Is God CHOOSING ME or AM I CHOOSING GOD

I think who's taking who? Who's taking me? What is going on? Better shape up, said the sham. We're three partners here, right? Please, it's not fair if you would leave the two partners behind and you would do your thing. Allow me to be here and I shut my eyes the whole way until after the huppah. And I I felt like I'm I'm I'm descending, descending, descending and I came into a beautiful space. I was there for the whole huppah. I was on a cloud. Wow. And it lasted until like one before the last Sheva Brachot. I was just there. I was loving. I gave Brachot like a makubala to everyone. I was having a blast.