Living With Emunah (Part 302) - Hashem Ish Milchama

good morning BTO may it be good morning BOS toos may we hear good news please God from our brothers and sisters in Israel the hostages should come home our soldiers should return to their families we should have a sweeping victory over our enemies the amuna series is generously sponsored by Dr zavi and Bella Morgan a memory of Rabbi Dr Brian galet and a memory of Bella's mother Dr Ellen chander we remain very grateful to the Morgans the sh is also sponsored by AEL at burkowitz in honor of the upcoming wedding of dor burkowitz and Jacob pen the to build a bias okay well done well done appreciate everybody's flexibility with the time of the she today just came from a bris a big ma to the of the South Florida to Rabbi and reiton Rosenfeld on the birth and bris of their son mam David name for of David Sal Mich David he should grow to give them tremendous I had the I'm saying this not to flex but to give a I had the the Merit to be the sandic at the bris and it's brought down that when you're a sandic you have the power to give BR it's a long line of people after now I don't know how long the sandic holds the charge I don't know how long the charge lasts I'm not in the seat anymore I'm certainly as a person unworthy the chair and uh and being the the lap of the bris was but I give you all and us all and anyone listening everywhere BR we should all have good health we should have longevity we should have NAS from our family we should grow in Torah in should have peace in Israel and around the world andm should answer please God from one to a next next week we have a wedding in New York so the amuna is gonna be on Thursday not Wednesday pay attention carefully to the amuna WhatsApp group and you will always be informed about when we are meeting when we are learning and where you can find us in mem we should always have to reschedule because of going from please God couple of amuna emails and then we'll dive into a new liud there are copy sitting here if you'd like it's going to take a several weeks to learn it you could keep it and bring it back or put it back on the table afterwards and we'll continue to learn a beautiful new piece by the P but first a couple of emails dear Rabbi I really enjoy listening to living amuna I appreciate the words of wisdom blah blah blah blah I've been thinking of sending you an experience I had for a while and finally decided to write it down and send it several months ago my father passed away at a ripe old age and after having lived a very full and wonderful life he's still very missed I did not grow up in an observant home but I'm observant now my parents and siblings always seem to respect the religious observance that my husband and I and my children choose to follow so when my father passed away and the funeral arrangements were made by my siblings who are not observant I was very upset I so wanted to make sure my father was buried in the most dignified and respectful manner as well as in a Hally correct manner however I was not consulted by my siblings as much as I tried to explain the importance of having the burial as ASAP no one would budge for various reasons no one one other than my immediate family understood the importance of this I kept on talking and praying to Hashem to help me honor my dad and fulfill the mitz of respecting my dad with a proper funeral and burial then several days later once the body of my late father was finally transported to New Jersey I received a call from the local Rabbi of the kadisha asking me to confirm my father's Hebrew name and which shroud to select for my father the rabbi explained the Shroud that was selected is Hally acceptable but the linen shroud is preferable because that's what the priest used and it's no longer than the one that was originally selected and it's longer than the one that was originally selected I felt hasm really heard my prayers by allowing me the opportunity to honor my father with a dignified and respectful Banner burial according to Al I confirmed my father's HEB name we selected the linen shroud for my father to this day I have no idea how the kadish obtained my contact info since I had nothing to do with the arrangements but of course Hashem has his ways thank you for help strengthening Muna sh really share help me keep my inm strong at a difficult time sincerely so and so so again person DAV so badly to Hashem help me honor my father wasn't involved in the arrangements no reason that she would have received the call but she got the call that helped her honor her father so never give up a yid never gives up a yid never gives up y Shalom a yid never has y we never have despair we never give up we always D we keep coming back Hashem has his ways and if the funeral director of the kadish is meant to find us they will find us and if they're not meant to find us and they didn't find us then we also shouldn't feel bad in life we can only do the best that we can and then we surrender and leave the last rest up to him we let go and we let God because he is the one in charge and he is the one in control one more email and then we'll dive into our new lamood together dear go must be by sharing living is having a deeply spiritual impact on my life in a time that feels very hard for me personally as well as intensely painful for all the Jewish people I find Sol's comfort and safety in the sheum thank you the other day I was listening to episode 300 and I felt there was rues holy spiritual calling where I felt many coincidental