realizing a Jew is never stuck a Jew is never stuck a Jew is never lost we are where we're meant to be lean into it now I'm not suggesting that you know you open a lounge chair set up shoping CVS spend the night obviously try to expedite try to do things quickly productively efficiently you don't have to dwell someplace that you don't want to be or aren't meant to be but when we feel that we're stuck we're not stuck we are where we're meant to be so we give out in the Sho every week Arts girl sends us for the shabas table this beautiful little newsletter with d Tor we put it out in the lobby shout out to my friend orwitz and arts gr for the great thingss they do we don't pay BRS get color copies we know what that costs and uh they send it every week we put it out and it's always beautiful but this grabbed my attention this past shabas I wanted to share it with you so this this isn't a letter from Rabbi ztz or art scroll I could pretend it is to me but it's not it's the newsletter to all of us and it has the following in it a young man Mor pansi became renowned throughout the leanian Torah world as a gon and a sadic of unusual proportions he was a man of great spirit had a tremendous influence on all those with whom he came in contact once he was riding on a train when a fellow passenger suddenly exclaimed oh no I missed my stop I'm a moel and I need to check on a baby now I have to get off of the next stop take a train in the other direction I've lost so much time I've lost my way I'm wasting so much time so Mori told the man said the following the Torah tells us that when haar Departed A's house last week's Pas after he sent her inal away Hagar became lost in the desert of Beva Rashi states she became lost in the sense she returned to worshiping Idols why wasn't Rashi satisfied with the literal meaning vesa she became lost that she simply could not find her way why does Rashia deviate from the translation the ti of the text the text says that she lost her way so say she was lost why do you have to say she lost her way spiritually that she returned to worshiping Idols the answer is that believing Jew knows that he's never lost Hashem is always with him if he seems to have lost his way then he can rest assured that Hashem will that this should happen if Hagar became lost obviously she no longer lived by the belief she had been taught in aram's house The train pulled into the next station the doors opened on the platform was a man shouting my wife had a baby boy today's the eth day does anyone know of a mo is anyone he a mo even if that story didn't have the happy ending thear Torah is beautiful and what was thear Torah Rashi reinterprets the words and Hagar got lost that she was lost spiritually she began to worship idols again what compelled Rashia to say that why not just translate it she was lost that's what the word means and that's what he explained because if a person ever feels lost if a person ever feels stuck they got to check themselves in their amuna maybe they've lost their way spiritually emotionally because if a person is highspeed connection to God if a person is constantly in conversation feels he's with us by our side guiding us hand on our shoulder I am where I'm meant to be at this red light or stuck at the train tracks with the train going or with a delayed flight or or at CVS with the non-printing pictures or the doctor's office where as a famous Jewish Comedian says it's called the waiting room for a reason be prepared be prepared and expect here has a whole great routine first they put you in the big waiting room they move you into another room which is really just a smaller waiting room where you're waiting for the doctor but they make you get undressed and sit on a wax paper you never heard his routine I expect them to put a pickle down and wrap you up like a deli sandwich sitting on the wax paper now you're just naked in the next little little waiting room waiting in cold you he has a whole routine he has a great great routine so wherever you're stuck or lost it's called the waiting room so just bring something to do and then you're not going to be miserable and resentful and bitter how long and what time and why do they bother giving an appointment and what does it even mean and how come that just it's the waiting room so just bring something to read or do or knit or sew or write or call or text and then you say I came expecting to wait and then you'll be disappointed when they call you but I'm not done reading my book I'm not done knitting my blanket why are they calling me so quickly just change the whole thing around change the whole thing around a Jew is never lost and if a Jew ever feels lost they're not geographically lost they are emotionally and amuna lost if we lost because we have to reconnect and recalibrate our Compass we are where we're meant to be where we're supposed to be a Jew a yid is never lost one more letter this one goes a little way back a couple months ago thank you ra so much for the amazing podcast blah blah blah I'd like to tell you the following a story last week Monday night I was gathering all my supplies for my nursing clinical the following morning I wasn't sure what I would do about ding as I needed to get to my clinical by 6:30 a.m. and it was very far away didn't want to rush it was also