Likkutei Torah Al Ken #1: Are You Always Fighting Time? Here is the Solution

This may the alterb said on shabas parishion shabas was balik together the 12th of tamuz which later became would be 1807. How many years ago is that? So 118 years ago and no 218 years ago 218 years ago the mime begins on one of the in paras it's one of thoseim you know it's very easy to gloss over it's part of the poetry part of the what the would say let me give the context he begins Let me just give the context so you'll understand. In uh in the end of parishes towards the end of paras we have the story of the war of Maliki against the Jewish people who was one of the most powerful kings of the time comes to war against the Jewish people and the Jews are triumphant that's a story in Pares and um the PK describes how once belonged to Mayav. It used to belong to Mayav which was a different territory and a different kingdom. And then there was a war between and the king of Mayav and uh Sikh conquered the territory of Mav and it became part of his of his territory. So now when the Jewish people conquered Sikh and they got really the territory that once belonged to Mayav. Okay. Kazal says it's important to mention because essentially there was a mitzvah you're not supposed to siege and conquer anything from so really they wouldn't be allowed to take this territory but since it was already it became cleansed through since conquered it already so it was like it was transferred it was transferred was the mikvah was the cleansing that the Jewish people could take it because from they were allowed to have territory was he came to war and they took they were they won the war and they took his territory but then the ta does something unusual. It starts doing a whole poetry a whole poetic it starts waxing uh eloquently with poetry about that original war between and And it starts quoting poets of the timel therefore because this is how explains it because of this story which story that once upon a time there was a war between so from the word those who give parables those who speak with parables and poetry and the the the poet laurates of the time they said come tob in other words they told don't worry go fight was the main city that was the capital and that's what owned so they told the mushlim said to to the king go in you'll be successful say that it was bum they rented bum then and bum was the one who told them the city and the empire of is going to be built and it's going to be established will be successful don't be afraid of going into the territory of May even though they were powerful. And he continues because a fire came out of a flame came out from the from the from the capital of and it ate up the cities of those who mastered the great platforms and of of the of the place called it's basically a beautiful beautiful wording of how successful was with the territories of MV. That's the that's impartial. That's where the begins. On this in the fifth sees this whole piece as a metaphor for life. Where does the Gmorrah come to do this? So Rashi explains beautifully. Rashi says when you read it in the you realize there's something off here. You're talking about a war that happened between sik and it has nothing to do with the Jewish story. So if you want to just mention there was such a war in order to explain how the Jews you want to for history purposes you want to explain how the Jews could conquer. But why are you now giving me a whole poem about the war between here? Yeah. For example, in paras you have also they did a whole sh that's about a story that happened to them. You have later you'll have in paras the whole all the poetry of Balok of bum that's connected to the Jewish people here it's like you'll start talking about some war that happened that wasn't gay to the Jewish people it's neaya to know what the poet said then about that war that is only an introduction to explain to you how they conquer it so that ai says that's Why? It's an interesting says in the literal meaning is that when fought the first king of May and took his country said that he'll do it. You can do it and you'll be successful. But it's superfluous. What do you need it for? Interesting. If it's to tell me why they could take because it once belonged to already said it says earlier in the he fought with the first king of and took this land. What do you need this whole? So Kazal understood that wrote it. It was aliphat was talking about that war but he was trying to give a whole other message. What's the is the is what the is going to be focused on send the name of the son of send in the name of means the rulers. Who are the rulers? They rule their own. They have control. People who have real self-control. Yeah. What do they say? What do they say? They always say what's you need to make the calculations for the world. That's what they say. Alaim the rule. They say from the word a calculation not a city called come let's calculate the calculations of the world like you say it's time to make a whichb of the world what's the so the says every time you feel that you're losing something because you're doing a mitzvah and you would gain something if you do a sin and make a hman calculate the pros and the cons you know the gains and the losses the revenue and what you had to the deficit there's a mitzvah you feel like you're losing something from doing a mitzvah whatever it is fun excitement time money energy resources and they're always making these and then they say what's he says if you do this if you do this this is saying you'll be built in this world and establish in the next world. What's is a young donkey? It's a young donkey word. This is with a but means a conversation. If you look like a young dunkey which follows nice conversation because it says that young dunkeys if you just you don't have to force it. If you just know how to speak in a certain way it comes over. So if you're going to be like an ay and you follow any nice conversation anything charming and interesting you follow it pulls you in then what's going to happen then? So those who are of a fire is going to come out from them and it's going to eat up those who are not of and a flame will come out from the who are called means they're plants. They're they're trees that grow. This flame is going to eat up the which is again the ay the donkey who follows every nice conversation. It's going to eat him up. are the arrogant people. This is the you could look it up all these is saying an ethical unethical interpretation. So says to understand all of this to understand what is what what are we talking about? Who are these? What's this the of the world? What's this idea of fire comes out? I mean, you read the it's what's called some people just read it fast. Yeah, whatever. It's saying some nice things. But a is as serious as it's just as a different different genre. What is what is the whole message here? What's going on there? That's the first thing. Understand something else. The gum says this is a shabas. You remember this from second grade? Huh? What did this do to you? Huh? Whoever answers with all of his power, they tear up. Literally, it means if there's a decree against this person for 70 years, a decree of 70 years, like a a sentence of 70 years, it gets ripped up. When you say with all your with means with all your strength, with all your base, it's brought in where he speaks about and it's sourced in Why does he bring the before? First you bring the then you bring the so I think that in g something is missing over there. Could you give me a m shabas? I saw somebody foot somebody gives a footnote. You see a shabas over there should first bring the gum and then the brings first the and then the gum test. Yeah. Yeah. It doesn't say there's 70 years. It says in obviously the tour had a gear say 70 years because the Torah says it's from the gam but I'm just showing you the why does it say first should say the first because the quote here is not from the gamar the gum that we have doesn't say 70 years it says if a person has a tear it up doesn't say even 70 years the quotes the gor and the says Sh obviously there was a different version of the gamarra the gamarra is a manuscript so the different text right sometimes there's different gear in gamarra so that's why he brings the because he wants to not only bring out the gazard he wants to bring out 70 years we'll see why the 70 years is important later in the m so I'm just saying you should see the here and even in the mak that the wrote that he put first the because when said 70 years he wanted to make sure that you have a source for that you understand what I'm saying it's easy to gloss over these things but Everything is so what's the idea here? What does it mean to say? What's its power? Why does it tear up a din of of of of of a person? And why 70 years? Why not 60 years? Why not 100 years? Why not 80 years? What's the 70 years? So you could say it says, right? Right. But obviously and what's the connection to okay so these are these are this is how the m begins and begins the of course so first you have to be mock the whole of why the what's the coming into the body you always go back all All the way to the beginning. Always to the beginning. Blank slate. Let's rethink everything. Let's take it all apart and go back to the beginning. What's it all about? Right. Don't get into the Don't just get me into the details here. This go back to the beginning. What do you say? which we know the descent of the into the goof is aid but it's it's for the sake of an aliyah of an ascent. In other words, both are important. You have to to appreciate you also have to appreciate the when you say it means two things. First of all, you have to acknowledge that there's a serious and then you could come to an idea that it's because if I don't acknowledge that it's a I also will never reach. If I'm just bypassing the I'm not in touch with Ali. I'm saying this because you could just say it's fine. We'll work it out. No, it's a and causes a challenge. It causes grief. But the then could bring you to an aliyah. But what is this aliyah? What is this experience that the reaches? What's the question? It's not like the previously was in some lowly state and as a result of its journey in the body. It reaches a beautiful state. Where was it before? It was amazing. It was it was in the loftiest state standing in the conscious presence of like says so explained this I stood it represents the pre coming into this world where it was completely fun of in the presence of the divine and from that space a space of absolute bliss and absolute oneness and absolute connection with godliness. It comes down and the word here is p means with a in other words it's a stupendous it's not a relative descent it's a descent that is quantum it's like a quantum leap it's not a gradual descent it's p means in some wondrous and stupendous and extraordinary way how far it goes down to become manifested and camouflaged in physical material in a in a very lowly world. So two things means in an enc casement of a goof of physical material and in on a world which is and now if somebody never touched what their in looks like they can't even