In Torah, Hashem Speaks to Me; In Davening, I Speak to Hashem

the yeshiva.net we're in the middle of the mimer here one two three four we learned the first four paragraphs last week and now we're holding the paragraph that begins um you see that's the fifth paragraph the main point one of the main points that was brought out last time in our previous year was that there are two pillars in yiddishkait which we call tyrant filler and the difference between them one of the differences is one he says is defined as an avoider and one is an avoider mata lamaila meaning and what does this mean it's not just semantics words what's the difference if you say you start below and you go upwards or you start above and you go downward it's a completely a different message a different experience toyota by definition is a taste of transcendence that's what tait is learning tired is opening myself up tuning in to the divine communication about life it's the perspective of the reborn of shalom on life and on the world in other words it's essentially a taste from heaven it's like yes a person can be in a different stage this one can hear it this one can't hear it this one is open to it more this one is open to it less but essentially any level of titan because there are infinite level levels and layers of data is really hashem communicating it's hashem giving a shirt it's hashem presenting his take on life to put it very simply that's what it is it's hashem's it's hashems rotsen it's his wisdom and his will it's his perspective on the world that's what it is it's the perspective of the engineer of the designer of the creator and he's sharing that with the human being that's what type is of course in trade itself there's different parts the status of this terrorist territory so to speak uh directly from heaven there's absolutely no no other participation i mean as the famous pastor says from heaven he let you hear his voice tereshabal is the traitor that is revealed on part of tyroshavapa is a terror that's revealed through the filter of the human brain but what type of filter not a filter that is defined by the human brain it's rather a filter where the tuned into the best of their ability to the seika toyota to the methodology of toyota to the formula of toyota in order to be able to apply the halacha and to understand what does teru say about the situation what is the ratson and the sasham about this situation and that's why the experience of receiving the toyota is defined by two words mata antara which the word matan is a gift matantara is the giving of the toyota it's a matana it's a gift even though there were other parts why don't you call it the day of kabbalah so we sometimes use that word we're going to kabbalah satire but in davening the anti-glasses it's the time when our toyota was given it's defined by a matana a gift and when we say that it represents this concept a gift is not something that you create that you earned it's not a wage a wage is not a gift a wage you owe me i put in the work and you're paying me for my work hopefully it's fair pay and fair work the concept of a matana is that it's not ris reciprocating for something i have done for you it may be generally that you want to reciprocate you want to show appreciation but the gift is not oh you did this and now you owe now i owe you a gift and it's not a gift the whole idea of a gift is the voluntary nature of it it's coming out of volition it's coming out of ratson takadagamura says he loved the oven if somebody if you wouldn't like the guy you wouldn't give him a present in other words he's giving him a present because he does something for you ms but this particular matana is essentially something that's a demonstration of appreciation it's not earned and therefore we call it martin tata because even though the jewish people did work for matantara they ran away from egypt we explained with at length what it means to run away from egypt it's not a simple thing they did not get entangled with shakla retire with debates and arguments with the situation that's a big thing they started avoiding spirit saiyamer 49 days and because of that we have every year spherism so there was preparation it's not like martin taylor came in a vacuum it didn't come in a vacuum nonetheless to take a nation of slaves and in seven weeks transform them into a people that can hear an says this is a completely a complete unexpected jump it's what we would call a quantum leap this is not incremental growth what makes a person ready to be able to hear the voice of god himself of atsmus what maybe even a thousand years would it make you ready at some point there had to be a quantum leap certainly seven weeks even if it was seven hard weeks of refinement there was an essentially it was a quantum moment this is a gift and that's why taina will reach every single place even the lowest place and it'll never be diluted toyota speaks about lawyers if you learn gemara or mishnay's gemara a lot of it deals with civil strife civil justice civil disputes rouven and shimon are coming and they're both arguing and everybody says the money is mine one of them is lying and that is going to get involved in it how do we prove who's wrong and who's right when do you have to administer an oath when do you say there's a miguel don't you say there's so many different situations where we're dealing with possible thugs or thieves or liars and the trainer speaks about the traitor addresses it but it's always from a pristine perspective it's the way hashem looks at it it's the way hashem views it it's the way hashem tells us how to deal with it so the traitor can come down into very low places but wherever it is it remains mana from heaven and mana from heaven didn't have silas it had no excrement there was no part of the man that the jewish people had to eject from their body every part of the man could be integrated into the bloodstream and into the healthy organism of the jewish people in the desert the gemara tells us in yuma i think ayan hay right