The Value Of One Second In This World - Rabbi Zecharya Wallerstein

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one second one second one moment one hour of doing chuva and my sim tell them good deeds is nicer because everybody their whole life they're working on getting in thaila getting into ghane then and this is like no actually um this world one second in this world of doing good things and doing chuva well it's a little bit out of place right you would think the mission would say learning and my symptoms right not chuva where does chuba come into this mission all right like why is it why is the second of chuva worth more than the whole next world of course the main reason is because you can't do juve in the next world and the main reason is you can't do mice and type him in the next world tyra there is tiger in the next world you shoot with somalia don't exactly know if you get credit you don't you probably don't get credit there but there's definitely issue with some mile a different yeshiva ah one second of spiritual bliss in the next world is worth more than this whole world so let's look at this mission let's split it up the first part of bishop says one second in this world of doing good deeds and doing chuva is greater than the whole next world and one second in the next world of ruach is worth more than all the pleasures everything else in this world [Music] so there's a very beautiful var and you know i speak a lot about this especially the kids that i work with and with people that i work with that there are a lot of people that feel that they're not needed i'm not shiva i'm not this i'm not that they don't feel that they're needed in this world the the biggest problem when someone feels they're not needed in this world is they try to get to the next world so a person who has who feels needed who feels accepted or feels needed usually does not commit suicide because and that's why i push a lot of kids that are in depression and they're on a lot of their own medicine and they're in therapy and i i push totally something where you have to do your medicine you have to do your therapy but i push something else and i push it because and specifically autistic and down syndrome kids or kids that are challenged because that kid needs you and if you feel needed that gives you a reason to be here so a person who does necessarily feels needed and that's what keeps them here so one second in this world okay is bigger we can't we can't even we can't even fathom what this means you you want to get into alum or ghanaian whatever it is and one second in this world of doing is more than more than the whole next world verse yeshiva obama shalom um once asked me i was a big ball player stabbing me yeshiva in the gym at night very late he knew that i was played a lot of ball and he said to me once new volstein father paid for everything lived in muncie central air conditioning it was great went to camp have my friends i owe my house it was god's fine well how about it wasn't developed i wasn't yet developed i don't think at all whatever so i said well this gun is fine you're learning you're staggering he said that not yet not really yet i'm working on it this is the lenses he didn't look at learning is the next world learning was learning was this world i don't really talk about myself and i don't want to talk about myself and i'm only telling you this because i really feel this way and i think that other people should feel the same way so someone came over to me two weeks ago whatever i helped a girl whole situation and they said zucharia i am mamish i have kenner for your muhammad there's other guys in this room that have heard this before i'm mama chef ken i'm jealous of your alum i'm like what do you know about my own hobby you know what i did as a kid i don't know i don't know exactly my what my dinner judgment is going to be uh you don't know don't be jealous of what i'm hoping you know my own harvard i don't know my only marvel i don't know i wasn't such a great sadiq as a kid i said but you can be jealous of my own house he says what i said no i'm not driving a land rover anymore i came all the way down to a dodge that's not what i'm talking about i said when you help someone when when you make someone smile or you take someone out of their pain it has nothing to do with gangnam and i don't have them that's a the feeling that you get when i said don't be judgmental but i don't know what exactly is coming down the track down the pipe i have no idea but you want to be jealous i think we jealous of elmhauser because every time i make someone happy i said i don't the mission is saying that a moment in this world of milan is worth more than the whole next world when the mission is talking about is that a moment of uh with gamila is worth more nothing chuva is huge i'll tell you why the mission says chuva because the world that we live in the principle is based on time based on time we live in a world that hashem created time you can't go backwards can't go backwards in time there's the past and the present and the future and continually going from the past to the present to the future it's continually moving you can't go you can't go backwards in this world you cannot go backwards so it's brought down that kurdish barco had to create chuva before he created the world brought down that he created shiva before he created the world because the world is time true for you're going backwards you're going back in time and you're changing what happened that's impossible you can't go back in time so the mission is telling you that one second of chuva in the next world you can't do chuva you're stuck whatever you did you're going to pay for and people make the mistake it's like well if i have a thousand of heiress and i have a thousand mitzvahs i'm good to go i don't want to break all your hearts but learn how that's true with the round mom no you're going to pay it doesn't work that way it's not like this cancels that you're going to get rewarded for your for your ties you're going to get punished for your rod the type doesn't the mitzvah doesn't knock out the rock the only thing that can knock out the avera is chuva so you can do a thousand mitzvahs and a thousand of eris you're gonna get rewarded for a thousand minutes you're gonna get punished for a thousand layers so that doesn't work that way everyone thinks okay a thousand thousand scales are even the good scale is up i mean that everything's fine no we got to get rid of the bad stuff on the other side of the scale but kurdish burkhu gave us a not normal present and i the malacham and chimayam don't don't understand why we don't do juvenile they don't understand it because it's like you could go back in time in a world of time that's impossible hashem said no i love my children so much that i'm going to let them break time which is really what controls the world and i'm going to let them go back not only going to let them go back so i always say over the story so when i was a little kid um we used to there was no shame on anything nothing i'm going back 60 years there was no shaman or anything you looked at the you looked at they told you look at the ingredients and if there's no causer in there no gelatin um then you're good to go so most people you know juicy fruit and all these other things that are not kosher anymore some of them are still kosher so i was into cracker jacks because cracker jacks had a present a toy on the bottom of the box so you not only got to eat the fiddle fall and the peanuts but you got a toy but i didn't i didn't