Infertility: The Pain, the Stigma, the Loneliness, and the Courage - By Rabbi YY Jacobson

it is my covenant honor to call a drama Jacobson to give us tools to give us ammunition how to go home mio-chan and how to promise I the shadow have to be miss power for I give you been steel it's my honor to call up brother Jacob since leader there was a bomb it's Allah Bakr wanted to give a great city - address of shuttle so he comes to his mother it says mom might want to talk about the assists where we come from she says ah the Baba gevalt Aziza the elta bothered that up she goes no no mama all the way back we did it begin says width began but Isis bother with composition - Arliss on Friday created other Manhattan they decided to have children the rest is history or actually her story Robert said yeah concern refugio Helene here we are to follow the comes to his father his father was a graduate from a distinguished University he considered himself on my skill of light in person says daddy we do we come from tells him about the leaves the incidents not at all all the way at the beginning all the way the beginning we have come from apes explains them the Assizes of Darwinism the [ __ ] aside spotless evolution this philosophy of evolution after hundreds of millions of years apes evolved into Homo sapiens into people that's how it works whether the Apes come from from monkeys whether the monkeys evolved from other primates tapti how did it all begin it all began with an explosion of gas and bacteria comes back to the mama says mama I'm confused about the moments with Roshi she says what I want to talk about is where we come from you tell me from it said yoga sir if kuraha liya Odom Calandra barceló daddy tells me we come from AIDS we come from monkeys we come from bacteria Muslim expanded Russia what do I say she looks at him and she says my diet kids there's no contradiction here your father was talking about his side of the family I'm talking about my side of the Mizpah as mama slow steady I in violent the relic inside why do I sense you know tired even witness trying to speak to both sides of the family yummy the small to phrase the heat city sheath came from Poland to the United States he wanted to become a citizen on Ezra from America one proudly we just heard with Naphtali that he didn't know he did he didn't know English he become a citizen they ask you questions about America history yes they know some things he didn't know English how do you become a citizen so his father told him I'm gonna set you up for an interview with an old man makes people citizens and he always asks five questions they're ready 50 years he asks five well you don't have to understand English he just have to memorize the chiasm five chrimbus five responses you become a citizen Cavalli what I was five questions he always meets the people he says I have five questions the first question is always what's your name I don't have to understand English he says what's your name here you say moisturize question number two he's always gonna ask how many children the air you'll say fine he's gonna ask the third question how many states in the u.s. he'll say fifty his fourth question is who was the first president of America you'll say George Washington fifth question the as parents he'll say thank God both for three months this exhibition is mesmerizing like which size bow path these five answers verbatim millaa millaa my shall i buy children fifty states george washington thing but yeah yo integration they comes he walks over the interview the old man looks at him he says you want to become a citizen of u.s. makes like this I have five questions great not question number one tell me what was the name of the first President of the United States of America without skipping the hearts beats me believe I said no effect he says moisturize tell me how many states are there in America just fine just tell me how many children do you have he says fits me he looks at this year they hit with a diamond with a Becca sure and would like to pay us a partisan to see you but understandable in honor of the day looks at the sees that he says what's your name since George Washington the old man sitting on the other side of the desk was an al t he immediately understood what's going on he looks at him and he says somewhere vetted Michigan the made of the near most crazy in this room you mean he's just a guard boat why do I tell you this anecdotes I'll tell you why you could memorize lines and say all the right things at some point you're gonna get stuck this rabbis the speakers desert abundant as Russia Shiva's this lecture is this valid I shouldn't who have all their lines memorized the Smisek men were so much I think of the glasses my cold moment dr. Cole - God - Laden through Indiana frame Alaska miss Blake took office at some point if you're just memorizing lines you're gonna get stuck with real things what once I eat I started you know what a schnorrer is it guy who has a PhD in fundraiser glasses snarling accounts been caps and bad blood cell counts I already shamed the son of Noah who was guys you should be a cop one of those you know goes in the family as a hundreds of donors but he would always buy the lottery you know whatever that by the lottery every day they put on film they buy the lottery by the latter 45 years he bought the lottery but he I um was 200 at 63 million dollar lottery his wife gets a call is this the house and XYZ she says yeah you want your husband 163 million she calls the door and she says I'm a serious situation I know my husband Craig ankle he's gonna hear that he won the lottery he's gonna drop dead on the spot he's gonna claps with a heart attack I don't know he's gonna survive for Stuart little says you send him to me as the blanks should nick has to confirm the cowboy night she says he thousand she he'd a tosser tell your husband he should come to see the road before he comes home she calls a broken ankle they know builders and I did the Kim Stein you know wants to see you comes into that up and ever stood sir never says I'm just here to ask you must upon a sir thank you how do you promise sir nice is it ever you know I'm a cups and promotional cups and Bend emotional captains in combat Noah the Duke says was so he uses so you you what are you doing is that kindly establish tips make money I buy the lottery of a device excel it's honest I never win the lottery how do you know how do you know go I'm in Montana win the lottery in Kentucky in Delaware I appreciate via is not winning 263 million up is are you pulling my slammed over somebody else doing maybe it's you deserve a sighs : Sycamore I am I love Hayden but a skull mr Hayden it's not happening I don't win batteries i buy it that bicycle shame you so that'll win a lot of it let's see today then win the lottery give us a look at Susan mmm if I won the lottery I do the door pass me claps on the floor head on it's easy to be a spectator on the outside give people advice on the inside everything changes so I say to you that the truth is now after being all shoppers here for Akasha I feel like may aim voice shall obey no in front of the snap front of the burning bush well he wants to see the burning bush sittin over some thousand sound on my left holding out my other eye classic how much time until about militia take off your shoes because you're standing on holy soil says it madness robber the burning bush represented the pain of the Jewish people throughout history Murray Shara Bey knew the first manager show observed his children his people a michelle has led Boyer by age fast nine and Iruka they won't be destroyed but they're going to hurt and my son actually says a Sudan overhead let me look let me understand what if I stayed let me analyze my do I even ask man how does it work some turns them and says my share of a know one day you're going to become a never the first thing when you're standing in front of us now you know what you do solemnly or less on they are ugly now matter the [ __ ] take off your shoes from you Phoebe I'll focus my shot away with a low alpha stylish because when you're standing in the presence of a person in pain you're standing in shackled ocean and including the shackle not some you take off your shoes it kind of Chakradhar should be not a philosopher in toilet condition - not a theologian encourage chakradhari me not a moment in kannada nisha kothari should be not an explainer in college like abduction you take of your shoes and with humility you recognize caramel commercial today with a lot of misleading you all know how true it is what i'm going to say that that a person who has been tested with tremendous pain in his or her life stands in a different platform in a different place in a different universe in a different mundane here than people who were not tested that way so I say to you today as I'm going to share what I want to share with you based on this part the first thing I'm doing is I'm taking off my shoes off my feet okay I'm uh clear my shot or in middle of admah scalish and I share with you four points as this Shabbos Kadish shears it to goodbye with us point number one individuality point number two living with the now and thriving in the now point number three harmony in the home solemn bias point number four discovering my purpose point number one individuality I'm going to speak now like a brother to brothers and like a brother to sisters I'm going to speak lave LaLanne heart to hearts from somebody who sometimes sees the other side I think the best way to illustrate what I want to say is a scientific experiment I once read about there was a French scientist the French naturalist