connections from the words of Torah you were speaking to my own life I don't think I shared this one last week did I at the start of the sh you mentioned speaking with Ma's parents a holy martyr of the Jewish people a paratrooper and God who left us in such an untimely and tragic way which if if you didn't hear you should listen to the behind the beam a couple weeks ago where we interviewed Ma's parents who are extraordinary people in their own right who described how MA lived and died the same way which was ales hasem and the candle that he kept burning through his life of learning and the way he left this world it's well worth listening to them incredibly inspiring so the author of the email writes Rabbi Goldberg I have a six degree of separation connection to myos without revealing too many details his cousin is profoundly important member of my own Community few weeks ago I hosted women in my home where we learned the in his memory was very special safer for M and it felt appropriate to begin with the Quiet Brilliance of the introduction to that safer during this night of learning hearing you mentioned connecting with moses' parents felt very full circle Godly in fact and not coincidental at all may alah from the beautiful Torah learned in his memory second part of myuna journey goes like this a year and a half ago I was hosting Friday night dinner in my home beautiful lovely with good friends delicious food outside as the weather was magnificent at some point during the meal I looked across the table and my husband who seldom complains looked off to me I asked if he was okay and everyone stopped talking while he nodded slowly let's go inside I suggested and he got up to go inside and was walking very very slowly I shouted something is wrong and the guest jumped out of their chairs and caught my husband as he collapsed and passed out on our patio I work very I work very quickly in emergencies this is something I know about myself I ran inside and called 911 as our dear friends carried my unconscious husband inside we spent the night in the hospital and everything was okay bar hasem no extensive testing was required the doctors choed it up to exhaustion stress typical stuff but very scary nonetheless fast forward to this past December it was Friday night again this time we're at a friend's house for an own type of get together food drinks friends Lively conversation my husband did look a bit tired that night and he had shared with me that it had been a long week prior to coming to our friend's house at one point during the evening my husband left to get some water moments later I heard a crash and 25 people got up and raced around the corner I knew without even seeing him that he had collapsed and he had unfortunately this time he hit his head very hard on a granite countertop splitting open his forehead gushing blood while passed out on the floor this time I was not okay the trauma from the first time had barely healed everyone jumped into action I'll spare the details but it was Dire and traumatic he continued losing and ging Consciousness seizing and more I'm shaking just thinking about the experience we rushed into the ambulance unfortunately got worse at the hospital before it got better because he had hit his head so hard there was a significant loss of blood and fear of concussion he required an MRI and CT scan of his brain this time we didn't leave the hospital unscathed they found a small blip on the MRI which the doctor shared could be fine could be bad we'll have to wait six weeks and see if there are any changes before we determine what it is he was a grueling six weeks of waiting before the next scan during those six weeks AR RV called to check in and said bsam can do all the scans they want man doctors can do all the scans they want want Hashem decides what's on the scans now we DAV the day of the MRI arrived a top neurologist shared the results the blip is a small cluster of enlarged blood vessels most likely the cluster has only always been there since my husband was born these blood vessels need to be monitored yearly with a brain as they have the potential to burst which God forbid could be very dangerous now that we know my husband has this we have the knowledge and power to do everything we can to monitor the situation and treat it if needed like if the size or location changes which we'll know during the yearly MRI my husband asked the doctor is this condition connected to my collapsing and fainting the doctor said absolutely not they have nothing to do with why you collaps the collapsing was just bad luck but Rabbi Goldberg we all know there's no such thing as bad luck I know with my whole heart that hashm created an environment where my husband had extra tiring weeks so he would faint so that we' get extra testing so we'd find the cluster of vessels so we could monitor to them and God willing keep him from having something very dangerous happening thank you Hashem thank you Hashem for seeing the whole ire picture with all its intricate parts thank you hash for giving us something we can handle for the opportunity to be able to monitor something with negative potential thank you Reb for guing me and seeing the little Sparks of light Nuna in my life experiences may we all know mo no more pain and sorrow may hasem bring the Redemption of his people speedily and without delay wishing you a peaceful and beautiful shabas so again a person it's another example could be miserable and bitter why do you have to collapse why do you have to split his head