Living With Emunah (Part 230) - Set Yourself Free

good morning boca dev welcome back to living with amuna please help yourselves to coffee in our wonderful caffeinate with kavanagh cups if you want to still uh purchase one of the permanent hot cups you can go to the school office right after class there you go thank you thank you vanna white we have our uh permanent hot cups tumblers i believe they are called you can purchase one of the show offers right after the sheer if you like or enjoy a disposable one on us right now uh caffeinate with kavanagh first barakah of the day don't sip don't simply sip and engage your first cup of coffee which is a tris amazing restore is life in this world don't do it without kavanagh don't just mumble or swallow a bracha faster than you swallow the coffee but caffeinate with kavanaugh our municipal series is sponsored generously by dr xavier bella morgan remember everybody dr brian galbert and the memory of his mother dr ellen schanzer very grateful to the morgans also this morning shir is sponsored by nina and gordon haas in commemoration of her father's your side i'm in luckman nina where should we go on friday april 8th on 7th thank you so much for your sponsorship okay we are still learning about simcha and even though we're now in the month of nisan is something that's relevant all year round purim is now in the past the two months of other are behind us whenever you happen to be living to this living with emunah whenever you're living listening whenever and wherever simha is always irrelevant simche is like that pilot light we've quoted schwab said is like a pilot light there are times that we turn it up the month of adar there are times that we lower the flame the month of av but it always has to be lit some of you have no idea what a pilot light is because you live in florida you live in florida if you had a gas stove you would know what a pilot light is and if you want to avoid bishop akam zalakha the jew lights the pilot light everything that's lit from that pilot light then has the status of being cooked by a jew so schwab said simcha is like a pilot light it has to always be lit there has to be some spark some ember some flame of simcha inside us if it ever gets fully extinguished that is the worst think about it of depression despondency hopelessness helplessness when the simcha gets entirely extinguished and a person is walking around they're dead even while they're alive they're a zombie there are corpse walking through life there has to be some simcha you have to give ourselves permission to feel that doesn't mean that there aren't moments of hardship or pain it doesn't mean that a person is not going through loss or grief but it's okay to give yourself license to feel joy even with whatever one is struggling with feeling basimka being joyful or happy feeling and attaching ourselves to the one who is complete namely god submitting and surrendering and believing that there is a higher purpose and meaning and order to the universe that we're not simply subjects of randomness and chance but all that happens good bad and ugly is for a reason whether we understand it or not allowing ourselves to feel that is not to dishonor or disrespect the person who's suffering or the issue that we are struggling with it's not that well if you're willing to smile or laugh you don't really miss the person who passed away or you don't really feel the pain of the person who's struggling or suffering it's okay one has license one is obligated to feel the simcha even in that time as well so we've been talking about one of the biggest deterrents or detriments to simcha when a person feels inadequate when we feel insecure when we feel like a failure when a person feels i've come up short and i can't accomplish my goals and i keep stumbling and falling so how could i be basimha i'm a nothing i'm a reject i'm inadequate i'm i'm incapable so how could i feel basimra you know when you feel basimha when you've broken through influencers are baseball they're not they curate an image online of being basimrah many are basement i'm sure and i wish them tremendous simcha but many are not bisimra many are not don't ever buy into the image that you see carefully curated online don't ever buy into that you never know what a person's feeling so that's not the source of simcha it's not that if you're popular or famous or you've broken through or you're powerful or you're rich then you'll be basement is what you feel in your heart is the satisfaction knowing that you're not going at it alone that hashem that the almighty is arm and arm that the almighty is walking together with you and whatever you face or whatever you confront and whatever you need to overcome he's right there he's right there and iman sarah he's right there and he's going through it together with us he's feeling that pain of that grief with us even when he thinks it's the best thing that has to happen to us he's still in pain with us his parents shared before as parents sometimes we have to punish i like the word punish but sometimes you have to restrict a child so you can't go to that party but everybody's uh it's the place to be it's gonna be amazing you just you hate me you're ruining my life yeah but still you can't go to the party and then you sit and you cry with the child the whole night in their loneliness and their misery and they're