Leah the Concealed World; Rachel the Revealed World - Torah Or Vayeitzei "Ulelavan Shtei Banos" #1

the yeshiva dotnet we're gonna move on today to Parsons by eight say page 44 the second column tough tough days I'm adalat of base column 4 that's page 44 on the second column e seat will the love on stay honest love on have two daughters [Music] everybody knows the positive hashes yeh say the whole story is introduced in the innocent verse the love on stay bonus lovin has two daughters che Megiddo Alea che McDonough Rocco the oldest one is layer the younger one is Rocco vie yeah have Yaakov as sorrowful Yaakov loves ruffle and he asks lovin if he could serve him for seven years brothel bit McDonough and Lovins responses better to give it to you than to give hurt anybody else touching very good yes very good the my memory is from the year tough cough I an olive that's what we know which means 1810 tough call Phi an Aleph that's what that's what I know that mean that's what I know about the mind so he starts off he may now we have this you say that pervades really many of the my martim and its really an axiom in tighter in all segments of Toyota and that is that every character in Hamish Antonov is not just a physical historic figure historical figure who lived at a certain point in a certain place but each character represents a timeless characteristic that exists within the human psyche or to put it differently all the characters and himesh our personal characters their their internal characters there's the love and inside of me there's the heavy land Cayenne inside of me tis Adam and Noah and Vashti and Aakash varies and pyro yin and Yosef and the brothers and yak evasive Leia ruffle and they're all inside of us so these characters are really prototypes they're people of course but they're also prototypes they represent something and their stories are there for individualized stories as well and that's why when he starts a mime and he'll start to male and Raquel in terms of spiritual spiritual dynamics or energies it seems strange and Leia was a woman and Raquel was a woman resistors etc that's of course true but each one like every person represents a certain personality and a certain character and a certain meda etc so he melee of an awful to understand lay an awful you have to understand that it's I see so much of and I see sediba represents the letters of thought in the letters of speech or to put it in different words how Alma discursive almond is galleon the hidden world and the revealed word this says entire any that lay is Alma this Casa lay is the hidden world and ruffle is Alma des Galia the revealed world and what this immediately tells us is that when you read about Leia Rocco one has to be sensitive to the fact that they were two extremely different people not just two sisters who look differently or the different looks represent different realities different types of souls what's the difference between mahashiv and deburr the same different in armor disgust amethyst god amethyst cos he means a hidden world I'm a disgusting means an open world when you speak I can hear you when you think I can't hear you the Gemara says famous limps off him in of them your day a map the Libra schalke very no man knows what another person is thinking and it actually allows us to survive imagine everybody would know what everybody is thinking about them all the time it would probably be a little complicated no right you agree okay it would be an interesting world right would be it would be a lot complicated okay fine so I mean I would say many marriages survive because people don't know what the other person is thinking right and then hopefully you relax after a few hours business relationships etcetera shoul relationships right you don't always tell the guy sitting what you think it would it be easier if what if everybody knew what everybody thought the boundaries would be Glenn yes bees that's that's true you just may have to live alone but yeah I don't mean you I mean some people we would learn to control our thoughts or learn in desperation to repress our thoughts this is in control and repress so my shava is an internal world my shove is my world Who am I and deburr is how I projected how I'm projecting to the outside now when he says here my shove and DeBoer he right away says alma discuss our mothers Galia to clarify what he means serve and dipper is very clear if you see by my services Isis on my chakra Isis a Dipper because we don't realize we think in letters just like we speak with letters you can't think outside of words and letters that's usually part of our my shovel we everyone think about it right pictures right but when you're thinking about things in a processed way you think in a language you probably think in English but think think about how you think you always feel a language in your thoughts that's why even in my shovel he says here I see some I saw now there are higher levels of marsh other higher levels where you graduate I see us but generally as we I'm thinking about something where I'm thinking about an idea and I'm trying to develop it or analyze it or thinking about a dilemma whatever it is I think in a language so there's also letters in thoughts just like there's letters in speech generally speaking but nonetheless you can't compare the concrete quality and texture of letters in deboard to the quality of letters in my summer which are so much more subtle and so much more refined to the point that you don't have to prove to people that they're thinking in a language because they don't realize it in words it's obvious that you need a language and if you don't understand my language there's no way you can understand my message because the words are always conveyed through letters but then he adds Alma discuss Almeida's golly Alma discuss a means that generally layer comes from a hidden world and russell comes from a more revealed world bozell indian by artists are higher and this is the meaning of the per second to hidden in howl actually word over de Mello says as howl if may Hashem but art so sapphire now what's the concept of I'd say sahayam Bart Sassicaia means I will walk before Hashem in the lands of life - I Roxas not Eretz a sign but arts us he says basil roses but over time Elif is probably speaking about the land of life the land of holiness the land of air too strong why does he say by our choice ah hi the answer is because there are really bays are otters should his mantra be somebody to show your Khayyam on yuusha may happiness me Liberty strong when the base of meekness existed both dimensions lay and Rock'em thought and speech Alma discuss in Amanda's Galia both were revealed in heir to throne but for her ikura apprentice Rocco but the primary dimension of what was revealed what was mayor's revulsion across a Karaca bias cause alcohol Rahula Karaca bias which means the foundation of the home the Iker of the home she is called Yaakov zakaris a bias like she was the main the primary the word Iker Icarus she was the primary source or foundation foundation of the home ki mahashiv amidst Lobby she's betrayed Hadid were vada brahim is gone because generally the way it worked was the thought is enclosed in words and the word gets revealed you don't know my thoughts you know my words but my words hopefully contain my thoughts so you have access to my thoughts through my words so the time of the basin Victor's lay and russell both both of their energies shine in Eretz Israel but Leia came through ruffle ruffle represents words lady represents thoughts the Merkava comes out through the dim well the fish are official chronicity board since ruffle represents speech who almond is Galya which is the revealed world Lacan hiya Osbert see strong gilja la cosa is Baraka that's why the time of the base--emitter there was such a revelation of godliness shaiiaja common vedalam value of her condition of e and she saw was populated with people who were ballet great sages and also men of divine inspiration and prophets commercial Piracicaba univee haskell shana divorce rate elevator stop Rashi and Tanaka Jana and Haskell explains that Navarre really dwells only in who based on a Gomorrah made cotton at the end of my cotton the who and that's why it actually says that yayaya testicle who prophesize outside of ancestral it's only because they began to prophesize in air too strong then your testicle continued when he went into gulls on the Harkov are on the river in Babylonia and Yummie prophesized after he got his neva after the spinner mount outside of register but they both began in ancestral why cuz an ancestral you had Leia filtered through Rocco layer represents the inner world Rocco represents the outer world when Leia is filtered through Rocco everything is revealed everything emerges so therefore when lay as access through Rocco your thoughts have a vehicle of expression which are basically words that's what happens and that's why I narrate Cicero we had art soy sapphire Leigh Ann Russell working in unison Leigh Ann Russell here are symbolic obviously in unison godliness is revealed you have Nouveau we have raw how could this you have a tremendous the antennas are up people are sensing godliness in a very very powerful way over flat besides them a vignette based on victors yeah Josh Ross are Shinobu condition condition you have pudding the two men we have avoided soccer bondage the cameras ashore at H Mel Milan all these elements represent the fact that it's destroyed there was like an antenna that was so sensitive to the godly energy and it became a reality it that was manifested in the land both in terms of people in terms of personalities in terms of the base of mikdash in terms of the stream of the Kurdish Ekadashi andorran vitamin and avoid a soccer bonus all of this was a place where the Shema was much more manifested in a revealed way and like in everything in the world there's always Zelda Oh Massa right so the clip of therefore is also very spiritual which this is the reason that avoid the Zahra we once spoke about of I deserter was so rampant hearing bias Trish there was such a great temptation because the spiritual language was a very common one a spiritual high was very common so therefore clipper had to contend with that reality so our Vedas are offered peace deep meditative skills and it offered them journeys into mindful states of consciousness that allowed them to suck out very profound spiritual energies and experience a certain form of spiritual ecstasy without the discipline without the structures put it this way that kedusha demands often with a lot of promiscuity but of a desert was so compelling it's very hard for us to understand even what was so compelling about it because embodies shame me and especially after Corbin by a shame this is primarily in by his region and with the fire used to come down from calm down to burn up the car bonus and there was order of atomium and the buyers Shanee readiness was also very diminished as we'll see but the afford the buyers Shanee already the Gemara says in Misaka son hadron amass after yuma that the eight Sahara of avoid is Zara was bottle it was was destroyed it works both ways in kedusha also that the spiritual conversation of Judaism was diluted it was compromised often the structures to cover the powerful structures took over rather than the internal conversation with God but there was a very deep conversation with God that was happening because layer was filtered through raw now something happened shengcún after Corbin base a mixer after the base images destroyed the gaba you saw the Jews go into exile