Likutei Moharan Torah 5 at Scheiner's with Rav Yoeli Klein and Rav Nachman Fried

Okay. Honor to be back here with everyone, especially with Freed and back after a long hiatus. Uh get back into to hey over here in the Reb is which means you can make on every single letter and every single word which we're going to try to do. It's rash. I was just looking into the uh new miniuts from Brussel research. Here's the plug. And uh it turns out that this was set on the first of the came close to the Reba which is 1802. And it was basically 9 days 8 days after he met the Reb. So it was definitely one of the first that he heard from from and he said his whole life he got a lot of from this. I start as we said before the rabbi he speaks about the gives a and all at the end usually I'll get back to that for now we'll just put it on this side [clears throat] and this in this uh context I think they could learn something maybe interesting from that already in the first paragraph so interestingly enough the we're going to start off says so let's read the first parag graph and translate it and then we'll go back to see a little bit uh maybe a little deeper. Every person has to say that the whole world wasn't created only for me. >> It was all created for me, not for you, for me. No, it sounds like it could be a nice uh narcissistic way of looking at things. But still flips this in a second. He says, "When the world was created for me, If if the world is created for me, I have to look at all times how I can fix the world and how I can fill the world for them. So in one second from being this uh this uh idea of wow, you know, the whole creation, everyone is all just for me. Oh, it's all just for you. Yeah, fix it. It's all just for you to do what? To give. from being a taker. You just flip the whole thing and say you know how you're going to be alive in this world if you give. And right here you could put a period and that's the entire now there's another three pages another 800 words that are going on the last two words said for the world. So [clears throat] now the Reb says what does it mean to dav and then he goes on for like you know a few pages what it means to davin in this context but the whole crux of the is right here. So we'll just see here for a few more lines in this first paragraph comes out in two aspects before any decrees are decreed upstairs in so you could have you could just dive in dive in straight. You don't have to do anything. You don't have to make up any uh any you don't have to dress up anything. You just dive and say Hashem this should happen like this. Please help like that. Um after there's a decree from so then you can't just speak to Hashem and say just you know change things cuz once there's there's like this whole barrier of of accusing angels that are standing there and they don't let theas up. They're like no noas are allowed to go through. So therefore what are you going to do? going to come to uh to damage destroying angels when there's a decree you have to hide in a in a so to speak a story let's say or a mush something like that. [laughter] So all of a sudden the sadikim they hide their in in a story right there's a famous the the 13 tales of the micius where the reb came in one day and he said to his he said I see that myas are they're exalted they're amazing but they're not doing anything they're not changing you so I'm going to say stories and tak stories are very powerful and we see in general stories you know stories have a way of entering into the heart much quicker and much easier much more deep than uh than hearing a lot of tyrus So let's saying that this this was also a specific specific time and place in in Russia where there was the canthtonist decrees that were coming out then and Hascala was gaining meaning gaining momentum and was trying to destroy Yishkai and at the same time the Russian authorities were taking Jewish children at the age of five or eight and throwing them into the army for 25 years basically destroying their entire Yiddish life and the Reb said already with all these terrors that he was doing that he was saying he was already pushing off the gaz by some 20 25 years which is what in the and happened that it was pushed off for many many years. But the the post is that that's what that's what's going on. Now let's rewind a little bit and get and get a little deeper. You know the the the said that one of the one of his or one of the people that were in the Bish one time came and said we always say this over said over and he said some cute and a vert and a and the Reb smiled and he said ah very sweet very cute you could twist my this way and twist it that way but don't change which is that the breast of continued to somehow keep um I I want to give a ride to Israel Orbach in my car and he saw a little and he says ah breastl I said I'm trying he said my father he liked breastl he wasn't so friendly he wasn't so you know connected to but he said he always appreciated breasts he said you know why because two things they dates and they dates and they keep they keep those two things he always he always appreciated them so I'm going to try to say some some things that struck me