appreciate this and that is what theid that that is the in other words the is that so many people wouldn't even relate to that that's the that's the right the biggest is that I don't know it's a yid the moment I know it's a yid is It's already a different type of yid. There's already a contrast. You can already ask a question. What's it for? The real the real descent of the nish is that I don't know it's a yid. The nishama comes down to such a place it doesn't even know how many people touch the frequency of the soul the way it was before it came into the body. Part of the is that my whole nish is now identifiable only in terms of what I see about it. Now, it's like you go on a journey and you become so connected to that destination that all of the properties of that destination attach themselves to me to the fact that I don't even know there's anything outside of that. That's who I am. And that's the biggest yida. The biggest yid is I don't even recognize the purity, the depth of my soul. And it's not anybody's fault that the soul it's such a successful descent. It's so successful that it doesn't only come into a place. It assumes all of those garments to the point that I start looking at myself and all I see are the garments. I don't even know that there's anything else inside. That's how powerful this lavush is. With a suit, you know that you put on a suit, you can take off your suit, you can change your suit, you could etc. But here it's not just malubish as two things in malubish. It becomes mamish one to the point that I may not even know that there's something outside of it. And that's so so important because in life I need to know who I really am. You know who I really really am. Not who I become as a result of the journey and then I can't distinguish anymore between the camouflaging the uniform and the essence. And here the uniform is not a physical uniform. It's a psyche. It's the whole identity that the person develops as a result of this interaction. But says the moment you know about this soul, you know that this is a serious you know just that itself to appreciate and have compassion for the depth of this descent of what it means. And then when the soul departs from the body, the spirit will return to the god who who gave it who imbued it into the body. Meaning it comes back to its source and its roots. So you're leaving just to come back. So what's the point? What do you have to leave home just to come back home? Asaist Milo what's the great advantage in this you did when you're just going back to where you came from stay there everybody had a good time it wasn't like it was a miserable home so you ran away from the house and then one day you make peace and you come back it was an amazing space so you detach it from there completely it goes through whatever it goes through and as I said the biggest thing that goes through is that it doesn't know who it is and sometimes a person could live their entire life and never touch the true frequency of their soul the true energy of their soul they I don't even know what you're talking about. Like I don't know what what are you you know what are you like what what what are you taking you don't you can't even understand it just to come back to there all of this will understood will be understood he says because he means also the beginning of the [Music] and this all of this will be understood of you've heard this before. will all be understood by introducing the Indian called the Malikam and these are some two expressions of the zar but much of the alterbas revolves around this experience of in every mime he always speaks it always comes out in some different way he wasn't saying concepts it was a visceral embodied experience of a malakan so there's always a a different a different a different experience what it is because this is really all of reality. What's the difference between literally means he fills the worlds means he encompasses he surrounds the worlds is the light and the divine flow that is it's enclosed and it's grasped it's meaning from the orus inside the worlds. What does that mean? It means it's the divine energy and consciousness that is experienced and integrated within the parameters and the structure of each world. That's why it's called mamali. It fills it. Just like physically when you say the coffee fills the cup, you have to have an amount of coffee that's suitable to the cup. If you're going to pour in six gallons into a 7 oz cup, it's not going to work. Why? Because these are the parameters. Sorry, you may have a lot of coffee, but this is my cup. So, it has to be suitable to what it can contain. That's what it means. It's nitas. The coffee is nitas in the cup. Now, obviously, the physical metaphor is very, very incomplete because in physicality, it's two separate things. In spirituality, it's not two separate things. But the concept here is that it's suitable to the parameter of the world. And therefore, and therefore it always evolves. It comes there's a system. There's an order. There's from the word madrega steps. There's steps from one to another. Anah means a cause. There's and there's right an antecedent. So there's a cause and then the cause. For example, you have the seed of an apple tree is the of the tree and then the tree produces an apple which has seeds which becomes so the tree becomes the for the seed which becomes the for the tree which becomes the for the new seed. You understand? It all started off from one. Now here it's not such a big deal because even an apple tree after 2,000 years has similar properties to the first one. But when you're talking about spiritual descent each one it goes down. Every world according to its own, its own measurements until the are manifested and integrated and enclosed in the heavens and in the earth that are physical according to their according to their container that there should be able to be a physical heaven and a physical earth. It's explained in considered the book of creation one of the most ancient cabalistic text that there are says and then talks about says it comes from some say it was written by the text from Rabaka but it's considered the book that contains the secrets of creation. So over there he says Sha and Seafi says that all of reality includes a spectrum of three things Shaum literally means the world sha means year and nephesh means soul is going to explain by the way was unm smoke is brings another way of saying it is space time and consciousness is space, the world. Sha is time, the year. And neph is soul. Any aspect of reality is a convergence of these three things. Physically too, right? Right now, you're in a specific space. You're also in a specific time. You could be in this space, but not in this time. You could be this time, but not in this space. You could have been somewhere else. And then there's the nephesh. And there's a certain consciousness that is infusing this time and this space. I could be in this time in this space I could or I could be thinking about something else. There's a certain ne there's the presence is the presence that you bring into and sh the convergence of these three things is called presence and it's a present to be able to be aware of the time to be able to be aware of the space and to be able to be present in this time and space three things three components this says in everything is connected to and here the next the next this pic is going to devote a beer for all these three things form for nephesh and then and then sh you'll soon see why he goes from to then back to and he starts explaining it's got a beautiful I'm going to read a little swift if somebody doesn't understand feel free to ask what'sm all the heavens in the earth and every everybody everybody as B O D Y of every single whether it's the inanimate whether it's the world of botany whether it's the animal kingdom whether it's the human kingdom every single goof every single organism living organisms organic material inorganic material the goof of a dam could be a mountain could be a rock every bush shrub tree every insect bird mammal fish whatever it is and every human being that's all part of so it means every aspect of the world the physical worlds the heavens the earth every aspect and every goof in the that's what's nephesh is the soul in each of them there's divine energy which is enclosed in them that's called and this between and is through the to get from is the soul of it which is in the world and every single world every single body you need sha you need time we're going to see why time is the bridge between and of the essence. Yeah. Time is of the essence. Very well. Pun intended. Even in the world of there's so many different gradation states higher and higher endlessly. Why? Because the question is how refined is the the material and the vessel of this whatever is the when we say higher higher doesn't mean necessarily a higher mountain means what is gava is more it's means It's divested from the word of it's divested from a from coarse materialism. That's gavoya. So you have a different type of the gava means it's more refined. It's more transparent. It's more open and receptive to internal energy. Take for example practically. Could you compare the body of an living animal to the body of Could you compare for example a rock to an a rock is a physical goof it's also a goof but to the body of a right in terms of sophistication in terms of functionality in terms of of vitality. Yeah. There's there it's a whole different it's a whole different grade. What's the They're both physical. They're both physical. But you can't compare the goof of Akai, the body of a living animal to the body of Dim and even the body of T. The body of T is very impressive. The tree has a body. It's a goof. But you can't compare to the amazing qualities that exist in the Gulf of the because the is different. Therefore, because the is different, right? It's receptive to a to a different flow of consciousness. Right? You can you can have relationships with animals even there's there's deep emotions there's awareness there's consciousness you see the life over there in everything there's life but you see it in so much more because the material is a different material and then when you look at the goof of a what's in the body of a human being it's so much higher than you can't compare the material the fabric of the material of the earth to the fabric of the the heavenly the heavenly bodies. It's a whole different it's it's also physical but it's a whole different it's much higher than the physical elements and then there's higher and higher all now we were talking within the physical world within the planet of earth or even outer space but all physical and then when you go deeper there's seven physical heavens there seven spiritual elements they're called Seven chambers and there's so many different levels and every one it's a different why it's a different goof it's a different type of container how refined it is how transparent it is how much it's receptive to a deeper energy so inmself there's so many different levels because in one world itself you have so much just like you have between two people different people