but something else happens it's not only geographical the goal say mama Sheena the divine presence also goes into exile she heaps in is ruffle the stream is always associated with ruffle she - Kalos Rafa went into exile that's why ruffle Mavic Alba now she cries at the end of your meal the ioan sorum she goes into gullies in the seventy spiritual princesses I insert represent the fact that there are generally 70 nations and the 70 nations each have a sire which is like the spiritual energy is called like spiritual Prince or minister so to speak the one the energy that's in charge on that region or that country that civilization or that nation and Rocco the Sheena goes into golus into those realities it becomes part of that civilization in eggs on the a miracle ow Maris ideally show Sameer is mana bioody Burma's government therefore Russell does not shine at all in the same way that she was revealed during the time of the Mesa meters when the de Bourgh when the deeper meaning the words were revealed mashenka are Chavez if Carolyn a gazelle now llama to understand what ruffle is now you have to compare it to what the passage says can rock Olaf Nagar is easier now llama which is a pasta can you Shia Perignon get Mo Rocca means a sheep a u e w e that is a Rahul in Hebrew Raphael is a sheep right from the fish eat family are you are you not at you as a you were you as a you now you understood right k raka like a you the snake goes is out in the presence of her Shearer's those who shear its wool alum mushy remains silent sheep don't protest they allow you to cut off all their beautiful majestic splendid bright wool quietly they are docile submissive and you did she say as a chef Scylla right some people are Bulls and some people are sheep in English as what machine it represents she's silent she doesn't revolt that's Russell and golus sometimes people are in that state you know do whatever you want and I don't say a words why you're in a state of exile here you're in a state of concealment and that's what the Sheena allows to happen in gulls unlike in the base--emitter SHhhh when Russell was in full splendour she was fully revealed and she was expressing ultimately Leia's energy that was filtered through Rahul so you had godliness revealed now via voice but there is be rooted in God was divided changes its Buderus be ruin be rim doesn't meet be rude him is a whole different of either we ruin him is back to the idea of boiler sorting selecting designating separating be room generally in one word means struggle what struggle struggle is to find the angel that's trapped in the marble I used that expression just reminding they asked Michelangelo who was of course a unique new talented sculpture and how he managed to to sculpture out these magnificent magnificent ah David and other ones I mean magnificent how he did it so he explained that he really didn't do anything like all great artists they don't do anything right he said I saw the angel trapped in the marble and I chiseled away on the marble and I set the angel free so that's what be rude it means be rude it means the angel is trapped in the marble and all you have to do is chisel away but that's very hard because you don't see the angel in the marble that's when something is in Collis you don't see it so that void the today's but there is we were to look for the to look for the the goodness the inspiration the godliness cuz Russell is not beginning when Raquel is big you Louie and Rocco represents a very deep spiritual energy so spirituality is because then that voice does not be room it's a very different [Music] so that's why the great struggle then was off I desire the great struggle was over a desire in other words the question would be am I ready for that relationship am I ready for that intense relationship with God or not where am I gonna channel it where am I gonna channel it now it's unavoidable I loved is a relationship going on if there is a relationship going on that's a different avoid o me calm a coin but here's the catch McCormick ammunition Mayberry to sloppiness layer Rocco can go into Collis Leia never goes into godless that's the paradox the subconscious the true unconscious can't be manipulated it doesn't go into God so layer remains in a Chester all the hemad raiga Yaakov I am apprentice rock that the key about lay layers are complete weakly higher state of consciousness they rock what you think you can't express often in words and we know as a story in periods i am replying Vittal says that his rabid i reason once took a nap Shabbos afternoon he woke up and from the nap and he says that he just experienced cytus are tired the parsha of Bullock and Billy crying beetle asked if he could give it over she says he slept like an hour - he says even if I speak for 80 years I can't say what I saw we see generally that what you process and thought to say it is much longer you all know you could think about something in 30 seconds you could cover the world you could sell your business a hundred times and buy it back and make hundreds of decisions now I say what were you thinking about where do you want me to begin it was just 30 you would daydream for 30 seconds because it operates on a different level time becomes you know time bends to use that language it everything changes what you have in my Shover to bring down Indy Bohr is a whole different reality that's even thoughts that you can articulate then there are thoughts that are even deeper than you can't even articulate you don't have the words for them generally words are containers let all letters are containers the more it has to come down the more it has to shrink the more it has to be limited you'll see a fascinating phenomenon you talk to a person about sports if they know about sports they could speak for hours without stopping for a moment for out you go over to the same person and you say can you describe to me who you are in your deepest core most people won't be able to speak about it for more than 10 seconds and even that will be very difficult for them more than sports you could just spoke about for hours I'd asked you who you are in your deepest place that's old that's you not about sports the weather you could speak about Trump you could speak about Hillary you could speak about even more but or or less but yourself the answer of course is I'm talking even if you trust the person you don't trust the person you don't trust the person the answer is because words are containers and because their containers so things that transcend those containers are very hard to limit and worse so things that are more superficial the words can easily become containers for them because what are they containing they're not containing deep light but the deeper you go into yourself the more you will struggle to find words people will say it hub niche de verte what does it mean I don't have the one and you have the words one you don't stop speaking you don't stop talking why don't you have the words the answer is because words are containers and containers are finite they're Caleb they're finite the cup has seven ounces it's too much to say and sometimes it's too deep to say I don't even know what myself I haven't processed it I feel that I sense it I experience it and the deeper it is the less words and that is why people humanity invent two different languages besides words for example we have the language of poetry what is poetry poetry of course use the same letters we use in the alphabet but poetry lends itself to contain emotions that regular sentences paragraphs etcetera would not convey and then we have a different language with the language of music the language of music is also a language every song tells a story but it it lends itself to encompass an energy that can't be conveyed through words Palitana used to say that a nwith out words is much deeper than a with words and then you have of course the sound of silence silence contains things that even a song and even an poetry and certainly regular prose or words can't contain so the deeper it is the more it has a challenge to be filtered through deeper in the time of the baser McNish all layers energy come through ruffle ruffle is the filter who sees the strainer and therefore this tremendous revelation because Rael is expressive ruffle is articulate ruffle is the revealed world she brings it out so you have when you're dealing with godliness it explodes it emerges in the air it engulfs the ruffle wedding to gulls now llama so she's now quiet what remains however Leia lay is much higher than not he says commercial Amish of is she ruin is Vinay Lessman I did she ain't about goats my Chava transcends did but it's more subtle it's more spiritual its more elevated and what you when you talk about my shovel you have to understand there's two things on myself there's three things there is my shovel that prepares for speech that's my shovel that we think similar to how we speak it's still much higher and faster right sometimes a person thinks they have to have the Vorta my shove and now start saying it it's very difficult right and sometimes people don't even realize how to dramatic the transition is you have to give a speech you have to give a presentation you have it in your mind and then you start saying it and you see you don't have it because it's a special journey from the world of much love to the world of deeper and sometimes a traumatic one for in some situations a difficult one it's not an easy transition in your thought that was very rich and it came out he said it didn't come out you excited about it by you but speaking is a whole different art because speaking actually is more listening than speaking speaking you have to understand the audience and what their experience and and who they are and what that's a whole different thing my shove is very not selfish but it's internalized that's my shovel one level of my shop that's letters then there's my shove in pictures visualization which is even higher but then there is and in that itself does various levels of my chakra but then there is much over that you're not even aware of those are what we would call unconscious ones unconscious thoughts are thoughts they're deep experiences not only don't they come out in a revealed way in deeper they don't even come out in a revealed way and conscious thoughts so when you talk about my shove it is my shove on top of my shove on top of my shovel and it's always higher than deburr see he ain't above us and that does not go into exile it does not get manipulated because it's not expressive because it's not expressive if can't go into Gullah sit can't go into exile can't be hijacked because it remains concealed so it remains immune or it means protected Kyra called me remember she asked me many pests are some of oiliness of its enemies manizales my shrinking Achilles MEMS do ever charmeuse Irish Leia I miss makes parshas true there are two men's disome emphasis on immense tumour Memphis is an open man MEMS tumors immense surface it's a sealed man then your shiet is a pus it that in middle of the pasta Kiev a slice ma'am Lamar Baha Mishra or lishala ad in case I think his sharp Eric tests is a Schlossman mem Souza means it's sealed off nobody could be a parasite they're MEMS to momentum so so you have parasites they come and take it from rouxelle that can be parasites unique asafoetida means external forces that are parasitic they feed off your energy from leia she remains aloof because she remains aloof so therefore it doesn't lend itself for people for she'd sign him for external forces take a Salafi ulama discuss Eva hello but