open why do I have to keep going back to the hospital why does he have to have this cluster of blood vessels or you can say Hashem there's a master plan it's all orchestrated it all comes picture comes into uh is a little clear now and why things that happen so these amuna emails give us strength to live our lives and see Hashem in our life like my daughter the other day who when her daughter threw up everywhere put in our has group thank God it happened while the help was still here and could help me clean it up has the timing of her daughter's vomit if that's not hash I don't know what is so but we always say are the big things and the little things for medical things and life-altering things and life-threatening things to someone was there she watches three kids and her husband travels to New York so for work so she needed that help it's hard to watch three babies under two and clean vomit so she said it's that it happened when it happened her mother also thinks it's h because otherwise she probably would have been there cleaning the vomit I don't think it's as because there was no way I was going to clean that vomit even if there was no one else in the world maybe maybe if there was no one else in the world and then then it's a big maybe but anyway but that you have to have that hasus WhatsApp group you have to keep that family diary and journal you have to look to see the hand of Hashem in everything in the way the things work out nothing is a coincidence everything is by Design and therefore that's the common piece that we can have not to live anxious and worried and nervous and what will be it's all part of the adventure called life and we'll see how it turns out and that's it's hard to do when you're waiting for six weeks to the next MRI to find out what that blood clot means or blood cluster means it's hard to say oh it's a fun adventure let's see how it turns out it's hard but what's the alternative to go crazy to drive oneself crazy we spoke about last week did not write that the main thing is to not be afraid he said the main thing is not to make ourselves afraid not to create anxiety and panic not to create worry to let go and let God and realize I do everything I can and I do the best I can and after that I let go and it's up to him because there is no alternative which brings us up to this piece in front of you comes from the a collection of the sermons and the speeches of the p man who was the P Manas man alter who was the previous G Reb he lived 1926 to 1996 and uh he was born in Poland but then was in first he was the G rash and then he became after his half brother passed away who was the previous rebba he became the we studied something previously of his the the the so this was or this was immediately before the which is otherwise known as the Persian Gulf War this was a speech that he delivered shortly before the outbreak but when we all knew it was coming if you remember the news was braced it was a different world than the way we live in now now before the news reports there are videos that already come online of everything that happens because of the internet and WhatsApp and cell phones and cameras but then everybody was hanging tight and holding tight to the news my first cousin got married in Israel the night of the first scut attack my sister was in Israel for her year in Israel her Gap Year my father went for the wedding which was a question do you go or not go into what is possibly a war zone what's amazing do you remember how many missiles total were shot in the person go for towards Israel it was under 50 I think it was under 50 total and there were all these discussions of what a miracle it was there were people who passed out from anxiety and panic and fear think there was one person who lost their life because of that had a heart condition and the fear of the of the scud missiles but if you remember the world marveled and we couldn't believe and we SP spoke about the N the revealed miracles of 50 or 60 missiles and nobody was directly killed I think there were 50 missiles yesterday in the north and one person was killed in kirona from the missile in the north how the world has so radically changed and what we defined as what we tolerate do you remember then also that Israel was ready to respond and America begged Israel don't get involved we've got this we're fighting Iraq who who uh invaded Kuwait don't get involved even if they launch Miss Israel had nothing to do with it why launch missiles at Israel because Iraq invaded Kuwait and America attacked Iraq so you launch missiles at Israel you remember it was 1990 nothing to do with it but because why not Israel is and always was and sadly seems it will be the target No Matter What whose conflict it is and it was so relatively few missiles less than an hour today and and the world said Israel you have a right to respond but don't we got it now everybody says and we saw the extension in the UN cease fire even with a barrage of missiles like that in an hour and people getting killed but if you remember everybody was tied to the news and um and is this war going to break out will missiles come to Israel the big danger was if they would have chemical heads chemical weapons that's why everyone was fitted for gas masks the pictures of my cousin's wedding they're all dancing with the gas mask around their arm and that night was the first scut attack and they couple spent that night in the sealed room with the rest of the wedding party as the alarms and Sirens wailed and the scuds the first scuds