feeling you don't love them because they're not allowed to go to the party i need to put you through this because i'm doing what i think is best for you but i can still feel your pain as you go through it we know that as parents all the time take a child to the doctor you have to get your shots but i don't want my shots you have to get the cavity filled i don't want a cavity filled but i love you and you need the shot and you need your teeth and therefore i have to take you to the doctor while you are crying in the chair i will hold your hand i may cry with you it's not a contradiction to be able to say i'm doing what's for your best and yet i can feel your pain. the almighty is our father in heaven and sometimes he sends us for shots sometimes he puts us into surgery sometimes we have to have spiritual cavities filled barracuda simultaneously can say i'm doing this for your best whether you see it understand it now or not simultaneously i feel that pain with you i'm sorry this is what's necessary for your best but know that i'm right there with you at the same time so people think that if only i broke through and was successful if only i was an influence or a popular if only i had all those followers or friends if only i had the wealth or the fame then i'd be happy and look how many people have all those things and they are among the most miserable the most depressed the most addicted the most compulsive behavior the most acting out and sometimes we get those headlines that they are found having taken the ultimate act they have everything that we think that if we had we'd be happy they have it and they're empty is not external it's not outside ourselves it's not something you chase or pursue in america is you know the pursuit of happiness you don't have to run after the couple the cup of coffee is right here i don't have to run after it why don't i have to run after it because it's not running away when do you have to run after something when it's elusive when it's running away from you but our sense of similar is not something that runs away it's not outside ourselves you don't have to find it and you don't stumble upon it but you have to be happy inside yourself you have to spend time and close your eyes and take deep breaths and think about your life and to be happy with what you have than happy with who you are and happy with where you are that doesn't mean again that you're not honoring or respecting the challenges or struggles that you have every one of us is incomplete some way or another every one of us has those issues or challenges at the show dinner the other night the comedian modi performed and he talked about how every corona form intake form is anti-semitic because every form says in the last seven days have you had an ache a pain your stomach you're this you're that it's like what you ever woke up and didn't check off half those things so the whole form is that you know your whole routine is anti-semitic so who doesn't wake up every day he does it better than i do apparently who doesn't wake up every day and feel incomplete in one way or another so what's the only way we can feel complete or compensate for that incompleteness is to attach ourselves to the only one who's whole cesaro maya which is hashem that's why we wake up and we caffeinate with kavanagh charcoal everything here is with his word there's nothing that's happening that he's not in charge he's not in control he hasn't willed and is not part of his master plan ah why should it be part of his master plan these horrific innocent deaths in ukraine i don't know i'm not god if we were god we would know and to think that we are entitled to know means that we think we are god part of the belief of god part of belief in god is the admission that i can't understand the world like god to think i believe in god but also i demand to understand everything that's happening means you don't really believe in god implicit in the belief in hashem implicit in hashem is the concession that i believe in hashem and therefore by definition there are things i don't and can't understand if i still demand to understand i want an explanation i need it to make sense i feel entitled then i don't really believe in hashem i believe in me to believe in hashem to submit to his to his omnipotence that he's infinite that he's all-knowing that is all-controlling is to understand that they're things we cannot and will not understand in this life and don't get stuck on them it's easier said than done i don't mean to suggest that simple but as we've also quoted a million times the reverse don't get stuck on lama but ask lima not why but what not why did this happen but what am i meant to do now that's it i wake up every day these are the facts these are the cards that i'm dealt why was i dealt these cards is not fair my neighbor was dealt such a better hand my neighbor's got a full deck my neighbor's got three of a kind my neighbor's got a straight flush and i got a two and a four off suit why do i have miserable cards and my neighbors got the best cards you could sit and you could wonder that or you could figure out what's the best way to play this hand you could get stuck on y or you could ask what what now and then be basement with the what now to be this infra to choose to be bisimra so let's get back into the text with it's like mayor morgenstern um as i have said when