What Do You Mean Live In The Now? When Else Can I Live? - Rabbi Yonatan Rietti

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what does it mean to live in the now there is no other time to live in it's a it's an expression that's become very popular and uh i want to explore it a little bit further i've got good news and bad news and better news which do you want to hear first okay the truth is you're going to see that none of them are really bad news but the bad news is you're going to die the bad news is you're born to die from the moment of conception birth onwards the clock is ticking until mayor versus 120 so that's if you want to call it the bad news the good news is the real you is not your body the real new the real you is your neshama yonashama never dies the body yes the better news is that even the body is returned to you at kirsten mason and so in that sense we're good in that sense even the bad news is really only from our perspective and what i'm really describing here is really three realities there's my reality the way i look at the world and think it is there's your reality the way you look at the world and think it is and then there's hashem's reality which is the and only reality and when i got sparkle gave us his terror what is in a certain sense doing is giving us access to his reality so the definitions of god's reality is his terror terrorism and in that sense anything we want to try and define we really need to go and ask okay so what does the turk say this really is so hakarsbaku goes out of his way and according to many it's one of the six constant mitzvahs even though if you really look carefully there are a lot more than six but i'm not going there now it's not it's not tonight's discussion but lord taturu aha levathen we say every day very few are part of our daily filler that's a health we actually have an absolute obligation to say these three paragraphs and the last paragraph of shmei swell contains this mitzvah tamidi constant mitzvah every waking second of our lives don't follow lu taturu i'm not going to translate the word lay as according to its popular translation i'm going to call it going to kazaal because i'll tell us the word laive means das ebene ezra on that passage means mind rubbed by victor miller of blessing memory talks about this frequently that the word leave unfortunately we're stuck with a christian-based translation that's always always translating his heart but the majority of times it means mind or thought whenever the word leave is doubled over it means thoughts it's plural those are the only eyes and thoughts i've got so what do you mean don't follow my thoughts the best slime says please learn my torah all tariq mitzvahs so that when you get to lo taturu you'll know what you're looking at if it's real or not you'll know what to think and the pastor actually says you will look at that thread of takaylas or at the sit sis us versailles you'll remember all my messages and be able to do them there's no next possum the next words are part of this bosok oh because i've injected in my mind your torah and mitzvahs oh so now when i look at something i know whether i'm supposed to think about it or not and there are many mincers of the mind that i got a sparkle warns me don't go there resentment lo tito nakama don't go there lotisna don't go there hatred complaining in acre parrot gimmel i think pasta glamour test what does someone who's alive have to complain about he wants to complain okay i'll give you what to complain about says that's the only legitimate complaint to complain about my own mistakes not yours not anybody else's there are many mixes of the mind we've talked about this in previous years that's not tonight's presentation tonight's presentation is what does it mean to live in the now there is no other time to live in you've got your reality i got mine and you've got yours it's actually right at the beginning of the whole of shas almost the first sugiya actually duff gimmel in brachus right at the bottom going on to dial it says there are three reasons you're not allowed to go into a horrible into a ruin reason number one it's dangerous there might be falling rocks you know you don't know if the structure is really safe so number one it's dangerous number two hey there might be a zoina a lady over there what what's the person going into into oh is make a liaison number three there are shade him shin dallas i shouldn't say at night time demons so mufasa tell us these are the three realities because the gemara actually asked why do i need three reasons one should be enough it goes through every possible combination but listen to the three realities from my reality oh my gosh it's dangerous don't go there but if i'm going in there and someone else is looking what's what's he coming in there for so in his mind oh he's got a meeting with someone husband but rebellion he's got a separate reality which you and i can't see and that is there might be shindalas there that are dangerous and can harm a person so i'm just courting out tomorrow as an example of where there are three realities but it's only really one reality but you and i still have to deal with each other's realities but they're separate they're not the same so from hashem's perspective we're here for 120 years then there's supposed mesa but the mesa only lasts for maximum till threesome asim and kisamayasim is coming very soon you we are now in the earth 5781 because that'll tell us i think it's gamora and sanhedrin around about sardic sign going to sadekes that the way we know it the world is six thousand years that's the cut-off line mashiach and some asian has to be by then so you're getting really close so hold on uh some asians coming in a cemetery near you soon that's not actually accurate because it's going to take place in eric's swell and and anyone who's buried here will roll over there i hope it'll be first class uh whatever whatever is the uh the method so comes along hazal and warns us this world is temporary but from a kadash baraku's perspective when we mourn death when we mourn a loss when we mourn tragedy when we suffer yesurin from a kardash's perspective it's actually only for our benefit and death is not real it's real to us because we think it is but it's not part of his dictionary because