have a different gof yeah those who are very sensitive a different type of goof. You have to know your blood type, your energy type, brain type, everything is it's it's a different type of and you have to be sensitive to that because different channels a different energy. It's like a different antenna. Your antenna is more transparent. It's more open. It's more sensitive. It picks up things that other people don't pick up. The same is true. There's so many different levels of what's the is the divine energy that flows from the light of the and comes in to the worlds. The nephesh is completely different based on how much the kali is refined. A more refined kay a more refined vessel receptacle can channel much deeper more authentic source energy. That's what he's saying. That's how much light and soulfulness will be channeled through it in a higher world. What do we mean a higher world? What's makes it higher? A higher world means that the caim the body the goof of it is more refined. It's more open. It's less concealed. It's less opaque. It can channel more of the of the ne the soul of it comes from a deeper place of godliness. For example, what's a world? It's an like our world, but it's a different type of world. What happens there? The namas sit and they bask and they enjoy the radiance of the could be revealed there. Why not? Because it's a different it's a different type of environment. The crust of different type of crust huh he means doesn't necessarily mean physical means the material of the spiritual energy. Like he said there and then you understand not doesn't mean that physical material. Huh? Yeah. Yeah. And this is what we have to understand. The goes and evolves through many many. It comes down many steps, many levels until this can go into the lowest of to the low world but with tremendous restrictions with tremendous filters. And that's the kayer in the heaven and in the earth and all the mas all the planets of maj says there's not a blade of grass below that doesn't have a mazle that doesn't have here mazle doesn't mean luck masle means like a higher force the mazalis are called the planets means there's a higher energy that strikes the blade of grass and says grow grow what does that mean somebody standing over a blade of grass and hitting it. It means energetically the blade of grass, it's incredible. The blade is responding to something. You know, we take it for granted. Oh, the grass knows exactly what to do. No, there's a there's a masa. It is an energy that's feeding it. There's a consciousness, some consciousness, but it's expressed in the grass, in a physical grass. This is the nephesh in the lowest space where it becomes to give life to grass. That's what it does. But it's also consciousness. It's also neesh because nothing could happen. Nothing could function. Especially with the incredible sophistication even of a blade of grass without that nephesh which is essentially the divine. But in ged alion it's manifested different than in a blade of grass. And a blade of grass it's expressed in the fact that the blade of grass is growing which ultimately comes from a mazle which comes from a deeper deeper deeper source. So the nephesh also has so many different levels just like has so many different levels. Nephes has different levels. Why? Because this the way it's channeled through this through this world through this body through this experience through this brain through this blade of grass through this rock through this ocean or through this mountain. And everything there's ne just like there's everything is part of it's its own world whatever it is everything has and the is consistent with the So the summation is the whole the whole system of evolution of nephesh and through from the highest of levels to the lowest of levels till that grass that's growing from the masle this is all mal is the umbrella that includes all of this the entire means the entire cosmic system from nephesh and that's meal is nephesh al ismal is the nephesh that fills the the spirit the consciousness the divine energy what does it look like in a blade of grass it looks like that the blade of grass functions and grows in an ant it looks like the functionality of the ant or the functionality of the mosquito or the bee or the elephant or the lioness or the black hole or the star or the planet it in a higher the nephish is manifested in its based on the kali based on the container of what it can channel. So the whole that's called the the neph that is enclosed in the and it's always based on the properties of the that's the type of neph that the can channel right like the electrical wires what voltage can be channeled through this uh through this wire what you could receive. Yeah. So even though the electricity comes from a place that's unlimited, but the question is how much the could contain in in a way that it could remain what it is. You want the grass to grow and to be grass. You don't want the grass to be a monkey. A monkey is a monkey and grass is grass. If the grass becomes a monkey, then who's going to be the grass? Yeah. The gr the monkey may want to eat the grass, but that's it's two entities. Based on all of this, we'll understand why time is essential to creation. Why time is of the essence to understand now where sha comes in. You explained beautifully. Everything is everything is a combination of there's the consciousness, there's the energy and there's the container of the energy. Everything like the and the he fills the worlds. Again, we have to explain in physicality when you say he fills the worlds, it's two separate things. The coffee fills the cup. The water fills the mikvah. Your keys fill the drawer. Your papers fill the drawer. The drawer and the papers are two things. We're talking about spirituality. It's not defined by physical entities. So, it's essentially one. Mali just means that the of the kali is the in other words they're so integrated that the kali manifests this this is what it manifests it's not two separate entities it's one is year what is a year the concept of the third element of we say in the morning every day in his in his goodness every day he renews the work of creation. What does this mean? What's the what is he asking? What's the point? You created the world because beautifully what's the constant constant constant but the say the literally he's talking there about the angelic beings are many my he brings this rat means literally say they're coming and they're going they're running and they're returning rat from the word rats or they're running. They're yearning and then shu they come back. They're back. Yin and yan back toe and fro. Huh? He also starts off with the word betu. I don't think it was exactly. It's probably not an exact quote. It's just the because in the city he says So I don't think he's not quoting exactly. It's just it's not a different doesn't only mean the angels. It means the whole the whole system of the of the world is just like you see in the spirit of life of a person. There's the heartbeat. Life depends on the rhythm of life. And what's the rhythm? The rhythm essentially is of you feel the pulse. The doctor wants to feel the pulse to make sure right away your vitals are fine because that's not detail in life. It's essential. The spirit of life is expressed in the fact that there's a pulse and the fact that there's the pounding of the heart. the heartbeat and based on how healthy that is, you could know that the person is what is essentially the it's two it's two opposite what is it essentially if you go deeper on one level there's a histoal there's a yearning to go to be mystalic means to depart to go back to the source And then there's and then there's the opposite to extend and give life to all of the organs. One is a a movement of going away going back to the source. In other words, taking away the life from the organs, bringing it all back to the source. And then there's the opposite which is no go back. You have a job to do. Need to live. The organs need to live. And from this comes the whole reason of breath. The whole process of nishima is also this inhale and exhale. The whole process of nishima inhale exhale is the same thing. It's the of the of why it doesn't stop. It's a constant cycle is like a circle continuous. Goes again and again. It's not like you do it once in a while. First you're mispash which means you extendus and then after that no I'm out of here get me out of herealus like we say nstalcus means they depart then after thealos no go back go back to ispashtas no go back tous and this is every moment of life this is life it's not like some this is life. We say right every breath essentially this is it's not something that's added to life this is the rhythm of life the moment you stop this boom kaput it's not like it's some system that was installed the very fabric of life is based on the system I'll call it what do you want to say you could frag Inhale. Exhale. Which one is Oh, inhale and exhale. Which one is which one is so easier? Huh? We learned in you remember which we learned it in two. We learned in a whole there and one of the so here he goes back to this butus on a literal level it sounds like that inhale is and exhale is because when I'm inhaling what am I doing? I'm taking in the oxygen that is going to be able to oxygenate all the cells in my body and without that oxygen we know after a few minutes khala the brain doesn't get oxygen the parts of the body don't get their oxygen it's over person can't live on the other hand if I would stay there you know it's good to keep it inside a little bit but at some point you have to exhale inhaling without exhaling also can't work why not take in the energy and let it be that way you'll say Well, that's how the system works. We know that's how the system works. But there's a there's a secret to why the system works. Now, so inhaling is is taking the energy inside and actually it actually you can breathe and there's also exercises where you actually breathe in certain spots. You focus on a certain spot. But even if you do it, even if you don't do this consciously, the oxygen is going to be distributed to all the and that's how we live. That's called espas. But somewhere in the system, the oxygen says, "Okay, it's time to go. It was nice knowing you. Bye-bye. One second. I just got to know you. Stay around a couple of minutes." No, no, no, no. Maybe 30 seconds. If you're really good, there's those who will go under the water. They they they hold their breath for Huh? Houdini. But there's a whole group. Uh there's a culture. They know how to keep their breath. They could be underwater for like 20 30 minutes. You never heard of it? Yeah. Interesting people. They learn it. So maybe 30, but with most people it's a few seconds, right? Get to know me. No, no, I'm out. What is this? Who lives to who lives? Of course, we know biologically. It must be out. It went, it got affected by the body and now you have to release it and emit all the carbon dioxide. Now you need a whole new fresh oxygen to inhale. of it is it's all it's all it's all it's all in the whole ish and that's really going to be time that's what time is going to