Intro to Tanya By Rabbi Yitzchok Minkowicz - Our Spiritual DNA based on the 10 Sefirot

good evening we are today going to go into the introduction of Kania and here it's a very interesting introduction you know as I explained many times you know the introduction of book has a big part of the book encapsulating the introduction but here the author of a deals with something very very interesting and that is as follows the author who says I welcome perfect time to come inside no problem the author of writes like this and he says that he struggles with a big issue and the issue that he struggles with is that on one hand you know his goal is really to his goals to help us and to zr2 he's a leader and he's here to help people inspire people but what is the struggle the struggles as follows people would come from all over the world to visit the author of e to seek His guidance and to seek counseling and better ways to serve God and here he's getting ready to write a book so he addresses the struggle that he has and that is what one couldn't do in a face-to-face meeting you can't compare to something that's written down on paper and therefore he struggles should he write down his ideas and thoughts in a book or should he keep it to the one-on-one private audience but in this struggle he deals with a few components which is in itself a class in itself and what we'll talk about today and when he says like this that when a person reads a book so you're limited you're eliminated based on your mental capabilities you're limited based on your understanding of the book and you also limited the way you view life because everyone can you know you can have ten people read the same book and different message why are you guys questions be author now so when he discusses this he brings up something very very profound which is really an eye open into a lot of things in life and that is as follows he says why is it that when many people will read the same book everyone will come up with something else so in other words in other words so if you're looking let's say for for advice and you read a book everyone's gonna come why is that so so it explains like this and explains it based on powerful Kabbalistic teachings that it's known that we all every one of us on one hand God created one of us but in the other hand were all unique and all different so how can it be that God created human being so many human beings that everyone is unique I want her all the same one hand we all unique so he explains it based on a concept as follows that every one of us were created by God but what God used to create us human beings and the world as well but we're talking to you means right now he used something which is called a tensor erode now what are the tenths we wrote the ten she wrote yes we have a chart on the wall the tenth fee wrote are basically channeling infinite energy into a finite human being and to create different specific types of energy intellectual emotional and functional energies and they go under the category of ten spirit now we're going to go through a ten she wrote because what he explains is that pending on everyone's makeup of the strength of each one of the different tends to be wrote that's what your personal personal spiritual personality is going to be so in other words before we get into it generally speaking if you're right oriented you're gonna have a right slant if you're left oriented you can have a left slant and if you're sent oriented you're gonna have a center slant now what does that mean practically so to take you into the back room and what does it mean right left and center so the altar lays out and we have the chart on the wall the tents she wrote now the tents she wrote there are times where it starts with Kessler and das is not in there and this times when it starts with hokhmah and dust isn't there but let's use for today we're going to use where das is in this we wrote so the 10 0 would be hokhmah bina and das Kaufman would be on the right Pina would be on the left and that's me centered that's in the intellectual spirit and we'll explain them and then you have the emotional she wrote which is cressid Devorah ante Ferris casted being on the right guevara being on the left and the Ferris being centered and then in the functional sphere wrote nets are tied and you sewed nets up being on the right hold on the left and you're so ding centered and then it comes down to the last centered zero which is mal hood so there's three on the right three and the left and there's four in the center now let's do an overview what the spirit are and we'll soon see what does it mean to be right left oriented so let's start with the first fever the first sphere oh the Roth IRA is hakama what does that mean Kakuma it means like this we all every person has Kozma on a scale from 1 to 10 or 1 to 100 I mean 110 million there's obviously a bar of how much we have of that but we all have hakama it might be point you know a half a point but everyone has coughing so you guys have 100 what is hokhmah Kozma again is Right oriented hokhmah is the ability to have ideas flowing ideas just ideas you know yeah you have a problem you go to a home and I think that people are called aha home for this reason what's a haqqin haqqa means you have a question oh you have a question you have a concern and you don't