there's a mason is for how long when yeshayan navi says hashem is going to swallow what a metaphor the moment you swallow the food that's that's the end of it as far as you're concerned your pleasure began here ends here the true value of the food begins here onwards but kulshbacher uses this as a metaphor billaha netsaq hashem will swallow death forever um and all tears of pain will be wiped off our faces the only tears we'll ever have moving into the future from trees amazing onwards tears of joy simcha so even what you and i see as tragedy death illness suffering that is purely our reality but hashem says this world is only good really really we're going to get to it so let me share with you a marshall i saw the this and i think in in dallas of sierra kaidesh fascinating muscle very simple muscle i'm going to slightly embellish it a person has been sentenced to death that's the final verdict and he's taken into the muscles about a a carriage is like 200 years ago so i'm just going to pretend it's an armored car he's taken into an armored car to the gallows just before he gets in he asks the driver how how how long is the journey from here to he wants to know when he's going to die so the driver says well actually it depends on the judge because there are quite a few locations that you could be hung it might be a minute away there's one that close there's one that's about an hour and there's another like a few days days of journey so so which one will it be i wonder how long he's still gonna live for he says well it depends on the judge so he gets into the into the armored car and just this is my embellishment just pretend it's a smart car what does that mean well um in this armored car is a internet access um unlimited netflix uh movies galore any magazine you can pull up on a screen and read it to your heart's content they've even got a helmet which is a 3d virtual reality helmet i don't know if every view of any worn one they are fascinating you wear this helmet and with the controls you can choose let's say um i don't know outer space so you choose to be out of space and all of a sudden you're you actually see three-dimensional and you oh my gosh you look down and there's nothing there just stars in the far distance you turn around it makes no difference where you turn you'll see different planets and stars and you think you you you you have this demon in your imagination you have no ground to stand on and you can actually lose your balance because when you look down you realize your feet aren't on anything solid your brain tells you but you know you are and this is just in your imagination you can go to grand canyon you can go in over you can go anywhere you want with this 3d virtual reality um you have a cell phone there with all the names of all your contacts and all your emails and um listen uh there's a there's a bathroom microwave there's a replenishing refrigerator which means as soon as you take a drink out a new drink is put in its place and the same with food so that whoever designed this armored car on its way to the gallows ensured that you're not only having comfort but you have luxuries so let me ask you the person who has just been given the verdict he's going to die and is on the way to the gallows how is he going to spend his last minutes hours possibly days in this armored car checking his emails every few minutes uh watch a movie read a mod a novel go through it flick through a magazine make some phone calls or is he gonna open if he's allowed to take a telling with him or just pour his heart out to kaja bharara penchalam please let this be a copara for all my mistakes in my life please eventually if there's any possibility because david malek says it that even if even if a sword is right on my neck and i have a split second left of my life revenge leila i'm going to still hold out for you maybe you'll save me in the last second never give up and so he starts darkening that maybe the king will commute his sentence his death sentence or maybe the judge will i don't know rescind the entire death penalty so gentlemen and ladies what's the nimsho it's very simple our nashamah is take is brought down here from based in chilmala where it's decided how long we're going to be in prison we're we're born to die and i'm not saying it to catch your attention it's simply the reality nobody escapes this world alive cause i'll tell us there were nine exceptions we're not talking about them we've got hanay probably the most the most famous we're not referring to those exceptions all the other billions of human beings born into this world died and while we're in this prison and it's not really the perfect martial however khazal do tell us i think it's our voice pair of gimbal around about uh mishna tazhayan depending on which edition you have matsuda furusa mitsuta there's a trap frusta that spread out alcohol on every human being who's alive and the ghazal tell us look at the rav about to know he's quoting khazal what's the matsuda fruits of this trap that spread over anybody who's alive yesurin umisa suffering and death it's impossible to escape so while we're in we're traveling this armored smart car which is brilliantly designed so brilliantly designed that it's extraordinarily distracting and there's a lot of places to visit there's a lot of things to read and there's a lot of things to learn that could distract me from da silo kim please fill your mind with my mitzvahs with my minds so that when you're looking at this world you'll know what to look at what not to what to think what not to lo taturu don't go touring the word tour comes from in english the word tour comes from go after my mind the way i see the world so what is this person gonna do we all know the answer he knows he's going to die and he doesn't know when it might be an hour a minute a day but the absolute max is 120 years till he gets to the death penalty now maybe it sounds like so what uh it really still is a beautiful world and that's true but here's here is god's reality this world is a prison it's a corridor a reception room before the truckline in front of the banquet and the only way you can get to the bank of it hall is through the prison and here is where i heart ken arsenica interesting language hatken is a lotion of tikkun which has the meaning