umai and hayamid bayes that it's footnote 23 that the man la hoya by psyllis it did not have any excrement in other words even though it became physical it wasn't mana from heaven anymore the manner descended and devolved it went through a devolution and it became physical it still retained its heavenly properties so that even when i'm eating it and i'm digesting it becomes part of my blood and part of my flesh nonetheless it still retains its purity even as a physical entity because it's essentially bred from heaven and the same is true with toyota anywhere it goes even when it comes down and it descends and it assumes incarnations that may be very similar to other systems of law and it's dealing with lowly situations people who are criminals and people who are lying but still there's no silence there everything is pure and that's why he says wherever it is the toyota is payal and and as he says an essential bittle because it's essentially a taste from transcendence that's tata now we go into the other the other realm of judaism which becomes the main focus of this mimer which is davenik and i would say that anybody who strives and yearns to be able to have a deeper and more authentic experience by davening and appreciate what it is this mimer is an absolute ingredient for that [Music] a higher reality flowing downward or manifesting itself downward but the void of the is no it's momata it's somebody who is below lamina striving to go upwards that's the key phil is all about refining every human being the inner work of refinement according to who i am today according to what i am it's a completely different experience than tyra in tayda hashem is talking to me in phila i'm talking to hashem the heads of israel and that makes a big difference now which one is greater that's not we don't ask such questions each one is incredible toyota has something that philly will never have tayden is hashem speaks to me and what's my job to listen that's not easy to listen if i have static if i have distractions if i'm stuck it's very hard to listen that's why the jews have to do severe assignment if they go out of mid-sight in egypt but wherever i am it's not enough i never prepared myself enough it's always mutant hashem speaks to me in hashem listens to me i speak to hashem in tata i bring myself i show up to listen to hashem untv hashem shows up to listen to me in today i'm absorbing something that transcends me in filler all i have is me and i'm bringing myself i'm offering myself i'm bringing myself into the relationship and therefore the power of thriller is who i am today that's what it is is about the bitters opening myself up to hashem's message on life the power of tv is bringing myself into the relationship so what's the whole indian of trilogy it's the refinement it's working with the person according to who he is according to who she is and that's why even the highest level of filler is always bitter hayash and not bittalatsumi these two states of bitter they will become clear later which we already mentioned earlier by toyota one is called bittel atsumi one is called bitterhayash bittulatsumi means that the whole atsum the very core of a mathias becomes completely nullified and subsumed in divine infinity bitul hayes means that the i becomes aligned with hashem but it's not that there's no i anymore the eye becomes a reflection of hashems he says by turner today everywhere is a bit lats me and feel that everywhere in the highest level is bitter in other words today even when it comes down to the lowest place it creates bitter lats me because it's essentially like a menace of mine and filler even when it reaches the highest place is always bitterly ash not bitter the definitions are so subtle and so uh refined and so rich this is a this is the dictionary of the balatanya you know he wrote a dictionary it's not he has for him they explain concepts they say hidusham the altered wrote a dictionary there's words that he introduced into the vocabulary of panimiya that allows you to speak about concepts that resonate in the essence of our soul but you need words for that so this is the dictionary of the balatanya and one of the powerful words is bitter yes me even in the lowest rung of the ladder it's still bitalatsumi tv is malmatilomyla even in the highest rung of the ladder it's still bethlehem we all know that filler is defined in avoid that's as avoid vitamin service says you should serve hashem or the passage says in akif this is in the second section of shema this week's parish you should serve him with all your heart what does it mean to serve him with all your heart how do you serve hashem with your heart what does this mean so the gemara says easy what's the available that relates to the heart the khal of this is what phil is and the rambam in the beginning of the uses this is the source for the mitzvah filler it says you should serve hashem with your heart just like there's a mitzvah to put on filing them it's with the word sits this is a mitzvah to keep shabbos and there's a mitzvah to believe in hashem or know that hashem exists and then another 248 positive mitzvahs whether it is counting the carbonimer or bringing the carbon muscle under whatever the mitzvah is or giving stucco to a poor person there's another mitzvah to serve hashem with your heart allah these are the sukim that define the mitzvoth philip this is the midst of phil let's avoid the ship alive and avoid the of the heart now what do what what do we mean here what's available what does it mean of the heart she says there's two words what does the word avoid the mean this is fascinating the word avoid that we say work in hebrew they say go to work yeah evan evan is a slave right avoid this servitude work i don't fight but what's the real shirish of the word avoider so in terror early the balatanga says and i purchased bottom the destruction of the word avoided comes from one of the malaccas of shabbos one of the 39 melakas of shabbos is you remember what's a tanner somebody who takes the