Run from Hashem to Hashem

in this is in says as follows. There's a mitzvah to eat, to drink, and to be on and on. Meaning you would have thought that maybe one can fast on says but you shouldn't because if you're going to eat too much it's going to take away a little bit from the but says the there's a mitzvah to eat there's a mitzvah to drink and there's even a mitzvah to be bim as it relates to the in this iss the well-known in the first paracash that's quoted by the earlier inash ink. So this is this is 16 right in the beginning of the end of says the Torah the is to bathe and to take a haircut before and the reason we do this is it's based on a which is said right who's a nation like that has such a unique relationship both explain what do we mean when we say find me another nation like that understands the ways of their God if somebody has to stand in front of a judge because he doesn't know How is tin is going to play itself out? But you did not like that. And they eat and they drink and because they know that everything is going to work out fine is going to perform miracles for them. that when they're standing and giving it's going to be for that reason says the is to take a haircut and to bathe and to give gifts and this is a chuva it's a on all those people that think that the right thing to do is to fastash so says the you want to trace this 100 or so years earlier. Take a look at this Torah. The Torah itself traces itself back to a medish that talks about how the Yidden even though on Rash there's a Even though on Rash they're going and they're giving but at the same time at the same time they do it with a certain confidence. They do it. They they put on their finest clothing and they bathe and they smell good and they look good and they come in looking as handsome as they can possibly look and the reason is because they know they know that ultimately at the end of the day is going to perform miracles for them. The truth is if you think about this which is brought down and again is how you supposed to prepare for you're supposed to come in looking your finest and also how you're supposed to conduct yourself on right that's the way you're supposed to do it. If you think about it, it really is a tremendous. The reason it's tremendous is because so is the doesn't make sense. I hear that's the whole point of the despite the fact that it's the is what you're supposed to do. The problem is we do find that the is I mean open up any muser any you pick the muser whether it's the from it's the from the from the open up all the mus they all talk about the how the the fish were already tracing for a month from the time that we went ahead and we benched right from that point already there's an there's a there's a and now ALL OF A SUDDEN ON THE NOW IT'S GAME TIME RIGHT NOW THAT it's happening by saying we don't say on how in the world could you go ahead and sing that's not a time to go ahead and recite the so it's a little pier now again there's a supposed to be supposed to You got to find that balance I suppose but I think it's just practically speaking what's the you know is but there's an idea that's expressed by the they all say it in in different but the mahalak goes something like this if you take a look at that beer agra that we just mentioned it's the first beer agra it's a cotton olive in simmon tough after he quotes the Torah the that's quoted by the Torah as the to this idea of he said there's another and this is even earlier than the and that is a it's a ina it's it's over says that had gathered the yidden together with Ezra Hassifer and it was a very very trying emotional time for the Jews. The context of course we know is it's the beginning of Aayasheni and the Yidden spiritually were not in a good place. They were married to non-Jews. They weren't keeping the most basic cash shabas. That's why we know a lot of takas were instituted at that time. MT was instituted by because of the fact that the Jews were so lax when it comes to Shabas the we always speak out that he says all but the says it means of the abundance came around at that time because they needed our and they needed ways of making sure that they're not going to be over all these dis were being over but either way the yen come together and it's the says and Rashi says what was this rash it was rash And the yidden are crying and and their mish they they they can't come to themselves. They're they're literally at the point of of mourning. And the reason is because they just got a musm from the Ezra. Imagine what that sounded like. And it's the Russashana and it's the and they have a pintid and they understand that that they have to stand in front of their creator, in front of their maker. And this is uh this is the the worst of times and they're in a very very bad spot. So and Ezra and all the Levim that are there, they talk to they stop and they tell him as follows. I know today's a holy day. I know it's don't mourn and don't cry. Why did Ezra and have to say this? Because when they were listening to the Mus they were they were they were mourning. They were literally tells them I want you to go home. Eat the best foods that you have. And you should drink the best wines that you have and you should go ahead and find maybe there's someone that you know that doesn't have any food, someone who's meaning she says he didn't prepare any food. If you have an you know about go ahead and feed him because today is not a day to mourn. Today's a very very holy day. And don't be you know why says the guy that I'll tell you another that you're supposed to be the same because at that time the time the beginning when is trying to be and they're in a state of they were in a bad place. What did he say? He told him, "No, this is not the way you're supposed to conduct himself on Russ. Don't be today is a very very holy day. It says in addition to the it's that this is what is supposed to be." But what does the end of