of both preparation and fixing in the words of rabbi victor miller this world olam hazel is one big hospital we're all suffering from some sort of illness whether it's kaas anger gaiver rahman islam i actually believe that my success is because of my intelligence or my thinking or the things that i brought around in business that is simply my false reality in god's reality he was making all the connections mazavik zavugim he's bringing everyone around whether it's a business opportunity whether it's an actual marriage whether it's the children that are gifted to us it's all a pure gift guyver is shekel there's one of the two guy and casts of the only two that rambam in hillcrest days i think parrot base halacha base tells us uh you have to go to the opposite direction and have no mean no middle road no middle road that's my you've got to go to the other extreme why cause is never justified because it's a complaint every single complaint we had in the midbar we paid the price for some of those complaints we're still paying the price for miraculous especially los angeles is a complaint that if if i were running the show rapunzel let me show you how it ought to go that's a way to zara that's why it's equated to avoid zoro geyver is just simply shekker it's not true natira remembering other people's faults that's that's that's shecher that's my reality but in god's reality he wants me to be without her and to be michael and move on every single middle ra is ultimately a complaint so comes along because allen warned me that i'm here to fix myself i got 120 years to do it let's figure out together how much will the richest man in the graveyard pay for one more day he could come back alive for one more day how much would he pay for those still awake how much would he pay no value it'll pay everything now let me ask you how much how much value does one minute or even one second have so i did this last year so i'm going to run through it very fast if haas for shalom a jew's life is in danger and you have a chance to save him but the only way you can do it is to be mikhail shabas do you have an obligation to break every single one of the melakas of shabbas to save his life yes or no absolutely now i'm just speaking theoretically if the only way to save this jew was to be violate every single love every single aveira in the torah bar three except for murder guillories and and avoided zara but except for those three would you have an obligation to save his life yes or no yes you still have to be break every mitzvah in the torah and beam of battle all the assays as well and what let's just listen theoretically if every single jew in the world had to be michal's shabbos break every aveira in the toe except for three to save one person's life and everyone knew that you would only succeed in savings life for one second would there be an obligation theoretically speaking would there be an obligation for every jew to be makala shabbos and ivan every avera in the turret bar three to save one jew's life for one second yes or no so the question now begs big question how could all the availas in the torah bar three and all the assays beam of battle and shabbos mikhail shabas and that would be outweighed by one person's life for one second you'd only succeed in saving his life for one second why would that all be outweighed by one second of a jew's life what can a person accomplished in one second oh one here of teshuva one thought of i'm sorry one thought i want to come back to you one thought of regret of any mistakes i've made in my life it's already worth it oh when am i supposed to do tuva yesterday tomorrow when's the only time i live i only live today which hour of today do i live now i'm i'm in right now do i live hour to hour to hour or minute minute to minute or moment from moment to moment oh yesterday never exists never it might be a memory and i might be stupid enough please be mocking me really stupid enough to talk about yesterday and talk about it and talk about it and talk about it and vent with lots of people even pay money to talk about it so if the person who's supposed to be the professional and helps me take whatever lesson i need from yesterday move it forward go there otherwise because i'll say murder have a harvard what happened happened as rashi says there in the gemara in yuma duff hey i believe it is oh what do we have to ask questions about it what are you going to yesterday for it happened already ma it's gone history later on in the same sector yuma where they use hazal use the same expression however it happens gone finished rashi asks says a different comment but similar similar idea and what is that russia says ef zera it's impossible to bring it back it happened but if i spend time in my memory thinking and talking about yesterday i'm wasting the only time i live in if i worry about tomorrow am i living now if i'm going on and on and on about yesterday am i living now in the sunset i'm actually wasting the only time i exist in which is now and i'm not just talking about a moment in time i'm talking more about what i'm thinking in the now so let me share with you when we talk about the value of a moment one here of teshuva is everything yashayawa navi had to spell it out to us famous parsock we actually just said it a couple of days ago in haftar for a fast day it's from nun hey and it goes from till past search hashem out when he can be found that's really everywhere all the time because i'll tell us that hashem so to speak is more intensely found during our session may 2 verse sorry is this good um so search him out when he can be found beyond while he's close while he's still close yeah let the wicked person let go yazai let go completely forsake his way the ish aven and the person whose oven oven is a lotion of mitchell who stumbles with his thoughts anger skyver nutera nakama oh my gosh remembering mistakes i made yesterday and beating myself up over it to the point that it brings me down i fall into years i'll never be able to change yeah the ish is not a russia but he allows his thoughts to take over his mind the yasha of el hashem come back to me says hashem virahameo and he will have rahmim they'll allocaine will come back to our power of all powers his his forgiveness is abundant and this is the passage i wanted