January 2, 2025

this year's New Year 2025 comes out to be in Hanah we're finishing New Year we're going into the last day of khek it's called zo khah so zo zo means that's it so that's it for me with Satan old behaviors and I want to share it publicly perhaps it will give me an incentive to really keep to my words word I'll start with a story I had a meditation going in my house a friend of mine from La I'll give him a sh DOI was here and he said I like this painting how much is it we made a deal and right away my confidence issues came in yes even even while singing on stage and everything I also have this side of me it comes from um you know being one of being perfect and compare it to others and buying more art classes and learning so many things and getting confused I added some stuff he came back and he said I likeed it better before luckily I think I didn't lose the sale he said to me let's see bring it back closest to where it was before so it's four weeks later he wanted for Hanah and I'm still by the last day of Hana working and reworking it I'm making a commitment to finish it but in two weeks from now but is the perfectionism it's the second time this happens to me somebody wanted a painting and then I said it's not finished and I finished it and they said nah I like it way better before so I'm undertaking and perhaps if somebody wants to take that with me to be less perfect this year and not to push off things and not to get too much information because this is also procrastinating to go let me watch more videos let me learn more things for when we're here for a very very very short ride and we keep on push pushing off stuff so my resolution this year is that by next year I know which Gallery I'm going to be in it doesn't have to be the most perfect it doesn't have to be for the rest of my life but I have galleries running after me and I keep on telling them I'm not ready just go with the one Gallery a good Gallery my style my style is going to develop for the rest of my life just go with it just like my songs and just to express yourself and it doesn't have to be perfect and paint every day and while I'm painting I can listen to new songs that come out that I have to learn for weddings and it goes hand in hand the music and the art but to really work at it and if somebody says I like that painting I'll just say mule tff let's go take it and not push it off and on a side note for those who understand the last few years I did a lot of digging and working on myself and and this year I want to feel the light of Kaneka the whole year you know why do we work so hard on ourselves to live life life is the greatest medicine and I'm taking a break from all modalities to just live a year full of light to see the beauty that God gave me the talent the nature and connect to myself connect to others connect to Nature connect to Hashem and that's my message