a brand new location I was wary of their parking garage situation nonetheless I remembered your sh and helping you and I've been listening to just an extra minute of daving can make a big difference in a person's day one more minute of daving or one minute all together of daving some days it's hard to fit in the time or to have the feeling of wanting to Davin one minute just one minute what one minute can do and again I'm not going to get into my poic about the ice bath or the breathing or the whatever but I am telling you I am Telling You by I just did I am telling you from personal experience that there are one minute things that we can do that you'll say it's one minute it really is going to make a difference yeah if you turn off your phone and you do some deep breathing for one minute it will change your life it's not me it's research it's it's Andrew uberman it's professors it's phds it's data it's not me Nima we've spoken about it countless times that the word n which is soul is the same word as nishima which means breath and we do too shallow breathing because we're looking down typing scrolling we're not breathing deep breathing we're rushing running going doing so we're not taking deep breaths and if you're ever feeling stressed out this is very counterintuitive this is very counterintuitive I'll tell you two counterintuitive things when when I'm feeling overwhelmed sitting in my office with the list of things that I have to get done I clean my desk now you'll say if you have no time why are you cleaning your desk you'll get to that when you have all the time in the world I don't know when that will ever be but when you have time that's what no no because sometimes when you're feeling scattered it's because you're dealing with scattered if you organize and straighten up now you feel now I could do it counterintuitive number one I was a free tip organizer that had nothing organized organize it's good for you be organized shout out to the organizer counterintuitive tip number two you have no time you're rushing you're running you have no time to spare is exactly when you need one minute just take deep I'm not going to do it with you right now I'm tempted but I'm not going to right five seconds breathing in hold it for five seconds 5 Second exhale through the nose out the M there's a lot of different attitude philosophy where to take it in expand the belly wiim off method there's a lot of me I'm not getting into it you do you figure it out what works for you I giving you homework next week at Misha you're going to come back and you're going to say I had a day where I was losing it on someone I was frustrated I was anxious I was angry I was overwhelmed and I stopped and for 60 seconds did and I'm I I am guaranteeing you you will come back and say it made a difference it just I just it made a difference it slowed everything down so the point is that there are little moments that we can take that make enormous differences the payoff the return on that little amount of time is enormous whether it is the ice b or whether it's breathing or whether it's one minute of doing a't a do you can't begin to compare a day in which you didn't have a conversation with god than one in which you had a one minute conversation with god and if you think you can compare I'll ask you what would a marriage look like on a day where there was Zero interaction versus even one minute how are you I'm thinking about you I wish we could be talking right now I'm connecting I'm making a bid for one minute children does a day that go by that I don't connect with my children our family they're going to kill me for this but my family WhatsApp group my children you have a WhatsApp group so you know on WhatsApp you could press video basically calls everybody and those who want to come on come on that basically starts in the morning that video chat goes on the whole day with different children and parents dropping on and dropping off and checking in and checking out and that's the Braha I give you because that's the ultimate br your kids actually want to be talking to each other to their parents in conversation filling in I'm giving you that Braha and I'm pushing off anyara and I'm telling everybody there is nothing more satisfying on the planet than they're wanting to be talking to each other except this morning when I pressed it to join on and my one little granddaughter started crying I don't want Zeta I want Eliana her cousin I was like good morning to you too so it doesn't always doesn't always pay off the way you want it to but that's the biggest in the world so if you if you on a day only got one minute on there that's not going to change your day Zero time connecting to your children or grandchildren or a 60-second connection I see you I know you I love you I feel you love me have a great day see you tomorrow ain't AA you can't compare one day to the next and if that's true with our spouse and it's true with our children it's also true with our father one minute Hashem I don't feel like talking to you today I don't have time to talk to you today I'm not saying these are thoughts that we promote or encourage but they are real that people have their obligations of daving I'm I'm not I'm not weighing in here in the I'm just saying that the reality is particularly with women