in in these words from within these words. But again, they're they're my own that I I share and hopefully they they uh they mean something to you. Uh the first first is that if you look in the Gmorra, so I wrote it down a little bit here because I'm not good at remembering things. The Gmorra doesn't say the says, "So what's the difference between and has that heavy weight of your you know your high school? You have to do this. You have to do this. You have to do this. And is it's something that's needed. And the Reb does this a lot of times. I've seen in different that he he flips the Lion only very subtly to teach us that not that you don't have to do it, that you do have to do it, but that when you have to do something, it's because you need to do it. It's not because there's some big principle that's going to punish you if you don't do it. It's because there's a reality, a fabric of reality. And you know, you could eat and sit on the couch and eat chips all day. You're just going to get fat and clog your heart up. So, you know, you have that choice. You don't have to exercise. You don't have to eat healthy. But if you have a physical body that you want it to be optimal, you know, shape. So, then you try to do it the way it could be done. So, Reb is giving you always these things of these things that you need. You need these for your in you need this line over here. That's the first dick that this is not something that you have to do in the sense you have to do it. It's something that you need to do. So what do you need to do? Now again if you read the garrab just changed the whole gamarra which is very very unique and the there's reasons why he does these things. He's not just doing it because you know he didn't have the gar handy and he said the came out a little off. Every word was was was like like a like a razor. The Gomorrah says, but she does say in a couple lines before me the whole world was created. Doesn't say that. He switches the whole line. So what's going on? Why is all of a sudden like this alternate blush and that he's a double negative the whole world is not created only for me. So I think just a very simple thing what could mean is that we know is from a hamm from concealment. that the Reb is saying over here by using this and you have to be a little over here. You have to put a comma over here where there's no comma like the cop that pulls you over and says no left turn. He said no left turn. So the whole world whole the whole concealment of this creation that we're living in right now it's not really created it's not real. Why only is also is a path path right? It's only from our perspective from our world where we're living our pathway where we're we have our functioning eyes and heart and mind. So we see a world that's filled with concealment. It's just all concealment. I don't see Hashem anywhere. Where do you see Hashem? Where do you touch Hashem? Where is he? So that's what he's saying. He's saying the whole world, this whole concealment is not real from Hashem's perspective. He's looking down at this whole creation right here and he's just looking at it and he just sees a he just sees pure unity and oneness of everyone everything. The only thing is is that we perceive it from our perspective like that. And that's why he says that you have to recognize this just to see this and just to recognize that's that's a you have to have this perception that all the darkness that we're in is not actually real darkness is actually still the unity of everywhere. Now he says now he switches it back to the real if the whole of all these all of these concealments are actually just from my perspective. So I have to see now what to do. I have to see how to fix it. Now the first the first uh the idea that comes out from this is that what does it mean to by the way just to just to pause for a second here. I'm going to keep the time on my watch here. Just to pause for a second over here that this is a a little vite maybe will say that I should I should delete this part. If you look back at a few of the last and you look really the like we said a lot of these are like two or three lines long. Okay. Now all of a sudden over here he says and he says like as if I can't finish the it's only two more words just say the last two words that hurt to say it and you have enough space in the printers you can't say oh that ink was so precious they could have said the same thing over here so I think one of the ideas is also the is saying is trumpets is loud noises haru is screams is also before is that all of these things that we hear that are loud, there's something silent that's going on inside all of this. All of this stuff that we hear, the rash that's making us in this world of concealment that we we we just hear rash, we just see dissonance and we see diversity and we see so much stuff going on. If you have very quiet, it says it's almost whispering it. The Reb is whispering and saying just remember it's all from here from Hashem. All there is is the king. All there is. So over here that he says that now the next line over here where he said that you know the whole tire basically afterwards takes off on the on the idea