Likkutei Torah Chukas Az Yashir #4

the yeshiva.net [Music] what was the main point we learned about last year that the neshama goes through the whole journey on earth and under the earth so to speak in order to become a bayer and said never confuse the journey with the destination never define the journey as your essential state sometimes a person goes through things but those things don't constitute your essence you have to know what is the journey and who you are because if a person doesn't know that so then they sometimes take on properties of the journey that becomes them and then they don't already know who they are and that's always a key you know i may be sent somewhere but i was sent there that's not me a person has to be able to understand their own identity and they said that's what we say every morning we start off with the brachus it's not to get morbid and start talking about the opposite of life it's to understand what the neshama is and who the neshama is and the journey of the neshama and therefore to know never to mistake the means for the ends the journey for the tactless for the ultimate purpose as he explains at length and this allows a person this allows the water to flow through the earth be filtered through the earth circulated through the earth and actually become much more fresh and much more clean and much more crystal clear and much more vibrant and much more hydrating to the person actually like any other more than any other source of water that was one of the main the main points but like every well it can be eclipsed it can be covered up by earth by soil by dust by gravel by by rocks and pebbles and therefore you have the khafarua and you have the karua you need the fira you need to create describe the difference of the two words in order to explore and find the source of water find the mayan but it's never a question that the mayan is there the only question is how much i have to dig never doubt it's not like when you're digging physically there may be water here there may not be water here and the truth is if you dig deep enough you probably found find water but the mayam khayyam here is always there it's not it's never a source that can be that can be dried up but you need the khafarua and you need the karua and he says who digs it that's the language of the shira what's saarim so sarim is he says the founding fathers so to speak the leaders of the the the progenitors of the jewish people especially yaakov who khazal say was bachelors the chosen one including both avraham and yitzhak and his name was name was israel when he was given the name the adversary told them because you wrestled with elohim and with people and vatukhal and you prevailed and he explains at length what that means represents its aramis for the wrestling with the simpson with the concealment going to the space of akhta sasha and imanoshim is often like and explain what does it mean to wrestle with malachi why because represents a kali for a certain flow for a certain ashpaw and if this kali is filled this is my identity the uniqueness of yaakov avenue and the summer is tighter and today he says is the toyota includes everything so therefore yaakov is if i'm this i'm not this the turtle can include paradoxes when moisture hits the rock kipatish your fights itself as i'll say it's one rock but it's splintered into many pieces it's one fire but it's splintered so to speak into many sparks and it's all one fire election even though shtayam zushamati so it comes out in two opposite experiences but it's really in the kuda of that ability to create oneness from diversity to be able to synthesize paradoxes to be able to not get splintered and fragmented like the malak says i'm this i'm not this that's the uniqueness of the adam and that's why the person is anything but monolithic the person is anything but uniform the person is anything but in one dimension constantly yeah i don't know such maybe maybe there's a few people like that they're always in the same state there's a beautiful voice from the mazicha magid it's a half ludic vert the gomorrah says in shabbos the flamin allah if it's a very famous story that a non-jew came to shama right and he asked him to teach him the whole toyota on one foot so dokha foreign apparently was involved with real estate like all good jews yeah why was he somehow he had an amazonian i don't know that was used for measuring measuring uh what meats and bounds yeah which was used for binion for structure for construction so he had that masa boom with the sticker she came to hillel and hillar told him i'll do it what you dislike to be done to you don't do to your friend ma da la sante la cava clay sava that's the whole turn everything else is commentary go learn the commentary and he became a convert so the margin asked the famous question why did hitler have to sorry yeah obviously he felt that the guy wasn't ready you know teach me the whole turn on one leg you know go into a medical school and say teach me everything that's available in medicine in 20 seconds thank you you're not a serious student and one how long could you stand on one leg for a minute for 20 seconds if you're an athlete for for a longer time are you going to learn the whole toyota what the gamora is pushed him away with a stick and a stick of binion so you could say well that's what happened but if ghazal chose that detail it wasn't how he pushed the wonderful person with his with his hands what if he sent the guy by to throw him out coming actually means every person so it's telling me you're not ready so the market of mesut says there's a deeper interpretation here the person wanted to convert but he said he wants it to be our regular he wants to always remain on the same foot he always wants to remain on the same foundation a regular foot holds up a table he wants doesn't only mean one aghas also means uniform the same it's the same she says he always wants to remain now he's inspired he's uplifted he's infused he's enthusiastic he always wants to remain on that regal you know as i say in english on the right foot he wants to always remain standing on one leg the same foundation it should be day in and day out he asks what's the eight sir that once your heart gets on fire it stays on fire right it's like a couple of husbands will come and say what's the aid sir i'm having a good day in my marriage how do i sustain the same mood forever you know how do you freeze kodak