his name was Henry Farber he won the Nobel Prize in the early 1900's he was a big expert on insects especially he did research on caterpillars he's up when a caterpillar a few dish cockpit a pillar I'm flushing koi fish sac out right Osaka MS Zack fella caterpillar right you familiar with caterpillars those of you who went to camp and hated sports when you ran away to the forest and you went to catch frogs and salamanders and every word you've caught you thought you mamas found Tessa bazaar and probably in your search for your frogs you discovered caterpillars those little creatures that crawl around or come maneuverable and the same with caterpillars is they walk in processions a procession is a fallujah apparatus you can have 300 caterpillars head to toe head to toe head to toe mama she attacks like a choo-choo train with the leader in the front looking for food and hundreds will follow and punish double attack Henry farmer was a curious guy and he wanted to see how a deep is this gene that nature that Hashem put into the caterpillar you know what he did I'm gonna show you what he did he took every fiber took a flower pots on odd seats and he overturned the flower path of Zoe he took a group of the caterpillars and he put them on the rim of the flower pot on the edge of the flowerpots the finish is there in a circle now they're doing how Kovas there's no leader because they're going in a circle there's nobody that reckoning them they're following each other so everyone is following the other one who's following the other one is following the other one there's nobody in the front now he takes food and he puts it in the middle of the flowerpot the middle and he waits to see which caterpillar is going to tear itself away from the circle to go get its food to live and you know what he observed he watched the caterpillars for seven days and here is the facts of the experiment that I read after seven days he watched every single last caterpillar died from hunger starvation dehydration thirst and exhaustion the food was a few inches away but that needs to be part of the circle was stronger than the search to go get the food that's gonna let you live as long as I'm gonna stay in the circle money diamond ugly sight many of us live our whole lives like that we know that our food is somewhere else we know that we need to go there for our food but the emotional pressure to be in the circle becomes so powerful that we sometimes sacrifice what we need most frying to show man our booth as we miss were part of the circle my night without boy sight my every person in their life but everyone sitting here in this room in their life meets to appreciate what they're going through and respect your boundaries and not force yourself to always be in the circle of everybody else because you're on a different journey than many other people and you have to respect that how many told me to true with a dress I'm not sure meant so much more to that discussion the levels of guilt and regret it's not a passion to thing when somebody's brother has fully one main o'clock and is going to console us every other night and the Ole Miss [ __ ] comes and is such a mixture of Simchat axles of Kenan happiness and you blame yourself you gotta set it yourself why am I not a good Jew where's my other straw we sometimes don't have boundaries voice coming up cause it's part of a pile of mud you're mad at anybody circle respect that you have to know what you need but how do you so much never look at a child me more you need to know what works for you you have to know what doesn't work for you some places don't go create your cooler some conversations you don't have to be part of people depression to be everybody's circle everybody's a cover sometimes they come home so prevents expose the breast you have to know when yeah when not just to respect you bounding a lot of people mean well they don't get it they don't get it you're going out with your friends you're drinking coffee you're eating a little sushi they start talking about a conversation for them it's natural they don't understand they don't mean bad but they're insensitive you have to know that you have to be aware who you are we're not people sometimes say things at the panel somebody started to talk about all the schoolers that people gather every Monday and Thursday somebody finds a school Michael me the must ask me Eric Jacobson maybe the slopes a kiss that I really desire so school of a pyro so I told them yeah I found one get a job I found that it's a query who stands oh yeah this way I read with Tanya be since the person submits a book by some of the cannabis oil I said Elsa try slow possible changes human talent so if the Matilda zoom in Swiss assay was a you know 13th Avenue mr. Kirschner knees begging so I eat is going to dress stop shame a student should catch rubbish givanni look suckaz knock'em us ask our communist starts us go get a job I work for a living you work from one of the women whose his sharpness tells me of my so last night was last night you should sit Connors she tells me just there was a II he had a big foreign but here you're a hundred chickens died comes running to this neighbor that he had never hundred chickens died that Sam I came from a colitis that mrs. gold takes chaunt but it has to be challenged to this battle for Elif shoppers ask cut sites that was sold near the mikvah and make sure this system it's beans potato and beside canvas and you feed it to all the other chickens just given he stored up some skill he goes he gets the big fish Amin this mama control that was ready in the mixer it has the time it has the delay a house let me say hey mr. Tolliver's finish benzoate I am now he gives it to the chickens wakes up the next day another 100 chickens he's got all these still in the other ones go to the coastal for 40 days 40 nights dozen and then come and give them seven-layer cake may Holger Shanah Tovah shallow shudders and hooks that are binding you give it to the chickens he gives the seven-layer cake wakes up in the morning another 100 chickens dead comes running to the dead but if I'm gonna lose my whole pond no sir already 300 chickens a line of rockets for Skillman they never look Sammy says listen it helped us a skill is deshyla's before what was her point her point was not customer shovin to question of the legitimize different things that people embrace nobody knows how you show such them happens the point is that it's easy for a person who doesn't understand the pain to tell people what to do what not to do what to say with the seco here do this it says it's for the me it says it's for Tamara but you have to have boundaries of self-respect you have to know where you're in the circle and you have to know when it's time to say I'm not part of the circle and I'm fine with not being part of the circle there's no need to give a person themselves extra student from the pressure from the emotional workers from the social anxiety yes a Casanova Matthew is gonna be very difficult mr. smolla moral crisis which time should leave of you in the real most beautiful moments that could be very simple feelings of a living it doesn't make you an evil person it makes you I managed leading the total market Ferris we don't control every emotion we control what we do in the emotion you're not take another comment killing anybody you're feeling the difficult things irony you have to know your boundaries are respected because I did not choose my son and I have to know where my food is my gosh me is like a food my room is like a food point number two living with them now and thriving in the moment one of the issues that most people have especially hidden culture chemical retirement people who are in a difficult journey in life this were always waiting for the great day I asked to eat when they come out of sala bias we're both in different ways ships came everyone is waiting the butcher the butcher says when I said mrs. Shiva I'm gonna be a happy person this one says when I get married when I find the sugar now be happy this woman when this great issue happens then I better relax when this happens then I'm gonna start living it's a normal haggis we all understand it might have been a boy sigh life happens always they Hey look as Lana made everyone said Mithila if they outweigh the sorrow you always say no be a chef Kerry Von D ham become larvae does say we say on the night of pace and he explained that's how you begin the whole Oh God imagine you're getting married beautiful hidden from the monkeys we became civilized but famous industry I know my school beginners some a scientist ma he's celebrating its yes but sighs I'm so much smarter than the designer Tara a youth one stormy believes in Darwinism you're kipper so that's why can't come to see the heavens because I believe in creation I see it I come in to show at all there's no coming for you sir yes good you should go to Bronx Zoo face it's analysis later go to the a some of my life it might even I'll be away from my shoulder math about that a little bit struggle to me say this I'm the spotter for me I should have a good year this time so Siletz at summers one was hanging from a behind the gusts I should be a good eight that's Allah that's all he's laughing say why are laughing why are you laughing he says it's funny but Jacobson you're funny I said you know why you're laughing because you'd think they'll know that the a prisoners not noticing deep down you know you're a human being can skim it and so far your skin won't kill you your father won't kill you says the helices Lana Manning you want UTS betrayin you know what the opening Mara Marcus it sees members