explain the person is only a metaphor this is for the whole divine energy not like people learn is means the whole the whole the whole energy force of all the world is there's a sug means it arrives means it doesn't arrive that is means I arrive and mate I didn't arrive why I'm going back you arrived You didn't arrive. You arrived. Stay. No. No. I'm going back. What is he saying here? What is not just who those who know should know that they should associate with it's huh it he's explaining what means means that there's a paradox in existence. It's he's not saying that there's two tenuous. You do one thing and then you do another thing and then you do another thing and then you do another thing. Then you do another thing then you do another thing. That's not what he's saying. It's much deeper. There's a paradox in existence. The way we contain paradoxes is we create two tenuous. We create a duality because we're not yet comfortable to live in paradox. So what do you do in this paradox? You say, "Okay, first you and then you and then you and then you and then you." like you take turns. But essentially what you're saying is that there's a paradox that's playing itself out. What's the best way for a paradox to play itself out? That when one thing is when when you're in a particular space, there's a message. Something is missing. We have to do the opposite. So you go to the opposite. No, something is missing. We have to do the opposite. So okay, we have to mi you came. No, no, mate. I don't really belong here. So you go back. You don't belong here. Okay, so go back. No, it's not here. What? What is this? So, this is the holy nikuda because essentially you're talking about nephesh and nephesh that creates sha because the between nephesh and is a paradox. Nephesh, what did we say is nephesh? Nephes is the it's the light of the and yet you wanted the should become a blade of grass. you want the should become my brain should become my cell should become the atom that makes up this cup or this coffee bean. So essentially you're taking the and what are you doing? You're completely containing it and redefining it as a mountain, as an atom, as a cell, as a neuron or whatever it is as we spoke before as a blade of grass, as a mosquito, as a lioness, as a beer, as a black hole or as planet Mars. And every nud of the whole Bria has nephesh in it because without it, it wouldn't exist. So there's a there's a constant paradox happening. On one hand, the is successfully becoming whatever it's becoming right now is becoming whatever it's becoming. But in it for it to really give life to the world, it needs to be infinite. It's Hashem. So there's a message that it's pure a on the other hand if you're pure a and infinity. So then you're not limited. Yeah. You're not limited anymore. So you need to be limited. But on the other hand, if the nephish really becomes limited, it's not channeling a cipher anymore. It's not the creator anymore. The creator is a so who am I? Am I finite or am I infinite? The answer is paradox. I got it. So what does that look like? What's say means I want to be here. No, of course I don't want to be. It's not my place. It's not who I am. Okay, go back. So I go back. What are you doing here? You have a purpose. Go back. No is essentially the manifestation. Uh yeah, I run away from you. I run away from you to you. on one hand the of so if we want to use the word on one hand the of the is to go out of the se of I'm just using words in order to become the world each level whatever it is and there's so many different levels but for it to really give divine life to the world there's also a that essentially a main so the kay goes right back to the source But when it goes back right to the source, what happens? The whole world is gone, right? You need theum as he says, you need theum. So what happens? So it's sent back. So it's not just two separate things in order for the to be and accomplish what it needs to be. It has that constant paradox inside of it that on one hand it feels this is not my place and on the other hand, of course, it's my place. That's why I'm here. No, but it's not my place. Only when it has that duality can it actually do what it's supposed to do. The moment it becomes comfortable in its space and it severs so to speak. It's detached from its source. It's this is it's not it's not that anymore. So for it to give existence to existence, it needs to completely come down and be integrated and focused and filtered and contracted and present. If not it can't be present. On the other hand, the moment it become it moment it becomes present to the point that it's completely completely content and comfortable and this is its destination. What happens? It got to go right got to right away leave because it's interrupting the flow. The whole power is that it's a flow. So if you interrupt that flow, right, it's like you're getting electricity say, "Oh, it's so beautiful. My my my mic is working." So who do what do we need a plug for? It's working. Look, look, it's working. Beautiful. The reason it's working is cuz it's plugged in. You say, "No, I'm fine. I'm fine. I have it all. The refrigerator is functioning beautifully. You can unplug. We don't need it. We're going to the car. Let's take it into the car." Good luck. My computer is working. It's working cuz it's plugged in. True. It's channeling the electricity in a way that it's energizing the computer or the vacuum cleaner or the air conditioner or the mic. That's how you're channeling the electricity because of the specific wires. That's the amum which channels the nephesh. But if you're not connected to the source, you have nothing left. You're dead. It's like inhaling without exhaling. I want to hold on to the breath. Hold on to your breath. Good luck. I'm alive. It's beautiful. I have breath. Hold on to it. The moment you hold on to your breath, it's breath. Not going to do anything for you. After a while, it's it's it's the life becomes the death sentence. And this is also true about the heartbeat. What's the cause of the heartbeat? So the answer is because the heart expands and the heart contracts. When the heart contracts what happens the blood is released because it's contract becomes small it becomes tight goes like this and that's the heartbeat. It goes like this and the blood goes out. But if the blood goes out cuz our body needs the blood blood circulation. So just leave it that way. Beautiful. The blood is there. Let it go. It travels. It travels. It travels. Doesn't work. you're not going to be able to live. The blood all has to come back to the source and reclansed. It needs to be reoxygenated from that new oxygen that you inhaled. That's why it's so fascinating how it all works. The blood is reoxygenated through the inhaling which came from new oxygen. So the blood feels the same thing. So the on one hand on one hand the heart contracts and that allows the blood to go out and be distributed to all of the parts of the body and the blood carries the oxygen and nutrients to every limb and every cell in your body and you have around 50 60 trillion cells in your body. People don't realize what these systems are like. You know we hey circulation sure study circulation see what's going on there. If you would take your blood circulation throughout the day and put it out, you know, put it out outside, it would be like like uh beyond hundreds and hundreds and hundreds and hundreds of miles and it's all working perfectly. So, you're talking about the blood distributing the oxygen and the nutrients and then what happens? The blood says time to go back. Doesn't stop. The moment the blood stops and says, "Okay, we're good. We all know how dangerous that is. It's called a clot. And if the clot is in a vital place, it could be the end of everything. Why? It's time to go back. Why do you have to go back? Because if I don't go back, I have nothing to give you. You understand? If I don't go back to the source, I'm not giving you anything. In order to give you something, I need life. In order to have life, I need infinity. In order to be infinite, I have to surrender to infinity. So I have to go back. I have to become I have to seize. Is the yearning to seize. Shu is the yearning to be. If you're not ready to seize, you don't have anything to be. Breathe. It's like it's like not breathing. It's like when people try to do things and they don't breathe. Stop. Breathe. No, no, no. I don't have time to breathe. Well, after a few minutes, there's no going be nobody to do anything. There's no presence. So is like essential. It's emotionally it's the ability at every single moment to go back to surrender to surrender everything. It's like what we learned in the last of the in order to have a functional you have to always go to the attract. Yeah. But if you stay in if you stay there then you're you're betraying the purpose. Like it says sin was that's how he puts it. I get them. We get them. They were I what do I need a game for? Going to make as though I exist. Make believe I exist. And now I have to deal with everybody's politics. Just acknowledge everything. They were normal people actually still called oneway ticket. What what do you have to make yourself mishuga spring for the when you rewind the wash you're saying they release the spring? It's the resistance of every second that allows the clock to function and that's really what time is. So it's very this is very important to understand and we it's it's also it's also in in in in avoid we can understand it very powerfully. What is the the only way you have something to give is if you're nothing. Meaning if you're bottled to the ancient. If you transcend the ego. It's like electricity. The only way electricity can give me something if it's connected to the source. The moment I'm disconnected from my source and I'm something outside of God. You have nothing to get from me. There's nothing. It's fake news. It's fake energy. It's garbage. It's like a Ponzi scheme. It's like I take a million dollars of you and I put it into a to a to stacks and ponies that doesn't exist. So it's simply taking money and fooling people. It just looks like it exists. The only way to give anything substantial is if you're giving them life. The only source of life is the so essentially if you're not surrender to the you're not giving anything. But on the other hand if you're completely anif so then they can't receive anything. So what's the what's the to this paradox? The is means that in the you feel that it's not it. So you go back and then when you go back you know but it's also not it. I have a mission. So you go back and only then can you fulfill your mission. The only way the shuv could be a shu is if it leads to ai if the shuv doesn't lead to it's not shu anymore. It's a death sentence. It's a trap. You hijack the energy. You stole it. You're gone. It's like plagiarizing. You plagiarize God. You think it's yours? Okay, you could fool the for a few seconds. If you're in a certain place, you could fool them for a couple of years. You understand? But the truth, you won't fool. I mean, you're not going to fool. Not yourself. Not you'll fool the clipper. The clipper can fool