Likkutei Torah Al Ken #4: When You Challenge One Thought of Misalignment

[Music] Good morning everybody. Sorry for my delay. Today's shir is dedicated by Dr. Miriam Gross Leu Nishmas in loving memory of her dear father Mosha Ben Yakov Mosha Benyakov in honor of his yard site today on the 15th day of Tamos which is also the yard site of the he was the only survivor from his family after the second world war and went on and merited to build a beautiful large family with children, grandchildren and great-grandchildren. Today is and may his soul continue to be an eternal source of empowerment and inspiration for the entire family and all of our people. Thank you very very much. Amen. [Music] So we are in middle of the right. We're holding page 129. paras on top it says it's page 129 in the Hebrew it's s column 2 column 2 and we're in the middle of the page the line starts by mama middle of the page probably like 20 25 lines from the topn starts Okay, [Music] you see the line column two, the line starts in the middle of the page. So after the long explanation after the explanation but this is all a very intricate buildup with alterba began to discuss inif the first chapter the whole musk the whole concept of and sha and as explained at length in the previous classes and then in peric bay the second chapter of the he begins to go in and says this is ne is all when we're talking about the realm of what's called then there's something what's called ofal and then there's the whole that he gave about what of kalman is and embodies before creation and after creation where mila and ma are sha and the idea there is as he explained that he's in heaven and in earth [Music] and it's kadeshimar meaning it remains completely kadesh while in heaven and in earth and just as it's kadesh from it's also kadesh from and therefore it's also kadeshim like we as we say in he explained at length what that means and uh the idea that doesn't mean like some people might think that it's above and above we explained yesterday at length doesn't mean above spatially graphically obviously nobody thinks that I mean even if somebody thinks that that's not what he's coming to negate but rather that it's above meaning in concept that it's above that it remains infinite it remains in its bleness in its that's not the of is he puts it [Music] It's [Music] and it remains as we explained at length. It's in it's more mal than mal because it's its infinity in includes and encompasses everything. Everything is there. Everything is there as part of which means as the metaphor that's brought in and many we're not going to get into it but just I'm gonna mention it. You know we always say that the world is the world is the words of Hashem. It's the the creation is the words. These words words don't begin once they leave your mouth. Words words begin inside of you. But where are they inside of you? They're subsumed inside of you. When somebody is thinking about an idea, the words are there. They're just not articulated yet. They're still in a more uh subtle state, in a more nebulous state, right? But the words come from thoughts deeper when the emotion is there. The words are also there, but they're completely subsumed. They're they're they're part of the emotion. They're some they're pregnant somewhere there, and you don't even notice them. They're there. They're there in a way more intense because they're connected with their source. And if you go to the original idea before the emotion, the words are also there. And if you go to the subconscious of the emotions and the thoughts that the words are also there. That's where their real power is. They just don't have a separate identity or a distinct identity. Once they leave your mouth, suddenly they're tangible or separate things. In the case of the world, the words never left the source. They never left. So the words so every aspect of the world you could see from the perspective of malam and in which it's tangible and which there's some form of grasp again deeper and deeper and deeper and deeper but then there's the same word is there it's not that the word is not there the word is there but the way the word is there is that it's completely encompassed and subsumed in infinity that's the [Music] main point we brought out last time the end of the class the whole is what really means not like people think of just means everything is just obliterated and gone and and and and nullified because so it's just non-changeable and just this static infinity that we have not grasped in the real depth of this what is bringing out is that is more mal than what do we mean more mala than malam meaning it's everything but not with any defined description without the properties of finitness. It's it's it's it's all an expression of the soi includes change also and even the change is we're not afraid we're not afraid of change it includes the body it includes individuation also it includes finitness real infinity that has to infinity that that excludes limits and finites is is also not infinite doesn't exclude anything means even in the shi even in in in growth and change and and individual situation that's also of that's the that's the huh [Music] >> soal is the way it's experienced from a postum perspective alum in other words it's grasped as a finite reality it's isolated yeah there's different levels there's a madrega you could be on a high level you could be on a low level there's my there's mata there's man and there's muk there's different spaces different times Right? There's realo the the praise the the as he says the sh goes deeper and deeper and deeper in because it's based on the grasp of the nra based on his caleb. So that's the way the in the is the way the words left the way the you can you as you would experience words once they left the source and here you have a word and it's contained right and that's what you're experiencing you can experience all of life of that and that's and it's as he said is deeper it's deeper what's is always more and more and more and more depends on how refined you are depends on how how much energy you can experience that's all in the realm of mala in other words it's experiencing life from the perspective of the kali from the perspective of the nra in which there is identity as a separate or as a at least as a defined reality okay depends which level you the way it's in a higher world the way the way it's in this world in this world it's gamif right that's how a malama comes in a higher world it's not gashifredish. It's not gasham. It's not it's not mish but uh but it's still ara it's a created being that grasps according to its capacity according to its brain according to its consciousness and that's what it's filtered. You don't say that it's that very reality is completely subsumed. So in every in every anyud is the way it's mal the way it's now why are you even talking about mamal because that's your experience that's not a mistake mali is our experience mal we're we're finite beings mal is that experience and that's important because that's briam created that experience called malic right there's a cup a container and the is limited according to that container that's what hashem wanted that the divor should come out of him and be perceived as though it left the a so to speak. [Music] Some an interesting thing uh last that came to me yesterday after the um uh there's two this and this is from the bump right it's sayings from the bump somebody wants to have a an olive based entrance into the world of the is the like with sayings of the bump it's not his tav that he said be that he wrote before his passing it's different sayings that he said over his life and it's called savasar [Music] is how does he start off he starts off from the word usually means I have placed it's from it's from chapter 16 so but literally it means I have placed hashem before me constantly that's what David says hashem is before me the bashm says from the word when hashem is everything is bash everything is equal everything is bash meaning there's no such a thing I'm having a bad day I'm having an ail no this is it in a way there's no higher and lower there's no this was this was great moment this was a horrible moment no that's all the ego ego taking over hijacking the moment I wow Wow, this was a successful meeting. This was an unsuccessful meeting. This was a great conversation. This was a miserable conversation. I'm feeling on top of the world. I'm feeling on bottom of the world. Yeah. Like we learned, there's a there's a uniformity. There's an equinimity. What's the word? >> Not equidistance. Uh >> anybody here knows uh English? >> Equinimity. >> Equinimity, I think it's called. Okay. You you look it up. This you can also find on Google. Not only the speed of the sun. Um [Music] there's an equinimity mean there's a there's a uniformity. There's a there's a there's a a thread that permeates all of life. When you know Hashem so the is not such a what do you mean it's not? Maybe there, but it's all when Hashem is in front of you, it's all there's all there's purpose in it. >> Equinimity refers to a state of mental calmness. >> Mental calmness. >> Very good. Equinimity is mental calmness and composure. That's the boss's point. That's called >> Huh? >> And evenness of temper. Yeah. >> Especially in difficult situations. Okay. Not so bad. Okay. Got it. >> You see, for him, he's going to interpretation. For me it says evenness of mind. >> Very good. Evenness of mind. So what's the that's really the idea of sh the ide the idea of shi is that there's a certain state of oneness that permeates the person even in the alias and the vicissitudes of life and the says sometimes great things happen sometimes challenging things happens. It's why that's the opening of the opening of the is he says [Music] that's the blood the title page that was written by the alterba himself the bal that the whole purpose of the is to explain how can say about [Music] it's close to you it's it's relevant to you it's part of you not only with your mouth but with your heart in your heart and for this comes the whole to understand the buildup of a whole human being is the which we always talk about different states of consciousness and understanding who you are once you know about your neph kiss and it's a game changer for all of that to understand what is what mitzvah is and so on and so forth. There was once a is the birthday of the and they were both born. It's also the yard of the Maharal of Prague who was the alt of the alterb was a seventh generation of the Maharal you know that seventh generation of the