a person feels they want to beat themselves up they want to knock themselves down i can't believe i made that decision i can't believe i said that thing i can't believe i hurt that relationship i can't believe i came up short i can't believe i gained all that weight back vanira loses me if only i could turn back time i'm filled with such regret and remorse and guilt and shame if only i had done things differently i'd be in a different position and place now azaya you know all that does it robs you of your happiness and your joy for life all that does is make you stuck in the past all that makes is you forfeit the present there's nothing productive in that particularly when it comes to spiritual ambition and spiritual status in bahamas okay you made a mistake good yesterday was yesterday today's today's a new day it's a brand new day and a brand new start and we're working on our notebooks for everybody one of us to keep our lists and take our notes and begin every day with a new page that says on top turn the page it's a new page a blank slate every day sometimes you have to scribble over from yesterday you didn't complete everything yesterday sometimes you rewrite it on the new page but you're rewriting it on a new page you turn that page it's a new day it's a new day but it's a lesson and the answer is t'chuva to give the answer chuva shiva we'd normally translate as to repent shiva means to repent we're about to turn the page around kuffman 156. chuba means to repent to repair butchuva actually means something else what does chuva mean la shuv to return which is a fascinating i know now it's nissan we're getting and gearing up for pesach not for rosh hashanah but all year round you're allowed to dechuva so where are you returning to to return suggests that what that you've been there before that it's not new to you if you're returning to something then you've been there before you've been happy you've been joyful you felt successful you felt hashem's presence you felt the infinite you've made contact with the divine you've felt pure you've been there before get back to where you were in the best sense but shiva also means something else shiva means something else many years ago i went to visit somebody in prison i was falsely accused of rape i was exonerated in the end i was in prison and um i remember sitting there you know i walked through and the prisoners were behind bars and i still felt anyway i met with him i loved the chaplain told me if anything i knew the person i was not afraid but he said you know in the visitation room it's a little button under the desk if anything happens just press the button and we'll be in there and in a moment to get you out so you know anyway i was sitting with this young man and he was filled with questions why did god do this to me why is this happening to me why do i deserve this why did this happen what do i do now and it occurred to me i remember it was during ello that that visit happened and i remember thinking to myself i said to him you know i i don't know the answer only you through the way you'll live your life now can provide the answer to those questions there are endless and countless questions in life we give and we do chuva the word chuva chuva is an answer we are the answer in other words if you get stuck on lama y then all you have is a question but if you ask le ma for what and then you grow change improve act transform you've given the answer given the answer you are the chuva you are the answer so all you have says richard meyer is chuva you can't change yesterday and you can't go back in time and you can't reverse or revert a decision that you made or an act that you did or something that you said you can't all you could do is give the answer today all you could do is turn the page and we're going to turn the page now page cufflin zine 157 there is a unity of hashem's existence he's everywhere all around us and everything makes sense he has a vision and a picture for the way the universe is organized and the order and it functions and the more we submit and surrender to him the more we recognize and the more we feel his presence then we can give and be that answer the massachusetts this is it's a big pesach team that i'm trying to decide which way to tell to you because there's so many insights at the seder table about this this was hillel hill who was kore matsu umaru ate them together because the mar represents the bitterness and the mata represents freedom that we left with alacrity and zeal expeditiously we attained our freedom we were liberated from the bondage of mitzrayim and we ate them separately we fulfilled those mitzvos independently and hillar came along and he said make a sandwich out of them you know why because life is not about either matzah or muru often the matzah and the mura go together often the mats and the morrow go together you know how many funerals i've done you know many terminal terminally ill bedsides i've been next to where a family that was divided and apart found a way to come together that horrific loss that tragedy which was unbearably painful but ended up becoming the catalyst for a family reconciling and unifying and coming together so is that moment matza or murrah the answer is it's a sandwich the answer is yes both halo understood that life is often both it's not either or it's not binary it's both it's often both at