the clipper. It's fine. Also not fooled. Yeah. used to like saying used to say God you don't fool the world you don't fool you only fool yourself now what's the big deal one fool fooled another fool at least try to deceive The the fool in me fooled the other fool in me. Fine. Enjoy yourself. So is not just two tenuous. It's it's it's one is that's the dus here. So the heart feels it. So the blood goes out and the blood says sorry time to go back. Why? No no I can't hang around. The moment I hang around and I become comfortable, I can't do anything for you. I'm killing you. So as the blood is going and giving present, full presence, the blood is fully present. The blood says and right now I'm not really here. So why are you here? Cuz I was sent here and I'm here. But in order for me to be here, I have to have a part of me that's not here. That knows that this is not my place. And therefore at the first possible moment I go back and then when I go back I said no you have to go back and the same that's and and this is the rhythm that makes life. So it's in the breath and the shima and it's that's what you're feeling in the pulse. When you feel the heartbeat what is it? It's contraction. Expansion. The heart contracts the blood goes out. The heart expands and the blood comes back in. Of course, that's the only way the blood could oxygenate the entire body. But then that blood itself needs to go back for more. What does that do with time? That this is this is what time is. This is time. What we call time is really life. Let's think about this for a moment. I have to give credit to the Khan because I sat by him and she explained explain this to us how to understand the depth of what is saying here because you could just see it as just words not what is time. What essentially is time? Time drives everybody crazy. Nothing drives people crazy like time. They said there was once a teacher who asked his students who is the greatest teacher in the world. He's the greatest. There's no greater teacher than him. But he murders all of his students. He kills everyone last of them. But there's no teacher like him. He's the most amazing teacher, but he kills every student. Time. You will never have a teacher like time, right? What's the boss says? uh year. There's nothing like time. That's how it is. There's no teacher like time. And yet it's a teacher who kills every one of his students. He lets nobody live. Time is such a mystery for one reason. You could never hold on to it. Everything else you think you can hold on to it. This cup, it's mine. I'll fight with you. Kala, this table, it's mine. One person it's a cup of coffee. One person it's a chair. One person it's a palace. One person it's a whole real estate uh estate. But it's things you think you could control. Your bank account, your house, right? Your family, good luck. Your good luck. Your wife, good luck. We think this one thinks more. This one thinks less. One thing even know they can't control is what? Time. How do you do it? How do you control? So the old Egyptian demigods, how did they deal with this? They went crazy for mitz. You know what they did? They mummified themselves. After they died, they decided they continued to live. So they were buried as mummies. They they were desperately trying to stop time. Everybody's trying to stop time. How do you stop time? So one person thinks if he dies with $6 billion in the bank, he'll control time because he will live on. People have plaques. They build buildings for themselves. They create legacies. is they create whatever it is. What is it? It's really a war on time. It's the dha. You're building a tower trying to fight God. That's what everybody tries to do. It's interesting. No, it's a war on time. The only problem is there's no way to win this war. The second this person dies, all the money, all the plaques, all the buildings, they're irrelevant. How many people know? How many people could name their great greatgrandfather, great great grandmother, and even if you could, great great great grandfather. Now, if you would have told that person, yeah, you know that in a couple of years, nobody's going to know your name. Masha, at best there'll be a ed in Wikipedia, an entry where you be and what does that person have from it? So time is a very very frustrating element because as we're talking it could like it it doesn't get insp manipulate people. Your charisma can capture people. You could manipulate territory. If you're a powerful person you could conquer territory. Napoleon. Yeah. All these people Napoleon Alexander the Great. They wanted the world. They wanted to own the world. So you conquer more and more and more. But how do you conquer time? didn't sleep. Huh? Napoleon didn't sleep. Yeah. He said he doesn't like the time when he's not in control. True. So Einstein with his whole theory of relativity was already trying to show showing that time is a it's not so absolute. It's not as absolute as you think it is. It's also a tool. But it's like right as we're talking the time the time it's really it's there's something tragic about it too right like the one minute ago we were having a good time and it's it's gone forever there's no way of going back there and we don't have another precedent in life you loved a particular vacation spot you can go back you loved a part with a certain person you can go back hopefully but with time you want to become five years old again, good luck. You want to be 20 again, you want to be 15 again, you want to be two again, good l good luck. Even the best therapist, I mean, he could uh, you know, we could imagine things for a few minutes, but at the end of the day, there's a Yiddish song. Where did the old years disappear? It's something psychologically it's more scary than most people imagine. There's even philosophers who believe that it's the deepest angst in people and one of the deepest drives in people is to conquer this. What's the ems of time? The ems of time is it's what is the message of time? Time is a very very deep message. Everything else in the world. Yeah. Take this cup. This cup is only here. It's not there. But in this space, the cup says I'm here. I'm here and I'm here absolutely everything in the world has a space and what it said what's message is in my space I'm real you want to tell me that if you take a microscope you'll see that I'm not so real okay so go fantasure with your microscope but here right here right now I am what I am the only mitsus in the world that even when it's here it says it's not here is time what's time saying yeah it's 9:26 and 35 seconds. No, it's not. Oh, it's 9:26 and 39 seconds. No, it's not. Moment. It doesn't give you a moment. Pun intended. It doesn't give you a moment to hold on to. Give me give me what do they call it? A Kodak moment, right? A Kodak moment. All of Shalom. Kodak. Freeze it. You know, freeze it. Good. You could freeze the picture, but how do you freeze time? You can't. The moment you hold on to it, it slips out. You understand? The moment I it's gone. Even give me 10 seconds. I don't give you anything. I don't give you a marshu. What is that? That's essentially that's pure ain't. That's pure ah. Why do you think you want to you don't why do you think you need to hold on to anything? The fact that you think you have to hold on to anything is because you don't trust that you're godly. The moment you could surrender to the fact that you're infinite, you're good. You don't have to hold on to anything. Holding on is a product of yeses. It's a product of separateness. I'm trying to prove my existence. I'm trying to con to empower my existence. The moment I could surrender everything. Yeah. Then you don't experience time either. And then you don't experience time. The moment you touch a there's no time. But we do live in time. That's time is the ultimate message. I'm here and I'm not. And if you think I'm here, you're going to be disappointed. And yet I'm here. Of course, there's time the six in the morning, the seventh. It exists. But how does it exist? It exists in a constant rhythm where it exists and then that very moment it completely delegitimizes its existence. No, Ratzu is surrender. Shu is the mission. Ratzu is who you are. Shuv is the mission who God wants you to be. Ratzu is who you are. Shu is who God wants you to be. The only way you could be who God wants you to be is if you surrender to who you are is beyond time. Always beyond time. He was, he is, and he will be. And that's why whenever you touch something that's a it's not subjected to the tyranny of time. It's eternal because it's beyond time. And that's why people who are ready to surrender to infinity are not afraid of time. They know that time is just a creation. It's just a way of formulating reality posts simpum. The moment you become detached, you need time to remind you that you're not detached. That's it. Okay. So wake up and go back. [Music] So mi that's the the paradox. You have to split two moment. The split of two moments is the manifestation of paradox. You're here and right away it uproots it. You're not here [Music] in space. It's not so visible. I'm here and I'm still here. Time. No, you're here 9:01. The next second you're here. It's a different time already. What was here a second ago is not here anymore and it never it's it will never be here again. It could be very depressing if you're in your ego. For the egoic mind, it's very very depressing. It's very hard. No control. Give me something epis. So we make ourselves young. We do cosmetic surgery. We do plastic surgery. We get beautiful wigs. We do a face job. Keep me young. I'll do anything. It takes uh great sages say it takes a it's a very big there was once I was once speaking to he says the greatest in life is the the wisdom of how to get old how to get old how to age it was a very very he was already an old man it was a little while before he died it was it was a very insightful you know you don't hear that from a 26 year old he says the greatest wisdom in life is The wisdom of aging. How to age. How to age as a sage. The Mishna says in the older they get, the more the more I'll tell you a funny story. I was once invited to speak at the huge there for many many years. is I don't know thousands and thousands of people come and a lot of dignitaries come like you know politicians and mayors and sometimes the prime minister and the chief rabbis like a lot of you know interesting people come and they speak it's like a they have beautiful nigim it's a very nice event so I was invited to speak there one year the of at the time was his name was Ashkanazi and he was sitting at the head table and I was sitting near him they told me I'm going to speak at 10 p.m. But then the chief rabbi walks us. They had to give him a speech. And then this minister comes and I have to give him cuz everybody need needs their cover. So my speech kept on getting postponed postponed. It was already almost midnight and now it was still packed. I don't know was like maybe four, five, six thousand people there. But I was it was I was filling up like a disposable uh you know disposable mikvah towel. A neck neck. Okay. This guy. Exactly. Very good. you want