to get to because my thought says the way i think is not your reality your ways are not my ways the same distance from earth to the ends of shamayim that distance is not as much as the distance between the way i run the world and the way you think it's being run um the distance between earth and the ends of the heavens is less than my the way i think mi maksha will say from the way you think says rashi and then we're showing him on this passage it's talking about teshuva says rashi if a king has someone rebel against him the king has no choice he has to cut off his head even if the guy says i'm sorry that i cursed you dear king and i'm sorry please forgive me even if the king wants to forgive him he has to cut his head off he's he can't it can't be merkel says parkou i'm not like that you can hustle charlemagne you can curse and you can live a whole life against me and in one moment do you say sorry i'll take you back and i'll forgive you for everything listen to the language of rashi it doesn't help i've i'm i've tried so many times no more lush and horror and it comes out the next time someone's name is mentioned i just can't hold myself back i fall into sinner i fall into nathira i fall into makhalakis rahman al-islam comes among akades parkhu through rashi and tells us you think teshuva ain't [Music] but by me it helps enormously rav nakamura breslav in secrets iran i think he's in racial armadv he brings that one burn in gehennam is worse than all the yesurin combined of a lifetime it's worth to come into this world for one hero of teshuva because that gets eternity how much eternity quantitatively wise hashem will decide but it's it's worth eternity and every mistake in this world there's a price gehennam next 12 months and then eternity for what starting with one here of teshuva it's already worth it to come here why am i sharing this with you because akanesh park who has his reality you and i have our reality and the only reason i would not think of saying eventually i love you please forgive me all my favorites and do it every single day just even walking on the streets getting on a bus waiting at the light and just speak to hashem saying revenge shalom help me do chuva help me i can't even remember all my favorites but help me that is just the words that's already beyond thinking certainly thinking is all is also the hero of teshuva makes all the difference and says goddess barku i want you to know that the difference between planet earth its surface and the furthest most point in the heavens is less of a distance than the way i think and the way you think because you and i think oh i have so far gone into all the different mistakes i've made i'll never be able to turn this marriage around i'll never turn that kid around and akash bhagava says change the only person i'm capable of changing because when i change the way i think you will pick up on that kane adam adam kamayama nipah came later adam just like waters don't deviate the way you smile or frown at the water it reflects your smile exactly as you look at the waters cane lava adam ladam so is the mind of one person to another [Music] i think that's second best to mushroom in a certain sense if you think about it you can be soymach navi is telling you hashem's mindset a person hustle shalom could have a life of doing terrible availas and hashem says please come back to me and the only reason i wouldn't come back is because i don't believe my teshuva will make any difference and hashem says even one thought makes a difference humor famous gomorrah paiva muddalaf oh do we need this one teshuva is very great it brings the goola sooner closer amaresh lakish gudaila can be turned around and it's counted as a show gig that's huge a person kills on purpose and now wishes it was an accident it's counted as an accident which he never did it it's counted as an accident it's a completely different irish for the person who is caught killing on purpose and with hasra he can get mesa arab and mrs bastin and for someone who accidentally killed he goes to ari miklot one of the cities of safety and if the next day the kind god will dies he's free and the only difference is over here but comes along khazal and tells us that when a person does teshuva meera hashem counts all the available done and burst past that were done on purpose becomes a show gig adds on rash lakish sorry now the game ruby yanatan [Music] is hashem will take whichever minus side of the scale that aveira was on minus five minus ten minus a thousand minus a million and puts it on the other side of the scale plus a million whoa that makes no sense well precisely because you and i we live in a reality that's not hashem's reality in hashem's reality that is a 100 ms and it's the only ms when we forgive another jew whether it's in silence or verbally or openly to their face it makes a difference to our muscle it changes our muscle calms and now rabbi yonatan good allah to show us noise could realize they're in a serious danger and in one second they could do teshuva and hashem could add on years you probably heard the story of one of the bakrim in who felt that this was his last breath and he made a promise that if hashem would save him in his mind he said if you save me i promise never to speak in shul ever again only filler on the torah and the split second later he was grabbed from the back and pulled out before he suffocated under more people falling and he attributes that sudden being pulled out from this nader he made in his mind one moment of teshuva can change the expiration date on a person's life in this world and now comes rebbe mayer this tops them all forgive me for saying so if i'm allowed to say godaila teshuva teshuva is so great shibishvil yakid for one person that if he does to shuver mercury hashem will forgive him and the entire world rambam pascons this case where he offers the possibility where imagine you've got hashem on hadin measuring all the availables and mitzvahs of the whole world and they're perfectly equal it will take one here of teshuva to change the balance one person's one moment of teshuva literally can tip the scale and save the whole world and bring makilaf the whole world is that a good deal do i have to wait till yom kippur to do teshuva or that's just a day hashem was miyaked he