height of an animal the skin of an animal the epidermis of the cow let's say and you want to develop it into parchment or you want to develop it it's you want to develop it into another leather item whether it's a coat or a pair of shoes it's leather so this leather to transform the hide into leather is very very intri it requires intricate labor and work and that's really the definition of the word ma abed tannery the the tan the work of the tanner is one of the laborers that are forbidden on sharp is one of the 39 malaccas of bitterness taking the the oil the skin the height of an animal and refining it because it takes a lot of avoidance after removing the hair now you have to work it out various chemicals have to be used until it's ultimately transformed into leather that can be used for filling what could be used for shoes says words of yiddish because the yiddish captures the soul of the idea just like when you're working out a tanner takes er takes the high that is essentially dense and brute um you have to really work it out you have to refine it then refine it and refine it until it becomes or all you becomes worthy to be turned into a human garment that's why avoid us hashem is called avoider from the word ma'abe and which part of amazon particularly is called avoid every mitzvah is an avoid but phil is called avoid of celebrating shabbos or shaking the lullaby or blowing shafer the mitzvah what does it mean i am taking very brute skin very brute height and working with it so heavily and so intensely until it's transformed into a human garment kenugamba is all about me showing up into the relationship it's about me working on myself refining myself allah i have to take my uh i have to take my methius and work with it refine it find the potential that exists in it the light that's there is so that's why even when phil is a climb upward and you already reached the highest rung in the ladder so you would expect here tired and filler should meet tiller always remains bitlahesh not bittalatzme because the whole function of trilla is not bittalatsumi the function of filler is not the i becoming silent in order to listen to the thou which is tighter the whole avoid of is working with that i working with me working with my existence via seeing is about that there is a mathias of a person who's doing that it's like saying i want to do my abate but the earth should be bottled if the earth is battling there's no muhammad the islamic the skin needs the tannery the skin needs to be refined the person needs that veider so in your neck it's one the kuda when we speak avaida you can speak about it in physical terms which talk about the skin of an animal here we're talking about filler who's the skin the skin is the person in zoya we're sometimes called mishka the kivia the skin of the snake so even when i reach the highest rung it's a state of bit layers which is yeshmi bottle there's somebody who's aligned with infinity which means the whole core of the eye is subsumed and nullified within the infinite thou of hashem so terror is bitlatzmi why because it's hashem speaking to the world such i'm speaking to the person so even the lowest level of toyota even when turner reaches its lowest level and deals with the lower situations it always retains its bit lots me till is the opposite trill is the person showing up in the relationships even when i reach the highest level of thriller it's always i'm showing up it's about what i bring it's about my limitations that's the value of phil the value of phil is not that i forget myself the value of trilla is that i work on myself that it's about who i am and therefore in the highest level of the fill is always the idea is even deeper the moderate even when we speak about filler in terms of bitter women seers which means the highest level of phil where the eye becomes completely silent in the presence of the thou it's called bitter the matsia is relative to the lower levels of trilla but it's really still bitter yes it's never like toyota that's the my love tighter on one level and the my left field on another level each one has a special special contribution toyota is the ability for me to completely suspend myself because it's not about me it's hashem talking to me i'm listening that's potatoes today is a taste of transcendence a taste of the divine perspective and that's important for a person to hear we have a mitzvah drew has to use every opportunity every free moment to learn malayalam today we're going to start learning rambam hiluka's talmud tower you'll see how the ramon describes the mitzvah of talmud it's finla twill is a very different available is what is hashem is listening to me i'm talking to hashem what does it mean i'm talking to hashem not just physically i'm using words and saying hashem i need this hashem i need this it's much deeper than that it's the part of the relationship where god asks me who are you what are you dealing with the all of phil is about so to speak talking about talking about where i am in this connection i'm bringing myself into the relationship with you so who i am where i am what i'm dealing with what my situation is what my circumstances are what my challenges are what my struggles are become essential to the void of tfilla it's avoid the shabale zut villa i'm trying to elevate myself i'm trying to work on myself if i ignore that it's not filler the whole indian of the is ibudis what's it budodis the o needs a transformation it's the nivera and therefore on every level of filler there's a there's a there's a yay bottle that's what that's what phil is tuning into trilla is me bringing myself into the relationship and me bringing myself the legend of me i have to be completely honest completely vulnerable completely ready to look at every single facet of myself of my personality of my characteristics of my godly soul and my animal soul to be able to align it with tyra to be able to align it with infinities is even the highest levels of trill the highest level which is as we will see