me I want. So Rabbi Ashkenazi was sitting there the whole time he was fat. I don't know how he knew what I was feeling but he turned to me he says I want to tell you something that gone who was known to be a very sharp person was once by anifa and there was another rav there who they called a rav means wasn't a real it was more a government appointed position and you know comparing him to the would be like you know in terms of of and would be comparing like a squirrel to you know to a human being and maybe even more and both of them were speaking. So this you know he liked himself but he knew who he knew that is of different realms. So he told the came you speak first says no no no you he says that I should speak before you first I come second says no you speak first I speak second. He says why says the Mishna says in the older they get the more wise they become the older they get the more crazy they become. He says the more we delay your speech. So you're going to speak more nonsense. He says the further is more and then all then I'll speak afterwards tells me says the fact that they're pushing off your speech that they consider you say not bad huh? Yeah. What's the this the sageness of of of ageness that's good the sageness of ageness is is very very deep because it's really it's really ble it's really surrender you're not fighting life the greatest mistake people make is we fight reality fighting reality is a form of fighting God it's really fighting yourself it's fighting the anif And it makes sense. As long as life is about control, of course, time is going to kill me. Either I'll kill it or it will kill me. And usually it kills me before I manage to kill it. You know, one of the most powerful things in history is you read the stories of tyrants, dictators, a person like Stalin, right? And when they were alive, a Muslim there their there the dread and the fear of these people was it expanded to hundreds of millions of people. There was a knock on your door middle of the night. People couldn't sleep for 40 50 years because of that knock that they might have. And then the time of the tyrant comes and he's dead and it's like boom. You know, it's the contrast of history. Everybody gets their time. It's over. So either I'm going to kill time or not I'm going to kill time that we do. I'm going to kill the time the time or time is going to kill me first. Usually that's what happens right the source of time is eternal. Nobody's going to defeat it. But the idea of aging real aging is the surrendering to the truth the higher reality of infinity of a scythe. That's what real b means. And then you become a channel. Once you become a channel, time is not a prison. Time is a destination. Time is it means something. It's serving a purpose. It's a tool. Time is a tool. But that's only without an ego. The moment you you wrestle existence from God and you want to own it, so now time becomes a mitas cuz that's our mitas and then you're stuck and then you're just fighting it all your whole life. That's the idea of when you sanctify time, what does it mean? It means you acknowledge that time is a vehicle for a hashem. It's a vehicle for so that time itself is sublimated. The used to say in the an expression as a Jew is a bus on time. The whole idea of we make you take time and you say this is holy time we do it. Bzdon says this is that means is going to be holy is going to be it's going to be you take time. Where do where do you come to control time? You make time. But that's the idea. The Gmorra says we don't say shabas. We say so why we say so the garra explains that shabas is shabas is holy on its own. Seven day comes it's holy. You like it you don't like it. Yamt is not that way. We make yamt. If Bezdon didn't say this is Yim is not going to be on the 10th day would be the next day. So who made Yimiper a holy day? The Jew. So on we say Hashem was and then they could bead man. What does that mean? That means essentially that Hashem gave is he gave them his kadusha that they could go into time and sanctify the time. They make the time holy. How do where do you have access to time? We nobody has access to time. It's an elusive reality. All we can do is live in time. That's all if you're stuck in the prison of ego. But the moment is of so you you have you're on time and the reason is because you don't have to be a balabas on anything. If you have to be a balab on anything, you can't be a balabas on time. The only way you could master time is if you surrender all mastery. Then you're good. Then you're beyond time to surrender. Very good. It's true. It's true. But just like shuv without rats is a mistake, rats without shuv is an equally powerful mistake and sometimes much worse because it looks holy. Ratsui could also be ego. It's a different type of ego. It's a holy ego. Ratsu is it's a holy it's a beautiful ego. It's not it's not of it's a different type of sin. Shu without rats is the human ego. Rati without shuv is spiritual ego. Why should I go to why should I do the dirty work? The blood says I'm not going back. It's a why should I contaminate myself with everything? You know what's going on in that that body? It's messy. It's makes sense. Wants to stay. [Music] So time really if you look at it time is the cosmic heartbeat. If you put your hand on your heart and you feel that heartbeat, right? You know, if you do it with a child, a newborn child, it's something very regulating about it, right? It's regulating, right? You you you you feel the pulse of a child, you put the heartbeat of a child, it's like that that purity, that innocence. It's like, why is it so regulating? Why is it regulating? You would think on the contrary, it shouldn't be regulating. It's constant movement. It's regulating because it's the sign of life. It's h it's going it's there's a rhythm that is regulating. You know, sometimes the child will put his head on the on the heart of the mother and their heartbeats connect and they co-regulate each other. Essentially, the heartbeat that you feel in yourself, the cosmic heartbeat is time. The moment you can tune into time as Hashem's heartbeat, it's a very regulating thing. Think about it. We're afraid of time because we don't see it as the heartbeat of life. We just see oh okay another day is wasted another year another because you're not present right that child it's very regulating when you feel your heartbeat you could do it you could do it on your own you'll see it's silence and you breathe into it and you feel the heart right the heart opening the heart closing the heart opening the heart closing the heart opening it's really that's what it's about the heart opens physically and then it closes it opens and the blood leaves I'm sorry it closes closes and the blood leaves cuz it's tight and then it opens and the blood could come back and then right after that boom it closes again. It's like it's time to leave, time to come back, time to leave, time to come back. The heartbeat of the whole planet is time. That's the heartbeat essentially. That's the heartbeat. It's back and forth, back and forth, back and forth. You could put it differently, right? There's a moment that's now. this moment right now. A second later, the kay of now goes away. It's a new kay of course a new moment. How does Hashem express the fact that the kayas of the moment had to go had to disappear, go back and everything is new? That's time. That's what time is. Time is a demonstration of God's heartbeat. Just like we have a heartbeat, he has a heartbeat. It's called time. You understand? That's why it's why that's if it wouldn't be you don't have to be send the energy let the blood go just like our blood goes out stay there you inhale oxygen stay there hashem you created a world boom no the moment it's not in other words it's not the system the system dies because the energy is not influential anymore. It's disconnected. The only way for it to be connected is that it's pure. The only way for be to pure is that it always goes back to it doesn't become comfortable being finite. And yet it has to be finite. So what does that look like? That's that is what is running. Yeah. Running rivers don't freeze beautifully. And that's why they say in the winter, put on the faucet. You're a plumber, you know. put on the faucet, let the water flow. So the pipe hopefully won't freeze. So that's the rhythm of life. So now we understand that sha is the between nephesh and because nephesh is but it has to go into it doesn't stay. It has to go if neph would stay in you don't need but since nephish goes into so the bridge between nephesh and is shah that's the only way that nephesh can become that's the only I just want to read Mish three lines just to finish the sentence and then we'll take a break. You see by the line starts. Every moment the first departs. Every moment the kayas of now is gone. That's what it is. Just like bites by a person. The breath that I just inhaled has to leave. And what happens now? Inhale again every. And the same is true with the heart. And a new comes. This is a mush of how it's bye. The kay of the moment is gone. It leaves and a new comes. And by the way, the kayas of the moment takes with it everything. That's why, and we're not going to get into this, but I'm just going to say it. That's why the only way to live really is is now. The moment you're out of now, you're not alive. It's not like you're doing something wrong. You're dead. You think you're alive. You're not alive. The only way to live is now. Only way to live. That's the only way to live. The moment there's no now, the moment I'm not now, I'm not in I'm life. I'm faking it. I'm using I'm using some form of life and I'm just manipulating it. Yeah. Yeah. Who says that? I saw it somewhere. Beautiful. Sham for if you're living sham over there that's the burial that's a death sentence. Beautiful. Cuz what does it mean to live now? It means now means does the heartbeat of now. It's like it's like I'll say I'm not going to breathe now because I breathed an hour ago. Nobody does that, right? I'm not going to I'm going to keep my I'm going to keep my heart. I'm not going to contract my heart because I have blood already. But psychologically, we do that the whole time. I'm living from yesterday's oxygen and living with yesterday's. It doesn't mean you shouldn't reflect on what happened yesterday. And it doesn't mean, right, if I need to buy a suitcase cuz I'm going I'm flying somewhere tomorrow, I shouldn't buy a suitcase. We're not talking about that. For a mitzvah means you're preparing for something. You prepare for a bris. But but but it's now I'm living I'm living completely now. It's fully full presence. It's a different way of living. It's hard because you have you have to surrender. We want to control life. So I think if I plan the future and I live in the past, it's a way of controlling like you figure things out. The problem is when you figure things out, there's no spontaneity, right? All right. Like the one who said, "Now we're going to have spontaneous dancing." Life is Life is spontaneous. That's what it is. That's what it really is. Listen to this. The source of his The source of creation of time is