of but before that he says I have to see I have to look deeply gaze and right learn and you have to learn your life in all times whether it's times of good times of bad to fix the world to fill the world to pray for the world. So now there's three things to fix to fill and to to for the world. So now first of all you see so you're like oh so the whole world is on my shoulders now and I have to fix the entire world. There's a lot of people, right? Tikkun is a big idea. You know, a lot of people that love it. Like every single, you know, new safer that's coming out, they're like, "This is the safer. It's bringing Msiah. That's it. Everything's tuma. We're still not with the tikk after all the tikkums of everyone's tenum." We're still sitting here. So, what what is the Reb is saying that it's up to me. I have to [clears throat] fix the world. Like, what? That's pretty heavy stuff. I have to fill the world. Like, putting a lot on our shoulders. But we know there's a there's a line in actually says I think but the idea is that in a place where there's no man step up to the plate be the man right we we just had a our suda after 90 days for was the gaba and the rav and the mashia and everything in in our sh and that was what he was he he he was a person that just he did everything he gave all the shirum he spoke to people helped people and he put away the farm and cleaned the mikvah But the there's more than that, right? The breasts will say means go out to the field. Where are you going to become a man is in the field when you do and it's quiet and you have no distractions and no one's there. You can scri scream out to Hashem. That's a place where you can become a man. But the de says something incredible. He says means in your head and in your heart. So that there's a lot of things that you could do in the world and a lot of stuff that you could say and be involved in and it's amazing but none of them are going to do it. Shish inside deep recesses of your heart in your head that's the only place where you're going to make it or break it. So then it struck me. I said this about rehearsal. He he used to drive the old cars all the time and I would pass him by all the time in the car and I'd be like, you know, I'm like always like driving alert. I see that guy wave. I see that person, I wave. I give a guy a ride. And he was like in his world like he never noticed anything. And when he was walking, I said you could say that there's a you know, you're not supposed to look outside of your dalas. In Tadikim, we know that like mamish, they never looked outside of the dollar. So you could learn that again. You have to do that. Don't look out of your dollars. Who knows what you're going to see. Or you could learn it. What are you going to see? Nothing. You'll never see anything that will help you, right? Because in the end, obviously, we have to reach out for help and we have to look to our friends and around the world to try to try to grow and try to get the the we need. But in the end of the day, with all the with all this, with everything with going to and knock and everything, the only place that it's going to really take root is inside your heart. in your head and there you have to do the work and no one in the world is able to do that work. So when you look out there's no point if you need to look out you should look out but only to go back in so that you can work on in that in that place inside and then the next few words then in that context means that the comes from within yourself. How am I supposed to fix the world when I fix myself? When and if I fix myself, when I work on myself and I fix and change myself, then all of a sudden, and anyone that's ever done this in any level of mamish, real change where you like something inside of you shifts and you become a new person. So the whole world around you all of a sudden changes everything. You didn't do anything, you didn't touch anyone, you didn't speak to anyone, everything changes. So that's the the idea of of one on one level and another level is that what is the difference between tikun and mala. So you have a car would be like a car. So I got a car. So I have my bumper is a little popped out of my car which it is but it's fine. But if you have other things that are broken you have to fix them. You have to go to the the mechanic. He's going to take the engine and say this was worn out. This is broken. of putting put them back together. That's when pieces of a hole are broken. You have to put them back together in the proper way. The mal is different. You have your gas tank and it's push it empty. You know, you have you have no gas left. So, there's nothing to do with nothing fixing. You're not fixing. You're not you have to fill it. So, aid also at times when we feel like we're stuck in the helm when we're stuck in this world and we don't see any any light coming through it. So, we got to first I think how are you going to fix that situation? how you going to fix the broken pieces cuz that's the only reason why you're failing that. I think the first stage is is to fix it by filling it. What does it mean? I was speaking to to a Rebi and he was speaking about high school