moments you know kodak moments allah mashallah yeah because it doesn't exist kodak moments boom freeze it as i use this so for a picture it can work that's a shyla so shamai told them this night and this day to sunset and sunrise you think you're gonna be the only one that's not part of the binion is not just physical that itself was the sheer he said amasa binyan the structure of creation has a measuring stick it has a system there's a rhythm there's a beat to the universe that the reborn initial element there's a beat there's alias and there's this there's night and there's day there's moments where up there's moments reserved you think you're the only one who's going to be out of that it doesn't work that way we fluctuate so he came to hillary the hello the market says this hitler didn't argue with shamai hillary was maazbe it'll explain haku for kasha she says hillary was being mars beside explain hillary made it palpable what did hillary say what you dislike to be done to you don't do to somebody else which means as follows it's a hufflepuff from the market he says how did you become a gay suddenly why are you coming into the basement you have no you have nothing better to do than become a jew right like the gomorrah says in your vomits those are lunatic vampires when a guy comes you tell them with him and scuff him it's not the wisest thing to become a jew you start dealing with anti-semitism it was dubsters be a good girl you'll get your islam yes but we have we have nothing against non-jews the only religion that doesn't say that there's no salvation outside of judaism as judaism right other religions yeah there's no salvation outside of this outside of that outside of that hazal yesterday it's a very prominent safer in kabbalah was written in the 1400s that may have ben is one of the big mykobalam in spain i sought myself and avoided safer available so the shot is why did you suddenly become again what happened the hedo writes always in gemara there's an expression cotton chinese goddess a miner who became an adult ever chinese a slave who was emancipated you would expect goes a guy who converted never throughout shas it's always gersh in his gaia so the hida picks up on it and the khidas says he was again before he was this guy there was a knit why would somebody be driven to convert for authentic reasons why why what's this thing i want to become why what do you need it for element it's who you are you'll ask a question why am i i this is who i am gershwin is gaia he was a gay before but the nitsuits was very concealed it was dormant it takes 20 years 30 years 40 is 50 years you sometimes meet people in the world converts it's a fellowship employem you know they were surrounded by goyerskeit on every level everything was as good and normal and predictable and suddenly out of nowhere they had to make this whole ruckus why a gitakash in this guy it's a gay it's a gay before the maggot asks this person versus pluton what happened to you you were live 30 years 40 years we don't know the age whatever the age was without being a jew why suddenly do you come into the basement to start asking questions you want to learn torah the answer is there was another jew who had a nephilia there was another jew who had a difficult moment and he fell down spiritually and emotionally he fell into the abyss and as he falls into the abyss he picked himself up and when he picked himself up he attracted all the nitsuitsas that were in the abyss including gears so your nitzette was triggered because when you go down to a very low place people people who are low can relate to you if you stay in an ivory tower you can't relate to these people see your oil you have to go sometimes down very low the mission says can't fulfill the mitzvah for others like reading the mcgill or blowing shafer right or benching i have to be if he's not guilty in other words he's not connected to the challenge he can't take out the people from their chev from their guilt a lifeguard can't save the person by saying hey come out of the water you batlin he can't save somebody that way he has to jump in when you jump in it could be dangerous if you don't know what you're doing but that's the only way he could slap him out he has to get you have to get does they call it down and dirty it's not so easy for people i want to remain uh i want to remain on the top of my tower and i'll take a megaphone and i say hey come here come here come to me but the person the famous story with rapnach mean everybody knows right with the chicken with under the table huh you know the myself the prince who decided that he was a rooster and he sat under the table and everybody tried every medication and then the went down under the table he said because then there's kinship there's empathy without empathy there's no connection without connection i can't get you out so the market tells this person how did you get out you want to be inspired forever yeah how did you get to that space because somebody else wasn't inspired because somebody else had a spiritual nephilia and in that nephilim they lifted you up you now want to do the opposite for everybody else what you would dislike to be done to you you don't want nobody else should have ever had a difficult moment because then you would have remained in the abyss it's because somebody else went downward that you came up it's like a seesaw mama sisa right i go down and you come up somebody went down for you to go up so now you never want to go down again that's what the market told it can't be so that's the vertex doesn't have this problem amalek is one dimensional kisarissa mila a person is filled with paradoxes there's an alia there's a but it's always a journey and that was the kiddish of martial to be magala that all the sparks are connected to the nikolas it encompasses all of the diversity it's just manifested in different ways but at its core it's one election that's why the sorry mother one who are this is it's clear you understand this vote for the market the benevolt when you're in a downer you don't have to get down because somebody else will be uplifted you could also see it practically there's nothing that makes people close to other people as when they can share their moments of yirida right somebody left me a message on friday say he lives in monroe he lives in kiyosaila monroe and he watched the event on thursday night so he left me a message he's a social worker a therapist