designated this is a day that if i didn't for a reason but teshuva is a mitzvah tamidi a number of roshanim count the midst of teshuva as constant it applies every second of one's waking life i mentioned much earlier i'm not going into it but i know the rebecca of uh shlita um um were all asked the same question why does the safe only single out six minutes was tamidi when if you look at all the mania mitzvahs of tariq mitzvahs you'll see they're about 60 6-0 mitzvahs to medi it's amazing but i'm not going to and they all answered they don't know the answer i heard this from rabbi david wax who uh heads the tariak foundation and he asked this kasha to to those good islam many years ago the midst of teshuva applies any time no limitations no conditions okay so ruben shalom how hard is teshuva in your dictionary so karish baku didn't wait for ghazal to spell it out in the gumma numa he spells out in the torah itself parikh lahmad pasak yudhalat in devarim i'm going to start from pasukkudalev but that's the context of it now is the famous ramban and rashi hamitzvah's ice is it talking about torah or is he talking about teshuva elegantly there are there are those who explain there's no mark locus why because khazal tells us you'd sign the purpose of wisdom and rashi there tells us referring to torah so the purpose of torah tactless to shuver um terebim is for me to correct myself and do better deeds behave better so the whole purpose of learning torah is for me to improve myself so really it's not a mahalakis rashi and ramban it's because the the purpose of learning is in order to do hashem's watson and part of that is of course teshuva but putting that aside let's look at the context of this mitzvah and how hashem describes it when is today today this is not written at the time just for marsha bana when the day he wrote it no this is every single day that we would ever read this that's when it's applicable oh that's today which hour of today this morning that's happened already mata avahava has happened and now from now i don't know what's going to be an hour from now no one knows when their last breath will be i don't know what's going to be an hour from now oh so when is haiyom the only time i'm living in today which is right now it's not in the heavens lame or that you would have to now say me llano who's going to go up for us i shall maim all the way into the heavens and bring it down bring it down the midst of teshuva it's not that far it's not across the oceans lame or that a person would be forced to say miyaba no el eva yam some people in those days if they didn't follow kazaal actually thought the world was flat they were too they were afraid to go too far out into the ocean who's going to go across the ocean and get the midst of teshuva so i can do tuchuma we can bring it to us so we can listen to it and do it concludes the passage these are the words of akash barakumi banu's pen the khana the quill kikarai failed this item is exceedingly close to you now if hashem says it's close that's good enough but if he says it's kara vyaleka night it's exceedingly close to you it's got to be it can't it can't be in my pocket even though that's close it can't be in my home it can't be in the room it can't be in something i carry around with me it's in your mouth to say one word i made a mistake i'm sorry and in your thoughts la say sorry so karish baku spells it out the mitzvah is any time any place no conditions no limitations i didn't get time to look up where it was so big for me but i know it's in there he says one of the reasons why we have a cure to learn to react mitzvahs is because i need to know what to do to before so i have to know that's why they're in the same passage lot of tourism means well first of all uber is saying look at the that's it says which remind me of tarak mitzvahs very similar and now same pasok no comma no full stop no period velosha suru now you'll know what to not think and what to think what to look at that's okay and what's not okay so says rabino yana how can i do tube if i don't know what the mitzvahs are so that's why teshuva mits was a high nuchaq martial god i've quoted this before so i'm going to mention it in a few seconds adam arishan if he only said one word when hashem asked him ayaka where are you instead of him giving a whole speech when he's asked hamila it's it possible that from the tree i asked i instructed you not to eat from you ate and he was being invited to say one word had he said that one wordy on that passage says he would have been forgiven major god adds that if hava had said one word hashem would have been michael both of them up big time i mentioned last year i'm just i'm only going to mention i'm not going to go into any detail evan ezens you've got a person who's a russia gamora russia gomur and he says to an isha haryat mikudashi but almanas you are married to me with this pruta or this ring almanas on condition that i'm a totally righteous individual everyone knows he's a russia what's the halacha miku dashes it's a valid marriage why so in the gemara in kadusan mem tess where this gemara is brought it says shema here to shuba badasso because perhaps he had a thought of teshuva in his mind exactly in same words only interchanges the word dars and leif because they're interchangeable they mean the same thing shema here to shiva beliboy one thought counts in hashem's dictionary because halakhah is his dictionary prepare yourself fix yourself while you're in the push door kadeshi tikkanese one hour it's beautiful excuse me the crying to lives i've said it before there's no word for life in los angeles because there's no such thing there's no such thing that's a christian translation rahman al-islam we're stuck with it but when she comes it's possible in spanish tess one of the newest when she comes is the entire world will be switched from 70 languages actually we know it's close to 6 000 languages of all their dialects will be changed back to safa akas which khazal tell us is referring to los angeles but until then we're stuck with lakayam being translated to life and doesn't mean that it means to lives we don't believe in one life there is no such thing as a life there's a lame and there's our translations are not deliberately deceiving us but it's a decoy from a huge hush