Likkutei Torah Al Ken #6: What If You Can Experience In Your Body How You Are Inside Hashem’s Womb?

We're middle of the 131 page 131 all the way on top we're holding you see in the Hebrew it's column one column one in English it's page 131 on top isak [Music] Today's class is dedicated by Alexandra Perez in honor of her beloved in-laws. Isn't that beautiful? Vivian and Mikey Perez for opening their home this past year and for hosting a beautiful bris for our son Yakov. May this year bring us one step closer to the safety and success of the IDF in the holy land with revealed blessings to all of Israel. Amen. And thank you very very much for the only and may you raise with joy, happiness, serenity and prosperity and blessings. Amen. Thank you very much. Okay. So let's remember the nakuda the whole mimer is focusing on a song on a poem that was written by some poets that Mishenu decides to record in but the whole thing is very strange because it's not an event that's connected to the Jewish people it's a war that happened between two countries between the country of the and theites and basically what happens is that the tit describes types when uh the Jewish people came in the desert and Melikh who was the name of the king of Ami went out to fight with them. >> He began a war against them and the Jewish people defeated him. So the Tyra says in Paris that the Jewish people took all of the cities that he lived in and they settled there. They settled there in the main city, the capital which was called and all of the towns around it. And then the trader goes off on a tangent to tell you the history of how came into the hands of which was then later conquered by the Jewish people. And he explains that was the city the capital city of Sikhine who was the king of Amay. Amayi was one of the tribes and he had a capital city called but it really didn't belong to him. It really belonged to Mayav. It belonged to the first king of Mayav. And then Sikhine went to war against the king of Mayav and he took his entire country from him all the way to a city called Aron. Why is that Nea? Like what's Naya here? So Rashi explains because essentially it's very interesting. Rashi says because um the Torah says you're not supposed to besiege alter leave may alone belong to so how in the world can the Jewish people conquer the say that's what he explains that it used to be but says they became cleansed through It became fertile. It became suitable for the Jewish people because it went through the hands of it wasn't it didn't anymore belong to Mayov. So that's why the history comes in because it's not here because that explains why the Jewish people could live there even though it belonged to May because conquered it. So it went over to his uh huh? >> Yeah. Huh? It says in the migillash said uh to Esther that as base hmoni I took the house of hmon and I gave it to you. I gave it to you in mai was from a malik. So you're not allowed to have anything from a malik. Even a house from a malik. That's what they ask. If it's base hmon it has to be destroyed. The answer is that Harug Malus belongs to the Malus. So since Hmon was killed by the Malus, it belong to wasn't for Malik. So he made it purified that the Jewish people can use it. That would be a similar idea. But here the goes on another tangent and starts telling us a poem that was written about that war. And that's what's very strange. Even if you want to tell us about that war, do we have to really know about a poem that was written about the war? The those who speak in parables from the word says it was those who speak in parables say come to they told don't be afraid you could come into you could conquer it it's going to be rebuilt as the city of this is what the parable the people speaking in parables told about this warb come and the city will be rebuilt why is that right to have the song the poem that was written about it and then he adds it's it's a long it's it's a it's for of poetry a fire came out of a flame came out of the city of it ate up it consumed the city that belonged to baline the masters of the platforms of which was all may's country and this fire went and consumed them and he continues woe unto you may etc. So on this I'll say that this was written also as a parable. It wasn't stam written to record what was written about that original war by some poet but put it into the because that itself is a lesson and on this says this is what the was based on is not only from the word mushel those who write in parables those who write they're poets they're they write pros but is those from the word a ruler All right. Mhall has two meanings in Hebrew. The word mention is and is a metaphor, a parable and is a ruler. Those who rule those who have control over their life. Those who live a uh centered a disciplined life. They they are the ones who say what's come and calculate think about ponder from the word the calculation of the world that's what it means. So this was the whole based and what was the last that we learned that tears up the of 70 years and the whole of the was that there's the goof is in order to be able to reveal the true of that happens dka through the mitzvah essay in this world and through the mitzvah especially as he explains when the person challenges all the instincts and the thoughts that come from and breaks through the concealment and that creates and all of the world which is the as explained at length in the and then he says and that's the idea of the say that if you say and is this of when somebody tunes into the of 70 years which represents the 70 years of the seven of the each one encompassing 10 gets torn through gets refined and that's the in the three worlds of as explained and that's the what's the secret of those who are what's their secret their ability to be able to be whether it's is how is they always know that it's that there's a concealment there's a blockage and they therefore they never get uh deceived they never get lured in to the trap because they know that there's a concealment and there's a blockage >> yeah And they they also know that they came from their comes from a place of pure godliness and pure bliss. So they make the why did they come into this concealment to this and the answer is to go to a deeper place. You did the to be mala malikam and not only malikalam which happens only through piercing through and puncturing puncturing you know the the the the bubble of the concealment which creates the puncture in all of the worlds even in the highest worlds because even in the highest worlds it's always it's always concealment even in the highest highest worlds there is some concealment in order to allow for existence to happen and then when they this this is what allows them to be able to be shall be not to fall prey to uh the concealments that come up from the animal consciousness in thought or in words or in actions or in instincts or in emotions throughout the day and the night. And the isham why because he said based on the depth of the darkness that's how much light you have to have right if you light a candle in regular place it will be effective but in a cellar where the ear is very very dense and very very thick it's not going to be able to work and there you must have a much deeper a more intense flame torch in order to be able to penetrate that level of darkness. The same is true. He says that based on the you have to make a how deep the concealment is because it's so deep you need the deepest light and for that you had the come down and to be able to transform this darkness into light. That's the and therefore they don't get inspo they don't get affected by the depth of the darkness. On the contrary, they know that this is precisely why you need so much light to defeat the darkness. >> Yeah. Yeah. Because they never associate and identify themselves with the darkness. They know that this they were sent here. It's a mission. It's a mission. It's not their identity. But is from the highest place. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. So this is the first part. What does it say? Right after that in this poem is let the city be established as the city of is a city that belongs to once the king the the king of conquers it. So now he's going to rename it. It's going to be established means built established as what? As a city of it's going to become his city because he took it over. It's not going to belong to anymore. That's the next stop. That's the next part. So now continues the next piece in this whole remember is recording it not just to describe that war. He's describing it as a timeless lesson to the Jewish people. So says the word the city of represents what's the connection the word is called is a conversation not shin not with a shin which means but sin smiles a shin not a not a shin but a sin the difference between a shin And a sin is if the pinta is on the right or on the left. If it's on the right, it's shin. If it's on the left, it's sin. As you may remember from prea and you may have kept up with that and therefore we have the word which is where do we see this? We have it the first time in when Alazar is bringing back from with all of the camels and it says went out what's from this learned out instituted where was he from here we see that is from the Not just taking a walk like it says into Yeah. You remember from the song of David. Yeah. It's a beautiful song. So what's before Hashem? He pours out his is conversation. But it's not just a superficial conversation. It's not the word means but it means an intimate conversation. He pours out his innermost words and expressions and feelings. It's pouring out right where you say you say also a nice song on those words right. So it's all the soul pours itself out meaning the person emotes in a very deep way. So we see from here that represents obviously are the same thing the same says this is of the who pours out his so clearly from you see that is and that's why says it's based on that was which is right because it was right before the evening it was dusk in the afternoon >> something that I didn't understand of the river. >> Very good. Very good. So he's saying okay very actually says in the first of not just that could mean a is nothing but that that is what means so this say it's based on but what's why is the word usually means conversation words. Yeah. Like we say for example the conversation the words that come from the holy angels that burn up inspiration. But we see here that is what's the connection who and this is of course the concept of it's spelled with but the pronunciation is like a sin right that's why and sin are very exchangeable because it's not it's like the same it's not the same letter but it sounds the same sounds identical there's what's the difference between sin and and between sin and sak you can't hear a difference so that means that is also connected to which is it's connected to that's So he says is connected to he's going to explain more later it's not the word is usually it's a word of conversation words in Hebrew means conversation is in Hebrew today I want to talk to you right means a speech a conversation a sermon is is a talk. So that's the connection to but that wouldn't only be that's anytime you talk. It could also be it could be words. It could be a conversation. Right? So here you see that he says because doesn't only mean words conversation. Furthermore, says that actually represents a conversation that's quiet. It's quiet. It's secretive. It's confidential. It's concealed. So that would work very well with means has to be quiet. You're not supposed to scream and speak loud. So this is another why say that is because says that is not just a regular it's a that's quiet it's a quiet it's it's a it's a it's an intimate conversation and that's the idea of it's not loud but in addition to all that that's all true but there's another idea in the word it represents the idea of moving away moving away like we say what's also the same word right means it says when you're wearing fill and you shouldn't have what's means that your das is diverted your attention is diverted from being present being mindful to what you're doing into other things so means to move away from one place to another place. Diverting your location physically or emotionally or mentally from one place to another place is also connected to where do you see it also? You see it in the word in Hebrew for swimming. How do you say swimming in Hebrew? >> Huh? Yeah. Swimming. Huh? >> Yeah. What's the connection to swimming? >> Huh? >> What do you do when you swim? You stay in one place. You're supposed to stay in one place when you swim. That's what's the exercise of the fun of swimming. You got to move. The faster the better. So that's what he says. Like the bus says chapter 25 verse 11. The meaning of this is to swim in water. What is this? Is exactly the same word. You're moving away. That's what swimming is. The whole concept of swimming is that you're constantly moving yourself from one place to another space inside the water. We see this also in another place. the the says in when a person has anxiety when a person has worry anxiety concerns things bothering you the I think over there it actually says with if I'm not mistaken say what does mean he says two meanings one is get it off your mind another is talk to other people about It seems like a contradiction. First you tell me means just move it away. Go away from it. >> And then you say talk to somebody else. So he says you see in this words they have both. The first is in Gammorian. The Gmorian says this and explains two things that means the first thing is what's to remove his dance from the anxiety to put his into not to remain immersed in those anxious thoughts. That's number one. But then they have another actually to converse with somebody else. From here you see that doesn't just mean to repress it or bury it or make believe it doesn't exist because then they wouldn't give up. You should talk about it to somebody else. Right? Is done with awareness. It's done with compassion. It's not done like uh that you get angry at the thought and you make believe it doesn't exist and you repress it because that doesn't help. Then it just comes back usually with a vengeance. It's a conscious idea of that it's here. I know exactly what it is and now I'm choosing to take my das and to put it into it's a very conscious mindful decision that comes from actually holding space for what is and then you decide to take your das and you want to choose where your das is going to be spending its time. It's just a very important qualification. That's why it's not a contradiction to the second thing which is why you're talking about it just make believe it doesn't exist. You don't talk about things that don't exist. But what do we see from here that the same word is has two interpretations in and obviously if it's two interpretations they're connected to each other. So this is these two interpretations. One is that's the second interpretation and one is move away. So the same is true in which is one is and one is moving away but that wouldn't be connected to you're saying that's why is called is not on the contrary what you what you're trying not to think about your explains what's this idea of moving away by ding what do you want to move away to >> so he saysh moving your burden from yourself to he has to help you with whatever. >> So that you could say one idea that you want to move away from your present state of burdens or anxiety or worry or concern and surrender it to Hashem like give it up to Hashem. So that would be the just like that you're taking and you see you're moving it away from your like somebody once said um before I go to sleep I give over all my problems to God because I know he's staying up anyway so you know I got to sleep he doesn't have to sleep so let him if you're staying up anyway so you'll worry about all my issues yeahish you're staying up so you deal elephant. There's also another another element in haz of this