i'm not sure exactly i don't know what is involved with people and he says the most inspiring thing is that you said i didn't remember i said it but you said that you have self-doubt sometimes he says imagine somebody getting up and saying i have self-doubt he says nobody says that everybody says i know exactly what to do. i didn't know what the bikinis in that was but he says wow wow [Laughter] so i understood when a per in every situation yeah it's true in a marriage it's true in a friendship when you share with somebody there was a hidden mental foot of us so when the foot of us he always had a very gesh it was an old chabad from russia he was in siberia for many years so he once shared a story that there was a hasid in poland and he was going to israel and he was a very poor man so he was walking was walking with this tarber with his with his sack and he was exhausted and suddenly he sees a jew very wealthy and aristocrat going in a very fancy coach the man stops and says he says he's going to this in the city to this rep he says that's where i was i'm going as well she says come on off he had a couch on the coach you know a comfortable couch the bella gulla the wagoneer was was whipping the horses the horses were going fast and he was sitting near this wealthy jew the wealthy jew says you know i'm a doctor i'm a doctor and i'm a very well to do and i'm happy to do you this very thanks so i want you to know that i'm not just a doctor i'm a doctor that i go to the patient's houses and i sit with them and i see what they need i don't make them schlep to me i come to them and this old hoster who had rags he was like uh very poor attorney and he says i do the same thing okay interesting he says and by the way i'm a doctor if somebody doesn't have money i do it for free i do everything i treat them i help them i give them the remedies i prescribe medicines for them vitamins for them for free because it says i also do this he says you should also know that if there's an almond if there's a widow or a osteman orphan i take even more care of them i spend more time with them he says i also do this because you should also know i don't only give ten percent if it's daca i give twenty percent stuck i also do it so finally the whole journey i do exactly the same thing i only talk about the good things that i do i do exactly the same thing exactly [Laughter] the whole trip he's saying all the good things he says right so that's but that that's really where real bonding happens where does real bonding happen if i come and i say to you and i tell you how beautiful i am how wonderful i'm a perfect i am it's all nice crusader that's not where you touch somebody right we touch people you know from from our weaknesses that's where you touch people so it's in that space that's what the market is saying that you could lift somebody up so you're not going to be vulnerable you're going to be this perfect guy who never has a down moment so that's the the ki series the malach is one dimensional amalek has one schlichters a person the schlitz changes constantly and because it changes constantly the journey changes constantly and because the journey changes constantly person goes into very different and paradoxical moments and can reveal the actors to reveal the actus and the errors so now we go to the next step in in pedagogy so after this long beer and who digs up the bay the sorry he says and when you dig up this bayer be out like we said revealed in a person everything is in a different place in other words every person has an asham every person is a helical the question is which level of consciousness am i operating on right in tanya and there's this concept of two souls we have more than one soul you don't have one brain you have different brains the idea that you have one brain what they call a you know a mono brain you have one brain and that's it is it's a very problematic idea because basically it means that everything comes from one brain and this brain is doing very crazy things and weird things and you have to shut down parts of it when a person understands you have different brains different souls and each one has different voices and different situations that's the paradoxes that's the paradoxes that a person has the question is which level of consciousness am i operating on i could be operating on one level of kind we're operating another level of interest today even in neuroscience we spoke many times there's different levels of the brain you could be thinking with your reptilian brain which means you're not thinking much you could be thinking with your mammalian brain which means you're thinking like a rat i don't mean a rat in a evil way a rat like a mouse or a elephant a chimpanzee you could be thinking with your prefrontal lobes which is you know more of a person an effort you can also be thinking with your nephew shall a kiss it's different states it's always there the question is what's available to me sometimes a person you don't have wires you know you can have a beautiful machine in your house but you don't have a wire fit so what happens you have a computer you have a phone but you don't have a wire for it so what happens it doesn't function why it's dead but it's not really dead you just need to energize it so sometimes a person has it but i have no wire to connect to and you could see sometimes as a person a part of the brain neuroscientists have an expression they say part of the brain is offline offline let's say it's offline sometimes there's no internet connection yeah it's not that there's no internet i don't have a way to connect maybe i don't have the password what's my password so you have it in a person you have it but the wire has been cut and there's a reason the wire has been cut it could have happened because of a physical event or because of another event or because of something internal or external so what i need to do is not create it from new i have to wire it i have to connect to it i have to become aware that i have this part in me and i could use it sometimes a person could live half their life without knowing that they have this part in them so it's never about getting upset at my weird brain that one day it's inspired and the next day it's meshuga no no no no it's two different brains it's two different souls there's a lot going on and i have to work with each one to be able to be at magala so that's called gili habe that's why that's why