The Sacred Side of Doubt - Rabbi Moshe Tzvi Weinberg

you know perm is a day where we finally try to defeat a malik once and for all and amalek this farm tells us is gematria suffolk which means doubts and every human being we all face many doubts we have doubts about hashem god forbid sometimes we have doubts about ourselves and the way to defeat amalek is to try to overcome those doubts to enter into a place of hawada shemo kenti lasso like we say on the yamala ram to get to a place where we have that awesome clarity that hashem runs the world and that everything is good but there's actually a very ironic way in which we could use the kawak of suffolk to use those doubts that a mother can plant in our hearts we can actually use them against the malik you know there's an amazing story where libya's governed was approached one time by a moscow an individual who wanted to debate the burdicher he wanted to disprove hashem once and for all he wanted to disprove the torah once and for all and this fellow had spent months preparing himself he had written down all sorts of philosophical theories and ideas and questions and he was going to disprove hashem and he comes to the base madrid of the holy year of labia sukhov and he walks in and he's got his stack of books and he's got his binder of questions and the predictions were standing like a sad dick wrapped in a tallest filling standing in the corner davine saying tell him the fellow comes in and he's very confident he's going to disprove hashem once it for all and the verdict of her senses he he feels that someone's in the basement and he turns around and before the fellow could say one word before he could ask one question or argue one point in his great proofs or disproves of yet the pradisha looks at him and he says to him and maybe the whole thing is true maybe there is a rabbana maybe your mitzvahs do matter i know you're here to tell me that maybe there's no god in this world but there's another side to every suffolk you see amali comes to us and amalek says maybe there's no bonus role and we go into this panic mode oh my gosh maybe there's no bonus roll maybe the torah is not true maybe our mitzvahs don't matter but that cynical voice of amalek blocks out the other side of the suffix which shouldn't be a suffic at all but even if we find ourselves living with a lack of clarity we can grab on to that suffering and say you know what there's another side to that equation maybe their monosolum loves me more than i could ever imagine and maybe every mitzvah that i do shakes the shamayamash and maybe every teal that i dive in is not in vain that's how we grab hold of that meda of suffix we use it against someone we say to a mother that you know what you're right maybe maybe this may be that you try to become that evil that negative voice in my head that pessimistic voice in our head but on purim even though we lack a clarity abdallah yadav the drinking of the celebration of purim all of the all the uncertainties that we face on purim because even when the purim story is over the gemara tells us we're still servants of akheros we're still living in a foreign kingdom and we're still in galas today we live in a world that's filled with a lot of uncertainty but we can grab on to that uncertainty and we can try to use it in a way that's powerful you go over to a jew and you say to this person who doesn't learn torah you say you know what maybe if you start learning torah it won't change your life but maybe it will and maybe if you put on fill in for the first time in a long time or maybe the first time in your life maybe you won't feel anything but maybe you'll feel a lucus pulsating through your veins you say to a woman light shabbos candles maybe you've never tried that before and maybe it won't change maybe it won't change very much or maybe it'll give you a new understanding of yourself like never before so on the yomtavapurim the venus the laughter that we make out of amalek when a mother comes when that pessimistic and cynical voice comes to us and says maybe none of this is worth anything as someone himself declares in the middle of a whole new show let's turn it around on a mavic and say you know what my heart of hearts i know that it's vada i know it's absolutely true but even on your terms of malik maybe it's not true but maybe it is and maybe every single thing that a jew does in this world is significant i bless us to believe in the power of our mitzvos to believe in the power of arthilos and to believe how much akrash brahu loves us hashem will see the ultimate even with the gulash [Music]