because layer represents the unconscious world of concealment the calf ain't huh gilja lacustrine bed - so mary fabulous showbiz might be something to Chicago that's why the revelation today in nature so you can't compare to the revelation all the time with the base I'm a judge because then you had Rahul America strong and rough whole filtered it in a revealed way Russell spoken once Rocko goes into goalless what remains an artist wrong layin layer remains an example a is inaccessible layers very hard to have access to layer because for layer you have to go into very deepest places of yourself and that's what remains in excess also you don't have the same guilty however something else happens Macomb occurred at tsadikim hajjabdullah Michele Boris the great tsadikim in the land yet available housing action of Bertie straw house others Alyona Co said I feel homey Marshallese secrets of thinking to myself as man our bodies tsadikim could take get today energy strong higher deeper huh suckers deeper levels of perception then what's a dick him on equal par an equal level would have received this man Tobias why because in order to have her sucker today you have to get from Leia and if you're going to Leia it's unfiltered and if it's unfiltered it's far more profound may after shaggy the penis my shovel you're in a committee a dial of my Loomis lobsters below madam or because you're grasping the energy for my shovel yonder from the higher thought beyond being enclosed in the world of speech Orca my harissa take a person like that reason say he's sick I saw a satsumas marshal a secret said they can glow but they're a second mine how do you explain the phenomena of dynamism the resale revolutionized the landscape of Jewish mysticism in a way that was unprecedented in all of Jewish history the result was a product of God a loser lived in the 16th century spent two years in swathes passed away Xinhua midbass 1515 72 at the young age of 36 two years taught but what I really did in the world of hakama semester was unprecedented till then and he want to leave it knows anything about history or ezel it was like everything he touched was transformative he said we did that Rizzo get this from no Bassam if there's no Navi him no ruler not that level of Navarro Hakodesh that level no were the two men the whole gilja Lacoste that existed was gone it was this he didn't with the 16th century it was a very difficult time Adam an empire nature slowly goes to the gallows where does this happen from the answer is and even rush be driven by a high e who lived in godless he lived after the urban he was in a cave oh so Nancy saw so you have here he's bringing an example of that reason because the reason was like as they say you know Miss American office so this P came down from heaven where's this phenomenon Daffy Kim goes the answer is precisely that on one level when you come into a too strong you may feel very little you may feel nothing or you may feel very little you don't have that explosion articulation and revealed manifestation of divine energy it's still not good splurt that just rolls out you stroke even many of us simple Jews feel something in Eretz Israel but what is that really you know what is that is that cultural is a how authentic is and how deep it is but certainly it's not like Miss Maha bias because the explosive energy is not there because Rafa went into godless together with the shackled represents Tichina the schemas and goals and goals are different realities devoid of the room the room is not about inspiration but room is about working through the issues and finding the angel trapped in the marble and then finding your inspiration but what remains an artist all is Leia and Leia is much deeper than awful but because she's deeper than awful she's inaccessible it's very hard to put your finger on Leia because it slips away you want to talk about it and then there's no it to talk about it doesn't lend itself easily to access it's like the subconscious of a person or the superconscious of a person what does your super conscious look like or what does your subconscious look like I use super kosub means under super means above so I'm using super conscious rather than subconscious Kessler is above cosmonaut lower but the concept here is that it's beyond beyond the consciousness so we all have brains who filter out our subconscious and they allow us to experience a fraction of a fraction of a fraction of a fraction and less of our subconscious our brain evaluating what you can deal with today and what you can't deal with today and if you mature a little bit the brain will give you a little more of what's going on but to have absolute revelation of the subconscious you know what people would look like you know what you know what you would look like to yourself we survived because of ignorance ignorance is our Savior and ignorance I mean ignorance of self we survive that way we can function as half-baked normal people I'm speaking about myself I know you're all very normal but we can function as as semi normal people because we don't know we don't know what happens when you get access to to be no filter you know what we call people that have no filter we have a name for them are psychotic now sometimes they speak the truth sometimes they mama speak the truth but nonetheless the filter is protects us because we're limited and when you have finite vessels that energy has to be limited but what happens if you can access in kedusha layer then it's a whole different level of a sucker that reads out when you in there just roll if you don't happen you don't tap it but if you tap in you tapping into lay another Oahu and if you're tapping into laya it's a whole different level of energy like a nuclear energy so therefore there is al etcetera these types of personalities they tapped into the patina of layer and therefore their ha saga was even greater than the time of the base uh McNish which doesn't of course take away from the base on victors and all of its revelations but precisely the Sasori becomes the milah would you say that somebody like that result was the russell where they brought it out in two words for everybody else perhaps really understand what he means he was extremely esoteric right it's it's it's mostly cold language when he writes almost all of it is is is is absolutely mysterious no that's a great question the answer is because they didn't have to go to layer layer you're saying why then didn't they go straight to layer cuz layer was there the answer is I'll tell you what we learned about market when lay is working through Russell that's how you channel layer when there's the system becomes the Milo like we spoke we spoke about you know on a different level of course this is now we're not dealing here with clipper we're dealing it with kedusha but that concept is when Alea is not available when lay is not available because Russell is not here then there is the impetus to challenge to be able to reach layer yes theoretically the engine is there even then but since there's a dealer through Rasul so that's that's so to speak it's workable it's reality it's happening that way in other words then very well the paradigm and the time of the Mesa meekness is one where rock elastic area bias so therefore any experience ultimately somehow fits into that paradigm it becomes ruffle it becomes de Bourgh because that is that is how we're functioning that is the energy that that's the mechanism that's used that's the energy were tapping into is theorem it sees of layer beyond ruffle of course there is but when I'm accessing that Macias I'm accessing then according to what's available here how we're functioning how we're operating the ruthless that is vibrating in Eretz Israel during this mana bias which is a tremendous it's got his gallows because it's working with rock in the in in the time of gallows that's mechanism is gone nothing is even articulated which is why godless is godless and so powerful and that's the whole idea of godless it's not just geographically even energy Strothers godless even as you saw they say me place - ain't no galino merde say no even though here anneristo was legally no merit say no because godless is geographical but Cullis is also existential it's a sense of displacement so when there's that spiritual displacement so then if I access layer I need a whole different language it's a completely different language so we have from here I mean he right away he started with layer nothing right I went on a trip to history with her to stroll and goes but of course you have to bring it back to layer and rock to the literal layer rock we have we really very I would say penetrating probably unprecedented insight into these two people layer and rock for a meal a eraqus Baraka Lucy a fast tire VFR smart layer Rocco was not just an older sister younger sister Rocco was beautiful and Leia didn't have that that beauty of Rocco I mean that's on a physical level but there's something much deeper about layer and all that lay is really a soul who's obviously in touch with Alma discussion she's in touch with the hidden world she operates on that level Russell on the contrary is the great filter she's in touch with Alma de Scalia doesn't mean she has no armor discussed of course she does but Rama discussed she has a home it has a whole manometers galleon Leia is on the discuss beyond our mothers golly in other words her ominous cassia does not have a home in alma de scalia unless she's together with ruff that's the point when she's not with Rocco she is in the world of alma discuss so now we understand when Rashi says that lay used to cry a lot right layer used to cry a lot what what are tears it doesn't mean she quite she was at the press so she was not leia was a giant leia was a great song but tears come from things that you can't articulate why do people start crying it's overwhelming it's intense it says enjoy winter be a key we used to say she assured him soul go in of my sea would start crushing them is not a tragic not a tragic story it's not a a if it's not a huh it's not even clay Helles share shittim is full of love and promising and then romance and affection right it's such an overwhelming experience like you're in touch with an energy that you've thrown have words for it you don't have words you start crying sometimes you start dancing sometimes you start laughing but crying represents something that's very deep Leia was extremely extremely deep there's another minor of the ballot Anya actually I met can we advise it you made the copies by Sigma copies of it well he elaborates on this point here he continues on this we'll see her continuum it's a sham tomorrow but there's another mind mer he says that's a minor the next year the next year by 8c this was tough to find out of the next year that never made it into Toyota but there's a whole other set called my Marriott mahakal which is like 25 spa room of the altar every besides a tiger and look at the Turner so red said my mother had morisaki and they probably have it upstairs so this it's year by year so tough koh phayam BAE's he has a minor on by itself and there he says something extraordinary he says Leia in Hebrew you know what the word Leia in Hebrew means anybody right the first time you have the word layers and patches by a row by you limb sohe Pesa then you have a partial schmoes neo Mitzrayim licious my Minaya iron then you have the Navi cries Neil I knew lacy you know what it means in all cases in all situations exhaustion defeat exhaustion Neelu they're blinded I can't find the door I'm exhausted Neelam it's time the midterm