going free going free how one philosophy Makela is if they have a disorder I'm sure they follow a bucket well with us there's two philosophies in life one philosophy of life is Mattila I'm always focusing on what happened that's a philosophy of every desire I'm a victim of everybody and I've always you know what my wife mom has had to hold me down for 10 years you remember it hello that's okay bundle up welcome how do you know you have a second boy - Allah Allah one word the inertial there's something called now why so they hear the Cabal Shanta and it's the focus of the second section of time you shall use of them one then I'm establishment amoeba called your intimate massive and anxious is not only piccoli on its behold mega Vega every moment passion recreates not only the universe every detail of the universe so if you want to be in touch with life you have to be in touch with now because if a man in touch with now I'm at in touch with the heartbeat of the Eliquis I'm not in touch with the heartbeat of creation who is the most important person in my life the person I'm speaking to right now that's always the most important person what's the most important moment in my life of course I remember yesterday of course I planned tomorrow of course I look forward to tomorrow but if you want the oil ooh there shall see you a tiny'mon is given by a kilowatt I by the way it's not a cell phone you have to have a cabbage but they are my sir it's not a myself stand on ice you do shall be miss Esther payer listen ah mice this myself could fill up 10 books of psychology listen Thomas may be smoked his decide to go to the bass Americans they won Erev Shabbos Auschwitz with a mikvah they go who's in front of the base Americans are snarling you shall be payer it's not a sickness of the 20th century and state knows to scour whatever he's asking for I hate get a girl in there you know myself yeah yeah maybe I shouldn't get that kick off fabrics are yes yet they want to get the base Americans much time at the Gawain that they some measures are staying a mensch and they knew they're gonna come late he's gonna walk them out of the make committee now where there's people that work in Vickers and to my interpretation they're rushing they tell the heat we're going into base American political fashion gonna be will come up will give your mommy they walk in they do whatever they have to do they come out you know show me pay a penny chess he's dead what would you feel what would you feel the either was saying this little stuck give me something yeah give me something I could buy good buy herring I could buy a cuticle I could buy a piece of cake I could my chance it's all by the maker you remember I used to [ __ ] you - ah it's like you know he's dead she's dead I want to know what you would do that what would you do what would most people do go to therapy for ten years you go to every macabre lenabena for a ticket good or bad but you killed somebody right the guild the guild if my smoke about the blame game haha is that a blame you heard me for my diplomacy you pay talent billiad or directly just kill the Jew but the other Sami gives us different mice [ __ ] sluggish turn to the Buick you know what he told him I quote lawyer so he know what happened I wish I have some ways we missed an opportunity but you know he needs something he's a true then the shopper doesn't disappear somebody needs to do a tan somebody it's again the tradition that's the viola Vanya that's to be cooler who's gonna do it we were in the saucer when will you tell him in his life he meets something they go to do the Leviathan they take him to do the time they take off the clothes what are they discover in the past in the past he had a huge sack of golden coins an Avenger he was richer than Rothschilds as is the tomato sir he was richer than Rothschild with puppets together Warren Buffett together the dieter Buffett that's the end of the story not blowing sighing explain to me the story be a sluggish afternoon should of course but if children is turning you into an obsessed person so that your family irresponsibility male because I'm in a state of blaming that twenty should never Maya you shouldn't of quarter now your name's [ __ ] had the ability to ask themselves how to money where is God now what does that she'll want for me now now is my life now is my ox locker now is the peak of my moment this is the moment because this is the moment what the whole creation is being removed right now tomorrow is tomorrow the next day the man is dead and I'm gonna wait for that day for a chocolate but that was now and you know what happens when you do that you realize 90% of the time you weren't as bad as you may have thought you were you busy making the story that you killed somebody this guy never had a crankshaft he couldn't use his money he could have bought himself Holland for seven years - nice are you evil he was never he suffered through stickiness that was her circles it comes they are mice I heard from an interesting heat some of you heard the name some of you probably not he's a Jew his name is Eliezer Wiesel Elie Wiesel Elie Wiesel grew up in sigit as a vision it's a constant he was sent to Auschwitz lost most of his family including his father he became a noble police he run the Nobel Prize for Peace he always remained close with his childhood friend here but not cotton he's a year they know him as a friend of my father all of a shot but it doesn't look like the classic vision it's accosted let's let's put it that way but he grew up with Hasidim say he wrote a lot about this is the mecca said this became a professor a journalist very famous writer he stood up to Reagan when he went to Bitburg to visit the graves with the SSC much of my Knicks are a lot of Swedish that he did he still fights strong for the Jewish people's from out that he'd heard this my Superman this is a kid in Europe whether it's a martial art some ice and business design Ageha the voice doesn't it again so a young man on the package know what I'm a factitious searching searching searching what is he searching for why did God create the world for septum is iike felt I knew a chicken lived in my neighborhood he would drink all day they called him Solomon the sugar at least the Parkway he was a regular mrs. chicken putting of light but he had eysan event he wants to lose his abusive it's hug you want to know about life the first posture but is bottle the chemist Russian - toilet where does it actually right away say I'm gonna be a boy high up solid not a shaky can is there it was really no need for me to lie her you it was Miss Qaddafi this young man went around searching why did I shall create the world and he went to every room every Diana eats out they can be that barry mokuba lovino she's she very philosopher every theologian every scholar every genius every author why why why why why why I need to understand why I can't sleep for years he went nobody could give evidence this one gave their stupid answers finally he came goggle with my Akasha whenever he has a results is what I said this is searching for years they say you're the man you know everything drag my kid ciao what's your question why crazy meshugganah hahaha if I should love it for sure love it whatever took a look at a slap in the face just this I never heard of her since you want me to answer you you want me to get sale it's never why not why ruin such a good question with a stupid answer let me look at him and he says it's the answers to this question that divide us it's the questions that unite us it's the questions that unite us says it masculine they're back from an oppressive uncle tomorrow you heard today the concert of Muslim and like a schlager Gabon and that's what I remember this part I remember the Lord's mature subsoil of Zelizer what I a mclecklin night together knocking today but the gun surprise for the dishes seein eye tight strap madman Shah aalam doesn't always mean ask you know what try all the means they borrow my source of soil and Zelizer and you know what they borrow from each other the hair dish us ie the clinically the question I a that is where he is the question is where are you McCoy avoid a that's what is the question is sometimes bringing us to a place that's far deeper and far truer than the answer to quote the malathion you look at the Toyota purchase Baku they I can only do breslav and slalom right small he says now UDS our human society no such Miller calling the bar in the book it is that he means I know who watch them is you need such nila means I don't know anything I am become quite priceless these are such Lula means I know Sheila I don't know Bala Tonya says you dear self you can relate to under kuda bellicose that is very limited you'd be a such liver that touches a farm or truer place in god what do you call sleep of kohonen the infinite dates life ie in the ia if sometimes the deepest my calculator the question we can't do it by the answer some of you today we're asking why why why why why well certainly I'm not the one to give ever an answer to this but all I could say is that sometimes the question you touch the clay avoid a in a very deep place the two brothers the helican ever the position interpretive mela were wondering and goals somebody informed upon them to the police they threw them into prison there was no bathroom there was a bucket in the corner for people's needs so you can understand the maths of a ghastly if maelys wakes up in the morning he's crying the position says why you crying he says I can't down didn't a had arrived a terrible odor of what it was filled with from the people he couldn't down the position