How the Tzimtzum Works | Ohr HaTorah Maamer "Chayav Inish" #3

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entrance of the home i think it's as of his father-in-law and he sees that what you would say in english you would say rabbi yehuda is in a good mood he's relaxed he's serene he's he's jolly and the buddha realizes realizes that's what the governor says that he can ask of your hood any question under the sun the expression is any question in alma any question in the space of the world which means you could talk about anything anything that's going on in our space in our world on our planet and our cosmos you can talk about such an opportunity so the zeta decides to ask a question the question is my time easy mazda beresha aramaic why is it that usually in a farm you'll see that the goats go ahead of the sheep so that you heard the answers oh why kibriya it follows the pattern of creation of the cosmos first came darkness then came light in genesis we learned there was evening there was morning one day our day doesn't start with morning our day starts with evening when does the jewish day start sunset the night before sometimes it's confusing for people who are not familiar with the patterns of the jewish people that shabbos william kipper or pesach doesn't start in the middle of the night 12 a.m doesn't start the next morning starts the night before creation of the world began first came night first came darkness then came morning then came light that's what creates the pattern of the day says rashi usually in most cases goats are dark sheep are white goats often sometimes you have exceptions but generally speaking as rashi says most ghosts have a darker you a darker color most sheep are white so what comes first blackness comes before whiteness darkness precedes the light so of course the goats have to march first that's the end of the exchange and then the gemara goes on to discuss other questions rip zeta that special unique auspicious opportunity that wouldn't come so often to be able to ask anything and of course you're wondering like i'm wondering and this is a serious question i want to ask you if you can have five minutes one minute a few minutes with the greatest sage of the generation with the greatest mind of the generation the greatest soul of the generation and one of the greatest souls of the generation what would you ask anybody the challenge was to get fracked well some people would just ask about themselves right i want this what do you say of this should i change my jobs should i go here should i move it okay that's fine you know i'm talking thinking about me my own needs but if you were to offer to ask questions the big questions what would you ask would you ask why in your farm the goats go before the sheep strange thing no and the gemara records it himself was no catholic as they say was no small man even though zero means small he was no small man zero means small but he was no small man some of you remember the shir from before purim a few years ago remember oh it's too early in the morning for that it triggered it rigged already put him huh so the zeta wants to speak to the beholder so what does he ask him about why goats go before shape something is missing here so here's a classic example the alta rabbit of the bellatania writes in tanya about learning in yakov learning a goddess of shas learning the stories in gemara and he says most of the secrets of toyota are embedded are embedded there if you look at the story from a simple point of view it's extremely strange very perplexing this is what would be his question and then it'll be huda's answer because creation was first darkness and then light therefore the goats go before the sheep what's the connection because their color is dark and the sheep's color is white we have to understand this is really a very very profound question and a very profound answer so we're privileged that it's a maksadek in this mimer that we're learning on purim high of interstellar now goes into the story in the gemara and he reveals what it is and talk about secrets of tata he'll soon see what the exchange was between abseida and abu hud let's see inside we're in the middle of the maya mecca the fourth the fourth chapter if you don't have it open before you you can open the source sheets or download the sword streets you'll find them as always on the yeshiva.net on the top there's the shear for monday and you could click on it and right we didn't we didn't finish the three lines from the previous chapter i'll i'll uh i'll say it outside and you can learn it inside i'll say it outside in the continuation of the of the coming of the disc of the class civ dalit is this um about with the sheep is this the beginning of the black sheep's matter movement very good black sheep matter black goats matter very good very good but here it's all it's all love and purity but this will understand what i say just say my time easy mask why is it that goats march forward in the beginning and follow they're followed by sheep easy are goats emery in aramaic are sheep beresha means they go in the beginning ratio is the beginning like the ratio of a mission in the beginning they go ahead and they're followed by sheep why is it they're following the patterns of creation the way the world was created in the beginning came darkness and then came light and you know where else the gemara says this expression the opening of shasms the gomorrah wants to know why does the first mishna of the whole mishnahs of all of sha's begin with may ima say kyran it all begins with the krishna at night when do you read krishna at night from when is