Likkutei Torah Atem Nitzavim #5: How Deeply Do We Effect Hashem? How Deeply Does He Effect Us?

[Music] Oh yeah. Yeah. Yeah. [Music] Okay. Good morning again. Good morning everybody. Yeshua. As usual, I want to thank for the beautiful pictures of the different types of scales that we're going to be using shortly. Okay. where page 88 on top it says page 88 we're holding per in the Hebrew it's meal column 4 meal column daled today's class is dedicated by the trrow family from Montreal and it is in honor of the yard site of Rabio Yeetszk known as Yoske Benimovski on the 27th day of El. May his family be blessed with amongst us all and may his special soul always be a source of love and inspiration and blessing to his family and all of the Jewish people and all of us. And thank you very very much for the dedication and our good. So we spoke about in peric alf the posture of unity peric bay what the covenant looks like the love that comes from the essence and transcends rationality. And then in chapter three he discussed the idea of the schifer. The idea of the sche and the two layers of the heart and the primar that transcends words and pernaled he discussed the last chapter of Tahillim the grand finale of Tahillim. Hallelujah. Hallelujah. Hallelujah. How the whole journey from the beginning begins all the way down till the last layers of the evolution from the divine all the way to the physical world. And it's all beta shifer to be able to return with the blow of the shifer to return to the absolute unity that comes from the pious beyond words beyond letters beyond sentences. It's the outcry that comes from the internal most space of the heart versus which is connected more to words. So now he goes to CH However, so this mime brings all the four chapters together. He started over the is the clown but the it's to understand how do you unify what is why so now he comes in he brings it all together what is it that generates this type of this type of flow This type of from the word like you have in mikvah right means when your something something flow something is communicated from one space to a completely different space uh connecting them yeah so is like to bring to bring it forth when I was I don't know when I was a bak they told a story I was a kid told a story that there was a bakab and he was um he met a girl and uh whatever I guess they met uh sometime and he was basupic he was not sure if he should uh if he should continue if he should get engaged. So he wrote a letter to uh to the lab. So he wrote in he said they said circled took for those who don't know Yiddish v means further means closer. He said should be which means should you continue it's a says huh yeah so is so he says here what's causes means causes right what causes the ham from the space of remember there was fire and water water always looks for the lowest space fire always departs it's always you have to hold it down right is always departing. It's not going down. It's going up. You have to find a way to hold it down. So when you talk about it's the flow which always requires that's them water but essentially you're talking about or back to in his kadesh as he said kadesh is kadesh in the state of which is completely beyond any description and definition. And then he says the other kale. See the all the terms that he used in the previous chapters. Kaleian means whatever it is it's higher. What does mean? This means higher. Well, higher. What? That's exactly the point. I don't know. Whatever it is, it's higher. If you're talking, it's higher. Talking it's higher. If you're talking the highest places, it's higher. Elliot. So he uses the and as we said the med says that the souls of they ascended in his in his internal thought and is his nation is part of that they should have the capacity to arouse the revelation of of the deepest form of the relationship of deepest form of all the way from the essence. What what gives what creates this type of ability potential? So this is uh what's altered asking here? What can have a relationship? We're talking here about the ems in its deepest place that we have no words for. We have no words for somebody wrote a comment I saw in the class yesterday says Salv has no words. That's why you need a shaer. So how does he talk about it in the mimer? He should just blow shaer. The mime should just have a picture of a shyer. I guess he wanted but picture of a shy is also not that. And it's not even the blow of a I know a lot of people who I know a lot of people who blow is blowing and it's the what the is he can have a picture of a it's not I'll call upon him. So what's we're talking about this of ladish. So what can be shak from that place? Where is there an access point so to speak every creation with consciousness with your deepest makavas with we're talking about we're not just talking about lowly things the highest highest thoughts he said mal talking about the highest states of consciousness that are even beyond our own comprehension. It's all through a symptoum it's all through a filter through restrictions. That's what water is. We're talking about the which is higher and higher and higher which pure and no description whatsoever like he said and even the name is right. Every hashbah that you talk about is aid is a tremendous descent. So is there an access over there? is is so so that's what he's talking about that somehow the touches it what h how do you explain that what that's what he said what's this thing that's from that space from from that that we say that that we we have an aliyah there we we can climb up there that we could be the deepest revelation of his from the essence itself where everything is like he said before if that would be revealed all the would be and that's where you're being the from because that's where everything begins like we spoke yesterday you know so to speak pre- big bang spiritually speaking pre everything the answer is it's a very famous expression already from the there's no king without a people. Even though we say every morning he was a king before anybody was created when he decided and he wanted everything to be created then he gets the name Melik because there's people to call him a so what's the over there it's the he spoke about right the all the qualities was the whole world could be there but it's there in so it's all like subsumed in him once there's everything is happens now he could have a name he could be called by melik but here's the on every level a king means a king what does a king mean a leader who are you a leader on by definition leadership is a relationship it's connection that's what it means There's connection. Yeah. Like just like in a marriage, could you be married to yourself? What's the answer? >> You can't. Huh? Yeah. >> What? There was a Jewish comedian. He said, "What's the definition of you come to the therapist because you have a split personality and you want a group discount? Right. It's not one person who came. It's two two people that came. >> Huh? Right. Very good. You say to get married to somebody you have to also be able to get divorced. And since you can't get divorced from yourself as we spoke earlier, you got to deal with yourself. You got to stay married. So maybe you can get married. The idea here is that there's some things in life that the definition of these things is to someone else. That is the definition. Other things you could do yourself. You have your own heart, your own brain, your own experience. But there's some that you need the other without the other the whole thing is not there. That's means there's no without says what does it mean? The word also comes from the word, right? with him with an right. So means a nation but it also comes in the word together with which ines always represents one thing accompanied with another he goes with him. So he says if they're called his people it means they're people similar to him. There's a relationship if the king if the melik lives in another planet there he can't be a melik on this the fact is the king and the people are from the same from the same crop of potato he's the leader he's the monarch right there there's a relationship means a relationship they're lower they're the people they're the subjects and he's above of he's the monarch but he's a person he grew up with them he he knows the culture he understands ali for whatever reason hopefully good reasons they saw that he's the gava he's the most the wise most benevolent so he became the meal but he's one of the people if if not how could you be a leader how could you be a leader of of of anything if if if if there's no relationship by definition has to be a relationship they understand him he understands them yeah it's true he's melik he's above but there's there's a it's part right there what would be he's going to give an example what would be you say I'm a king you know you know who my subjects are all the cockroaches and you know how many I have in my my nation you have a colony of ants yeah that you own so I have 14 million what do I do 50 million subjects in my in my thing don't start up with So it's it's so I said why not? Why? Why? Yeah, I'm the I'm T of the leader. I'm the leader. If I want every ant dies. I could put them in prison. I could give them alus. I could execute them. I could step on them. Whatever I want. They have to follow me. No, it's a good definition. But nobody will take it seriously. Why? Why not? You could say even better. I'm a melik on all the rocks. All the racks in my backyard are under me, too. I'm a melik. Even better. Yeah. All the logs, all the pieces of wood. England. Yeah. Yeah. He's called a mel on them. I'm a king over you because there's a connection. You have a company and you have the CEO of a company or the owner, the boss. There's people that connected. They understand what he understands and he's running the show. In his essence, there's no commercial. It would be like you telling me that you're a king over trees, over wood, and over stones. Why not? You're the boss. Not in the species or in the in the category that you should be able to use the name because there's no relational experience here. That's what he's saying. They're not in the a relationship and the name Melik should be able to be bestowed on them. Right? When you say he's my king, right? People in Russia would say this is our zar and in France they would say this is our king and in Germany they say this is our Kaiser and this is our president etc. this is our monarch. This is ours. There's a connection like you say this is my father, this is my mother. It's not just you're not just talking about them. You're talking about you also, right? You don't have a rock saying he's my king. The fact that you're my melik, that's a we're in a unit. You have a father, you have a mother, you have children. It's not just the definition of the mel definition of the people, right? His mal is called on them. We're part of this country that is governed, that is that is led by his majesty. Of course, it's true that you're the melik over the wood and the stones. I mean, yeah, you could do whatever you want with them. Yeah, they belong to you. They're under your domain, etc., but there's no relational energy that it goes both ways. You say you're the melik, but they don't they're just what they are. I mean, they're not waking up in the morning with this consciousness. It's it's nothing about them. They're just they're inanimate. You could do whatever you want. So it's not relational, right? They're not like they're not like they're not your subjects. You may be their ruler. >> There's no flow. Exactly. And the reason is there's no What does it mean? Hashem is our meal. It's the same thing. It's even more. The distance between a banana and a person in terms of genetics is much smaller. 