sometimes there's no time there are other responsibilities sometimes people are not in a place but one minute you can't compare one minute back to this email one extra minut D can make a big difference in one day in one life as a result I said to myself that this one week I can make it work and made sure to D at home exactly at NES to avoid looking for a corner in the hospital at a later appointed D I got to my clinical on time without any difficulties now here's the catch since it was my first time in this parking garage as I was leaving for the day I didn't realize it was a oneway you would think all the cars going one way would have been a clue in addition to all the parking spaces being a slant in One Direction but I didn't think anything of it I just kept working on turning my car around I started to go down the garage quickly realized I was going the wrong way they stopped their cars that I and I apologized profusely realizing what I did was wrong they were kind understanding they said they would stay where they were to block any incoming cars while I tried to turn myself back around I thanked the person profusely I proceeded to back up my car now parking is not my strong suit I don't know if that was on the sh resume or not but parking is not my strong suit and I did not know how to back up into the slanted parking space didn't even try what I did do however is when I got back into the parking spot I was originally in I parked at an awful angle didn't allow me to turn myself around I was stuck I couldn't figure out how to manve my car without hitting the car to my right not sure what to do I decided to get out of my car ask for help but a couple minutes later kind lady parked near me asked and I asked her to help me she did within 30 seconds my car was parked correctly no issues I thanked the lady and we both went on our ways a lot of humility takes humility to say I'm stuck we're never stuck I feel stuck I need help I'm asking for help you bet your life savings that this author of this email is not a man I'm asking for help and I got the help and I'm ready to go and I'm ready to go I was I was thinking to myself during and afterwards this is the kicker this is the point of this email then we'll get into learning I was thinking to myself both during and afterwards how one extra minute of doin can make a difference Hashem sent me such kind people to help me with this looking back quite hilariously but obviously stressful in the moment situation do I know if this is exactly the reason I was able to get helped and be safe only Hashem knows what I do know is that I felt extremely extreme driving back thanking Hashem for having me be safe grateful I took the extra couple minutes to Davin that morning will I be able to do that in future weeks honestly probably not but I do think it's important to remember that every small Mitzvah maida intention matters I remembered in the moment to stay calm to have a will work out Hashem helped it work out one extra minute of davue what it could do don't let a don't let a day go by one minute there's no one here who could say they don't have one minute everybody has one minute if you think you don't have one minute give me your phone I'll look through it and I'll show you you have plenty of minutes we all have minutes we all have minutes one minute I bid for connection to talk to to hear him talking to us to feel connected one minute is an enormous Game Changer okay very grateful to my friend jar David for sending it to me is a new for the teachings of inar the North of Israel he should be safe his community should be safe grandson of the babali family if you've ever gotten the great the great cabalist so he gives a series of they collected his talk into this wonderful work and published it specifically now during this difficult year in Israel and naria we're talking the northernmost point of Israel that community and what they are and have gone through we do for them you know who are the most forgotten population this past 14 months how about the displaced people from the north 880,000 displaced not home not with their things not going to their work their kids not in their school how could it be how are we tolerating how are we tolerating 80,000 people kids not in their school not at work not working their fields and their Vineyards wineries that have shut down that have closed their business it's not acceptable how could it be how in the world could it be how could it be we have to do whatever is necessary with whatever it takes to return people to where they to their homes that's what a country owes its citizens there's nothing at talk about it's not we don't owe other innocent civilians more than we own our own owe our own innocent civilians go in do what it takes get it done get people home okay nobody's asking my opinion says the following again there copies here if anybody wants I was about to read it the way he would if a person lives with you're living a different life two people standing next to each other one has a relationship with God one is in conversation with god one feels and hears God talking to them one is stuck one says I'm never stuck one sometimes is lost the other says I'm never lost one Longs for and craves all these missing things the other says I have exactly what I have the two