this. from this paradox of this is what creates because the creates man. There has to be some time and then This is 200 years before Einstein. You see what he just says? He says the time that we're familiar with is only our version of time. Time is much much deeper than what we're familiar with. The way time manifests itself in our world is because the kay comes into so many madgas and every madrega has so the way nephesh comes into our it translates in the way we understand but if you go in a little deeper place there's also based on the of that world means everybody's living in a different yeah yeah yeah everything is relative yeah the story with the b yeah yeah the story of the bos yeah yeah everybody lives in a different is this. The moment you go to a higher frequency of time, the moment you go to a higher frequency of the is completely different. This man is completely different. All start with the he sent a letter. He sent a letter and the person who got the letter found it 15 years later and that's when it was all happening. And he got a gun says no. He says in Syria it's 15 years faster. It's not we call it a mif. It's not even the idea of a mus. I mean it's a mif but the idea is the moment you go to a higher plane right it's a thousand years is like a day. What does that mean? Even if you take a spaceship and you go the speed of light time is completely different. You can have two people born the same day have a bris on the eighth day 50 years later one guy is 50 years old and one person is aer you took put him into a spaceship this kid he went the speed of light everything is different and that's that's in our world that's in our physical world because the point is that zman is a reflection of the way it translates in our world so it translates in other words What's it's the combination of nephesh and but that depends what there is. In a higher it's a different type of nephesh. So the is different. So this man is different. But in the is the way it manifests that those are the last words since there's so many levels of this and so many and every ma comes through. So therefore time happens like it happens by us physically. There's a moment and then there's another moment in a higher man. It's not it's not there's a moment and then there's another moment. It's aua of yeah and no. Yeah and no. How do we relate to yeah and no? We can't cuz we don't deal with paradoxes. So what do we do? We do 901 902. We make up. But that's not is not 901. 902man is that 901 is 902. 901 knows that it doesn't really exist. It's a How do we deal with paradox? We can't have yes and no in the same thing. You are or you're not. I don't know. So we do 901, 902. You split it. You split it. Huh? Yeah. Yeah. I'm I'm here and I'm not here. And when I'm here, I'm also not here. In other words, there's an in me that says that you're only here, not that you're here, you're not here, that you're not present. You're only here because you were sent here. This is not your essential place. You're not stuck. That's the difference. When you say you're here and not here, it doesn't make you you could think. So the means is you're not present. You're always running away. You're not running away. The only reason you could be really present is because you know that this is not your real place. You were sent there. So you don't get stuck there. The reason I'm not present is because I'm trying to control something. I'm afraid of losing something. So my mind is somewhere else. When you're in a place of complete surrender and you're in the so wherever you are, you could be fully there. In other words, helps the sh be much more successful. You could have a real sh only because you have rats. So you could be there fully full. You don't have to worry. You could be fully fully present. You're not losing anything. Why why is it so hard to be present? Oh, I have to do this. I have to do this. I have to do this. I have to I'm in a control mode. The fact that you feel that this is the place and you could control it doesn't allow you ever to be here. I always have to second guess myself. Only when I could go to a place of rat, you can also go to a place of shu fully without any hesitation. When you're in a place of full trust and surrender, wherever you are, you could be fully your fear. What what are you afraid of? Yeah. Whatever has to come back will come back. Whatever doesn't have to come back, let go. Let go. What are you worried about? What are you What you're trying to control things again. Just tune in life. Like don't worry. God is not disappearing. Whatever you need for real is going to be here. And whatever you don't need, you never needed it. So what are you worried about? Just be present. It's easier said than done because our brain likes to control things. And is is a very it's a very vulnerable reality. So finishes the last words here. By the way, you see in the parenthesis he says that's the mime we learned to berious I referenced it before. So you see he references it here always any it's like he always references any mimer that speaks about whatever the mimer is. So like we learned we also learned this one of the he says what's this that is what's going into a place that's so of course you could do chuva the whole problem is I say oh I made crazy mistakes last year I made crazy mistakes for 50 years I was so mug for 40 years that's All in the world of man the moment you go beyondman it's not limited and then you could fix everything even retroactively. So means comes from a place that's prem. If it's prem it's pre if it's so then it's if it's pisman you could fix everything. That's what the idea of is and then even the sins could become mitzvah because what happened 40 years ago is not 40 years ago. It's right now. So that's the idea of that. So we read you can hear it online. We learned that it's a very very deep the whole is that is tuning into this space. It's not his focus here. He's just giving a to this and other places. Anybody has any questions? What's the practical what's the Oh, what's the practical process of how to surrender to this? It starts off with five minutes a day. It doesn't start 24 hours a day. It starts with five minutes a day because 24 hours a day is a lot of time. The time won't surrender so easily. But five minutes, you could tell the time. Just give me five minutes. Afterwards, you'll take over five minutes a day. It's the ability to be able to uh to be be present and breathe and really surrender. What happens is you could try it. You could try it by Davening or any time of the day. Morning is always better. You sit with presence and the thoughts come in and say, "Well, usually it'll come in if you're a Jewish Ashkanazi man. You have nothing to do. You have nothing to do. the bank, there's a bank, there's a bill, there's this, the this du, right? And once you say, okay, five minutes, I'm I'm not I'm not I'm not going to Hawaii for a year. I'm going to be available in five minutes. The bank is not closing in 5 minutes. Trump is not retiring in five minutes. Uh things are still going to be around. So then it's going to put in responsibility. But you didn't din yet. You didn't learn yet. Your kids need this. Whatever it is, it's always has a way of hijacking the mind. And to really be able to watch all of those thoughts and just like literally do what we do with our with our oxygen like like just let it go. Like surrender it. Wow. What you do with your breath and what you do with your blood do with your thoughts. Like let it go. Just let it go and just come back to the self. Come back to the core of the self. And what's the core of the self? The core of the self is not defined by anything. It's not defined by time. It's not defined by space. If you could do this five minutes a day of really being present with your internal rhythm, with your internal core, and allow the thoughts just as disturbing as they are, surrender them. Surrender them to the source, which is Hashem. Just surrender them. We get more and more comfortable living in that space. And the more you live in that space actually the more responsible you'll be when you have to be responsible because there's less anxiety. The more ruts you have, the more sh you can be. Like if right now I need to take my kid to the doctor or I have a dentist appointment or I need to take care of something with the telephone company or with whatever it is, you know, all the physical things that people have to do, big, small, serious, not so serious. You can actually be fully present because it's not controlling you like, yeah, now I'm showing up. This is part of my mission and I'm going to do it. Now I may do the laundry. Now I may cook dinner. Now I may clean the bathroom. Um, now I have an appointment to go to. Whatever it is, I have to take care of some accounts. I have to take care. You could be you could be fully fully present without the stress and the anxiety that the world is slipping away. That time is slipping away. There's never enough time. You know, I never have enough time. I never have enough time. Whoa, whoa, one second. One second. One second. Right now, there's bill millions of things that happened for you to survive that God is doing you're not even aware of. Okay? So, like just just relax. Like it's as though we own this world and we own our time and there's never enough time. Never enough time for what? Never enough time to live the life that I think I'm going to control through my ego. Yeah, there's never enough time for that. You're right. For that, you need like 29,000 years. And you're probably We don't have that. But you know what? There's enough time. There's enough time for me to do what I'm supposed to be doing now. There's enough time. How do I know? Because I'm alive for me to do what I'm supposed to be doing. Of course, there's enough time. And if right now that means to be able to sit with my child and talk or play a game. So that's it. That's it. Be here. What else is there? Right now it's to put on fill in and put on a talis. Put on fill in and davin. So be here. Be here. And right now it's to be able to help somebody. So be here. And now it's be able to listen to somebody who maybe has a challenge and I can help. So be here. Make sense? But don't start with a whole day. Start with five minutes a day. five minutes a day. It's a it's presence. It's real presence. Now, the thoughts don't like this. I'm telling you, they attack. They attack. They attack fast. They don't like it. It's not It's not an easy place to be because the ego wants to control, which is normal. It's normal. This is takes a lot of BL. But this is the truth of life. This is where existence happens. It's hard. You have to give up control. You I'm saying it like it's giving up, but at least five minutes a day, give up control. The rest you won't find. Slowly slowly slowly ah you basically do every moment to be a certain way. Yeah. Beautiful. It's showing up every moment to how I should be showing up this moment without needing to control the outcome and anxiety over what happened in the past or what might happen in the future. It's a very very deep way of living. It's much more presence, but it takes much more