still the gabi turret it's an indian of bitlysh to use different words a little bit in life there's two experiences and this is what we define as there's an experience of basically imagine someone has an experience that completely overwhelms them it startles me it just sweeps me off the ground and has me soaring away i i it catches me off guard to the point that i can like lose my breath as i'm mesmerized and melting away in the ecstasy of this experience at this moment it's extremely powerful we sometimes have such a moment in life but as refreshing and as powerful as that is it's not about me it's something else that has overtaken me that has lifted me up that's what we call mila la mata and who i am at that moment is irrelevant sometimes you could be present as an experience you could be present at an event and you hear things that are extremely moving extremely powerful and you take them in and the power is that it was not about me it was about something that completely transcends me that i was privy to watch or hear or listen or absorb or experience that's a muscle for the concept of tyra tifila is a very opposite concept filler is the concept of mill mata lamaila all i have is the mata that's my baseline that's what i'm beginning with all i have to bring here is me and who's me me with every everything that's me everything that's me what do they say the good and the bad and the ugly and the beautiful and the holy and the mundane and the healthy and the dysfunctional every part of my brain every part of my heart every part of my soul every facet of me that's what i'm bringing it's momata the baseline starts right here below with who i am that's what i have that's what i have hey come to hashem and i say here this is yours i am here and who's the eye the eye is whatever that eye looks like that i could be very very unrefined i can have elements of it that are extremely unrefined and as a deep the deeper i'm going into filler the higher i'm climbing i'm climbing more and i'm climbing more and i'm climbing more and i'm climbing more because even when you reach the highest rung by definition it's a bit layesh because what's the concept of thriller kind of thriller is i'm bringing my eye into the relationship into the experience i'm working with myself i'm refining myself because of that fila has a system it's a journey and the journey is what the mimer is going to begin to address what is the journey of davonne filler doesn't have one section it has quite a few sections because it's a journey it's a journey of climbing a ladder and i start off on the bottom rung and i begin the climb essentially twilight is a daily exercise routine a very intense exercise routine if you're up for it an exercise routine you know we have exercise routines that exercise and challenge you to flex every muscle in your body stretches that affect your head and your torso and your heart your cardio all the way down to the lowest components of your organism in the same way is essentially stretching exercise that's what it is it's a very intense system of spiritual pilates and stretching la havdal where every part of my soul every part of my personality gets stretched and what's the idea of stretching judging is to reveal what's in it to release the tension to remove the blockages to open up the flow the circulatory flow right to create more vibrancy to create a better circulation a better respiratory system well this is biology by al the bio biological system same is true in our inner system our spiritual system so filler is that very intense daily exercise that's there to really touch every single part of my soul every single part of my personality and the first thing we have to understand this it's not you know we look at davening even a good avenue i put on my palace i put on my villain in the case of a man or a woman i open up my sidder and so this person has a little more cover on it this person has a little less cover onto this person thinks a little bit about hashem this person is daydreaming this person does it in 10 minutes this person does it in a half an hour this person does it in an hour this one dolphins with a means so now there's this one says every word this one right this one is very bored this one's checks the phone this one doesn't all important things not to check the phone and to have kavanaugh what we're going to understand here is it's far far the opportunity of phil is far far more rich than that it's really a daily extraordinary exercise routine that's been gifted to every single one of us in the in a life of true self development and alignment so therefore the system of phil is also a system of the whole system of tv is a system of ascending from lower to higher um says filler is a sulem it's a ladder yakivavinu dreams of the latter you remember the dream the ladder is standing on the ground but its top reaches heaven zarya says that the latter had a few cup few rungs sawyer says that this sulum is the sulem of slices the sulem of phila tv is a ladder what's the ladder the latter i sti i can't go to the top rung i first climb the lowest rung and then i climb i climb i climb until i reach roshan so there's a cedar of aliyah malmata where does it start mutes of arts and that's what phil is the definition of trilla is sula mutz of outsiders it's a ladder and the latter begins on the ground it begins on earth it doesn't begin in heaven begins in heaven hashem throws down a ladder from heaven it begins from heaven doesn't begin from heaven philip begins from earth and it's a ladder that goes up and russia the top this is the opening of twilight tv it's said right after barak shah am i close to the opening of tifila it's a possibility of shiro lawyers i'm really literally means thank hashem call out his name and allow the nations to know his schemes his genius so he says the opening of davening is with the word hoidu what does he do mean means a general sense of gratitude and a general sense of submission like haida to be murdered to submit acquiesce via dar claus