are too exhausted to dream that keep on drinking and it's always blood Neela inhalation you know he says God says I'm tired of coming to you you're always rejecting me in modern Hebrew they have layups lama dude a love of soft which means dread exhaustion I a fuss who names a daughter exhaustion layer means exhaustion right and what would the therapist say about it what's your name Leia Wow that's a good boost for self confidence you were born your mother looked at you and said exhaustion who names a child that way that's what playin clay means exhausted ruffle means are you Rocco is bigger Maitreya 238 the same game a trio of via he are there was light that's wrong and generally a sheep is a very bright animal the camera says in Shaba Zion Zion is in my time it is a mask aberration abrasion I'll show you some other naira most goats are dark color most sheep are white bright sheep are also easily accessible animals children who have issues with sensory integration right often therapists will say they should handle animals because it's therapeutically healthy but sheep are usually the easiest because there's least resistance even the way sheep convey their their emotions the mayor has more ear a common cost of a motor doc and we learned once in a mine man Emma about severe sorry man keV keV Asst canvas kesef if you remember huh yeah come here Felix over max of them - yeah cava so the keV s Rocco is bright it's white it's the gum a tree of I heat oil it's relaxed it's serene it's a docile animal it's an easygoing animal people who have farms no goats are difficult they're sly they're stubborn they're smart they're hoods binocs they're abstinent and sheep are very easygoing animals mama shoe layer means exhausting why are you aiming this layer so the outer Arab explains because layer wasn't exhausted because she didn't have enough sleep layer was exhausted because whoever lives in our murderous cassia is exhausted because it never stops and he says they look at thoughts you never stop thinking you could hopefully stop talking hopefully also stop but thinking you don't who stops thinking try stop thinking and if you stop if you try to stop thinking then you're thinking about the fact that you try to stop thinking and if you even try to try to stop thinking about the fact that you're trying to stop thinking you'll be thinking about what are you thinking even if you can clear up your mind right some experience of mock summer continues the world of ARMA discussing is dynamic it's never-ending and it's infinitely profound and complex that's the exhaust it's an exhaustion from being alert to very deep levels of energy rouxelle is much lighter light as in light and therefore light as in light as an li ght and light as in as in light literally light lighter lighter Bud Light yes yes so it really represents two realities and I think we can apply this also on our lives there are two types of souls and I think there's some people sitting in this room that will identify this will identify this quite easily or some people listening and that is there are people for whom they're perceptive they're very deeply perceptive whenever you're deeply perceptive things are more complicated right there's people who go into a Simca and they pick up everybody's energy and they come home exhausted for two weeks they have to recover and other people come home and around five minutes later they forgot they were there right sometimes you have a between a husband and a wife yeah the wife is like I can't believe what happened what he said he said he said I was like oh he was there you know what I mean oh he was just at the Shabbos table for four hours I you don't even know he was there you ready forgotten came he was there what do you mean like turned over my soul and you don't know so who's right and who's wrong they're booked people operate on different frequencies some people they feel things in a very deep way within themselves and within other people and they don't know what's their energy with other people's energy they get exhausted they're exhausted from themselves the first exhausting themselves not because they're superficial because they're deep Joseph - Joseph mark life the more perception the more pain the more you're sensitive to rial you're sensitive to reality there was there was a poet his name was vio a Jewish poet he lived in New York his real name was three my assignments happened to know him his suitor his pen name for poetry was V Y so he has a poem I once read it's called Hammami egg the leader and he describes their what a real leader is he says the real leader is standing in front of a cliff and he knows that with one move he can fall down that cliff but his shoulders are so broad and his stature is so tall that he eclipses the vision of the cliff from all of his students and disciples and followers so as they're following him they're following with security with serenity and only he knows that that moments that moment that little HOTAS tired that little thread moving in the wrong direction and everybody falls into the abyss but everyone is clueless everybody is unaware of it he says those are the real man he Camino wouldn't even guess what they go through because they want to project to the people the confidence that they can do it they don't want to fill them with the uncertainty and doubt because most people would melt they don't melt most people would melt so sometimes in a very powerful way people who are in touch with certain levels of energy it remains completely eclipsed to other people they just don't know about it it's not about easing it up it's about embracing your mission in life it's not about easing so that's where mental illness often comes from very deep profoundly I can't stop the thoughts I can't stop and it's not because they're less perceptive because they're more percent I don't have filters that's why Leia and Rocco ultimately have to join forces today we have to have a filter on the person you have to be able to understand you have to be able to understand how to live in this world with Maya it's not simple what Walker was there Oh like everything it's not good or bad it's just different realities yeah and debate Tommy the base--emitter all layer comes through Runkle and in terms of kedusha what that means is and to I'm just giving it this an example in psychology but in terms of kedusha what it means is that the kedusha can be articulated and relatable to all on some level when and this is the time of the godless it's not relatable because it's you need very very subtle perception and if you look at our chests at all you may see nothing there's nothing going on here of course there's nothing going on it's not your frequency there's nothing going up that somebody else walks dutchess something like oh my god like you know they I once saw a ladder a yield wrote to the love Ovid should have been the early 60s that he went a to stop people wouldn't go to Israel a lot then it was not so question and he took pictures and film got exposed remember the old pictures filum got it all the pictures got ruined and he was devastated he went he planned this trip and he took the pictures and and this all the pictures got real why he wrote the lavash and what was the rebus supposed to do he'll is Philip I don't know what this man wanted from the longer but that's what he wrote though so he writes back to him a letter I'm sorry this assignment then he says but maybe there's something very positive what happened because if the pictures would have worked out you would have thought that you were an artist wrong from the pictures you would have thought that you got out to Searle he picked I was here I was here I was here I was there and now you actually have to work it out to feel what that can hurt you sir you have to work it out internally you have no pictures now you have to actually were you and I just all Tucker you can't project it on the pictures instead so he wrote back to him mr. Saget Fred look as somebody once wrote a poem that heat went on vacation he went boating and he took a video of everything because he wanted to hold on to it you know he went rowing he took a video he went canoeing he took a video he went hiking he didn't want to do anything without a video because he wanted the vacation to last yeah so if he did this for two weeks wherever you want the video Cameron he says at the end he realized that his video camera was on vacation he was not there he was no experience so you could go up there to stir all that land you know this is a Strauss's ice cream what's the good ice cream over the Strauss yeah Strauss is ice cream a good laugh and Pena hood that so sexist from even the Koyama gate some kinds of fluff Kalia there's a famous Utah Madeira show me that deviate taiga and me by Malcolm X hud-vash it even makamaka words of toyota are poor in one place and wealthy in another place which means that whenever you learn any suit being a law firm the modern machine is social Canara whatever it is in any part of Toyota you don't have usually in one place all the information that you need to have in one place it may be brief concise so to speak poor in the sense that it's not fully developed to articulate that you can understand you look to another place and there you have more wealth and you have to bring the two together right so it is everywhere that's how it works one stood you borrows from the other and the other one borrows from the first that's all works same is true of course in all aspects of Thailand yesterday we started to learn the my material the lovage day bonus which was said by the ballot Anya in Tawfik affiant Aleph as I mentioned which is 18:10 and the main idea he brought out in the first section of the mine now the miner goes off to a second section was that raquel and Leia represents spiritually mystically two dynamics the world of thought in the world of speech the hidden world and the revealed world or in the original language Alma discuss gentlemen is Galya and he acquired to the two stages of Jewish history in the time of the base hamikdash when the Sheena was so manifested Lee filled in the Holy Land the idea was that Leia was being filtered through Rocco in other words the energy of Leia of the hidden world was coming out through Rocco who represents the energy that can be articulated and defined and revealed because she represents de Bourgh so therefore did were the skill of Dibby Dibby represents the ability to articulate things and tuning in to those things that can be articulated through speech in an organized fashion and therefore there was a tremendous explosion and revelation of godliness inerrancy stall in terms of the base emitters nevian valley rule hakodesh rosh hashanah or invito mem the carbon is the fire came down from heaven itself after the carbon-based emitters Rocko goes into exile Rock olefin a Gaussian Lama that's the concept of goddess Athena and I avoid there becomes one that is more focused on be ruling pirula miss sorting selecting dissecting struggling removing shells and husks and excavating right excavating and discovering the angel in the marble but nonetheless unites a straw you still have layer layer does not go into godless and Leia is much deeper than Rahul just like my shava is far deeper than the board it can't be articulated in deeper so when Leia is being filtered so to speak through Rocco lay is being revealed in a cohesive organized fashion in there it's a straw that's the time of the base I'm in touch when Leia is not being filtered through Rocco it remains s cassia dick it remains concealed and thus the Gila Kosan