gonna answer so if you go to a hyung he'll stop popping our answers doesn't necessarily mean that will be correct doesn't mean the whole make sense it doesn't mean something there's everything's gonna resonate with you but a hakama somebody come to a questions boom we can pop our answers some now I must be again we're talking right now about Hoffa let's use the term Kaka let's not use the word in a spear coz my spear means my spear how come means come on all right you know let's not mix Chuck and Travis we have challenged we put all the ingredients we have challenged when we talk hokhmah we're talking Coffman we're not talking much beer much beers another word let's let's stay focused on the word it's a good word but he's nothing do with hokhmah I'm not saying I'm a schmee doesn't have hakama but we're talking the word ha ha como hokhmah as you go into a on so Roja from this somebody knows for example a doctor's also has month but when actually we not talk about doctors now and so on and so forth we're talking about Kokomo we're talking at the Ross Veera otherwise we're not gonna know what the worst fear is so the Ross mirror is what it's awesome kog'maw like this knock it ask him details he doesn't know again we're talking to Ross Perot hakama so the Ross viewer Kaufman is yeah but Austin he'll start popping out ideas answers etc and they're slashes he might forget 3 minutes later what the first answer was because maybe yeah maybe not but the point is that they're their ideas now that if somebody as you'll see in the big picture at the end that's right oriented knocking out ideas so you see it's from the right which is usually the giving side see rights giving you have a question he's not holding back give you all the answers sometimes the answers you don't want to hear but you still get the answers ok on the left in the world of intellect we're in still in the world of intellect it's something which is called veña veña again in the raw sense of the word let's say somebody's 100% Vina zero comma so just to get the glimpse no idea what veena is so being us somebody you asked him for question here's I'm the answer I don't know I don't know but what happens if you have an answer but you want to be able to really understand the answer comprehend it it's the hill bell to give you a two-hour speech was idea I'm giving you a EC an extreme case where one person is the cocklebur Zarina he'll let me give you a two-hour explanation on the concept about the speech and so on and so forth ask him something that you know ask me a question he doesn't he won't know the answer but if you give him data he'll be able to break it down to you how about to explain it to you he bail to like create a PowerPoint presentation with all the details and all the examples and then so on and so forth so he knows basically here's some new ideas no idea but he has something he'll buff dissected okay but they're a team you see either a team because hokhmah needs bina and beam on each chochmah see how God made it the Hakan were all those ideas ain't gone too far he need his partner bina the development Vina he can develop all day long but the Cochrane was not feeding him data what is he developing so you see the way they're intertwined okay so that's right that's left then you have the center of the intellect and what is that gasps what is that in the world of intellect still very simple you have an idea give all the details okay one let's just do it this information great idea I got it and therefore no no we're not talking act no it's still talking the world of intellect das is the ability to take the idea take the details and make it work apply it to the emotion to reality whatever maybe he's able to give you and therefore this is your end product in other words you have a problem the column will give you a solution okay the bino will tell you all the details of it and then that will tell you how to actually connect all the dots together and make it work it's almost like that he's able to connect the dots okay so that is the world of Kaka mabini das again right left center and will soon see as we go through all the spheroid you'll see how it all comes together that's in the world of intellect now we're going down to a whole new world we're leaving the world of intellect which is data information cold now going through a world of emotions right what's on the right the emotion on the right - so what's castle on the right and you'll see the way it all goes through vertically custard is someone that whatever you have initial he's here to help Casa my definition of someone that's a giver he's always there to give now but again we're all giving no holding back no holding back just giving giving giving now what does that mean practically of course it impractically you asking or something yes sure yes sir no problem with pleasure he asked him to help you with pleasure you a child asked for a knife sure no problem that's custard that's the wrong video custard a teenager's as drunk as the dads for the keys to the car the dad is raw custard here's the keys to the car kid asked I gave not talking no he's not custard is giving if I have it it's yours you're hungry here I'll feed you you're drunk I need another drink no problem here's another drink that's that's the rules there are plenty of them yes okay one second so