Is Religion about Surrender or Self-Expression? - By Rabbi YY Jacobson

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leading role in the yeshiva and others who sided with inactive who was the fact of the leader of the yeshiva and it became as these things can become it became very very contentious so they brought down three rub-on in three of the great rub on them of the time for a dent IRA to serve as arbitrators between the two sides and to create a peaceful agreement in vilasa so bit salivate Rick said after a few days of observing and listening and scrutinizing and reviewing the rabbi's before they gave out the plugged in so one of them gave the following introduction he said as follows when you're learning safer voracious so for all speakers and for all teachers from voracious television from voracious Naya left my area I saw at Olduvai ATM IH lock your job is more or less easy there's always the hero and the villain at least on the surface at least the way that has all portray it on the surface does the hero and is the villain yeah if kyon is the murderer and you have the victim you have come is the immodest child and you have shame any office or the heroes you have youths hook and you have your small you have a front before that you have of Rome and you have his father Terah then you'll have in the next generation you have a Jakub and you have an ace so it's very simple it's pretty much black and white as Pasha's valuation the Vettes randomized for names I thought men are you hooter for the faith as I thought when I I said and I have to understand and it's his name was Yehuda and the base a lady's name was Yosa yes someday even after like 300 he says a new dish on one side you have our Yehuda and on other side you have a yes sir who's right who's wrong it's very ambiguous it's very hard to know they're both defined by Cazalas subdeacon Yosef is even called Yosef atomic they defined as shifter you Takei the tribes of Hashem is great thank you great spiritual Giants so the question is how do you deal with such a story it's not easy to Pit one against the other and say this one is completely in the right and this one is completely in the wrong it requires far more subtlety far more sensitivity the truth is I should say as we have discussed earlier weeks even with the villains it's not so simple it requires a lot more subtlety and sensitivity but certainly when it comes to you who Danielson and thus this was their introduction to give the verdict about what to do with Volare which really I think is an appropriate introduction to our discussion today to try to understand at least one perspective of how we can develop an approach to passersby a shift the kate's by you gosh and why you see the second half of safe and voracious deals with the conflict between Joseph and his brothers when you're reading pouches by a ship at the surface Yakov loves the ISIS more than all of his children he makes for him a sinus possum a special colorful tunic Yosef is a dreamer he dreams of the sheaves in the field bowing down to his bundle of grain he dreams of a Sun in the Moon and Eleven stars prostrating themselves to him his brothers loathe him but you snow/ice say they hate him by a carnival act over they're jealous of him but what happens after is beyond mine staggering and every read they say no book you can read twice you can't read a book twice because every time you read it it's different well have the with Toyota it's infinitely different every really read the story again and again and it's like there's always something new that you didn't pick up on but the drama the mystery the suspense the sadness when you read parshas by a shove it's hard not to shed a tear when you're watching when you're experiencing the story well barbecue rubber one two the Shabbos four Brennan said that he wouldn't when he was in Heder so Friday as the men they would learn partial shabooey it was a little boy in the Ukraine so they called the Nikolaev and he said in the Hadean in the school there there was a boy they were learning partials by a shil on Friday and the boy got very emotional Yosef comes to the brothers and they take it I have - they removed from him his beautiful coat this beautiful tunic they throw him into a pit so the boy started to cry his teacher said my really exists relax there's going to be a happy ending it was going to be a happy ending next year they're learning again postures variation and Yosef is approaching the brothers so this boy stands up and gives us screaming says Yosef gain is that much the other soup dango you saw what they did last year I know your father said if you gain --is-- the teachers he continues the look of yokes of those it's normal to the business yourself yes Coulter's ben Yosef now you deserve it I told you not to go again why did you go again it represents though the truth the innocence of learning it as a fresh story in a fresh story every year and one is always perturbed what happens how can brothers do this to their own drug jealousy these people sitting here in the room that probably have don't know anybody sitting in this room but there's probably somebody in the world who's jealous and jealous of their brother does everybody get along with their siblings unfortunately not we all know that many of us know from our own lights that there may be sibling rivalry or sibling issues but whoever thought of taking their sibling taking their brother throwing him into a pit and then selling them into slavery how can we even begin to relate to this how do we understand it how do we comprehend it now I'm not sure the answer can never be better than the question I don't know how sometimes the question remains a question even with all of the answers but let's understand is it really because the yakan made a claim is possible because he made this colorful tunic style this causes such wrath such hatred such behavior it's because he's dreaming I know many people who have dreams your brother would come to you and said he's dreaming that the Sun the moon and the Eleven stars prostrate themselves what you tell you what would you tell your brother keep on dreaming people say it all the time keep on dreaming those are the color men I mean if it makes you happy those I avoid you want I should make an appointment I'll make an appointment by somebody somebody who can interpret your dreams once heard some Elie Wiesel he said that Freud and Herzl lived at the same time Freud is the father of psychoanalysis and Hetzel is the father of Zionism of secular Zionism they both lived in Vienna more or less at the same time they said it's a Mazel that they didn't live in the same building they lived very close to each other didn't live in the same building or actually they live that thing very close I don't know if in the same book they were very closely so visits a mother they didn't see each other why because Herzl would have gone up to Freud and said I have a dream and Freud would have explained to him and psychoanalyze the subconscious motives so he's dreaming but the dreams trigger them in a very profound way what was it about these dreams why econo boy aha now when one really looks at the story of Joseph and his brothers the world recently lost Yogi Berra I don't know if you say all of our Shalom on him but Yogi Berra used to say it's not over till it's over one of his brilliant brilliant quips his wife once said to him she said not long ago she said I don't know where I should bury you after you die what's the problem you were born you were born where was he born you don't know no Yogi Berra fence you were born in Missouri you live in New Jersey but you play you played for the New York Yankee so where should I bury New York New Jersey and Missouri so you said surprise me it's an important lesson in life but what I want to bring out is sometimes it looks like a story is over it's not over it keeps on surprising us you think after 22 years of separation Joseph is sold as a slave he's accused of violating a woman falsely he's thrown into a pit in prison in Egypt he becomes a prime minister of the country I mean it's a stunning turn of events he's feeding the entire Fertile Crescent the entire civilized region over there were from in a start time of famine including his own family and 22 years later he will meet his father and his brothers and he will reveal himself to them and all as well when as well they relocated to Egypt Joseph feeds them and nourishes them throughout his father's passing and afterwards and that's how parshas but you see ends there is peace there is reconciliation between Joseph and the brothers it looks like it's all over it's great after yakov's death they thought he's going to take revenge they come to him they begged him not to punish them they'll become his slaves and yak Yosef says the beautiful words how sokka's aleikum Omni I'm not I'm not a replacement of God you perhaps tried to cause me pain but I like him Raja Bullett over the river initially Lama was simply creating a whole plan where I had the opportunity and privilege to save you to save the Jewish family and the world from a devastating famine it seems like it's over and really it's a tremendous closure to safe operations because if you think about it safe operations on one level can be understood simply as a story of sibling rivalry almost in every parsha what you developed what you're seeing is siblings not having the ability to get along with each other already the first moments after creation family nothing happened yet what's the first romantic story a brother kills his own brother and then partially oh yeah one brother come as cursed verses the other brothers shame in the efforts who are blessed and then in continuation leprechaun Vieira you slip in your small they can't get along and your small is expelled my own and then in an ex sorry after the nascent they also don't get a logging active runs away from a so and yet after twenty years they meet up there's some level of peace but they part ways a sub goes to say a vehicle goes back there it's a strong and then in variation you're introduced to a new complication from the brothers but look how each one ends the first conference between brothers ends in homicide and murder the next one ends in a curse the next one ends in expulsion the next one ends in separation piece but separation but Joseph and his brothers ultimately how does that end it ends in forgiveness it ends in peace and it ends in coexistence they actually end up living together in it's Ryan so perhaps all of veracious is our reflections how humanity can evolve from a state in which the brother kills his brother to a point where brothers can actually really forgive each other and really embrace each other and really be together it still didn't reach its crescendo that only happens in choice because Yosef and his brothers live together in the same country but Joseph is the Prime Minister and the brothers are shepherds and an isolated ghetto called I don't know ghetto but an isolated region called Goshen or as they used to say gay shame in partial mice we have something completely unique to brothers not only living together but also working together working together mush and iron as the people who will set the Jewish people free from bondage this is the ultimate where the brothers not only get along with the brothers not only forgive each other with the brothers truly are working together for one even though Ireland is older and moisture feels it's not going to be so simple and a Shem says you don't know your brother Aaron and we're off of the summer who rejoice with your position and that becomes the preparation for Taylor so perhaps the tailor can't be given tell siblings learn how to really get along you can't jump to you straight until you don't go through voracious and slice but now we see that as history progresses Yogi Berra was right it's not over until it's over because the conflict between Yosef and you hood resurfaces and it resurfaces in very dramatic ways it doesn't begin with Joseph and his brothers it begins one stage earlier begins with Rockwell and Leia Jakob loves ruffled Yaakov on the other hand ultimately marries Leia before Rothfeld by mistake he didn't know what happened to him and the Turner clearly says by.ya have gamma s Rocco me Leia God means he loved oh so Rocco but more than Leia it's a very interesting faucet grammatically there's a very big problem there you could say if I yeah of astronomy Leia you could say bye yeah Gamez Rahul you can't say about yeah Gama stronghold me late but that's exactly the point the point is there at that points this out he loved Oso Rafa which means he loved ladies you can't say I love you too if I don't love anybody else so when we say Leia was unloved that's not so simple Leia was loved but you couldn't compare it to the love to ruffle which is why their ad that says she was hated because when you love two people but you love one more than the other it seems to one that they are unlike which is very true with children you may love all of your children but if you love one a little more than the other the other one doesn't feel I'm wrong but not so much the other one feels I am hate it those of us who have experience have experience in one way or another so Rocco that Leia rouxelle of course is the mother of Yosef and Benjamin and Leia is the mother of Reuben and Shimon and Levine Yehuda and you suck currents woolum and here for there is some tension there some conflict we see it