moral. So his yard is also huh? Yeah. So the the the was born. They called it 1698. Heyas and Alba was born 1745. Tofu obviously a few decades later. Kahass. So they called it Kahas tuf. 1745. Mash was born 1698. Both kay. So [Music] spoke a lot about the so one of the I think it's 1982 I have to thank Rabbi Pinson do Pinson I heard him talk about it in one of podcast theb asked the contrasted the opening of the two and brought out how they're mamish opposites the opening of the two seem like opposite messages in The safer basically life is not a process. It's an experience. It's an event. And every moment is that experience is the event. Every moment is the you're every moment simply speaking you're in the best place you can be. That's what means means right now you're in the best place you can ever be. Why? summit or in the language of the BM of so right here right now in this situation you can't get any better it may it may not feel always that way we know that it may be a different type of experience but it means in essentially the way you should look at it is there's no such a thing right this is horrible this is miserable it's it's it's it's it's not happening this is it it can't get any better why because Hashem the negi summit this time this faced this situation. I I'm at oil. Okay. He Yeah. Much of Lutan of Breast is is very much, you know, encouraging. You're in the dumps. Okay. The is also there. Don't worry. Right there. And it's the encouragement that the BMP really tries to articulate that wherever you are, you're on a it's a journey. It's fully purposeful. And if this is this place, this is the situation, this is the destination, there's no you you don't want to be anywhere else. My wife had a grandmother, so she once asked her, she was an older woman, which which period in her life was the best period of her life. Like does she wish she was a teenager and et so she said very beautifully she said when right now is the best period of my life and always felt that way whichever age I am that's the best period of my life. The opening of said is it's already there's a there's a path there's a long path there's a short path it's a process you have to get from one place to another place when you're on a dedic you don't say oh I'm here you you're traveling to California you're traveling to tool you're traveling wherever you're traveling I'm here no you're not here you have to go to the airport you have to go through security good luck you have to stay online you have to get your seat you have to everybody understands a is a whole different situation. That's the definition of a and says it's not so there's a there's a I have to explain how it works and is a buildup that way many ways the is saying this right here huh >> every minute is the destination >> it's your destination is also your destination right what do they say the journey is the destination every step of the journey this is exactly it okay next minute is not saying you should stay here next minute is another desk but it's always you're always at your destination it's not a process it's an event and it's a different yeah so asks it's completely two different I want to rephrase the question essentially the is talking about and is talking about right of means there's no mile you're not in a low what do you mean why in a low [Music] So it's not it's not it's not it's you was talking about of course what what do you mean yesterday I was uninspired today I'm trying to get inspired right yesterday I made some bad mistakes today I want to remain normal [Music] No, of course it's a journey and I'm in a different places. I'm dealing with blockages and so forth. To put it in different words in English, what does she what does shi really mean? What if I have a bunch of blockages? So the bash says, "Yeah, God is over there too, but do I open up these blockages or I just say God is here and I rely on it and I trust it? So the said that it's not a was and that's what we're learning here what of really means of can be bypassing you could understand it enough as a form of bypassing and the bypassing is yeah everything is so it's perfect perfect you're dealing with a real blockage you know that like you can't feel you're numb you're frozen you're detached you're alienated you're anxious you're overwhelmed Well, so what does really mean? Is it just words or is it experiential? Is it experiential? The wanted to be a gallala was for sure there's a d but every moment of the that itself is the destination when you could see that the process itself has in it the ultimate truth of kalman. The process itself is not divorced from the destination. So in other words the whole contrast that we make between process and event between something that takes time it's a d it's a path and just everything is perfect that contrast we can go to a deeper place and say that in every step of the way one can appreciate the fact that this is the ultimate relationship and the ultimate connection right here at this moment. So what shi is of course it's but what does that shi mean? Shi doesn't have to look the same. Real shi could look very different. Now I'm on the bottom of the mountain and I'm dealing with this and this is where it's all supposed to be and now I'm in middle of the mountain and I'm on top of the mountain. Shi doesn't mean that I'm just like the flat. You know when you see in the hospital a heart that's flat. You know what that means? Yeah. You know what shvisi could mean? [Music] Yeah. In other words, that's like beautiful. I get it. So, so what does that mean? So, I never I never ever change. Is that really is that really what a person is? You never ever change. So, obviously that's not what the bump means. Even doesn't mean you'd never change. He means that in all the changes of life, there's an element of there's an element of connection. What does that really though mean? What do we do with all of the changes with all of the fluctuations with all of the vicissitudes with all of the with all the is that excluded from it? So it's not too separate inal is more malam than mal. It's not afraid of individuation. It doesn't amputate the separateness. It doesn't uh it doesn't defy and afraid of ch change. I'm afraid of change. No change. It's a continuum. >> It's a continuum of the is so real that it could be. It's not aish not to change if you don't change. It's a kadesh not to change if we do change. You heard what I just said. I know you cannot. You know some people say I don't change. Yeah. Somebody went yeshiva was let he said me and God don't change. Gavaldic he he and God are both serval you know when people say I don't change sorry take me or leave me you know men when they're in their best psychological uh equinomity equinimity or the opposite of it like I don't change this is who I am you like me you like me you don't like me you don't like me this is who I am that's not exactly a display of confidence it's a display of terrible terrible fear why don't you change why not the whole the whole the whole planet changes every second you're the only when it doesn't change. Like the guy who told his wife, "I never make mistakes." She said, "Never." He says, "Once I made a mistake." She says, "What happened?" "I thought I made a mistake." [Music] That was his biggest mistake. No, he thought he made a mistake. Yeah. Without this could sound very uh off. I mean, I don't mean to be irreverent. Yeah. We understand what it means. I never changed. I'm eternal. But when what does that mean in a means the real is even in the changes of doesn't deny that Hashem created a world doesn't have to have a problem with creation. That's the that it's not in every it's the way the is the way it is every so you say but it's not true this is not this is not what does the cup look like pre-creation I understand my eyes are a malle eyes my eyes contain things and therefore for me a cup is a cup that's what it is that's the whole of that The world assumes an identity of again that itself has endless levels what means right there's the cup the way it's there's a cup in there's a cup in and there's a cup in [Music] it says a tap an apple right exists in also what is it it's not the apple that I know the green red apple but the of the apple the energy of the apple doesn't begin in an apple tree it begins in the seed of the apple and over there already doesn't look like an apple. In the sea, the apple already doesn't look like an apple. So if you go to the seed of the seed like we learned in the m there's no grass down here says so the world learns there's some spiritual force that strikes on the and says grow. What is explaining is no, the masle of the asv means the asv's energy in a in in a higher incarnation doesn't look like an asv but it is it's the same thing and the a the grass is communicating with it that's the secret of nature it's communi nature is communicating with something all of nature that's why it knows what to do it's it's it's crazy intelligence that the grass has I don't know today they know trees go to sleep at night apparently They communicate with each other. Huh? >> You don't need to divorce from your perspective. You actually need to deepen your perspective. >> So yeah. So so that means that it's not really separate things when we say in other words what does you the real is not negation of mamali. It's fusion. You don't divorce from any perspective. If you have to divorce from your perspective, then it you you're putting you're doing you're doing the mistake of what's the mistake you're making it. It's like sorry you stay around. You can't come inside alf. Pun intended. You're a mk at stay in your hakas. You could you could be around. No problem. Around would mean you're above. When I'm ready to come to you, you'll welcome me. I get it. You're always here. You're not running away. But whenever you do that whenever you negate it from anything that's the mistake of it's not it's not it's not permeating when it's really it could be and in the same way why because it's not only from it's from Shamay also just like it's not defined by the physical so it's not defined by the spiritual it's not nitfas even through so it can be innash and it's not nitfas meaning it's not defined and reduced to that perspective. That's the idea. It it it it fills every perspective but it's not reduced to it. It doesn't become shaped by it and therefore limited by it. It remains in its pure infinity. So everything is reexperienced from a perspective and from an experience of an every experience of life and that's the real shi that's why so it doesn't negate the is the manifestation