there an obligation to say shema at night and the answer is from when the cayenne from when the priests enter to enter into eating enter into the time that they can eat truma they can eat the sacred tithes even if they were spiritually impure and they have to wait for nightfall even if they went to the middle of the day they have to wait for nightfall in order to be able to eat trauma that's the time for krishna why does he begin with krishna at night and the gemara discusses there that's how creation begins so we begin with we begin with nine and then later we go to shakh as we go to the morning our days start at night man see here what does this mean what is review the telling of zed so listen to what that somehow says this is something special [Music] darkness represents here not just the physical darkness that comes after nightfall but the reality of the simpson which is the departing of the light commercial as it stated in the safer eight sky and the tree of life in the beginning and you probably know by now if this is not your first time that ate skaiyan is considered one of the classic works seminal works of the arizo one of the greatest kabbalists in jewish history rabbi yitzhak lawyer by isaac who lived in the 16th century in svas passed away in the year 1572 on the fifth day of hey of many of you were at his resting place the blue graves the blue tombstones in the old city of tsvas near the rizal's mikvah and eight skying is one of his great works that was transcribed by his loyal disciple and pupil rabbi khayyim verb khayyim vital from damascus theresa passed away at a very young age and hayem is considered one of his great works the opening of eight skyem he says but he lost the opening of and he focus and concentrate in the beginning of creation the light of the age served the light of infinity filled the entire space filled makamachala fill the entire space where they could conceptually be a universe was filled by ainsaif and there was no space for any world existing because every space every conceivable space physically and conceptually was filled by the presence of the infinite one when hashem wanted when it ascended in hashem's desire to emanate worlds to create to emanate from himself an energy that will ultimately result in the universe the first thing he had to do was simpson he had to restrict himself or withdraw the infinite light or conceal the infinite light the nikkria creating what arizona an empty space which is in hebrew which means a space that's vacant vacant of what vacant devoid of the infinite presence of the iran soif which would exclude the possibility for any reality outside of the ainsei outside of the infinity this is known as the secret of simpson tsimsu means litsamtzemas to restrict to uh to limit to mitigate to withdraw symptom is basically the concept of withdrawal or or limitation etc what is simpson in this case t-z-i-m-t-z simpson what is that simpson that simpson is the first thing that hashem was compelled to do in order to allow for creation in simple words what arizona is teaching us is that if not for the simpson if not for this withdrawal what would happen ain't safe would be everything and all of reality there's just infinity as we often say if the doors of perception are cleansed everything appears as is who's shalom potash who's everything is ain't safe everything is as part of ain't safe not even part it's all infinity it's all oneness what did simpson do that simpson created a new paradigm hashem so to speak so it's he's using we're using graphic graphic uh terminology but it's conceptual withdrew or concealed his infinite presence creating a component a space in which one doesn't experience a space in which one doesn't experience that infinity so now there can be a world that exists in that empty space that's called the ponde that's bereisha so how was the world created first there had to be first there had to be this concept of simpson what is simpson simpson is the concealment of the light the light has to be removed the light has to depart what does he call it the light has to depart now there's darkness there's a void there's an empty space now there's light the next thing is light what's the next question there's the cave the line that flows from the urning soif into the empty space creating animating sustaining all of the universes and all of reality that's the nahira that's the light that follows the darkness so it's not just night came before day in terms of time night comes before the day in terms of the whole process of creation first is the simpson that's bereisha and then is the that breaks through that simpson that's the hada no that's the light that follows the darkness that's the goats that precede the sheep that's what the huda was talking about he was talking about the tempts to understand what is this whole idea of symptom of restriction or withdrawal in the light of ain't safe halexiv don't we have a fundamental idea in our tradition para articulated by this verse in malachi the last prophet is the navi malaki malachi i god have not changed and one basic interpretation of that means there's no difference between pre-creation and post-creation but here at simpson is a major difference it's a drastic difference between pre-creation and post-creation what is the meaning of this so that samadhik says we have to understand what symptom is the answer to this question is known with tremendous ramifications as we'll see the pedestrian safe the words that result keeps on using is our enzyph the light of einstein that's the words he uses the peters the the meaning of the words irene saif is the light of enzyme