throughout the took him in the story with the do Dalian in the story with Reuben and Bilhah we cease the things going on so that's where it begins the hiring apparently it continues down with the siblings but then there is forgiveness there is reconciliation they cannot beer the fact that Joseph is dreamed of dominance you will prostrate yourself to me all of your sheaves bow down to me all over the eleven stars my eleven brothers bow down to me how mullahs Tim look Elena marshal Tim Samana you're going to rule over us you will be the king you will dominate us and they hate it even more in their envious of him even more but in reality they put him into a pit they sell him into slavery he's no king he's a slave he doesn't even own his own freedom and this is slavery in Egypt then Egypt was no democracy at the time it's a pretty shady democracy today not much a stayed but a prisoner in Egypt a slave in Egypt at the time meant the slave for life even a slave in America meant to slave for life unless they were unique circumstances I'm talking about before Lincoln so it seems like Yosef dreams are completely obliterated and then as events develop he becomes the king he's the Prime Minister and they're bowing down to him and when the end of Boreas when that chapter concludes Yosef is the king he's right on the pie right he rules he rules Egypt as the Mishnah lamellas billah definitely on a mission so very strongly nobody can lift his hand or feet without you pyro says the clears and the brothers of course are completely dependent on Yosef for food for protection for nurture so what happens now is Yosef isn't easily this is indeed the team there's no question that's how values he ends and then the Egyptian exile begins but ultimately Moshe and Aaron are the ones who take the Jews out of Egypt they're not from you hood they're also not took me I say they're from the tribe of Lady but who will take the Jewish people into area two strong moisture successor you're the Shuar who comes from which tribe Yeshua if Ryan who is of course a son of the ice so the leader will say these people into arity strong comes from yes later there will be the area of the judges are one of the most famous is he throwing who saves the Jewish people whom their archenemy he's also from the tribe of yes when finally kingship is established and the first king is appointed his name is Sol Sol comes from who be yumin who is of course a child of rock but soul is then the throne and he is replaced by the one who the rebind asylum coordinates as the eternal father of the dynasty of royalty in the Jewish people Nevada Mela who comes of course from shaiva thei hood the Dove it is the son of yishai who's the son of RA who is the son of Boaz who is the descendant of parrots who was one of the twins that was born from the relationship between you Hooda and Tom are in Pisces my age Dawid passes on and he is succeeded by his son of course Slimer hemella hashem promised of it as the tehilim says it many times as the Navi says it that loyalty posture come a little loyalty will not cease from the tribe of the dynasty the lineage of the autumn olive as already active says it passes by your female you also save it while you're Cersei with me you Hooda almost psychic my main rival of act Kia very Sheila Valois Kisame the scepter will not depart from you who then nor will the ruler go away from you hooker ad Kia when she like till she becomes as rashly says she loves that Mela commercia who will gather all the people in other words there is a promise that royalty belongs to the tribe of you hood in fact is the famous ROM bond everybody knows probably on Parsons by if he who wonders why the harsh Montoya who were such great people and really saved the Jewish people they saved the Turner they save Judaism and within a hundred years the Cashman are a family became one of the most corrupt families creating civil war and strife and terrible Bloods in the Land of Israel the great-grandchildren of the original class minority surrendered to such corruption and such hatred and there was such terrible bloodshed ultimately they are the ones who brought in Rome they are the ones who invited Pompey into the Land of Israel in to you who did to Judea which ultimately will lead to the kerbin by Shinya and the Rambam famously said that the coachmen I made one great mistake and that is they reclaimed the priesthood which was their natural right because they came from the family of K&M of iron mutt - sobbing - and kind other but they also took for themselves the throne of royalty Marcus which he sensually inherently does not belong to that tribe there i'm bannin says this was a grand mistake there's an interesting interpretation I don't want to get into it now next next Sunday we'll have amid such a mechanical shear there's a big question why there's not a sense of Chanukah and shots there's a mastectomy giver rob a no Hakodesh rotamer scepter for the ailment item so we have a mastectomy given dedicated for put it why is it on the sector Konica now losses of chemical you have a mastectomy Shabbos is your mother paid for Mehmet Lincoln you have it in a few places Chanukah is mentioned in which now is there a saga you have it with a head of any interesting places but there's no track date for Chanukah it's a very interesting question one of the one of the answers that's given although many challenge it and and for a good reason I think one of the challenges is that the editor of the mission man was never done lost revealed on us he came from the tribe of good that's the dynasty of David hemella and there was some Adonis Network there was some pay towards the Cashman are you because of what they did most most good earliest wrong with a few to this answer because it's very strange because Hanukkah is a mitzvah that that has now created really to to introduce here a personal emotion based on your family would be contrary to everything we know about the whole structure of Halawa Schneider's and the personality of the editor franchise to be honest it but I'm just mentioning it in this context now David is finally the king it went to you hood as long as the king of went to you hood that everything now seems well it ended well but we know that hot what happens when Schley Mihama life passes away what's the next step the kingship splits and there's a new king emerges and the new Kings name is Yerevan and your arm comes from which tried anybody your oven benefit come from a Friday who was the son of Yosef so suddenly now whoa there's a split again and this split continues throughout the rest of Jewish history until the destruction of the first place on mikdash never again is there one King never again slowly dies his son recovering takes over there's a smooth as a split Marvel's yoohoo da Matta LoCicero ten of the tribes go to Yerevan they the clearly jhin's to Yerevan that period of them recover Macedon him only to smoke the new hookah and be young and interestingly but that's it most of the tribes are under your oven and this split will continue for around two hundred and forty years ultimately the assyrian king will come an exile that sara such thought that most of the tents riders to exile and one of the great mysteries of jewish history within a hundred and 150 years we will never hear of them again and i thought yeah miles oh we don't know what happens you know this doesn't mean there's no jews left from the ten tribes just plenty of jews from the ten tribes because there were other jews from the other sluttin who lived in the area of you attending Amin and some a minority of them remained but the majority of their Sarah some of them are gone one of the great mysteries of Jewish history now when the Jews will ultimately go into exile you would then be known a hundred years a little more than 100 years after the expulsion of the ten tribes they'll never have a king again they'll come back under the Persian Empire but they'll never have a MELAS again when the customer Nagin will defeat the Syrian Greeks they'll take the throne that won't give it to you hooker so that split between Yosef and you hooker that developed after swine was fancy continued throughout history now let's see this in the sources take a look in the lockup Alice reluctant I love pain if you'd allopathic of tests it's a real pity we don't learn Tanaka what should I tell you buddy ah right now we're gonna give a share in one of you pursue command Tanakh but he base I heal from your tummy or shall I at that time you drove um who is your album your album is a great Jew a scholar will Susi living at the time of swim I'm Alice he leaves Jerusalem let him so she IP Ashley Lainey I'm avi by Darren will discuss the balsamic reductions named Assad who finds them a rehash Delaney who was a prophet he is covered with a new similar loot to nickel in shirt and there alone in the field but his place time via Bassam I had the Sasha Allah by interests he musta cried and he actually learned the fetches he grabs the beautiful new shirt on your other man he rips it he rents it he carries it into 12 pieces well a million of them pass was fire so Detroit tells you rub them you take ten pieces of the garment Kolya my are some of the piece know he needed a si Milan from the XY might but i socket the first ice or ice buttons but I shave it - Amir Lloyd LeMond I'll be doubly the Lemonnier shall i Amory - I'm attractive on the coast of T Israel you are going to get 10 of the tribes of the Jewish people once ride will remain by David's of course besides you Hooda one tribal deep in Yemen will remain under dove it because him I chose for the sake of dove and for the sake of your shall I in the city of Mike sauce how you teach to my scholar shatter that's all well after the draw Tite of our society bein a little question with space discussion also though adoptee but he seemed October listen abayas lemon Kasia Peninsula darkness I came across this job if you follow my ways then I will build for you a beautiful home just like I built Ford of it but I'm as they recover the Manzo's act like a lion I will afflict the descendants of David because this is explained before this is because of what happens at the end of the era of flame is rain and would fly Muhammad look relatively to his level sways away from the path Hashem but he says ahoy color young Amit will not be forever by the way on this postage is a very interesting read back rub a nude of it kimchi one of the reasonable wrote a commentary on the Tanakh he writes as Lloyd Cole hi youngnam it won't be forever what does it mean it won't be forever so there are back says very interesting he says me come true ver from here is a response Lorien shove on omits oplan liam a mela karma shia team a year for those who say that in vain we wait from ashes because it's never going to happen he says did not be promised here you rava alkaloid call hi amin this split will not happen forever he says this never occurred because the split did happen forever once the melaka maluca split between a government Yerevan they were never reconciled they remained two separate empires and kingdoms throughout the entire biased Rishon until they all went into exile when they came back from bother only you hood then Benjamin came back from bubble from Iraq 42,000 Jews and they rebuilt the Empire so you hood then been young you heard Daniel Yousef recover mahir oven never came back together he says what's after Michael I um and this is going to happen only when Messiah comes that the two will come together this is how their attack explains the words are quite coli on them anyway why my mother passes on recover them takes over this throne the Jews come to recover they send a delegation and they tell her I love them your father taxed us very heavily the exactly too much from us too much manpower too much labour Schlemmer MELAS invested extraordinary resources in building the first base of McNish and in many of his great projects and they asked her of them to lighten the burden so he took advice and he took advice from two groups of people he took advice in the elder statesman who were by his father and he took advice from the camera you know I used to do the kiddush Club with him on Shabbos afternoon his buddies for the dreamiest the young guys and the older people said you know the Jews are right it was your father was a great man but it was tough you should change the modus operandi but the young ever said no without gage today you got to go even harder and he told them I'm gonna be worse than my father he whipped you with whips I will whip you with big rods with with beams with with with trees I will whip you so they revolted they revolted this was short-sighted on the part of recover or actually it was a prophecy from our key lightning from Hashem and they split up and they appoint you Robin benefit as the new leader of the Jewish people and he establishes the kingdom in the north of Eretz Israel while recover remains in the south of our to stolen yerushalayim and that's it this remains the split what's known as Malthus Yehuda versus molecules you saw throughout the book of Melaka there is a split between these two worlds and the relationship is never peaceful between them sometimes it borders on great danger and war and conflict and generally Malthus Easter all is much more assimilated in Malthus even the kings over there are often very steeped in idolatry and many other Dupre's from askew Utley although a mouth will see or they also have some that are not addicted we