know that it was kosher now and one day i was in a store and there was the cracker jacks and i don't know my friend that just bought cracker jacks and he got this really cool present toy in there so yeah i'm doing chuva i i bought cracker jacks and i ate them and i knew that maybe i shouldn't have even though it didn't have gelatin in it but whatever um and for some reason i'm in here to stroll maybe eight years ago in eight seconds she was eight zakayam and i'm sitting there on yom kippur and i'm like i don't even know why it happened it was like remember the cracker jacks i think it was about 14 i was past my mitzvah i'm like hashem i'm so sorry if i would have known then what i know now about you a lot of things i wouldn't have done and that definitely i wouldn't have done there was enough food in the house i'd have to eat cracker jacks i am so sorry and i feel very bad and i admit it i did hashover i did i did video i did everything um i'm sorry for eating those cracker jacks i just i just wasn't connected to you i was a kid i just didn't know who you were had i know who you were cracker jacks would not have happened i'm sorry okay so after 120 years boston's gonna go to shamayim and the sutton's gonna have all my bad stuff and he's gonna have that day at 11 30 when i went to the store and it's going to be like ah when he was 14 years old let's play the video and you're going to see me much younger walk into a store we're going to have they have a big video three rabbis are sitting there i watched the video and whilst he walks into the store in the itahara he's got he's got the video he's got the tape you know they're playing it and wallace he walks into the store and looks around and there's the crack of jackson the ace of hearts like when he was 14 watch what he did and my milos protect the mileage standing there and saying like i can't believe you didn't do chuva right i can't believe you didn't do two for and wallison walks right past the crackerjacks and the sunset one second what who doc and he goes didn't they didn't even have reisman cakes at that time but i guess they filled that in in the movie he goes to the reisman cake wallistein and the guy that's here was like he didn't girl there was no riseman cakes in those days i'm advertising for rise but right but anyway all the other companies please don't be angry at me right like what's going on over here and wellstein opens it up and makes a better my name is with kavanagh and then he makes an alameda and the saton is going cuckoo how did they get into the film room who did this what happened over here because when you do chew for my alva like because you're scared they're going to throw you into a barbecue right but you should we're going to learn about this tonight do you because you love hashem and and that i didn't really understand who you were when i was younger so i i didn't appreciate who you were and i'm really sorry i didn't know i had a father in shamayim i was disconnected i was a kid right you do me ava hashem takes it's not normal he takes the alvera crack there's no cracker jacks there's and there's there's there's riseman cakes and it's bishop israel it's not even intimate it's like bishop's role and alameda and by your name is and all of us are guilty like what are we doing we should gum you could do chuva me ava what are you doing you're not doing chuva says the mishnah chuba in this world that's why i picked chuva in this world the world of time hashem's letting you go beyond time and change everything one second you're going to be in the next world you're going to be like i can't i can't believe i didn't do chuva that's what the mission says one second in this world well nachman breslov said something wrote something that just just blew me away and i think by repeating it i've saved a lot of kids well it has saved a lot of a lot of people so nachman said we know the gemara said there's nothing hashem has nothing extra in this world not even a blade of grass there's nothing extra every blade of grass has a malach there's nothing extra not a grain of sand at the beach there's nothing extra he created nothing extra which answers a beautiful kasha because it says a taiwai islam what kind of what kind of russian what does that mean kena takes you out of the world if you want to say that kenneth causes you to die then it should say misa what's this takes you out of the world what's that lotion and the answer is that what's kena i'm jealous of him i'm jealous of this guy i want to be i want to have what he has i want to be him but hashem has nothing extra hashem has no duplicates so if i want to be him i automatically make myself a duplicate if i make myself a duplicate and hashem has no duplicates in the world motion i'm taking myself out of the world because hashem has no duplicates so even a blade of grass everybody there's no there's not an extra player we walk out every blade of grass is there for a reason it's a very famous story there were two tadikim and they were learning this and a leaf fell off a tree and fell on the ground and once alex said to the other you see there is something extra in the world the leaf is not connected anymore right it's dying and it's it's still here so like what's this what's what is it what's the lotion that there's nothing extra so the ref said let's go look what's under the leaf it's a fabulous story and they picked up the leaf and there was an inchworm a little green interim that was dying from the sun and the leaf fell on it to save its life that it shouldn't dry out there's nothing extra it says when you wake up in the morning right that means that hashem needs you in his world that day because if you were extra you wouldn't wake up but a lot of people didn't wake up last night across the world i don't think just jews of course the world people die every single night they don't wake up but if you're if you wake up what hashem is saying to you is i need you now you have to look in the mirror and figure out why if i'm not extra and there's something special about me because if there wasn't i wouldn't be here so i told all the kids there is something special no matter what you think of yourself there is something special you wouldn't have woken up this morning a lot of people didn't wake up this morning your job is to figure out why am i not extra and therefore when you go to sleep at night before you go to sleep that's why the time was so into you need to think about so what did i do today for god's world for hashem's world and if you didn't do anything get out of bed i don't know call someone else's thrill they need to kiss it because it's the middle of the night but don't go to sleep if you have no you had nothing to do that day you were just busy on your phone busy busy doing nothing then you got a problem because hashem said in the morning you're not extra and you a whole day made yourself extra i don't know if it's going to give you another chance tomorrow to be special so that's that's a huge every person when he goes to sleep at night has to think about what did i do today he made ibrahimovic to make a broadca who are you to make abraham who is wallace dean to tell hashem it's like it's like the mosquito on my wall saying you're going to work today hey rabbi you should be benched and you should be dead because i don't want you to bite me like you're a mosquito you're a goldfish that's not even a good comparison for a human being to hashem who are you to bless hashem what to say hashem you'll get benched he needs me to say that hashem says yeah before you eat and go