says so why you cry this is the first time since I'm I eat my child I'm not Dominic so just look he won't have a why you crying mother says how can I start my day without darling I need a dog when I dive in I connected to my previous to my discernment to my answer when I die when I connect to the essence of wife to the court to say how a long answer then I could go on with the day if I don't doubt it I'm fragmented I'm scattered I'm a lien ain't it there's no pain cuz I need the Vegas with AMS with bulimia survive for that she'll the position sisters no fakers really there's no takers the session today you won't Alan by not dominating you'll fulfill Rock Sioux Nation you fulfilled ownership that's right this today you become doubled in the enemy position if all the court instead of crying you start singing to them in five minutes they were that sick this supposition of mainland don't shine they call UBC to even dancing a joy in 10 minutes yet some straight-up puddin the prison warden the chimer is makan syllabic he woke us in Custis you could think our house Allah doesn't like it's a prison calls over one of the good one of the genders why they dance what's the dance as usual he says the Jews are guilty the V nation who's guilty not the Jews he says why they dancing what's there to dance because I don't know it's miss deep things just tell me why their dad see you I'll kill you he points to the bucket dancing that bucket yeah so the SEPA explained to me the center says they said to us that as a result of that bucket they develop a new type of relationship with God really what do you mean says they say it was a pre bucket relationship for the bow before the buckets washed off in their relationship exactly thank you this is the the sin of the sinner somebody sign now boys I exactly after the bucket it's all let's go for Salaam the prison warden says room really I'm gonna teach these miserable people unless you know what he does picks up the buckets for two hours and throwing it out throws it out just returns to the bailiff it says believe me it's just an hour then my brother now you could see them explain the very deep part of the story what the position was telling you the bailiff is ie is a leaf mcclain come I die you're always in a relationship sometimes the relationship is that you siddhartha and sometimes hashem says and he says today the relationship is a different relationship it's not happening but now is the relationship now I'm alive now I'm productive now I'm successful something primal leveraged ups I'll direct receive of mere oxidation of art you'll soon see that sedition Hortis I heard somebody say it over circus muster I taught me this habit of writing Emily this is this if you would only do 2 half the word you didn't cut what he was saying he thought it was up some other house based on somebody says a bris there was a discus he was saying observe people and Giddens good I said the first stage - Meghan them to mr. Han gotta finish big ownership when I'm a garnish okay inside job he spent nine years in Venice you'll get it here's a crank more leverage listen to this you say to save God the modern Chavez lemon olive WIC says if you demolish a building on Shabbos you take off a brick on Shabbos you're only liable Minar trader if so you said Alma nos living has been claimed way if you take walk the brick to make renovation in this place you're gonna rebuild it in this place knocking archive drag the Gemara all the mulatto subscribers we learned from the Michigan when they took apart the Michigan they would rebuild it in the same place no they would go somewhere else and rebuild it so why you hire von Shabbos only if you rebuild it in the same place the Michigan you brought somewhere else soggy the Gemara I cooked he burned our piace miso copier shaiiaja new can we claim right dummy because they were traveling based on GPS God's positioning system so therefore it's chemically my dummy it's like they're in the same place a strapping a cannot oh and hold it everyone why just because our chef is telling me go go from Stanford Connecticut to Muncie the Williamsburg don't skip McClane my DA me why succumb acclaim way they went 42 my soils back to Makayla it's about the place I said go for me anything why isn't give me coma suck it up I'm 11 open your hearts so the Maggs I'm gonna give my illustration you decide you're taking your wife it was such a good Val de Carabas you're taking your wife away for four days and because you have an imagination too much so it's not just a trip to if she wants it's a trip mama Scala alone cool ice as a crime to leverage my mesh coal oil and cooler so you go you go from here you go to ass Angeles Los Angeles you go to Chicago from Chicago you go to Honolulu from Anna Lulu you go to London for mum to Moscow for mascot to Tel Aviv from Tel Aviv you go to Sydney Australia them to New Zealand and then you come back to JFK Airport JFK just for the kid every place the Holland the luggage passport control costumes taxis hotels back up back up back up back this flight is delayed it's Bill Blanche's but they do you travel the world that did he pass were to show you a view he was in cranks beloved she says abduct me will be Michael but I want to illustrate you should understand he says what happens if this is a couple and they bind to shall Allah bless them with a baby and they take the baby on all these trips and you look to the bay being as the baby we were you for the last week we were you Hawaii London Paris Tel Aviv Moscow Sydney New Zealand jf gauge so Los Angeles if he could speak you know what its gonna tell you I was in one place I was at my mother's arms my mother went everywhere crisis which she went lines luggage passports taxis hotels delays slept in the airports Bahamas they called vacation in America nice miss vacation I'm is McKay said my couch my bed my safer yes the baby where were you I was my mother Kevon Davi I said nice about Piazza gasp a new Kim Makoi my Tommy they went all over the place but they felt they were thus Tina's arms they were that mother's arms they were the same place how do you live with now lily was now doesn't meet my life is perfect than it's boring you're going to attack me coming from a doctor he's a treatment he's another treatment this work this didn't work it's a roller coaster I was giving us legend amongst a few weeks ago why is my life a roller coaster I need a reason to speak so the rabbi Kim nish I'm not coming I say why not why not it's a good title so what's wrong it's just my life is not a roller coaster straight down living with the now doesn't mean I look in front of the mirror and I say heavy think it's perfect life is a rollercoaster but you know what I'm going up I'm going down so that I'm gonna be straight down at least I'm feeling I'm in my mother's arms can make lamely I'm always in the same place of course I'm not in the same place of course these moments of confidence and moments of soften moments of Houston moments of a game up and down right and left and something you're twirling around you feel like you know watching TV but I came to Casa della helps another masa and then at the right moment some of the initial makes always the right comment you know the knife put it in the twirl of that darkness and he tells you Kyleigh election Kushner he's eating a holiday you know what I hope it says mrs. it's a stuffed cabbage override response if hungarians don't think it's good they call it energy on ttis why beats me it's like mafada yarn he's even a collector the liquid is rereading from this you have to be in your mother's arm they're always new mother's arms Jim McLain my dummy that's how I can have stability in life my life is not the same cool on shovel Italian rabbi sorry doesn't mean she was always in the same place she was kidnapped for 90 years she waited Charlaine culo saw him leap over what sorry got married at the age of 17 at the age of 19 she had three kids at the age of 32 she became a bother I saw an interview with herself a lady from Williamsburg some newspaper interview now they asked her so they hate the visitors so she was you know committed hyah Moya's prepared for Shabbos they say I have a jealous of women in Manhattan she says what they say she wakes up 8 o'clock in the morning she get dressed she has a suitcase Samantha Shakey's she's a judge you're at home here the pig for Shabbos feminism I'm jealous I'm jealous what does that lady yeah she's a judge everybody's fighting with her he says you come in tomorrow night Jesus Friday night 60 grandchildren worshipping me so they may know had that what school look like cool on shovin really solid for 90 years she didn't have a life with shoving the toilet of course it wasn't shot it was cool another Latoya they were shove him into the good of the Vegas they weren't solving there was the same summon in the good enough flavor she was always in the moment knowing my mother maybe going down a roller coaster my father may be going down but I'm in their arms sometimes he tells me that Vegas is through I don't know what I would make this I ain't recorded maybe he's lying [Music] point three Shulman bias this I'm gonna say but it's indifferent everybody is very intelligent much more than I am you'll get it right away especially there's this notion here's the facts these experiences in life could destroy a marriage whether they can create the deepest marriage possible in life sometimes we don't have choices in this situation someone bias is always critical without shallow bias a home is a terrible place to be if there's no trust in the home if there's no positive energy in the home there's no Sheena shreya