artists relax you don't have the healing because you don't have the raw but those people who can tune in to the energy that is available in air it's a stroke can tune in to how suckers Aliona CI sir to greater and deeper are suckers even then similar that they come on the same level what experienced it as my Mesa McNish because they're challenged to access the energy of layer which transcends deeply the energy of Rocco because it's a much sudden my shovin rather than our SOG and dipper it's almost like not watching you speak but watching you thing watching you think experiencing your thought or on another level not experiencing your conscious thoughts but experiencing your unconscious thoughts and he gives the example of that is our with the optional buddy I call you all in the time of godless not at the time of the base I make this a nonetheless there has suckers were were unique the next year topic of il Bey's Valtor never said another mind man also on this parsha top define base would be 1811 which is actually one year before his passing which was tough go fine gimel 1812 telescope dollar tapes it's a very short one and we made a copy of it I mentioned one idea from there so we're gonna go back to this moment but to understand what he says about Leia and Runkle here there's a few beef a few has baited that he said one year later that give tremendous clarification and also application to this discussion about Leia and Rocco and what they represent this my Mariner vehicle you could see it we made a copy here but Somerset my Mario admira's Akkad of the Year topic of iron Bay's that series of that year and it's actually a uniquely short memory they're usually not so short as you see they're usually longer but this is one one paragraph and if you look in footnote 1 on the word it starts in yin he says mitzvos conmigo Flavia - oi - at someone said it was safe for a tough client base it's a Masada who was the grandson of the ballot on his daughters son was was one of one of the writers of his grandfather's discourses and he wrote this down this piece that he heard from his grandfather and they still have the original manuscript and they printed it from his original manuscript from the Temasek who wrote these words that he heard from his grandfather and it starts well let's take a look inside immune keeps newer layeth let's understand the concept that leah was hated by yeah have a straw and yak of love draw which is a forest a Pella shove a pellet the turn entry says love and stay bundles shame on the dole Alea shame act an oracle by yaha Yakov is rock tightens it says the difference the eyes of layer were we were poor with soft reckless raucous means soft or weak or dim Rashi says she wept a lot and yakovel and Naraku is a fast 30 fast my Rashi's she's gorgeous her beauteous is dazzling that splendid now she says toy iron and moderate presents different things tire as the physique the symmetry of one's physique and Mara is deceived cluster upon the countenance the face of a person there's two aspects to the beauty of a body and she's both you faster davia far smarter but yeah the oculus Rocco he loves wrong and the love doesn't stop the love doesn't cease it's not like after seven years you know it comes down on the contrary when the yakov is deceived by his father-in-law who gives him lay instead of Rahu so it says that Yaakov consummated the marriage with Leia in the morning he seized by Heba boy care he may he Leia and he comes to lovin and he says love marry me Sonny why did you deceive me I like Baraka love oddity I worked for Rocco and loving of course says I man I am the moral person you're the crook lay a cicada in Khmer no law says a brutal financier in our place we don't put the oldest before the younger you don't marry often all this younger sister before an older sister you finish your Sheva brothers Molly she was ice you'll marry Rocco and you'll work for another seven years you'll work for fourteen years to get your two wives and Yaakov agrees he goes through with he goes through an email marry Rocco he'll work another seven years and the tightest sums up the story by yeah why miss your uncle Melia he loves Runkle - but he loves it more than lay in the next scene is vaya a sham peace newer Leia Hashem saw that Leia was literally hated after that me that wants to understand what's this union of snow or Leia and rocket was loved how do you understand this besides you have a question till Yakov was banished married to a woman that he despised that he loathed and you see all of her children she struggles with this the first boy she names Reuven Rossum Barney God so my pain keyattr Yvonne is she now in love me Shimon shamash M he snow all nicely God heard that I am hated lady now finally my husband will become a partner in a pond he loved so this is an experience in Leia what's to have one of this what's the understanding of this how come the reason is this Misha penis Leahi Guevara behind the Madre mía contrary to what one may think intuitively when they read a story or maybe exactly what one would think intuitively Leia is extremely an extremely lofty person a very sublime person she's in a very very deeply spiritually sensitive person I know penis a mob on him when it says in to Hill him aim her Bonhams Mesa she is the mother of the children chamois Doshisha schwate remember she is the one who ultimately brought into the world six of the sluttin of Claudius no Rocco brought to the isida Mohammed Bilhah brought to Zilpah the other maid brought another two so between all of them you had six and layer herself is the ultimate aim abundant would bring she she shot the lock Ain and his number six is important the number 6 6 let them come from the Lehane Moya Kiriakou and that's why the archive could not really recognize her what does this mean you could add recognizing so who premise mythos alyona's Jane LaMotta Marcello Yakov represents the higher godly me dies or as it's often says in the my Martin grima's aza a romper which is basically the combination of Hazard gorot if Aris necks are Heidi site those are known as the middle is Alyona Hashem is mid-ice that's what Yakov represents and they are always LaMotta masse they are below awareness because emotions are born from cycle from awareness qiyamah dies named Jacques Mayol me die scum from sale commercia Casa de Bostick says in Michelin you'd baseless ISA - I knew who lo ish according to one's mind one's brain one saiful a person will be praised but here attachés are different the fascicular yoo-hoo Lelouch means you could also read it yaha a leash a person praises according to his cycle in other words our emotions are always commensurate with our awareness you cannot emote about anything without an awareness without a label emotions are usually born from awareness I love this person I despise this person I'm scared of this person I'm crazy about this person I'm jealous of this person or this thing where this item every emotion has to be preceded by thoughts that label it define it dissect it and then you can emot-- and that's why even though sometimes emotions feel so intense but the fact is the way you think about things is ultimately the way you feel about things we respond emotionally based on awareness sometimes we don't realize you could think about it in a different way because we take our thoughts for granted then we believe that they are absolutes but the truth is the feces loyola wish me guys are always based on sale the in pain how safe collapse more ulam i Liberec man so the sale itself is always higher than the mid this it's a period deeper than images for shovel primis layer and that's where layers like we looked in the mind meditator or lady is my Shover layers Alma dis casa Yaakov is mid this so that means layer comes from a place that's deeper than Yaakov spiritually psychologically deeper than so generally we say that I've Rahm was the pinup Cassatt and yet took with the pin of glory the Zohar says this and Yaakov was the print of Tavares in rafterman the Pharisees considered by the vortex the center of the midnight so that's why we associate him with with the mid this general even though to meet us at the Farris witnesseth let's consider by the central the central middle hello sheep remastered ownership a seho when you speak about Leia saiful itself has so many layers layer represents the final rung of Safehold the hina penis I see some Arshavin which are the letters of thought say hey Lulu a house a home which are really the garments of sale because all ideas are cloaked in thoughts ideas a cloak them force pictures truths what we call a say home ideas the way we process ideas is by thinking about the ideas can you tap into an idea without thinking about the idea that's that's a profound experience we process ideas through processing ideas processing ideas means I'm thinking about the idea that's the lavash so even though my shovel we don't associate on distinguish between thinking about an idea and an idea but the truth is ideas and thoughts of the idea are two separate things my Chavez considered the pinnacle reign of psycho because it's the lavash for the cycle it what do I mean Oliver Oliver she means it's my handle it's my access to the idea how do I didn't have an idea I have to think about it and then I could speak about it but first as my rubber which is of a bush while came across layer that's why she's called layer shimon las nieves layer comes through that idea of means which means exhaustion tired Kumari viola limp say high passes impressions my era it says that the Malakand and struck the people of his dying the son of aliens they were blinded and therefore viola they they were exhausted from looking for the door to be able to break into White's house they're searching and searching and searching to the point that they they just fell from exhaustion and radix to much my evil imps a opossum so layer is layer denotes ifs exhaustion she he new atomic because layer represents something that is forever exhausted tired why Mac Meister maka bellows are spar bit Smithers believes because she's always receiving a flow of energy and it never stops okay I'm a shovel machetes Thomas because thoughts are always moving Rafa Ljubica ye-yeah shaving even when you're sleeping you would think you could shut off your thoughts you don't shut off your thoughts your just dream but they're always thinking you're always experiencing a flow of something coming into you and therefore Leia is always dynamic there's always a vibrancy there's always a flow because in the level of my Sava the energy never stops so she's always getting our spot she's always experiencing something stimuli and therefore it's extremely exhausted Tomek Alma coin Gila Milam a amid nurse Jane LaMotta Masekela Camry but even though is saying it's my shovel it's completely higher than the mid this because midlas are in a different realm than seho they're lower than said ho so this is a completely different realm than me dice layer is above the la Haine mahi kyriaki and that's why Yaakov couldn't recognize who she really is because Leia was so deep and so beyond him he could not recognize her true qualities mashenka Rocco who put in Asylum Habibullah Rocco represents the world of speech salamat the mechanism in the supremacy Anka which actually follows the me dice it follows their motions it receives from Yahoo therefore look at this line the Lehane hoist Elias Noah that's my layer was hated you know why he'd of Rahan Elam Oh wolf Lamia saga in a vain by 10 o clock we hate what we don't understand things that are concealed and beyond our comprehension we cannot