hassle again that's the wrong meter of craft said is what giving now you see the way custard and coughed might have something in common Moe's ideas and capsule is also it's giving you're both giving on the Left oriented you Anthony which is called what Guevara what is Guevara every question no and now think about it so you ask someone that's on the left side goroh is know unless you give me a good reason why yes so their default answer of Guha is the answer is what no maybe if you give me a good reason and you whatever maybe I'll change my mind but default of a GU er is known me fold of GU er is the hat it has to fit it has to fit into the box if it's not exactly that no okay so you see they do run veena line up veena has to analyze you mean that guru has to make sense then maybe yes you see I'm saying is because of ena there's a hole back they can't there's no new data it's just analyzing it and Laura again is in the box no unless there's a good reason follow the same line what is to ferrous to ferrous if you have custard right you're giving so the pros we're giving is you're giving the con is are you giving to guru what the probe Ora you're not gonna be giving kid a knife you're not gonna be giving a drunker Symetra alcohol you have to be giving a teenager drunk the keys to their car right so that's a good thing but in the other hand when someone really needs help you're gonna think twenty times but you're helping you all the guy will faint in front of cuz he hasn't eaten in three days so this pros and cons rua casul it's not great it's not good and bad custard is this giving guru it's not good and bad it's just restriction so either one is really imbalanced comes along tea Ferris which is a miss a misunderstanding people think it's like a balance its Ferris is its own sphere oh it's not a mix it's not faster that's not guru see Ferris is it's called beauty but what is the feriss ferriss is the ability to put yourself in the other person's shoes and English I think it's called compat empathy be empathetic so in other words someone comes to you and say listen hey I haven't eaten so you put yourself in the other person's shoes if it's coming from real hungry the person's hungry and person didn't really eat no problem you'll give me there's like you would give yourself if the person is a drunker and he wants another bottle of aapke he's gonna kill himself you put yourself in the shoes you wouldn't kill yourself or did you kill the guy so you would reach out him from it from an empathetic place and say I'd love to give it to you I really would but I wouldn't give myself either if I wasn't so the ferris is the power to put yourself in someone's shoes so this is obviously back to das which is basically connecting the dots and making it work eros is extreme as you can tell all the middle spheres are extremely powerful so in other words what if the ferrous the power to put yourself in someone's shoes I mean you put yourself in someone's shoes what happened what's the decision it's always gonna be the best decision it's coming from a place of empathy to a place of empathy and the person will accept it whatever the answers if it's yes or no overton between okay so that's the emotion the world of emotions will give you the full picture and we'll get back to it then you have the functional emotions which is basically called net sock code and your soul what is that top nets up here is the power and an extreme emotional power to be victorious in other words the ability to say we're gonna make it through we're gonna be successful against all odds now that's what a powerful emotion but you can be successful in destroying tone to again it's the wrong meter we're gonna succeed you can be succeeded in destroying somebody and you can see in being successful but you see how it lines up on the right side with the giving okay let's make it work right let's let's you know let's make it happen then you have on the Left hurried which is basically the ability to say thank you to acknowledge hone did something for you so again that's already a calculated thing you did something for me thank you he didn't do no thank you again on the left gratitude on the left side and you sewed which is actually translated foundation but that's the ability to connect with another human being on a physical plane in a real way a physical intimate connection whether it's being a husband and wife or two friends that connected and bonded and therefore each other whatever you know whatever is needed emotionally physically but the sight is the ability to connect another person a real deep meaningful way and again you see the way it's part of the center column no no we're talking at the raw aspect of being able to connect the other person now what is Malthus so Marcus is an interesting Sphero according to kabbalah Malthus basically not malthus's huh Cole kingship that's the translation Marcus really is an empty vessel what does that mean it's the basket of everything and that's what you use to communicate and to convey who you are to another human being and in order really to do that so Marcus requires you have to be ma have to be empty you have to be like a an empty vessel you have to meet you have to be humble so the more humble you are the more you able to receive what you have and give it over and personal will be willing to