discussed last week at length the story of Manasseh was the son of Ischia that's from Alsace hijo de but as I said this split continues so Joseph in your hood the Split Rock Hill only a split resurfaced and it resurfaced in a very dramatic way and now let's see how the Gemara looks at these suckers zombie burger Martin Stein had enough cook BAE's Amidala the Gemara peyrac Gaelic 11th chapter discusses the story of ear over my even so I say fer she Lainey I'm avi by Beneful disgusted the sound oceans name about the bus other tragedy gomorrah my the Salma Hadassah what does the plastic wanna tell me that you ever went to century 21 that day and he found a sail it was Black Friday and he went and he bought himself a new shirt I mean what's the realm what's this mess of I have to know what his uniform was like it was a Salma Haddad so wanna you tell me which company what was the label what's the point cuz I always understood that when the plastic is giving us these details it's highly significant and sometimes metaphoric of a message on my Rebbe Nachman kiss Salma Hadassah it's a metaphor misawa Hadassah Amberson after rustic so you love Amaya mushroomed I see a new tunic has no stain no blemish it's perfect its impeccable wasn't used yet the tyre of your oven when the vote was in motion joyfully it was beautiful it was impeccable it was floats mother after another interpretation Salma Hadassah should teach you the word ancillary somebody's in the OMA they innovated he do Shem that no ear has ever hurt oh my I am Levada Masada what doesn't mean there alone in the field what does it mean there alone in the field of Araby who Dharmaraja Colt army they are coming diamond list millions who eats mahasabha there alone in the field meaning relative to them a fee actually learning in your robbed of all of the scholars of the generation I like the grass in the field they Iike the amory others say charcoal time meter and lagoon land cassava a field is an open place it's not wool that's revealed for everybody to see all the mysteries all the reasons all the depth of 30 is revealed to these two people like an open field here you see who your other benefit was everyone else's like the grass of the field his toy is unblemished he has tradition that no ear will hear so the expectations from your lover migrate he says if you follow god's ways i will build for you a home not forever but for generations like mm ella and yet in reality when you continue reading the kunafa everybody knows at least from pre-k office your arm is hotter the happiest rabbit he becomes not only one of the greatest corrupt kings but he is the one who creates a renaissance of idolatry in air too strong he creates that one dog cat two golden cats in dominant beth-el he prohibits jews from visiting the baseline he creates a transformation in Jewish culture the god authority over middle-earth wasn't from the small heaven he was mama SH the gamma thought and that's where he was chosen as a key after slam I'm Ella and ten tribes are under him this is what God wanted and yet keep it comes to the point that the mission of says in some heaven your uncle mainly call you saw besides your over we discussed last week Menasha but the mission also says something that's others Gemara comes in comes the puss second says of allah and allah spirit you'd get more pasta climb again after a double as there was OVR of immediately hara after this event you rather never repent by your show by a sweet sister unkindly bombers uncovered somalia started by ukrainian boss he creates altars bombers everywhere with priests worshiping sacrifices to the pagan gods that dominated then that that region and now he brought back to air to stop threatening a murderous son hadn't conveys the same honor after a double as ever soviet oven without care of my alpha after what what's after that was after which event what happened there had to be some event then after this he still didn't repent what happened why do you think he would repent so the Gemara quotes an incredible tradition I'm gonna bomb ya baba says as I you know which events shed Tufts Erica there's wonderfully enough of the big day Hashem grabbed you rubber by his begging by his garments he right away here the comparison to a poster convey a chef right but tis for sale with video the wife of Potiphar grabs Josephus later by his baguette but here it's not the wife of a fire here it's the chemical grabs him by his bed well on my way and he says Hazaribagh do chuva repentance and here's the deal pretty interesting the Ronnie vato uber nice shiny tile the grenade me you and the son of yishai the Villa Mella we will take a stroll in Dunedin in paradise on my lawyer you'd overturns Passover and says knee brace who goes first to the stroll so Hashem says be nice i bearish the son of yishai goes ahead he hockey if so he tells God why being I'm not interested and that's the end of your honor so I shed comes to your element says me you baby shy he's just us three your album says wonderful I just want to know who's walking first says mm ever who's actually much older than him to two generations ago you know them says they I don't want and that's it so I start at the bottom I ask that this happens Louis shove he doesn't do true that he just deteriorates it becomes worse what does this mean now let's see what they're at that was referring to when he explains athlete kalyanam this won't happen forever so we now come to another navi Heslin it has two lives after the destruction of the first place on me during the destruction he has seen the split and what it resulted because the fact that the Jews were splits ultimately we can both sides they couldn't unite generally if you want understand Jewish history you'll see that almost every single urban in Jewish history was caused directly or indirectly but usually directly because Jews were split by insanely the Gemara clearly said in a famous Messiah the young man about Xena Xena and if you know the stories of the stories of the time during the Rome with the rebellion against Rome in 66 after the Common Era which brought to the Corbin two years later 68 or 70 those years when the bias trainee was destroyed there was terrible disarray in the Jewish world but already by intuition there's a complete split as I said for hundreds of years there's two separate kingdoms and they don't get along and ultimately they're both weakened and one of them completely disappears from the face of the planet they don't disappear but we don't know where they are they're lost and you're left only with you hood them in Yemen and the key and ultimately the book of nets in the Babylonian Emperor destroys that - and the survivors are exiled to bubble to Iraq and ultimately most of them remain there are only 40 mm come with the second Aliyah through as ran a Kenyan rebuild a second base on McNish it's a stolen RV is the Navi after the end of isolation and pay a climate Zion chapter 37 of it hassel which we read at the after and after of a eager why do we mean it as daft area by eager shall soon become but it's really a summation of ie gosh in future days the ax testicle has an incredible prophecy the FS will pay a climate scientist accessible by heat devar hashem Eli Lena God says to me but a cabana the caliphates F will say the lovely who delivered a stroke of a dove or the calf takes effort example of the Joseph it's a Francophile basis North Ave I want you to take two trees two trunks of or two pieces of what to odds are one right it's for your hood and the children of Israel is rings on one right it's for Yosef this is the tree of a frame all of basis throughout havedo note that impostor design at the beginning descent of a nice walk evade them at the end he says the whole basis all cavae of why because you hood only has one shave it under him a frame of course has ten spot them together with him so that's why it's a col basis all coming o crabber a samantha the left of the color it's out now bring the two lobs together bring them close as one tree well how do I love them be a death huh and both logs will become one in your hand percussion the only way left open and Philemon only sound good mama made a lot the people will say what's this my so what are you doing doctor dilated clay oh my gosh another king he made me like a SSA juicer but should be other fine bishop do you smoke I made when I shot the ice some all of us hu who thereby system Lakes antibody with miyabi I'm taking the two lobs from the tribe of Yosef in the tribe of you hood then they're becoming one bossy CEO some would go effort bards Maharani strong O'Malley ever deal the Coulomb below you idler state going below you cups away first a mile off aside the DA made a birdie muscle at loyola enough of the split enough of them being two nations two people two peoples two empires I know this two lives but they're coming together they will be integrated they will become united as one and the nation will finally achieve unity doublet my servant will be there not see will be their king for eternity this is the prophecy of your Haskell when does this prophecy happen in by you say me there's no king not from your you stiffen up from you heard that if there is a king it's the lady and that also doesn't work out because ultimately Rome will take over the Persians are the feared by the Greeks the Greeks are defeated by day by day the Syrian Greeks are defeated by the - I'm the freshman I am I defeated by the Romans and the Romans will exile the Jewish people from a tea straw and there's no key so when does this is what what happened this Levu happens that's where their attack says norma shearer who will be the key a descendant of the die mother from chef comes from the family of David and Troy menu hood as the Rambam famously says it Hilton's melaka the end of period Aleph it's one over the third the principle that we share his misery daughter - Lima and then the two will completely unite one log and another log will become one with oven out the nozzle ahem well in fact in fact we have another tradition famous gomorian succored afternoon BAE's Amidala says the Gemara the last source para maana mushiya has been dogged so uh sadly goal has been hated the amino mashiac who's going to be revealed speedily in our days I'm a left with his burro who shall be many double the Etowah gems has asked for something he would say Rama she has been Joseph's in there and it will of one of me binder smell of enemy vacuum Kralik high in Jewish tradition we have a concept of two mushiya's she had been Yosef but she has been dove it it's mentioned in the modernist and Asuka once but in Zoe it's mentioned many times in Madras him many times and works of Cibola many times this machine ben Yosef Bashir bend over according to the marushin vinyasa is killed and machine bend of it asks for life in I am a hamon in Zoe right under the section of their partials kiss 8c it says that the two mushiya could be one person who is both will she had been using shared beloved which according to your hostel the two logs are becoming one and there's one leader who comes from dumbest but the other tribe the tribe of Yosef is somehow united with him so already even in mushiya's we have these two machines and whether mashiac when joseph will be killed before Monsieur which is one possibility this is discussed in swarm at length the various possibilities of our machine who will emerge will develop that result that they're crying veto rights and Priya time that I really used to tell his students that when you davon Willie or shall I be recover and impartial of meh hi super color be remaining you should have qivana that machine's been your suit should not die and then he says my great sins i rabbit i leaves are passed away on in other words they attributed they saw in that reason machine vinyasa but whatever the situation is we see here a kinds of but even a machine if you have been yoga you have been dove it so this means information you have ruffle Malaya and then you have Yosef in your hood and then you have your he Xuan and Dido and then you have soul and done it soul comes from the tribe of ruffle dove it comes from the tribe of youth shawl and ruffled is also a lot of contention between that you can't compare shouldered of it and there was a tremendous comfort soul tries to kill love it soul from the tribe of your.h I mean from the tribe of Benjamin troubling tribe have been young and then dove it and flame her from the tribe of you Hooda you Robin splits up from then he's from the tribe of Yosef the split continues throughout Jewish history your Hessel says that in the future the two will become one and rid of it out of the Nazi alayhim Lila all that this shows us is it's not over till it's over and sometimes it seems that it ended it did not end this means this is not a conflict about a colorful tunic that colorful tunic did not exist in the times of year of them or in the times of Sheol or is it only about a dream of course it's about that but these are reflective reflections of great ideas that split almost all of Jewish history and the slip we do not heal until the future so what is this split really about why is there a split what's the meaning of it what's the message of it what's behind it I'm now gonna be a nudnik and I'm gonna ask what they call a klutz Kashi know what a klutz Cassius klutz cache is what you teach you used to say an average - I am a stupid question but like you and me know the only reason we call them stupid questions is because