wrap our brains around it we have no pleasure in them they threaten us they drive us crazy they make us mad they frustrate us and therefore were forced to hate them we're forced to hate them because they're too deep they're too profound we don't acknowledge their profound a thing because it would be no justification for hate but that's the reality the sensation that it creates in a person mashenka mead over how musa from something that you get that you grasp but you wrap your brain around that you make sense of ah who Masonic a messiah this builds your identity this confirms your identity this answers your identity ah you've got it in your bosom you've got it in your brain your brain has it you walk out with a smile you feel good for laughs a nice arakawa move on and that's why Rocco is beloved there's L and there so now let's understand what is he saying a little bit in our words I mean this probably can be applied in literally hundreds of different ways or maybe much more infinite different ways I'll just say it and what want one application of it when he speaks here about me does say homage Java it's also in a very abstract way these medias emotions there's deeper words there's much over which our thoughts to say ho which are the ideas that produce the forms this is a rung of the human personality how our psyche functions we speak but you don't speak in a vacuum speech is preceded by the energy that fuel what fuels your words what fuels your words are emotions what fuels your emotions are ideas the transition of ideas to you comes through thoughts those thoughts are articulated in words and in letters so that's the wrong that you have so you have sacral layer mush of you have me toys Yakko if you have Rocco which is deeper if you understand the context of what he's saying though he's actually and here the words of the Toyota are very helpful Alma desk hacia and Amadeus galleon amethyst cassia means something that's concealed what does it mean it's concealed not that it's not deep it's much deeper and that's why it's concealed in other words I have no way of making sense of it so what is the different meaning layer in rock home here layer and ruffle represents two elements of your own self your own psyche layer Rocco is the part of yourself that you could make sense of it's the part of yourself that you can wrap your brain around it's the part of yourself that somehow you can structure you can talk about it it's articulated its armored is Galia it can be revealed it has a place where it's settling it's settled you can classify it you can put it in a box this is who I am is there a part of yourself that you actually make sense of try to do this all day make sense of ourselves make sense of our spouses make sense of our lives make sense of our children make sense of God make sense of existence we all try to do it in one way or another if you're having a good then you make money it just rips north it makes sense exactly you make sense out of your life right I go to work I come on with a nice paycheck even a nicer one even a nicer one my life somehow makes sense that's on a very simple level but on any level deep more deep more external more spiritual more physical we try to make sense first of ourselves the people around us and we love that the more you can make sense of it the more you're in control of it it's predictable it has a category it goes in somewhere there's filing cabinets your life could be put into places it makes sense we love that which we understand what people understand they love they respect they cherish because it works works for them we hate things that we don't understand why they shock us they frustrate us they force us to they rattle they rattle our comfort zones who wants to rattle their comfort zone you want to make sense something it doesn't fit in it doesn't fit in with your parent what do you do ah but that's that takes a lot of humility that takes the easier thing to do is as I mashugana these are meshugganah another way we do it is up the curses this is up the curses how do you do it to yourself uuuuu you crush it you deny it you repress it you d legitimize it you cursed yourself for it okay well lay around there are symbolic copies they man if these ideas manifested in the people but the ideas are represent every person there's Leia obviously that's this priority mail okay so one second so layer represents the parts of the self that I cannot make sense of I don't have my finger on it I can't wrap my brain around it it has my brain wrapped in it I don't have my brain wrapped around it it has me wrapped in it it's the part of me that doesn't make this now let's apply this to my subway took my mom she'll be this conscious thoughts that are already like DeBoer right when you're reading the speech you're also thinking when you're reading a paper words you're also thinking that's already much over of the world of the motor that's articulated mass of them and then there's here we're talking about my rubber that's even higher than me does what would be my summer that's higher than me there's say oh that's higher in the mid this here we're talking about emotions is my articulate itself Who am I this is who I might my articulate itself say so and much over here is talking about a higher self that gives you birth to my minister it's the mother and the mother means it's the origin it's the source it's not only safe home means okay yeah this table is brown and I like you to call a brown I'll buy it for my house sale means all levels of awareness that give birth to all of your emotions how much do you know of that all levels of your awareness could be conscious could be subconscious could be a little conscious could be super conscious could be sub subconscious and could be sub sub sub conscious and more I'm not making up terms or not but the concept you agree it's like how many layers how many basements do you have you know you have one basement and you have the cave and in the cave you have another cave right Laura some a cappella we discussing the until the lack of the emotional aspect where's the intellectual intellectual we say I don't understand this it's Anna my realm of intellectual base but emotionally I can't expand into that world because it's too threatening to me it's like the division well emotions are very much how I relate to the world the most Shinzon how I relate to the wood they're always fueled by an awareness person's not intimidated by an intellectual and yeah a person that has to be intimidated by intellectual language I don't understand that it's above my pay grade but emotional I understand how you're responding to me like it makes me sad backing off exactly exactly it's already closer to the world of Dubois it's closer to the world of Dipper it's alma des Galia so I'm a discussion AMA this galley exists on many different levels right what's revealed and what's concealed but the concept is always the same concept that which lends itself to be articulated in other words you can define it why because it's restricted it's filtered it's boxed in so I can articulate it I can define that I could say it's this and not this and that which is far more nebulous far more elusive far more abstract far more intangible far more motions and the affort remains concealed not because it's less intense because it's far it's far more intense and therefore it has to remain concealed because it shuns to be articulated in a particular way it defies being restricted it defies being limited it can't be which is why our brain filters so much of our internal core and doesn't allow us to experience it not because it's not there because it's so there and it's so powerful and it's so deep and it's so infinite it can become overwhelming so it remains concealed and it has to remain concealed and when a person is exposed to that concealment it's exhausting it's extremely exhausting that is the pin of Leia it never stopped like you like you said yesterday some people say I just can't stop thinking so sometimes it translates unfortunately into a very serious you know mental challenge but we'll get we're talking here about the root of the idea even in spiritual terms and that is the concept that a person who is deeply deeply in touch with a source with a flow that never ceases and is it's extremely extremely intense it does not relax even in the in the sleep you can't relax them it you're dreaming about it too that causes in exhaustion because you're privy to so much more you see more you perceive more you're sensitive to more you're receiving much more and it's like those viagra Falls you know there's the flow of the sink there's a nice waterfall in the lake and then there's Niagara Falls it's a whole different level it's true that when you don't send something and you don't get you can't wrap yet it's very frustrating so it's very weakening wasting whatever but one of the great joys conversely is when you take some of you can't wrap your head around and then you grow into it I mean it's marriage what a spouse is you need to get each other the omnis kasi part that's a Greek I'm not a therapist emotion but it seems to be what so goes through therapy and a part of the cells they never push on this food the therapist makes them understand that is there's no greater nuthouse rather than that that's the process originally I hate it if I stick with it I'll learn to love it there's a trickle there's a light there's a glimmer there's a glimmer now so in every person do you have layer you have love in simple words Rocco is the part of yourself that you can make sense of and you do make sense of lei is the part of yourself that you can't make sense of it's very hidden it doesn't allow itself to be articulated because it's beyond and and it's it's really a very deep play to the person which comes from a much deeper space in them and because it comes from such a deeper space in them therefore it has those qualities of viscosity it has those qualities of on each other it has to do with the death deepest layers of the human psyche of the human existence that are very very profound and I can't I can't understand it it's too heavy it's too much that's my layout I usually don't know Leia I don't have a relationship with Leia and if I start having a relationship with Leia is like whoa whoa whoa whoa whoa let's not go there please let's not go there Rocco I love spending time with Rocco I'm good I have her I have Rocco she has me whatever it works it's a hand in the glove Leia doesn't fit so what happens there's a lot of resistance that's the word piece newer Leia means people resist layer we don't like things that we cannot fit into our paradigms into our comfort zones they make us annoyed and what do i do then what do I do the easiest thing to do is to say I hate you we're not the same type why maybe we are really the same type maybe you're triggering and me things that I don't want to deal with and therefore if I cut you out of my life I'll have much more peace what does it mean cut you out I mean physically you can mean emotionally I'll cut you guys mean I'm threatened by you I mean I just can't be with you in the same dollar armors well it just means I have to play a game with you but it's all different forms of rejection and it applies them in a very simple way sometimes actually many times there's different types of serums sometimes you'll hear a shear most Jews when they hear a shear they have one objective to make it fit into what they know already that's the objective of most Europe they want to make it fit in right that's why most responses that I will get over the years after Sheerness