it's such an important idea to dig up the bear what does it mean dig up the bed you're supposed to sit with shovels yeah here the shovel doesn't mean a physical shovel and go into your brain and start banging your brain to figure it out that's not how you're gonna do it take a hammer and start pounding your brain it's probably not a good idea i mean to discuss it with your doctor before you do it can also give a few migraines but the point is in a way it's much deeper it's it's having the courage to open yourself up to all the parts of yourself which you may not know about right if i'm used to responding to life from a particular perspective that's my go-to place that's my coping mechanism i don't know that i have another uh availability they could use the example it's a very the brain called neural pathways there's pathways that the brain creates through which it operates through which it thinks so imagine you go to work every day in the morning and there's a certain highway you take wherever it is you exit your new jersey office there's a certain highway every day you take exactly the same how are you doing it for 40 years one day the highway is blocked so what do you do you're stuck in traffic the best favorite somebody can do for you is tell you there's another highway no no no there's no other highway you're so used to this highway there's no other so in cars it's not so hard but in your brain it's a lot harder because if these are my neural pathways right when my wife says these words boom this is the highway your child says these words this is the highway your employer your employer your shutter your shriger your your father your mother your brother your sister whoever it is says these comments my car is on the highway it's 120 miles per hour there's another highway another highway means being magala it means you have to reveal there's a new well there's a different source of life there's a different source of inspiration there's a lot of cover-ups a lot of earth ms so i have to work through the earth but don't think that there's no bare minimum that's the now i need the tools you need the tools to be able to do that not everybody can do it on their own you need a support system you need tools but those that is the ability that is the tactless to be able to be at magala siklar al suskalar the islam here understands huh good say philanthropy we're vulnerable it's not so much examining your deeds it's it's much deeper than that because i can examine my deeds from the same point of view that i examined my deeds last year you understand that's one of the biggest challenges that people have they try to do improvement but they're using the same tools that they always had so their improvement is very very limited because what they need is a complete yeah the definition of insanity right i'm using the same tools and i'm expecting different results you understand the person means well the person means well they're not conscious it's not it's not a person's fault it's not you have to be you have to have a lot of courage growth comes through a lot of courage a lot of courage the younger man is having terrible shalom bias problems what happened anger management he would explode on his wife and his kids i knew him he's a great a nice person he felt there was an expression and shaved murder malaya he would regret it immediately and he would apologize but the next day it happened again and then again and then again and again so he went to somebody the person says you're not learning enough you have to learn more which is a beautiful beautiful thing to learn more and then another person gave him another answer to read this to read that to read that nothing was helping his problem was not learning he had all the information he didn't have a problem with information he knew he would regret it it's not like he had to be learned and educated that you don't behave this way it was very clearly that this kid this person is becomes a two three-year-old child who's trying to survive he's being threatened information is not going to help him his information is all processed through trauma you understand hajj bananas was not what he needed he needed a completely different idea he needed to be megala different parts of his brain that he didn't know about they've been offline probably since he's four years old only when a person can begin to open themselves up to this can there be real healing in these situations sometimes a person just needs information but is bismarck most people don't need information revision outs and if you don't know google knows so he says what comes out from the bear it comes out often love is compared to fire right we say in in him your heart is on fire so he says but there's something that lasts longer than fire the fire has to eat up the oil or the logs or the cat whatever is feeding the flame so you can have a fire you know sometimes you had a fire in the fire brent but in an hour there's nothing left it's not so easy always to hold up a fire he says the kiyomya said the water water is self-contained so he says it endures more than the love of rish bayes bislava satsvilla sometimes a person is on fire and you want that fire to remain it doesn't we all know it right sometimes you're on fire it's beautiful it's beautiful it's heartwarming but the fire gets extinguished and the person feels the air he says that's why you have to have water you can only have fire you need fire and that's the mayhem has a key he says more than the ava believes another person has his slavos means passion fire allah a flam fire in yiddish the love of fire is very passionate and when it's when the fire is burning it's much more exciting than water it's electrifying it's it's intense just like when you have it also between people you're having a relationship on avoca and avoca maya the balatanya hashem says you're my sister you're my wife what does it mean you don't usually tell your wife you're my sister you're my with two separate things you're not supposed to marry your sister cayenne and hevel was a one-time event the chat is it's two types of love a husband and a wife are capable of a certain age there's a certain fire it can go both ways like the gemara says inside the ishv right it's ace you'd and hey and together it makes ut but if they get rid of the uk he says one fire destroys another fire because ishan ish it's a fire in other husbands and wives is fire if you bring in utk so