accept it if you're humble if you're arrogant how can you give something over so mouth has the ability to humble yourself and that's where you're able to give over to other people okay now based on this an analogy of disputes so the outer wrist is like this every single human being we all have the tensor you wrote however to keep it simple on a scale from one to ten some people can be right oriented that means let's say all the rights for the lighting up and tend to tend the on ten out of ten on the left it's you know the see zero everywhere around zero say a half a point on each in the middle also so what happens though it wasn't before get to what happens that's one out the other option you'll be left oriented one to ten on left boom you're ten everything and the middle on the right you're close to one one second or you can be in the middle ten in the middle and zero on the sides that's giving you extreme cases but then you can have a total different mix low from this a little from that and so on and so forth and the reality is not only can you have a mix but as you go through life guess what happens you alternate absolutely even though you were born yes everyone is born with a certain code a certain code and it could be if it was you then with 10 zeros so this every one of those could have a different level so everyone has their unique code and based on your unique code that's who you're gonna be one side was it correct one second we'll get through it we'll get to the change in a second but everybody is born with a certain code everybody's born with a certain code whatever the code is up and everyone's code is unique everyone's code is unique now what happens because that because everyone's call is unique so what happens if you go to a scholar and you say I want to ask you a question I'm struggling with this issue spiritually what do you say or it could be let's say you know let's make a practical analogy before we get to the spiritual stuff let's see for example is a question where there's certain animals kosher or not what does that mean when they caught when they slaughtered it was there you know the inside there was a hole and in the end the intestines and so on and so forth this there's questions it's not black and white blues trophy with no its drape and if it's coaching you know it's kosher but the certain issue is that it's a gray area and you have to go and you need to find the facts and so on and so forth you ask a rabbi right so that I'll tell mrs. like this if you're a rabbi that's right oriented he's a kind man correct so he's gonna be inclined naturally based on a spiritual DNA to find a way and is that going to go against Jewish law if it's traded straight we're talking area where it's gray and you can you know he has to make a guess decision they based on gray areas again you can't go against Jerusalem we're talking on areas where that it's debatable there's many areas in Jewish law where to grab our maybe three or four the game different opinions about a certain situation because again it's a great area again areas where it's kosher there's no question where it straight there's no question where it's permissible it's fine we're doublet we're took in great area so if you go to a rabbi who basically think let's let's analyzes if you go to a rapper who's right oriented and he's more of a kind person what is he gonna naturally try to do naturally subconsciously figure out a way that's kosher no no not to appease no not to appease I'll be that they'll be dishonest he will naturally because of his disposition to be kind he will naturally try to find a way that legally point to Jewish law it's kosher that's gonna be and he's gonna work hard on it well they're saying whether yesterday you study you do some research or discuss or maybe go and the Meo taking effort he's gonna somehow figure I try to make a kosher why few reasons because he's a caring person so a he does want you to his money he went you bought a cow let's see what the cow cost you a thousand bucks if it's kosher you'll get us you'll get a premium for it if it's trave you lose money on it here's what you lose money for no reason not that God's forbidding and make make it clear you would never make something that's non kosher kosher that's not the question but in a great area why would you want you to lose money that's point number one point number two point number two which is even deeper what does it mean when we say an animal's kosher and non kosher what does that mean clean what is it clean okay what does he mean we say an animal's kosher none kosher so in Hebrew actually and he what's the Hebrew term for kosher as a term what is the Hebrew term for for something inanimate Scotian a non kosher so the Hebrew term is officer which means forbidden and what they're means permissible now what does the motor mean permissible it's no tire now actually um the if you want to get technical what does Muhtar mean it's free it's on it's on time it's not tied up it also means it's tied up like lock down so what does that mean something is locked down something's free what does that mean in Turkish word so in the world the concert it means like this God created human beings and he created animals and he instructors in the Torah explore to them and eat them now what right do we have to eat an animal obviously God