50% of our DNA is similar to a banana. 99% of our DNA is like a chimpenzee. And yet you say I can be a melo of bananas. But the whole DNA is a creation. The distance between the a and any level of experience and consciousness is is infinite within infinity. We we don't even appreciate how infinite it is. We look at everything the relation between you and a tree is much much you know we're we're very connected organically the world is very the earth is very connected. Of course a tree doesn't have your consciousness doesn't have your brain a cat doesn't have your brain and a squirrel doesn't have your brain but there's a lot a lot of deep deep similarities. They're both finite creations with different capacities of understanding and awareness and consciousness and in some ways they're smarter than us too. in their own you know ways some of the animals some of the trees etc. But here the relationship is infinitely infinitely distant and you're saying am doesn't mean people like creatures you know props I right it's almost like funny imagine you want to be a melik your whole dream you want to be a king so what do you do so you set up a 100,000 props in your house and you say I'm the king and you can even program they should scream you know all the computers should scream long leave the king long live the you know, you're not going to go home and say, "I became a melik today." It doesn't have that feeling. It doesn't have that experience. But when you have a million people or 250 million people who voted for you or whatever, however you became the king or the president, I became the president today. It's relational, right? There's something that happens to you. There's something that happens to them. That's the definition of malus. So that means something has to happen to God so to speak and that happens with a that connection. So the Shila is what does this really mean? How can this even happen? So now he goes back. This is the covenant we were talking about. This covenant that Hashem made with us. He cut with us. like the metaphor we discussed earlier in chapter 2. Well, he spoke about friends that people become close to each other for whatever reason, but then there are factors that can undermine it and therefore they go into a covenant which secures that their love should be eternal and no obstacle from inside or outside should destroy it and basically it's entering into a bond that is beyond rationality and beyond. that even all the reasons in the world can interrupt the love or even cause hatred. Nonetheless, the briss creates an intrinsic love or it reveals the intrinsic love which can be obliterated and as a result of that this love is essential. It it has to be right. Then he says even if there's sins and transgressions, it's covered over by the love because this is like two people become one. And just like you cannot stop loving yourself, you would not you cannot not stop loving the other. It's an essential it's an essential bond an intrinsic bond and that's the idea of Chris's bris everything he explained in chapter 2 and he spoke about David and after the sin of the golden calf goes back is where he creates something because of the covenant and the connection. This is what is really means a person so to speak himself. He forced himself and we'll see what what what do we mean by forced he for to be for him a loyal friend even though I'll be there could be reasons that it's not worthy. Forced himself doesn't mean you were forced from an external place cuz then it's not real. Force himself means you realize that the relationship is something that is non-negotiable. It's absolute. Just like I have to force myself to love myself doesn't mean somebody else is forcing me. It means that if my reality has any value and significance, I have to have a relationship with it. You know, if God is true, we have a relationship. So, it's means it's essential. It's intrinsic. Even though there's reasons and explanations and many reasons to go different places, but this is something that's deeper than the reason. I'm just I'm just mentioning it which I also mentioned in chapter two. Force here doesn't mean somebody else forced you because then it's not it's just okay. So you're just like a robot. Fine. You have no choice. Means you're forcing you're bringing out you make peace with the fact that this is essential. You make peace with the fact that there's no that you can't run from this which is which is a big move to make peace with that. So then my life and then you say this is it. This is it once said that we we we wish Hashem should make the beloved friends as happy like he made like your creator made happy. So they were the happiest couple. I mean doesn't say anyway they were a happy couple together and the Gmorra says in a that they were separated for 130 years after the atadas he was so upset at her for 130 years he separated from her so what's what's what's the good advice what what's what's the be separated for 130 years that's how they'll have shalas so says that was a few hours and then it all she gave him the wrong thing to eat and what's it didn't work out that well he was upset at her she was upset at him he told she's the cause of all of his problems heates and says he was aicted >> huh they got evicted so he couldn't even pay his mortgage garnished and the also wasn't the first kayen killed he right before you can't blame even anybody It was like, "Wow, this is pretty, you know, exemply parents." Yeah. They can't pay the mortgage. They can't have another place to live. They're eating the wrong food. And one son is killing another son. At least with us, you blame it on trauma. What do you blame it over there on? Well, whose trauma they blaming it on? Trauma of creation, I guess. Simpum. The simpum. My brother once wrote an article, used to say, "It's the economy stupid." He wrote an article. It's the simpum stupid. So I don't know the answer to all these questions but I'll tell you what I once heard and I said it at I said had one advantage one advantage that very few couples have and the advantage is Adam knew that she is it >> there's nobody else and knew he's it this is my soulmate Adam wasn't like I should have listened to my mother I should have chosen somebody else this is it work it out. And Kava knew this is it. There was no other, you know, I should have gotten another buck. I didn't need a guy who learns all day. He's a narcissist. Better to have a guy who works and he's not a narcissist. Whatever. All these things. They knew that this is it. That's the nuda. Of course, they had to work out stuff, but with with this person. So this is a blessing to every that whatever you go through this should be a given by you and now the energy you have to spend on working it out but it's not always the case right it's very often the case is sometimes tak and sometimes it's like what if what if what if what if so much energy could be what if and therefore I'm busy getting angry or resentful etc. So the vert here is this is the idea of the bris. The bris means you go to a place where you say this is it. It's so to speak forced. Am I forced to be me? Yeah. I cannot one wake up one morning and say I want to be you. It's even if I do say like you have to work it out with yourself. Everybody understands that. Like if you can't work it out with yourself I can't suddenly become a different person, right? Divorce is not an option to from yourself. So the brris is to reach a space in the relationship where you say this is essential. It's a must just like I'm forced to be me and I cannot be you and therefore deal with it and really embrace it, celebrate it and find how beautiful it is because really you don't want to be somebody else. Right? At the end of the day, you don't if I want to be somebody else, it's cuz I don't know myself. Because if God made you this, this is it. Like this is it. This is your energy. Huh? >> If I know myself, I would want to be >> Exactly. If you really knew yourself, you don't want to be anybody else. Not because they're not good, because they have to be them and you have to be you. The idea of right, don't covet somebody else's life. It's not just a sak of like even though they have an amazing life, don't covet. It's being in touch with flow. Like we spoke yesterday, when you're in flow, so this is your flow. Like I can't coveret your life. It's it's not it's it's just because I'm insecure. I don't like myself. I don't know myself. So means this relationship I I reach with the other that if there's something truth about if there's a truth reality our realities are connected that's what realis means that's what is this was the gave so that's what means here so he says and now listen to what he says this was the mush amazing. Now, this is what Hashem did with us. Listen to his words. He so to speak, he always uses the word so to speak because you're dealing with he forced himself [Music] to connect our souls in him right in him. We're in him. In him, in his essence, that meaning in the that the pimus of not an external level of self the innermost self should be revealed should be in a relationship with us. And that's why the word is literally to pass like it says in the right we say at the end of the what's the lion over there um um right before what's the lion Right? So they will arrange until your nation passes. This nation that you acquired passes. So literally it means as they passed. So tremendous fear and until they pass says it's not just a passage from one location to another location. It means from one conceptual space spiritual madga to another one from a lower space to from a love that may be lower than to a love that's higher which this could only be defined as a bris as a covenant. It's not all which created. So this is it's a passage. You pass from one ma to