Living With Emunah (Part 182): Don't Let Anyone or Anything Extinguish Your Fire

good morning boker tove and welcome back to our weekly living with amuna series so grateful to our sponsors of the series for the year dr xavi and bella morgan in memory of rabbi dr brian galbert and in memory of dr ellen shenzhen and shawna malia thank you so much for your generosity thank you so much for your sponsorship also this morning's particular class is sponsored as well by having some technology problems so thank you for being with me this morning this morning's class is sponsored in particular by leonard prisby in honor of his asia's highest sima rocco thank you so much to mr presby for your sponsorship as well if you thought you could sponsor a future class please email lee appearsonline.org lee brs online dot o r g living with ammuna we gather every week to remind ourselves that there is a a creator this is the month that we're in not only have we now entered the month of adar but we hope when we pray that the month of aadhaar has entered us we're filled with joy but when adar enters us what is other entering us the month ada the word adar means al of dar the one and only the aloof the mighty god when we invite god into our lives when we feel his presence when we feel his love then marabin instead of having panic anxiety worry envy arrogance anger all we feel is simha i look around and everything is by design everything is for a reason so in my last class this morning when the internet gave out and abruptly ended it and i started to feel frustrated i said no obviously what i had to say at the end wasn't meant to be heard i was saying it to me myself and i it wasn't meant to be proclaimed to the world and if i lose you now because the internet for some reason there's no snow outside it's a beautiful day and yet the internet's playing with us everything's from hashem it's omino it's all from so we get together to remember that he's not just abstract and conceptual i don't just talk to him or about it when i'm in shul but rather i give him a dear but he's in my life every aspect and every component of my life and everything that happens in my life i feel his presence i feel his love i even grow frustrated and i protest sometimes what he is doing but he's in my life and i love when not only when not only we enter other but more importantly when adar enters us when we live that level of mindfulness and meaningfulness that hashem is in our lives and we submit and surrender when we let go and let god then then the relief the relief that comes the joy the happiness that comes from the fact that we can let go and let god okay we are continuing in the uh morgenstern's wonderful safer we are on parrot gimbal in the third chapter hagusha's orbital goddess the notion of sensing the light and the joy of connecting and attaching ourselves to god so he said the following we left off last time by saying that in order to achieve this level of clinging and attaching and connecting ourselves to god we have to be able to move between different emotions we have to ride that roller coaster of the range of different feelings if we remain with only one thought with only one feeling we can't live on that level in that plane for a long period of time so we have to know there are moments we're going to feel high we're going to feel cl not high like the bad kind of high not the counterfeit kind of high not the high that we have recovery programs from but the good kind of high they're getting high on god lord get me high in the words of allah so when we feel high on god we're going to have moments you walk out of into ila i'll never forget my oldest daughter when she was a young teenage girl walked out in the ila and said abba i don't even need to eat for another day i didn't want that to end halawa you can bottle that feeling alive you could capture that moment when you feel so connected so close everything's working out everything's making sense the beautiful stories that you send me about the amuna moments in your life where you say i know why that happened or that happened in my favor or i felt his presence in my life but then they're going to be other moments where we wonder where in the world is he why is this happening why is he letting this happen to me or to someone i care so closely about or somebody i love so much and you feel so distant you feel so far away you feel so lonely you feel so lost there'll be moments that you live in fear of hashem with a sense of awe and you retreat and recoil with a sense of fear or concern so there's a whole range of emotions and of connections that we can feel towards god and our avodah our service to hashem if it doesn't fluctuate and static it's a bad sign a marriage this could be controversial among marriage counselors but i'll say it anyway to me the healthy marriage has moments of incredible love and affection and it is even have moments of struggle and tension because it's a real living animated dynamic relationship and relationships are made of two people and of expectations and of needs and so on and so when it's alive when it's healthy it's animated and it changes and there are days that you feel close to the word love there are no words that can capture you feel and you're frustrated