told us but why why does he want to see that so this is another class in itself but for right now why is God why does God want us to eat it's very simple because God because we have the power to transform ourselves how do we prepare the transform ourselves because we can study Torah we can do mitzvahs and we can pray we can do wonderful things so therefore by studying Torah and doing mitzvahs and praying and being kind we actually elevate ourselves elevate Narga argali souls elevate validate on an animal salt now because we have the power to elevate so therefore we have the power to elevate what everything we everything we eat so if you for example have dinner and you eat chicken or meat or whatever maybe whatever the whatever you eating and then you go and study Torah and then you go and do a mitzvah and then you go pray so not only are you elevating the animal soul you're actually elevating the food that you ain't so we got told us in the Torah you're a light unto the nations what does that mean our job is to bring light into our life in the world and every single Kingdom Animal Kingdom as well now because we have the power to elevate so God instructed us what animals we could elevate and what we can elevate in other words if an animal's kosher and it was slaughtered properly and it was poaching properly and you have the final product what does that mean that means Muhtar Matar means it's not bound up it's it's it's it's free it's open you have the power when you eat that and you pray and you studying you do it throat you like that correct okay that's what muta means what is Asura mean uh sure mean it's bound up bound up means it's technically means it's forbidden to eat it but why is it forbidden because it's bound up in the world of Clipper in the world of opposite of holiness it means if you ate that you know what's gonna happen you're not gonna have a pull up you're not gonna have to elevate it and if you can't elevate it it's gonna downward you it's like for example lets you eat certain foods certain foods with the body has the power to digest we digest it and it gives us good healthy energy and then part that's no good it goes into waste but there's certain foods that you eat you can't adjust the body cannot physically the dress certain foods so what happens if you can't adjust it makes you sick so that that's on a physical level on a spiritual level the same thing if things that are forbidden you don't have the power elevate so if you're gonna eat it you know what's gonna happen there you go bingo I'll make you sick spiritually bingo exactly so now so so therefore so know if you go to a rabbi who's inclined from a kind place and if the animals forbidden so it's not even a question if it's permissible you didn't come to him but the and the rabbi gives a look and he said oh my gosh a what I said before he does want you to lose money the this animal could be elevated why would I say it's forbidden but it can't be elevated now I'm gonna have an animal out there upset at me you think it's a joke it's not a joke this story he came to our body and they said to him it was a discussion about a cow whether it's kosher or not and this rat and it was a debate some people said yes I'm you also know and actually one of the leading rabbinical authorities whose a shock said it's forbidden and it's almost reveal that it's okay so they came to this Rambo and they said to him you know this cow that you know there was a big debate you're the one came to gave the final ruling in the final ruling you said it's from prissmann permissible to eat but we know well the leading calm here's a shot for example says you know how to eat it so how did you go ahead and say it's permissible so rallies like this after 120 I'm gonna go to have them so what's gonna happen so the grand rabbi the chakras ever come to me to have an arguing with me hey I said it's forbidden and you said it first of all - fine we'll have a Talmudic discussion either I'll win or I won't win but somehow we'll come to the middle of something and I'm okay with that so it's okay to have a Halak discussion with any other round boy I mean I didn't just go ahead and pick it out of my hat I had a good reason her logically why I said what I said and I'm okay with that but I don't want when I come to heaven they have to have a fight with the cow and I don't want the cow coming saying look I was living near in that world I was really kosher I could have been elevated and because of you know when elevators me I don't want to have in heaven a fight with a cow in other words back to the point so a rambling it's compassionate robbery it's right oriented wants to make you happy I just want you to lose money if he can legally doesn't want the cow to have a fight with him later because he could have been elevated he's gonna try to find a way to do what to figure out how to be kosher if he can I know but I mean probably will if he works hard at it you like it on the other hand if someone is left oriented and his first response is no right no so you come to him we'll say is a kosher no meanwhile maybe if he does research it wouldn't be no but because he's left or anthems no so meanwhile you lost money and maybe didn't have to lose it be this cow could have been elevated now it's an elevated so in other words here you have two different worlds if you