Light Your Fire- Rabbi Mayer Simcha Stromer

about a year ago around the siemens rasherway shalita was in chicago and i was lucky enough to spend a couple minutes with him i got the schmooze with him i got to ask him a couple questions and at the end of the conversation i asked one last question i said rebbe is it is it an okay thing to do can i dive into a cottage sparkle to be able to stay up a little bit later i said if i had you know another hour or two to be learning i could accomplish so much more i could learn so much more torah i could become a bigger time of him is that an okay thing to davenport to stay up later and he left he said you can dive in but those those tilos won't be in this cabel and at first i was like what but i realized he was teaching me have an important lesson sometimes we see if only i had an extra hour in the day i would learn so much more if i made a little bit more money i'd be so much happier if only this if only that we always say if circumstances were different i'd be so much better and he was saying no we have to be able to look within we have to be able to say am i being honest am i doing everything that i can be doing that i need to be doing to see the results that i want in this week's parashat towards the very beginning in possible the torah tells us teaching us rashi says that even though there was a fire that was your read this minute of shaman but fire came down for trying to consume the carbonus aphopican they had to light their own fire says this fascinas so often we're waiting for that isa de la illah we're waiting for that seat ishmael we're looking for that the inspiration the motivation the encouragement from beyond ourselves outside of ourselves but it says this fast no mitzvah they had to light their own fire we have to create that is de la tata we have to be making ourselves we have to motivate ourselves to encourage ourselves we have to make sure we are the ones doing everything we have to be doing everything that we ought to be doing in order to be the recipients of that siata de shmaya and when we do and when we do we put in that effort we put in that email that statistics we create that is then for sure for sure will be zoha to be macabre will receive that's my serusa de leila