by the inability to articulate just how in love just how close you are and there are other days that you say i can't get far enough away i need a break not me i don't ever feel that way ever feel that way but i've heard from others that one can feel they need a break or this i'm not even joking i don't ever feel the way but one can need distance or break or they're frustrated they have to work out some tension they have to overcome some some healthy difference between them so real relationships fluctuate and if you ever meet a marriage and they say our marriage has been the same 40 years were marriage and it hasn't changed in iota we never fight we never are overly in love we're just exactly the same every day every week every month every year for 40 years i say that's not a real marriage i don't know how healthy that marriage is marriages have to fluctuate up and down that's exactly what energizes and drives and animates a relationship and the same is true with hashem so you have to listen you have to be able to waver and navigate and move around and every day how much sleep did you get what's happening in your life how much do you feel his presence because if you say you know what i'm connected to hashem do you know when i dive in well do you know when i talk to him do you know when i feel his presence they know i'm filled with gratitude when everything's good but you can't stay there you're not going to remain there today's daphyomi for those who learn the daf today's daf nathan newark today's daft did you do the daffy yet today and the daft today it talks about ava mitsuganyakov each described the best amigas differently avram describes it as a har a mountain and yitzo described it as a sadha and yaakov described it as a bias avram said it's a mountain you climbed the mountain but you know who could stay on top of the mountain who could remain on top of the mountain in terms of their connection their relationship with hashem and it's like described it as a field that you plant and there's cycles of the field and you harvest but you know the field also has to lay fallow it also has to rejuvenate and so yaakov describes that the relationship with hashem is like a vice it's like a home we invite hashem into our home a home is a place of a range of emotions experiences feelings every day the home is the stable place you go for refuge and that you go and return to a safe space called home that's today's daf yomi sakham daf whatever that we're up to pay something so palmyra sometimes you're going to feel love or palmyra and sometimes you're going to feel awe or fear um sometimes you'll be contemplative and you'll think about all the evidence for god's existence and then desire to connect with him similarly when you think about i don't know if anyone's tried this at home but we talked about a few weeks ago victor meyer encouraged us to concentrate on the different names of hashem to draw those names or to see them as a as a flesh um before our eyes and that you connect a name is an intimate connection we use someone name someone uses our name to use a name is to create a sense of connection of affection of intimacy to think about the names of hashem and to attach ourselves to them so not every day there is the name of hashem which reflects me this i didn't strict justice there's the name of hashem which reflects me compassion there are all kinds of names of hashem in different days you're going to connect with different names using those names are wonderful torah attaching ourselves to torah it's our life force if you don't breathe you're in trouble you can hold your breath for a little bit but if you ever you ever uh eat something did you ever get your wind knocked out of you did you ever have a cough that you take this inhale the air is not coming in you panic because if you can't breathe you can't live you can't live if you don't eat you're really hungry and there's no food and you're looking everywhere you have no access or towards the end of a fast day where you feel like you're going to collapse you need to eat in order to live well you also need to have faith with hashem to live you need to connect you need to know that there's a higher power you need to know something so much more to us you need to know in order to really be alive for life to even have value someone told me a story yesterday about uh someone they knew who worked at lehman brothers who was a top executive at lehman brothers and spent his life in investment his whole business network his social network his net worth everything was tied into lehman and when lehman went under so too collapsed all that his business life and network his social network and his life worth his net worth it all went down the drain but he was able to uh recover because there was one investment he made overseas which was a throwaway investment he didn't think would ever do anything and it had an enormous return so much so it made him a wealthy man and he was able to retire not observant a non-observant jew and this rabbi told me just yesterday that he met this non-observant jew and the non-observatory said to himself he said what's the point of life i invested several decades in attaching myself to that part of my identity to my business life to