a completely different space. So what's what's this is the idea of the brri you can ask all these questions it doesn't make sense he's infinite what he needs me like he needs me you're talking about perfection the whole philosophical model falls apart doesn't need you're talking about it's not even even when we talk about it we don't even understand the question because you know we all live in a world where we have voids and we have needs and everybody needs each other of course there's There's nothing I can do. The oxygen I need to breathe. I need the oxygen. Right? And anything you need. I mean, if you need water, everybody is in a give and take relationship. That's the definition of how it's called the ecosystem. Everybody, we need the worms to toil the ground to to earth to be able to make it fertile so there could be growth so we can eat, so we can have amino acid. There's no where there's no give and take. Everybody's a mashia. Everybody's a mabo. everybody heaven and earth and the entire system it's intricately designed here but here we're talking about pre all the systems and pre even even in pre any any spiritual system so what's the connection here like where do you come to be connected that's a very very deep question and there were different responses in generations questions and says you can ask all the questions in the world. I get it. I can ask them even better than you. That's what we talk about a friendship of David. What is it? It's a bris. What's a bris? A bris is that somehow in the deepest space of my reality which is not an intellectual explanation. We're connected. So the words he uses is it's almost like he's saying like like he said the friend forces himself to be in this relationship even though it doesn't make sense. He forces himself. He discovers that it can't be any other way. When you say the word force, we hear the word force as you don't want to do it but I'm going to force you. But really the word force means something that's inevitable is called forced. It's inevitable. It's it's it's essential to reality. Yeah. I mean, you want to throw I was just thinking you want to throw an apple and you don't want the apple to come down to the earth. I mean, good luck. If you want to stand like that and hold the apple up and the ball up, don't you could do that. So, is it forced? Yeah, it's for We hear the word force as I'm forcing you. It's a defiance of you. It's like destroying you. I don't care what you want. The the real word means it's it's actually you. It's inevitable. Inevitable. What does inevitable mean? Inevitable means >> it's reality. It's called reality. You want to fight reality? Okay, you can fight reality. I mean, that's also reality. Yeah. The marel says this by he forced the mountain over their head. That's what he says was he forced the mountain over their head. What type of relationship is it? He was saying it's an inevitable relationship. It's not like when you wake up and you say, "Yeah, I'm interested." That's when the relationship happens. It's essential. It's inevitable. My digestive system doesn't wait for my huskama to work or my circulatory system. Thank God. It's like, "Oh, I have to get this permission. Should I go around and around?" This is it. I mean, bye. I was thankful for that. So, some things in some things are inevitable to reality. If there's such a thing called reality and it's real, this is part of it. [Music] >> So this is the So you asked a good question. To be a melik, we have to be in a relationship. I have to be nispal from you. You're nispal from me. If the people don't do anything to the king, he's not their king. There's something they do to him. They're people. It's like a father who's not affected by his family. What type of father is he? You're like a detached, what do they call it in in the philosophy? Prime mover. A prime prime mover. You're like this detached, you know, demigod. Fine. That's not a mel. A melik doesn't only mean there's no mel without an am. In other words, you push and need the people. It also means they're emo. There's a connection between them. They affect him. He affect of course he affect them and they affect him. We talking about that ain't served. The whole union is is not this is the of that there's a relationship that was himself or it's a revelation that in the deepest deepest place of essence there's a connection. >> Yeah. But when you say want it, he doesn't even use the word want. Because when we say want, right? >> Yeah. >> Whatever wants means. >> Huh? >> Whatever want. >> Yeah. In other words, when we say I want, yeah, why do I want it? I have a void. I'm missing something. I'm thirsty, so I want a cup of water. I'm lonely, so I want a friend. I'm broke, so I want a job. Right? And that that makes sense. That's good. So the want is fueled by a need by a void and as much as the void is fulfilled the want decreases and if it's completely fulfilled I don't want anymore >> I want because I need you understand >> so it's not entangled >> right but the word entanglement I wouldn't use here because entanglement again the way we use entanglement is you know it's you Now it's codependence. >> Connection. >> Yeah. So so so uh so it's really what it really means is that in the deepest spa really if you want to use different words in the deepest space we're we're one. That's really what it is. That's really what he's saying. In the deepest deepest space there's no way to it's not divisible. It's one. So you say but why? Okay the why is already all after that. So why is logic logic is a construct. Logic is part of the creation. That's part of the that's part of the postsum. [Music] So you say but does this doesn't make sense. I'm just a I'm just a a creation less than an ant. Okay. But deep deep deep in the core this is what it is. It's a brisk from a place from an that nothing can obliterate it. Nothing. I have good reasons to question. I have I have good reasons. But it's a different type of relationship that transcends it. It's a that's what a means. and continues. So now the words like that's how the parish begins this parish in order to raise you to have you stand up to be for him as a people is like to stand up right [Music] Since so there's no without an what does an mean? The melik affects the but the am affects the melik there's a is they're connected to each other they're in a relational they're it's called in English a relational energy field the question is can God really have a relationship with somebody? This is the deepest question of life and many of the philosophers said it's a joke. stop. Of course, there's no relationship. Some even use the word kafira. So was a mother reached out to me, a father, some there was a particular high school. They're very there's a very deep philosophical bent over there in that high school. The teacher told the students, "Who thinks that Hashem loves them?" They all raised their hand. And the teacher explained that it's aus it's hashem loves you. Oh, so suddenly he has a heart. Suddenly has emotion. Suddenly he's vulnerable. Suddenly he's soft. Suddenly he's corporal. >> Huh? >> So you explain from his philosophical perspective. It's you're attributing to him weakness, flaw, imperfection, vulnerability, frailty, mortality, all the I love. In other words, I need you. I I crave you. I connect to you. I'm missing something without you. I'm lonely. All these words, what are you what are you going there for? It's a very deep question. Everything he always says, but the I just want to say is not necessarily to down. It's it's it's it's it's you could think is to minimize it. Like I don't mean literally. Sometimes it's the opposite. My feeling is what he means is it's so deep that whatever I'm going to say won't even describe it. So I'm just telling you it's almost like the >> Yeah. In other words, it's higher than what I'm saying because I can't say more. Not because I don't want to say more. I'm not trying to hold back because whatever we say is all on human human terms like okay, it's a love that's deep deep deep deep but it's still in that in that energy field. So the is not just like I don't really mean this so to speak he's connected to us in his essence the is a much deeper whatever we're saying is as much as we could say you understand that's that's really >> it's much deeper than you'll imagine with words in other words if you go to that space of because And a and this also makes sense. I don't mean to minimize it with sense because if you're talking about the a connecting to something, the connection is a you understand. So there's no love in the world that can even be close to that. Any love that's based on a void, it means it's limited. I'm a limited person. I have these needs and I want you to help me. Fine. It's beautiful. And it can go deeper and deeper and deeper and then we could be loyal and really really connected. That means everybody has a different color. Somebody has a different color. >> Yeah. Sometimes you say like let's not get too intense about let's not dramatize it. The is a minim it's minimizing like can you say anything so to speak you know so to speak >> a skyscraper. Everybody knows it's not a skyscraper. It doesn't scrape the sky. Yeah. Like it says right says sometimes very dramatic pan says he says what the gamar means. Huh? >> No no no no no panu writes um I forgot. something as hashem I forgot he has a over there what really means but the point is means yeah you reach the sky you didn't reach the sky but fine we're using an exaggerated term but sometimes is the opposite >> in the physical world >> anti-semitism >> anti-semitism is connected to this It's so crazy because this is crazy. They don't even know why. Why? Why now Israel killed Charlie Kirk? That's the new uh conspiracy theory. The Mossad killed Charlie Cook because he wasn't enough pro Israel. So why didn't the Mossad kill all of these Mishim? They should have killed all of them. They should be killed. Ging you're not you're talking about levels of insanity that they they get some something. Where is this? No physics there. >> Quantum entanglement. Yeah. >> Wow. >> It's a one state. So they're in the same state. >> So two particles are linked together. Two particles become linked together. >> They linked together regardless to the distance. It could be across the univer. >> Wow. >> So that's the >> So two particles across the universe get linked together and they have one state of unity. >> One state. Yes. in the same state. >> That's beautiful. Beautiful. >> And one particle could be in New Zealand >> and one car particle could be could be on uh you know near some black hole uh 10 billion light years away. It's unbelievable. >> So they act as one unit. >> And what creates that link? >> We don't know. >> And they act as one unit like they would