of that it's even deeper real means that within the the journeys and the vicissitudes of the shi because then you could really be present If not, I can't really be present. Right? Sometimes the the could create the worst chaos in the world. The opposite of it's like, oh, why don't I have a if I would have a if I would know, why am I having such a bad day? Why am I having such difficult emotion? Oh, okay. I'm not having a bad day. I am having a wonderful day. Boom. And then your anger explodes or implodes. No, you're not having a wonderful day. You're miserable. The the ability to hold space for everything is more ins of kalman because it can hold space without becoming that without reducing itself to that, without becoming swallowed up in the experience. >> Yeah. >> To appreciate that every single So yeah, malic also means Hashem fills the worlds. But the idea of malikal here is that he fills the worlds but based on the experience of where the person is based on the consciousness and the mind and the receptacle based on the kali and a greater kali opens itself up to much more. So that's very very valuable because that is the individuation of every single kali and experiencing the flow according to it. The is that when the kali surrenders its parameters and boundaries right there right that moment there's a oneness with pure infinity which transcends any experience in any >> kal. Yeah. It's very it's it's it's very emotional and and and and and a huh >> it's extremely intense. Yeah. And it requires a very very profound um component of surrender. In other words, the moment I'm going with means any form of let me grasp this, you know, let me own this to a certain degree I own. I don't mean I own it in a controlling way. That's not mal. just kipa Malcolm you don't own but but but you you you hold on to it you know what I mean it's grasp it's somewhat graspable and it's supposed to be that that's its function [Music] what was the last point we learned this we're not going to continue now he says for this we'll appreciate come back to the beginning the purpose why the nama came into this world which from a perspective of you have to ask it was an unbelievably blissful place and it couldn't get better. It's not like it was missing something. It had complete vacus with Hashem. What else do you want to give somebody? So you take it away from that just to bring it back to that. Why? [Music] >> Oh, that's what is going to explain. Very good. So let's see. The main of and init to access to to open ourselves up that it should be revealed. This means the core of of the light of infinity which is noted al it's not in the realm of alman and therefore it's not in the realm of concealment as we explained before al means hell concealment and even the highest levels of is always but is not bigger than it should dwell and and and and nest and be revealed. So he says and that itself should be which sounds like a contradiction and in a way that the almond don't conceal it. All the conceal this light because it's filtered. It has to be restricted. The king is behind the walls. Then is within the g and that's your access. Your access is through the container through the helm. If not, you wouldn't be able to be. So that's the definition of mal. It fills all the concealments. But it's in a way of it's in a way of hell. And that's why it could be that's why it could fill it. That's why it could be integrated because it goes through tremendous restriction. When of emerges and it's what's it remains completely aloof what do we mean aloof? remains in its pure a it doesn't go through all the restrictions and before him like darkness like light the light and the darkness are just all so then there's no hester of the almond and this gill of only happens through mitzvah by the mitzvah and the act the actionfilled mitzvah the pract the the physical mitzvah that we do in this world is and for this came into the corporal body and this is the purpose of the which the did not have pre coming into this place and making this insane descent what do you mean that was the premise before you're born the soul stood before God and basked in the radiance of the Shina. So there's nothing better. What was it missing? As we said, sprinkle cake. What are you giving it now? It's in the best situation. Thehat is also [Music] remember it's ganed. It's pre-coming into a gof. So it's a space where the kali is refined and it channels that's what it is. So in the sense of pleasure and bliss it's it's awesome. Yet we're calling it [Music] the is worth it in order to touch the truth the truth vas the true connection which is [Music] What's why why just like he's saying it's in the lowest place also in the highest place right you say there's no ma fine there's also no milo so it's in my [Music] we know has two dimensions right there's two tracks literally things you to engage in, embrace, say, doain. [Music] Is to bring down holiness and to make powerful to make goodness triumph like we say in every before mitzvah. He was he sanctified us through the mitzvah. meaning there's a there's a a holiness that you access and you bring in you bring you you become part of a flow of holiness that flows down here into this what's the opposite not to be to create a boundary to separate negativity from goodness that should not latch on and have an means to hold on to kadush. So basically one is fixing the leaks right you can have a beautiful home and everything is good but there's leaks leaks right other people are getting energy and we know what happens like everybody knows in a relationship right the relationship says what's in the beginning so says has two interpretations one is you're designated to me like it's it's mt it's designated and one is hectish is forbidden for everybody. belongs to the Bikdash right that's what is saying his definition of one is that there's kadusha now you're in a flow of kadusha kadush in your life but that's not enough there could be leaks negative parasitic false forces can come in and and and hijack things take energy so that's mitzvah it's creating a fortress a boundary not to allow negativity in your life whatever that looks like that's what every mitzvah says whether it's in words, words I abstain from, actions I abstain from, thoughts I abstain from, relationships I abstain from, activities I abstain from, etc. [Music] >> Huh. [Music] >> We'll see. One second. One second. >> If you do, there's aime of Zoya. It says in says when means the other side unholiness is subdued means subdued from the word like when it's subdued what happens means the glory of Hashem is departs extends goes up and extends but common in all of the worlds. It looks like as an innocent statement of the that when so the glory of Hashem is the word means like when the goes up meaning it goes up and it goes through all the worlds the says let's understand what the say why if was subdued so you subdued it's okay beautiful thing you didn't let it come into the door how exactly does the glory of God extend to all the words. So here this zy really contains the whole the way unravels dissect the words of the we have a principle it's from that everything in the world is every every force has a counterforce every energy has a counter energy that's how made the Just like there are chambers of holiness there are of and all goodness and all holy thoughts, holy words, holy actions. mitzvah their energy comes from that source. It's like a flow. It's a flow from that source. There's also there's other called of chambers of impurity and from there come the for for any thought word behavior that is detached that is broken that is not aligned with the source. It's like of now with person decides where to put in the plug. We're always plugging in. Fore! Foreign! Foreign! Now a person has to choose. I'm always plugging in. Where am I plugging in? There's energy. There's a lot of energy in the world. Where you plugging in? Where you getting from? We can even understand this in a very very practical way. People are getting energy. Everybody needs energy, right? Your car needs gas and you need gas. But which gas station do you go to? What type of fuel do you fill up? 87 8 what what are the choices? Huh? >> Okay. So over there hopefully even the lowest level the lowest grade doesn't kill your car. But a person seeks energy. Everybody seeks energy. Our bodies look for energy. That's called hunger. You're hungry. You're thirsty right? You need something. Your your your body is saying I need to be replenished. That's how that's how we are created biologically. Every tree knows it. Every animal know it. Every insect knows it. Give me my water. Give me my food. The soul also everyone needs gas. We need energy. What's your source of energy? What's vivifying you? This is a very conscious choice. He says a person is making a conscious choice. You're plugging in your body, your mind, your soul to which plug? What electricity force are you plugging into? So says a person is when a person accepts on themselves the mitzvah like the says like an ox with a yoke and a donkey with a burden. In other words, I say this is what I want to carry. this is what I want to carry in my life. So my kios and my kum come from the of and from there even come all your physical all your physical needs they're all plugged into that because it's not just about spirituality the way I eat the way I work the way I make money the way I exercise whatever the way I go fix my car I'm going to the bank it's all when it's part of the consciousness of divinity as he says sham to serve hashem so it's all plugged into that source of kadusha everything is coming from kusha you drinking a coffee could be coming from kadusha your exercise could be coming from kadusha You're going on a walk or on a hike becoming. You're sitting with your child playing a game. It's becoming from kadusha. Whatever it is. Why? Because it's done with an intent of serving Hashem. It's all part of that oneness. So that's the of kadusha you're plugging into and that's where you're getting your energy from. It's your thoughts. It's your words. It's your that's what I I go into. He says if you're looking for you're looking for separateness [Music] you're looking for in other words just what feels good at the moment it's not plugged into the oneness of life into your own oneness like we always talk about I'm looking for distractions what feels good at the moment because I need gas everybody needs gas >> or it could be a distraction also yeah whatever distraction it So then the person could get at that moment from the which which are the source