it's not a plant place you want to be this you can you stay in the base madness I'll collapse I sell Lila people think their mama had that to be at all the she room advice that they don't want to go home somebody once asked me the Omar says he active thickens for the service why did I come do mine if my name is the first filler should have been ever wrong I said push it Yakov came home you know what Leia told them Reuven as a virus Shipman as an earache maybe as an infection you would that terrorizes the whole house you give you suck off bath he has not a bathroom three weeks after with like the Schlage Evan might've my my I would also be my sock until the service the best thing that ever happened to many people a Shrike might have let's face it many people in this room don't have that you see each other day in and day out and there's no smoke screens you can't say this there's so many distractions in life and the way a couple could either build their relationship or Hospital them the opposite is very very sensitive but in these situations I know from the little experience I have that Miss nefesh the stress the pain the tears nobody else knows about even this shabbos many of you you compose yourself before it you're about to see but you know you know me my maken should our mothers be my market my chef Sheba be coyly says the ballot and not a sham ship only coyly a sham seem a big coin lik only means listen to my voice be clearly is listen what's in my voice we can listen to what people are saying we have to hear what people are not saying she might be claiming only you know that bitcoin Lee and when you command it you can either either an experience like this can tear a couple apart they can have to set at each other you don't understand me you're not here for me you have your friends you run away you go to work yeah what about me I have to go through this might have been a boy sorry I can't speak I take my shoes off my feet but I also know the opposite and that is that there are couples that created the deepest de vegas that their mamas carry each other together how do you do that one word non-stop honest communication communicate in communication with a freelance assignment with our valence assignment but that license assignment yes the giggles together right together but together there's no something you don't have disagreements this doesn't mean you don't get into bad moods this doesn't mean you don't have issues you have to work out oh you came to an all I wanna get the amount of the day learning miss act again it was a number all it's been a plaintiff out to the demonicus life I save us a purse he says myself opponents for signing of course listen a man and a woman sinners push it the best of situations we know that there's a reason that in the secular world is 50 60 % that's monoliths non divorce a woman come so she wants again this is a good morning getting outside they come up with garnish fish did ashamed of his bank minded all of the moves that was made cries she says 30 years I'm crying but the Miss Bell I asked the guy has some bias he says we got engaged she thought I was mamas Nabokov a gay so she left me doing all the talking and she did the listening we got married she decided not mama shabak you behavior so she started to do all the talking all the listen I say moisture now he says now 12 years later we both do all over the talking and the neighbors do all of the worst [Music] that is gonna be you looking dais of course the husband says you know I'm sick and tired of going to this guy I'm not looking at his face again but the wife likes it there's gonna be you looking day is normal normal but communicate with after Aiden you have to connect you have to look into the eyes you have to be there for each other you have to empathize you have to validate don't judge validate because you need each other you can't do this on your own you're on a journey together other people everyone meets it but other people can get away with it for a while they could make distractions he's running here my life there everything is busyness again don't be part of the circle you have to know where your food is the relationship we did a husband and a wife in this situation is pivotal one can't even describe a pivotal in us and it's difficult men suffer silently women suffer oh so silently but also not silent men and women are two creatures a guy comes to me it's disgusting I say really which book on relationships do you like he says men are from Mars Women are from Venus I said you know this separation could take Mars and Venus there's millions of miles more than the [ __ ] sir but that's good for you that's good feel it's different creature for people he's the say that a man comes home from work not everybody most of them you asked him how was your day men don't like poop about their day we have a philosophy it was higher enough being in they have talked about that's our philosophy you know once is enough back in the now goal because soon as I see this guy be [ __ ] he said this he said this I thought this one said this side when they think that this I said the Texas a woman has an opposite philosophy I had a custard assertion it has a finished eyeball what time okasada will go up August 9 for once with your sister second time with the other sister third time with your mother fourth time with you sell this time you try your husband he falls asleep after nine times and each time you laughing you cry you're laughing you cry now now you can start your night we have a different philosophy what should I tell you we like talking about iPhones iPhones sushi we're not complicated you know my talking about it was a stressful day I don't know what stresses enough Express leave me alone it's good when you laugh about what you have to learn this you have to learn this I always say I'll become bowler men are waffles women are spaghetti waffles you know waffles are each waffle is a main impetus may add small it's a square spaghetti yet the hit everything the pastor's singing we get the site that's how it is our brain is divided into filing cabinets folders we have a folder called the car a folder called the house a folder called the trigger all the white fold the call the job fold the cult she and fold the coke you disguise everything if there's a problem out we go to our filing cabinet we take it out we make sure not to touch any other phone that we take it up usually we don't do anything sometimes we deal with simply put it back away now that people like my peers on and in the middle we have a big folder in our brain which most of them it's just nothing and we love hanging out there yes husband how are you feeling today what are you feeling from what Jacob said nothing you think he's lying you come to me after he doesn't communicate we communicate we feel nothing we love hanging out at that place for nothing in fact if we wouldn't have to bring my pan dulce we would stay the little ones there's no answer that makes a woman especially as telling her body in a wine cuz that brand is like the world wide web before they asked it it's spaghetti and three fingers out would be nothing her heart is a lot of violent crime 24 hours a day and everything is connected life is one midsi's hospitals so you come home from the show to talk to my night you tell you I've know what's on your mind you sit down on the couch wow she's so happy she starts talking the first eight seconds she discusses the dress that the cleaners ruined take up your folder cleaner as it's dress shop is gonna - twenty seconds she discusses leak in the house 35 seconds doesn't Micra trump 45 seconds issue with a sister it's now a minute and a half she already dealt with 30 subjects you're opening and closing quietness to the house to the job this [ __ ] but Mitzvah Sheva brothers customer wishes shaumyan Kippur sickest cleaning help whatever it is so never Deacon friend this down to that everything has a different file so you're going with this are you looking at her but your brain she doesn't realize that your mother is doing bizarre so it's now three minutes she covered 250 subjects and she's just beginning and you're slipping back and forth back and forth and and you're about your mom your brain is about to explain rubbish about six water you can't how many folders can you open within two minutes the national thing for you to do at that moment just kill yourself the problem is the problem is you love your wife too much you don't want to make on all mana she has enough clothes so you do the second best option if you fall asleep you see them falling asleep what do you think he's such a narcissist he's so selfish it gives surprise dinner show me the heads I thought this summer Tommy looks up this salon manager be sleeping on me little do you know the reason he's sleeping and snoring is because of the boiler that he asked his wife was the only other option was suicide boy I'm gonna voice I might have been a boy side if you can always laugh about this like you might see now that's how you create a a happy home that's yeah we have to be able to laugh from each other with each other respect our differences be able to laugh at our differences I learn to trust each other trust communication is the key no so the bias doesn't solve all the issues we know that but it's a different solar bias as a different hours and then my dear friends we spoke about individuality knowing your food we saw outside of the circle respecting it Goulet's Holika cutters buttonhole by the cuffs cannabis part is always the best part in the world you won't know it my [ __ ] McNish [ __ ] up is doing to mr. Bhalla beneath my definition to business