we don't have answers for them because usually the stupid questions are always the best questions but nobody has answers for them they say when you get older you'll understand but those are always the best questions there's simple questions that little children ask and says well that's interesting I never thought about it the Gemara says that Hashem or would you rather I'm a grand deal you do children Virani look in the source Valley the October issue a tongue of agony Hashem is precise he obviously knows what he's saying he told you rather me you and baby shower gonna going at me who comes first you know he said so he didn't say I need oh ben yishai hotter than me but after finishing your album says me boys did I hear that right Shia he told you your first who goes first sam says oh he goes first uh oculi being first of all Hashem said the other way he said you're going first second of all why is it ovum asking if I should've said it already but he told me a vigilance accosted once told me that he heard from a financial leverage that's our controller which was the osha shiva of the mirror yeshiva the mirror and shanghai and then ultimately usually so karma leveraged once said your karma leverage had a wonderful sense of humor and it was an emotional person so cryin once numerously was talking about this Gomorrah so he said he said you know I go to a hooker write to my students I'm a cop with me with City condition I officiated the wedding so the emcee the master of ceremonies gets up and says is mimic Robert Robert so-called may I go to Russia she the gone hot door with all of the titles and adjectives that we fit this great man with Civic inertia I am says you think I go up I don't go up its military mama I don't go I want to hear the game let him do it you know when the guy where is he where is he you do it she says you rough um heard I said said me you and benissa he said I want to hear it again who's going first Tim said again I'm not gonna say it you heard it once I'm not gonna say it again it's a cute part but what's the prize what's what's how do we really understand it there's a little safer called lacunae hashes but could the air shafts is not really a safer that's fluent in your shiva's because of its author the author of it was diarrhea it has a commentary on Gomorrah not every piece of you selectively pieces from shots from the perspective of Coppola so it's very very deep it's extremely abstract and it's as most of couple occult language and the cut they are shots la Riva he breezes Gemara and he raises this it was written by a student of Heinrich Ali wrote down most of the teachings of the reason that Rizzo of course lived in swathes he taught all of us Kabbalah two years and he passed away in the year Shin la midbass 1572 at the young age of 36 or 38 or even younger there's an argument about that and a convict I wrote down is Tyler and he brings a little stickers and armies are a few minds very Kabbalistic lien deer he addresses his perspective on this tomorrow on this Cameron son had thankfully the ballot Anya rabbi schneider's Amon of Lee Adi the ballot on a vassal Kimura quotes this liquid Thea shots of the reason in a discourse of his in his book very early on actions by you gosh where he discusses the conflict in you hood and Yosef and he gives some insights in his own style in his own inimitable smile to understand the words of that reason what I want to show you is by a CRM that in this little question that a theme seems like maybe a little mixed question of the change of order in Hashem's words lay the key to understanding at least one aspect of the great mystery of the conflict between you hood the end Yosef and this idea is an idea that's discussed in various works of Hasidic especially in the works of the ballot Anya and his successors they have to state to discuss it a little bit in abstract language as usual and cabbalistic and Hasidic literature but I'm going to try to take one Lakota and apply it and bring it down the way I understood it now I should say that the continuity noise has numerous interpretations and very different ones sometimes from one extreme to another extreme and it's always true with Toyota it has so many faces and so many angles and so many perspectives and it's multi-layered and it's all true we are now focusing on one perspective one dimension in this concept you who Danielson are not arguing about a small little detail there is a fundamental disagreement that takes place between these two brothers consciously unconsciously inwards and then thoughts and as we shall see it's a conflict that not resolve it's not so easy to resolve not collectively and certainly not individually and although it needs to be resolved and it will be resolved and it should be resolved and really there's no conflict but that's true about most conflicts on one level there's a conflict and on another level there's really no conflict it is a possibility for unity that's what your testicle talks about and yet we have to work through that conflict now we have to understand as a result of this that we are dealing with two ideas and as the Gemara says an area of an alluvial ooby really come cryin both are the words of the Living God both have an MS in them and yet there's still room for a tremendous disagreement and in this case such a dramatic disagreements with brought which brought extraordinary results both in the positive and in the negative you could see it immediately I'm gonna try to say this but it's there and I hope we'll be able to grasp it swiftly you could see it in their names because always the ideas are captured in names and this dibala Tonya says he says study the name you hooda and study the name knows what does the word Yosef literally mean to increase to add Rock Hill named in the oysters because Yosef Assembly benefit from the word paisaje addition Louisa floss if Joseph odd Yosef means to add to increase or if I want to translate it a little more broadly growth Yosef represents growth what does the word you who to me gratitude is one meaning upon either soshim what else what else right we say every morning mitem a national law mitem have commonly read mayor you hooda from the word hi da which means I submit I surrender I confess I actually yes I mean medela family the mighty the mixes modems are commonly read mayor made him a national law and of course the two are very connected real gratitude is a form of a form of submission in fact the matter says layer named you hood the illusion is because he would be the one who would be my leader by Yahoo Yehuda by your America be many he is the one who confesses publicly and says that Tamar is pregnant the cause of him he doesn't shirk responsibility doesn't run away from it so you heard that from the word made them hi da is submission the ice of his growth now what does this mean let's look at one more dramatic change in Jewish history the sheena comes down to the world in two forms in the desert in the mission in excess throw ultimately the base ominous but not till four hundred years after they set up slightly builds the base on Victor's around for centuries after their inheritance Rob what do they have for four centuries a Michigan most of the time it's in naive it's and given it's in Gilgo but for three hundred and sixty nine years Sheila whose territory is she like everybody remembers Joseph the base a mistress will go to us-ally and be built by Dove it designed by David built by climate that's in the section of you hood and partly beyond mostly you hood so the base hammock there she hooda the Michelin Jason take a look at the Michigan versus the base a McNish the Michigan the roof is made of what the missions roof Uriel's tapestries that are made from what beautiful design skin of animals belly fat Rams goats haha the wolves are made of what the crushin the beams are made of what would a t-shirt would and the floor of the Michigan is what earth a fire how Michigan you learning I'm a sector site there you know about that fire on this gun so you have like this in the hierarchy of creation we have diamond so may have high madaba diamond is inanimate silent rocks minerals Seimei earth is the volcanic world vegetation produced by the animal kingdom madaba the human race the michigan the roof is made of chi in the animal skin the walls you come lower down are made of Sameach wood which grows on trees the earth is diamond it's made of Earth in fact the earth always changed because the Michigan was mobile and they just had whatever earth they had right there in the desert as they would travel what about the base how victus the base emitters was made of what the roof the walls was stolen you could see it today stone in fact there's a prohibition the plastic tells us there's a prohibition to have wood sticking out anywhere in the base I make that they had wood but the hood was with hidden inside there was a prohibition it was a nice economy everything tomorrow says this was the mistake of coalition of scientists with the second base I make this as a separate story so the base I make there's the roof is made of rocks the walls are made of stone and the earth is made of song all diamond with that same AF it's hidden somewhere inside where is the Chi it's not even here now Michigan Sheila is an interesting hydrate you now she'll a worthless she lied the walls were made of stone but the roof was made of the urea status trees so this was an intermediary the Michigan in the desert was high so I may add diamond hierarchy of creation Myshkin Sheila is somewhere in the middle the roof is high but the walls you jump the diamond they base I make this is all diamond all rocks all stop it's this distinction which seems like is it so significant it's extremely significant because it represents two philosophies two perspectives one is yes of the world of Sheila and one is you hood to the world of your shall I what's the difference so Wow let me change the subject a little bit and ask you a question I know it's not an easy question to answer and everyone has different opinions on this and every person themselves has different opinions depends how you wake up in the morning and if what type of coffee you had this morning the other thing you heard they are raising a very serious question in life and I think the best way to pose this question simply and bluntly is what's the purpose what's the purpose of life is the purpose of life yosef or is the purpose of life you hood is the objective of life self actualization self realization self expression is the purpose of life for you to maximize who you are as a human being who you are as a Jew maximize all of your potentials suck the marrow out of life as the poets would say live life to your fullest express all of your talents and resources live of life than Hebrew they call it hack sama at Schmitt full self-realization grow and grow and grow and Yoda sit until you reach your zenith your peak and then grow even more I think the first person who climbed to the top of Mount Everest was a man named anybody knows thing Edmund Holly right okay in 1953 I believe a year before he tried to reach the top what is it 29,000 miles of salt and he didn't make it but they made in England some dinner for him and he failed actually but they wanted to honor the fact that he tried you know trying is also a significant experience maybe the most significant so as he spoke he was extremely emotional he was not very happy because he's gonna make it to the top so they had a major portrait of Mount Everest so middle of his speech he turns it out for the mountain and he starts speaking to Mount Everest and he says I will beat you I know that I failed this time but I beat you you know I because you stopped growing but I'll continue anything wrong and that's that's a profound idea you stir your big butt you stop growing huh next year he made it to the top he made it to the top of Mount Everest and many have somehow related him and followed in his footsteps one perspective on life is the purpose of life is absolute self expression and self realization of all your resources physical spiritual emotional there's another perspective the ultimate objective of life is submission transcendence ask not what God can do for you ask what you can do for God astronauts what your wife what your husband can do for you ask what you can do for them ask not what life can do for you ask what you can do for life duty loyalty dedication submission you hooda that's the ultimate purpose of life even within the Jewish world how do we understand and it's a serious question what's the purpose of religion what's the real purpose of religion is the purpose of religion to influence people to forget about themselves and surrender to something higher or is the ultimate purpose of religion for people to actually meet themselves and become what they are really capable of becoming what do you want to teach your children what does it mean to be a person what does it mean to be a Jew what does it mean it's an opportunity for you to experience ultimate self-expression after the destination Tiffin i3 or now it's ultimate purposes you're an avid Hashem surrender to something to a truth that's higher than you that's deeper than you that's more eternal than you and the purpose of life is ultimately to dedicate yourself to that truth to surrender to that truth is it yourself or is it yoo-hoo what's the purpose of marriage what's the purpose of religion what's the purpose of life the last mission Irma sector