it reminds me of a Vaart I heard last week why does it have to remind you of what I heard last because that's what we do I have a filing cabinet of who God is what Judaism is what religion is what it's supposed to look like you added a new word okay goes into this private cabinet some cypher fine briskly refined housing is fine night to be hood to find a story of artichoke but it fits into the Max's meter connected me there's one big paradigm is ooh okay is another meter connected me and organize people they build their portfolios of religion that way what if somebody actually says something completely new so either you fall asleep which is resistance right or you start texting oh no you put him in hey them you put them in hey him you threaten so I did say I'm assuming that so that I said then you don't have to deal with it mister Guardium i don't have to deal with because they're crazy crazy people are crazy people or I say he's not crazy he's dangerous he's gonna destroy all of our kids the same thing it's resistance I cannot deal with it because there was 2 news but what do I do with it or maybe I can do something else but that takes a lot a lot of humility right a lot a lot of humility could do something else so the natural process is that slay up we hate expand go kill what's the other way I didn't want to say the other way because you have to figure it out but there's something else to sit with your pain to understand why you're resisting it what is it that you resisted because that's where the truth is don't make sense enough to manipulate us you know if we manipulate you have to sit with it let it make sense of you you don't have to make sense of it that's the big difference let it make sense of you you don't have to make sense of it you have to come with a pen and paper and classify it layer defies classification it's very exhausting to be in that mode that's why we don't do it we don't like it now go to the real they are oh okay in terms of a spouse in terms of a spouse it's quite obvious okay there is the Rocco and there's the layer there's the part of your wife or your husband you know there's some Russians at Kanye's listening this is part of your wife for the part of your husband that you make sense of right reached let me put it that way if you're trying to make sense of it you try this is who she is this is business is that right and in fact hopefully there was an attraction which is the reason I think mother says also love them Islamic our business is to actually you ran up should I move after Loretta Kamiya doesn't only go on strangers it also goes on your wife with a mitzvah a flair for Kamata at least like every Jew and the mother says Mitzvah Alya vasishtha it could go for your macabre your you simply feel free to love her as much as you love yourself the respecter more than you respect yourself so there's the element of my spouse that you call Rahul what's Rocco your fast car you are be fast mara Raquel is beautiful who calls her beautiful me I call her beautiful why could she's beautiful to me Lamar says incite their solace in the same same I shall bimah this works this is why you want that is right this is why you wanted this husband you love the humor you love the spunk you love the wisdom you love the depth you love the honesty love the candidness you love the ball about the sky cue love the sharpness you love the emotional sensitivity whatever I don't know what you guys were thinking about whatever it was hopefully all of them all over the I hope you like this listen that's what you want in a few faster Batman now she says tire admirers again tires physique symmetry and Marius Countians it's two separate things another my men by 8c what story what's my tire is balance symmetry is balanced you know symmetry an artist and then this Meyer is not balanced Meyer is the depth of wisdom that shines through the face that is taught in a mother but Russell is beautiful why is it beautiful you could say ah this is gorgeous this is a piece of art why do I call it a piece of art because I appreciate it I relate to it it's relatable it fits into my paradigms what are good spouses what a meaningful relationship is what a fulfilling marriages what a romantic loving joyous life together it doesn't mean there's no struggles as no challenges people are people that our moods change this positions change people both in struggles but Russell is something I could so to speak put in my box that's wrong finite finite yes deburr finite always finite that's the word men smell suka Leia is the part of your spouse that makes you exhausted why of course it's the same person that's the point it's always the same person it's not even your spouse it's yourself it's also your spouse it's also your children it's your friends everything everything in life is Leia and Rahul they are uncle it's also lay another it's also two people but like I told you every character and toyota's is a character in the south it's the part of your spouse that makes you exhausting and when somebody asks you what do you think of this aspect of your wife you say I hate it of course you hate it drives you crazy drive you mad frustrates you it annoys you takes you up like I can't deal with this and some people have this and sometimes it's overwhelming I hate this although I say what is it what is it I can't make sense I can't integrate it into me it just brings up stuff and again this is on many different levels this is not one voice this is many many different levels but why is it I'm being I'm observing something that I never made peace within myself and because I never made peace within myself I cannot make peace with that in you so therefore layer is exhausted then layer causes me to get exhausted for the same reason because it's challenging me to connect it to something I'm looking at something that does not fit into my comforts and it's rattling me shaking me up so what do we do we say get out of my life again we cut off keys snow away we cut our stuff so how some people there's a clear table they separate some people emotionally it may not be physically emotionally I create a new life for myself without you because when I look at you I get headaches I can deal with it so I go to places that don't give me a takes I'm not gonna sit with it it's too difficult or I turn you until me show you that so what is the easy thing right is that the t-shirt I'm very easy to get along with once you learn to worship me that works if I turn you into a sugar that's only wonderful she's crazy he's crazy they're insane I'm the normal one you want a normal person to be with a crazy person doesn't work so therefore Russell I love laya instinctively instinctively we have deep resistance - now how comes probably the line that I still look at it and it's astounding you'd understand a little bit of the history of philosophy and psychology and psychoanalysis and therapy and studies of self-awareness and a mango therapy and marriage therapy and this but this was actually said before the entire discipline was even considered in I in a primordial soup ok but now look at the next line in this minor the zojja Kinesis is lay a higher chilling me tighter and that's why Yaakov had to marry me Leia but only unconsciously it could not happen and in a way that he would agree with it they'd have to be slimming either he finish Allah my Allah may have the Hofstra life because letter represents something that is beyond his das so if you would consult e I play if he would say never it's beyond my das this is not me I'm sorry that's not my sugar so we marry Leia but we cannot be asked because if we're asked who will write or a reject it we don't like later it's not me I need somebody who's gonna be my soulmate not yes for me they're not God soulmate I feed my soul mate for this I have to know me but what about the part of me that I don't know I can't marry that person but there is a part of you that you don't know so what about whatever is saying is you don't marry the one person you marry two people you always marry two people your conscious self marries your conscious wife or husband your self your super conscious the self also malice and that Mary is your super conscious spouse's so Yaakov has to get 92 Leia but it's salami data if you would come to a queue and say look I should the Leia what you mean she was yeah it was like [Music] another sugar find here another ship of course superconscious always happens super countries so the romantic aqua ballet is not just a story in a love and he fooled them at the scene that it's a conceptual idea we enter into a marriage with Leia but always beyond our deaths because later represents that which is beyond my das so my das can't feel comfortable my doubts won't initiate the relationship I'm not going into this relationship a little with me it defines me a challenges me it's it frustrates me it rattles me it's annoying for me it always happens to laymen us so on a level of yourself where you can't make sense of yourself you're in a relationship with the aspect of your spouse that you also can't make sense of because it's beyond the conscious self in terms of kedusha a Verity Searle is the divine energy that doesn't lend itself to be articulated and now you are in the relationship but here is the key Yaakov wants to marry Rahul on the way the marry Rahul you always marry layer first because you cannot have a relationship with Rocco if you don't first have a relationship with your layer because if you don't have a relationship first with your layer your relationship with Rockville is based on cutting off who you really are so your relationship with in Rockville is really superficial so the only way you can have a real relationship with Oracle is if you make peace with Leia in yourself and in your spouse delay so that's why you have to comb Leia take an awful every night and take a cup size the stickum layer ticking off two days of Rosh Hashanah yet yes so another what we learned from this mind mer that the marriage of Yaakov Tali and Russel is a story about almost every marriage it's every marriage to put it in very simple terms whatever anybody is getting married they always think that my row hopefully hopefully I should say I know not always unfortunately somebody's forcing you into a marriage it's a disaster and you shouldn't allow to happen to you or to you I don't care which community Olivia there's no right to force people into marriage it's sheer cruelty I'm not talking about helping people work through their fears and challenges I'm talking about a person knows that I don't want this in the force then I don't understand the logic event until to blame it on Judaism is a separate disaster okay that's just the truth I have to say but unfiltered ah of course that's exactly my point if it's a prearranged marriage thank God runs the show then I don't know what to say but I'm talking about so to speak a conventional marriage which is at least not completely pretty clear and there's some level of familiarity or maybe even a deep level of familiarity you always think you're marrying Russell that's why you're marrying her hopefully if faster you fast Myra this is great it's gonna be beautiful you don't get married to get divorced and it's not how we want such the key thing is not supposed to come before my sex the condition only when you're learning Amara right you don't get married to get divorced six hours later before the end of the wedding they ready have a nuptial 28 million for the 28 million for him so I'm getting married to Russell because she's a faster be a farce Myra so we're always going to marry wrong and