lehman brothers but when it collapsed when it disappeared overnight so too did everything i had known all the work that i had done so what's the point in life if all i'm invested in is the here and now in the material world in the physical world it can collapse it can disappear overnight so you know what he started to do he asked himself well if that's true in this world all the more so in the next world what will come with me and what will define me and what will be my legacy in the next world if everything i work towards and everything i have and everything i define myself can disappear overnight and collapse then what will last what is immortal what comes with me so the next day he started to learn torah he's still not observant but he learns torah every day because he decided that if my entire definition is my physical identity more things more money more shopping i'll uh more botox and more plastic surgery and more schaetel's or hairdressers or more neiman marcus or nordstroms or amazon prime if that's my entire life it could disappear in this world and it certainly doesn't come with me to the next so what am i doing in order to pamper and indulge what am i doing to invest not in my here and now my physical sense and being but in my soul not my body but my soul what am i doing to have a great not net worth but to have a great spiritual worth in order to take that which will really give meaning both in this world and the only thing that i can take with me into the next world so this man came to that conclusion he wasn't or isn't yet observing shabbos or observant but yet he's invested in what nourishes his soul so essentially you're not alive if all you are is a body and your soul yeah you know wednesday mornings for a couple minutes you listen to a class but then in between when the rubber meets the road when you're pressed to express that amuna to not get angry to not respond with envy to not panic to not be overly anxious then all you are is your body all you are is working towards more money more things more experiences more status more higher profile more friends more followers if that's what defines our happiness that's what defines ourselves then you're not alive even while you're in this world you're dead even while you're walking around the life but if you're alive if you're dedicated to something noble to a legacy that lasts something meaningful if you recognize and invest and nourish your soul your soul you know we we go for physicals supposed to go once a year physical lab report little ekg sometimes an exam by a doctor before they did it over the internet you're supposed to go for a physical once a year but when's the last time you had a spiritual when's the last time we had a spiritual who are we and what defines us and what are we invested in and what is our well-being and what will last and how are we thought of and how are we perceived and how do we think of and how do we perceive ourselves so that's what a victor meyer is saying is that a person has to attach themselves with vacus you have to cling and connect and attach ourselves to that which is immortal to that which is eternal to that which will last forever and that's god the reborn the almighty is the creator he was here before the world he'll be here after the world and the more that we attach ourselves to him then the more that we connect our future to him the more we grab on to his coattails the more we ride the wave with him the more he gets us across and takes us to the other side lalo das it's interesting he uses the language of which amir without interruption without interruption without delay without procrastination without interruption enjoy this world hashem gave us this world and he says s mine kinder eat it's a very jewish thing to eat eat enjoy breakfast lunch dinner we're not saying fast don't fast every day don't fast necessarily any day other than prescribed fast days eat enjoy but don't overindulge don't live to eat eat to live eat because you're putting fuel into your machine into the factory called your body make a bracha invite them to the table at the beginning make a bracha have an attitude of gratitude at the end make sure it's kosher eat the right amounts and the right type and the right time because we're putting fuel into our system into our body enjoy physical intimacy pleasure is part of the ksub it's part of the obligation it's part of the arrangement between a husband and wife responsibility all of the areas of pleasure that exist in this world the torah and god who designed us and programmed us wants us to experience but he wants to invite us he wants us to invite him rather he wants to be present he wants us to remember that even as we're enjoying this world we're enjoying this world as a as a platform to already make contact with the next world to give him a dear but to bring him down here and to do so with that level of mindfulness and meaning that level of consciousness that is without interruption which brings us into this week this week we're going to read parashat zakhar and shul next week it's hard to believe is purim a year into this ridiculous pandemic purim it's really hard to believe and it's going to be really jarring to experience purim and to recognize we're a year into this