haz is in the person themselves. There's a whole other element in moving away in that is connected to the core of dav. In other words, if you just say it's the person moving away from their own anxiety to having so that depends if the person has anxiety, if the person doesn't have anxiety, if there's three and a half people that don't have anxiety. Here we're going to learn but it's not essential to in other words it's the to get away from in order to why is itself called you understand according to this it's a it's an important in order to be able to step into ding if I'm overwhelmed with anxiety and thinking about this thinking about this I can't be present for ding but here we're going to learn that itself just like dur is not only a preparation for ding that is the the is the of ding so according to the second that it's that is the So here goes into a whole of a of a what what what's happening at the of quite a quite a a a novel explanation the real main the real is he's going to explain that of should be revealed, manifested, viscerally revealed to be to be enclosed in all of the worlds in a revealed way. That's why the main of is what does literally the word mean? There should be a will. There should be a will from you because the he himself is beyond the essence of life, the essence of reality itself. What we call hashem, the essence of everything itself is beyond any definition. It's also beyond even the word which means desire in order to so to speak create or they should be the whole reality of which is what the blessings of talk about for example he should be redeem bless the years all the other blessings the 18 or 19 blessings So this is also moving away from one space to another space. The deepest here is in in Hashem himself is a big revolution. Is a revolution. The word revolution also means right when something revolves something moves a re revolution you want to change things around you want to upend the reality soil is really a huge revolution it's a huge change it's a huge transformation and this is what you have to realize here because from every of so is a huge zaza movement for lak and he explains because mitad himself as it says in zyar He's he's completely transcendent of any of any attribute any definition any description who moves away moves away. He swims. He swims away and descends from his essential so to speak natural organic essential space which is beyond even desire that there should be a rat in this in this flow in this communication in this connectivity in being manifested in this particular description and definition and this aroused from above. This movement is also movement. When you're you wake up the word means to wake up means you're waking up again. It's a movement. I I am in my natural state. And then somebody's the alarm clock wakes me up. So now my state changes. So whenever you say means it's an arousal from above. It's a change. There's a shift. There's a switch. Something happens. There's a this new flow that comes through which is let there be a will. Why are you saying let there be a will? Do you want it or don't you want it? Because you have to say because you're beyond this is a huge this is this is swimming from one side of the Atlantic to the other side of the Atlantic and it's bigger than the Atlantic because the Atlantic is like a big ocean but it's finite. It's an ocean. Here you're talking about a movement from where? from a space beyond any description and definition into a place where there is definition and description whether it's and all of the which is what is >> a complete redirection of traffic and this is the revolution of >> that's what you're asking you're asking him to move. Yeah. You're asking him to move >> to help you whatever. Whatever. >> Yeah. To come in to come in that of should become present and manifested in the intricate detail of my life. Whatever it is I'm asking for and I'm concerned about and I need which is very very granular. It's specific. It's defined whether it's physical, psychological, emotional, spiritual. But it's all about identity. It's all about the it's all about descriptions and definitions and identity and details. >> You said that there's a So really, >> but it's still >> You're right. You're right. Is more Mali than a Mali, but it's ain't safe. It's infinite. >> It should be able to be manifested as the detail, manifested as the specific expression. You put on pause for a second. >> Not the word pause, but the way he puts it is that the should be in the in the form of inside the world. >> Ah. >> Yeah. doesn't say that. Yeah. >> Yeah. >> Right. >> It's an interesting paradigm because it's like what a person is a personal verdict. >> Okay. It's like a death spiral in no and just if you have a little push to to redirect the floor to say that you can actually go escape the vertex by giving you escape. There is a way to escape but >> right >> redirecting the flow. Redirecting the flow. from >> you're saying the person is in a vortex and you redirect the flow. >> Yeah. >> So this is the we said is but why is called because also means something else moving away like the swimming. So this is the moving away from a space that is completely beyond description and definition beyond any identity beyond any mid even beyond the word which is why we say from which is pure pure to be able to be manifested within the details and the intricacies of the person's needs and the person's life expressed in all of the 18 of that is that that arousal that comes from God below. That is the tremendous a radical quantum haza transformation and move from one space which is beyond space to a space which is called space. >> Yeah, of course. >> It's a flow to remain in that flow. Of course, >> huh. >> Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. That's what it is. It's a flow. I'm shak into that space. >> Well, you're saying there should be a rot. >> It's not depreciating. We'll see. It's not depreciating. It's it's it's it's respecting and embracing the reality that Hashem created where the person is living in a physical world in a body that is defined because in the truth of Kalman everything is complete complete infinite we don't even have words for it because words are part of malic creation. So the moment we speak about it we're not talking about it anymore right? We're talking about some construct that we put into words and that's when you when the whole is built on the idea that is yeah the moment you go to and it's between pre-creation postcreation and mat the same like he spoke about the circle and he said doesn't mean is above and it's not below it's in the and it's still so essentially and there's no between yn and gashmis and the highest and the lowest are completely the same because it's not called high. It's not called low. The very definition of high and low doesn't exist. Yeah. It's not called high. It's not called low. And he says that it's an and this is the it says if I go to heaven you're there and if I go into the it's he spoke about that's the first level but then there's is the right so this when we talk about it yeah what what Is it it is that when the person surrenders all definitions and all descriptions in this there's complete you're like subsumed in the womb of God that and everything is subsumed in it from the highest to the lowest and it's all pure infinity and therefore in the most perfect coherent possible state it can be now that's the truth that's the truth the truth would be like the entire it says The entire universe all of the universes is like subsumed like a like a fetus in the womb of the child where it's completely bottle in the in absolute oneness. Over there everything is as perfect as can be. There is a coherence, there's a unity, there's a oneness. It's also the source of all bliss, of all goodness, of all pleasure. And it's it's the same oneness that was there pre-creation. And it's a true state of reality. That's the state of reality. When you have those glasses, when so to speak, when you have