people both look like they're human beings on Earth they both seem like they're similar from the same species but they are categorically different you cannot compare a life of living with amuna a life without a life in with God by our side in our ear hand on our shoulder to facing this world and this life on our own figuring it out by ourselves said when a when a Jew lives their day that there's nothing random there's nothing chance and there are no coincidences everything is from shamayim the technology worked today or it didn't work I wasn't able to stream today connection worked or we cut out it didn't work everything went according to plan or the plan blew up everything is by Design carefully choreographed curated from above meant specifically for me every little movement every step you take it's all from Hashem remember last week's letter person who twisted their ankle and almost fell while running in the middle of the street could have gotten hit by a car ended up continuing their run until they fell later on a track where and they said to themselves that was also Hashem every step we take did you step in the hole and twist your ankle did you catch yourself you didn't twist your ankle did the person fall and break their hip and spiral downward or did it work out that they were okay it's all from above we make a blessing we make a every day every morning we wake up there's a series of 15 blessings we say we call them the morning blessings the morning God you open my eyes and I can see wow I can see there are people wake up I can't see people wake up detached retina floaters cataracts Immaculate degeneration people wake they went to sleep the night before they never even even appreciated that they could see they took it for granted it's a given what do you mean I'm entitled to see I signed up for seeing I'm I should see why don't I get seeing that comes with my package called life who says I shouldn't see until they wake up the next morning wh why can't I see why is everything fuzzy why isn't it clear so we make AEM you let us you let us see you give sight to the blind 15 blessings like that wow this worked that worked the other thing worked wow what a br what a something stops working person person never thinks about the blessing of relieving themselves we eat we eliminate we Rel we move on with our day we got stuff to do that's not exactly something that we talk about think about focus on until you can't anymore the person who needs God forbid a catheter the person who has a bladder infection or diagnosis a person who suffering or struggling with a digestive disorder person in the other direction a person all of a sudden excruciatingly painful challenging can't eliminate crisis emergency surgery reection coloss all kinds of all of a sudden ASAT is not a br you race through you run through that you say is while you're walking to the next thing all of a sudden we wake up every morning and we're meant to take a few moments and take an invent oh this works thank you that work thank you the other thing still working thank you wow thank you it's a big deal it's not small ask someone who had stopped working and one of the bras one of the blessings we make is God you prepare the footsteps of man you prepare our footsteps where I'm gonna go today am I gonna get there today will my shoes fit will I step in a hole will I step on a nail will I get a splinter will I trip and fall will I arrive safely where are my footsteps and where will they take me that's you now do you believe it or you don't believe it do you believe God is preparing your footsteps God is walking with us do you believe God is alongside or not because if you don't you're saying God's name in vain it's a through this we can save ourselves from a bitter painful miserable negative pessimistic depressed despondent anxious life so if you don't believe in God I don't know how you get out of bed in the morning you wake up you open your eyes and you say this one's gonna fail me that one's gonna destroy me this one's how will that work out I don't know if that's going to come together this thing could fall apart I could get in a car accident I could get diagnosed with an illness I could have a heart attack what about about my children my grandchildren my work my efforts my thing I'm just going to stay in bed for the day for the rest of Life what enables us empowers us encourages us to get out of bed Hashem I don't know what you got in store in the adventure call today let's do it let's go let's see where you take me in my footsteps today let's see where today leads me I I just did an interview with someone the other day about the Rabin it and I said what I love about it is not no two days are the same no two hours are the same and no two hours are predictable have no idea what's going to happen I'll tell you an amazing story that happened last week just occurred to me so I I'm if you can't tell I'm on this a little bit of a health kick trying happen to be hitting a milestone and I feel like you get certain chances in life this is it you know there's a clock that's ticking and get it together get it together while you can so I'm working on some things and one of the things I made myself a spreadsheet I don't know what I had this morning that I'm sharing so much today I find out if my kids listen