the fire becomes a geshemaka fire and if not becomes a problematic fire somebody asked me the other day why is it that in america to 60 divorces i said why not for people to stay married and to stay in a very loving state it's it's it's it's a hitter it's not don't take it for granted it's not like it happens it doesn't happen fire doesn't burn lo hey lumvad you light a candle yeah you come back a week later where's the fire what do you do to maintain the fire fires don't just last leo lomvar they have to be fed they have to be nurtured if you leave a fire on its own it's going to be extinguished people say we had a i had a beautiful vacation for three weeks we went away three weeks it was ganedan mamash which is also a kiddush that vacation should be grenadine mamas most fights happen on vacation because people don't have what to do with their lives maybe unless you're hiking very intensely so you get exhausted is very good but as he comes back and he wants what happened to it why doesn't it last forever it doesn't last forever because fires don't last then there's something called achi my sister a relationship between siblings i'm not talking about a crazy dysfunctional family where nobody talks with each other it's a tragedy i'm talking about normal family with his you know basic trust and love your sister you're not on fire to your sister at least let's hope so it's a stable relationship you can't get divorced from your sibling you can get divorced you could get divorced so it's the difference of avoca there's a mile in each but the myelin myem is it's a consistent thing you know a family that's the concept of family right they say what's the definition of home what's the definition of a home the place that they let you in when nobody else lets you in home they let you in and the place you don't have to have a reason why you go there you know why why your home somebody said why did you come home what do you what are you what are you here for yeah this is where i am there's a certain stability she says in avoidance hashem there's a moment of moment of this but then there's a time there's no aish but it could still be mayan and that's what he says we're saying that phyllis of um of geshem said this you start asking for rain remember the father who was drawn after you kamayam like water what's up it's like water well we're talking about mayam and then we're magala in every one something that happened with mayam and then we come to moshe and what do we say right he struck the rack you have to understand how that falls into twilla's geshem you're trying to ask stuck out his neck to be slaughtered and yaakov was magala the beaters what's so good about that so that's what we explained last time what mushroom was trying to do when he struck the rock but that's the nakuda that here has a stability even after davening sometimes a person can't have his bonus that's going to bring you fire but the mayam is the consistency in the after the parentheses he brings them in that's why it says famous expression send your bread over the water which also means he says maybe allah goes on the first time around pasha's bashalach how do i know not because that was an sur viki sabatsur this time in salah two separate words empire says hashem says the second time around they should have said allah that would have been very good schmack doesn't say that huh that's a good question it's two different types of rocks you're gonna learn geology one day when you finish with physics go go into geology and you'll see the nintendo that's true but generally a tsur is more tough a cellar is rocky on its exterior but is moist on the interior uh tsur is rocky on the inside and on the outside it's much more tough more dry more dry there's no no inner sometimes rocks inside have some you know moist or at least softness they're more easier to grind and so forth i believe that's the difference the word seller if you take in hebrew the words are very the letters are very essential like we always learn because the letters are the oasis of asarama maurice they're the oceans of the energy so the names are very important if you take the word selah so sam and ayan so if you spell out samach fully it's if you spell out lament it's lamed mem dalit in other words deep in the cellar you're going to find maya and that's the vert that in the cellar is maya that bear has maya you don't have to worry about it you have to reveal it it's a very big difference if you're sitting in front of somebody and you know that is mayam you know there's mayam it's not a sheila it's not 90 sure imagine i tell you there's a treasure in your garden there's a treasure somebody hit a million dollars in your garden go dig you're digging and digging and digging you can't find it so if it's 50 is a treasure after digging for a year you're gonna stop but if you know for sure that there's more money there so every time you don't find it what does it mean you're getting closer it's a different attitude that's the key difference that's why when the when the exit is the balsam insisted that in every judah there is they didn't say it's 90 it's 60 percent it's 50 it's everybody besides the besides besides me or applying their money who's a loser no no it's it's not a it's not nine it's a thousand percent it's a hundred percent it's a different attitude so he says the mayam that's the this is of life why is bitter the source of life because what does bittel mean alignment with the source if not it wouldn't be the source of life if you taj bit allah self-destruction then it's not the source of life but if you understand that bitter is kayak ability to say what in other words to connect with a source of the play which is and another mimer of sukkah so after mine says all year they poured on the mezbah wine only on sukkah did they pour nissa mayam and this doesn't even say hummus that stuck him didn't believe in this what's the difference wine is more associated with conscious simcha people drink right the gemara says wine is a joyous drink we all know people don't sit out for festivities and say let's drink water you drink water but drink wine wine is what it says wine represents avocados like a fire people get excited mayam is legit a much more boring drink the mishna says in brachas that if you're not thirsty when you drink water you don't even make a bracha right because it's tasteless it's colorless and it's it's uh it's scentless unless you're thirsty