what does light mean light is a metaphor for a ray ha'are is a ray of azim is like a glimmer which comes from it it's drawn it's from it's communicated it shines from the inside okama ziva a physical example would be the ray of the sun which in no way defines or captures the solar core there's the ray of the sun and then there's the solar core the the etzemache mesh right the sun itself the ray of the sun comes from the sun it gives you the warmth of the sun it gives you the light of the sun it's what allows our planet to live we are thankful for the rays of light that come from the sun we have light and we have all the benefits that we get from light there's no way our planet can support life in any form or fashion if we didn't have the it's an incredible thing that's why we're so grateful every day we talk about baruch hashem he creates the luminaries we're daving in the morning so we start with you i'd say we start with the light you might say early we don't start with the dark of the chakras at night we say a sherbet i rub him it's nice to see somebody getting excited about the text of davening that's the beauty of being a bolshover you can get excited about the text of dominic i told you once i read the i i think i heard this so this is he said he read an article of a christian priest and the priest wrote that the most beautiful poem he ever read in his life was psalms 145. he says there's no poem that makes a soul dance like psalms 145 the only challenge is you know what psalms 145 is ashrae how many people get excited about ashrae to say that this is the greatest poem they've ever read in their life but that's what happens when there's a certain distance you can appreciate it now read ashrae you'll see it's the greatest poem that was ever written in any case so at night we say hamar in the morning we say yo it's so the sun provides this extraordinary benefit it's a source of life it's a lifesaver it's a life-giver and because of that we are so grateful for the sun but there is the difference between the ziv hashemesh and the etzem hashamash atsamasham which is the solar core ziv hashemesh is the ray of the sun ahaz but the ray in this case in hashem's case the ray is also infinite it's a ray of infinity if it's a ray of infinity it's also infinite and therefore the person would not be able to exist the world would not be able to exist even just with the presence of the zif is so the light of the insight the ray of the insert had to so to speak depart and ascend and retreat back into its source the insight itself so that it should be able to be the creation of the worlds because even the ziv itself would exclude the reality of the worlds therefore therefore and we're going to see soon the ramifications of this in a person's life which are not just drastic but they're life-changing therefore this does not affect a change in the essence of the ancient essence of hashem kamaya derek marshall back to our example nobody is going to say that the various fluctuations of the rays of the sun the solar rays affect and redefine the solar core yes if sometimes it may be a cloud that doesn't allow the manifestation the revelation the brightness of the sun to come into your window to reach the planet there are clouds that block and eclipse the rays of the sun angel's shining hashemish nobody is going to say that the solar core became smaller or became weaker or became less powerful or became less bright or became less hot or has less electricity it just means that i cannot perceive with my eyes i cannot perceive that light coming into my own because there are clouds and this is the essential understanding of how you have to understand that simpson says it's it's about the uh rain scythe and therefore it's not a contradiction to any ash what is he teaching us here in very brief words tamaraceae is addressing a fundamental question about simpson and it's actually something that was debated about by some of the great mystics and some of the great capitalists and to use the phrase i'm using they're going to use the phrase in kabbalistic language was that simpson only in or was that simpson also in the atom was it symptom only in the light or was it simpson also in the essence you see clearly here explains that that results words are meticulous that symptom was only in the light with symptoms never in the essence the essence is as is preet simpson and post symptoms no change aneesh and that reconciles the contradiction he posed i never changed creation didn't change that either was it simpson is in the air the symptom in the iron the light doesn't affect the essence just like in our metaphor there may be clouds and the clouds eclipse those rays shining but the solar core remains as is intact of course it's a poor metaphor because he's dealing with a physical reality called the sun despite its greatness and its intensity and its power but it's still obviously an inadequate metaphor but it does teach us something now we give us another example we're going to learn his second example and then we'll see how this what this means in our lives the human sagam bria islam and the second word afterwards there's no change pre-creation boasts creation this is what we say every morning in chakras in the carbonus atahu kaidum shinivar islam remember after after after the first shma the small shema we speak about ato actually islam you were you are the you are pre-creation and post-creation and in the same fashion s the flow of the soul the vitality of the soul that flows to animate the body is a ray that comes from the essence of the soul again like the ray of the sun coming from the solar core you're