gotha a huge hush guffer this is not the real world this is a pros door it's like it's it's the carriage on the way to the death penalty 120 le one hour of teshuva and my centaurum in this world is worth more than we call whoa really and what's the converse of the of this statement means lives of that means every single human being's life of pleasure he had in this world of every single jew every single gentile combined can you imagine that combine that pleasure into one hour whoa can you imagine that you wouldn't need any fiction to entertain you for that hour your mind would be filled with the pleasure that every human being ever experienced over their lifetime and the billions and billions possibly a trillion i don't know how many billions of people have walked this planet since the beginning of sixth day of creation would not equal one hour of cairo doesn't say one hour one kaira surah because there's no time in ulam one karasu of alam wow of teshuva question when is that shah akhas when yesterday tomorrow yesterday never exists don't go there you want to go there only go there if you're going to learn how to be better moving forward but if i go there and talk about it and talk about it and analyze and figure out it was now i understand because my parents was so abusive they messed me up big time i'm so confused and now i had such a good session today because now i found out that my grandparents are the problem they started it with my parents and now look at me that's why i'm such a mess i've shared with you this before my rebbe calls it watering the weeds you see a weed in your garden and you go into your house take out water and pour it on the weed is that logical or is that illogical that's ill logical that doesn't make any sense why would i water the weeds move on all right that's for a different discussion but yafesh is not referring to yesterday it's not referring to tomorrow it's referring to the only hour i live in famous story on the passage famous story if today you will listen to his voice and what's the story it's brought in sanhedrin is standing uh he he goes past the the cave of the rashby and standing there at the entrance to the caver is none other than elio navi so i'm sure the navy he's got akasha uh elio navi when's moshia coming so january says ask him yourself ask him directly so he told him where to find him and the summoning to know who he is you should be navy goes to that place asked says hi i'm coming today so if she was very very very excited it goes back to rab shimbaicai but the day passed and he goes back to the cave of robb shimbakai and he says to elijah navi eliana says what did he say what didn't she tell you said he told me sheker sheikha what'd he say he said hiyom and that's already yesterday let me explain what he meant i'll explain the words i like if you listen to hashem's voice today i'm going to bring the geology yakutsumani on the same passage rabbenu akadesh the author of mishnayas just one day in front of a kardash when is today well started this morning yeah but that's not where i am now i'm i'm only here now in this place and this time and that's now but the place i experienced the now is not in time and space that's where my body is then the sharma which powers my mind which is the icca adam is your darce your mind oh what's going on over here from moment to moment to moment how should i spend those few minutes hours days in the smart armored car on the way to the gallows how should i spend it complaining about my parents rahman al-islam complaining about my siblings or my mother in law my father-in-law complained about my brother-in-law my sister-in-law complained about my teachers and messed me up in school and and my boss my client my co-workers complaining is that what i'm here for hakadosh park already screamed out through your yahoo navi what has someone who's alive got to complain about says i think it's rashi or the radak quoting on that passage in perimeter and you're still complaining one second i can take the nishama away what am i complaining about is that how am i going to spend the precious minutes in that armored car fooled by the sheker of erlam hazel and the demianus checking my email every three four minutes checking my phone every two minutes really have you seen people walking the streets looking at their phones crossing the roads looking at their phones at the traffic lights looking at their phones so let me ask you walking into the elevator walking out the elevator in the elevator all of a sudden isn't that amazing what a muscle husker the every moment is utilized where's my mind where's my mind my mind could be with i got goddess barricade too oh by titback one attack mitzvahs which is another one that's not counted by hinok but uh is a mr tamidi every second of one's life thinking about hashem i love you thank you thank you for whatever it is that i'm being grateful to you for so i'm gonna come to a difficult question who knows who knows in this room listening to this shirt when their last breath will be 45 people in the run did they know that in a matter of seconds or minutes would be their last breath the few people rahman islam that were crushed in give up zev did they know it was going to be their last breath last week 12 stories comes crushing down while they were asleep most likely 1 30 am in the morning most likely they were asleep i may have been awake for a split second in the sensation of realizing the the floor the walls were moving and suddenly everything collapsed and within seconds who knows when their last breath will be if hazal tell us there's no such thing and i'm going to please free mock me i'm not going to translate it according to the english translations puranat in latin of khazal is payment it's a payback for something i owe aing purana now that's talking about when things happen that are tragic to the nations that is for me to hear who's the me a non-from jew who never went to yeshiva doesn't know any hashtag has never learned torah who's he talking to oh the from yidden says rashi the purpose of tragedy in the non-jewish world is for us to take to heart and be in fear that could happen to us and do teshuva call the heimer when it's sold local and it's so clearly it's not a terrorist attack and even if one wants to fall into the sheker