kids and how you know they're not learning properly. They're not learning well enough. So I said honestly we got to just make them healthy individuals. give them strength and and all that stuff and then it's Hashem hopefully they'll find the place in the Torah that's to learn on tish. I was once teaching a bunch of students and I was like guys you know it's user to learn on tishab they're like really why I was like because it's such sim goes rabbi for us it's m we're we should learn the whole it's such torture rabbi I said but it's it's user so obviously there's something in the that's that's m there's nothing in this m I said wait just stop and think in your entire life and I don't care if it's a rebby or a vert anything you ever had some moment that you were like wow the guy's like thinking He's like, "Well, I go to a kabad house and one time at the kdish and I was having a couple of drinks and some rabbi said like a mimer or something and it was pretty cool. It was like a really cool thing in the party and it really struck me. I was like beautiful. You just found the that's keep going after that. Every person has the that's that when you find that that's wherever it is, right? I have a relative that loves hearing that he's going to burn and which levels of gene he's going to burn and okay that's his he loves that it gives him to me I'm like I'm now I'm done goodbye [laughter] I'm finished you what are you telling me or what is that going to do to me but every person has their just enliven them and gives them you find that you begin to fill the gas tank you begin to fill up you're like yes there's something here and that's nice it's beautiful it's it's it's it's uh the first opening to this place called connecting to and to the world and you begin to see that wow there is really goodness in this world and you can feel it you can taste it and it's incredible but the next stage is is that you have to use that toyra and use that inspiration use that to fix things and that's a little bit more tricky that means you have to go inside and apply that to and you have to say oh here's a about this and this inion of anger depression or whatever, where is there a part inside of me that this applies to? Where does this find resonance in my life in a real way, right? In a real way that that it makes a difference that that I feel it in my bones. And a few a few days ago, someone came over to me and he said to it was like I was I was zonked. It was like 10:30 at night. I barely keep my eyes open. I just made it to my I'm like just going to dive in my guy's like, "Ah, there's a bak here. He needs some. You want to give him for 30 seconds quick give him. I was like stop my like he doesn't really want like I don't know you have to connect. I didn't know what to say afterwards. I was thinking about it. I was like one of the things that need is so I should be we all need that. like apparently I'm not mazic that guy I'm myself in how can I be mazic myself in one thing that struck me the next morning was that what's going on in your life imagine that you before every ding you think not the things that are like happening in your life oh you know like I wish this is going to happen and that thing happened not like the details but the stuff that that move you right the stuff that like push you and shift you so much that you're like you're like Ouch. Sometimes, you know, like the things that really hurt, that they hit you in the gut. And you have those things every day, whether it's from a a person or from a wife or from something that just happens. It kicks you in the gut. And most of the times we're strong individuals and we say, "Didn't hurt. Keep going. I'm good. I'm good." Do what you have to do to carry on. We have a lot of survival techniques in our in our in our psyche. But by gives you the chance to say stop 30 seconds before we think about where where that place is. Where's that thing that touched your heart right that moved you right? We say has a says that you should love the bad does to you because if you know what you really deserve. So it's being with a lot of rah. But I think what the Reb is even saying is also is more than just like oh you have the you have bad and if you know how bad you are you is saying also like this he's saying the ra what is raheshu is like yeah you're really bad I'm going to p you but I'm going to p you only a very light p because I don't want to really p you so hard cuz doesn't need to p you need to hit you. He doesn't care about hitting you. All he wants is you. All he wants is you to be alive and connected to him which you are. But to wake up and see that and to break through all the barriers and to come and feel and be totally connected with that gives you the ra because it's just a shift. It's a kick in the gut to say, [snorts] "Oh, oh, there's Hashem. Oh, there's something more than just me and a perfect world." Ah, okay. I remember that now. Okay. Beautiful. Thank you, Hashem. I love that. I love that wake up because it gives you a little bit of a of a a realignment in myself. Now to take that that's the mean is you have a lot of you have a lot of you have a lot of a lot of um you have a lot of