to the amuna here because I say things that they have reactions to so so you know there's Peter duer who's a management expert who literally The Authority wrote the book management for the secular World business world he had a great statement a quote that I love what gets measured gets managed what gets measured gets managed if you're keeping track in measuring it you're going to do it if you just don't and it's in your head and you're bluffing yourself you're not managing anything so I made myself a spreadsheet I'm into it now several weeks into it and I have categories and it's every day trying to track how many hours I slept did I do my ice bath several things several things some things I could still keep private several things and one of them is my goal is every day at one point to walk around the lake and come back it it's less than it's a few minutes to do not a gra achievement but it clears your head you do some breathing and if I can do it if I have a meeting with someone I'll say to some people they'll come to me I say you up for a walk again now's the weather no offense if you're listening elsewhere but now's the weather so go you up for a walk let's go for a walk let's go for a walk someone came to meet with me I said y for a walk let's go for a walk walk around the lake once twice a few minutes it's a it's a great way to have a conversation so we go for a walk for our meeting I come back there's somebody sitting outside my office I never saw I never met before and they were in crisis they were in an emergency situation an emergency situation and it happened to be it happened to be that the person I was with has an expertise in the crisis that they were in and it took the next two and a half hours of helping and working with that personala police it was a whole episode a whole episode and I jokingly said to the person afterwards I said why' we go for that walk if you would have met me in my office we would have saved two and a half hours of our life right we wouldn't have been coming back he was sitting there would have been in my office from there into would have been good but then I caught myself and I realized Hashem arranges our footsteps I we were meant to go on that walk in that moment to encounter that person to be there to help them and to get them in the direction hopefully please God Hashem should shower with love and help in the direction they need to go I woke up that morning I had no idea right I was getting the text where are you I'm dealing with something I hopefully will'll be home soon I had no idea where those footsteps would leave me that day no idea what Hashem had in store that day how many of us on a given day know what what's in store on that Adventure called life hasem arranges our footsteps and he arranged our footsteps that day go for a walk why that meeting not another meeting why that time why I walk that day why did he agree why not he arranges our footsteps and it led where we're meant to be to encounter who we're meant to encounter to help however we're meant to help to see what we're meant to see to intervene how we're meant to intervene when you say that every morning thank you I can see thank you my legs work thank you my digestive system works thank you everything's working M hasem release those who are held hostage and bound we never knew what that meant why am I saying that blessing my whole life M now we understand why we're actually saying release that which is bound in me what I'm holding myself Hostage to become the person I meant to be that's what the intent back in Sitter snippet 600 Snippets ago that's what we said but now we have a new understanding M release the captives release them let them go bring them home bring them back release them but meansem let my feet work I don't want to step anything get a splinter twist my ankle break my leg break my hip need a knee replacement let it all work that's the simple understanding but more than the simple right depending where you are in life you have different cavana and that blessing let this work let that not break down let that need to be replaced let that right keep the original components but whatever stage or age of life but the deeper understanding for all of us of is I don't know where you're leading me today I don't know I don't know where my steps will take me I'm with you let's go let's do it let's find out let's see and I know you'll be by my side all along I'll never be lost I'll never be lost and I'll never be stuck because you arranged my footsteps and you brought me to CVS with a incompetent person working the picture thing CVS you brought me to the you brought me to the thing you brought me such beautiful Hebrew such a beautiful poetic description he's quoting the and then is adding in his own words you can't compare a life with hasem and a life without person who wakes up and says I don't know what's in store today it's probably going to be miserable and and the fate and Karma and the universe has it has it in for me and every day is terrible that's one life the other life is Hashem may not be easy it may be hard work may be painful not pleasant but I I'm I'm waiting to see where bring us today what's in store today where do my steps take me today and if you could live the second life connection clinging Hashem is with us he's on