so uh this week this week we'll read parashat zakhar and even if you're listening to this class sometime later and it doesn't correspond with the week of parshaz zakhar but the message nevertheless is is true who were amalek and what did they want to do amalek is not some external voice malik is not outside ourselves amalek lives within us amalek is not a genetic a molecule is not a nation or a people that you could trace there's no wikipedia entry uh genealogy or whatever those websites are dot com they're not gonna prove that seven generations ago you were part of amalek it's not going to show up in your dna it's not what malik is a molecule is an attitude of molecules a perspective a molecule is a philosophy amalek is a way of life what is their way of life we're going to read the showers we were on our way we had come out of egypt and we were marching and on our way well connecting okay i think we're back hopefully we are back so when we walk out of neil you're on fire on fire passionate excited on fire wanting to do the right thing not even struggling driven and then you know what they did asha bader you know that cynical sarcastic person that biting person walks up and splashes cold water on your fire they put out your fire oh you're so excited about this what are you so excited think about that you're so excited you're so on fire ah it's all fake ah it's all an illusion ah it's all counterfeit if i have to summarize who am i i'm all like you see the jewish people are supposed to have this kawaf the strength that we look everywhere we see hashem in everything hashem is everywhere and in everything in our lives and amalia come along and they say you think they're in that hashem's not in that they interrupted we were marching to harsinai and they said you're on fire let me cool you down and how did they cool down is and mikra means happenstance to chance randomness nothing is by design nothing's organized nothing curated or choreographed from above it's all just chance so just happenstance they came upon us and they interrupted our march and even when we resumed and made it our sinai but now we had a little voice of doubt amalek is gematria suffolk amalek is the same as doubt they introduced a notion of doubt into our mind what if maybe they're right maybe there's nothing real here maybe it's just chance maybe there is no one above maybe this whole thing is a joke what if and maybe and even if it's one percent or 0.01 amalek introduced that they ruined they doused our fire they cooled and extinguished our fire they cooled us off and they interrupted the momentum that we had built the momentum towards something special the momentum to something transformational the momentum towards something life-changing they interrupted they interrupted and we still have that voice of amalek inside us we too struggle with that voice that says don't be so impressed don't see the person on fire and want to attach ourselves or let them ignite our flame ah maybe it's not real who knows doubt uncertainty maybe it's just a fluke maybe it's random maybe it's chance maybe we're in control maybe there's nothing more they came along so what's the response zahra salah we have an obligation to remember what amalek wanted to do we have an obligation to remember what our life looks like where amalek is allowed to rule amalek is listened to malik has influence we have to awaken and arouse within our heart says the rambam a hatred of us the mitzvah of remembering amalek writes the rambam we're taking a little detour right now based on the this week pasha zakhar but relevant to the whole year round so our rambam tells us we have an obligation responsibility to never stop hating amalek now hates not a very jewish concept or a jewish word we don't believe in hate we don't believe in hate hate the sinner hate the sin rather not the sinner that was taught to us by bria mayer that utamu khatta in utamu that we hate the mistake we don't have the person making it so we don't believe in hate we don't hate people we don't hate people we hate the actions the behavior we don't hate people but there is a people that we hate they are like we hate that concept we hate the interruption we hate the voice of doubt we hate the procrastination the laziness we hate the cynicism and the sarcasm that undermines meaning and purpose in this world and and writes if you want to erase and eradicate that doubt that uncertainty that biting cynicism and skepticism then you need to develop a hatred for it you need to despise it you need to see it as the arch enemy you need to see it as the kryptonite you need to see it as the very thing that will undermine us if you don't hate it you're not going to destroy it if you're willing to tolerate it if you're willing to allow it to perniciously penetrate into your life then it will rule and it will corrupt it will compromise and it will bring us down um if you're willing to tolerate and you're willing to endure wickedness then you're not going to come to hate wickedness and you're never going to eradicate or eliminate the wickedness only when you develop a hatred a hatred and so a person has to know that the thing that they're confronting even the thought they were so attracted to it it's what stands to undermine