not going to say that the core soul itself is divisible it's fragmented into 613 various faculties that exist in the 248 organs of a person the 365 veins or arteries or sinews of a person it's a ray of the sun that animates of the soul that animates the body commercial cosmetics as explained in tanya the first section chapter 51 which is at the end of the first section because it consists of 53 chapters the radiance of the soul is manifested and distributed into 248 organs for example the power of vision is manifested in the eye the power of hearing is manifested in the ear the power of smell is manifested in the nose these are all faculties that exist in the soul they exist in the soul pre it coming into the body and they exist in the soul post coming in the body as we speak often there's the electricity that continues to exist even after you unplug the refrigerator doesn't die the difference is when the refrigerator is there the electricity is channeled through the vehicle called the refrigerator so when the nephesh the soul is manifested in the body so what happens so now there is a ray of the soul electricity of the soul that is manifested in all of the various limbs and organs each limb containing the chemistry that channels a certain energy of the soul but the essence of the soul is not distributed it's a ray of the soul if sometimes there could be a change in how much energy is coming from the soul into the body come on some ain't of a mistake somebody closes his eyes and he can't see anymore so the power of vision of the soul is not being manifested in the eye or even worse if somebody was struck in their eye if somebody has a wound in their eye that is not allowing them to see this doesn't change the essence of the soul reaction the power of vision that is being manifested in the eye departs so to speak and is now subsumed in its own source avalyshnik that ability is always there in the soul and that's why a blind father solomon or a blind mother can have a perfectly healthy child nobody's going to say if you want to give that language and not say that the gene is damaged not necessarily sometimes there's a gene that the parent bequeathes to the child and as a result of a certain alteration a certain change as a result of that it affects the child they said sometimes you see there is abilities the father doesn't have the mother doesn't have like he gives an example they can't see and nonetheless the child can be born with all of those abilities doesn't affect them what what is this in a more abstract spiritual way of spiritually understanding it the power of vision remains subsumed in the soul even if it's not manifested right the the refrigerator something wrong with the eyes a person was struck in their eye or the person closed their eyes during sleep fine so it's not being manifested there but it's not that the power of vision is gone it retreated back into its source and in the source it's completely there even if it's not manifested sometimes a father and mother because of whatever the situation is the manifestation of the faculties are lacking there's something missing in the manifestation of it but it doesn't mean that the kayak itself doesn't exist in them and therefore when they give birth to a child that child may be completely wholesome and completely healthy what is this an example for [Music] the i was just subsumed in the mire and the source of light raksha homania krishna is bali so what did the symptom achieve that the o-ring serve shouldn't be manifested fully below so that there could be finiteness and that's the idea of the darkness that came in the beginning followed by the light oh mahm which represents the dominance of the nations over israel in exile because when the light goes up the exile can take root down below you hear what's going on here that's why the goats are jumping ahead of the missed this last sheep okay let's explain let's explain we'll try to explain this hashem at least some of the points the black sheep are a muscle for the um 70 nations and the white sheep the goat the goat is a marshal for asav asap is called the goat and the sheep is the martial for yaakov yakov is called sheep right asap's name is sawyer asap is called a sawyer he was given the land of saiyan which is a goat ace of wasahiri he was full of seyer which is also the word for a goat and yaakov it says yaakov yaakov is associated with sheep emery is associated with goats when rifka dresses up yaakov in ace of clothes what does she put on she takes you remember two goats she takes the skin of two goats and that's how she dresses up yaakov avinu and that's when yitzchak feels yaakov and he says the voice is the voice of yaakov in the hands of the hands of asa which was the skin of goats now what does all this mean what does this mean repeater was asking a very deep question how is it that goats go ahead of the sheep he's asking a million dollar question favors his dharma sugar in a veldt why is the world crazy why do the goats go ahead of the sheep it's the question samakris asked in the beginning of chapter three of this mimer if the head ultimately is the guide for the entire body if the brain is the source of energy for the entire body if the brain is a central nervous system and as a result of that the brain is really the leader the brain is the king and all of the limbs of a person are subservient in the brain in the healthiest way because the brain is really the central nervous system from which all the energy flows so the natural pattern is that all the limbs and the organs they cherish the brain they follow the brain they're one with the brain if you stroll