condition says I mean racy with samus it's tiny I was created to serve Hashem there's no question that's the mo of Judaism I mean you're not gonna find anything else about Judaism I mean live racing the sandwich that's finally uh what I hang but at that itself what does that mean you know there's two gears in that mission em assess the condition fascinating two gears the regular gear says I mean of race Lashon Mosconi the molecular swim added the figures I need lighted racy elephant's claiming is it just semantics not just semantics the two gear cysts contain two perspectives so what do you say about my question huh Moisture ever that said moisture is the greatest prophet the greatest Jew they round up calls a mythic army minutiae and what's his greatest experience ever - am a servant of our stand and on Everett as the Gemara says in condition called much to come and Colorama and Everett belongs yeah that's what you say but you're making us we don't like you like yourself okay that's you like yourself you like yours what's the truth so now you're like a Jew you want the children then you want to eat it too you want both okay very nice you don't want to give up on anything but a map to my summer vacation a child a child surrenders to a father a child depends what type of child that gets depends what type of father right DUI you've chosen to be our children to be bunin it's a good question I don't know if anybody has a choice anymore today he used to be a question today I don't know if you have a choice because they already at four years old they're teenagers yeah very good a Michigan son head Lama giant guy of autumn loin might be severely liberal of the world was created for me for me now what does it mean for me for me to be on narcissistic self-centered mentioned for a sec I don't think that's what the mission means lutely new broiler I don't think it's consistent with the rest of the dimension somebody once said how do you drown a narcissist or put mirrors on the bottom of the ocean Lily never Isla means somebody once told me about somebody he says be careful with him because he's a self-made man and he worships his creator he got that named Levi what does it really mean of course very good when the Gomorrah says hot when the mission is a sky of all my Amish Lily never eylem it doesn't mean bishop Ely my original name is not Jacobsen I have to make a confession my original name is Jakob Ashley Lee because we come from Georgia my grandfather comes from Georgia Georgia South Russia not Georgia in the States so our name was yeah kibosh Lilly yeah kibosh release merely a Georgia needs son so my grandfather left Russia and after the war on false passports as a Polish citizen like many Russian Jews some Russian Jews so he changed his name from yeah professionally to Jakob son to Jacobson cause it's a translation of it so there was somebody in Sheol who used to get annoyed with me for whatever reason when I was a kid so you would say there's a reason your name is really because your philosophy is enough with that philosophy but what does it really mean it really means wish Lily never are eylem that itself is it a call to duty or is it a call to self expression in other words but shouldn't the whole world was created for me for me to reach my flameless or the whole world was created for my service my duty this is my responsibility on me depends the faith of the world or does it mean both or does it mean one of them but that's a very interesting my Mikasa we all know the med rich the famous medicine - Schmidty like Nick knew a mitzvah Stella with Saira Banus a breeze the mitzvos were given to refine the purse to bring out the best of the person I'm gonna become an eben Akasha okay I'm gonna crash you're a rock Socrates vertical Lazaro Searle here but levitate images well as that place means to give merit but we'll exactly she said the time also comes from the word Lazar case from the word Zack clear refinement Lazar Cosette the Metro says what Saira Banus of Ruiz in other words it's the ultimate opportunity for you to purify it not just purify in a in a in a in a negative sense of in a regressive term but purifying the sense to really make the best out of you and even the discipline that our law is based on what is it really about it's a discipline in order to crush or is a discipline in order to develop actualize what do you want to teach your child what do you think your child should hear you hear what is the purpose of you this night what's the purpose of life self expression or self transcendence yoseop will you hood what are the notions that Connie is say you said both anybody else you agree with her both the sinners can console what do you think we are teaching today in most educational institutions which philosophy you think is being port oh yes if you say you said hood so I guess your kids go to different schools but maybe the teacher changes his mind from Monday to Tuesday you find it a TTU hood their teaching submission that she hood that submission submission surrender right ask not who you are ask what God wants from you what the community wants from you what society wants from you what happy and mommy wants from you what direction Shiva wants from you what this wants from you is always the most important thing I say return hooker it's I know but say the second half of the Mishnah there's another half of that Haitian up and then afterwards back little exciting from a Canadian slimy that mission is has two things very good picking obvious the Mishna says Baffler it signs of the tane at Sinai I save its own ikkaku exodia what's the difference that's the ice if you hook that mission er that's Yosef in you over there there's two paths in a way to session Yosef is the beautiful trial he faith tire your fate Meir the South's Abbas IRA wasn't he miss also Bucyrus you think you always have stood four hours a day in front of the mirror and made sure to get all the new label design only his cufflinks were mom-ish made this lazy his shoes he think of the servant that's what Yosef was busy with yo sisters like his mother is he faith toy every day my they're beautiful they're handsome you read the story of Yosef throughout braces and what's your feeling you get from Jason he ceases every opportunity and always rises to the top wherever he is in the worst circumstances he has a pain he's fearful he's sorry he's graceful he's fun if I could say so he's exciting he's an intrapreneur he's original he's creative he never lets live get to him he's really a master about who do you see it most invasive he's in he has no mother she's been gone for years he has no father his father thinks he's dead he has no siblings they stoled it with the slavery he is literally alone in the world there's no visitors coming to him and nobody's sending him a letter nobody said it so imagine can we even imagine like survivors alone in the world mama SH he's not mad he has nobody in the world nobody you would think this is the greatest recipe for what depression of the worst kind and yet there's one little seed he walks in one morning and he sees two Gentiles a buffalo and a baker who will probably anti-semites meeting you and me because they were friends of quickly fight the Imams oh yeah you know you know what Zoya for me it's when you walk into a yeshiva early in the morning with the boys look like it's called a sour face column look net miserable so even a lifeless moisture turns to them in prison and he asks for words I go sir and he asks them a question of four words medulla to make him go a mile from us touch the finish why are you so depressed why are you so down I never question is this yes sir what are we dancing Cassatt's cassette of a mitzvah what are we had a Viennese table eating part of a cheesecake at a wedding we're on death row in an Egyptian dungeon for heaven's sake that's why we're depressed what do you want us to do if he doesn't understand and let's understand as a result of that question what happens they come in their dreams he explains to them the meaning of their dreams he deciphers the mystery of their dreams two years later the king will have dreams and he will be summoned to explain his dreams and as a result he will become the prime minister of Egypt and he will save the world and the Jewish people from famine why because one early morning in a dungeon he saw two non-jews and he put his hands on their shoulders and he said cabinet what's wrong talk to me I'm here for you tell me why you said those four words my do up nation Raymond changed history quite literally think about that the next time you wake up in the morning and you see two people who look pretty depressed and this happens constantly and what you can do I'm not telling you because I'm gonna become the prime minister of Egypt as a result of that and I'm not sure you want to become you want to take over ICC and become the Prime Minister be I'm not sure you want that in your resume but it just shows you the perspective of yardas of Toyota how history develops history is not created by major people doing major things history is created by one individual saying a warm good morning and showing a true gesture of caring and love to somebody in prison who may not be Jewish Tanakh your family who looks depressed but what does this tell us about Lisa's personality you faked her via Fame ira Yosef selasa Theo stand Eric and I were the ones he always brought out to the world that you this guy makes you beautiful that neither Skype enhances your life physically emotionally psychologically spiritually that's nice if my sound film is I write you this kite creates a life that is beautiful on every level your faith tire you're a minor it gives you pain graves jewelry happiness perspective meaning that nicer it's feared to allow you to grow and to maximize your potentials and reach your fullest self as a human being as a Jew materially and spiritually in this world under the next will not only the next world but in this world that's the story of this and then when you're down in the gutter it holds you it could sustains you doesn't turn you into lazy apathetic depressed person on the contrary Joseph's life is that unique partnership between tremendous trusts but also tremendous tremendous work tremendous lady he never sits back and says God come on sending down a helicopter he works and grows and grows and grows by he has emissaries to fish Matt's list and he has this unique Mazel this unique outlook if this partnership that happens there's no question I'm the most basic level Yosef as one of the most beloved characters in Japan after you read his story and you have to love this boy 17 years old but he's very disciplined the wife of Potiphar tries to have him surrendered to her promiscuity via mine and by you mine with her shall jealous the silver of Rights is live reassess Kauai yourself fellas them by in mind I think I've shared with you once by him so the shin of it up says that it gives up nay nay nay I don't know if he said anything you dish to the wife of picked if I don't know I don't know if she understood you dish but that's what he says men named names this wasn't an easy moment yes it had to fight for himself but the ISIF understood that all of Toyota including these several missiles Benigno yeah are there to create a you fake toy over your fame honor that yes you hood there has a different perspective you hood this says the ultimate truth of life is to submit mode in Manama and we bow down my moon the ultimate purpose of life is to recognize there is a truth completely beyond yourself and you have an opportunity and a privilege to serve that to become connected to that to fulfill that purpose to fulfill that calling to fulfill that Duty now you say we want both of course we want both what do we emphasize what should we emphasize why should we emphasize surrender you don't write you have to submit why why I'm just asking okay because we ever Yates Oh Horace you have to submit yeah okay you say annoyed Movado okay beautiful huh if the submission that won't be leadership you mean because there won't be personality presence there's more personality and surrender really why a power above you okay on the ISIS right right right you're saying this good and bad and all okay everyone obviously said the right thing of course and really whatever you say is the right thing because you're talking from this is a question of your own life of everybody's life I'm gonna put the question a drop difference which really captures it I think in philosophical terms is the purpose of you describe which to find yourself in God what was the purpose of you desire to lose yourself in God do you want to find yourself in Hashem what do you want to lose yourself and I said now that's understand to find yourself in our sin is beautiful because I find myself there it's a gush maka thing but there's two major challenges as we said first of all we have a H Sahara we have a narcissistic even in us how do we guarantee that self-expression doesn't become a form of self worship and what happens if my self actually guides me to do something that may be destructive to me and it's especially to other people it happens every day I want to express myself I have a lie I have children I have a family of responsibilities who cares miss Lilly never oh yeah that's what can happen in other words you become a stick and I know that today's society we all celebrate the freedoms that modernity have given us the freedom to be able to choose how