that perspective, that >> clarity, that's what it is. That's the reality. Yet, Hashem causing the energy to be concealed from the perspective of those who are created. We live in a different world, right? Right? We live in a world of amm of sha of nephesh like we explained is infinitely diverse and nephesh is infinitely diverse and sha represents that entire change of time because of etc etc. So what am I when I'm dvening what am I dvening? What am I really dining? Am I dvening that what I should cease to exist and go back to precreation of that's not the plan. is even if you could reach it, even if you're in the it's called a sin. So that's not the doning. So what is the davening? The dvening is manifested life as a human being. We're sitting here, we're talking. Why are we talking? What are we talking? The answer is because we're living in a world of consciousness of world a world of identity, right? I'm sitting here and I feel myself. You're sitting here and you feel yourself. It's not like it's not of it is not afraid of mics and it's not afraid of people and it's certainly not afraid of and it's not even afraid of coffee. That's what I meant. It's not it's not like oh god a mic oh I can't deal with a mic. It could be finite also. But the way of doesn't mean doesn't mean I don't that that I'm afraid of change. change is also but but that's of so what's that of as he puts it should be right that was the the man when he starts talking about that the truth of reality should be experienced in the world of the person and in the world that we inhabit. >> So that's >> right to do that. >> Yeah. Because because it's that's a huge it's the from a space that's completely beyond any any definition which includes also all the definitions but it doesn't include the definitions as a limit. It includes the definitions. It could include them as a limit because of it's completely not defined by limit or by unlimitedness. >> As I told you, you don't have to say it's you don't say it's limited, but you also don't say it's unlimited. Not afraid of limits. It's it's it's not defined by anything. >> Yeah. Even the word is is a construct of words. I know I know it's funny because it sounds like semantics like okay, big deal. Say say nothing. Nothing is nothing. But but it's important to be typhus that this is the of Mitsus. >> It's the of Mits. I mean the deeper you go into reality, you know, this is where you're getting to. It's like very >> okay. >> I don't know what I ch to be honest with you. I'm just trying to understand what Alba said. >> Okay. >> So is the world a womb of God? So if you have that perspective that the world is like a womb of God. So then you are not you're not separate. You you're in in there. So you're you just you're in the womb. Once you have that thought, it's just like what is this? >> Very well. You just got it. You nailed it. You nailed it. >> I think you nailed it. I just praised it in my first >> Yeah. Yeah. The moment you're in the womb, it's it's the end of anxiety. Yeah. >> It's as perfect as it gets. >> It's it's the this is thee. That's what means doesn't just mean God is the boss and he has a that's basic is that you're in the womb of Hashem literally everything is in the womb. >> Yeah. So is to be able to live with that consciousness in your real life in your practical life. I could say I'm in the womb of God when I'm asleep when I'm uh in a different state of consciousness. But when to be in this world and be in that womb, what are you worried about? Why are you worried? Why are you concerned? I'm not talking here an intellectual experience. We're talking about a visceral experience. What would it actually feel emotionally? Don't think about it intellectually. Intellectually, you can make in the womb and has all but what would it feel like viscerally? Like what if you feel felt like that? If everybody here felt and experienced experienced literally in their body, in your nervous system, in your heart, in your emotion that you were in the womb of Hashem and actually you really really felt it. Think about those words. Not intellectually, not there's a proof and there's and there's a calculation and which is all nice. You know, it's like I always tell you, the map is not the territory. Intellect at best is a good map, but that's not the territory. It's not where you live, right? What would it actually feel like if you really felt like that? >> It's the source of all comfort. This is the source of all comfort. This is the source of all healing. This is the source of all joy. This is the source of all bliss. This is the source of all clarity. If a person really really really can experience that it's like everything changes. Everything changes. It's not that you become crazy. You're a crazy person. You're sen, you know, go live on Mars. It's not that. We're not talking about that. It's just everything is different. Everything changes. How does everything change? Because you are literally It's not just Hashem is running the world. Everything is is Hashem >> presence. >> Complete presence. Complete complete presence. And it's not even a denial of everything. It's not like you now deny the detail. This doesn't exist. That doesn't exist. It's it's it's you're not amputating anything. If you need to amputate something, then it's not this idea. >> You're not amputating anything. It's inside the womb. Everything is there. All the food, all the >> everything, >> all the food, all the parasa, all the bank accounts, all the text messages, all the WhatsApp messages, all the conversations, all even the bills, >> everything, everything is there. >> And it's not and it's not it's not even an intellectual explanation. And therefore, everything is rosy. There's not a therefore and everything is beautiful. And it's not even that. You said you're not trying to amputate anything. You don't have to amputate anything. You don't have to cut this out and cut this out and deny this and deny that and just smile and say life is perfect. >> Huh? >> No. Means he did not push you out of the womb. It means I could I have to choose to see myself in the womb. That's what it means. Now, he didn't push me out of the womb. It means he gave me the opportunity to choose to be in the womb. You see the difference? a very big difference. He didn't push me out of the womb. He gave me an opportunity to choose it and also an opportunity not to choose it. Cuz that's what it means, an opportunity to choose it. An opportunity to choose it means also an opportunity not to choose it. I could see myself inside his womb and I can also choose not that not that. >> To not see it. Yeah. >> Yeah. Like the Mishna says it was nine hours a day, right? People think meditation is someh of some Buddhists, right? You go to Mishna, they spent nine hours a day meditating an hour before dinging, an hour ding, an hour after ding. That was chakras the same with the same with and people don't know that this is brought as a [Music] think this is not this is not this is not this is not it's not is the code of law it speaks that before dvening one should go into and he This meditation brought them to place of close to the state of prophecy. This is people don't realize what is he trying to say. It wasn't stam they sat meditated you know checked their phone watched a nice clip. It was a very very serious technique where they literally went into a space where they were in the womb of God. >> Huh? Shyen. Yeah, >> is like the flow. It's a flow because it can happen uh urgent. It's just urgent like okay let's do it. I have two minutes. Let's meditate two minutes to finish. >> Huh? >> Well, they started early. Huh? >> They started early so they finished beforeh >> a drive-through meditation. So the here is that you know think throughout the day. Take a few minutes throughout the day and ask yourself, what would I feel like if I experienced myself in the womb of Hashem? You say, "But I don't. I got that, but what would it feel like?" Ask your body. You you might you may find very in