go to someone that's right oriented you're gonna have one answer based on his right orientation and if you go to some of this love story and you have a different answer and if you're someone in the middle he'll be compassionate with you I think you feel good but we don't know if you're in the having that you know I mean you might have the right instead of either to the left or somewhere in between so the algebra says like this so what happens is two that I gave you an example in a locking question right what I'm spiritually speaking in other words you're struggling spiritually struggling spiritually we all have struggle spiritual struggles we're trying to get closer to God we're trying to live more of a peaceful life a happy life the more of a kind life right and we have our inner struggles and external struggles so you come to talk to a mentor right a spiritual mentor so the author of ourselves if the the rabbi the mentor the Campbell his right oriented he's gonna take you with love he'll make you feel good he'll warm you up to God and he'll bring you in to God and what's gonna happen God's gonna be beautiful God's gonna be sweet and you're gonna have a great experience with God and you're gonna grow spiritually and you have a beautiful life why because you can't takes you got someone that brought you in and he was an only reason I was able to bring you in because he's right oriented and he was overflowing with custard he was overflowing with compassion for you wonderful but what happens if this rabbi who got himself a job to be around Boeing as a catalyst and he knows the Kabbalah and everything but he's left oriented and you come to me tell him about your struggles and he goes what you did that and you feel like oh my gosh you want to bury yourself on the ground right even though he's right you did to do something wrong but based on his approach and based at nothing his approach basically his spiritual DNA that he's left oriented and have lashed out on you he'll kill you on the spot spiritually you never want to have a relationship with God you think this God is like angry God that just wants perfection you got it what if he's really accomplished isn't gonna be you know he's gonna know and he's gonna but again our DNA is our DNA God created people there's some people right oriented some people left oriented I know some people are right oriented and I'm giving you extreme cases obviously before the conversation no perfect I'm giving you further comment I'm giving you a no because I'm giving you I'm giving you the extreme case obvious money between the point is you can study let's see who whoever you are that's who you are right now and we'll talk about what Emily broke before about change we have to change in a minute but you are who you are that means if you're right oriented person whatever you're gonna read you're gonna find the positivity you're gonna find the giving aspect you're gonna find the love in there that's that's the lens you're wearing you're wearing a lens of positivity yet so you are you right oriented but on the other hand if you left oriented you can read the same thing and you're not coming from a bad or mean place about you definition it's you're more into or and fear it's not bad and good by the way and by the way someone that's soul root is all in fear and left oriented he'll like a discipline rabbi he's actually if I handled such a weak soft growl boy you know I mean not every teachers men for every student know everything absolutely certain people that need some God will need that I'm wanted I'm looking for that it will only accept someone that's really strong and rigid and powerful okay so now so the algebra says so because you have different types of people in the spiritual DNA so if you write a book and then you go discuss it with someone depends you end up with you can't I was on this write oriented and left oriented so therefore the author who says what do you do in that case so therefore he says he's writing the book and he hopes that when you go to seek someone for advice you seek for someone that studied the book of Tanja and studied Habad mysticism study about the alter rebbe and the reason is because someone that studied mysticism someone that studied the bond philosophy we all know that the purpose of mysticism is to one thing or one thing only well many things but in this case is to - what no no to change the nature of your DNA that you created with that means when you study mysticism I think you study has to do it you first of all get to know who you are you get to know the picture of all the see wrote and you know what has it is you know goo is the fairest that's hold you so my foot and you get to know spiritually who you are now you take a good hard look at yourself and you oh my gosh this is who I am okay I'm not changing overnight yeah be realistic but let me start working on coming too much left let me bring it into the middle too much right which is also let me try being in the middle and you work on yourself so someone that basically is searching and as Delta we said someone that basically has questions in other words the algebra says that you know what the worst enemy of somebody who wants to change and so wants to work on themselves no that's that's down the road the first the first enemy is thinking you know everything if you