you want to live your life you choose your career you choose your relationships some people you choose where you want to live you choose you have so much choice but doesn't choice us to come with a tremendous question of tremendous hazard and that is what happens if you choose a path that leads you into the abyss what happens if you choose a path that ultimately you regret later what happens if you choose a path that's irreversible what happens if you choose a path that ruins other people's lives but you say it's my path I think there was a Russian politician who once said I have great news for you yesterday we were standing at the edge of the abyss today we took a giant step forward so taking time step forwards is a beautiful but we are am i taking the giant step forward and sometimes in the name of self-expression especially when it comes to intimate issues my self-expression may contradict everything that Tara has to say everything that Judaism has to say so what is it that's one issue but there's another issue and the other issue is can I really reduce truth to my experience in other words do I not really fail the truth if I define the objective of all of life is that I should find myself in God but what about those truths that completely transcended me what about those truths that are completely infinite that are completely beyond me it remains a little pathetic and limiting if I define that ultimate based on my experience at Oxford instead of I'll find it they'll be great but the truth of Hashem precedes creation precedes the human imagination for she received the human experience in a way if I cut myself off from losing myself in God ultimately I cut myself off from a relationship with the absolute truth on its terms not on my terms isn't it true that in life I have to be able to ask not only what I want but what you want because there that may be a far deeper truth and I'll be able to experience on the other hand if we go only to submission then what can happen the person is completely lost like you says I'm not here I could become a robot I surrender to you and what happens whereas my emotions where's my intellect and therefore there's a tension in life between these two you will see the trend of your suit you will treat see the strength of you other we will discuss Kabbalah Omalu sermon we will discuss limit nor mixes ll excited Venice agrees and will discuss any passion we will discuss any restriction Bhanumati my second location and Ivana hain we will have both trends Yosef emphasizes one you wouldn emphasizes the other look at the hood is life and you'll see he's always acting as a king who's fulfilling his duty when your sisters in the pits he is the one who makes sure he doesn't stay in the pit he gets his own he gets him sold when summer is about to be burnt he will get up and say I did it when B Amin has to be taken back to Egypt he will guarantee to Yakko that he's taking full responsibility when B Amin is taken into captivity by Yusuf he will stand up to Yosef and say I will become the slave forever but I need the young man to go free Banasik sure urban option he will act as a leader with responsibilities taking responsibility for what's needed at that moment you hood that represents the component of submission how does one's giving a letter G I mistook mark Chavez a Jew it was a secular crowd a Jew raises his hand by questions and answers or ridiculously could you give me one reason that a normal American person who didn't grow up Orthodox should restrict himself 24 hours from turning on his phone from turning on the light from going shopping for watching television from taking the shower and doing whatever you want going to the gym in order to keep shots could you explain to me why explain this to me what do you think was the answer I shouldn't give it it at that moment let me tell you two answers tell me which one is what I could tell her why who created you God who's giving you life right now God what's the real source of all reality God Hashem said keep service boom that's it Hashem said keep shopping is that a true answer it's a good answer - true answer - it's not what I call why didn't I tell them this thousands of Chabad houses in the world unfortunately lots of people who come to show don't walk three miles they come other ways unfortunately the rabbi gets up at the Bema gives a sermon which speaks about Shabbos what happens if he would say cut brunch that there's a match to the he created you you don't have a life out and he made a few requests he brought through with his will he said keep shopping in there for everybody bring your keys to the dinner make a beautiful pie or you could come to my house - laughter shoppers for a walk huh everything he said was right I don't know if next weekend he would show up not because it was wrong instead what I told this Jew is your children deserves to have one night with a father who's not checking his text messages every few minutes do you know what they will do to your family if your wife and your children know that once a week they have the full attention of their father 24 hours a day sitting there listening to each other talking to each other eating together arguing with each other schmoozing with each other just connecting as a family you may not appreciate it the first week do it for a few weeks but do it not as a voluntary thing because then you'll change do it as a commandment as a commitment and tell me if it will not change the caliber of your life what was I talking to him about everybody about them about him so what is Judaism is it about you is it about Hashem great question I felt he had to hear Yosef because I wanted him to be able to experience ours here is where there was a major conference you who the understands that there's a philosophy called yo that's not a mixture but you know what happens what happens it is you sir all of us yes as we call vana why does it say you saw Matt the actors so there are Petrova rights and suppleness Pinay equation whenever it says he athlete this individual whenever it says he's wrong it's referring to the story of the Jewish people Yaakov as the father of the Jewish people forever you saw all the services we called mama yeah clay Vivino cherishes Joseph more than all of us Orton for us Alex owners passing which is a colorful beautiful tunic because that's Joseph Yosef is the one who will show the beauty of you distracted beauty of God the beauty of Tara that's his destiny you look at cannot assume that if Roberts can understand it but here goes Yosef is now dreaming that everybody is going to prostrate themselves to him whoa he's the king he's the leader to issues mouth emerge one issue is is this self-actualization bordering on a different type of self-actualization where you worship even deeper what step deeper Kingdom was promised to you hood to the trunk of you hood them but I've devoted mother Helen Marlon why because as I said before we understand that ultimately the greatest schooling in my face when I can graduate myself and lose myself in God not only find myself in God it's not always reduced to my experience but I could take my experience and then give that over to something that transcends because that allows me to touch the infinite on the other hand Yosef says I'll be king I'll be ultimately you're bowing down to me - Allah puts it and passions by Asia they saw Joseph as the the MacMurray rib and mouth was based of it the ultimate rebel against the kingdom based of it not only that there's not they wanted to bring Messiah mushiya would be Yehuda and Yosef is the one who is rebelling against that mouth loose it's not just a question of Yosef as an individual it's a question if the QTE ism is really going to become about what all about me even to the point that you hoof is bowing down to Yosef in other words ultimately the leader is yo yo yo if not Yoda this is where they sell Yosef as a slave opposite of him Yosef has to become an evidence that of a madman the dreams the famous passing are simply reflective of a major conflict in philosophy but what was the truth the truth is yo simplest sadly the only one was called sabbaq sabbaq Elliot why because Yosef was not undermining you were there yes it was the only step is the first king in Jewish history he's not the last thing in Jewish history for you to be able to reach Yehuda you have to go through the mouth of Yosef for a very simple reason if I come to my child at a very young age and I say my dear daughter my dear son the ultimate of life is for you to completely surrender everything to Hashem what you care about what you feel what you think is irrelevant insignificant what do you think that would do to a child would that really be surrender or would that be ultimate crushing destruction he wouldn't even be able to surrender - then there's no he there's no he at best you turn him into a robot at worst you turn it into a resentful whose entire Judaism is course on him not trumman he is not the error he was ignored he was destroyed he was crushed you wanted his identity her identity should be should be included to the embrace that you really experience you hooker without loosing your woman is ultimate of course Joseph also needs discipline of course the division of you would there's there even with Jason but for a person to really be able to lose themselves and gods though they first have to find it's also for a person to be able to lose themselves in a marriage don't you have to first find yourself in a what if I tell a person or a caller marriage is not about you it's about the other is that true of course it's true but then you could marry anybody you could marry a car not about you but what happens are you married you're not married marriage was created for you you're not the relationship even so yes bit though bit they'll surrender surrender you're not on the relationship so what happens either you become a robot or it is a part of you that's never deal it's just completely resentful your externality is here so Yosef is the king as a preparation for your hood in order to be able to reach you hood there you have the ocean and then yes sir who has a little bit but knows that he's preparing for you hood then therefore he wants to actualize it if somebody never worship the south because he understands that ultimately this house was created by Hashem so I shouldn't be the Creator self that contradicts Hashem's will on the contrary your ultimate truest self will would be reflective of that the self is also a creation of us share my mind my heart my personality characteristics no I didn't only want a robot to serve me wanted a human be dessert so what happens really is that the ISIF sees himself as a catalyst that's right after all so Susan and the investor Martin Joseph example but those two philosophies can be seen in stark opposition with two very different emphases this and when one is completely entrenched in this perspective it's very hard to see the other perspective that could then lead up to you Hooda were you Hooda is the great act of submission which is the ultimate truth where a person has the courage to be able to transcend himself and lose himself in a truth where the eye doesn't exist not because he's insecure not because he was crushed but because the eye melts away in infinity which is far beyond the eye or as the cutter ever said I've got this yet the tip of the pen and fresh pain the vision I don't know how to translate that hey God that every putrid seed can comprehend I will not worship in other words can I really reduce God to my experience let's say I will refine myself in the deepest way can I reduce all of God to my experience the a safe I have to lose myself amazed myself amazed if this is the case now come back with me to the gomorian son Henry and this will be easy I shan't bring it together Yosef is the key not Yehuda they all bow down to Joseph they all bow down to Joseph at this stage Joseph is the key when they go and tear to show yahushua is the leader from the tribe of Yosef the mission is still there I'll go over to Sheol which is an intermediary between Yosef and you heard that because this is beyond what we'll souls were saved me why did shall lose his royalty remember he was told to destroy our malt liquor and What did he say I want to know what does the Gemara say about your mouth now compassion I could bring their animals us through bondage with a swollen let me cover tell you some oh yeah means ever tithe lahat she's Mikayla neither better to listen then bring a beautiful car be better to obey that could bring an offering of Arab soul I'm not laughs what saying Carmen is for the word key rule I want to sublimate the animals if I'm all it I feel bad about it dove it from the tribe of you who they're double who says it to him I mean Lori she vcv day 90 knife she could gobble a like a subtly nursing from his mother completely committed shawl looks above it and he doesn't understand of it you know why went over that Meletus feeds dogless with overnight others defeats deliciously one of people seeing the women I've seen it was he could show about love from another dreary Mesa at least you know haha somebody knows too much Scholl struck in the thousands no it struck in the Marianas sure gets angry so jealous he wants to kill him what's the depth there solo looks at dozens and he seasoned of it a tremendous warrior a tremendous fighter solo thinks this is the ultimate danger but really dove it for him it's not a contradiction rebuffing