be mamaish Siamese twins. Like Siamese twins >> where he goes, he goes >> the same. So basically if one has one spin has the other one has basically related spin. So spinning another spinning this one into different direction will spin the other. >> His m his mood affects his mood. If he spins in the wrong direction he starts spinning >> completely one state. >> Huh? >> As if you have somebody. >> Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. Same idea. Yeah. Beautiful metaphor. And maybe it's more than a metaphor. Maybe it's mish maybe it's more than a metaphor. Huh? >> Yeah. Yeah. So in order to raise you because really you're a person. You're a bus of Adam. You're a product of the wholeum. You have consciousness. You have finitness. Even if you're the most spiritual being in the world, but you have consciousness. That's the basis of our reality. And all of consciousness in its highest highest highest deepest infinite form is postconcealment. So does that leap what we don't even have words for that leap. Does that gulf does that barrier is that ever is that ever crossed? That's it's crossed. That's why the word is and it's not crossed through an intellectual process. It's crossed itself from the infinite most internal reality. >> Huh? >> That's the definition. >> Interesting. He says he wants to make >> Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. That's what he says because he needs to raise you to lift you up. So you should be an in other words relational to the I could be your that are to the highest thought and he humbled himself. So when you have this this so to speak him. So the you go up to be able to be an that you say you're the there's a real relation and he becomes your so to speak humbles himself means to go into a state where we're with that we have that connection and it's here where they become completely one inshed entangled so to speak connected unified between him and Israel who are called the nation of his intimacy of his closeness it's means means that means it's the most emotional experience because this is the source of all emotions. This is the source of every emotion. We're talking about here the source of emotions and that's where the connection is. So that means if you remove all the blockages and all the layers that a person has, you know, I need this and I need this and I want this and I want this which is all postcreation. We are who we are and we condition ourselves to survive and everybody has all their needs in life which makes a lot of sense. Like think about what's stressing you out right now. Think about it. Everybody has something on their mind, right? You have to be somewhere. There's big things, small things, trivial things, gigantic things, things that are very real and deep, whether you know relationships and children and, you know, big big questions in life or smaller questions, you know, appointments or dentists or whatever it is also, you know, everything. These are all these are all the product of what it means to be a human being and surviving in the universe and needing things and wanting things, etc. which is beautiful. >> Yeah. Which is >> beautiful. >> Exactly. Exactly. >> Yeah. And that's that's a major part of our existence, right? And if I can go a little deeper and then a little deeper and you really remove all all the blockages that a person has, all the blockages meaning all the coverups and you go into the deepest need you know what's the deepest deepest and deeper and deeper so to speak and it's not easy to go on that journey but you know if you go on that on that journey in the deepest deepest place of reality of the person is your oneness. Your oneness with Hashem >> of course. >> Yeah. The oneness is in every space. It's completely in every space. No need to go out of space to >> right. It's in it's in space. Yeah, it's in space. It's in space. >> I have my black hole in me also. >> We all have a black hole inside of us. Yeah. The whole world is in the person. The whole universe is in the heart of the person. And that's the idea here that it's not just from our side like a fantasy and imagination like yeah this is what we want and crave you know to have meaning and purpose and say somebody cares about us you know in thank you in contrast you know to postmodernity and existentialists you know who said you have nothing and just make your own reality out of your own reality so it feels good to say you know somehow you're connected You know, Karl Mar said religion is opium for the masses. You know, they need an opium drug in order to be able to make them feel good. Poor downruck, povertystricken, downtrodden people. So, you know, the priests and the rabbis sell them uh the Brooklyn Bridge and the George Washington Bridge, but they do it smart. Instead of talking about this world, they talk about the next world. So, nobody could disprove it. And uh and everybody has, you know, uh shall they have they have their fantasies, right? Or you can even go on a deeper level that it's all true, but the truth is from one side. In other words, the truth is from one side. In other words, that God rewards and God punishes and there's a a special waiting. But here is saying that the real here is that in the deepest the deepest deepest nikud of reality, if you could look at it, you'll see that there's a relationship with you and there's a connection. And when we let go of everything, everything everything, you know, when when when there's nothing to hold on to, this is it over there, there there's real connection. You're not alone. I'm with you. That's the idea of Malus. I'm with you. I'm yours. You're mine. You say, just a little guy trying to pay my bills. Yeah. You're a little guy trying to pay your bills. Ems. And that's And that's the revolution. That's the revolution of this. You became an something that the mel is like I'm obsessed with you. Obsessed in a good way. We're deeply deeply connected. Now, if you could viscerally feel this in your body, it changes everything because this is underlying reality. This is not an idea. It's not a feeling. It's an idea and a feeling also, but it's it's all the ideas. All the feelings come from here. All the ideas come from somebody. >> Yeah. All ideas and feelings flow from this relationship. They're all just manifestations. And the question is which which layer am I touching? Which frequency am I touching? But this is where everything comes from. Sometimes I'm in low frequency emotions. You know, I'm feeling guilty. I'm feeling ashamed. I'm afraid of you. I'm afraid of him. I'm afraid of her. It's also ultimately coming from there, but it's being manifested in a much lower frequency space, so to speak. And then there's higher higher places. You know, there's surrender and there's love and there's unity and there's faith. There's trust and there's truth. Authenticity. Truth authenticity. Now you'll say, "But doesn't make sense." No, no, I'm not arguing with it. Doesn't make sense. >> Once it's true, it makes sense everywhere. But in other words, is not going to create this doesn't have the capacity to initiate this relationship. >> Of course, can appreciate everything, but it's not defined by it. And not only that, seel is happy when you don't impose on it the pressure to define reality. I told you one of the hardest things we do to our poor brains is we give it the pressure that it has to be God. And the brain's like, "Thank God. I'm just to let me be me. Let me be logical and that's it. I don't have to take on myself all of reality." Seel is appreciative when you say you're good. >> 9 to5. Yeah. Now shut your mouth. We're stopping. Go take a break. >> You don't need to find >> Yeah. Yeah. You don't have to be God. You don't have to be in. You don't have to compensate for infinity. It's such a painful thing for when it has to take over relationships. People do that in their life because they want to be, you know, they want to be brainy. They want to be in control. When you understand something, you feel like you're in control. So if everything is done with my brain, I'm in control. It's very hard to surrender that. So we get it. But this requires this requires a different level of surrender. And in this level of surrender, you see that in the of the person, right? This is kind of I know I don't mind in the in the in the in the of the person. This is this this is in the of a person's experience. This relationship is the deepest relationship. And that's what means when he says, "I want you. I want you because I know that you want me." If I I cannot want you on that level if I know that you don't want me on that level because it's going to be, you know, it's the most painful thing in the world. >> Yeah. With all your heart. He says, Science they say that the frequency from the heart goes much further than the frequency from the brain. >> Beautiful. The frequency of the heart goes much further than the frequency of the brain from one end of the world to the other end of the world. So now let's understand this is the idea of what's I want you to make me the king over you. What does it mean to make me the king over you? How could you make me the king over you? Which part are you reaching out to to become the king? You're asking me to become the king over you? Is this about God or is this about us or is this about both of us? Which part of me do you want to become the king? My external part. You want me to become a mean me to become a king? That means you're reaching into that space from which everything begins pre-creation which is beyond any relationship any relational stuff. So it's a contradiction in terms if God wants to do it he could do it but you want me to do it I can't do it. It's like you want me to reach the moon with my hands. Thank you. This is the big enigma. You're going to make me a king over you of the malus is coming from the pine ofos which transcends every definition and every description. So how can a human being with his brain and his heart and his desire and his emotions and whatever touch that space in that space it's and yet you say the answer to this is Your is completely completely connected to the and in that you could say and the connection is so deep that you stole that when I take the and I tune into that space it goes beyond every world and every definition of reality and it touches the essence in the deepest space where there's an absolute connection and the malus is recreated. So there's and then there's which is all the way back into which is beyond anything beyond beyond beyond any definition and that's Yeah, that's why I said yesterday the is the echo of the big bang. In other words, it's the it's the sound. It's the blast that touches that goes to that space of the connection which is your inner inner innermost space which is where there's no