very powerful results. Speak to your body like in very calming way regulated and ask what would you feel like if you experienced yourself literally you with all your parts, all your cells, all your ligaments, all your bones, all your muscles, everything, all your atoms, all your neurons, everything, the good, the bad, the ugly, the mishagasan, the exa, everything. You've experienced all of it literally inside the womb of Hashem without anything out. Bashmi is what you would feel not the here is that rrookn and gashmis are one. That's the whole point. This is a place where rnes and gashmis are exactly the same. >> Huh? >> They're completely synonymous. Matter and energy are exactly the same thing. That's the whole point in this. That's what was saying was not an intellectual experience. So if you read tomlik was not philosophizing and there's not a word of philosophy that's why people don't like it because it's not philosophy it's experience so when Judaism went into the intellectualism tom went out the window like what am I who don't know how to learn can't read madame certainly can't learn so they say tim all day so for the altabus in Poland and Russia it was a good But today we're sophisticated. So in the previous he says there I don't remember exactly the he says yeah and says he was he was the head of the sanhedrin. So he wasn't he was a genius of a man David. You could see also from that he was a genius. So he says he he was he was expressing himself. He says he didn't write a so he could say and say ah he said he wrote a because because it's experience it's not it's not another intellectual experience. So the idea here is that on an intellectual level a person you read to him it's like what do you want again and again again again again every pedic again his sadness and his grief >> huh >> I'm ashamed of it because I could not relate to >> but we we need to go to experience once you go to experience you'll see it's a diary of of our life it's a it's the best diary of life the garra says it says he calls him the mirror is he's like the the the poet of the Jewish people. He represents the Jewish soul's angst and music. He's called he's like the mouthpiece of the Jewish song. Like says, you know, right? I'm I'm the harp to your musical is the harp of the of the Jewish soul. So when he says brought it in the beginning of chapter 2 about what was he? was experiencing it. David Malik was sometimes in heaven and sometimes he was in sh physically in sh. He was in caves. He was in sistern. He was running. He was a fugitive from his own father-in-law. Everybody tried to kill the man. So was he was he was he an anxious depressed person? So he's telling you what he did. He was in the womb of God. Doesn't mean he's he's not calling it. He is calling a child because doesn't mean I have to amputate the reality. I'm not in sh I'm in heaven. He's not in heaven. He's in a cave. He's running away. Tomorrow he has to run to in an hour. He has to run. Nonetheless, physically, he was so regulated because he was in the womb of God. In the womb of Hashem. So throughout the day, it's good sometimes to pause and ask your body, what would you feel like if right now you experienced yourself in the womb of Hashem? What would that feel like? Priceless. >> Priceless. Yeah. >> This is This is everything. It's not just priceless. It's everything. Priceless means it's very very expensive piece that has no price. This is everything. This is everything. So if it's everything, why don't we just talk about this? Yeah. That's why every mime talks about this. It's true. That's why every mime talks about this. People like, well, against Yeah. What else should he talk about? What do you want him to talk about? You want to talk about hakkinik this and this and this this cute vert and this cute vert that cute vert. This is the core of everything. If you have this, you have everything. If you don't have this, we're running after everything. Just running. Another entertainment. Another entertainment. Whether it's religion, not religion, this this. But I'm I'm trying to entertain myself here. You stop entertaining yourself. You don't have to entertain yourself. This is it. This is everything. Yeah. And it's like it's a secret because you can't hold on to it. You can't control it. You have to be in it. You can't control it. It's a very very energetic space. It's not words. It's not ideas. It's not intellect. Right? Even talking about it is really a desecration of it. Not because the words are bad because words have to acknowledge their limits. Words are a product of leaving the womb. Words are definitions. Words are defining it. We live in a world of words. So we try to connect the verbal to the preverbal. But if the verbal is not being connected to the preverbal, then the verbal is just more garbage. Just more distractions, more distractions. Words, words, words, words, words. There's a niggan on this, you know. Somebody used to say that there were two types of Jews. Some Jews read this Pik and went into went into mourning. how can I get rid of you? You're always here. Is there anywhere you can leave me alone? It's one one approach. And then there were those that depends on the perspective what God means. If God is a tyrant and a dictator, then leave me alone. Somewhere say you're not there. Maybe the bathroom somewhere somewhere you shouldn't be there. >> Huh? >> And then there is other approach. >> Yeah. So what are you experiencing? I want to hear. You look like you're experiencing a lot. >> Yeah. Yeah. I see your >> Good answer. Good answer. Good answer. I have to be the carbon who speaks about it, right? Everybody just gets to think about it and not talk about it. >> It just feels like the ultimate surrender is so beautiful, so simple. It's so easy. >> It's so easy to elevate your burden. >> The truth is that it's the easiest thing in the world, but it's also the hardest thing in the world. >> It's the easiest thing in the world because it's really just going back to the truth. That's really it's easy everything. It's just letting go of everything. It's the hardest thing in the world because letting go takes courage because there's so many other thoughts and distractions >> goes against our nature. >> It goes against our nature and the animal soul didn't learn the mimer. We're trying to teach it the mind, but the animal soul doesn't see it that way. The animal soul says, "No, no, no. You're not in any womb. You're in control. If you don't take care of yourself, you're dead. There are a bunch of sharks everywhere. And do you dare say to me that we're we're no in a womb? We're not a womb. You're yourself here. Make sure you take care of yourself. Get the respect you need. Get the money you need. Get the attention you need. Get the validation you need. Get the pleasure you need. And you know what? We have to have compassion. That's what the animal soul knows. It doesn't know anything else. It's a post symptom reality. And it comes into a body and it says, "Okay, I'm hungry. I'm thirsty. I need attention. I need this. I need that. I need that. Whoa, whoa, whoa. I need I need I need I need I need I need it. Stop hacking me a chic." And it starts already at day one. And it develops all of the instincts in order to get its gratification to survive and to be comfortable. And that's what it lives with. And we develop all of our mechanisms based on that. The emmesis is though that the nepheamas needs to be invited with compassion also into the womb because that's also part of the womb. All all of these instincts are also in the womb. >> Yeah. They're also in the womb. >> So you could also tell the animal, so I get it. I get it. Your anxiety is also in the womb. That's the whole idea. So you don't have to be afraid of it. That's why you don't have to amputate anything. >> Yeah. Who you are, not what you want. >> Very well. Excellent. You get you get according to who you are, not according to what you need. >> Yeah, that's beautiful. >> God gives you things not according