them the addict in recovery has to know that the alcohol or the drug or the gambling or the very thing that they're drawn to and attracted to it is their kryptonite it will cost them their spouse and their children their financial well-being and stability their reputation their happiness their life and therefore the one needs to develop a hatred to it they need to see it as the arch enemy they need to say i would never go near it why would i touch it why would i look at it why would i be drawn to it it is the very thing that threatens everything i care about it's the very thing that threatens all of my happiness the person who has struggled with their weight or high blood pressure or high sugars or heart disease or whatever it is that eating in a healthy way can compromise and cut short their life they need to look at that unhealthy food and say that is the enemy it's the kryptonite that it's a moment on the lips forget a lifetime on the hips it's a moment on the lips it's gonna shorten my lifetime i know it doesn't rhyme a moment on the lips shorter lifetime that doesn't rhyme so it's not as compelling you won't make a bumper sticker out of it but it's even more true if you get the hips it's a moment on the lips and i won't be able to crawl on the ground and play with grandchildren and great grandchildren so what do you want more the cheesecake the potato chips the corn chips what do you want the chocolate what matters more to you the pasta the carbs or longevity or time with your children grandchildren great grandchildren time enjoying this world and so when will you overcome when will you never conquer but learn to manage successfully when that which threatens we see as the threat we name as the enemy and we develop a hatred towards i hate it why would i put that poison in my system i hate that alcohol i hate those drugs i hate that behavior it's poison it threatens to undermine to corrupt take threats to take away everything i hold dear and everything i care about so only for the rambam when you develop that hate will we be able to overcome it now what is it that we're hating what is this media of amalek what is that voice what is that character trait we said it's the voice of cynicism and skepticism and sarcasm that some find so funny but you know sarcasm sarcasm is one of the most i find sarcasm terrible the sarcastic individual takes nothing and no one seriously sarcastic individual uses sarcasm as a coping mechanism to avoid having to take anything or anyone or anything anyone says seriously that sarcasm is amalek everyone else is in oh i said did you see that hashem is amazing and the voice of amali comes and says ah not so amazing ah not so special ah not so great so says this was that amalek is the one who calls the egg is the one who caused the jewish people to cheat on god and to make that fateful error of worshiping the golden calf when moshe didn't descend and return on time why dara because we were marching out of egypt and we were marching right to matantora and it came on the way ashkar khabib was they introduced that notion of sufficient of doubt so what happened what happened was we're waiting for moshe rabbenu so until then we were on fire ten plagues splitting in the sea hashem is everywhere hashem is in my life hashem is the answer to everything so moshe didn't come back okay there's a reason he'll be back when he's meant to be back he'll descend when he descends i believe in hashem everything's by design but once they encounter it i'm all like and once amma like contaminated them with their poison now the jewish people said moshe is not back maybe this whole thing's a farce maybe it's wrong maybe his motion is not who we thought maybe it wasn't god who took us out it was a fluke of nature to see split and the next thing you know they're building a golden calf once that voice of doubt of uncertainty once that voice of sarcasm and cynicism once that voice of skepticism and of enters into us then all of a sudden we're struggling to see god to feel god our fire has been extinguished it's been dimmed it's been lowered so amalek is the one who brought about the ego the only reason that they had that doubt that led to that mistake was because amalek had entered into their mindset against there would be a kiva who learned torah and then he went home and he found his wife he learned torah 12 years and he saw his wife and he overheard his wife who was alerted to the fact that he was coming home after 12 years his wife said i would be fine if he went back for 12 more years so he turned around and he went home and loved his wonders the great rebe akiva his wife whom he attributes and says everything that we have is for her is because of her who stuck with him and left her the wealth and the and the prominence of her father's household in order to marry because she believed in rebbi akiva even more than he believed in himself and he couldn't stop and say 12 years 12-year business trip he comes home from a 12-year business trip and he overhears his wife say i'd be fine if he well that's how much i believe in the mission and the cause so he turns right around takes the next flight and goes back for another 12. and wonders regarding smaller just pop in and say hi just a quick visit a little