have no questions why are you changing how you gonna change life is good so someone the ABC the Aleph the first letter of anyone that wants to become a spiritually empowered human being wants to work on itself first you have questions you gotta have questions what's the basic simple question yeah you all have any questions that's good what's the basic question Who am I Who am I how can I have a better relationship with God how can I have more love in my life how can I have more simcha in my life how can I me really really genuinely happy now these questions remain you know what these questions remain because as happy as you are could you be happier absolutely as much as you love God and you love human beings could you love them more yes these things are infinite as much as start you study Torah will you ever know at all no you always want to know more so the more you exactly the more you study the more you want to know so somebody that's asking questions about who they are spiritually and someone that's searching when you come to them you think they have answers no they have more questions but the two the two of you together will go on the journey see if you go to somebody and you ask them a question and gives you the answer wrong teacher because life is a journey life is constantly changing it's very complicated because the person you were yesterday is hopefully not the same person you today and the person here today is not gonna be the same person he gonna be tomorrow or in other words like this but you know I try I wanted to two things point number one is I want to say is several years ago I was in Israel you know all the power the Kabbalistic powers in Israel I'm always searching questions right for people that are searching well as well so I met a very holy Jew in Israel very very heavy into mysticism especially kabab mysticism and he's taken the spirit and he's researched it in two colors and shapes seen every single sphere we said we I gave you the overview every single sphere has different colors every single sphere has different shapes information exactly yes so he created a chart and I took the test it was phenomenal he took it he gives you a sheet of paper and it's it's designed like the outline of the sphere oh so he has different colors by each sphere and different shapes by each viewer and then you write down what colors you like and what shapes you like and when you're done he has an overlay and he marks it and he tells you exactly who you are spiritually I did it with my son we have blown away it was that exactly to the theme I haven't even been in contact him in a while but it's a fascinating then what do you like you created was know that what he did was based on who you are based on who you are he gave you spiritual exercises to do he gave me spiritual exercises to do so the point to make me so if once it does you really want to know who you are you have to analyze every one of the sphere of who's in you may be honest I'm I'm or leaning or custom type of person I'm more of a neuron or expand and then once you know where you are then you say okay fine you know I want more of this this I have to fine-tune this after you know just I have to fix up a little this I have to you know really back and backtrack a little and guess what you can go through your whole life fine-tuning it because the parts are always moving if there's you have ten parts that are moving and they're constantly moving so if you work don't say a certain sphere today but now you mix the Polo Apple card because each one connects to the other so let's see pretend you were heavily weighted on caffeine and you bring it back but now you have to work on the other ones and so on when you finish the other one you get back to this one so it's a whole life it's a whole life journey of questions you know and trying to really being honest and working this thing out but once you work it out guess what for today it's okay tomorrow's every day that's why we pray every single day three times a day and we study Torah and that's when you meditate why to be in check who we are right now and can't see working ourselves again because the parts are moving the sign the end as you know what is coming every day correct correct so that's that's point one I want to say the second part I want to say was about what happens as you change you make different decisions different decisions so actually after you know in the spiritual journey always discussing people practical applications of this type of area so I have a friend of mine who religious man and his son went through a journey and decide explore different areas of his life he became unreligious and then as we know the wheel always turns and then he became back religious again so he came back religious again he was a single boy so his dad tells me I think you know it's time he's really looking to you know getting a sugar getting engaged see he says there's that he wants to go to Israel to study for a year says that's his fine get engaged get married notice Israel study for years so he told us down like this that the girl that I'm gonna pick in a year from now is not gonna be the same girl I pick now he knew I'm going to yeshiva for a year for a year to study it's not academics I'm not going to study academics I'm going true to academics as well but I'm going to figure