the same time and it fluctuates that's why rama gamila said you have to eat the pesach and the matzah and the maru is that the right order now what order should we eat it in each of these are symbols some the sacrifice mata represents freedom mara represents the bitterness of slavery what order should you have eaten in more than matzah why do we need a matzah and then more the answer is don't think in life that once you have mata there's no more murder don't think in life that you've broken through so you were single you longed companionship and you finally waited too long and you got married so i had so much more in my not that being single needs to be defined by murder that's a whole other topic it's a whole other topic but many people experience a bitterness in being alone and then they break through with companionship oh now it'll be smooth sailing i didn't have children i longed for children now i had children smooth sailing matza and murderer they fluctuate and they the roller coaster of ups and downs and backs and back and forth so the whole pesach seder is an exercise in ammuna the peseider is for 210 years nothing made sense in egypt and then god came and took us out and redeemed us and made us a nation and brought us into an israel and now it all makes sense in retrospect now that we can zoom out our lens and we can see the whole picture with clarity now it comes together and makes sense and we realize that life is matza and maro mixed together life like killa torres is a sandwich it is a sandwich so how do you get through those hard times how do you get through the mural moments by believing in the matzah by having ammuna by knowing that there will come a point in this world or the next hopefully in this world where we'll zoom out a lens and see in whatever happens we'll see the matzah even within that murder i also quoted years ago we had someone speak here he used to run the aish in london i don't remember his name but he was a rabbi to one of our members who brought him to speak and his wife had passed away tragically young from cancer you know young guy his wife had died very young leaving him with many young children and i'll never forget the talk that he gave that really only he someone who went through what he went through could give where his talk was bad things don't happen to good people painful things happen to good people and he distinguished between bad and painful painful means it hurts root canal hurts is it bad no it's good it's going to restore and save your tooth enable you to eat it's painful it's not bad a person works out or exercises it's painful it's not bad it's good it's good don't confuse bad and painful so he said bad things don't happen to good people how do i know that because if hashem allowed it to happen ordained it to happen it's not bad because ubiquitously of it everything hashem does is for our best everything it's the tav the top it's good it's not bad everything hashem does is good even when you can't go to the party young child even when you can't watch that movie even when you can't attend that event even when you can't eat that endless candy even when you can't stay up past your bedtime it's a painful thing happening to a good person they think from their perspective but it's not bad and from our perspective there are those things that happen to us that are painful unbearably painful i know i'm looking at people in this room who've experienced unbearable pain the loss of people they love that can never be healed or replaced it's unbearably painful but as believing jews we submit and surrender and we embrace that principle that it's painful but not bad because if it were not if it were bad god wouldn't do it and if it happened then it may be painful but it's not bad it's a very high level like i said i'm not credible to tell you that i'm not i have no credibility but he did that rabbi from london and he described i'll never forget how painful the loss of his wife was and still is yet he then went on to list all the incredible things that came out of it his own personal growth the growth of his children the bonding of his family the he said i would never do it again i wouldn't want it i'm not therefore happy that it happened it was unbearably painful but bad things don't happen to good people painful things happen to good people so what gets a person through a loss like that what what enables a person to smile again and to live life and to find the joy what allows a holocaust survivor to ever smile again holocaust survivors are beyond belief they were angels in this world if you want to see an angel don't wait for the next life whatever hardship any one of us is going through every holocaust survivor went through that and and million others and they found the will and the ability to live life and to smile to be joyful joyful and hopeful and faithful it all comes down to amunah it comes down to belief in faith and to submit there's something bigger and there's something higher and there's something greater than ourselves something greater than ourselves and to be mavatal ourselves to him to nullify ourselves to him to relinquish and give up give up this unachievable goal or entitlement to understand or that life needs to happen the way that we drew it up the life has to happen the way that we want the way that we've choreographed who says who says and this is also an