but mayam represents a deeper dvacus and that's the vacus that's deeper than fire and he says it's like when the child is by the father what does this mean if you didn't meet somebody for a few years and you meet them so you scream you're passionate like in the airport you see them from far once the child meets his father they hug there's no screaming anymore why now you should scream because now it's not screaming now it's oneness so the silence of water is not really silent as much as it is completed vegas there's no passion not because there's no passion but because you're completely one with something passion always represents that there's still a gulf and i'm trying to overcome the distance the barrier that's what creates noise and now it's a beautiful thing it means you're excited but don't don't uh don't be fooled by silence because sometimes silence is much much deeper sometimes you know you have a person who doubt you with different sadhikum some people davin and they screamed and they jumped it was beautiful sometimes you had a person at sadiq david you didn't see anything you would think other person is daydreaming no no no in real vegas there's no passion not because there's no passion because you're completely one he says when the ben is by the aviv where i grew up there was an alta gaba it was a dog from poland his name was gordon he was a very funny guy so the came into schulte and he started screaming he goes over to me proof with gutens did you try first talking to hashem nicely you have to scream right away he was joking i said proof with the gutens you know before you howler should be nice my point is that sometimes his slavos is because i'm distant so therefore i'm overcoming the distance and miami says is when the ben is by the father taka you don't need me now sometimes i am distant so the passion is helpful right the passion is helpful but with this real vacancy it's the king of avoca and that's stable that's consistent because it's not separate it looks counter-intuitive but that's how it is and therefore um is what learning is about immersed immersing in trader trader it says in zohar it's an expression in this state of oneness it affects in the soul of a person at the same point is a possibility don't make a killer don't make believe there's a hollow with the shrine is not there that's what hashem really means it's not just don't make a kill hashem don't desecrate hashem's name means something much deeper killul is believing that there's a space that is not fully present with hashem's infinity of enoid mulvade so the leicester khalalu means that in terror a person can get closer to this space of light my words i place in your mouth because real toyota means i'm a conduit for your words it's not a separate person learning is about the order of the part she is technically it's a whole different energy to benefit than uh the nashest villain told you wants to stir with him she says parishes kadesh when he speaks about the filling he says comes from which is which remains consistent lamontier because that's what toyota does it says in sifri it says you should love hashem how do you love how do you love hashem so he says that's what it is you get to know hashem you get to recognize hashem yeah when you love somebody you have to get to know them if you don't get to know them you can't love them before she had a child adam has to know and knowing is this kasra's if you don't know somebody you have to spend time getting to know the person it's very hard for people because people can be married for many years but you don't really know your spouse you know the person you would like to think you know or you know the person you would like to you would want her to be that person in your own imagination you have to get to know the person right love is not i i i love who you are i don't love who i think you are somebody once said most people love they don't love somebody else they love who they think the other person is you have a caricature and that's what i love that's not love you love your child or you love who you think your child is once you discover who they are it's all different avoid them so the sifri says there's love that's called seeing and there's love that's called hearing he says a love that's hearing which is always from a distant is ash and the love of that you see is mayam which is bitter it's not passion it's bitter because when you see something you can get lost in it you know you get mesmerized by it it's like you lose your observatory status shemia is always you remain in your place and you hear the information you digest it riya they say seeing is believing or the gemara says a witness can't be a judge because once you saw it the objectivity is killed forever you know once you saw something people have seen certain things they're in a different place it's a different place i was once at a dinner it was in chicago it was before corona it was a huge crowd there was a school yeshiva there had a big dinner and they asked i was the i was the guest the speaker at the dinner so i finished the speech i was finishing with a story so i was telling a story about the holocaust i kid you not somebody gets up a middle and i right away so he's an elderly man and i always i right away knew he was a survivor i could see you know you could see and he says he says hootsburgh to tell a story about the holocaust hootsburgh you make the people believe that you know what happened there sit down and don't tell the story he was in auschwitz first so that's what i did i said you're right and i sat down i sat down what's the difference does the ear the smear right you have it unfortunately in in in in terrifying experiences but you have it in everything shmea you heard a story it can affect you it can impact you but it's processed by your own identity riya yeah even though riya is also processed by me but really it's a different level of intimacy with the story you know you sought it's different it's more the story defines you in shmia you define the story so he says and avoid this hashem you have also smeared every ear and shemia you define god in your ear god defines you when you define god this passion when god defines you this bittle this this vaca's that's mayam it's not ash it's a different type of a relationship and that's consistent because it's not about passion sometimes people think if there's no passion there's no relationship delta sometimes the deepest