to what you want, but according to who you are. And ultimately, once you know who you are, that's exactly what you want. That's the point. >> In other words, I I I con that's very powerful. I construct things what I want because I don't know who I am. Oh, that's a good shirt. Give me that shirt. Oh, that's a nice phone. Give me that phone. Oh, you have a good wife. Give me your wife. You have a nice house. Give me your house. Oh, I like your car. Give me your car. Oh, I like your money. Give me your money. I'm just It's like a kid, you know, who sees, oh, ice cream, this ice cream. Okay, that ice cream. There's ice cream everywhere. So, you give me your ice cream. It's not based on who I am. It's just based on what seems right at the moment, which will feel good. And then I finish with this and I go to the next ice cream. But the truth is life gives you not what you want. It gives you based on who you are. And then when you know that that's exactly what you want. But that takes a lot of lot of surrender. It takes a lot of surrender. And there's also grief. In other words, you have to acknowledge the grief in it because the animal soul is scared. Right? When you're taking a kid on a plane and it's turbulent and he's crying, you don't just say you're a stupid child. You comfort. Our animal soul is like a child who has to be comforted. It's throwing tantrums. So, you have to comfort it. You don't have to judge it. You have to comfort it and bring that into the womb. Mosul. >> It's a good puppy. It's actually can embrace. Yeah. Yeah. It throws tantrums constantly and and and to be present with the discomfort is part of what it means to be in to be present with the discomfort. In other words, not to be afraid of any part of life and existence. Listen, this is very heavy. This is this is heavy stuff. I mean, as I'm talking about what >> if you're completely there, but but but there is the fact that is part of the equation. In other words, creation of the world is not a myth. Before Bria and after Bria, that's true. But there's something called Bria. >> The world is nothing, >> right? Did my never say malakan is a lie. It's stupid. It's it's it's wake up from your dream. No, that's not what he's saying. That's God's reality also. It's God's reality. I have a hand and it looks like a hand. It doesn't look like infinity. It's a finger. It's a finger and it has its identity. >> The emes that the finger is in his womb. That's true. And that includes my finger. Yeah. And that the finger really at its core is infinite. That's all true. But the way it's viscerally manifested in our consciousness is it's a finger and it needs to be treated as a finger with delicacy and with sensitivity and with consideration. So that's a very very delicate interplay and recognition of the different aspects of existence. So now what is so what is really a daily encounter with Kalam because Hashem Hashem is Hashem. You're talking to Hashem who you're talking to Hashem himself. You're not talking to an angel. That's not what Davening is. You're talking to Hashem himself. And you're saying this Hashem himself who is completely beyond ruts, beyond description, beyond definition. Not because he's afraid of ruts. I can have ruts. He can also have rotten. All rutsen comes from him. Who created desire? Where did anybody get the idea of desire? Mind mindless cells that are blind didn't create desire. Who created love? Who created passion? Who created wisdom? Who created compassion? Who created sensitivity? Where do all these emotions come from? >> And we do have a desire >> and we all have desire and we all have love. >> We do have free will. Not like said. >> Yeah. Yeah. >> Yeah. Freedom and agency and even consciousness. You know, people don't realize consciousness is a miracle. What came from nowhere consciousness. There was a this table evolves after 20 billion years. Suddenly it's going to have consciousness. Somebody's going to have love. Suddenly it's going to have a a deep yearning to understand what the world is. We do mindless blind cells that are randomly connected develop consciousness. So f scientists who are stupid can afford to ignore this but you can't really ignore these things. You can't ignore it. Anyone who has a little honesty and sel it's the biggest miracle in the world that there's consciousness based on the idea that the world is random and there's no design and there's no intelligence and there's no consciousness and it all happened by mistake from some explosion and it took 26 billion years today the number changed to 26 billion used to be 13 billion now it's 26 billion and after 26 billion it developed like this >> it's not confirmed >> I didn't think so >> one >> I didn't think So >> huh >> my point is when you say he's beyond rats doesn't mean he has no rats. It means he's beyond any definition of rats. If I can of course desire comes from God. Where else desire? Where did love comes from God? It all comes from the source but he's not defined by rats. So when you say it's really describing that of should be fully manifested and present in mal in the person is asking for connecting to >> and it happens no matter what question >> it's really really also explaining the secret of davin because everybody asks question. If God knows what he's doing and God is good, what are you ding? What are you mixing in? What are you mixing in? Oh, you don't believe in him. You don't believe he knows what he's doing. So, what are you dabbing to him? What is this? Like a vending machine. God, I know you have one plan, but you know what? I'm throwing in a quarter. Send out a Danish. No, the Danish is not good for you. I don't care. I put in a quarter, send out the Danish. What's this whole deting thing, right? It's almost like there's a machine and you're throwing it and you're pushing it and you're pushing it. What's supposed to happen here? He knows what he's doing. He doesn't know what he's doing. He's like, "Okay, I'll change my mind. Okay, you're a nice boy today. Fine. I'll give you the potato chips. It's going to kill you, but I'll give it to you anyway." What what what's what's the y? It's a good question. No, but these few words it's half of a fella. Of course, everything is perfect of the is that this the the should be felt in the that's the >> asking for awareness. >> Yeah. It should be able to be it should dwell in the consciousness of the finite human being who is living in a world of am of sha nephesh where of course there's identity >> I should be there when the comes out >> yeah we say again >> I should be there comes out of the vending machine when I put >> yeah yeah I should be able to be present that's what he says I should be able to be present to the gilly of colon of Of course in it's as perfect as it gets. You're getting exactly who you are. It's as perfect as it gets. It can't get any more perfect. When the gill of happens, you'll see that every moment was as perfect as it gets. There was a perfect coherence. And it's not because we're delegitimizing and pain and delegitimizing grief and delegitimizing suffering, anybody's suffering. It's because in that space, it's beyond what any intellect can imagine and explain and articulate. And I know that I don't know what I'm saying because the pain of life is so deep and so real that to say this without a lack of sensitivity can be very very difficult because it sounds like oh you're just you know everything is perfect fine yeah right you know what happened in history right we're coming to tishov like you know what happened like what is this a joke everything it's beautiful everything is beautiful all the bloodshed and and violence and children suffering I mean so you need a lot of sensitivity when you talk about this it's Not easily said but the is that this state of oneness this state of coherence should really be able to be manifested viscerally within the human experience in our brains in our hearts in our daily lives the way we are finite human beings who do live with description who