Impacting G-d's Holy Name in negative way & rectifying it - Igeres haTeshuva 7d - RC Dalfin

so what the what the what the author is saying here what the balatan is saying here is that the there are four punishments in the Torah called the four M bezin it's death of of the Court four different remember we leared Moshe that there's four letters of God's name the ud the first he the V and the last he yud k v k we don't say hey so you'll hear people pronounce it MOA K it's not the English K it's the Hebrew letter hey but if you if you say with your mouth you hey you're pronouncing one of God's name and that's inappropriate so that's why people will say y k and then they'll say V K it's not it's not right it's not the English K it's the Hebrew hey just pronounced K so that we don't utter God's name because although God what' you say mosha what that's why some people say ginger kale they don't want to make a mistake Ginger yeah okay but that that's already that that's really stretching it you know you know that that no no no I got to say for the record that that's absurd but you know if you that's absurd there's no halic problem saying ginger ale okay anyway and and even this if you say you K it's not 100% since I'm not praying with it it's not like 100% forbidden but yeah it it's better if you could say yud k instead of yud he okay so we have those four letters each of these letters as we learned earlier in this igera is within us in other words it's not just God's name elsewhere it's God within us and the way we behave we access these four letters in various ways either in a healthy way or in an unhealthy way and guess what what when we access them in an unhealthy way it creates blockages sometimes blockages of the mind sometimes blockages of the heart sometimes blockages of the emotions meaning I'm sorry the second the second one isn't of the heart the second one is within the mind it's the uh understanding of an issue there's the the idea and then there's the understanding of the IDE IDE those are the first two letters and then there is the v six refers to the six attributes emotional uh traits love and fear and and mercy and all of that and then there is the last K which is speech so when you do certain transgressions depending on what you're doing it impacts one of those letters in you and you have a blockage now this is a very important of sometimes we study something and we get the idea but we can't understand it it could be that's a result of a of a blockage that you caused to yourself years ago and you never cleaned up that blockage and it could be emotionally let's say you're not you study you read and you don't feel you know on this in this class and there you know years ago there are people who spoke about this that they see in the community in the in in the rates the community where most most of these fellows live most of our friends live it's um they felt you know they do they put the filling on they come to sh but it's stale the warmth the heart the zest the emotion this is what someone brought up to my brought to my attention when I just came I I you know talking about now 2018 six years ago right now that could be because there's an emotional blockage why because you did something that person did something in their life that blocks the emotions doesn't block the the creativity it doesn't PL the development of the creativity but that's all intellectually when it comes to feeling they're like a stone you know PE I'm sure we've said it I don't feel it I I understand what you're saying but I don't feel it and then there are people that can understand understand and they feel but they don't do right it's like they'll know what it says in the they'll know what it says in the Torah they'll even have an appreciation an emotional appreciation but when it comes to putting on their bottom line every day or whatever the Mitzvah is they don't do it for whatever reason and that's there's a blockage there because just as food food yesterday was a Jewish fast day right it's hard to fast especially out here 519 the fast began in the morning 5:19 it didn't end till after like 9:15 at night very long fast I think the longest fast of the year is is in in North America is Shas which was yesterday right so there are blockages and that's what we're learning now so this is what's called the four letters of God's name has an ass association with various positive issues and negative issues in the sense of violation of God's will that's what what that's what we're talking about here because he's discussing the idea of chuva of making up making good and making a change in our lives so he he he has he talks about that let's look at what he says Top Line on page sadik the last two words in addition to the fact that based on the esoteric idea whoever blemishes the letter yud of the Holy Name the tetr Graton the name of 26 the four letter name of God it say though you're obligated to be stoned if you damage the you Moshe the the the cabala says then you you you're it's equivalent to doing a transgression with the Torah says the punishment is stoning the one who blemishes who creates blockage with the first letter hey it's as though he's obligated to the punishment called burning the third letter of someone block damages the letter V within himself means it's as though headache he's obligated to the punishment of the sword and finally if you blemish the last hey of the four letter name it's as though you're obligated the punishment called choking okay I'm I'm not going to go into the four it's all it's in the Torah you could look it up in in in various places but these are called the four punishments of because ultimately they you die from these things and it's very severe one second one second Mo and the person who desecrates what does it mean a desecrating shma you miss the time of shma there's a morning time for shma right sometimes daving and Carl Bak in in raat Bish it's nice that they have a late minion but you got to make sure to do the the shma at least you know you laying in your bed wash your Neal vaser you know or go to the sink and put the Neel Vasa away cuz it's not supposed to be exposed after washing your hands and sayma of course it's better if you get rest but at least say the shma because if you miss the shma look what it says here there too you're blemishing you're damaging the letter UD of the fourl name Vin if you don't put Onin he says you're damaging the letter he V and not wearing tias when you're obligated