it to Hill and redundant amok it's two doubles but truly the same person because David was completely committed and we had completely committed your trials your celebrations your night your warrior as part of your commit minutes God wants you to employ all of your facets Lovett Dexter Kingdom now you who to ultimately took over Yosef paved the path you who's it took over but that's when his wife he goes astray what does this mean they went over from your sister you hood there but they're not there yet they're not the area they surrendered but they're not here they're not ready to surrender so what has to happen we gotta go back if you didn't work through the ISIF you're not gonna get to your hood you know because yourself is still resent it your self is not there there's still a tremendous obstacle in your identity so from why do we have to go back here alpha which is back the icing you robbed up now has the opportunity to be a new yoseop here's the tragedy of your honor you hope that looked at young sniffing you know who we saw you saw you know you Robin was Yosa bowing salad your arms blindness was unprecedented his pain is brilliant what happened the world of self-expression took over his life how do I know this the fate of sugar martyr some heaven tough to follow them the day's the fourth source from the bottom all right open afternoon gases sir who acts are you by the ear ever heard of singing I'm one thing wiped away it up in from the world what he was so great it was great it's got to survive his arrogance this is where self expression becomes a form of self tuition come now back to the story of the mission versus the base of ego high is self-expression an animal feels was vegetation groans yo Damon you step on what's hired by Sameach Fredonia of course don't we set up same AF you could step on but the tree is not happy hi try stepping on your bull will be a social mother don't step on your bull or on the Buffalo we're certainly on the lioness don't step on me if I has personality strength the kindly in kind of the Mishkan what's the top then Sameach then the hierarchy is life vitality I sit under a piston air under that is dining the base of it - is there any division of gamma divisional there it's all rockets all diamond it's the ultimate truth that commitment what we call bittle submission surrender is the peak of Judaism not because we believe in repression that we believe in crushing the personality on the contrary we celebrate the society celebrated seniya but it's there ultimately to lead you to be able to go beyond yourself the cut part of the insight which is always beyond not because you're bad on the contrary so that the you should be able to experience that ain't safe and even that which is beyond the you so that's the basis of McNish the Vishnu Shiva is it to me the Aryan I explained it's all there in the story with your oven but no vote now come back to the Demario Hashem turns to the good few of them and he says ah sorry Bob you know what's gonna happen I need the actor me you and benissa going there maybe who's first your lover miss first your first boys your first the only sub came before you who that dove it and swim over tea but now it's going back to you you're gonna be first on me but after a vacation you rev up says me below who's really close I know that I'm now first who's really first and Shem says then he said gosh you know who says I know that Joseph is the king before you go there but I want to know who's really what's the ultimate truth is the ultimate truth is the ultimate truth that I am at first that life is really about self-expression self-actualization may be the most spiritual sense but it's ultimately about me or is the ultimate truth of life ain't no model there's nothing but the reality of Hashem after session the unity of our Shem pervades everything and my eye is also part of that eight sides and I'm here to become part of that truth what's really the rush am i just preparing for mediation or am i the ultimate so Hashem says that you should be rubbish you're preparing for the Jews to be able to go back to the other now there's a fee might be special Buster's I'm just appearing here is the litmus test ultimately are you part of something greater than yourself or does the buck stop with your ego which is great which is awesome which is powerful here is been akunis Helena's we're Yosef and you who there are completely different and you rather misinterpret sits and he becomes your honor and that split continues in Claudia strong until the moment of meanness for what does he have to say but I've been loving melancholy in my life so how are they one how can they become one of our vbeq Mullica so they might one the oh you simply surrender no the conflict is only from our procession but now let's discuss it from our sense perception is there really a conflict is it not really the same thing really and this is of course looking at it from the other side of the curtain it's really the same thing because let's ask a simple question what is this self self expression self expression what is the self self is also part of us so the open it sounds the truest self is a loose that's the evidence of the substitutes of reality so what is the so ceramic Agana that is the ultimate stop the other way let's go the other way what does it really mean to surrender to God to surrender to God only ease your externalities to the totality of your being the target being means it must include your mind your heart your passions your instincts your habits your yearnings your aspirations your dreams that's all part of the personality that God molded it's the ultimate sense but in the experience of life there are two rows two roads diverged in the forest of history so one man said I took the one less traveled by and that made all the difference but two roads diverged in the forest of history and the two roads conflicted with each other very often there is the tension every day between these two and they're represented in these two giants of yosef in Yehuda who both have a tremendous place in a voice that remember the story of Judaism and ultimately each one is indispensable to our life in our journey and yet in the ultimate unity but I've needed melancholia more I'm not because Yosef is ignored or denigrated because the tree of Yosef unites with the tree of you hood and then valid of it melancholia over so now let's look in the cookie half-shafts Lowry's our son Henrik the second to the last paragraph so kadar ISA all the asses lovely you can teach a magician can either in the future there will be two machines mushy invasive Makua or mushy have been dogged New Yorker there will be machine vinyasa who comes from yo so that's masculine but we machined Ovid comes from David is feminine basically not without getting into the details cabbalistic aliyou hood this femininity Yosef is masculinity you who dismount clothes and the early surf is what's called Zod the he may be Tata timing as usual course of a long period operation and therefore the year of them felt he goes first masculinity prevail over femininity what's the difference of masculinity and femininity masculinity is very into self-actualization in history femininity represents the ultimate commitment to the commitment of a mother the commitment of a woman to life the birth to children is infinite it's still infinite we all know that if other would have been given the responsibility of having children he would have been the first and last human being men are macho until they get a virus they get a flu and then they go into bed for two and a half weeks right they don't realize that the wife basically goes that through every night she sleep deprived so the feminine of femininity represents absolute commitment here of them says I come first duper comes before look loo look how Allah he Huckabee inna baby she goes first I don't want it Rocco DiSpirito AMA wh th the solitaire is viola the woman of Valor is the crown of her husband's femininity ultimately transcends masculinity with all due respect they saw Hashem but hakama your son areas of Africa and shammying which was hakama he found earth earth this femininity and with who know which is B know which is lower than , he creates heaven heaven is masculinity so Bhima is connected to heaven but hokhmah which is even higher is connected to Eretz at Mei her nominal of glory no Mekhi Olam haba from their ever from their visa propriety palace quoting you know one feels that he's ultimately the greatest Hashem says yahveh mere Orson but they Yishai perish ultimately Yosef appears the road for Colin Milam and that's why the haftorah of ie gosh why you got shame of you who they were Yosef than you who to meet in Egypt and they ultimately create peace at least for that moment in history laughter is this portion of your Haskell that speaks about the two coming mushiya benissa now surrenders to the shipment of it he may even be killed because of machines and of it he becomes part machine and of it because ultimately the moment of redemption is when every human being realizes that if you really want to find yourself in God you have to be able to lose yourself in God and to really lose yourself in God you have to be able to fire yourself in God and ultimately realize that as much as we find ourselves the greatest moment of self-expression is when I connect to that which is beyond me and when I realize that as much as my consciousness can contain truth the greatest moment of truth is when I could completely surrender and become part of the infinite now what you're saying is something very interesting that from your experience most of our educational institutions crush the individual right I understand this was your experience so what you're saying is that the educational model that exists exists at least in many institutions from what you see is that the messages we give our youth is your feelings don't matter your personality is irrelevant your individuality disregard it it's all about allegiance duty commitment dedication there's a truth beyond you commit yourself to it conform to this pattern which we say is true or we say that God says is true who you are as an individual your passions your dreams your aspirations it's irrelevant that's what you feel our educational experiences so you're touching upon this major tension between these two forces great let's now learn a piece interior earth this is from the a dimension from the vomit Anya terrible rubbish nominally Adi in his safe return early and passions my you gosh which is Amaya there's a minor a discourse about Joseph and you Hooda let's see it inside and just it's a long discourse I closed a paragraph a few lines from the minor it's written in abstract terminology but let's try to apply it based on some of what we discussed Toyota our actions buddy gosh you see in your sources Basava Hina is l gam King enjoyed Sevilla hood this is also the difference between Joseph and you hood Shogun came clean as a moderator semi invariants of goodness and mayor of a diamond it's the difference between heaven versus earth and same a our vegetation produce versus diamond diamond is inanimate the silent that's what seems lifeless rocks are diamond water is diamond minerals are doing them the earth is diamond vegetation produce it grows there's life there's Taniya and the moment earlier discusses the difference between heaven and earth Samaritan done - yo Yusuf Larsen place is very buoy yo he surfs comes from the word increase enhance shimmy toy you Savoy look bad Oliver hug the ball a might because the motto of Yosef is to grow and become larger and more exalted and greater of hooing in cleanest Samaras the concept of Sameach growth and more growth over flat venus hot areas especially the cedar tree chicago vallecula mela mela bird a mammal is the cedar tree which continues to grow taller and taller until it reaches great heights commercia casa facade a katamari frock Kara's vallavan an disc that sadek and Yosef is the one who's called Yosef atomic he blossoms like the palm tree like a cedar in Lebanon he grows you who do penis Eretz you who there represents earth now who's that silly sheep in asado mm dad sellers we're gonna get into the meaning of these words but it represents what's called in Kabbalah the quality of malice domain selflessness dedication self-transcendence going beyond the self Alesana who dilution haha yuhu that represents our door submission surrender to be murder Oh piffle self-abnegation Shahada lineage begin as a bit will be a sickness killer the diamond that which is inanimate has a tremendous sense of selflessness we all walk and step on the earth and the earth does not protest in other words it's experiences itself as an opportunity to hold up humanity to hold up life on the planet that's how it experiences itself the he may be say that I stylist actor Yosef Allah my Allah my Allah in the order of existence today Yosef precedes you hood Yosef is higher than you would for locking Yosef I am Alyce limits now Yin Xiu can ascend may Athena's giggle these masses who is the king in Egypt in the first phase of Jewish history Yosef is the leader Yosef represents growth Yosef represents exaltedness Yosef represents absolute self-actualization spiritually he is the king who have Mars verbum SPL the coulomb he is the one who feeds everybody else he nurtures everybody else all of the brothers and their families need to receive from Yosef they need to learn from yourself they need a tear off