so the truth is is already a hoidoo before haidu which is even more general and this is the first word a jew says in the morning when he or she wakes up which is i am grateful i am thankful or the term my day here is not only gratefulness gratitude but mighty from the word like i submit i surrender i acquire like a murder you know somebody who says he's murdered on what he did he confesses or he acknowledges or sometimes he'll say i made it to you i agree with you i surrender my opinion to your opinion a moment the jew wakes up from his slumber left name the tillers even before you wash your hands kasha when there is still remainder of spiritual impurity on the tip of a person's fingers which is the reason why we do nitila saddam we wash our hands in the morning when the person sleeps the hand can touch different parts of the body and there's a ruach there's a spirit of impurity that also can descend on the person because there is a diminishment of life during our sleep besides the physical idea of the hands touching different parts of the body so when we wake up in the morning and the trauma comes back the tumor leaves but it still remains on the tip of the fingers plus the first reason the fingers may have touched certain parts of the body so what do we do the first thing we wash our hands they till us die and as the says we shouldn't walk dalaran is six or eight feet without little hadayam which is why most jews bring the kvar to the shizzle some water near the bed so we wash our hands near the bed but even before we wash our hands we say maidani you don't wait till you wash your hands the moment the jew wakes up you say no even though he's before washing his hands there's because a jew always has a soul and the soul is a part of hashem it's okay because that when you grab a little bit of the atom you grabbed all of it when it comes to essence something that is real essence it's connected to the core of reality a little bit apart and the whole is the same thing any part of it that you grab it's like you grab the whole thing it's not compartmentalized it's not like this you wrap 10 20 if you're dealing with something that's not xm so you could take 5 you could take 10 percent you could take 50 for example somebody's giving a share i think this is a good example you'll say i understood five percent i understood ten percent i understood fifty percent i understood a hundred percent that's a fair statement and it's important to know how much you understood how much you retained yeah a birthday cake i got five percent of the cake a pizza pie you may have taken a half of it you may have to hopefully not you may have taken a third of it still hopefully not you may have taken an eighth of it okay that's everything whether it's physical or spiritual or intellectual everything in life it can be compartmentalized right and you have a part or you have the whole just like i mean the business world runs like this right you have investors and each of them gets a part of the cake a part of the pie let's say each one has ten percent of shares so ten people own this enterprise everyone owns ten percent or one owns fifty percent that's all until you're dealing with etsa when you're dealing with etsyn etzem means something that is part of the core of reality here there's no 10 percent if you have a little bit of it you have everything because etzem is indivisible and because it's indivisible either you have everything or you have nothing but if you have one part of it you have every part of it because the etzem is manifested in every single part with essentially there's no parts if you want a good example for this today in biology we have an example for these words of the bolshevik and that's dna the dna when you're typhus dna you don't say oh it's a dna in one cell there's 70 trillion cells or 50 trillion cells so we really have nothing it's not like you have one percent even you have one of 70 trillion it's a joke you have nothing you have everything you have everything in the very commercial in the genome of this single cell you have the blueprint for 70 trillion cells it's a fascinating thing because it's etsa dna is etzem it's the nucleus of the cell it's the atom it's the core of the human of of the physiological of the human composition it's it's the nucleus it's the etc we're talking absent within the physical world within the physical microscopic world even though i can't see it with my naked eye but with the tools that we developed and we discovered 99 in the 1950s the dna we have a govaldi commercial for this nakuda of the balsamic etzem once you touch etzem tufas you got it all you mummers got it all now and let's go back to our shear this one got five percent this one got ten percent this one got twenty percent that's all cause you didn't get the etzen the moment you got the atom there's no five percent anymore you you got it all in other words if you touch the atom of it you have everything do somebody who listens to the shear every day for a few years already i mean whenever we give a i said this this person listens to this person once told me that it was so true very very accurate that essentially you don't need more than one mimer for your whole life because every single mimer has everything you have to know for your whole life i once searched from the bayel khan shlita he was once giving us a shirt or fabrega i don't remember and he said it says in prakriavis in the fifth period used to say with a mimer came in by with one mimer you can recreate yourself so he said then really in life you only need one mimer if your type is the etzem of it then you have it all if you're not typhoon is that some of it okay then you have one minute if you get to the dna level at the top is because again etzem is indivisible so it's not like i got one percent and you got 10 and he got 30 and she got 60 percent that's not in an indian atsumi an indian atsumi means it's something that's indivisible it's a core quintessential reality it's shittis it's undefined by chambers by