of of all things that are that are that are that are disconnected. And he gives an example for example. You have makavazarus. A person is diff different alien thoughts coming from different types of cravings, intense proclivities which are not defined, which are not aligned with the source. So that's where I'm plugging into. And I'm going to get some energy. They have they have some energy. I can get some sometimes you can even get much faster and much easier. You know, it's like a microwave oven. They make it fast. They make it easy. They charge also much less. It's it's a nice it's there's advantages to that gas station. It's close. They're available everywhere. Such a amazing paradigm as a gas station because the number which is 87 or 93 really represents the the resistance to detonation. So 87 detonates faster than 93. So when you have you not to get anger too quick to combust. >> Nice. >> So you're good. [Music] Clippers. But even when you're talking about you have a chamber known as but it's means translucent. There's still light and that is the source of cravings that are permissible. But there's no there's no divine intent. [Music] of this is known as the way it's in the world of that's the source of ty meaning it it it feeds all the cravings that are permissible in this world where there is a little to because there's still a little refinement it's called no because it's not forbidden and therefore it's all redeemable but the person is in a state of kalishious I'm in a state of weakness of disassociation so it's like a fast fix but it's not ty is a fast fix a person eats and they're just you know you're not in the right mindset so you're just it's called fessing it's but the person is disconnected they're not they're not in that's called tyet it's not it could be redeemed it could be elevated this is called kipos that's the source of tyeta tyeta doesn't only mean cravings it can also mean all different things that a person goes into a state of mind that's not forbidden. It's permissible, but they're not connected. Ah, >> really? Interesting. Yeah. No, you can have, for example, anx a person is in a state of anxiety. A person is is overwhelmed. The person is anxious. Fear. What does that mean? It it's not a judgment. And it's just a person knowing that they're now plugging in to a space where they're not fully connected. Then you have chambers that's known as gimmel. Three impure clip is lower than clip. From there come tyus is things that are absolutely forbidden which means anything that has an a branch of an is not m could be a rabbitic prohibition a biblical prohibition it's also there's a for that since a person is the only one in the world that has agency so therefore he's the only one that really makes decisions that matter in him is totally everything changing reality happens through the person. Everything else is just following a program. They're following a program. They're just following they're living out their genes. They're living out the program that was embedded in them, that was installed in them, and they just live it out. So, it's like just following a routine. The Adam has agency. The is plugged into the source. So, he says him is totally everything. What does that mean? The moment a person it's interesting speaks about higher higher higher when it comes to he becomes so granular and specific and you'll see this is all in the whole of the so here you see what I was saying before that the of the he wants to bring in to literally every moment of life when a person has a z what's a maze Let's let's bring it down to English because it's not such an abstract thing doesn't just mean I'm dinging and I start thinking about the fact that I have an appointment at this and I'm going to be late and therefore let me finish dinging fast and this minion is going too slow and this is a and therefore whatever means any that's taking away the person from their divine self and their oneness with Hashem Yeah, that's so for example, if a person is is in a conversation with their child or not in a conversation with their child and you're experiencing makava that Zara, what do you mean? What does it mean zor? It's alien to who you really really are at your source. At your core, you want attachment. You want connection. This makov is taking you away from connection. A person is having a conversation or an encounter with their spouse or with anybody else and there's a maka that comes in and the makavah says shut down run away alienate yourself or it's ava of anger or frustration what does the person do the person takes this and the person finds the mechanism to be able to put it in its place to say I'm not going to go down that rabbit hole you're here I get it, but you're not going to take over my life. And you take your DS away from it. You don't let them hijack your DS. Das is the Vegas, the whole system inside that allows awareness to come into emotion, right? When your vagus nerve and your nervous system, which integrates into the body, you take your weird new DAS away from it. Or I can give my das to it. that could say, "Yeah, you build it up even more and you find justifications and then an hour later you're just completely uh done with them for eternity." Remember, you're plugged in. So what happens now is when you did this in your own system was just in your own system. But what happens is the sitra the chambers of clipus which is the source of this makov they're all subdued you like create a ruckus like all of them are like whoa whoa whoa whoa whoa whoa we were just rejected they're all suddenly in a defensive mode they're all like ducking and wondering what's happening there's like somebody you know it's like Iran is suddenly attacked and all theum over there all theum are running around are running around by the way I don't know if you know stam it's interesting I don't know why I just came into my hand. What was revealed was I heard an interview with Ar on and he said, you know, he's in the in the in the cabinet, the small cabinet that decides the war strategy. So he said an incredible thing that uh when the the the Israeli pilots flew to Iran, the whole thing had to be secret secretive. But one of he says one of our friends meaning neighboring countries who are supposed to be our friends tweeted the Iranians that the Israelis are coming before which basically eliminated the power of shock and surprise, you know, preemptive strike because now they would have time to prepare their uh their response, their retaliation, their revenge. And that was Sakonos. And they realized that the Iranians got note of the attack prematurely. This is the middle of the night. The Zian civ it started 3:00 in the morning. So this is on the way there. What is it? Probably a 2-hour flight to Iran. It's 1,700 kilometers. It's a long flight. It's not a 5-minute flight. You know, it's a long flight. You're dealing here. You're going over airspace of other countries. You're coming into Iran. You understand the delicacy, the sensitivity. And he says they were all up in the middle of the night. the prime minister and him and the other Kevra were all up and it was like wow we cannot afford to start this war off on a leg on the left leg because like it was the the fear of their retaliation you Iran is not a small army you're talking about one of the most powerful armies in the Middle East and the bullies of the world you know the real terrorists of the world yeah very good so he says it was a it was a crazy dread what's going to happen and indeed that all the the top the top military uh commanders or generals and nuclear scientists left their homes hearing this in order to figure out what to do. And he says and what happened and they all came to one place. So may from this horrible horrible situation they all came to one place to convene and they can all be killed with one bomb. >> Why did they come there? >> To to what do you do? >> Yeah. >> You know why they came there? a special message. [Music] >> Right. >> Huh. >> It was from India but it was sold to companies in India. >> Right. >> Right. Right. Right. >> Yeah. In any case, why am I saying this? Oh yeah. So, so, so all the when the person makes this choice to be from a certain what happens says all the of the from where these makabas are coming they're all challenged they're all shaken up because suddenly they're all here to give you a flow and you're rejecting you're you're you're fighting back you're you're pushing back so the source of these makas So what happens here? We come to something that happens. The the glory of Hashem extends to all of the world's almond is referring to everything that's connected to almond. Even the of why You remember we explained before like the melik sits in his concealed by the so even the of kadush are called what's chambers sanctuaries they all have walls they all have confinements even the highest worlds of kadusha conceal the gilly of that the gill should not be so intense only through a garment and a concealment of the that's why it's called which means concealment that's means from the word to contain is a chamber that contains those who are in the chamber. So when you speak about that's part of the [Music] when you take on the lowest concealment meaning the way it comes into this world you have is the way it's in higher worlds over there it's not so concealed but the way it comes down here you have you take that on it completely conceals You take on the chambers of clippers from which the comes that's against which is the lowest form of concealment. Now when you push away this thought so what did you just do? You basically pierced through. You broke through this clipper. You penetrated this clipper which was concealing. What was it concealing? That the light of God inside of you is not felt by you. And you puncture it. What happens? You have to realize what happens. You puncture reality on every level. Every gets punctured. So the whole game of alman is gone. You just broke the code. You literally just broke the code. What happens? Only one thing happens. Is gone. Take a look. says what's as we said before in all the worlds meaning even in the highest there should be no more that's why it says the word is the opposite means histoal somebody passes away we say histoalic what does histoalic mean goes up he says that's the vert cuz it's not it's the it's the gill of which is always it's always exalted it's always in a state of his doesn't mean it's not herealus means even when it's here >> it's not only here it's never only here it's in a state of remos it's here it's fully here but it's not only here it's not