came over so as we were bracing and the world was watching and the world was getting ready and Israel Was preparing and distributing these masks that's when the P living in leading the gas that's when he delivered this that was the timing of this and many of its messages and messaging are relevant to us right now which is why I want to share it and learn it together as we are now have puram in the rearview mirror and we're looking through the windshield at pesak and it's coming quickly coming quickly let's start from the second paragraph we begin with the words of the gar the May we're told that a prophecy a prediction that Los in the future the almighty will come holding on to a Torah SC will be holding this Torah and I'll say whoever learned it and lived it whoever was promoting it and sharing it whoever was occupied and preoccupied with it come and receive your reward come and get your reward that was the reason and purpose for my whole world was this Torah this is the instruction manual and the blueprint this is the value system in the ideology this was what was supposed to guide the world so if you were part of that plan if you lived it and loved it and taught it and shared it then come get your reward whole purpose of the world is one big stage and one big platform for Torah Torah is our guide this is a world of interpersonal relationships to Identity appetite and cravings and drives this is a world Bound by time this is a physical world with physical components how do we navigate it your vacuum cleaner which is infinitely less complicated than the world comes with instructions right your food processor which is infinitely less complicated than you comes with instruction manual so where's our instruction manual how do you know how to use you what's the manual to you who are you how do you operate what happens when something malfunctions and you have a virus and it's not working where's the instruction manual to us how do we connect with others how do we relate to others how do we react to others how do we build relationships how do we have responsibility to have children if you want to drive a car you have to take driving lessons you have to pass a driving test if you want to be you if you want to be married you get a marriage license but there's no test that says are you self selfish or selfless are you narcissistic or you have care about others are you only concerned with overpowering and micromanaging or can you be M do you have the ability to surrender to the will of others could you imagine Hal you should have such a mar to get a marriage license you should have to take a marriage test but we don't to get up to become a parent you become a parent it should be that before you are entitled to conceive should have to pass the parenting test right are you a good role model will you show the selflessness to clean up the child's vomit even if the help is not there and so on but yet there's no test there's no instruction manual not to be married not to be a parent not to engage a diet not how to live related to time not how to combat drives and instincts and impulses so the answer is there is an instruction manual to all of that here's the incredible news while the world wasn't given it we have it we have it so everyone else got the vacuum cleaner with no instruction manual in the Box everyone else got the food processor with no instruction manual on the box and no website that has a backup C copy we we got the box and we got the instruction manual in it and that instruction manual is called the Torah and Hashem says here it is here's my guide here's my instruction here's the blueprint for life and you can live the most meaningful and purposeful life the most meaningful and purposeful life now my brother shared I don't know how he got it my mother's first cousin at his bar mitzvah my mother's first Cousin Sal sent his parents a letter wishing ma sent him a letter wishing Ma so he writes in the letter wishing Ma see why I'm mentioning this in a moment he writes in the letter wishing ma please accept my warmest greetings and congratulations it was handwritten and he didn't have the best handwriting upon the barit celebration of your son May the Almighty bestow upon Him blessings and guide him along the path of a creative and meaningful life and then he quotes something some kazal in Hebrew that I can't read isn't it interesting when Sal was giving a for azv boy what he wished was a creative and meaningful life I don't think I've ever filled out a card that way for a creative and meaningful life isn't that interesting meaningful yes mindful yes productive yes Mission driven yes but creative it's a big insight into the R into a salv into brisker for a brisker the definition of a successful life is a creative life if you weren't creative if you weren't creative that wasn't a meaningful life isn't that interesting you don't find that nearly as interesting as I do but I find that really interesting that that the definition of a successful and meaningful life for the RV for a brisker is a creative life creative okay but a meaningful life we have the instruction manual Tor Torah tells you here's how to relate to food and space and intimacy and time and marri and parenting and everything so the tells us our rabbis are telling us that is going to hold up this tor he's going to say if you accepted and embraced my instruction manual and you lived according to it come get your reward so who are the first who are going to come try to get a piece of that reward collect on it you