material of good beautiful amazing lifting things now you want to take it and that's taking it inside your heart and saying okay where am I applying where where does this stuff apply to me and then is the beautiful unity right the speaks a lot about connecting to and the big breast of right there's maharan and then there's the road on each of the and if you learn the really well and you say the it's an incredible experience that like you know this and then you start pouring out your heart to be but you could do that without ever applying that to yourself. There's a place in um uh in the Muser movement where they have this idea of his [laughter] where you learn about an idea and the Muser masters used to do his and all the Muser masters used to do his but he used to do it in a very unique way right there's a famous story with I think or one of the big masters that he was pacing in the attic and the was listening and he was saying you know he just said the same for three and a hours straight. What's the idea? The the idea of of that is his file is that you learn something, break it into your bones. Only way it's going to get into your heart is you break it into your bones. You learn it really well, you know it, you have it, and then break it into your bones by repeating it and repeating repeat Amsterdam who was one of the the Mus. He takes that and he adds right in the middle over there, he adds one line. He says he says, "Learn it really well and then see where it applies inside your life where it really kicks you in the gut." And now Dav now do three hours of his pilot on it. Now do 10 hours of his buddas over a day a week for one moment. Just keep saying look at this part inside of me. It needs to be fixed. It's so it's so raw. Please help me. This is something that's by me and how am I going to change it? And then when you speak and you speak and you cry out it it it begins to open up, right? We say every day in we say it three times a day means a bunch of stuff right can mean three separate words. We had in last week's para. So apparently Asov wasn't saying can you please pour the red lentil soup down my throat. That's not how the learn it. He says now pour it now down my throat. You know that para before we have now that was by Rifka Alzar is asking her not now he's asking please can you please give me water so you have please and you have now and you have that by the carbon you should not cook the carbon raw so I think when you're saying you have all three of those in the same same moment no right now this moment where I'm holding right now please Please see this. No is my raw my raw things, right? We all have skin. We all have skin and it's beautiful. Skin is incredible, right? Cuz without the skin, our our entire bodies would be falling all over the place. But the skin is just it's skin. And sometimes we make it all patchkit and we make it all beautiful and it's so nice and it's so gorgeous. Oh wow. And we all ugle and ble over skin. But in the end of the day, it's it's barely anything. It's just a covering of your skeleton and your muscles and your heart and your liver and all this kishkas and guts and all this stuff that's really you. It's really making your physical body tick. The skin is a covering. So we all have these coverings and we go about our life mainly dealing with these coverings. But we're saying for one moment in see the parts that are painful is our pain. No, that are raw that are peel peel off the skin. Help us find these places in our lives that are raw where we get kicked in the gut where we feel that but when we get to that place we can take all the tires that we learn that are inspiring and that give us a lot of guidance in what life is all about and then see how it applies into our lives where it really matters and then we have what to daven about boy do we have what dav about that's the says over here that's the you do all this process and you bring all these pieces together of learning and ding you bring them together in a real way in your in your in your life. So then you come to a place of tikun which we said is the inside of yourself and then all of a sudden the whole world begins to look much more fixed and much more unified in the sense like we said in the beginning that there's not really a world of concealment. just from my perspective. And when we do this idea, these ideas that are maybe alluded to in the Reb's words, all of a sudden the world begins to look much more uh much more bright. Now uh the rest of the Torah is again about this last thing of the two types of felas. We'll get to that next week. I want to hear a few a few words from >> you said it all >> about general [clears throat] first beautifully he gave me a really good insight but I just want to say another on on the way he is saying Reb says, so the question is why do you have to say it? You have to feel it. What is what's what's this saying? You have to say why what is this? What is this saying doing for me? And like you asked the question is beautiful that says it differently and the is saying the whole world was not created only for me. So if I remember correctly, I didn't learn the I'm sorry, but I did not. My