to the bathroom whatever it is so if you made a bracha that day and somebody said oh man or you said it you raised my rabble you put on whatever it is that you want to look at you have to feel that you did something so i'm going to ask you a bomb question that i asked my seminary there's a 90 year old man he had a major stroke he's totally brain dead they did everything sonograms mris cat scans there's no brain waves his body organs are not working all the machines are keeping him alive what's his potential why isn't why is he still here if you're telling me that every human being that wakes up that's alive hashem needs him in his world that day i asked my seminary girls what does hashem need this guy for he's he's brain dead he's not even here and there was a young man who was in a car accident and his liver got severed and they wanted to take this man's liver and they went to montreal and they asked if they could take his liver and this guy who was in the car accident was 21 years old and his wife was in her ninth month his whole potential was ahead of him this man was 90 finished off seven times gave a lot of seducka had great grandchildren he's brain dead so give him his liver nope nope no transplant no liver what do you mean it's gonna save this guy's life sorry we can't help you so i asked my seminary what's his potential why why is he still alive like if everything in this world has a purpose to be here what's his purpose to be here so one girl raised her hand very brilliant girl she said what are you talking about the family is mavaca so they're all getting a mitzvah because he's sick and another girl then said you know how many people are saying to hillary for him so even though he's brain dead his potential is amazing when when a jew has life potential is amazing saint to hillary what just happened i haven't lost a friend in florida but to heal him whether they passed away right away or they didn't nobody really knows but to heal him the tahilian that was said for them so even if they weren't alive their potential of being in that building millions of capitals of tehran was set for them juice potential is unbelievable so every person who's alive who gets up in the morning wow so moda ani should be a she-ra it should be and that's why you don't have to wash your hands and your mouth still smells and you're in bed and it's like you need me today i can't believe this i cannot believe it uh you need me today wow what a compliment the king of king the master of master needs every person i mean most of you look like you're alive right so so needs every single one in this room you're all needed you should be dancing when you come to davening you should be like you need me to make a bracha to say barku say krishma me a human being off of the a for nothing remember solea you should be dancing it's the biggest compliment as we're going to see in the rambam so yeah the mission is telling us wow one second in this world it's greater than the whole next world what a compliment to be in this world if that's the case and it's greater than the whole next world and one second in the next world is better than all the pleasure in this world what you're earning what you're doing is is is phenomenal so yeah we're going to see the rambam now a lot of people serve hashem we grew up in yeshiva i'm not ragging on the yeshivas but oh boy i i didn't look growing up i didn't love hashem i was very scared of him i was in total fear that oh boy they're gonna burn me and fry me and maybe i'll get sick and i'll get punished and that is not the relationship that a father wants to have with his children that is not what happened we're going into tish above this is not what happened on tisha i don't think most people understand you know it says on tisha but it's very misunderstood that took out his anger on aids and not on people that is very dysfunctional that means a man got angry at his wife and instead of punching her he punched the wool he's out of control there's something very wrong with him or he got angry at his kids and he's like i'm so angry i want to beat you up instead boom he takes the baseball bat and he smacks it into the wall that's that's what that's what hashem did he lost control he said well instead of beating them up i'm going to i'm going to burn my base i make this sort of shim shin pink is right in this they're in the safer in the nine days and the whole safer shalom god didn't lose control just the opposite what happened he said that hashem saw that claustrol was sinning and they were doing alvarez and they didn't they weren't worried because they would go to the baseline magnitude and bring their carbon they'd be forgiven so they would they were going deeper and deeper and deeper into away the zara and srikaz everything else like what are they doing like how did they handle doing that based on meters how do you do available and give the arroyos you have a base image the answer is yeah i brought a carbon there were no adams whatever i brought a carbon i brought a carbon i had to thank hashem i brought a i did something had the wrong thoughts so they were going deep deep deep into tomma and tavares and they were using the baseline mig dash as they're out so said instead of letting kalaisro fall into the abyss of sinning and of toma i'm going to break the bassamine dash so they can't they can't do that anymore i'm going to save them from falling into the 50th level it wasn't a question of this restriction rights it wasn't a question of of anger that he took out on his on his on on his base of majors instead of his children was just the opposite so i want to read to you this is so important i want to read to you perak i might have done it once before here i'm not sure um but it's the the 10th parrot of um the tenth peric of chuva in the rambam and he says the following and we have to be mechanic our children in yeshiva and as parents we must be mechanic our children in this way or we're going to lose the whole door ao imar adam harani and the reason i'm not going to do away right they should not summon alcoholics like suicide in order that i shouldn't get punished i can actually it's not correct to serve hashem for reward or not to do available because of punishment i'm going to give everyone here something to think about tonight i also did this in seminary what happens if the girl her door gets up and says that he's came to him and last night and said that he needs to tell the rest of kaiser that ganedan has no more room it's full you could do every minute in the world learn shots backwards and forwards you're not going to take anything sold out but on the other hand gehenna is also full you can do any very you want and you're not going to get punished so i asked the girls in seminary how would that change your life i gave it a lot of thought myself before i asked that question no reward no punishment how would that change your life now the reason i'm asking you all this question because this is the round bomb the rambam saying you're not doing it for reward no you're not allowed to so that means canadians closed there's no reward but on the other hand you're not doing it because you're scared of the clownies so get him is closed this is what he's saying this is what he's saying and what would you do then how would it change your life and then i asked him if you found that you weren't jewish you were adopted but you didn't agree would you become jewish or would you leave it alone it was a hold that's not tonight's speech whole different thought pretty much everyone was like i'll do something