as lee rush if the jewish people are the brain of creation the rush of creation beracious beratious has another words rush right beratious is there's two racists there's two righteous there's toyota and the jew that's what the world was created for in galas you see the exact opposite so gave this whole example of sleep what is sleep when the eyes are closed during sleep it's not that the faculties of the soul is not here a person is less conscious during sleep a person is not aware of what's happening when they're away what happens it's not that the soul is diminished in its essence it's that the expression the manifestation is not being channeled in the body in such an intense and powerful and organized and deep way like when we're awake and therefore you could speak to me i don't hear things are happening in front of me i don't see my thoughts could be confusing my dreams can be paradoxical i don't have the ability of analysis and discrimination and dissection we are all the kayakers of the soul what happened my eyes are closed as when your eyes are closed on your vision is gone it retreated back into the source what's called eczema in fact as he says before the caucus are even in a higher space because they went back to the source where paradoxes can exist it's just that being manifested in the particular limb where there is divisibility and fragmentation and everything is organized and structured and paradox can't exist you know you start daydreaming and you realize whoa i can't that's ridiculous you come back to your senses and you realize i am here i'm not there now he wants to know why are the goats marching before the sheep why the goats ahead of the sheep what happened to yaakov in other words why is there goddess see he says you have to understand the system of creation system of creation is first darkness then light the darkness precedes the light what does this mean it means that there's a symptom in order for there to be creation what's the symptom the symptom is if reality remained as is what is reality as is a night mulvade there's nothing outside of oneness there's nothing outside of infinity everything is ain't safe there's only hashem the purpose of creation was that there should be what's called something finite there should be something called the self it may be something called the world how can that be everything is ain't safe there's no space for anything outside of russia not just physically conceptually there's no such a concept everything is him what is simpson even the word hashem the word god are words that are created by simpson because the word hashem with the word god are definitions descriptions in other words god is a reality preach symptom god is not a reality god is the reality there is no reality outside of that that is reality simpson creates a new vocabulary vocabulary of an empty space there's devoid of infinity we don't feel this but we don't experience the infinity in that void there can be something called i that can be language that we call creation it could be something that has its own definition its own description the birth of identity comes from why because the orange soy of the expression of infinity is not manifested it says it's the expression of infinity is not manifested infinity itself is exactly the same as it was pre-symptom and post symptom expresses only the difference in the expression of infinity the hest of isaac if you get this everything changes the difference between pre-symptom and post-symptom is in the expression of infinity not in infinity ania i have not changed pre-creation post-creation everything is oneness the difference of pre-symptom and post-symptom is the uh rain scythe not the inside the iran's what does it mean oh what's the difference he says that's why the word is oh and for this he gives two examples one is an example from the sun and one is an example from the soul but the two examples are here to convey this idea a cloudy day nobody's going to say oh yo yo the sun disappeared some just disappear sun is fully there and the light of the sun is also fully there it's just my experience of the light has been compromised because it's a cloudy day you hear what i'm telling you my dear brothers and sisters my experience of the light has been compromised because the venetian blind is down or because the clouds came out above the clouds the sun is shining when the clouds the clouds pass you're going to see an amazing sun the sun is never ever touched there's no symptom in the sun in the solar core the ray of the sun yes the ray of the sun also hasn't been affected but it's been affected by my percep my perception doesn't allow me to experience it what does this mean in a person's life let's give an example in in in our own in our own inner identity and i can't i cannot overestimate how important this is do we have to ah we have to yeah yeah in other words it it's so he said this is so crucial this is so powerful this is so important i cannot i cannot exaggerate about how important it is to say this is very important but it's not so important but this is important this is important because it's it's it's one of the few things it's one of those important things that everybody has to be able to be aware of in their own lives and ultimately be able to experience it even though right now they're not experiencing it who am i that's the big question in the world who am i the answer is it is the who i am preaching some and the who i am post symptoms who am i pre simpson is who i who am i i am an ambassador of light hope healing redemption who am i i am an ambassador of infinity i am the ain't safe in this world