head's in a different but if I remember correctly, the Reb talks about and that there's a ka how do you say ka in English there is structure structure, right? But it's more than ka is more than a structure. Ka is just like the body is we we're called we are a kite. We have we have a head, we have hands, we have feet, we have all different parts of the body that's all connected as a ka in spirituality. So that's the physical body that we have spiritually or cababalistically there's a spiritual ka >> foundation >> no that's ka is ka it's there's an existence I guess structure but I think there's a better word frame yeah frame maybe a frame the frame and said you you are hitting hitting all the right spots with it I'm [clears throat] not I'm want to enhance what You're saying so every person is a world. Every person, every individual is a world. You see the world one way. I see the world another way. You see another. There are certain common denominators that we have that we can see. But the we're seeing the world. And I'll tell you a I'll take you into a real you want to go into a deep thought that I have that I don't have clear and I have no sources to it but it's just we're going into hypothetical a little bit is that the who says that what we see is really the common things that we see we see a table we see a chair we see everything so we define this as a table and a chair but it's all because We were educated on the same perception that this is a table, this is a chair, this is a swarm, this is and that's how we all see the lenses of through the world and then we each have our own journey through through the world. But perhaps and this is what I want to get to is that we are all our own worlds. We really each person is a world because everything what we see about the world is coming from my perception of the world. So the Reb is telling us over here that you have to recognize and then we all all of a sudden become unloving we come you know humble and we say what do you mean I'm going to fix the world I'm going to do no put you on this world that says I forgot in the or wherever it is [clears throat] that you are in this world because you have a purpose that no one else in the world can fulfill. fulfill the purpose that you could fulfill in this world. And perhaps that is the message here. The message the Reb is telling you you have to because when you say it and like you were saying it before, you're manifesting it. You are you're you keep saying it because what he wants to do is tell you, ah, [clears throat] chill out, man. You really don't have a purpose. Yeah. You think you're so important. You think and taka you're not so important clapping the other person to be superior but you're so important for yourself especially when you get older right [snorts] >> yes especially when we when you get older you start realizing your kids are you know you're empty nested you start all of a sudden you start saying what's my purpose you know you had a purpose this whole time you had a purpose you had a purpose to get married you had a purpose to have children your purpose to have children is to raise your children okay now all the kids are married and your last boy leaves your house and all of a sudden as you can tell I'm going through this adjustment over here and your last kid leaves your house and all of a sudden you start saying wait a second >> what's the purpose plays over game over and you have to recognize that the purpose was never what you thought the purpose is you thought the purpose was this is the purpose and based on everybody else that I see that this is the purpose this is purpose. >> The purpose is you have a mission in this world and the whole world for you was created for your mission. And the Reb is telling so therefore therefore what everything you do everything that you're doing is what can I do to fix what can I do to bring more revelation of God in the world? What can I bring more revelation to myself? How will I be more connected to? How can I inspire others to be more connected to? So what do you do? The first thing is you have to feel the void. You have to feel the void. You have to recognize the void. And like said, the void is not in the world. It's in your world. The void is in you because what you see is what you feel. I once said this many times. I I I came out to use before I had to say it again. So about seven or eight years ago, I did surgery. I was 100 pounds uh heavier. And [clears throat] after I did surgery, a couple couple of months after I was doing surgery, everybody was telling me, "Wow, you look good. You lost I was shedding pounds. 