reduced to here it's not defined by here. That's and this can only happen through down here in this body in this world in the animal soul. Whenever you want to pick up when they have to move homes. So you want to pick up the home. So you have to start from the lowest floor of the house and then the whole structure. So when the person challenges and breaks through this of the body through which he tears the veil of which conceals. So through this theal is exalted and revealed in all the worlds. What does this mean? This exaltedness. It shouldn't be any more enclosed and concealed in the world which conceal the light of but through this gilly there's no concealment. How does the person do this? The says that is the rope of his inheritance. Take a rope. If you have a rope that's connected from the highest floor all the way to the lowest, what happens? You shake it on the bottom. You sway it. The entire rope all the way to the top. Also sways like a ripple effect. It goes all the way. You can't shake the rope on the bottom and not expect not to be movement all the way on top. Every strata, every level of the rope shakes mista based on what happens lamata. Even though you only had access to the lowest level of the rope and this rope may stretch for miles and miles and miles. In this case, it stretches billions, trillions, zillions of miles. How does that happen? It has a ripple effect all the way on the top. when the person's divine spark is aroused to go out of the container of the of the brutess of that physical corporal craving or emotion or thought which wants to take the person away from their will be triggered all the way up on every single level to puncture the concealment and therefore And therefore, what's the conclusion of this? Do not be upset. Do not get into depression. Do not become despondent from the fact that you're dealing with all different types of thoughts fall into your head. So we can prove to you that you're illegitimate, that you're bad, you're no, don't don't go there. You're missing the point. Realize this is an opportunity. Know what you have to do. Don't get demoralized and let it prove to you how bad you are. No. Understand this is a gift. Understand now you have a choice. You can master the situation. You could say, "No, I will not let you take over. push them to the side. Take away your das from them. Now, what does it mean? Take away your das from them. What does that mean? People sometimes think, what does it mean? Guilt yourself. Shame yourself. What a sick man I am. What a sick person I am. Look how sick I am. I have such a I'm not going there. Oh, great. Or you could think is no, it's impossible that I'm feeling this. I'm for sure not feeling this. It's for sure. No, I'm not feeling it. It's not true. It's a I'm I'm not such a lowly, miserable, dretched uh or whatever the right word is. It's for sure I'm not feeling this. So now you're arguing with what you're feeling. You're arguing. I'm not feeling it. That's not none of this is called means you're putting your D somewhere else. That's what doesn't mean I push you away and I repress you and I make believe you don't exist or I'm busy blaming myself because you do exist means you take your das and you choose where to put it. That's what it means. It's very very different as he says through means take away means put it becomes etched like right you say this to to to put a peg to put a nail into the into the ground or into a wall means taking your and being a putting it somewhere. Yeah. harnessing it, putting it somewhere. Yeah. In the words of what happens now is through this above is subdued. No, what happens now? So the glory of meaning is it goes up. What does it mean? It goes up. It gets the exaltedness of it gets revealed in all of the worlds. And even in the high in the highest worlds in the highest worlds of there's a verse from the BMP my son Mendle showed me once it's and it just came into me you could understand what it means now says that sometimes the whole avoid of a person is to deal with one to deal with one thought sometimes that's the whole avoid of the person that's the now you would think what's the big fail. It's a thought. But here you see what that means. Because what's the idea here? The idea here is that all the systems of all the worlds are pre-programmed. It's the way God had us design. The only one who can actually create transformation is the person because we have agency. We have we're plugged into the source which also has like says inv that man reflects God in the sense that there's agency this choice and that choice is happening every single moment. It's where I'm placing myself. It's what I'm facilitating. It's what's being channeled through me. So what happens now is any makav that comes into me any emotion that comes into me any desire to say certain words or do certain behaviors I'm making a choice whether to accept it and put my das into it register it internalize it embrace it and let it now run the next hour of my life or the next 20 minutes of my life or the next five minutes of my life or I'm saying no you don't deserve to get my das you're there You're there. I get it. You're there. You have a message. You have a fear. You're overwhelmed. You're anxious. You have a craving. You have a void. You need gas. There's something you're looking for. I get it. But my das is it's intimacy. It's connection. What am I going to connect to? I'm going to I'm going to take that away. take my das away and plug it in to a different aspect of me as he calls it. It seems like a very innocent, right? And it's constantly happening. It's happening 24/7. And if you don't realize it's happening, then that's a problem because then it's happening without you making choices, but it's happening constantly. It's before any conversation. It's before you start ding. It's any any anything we're involved in. It's even before going to the bathroom. What state of mind I am? What self is is is governing this relationship? Which part of me is present to this moment to this encounter? Which part of me? Or in the words of this m what am I plugging into? What energy am I channeling? So you make that choice. It's a very innocent thing. So says no realize what's happening for this. and a shama came down into the world because it's from here that you can go from to why because remember in all the other worlds in within was everything is good things are beautiful God fills the world so there's no problem the ka are filled with godliness so why should you break walls why should you crack things why do you want to crack things. Everything is beautiful. You have a nice house. Why do you have to break the walls? You know, when you break down the walls of the house, when there's mold, when there's uh what's in the walls of the houses that you have to huh asbestous, there's poison. Now, you got to break the walls. They're crumbling walls. There's now you have to break the walls in. Why should you break down walls? It's beautiful walls. It's takal. But I don't know that it's first of all it's nice and even if I do know it's comfortable but suddenly in this world it's not so paret here the concealment is h here the walls are so powerful they completely eclipse godliness to the point that they can completely derail me. So now a person here is challenged to crack the egg like we said yesterday to crack the walls and that's a choice right now. I'm overtaken by a makov and the makova tells me get angry get angry get angry scream or the makova says freeze freeze numb detach alienate yourself go into this conversation do this lie exaggerate deceive slander gossip whatever it is everyone in their own way go into a place of overwhelmed anxiety fear dread attack Fight, flight, freeze, fawn. Everybody knows your reactions to different situations. But the common denominator is my the inner light of God, my infinity is not calling the shots. Now I am frightened. I am overwhelmed. I am stressed. Which is fine. That's what the animal soul is. It's stressed. It's frightened. It's overwhelmed. And you're now making a choice. So I can go into that space and the of clip all get excited all the all the shrutzum come to life good we have another carbon and they channel it and they there's they always have access they always have gas you want more anger here we'll give you a little more anger oh you need another piece of k here we'll give you a little more you need more they always have there's always access there's never there's never you know uh uh out of order it's never out of order and there's never a shortage because the more they the more they give you the more they get they It's replenishing because they cuz a person is the so they get they get much more. They actually give you they give you also discounts always there's discounts. You can get like a hundred for $1. It's a because the more they give the more they get cuz you come back tomorrow you come back tomorrow. Every time you come you're bringing your divine soul. So you're actually feeding them tremendously. Or the person could stop that leak. Like he said mitzvah you stop the leak. No. I go into their of so now what happens that whole heel goes crazy the scaff is over there crazy what did you really do you punctured the wall you punctured the helm you said I there's a code here I cracked the code this can only happen in this world in other worlds it's too spiritually comfortable in this world you have to choose either you die or you become cynical or you become depressed or you become numb or you're empty and living a tortured empty fake life or you crack the code, but you have to crack. You have to look at the concealment and say, "You're not as real as you say you are. I know you're hiding something. I know I'm in a bad mood. I'm overwhelmed. I'm afraid. Okay, I get it. I know that my in instinctive reactions is to run or to attack, but there's something deeper deeper deeper." You crack the you crack the your rope is somehow interconnected to everything to the highest levels of so suddenly on every level all the walls come crumbling down all the walls come crumbling down what happens so that's not doesn't have to be created is reality it's just in the world of mal I'm protecting myself suddenly you stop protecting yourself so on Every level the helm comes down and there's the gill of every level of which is which is which is container even of it's a it comes crumbling down and there's the stallic and that's histoalic which is because this ghill is always because it's never only here as you said it's always exalted because it's a so it's always exalted even when it's