percentages it can't be cut into pieces it's essentially one and because it's essentially one if i got a piece of it this i got every i got everything of it when your type is the dna of the mimer you're typhus everything and then the bio said but to understand one nightmare you have to learn another thousand my motto you only need one mimer that's all you need but if you want to understand one minute you have to let another thousand my mother but why do you have to live another thousand not because you need another thousand to understand this my mercy to be typhoon is the etsum of this mommy flynn so the rebbe says this a jew wakes up in the morning you have tumor on your fingers you didn't wash your hands before you say maidani you should wash your hands in fact why do we say maidani before how can we say maidani before we wash our hands you're not supposed to say any brachus the answer is because there's no name of hashem so you wash your hands first we don't say hashem's name we say to you there's no name of hashem we refer to him but without calling him by name so therefore you could say it even with tuma that's why we say maida ani without hashem's name because this tuma but what's the havana why shouldn't we wash our hands before maidani so the rebbe says because a jew wakes up even if there's tuma he hasn't hashama or she has an asham and then it's a piece of hashem but can it be a piece of hashem hashem has pieces of an expression but in all the swarm of kabbalah and already before kabbalah i think the ramban already and many others is showing him and makabalam use it to describe than a shama of a person it's a helicopter but how could he be a part of hashem there was a great jewish philosopher his name was menasha ben yes he was also a very big social activist you have heard of minnesota he lived in amsterdam and he is the one who got cromwell in england to allow the jews to return to great britain after their expulsion he had a very interesting way how he did it it's not for now anyway he has a philosophic work it's called i think nishmas israel his name was i think so over there he criticizes very heavily all the capitalists who use the word how can you divide hashem hey look a piece of hashem of course this is not a philosophical term it's a kabbalistic term it's a mystical term what does mean that's actually what it means of course you can't divide hashem into parts but her etc and therefore at that moment the jew could say this is a general haida a general recognition of a relationship it's not yet internalized it's not yet developed it's the moment i wake up it's like a very general and essential relationship yes [Music] because it's something that affects the essence of your soul because the person is not yet in a place of comprehension of categorization of dealing with their individual faculties you just woke up this we say even before what how he defines birth british what's breakfast is you're categorizing your faculties you go through you know part of the richness here is it teaches us how to be attentive to what we're doing we all say brachus in the morning you know another thing you have to read is really categorizing your systems it's like anatomy you know you have the study of anatomy of how the body works every single system every artery every tissue every part every denying system of the body is that you you're categorizing and you're identifying with as he says you're categorizing your cultures your gifts your resources the systems that are bionational created in your body i know there's different orders in different sky but the broncos are is celebrating and accentuating another kayak there's a system there's categories first thing you say is he gives the rooster wisdom to distinguish between day and night next pequeath he's doing it in this reason he opens the eyes of the blind the gift of sight the ability of vision don't take that for granted so indian asia caleb this is all about the construction of vessels in other words it's identifying the unique vessel the unique structure that every part of the body and the human life has which we thank hashem for uh is before that i just woke up i didn't categorize myself yet i'm not into the systems i did not yet identify the individual the individual faculties and characteristics of the solemn of the body foreign in a way such a type of acknowledgement encompasses the whole person from head to toe in the identical fashion once again the bittle comes from a place of etzem and etzem is in the toe just like it's in the head i go back to my muscle of dna if you want to extract dna from the person you have to go into the brain no you can go to the saliva you can go to a strand of here you can go to the toe on the bottom of the foot and say come on how are you going what are you going to know from the toe what are you going to know from the toe go to the brain go to the heart go to the kidneys go to the lungs go to vital organs not an etsa when it comes to etsam when it comes to dna you can extract the genome from any cell in any single part of the body from the highest to the lowest from the most vital organ to what would seem not a very consequential part of the body certainly my hair you can cut my saliva what is it but if it's part of your living organism the atom is in the foot and in the head in the same way so when we're talking about later in davonin there's already a beginning of categorization is the atom and the atom is a helical and the atom chatter typhoon cataphase when you touch that the moment you wake up it's beyond division beyond compartmentalization beyond internalization into the individual character of the person what is it it's ahidah it's an essential recognition and a commitment of a relationship who am i i am the vine the gambler just like it touches the edsum of the jew it touches also the etsom of hashem because they always parallel each other foreign your face your plymouth your inside your core in other words the core of infinity which cannot be manifested in any name