a page from his book he is the one who sustains Clouser all not only physically spiritually Jewishly religiously emotionally he is the mellah he is the prime minister from whom who we follow the Zelo aldera cherubim ish cannot say may Allah may Allah meeya diamond that represents it reflects the motto in the Mishkan that same AF is higher than the diamond that same AF that which grows represent the walls of the Mishkan the earth is on the bottom of the Michigan Yosef that same ayah is higher than you hood that he is above the earth Avila orcid lobby in the future you salary you who the lease la Milan organization suddenly there will be a change you who do will transcend yourself commercial cause of skyla Paris baila the woman of Valor becomes at the crown beyond her husband mitsuhashi Alaba massive Aquila so if my Salah burma-shave Attila we say on the Fed ID the end the lowest part the earth really originates in the highest space the end is in the beginning so if my sever much over you who they're really in my shava transcends Joseph Ola offered love it is a Latinas year apart or be here allama Kyra the lower level of fear will be sublimated into the higher level of fear alkane tra Paris baila therefore the woman will be the crown of her husband hija bit to Lula my love Ahmad Reagan may have over here in the middle because essentially what will be revealed is that the bit bull of yahudah transcends the love the passion and the war of the Midlands of the emotions represented by Yosef the motto of the Michigan Sameach growth versus Yehuda what is the Beretania teaching go see what is out there ever teaching us there is the concept of diamond and the concept of Samia submission and passion self-expression self transcendence there is obedience represented what he calls here a zero or reverence I'm committed to you to a goal to a aim to an objective beyond me and then there is me finding myself expressing myself one is represented by Yosef one is represented by Yoda naturally Diamond is lower than Samia yireh Tata the lower level of fear is below I have a below love I'm doing it I'm committed to it but it doesn't permeate me it doesn't penetrate me so I am committed to something but I am committed to it as something that transcends me so that is basically the lowest level this is the earth which is lower than Samia what does this mean in a person's life everybody understands that a human being needs to be harnessed Yates are late for them remunerative if I just tell my child do whatever you want just express yourself uninhibitedly or I tell myself whatever you're feeling do what if I have a terrible habit what if I have a horrible addiction what if my instincts are gravitate to gravitate gravitating towards disruption a person needs to be able to have a blueprint of what's right what's wrong a moral compass a moral guide of what's right what's wrong I may be in the mood of it I may not be in the mood of it it's called doing the right thing I'm gonna eat whatever I want whenever I want what if it's poisonous what if it's self-destructive I'll say whatever I want I'll do whatever I'm in the mood of a person has to be able to surrender and say despite my mood this is the proper thing to do this is what we call year a Tata or what we call Cabela's oh malucia mile or what we call at the dumbest nozzle Enoshima what is the blueprint in Judaism this is Tyra it's the manual that God gave humanity and the Jewish people to distinguish between what's good and what's not good what's moral what's immoral what is positive what is negative what is good what is evil I know it's the right thing do I feel it I may not feel it this is you Hooda on a basic level and it's really the lowest and basic level of a Veda session it's called diamond I may not be passionate I may not be excited I may not be enthusiastic I may be in a place of diamond which means silence there's no life because I don't feel it I'm not in the mood of it I'm not passionate about it I don't see the self-expression but it's what's called year a Tata the lower level of fear or or where you know this is the right thing not a bad thing right even though you're not in the mood of it the doctor may give you a prescription the description may be bitter you may not like it you may not understand how it works you may not be in the mood of taking it you'll take it anyway why because you know that this is going to make you healthy this will help you get rid of the infection does it mean you're excited about it no doesn't mean you understand exactly how it works no you never went to medical school you don't know the first thing about medicines you don't know anything about infections but you'll do it not because you're crazy not because you're blind not because you're in a cult but because you appreciate you know who the doctor is you know that he has experience you know that he has helped many patients and you understand that his blueprint for what you should do is likely the path that will make you healthy that's one level then you reach a higher level the higher level is the level of yes your faith however you say my will you develop the middle to have the year it in the sense you're here and a higher level love the gay smack the delightfulness this is a much more developed level it seems like the ultimate purpose we're you understand that the blueprint of God is not here to undermine your individuality and your creativity on the contrary somebody asked me the other day he said it's very simple what God wants and what I want are not the same thing what trader wants for my life and what I want for my life are not the same thing good question what's the answer to that question what's the real answer to that question Joseph comes and tells us something very powerful Joseph says you missed the point who created your individuality your individual personality is though ultimately a reflection of God's will as well there's no such a thing saying that your true self and God's self are at odds with each other your self is designed by Hashem and therefore it's impossible that a true self contradicts the will of God on the contrary if you activate your true self if you discover the depth of your personality the depth of your mind the depth of your heart its greatest self-realization is becoming a conduit for the divine will because the ultimate self is really connected to Tasha the ultimate self is a creation of Usha this self is a mirror of our individuality was designed as all-merciful Iraq but there's vertical by moment liberal it's wider as we set the Mishna says at the end of pricky of us so what this means is that the depth of my heart the depth of my dreams my deepest aspirations and yearnings if I can really have the courage to go deeper into that are not at odds with Tyra they're not at odds with mitzvos on the contrary Toyota and mitzvos is the blueprint that facilitates that invites that allows for the ultimate truth of my inner self to emerge yes at this stage of my life I may feel that there's a contradiction I may feel perhaps emotionally resentment especially if I was crushed in Maya Shiva then I have to I feel like I have to run away from it or maybe philosophically I just don't see it work but the aside of you despite is yourself is also a creation of God your inner identity is also a product of God your inner self is also sacred and spiritual and holy and part of our SEMS unity and a feminist reality and therefore ultimately your deepest dreams and God's deepest dreams meet so yosef here seems like the ultimate the diamond is on the bottom that's the first level here at Tata the lower level of fear and then you go higher which is Tamara which is yourself growth self-actualization yosef self-actualization is not egotistical it could be seen that way this is where the brothers Eric they thought the eyes of self-declaration is egotistical but essentially Yosef self-actualization is part of our voices Hashem for him that to avoid this Hashem Yosef is at Sabbath but wait there's something else as the power Tania says your Tata is rooted in URI law and the US is lovely we will see in year a Tatar year a law which means this ultimately finding yourself in God is awesome but is that it truth transcends my experience with truth and if I limit truth to my experience of it I'm barely scratching the surface of truth there's no such a thing I will grasp the full majesty of the infinite while I remain I if I remain I ultimately the infinity is restricted to my experience of infinity and therefore the ultimate truth lay in your hooda not to find yourself in truth but to lose yourself in truth not to lose yourself in truth because you believe in crushing yourself repressing yourself denying yourself hating yourself on the contrary it's appreciating the grandness that transcends the self and therefore the self melts away in Vegas with the aim safe I once asked a great pianist what's the greatest moment at a concert how do you know you're successful and he said to me when I don't feel that I am playing the music my fingers just become a conduit for a higher energy that's not self repression that's bittle in a much higher sense that's URI law that's the higher or it's not lower fear because I'm not in the mood but this is what I have to do it's far beyond that I go beyond my experience to touch the truth I melt away happily but on the other hand can one begin with that can one begin with that level of Uri love you ultimately hooda before your sister no because if I come to somebody and I say it's all about surrender surrender the self-abnegation self it's not about you it's completely not about you truth is completely beyond you then you will never become part of that and what happens is you may be forever frustrated because the you has been crushed you may become a robot at best your internal self is not part of the relationship your internal self was left behind and it will probably haunt you because you have surrendered but which part of you have surrendered you never surrendered you didn't engage your identity and therefore we start with Uri law we only disciplined but then your Youssef becomes the leader that same AF is higher than the diamond self-expression appreciating the fact that Torah and mitzvot that you this guide is here to bring out your best to have you dance and celebrate to help you suck the marrow out of life to actualize your life in the most perfected and exalted way to maximize all of your talents and all of your resources to bring goodness into your life happiness into your life meaning into your life sabe que toma un Isabelle Ivana museum but that's a preparation for something even deeper you hood Asia's hi Ella Tara's baila we're alternately the diamond transcends even it's a Maya you who that transcends even yourself the complete alignment with the source now that you had Yosef before you Hooda you can bring your entire self into this relationship and surrender your entire yourself into a truth that's completely beyond yourself where you can lose yourself you can lose yourself in truth but here's the deal throughout history there can be a major tension between these two forces we see it right here in truth they're one this is what we keep on saying you know why because ultimate self-realization happens in self transcendence when you lose yourself in truth you will find yourself if you never really lose yourself ultimately you could never really find yourself your ultimate self you will discover through losing yourself through surrender blue transcendence you choose so you deep yourself on the other hand God wants the entire person so your Youssef is really one with you hood and you hood this really one with the icing because for yourself to be yourself for yourself to be yourself Joseph needs to lose himself in truth that's when you really discover who you are you really discover your deepest spiritual true itself when you could surrender on the other hand ultimate surrender requires self-actualization because God wants you not only to surrender itself he wants you to relate with yourself to him he wants your heart then he wants your mind and he wants your dreams and he wants your passion your eye itself is part of divinity your eye and that Shems I are ultimately one that's am ecstatic says I in iciest and me ayah means nothing I mean means I ultimately and me and eyen are one in the same I find my Ani through becoming I am and I can only achieve real iron if I engage my Ani again I find my real Annie through becoming iron that's where I find my Ani by becoming I and I find my unique on different levels there's finding my unnie in a basic ioan iacob basic discipline this finding my Annie my deeper Annie in iron because through that discipline I really discover who I really am and I experienced the real iron only by going back to Annie because the real iron wants all of me to be part of the relationship and we discover that my eye and Hashem zai are really one or as the Mythili rabbit the son of the ballot Anya has an expression in his safer Beauty Hazare parshas mashaallah the yesh Oliver in the yesh committee are really one and the same the eye of the created being and the ultimate true eye of the rib inertia Lila are really at the core core core level than one but history is a long painful journey of going through the process that it takes in order to discover this and to discover this not in a robotic way but to discover this in an experiential profound an authentic way [Music] you [Music]