wrong and then i'll then i'll become aguer all right and some said no i don't want to do anything wrong i love what i do and some said i don't love what i do and everyone has their own opinion but the question over here is much deeper the rambam says no ain't really when you leave tonight in your head there's no ghanaian and there's no gahannam because that's not why hashem wants you to serve him we'll see what he says he's serving hashem from fear this is not me i'm not this is not my opinion you can look it up and the vehicle is not within the people who serve hashem out of fear because they're going to get burned and they're going to get punished and someone's going to die and they're going to get sick and they're going to lose their money he says that's that's amaranthus but our job is for when they get intelligent and they can think from their on their own then we need to get them to subversion what's the difference so i was reading crown heights to shiva for 30 years eighth grade boys kids that not from non-from homes and we were very close might tell me them i took them to ball games we played ball i took them out to eat they took them to mata factory they took them for shabbos very very close relationship and mama half a block away from cranaz yeshiva was a candy store and sometimes i was very hungry didn't have time to bring food so i would tell them listen i'm it wasn't recess time because we said i have to be with them in the gym i'm going to sneak out for three mommy's three minutes get myself a bag potato chips and die and a coke whatever it is you guys behave yourselves i'm begging you don't get me into trouble the principal walks in and i'm not there i'm gonna get into big trouble now that i'm much older this is what i did when i first started teaching i was like you crazy somebody would have gotten hurt we wouldn't have been insured on that but at that point that was 23 24 years old it wasn't wasn't thinking those parameters so i said for the next five minutes when i'm gone i need you to learn back a russa and learn out loud the gemara so the principles all the way down the holy is i'm learning he's not gonna check it out anyway i have to say that all the years that i did that never ever got caught why because my boys loved me and they weren't ready to get into trouble only ready to get in trouble maybe this for me robbie's always there for me i don't not this generation i don't think i don't think they appreciate anything you do but in that generation at least they did appreciate what you did so i never got in trouble why they had my back why they have my back because they loved me now if they feared me then if they could get away with doing something wrong they would do it if they don't get caught if you if your whole relationship your relationship with the appearance is based on you fear your father and mother so if i could do something wrong and they're not going to catch me i'll do it but if it's because i love my father or mother even if no one's going to catch me i won't do it just a very different relationship that's the rambam was saying your relationship with hashem you could start off as a little kid when you don't have das you could start off being scared because how you're going to get a kid it's so much more work i can tell you as a mechanic as a rebbe so much more work to get someone to dive into hashem from love than from fear you don't have it no recess that's easy that's easy no research you're not going on the trip no graduation it's easy but to get someone to dominate because you have to work on him to explain to him what davening is in relationships and hashem i say it's a huge job that's why most played most most of us when and shannon we just scare them so if you do this you know you're not part of clydesdale and you're going to be this and you'll be punished and i've heard harrowing stories of teachers telling kids i i know a girl that a teacher said if you if you unbraid your hair with a school you have to have your hair braided told this little girl if you unbraid your hair and you walk around with your hair unbraided when you die the worms are going to go through your skull through your braids like what what so she never unbraided her hair i wouldn't unbraid my hair not that i have that kind of hair but but she has this picture of god like he'll come after you in your grave he'll get you in your grave you can't get away and they make a ship into a monster and then we don't understand why kids were off to their earth is that a monster it's not christianity it's judaism he loves us he loves us more another misguided thing you know yeah he loves us if you do what's right he loves us you know my parent loves me because i keep shabbos but if i don't keep shabbos they won't love me hear this all the time hashem says i love you so much we just learnt this mishna i love you so much that if your life is in danger you little worm hashem doesn't say that what i'm saying you little human being going to the maggots and the worms and my torah is for everlasting it's fire you're a piece of earth but if you're in danger your life's in danger my whole torah is out no shabbos because that's a call i said i say this to kids i'm like what are you talking about hashem comes first hashem says no i don't come first you come first you come before me we have this picture like it's all about him he says to every one of us the most from jew in the world your life is in danger you keep her eat not only that if you don't eat it's in a veyra it's a mitzvah to eat and we just have this mishna on my po how a house collapses and you don't know if there's anyone in there and you don't know if he's jewish and you don't know if they're alive you're hive to take off the bricks and be macaulay shabbos on a fake face faker if you get to the point you find the body then you stop but fake fake faker so we don't even know if there's anyone in the house we don't do we don't even know if they're alive and our chef's like on the chance that there's a human being in that house pima carlos it's not normal we we're so not connected to him at all it's such a fear game it's not it's not allowed to be so i grew up in muncie just to say just to just so everyone should understand hashem's relationship with his with his bria with his with his beings outside that there's no duplicates in the world i grew up in muncie in the muncie now and in the spring you don't see them here there were a lot of fireflies these little bugs that light up they have a tail light cute little bugs so i used to put them in a jar because i wanted to read under my blanket when the lights are off so i used to put like 20 of them in my jar the problem with reading is that they all flash you see the letter then they stop flashing for another second you read another letter for some reason they like sort of flash together so it didn't really work that well and i was like why would hashem create something that lights up remember you see a firefly it doesn't mean anything to you but what's going on over here a bug that lights up human beings don't light up there are millions of bugs in the world i wish mosquitoes would light up that we could whack them at night right they don't light up firefly so i was very inquisitive type of guy and i looked into it so it's there's two parts to it one is a mating call whatever but that's not if you google you shouldn't google but if you look it up i don't know if they even make encyclopedias anymore but if there is such a thing and you look up the firefly listen to this bugs eat each other at night i