please be mocking me for saying this the shekel saying well the structure actually was not properly in shape it it's it's been sinking a millimeter a year and uh the reports have shown that in engineering that there's a lot of erosion so the the building was not really a hundred percent safe all that's in that's in man's reality in god's reality nobody would be taken before their time unless it's part of god's perfect scheme how much more so is that for me to live with teshuva and i'm not talking about beating my chest every day with here one here of the shoe is already worth it to halal cause i'll famously say i'll call nishimonoshima the last words the last breath of tehillim on every single nishima tahalka thank hashem when is that last breath well how does tehillim in ashrae end the it's actually not in us we say in our shape but it's borrowed from a different possum later uh before i think of tesla um the passage says what does mean from now oh the moment i know i live now not yesterday not tomorrow not an hour ago not a minute ago not a minute from now not now go i only live now why where's my mind going to be from now when is my utter every moment every moment i'm complaining is a waste of the now every moment i'm blaming is a waste of the only now i living there every moment of accusing every moment of shalom ernest varim hurting people with words lush and horror that's how i'm gonna spend the few minutes to the gallows in this carriage in this armored car i'm gonna that's i don't know how i'm gonna long be i'm gonna be here but as long as i am here why am i spending my mind on mach like us looking at nashem in ways that are not permitted hatred senate nutera listening to the news the news what's news about it what's reliable about it they're reading the minds of upper cursing please be working me who don't even believe in hashem so let me share with you 3 33 years ago 12 weeks 4 days and 14 hours and 33 minutes ago we crossed the yamsuf and we made a blunder in kamaihu because i'll give us a scathing criticism of a missed opportunity and it wasn't a small thing here we are at the yamsef after 10 marcos and we see the mitsrim drowned we come out of the amsaf and we sing as yashiya and we blew it we blew it we sang asyasha from navoor where did we blow it the magilta says the following partials bashar allah on that was a collective navoor of all israel and yet hazal tell us escaping criticism had changed one word and said hashem melech no nation will have ever had any control over us and no language i'm not going to go into it now but i understand that on its simple meaning that we would be talking in los angeles instead of english and we would never translate arturo in any other language because that is a travesty of justice the moment we translate altera we are literally creating another religion go to the source of the words use the translation until you know how to learn latin and akadish but don't rely on the translation that's not how we're supposed to be learning torah no language would have ever been a decoy to our hashgather and no nation would have had any control over us no corbin by solution no called my shiny no gollus whoa we made a mistake we said hashem you'd like you will be king like in the future where am i now says a goddess morocco you didn't didn't i give you enough of a demonstration that i'm with you now so what's hazal's ticking for this and the obvious answer is well let's let's say you're with us now so look look at davening khazal will cover all of all of the the siddha you look at davening and you will see came up throughout the entire theme of davening is a tikkun for this mistake you know have you noticed it's the tense is out of order it should be hashem he was king hashem is king and he will be king and yet we start off he is king we're trying to fix the mistake we made start where it's at now ruben shalom right here in what i'm going through in my personal life with this difficulty whether it's a health setback finances whether it's a children grandchildren whether it's mother-in-law father or brother it makes no difference whether it's local or global revenue you're the only one who's behind it all and so you want me to turn to you at least with a hero of this shiva because the hero of the shiv is already worth me coming into this world and suffering whatever i have to suffer comes along throughout the entire governing roi right there now um it's amazing what you're doing right now inside our body in separating the toxicity and the waste and expelling it from our body that's amazing and it's happening right now iframe all the prices that's in the past tense because that's hashem has already provided everything we need but every single bracha is in present tense because we're training in your reality not mine you open the eyes of the blind mao bisharum you're clothing me right now malti rasulim you're waking me up right now you're releasing me from sleep from my vedas so i kept problems but i'm being honest with you every morning my spine and spinal cord and nervous system and this muscular system and my entire skeleton and every sinew and muscle in my entire body you zeikev you are straightening you are keeping me functioning right kahara salami is happening right now her making with sadi gave you are the only one who directs a person walking down at that moment and then gets crushed or asleep in this building at that time hamaken you're the only ah the letter hey is hey are you dear definite article means you're the only one it's not no one else i wake up and i'm tired trust me i'm tired but you give me kayak i'm still tired i'm nice and light i have still look oh yes but you're the nicent is happening now it's lassen however now hamada shayna this is just because when we say because of tara we're saying that you are the one who's opening up my mind and enabling me to learn hashem nice and hater it's you're giving it to me now you're opening my mind now we're constantly reminding ourselves of god's dictionary god's dictionary is i'm with you all the time in every area of your life not he will it's happening now so when a person's falling hashem is saying i'm still holding you i'm are you not on the floor i'm carrying you as you're falling and i'm not gonna let you fall all the way because one