gratitude a little something like coffee and cake epis a little something he turns right around and leaves says jojo levitz he says you know he says had he come in after 12 years and gone back for another 12 years he would not have learned for 24 years you know what he would have learned for 12 years and 12 years but in order to have learned for 24 straight years he turned right around now don't extrapolate and i'm not suggesting in a shell unbiased series to try that at home i'm not suggesting that that's the way to go we're not rabbi akiva and we shouldn't expect from our wives to be yeah and that's not what we should try at home i'm not suggesting it but the lesson that he extracts is the notion of what he calls ruth consistency constancy without interruption building momentum someone just told me they're reading a book called i think deep thought the ability to immerse ourselves in something we don't do that the phone is buzzing and it's beeping and it's vibrating and the alerts are coming through on the 4 thousand platforms that we belong to and we can't even make it through one thought we don't immerse ourselves deeply in anything in anything sahaja yoga turned right around had to be given not turn right around he would have learned 12 years and then he would have learned 12 years but he wouldn't have been learning 24 straight years and the momentum would have been lost it would have been interrupted by that now again maybe that's the right thing to do for us don't get caught up on that detail of the story but the message of financial evidence is communicating is that yes 12 plus 12 equals 24 in the world of math yes it would have reflected on his tax return that he learned for 24 years 12 plus 12 but there's a difference between 12 plus 12 and 24 straight 12 plus 12 and 24 straight is the difference of building momentum of retsifus of gaining a sense of momentum and that's all like broke up our momentum we were marching out of egypt and we were marching to sinai and we were marching to a life and a lifestyle of being on fire of seeing hashem everywhere of submitting and surrendering to my feeling gratitude to him and the mullah came along and i said are you sure maybe he's not real maybe this is not real maybe it's i'm unimpressed there is nothing worthy of all there's nothing that is awesome amalek's power so we have to hate that we have to hate that interruption we have to hate that voice of we have to hate that voice of sarcasm and cynicism and skepticism if we're going to eliminate it we have to hate it we have to recognize it as our kryptonite we have to recognize it as that which is going to remove us we have to recognize it as that which is going to undermine us and we have to attach ourselves with a sense of consistency without hasa hadas without interruption we need with recephos build momentum into momentum into momentum and hate the things that knock us off the course of that momentum the azernam are back in ravichamer dr victor mayer is safer yes there is a limit to how much a person can grow by utilizing or focusing or meditating on the names of god actually have sick but if we attach ourselves to torah then we can connect to god without interruption without interruption someone else told me i was talking yesterday to levan cutler aaron cutler the ceo of lakewood bmg and we were talking about whatever project we're working on and he mentioned to be a story of his grandfather of aaron cutler i reserve the right to use this story again in another context because i find it a very powerful story it's on my mind because he told me yesterday i was remarking that his grandfather ravana cutler that saul of vancouver was a goddess of igdom a great rosh yeshiva also a community leader and a great activist how do you have time how do you manage it all how do you achieve greatness in every area so he was describing to me at a certain time that there was a need for him to express communal leadership and he had to make a series of phone calls in order to create a certain outcome so he went to make those phone calls and his rabbits and rabbits and cutler went to go get the phone book so that he could call a certain criminal leader in order to be able to work on something so if aaron could told him i don't need the phone book i know his number by heart so the rabbits and said to him she said to him your mind your brain your memory is for remembering torah not phone numbers that's why we have the phone book she gave musser to her husband she said your memory in your mind is for remembering torah not something like a phone number that's why we have a phone book powerful again is that the expectation the demand of all of us there are other things that our memory and mind should be dedicated to that are a value to hold on to but torah that never that notion of a relationship with torah the timeless message of torah the eternality of torah torah as the diary of the almighty and therefore the way in which we attach and connect ourselves to him so torah is something which is immortal and when we attach ourselves in forms and inspires our lives when we draw from it when we learn it when we're inspired by it when we prioritize it then we attach ourselves to the infinite amnesia list we have to