was just in the amazon jungle the jungle is very alive at night we went with a minion there's a share i gave on it fastened fascinated hashem is so fascinating i wish i was on the level of seeing him in a safer with schmuel i don't know if you know this story i think i've said it here before but they started by the shiva there was a brahmana there was a coyote guy there that was like he was in yeshiva for like 40 years and his wife became very sick and he came to the shiva and he said she's stage four pancreatic i don't know exactly cancer but really bad he said i'm learning yeshua 40 years she takes care of the kids she has the job if something happens to her i'm not going to be able to learn anymore there's shiva has to do with my first now if you knew her mom that's the wrong word he didn't do mifsum so he said to this altamonte he said i'm not a baba i don't do kabbalah and i'm not you have to help me okay he said i'll try two weeks later two weeks later there was some kind of trial in belgium or somewhere some kind of medical trial and she was invited because she was stage four they gave up on her so they'll try it on her and half of them got the real thing and half of them didn't get the real thing and the mice uh the cancer started dying and dying and dying and the cancer went away and they sniffled i think five people in the in the trial the cancer went away and the rest of them with the placebo and the other rest of them didn't make it so he came back to the shiva this is the story that i heard and he told her shiva i guess he was a little bit of a wise guy a credible guy for 40 years you know he could talk to his yeshiva he says marshmallow shiva and we just got we just got we just came from the doctor and she's clean marshmallow she she even can do my fists but he wouldn't allow that to pass he said no i'm going to continue she said i'll tell you the truth i talk a lot to buying rubber so he said talk a lot every day every day this day that day buying rubber bay and rubber i never asked him for anything he said i told them that there's someone in yeshiva that also talks to them a lot and his wife is in danger could they go to the kitchen coverage and and and do something wasn't me it's kavanagh uh i'm not there he did it learn the dot do the daf i hate that word he didn't do the daf he was in the gemara talking to them that's a very high level and a lot of people can get through i'm just not on that level but i see hashem very very much through nature i don't even want to call it nature because it's not nature it's hashem that that word nature mother nature is curses there's no nature it's hashem teva means not outside of teva but but it's all that kurdish both with the fingerprint of hashem it's mama's a fingerprint of hashem so i'm in the amazon and there's 10 of us because we have to we have to i would not go without a minion hundreds of miles from civilization to get where we went we had to be on a boat for eight hours i mean there is just no human beings around tarantulas and monkeys and snakes and all kinds of mosses but i wanted to go to the rain forest because the rainforest is mom is untouched it's there's no civilization and i'm very con i like i like to be connected to hashem so we had to bring this mosquito spray that had to have like 80 percent neat it's called whatever because they have malaria and yellow fever in the in the jungle and that's not something you want to get we took some medicine for it but not for yellow fever whatever it is so these 10 jewish kids jewish people sprayed ourselves from head to toe eight bottles of woof and that don't ask we had everything but when you're in the jungle and it's 95 degrees and it's 100 humidity and you're schvitzing bugs like you so as much of this neat that we sprayed we were getting buzzed and the guide who was a interesting story with him but who was an amazonian who lived they live off the earth there's no cancer no cancer there's no fever there's no doctors or each plant has its own whatever it is and i asked them why don't they let it come to america they don't like they don't let anything happen but anyway so where mama's like getting buzzed and we come to this tree and it has this like huge nest and he takes out a machete everything's with a machete and he chops into the tree there's a million ants and he puts his hands into the nest i'm like he's really sugar this guy right and they they crawl from his fingers until his shoulders and then he pulls it out and he kills them all he squashes them all and he takes the blood and he rubs it on his hands and his face and his neck and tight mushy this guy's like really crazy he says i was the guy right behind him i was right behind him even though i was i'm old and slow but he had the machete and i'm like i'm going to stand behind him the rest of those guys i'm i'm behind the guy with the machete right and he said we had another three hours of working he said you will see there will be not one bug by me you guys with all your stuff with all your sprays that's for civilization but hoya no he wasn't going like this we're going like this all out nothing i said to him what did you just do he said those ants they eat mosquitoes so when the mosquito spell smells the blood of the ant it flies fast away and we went through this whole jungle and every single thing kurdish baruch created that every single thing takes care of the other thing so the firefly listen to this godless so bugs eat bugs from the back not head-on like fish so the bigger bug eats the next bug eats the next bug that's the way the world is biggest bugging goes down down down but the firefight's blood is chlorophyll it's very bitter so no other bug would eat it it's disgusting for bugs so if it didn't have a light read this uh it's not normal if it didn't have a little bulb in the back lighting up and how that works i don't know it it doesn't have a battery it's they don't even know they think they know but they they don't really know doesn't have a battery how does it light up marsh lights up every two seconds so if a bug would eat this bug from behind if it didn't have a light did it know that it was a firefly it would spit the minute it would bite it it wouldn't eat it it would spit it out because it tastes disgusting because it's blood has chlorophyll in it so the firefly would die for no reason because it's not feeding the other bug hashem says i'm not wasting a firefly so i'm gonna make a light to let everyone know i'm not edible anyway leave me alone i told you to kids i'm like you think he doesn't care about you he cares about a little bug that it shouldn't get be eaten for no reason so he creates a miracle a nice niffler cows don't light up butterflies don't light up nothing lights up a miracle for a little bug that it shouldn't be wasted and you're scared of such a god it's all about him punishing you it's not about him loving you and caring about you yes we have people go through pain and things like that and we don't understand why but if i know you love me i know you care about me then you can put me on anesthesia i trust you don't put me on anesthesia if i don't trust you i think you're gonna cut me into pieces i'll go to sleep and you'll put me to sleep and i'll trust the doctor that he cares about me so i'm gonna let you i'm gonna be i won't be able to do anything be laying on that on that operating table and i can't do anything i can't defend myself this guy could chop my head off he can take my kidneys and sell them i don't know what right so i trust him what do you mean he's cutting you open