know who's gonna come Rome the Empire of Rome and why they get to go first because the Roman Empire the great Roman Empire because of their Grandeur their greatness is gonna say what right do you have what's your entitlement do you know how many marketplaces we opened Rome you know how many malls and marketplaces how much merchandise we produced how many bath houses we created you know why we made kiosks and malls so Israelis would have a place to work when they came to America we did it all for the Jewish people you know why we made these be houses so Jews could go to the schitz and then get back to the Bas Med they'd be able to enjoy a good schitz and then they could go back to the Bas medish we did it all for Torah hasem says what do you think I'm a fool Romans you did it all for yourselves you did it all for your pleasure you did it all for your enjoyment who are you fooling who are you kidding you didn't do it for my children for the Jewish people you didn't do it for my Torah get lost you have no right so Hashem kicked out the representatives of the Roman Empire and who came in next representative of pers Persia Persia where's Persia Iran so the malas and the shiks and the ayas of Iran came in I want to dismiss them so easily because the truth is there is an illustrious history between Persia and the Jews King kores we can thank for having built the second Bas of mikdash he helped bring the Redemption this Return of the second temple the second B mdash so there is a positive association with Persia not only what we think of today as thean of today so comes in comes in you know how many bridges we built and certainly we can appreciate today after what happened in Baltimore yesterday but you know I don't know maybe I'll speak about this on chabas it should have taught us something in in in Surf Side it's not crazy that the building in Surf side collapsed it's a miracle every building that stands it's not insane that a bridge collapsed it's insane how many bridges we travel over regularly that stand I don't want to make anyone Panic next time they go over a bridge the point is of course Engineers should study it we have to figure out what happened with that ship and the communication and what went wrong and was there interference not minimizing the loss and the tragedy and we ding for all the families who were affected and our reaction should be empathy and sympathy and love and support but also gratitude hasem every time I go over a bridge I should bench gomo what a miracle that Engineers can cross a body of water and that we safely can Traverse it what a miracle what a miracle it's absolutely extraordinary so Mal the Persian Persian Representatives come and they say Hashem you're T you know why we get a piece of that because we built all these Bridges and why do we do it conquered many cities we started many wars you know why we built the bridges you know why we conquered those territories you know why we started initiated Wars so the Jewish people could learn Torah who are you kidding you did it all for yourselves you did it all for your ambition you know why you made Bridges so you could in a toll that's why you made Bridges it's a big Sim the Atlantic Bridge finally takes Easy Pass finally big Sim so why do you make bridges you know what it cost to go over the George Washington Bridge today if there weren't enough reasons to move to Florida move to Israel of course but on the way to Israel Florida you know what it cost to go over the George Washington Bridge One Way $17 it's a lot of money your daily commute okay whatever it is anyway you know why a kid from Tek dated a girl from the five towns that was called geographically undesirable George Washington Bridge toll the trior toll gas also you had to George Washington Bridge trior to Manhattan Trio cost of a restaurant in Manhattan parking in Manhattan back to Five Towns back to find parking where you couldn't that hour so you left it and you got a parking ticket every date was like a mortgage on a house was she worth more than worth it she was more the figer wants to know was she worth it many times over many times over you know why someone's got to clean up the vomit I'm just joking I'm joking that's not the reason she's worth it many many many more times than that I would give everything and then some I'd build Bridges myself so why were bridges built hm says to the Mal you didn't build the bridges for the Jewish people you did it so you can make a toll cities because you wanted to conquer and Wars you didn't initiate Wars says Hashem you know who created the wars me you say it in our daving Hashem says you think you started the wars no war starts without my greenlighting it no war starts without my pressing go ad that's the gamarra strange gamar what a gamarra hashem's gonna hold the Torah he's gonna say anybody who took part in this come get your reward Rome's gonna come give some argument Hashem is gonna say get out of here get lost you fraudsters and then Persia's gonna come's gonna say get lost you it for yourselves but in the get lost you didn't start the wars I started the wars say the of the of every nation has their inclination every nation has their nature every nature nation has their Essence every nation has their Kryptonite what's their Kryptonite what's that nation's aill heal maled RI the kingdom of Christendom what we call Edom which is the final gas that we still find ourselves in today the longest gas by far we spoke about yesterday the par here that Z was suffering he was only 1700 years