here it's exalted Because it's not here on the terms of finitness. It's here on the terms of infinity and you could feel you could feel it a little when you do this work. I don't know if I could say but you could really you could feel something of this. You feel how faithful it is when you do it. You feel there there's a real result that happens. It's not a joke. So when the bash says sometimes the whole is dealing with one mak yeah yeah that makava say what's the big deal I'm just a little small guy grappling with some internal thing no first of all you're not such a small guy and this makava you're grappling with on this hinges a lot a lot of it is is hinged on this [Music] >> yeah the what the world >> very good pirates Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. >> It's also why it's an ine [Music] true true or lie. In the higher world it's called MS. There's no lie. It may be a different level of truth, but it's not a lie. That's why it's comfortable. This world creates such discomfort because either you're living in truth or you're living in a lie. here is where we even if it's certainly if it's so there's a book she says that it's interesting it's a book that has this if you deal with anything first you need to understand is it true and sometimes we answer that it's true but Are you sure it's absolute true? And that's the And then if you show if you know it's absolute true most of the people don't at that point they realize it's not absolute true. Now the the third step is how do you feel with this with this thought with original philosopher thought and now what would you do if you replace that thought with something which is you know that's the >> so you're actually replacing the nr >> right >> with right right >> process [Music] >> yeah basically when This makov is coming into me. Alterb says you're now confronted with the ultimate concealment of malic in this world. I'm separate. I'm lonely. I'm broken. And that's what I'm confronted with right now. This thought, this instinct, this emotion. Thought here means the whole gamut of internal experiences. A thought, an instinct, an emotion, a craving, right? And what does it look like? It could be a temptation. It could be a temptation. Could be a craving for flirting with the wrong person, right? It could be a craving for eating something which is really not for me. It could be a craving for entering into a conversation which is negat. It's not a it's not aligned. It's not who I really am. It's not the truth of reality. But it's it's feeding something. It could be being overwhelmed by fear by going into that place of anxiety, of absolute anxious. Of course, also guilt, shame, jealousy, hatred, negative competitiveness. All all this whole gamut of of of animosity. >> Yeah. Even guilt even even even religious spiritual guilt. But that sense of guilt and self-loathing and self-shame of how horrible I am and hopeless I am worthless I am at the core. It's at the core. These makavas are not even necessarily conscious. They're just like they're just there. Right? He's calling it makshova. Don't just think like it's a thought that I decided to think about. Makasha just means it's an energy. It's it's an energy that's very very deep there because it's a product of concealment >> and something you reacted to. >> Yeah. And it may be embedded in my program for 52 years or whatever the right number is everybody can apply >> that means already 53. Huh? >> Opening up >> of what? Yeah. We spoke in the previous moment, right? Yeah. Even in kadushi says it's was in but it was it's how much you eat and the from that is on a lower lower level the but even in its source it's very similar. Yeah. Very similar idea. The only place where you're challenged to break the kali is in this world in ganed. It's a nice k. It's a beautiful home. Why would you want to break it? So the nish is of course >> but the deep knows that is not is not in gan is everywhere but in ganed you could remain you can afford to remain in the egg. The chicken is very comfortable in the egg. It's a big nice egg. There's beautiful stuff going on in the egg. Watch you come out of the egg. Inhaz the concealment is too deep. The egg is stifling. Either you crack it open or you die. That's what happens to the chick. The egg becomes a gem. In this world it becomes a gem. The egg the is a gem. It's clipper [Music] either I crack open. I really crack open. And only is only one way to crack open. How do you crack open? Malakama is God's system. How do you tak crack open? If we're all >> break the code, if we're all taken and concealment, it is concealed. The world is a gashim. I didn't do that. All these programs inside of me are products of creation. That's so important to understand. That's why there's no guilt here. The moment you do this with guilt, that's feeding the clipper more than anything else. That's exactly what it needs. Oh, you're so guilty that you don't do this. What a horrible person. I'm a good go down that lane. It's a great lane to be in. Just go down that lane. Yeah. Learn more and feel more guilty. And and the more you learn, the more you're feeding the clipper because the more guilty you are. This is where learning itself becomes the greatest tool of sit. I don't mean to sound so uh irreverent, but it's the truth. It's a unhel. >> No, no. Sometimes it it because it's it the foundation is is the foundation is you need to justify yourself from your horrible horrible dirt and filth. So the person needs to realize this is no this is all the design. That's why he says alipo what's his conclusion? What's the whole conclusion of this vart? Don't get depressed that you have makavazar. Why not >> here? >> Cuz because that that's what that's what came down for to have makavazar. Of course there were no masharas in ganed. There was nothing to break. But there's a big distinction between saying this and then saying celebrate. Right? This is where people just take what they want to take. Everything is suddenly God becomes your clipper. That's that's that's where the the the distortion becomes very deep distortion. That shi means that clip is also God. You have a ta of course it's God. You're cheating it's also God. The bos says, "Whoa, whoa, whoa, whoa. It's not what the bos says." And the reason doesn't say because it's fake. It's a lie. It's not true. That's not what shi means. And it's not even what the It's not even what you really want. You're running away from your truth. Shi means that the clip is designed in order for you to be able to do your avoid. That's what it means. Don't run away from don't get depressed for the makazar came down to deal with it not to worship it and to surrender to the fakeness and become one big that's not the >> don't stop acknowledging >> yeah exactly acknowledge embrace the opportunity appreciate the gift have empathy for the process but go through that process realize what's at stake it's not to go more into kip it's to reveal of kalan it's a very very important distinction A lot of people make that mistake when they go to these places right away becomes everything is and this >> they go through one step instead of four >> they go to one step and they don't realize that their trauma takes over their healing. You understand? When your trauma takes over your healing and your healing becomes part of feeding your trauma, it's a disaster because now you become completely completely now you're drunk because you think you're healing. As long as you know fine, I'm a tortured soul. Huh? >> Actually did that too. >> Huh? You're such a part of the process. That's part of >> So that's part of their process. But I'm saying it because at some point >> it's part of the process to to work through it to work to >> huh >> maybe that's the process where they are right now. But that's it. You usually usually the sim you see is when people start playing games with when they start playing games with it's like I know the source of so what do I need it for like it says about he said you know I'm smarter than the system huh >> all these things all these things it's it's not >> right >> yeah even shopv for example example, he was a smart man and Nathan from Gaza was smart. They knew Kabala and so forth. But the moment they tampered with you right away knew this is already an ego game and therefore it's going to be very disappointing. Huh? >> He So he saidim, yeah. So he saidim >> we he ate on tishov then. Yeah. He was born on tishab. That's why they called him. He was born on tishabove. They called him Shabsi because he was born on Shabas which was it says in Mashia was born on whatever my point here is when he says it's very very important I want to now emphasize the opposite that the guilt and the shame that happens with people dealing with stuff is completely not understanding that this is the whole that is left Ganed it left Vus it didn't leave Vus just to come back to Vus your hat nothing better. That's why one's introduces the holing of which is not there's there's exists from the highest levels to the lowest levels and in every level it's another of that was the whole and then of so now he says now understand what happens when the nama comes into the goof it goes away from what in the world can be the purpose of taking the nishama away from the veas only one thing to take it out of the paradigm of mamala which is vus to the place of kalman which is a whole different it's also but it's a whole different type of dus because it's completely one with the source in which there's no separateness anymore remember all separateness can only be in male and even there it's not really separate but it's separateness the way it's conceived through the kal of the person why can that happen only in this world because only in this world do you have to crack walls you have to break walls because you are dealing with you're dealing with helm you're dealing with concealment whatever that concealment looks like here the example is the whole mitzvah institution only exists here because the wants to latch on to you so you have to create a boundary what does that mean in a person's life that any energetic moment when you're being hijacked by that animal consciousness that says here here I'm giving you something remember it's giving you gas it's giving you something every energetic experience we're having is giving giving us something. It's not in a vacuum. It's helping you survive. Even guilt, even shame, even jealousy, even anger, even hatred, even anxiety, it's a gas. It's a form of energy. It's low frequency energy, but it's energy. The gas is has a lot of huh lead, >> a lot