he's cutting you open and you're gonna be sick for a week recovering and they're putting tubes in you why are you allowing that because i trust him that he's doing it for my good and you don't trust hashem when hashem yeah there might be a surgery and it might be this and then the other thing in your life you don't trust hashem you trust this human being you trust the pilot you don't know anything about planes you know anything how it flies you didn't go to physics you didn't learn physics you trust the pilot you don't trust hashem who cares about a firefly who who has forests in the world that you'll never see where every animal is taken care of that it has its food i alert that plastic in the amazon joseah um every single thing had food hashem the piranha i wasn't their food they're kosher interesting kosher fish everything is taken care of everything has food so what the what the rambam is saying and i'm going to read it inside is stop with the fear by the way year is not fair here is all if so if the god of dog walks into this room i'm not scared if he's going to hit me but i'm an aura i'm going to stand up and be like i don't know if i can even talk to him it's not fear you're not scared of him he's a tonic he's not gonna hurt you but yeah you're you're in front of a child that you have oh even the forever president you have or you're scared of him you're in awe of him and silly people aren't ball players like oh my gosh i know someone one of my tummy them for by mitzvah he asked patrick ewing was the big ball player for the new york knicks and he said he's going to take a ball and he knows when the knicks were coming from a playoff game and they're going to get off the plane in kennedy and he's going to when they get off the plane they're coming out of the gate he's going to ask him for his bar mitzvah if he could sign if he can autograph the ball i'm like what are you doing but they weren't from kids that i was teaching i'm like okay he got patrick ewing all over his walls on his roof all over the place patrick ewing was his goddamn center for the new york knicks it was an awe he said when patrick ewing walked out of the plane he couldn't breathe was he scared you ain't going to beat him no he's like oh my god it's him it's him never and he took the ball out and he said sir it's patrick it's my bar mitzvah could you sign this and you he said i don't i don't autograph for jews i said to the it was one of my biggest tell me them i said yeah take them off your wall take all that stuff off your wall don't be an overboard player first of all who gave the ballplayer the ability to play ball hashem so be in awe of the creator being all the creator i taught a i went to teach a class in um i'm not going to say where whatever a girls school very cultured from but very cultured very into culture and i was supposed to come on a wednesday and they called me up oh they made a mistake they're going to the moma in manhattan they're going to the museum of art museum of art so i should come the next day okay i came the next day 12th graders 12th graders i walked into the room i said so how was the moma the momo said rabbi wow we saw amazing things there i said you think i should go no no this sculpture is not dressed no no not for you it's not for you there's not clothes men and women and pictures and paintings and ah i'm like oh it's okay for you because the said it's culture so it's not just nurse it's not it's it's okay with schmidt and i am because it's culture i said i can't believe they took you to this place i can't go but you could go because of i don't want to use the word from my mouth right okay i get my most i say what's on my mind i got into trouble because the school was very angry that i attacked their culture whatever okay they never invited me back fine no problem so this one girl said wellesley i know you're probably not happy that we went there i'm gonna have to tell you something there's a painting this is i'm going back almost 30 years probably there's a painting of a farm and a lake and the the painter captured the reflection of the cows of the barn of the sun in the sky and the clouds in the lake she said i never in my life i thought i was looking at a lake it was absolutely fascinating if you could go and not see all the other stuff it would blow you away rabbi wallace blow you it's what she said it will blow you away i said i'm really sorry i know a little bit about art and the copy is not worth anything it's only the original so i would go outside and look at a lake that hashem created the painter made a copy big deal a lake with a reflection who made the lake who made the cow who made the reflection you're so you went to a place and you paid money to see a copy i said to the girls when was the last time you went outside and looked at shamayim or looked at an ocean and said oh my gosh look what hashem painted today was the last time anyone walked outside in the morning and saw a blue sky or a sky with clouds and said wow look at you painted no but someone painted it it's like amazing so another girl they're very smart girls in school they said rabbi rabbi she she's not in or of the lake she's in awe that the human being was able to put that on canvas she had me i said really and how did the human being do that eyes hand coordination brain how did human being where the human being used to color oh ink or colors red blue all the different colors who created all that stuff human beings just a copy too so and and it's late so i'm going to have to go i'm going to go into the round i'm going to read it taco from inside this is only really this is what he's talking about and and if you have that relationship with hashem it's a love relationship your torah it's your life will change so drastically instead of i have to do this after that why do i have to do this how do you know how do you know what do you know no it's like wow i woke up this morning he needs me and i go to sleep at night every night i think about what i did that day and sometimes i'm not so happy i didn't do enough i didn't call this one back and do that i told this person yeah yeah you have to do a judgmental fetch because you want to wake up tomorrow morning so i want you to need me hashem i want you to need me and and that's really enough time it's so late that's really what happened in sherm i'll just read it to you it's what happened and share hashiram it's all it's not wallace this is not my torah this is not my torah sure i cry when i usually when i say this listen to this parak hey this talks about hashem bassi laganya kala i came to my garden my sister my color that's what he calls us where do we deserve to be called hashem's sister i we see murray in basami yari and she sees him i come i have wine milk love honey and we say back to hashem i need shayna sorry i know you're knocking on the door but i'm sleeping now this is very deep as we know shara sharm is it's not a door in a house it's your yay it's hashem it's when you have that feeling in your heart in your soul that that i'm connected and i really should change i really should just come down time for davening i should really be careful this i should really treat my wife differently i should really change because i know hashem really loves me and i know you're there it's just a fleeting thought just a fleeting thought it doesn't last hashem's knocking on the door i'm here i love you i love you i'm bringing you all the goodies and we're like ah i need your shayna i'm sleeping ah but believe here every jew's heart is always allah always always no matter what