until the gas work were coming up on 2,000 years of this Gus Egypt was 400 years and the second gas was 70 years and this gas is coming up on 2,000 years this is a long long Gus and we begin to see the beginning of redemption the return to our land and as we wrote about last week paskin a soldier when they put on their uniform in Israel makes a Yu that after 2,000 years we have our own uniform shanu on getting their weapon because after 2,000 years we have our own tanks and we have our own guns and we have our own Navy we have our own Air Force and we have our own Elite Commandos so that's aanu not because we Embrace not because we celebrate violence because the capacity to defend ourselves that's all the beginning of a Redemption but if October 7th and until now taught us anything it's that even as we've tasted the beginning of redemption we are still in the Deep darkness of of Exile I was texting with a mother of a hostage yesterday and the way she ended the text with a line about how she can't breathe daily because of the pain that she's in and how hard it is to catch her breath on a daily basis the darkness of the Exile we're still in this is the malus of Edom of Christendom that began in Rome why Rome because that was the capital of Christianity and even though today perhaps jury still out there is a warmer relationship between Christianity and Judaism for 2,000 years it was directly and indirectly responsible all the way through the Holocaust as accomplices to mass murder and attempted extermination of Jews and that's why this Exile is still the Exile of Edom of Rome Turn the Page and also all the later exiles this fourth Exile has many cycles and many oppressors this fourth Exile of Christendom that began in Rome has many oppressors and persecutors along the way Spanish Inquisition and expulsion the Germans and the poles ukrainians there are no shortage of uh participants who were part of the oppressors of this fourth exile and what's their Achilles their Kryptonite their Yahara they want wealth and extravagance they want Indulgence so they made bath houses and coliseums and malls and they want the entire world to submit and surrender to this Instinct of of commercialism of of Industry of extravagance of opulence and they'll claim later that they didn't do it for themselves they did it all for the Jewish people and you know what Persians love conquering and killing that's what they love they're not tempted by introducing coliseums and the aesthetic and and extravagance and opulence and ostentatiousness you know what Persians love their Achilles heal they love to conquer they love to kill they love to show their might they love to control the the Persians have no peace because they just want to conquer they're just in Conflict there's just tension there's never peace what about Islam and the the the child of the continuity The Offspring of Persia is Islam and what is Islam peram isal just wants to conquer and coers the world to observe them that's why it's the religion that has Jihad jiad is holy war to force sh law on the world because it's not even though the Jewish people we the Jewish people have a vision and an image of what the world should look like the Jewish people who are obligated in 613 mitzvos and the rest of the world who worship and embrace and accept the same God but are bound only by seven sh in our vision if we are successful if we can transform the World in God's image the whole world will be made up of two people the Jewish people and everyone else everyone else also we're all worshiping and loving and recognizing and seeing and speaking to the same Hashem and they have seven obligations to him and we have six3 because we're the Honor Society so we have extra obligations that's our vision but in order to achieve our vision we have no holy war not only do we not look to conquer or coers or force or initiate war with anyone we don't even prosze we don't even promote we're not even out there trying to conquer or coerce or educate or or invite so yal is the continuity of of Paras and yal also holy war Jihad Sharia trying to get the entire world to to surrender to their vision for them Torah and they twoo are going to claim that their whole agenda in doing all of that is so the Jews can learn Torah and the truth is we do have a a rich history even in Worlds of Islam speak to the Moroccans in our community you could go visit still Morocco today and the the Jewish community in Morocco and under Islam and other periods of our history there was there were wonderful relationships and Jews had the ability to practice and so Islam will say we were fighting those Holy Wars and we did it for the Jews so they can sit in the b m Hashem says no no no no no no no you made the theaters Rome and you conquered cities Persia but I started the wars and I know why I did it so the maral is explaining what's going on in this gamar is hm's identifying the Achilles heal the Yahara the particular Temptation and the drive of each each Nation but now the P asks a series of questions we may not get past it today today might just be the questions and next week we'll begin the answers Cliffhanger I have to keep you coming back he says I have the following questions number one I understand why the nations of the world would they weren't honest but I understand why they would Advance the argument that the malls and the coliseums and the and the Conquering cities was all done for the Jewish people as because all these are responsibilities of a government they're what those in