ambition. There's no agenda. It's not the space where I just want comfort and I want spiritual satisfaction and I want to be in flow and that's all which is amazing. But here we're talking about touching the essence of the essence and over there there's a real real relationship that means I'm struggling here today a little bit. That means it's just it's very big. It's so this is like so like if you really internalize this it's beyond it's beyond it's like beyond anything we experience like if you take's words seriously we have to learn to take these words seriously is inviting us into not into Madreas which is also pretty good I'm good with malicin trust me mamal kalaman is already above my pay rate you're out of kip you're in mamala kalaman trust me mamal kalan is gone is good it's the flow of energy it's pretty good there's a coffee and coffee bean is has divine energy and if I could be connected to that you're in a very powerful space it's above a lot of good things about a lot of whatever it's it's away from clipper of course you're there but he's talking about consciousness in a revealed of course you're there but that is is a conscious experience it's not just he's saying I want you to know how you matter and really it's one word is I want you to know how much you matter to me I need you to make me the I can't be a king without you. It's relational. It's very relational here. So realize who you are. I mean you're you're basically what I'm telling you is that you're infinity itself. I you have a body and you have problems. That's just an outer camouflage. That's just the outer uniform. You have a costume. I have my costume. So I think we just God is basically saying we're really one. You're infinite. I just have my costume and you have your costume. My costume is infinity and your costume is physicality. Huh? Your costume is physicality. That's what it is. Enjoy your costume. And in many ways, that's your power. Your power is that you bring it into the world, right? >> Yeah. And therefore, you touch me in the deepest space. And therefore I touch you in the deepest space. In your deepest deepest space you'll see all you want is me because in my deepest space all I want is you. It's kamayon. That's what means. Now think about what that means. Did you ever have a person in your life that in the deepest deepest space you know that all you want is them. And the only way you could know that and feel that is that you know that in their deepest deepest space all they want is you. It's not only because if I want you and you don't want me, you know, I'm going to get hurt. Obviously, that's also true. But it's also I cannot have that relationship with somebody if they don't have that relationship with me. It's not just because I'm afraid cuz I'm going to give you everything and you're not going to give me anything back. Yeah, that's how it comes out in the technical format, but it's much deeper than that. That level of relationship can only be two ways. You know what does that mean in life? So that's the safety you know when parents are are are regulated emotionally so they can give this to children in a way and then the children can have this as a foundation in life. But very often we didn't get that because they themselves couldn't get that. It's it's not about judgment. It's just it's very it's a very deep space to be in. This is complete regulation, complete safety. You don't need anything. You don't need anybody to validate you. It's like complete like you are the most important person to me. You mean the most to me. In my deepest place, I want you. In the deepest place, you want me. And sometimes when we don't have that in the psychological field, so to speak, we need to be able to find that in ourselves and in our relationship with Hashem, which allows us then to have it with other people. Yeah. Yeah. And this and and this allows for a relationship to be everything. It's it's not like it's not this is not fake. This you can't this is not fake news. You know the I know just came to me whenever was arrested he went into hiding. He said there's a wait a little bit till uh so where did he hide? He went to a nightclub. I don't know what type of nightclubs they had in Lejna. Some KA where there some some somev some Ivans were drinking whatever calling it a nightclub. Whatever probably a drinking place. So he knew that the Zar's government won't think that is there. So he stayed there the night. There was a with him Monkus. After a whole night he asked Monkus if he should give himself in. So he said yeah. So he said why? So this is what they said. I'll tell you why. Listen. He was sharp. If you're abullet won't reach you. If you're not ab you deserve it. who gave you a right to deprive hundreds of thousands of Jews in the Gishmak and Alam Haza. You deserve it. You know when it come to this either you're the real thing and if not you're a criminal you're tinkering you're tampering with the deepest frequencies. You want to stop sell me shalludra. We don't have to kill you. You're not selling me audit. those who say them. But you understand my point. You're talking here about the most essential vulnerable places of life and of reality. And you're saying that that matters to God in his deepest essence. And it's opening people up to that layer, that experiential layer of reality. If you're not standing by it, like you know, if you're not there, it's it's it's it's very very dangerous. It's like journeys that take people to very high places and you drop them and you're not there to integrate. It's it's very serious. You don't want serious stuff. It's the ultimate ultimate vulnerability. You're telling somebody you could shed all your layers and there'll be trust over there. You'll shed all your layers. You'll let go of all your pain and surrender it all and you're going to find God there in your deepest place. Wow. That's told him and he listened to him. He listened to him. They once asked the fourth was Marash. He passed away very young and there were two sons. They both there were three. They all none of them wanted to be rebad and the older yadashab it took 11 years and they convinced the rashab to become the fifth he was the father of so uh they once asked his older brother if uh if his brother he was very young if his brother is is is a real reb if he's the real thing so listen what he said he said everything in life has extremes there's the spectrum far and And then there's the middle ground and you could be somewhere. So he says for example a wealthy you could be a billionaire you could be a multi-millionaire you could be a millionaire you could be stamable about the yeah it doesn't and the same is true in everything smart how smart you could be very intelligent super intelligent genius beyond genius everything in life there's madus he said there's one thing he says that is an emiss That's what he said. He said like this is I don't know what is but I know my brother is not af that I know about him and I know that's you understand what he's saying. Everything is at stake. There's certain relationships. It's not like, "Yeah, I mean it sometimes, I don't mean it other times. I'm a little bit hypocritical." Whatever. Fine. Sometimes I'll manipulate you because no problem. But when you're talking about when you're representing this, either you're a Ghan or you're the real thing. And and I know my brother's not a Ghanov. What he what else he is? I don't know what it is. >> Huh? You'll apply it to who you ever have to who you have to apply it. I say what I say and then you apply it the way you have to apply it. I'm not going to go further >> for obvious reasons. Huh. >> Okay. He answered your question. I couldn't say that, but uh it's a good one. Somebody came to know what is he says look one thing if the is a man he's not if you see he's not a man so this is the so that's what is and that's why we need a shifer for that we can't use words if you use words You're not touching this. You're touching the places of logic. Words are definitions. So they use logical constructs. That's what words are. Even when they're emotional. They're formulating an idea. They're formulating a theme. What does the formulate? It doesn't formulate. >> Yeah. So it's a from the which represents the simple outcry that comes from the deepest deepest space. It's a relationship in which there's no description or definition because it's a relationship that was created pre-definitions pre-escriptions and therefore not logically >> pre-re pre anything and from there come all the definitions in fact you're trying to go to that place where there's no definitions and descriptions and connecting to that which is the genesis of all reality and God says that's what I want from you that's what I need from from and that's what it is your a little what he's saying here about what what is what is it's half of a fellow >> yeah it's so now he says the second line on top receive it says literally it means it's a time of judgment for the god of so he says everybody touches it's a mish the god of judges you he says it's much deeper The biggest mishb is how much can experience? That's the mishb mishb. It's not that god is judging you. It's a mishb on yakov. How much yakov can experience? That's the mishb. That's the question. This is all true. But how much can I experience it in my consciousness this relationship? How much can it be real by me? You understand? It's a mishb for elus of not just he's sitting and judging you. You're good, you're bad, die, you live. No, it's a mishb of who can who can experience that and that is so should connect this type of marriage that we spoke about the the type of bond that is so powerful you could say if this is the truth he connected to us on that level it is what it is it's intrinsic you don't have to get married every year so he says no you do because there's a how much I can experience this I need to be able to work this through myself and then he becomes a after the parenthesis I want you to say is that you should coronate me over you should be able to coronate him on that space. You should be able to talk to him over there because you talk to yourself in that space. You should be able to have a relationship with that space in you that you should be able to arouse means the way the mel is in like we learned before. Right? that space where everything is inside the that you should be able to coronate him from that space and to be able to have a relationship with that in the which means you're completely one with and that's the idea of that your memory should ascend There should be the remembrance of this bris and this connection. The reason we need zikurin is memory. What's the idea of memory? Like we said, memory is on something that's remote, something that's distant, something that's far from the