kids i meet no matter how far off to death no matter where they are every jewish heart is awake you might be sleeping the rest of you might be sleeping but a jewish heart is always awake dirty die fake hashem is knocking on the door hashem says this is so sad it's so sad piscoli please hashem says to each one of us open the door in your soul my my head is dripping with tau i want to give you some of this sorry god push our teeth i'm not dressed anymore you want me to change my life you want me to change my whole life you want me to get dressed i can't get dressed anymore i can't change i'm too old i'm too deep in this i can't rakat's this rock lie i wash my feet may want me to get them dirty want me to do the work okay but then you want to do chuva and then you need hashem so you're like i need your help compd i need to lift the id you jump up you're like god i need you now and i touched the door and i feel this is what she shared was saying when hashem touched the door so there was spices and smells and perfume and now i touch the door even though he's not there but i touch him i'm still touching him i'm touching what remained of him that that little bit i got onion kipper that little bit connection that i got when i was a kid the little bit of connection when the rev was speaking i got something i don't really have him yet but i have something that's voice i'm looking he's touching the knob and his fingers touch it anyway potassium you i'm looking for him valenwa to see you and i can't find him karassa avalyani i'm calling to him and he's not answering wow did we go through a year why do we feel that we're calling him and he's not answering why do we feel like we're trying to open the door and he's not there what a year and a half what do you do what are you doing you feel like too late i opened the door too late he says something beautiful he says what do you tell hashem now after covid after florida after stalin after marone what are you telling what are you going to say if you have something hashem said we just went through recovery we lost southern people from the holocaust the biggest people we lost the biggest people you opened up the paper and you saw we lost the good islam in torah and in myself and so much suffering and separation and not being able to be ensured and it's not i talk about it's not a punishment get past that already not a punishment hashem had never had kaiser learning so much torah i should have never had so much give me this hashem my message hashem never had me on them every 15 minutes 24 hours a day i should have never had so many many on them i grew up people were talking and sure today people are not talking control maybe a little bit so people so again i don't know what sadiq and who said what did they say because some weddings in flatbush were too big because of shaytan come on he's not that kind of god he's not killing us off because of a shaytan yes we have to do truva we have to get better i'm not saying that stop beating yourselves up he never had a generation never never talk to real europeans and ask them how many people in their town knew how to learn or finish shots you were lucky if the rabbi finished us you think of the town of poland the whole the whole place finished shots they used to learn mission between not nothing wrong they were working whatever it is there was no there was no shots today fill up a stadium with people finished shots four times the amount of torah on torah anytime never so much tyra 24 7 anything you need children whatever you want it's not normal the monies that kaiser is giving to each other so you think we're worse than we ever were no so what's going on what's going on the gemara says one of them we forgot to gemara listen no one knows the gemara where it says in the times of meshiach of children to parents parents won't even talk to their children they're going to have husband against rabbanim it says everything there's going to be disease if oil is going to go up well it's going up right now right i think mars says everything it says happened i know people in the holocaust they're like yeah yeah when we were marching and everybody was dying we said mushy he didn't come at 70 years later i was like yeah that was one part of meshiach wasn't was was the the the geiger mug or the world war ii but there were a lot of other parts that you didn't have in your generation yates and all the other things that it says you didn't have so hashem didn't bring it all in one shot because we couldn't handle it so the holocaust here was part of meshia and now we're going through the other parts of mashiach and yeah you know what tanaan who could do said we don't want to live then who are we like come on i can't do tsm so i'm not a tana they didn't want to live through this and we have to yeah so this is all part of the master plan don't beat yourselves up yes we all have to get better don't point fingers that people were talking too much at sure people talk less and sure today because of whatever reason than they ever did when i grew up come on they were kidding me all the people who talk a little bit does the phone go off by accident everyone's like he's kind of curious because his phone rang a little bit cuckoo yeah the guy didn't do it on purpose but we never had so much so much money on him and learning and dabbing and five that for yami's in a short day don't beat yourselves up it's yeah it's part of it yes we have to change and we have to do we have to get better but that's not what's happening all right so hashem so we're all here and we want to talk to you and we only have one thing to tell you so what should we do i did this with my class should we ask him when mashiach's coming i think that would be most of the girls in my class raised their hand and said if hashem said i'll speak to you for one moment what would you ask him it's a great question by the way you should do it with your kids at shabbos table would you ask him so one kid will say a new car i want you to say a new football no one kid will say a new shot whatever each kid what would you ask him i said to my girls these are 19 20 year old girl i said would you you got a moment with us young what would you ask him so one girl said i asked him why why why are the holocaust why so many people have cancer i get all these questions when's moshiach was number one eighty percent of my class which he wouldn't tell yaakov i said to them sorry kisha vladigalis is a case and he took it away from jacob you know you're good seminary girls but i don't think that's that's what's gonna happen so here it is and i we don't have time you should all you should see this rambam but i want to tell you something and everything and we'll end with this i swear i make you swear the daughter of you shall i am in tempt to his deity if you find hashem hashem is not scary and he's not going to burn you and he's not going to hurt you he's a deidy that's what we call him here he's a died he's my loved one what should you tell him if i have one second to talk to god i'm not asking him any questions i'm telling him hashem i'm sick because i love you so much and i miss you so much and i just want you to know that i am so sorry that i didn't open that door that's it now why mashiach why this how's that who is your father who created you all these crazy questions that everyone asks me no such love you didn't open the door when he knocked on the door you mean yo spoke for 21 years and you didn't listen you shy or smoke and you didn't listen so now that we're in this terrible gullus malik says if you have