do live with identity of course in a world beyond midas beyond ratsen everything is not what it looks And I could get that. I understand. I don't understand that. But I could understand that I don't understand that. >> Yeah. Yeah. >> Yeah. I know to say it in those words is a little intense, but we're not really asking for anything. >> Therefore, everything gets resolved. >> Yeah. We're asking to be able to experience ourselves in the womb and then everything is coherent and resolved. Yeah. >> And that's what the 18 braas are. You'll say, "But one second." But you're asking you want, you want, you want forgiveness, you want health, you want redemption, you want, yeah, you want, you want justice, you want to be eliminated, right? So, so what do you mean? What do you mean? So, it's not perfect. You're asking all these things. So it's not perfect. What do you need Mashiah for? What are you asking for? Mashiach, >> huh? >> That is that is m that is Msiach. This this is Msiah. This gil this experience that's what we're asking for. Of course, we call it gullus. Gullus means why is it gullus? You know the alterba made said that the cats is there's a that the cats of gulus is 1848. The year passed mashia didn't come as we know 1848 mashiah didn't come. So marash was the fourth lab. His name was a son of the youngest son. He asked his father what happened to the cats of that used gave. So what did say was published? So told his father, "We need Mashiach literally, not only but that was answer." What was his answer? That's the cats. Of course, that's the cats. He argued with him. He argued. He said, "You're wrong. That's not That's not That's not what we need." >> So what's that's his idea? when you're asking for. >> Yeah. >> Good question. You're asking somebody to be healthy, right? The person unfortunately is sick. So we of course you're asking you should be healthy. Of course you're asking it should be healthy. They say there was an Indian doctor. He was an Indian was a mystic. So he once met a Jewish boy and he said, "Oh, I haven't seen you in years. How you doing?" Good. How's your uncle? How's your father? We used to be neighbors. He says, "Unfortunately, my uncle is very, very sick." So he says, "Go back to your uncle and tell him he's not sick. He thinks he's sick. There's no such a thing. He's not sick. He thinks he's sick. It's in his mind." A week later, he meets him again. He says, "How's your uncle?" He says, "He thinks he died." I don't want to sound like a freak. You know what I mean? What were you supposed to feel at that point? >> Yeah. Yeah, I understand. Means a person should be healthy. Of course. And that's what we want. We want the person to be healthy. It's not a joke. It's like, oh, yay. It's it's a very das. They're as healthy as they are as they can be. They're as healthy as they can be. They're incredible. They're they're they're Yeah. So you'll say really if this is of you know give me another of right give me another one if this is what it looks like. But that's that's exactly what is sickness. What is sickness? Sickness is the disparity between the real world and the world that we inhabit. The world that we see, the glasses that we see, right? That is what sickness is. The Garra says sickness essentially means the ultimate disparity between the inner and the outer. So essentially is the moment the person is a full manifestation of who they really really are then that's the ultimate health also. That's the ultimate healing also. >> Yeah. Huh? >> Yeah. When the experiences life in the womb of God, it's it's >> it's as blissful as can be. >> Yeah. But we live in a world where that's not the feeling. That's not the experience. There's such disparity. That's what we mean. There's What do you mean there's if it's all in the womb? So there's no but believes that there's right. That's what real gula means. Real goola is the transformation of it all. Let's another few minutes tomorrow. Okay. 8:00. So what's the haz of it's Hashem's for Hashem moving away from a place of no definition no description everything blissful infin in infin infin in >> infinity into a space of identity into a space of of of physicality into a space of description into the granular details of what life looks like in our world. That's what Phil is. So it's his own. He says there should be a there should be a ham. It should be a desire for this particular flow in this particular form. Whether it's money in your bank account, right? or health, physical health, emotional health, health to your child, health to you, health to your spouse, health to your loved ones, etc. But now says [Music] the line starts. But this This change, this swimming of God to move away from one space to another space happens through the person moving away. Why? Because the person is so connected. Our energy is what brings forth his energy. So the second the moving away of Hashem happens through the person. It's the person who does it. That's what really means. means there's something in us that moves away swimming that causes that and in this movement of the person we also have the two of the first is and the second is just like we spoke means two things right words and moving away. Let me explain it by Hashem. It's the moving away from a complete place of atmospho who creates this who triggers this or arouses this you have these two. The first is why and this is what creates the by the main idea of is really an outcry. It's coming from a place of distress. But what's the soul pours out? You say you pour out your soul. Why? Because it's bothered by something. Something is distressing her. Why are you pouring out your soul? Because there's something. There's something distressing you. What's distressing the soul? What's distressing the soul is that it walks in vanity. It walks in heaven and it walks in darkness is in darkness and emptiness so much of the time. So what is really is the cry of the soul. Get me out of a place of impurity. I am too innocent for this. I do not belong in garbage. I am not in a garbage dump. I do not belong here. Get me out of this place. That's really what the cry is. It's a cry of a soul that knows who it is. It's like out. I have nothing to do with this garbage, with this filth. is oh so always comes after then you have a person ought to be means a master of reckoning every night a person experiences means grief of the soul. Like from the word midos is grief of the soul from all actions or words or thoughts that are not aligned with the oneness of hashem from the day of his existence because a sensitive soul is aware of everything. It's in tuned with every it's not a joke. The idea of detachment is not a sign of life. It's a sign of death. Life is attachment. Life is attunement to everything that's going on in me. People who are uh martial art artists for example, they talk about being aware of every move, being aware of your position, being aware of every literally the movement of your body and the movement of the other person's body. That that's what it means to be an embodied person, to be fully fully present, right? When we numb ourselves and detach, that's not presence. So means I'm I'm aware of my thoughts, my words, my my my thoughts, my words, my actions. And that the person became sunk in and drowning means all different types of cravings, anxieties, temptations, distractions. And this is what the person is. so busy with when he goes to sleep and when he wakes up and truth has been forgotten from the tablet of his heart from the tablet of his heart because of his stress and anxiety and the vanities of the time it's like what what now I'm completely reactive to the stress of the moment not aligned and attuned with who I I'm completely attuned only with what I want and what I need. An urgent stress. What's going to feel good at the moment completely alienated from who I am. What I want at the moment externally takes over who I really am. The moment the soul realizes this, there's a deep grief. They turn to me. They're back without