100 lbs in 6 months. You know, you were shedding pounds." And in my head, thank you very much, but in my head, I was a fat guy. I was that's because it didn't internalize Eric Pes in Orlando take a shower mirrors around the wall and I started looking around the mirror and I'm saying you're looking good you're looking good for the first and I said to myself what what is it everybody's telling me this and it didn't hit me and now that I'm seeing it all of a sudden hit me and then I started going deeper and say wait a second how come I can't I the mirror is not a real image of me. Wait a second. How come I can't see myself? How come I could only see you and you could only see me? Couldn't make 360° eyes. He couldn't make that I should be able to see myself. Why is it that we could only see each other and we can't see it? said that there's a ra which we're not going to go into the but just to bring this point out is the perhaps the only way for me to see me is the way I see you which means let's just and internalize this whatever I see in you is what I see in me because I wouldn't be able to see it in you if I didn't experience it someplace [clears throat] in my life maybe not exactly in this format and I'm judging you every time I judge you negatively. It's because I already judged myself similarly somewhere else. Otherwise, I wouldn't know how to judge you that way. And when I see good in you, it's because I'm able to see good in myself. So, what's the point? Everything is from the view of my view of the world. So if it's my view of the world that means the world is according to my view says the rebb. So understand that you have to fix. So if you see void in your friend, if whatever you're seeing, even though it's really the void in yourself, so the world is back, it's a reflection back on you, but then you have to fix it and you have to feel that void, not just judge that void and distance yourself from the void and say, "Okay, how do I get away from this? I dodge myself from this. I run away from this." No, I'm going to internalize that void because that void is related to me because that's how I'm seeing it. So it must mean that the void is somewhere somewhere back inside of me like was saying before what's my what's my only what's my only thing that I can do to fix that world the only way is to fix me but how do you fix me I have to be misp and you have to be misp because every void that I'm seeing is the only way is through this past week I was listening to a sh for I was by a here by Jonathan Riyadi. He said a beautiful we were talking about he's talking about the word anybody familiar with relate >> nobody nobody anybody if nobody's here talking to all the people that could could relate to this yeah okay so tests right the are tests challenges that are tested so he said a beautiful I hope I could say it over the way he said the shish of the word is Nace. It's not really nace could be interpreted. There are four different translations to the word. Anybody? Let's see. Nace is >> running. Not traveling. Running. Go ahead. No. >> Come on. >> Very good. Two. >> Miracle. Very good. Lifting up. And one last one. Come on. One last three. You got three out of four. >> We say it every day in three times a day. >> The son. What is a nag? >> Very good. A ban. >> So he said all four interpretations are in the word. One one means the first thing is my my test is am I going to run or am I going to lift myself up? That's the first thing. >> How do I lift myself up and not run away? What are we always doing in the test? I don't know about you, but tests if we were able to run from every test we had, we'd be running. We'd still be running. >> So test, but if I know it's a challenge and I don't run and I lift myself up. How? By recognizing my banner, my flag. Who am I? What is this world? This world is not about living up to the Jones and status and and all the that we live in that we all live in. This world has a much bigger purpose. The purpose is how am I? These tests are all uh opportunities for me to be able to pick myself up and lift myself up by remembering my n my flag. And then he brought a [clears throat] medus and this the medus says I forgot where he brought it from. I don't know if it's a med where he said it. I don't want to say words. I'm very bad at accuracy by the way and sources [clears throat] and I'm also very repetitive. So yeah, it's one of the things that you got to live with. So the but the point is he said the biggest miracle is bigger than is Hashem made water into blood it's not a miracle. It's not but for they made water water. For him to make blood into water is nothing. But for a person, a human being to change one mid or to pass one, that's the biggest miracle. So he said has all four interpretations because the biggest miracle is when I lift myself up by holding on to my banner of who I am. That is the biggestness and that's all in. [snorts] So we conclude with one >> banner >> the banner running away n running away is lifting up itself >> and and and the miracle and the miracle. [clears throat] So anyway, conclude with one thing here that Rabbi say the Reb here the main thing I want to get to is one thing the Reb is talking to us sounds like he's taking an idea and by the way you know there's a way of saying that and you know and there's a way of saying that's what he was saying from a whole different perception not from I have a lot to do rabbi said 56 years old you know how much I got to fix you know how much void I need to feel you know how much I have to do but al we're going to start today and the way to do this is through listening to this holy reb that talks directly to you every time you just have to open space and listen to the messages thank