relationships have no passion not because you don't feel because it's beyond feeling you hear the difference you have a mother sitting with her child in the hospital or you know even in the bedroom four o'clock in the morning she's exhausted she hasn't slept the grace and be lying right if you ask are you very passionate you're feeling a lot of islamos i'm not feeling anything all i could think about is a bed right but you take that child away oh she said oh she doesn't really care yeah take that child away from her and see what happens you understand what i'm saying don't measure closeness always by how much the fire is burning it's beautiful when there's a fire but he says the mayam is much deeper than the aish was flexed it's true the middle never by darwining you saw nothing they used to say on the outside it looks like a cola the outside it looks dark inside you touch it you get burnt i grew up by the la bava chadab it was a pella there's a name kipper could stand at the stender 10 20 hours and did not move you know people go like this they go like this they shake but should not move but it affected you in a way in an unbelievable way once by nearly started to break down sobbing and everyone was like shocked because it different sadiq they're darving in different ways you know sometimes the person is not moving it's because they're not there in the most powerful way there's no separateness so let's finish that's the mitzvahs that are all dressed up in physicality and earth you can't be making a mista without earth how are you going to put on filling if you don't want to deal with physicality how are you going to get stuck how are you going to do tremors myself shabbos yum tiff matzah shay for everything is gashmi's very few mitzvahs that don't need rashmi peter should be in our mitchell's commission all of tyra is an explanation on mitzvos take any messages there's an explanation in the midst of krishna in the midst of phil in the midst of brachas shabbos explanation of shabbos what is toyota toyota is a commentary on the mitzvos there's nothing in tata that's not a commentary on the mistress she's talking about tereshabal obviously you have in tanakh you have stories you have ideas you have div but generally trade is an explanation on the mitzvos which are all earthy so tayden is the mayam khayyim meaning your mouth is a conduit it's not separate it says living water will come out of your shallow half will go to the yamaha mania on the east ham of toyota which are enclosed in earth in gas means in the mitzvahs they will go from the below and they will fill the yamaha sapient from the mayan commission like it says we have it also in prickly elvis when two people learn hashem has to listen to me and you're learning you're learning what came from him imagine right i wrote a safer and you were learning with somebody else that's safer i don't have to listen i know what i wrote you're learning what i wrote so it says hashem is listening hashem is listening to the two people learning what's he have to listen he doesn't know it is a what's been the toyota volume hazardous which is manifested in physicality americans and battalions these are locusts that are all malubashin kashmiris it comes from a tremendous high strategy like we learned earlier whatever is higher comes down lower but so therefore it accesses which is the energy that is limited in the world as vayishma is absorbed listens to the trader that comes out through neshama's down here that are learning toyota that deals with the inaudible [Music] you know when they have this uh macy's like a stick with uh with um with a point on the bottom it was a weapon with which they used to dig but nice them with their staff that's how they dug out these wells but that's what the the shira reads in paris so he says which is hakika engraving the word mechaike is also an engraver of the law right he says when you engrave a vessel people who who mold vessels there's two kakikos there's two engravements from the inside and from the outside i don't know if you ever dealt with pottery or you have a saw potter or he makes for example clay harris you know you take the earth you mix it with mud water you mix it with some straw and you have to mold the kale so this is what you do inside and what does he do outside he says on the outside you have to remove all the rust um on the inside you have to engrave a cavity a base cable it should be able to receive if it's going to be a full killer you can't do anything with it you want to make a cup you want to make a bowl you want to make a pot you want to make a barrel you have to create a base kibble on the outside you don't need a cavity on the outside for carrot you need a wall but outside you want to remove all the dirt all the rust he there's also an avoider to turn your soul into achilles that's all and there's two different avoid this this and this it's a very very profound idea it's it's also in communication and teaching when you want to make a kali there's two separate avoid this first you have to work on the outside if you ever see a potter he straightens it up you have a sore pottery in your journeys he straightens it up you make it smooth but that's not the kale yet that's all on the outside very nice now you have to make a calendar you always start with what does this mean in communication you see this content communication the first thing is you have to make a personality on the outside the outside is more external but this is where the gemara says that rabbi used to say i'm also the first before you used to teach you make the people ready and open right it's the beginning on the outside you have to remove the resistance but that's not yet the kaley then there's working through the pnim it's like in your own children if there's no trust if there's no kinship you can't go anywhere first is kika saklim removing the heavy clods of earth that the toyota should be accessed in a state of openness bittel that's what akeley is you're open it's not phil if my caylee is full i can't accept anything i have to have an empty kaylee in a good way to be able not a pus to kaylee an empty kaylee means an open cali to receive like we learned some time ago we talked about you know when you're learning turner as a child you're learning tired as an old person a child you're open you're a clay cable so that's the mechaik there's always two stages in life is to remove resistance trust that's not