that mean? What does that even mean? If you take a look at the Malbum, the Malbum says as follows. The Malbum says, "I know why you're crying. I know why you're mourning. You're crying and you're mourning because you know it's the and you know that you didn't behave this year and as a result, you're very worried about this. You're not confident and you're right for not being confident because you YOU DIDN'T BEHAVE. GUILTY IS CHARGED. It's not good. But I want to tell you something says the you told the I want you to go man. I want you to be bim and not bim be in a frivolous state of euphoria. But what you should do is you should be bim you should be in A STATE OF YOU SHOULD be that in as much as you're giving but recognize who you're giving in front of. you're giving in front of and if you're going to do that then you're going to be if you're going to be then you're going to have strength you're going to have the that you need because that you're going to have that you're going to have that is GOING TO BE YOUR THAT'S THE LAWYER that you need to represent you you're you're wondering HOW AM I GOING TO STAND I I'm we're in trouble We're crying. We're mourning. Go home and be bim. YOU KNOW WHY? NOT BECAUSE IT'S gonna work out for some other reason because the itself is that IS YOUR STRENGTH. THAT'S HOW you're going to creep out of it. You want an said you had the worst year of your life. IF YOU WANT AN how to creep out of this blot on the then this is the the is recognize and appreciate that if you can go into this day with a confidence knowing that you're standing in front of your loving father well that itself is going to give you the strength that's how you're going to get out of this mess. SO IT'S NOT BE HAPPY BECAUSE I have INSIDE OF NO BE HAPPY BECAUSE IF YOU'RE GOING TO BE HAPPY THAT is that's what it means and if you look in this they all express the same and that is a person stands in front of his maker that is true it's true but at the same time his maker is his father he's a father that loves him more than a father can love his biological child and it doesn't even matter who he Because so on the one hand there's anoid of being because he knows that it's a and so he understands of course this feeling of it's a and his year is going to be set into motion on this day. But at the same time at the same time he also recognizes that who's the judge that he's standing in front of? the judges his father his father who he knows has his best interest in mind. So you're right and the fact that it's but at the same time there's also an element of because who is the on that the on the is his father and if the is his father how bad could it be because he knows at the end he doesn't have to bribe this judge he's good he wakes up in the morning sh get bribed he is in a very very good place because he knows who this is and this shif is his father I saw in the from and this is in the it's so he brings from the brisk said that in one of the that we say in Russ was written by Gabi the p is called and in the we say as follows right if my a is so heavy it's so big that I can't even carry If you're going to kill me, you're the person I'm going to hope towards. And if you're going to decide, I want you to pay up for all that various that you did. I'm going to run away from you to you. So said, is there anger aximon in the world? I'm going to run away from you. I'm going to I'M SO SCARED OF YOU. BUT BUT WHERE YOU RUNNING? I'm going to run to you. And said that is the emotion on the supposed to feel I'm running away cuz I'm so scared. It's the you're giving them but at the same time he has to temper that with where am I running. I'm running to you. I'm running to you because there's no one else that could help me. And I'm running to you because I know you have my back and I know at the end of the day you're going to be there for me. And this is the in this piece by the way that it's the and through you want to get out of this situation that everything is uh going to be okay. You know is in avoid for 365 days a year. But how much more so is a rash? Because really this whole idea of of and this whole idea of through having trusting in having the confidence in being willing to let go and not overad your life and not try to micromanage and control every single element and understand that there's a neighborhood that has your best interest in mind. Hashem says you you want to control your life, control your life. If you want your life to be in my hands, I'm here for you. I'm willing to do it. Right? That's the secret. And that secret that is so much more prevalent on Rashana cuz Rashana IS WHEN IT GOES DOWN. SO WHEN MORE IS IT important for onash I think Rashashana is for us to somehow come up with our best Michael Safy impersonation. It helps if you actually believe it and mean it. And that's the real aid. But la that's the avoid. The is is to go in and we should have his voice ringing on our ears. But really the that that talks about throughout the hill and all the talk about because that's really the on the one hand say but at the same time say I trust I I've been talking that this year is going to is going to play itself out better and whatever Yeshua whatever I need you need the other person needs it's I I I have been talking that this year it's going to this is all going to be in the it's going being the safer of Yeshua of Raf of Parnos of Alra that is the secret that's the is the and this says the go it's not just the it's not just the it's not just the biblical advice that gave the a broken people they were mourning and they were crying on they they couldn't come to themselves what are you going to do today were dead the the charges they were facing were not but at the same time And that's the again should be to be able to balance these these two but at the same time right this of daily will lead to not daily but yearly an annual year a year a year and a year of Saw the mayor be made army.