hero of teshuva is redeeming eternity it's isis it's happening now mikhail i'm going to jump to the amiga quickly just to give you a few examples gomez it's not yigamel it's not he will do it's doing it right now constant acts of kindness is taking place right now we're training ourselves to see hashem now you're with me all the time he's remembering the advice now or maybe go well he's bringing the cooler now you and i have been saying this for two thousand years of gollus we're saying maybe not you yavi not he will you and i didn't see that in the inquisition in the crusades in the cossacks of the time zara's russia communist russia holocaust we couldn't see it but we were nevertheless saying the words because we're trying in training in hashem's ms not ours he wants it now it's all in present tense hamar bilislaya it goes on and on the last ones i'll quote to you because it's shocked to us today israel for 2 000 years you've been saying rubenstein not you will bring all the jews back to erich's role you are doing it now you and i couldn't see that most of our great grandparents never saw it let alone lived there and today nearly half literally half the world jewry live in eritrea's role you have been bringing us back all this time um we might not see it but hashem's taking care of all the russian wow wait till you see their final day that the simcha will be beyond beyond beyond and if ask for shalom we're not zaika we get to get some asim and then we'll see it but don't fear death don't fear death what i should fear is how i'm spending my life death that's a sick racer i don't mean that as a pun but that's a psych racer everyone's going to die we're born to die so it's not should i fear death am i making use of the hour to hour day to day week to week month month year to year decades a decade of my life and one here is already worth it there's more to be said on this very important subject i do believe that that rebbe akiva was the king of now he said gum zu la tava called the avid rahman latav avid he he was laughing when his colleagues were crying seeing shualim cross over the kodashikodashi in the area of the holy polis and when asked why are you laughing he said why are you crying so what do you mean why are we crying this can't you see destruction of our temple and he is laughing because he sees god is right now part of the prophecy that it will be destroyed because of our vedas but since he's keeping that promise he's going to keep the next promise too and he will rebuild it forever so he's laughing at the irony because he's living in now that is our challenge when we see and i really will close here we're living in extraordinary times i don't think our malik was so strong ever amalek we all know is gematria suffolk he's all about injecting doubt uncertainty can should we take the vaccine not take the vaccine is it safe is it not safe can i go to this world can i not go to when will i see my kids again how when will life ever go back to normal they're going to start they're talking about masks again and and and social distancing all over again and uncertainty uncertainty uncertainty and the more we listen to the oil demon and of the news the more i'm listening to the uncertainty of people who are not balay torah but nato bali das who are not studying baruch's tag mitzvahs to tell me how i should think and so if i fall into uncertainty i can ask for my harm myself and my family who see the head of the family is uncertain broken and the muna is certainty we're living in a time where amalek is atheism that was amalek legitimizing abortion the destruction of children who are not yet born the destruction of the elderly with euthanasia the destruction of human sanctity cremation is becoming so popular they actually want to make it a hike that is you don't have a choice have to be cremated do you understand what's taking place over here we're living in a world that is injecting us with their atheistic ideas atheism means god is not in the picture and when god's not in the picture there's no sanctity for life so abortion oh it's it's it's uh it's up to it's up to the issues carrying the child there are no absolutes oh an elderly person can be put to death then they don't have that much use anyway and there's assisted suicide and it's becoming legitimized around the world they're taking our cottage parkours terror and messing around in the supreme court legitimizing same gender marriages on ekima every single movie even children's programs are now including the option of not being a specific gender do you understand the injection of atheism is all around us the standard textbooks are being changed and we have the greatest power of all thought here of teshuva one here of the shiva can break the balance hakash baraku wants us to do our job it was not the romans who destroyed our temple it was the first temple was destroyed by our own averages and it's the same available today that has shalom have affected beautiful jews who've suffered so much it's not our enemies our enemies are our own availas our own messing around with falling into the trap of urlam hazel olamidimian i close i truly mean it ravnasan of namrov i couldn't find the the source of this when i was told this was once asked what is his rebbe what was the greatest thing his rebbe of knuckling breslav ever did and he answered without any hesitation the greatest thing my rebbe ever did was whatever he was doing in that moment oh darning oh darning learning not looking around every single person that comes in oh learning uh speaking with the wife i heard everything you said where am i where's my mind oh you're spending time with your child my mind's not in the office what am i doing on the phone where is my mind oh the greatest thing a person can do is whatever they're doing in that moment be focused and in that's cause we should be zaika to see the coming of sherman here on maine [Music] the moment right now the thing to do right now this moment is to decide to sponsor a share for igniter we have a whole summer remaining call 718-851-8651 for the very inspiring rush i would like to register to mr mr carys for sponsoring tonight's share and the whole broadcast i'd like to give a big extra care to mr for those family members who need it and she cares for everyone for coming up