person. So you could think a person in their experience could be so far from this I make mistakes I have deviated I'm how often am I in this space even close even so far that's means as far as you are I remember you there's no distance that can cancel it out that's what zikurin is you remember something that happened 50 years ago you remember something that may be very far from that's the idea of it's not in front of you but that's the remember this even though it's garbed in something that seems so distant how do you do all of this the depth of that arouses you from the depth of arouse from the depth that I I have remorse uprooting the will in in in in in the shells in the fakeness from the deepest place in the heart. So that's what the idea of chuva is that it's the distance that creates the tension the momentum that what I really really want I don't want all of this I don't want fake news. So you uproot the will from other things that creates the tension that creates the momentum and then you have the revelation of it always comes one is proportionate with the other like I said yesterday the more you push pull back the the bow the further it goes that's the whole idea it's the it's the it's the it's the when the person experiences the depth of the that creates such a chuk such a desire and where does that reach that reaches of and the revelation now he finishes one more nuda do this a little fast because I know it's late but I want to and here we need to know a little bit about uh scales so made pictures for everybody so come take your picture because this is going to be important oh there's two pictures there's two uh there's Two pages here. There's two pages here. This is one. This is one set. Thank you. I think everybody has maybe. No. Okay. This is the meaning. >> No. No. It's two pictures. Did you see? Okay. So, the guy sent me these pictures. That's where I'm looking. Okay. Fine. Vo. Now you have to see here how all mechanical engineering everything is connected. It's very fascinating here. This piece is like something special because he finds it's a PK and everybody reads the PK and he sees the whole mime in this PK and it has to do with how they make scales. Visel the Pik says in chapter 40 speaks about he weighs mountains on a palace and hills on scales are scales. So it's bringing out and pelis is a form of a scale. We'll see. So God I can't weigh a mountain on a scale. First of all, I can't pick up a mountain. And even if I could pick up a mountain, I can't build a scale that will be able to measure the weight of a mountain. But he's trying to bring out the greatness of Hashem. Now, for him, you know, mountains, he weighs on a scale and hills he weighs on a scales. For Shak is weight, he weighs in a certain type of scale. Mountains and hills mounds. In other words, the whole world is his. is the whole world is in his domain. The whole world is under him. The whole world is finite relative to his infinity. But that's the P. So you say fine, it's just an expression that God is bigger than the mountains. And he created the mountains. So he could pick up a mountain and put it on a scale. Okay. It's like a very, you know, poetic poetic license. >> Weighs the planets and the galaxies and everything. The mountains, you know, the whole reality weighs everything. I can't weigh the sun. I can't weigh the moon. I can't weigh black holes. I can't weigh stars bigger than the sun, smaller than the sun. Right? I'm trying to weigh myself. And if I could do that with that would be good. >> We could calculate it already, but you could put it on the scale, not mamish, right? But we calculate. >> Yeah. Okay. mountains and hills represent states of love because really if you think about it there's earth and then when earth is elevated it goes upward it becomes a mountain and that's essentially what love is it's the surging I am who I am I could be flat you know you say sometime a flat heart you know what that means right person is flat It's like and the mountain is like you're you're you're surging upwards. You're gravitating to something. I thirst. I yearn. So in the physical graphics, it's the earth rising up to touch heaven. Right? That's why spiritually people are in awe of mountains. Why do we love mountains? Because mountains reminds us of our own infinity. It reminds us of our own search for infinity. oceans horizontally and mountains vertically. They both represent an inion of an of something that's beyond especially the tall mountains you're like wow there's something very very um inspiring and thrilling about them spiritually speaking. So he says mountains are states of you have are considered lower than mountains. The zy says Rashi also brings the represent the mothers which received from the mountains of so you have the now in terms of love there's the love of a mountain and there's the love of a hilld love of is the love of that we spoke about the external heart that is born from Tomas from understanding from meditation from cognitive awareness and his in the greatness of which is infinite you know it's pretty big it's amazing it's awesome when your person understands godless the that's born from that awareness from that internal understanding of is like we learned of going into flow that love is the love of and that's the love of a mother and I think it's also connected to a mother because really the mother is about embodiment it's it's about safety for the child in the very physical physical world like in a very concrete way of understanding your identity as a person as a being and protecting it in order to refine your soul so that it should shine with this love. A person ought to draw down on themselves the light because the name says in the 248 mitzvah 248 organs of the king. What does it mean? Every organ channels a certain aspect of the soul. Every mitzvah channels array of the divine. The 248 organs represent the external organs of the person represents the internal organs and that's why we say learning prevails over all because the light of life of the soul is dependent more on the vital internal organs and we have an if they get perforated right a lung gets perforated certain vital internal organs but mashu even a mashu it can create a terminal illness and it's a it's it tra when you sh that animal if it has a terminal illness that it was inevitably die within a year it's not kosher so there's you have a hole in a it's also painful and it's also not good and you try to repair it but it's not necessarily something that is in that right sometimes even amputation a person could still survive but then you have theim over there it's very very sensitive. So every mitzvah is an a but you have a and is like the the zeitgeist it's the it's the vital organ is the pimious of the mitzvah. So over there it's connected because like the consciousness it's the awareness mitzvah is the manifestation the more external manifestation of is the commercial and thus the this is like the mush of a scale you have a weight on one side one side of the is the is the what's it called? Huh? >> The plate. >> The plate where you place it on. So, and then you place a burden, a package, something on the second plate in order to weigh it down. If you want to make it even, you want to make it even, right? So, if I have uh people would have, you know, on those scales like you have a weight like you have in the picture here, we'll post it also on the website. The first picture, the picture that has an X on it, right? You classic balance scale, right? It's a classic balance scale. I go to the store. I want to buy 10 lb of flour or I want to buy 10 lb of sugar, whatever it is. So, he had a weight that was always there that was 10 lb. And now he puts sugar and when the sugar goes down down and it reaches equal weight to the other one, you know, 10 lbs and that's why they're evening each other out. If it goes down too much, it means he gave me extra sugar, extra flour, say takes it off. If it doesn't go down so much, if it doesn't go down so much, he didn't give me enough. Right? We all understand that. That's how it works. And if one is heavier than the other, it's means, right? Means it wins. It prevails. That's that's the classic through the burden of is a burden. It's a heavy weight. What happens? The other one goes completely up. which it goes up you become like a you become like a hill the soul rises up to experience love. So this is which comes from but in order to open yourself up to that flow and experience the love you need mitzvah because those are the organs of the king whether it's the inner organs or mitzvah the outer organs here the classic example is the scale where the masa the burden of mitzvah on one side lifts up the other side which represents the soul that the soul can soar above the shells of the universe and open itself up to the light of love flowing on it. So here actually you don't want them to be even. One goes all the way down. The some sometimes burdens are not crushing you. Burdens are liberating you. Huh? >> Seating you. >> Yeah. Yeah. They're liberating. They're lifting you up. They're lifting you up. Even physically, right? People lift up heavy weights in order to build muscle. It tears the tissue, but it builds muscle when it grows again. So the bottom line here is this is the fine. And now let's get to the mountains. The tall mountains. This is the represented by the which is beyond tamadas. It's beyond rationality. It's beyond his beness and godless hashem of the energy in the universe. It's something that the universe is energy can't touch because the universe energy is one that comes after all the filters. So this is a different mountain. This is a love that soarses upward higher and higher and higher. You know you have Mount Everest 32,000 ft, right? It's a different type. It's a different It's a different magnitude of love. It soarses upward to a different space. This love is higher than it's higher than why says comes from this love you can't reach only this love you only reach through from the depth of the heart it reaches and it comes from distance. It doesn't come from it comes from distance says God appeared to me from a distance. So literally it means it was like a distance like I saw far says no from the sense of distance God appears is closeness not distance. So let's understand now something what is teaching here is this is a very very very sensitive stuff you have a Jews but mitzvah can take you to very powerful places and that's the tool that God created but that's the comes from the comes from distance it's the distance that we experience down here that motivates and propels a different type of yearning. I'm thirsty. This is the So we have here a fascinating thing that the pend pendulum the the the the distance creates such a search that it propels you