any brains in your head the only thing you should be telling hashem is i miss you so much that i'm sick i say it every morning after dawn i'm like hashem if i have to be sick if it's written last year in my book that i have to be sick i only want to be sick in love with you that's it you can ride sick but only sick in love with you that's all i want the rambam says very interesting russian and well i know i say i always say i'm going to finish with this but this i'm really going to finish with this he says the followers listen to this he says about a boy if i said this you'd throw me on a shul but he says it yeah here's what he says okay so the ketchup haruya what's this ahava right what is this ahava you should be thinking about hashem all the time let's do his comparison if i said this i'd be in trouble like someone who's sick in love you know when when you see a boy going out and you lose a lot of weight a girl loses a lot of weight you know they're about to get engaged when she's like i have no appetite he's like i have no appetite or he shows up in chairman shabbas at two o'clock at night we know he had a good date this if they were smart the caterers and the photographers and the musicians would all go to sherman shops at two o'clock minion because those guys that walk in if he's out till two got a good shot especially if he lost ten pounds everybody loses ten loses weight when they're dating and then after dating they make it back and then some so he says he can't get his head out of his love for that woman who showed you my tummy and he's thinking about it all the time baby shifter when he's sitting baby kumai when he's standing for this that's the level that when you walk into shul you should have a pit in your stomach oh my god hashem is in the room not if i don't go to minion then i'm not going to yeah i have to be a minion or i have a street going that for 30 years i didn't miss it's streaky no that's not the feeling the feeling is oh wow hashem i could talk to you anytime i could walk into sure you go to a rebel you got to get you got to wait for four hours you got to know the shamans you got to give a pigeon you got to have connections together of cayenne you got to have connections to get to this one you don't have any connections to go to to speak to hashem you walk into shul no gabai they're usually not charging you any money maybe for rosh hashanah but usually not charging any money you can walk and cook to hashem any time you want no gabbai he doesn't have a cabbage that's amazing no protection listen i know that god might not give my anti protects here you just walk in you come over here and you say i love you i'm i'm i'm i'm i got a pit in my stomach i'm i'm in the house with god it's the rum it's not me it's the wrong mom okay so that's what the rambam says you want to look it up it's in parikh you're the last parrot his whole culmination of is is and all the other things that hashem created by the way it's not only for the chuva it also brings us in you say there tiger so that's really where that's really what i wanted to speak about tonight and that we we need to do a little bit of a shift and right now that we went through this hard time instead of asking questions and and why and who and coming up with everything no questions sean miller said no questions if you look at what he says he says we looked for him we couldn't find him we went out they hit us they beat us the next plastic says put to eh they hit us they beat us that was talking about the gallium and gullis and everything that we're in and uh and like after all that we're just like listen just tell kurds that i'm sick in love with him so i think we're at that point in this generation that yeah that's all you need to say you don't need to go make yourself crazy all you need to say is kurzweil i am sick in love with you and i want to know more about you and i want to be more connected to you and thank you for awakes that i woke up this morning and that you gave me another morning and you gave me a reason to be here and thank you for the biggest compliment that a person human being can get when i open my eyes in the morning you need me wow god needs me that's amazing i'm going to try to figure out why and i'm going to try to make sure that at the end of the day i i just have to tell you this i'm sorry i know it's very late in the minion you have to hear this i'm ending with this i'm sorry some of you might know him there's a holocaust survivor he's 96 years old he's already 97. he is a cousin he has amazing energy his wife's still alive at 95. i'm very into holocaust i ask the survivors because i deal with kids who are traumatized so they're also victims they went through something and i want them to become survivors so i'm trying to understand like how did you like come out of a holocaust religious like after all you saw this and the kids have the same question i went through trauma like what do you expect me you know so if i could get their answer i could help these kids so i i'm into that and i speak to a lot of them and some of them are not religious and whatever so he he's never dated he stands in keeping his in his about tiller stands for three hours it's not normal so one day i went over to him because of covid we were diving in the tent i said i have to ask you a question and i'm not going to go off to derek so just tell me the truth after the holocaust and they didn't know when the auschwitz and all these places the six million jews died they knew they were dying there until they got to the deep e camps they didn't know that so many people died i said when you found out the whole family nothing's around nothing's left and six million jews died did you have any questions i said if you did don't be scared i'm not going off to derek i understand if you have questions it's it's not normal everyone died six million youth you come out of the place you lost your whole family you lost your town you lost yeshiva you lost everything like did you have any questions and he looks at me with his big blue eyes he says you want to know the truth throughout my wallace team i'm like yeah i figured okay here we go he goes i had one question all right what was that question and he says to me i looked up at shamayim when i realized what happened and i said hashem six million jews and you let me live why me what did i do so good i said you didn't ask why six million jews died he said no i asked why one jew lived the true story and then he said and i told hashem that after 120 years i will stand before you and you will be proud that you gave me life he's he's 96. he should have arrived and he said rabbi wallistein my great-grandsons are she and this one's in kyle and this one's a doctor and he started reading me off his whole family and he's like and i dive in good new muslim kipper it's given good i'm like yeah he goes i'm gonna stand after 120 and say hashem you made a good you made a good decision that's what all of us need to do every single day before you go to sleep at night because he decided that hashem decided that he needs you in your word in this world you have to have something in your head to say i'm not asking questions on all the people that are suffering i'm asking why i'm alive you know what today i helped somebody i made someone smile whatever it is give it away whatever it is you made a good decision because every night you know shaman goes to shamayim and you want that nashama to stand in front of hashem and said you made a good decision thank you shane 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