doing this do this do this do yes Kevin Smith it's my song you understand don't worry if i am i because you are you and you are you because i am i i am that i and you are not you but if i am i because i am i you are you because you are you then I am i and you are you this is true and every person but in the situation of many people with this room it's because nefesh don't define your you by somebody else's you ever ever you're now allowed respect google ice comic a cottage but no Scoob I love my this works for you and you have to be able to tell your sister you should begin your brother your father your nephew your needs the closest people that you love back alone thank you but this is not for me gonna drink latte you have to know thank you cordial respectful but ghoulish goulash and let's face it in the traditional world boundaries don't come easy it's a beautiful thing but sometimes it's not I'm a saint shoeless I'm participating sewers that's also part of condition Google noise Holika cutters borrow for my sheep al-qaeda described in this Lavigne these environment there's man this women is me is you there's moments of oneness and there's moments of individuality it's not so easy for all of us guises car you're not gonna show up the back man you're not as friend anymore you know what you have to know who's a real friend and who's on acquaintance not everybody is your best friend in the world doesn't say that everybody is my best friend I'm nice to everybody I respect them buddy I'm cordial to everybody not everybody is my confidante in order confidant this not anybody is my best friends not everybody as fast boundaries it's so important you can't go to a place and then you don't have to leave aloof once asked me he says how do you do it I told me I have to learn one hush you have to learn how to be by a simple for 4 minutes he says how happen I say you walk in head table you look at the closet in the eyes don't take out your phone you look the cursor to the eyes you give him the warmest product in the world bad mess you go to the father you go to this give you give him four minutes but we are real but the kind of silence but you know what if I stay there till 3 o'clock in the morning I come home I'm not a person anymore I can't be here for my wife I can't be it for - Omer I can't be it for myself I can't be here for God I can't be if anybody else have to be here my life our sister all doesn't mean sks alice's so doesn't meet no boundaries number two life happens now we don't cope now we thrive now sluggish but cold Raghavendra now the position of Elemental pranks flemish now cool osama point number three the needs for shots with real communication and finally this woman who could that i want to share with you some Isis atomizer I sought many years ago it touched me so deeply it tells the story of life there was a boy ten year old boy was in a car accident he lost his left arm such a pity on him only ten years old whole life changes his parents needed self to give him an outlet for dignity they found a Japanese master of martial arts to teach him a very known form of martial arts from Japan known as judo it's a very sophisticated form of fighting and it takes a lot of cycle and skill and wisdom and this Japanese master says you could be much live without one arm then he goes for training months and months and months he's teaching him one move after three months four months has mastered the same move before motels or especially he looks at him and he says this is the only move you're gonna need to know in your life perfected two years perfected discipline the Japanese have discipline and then he says the day is coming you're gonna get into the ring that's our slogan the competition is gonna begin and remember the person you're fighting has two arms remember fight fight well it's a competition it's a kid with two arms he's a kid with one arm beats it's bleeding false kidney and the Japanese go back go back the referee comes to the Mastin says a brahmana's now you say Oh Bravo mr. Japan what are you doing to the skaters it's not made to fight the Masters does not go back go back it's already late in the day and the poor kid is bruised up you continue this opponent is also trained and skilled and has two arms but he's so confident he's so confident he makes a mistake he relaxes he relaxes that moment the boy without the arm sees he could make that move that move he could make he makes that move and he max his opponent he wins feels like a billion dollars it's parents such a special moment so the way home he turns to the Japanese master Dai Anita by me teach me my master how did I win how does a boy with one arm win against away with two he looked at him and he said I was teaching you for two years one move you know I was teaching you that one move because the only knowing defense that your opponent has against that move is grabbing your left arm and that's why I know you're gonna win because there's no defensive incident I read the story and I thought to myself isn't this all the other scale is about we look at our lives and most of us say our whole lives shop no but God goes out this leap or something I'm missing this I'm missing that I'm missing that be shaky promise' the people Burmeister Google's alkyl glass her father Sharla I'm a bad apple especially when I look at other experiences of my life we have very few answers in life I incomplete but here is a perspective that this master understood what sometimes a person could look at his life and see it's the Beast siren it's the biggest horrible but somehow that's the story that gives him his greatest ability actually this on the top so I got up and forth water Dale Florida and I say this before you keep it - what secret of hundreds of Jews most of them secular Jews and the title was forgiving yourself forgiving others and forgiving her shell and I spoke about this and I said look at your life now look at all the things that you're missing and instead of telling yourself how bad this allows you to do a move that brings you to the place you have to be in this world I don't know what that place is trust me but I know don't be a victim cuz you missing that you make a move that nobody else knew why he was chosen displacement phases but I know you can make a move that nobody else could make that's what you created I finished my Russia the oilman gives up lost savings I decide I'm feeling good communicate communication a moment for some vahana giddy mama for some I walk down I'm walking by quietly they don't say she Clara I walk by the front row here is a booklet or a teenager a young boy I'm sitting in front of me missing his left arm oh my God Almighty I went to my filing cabinets it's the sacrifices to get after they slept in for - think that myself come on you know I was loose with my words I didn't I ran away went over to and I said apologize I may have said something that was insensitive I didn't know you're in the crowd if I said something that was disrespectful or insensitive to what you go through I apologize I thought I was giving a muscle well Paul there was initial he looks at me says rabbi why you apologizing I do judo pollution as a brulée achieve initial toddler like really I turned to the dog who invited me I said listen to me put this kid up now let him tell his story the story he asked he gets up to tell his story the only one thought it was a rehearsal for three months first I stuff you know what I mean and when I said not huh he's not a fakir - I couldn't win that one but he gets up hoaxed I'm gonna tell you one good it's a book that she would bother he struggled a lot he went his own path when his old path hurt some goals special kids bright if they tell you your fame iron went out too strong Hamas missile like a mass missile from Gaza blew off his left arm the hospital for months went home in Israel too so depressed if he's handsome powerful as a fighter he's very athletic this was his wish let it kick without an arm there's no life he was in his apartment for months he didn't go out terrible deaqon terrible young kid 8090 I'm just like young innocent kid and he ready you know yeah yeah no he had difficult experiences many of his life he's saying this but out of publicly a friend comes into him one day this is easy we're going outside you need to see the ear says I'm not going anywhere it's a beautiful day so they take you to a private beach just get your feet wet look at the Sun look at the sky look at the water he has to see the world it can lock yourself up from the press peanut butter sugar he forces him out of bed takes him in a car takes up a private beach beautiful days as he sitting can swim it's a professional super cats women's 100 but he's right near the water he melts very nice she's beautiful beautiful day suddenly he sees deep in the ocean I hand I hand shaking he see somebody's going down he's himself at the beach his father went to a pub a collection a collection on in the time but that's right the Messiah he was what he was thinking coffee beer my I don't know what he was saying was I open them a hell he's alone one arm and this person is with the hand off me Caesar makes the treat sir what do you do he knew it to myself seconds see screams on top of his lungs this friend come to the beach and he decides he's going jumps into the water he starts swimming he reaches the purse and he feels that the current what's it called the undercurrent Maya had happened and he understood the prison and he cops the person his friend heard him says friend comes running down he's holding this person with one arm obviously his friend is a good swimmer with two want comes running to help the