out who I am perfect myself transform myself so the person I'm now is not gonna be the same person a year so why would I pick someone today that would live the rest of my life of based on Who I am now and I know it's gonna change now even though it's constantly changing what you change with the person you both changed you both cetera but this is gonna be too much of a change it's not fair to put it on somebody without we know we're not we're why get into involved in the relationship with someone but I know is gonna be a drastic change if they're not up to and they're gonna judge me based on my past and so on and so forth okay so you see that what that everyone really is different and it's constantly changing it's constantly changing okay so based on that the other comes along and he says what's really important is to find a mentor but find a mentor by someone that is also in a search and searching that with the Rebbe once said the only ones instructed everyone should get for salsa mentor mentally so he says how do you know if the mentis for you so recent like this no there are beasts as follows he said that that you teach to be compared to a angel' of God angel of God so he says ok so how do I change to I think is very simple you have to look if you to you to you this person looks like the angel of God he can be a teacher if not not so ultimately who's the judge you're the judge in other words the alto he says over here in the instruction of Tanya that he quotes from Proverbs from King Solomon in the famous song you know they sang his mother Asia style song of songs so it says over the adverse stuff like this no need of a showing by law which means he was known in the gates by the older people and but the the Enzo are what does it is or what is it so were explained this was explained Kabbalah that ultimately every single person knows to the core who they're sort of speak teacher is everyone knows what their unique relationship with God is another thing this there's not one size fits all everybody has their unique voice but more important there you unique relationship with God one person their relationship is through the right one person to the left one person in the middle one person from the back whatever it may be the point is everyone has that unique relationship with God and that's what's unique about Tonya versus other books when you study Tonya Delta it says you're not gonna find question answer question answer you're gonna have the infrastructure of who you are I want to get into for example the speed and so on so as we progress and then you're gonna be able to see is it speaking to me or is this speaking to me and you'll be able to find the answers providing you have the questions so as long as you you have the right questions you're gonna find the answers what is the basic question the basic question is simple how do I develop a deep and meaningful relationship with God one that will allow me to live a beautiful happy life once you ask that question and you keep on asking that question guess what you'll find different ways that will lead you to the same place which will be a place that you'll have a relationship with God with joy that means you when you pray and you study you'll you're not going to function as a functioning human being opening a book and reading words that's the function of Prayer but when you pray you're gonna pray with feeling God in the prayer service and you're gonna be happy about it when you study peaceful and joyful when you study totally not gonna speak are getting data what does this one say what does that one say whatever we talk whatever the subject matter is yeah true it's about that information but more important when you study you're gonna feel God in the study and you're gonna more important you're gonna feel the joy when you do a mitzvah you're not just going to go ahead and do a good deed you're gonna actually connect to God by doing that Mitzvah you're gonna be doing what God wants and you're gonna feel that relationship and you're gonna be joyful about it but how can you do that if you get to know who you are your spiritual DNA see what's working what's strong see what's strong and that should be built up see what's stronger that made me see like tone down a little bit and to create ultimately your unique fit that will allow you to have a deep meaningful relationship of God that's done with joy and as time changes and things changes go back to the drawing board matter of fact health insurance is drawing board every day every day that's where we pray every single day that's why we meditate before prayers sometimes every hour but always going back and checking in so we pray in the morning pray in the afternoon pray in the evening and matter of fact every single night before you go to sleep some you think about your day the smile think about how you behaved words that came out of your mouth were they kind where they compassionate well they may be too strict and too judgmental and as long as you do it every night every morning maybe in the afternoon guess what you'll keep on refining yourself and you'll be a shining human being look what happens to a diamond or silver or gold that you don't polish it what happens and these it's honest loses the sign so if you want a sign you got to polish the more you polish the more it's going to shine