presence, without heart. It says in the the more perception, the more da the more pain. So puts in a few words, the more dull, the more the more that you're in in the womb of Hashem, the more d of who what God is, it's not some being in heaven, the more pain in a soul that's been so uh alienated from this truth. Now when you dive and you pour your heart out from the depth of it with you want to surrender back to the place of purity. This is the greatest. The greatest is you move away from the from the animal consciousness which completely blocks who you really are. This is what the is this movement of the person. The quantum leap of the person triggers the same quantum leap in Hashem himself. The person's movement from the world of darkness to the world of causes Hashem to move from the world of into the world of darkness. And it's it's mish that thing you connect. We're the ones who connect it all back together. So, Hashem says, "Ah, ah, Mimal is is is in good shape." He comes into Mimal. When the person moves away from the whole world where the darkness is, where the absence is, where alienation is, which is really the pain, the grief of being so lost, of not being in touch with who I am. That's what is that creates the by Hashem from the pure essence of into the reality of which is vis. So yeah, you shake up the whole world. So once there's what happens the world of the two explanations of is created is established and he explains because then the is the way it should be. What how it should be the soul pours out. The person is moved from the entrenchment. It's from the word tea. You're entrenched like ma a coin minted from the person being minted and entrenched in the mid of the nephah. The easiest thing in the world is to just be on cruise control. I'm just stuck in the midas of the nephas. That's where I am. I'm just I'm just responsing. I'm I'm just responsive. I'm just reactive. It's coping mechanisms to be able to move away from that space into the space of flow into the womb of the divine. I'm not reacting. I'm not in survival mode. I'm in presence mode regulated in the move of Hashem. That's what the nik of is. That move that shift is is is the deepest shift in the world. It's the energetic shift from just being in cruise control, survival, coping, stressed, anxious based on the urgent need of the moment of being completely completely anchored in your essence in the womb of God. And from there you respond. That's the that's the that creates the pouring out of the soulming out of >> No, automatically the nephew Bahamas is completely elevated and regulated. >> You take it with you of course >> in one state when you are a state observer. So you the soul. Yeah. >> If the animal soul is running the show, it can't happen. >> Exactly. >> He's just stressed out. >> He's like, >> "Yeah." Yeah. Of course. >> Of course. >> idiosyncrasy. >> Of course. And now we come to the second meaning which is words. We explained what is moving away. But there's still the second meaning or the first meaning which is words. That's going to be the next piece. We'll continue basm tomorrow morning 8:00. Everybody have an amazing beautiful day. May all your prayers be answered and felt and experienced >> not only in >> it's it's it's completely different understanding. Everybody understands is you're changing God's mind. You're changing and we're saying no everything is perfect. You want to surrender and be able to experience it in your world. >> You say, "Who cares?" Because that's the that's the not came already. Why are we asking for Mashiachi? You can't get better than that. Well, you want a better mashia than what? Do you want a second god? What's your mashia that you're looking for? So you surrender >> that's why the great sadikim they lived in gulus and gula simultaneously because of this they lived in complete gula but they were completely completely sensitive to gulos you understand >> huh >> you can actually be in the state of by actually acknleding Of course. >> Huh? >> Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. >> The person who can touch these spaces is in a place of gula. >> But that's not the real thing. Just to say I'm in a space of gula. So let the whole world jump into the you know let the whole world go. >> That's not that's not that's not the reality. >> Then you then you detach from the truth and you detach from the purpose. That's why so important. Why is so important? Everything is good. God knows what he's doing. Let him run his world. Go sit and do whatever you want. But that's not there's a partnership here. >> So that's one one I didn't understand when you said >> is grief. Yeah. >> Opposite that state should be so elevated. What's the >> midus is very important >> because we we don't get out of we the way out of pain is through pain. If if if if we bypass that >> you can't bypass that's the midas >> the midus is really acknowledging >> but ultimately should be >> you're right there's that's the only place there's tremendous there's there's tremendous bliss but for that bliss to be real the person has to be able to acknowledge the grief of being misunderstood the one of the deepest pains in life is being misunderstood and the worst is not only being misunderstood by others you misunderstanding yourself. When a person doesn't know who they are, they think their soul is dirty. They're corrupt. They're cheap. They're they're they're they're selling out. They're sellouts. They're just nush lepers, parasites, whatever it is. >> Yeah. And the moment you realize this something to do with me, how do I even come in there? It's a it's completely below me. There needs to then be a grief. Wow. I misunderstood myself for so many years. >> That's the >> That's the midas. is >> yeah. >> Yeah. Yeah. Then has a real >> and then that's the and then there's then you move away. So now you make a decision. Am I going to continue to live there? Am I going to continue to define myself in that space? I'm going to continue to be this survival uh mechanism machine just searching for the next uh next person I could flirt with to get some fast uh attention or whatever the nephas is looking for. And I'm done. I'm done with this. I'm not living for this anymore. I'm done. >> This can be turned into sweetness ultimately. >> Yeah. >> This miridus is the is the is the it's the foundation of all the joy in the world because it's acknowledging exactly what I have been touching and therefore I know what I don't want to touch anymore. >> But ultimately become sweet. Yeah, ultimately ultimately the the the greatest light comes from the darkness, of course. But it's dark. That's the point >> you're asking. >> There's no bypassing, you know, whenever whenever whenever these experiences come with bypassing. They're not real. They're not authentic. >> Yeah. There's never bypassing ever. We we we've learned to bypass because we don't trust how powerful the real process is. When you know how powerful and real the real process is, you don't have to bypass anything. The moment anybody calls for bypassing, it's because there's something they're not they're not looking at. >> Truth. Yeah. They're not touching the full truth. In real truth, you don't bypass. That's how it is. That's how you know it's true. By the way, you know something is true when they don't bypass anything. The moment we don't look the moment you don't deal with certain stuff, why? Why not? because you're afraid that you know if I look too much boom the sheer is going to explode in real thing in real real truth everything everything everything could be looked at and if you need to grieve you grieve you need to grieve it's a very very powerful idea people think midos it's like negative it's like negative it's bad let's focus on the joy it is focusing on the joy it's focusing on real joy on joy that brings together all your parts >> you understand >> if you don't bring together all your parts Then it's not going to be that real joy. It's going to be cutting down amputate amputation.