that's who i am so when i look at myself that posture extends all the way up to the highest highest space and it comes all the way down like jacob's ladder it stands on the ground but its top reaches heaven that's a straight posture that's erect that's who i am my eye is one with the divine eye that's who i am or in the words of the tanya the soul is a helicopter it's not an exaggeration mamas means like when you lend somebody money and you say i need the money tomorrow mamash what does mamash mean mamash means for real not in a year not in ten years mama she's literal so you're a part of god we're not exaggerating i'm not trying to make you feel good i'm not trying to compliment you and give you accolades it's mama's shit's mama's that way what does simpson do says that someone said that doesn't change the essence symptom only affects perception that's the key it affects perception perception means it affects the ray of light that travels into my home into my space it affects the story i tell myself about myself that's what it does what does it mean it affects light not affects essence back to the solar core nobody's going to say that when the rays are being blocked from coming into my house the sun has been affected the sun has not been affected it's the same sun that's why we say that symptom is in the urine safe so in a person's life we have to realize that a lot of the things so in a person's in a person's life we have to realize that so many of the things that we tell ourselves so many of the stories i tell myself and i go into that space and this becomes my new identity what is that identity that identity is one that is born and created from a symptom from a diminishment of the light that is not allowing me to experience myself as an extension of the enzyme now the tomato explains the o-ring scythe is also infinite that's why it's called iran so if the area is ain't safe with that i in full presence there's no space for a world what's the definition of a world definition of a world is identity outside of infinity now i want you to understand something very deep it's in that identity where all trauma begins trauma doesn't begin with trauma trauma begins with separateness trauma everyone faces trauma do you know what the greatest trauma of the life is reality begins with simpson what is trauma if not symptom what if drama is not facing an abyss facing a void looking at reality and experiencing this bottomless pit this abyss that's what simpson is i think section 64 has a long discussion about this in very dramatic ways there was a philosopher who once said you know what he said right when you stare at the abyss it starts staring back at you so even the greatest soul in the world faces this void what's the void the void is the i that seems detached from the source of all i and yet that void is essential to the purpose of creation hashem wanted there should be full there should be identity there should be an i that experiences itself as i post simpson but even in the post simpson reality i have to know that nothing changed in the atmos nothing changed in the etzem of ainslief the etsum is fully present on every single level the way it was before there's absolutely no difference the difference that was is in the uh if the error is concealed or the air is revealed preet simpson the ur was fully present and revealed and therefore the only story is the story of ainsaif and post symptom that oh it is also present it's just subsumed in its source so i'm not experiencing it within myself in fact what am i experiencing i'm experiencing a concealment of that uh which therefore i replace my identity my true identity with other forms of self-conceptualization i replace it why do i replace it because the story of arrangement i'm not experiencing and because i'm not experiencing it so therefore i replace my identity with a new type of identity this is the stories i tell myself about myself in the presence of this vacancy in the presence of this void i create a self-conceptual there's the self-conceptualization which is devoid from the truth of the self which is really an extension of ain't scythe so healing happens on two levels level number one of healing is realizing that the symptom was only in the earth in the atom in the essence in the solar chord there's no simpson there's never at simpson you see pre-creation post-creation is the same and that is that at your core level you're always one with the ain't safe and there's nothing you can do to diminish it or change it or compromise it and no pain in the world and no youth and no dysfunctional family in the world and not even any abuse in the world khalilah and even the trauma that you experienced as a youth and even the stories that you told yourself your whole life and even all the blockages that you grew up with which are painful and difficult and have turned you into the person that you have become today and doesn't allow you to for f live and all of those walkages that cause you to disassociate yourself from your body and to just disassociate yourself from your present and you can't i can't live in the present i can't be here why can't i be here because i can only survive by disassociation so i have my structures but i don't have the light filling those structures because there was a symptom in my life and what does it mean that simpson in my life is i never experience that full love i may not even know what it means i don't even know what it means to really be validated in that love i don't know what it means to be able to experience myself in that love i don't know what it means sometimes you can have a person and they're really