when you are planning to get married you're planning to marry raha but then there comes the next scene of the puzzle by yarbough boy care Mohini he Leia the Sun shines and you take a look and you're like whoa I ended up with Leia but that I couldn't have initiated I couldn't have processed I couldn't have created it I would never create it because the I would never be in that relationship it was created for me by me but not by my conscious me there's another element of Yaakov that took him to lay and lay it took him to Yahoo now there's another mind of the ballot ano Centauri where he describes why lovin is the one who did this max for now Bo I love him what lovin represents loving comes from the word white white is the color that includes all colors endless possibilities lovin is the ultimate crook spiritually means love and represents something that's not fixed in a particular image a crook represents somebody I said this today but tomorrow I changed my mind so in this world it's a horrible trait everything has a show ish in godliness it means the level of kedusha that's not fixed it's not stuck and therefore half with asthma squirty as Sarah's my name there's no one color it's not green or blue or yellow white is the source ultimately it includes it contains all colors so therefore loved one makes the switch because loved one challenges the person not to get stuck in anything ok that's again our Pyrenees in a different moment they also tell you everybody hates it so what happens here is when I get married I'm always planning to marry Rojo and that's how it should be and we make up in seven years and it's great or seven months or several weeks whatever whatever it is but you may have Carol my card number of Oscars when you get married maybe the next morning maybe the next year maybe in 10 years maybe in 17 years whatever it is Mahina he Leia and what happens when you see Leia oh I hate Leia I can deal with Leia get it out of my life you're not for me who who ever heard of this I never knew this I never saw this but the truth is there's another path the path is that you have to open yourself up to the part of you that you never made sense of and therefore open yourself up to the part of her that you never made sense of and then you can actually marry wrong with this is a path to rahul always leads through Leia because if not my relationship with Rahul is based on cutting off Who I am so I can't even love Rahul with my full being because my full being is not in the relationship because my full being remains detached from the relationship because a lot of my relationship with Rahul is still based on my insecurities so therefore it's through layer which is exhausting that I can ultimately redraw and as you we all know in the end of the story ultimately in the physical store Rocko passes on and Yakov remains married to one person to laiy banyak Cove is buried not with Rock Hall bought with Leia which is interesting because Rock Hall was as a dream but ultimately Rahul is part of Leia she's really part of lay Alma this galley that comes from under this gossler it's one world so the two sisters really merged so to speak on some level into one and Leia is the mother of the six Rutan now according to this I think we have a whole new depth in this mini egg easter all of the bad echinacea I'm gonna bring up some very sweet memories remember you have a deck Enosh but that can the Hudson veils the bride why does the Hassan Veil the bride what's the reason Jaime I mean hugging is different reasons for it one is the machine is on her face but it's an interesting thing that she's veiled during the hope and in many communities when he does the condition he doesn't see her she doesn't see him so you're putting your ring on her finger by many communities where she remains veiled throughout he says I react my qodesh ously arguably the most important moment of the marriage they're getting married it's like the hopeless everything is gonna be based on this moment for how you love us Allah how logically to this is the Collins condition a chess dish you need a get me over Hawkins it's a serious moment at the moment and at that moment he doesn't see her she doesn't see him for all he knows it could be Hillary okay just a joke but for all he knows it could be done another trivia he doesn't see her try the rational wisdom would say we getting married take off there but that exactly you don't cover up the merchandise she goes around seven times examining the merchandise and he doesn't see anything what's chopped so it says it's for him because Lydia was covered that's why you have come didn't see why didn't you I could see he's married the whole Mishnah why didn't you look she was well lovin was very fruit and it was a real thick veil you know was tenth probably or maybe ten Amish Arizona sh-she Jose nish so you couldn't even get a glimpse of a glimpse of a glimpse and and Yaka Yaka was the scene now we have my question is why do we want to perpetuate what love and love and did it he wanted a fool Yakko we don't want to fool anybody the EMA says you have to do the about that knish because basically what the bad echinus we're telling your caller is that I know that I'm marrying two people I am marrying the part of you that I see but I'm also marrying the part of you that I don't see and I know that when I'm entering into the relationship I'm entering into a relationship with somebody that part of them I don't see not because I don't want to see it but because I can't see it at this moment not because I'm dumb and naive but because that's life there is a journey into deeper and deeper layers of self and if you're not ready to marry layer you're not ready to marry wrong you're not ready to marry if you're not ready to marry layer then you're not really ready for a relationship because part of you will remain outside of the relationship and part of the other person will remain outside of the relationship because the moment you will discover your layer layer it's like well I hate you so therefore the but that condition is essential to that process so therefore yakov story is really our story so we marry layer we always merrily but it happened on a level chalet me das and the rest of your life you work that out you unravel you unravel that mystery where each day Amadeus Casa becomes more armadas Galya and then there's another layer of armor discussion initially layer causes exhaustion that's later initially layer causes exhaustion Bravo we said it's brought in Kavala there are many founder rights to a mammoth Thunder Maximizer or I mean the bane of Anathem Azaria funnel without the big look apollomon Italy he says Rahul is bergamot RIA ye he or 238 exact opposite Rahul is a deep bore light revelation raka walks into the room anybody says ah by here the light has come Rocco's about light light is about seeing I could I see what I get just like when you speak I speak I hear you okay I don't guess your thoughts I don't know your inner thoughts Rahul is the part of self that's fired you can shine a light on it in other words it could be seen it could be articulated it could be defined that's raka raka Liz do you Rahul is the Sheep now if that's the case so it's a whole different Allah's Rasul Allah there were two different types of people too you can't compare who Rahul was too right it was they were two completely different personalities two very different types of people Aemilia released the eyes of lay were very tender they were very soft he looked at the latest eyes you saw there's a lot there you could dismiss it if you were superficial but his argument here is that yeah Leia was hated not because she was a bad lady or because she was just you know never made it Leia was hated because she was too deep for most people and when we encounter very deep people we just don't like that why it challenges mediocrity mediocre people don't like big deep people they challenges us and therefore we do different things to them the first thing we do is we cut them out of our life emotionally and that was the story of Leia you know there's an expression somebody once said we don't love other people we love our version of them that's the key we don't love other people of our version of them I have my version of you and it fits with me and that's what I thought rob be faster if I smart the question is do I love you I love my version of you do I love my child do I love my version of my child it looks like you love your child but maybe only love your version of your child and as long as he suits the version perfect you know he goes on that path whatever that is I love the moment you're not my version it's like whoa I can't make sense of it there's no knock house here what is the community it's not predictable anymore once it's not predictable it's very very difficult to sit with it helps sense the humor helps humor helps some other things help to know if it's a solution para whether section works right same time very all in discussing to install me and just like broccoli late yet it's the right dose to start with Vale maybe we have to stop common hockey geekiest we we never would agree the reactive never beautiful tennis you move forward whom you confront I'm with its Kasia Commodus Galia we sink off a lame hiking gigas would be like Leia there's a part of the relationship that I can't ask the next year here will be Monday okay Monday morning not tomorrow and I um my brother is here for shoppers yes why does layer come first layer by definition comes first because that's the real relationship lay is your real your real self your deeper self it comes first number one number two it's a result of this to be connected to ruffle I really have to be connected to layer because if not I'm not connected to Rocco with my full self and I'm not connecting to her with her full self I'm just connecting with her in order to make myself comfortable I'm not really connecting there with my full undiluted itself I'm just connecting with her because that makes sense it works to be able to connect with Rocco in a in a real way I need to connect with lay in a deep way and ultimately layer will have to be filtered through rock that's what the base of Mukesh looked like Leia works with rock that's the unity of the two sisters the sheena filters Leia so I can articulate Leia and then there's a time of urban where you have to deal with lay itself in other words we would call that somebody who has a breakdown the urban is a break emotionally Mesa McNish is a cohesive site the Corbin is the breakdown of the personality your base um if this gets destroyed right your Sheena go and to Gois and all you have is these chaos in your life and now you have no choice to go to rock home cuz Rahel broke now now you have to go to Leia and that's that's the ariza the result tapped in to the infinite chaos of the universe that was only available in Gois but when he tapped into that he can heal the world because he went back to the original layer you get it so that Rizal was forced there he saw the Baal Shem Tov they were forced to tap into a chaos because the integration was not available anymore so they had to go and make real peace with Laird I had to be able to open up the world to the energy of Leia and heal it that was probably their greatest debt their greatest greatness because you know you where you run away from these stuff it's like nuclear energy there's a lot in this little mind is a lot here not so short as it seems this class is brought to you by the yeshiva dotnet please help us continue the classes make even a small contribution at triple w dot a yeshiva net / donate