enough so now you like me we're in the same playing fields what do i do with that now you have to really open up a clay cable to be able to receive something deeper and then he says it's a tree of life for those who hold on to it but also means those who are they hold on to it they make it strong they support it but don't think that zwollen was just an akshlapper in some ways the water comes from above it goes below and from the below it brings up water zvulunu was involved in physicality more than yasaka his goodness his livelihood his money supports his soccer so could only learn with the energy with the livelihood that he gets from zwollen in that sense zvulun has something that comes before you sahar because he's the one who gives the life that he should be able to learn the maya that he is that he should be able to learn that's why in the past he says no in one indians the will and comes before you success the nations will come and call out by the mountain so hazal say that all the business people would come and they were so impressed they would go to the harabayas and see the bay samiktas and see the uniqueness and the monotheism one third of one god unlike the deserters usually we say who could go up on hashem's mountain who could stand in me alaba hashem nobody can go the kick bar level it's very hard to climb the mountain that have been extinguished even somebody in the state of umamos they can also come to the higher in other words vulneran lifts up everybody so that's the song so you have the mayan which is torah but you need the clay kibu and you have mishanoisem everything needs an arousal from below that hashem says you're ready for this level the source of canasta's israel they sing out ali bayer come up who is that he says israel like he said in the beginning of the minds the source of allah which gathers inside of it the mucker the spiritual source of israel in in in divinity classes is all gathers so as yahshua you saw the highest level of israel sings to knesset israel sings to the community of israel and whether she sings bring up the bring up respond to her from above to below the electrolytes in order for the to be able to lift itself up from the earth and new law your first need a response from above like vatan la miriam it says miriam initiated the shira right so he says oz yoshi yisrael yisrael de la ela sings a song a liber speaking to knesset lift up a but in order for that we need an ullah you have to trigger you have to arouse the bay you always need hashem to help and say we're ready for this then i could do you bring us back in trouble we say every day a shivering and go la having dublin go deeper as much compassion as you have for yourself it's never the level of compassion that the shrine has for you because you don't know your own greatness you know rahmanis is always based on how powerful you are when you see somebody homeless and you find out that this person right a few years ago was a multi-billionaire it's a big bigger rahmanus than somebody who was born in the gutter it's a different level you find that as a prince what if you find out that this wasn't just a prince you talk about the highest of the highest of the highest and rahman is bigger she said as much rahman as you have on your soul that hashem has in your soul is a different level you'll never experience it because you don't know your own greatness so a venus that compassion is much deeper he says we could never trigger that level of rahmannas because you never know your infinite greatness like that so therefore allow me to experience the empathy from the beginning which triggers the insiders and you have the end which comes from this that through this arusa de la sata comes this urdus from above you have this from above that precedes the person's avoider and that follows the person's avoid precedes the persons of that ara that empowers you and then there's the one that comes from your avoider the response after you're avoided there's the one that initiates it it shrinks and then there's the one that follows this is the well that you dig out living waters come out of the well and ultimately fill even the yamaha have a beautiful day and a beautiful week so remember that this week and next week i'm going to be away so based hasham will resume the week after okay please tell anybody that you know who comes to vistamine different states different um you wanna know how you develop tools yeah the first step is always awareness when a person looks at their how do i respond to situations in life if those responses are coming from different places i'll see it in the responses for example from responding with no patience if i'm responding with no love if i'm responding with uh anger if i'm responding with uh with fear if i even need to respond if i even need to that means that i'm i'm being i'm operating on a much more narrow place you know if i see that people that i really love are getting hurt by me and people who love me i'm getting hurt by them so these are all so you know that you need to become a person has to be aware of all these things and you know and relationships are very important because they give us feedback when you have a real relationship you get feedback like like you know how are you experiencing this relationship you know that feedback allows us to open ourselves up to what's going on so that's the first step always the first step is you know that awareness of of of something is going on now it doesn't change in a day but that awareness is the beginning of a process where the person could now start asking what is it and that's what it really means to clean up the earth clean up the earth means you know what what what what are these blockages i may not be able to always do it myself sometimes if it's very very intense blockages i need a mochaic i need somebody to help me and you know open up the cayley but opening up the cayley is really can you create space for a relationship not so easy sometimes my kaylee is blocked you know i can't let anybody in it's filled up with earth i'm not letting anybody in uh classes is strong canisius israel is the space where all the neshamas are one so it's in every person that nikuda and the jew where all the nashomas are connected and they're macabre from the source that's called canasta this class is brought to you by the yeshiva.net please help us continue the classes make even a small contribution at www.theyshiva.net donate