to and you don't pray when you should be praying but hey the last hey the point being the the author shows us that the various transgressions have an impact on the name of God so that on one hand we need to know the script if you don't know the script it's no good you need to know the script right if you go 85 miles in a 55 mile Zone you getting ticketed if you're going only 60 on a 55 M Zone you probably can get away with it so when I was driving on the Palisades Moshe mosha drooker who's from New Jersey I don't know if if mosha Mayer is aware of it there's a highway called the Palisades it's a beautiful drive but it's 55 on it okay it's 55 so in my early there was once I was going once a week from Brooklyn to Rockland County to Muny and I was still really unaware of the situation on the ground cuz that's not my Hub and I drove probably 70 it's very easy there cuz there's no traffic usually beautiful and it's beautiful well I got stopped and ticketed and I had to spend a half three a pretty much a whole day between going and coming and being there for hours in court and they find you $2 $300 I mean it's like steep within steep so I learned my lesson okay but what's my point I learned that if you only if you go less than 10 miles over the 55 speed limit on the Palisades they're not going to ticket you if if you go 66 and they're there you're getting a ticket if you go 63 99.9 they're not ticketing you okay my point is by knowing this if you end up driving so you know or you put your cruise control or you're careful not to go over 65 in other words you you need to know the facts on the ground and you need to know that for this issue this is the you're hurting the yud you're hurting the V you're hurting the K you're hurting the whatever right and these are the the punishments these are the issues just to put a blind eye and say I don't care uhhuh but then you have a complaint against God why there's no money in the bank or you have a complaint why you know I'm I have a fight with my parents or my kids or my friends on and on and on well guess what it's it's all a result of damaging the utk VK now who thinks about this come on you know I have a sibling rivalry my brother my sister they want our they want more money from my parents estate comment right well that's the logical reason that people argue about an estate when parents pass on and all of that many times unfortunately but spiritually it's something much different that's what he's saying over here let's continue I want to just the chapter says from this brief lesson about these particular transgressions and everything that we discussed one can learn and understand about all other transgressions and especially when you waste time and you don't learn Torah and you have the time to study but you're playing games on your computer or surfing in the net and just wasting away I'm not talking about if it's necessary for work I'm not talking about you know once in a while to to air out but people who waste away their time just wasting away instead of reading instead of you know going to a nursing home and helping someone it's called B Torah annulling the Torah so the rabbis say it's worse than everything else it's worse than not putting on F it's worse than not wearing ties you hear that it's it's it you know whenever I I I come across this I'm like it's overwhelming who gets a chance to learn every moment I don't and you know sometimes I waste time well I'm going to I have to deal with this so what do I walk away with not as a coward I walk away with do more do better waste less time okay here I am a week and a half tomorrow night I come back I willing to the York right and you know my wife's been asking me so I you know you know you know what are you doing busy I I haven't had really a moment to breathe I'm going from one to the other and I'm so I'm so happy I love being busy on on my trips and I say when I'll get back to Brooklyn I'll sleep there you know I'll rest up over there here another interview another conversation um meet more people give more lectures more research that's why I'm here so I'm sleeping I got up uh 5: this morning went to sleep I think at between 12:00 and 1 was up every hour couldn't sleep I don't know why and thank God I'm here I'm you know and you know and I got a very big day I got to present the lecture at 12:30 and then uh have a very important meeting at 5:00 and then giving a another lecture at 7:30 at night on reincarnation and soul issues the second uh of the two lectures uh that I've given here to college students and young professionals right okay great but you know time is so my point is B Torah is something that we we need to really cherish and and value and Alba says this is why we need to do chuva mosha what did you want to say it seemed like he wanted to say something earlier yeah you may have answered part of it in sorry was it was me m Myers yeah yeah yeah yeah I heard someone else so yeah I think you may have answered regarding you know identifying the sources of those you know problems that we have you mentioned the Y and the relation to the shma and so on and not doing certain Mitzvah so just a technical matter is you said look if this man's coming say at least say the but if you haven't if we haven't said isn't that another let's say no no no no because one is rinic and one is biblical but you know I'm not I Moshe you have a rabbi there you need to ask your Rabbi for a ruling I don't want to be the one want to give you a ruling you have to you know when you come to matters you need to follow the rabbi that you consider to give you answers so I haven't heard that before right I'll clarify clarify and I'd like you to let me know what he says but but it has to be a rabbi that knows not just some Tom Dick and Harry someone that knows no someone that knows Jewish law yeah sure okay KRA we'll learn tomorrow again probably from the same place here have a great day I got to go now I forgot I'm interviewing the main kabad Rabbi here for two hours I've done already eight hours of interview with him uh another two hours today and tomorrow oral history getting down a PR 77 years old getting down his life oral history and it's a lesson for us the man doesn't remember as well now as he did eight years ago the family just woke up now don't wake up when they're in the 70s wake up when they're in the 60s and have your parents and Friends interviewed Shalom bye-bye take care see you all tomorrow bye take care bye bye have a good day