massive the time slips away his friends so now he needs to save two people with one arm he tells us he says this is what I did I dive down I jump down I put both of my feet in the sand but I was underwater I lifted up my one arm like a tree and both people were holding on to my arm but I was underwater now I'm thinking how long can I be on the water 10 seconds 15 seconds 20 seconds if I stay on the water I die the mela they both die if I leave them I go back to people die if I go back up it could be all three died he's thinking it's ten seconds it's similar Haitian you won't be able to breathe anymore but if he comes up he can't hold them he's now like a tree mom - I'm a triumph of my physique and BA but not for long this son can be sure as well there's a top knot if he's dead and he tells us he's like after 12 seconds the current receded it relaxed so the height of the wave receded it went down so he could for a second pick up his mouth and get a little ear then he goes back that but it already became bearable he can go up and down for year and then after a few minutes it relaxed and he saved everybody comes back he says I came home and I said to myself there's people who live their whole life bora hashem with two arms but they can't say they saved - even my mother's Lahaina i did through swimming this means my life is not purposeless my life still has a bright future and he punished he got his life together he now trains he trains people missing an arm he's one of the first people in the history of air to sell to train people with one arm to be able to function to be able to protect themselves to be able to fight over the enemy and he has a whole careers a hushed he became fascinated this little boy he's telling the story after I told the story about children when all the time I gave him a hug I told him this day I was feeling so guilty that I told that myself I felt it was so insensitive it's like mom Misha Misha you know you say the wrong thing but I'm Amish I want to thank you what it did what it did for all of us what it did for all of us so I was invited to speak in a crazy place probably not many of you are familiar with what Sufism is sooo film is Sufism you're gonna laugh it's the Kabbalah of Islam the Islamic religion has mokuba for seismic kabbalah they're busy with mysticism it's called Sufis there's a Sufi bookstore in lower Manhattan they asked me a leadership made works there she knows me she calls me she says could you come speak to the people in it first time I got invited to speak to Muslim the kabbalah so i brush up on my quran from the yeshiva days what might I speak to Muslims snipers in the Tallis am I gonna talk precious I give no your mother malice what am I gonna talk but after Flay dominion of the ointment so I get my little training in the base six and I thought you know what maybe the grace of Concord Jacobson is gonna Mack some sense into the Moslems and I'll change the whole world of course Iran Afghanistan Iraq India Pakistan Saudi Arabia Obama Netanyahu Harry Mustapha say I'll change them I prepared it was a hard Lucia to prepare for first ice but I couldn't think of some safer oops another safe it was how far down I wasn't working I'm Amish have to work yoga kalila I come Thursday night while she she does the cop or a Sufi book store 200 people I look out she eaten I see on the nose but supposing like is that the thing like I've seen a wait there knows the maths of the Maya I understood the maths of Jews are so thirsty for those knees they go to Buddhism they go to Hinduism they go to Sufism which simply could simply I'm gonna talk to 200 truths about Islam she wants me to talk about Sufism America thought I press Delete in my grave I take out one of the old files good old Judaism I'll call it Sufism academics in this they know the difference energy I'm going to talk about energy oneness cosmos integration healing awareness mindfulness I don't know what it is they either shake in there but it talk to them about Islam and so on the expert on Islam I sit down with them so I'm gonna teach you the depth of Sufism tonight I give them a nice maqam I'm accosted this in a good English well y'all know besides some of Ohio wanted to say something else whatever they loved it spoke about relationships meditation God Eco truth honesty all the good things at the end they tell them you want me to keep a contact yeah I say send out mr. Chavez gonna the weekly email in English on my man on my saga via Skype if you want you to give me your email I'll send it to you shine they give me I do it wherever I go I usually do it if it's not Champa shelters three weeks later three weeks later I'm sitting Thursday night nothing comes to my mind besides I should get people rely on that some people use it for delicious that nothing comes to my mind must hitman I believe in the Clallam of a comma going there when I got a spotter you know what I'm not coming up with something new I can also use old stuff stay down in it for me can I stop it I think I hope my said that I had in my computer it's my suit Shepherd is with the parish that had to do with the parsha like turtles it with New Zealand suit chef Enosh who was four in the morning I didn't have clothes I was frustrated I breast sent I went to sleep after say I felt empty was the first time I didn't produce after material yyj good material it was super hot face the Amish but Shepherd are my sister with the purchase price and punishments but you know what I was too tired I don't always have to be on you lot to be off I'll deal with it in therapy I went to sleep the next Thursday night the middle that I'm sitting by the computer ok nice nice essay coming out I'm almost done this is the old days of aol's right now labruffey remember LOL a very common one when you used to get an email you got mail you got mail it's it's the middle of the night I'm finishing you got Manuel I want to see who's sending me emails listen he's boy could I open it up a woman I met you in the Sufi bookstore I gave you my email since then I've been reading it last few weeks I love it very much she tells me her home ice she grew up in New York ie the ship hey Dora went through different experiences I'm not gonna be - with Mesa vez and she completely left she became a sin Buddhist you know what a Zen Buddhist this it's not a you she wish your name let's put it that way vai Vai / when I could see Ellicott sir it's one of the mid Far Eastern disciplines which entails a lot of could entail things of a desire laughs that's good but it could kima's its but it's very spiritual very loosely very spiritual a lot of meditation etc she became birth to her her therapist as a Zen Buddhist her uncle culture of that day she's writing the only person in the family she has a relationship with who the families to [ __ ] it her uncle he was diagnosed with a terminal illness and he doesn't have hope a little while before her only relationship she had with somebody it's a brother she says my life was completely broken completely broke I went to my therapist came home it was soaps a book and she's telling me what she was thinking about her future [Music] it was very very sad what she was thinking she said it's the middle of the night up crying and I first time in years I turned to God and I said in our words Kayle Kayle love myself top why do you abandon me as I'm crying she calls me it's 4:00 in the morning and suddenly you've got mail who's sending me 4:00 in the morning I see rabbi why why Jacobs what does the rabbi say I open it up I see you right this was that email I want to share with you a story about the Baal Shamin which story that I send that I find that sent out I made a sous chef Enosh with passion it's before is Shoshanna a few weeks of some tough calls into him looking at fourth kitsis and he says you're gonna blow the Schieffer up against us to all the governess for kids has evolved kids to see how the mind that appears on come on his knees are there mama sheep appears for weeks and he takes notes so you can prepare you can remember commas we should show that the key is by the hill he cannot jump to the measure but he comes as man of keys okay masters and the a bridge to a king in the holiest moment of the year begin a mouse's you can't find this note can't find this come on you know what happens you go blank you get confused he gets up but something is waiting it's blank those of you who do public speaking you know you don't have you know it's to get up you want the earth should swallow you up the victors of this kind of he doesn't have his cojones he's so blind can't find it anyway so what is he has no brainer he takes the Schaefer he makes the block and he gloves me I push it that's a broccoli eat he feels that he let down that sadek you saw it over that on him stands the world a look about some two who trusted him with the greatest moment of Kia safer to be MasterChef which really decides the whole Mattson of the year he soaps a bra the end of doubting the perceptive walks over to stop says it both ah in heaven there's many many chambers many high coolest many chambers every hazel has a key different key this one master key fall thy colors a master key fooled the Chamber's what says the about Shem Tov our humble hearts a humble hearts a real humble heart no ego no yeses absolutely nights it's the master key that whole of today you gave us the mass the key opens up every I hope gave him back his mission this was the story I wrote she writes to me she says it's 4:00 in the morning she was thinking the worst God why did you abandon the all our hands humility brokenness suddenly I read the part from the boss chapter this is the