surrender. And there's a part of the mind that's not comfortable with that. It's like, no, of course you should plan. Of course you should be anxious. You know what happened yesterday? You know that this and it makes sense. It makes sense. We always to be in is a lot of ble because it really means that I don't exist. It's very hard to say that I do exist. I don't exist. You know, know how many years I'm trying to work on my existence. Just give it up. Means you actually don't exist. And then you can actually exist. When you realize you don't exist, you can actually exist. You could be a normal person. When you could surrender your existence, you could say, "Okay, now what do you want? Oh, you want me to exist? Fine. I'm happy to exist. Oh, you don't want me to exist? Okay, I'm happy not to exist." Everything means every moment you're ready that everything should be taken away and you're fine. Nothing will be taken away. You're going along go with the flow of time which is rooted in the flow that's beyond time. You could nothing will really be taken away from you the moment you realize what's the what's the whole the whole is anoid. What does that really mean emotionally? What does that mean? It means this. It means, listen to this, okay? Nobody and nothing can ever take anything away from you in a serious way. That's what it means. Nothing can ever be taken away from you in any serious way. Nothing that's really you. Nothing that's really you. Yeah, I know. You could take away my suit. You could take away the mic. You could close down my website. You could steal this. You could steal that. I know that. And other big things I know much bigger than money. But anything that's really, really, really you, nobody and anything can take away. Sit with that a little bit. That's serious. Now, what would that if you could feel that? What would your life feel like? It's pretty liberating. You say, "What do you mean?" Well, you have a wife, you have kids, you have parnos, you have so many things that are prayer. What do you mean nobody? Hashem could. That's because we're busy fighting with God all day. When they realize of anoid mulvad means yeah nobody and nobody nothing could really take anything that's really yours away from you that which is not really mine. Oh was never mine. Yeah of course but that you know how much surrender that takes. But in that place of surrender you have everything forever. Nothing could be taken away from you. That's the real you. That's the real real you. That's the real real you. Now that doesn't make you not love people because now I'm not going to attach myself because I don't want to be connected to anything. That's the Buddhist way. You go away from everything. Now the shu becomes more powerful. Now you could love freely. Now you could love uninhibitedly. There's no rush. You could love freely is is complete security, complete confidence. You could be a leader. You don't have to be a macab. You don't you're not dependent on people's approval. and I like you if you're going to like me and you could really really love. I don't know exactly what I'm saying, but it's true. That's the truth. I don't know exactly what I'm saying cuz my mind is telling me, "Stop hacking a chic and stop talking about things that you don't understand, nobody else understands, and you're just driving everybody crazy for no reason." Huh? It's not something you know, it's something. It's not something you could know. It's something you have to experience. So, I don't know exactly what I'm saying, but I know that it's true. How do I know it's true? I don't know. I know it's true. I don't know how I know it's true, but I know it's true because whenever I have a moment of real real connection, I know that that's where it is. So, I know it's true. I've experienced glimmers of it. I haven't experienced it, but uh it's a very deep place, but you can't we can't always live that way, right? It's it's it's it's flow of consciousness you could see. So we we live in the ego. Let's let's face it, we live in the ego. We live in control, right? Don't take my coffee like it's mine and I'll I'll kill you, right? You know what I mean? We all live in that at least many of us live in that space. But we could begin the process of opening ourselves up to it and and the more we train ourselves, the more we could really go into it. At least from delay. You could always refer back if we ever had experience and you could always refer back to it. Yeah. So it's a place where really that's what really anoid mad means that the true you nobody will ever be able to take that away from you including you can't take that away from you right people try and try to control their experience yeah there's no control over that there's no control there's no control so really it's every moment showing up the way I could show up right now at this moment and in an hour I'm going to show up very differently to the moment and it's full presence with that moment moment. It's very very regulated. There's like an internal I went go back to that child and feel the heartbeat. You'll see how regulated that is. That's what it is. That child lives in that space unconsciously because you know he doesn't have a bank account yet and he doesn't have an ego yet. So he lives in that space. Hopefully he'll always be able to live in that space. But we get older and we go into a place of control because I have to be vigilant. You know, I don't want you to stab me. I don't want you to stab me. I I want to be an accepted person. I want to find comfort. So, we go into a different space. But that's really what it says in right what does say unbelievable uh one of my favorite uh where he says he's like a child but the beginning what's the beginning of the right and what does he continue I'm in a space of of of uniformity of equality completely regulated and silent guml guml is like a a suckling a baby that nurses. So here you have a king right the most powerful person in the in the nation and David was a powerful person but in a way he was like a little baby nursing because he knew who he was he knew who he was right he knew who he was and didn't take away from the fact that he was so powerful he could be so powerful because it wasn't his ego was if I'm supposed to be a king I'll be a was rest in the SP I think paris. So he says that it says in Medish that uh when when Schmool Hanovi appointed Schol to be the king. So Schol said it's not for me. It's not uh it's not for me. I'm not uh he was an he was a real humble person. So there was a was told to tell him that you shouldn't be so arrogant. And then it says a medish in that when called out from the so what's I'm here I'm ready to be the I'm ready to be the say I don't understand says I'm ready to be the then said no it's not for you whatever and says I don't want to he says stop being arrogant So he says he says he says thought being a melik means that he's a melik. So he said who am I? I'm not a meal. He says the malik is not yours. It's your in the moment. Yeah. So what what what are you what what are you being arrogant saying? No it's not it's not me that have that's the arrogance. You understand? said the hammer says you want me to be a hammer, I'll be a hammer. You want me to be a Malik, I'll be a meal. Why suddenly does malus change that you think that suddenly this became yours? He's a hammer and he's a meal. True. A meal doesn't look like a hammer. A mel is a there's a nail and there's a hammer, right? Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. Beautiful. Where does the market say this? Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. You understand that? It's very powerful. magson they asked him what's the for arrogance for gy he says there's no advice you can have a person who behaves in the most humble way but it's fully arrogance he's doing it in order to feel good about himself and you have the person who behaves in the most arrogant way but he's fully humble because he's just a channel then it continues so the only is that he should take away from this itself is the the yeah right the only says is dominating to Hashem to be in the right space. Right? That that was his advice. In other words, the moment you think you're going to be humble and not arrogant, that's the problem. Yeah. Just let go. It doesn't with you. It's it's hard because uh part of the wounding of a person is that uh I have to always figure out where I am. You have to have a lot of security to surrender. Surrender is the opposite of giving up. I mean we use the word surrender as giving up but it's opposite. Surrender here means plugging plugging plugging into the electricity. Giving up is the opposite. Giving up is just like h whatever just there's no hope. Surrender is the idea of uh I took out the plug because I thought my mic is working on its own and then I realized it's not working on its own. So I put it back in. No, no, I don't need I don't need you. I have my own electricity. Okay, good luck. So you put it back in. That's surrender. You acknowledge that the power in this mic is just from the electricity. The mic is beautiful, but without the electricity is kaput. So I can acknowledge that my whole energy and power is the source. And I plug in, I'm here. That's surrender. That's a beautiful thing. It's not giving up. On the contrary, yeah, giving up is just give up. Like I'm awish. Like there's nothing here. It's worthless. There's no life actually. Huh? I'm leaving it unplugged. I'm leaving unplugged. I don't believe that the plug has anything that can give me anything. This this mic is so damaged. The mic is so broken. You could plug it into 100 times, it's dead. So what should you plug it in for? Just throw it out into the garbage. Let all the mice enjoy it. What What do you have to plug it in for? That's what giving up is. Surrender is the opposite. The exact opposite of complete opposite. Surrender comes with joy. There's a lot of joy in surrender. There's a lot of bliss in surrender. The frequency of surrender and the frequency of bliss are right near each other. They overlap because it's like you become a channel for the flow. So it's very beautiful. It's very It feels good. It really feels good. That's the best proof that it's real. The greatest proof is you see what it does for you. You settle down. You you're you're you're not obsessed. You're not obsessed. You don't have this dbook inside of you that eats up everything. Regulates the nervous system. Surrender regulates the nervous system. Yeah. Only if it trusts. If it doesn't trust, it won't regulate the nervous system. Meaning if a person is in a jungle and being attacked and there's bullets everywhere and you just say surrender, it's stupid advice. No, don't surrender. Fight back. Run away. Right. That's where you need to be present in a way. Understand the danger. So do that in a surrendered way. What? You could do it in a surrendered way. But I'm saying when we're talking here about, you know, letting go, you have to be able to be in physical safety to be able to let go. If a person is punching me, that's my that's my point. Huh? I think there was a time [Music] no one could do anything to me or else Stir the M.