this journey he's on the walk whenever I go on that walk it's with who I a meeting with and it's with Hashem I'm with the meeting and Hashem you don't mind if Hashem joins us we're gonna go for a walk together right we don't really have a choice he's with us either way till we can get to a point to we live our life in the shadow in the shade of and we are being nourished from the supply of Heaven the Heavenly spiritual Supply is nourishing our soul because we're walking in the shadow in the shade of Hashem he's on every walk he's in every car ride he's on the plane boat Planes Trains and Automobiles he's with us every second wherever we go you can't compare that's the life that's what we're working on that's what we're trying to achieve why are we doing it he doesn't need it it's not for him not for his ego not for himself he doesn't need it he doesn't need our help he's not lonely he needs us yes he needs us he needs us because he's choosing to need us to have that relationship like a like a parent but we're doing it because we're enriched we're better we're calm we're happy we're healthy we're not envious we're not arrogant we're not anxious it's a different life it's an all together different life when you can say I've shared with you again many times before living with the Mauna things would bother me I'd get anxious I'd be upset at myself at others I meant to say that in the drush I can't believe I left that out that story that closed now whenever anything like that happens I say okay that's the way it was meant literally it gives you the tools and the strength to let go and move on not become not become paralyzed or debilitated because that was the way it was meant to be okay you learn for next time take better notes look at your note figure it out whatever but yeah if that happen that way that's how that was meant to happen now learn from it move on don't perseverate in it don't go backwards don't get stuck that's also last week's para L is rescued and saved from Stone before it's destroyed he and his family are told don't look back if you do you'll turn into a pillar of Soul the historian Josephus claims to have seen that pillar of salt that was Lo's wife Lo turned around Lo's wife rather turned around she wasn't entitled to look back at the evil people that she should have been included with their fate she wasn't entitled to look at it she did turn around she turned into a pillar of salt literally figuratively metaphorically most beautiful interpretation I've seen is that what is salt Salt's a preservative if you want to preserve something for it to not spoil salt is a preservative to turn into a pillar of salt when you turn around means you're stuck in the past don't get stuck in the past yes you associated with them yeah that was your crew that was your crowd that was your jam that's how you ran that's how you were living but live forward that's it don't turn around don't look back don't have Nostalgia don't look back don't still feel connected we've made mistakes something didn't go our way we came up short don't turn around and get stuck don't become a pillar of salt don't be preserved in perpetuity that way look forward we end ashre says God we want to praise you how because I'm living now going forward the biggest praise for hem is I'm not stuck in the past 30 years ago and 20 years ago and I can't believe and it happened and it you know there are people they're stuck in high school the big game happen a camp the person that they gave up who they used to date the real estate they could have owned the B job they didn't take take enough we've heard about that move on that's it you're forfeiting your life today and tomorrow because you can't get past yesterday don't get stuck in the past it's lovely every now and then Nostalgia open the album flip through the pictures then close it and move on and lean into your life today the biggest praise we have forem we can praise you how may from today the I'm not living in the stock I'm not turning my life into a pillar of salt I'm not being preserved in the past I'm with you we're going forward we're going forward tomorrow when you live a life of amuna you can't compare two lives two worlds two existences you can't compare what it does for us what it gives us we're never lost we're never stuck never get angry don't feel arrogant don't be envious of others live a life Joy Of Happiness of Serenity of equinity of Peace live that life that's what Amun could give us want to get much further we're going to keep going going but that's I have two pieces of homework for next week two pieces of homework number one breathe Nima even do it runs right now you ready you're not going to tell me you don't feel difference one breath your whole body you just relax your muscles your neck your back your you can't tell me you don't feel different your Nish is not restored a little bit just breathe minimum of one minute of DAV in a day obviously much more beautiful stay now do one minute of we'll finish all as we do each and every week one minute of Ding A day one minute of breathing a day and organize your stuff get it together okay if you want a uh take a caffeinate with cavana take a book Turn the Page there's an iPad in the lobby you want to make a donation 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