deepest relationship it's the master key I ain't gonna cut quite is this is the moment why what when I don't know but this is the moment it gave me back my life I'm looking at reading I start rambling she signs her name she signs her first name and then she signs her last name kitsis that she writes PS PS I grew up in a home my grandparents were old people they were there my Baba my grandmother told me that we're ninth generation of a holy group whose name was rabbi wolf kitsis came ipz yes I asked my grandmother who is this Jew she wasn't enough fruit family so I don't know but it was a very very holy dude if you ever need anything you could turn to your grandfather and you ask him to get from God what you need she says I forgot about it suddenly in my lowest moment I see a message that the perceptive sent to evolve kisses obviously my Zeta chose you rabbi Jacobsen to give me the story the 40-yard from the boss captain to save and pick up my life that she writes to me I don't know how much brilliance and preparation it took from you we did you have the inside of the dedicated the coxswain meant to do this to call his family I'm reading it I was crying and I'm thinking to myself it's only because there was no wisdom I was just Ashley up I was a conduit there was no I wasn't even the I hated what I did that's why it was a miracle I couldn't disturbance I couldn't be I couldn't be a medicine my ego wasn't if I can't I was frustrated I was at one and no satisfaction people when you're not there God makes miracles smile and she thanks me for being the sheliak of Zeta and from this I learned for this I learned one thing I have learned a lot of things one thing I learned we never know somebody's path and sometimes the most humble heart and the missing arm becomes the greatest greatest at suction the greatest Vegas the greatest springboard for the deepest Amos I am very afraid to say this but he told it to me today from one of the people here so I could concentrate over and he says that you ever think about the fact that many of the daily so that I shed put in this world after the corpsman to rebuild the Jewish people from all different streams were people who their whole life had the pain that was never rectified and did not see for themselves a future one by one is the cause I wish the Satmar of the basis or the Lubavitch ever they didn't suffer what did they do they took their lives and they became the greatest I have a is wrong they took all the love that they wanted to have and they gave it to every leader skin the collision burger embassy organ Eleni was taken to Auschwitz Arif slowest option dollars a wife and 11 children perished he was liberated you'd say in the etosha name that editing kippie was in the DP camps i heard this from his nephew your private machine ski a girl comes in to since he got back with his cyber end of him Kippur who's gonna bless me where's the burger never says it on the bench puts his hands over this little girl and he blesses are like a father blesses a food she comes out she was so happy she tells the other useless ad ad is Sleeman he said bless each one kiss that Haggadah the priest he almost 11 she had nothing this is before he he rebuilt his family anything what did he have to have he didn't bless them I said he didn't bless the customer someone was a fake if my nice guy he took it all and he gave it to these kids I know myself I grew up in Crown Heights I would rebel used to get 700 letters a day he didn't let his secretaries open the envelopes you know why they should read the letters you ever opened 700 letters a day a day so whatever the considering Norma's name is kind of bought him an envelope opener you know what an envelope open it through he gives it back some matzo food Kyla's makes noise so he goes to Sony you have a silent one it's gone for extra money we could find it pays our miner he gets a silent envelope on he gives it into the barbecue never he gives it back already is I guess they never tell us the secretary just personally climbed to be on the client tell you what he told me he said differently than you write me letters how do they close how do they seal their envelopes you know they say that some people still their envelopes with tape some people seal their envelopes with saliva with the noid some people with staples some people with goo abecedarian was from a crusader converted with reading there are jews who sealed their envelopes with tears we came as a phonemic a machine was I either from Ahmed how can I close open with a machine electric machine why he'd close with this I do it with my finger I could take in the tears I'm sure he had terrible pain he took it I think just like they are victorious no and he became one of the greatest ambassadors of love light and hope we only need a shake in their family on the initiative at one person sex in the fan asked as a stylist not one person you think it wasn't sad but you know what thirty million Jews sections of mammals 13 million kid this section I want to finish with this it taught to be such a lesson so I either bells are constant bells across reminds mistakes at today about the sacrament of Suseela and whose york city's this week cough up of 36-yard set what the tests and he's shared about that experience as well so somebody told me it's a fascinating thing and we say even thought american antwort his name is your final Shapiro he said the stories i could say his name bells across to the classes now finally he came for business to new york you come from a trip to New York for business communication oh my knee he hops iemon tamiya rookie captain 770 is the park he seized as a commotion was the commotion you see these people are going in to bounce he goes to their grow to the secretary he says I'm flying tomorrow I wanna make blush put me in he says six months appointment which was true that's how I was going six months just a flea market flea market I'm sorry because hundreds of people waiting I can't it's not be cost nothing so he decides not to listen and he goes in he waits and he sees the secretary goes away for a few minutes so he okay so the guy comes in they have to come ended Simba the tiger owner comes in expansion he wants to pull him out whatever you know already he couldn't fit that was nice applause produces a VA stand five Shapiro who antwerpen abalzer Carlson he sees that he captain up his imagination as fat rock like he doesn't know why he says not much of a stands up for mr. chair goes over it is a finally cabinet in this room that opens up takes out a piece of paper and says no is that belief that ma Medina here's a letter for your mother got 30 years he starts reading edited Alabama Shepherd for my bells they give them they're not trapped it's the doctors say about you the Doctor Who episode I would say I have a few weeks to live young mother houseful with kids little kids amidst younger a few weeks to live can see an immaculate mainland I'm leaving the world leaving her husband living a house full make you sleep I'm very worried then I can have a mother I'm very worried about it I don't know what's gonna happen to them they're not gonna have a mother I want to ask about what you never push it - Davin for my kids after I die for them she writes the name of every child and she writes the name of fight with the youngest the youngest Laura with his mother's name and never looks at him and says this letter I received from your mother a few days before she passed away it's very emotional see right away says will bow it should ever I never saw anything for my mother may never saw another so many letters for my mother writing I didn't see in the house it was like a fishy gross with his mother they didn't speak a lot about his mother he says can I hop in the booth can I have this letter for my mother I want to take it off he says name the gift of pipe and dull the letter has to stay here he said my sis I was wondering could you leave my mother's linen it's like it's even sensitive there's okay awesome never had a mother so one letter that ever has give it to me what do you like you really you need the matter with the super museum say like you didn't want to say this they never looked at him and he says yet interview Kippur five members that he ran up with shorts or committed a mammoth had no is the Papas believe yet they are mislaid the panniers when estado folic in there every year it's been thirty years ago I take out your mother's letter she asked me for something right before called in today the holiest time of the year it doesn't fall you can every one of us can take our life's experience can take our pain to take our I a McClintock might not understand it and not customers showed just surrender but never ever to look at ourselves as the eternal ones who are missing or that who are just look no forgive me the losers the ones who don't fit in the ones who didn't make it these were good ideas so who built up the Jewish world after the horbet each one and his death and his path without slovenly kiss with meterics I'll tell my everybody knows that the Renaissance of the Jewish world in the last 70 years was inexplicable not explainable and every almost every single person in this room if not every single person in the room directly or indirectly is machine on to live a mess am i permitted either for one of them all of them some of them not because it did that pain but because they do they know that their mother is holding them in their arms and their job at every single moment is to use their life to make the greatest move that will ultimately create a victory until the ultimate victory 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