enormous pesach theme because slavery we are in bondage and we are enslaved to that entitlement we are enslaved to bitterness there are people who are enslaved to that sense of resentment we're going to talk much more about this this shabbos shabbat says shameless plug moving back to shabbos afternoon but we're talking about the theme of our of our talk is from resentment to contentment setting ourselves free we're going to talk about our relationship with the egyptians our relationship with germans our relationship with ukrainians and then our relationship with each other how do we go from resentment to contentment how do you go from pain and still find a capacity to set yourself free by not bearing a grudge do we forget do we forgive do we only forget that do we only forgive but not forget we'll talk all about that this shabbos but one of the themes of pesach when we talk about slavery and freedom we are incredibly blessed in our time in our generation that we are not in a slave labor camp that we are not slaves physically we have all the freedom and liberty in the world physically that a person could want we live in this great country the great democracy the great america and it gives us incredible freedom and yet we are living unbelievably enslaved we're enslaved to technology we're enslaved to consumerism we're enslaved to social media we're enslaved to pop culture we're enslaved to whatever the addiction is of the moment that's why we have the greatest freedom we've ever had with the greatest mobility and choice and prosperity and pleasure than humanity ever had in the history of the world and there's more mental illness and depression and anxiety than ever before right a couple months ago we went through that whole routine from silverstein 200 years ago a person fast forward we described in their plumbing electricity the washing machine the laundry machine ways and everything else they said oh so everyone must be happy and smiling and now we're more miserable than ever we're more unhappy than ever it's not hard to figure out why hashem the less faith you have the more you think on your own you're in charge you're in control then the less happiness you're going to have the more you let go and let god and the more you live your life and say he's in charge he's in control the more you could be along for the ride and smile the more the more you're good to go and from that bitter from that murrah will emerge matzah will come matzah will come mata you know matzah is an amazing food you give hours a night it's an amazingly expensive food it's amazingly difficult to digest food there's a lot of amazing things about matzah a lot of amazing things about matzah but matzah is called lachem oni why is it called lachemon we have two traditions the bread of the poor person which after you spend the money to buy a pound of the matzah you are then a poor person two hundred thousand i never knew this until this year two hundred thousand pounds of hanshimura mata are produced in ukraine and the last twenty thousand pounds never got out because the day they were meant to leave a port of odessa is when russia invaded so 10 of the mata in america didn't make it which is why supply chain there's a huge increase in the price and matzah is at an all-time high someone said to me because i was looking into it how could it be it's over forty dollars a pound that's for the most inexpensive handshake a pound so someone answered supply chain i says i don't know i turn on the faucet the water's still flowing it doesn't seem to be a supply issue of water coming out of the faucet and is there a supply issue of the of the flower that we have it doesn't seem to be a major issue so what does it mean supply chain so that was the answer to ukraine so mata is called lechamoni it's the bread of the poor man why is it the bread of the poor man because matzah has to last if you break a fresh loaf of bread and you need to last the whole week because you can't afford to bake a new loaf every day you bake one loaf on sunday it's gotta last all week your loaf ain't gonna last the whole week because the fresh loaf with no preservatives it's gonna be stale and moldy within a day matzah can last so matz is the bread of the poor person you make the cracker the cracker can last forever i just finally threw out i'm one of those weirdos who eats shmuramatsu the whole year i love shmuramatsa [Music] so much less expensive right after pesach by the way you know how inexpensive it is you simply tell people if you have any leftovers and they're they'll pay you to take it that's how inexpensive it is so we don't we have the minignati mats as of purim so they went to the last of last year but i'll tell you a secret if it weren't embarrassing i would have just kept last year's matzah to use this year because it doesn't go bad either because it tastes stale on day one or because it never tastes fail depending how you see it but it never goes bad it never goes bad so matzah is the la jamoni it never goes bad the poor man needs it but he also means something else it is the bread that we say many things about it's the it's the bread of emunah it's the bread of immuno also there's so many names because it represents and incorporates so many things there's a bitterness to this matzah because on the one hand it's the bread of the poor person but it's also the bread of the rich because