like throws you up, you know, pushing it pushing yourself back. It throws you up and cat it becomes a catalyst and a propeller to the pineimus. from my depth right that's the idea of that's why it's connected to all this so there's the love that you can reach through mitzvah there's a certain love you can't reach through mitzvah where do you reach it he says you can't reach it through mitzvah you can only reach it through and not necessarily a Jew mitzvah has this sometimes I learned I did mitzvah. I'm a good guy. I'm not distant. So this is something you can't reach mitzvah. This is something that's created through from the depth of the heart which comes from distance. So we have to understand sometimes you have two people. One person is right. Everybody is wondering why we have a whole generation of strugglers. This is it. Their teeth. They want to help us reach this ava. That's the real truth here. You just had the secret of everything that's going on. This is it. This is it. They want to help us reach this type of love. Not to minimize. You know how he speaks about in every what is but he's now bringing out this point different he brings out different points. There's the mitzvah but there's the love that's reach reached not through mitzvah. It's reached through distance like the gar says even can't. Why? because of this or like it says in that's in it says that through right the sins become mitzvah the negativity becomes the source of closeness the negativity the sin becomes a mitzvah like he explains also in this a whole different this is the that brings you to a you know so sometimes you look at two people you know one guy a beautiful person And then you have another person who went through stuff and is going through stuff. You see when you learn realis all judgmentalism stops. It's not that you don't have values. You have much deeper. The values are very deep. But you see things in a different way. You don't put classify people with labels. This is who you are. This is who you are. You humble yourself to the journey and you say, "Wow, there's something that this person is going to reach that may be much deeper, infinitely deeper than the other person even understands." And you see sometimes very practically you have people who are you know very good people and doing the right thing but they never broke out of their shell mitzvah doesn't necessarily make you do chuva. You could do mitzvah but you don't even know what chuva means. Yeah you did chuva whatever I did this wrong I do chuva. It's a technical chuva. It's like a checklist. Okay is coming yesterday I said for a minute I do chuva. I ate something I shouldn't. I do chuva. I miss krishma chuva. I miss this. Whatever. Fine. Shine. Shine. Checklist. I went through my most of them. I have nothing to do with me. I'm much better than all the anyway. But the two, three things I did wrong. Shine. Check. I don't know what chuva is. I never experienced chuva. So you could do your whole life. You never did chuva. I never did chuva. I don't even know what it is. whom could live depth of my heart. Nobody ever took me to the depth of my heart. I was such a good guy in the system. And by the way, this is also an answer to those of us. Yeah. Who are mitzvah Jews. But you went through a lot of crazy insanity. That's what he's talking about. Chuva doesn't only mean because I went over the chuva is the concept of the distance of life. Everything in life that doesn't work, not everything that works. mitzvah works. It's godly. Chuva means it's not working. Things are broken. And everybody knows what we're talking about in their own way. That is the distance that creates a different type of relationship, a different type of love that comes from. So this is what says a whole different everyone tes God appeared from the distance. No, from the distance God appears. Only from distance, not from if you were close, you wouldn't see him. I just thought we have means Hashem, not just a space. He saw it because he was from a distance. From a distance, he could see it. [Music] So if you want to weigh a mountain, you need the pelis, not the scale. For put them on the scale, the regular classic scale goes down and the the soul goes up. Beautiful. That's the one that's born from that's the classic scale. But when you talk about if you want the mountains, what are the mountains? the mountains is the for this we need a pelis a pelis this is already a whole different this is basically not the classic balance scale but this is like you see here the steelard balance pelis and this uses the lever principle it's a different principle now you have to understand this in a scale it's always about matching each other's weight. If I have 100 lb of flour, I need it to match the weight on the other side. And that's how I know it's 100 lb of flour and not 99 and not 102. So, it's by it's tapa by being equal by being commenurate with each other. That's how I know the weight. And if it goes a little more, then I know it's heavier. And if it goes up, if it stays up, I know it's lighter. But it's always and if it's equal, it can only be when they're equal. But now we're going to learn about a different type of scale. And that's what he calls pelis. The different types of scale. Probably in some of your doctor's offices, they still have it if they didn't upgrade. You remember that's a different type of scale. That's not the scale where you stand on one side and then the doctor the doctor has something, you know, 200 because it's not going to work. 300 lb and then he puts you on the other side and now you're busy like that. I mean, it would be a fun activity and great adventures. Six Flags, you know, to weigh people that way. you have a rock 100 lb, 200 lb, 300 lb and you know you try to figure it out. It's a whole different type of principle because that would be obviously very impractical. So that's what they call the steel yard balance that's called the pelis. Now you could see in the picture on the right side you have the classic balance scale is called mnayim. On the left side you see the fulcrum leverage waiting stillard balance that's called the pelis. You have another picture where you have only the palace. So it's much larger and you could see the principle and this principle is based on distance. This is based on distance. But let's see how he describes it. Here you have an eight or you have a long beam of wood. a long beam of wood and you have straps that are suspended on one of the edges creating a weight. They called it bezon. We call bezim a broom, but it's basically the straps that come down. I believe somebody wrote to me that it comes from Byzantine. They called it a a bez. It's a Byzantine broom, but I don't know exactly the origin of the word bezom. Apparently a Byzantine broom or something, but we call today a bezom is a broom. But these are straps that come down from one edge of the beam. And that way you can weigh something that's placed on it. And here what determines the weight is the length and the heaviness of that beam and the distance. That's the key. That is what creates the weight and that's what you see in the second scale in the fulcrum. So here we have the difference of mnaim and pelis completely different. So now let's understand this and then we'll see exactly how it applies to the spiritual life of the person. What Alba is teaching here is that the palace somebody uh somebody uh went to uh chat GPT whoever they went to AI to get exact description on all the pictures. This this was m this was made specially for this mimer not by me but I asked somebody yesterday. >> Huh? >> You can see it says palace. >> You see palace right? Palace. So he says the pelis is a type of weighing instrument that uses a long wooden beam and a movable counterwe to measure weight. It's different from a regular balance scale maim because instead of balancing two equal weights on two pans it uses the principle of leverage. The position of a smaller known weight on a long arm balances a larger unknown weight at a fixed point allowing it to be measured by the counterweights position. So that's basically what happens. So here you're not using the fact that they're equal to each other. Huh? >> If the beam is longer it's a different weight. >> Yeah. If the beam is going to be longer the weight is going to change. So the says what's the here the inner pain of the soul on the distance from Hashem you was so distant and uprooting the desire from which I what I was entrenched in initially. This creates a whole different type of he's lifted up and arouses the length and the distance that is what creates this type of soap. When it comes to the the you put that on the scale and that's the mitzvah goes down and this goes up. When it comes to the har which is here is the pel here is the it's the distance right that's that leverage that creates the ability to be able to weigh it. So what lifts up the soul with this of mountain is dka the distance huh. further you're away the more you >> the further he's away that that pain that pain is what propels a different type of growth a different type of experience because you don't have anything else to lean on you have to let go of everything >> yeah okay you have to let go of everything you understand if things are working in very practical if things are working I don't have to let Oh, I don't have to go back to the source. When I have nothing, when nothing is working, what do I have? And then you can have everything. And then you can have everything. But it's a very experiential and deep deep place. As long as I'm holding on to things, you know, I'm holding on to this, I'm latching on to this, I'm latching on to this. I don't want to surrender. I don't want to go back to the so I don't have to. I want to work make it work with my ego even with my spiritual ego but you make it work when that reaches a place where there's a complete disintegration. So now what do you have left so to speak? Nothing. But you have left one thing. The essence, the core that's beyond any description, any definition. That's what you find. That's what you find. >> Huh? >> What? >> This is very beautiful analogy. The ways >> Yeah. >> Don't look at this picture, but it's basically you have a beam, right? And you have a full basically divides into two parts. The low part, I mean one distance and a second distance. >> Yeah. >> So if you're if you're very far, if you're distant and there's another huge weight on another side to I think that's what you're saying. You don't need too much but you need that inner weight in weight that can actually balance the scale. It's your effort per se. So you can be very distant actually very distant can help you >> always very little effort >> right the further you are >> and there's a certain weight that's there think of those