of lead in it, but it's it's some form of energy. Anger gives you some energy. It does. It makes you feel better than people, whatever. Righteous, I don't know. You're the rash. I'm the sadic. Anxiety certainly protects you, keeps you vigilant, keeps you normal. You don't say the wrong things, right? You're going to be respected when you have anxiety, whatever. It's it it's giving me some form of energy. Hatred certainly gives a lot of energy. I mean, the whole Islamic world, our hatred gives him a lot of energy. Huh. >> Fueling it up. >> It fuels. All these things fuel. These are and they have a lot. They have a lot to be mashia in this world. I get to challenge that. How can I challenge that? How could I? There's only one way with mamal. I can't do it because mamal I am in the container. It's concealed. Godliness is concealed. There's there's a kali. It's concealed. There's clipper here. Gashim. What do I have to I have to find what does look like? That'si what's is surrender your darkness and say I know you feel dark but I know that inside of you there's the truth of anoid mulvada don't argue with it but surrender that and it's really that that's the don't with mali I'm not going to win I can't because it's really concealed it's really you understand it's really concealed so what's the only way to do it. You have to crack crack the code and suddenly you see the whole code is just a code. It was a it was a code written by someone. It was a code written by somebody. I'm the stupid one who's buying into the code when I'm really connected to the one who made the code. The moment you realize that, you're a free person. We're products of the code. So we think we're products of the code and we can't think out of that. That energy that I'm experiencing, that negative energy is a product of the code. That's when God Yeah. He conceals himself in the clip. What does cracking it look like? Cracking it means no, you were written. It's very hard because the code screams, "No, no, no, no. I'm reality. I'm real." You're not reality. You were written by reality. You're a part of reality. Your whole reality is that I shouldn't take you seriously. That's your reality. That's why you were written. You were written so I shouldn't take you seriously. The quote says, "You're crazy. You're going to be left with nothing. This is this is this is it." And this is where the person the person goes to a deeper deeper place of truth. Means no. Everything right now is ain't I want you to feel this in your bones cuz when you're feeling that guilt and shame, it's very hard to go here. the the the inner you relate to what I'm saying how hard it is. The energy says you're worthless. We know the truth. Learn another thousand my mimm. You're a worthless worthless wretched person at your core. And it has a list of 5,000 sins you did which everybody knows. It Googles it up right away. Remember the clip is always artificial intelligence. It's ahead of you like by a thousand miles because it's trying to survive. So it's like very intelligent and it brings up every mistake you ever made in your life to prove that you're wretched. You're a despicable Malik Mashkab and it has it on the tips of its finger. Okay. Sh. And it's all part of this code. It's even exhausting to talk about it. >> Huh? Like as I'm saying it, I'm I hear it saying to me, you don't even believe what you're saying. You don't even believe. That's that's how powerful it is. You understand? Huh? >> I actually believe what you're saying. >> You believe, but I don't. That's the problem. It's telling me you don't even believe what you're saying. >> I actually have a proof in the physical world that it's also the same thing because you describe it from the level of the level of It's the same thing because we have we have energy and we have dark energy. Dark energy actually repels. But that's one of the reasons the universe expands. Right. >> Right. Dark energy. >> So it's up to you to cleave to this and dark energy is there. You want it or not. >> Either you cleave to the energy or to the dark energy. >> It's there. Yeah. You know >> the white fire and the black fire. Yeah. Leavon and you ch you choose the energy. And he says the only person could make that and when the person chooses the energy by confronting the lowest level of concealment which is so okay. So you crack the egg right here. He says no [Music] you everything is so so on every level of the rope you crack the code. Boom boom boom boom. It's like you puncture everything and everybody's like what just happened? What just happened? >> The thing is the only reason >> and suddenly in all the all the what code just came out oh we cracked the code save means that right now right here you're you're in the most amazing perfect place. You're completely embraced and permeated with divine oneness and infinity. You're the most beautiful gorgeous amaz the clip is like laughing. Sure you believe this? actually has ability to grab this robe of truth >> that's comes into the right I think the tit because somehow he knows that by holding on to asov as is going to pull them you know you hold on to somebody and they're they're moving and you're going to get carried by them somehow through asov Yakov is going uh be slept up. As will be will be slept up. So it's like when you pick up the building, you go all the way to the bottom as he says. So we're on the bottom and when you lift that up, the whole building now goes up. Even on the highest level of almond which means almond which is it's all but it's so on every level the code gets cracked and the emerges in its full glory which is of and that's in all the world even And and this happens when the goes into the to the to the of the where there's [Music] and that's why he started the whole of right that's mitzvah essay is the kadoo bringing in the kadusha says being maf and in that that being maf from the that's where the nama touches of so it gives a tremendous to a person's life you see the the power here is speaks about such big abstract things of and this but of it it's as it's as granular and uh and contemporary and relevant as it gets there's nothing more relevant than throughout a person's day and night. You know, when we're we find ourselves being dragged away emotionally, intellectually, uh our nervous system is being dragged into all different types of experiences and emotions. And it can happen in an instance. It's an instant. You know, it's taking that pause, being present, and asking yourself, is this what where I want to be plugged into because I'm going to be channeling energy now? It's energy. Everything takes mental energy. Thinking is energy and feeling is energy. It it it takes energy. Is this where I want to be plugged into? Is this what I want to channel now? And real be being mindful of this 24/7. Being present to what's happening 24/7. It's really it's a presence of mind constantly. It's it's remaining neutral. It's like you're really neutral like you're choosing. I'm not just being slept down the highway because everybody else is going down that highway. I was in the airport once with my wife and there was a crazy line by security. Somehow I thought that at the end of the of the floor of the at the end of that floor there's another security line but a little walk. So I went there. We went there and there was no line there. Mish no line. It was easy. So my wife says look look how interesting it is. Why is everybody here in this line? Because everybody else is in this line. People come into the airport. If everybody is in line, they assume this is the line to be. No, you're not going to get through here. But that's how our system is. If everybody does this, it must be right. No. Sometimes they're all being whatever. Yeah. Sheep doesn't mean it's right. Maybe they're wrong. Even within ourselves, I did it yesterday. I always do it. Yeah. It's how I always do it. No. Why? Challenge it. Be fully fully present. It's an energetic shift in consciousness. [Music] I don't care if the I don't need you to understand anything I'm saying. Go ahead. Only one. And by the way, I should just say to the email that I wrote to somebody uh this morning or yesterday, this also it has to do with selfrespect. Now you'll ask me where in the world is of self, it's the opposite. That's not self. It's the ultimate self-respect. If Kalalan means higher, higher, higher, then it's not self-respect. Just don't nullify yourself. If Kalman is more real than Mamali, it's the ultimate self-respect. It's self-respect that you have all the answers cuz you're infinite. Not he's infinite. Not she. You're infinite. That's what it means. You're you're that one. You're the guy. You're the person. You're the man. You're the woman. You are it. Not in an arrogant way. That's stupidity. In a very very of you're the most powerful and the most humble person simultaneously. You're the most powerful person because you're a you're the most humble person because it got nothing to do with you. Absolutely nothing to do with you. With all due respect, you're the most powerful guy in the world, but it got nothing to do with you. And the moment you want to own that, you're finished. You're not the most power. You're you're then you're another loser among many. I mean, we're all among In other words, the moment you hijack it from Hashem, it's done. [Music] >> Exactly. [Music] that doesn't know who I am. That's why it needs to brag. Infinity is fine. It's good. I'm good. I'm really good. So, so it's real self-respect really means appreciating this like a person needs to know their energy field. It's really knowing your energy field. When he says you're either plugged into this, plug into that, there's a difference. And the only one who's going to know live in is you. Nobody else will know because for what one person is actually lash for another person is kipa. One person could be eating this food, right? When my wife eats chocolate, it's sham. When I eat chocolate, I'm not going to finish the sentence. It's different. You have to know who you are. One person, it's Shabas. The other person, it's different type of you have to know. One person, this is Shamay. The other person, no. This is a distraction. How does that work? I don't know. You have to know. You have to know. This is where you know your energy field and you know I'm plugging into this, I'm plugging into that. Yo, what's your question? [Music] relative to maybe not so amazing. Why would why would you go from expressed in other words? [Music] Why create this whole lie and pain. [Music] >> It's a beautiful question. What do you have to create a world