it's the bread of faith and it's also the bread of chuva that lachem we give a lot of answers this bread as we eat it we are giving answers we're not getting stuck on lama but we're asking and we are the answer to that question from the bed comes the good it's like everything's in his hands he's in charge he's in control what was what is what will be if you begin with the assumption that it is good and will be good so now okay i hope it's not painful but i know it will be good we can always hope and ask and wish that it not be painful but we know it will be good because everything is done with hashem's hands which are the best which are the best he is the one in control it was a plane plane ride of people the plane hit credible turbulence pilot came on and announced everybody buckle up sit down be prepared for your oxygen mask to fall and the plane was bouncing back and forth and left and right and up and down the overhead was opening up and the suitcases were falling out and the people were bouncing against each other there was a little girl sitting by herself unaccompanied minor and while all the adults around her were panicking and crying and screaming out and praying she sat there perfectly content and serene and smiling and everyone thought this was the end into whatever the way they could they were contacting their loved ones to say goodbye for all that had happened and and this little girl never lost her smile the pilot was able to regain the plane came out of the clouds the turbulence and it landed softly and one of the older men can't help but came up to this girl and asked her when they landed how is it we all panicked and we prayed and you looked so happy and so serene how could it be so she said the answer is very simple my dad's the pilot and i knew that he'd get us home safely so when you know your father's the pilot when you know that follows the pilot no matter how much turbulence you may experience in your life you know you're going to come home safe the question is do you know your father is the pilot no that's the question the pilot is your father but do you have a relationship with him do you know him do you know him it doesn't mean that painful things won't happen in life painful things will happen in life there are more moments there are more moments it just means that they're painful but they're not bad and when you go through life knowing that you're much more emboldened and you'll have the courage and the faith and the fortitude to take on let's just finish this letter so you'll say well won't this lead to an enormously passive won't this lead to people who are spectators to their own life god's in charge god's in control everything happens for a reason everything happens for the best i guess i'm just along for the ride he's the pilot so we're going to passively sit as spectators in the passenger seat the answer is we have to make our effort we have to take our initiative we have to do the best we can we don't let go and let god before we even try you don't let go and let god by sitting at home on the couch and waiting for him to deliver your livelihood you don't let go and let god by hearing a diagnosis and then deciding god will miraculously make you better without going to a doctor or without taking medicine you don't let go and let god in lieu of taking initiative and exerting and expressing our best effort we have to make our best effort we have to take our greatest initiative and then we let go and let god all of this comes back to why are we talking about this here and now because richard meyer is talking about happiness and joy so he made a mistake so he came up short so you experienced something painful so you had a failure you had a bad fail okay do what you need to do to learn and grow and repair and now move on because that was god's will if god wanted to get you out of your own way he could have he didn't he let you fail now choose to fail forward you could fail backward or you could fail forward that choice is ours are you going to fail backwards or are you going to fail forward you fail forward by learning with a mistake and then understanding and believing that that too was god's intent that god was okay and orchestrated and that led you to where you are now and now the question is what will you do at this moment who will you be in this here and now it's really you know sheryl sandberg's option b if you haven't read it you should that's the whole thesis of the book and that a friend adam grant with whom she co-wrote the book told her and after her husband dave dropped dead precipitously died out of nowhere tragically and for that whole year all she wanted was day by her side every time she went to her kids production at school she kept saying i wish they were here i wish they were here and adam grant said to her that was option a but option b was a was taken away from you so it's time to pivot to option b option b you wish you had a different deck of cards or hand of cards you don't now how do you want to play the cards that you do have we go through unbearably painful moments and challenging times and now you wake up in the morning with a new page at hadas and what do you want to do with what you have so there's someone who's no longer here and i don't say that lightly but who is still here and what do you want your life to look like with them what is still here and what do