remember when it comes to all the work and all the effort of attaching ourselves to hashem is that's why he's so beautiful he understands that every jew were imperfect and that we struggle and that we're doing our best so he says all god wants of every jew is lefiko joseph according to our ability the goof of an ephesh physically and inner spiritually bizarrely enough and a person has to work within their capability their capacity and work within whatever they're going through with park civil usa you cannot climb you can't run up the ramp of god's altar of the mizbeh too quickly or you will stumble you will fall it will reveal your nakedness you have to take your time la la slowly incrementally what are you adding to your repertoire in your relationship in your conversation with god with god's help if we can rise and challenge ourselves little by little you know anyone who gets into running they join these running apps and they're so excited to share with you you know it reminds me of the old joke how do you know someone's a vegan don't worry they'll tell you how do you know someone's into running don't worry they'll tell you how many mile what they're running how many minutes per mile how many miles they've run and the app and the competition and whether you've asked or not whether you're interested or not they'll be sure to share it with you so while you started out you were doing a 13-minute mile you got it down to 11 and a 10 eight you broke an eight-minute mile it's outstanding it's outrageous my friend did he didn't i did on this one run that they tell you all about it it's incrementally you go in the gym how many pounds are you bench pressing how many push-ups can you do in a row how long can you hold the plank who remembers our yellow plank challenge how long can you hold the plank so it's true in the world of physical health and well-being that you're not gonna walk into the gym and bench press 600 pounds or else it's going to break all your ribs you're not going to try to keep up and run an 8 minute mile or else you're going to you're going to last 1 100th of one mile but you need to start slow and build yourself up so the same is true spiritually says richard meyer start slow build yourself up in what arena what part of your life which part of the day are you going to dedicate spending time with god having a conversation with god vegas the same way that the runner's high the same way as the high of building your muscles the same way of the high of holding that plank and being able to post a longer score so there is a spiritual high from the vegas when you successfully attached so in that moment when you're about to lose your cool the moment you're about to fly off the handle and you remember there's a god this is by design it's the way it's meant to be calm cool collect you're not going to knock me off my game plan the moment you're about to be envious of someone else and you remember hashem's in charge he gives me exactly what i need i have nothing to be envious of the high you get from connecting with and expressing and feeling that vegas that high is going to propel you further actually until you cannot stop until all you want is the next that runner can't wait till they're scheduled next run the workout you can't wait till the next workout when you're on fire with doubting you can't wait after chakras from minha you can't wait for mario you can't wait for the next chakras you cannot wait you're so on fire you love it it's giving you the high that you want to draw from it incremental slow climb little by little challenge ourselves though to do more you're also not going to be a great runner if you started doing a 15 minute mile and you're still doing the 15 minute mile if you haven't challenged yourself to make a better time to do better then you won't be better so we need to challenge ourselves spiritually to be better and to do better oh david eyes in a moment on the lips we'll beat out the corn chips there you go there's your rhyme a moment on the lips will always beat out the corn chips so there you go so we got gotta work we should all grow in our moon and ours and our connection in our gluing ourselves overcome that i'm like don't let him learn to hate him like see amalek as the threat as the danger as the kryptonite amalek is an enemy trying to rob us of everything amalek is the enemy trying to rob us of any everything serenity peace of mind well-being health relationships people everything so therefore you have to come to hate it if you're going to eradicate it and what we're eradicating is not some external genetic people or eradicating is that voice of cynicism scar sarcasm skepticism the voice of uh the voice of death the voice of uncertainty we can and we should have a certainty there is a hashem and he's in our lives and he loves us and just extend that antenna and you will pick up his signal you'll feel that love and you'll become even more devoted to him stay tuned tonight 9pm we're going behind the bema this week the most special of guests our rebetans and the other rabbis and rabbits of brs as we continue the brs global second week the final week of brs global if you enjoyed this amunisher if you think it add value to 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