with with mala and concealments and then send in a shama down to break through the code and be mala of and experience that vus you could have created the world without any concealments of and have that vas with an answer this question >> it's a beautiful beautiful question And if we're phrasing the question as a why, I'm not going to be able to answer it because as I told you many times, the why is part of what was created. So the why will always have another why and another why and another why and another why. And even if somebody can answer that why, it's it's it's it's a fallacy because it means basically that logic precedes God. You understand? So God is fitting into somebody's why. So that's why the whole the spill is a very very limited one. And it's good in the world of philosophy. It's fine and it serves a purpose. But ultimately it's uh it leaves the soul dry. The is always says means that the deepest force is the force of love and love means a relationship. Love is I love you. And love you means that there's you. And the real love means that we choose each other. And the only way you could choose love and choose trust is if you can also unchoose it. >> Right? People don't appreciate the fact you can only choose something if you also are given the choice to choose the opposite. You know, we often want people to have choice, but we don't really want them to have choice. Like choice only if you choose what I say, right? No, that's not what choice is like. Learn from God. Choice means choice. Choice. I uh the marriage therapist once told me that there was a couple who came and uh and the wife was complaining terribly that the her husband shared that he had makavas. He saw somebody. He saw another woman and he was uh he was very taken and he was excited but he was loyal. So he shared it with his he shared it with his wife cuz he's a good husband. I happen to know him also. So he uh he was uh he was uh you know he shared his wife became this his betrayal and her marriage was falling apart and the therapist said he he said to the wife I'm not discussing if it was wise what he said what he did I'm just tell you what he said he said actually no you should realize that your marriage is so much more powerful because you realize what your husband did he actually chose you he actually chose you. He re He's actually choosing you right now. Do you realize that? >> Huh? >> He's actually because it's not like he's robotically instinctively programmed only to see you. No, he sees others. There's attraction, there's excitement, there's infatuation, whatever it is. And then he's making a conscious choice. I want you. There's a V from the Badich. You know the V? who the says classic the kaj brings it I think I don't remember somewhere the kajamag brings that he heard from or in his name they were both students of the mag it says hashem says whenever I remember your sins I'm always going to remember the ketagel so the is that whenever I remember your sins and I punish you there's always going to be a little bit of the kagel says really really there's never forgiveness like like for the next 300 million years whenever you sin let's add it to the scale it's so yeah come on I mean at some point like can there be a reconciliation like no I'll always remember that you are minute a person makes mistakes that's so you say I need to be proven a little more fine but at some point no beyond You know, he listen to this. Whenever you sin, I'm going to remember the I'm going to remember the fact that >> Huh? >> Because you did it because of because it was already preceded. So, it's not such a big thing. But yeah, by the way, I'm going to remember the fact that you're you're you're not robots. Actually, it proves that you had you're choosing me. You're choosing me. Theel proved 40 days after Matra it was they could fall. And that means when they don't fall, it's a choice. It's not like they're programmed that they don't. No, they have choices and they have to choose. So in every sin, I'm going to remember that. I'm going to what theel showed on the contrary to celebrate the relationship the fact that there's a real relationship here a real relationship means you choose so when it comes to this in right the ability to be able to choose trust the only way you can choose trust is that you have to choose it that means there's another choice you could choose not to trust that's a choice we make and you know what it's a very real choice because in this world you could choose not to trust You could choose not to surrender. You could choose to say, "You know what? These are nice, Titus. I'm going to make it work behind my walls. I'm going to stay in my walls and I'm going to make it work. I don't think it's a wise choice. I think it's a torturous choice, but you could make that choice." We all know you could make that choice. Why is that important? Because it means that you have to choose to trust. And the choice to trust is the only thing we can give back to the source. [Music] the infinity. I don't give back to the source. I didn't create it. I'm just channeling it. The only thing I can bring into the relationship is the choice to trust it. That's the only thing we have. And that can only come from separateness. You understand? In pre-creation, there's no separateness. There's no choice. It's very Yeah, you're right. It's all there. It's beautiful. The only thing I bring into this relationship is that I chose it. Which means I could have not chosen it. Which means there's a separateness that I need to uh transcend that I need to work through and say despite this, I'm choosing trust. I could go otherwise. I could plug myself into kipa and get my kay. It works. How how long it works. It doesn't work forever. It doesn't really work, but it it it it looks like it works until I get a new plug. You keep on changing the plug. So that's the or in the lush of the mimer, we're the ones who break through the clipper. You break it. It's it's not by nature. By nature there is a there is a helm and then of course you own the relationship. It's a different type of now you say why does God need this? Why? So you wouldn't have this. So it's a good question. But somehow the relationship is deeper than everything, deeper than all the cycle in the world. Somehow the the the love, the attachment is more than anything. That's why that's why the deepest word the deepest of yiddeshkite is love and attachment. That's where it is because that's deeper than everything. It's the heart. It's the attachment. It's the dus. That's why that's what we need more than anything else. That's what we want. more than anything else. That's why we need to give more than anything else and that's what we're running away more than anything else because because that's where it is. We intellectualize things because over there there's less attachment. But really that's the code. That's the code because in okay you can ask this, you can ask this really somehow it seems intellectual things. >> Okay. If it's if it's part of the direct fine that's that's why you see you know when when you if you go deeper deeper deeper deeper right what does it all boil down to it all boils down to one thing I believe in you and I want to be attached to you and somehow Hashem says there's nothing that matters more than this attachment nothing. And that it should be yours. It should be yours. It shouldn't just be mine. I could program you to be attached. No, it should be real attachment which means it's me attached with you. What does it mean? I'm not attached with you. You're me. So I'm attached with me. No, I'm attached with you. That's only because of separateness. This is where the separateness plays as much as an important role as the oneness because that's what creates the you. If not I'm not attached with you, I'm attached with me. Means I'm attached with you. Why? Where are you? You. You're not you. You're me. You're no. You're separate. You're choosing to be. What? Because yeah, because of all of this. And somehow that relationship of two separate things that become one and not really one. And once they become one, they realize they were never separate even in their separateness. Like for this everything else is worth worth. So you say really this this world is an insane place. Already been insane for almost 6,000 years and every day gets more insane. It's not like the originality of our world is like whoa. 6,000 years in the scale. >> So what's 6,000 years in the scale of but somehow all of it Yeah. is is redeemed and significant for this for this relationship? That means this relationship is so emotionally powerful. It is so infinitely powerful. It's so blissfully, it's so infinitely blissful that somehow it can justify and I'm not saying intellectually but experientially experientially not intellectually but experientially it somehow forgives, justifies and redeems existence. It's emotional stuff. It's emotional stuff. You could see this mime as an intellectual mime but it's like all the myim it's very far from intellectual. >> Yeah. >> Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. >> Also very important we is not pushing something away. It's focusing whereas belongs. It's so important. People think means repression or guilt or shame like don't think about make believe it doesn't exist. That's not >> writ. [Music] So that's the idea that means you take your das you're choosing. Of course it's here and you're going to be here and you're going to pop in again. It's like pop-ups on the computer, you know, popup, popup, popup. The question is, do you click on the popup and now you get already entangled and now you go to next next next next and an hour later who knows which website you're on. Or you say, "Okay, you came up. Now it's time to X." But what? It's not just Xing. Xinging Xing, right? I'm I'm involved in something. My D is involved in something. >> Huh? >> Yeah. Yeah. And bring your Das into the space that you want to be in. I'm going to plug in the I'm going to plug in to get energy from a different source, the source of Kadusha and channel that. Okay, everybody have a beautiful day. Shabas. So I told you I'm traveling on Sunday for a week and a half to Georgia and Israel. Ah >> Caucus Mountains >> near Russia, South Russia. >> Love it. >> And then from there is so next week there won't be but the week after I'm going to be back on should be back Monday night. So there'll be a share next the week after mis at the end of the week. Yeah, we'll announce it. Wilson >> understandi and >> you understood >> first. Well, I answered a little bit. Huh? You bound to pick