you want the rest of your life and legacy to look like with whatever you have we can get stuck and we can perseverate and we can become paralyzed or we could break through that's pesach break out and break free and break through whatever we think is holding us back sadness regret remorse shame guilt there are so many things that are holding us back but they are self-imposed we could let go i'm telling you my best of stories from all my dresses right now if you've recognized some of them i'll tell you one more one thing one more to close one more to close we barely get through any text every week i apologize for that but one more to close is the story of the of the gorilla who's trapped they put a banana he puts his hand through he grabs the banana because he grabs the banana now he can't get his hand through and that's how he's trapped but the silly gorilla because the truth is he's not trapped at all what does he need to do all you have to do is let go of the banana and you're out but the gorilla who thinks he can't let go of the banana is it is a self-imposed trap he's trapped in his own way it's a trapping of his own making so we have these thoughts and we think we have these emotions and feelings and we think we can't escape when we can't set ourselves free that's why we experience pesach go search for the comments in your life not just the leaven the inflated comets the grain but the comets in your emotional spiritual life and purge it and obliterate it and rid yourself of it and set yourself free live comments free it's weighing you down carbs weigh you down comets weighs you down literally and figuratively it's weighing us down so get rid of the hummus and set yourself free we don't have to be trapped we could let go and let god how do you do it amuna how do you do it chuva how do you do it i'm caffeinating with kavanaugh when the first thing you do in your day not to suggest that drinking coffee is the first thing you do in your day we do other things like modani you open your eyes and you say ah i guess i'm still here thank you thank you what do you mean but my mortgage bill is due i don't know how i'm paying my loved one is sick and my this is this what do you mean thank you the answer is i guess i'm still here thank you it all works and fit my heart thank you mo da ani thank you oh i got more to say to you but for now thank you i'll get to my complaints and i'll get to my requests and i'll get to my protests but for now moda ani thankful am i rabbi munasaka that you have faith in me that i got another day we'll talk about what's not here what's not going right but i want to begin with thanking you for what is right and what is here and the first thing that's here is me i'm here i woke up mo da'ani and each of those birka sasha the first 15 first brokers we say in the morning if you go back and listen to the beginning of siddharth snippets we went through each of those brachas birko they are 15 steps of gratitude attitude of gratitude wake up in the morning i can see i have clothing making inside they cover i can walk shoes these are things the rest of the world neglects who notices or says who says thank you for shoes every day do you know what your life would be with no shoes talk to a survivor who operated in a concentration camp and had to navigate the world with no shoes you know what the world is if you can't walk i was on a knee scooter for four months when i tore my achilles i couldn't carry my own cup of coffee from one side of the room to the other couldn't drive can't be mobile you can't do anything you know when you notice that when you tell your achilles and every day that you could walk around you don't notice so we start our day 15 thank you thank you thank you thank you for things that no one else notices but i refuse to neglect thank you thank you thank you but you know what it takes the mindfulness to be present and concentrate when you say the thank you it's very hard that's why you gotta have the cup because then you pour that cup of coffee because you're half asleep and you're miserable and you can't be mindful a cup of coffee often comes before the beer and you're trying to jump start your life defibrillate your soul and how do you do it coffee is a great gift i'm grateful for every day and that's why we made caffeinated with kavanagh be mindful charcoal the farmer the coffee bean the grinder the trucker the packager the inventor of the carrick nespresso whatever you find schmecker's drink whatever it is charcoal that all of it yeah but vero thank you it's unbelievable hashem every day you give me the ability to come back to life chuck you just have to have carvana i have to have kavanagh so this is the last class after pesach so wishing everyone set yourself free experience freedom and liberty this year hashem were blessed physically to have freedom let's spiritually and emotionally have freedom let go of the bananas in life let go of the thoughts let go of the ideas and the visions that haunt you and hold you down turn that page and let go nine o'clock tonight behind the bmw coach bruce pearl you may have seen his interview in the ncaa final four where uh an ncaa tournament where he was asked about donating to ukraine and he gave a whole history lesson about purim and his name is mordechai he's a proud jew he's our guest tonight 9pm until next time stay happy stay healthy and stay holy