and in any letter and not even in a kite so kites is the little line on top of a letter like if you look at the you there's a little line on top of the earth not even that it's our essence of hashem which doesn't have a name all i could say is it's your essence i don't have a name for it a name means it's expressed it's manifested in some letters it's not manifested as the etson because just like maidani comes from the exome of the jew it reaches the etson of hashem and over there there's no there's no details that's why you're allowed to say maidani before you wash your hands why because you're not mentioning hashem's name so who you speaking to you're speaking to atomos the core and over there there's no tumma there can only be tuma in the caichus prenim in other words there can only be impurity the way i process myself to myself in the core there's no tumor because the core is always one with the essence and in the essence there's no divisibility so if you got it you got it all and if you don't got it you don't get any of it so maidani is the jew wakes up in the morning and in that place of atsum there's no tuma you say but your tummy tumor can affect only lower levels of consciousness in other words the way i experience myself there could be tumor that could be toxicity there could be impurity there could be anxiety there can be stress when i go into the core essence there's no tuma there's no tumma so then you say it even when we phone it to the saddam because over there there's no tuma halal quickly we say maida and they be funny because it doesn't have hashem's name on a deeper level we say maidani be fun to tell us a dime because we're dealing with atmos the atsum of the person and add some of hashem and there it is but that's only true in the world of atom in the world of giluin is the world of consciousness the world where things are revealed and manifested maidana is only a hidal clawless it's a general all-encompassing relationship but it's not shy to the premise meaning it's not really internalized into my daily processes and therefore it's a beginning it's an introduction to tv the person still has to bring it down and work through my whole being which happens later in davoning so there's a system so we start off huidul hashem but before the haidu there's still another haidu that's the first words maidani and that's even before natalia sadayam then begins the system of climbing the ladder we're going to resume vaser hashem this year on monday monday morning 7 30 a.m i'm going to take some questions now for a few minutes we'll just announce the schedule hashem today at 11. there's going to be a sheer rambam we're starting a new section hiluka's talmud toyota please join us eleven o'clock you can watch it live or watch the replay tonight nine o'clock p.m we are going to continue and complete beijing hashem a special siama masaka shabbas yesterday we discussed the aspects of it tonight we're going to finish that and go to the spiritual aspects of the conclusion of massachusetts that's tonight thursday night nine o'clock p.m tomorrow morning friday 11 o'clock we will have our shirambam as well so let's go to some questions if there are can you define and give examples of bitter hayes and bitter mitzius hashem we will do that but we're not holding there yet we mentioned it but we'll see later and it'll become clear what's the difference of bitter layesh and beethoven the general difference is without getting into anarikas without getting into elaboration is bitter messiah says that the core of the eye is subsumed in in infinity in other words the bittle is my homotheus my home is is nothing but the divine bitlayesh is i align my eye with infinity and it's two completely different stages in avodah sasha great question saying to hillary is a torah or is it filler it's like a valdica question on one level it would seem that tehillim is filler but tehillim is also one of the 24th forum of tereshabiksav right and the gomorrah says that asked that saying to hillam should be like nagoyam and all this it should be like learning some of the most complex intricate aspects of toyota the truth is that all of twilight and toyota are synthesized constantly because tv has in it a lot of parts of toyota right a lot of that filler is filled with sukkah of toyota so it's part of turner so to make this clear you know demarcation and the sand between taylor and phil would also be in inaccurate so trilla has an element of tehillim has an element of fill in it and it certainly has an element of trade in it as well i learned from rabbi vichmann allah shalom rosh yeshiva of te faires bahrain and morristown and the love of in mansi for many years that if one comes late to a minion there are two opinions as to what to do the first practiced by many and brought in including is to jump over parts of the siddhar to catch up with the minion and darwin sheminah esther with them because you want to have philip with zebra there's another perspective and that he told me is the minute of chabad and it regards phil as a ladder we start from the beginning and we go through the many levels step by step answering of course wherever possible according to the minion but we don't want to skip and this would explain why a child is a ghetto when we say hello the way i understand it is like a child with a father is that true a child is an essential part of both parents he has the genetic code of mommy and tati the y chromosome and the x chromosome he has the essence of both in combination just as each parent is the essence of both of their parents the grandparents and so on and so on all the way back to our fathers and mothers adam and chava who were created by hashem so this really means that we are one with all previous generations because if i have the etsom of my father and mother and they have the etson of their father and their mother it goes all the way back to avramitsakanyakov and saririf karakol and leia or bill and zilpah and and all the way back to other mauritian and that's what it