scales by the doctor right you're far you're further on huh so so it's >> the divides into parts >> the piece on top divides the beam into two parts right so now you have that heavy fixed weight and then you move you move that other weight Right. Mhm. >> Like right now it's just going down a and then you move it, you move it, you move it, you move it. >> Huh? >> It was always broken by >> that's the problem. It was always broken. Yeah. >> The other one >> of the is more dependent on the >> on the main >> on the main on the on the >> right >> less on the actual The other one is just transactional. Now I have to match it. Get a different one. >> Beautiful. You're saying in the in the palace it depends on the person himself on the eights itself. >> Yes. >> Right. In the other way it's like transactional. I have to choose something that matches like kind of a checklist. >> Very nice. You're saying it depends on the person itself. The eights itself. The other one is transactional. It's one weight versus the other weight. >> It's your best your weight. the distance how far you are >> right >> from the other side whatever we measure and the full is like you're too far right you're you're too close or you're too far but it's your effort essentially that's what makes the balance >> right >> yeah yeah yeah >> galdic so he finishes now there's a long parenthesis See here you see a long parenthesy four lines from the bottom. Now the whole is interconnected 104 says made the tall mountains for the ibexes. You know the ibexes. You know those huh? >> Yeah. You ever see how they they leap on those mountains? Amazing. >> No gravity. >> They have such traction. >> No gravity. and they jump and escape predators. It's incredible how they how they, you know, traverse these dangerous steep mountains where most of us couldn't survive. Most animals couldn't survive >> from birth. Right away, >> they scale. >> Right from birth. Yeah. >> So says these lofty mountains he created for the Okay. So it's a says This state of comes through the through the ibeckes. Why? Because this is the shall y the says inash that the of is made from a y from the horn of an ibeck's posh straight. That's one in the rash. to reach the tallest mountains. The mountains that you weigh on the palace, not on the that's through the what's the is made from the y the is the cry that comes from the distance from the truth. That's beyond words, beyond descriptions, beyond definitions. It goes from your deepest pim is to his deepest pie. That's the through. through the you reach the it's the distance that the person experiences that creates this type of love from the word it elevates you to a different type of love like to the mountains and it's a it's a straighter what's better a curved chifer or a straight chifer there's two shittas this in the mission is it should be from a pash so he says why because the more pit is better so he says what's the says two opinions a straighter is better because the more the heart is simple better a curved one is better because the more the more you bend yourself better what's so he says means divested like to strip yourself from your garments. Means abstraction go away from the what you're stuck in what you're dressed in. The more you could strip the you strip the from being dressed up in the container of the as the heart cries out to surrender the soul to God and to be completely subsumed in one that's the that's the to go away from any attachment to any form but rather the person surreners completely that's the pine This is now I should just mention we pass like the other we usually use from a ram and it's right and some even hold that it has to be like that most can hold that even is I think holds that you need you need even most but this is still a so he's using it to explain that the represents the which is comes from the and that's a because it's completely stripped from any attachment to anything. It's pure. It's pristine. It's pure. It's simple. It's the purest simplicity. It's not connected to any definition or description. That's what the represents. And that's this that it captures vis. That's what finishes the when he says They represented these mountains. We say in the your forefathers sat on the other side of the river. Why is he called Ianar? He came from the other side of the Euphrates crossed the river and came to Kanan because Iraq is uh on the eastern side of Israel right you have to go east northeast so you have to cross the river and come into that's physically spiritually the river comes out of Eden to irrigate the garden and from there the river is split into four. So the river represents once there's a flow of to be able to enlighten and enliven all of the worlds and over there there could be a comprehension of the mish once you have a river that comes out of Aiden there's a flow of and from there it scatters and splits into all definitions of reality and over there there could be a comprehension of something that we understand whatever we understand about the world about reality about infinity, about truth. It's all after the river departs and ultimately scatters and it could be that's all the what's the other side of the river? the other side of the river that's beyond us that's the tall mountains that's the source of the so that's the so you have the is the love that comes from awareness from consciousness from some form of understanding every person according to their capacity that's once there's a flow And then it splits up into all the worlds. You have all the four four rivers. You remember the four rivers, right? You have and [Applause] it's paras. What about the other side of the river? That's everything the other side. It's beyond the river. There's no flow. Flow is already flow. This is Han where everything becomes everything after that is throughum. Every flow is throughum. That's where the others come from. That's the and that creates a different type of love. That's the it's a different mountain that comes through which is the which is which comes from a distance. This comes from the distance but and it's a it's a because it goes beyond any it doesn't hold on it's not attached to anything and no definition it's just limb is pure pure. So it's there's a mil in kaf. What's kafov is scaff is you bend yourself. You're you're kafut means straight. What's straight? Straight it represents simplicity. Simplicity means like it's divested from anything. The used say the simplicity of a simple person is the simplicity of God in his essence. In the essence there's no sophistication. It's very simple. It's a different type of simple. Simple doesn't mean simple, you know, stupid. Simple means simple, pure, pure. You're not no entangling with anything. You don't even have words. Pure is pure. Not because you're afraid of words because you graduated. You did it already. Been there, done that. It's above. It's above. It's par in a person's life. It means he's ready to be mafet everything. The ava is not connected to anything. It doesn't have to be there's no there's no way that it has to define itself by it liberates it from every definition which is absolute surrender in the deepest place and you can't logically you can't logically create it through logic it's an of and this is so that's why and this is where the relationship with hashem is and this is whereashana reaches and this is the malus of rishana and that's why all the souls are one the in the beginning says everybody is one cuz when you go to this place everybody is one so this moh finishes is this is the oath that he made to and from there from the place of which is the other side of the river that's from there was the oath. What's an oath? An oath also means it's inevitable. What does an oath represent? Whatever happens I'm going to do it. I swear. What do you mean I swear? What do you have to swear? If you're an honest guy, you're not a crook. You'll do it. Swear. Why did the dak have y swear? Ysef wasn't a crook. He said, "Tati, I'll bury you in Israel. I'll bury you in Israel." Why do you have to make him swear? Because swearing represents that even if there's obstacles, this is inevitable. It's a must. It's non-negotiable. Where's the of this relationship is from a place that's non-negotiable. from there was the that I want to be your godmus meaning from his own internal to your is that connection that's what says wrote here he summarizes the everybody could learn it I want to wish you all an amazing shabas a with all abundant blessings. Thank you for this over the year to be able to learn together and grow together and internalize this and may all of us be able to internalize this and everything else that we learned and really be able to to be able to connect and bring Hashem into every every space of our life in the deepest and most authentic way as we learned in this mimer. And everybody should have shall fulfill all of your heart's desires for yourself and your loved ones. Should be a year of complete victory and a year of complete redemption. Amen. I'm here. I'm here. Shabas. If you're here, >> this is how >> you made your own picture. No, that's how it should have done this picture. So this is the palace, right? This is the distance of the entire palace. This is the fulcrum. So if this distance is very small and the weight is too big like a weight of the mountains, right? So you need to apply a little bit of weight because you have a huge leverage, >> right? >> So because w this weight times this distance equal this weight time this distance. So you can be very very far but applying a little bit of weight you can actually lift the mountain because you have a huge >> because you have such a big distance >> you have a huge leverage. So the palace is never like this. Palace is basically what a beam like >> a beam. A long beam. Yeah. He says it's a a long beam. >> So on one hand is a huge mountain big wave. >> That's like the bezman. I guess that's the strips on one side >> is very close to it. So >> the fulcrum is close but since you have >> you have a huge leverage. You think you're very far. You're nothing and gish but you have a huge leverage. All you need to do is just >> because you're so distant. You have a major leverage and therefore a little applying and you uh >> you uh you balance out the >> if you think you're such a big sadic you're here right so you can't uplift the the mountain but if you're nothing >> you're about you can uplift you can uplift the other side the whole mountain could go up >> so I just want I just want to beautiful the physics of it because >> yeah yeah I see I see I see >> this picture is using was name for palace. It's not it's not going to work, >> right? I see. >> So, a picture should be much simpler. >> The physics are very beautiful. >> Beautiful. You should That's the leverage.