leadership have to do to take care of their people so even though they did it for themselves they'll claim they were doing it to take care of the Jewish people you can do business and transact and that also benefits those who are learning Torah as the rivid writes why were the bridges there so Jews could go over them and make their weddings at the Sands why were the bridges there so Jews could Traverse them and go from B Med to B Med and learn Torah but they started Wars so the Jewish people could learn Torah how does that make sense does a war help Torah learning or hurt Torah learning do you know the disproportionate number of casualties in this war are of hezer boys do you know how many from the M Yesa and AI were killed I think it's in in in these beautiful yeshivas these beautiful beautiful buing these total Learners because they disproportionately fight in combat units nobody's talking about it now because you're not supposed to talk about it now because in the middle of a war you don't distinguish between soldiers or communities or where they come from but when it will be over please God today when this war will end there'll be a lot of Articles and you'll see how the religious soldiers disproportionately volunteer and fight and are the best fighters and officers and commanders of combat units because they're fighting for a mission and a cause they're fighting for eternity immortality they're fighting for Hashem and I think it's 40% of those who've been killed are religious soldiers who don't make up 40% of the army or 40% of Israeli Society my numbers could be off but I believe it's I believe it's that high these boys who otherwise these boys by the way who you know that when you sign up for hezer it's to do half of your service learning in the ISA and half in the Army and you know many of them found out that the Army needs them and so they're it's coming out of their learning time that they won't be going back to learn or they won't be staying to learn before they have to begin their their basic training so so a war doesn't help learning Torah a war harms and hurts and compromises the learning of Torah but medes are emptied out are emptied out so what's the argument that the Persians were saying we've started Wars and we started all those Wars wars only so you could learn Torah what kind of an argument is that secondly K answers everything you did you do just for yourselves the bridges where you collect tax conquering cities so you could expand the Coliseum so you could enjoy them and the wars that wasn't you that was me hasem doesn't correct them and say you started those Wars for yourselves he says you didn't start those Wars I did but it's as if Hashem is conceding for whom were those War started for the Jewish people Hashem doesn't correct them that the war Wars are are not for the Jewish people he says you didn't start the wars I did but it's K implicitly conceding that the wars are for the Jewish people number three what what the hasem answers I made the wars Hashem makes everything there's no bridge that could be built without Hashem wanting it so why did he only answer that save that as his answer for the war you didn't initiate the War I did number three number four and then as if it's not enough that Hashem says it he has to quote a to prove it Hashem he says you don't start the war as I do as it says and if he didn't quote a Hashem then we won't believe him then it wouldn't be true what does the p given mean hasem is in God should be thought of as a man of war the greatest BR that Jewish people give each other and that we long for and wish for in the world the biggest is Shalom is peace peace is what we D for every time we say we take three steps back and ask for peace every Kadesh we ask for peace every blessing we give one another is for peace every blessing we give our children is for peace nobody wants more nobody's worked harder for nobody's willing to compromise more for peace than the Jewish people all we want is peace we learned that from Hashem who's the God of Peace So what does the p mean that God is Hashem God is a God of War God is a God of War what does it mean that God is a god of war God is a God of Peace so these are the four questions that asks on this gamar so far today all we did was read the gamar that tells us L of in the future's gonna hold the Tor come get your reward the Romans are gonna come he's gonna say get lost the person are gon get lost each one why they why they should get lost the Mah is explaining why they each were advancing their argument because that's who they were that's how their society was defined Shem do get lost but the four questions the four questions number one when they said we made the war so the Jews can learn Torah you don't learn Torah when there's a war you don't learn more Torah number two number two why does Hashem say I made the wars Hashem does everything number three why does he not correct them that it wasn't for the Jewish people as if the wars are for the je how are Wars for Jewish people and number four why would Hashem describe himself as an is as a person of War all of this will answer next week with about what war is all about and what it's meant to do for us how it's meant to change us and transform us how we're meant to connect to it and what we're supposed to do during it please God by next week and Thursday morning at the Amun will already be marking the end of the war the success and the Triumph of the war should he BOS toos today 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