means you're a felik so does that mean kela kilikami mal as well it's a beautiful comment and a great martial in fact you're right because in tanya chapter two this is the marshall that the balatanya gives to explain like a child who's a helic a part of his tati and what does it mean part it doesn't mean that a child god forbid takes away a part of the father right like it's an amputation no of course not it means that the child is a separate and distinct entity but as a distinct entity as interesting that if you go back to the core to the genetic makeup of this child to the genetic code of this child what are you going to find you're going to find an inheritance of the father and the mother and that's what really helic means and the same is true with anashama we say doesn't mean it's a part of hashem hashem is not split and divisible into parts but what it does mean is on the shaman becomes distinct like a child that's born a child is not the father and not the mother we are not our children our children are not ours even though it feels that way sometimes but they're two separate beings a child is a child and a father is a father and a mother is a mother nonetheless we still say a child is an embodiment of the etzem the etsom of the mother and the father comes out in the child and that etson will be given over to his child or her child for the future generations and the same is true within hasham it's also brings out another very rich point and that is that all of the jewish people from the beginning of history are really one etso in other words when you go back to the place of etsam we're completely one the generation that stands now that lives today is the generation that stood by harsina it's the same generation that left mitsrayim it's the same generation that built the first base amitar it's the same generation that built the second bay samitas it's the same generation that authored the mishnays and the gemara in the second century and the fifth century after the common era it's the same generation yes we're different in terms of where we live and how we live and the milieu and the currents of history and the climate of history and what we look like and what our behaviors are and what type of technology we have and the fact that we're learning through zoom or through the yeshiva.net et cetera there's quite plenty of differences but nonetheless on the level of etzem it's the same dirt it's the same generation there's an there's a one machius that spans all of history and when you get to that state place of reality there's a there's a oneness and and you can't take a helicopter you can't say oh i'm dealing with one generation of jews there's no such a thing if you're dealing with an etzem you're dealing with all of history and if you want to unders if you get this you'll understand that real israel in other words true jewish leaders people who understood this and lived this they understood there's no such a thing you impact one generation of jews it doesn't work that way you impact one generation of jews if you're not dealing with etson the moment you're dealing with etson you impact all of jewish history the past and the present and also the future in biology we have also something called epigenetics we have the concept of intergenerational trauma trauma can be transferred through genes it was never thought so genes could transfer you know what color my hair should be what color and what color eyes i should be and my metabolism and my physique and my height and every other detail of my body but trauma trauma is a mental space trauma is a is a process of life it also becomes part of the genetic called miruba midi taiva we speak about the neshama going over from generation generations every jew is a helicopter what if his father was an atheist jose there was an atheist jose de zedez an atheist all the way back to karl marx trotsky has grandchildren today i met a grants a granddaughter of trotsky in pittsburgh and there's a grandson of trotsky living in the yeshuvim in eritseral and he has the same fire like his grandfather's grandfather used the fire to destroy the world but the fire is there the helical kami mal is there even if it's very concealed she said but his father was an atheist his grandfather's great brother they didn't even want to identify as jews in this nakuda it's an indian athlete and it's it's it's a concept of essence and essence is indivisible yeah beaut beautiful martial and beautiful horror okay the last uh next question if the etsom is really achieved in the maidani prayer why do we need the rest of the prayers because the rest of the prayers to get us to maidani it's a profound question the real answer is the rest of the prayers to get us back to maidani in a way that is holistic and penetrating and all-encompassing because we don't live on the state of maidani we live in a world of systems and categorizations and there's my daily routines and my daily behavior and everything that's happening in my brain so i want to be able to link the maida ani and connect it and align all parts of my personality and all parts of my life's experiences to create that harmony so really we go away from maidani in order to come back to maidani this cloud pratt a cloud it begins with cloud with oneness etsa it goes into prat prata is going into all the details and then there's cloud which is going back to etsa there's been end us cloud in this pratt and das is the cloud that comes after if you remember the my mirror of pillow last summer that's what he said here that maida ani because it's the etzem it didn't permeate the kaichis paratha in other words it's not how i experience my life maidani remains abstract it remains transcendent and that's why it's only an introduction for tefila as we will see in the continuation of the maima which is going to go through the whole ladder of davening have a wonderful day this class is brought to you by the yeshiva.net please help us continue the classes make even a small contribution at www.theyoshiva.net donate