Two dimensions of Kabalas Hatorah - Rabbi Jesse Horn

there's a very famous and interesting environment Shabbos that says Hashem lifted up a mountain above the people of Israel at the time of harcinai placed the mountain above their heads and he says if you take my Torah muta of great and if not sham take for ask him you're gonna die there two major questions jump off the page before we continue with the gemara number one is why does Hashem do this why put a mountain over their head and force them to take something they've already agreed willingly to take they said Nas Seven Nation the Jews are eager to take the Torah why force them number two what city of sham there you'll die if the mountains above you simply you'll die right under you sham take for ask him what does that mean shum there it should be right here then become our continues and says put the real deeper acceptance of Torah was the Jews at Purim time deeply accepted it one step more one step deeper they really accepted at that why what is that all about and those are the three questions I wanted to address is a famous answer many answers to the first question probably the most famous answer is that if the Jews would have accepted the Torah on their own and not be forced into that they could back out whenever they want they accepted upon themselves they can reject it when they see fit if you wanted to be Eternal and long lasting then I should have to force them into it not seven nine seven initial was insufficient they needed a coffee because needs to be forced in as well and seemingly the message is a little if you think about a little deeper maybe it's not just about wanting the Torah that's NASA finish my sometimes you want it sometimes you're eager to have it sometimes you throw yourself into it but when you wake up you're not interested in getting out of bed for chakras and you're not interested in doing what the tour wants there's a lot of myths are such an interest in being kind from time to time and that's natural because we're people that's sessions point is you have to accept the Torah in two ways on the one hand out of passion out of love out of excitement you're eager to internalize it listen to Hashem it's a tremendous but simultaneously his responsibility you're committed to something Hashem is signing a covenant with you you can't just back out what you want confident is not just do it when you want it's when you don't want you're forced to anyway and perhaps that's exactly the point in the word sham if you don't do this if religion is just the NASA vanishment if religion is just observed when you feel positive and excited about it but not rooted in deep long-term responsibility last but not too long there it's going to run out now you'll continue being religious for a little while longer but at some stage of the game it's not going to last shamtech wrestling and that perhaps answers the first two questions why then I'm important was there a deeper team of equivalent so there's actually a friend of mine up the black small Yakov I normally wouldn't say he pointed out that if you ever want to convince someone to keep Shabbos it's almost like unlikely to work no one keeps Shabbos because they heard how great it was like you know I should try that people try keeping Shabbos then fall in love with it the way Judy isn't and Torah connects the way you you buy in the way you internalize the way you get excited about it we start out observing it out of responsibility and the more you do it the more you fall in love the religion in the midst of a switch from like what you can't do and when you shouldn't do and what you're obligated to do to like finding meaning and purpose and connecting to them and perhaps the same thing is true here as well came over Key Blue it required us nationally not just individualistically but as a nation as cloudy throughout to take the Torah and only I put him to we really begin to fall in love with it only after time and when we hit the Purim experience we really say wow this is exactly what I want I'm not just doing it out of obligation from doing it out of deeper love and perhaps it's an interesting cycle if it starts out with nothing we agree but we don't know what we want then Akash Bros says I want to make sure there's a sense of responsibility it's not just excitement and passion and desire it's every single day to do it even when you don't want to and that's cuffley American yoga system forces by putting a mountain above us and the longer you do things the more you internalize the original love the more nasty management becomes deeper and real and not just a leap of faith but a key movie something you'll love and connect to kibo master keep look far you can deeply appreciate what you've been doing this entire time in a certain sense that cyclical process people with the government Shabbos is alluding to again you start out historically Hashem I want to do what you want to do but just wanting it's not enough sense of responsibility and commitment to dedication and that's and the longer you do that the more likely you are to deeply appreciate the beauty of the mitikut the sweetness of Torah growing out of a sense of responsibility based upon the original excitement