not capable of receiving any love you can give them somebody was telling me not long ago that their spouse about a certain certain workshop they they went to so this man says his spouse is an ocean of love but he could never experience it because of his own blockages she gives and gives and gives and gives and it doesn't go in anywhere i can't take it i just reject it not only that he interprets her love as negativity because he's so traumatized she's giving him messages of love he can't absorb it there's nobody there there's a broken vessel you can't absorb it so he throws it back he gets angry because in his own perception he's so broken he doesn't deserve it he can't even experience it as such and in his twisted mind he creates a whole different reality that doesn't exist you can't be in a relationship so the first stage of healing is to know that that symptom never happened in the etson that the core of hashem's essence is always present pre-creation post-creation and therefore that reality is always there it's always available it's always real it's very authentic but there's another process that's the process of symptoms and that is in the light in the experience of ainscife there has been a blockage there's been a concealment so the first thing hamak sadik is saying is that the symptom was only in the earth not in the etsy on a deeper level the next level he's saying is even in the earth there was no difference the urges went up to the source it's concealed in its source but it didn't disappear it wasn't damaged it wasn't destroyed when i'm sleeping my vision is not gone it's not destroyed it just retreated back into its source it's living in a higher plane and a higher reality but it's still accessible it's just not present in this limited vehicle but you can still you it's still really there it's still really present what does this mean in the story of creation if we now take it and apply to the general story of life the beginning of creation is that what's the simpson that simpson creates and it allows for finite identity it allows for identity outside of ainsoif because the earth departed the earth was concealed the irish ain't safe is not present at least not in a revealed way it retreated back to the source what's the source the source is the insife but nobody's going to say that the ray is gone the ray was obliterated no it was subsumed in its source like he gives an example of sleep and even a parent that has shalom a certain faculty is damaged you're not going to say that the child will have that same problem no because their soul may be wholesome and the genetic makeup may be absolutely wonderful it's just there's a blockage in the manifestation the way it's experienced in the body and therefore it doesn't have to be bequeathed to the next generation you don't have to so when you look at yourself and you see a damage you see something missing it doesn't mean that it's gone it's hopeless it just may mean that it's hiding and you have you have to be able to retrieve it from its core you have to be able to wake up when you wake up it's all there like when i'm asleep my eyes are closed but if i open my eyes i could see then i can't see anything open your eyes i can't hear anything open your ears i can't smell anything open your nose allow yourself to absorb open up your antennas these are all metaphors physical metaphors for the spiritual dynamics of creation so in a world where berei that simpson happens and what does that simpson happening mean people can redefine themselves as separate from hashem so the goats go ahead he says and that's the concept of gollus where asav who really wants to be aligned with yaakov suddenly dominates the archive because the error is gone like when a person is asleep and therefore there's chaos and one doesn't even recognize the superiority of the brain over the rest of the body one doesn't recognize that flow of energy that exists there's much less consciousness what does it mean there's much less consciousness i'm not in touch with the true infinity of life and therefore i'm not in touch with the flow of life from the divine into the world that's the bereisha we all face that in our own life we all face that many gullus in our own life that cosmic exile or microexile a macro exile which means the own disassociation what is gullah's goal is i'm displaced i'm disassociated why am i disassociated i'm disassociated because there's a painful reality here and therefore i disassert why are people disassociated from their life disassociated from their emotions disassociated from their bodies because there's too much pain here because the symptom affected it and because of that i'm displaced i cannot fully be present in my life and that is really what godless means in a person's life i'm living in a restricted place i'm living in exile i'm not fully me i had to be something else than me why do i have to be something else than me because of a certain void that i'm trying to fill because of a certain pain i'm trying to address and therefore i'm trying to survive instead of thriving i'm surviving and what does it mean i'm surviving instead of thriving what it means is exact definition of simpson that light of infinity is not expressed in me and therefore i have to create new stories for myself and sometimes those stories are really really limiting stories but even in the most ideal life i'm still facing the darkness that is essential to the story of creation vaherev there is a void there's a void that i have to face there's a void i have to confront in other words there are two dimensions to human existence there is the fact that i am part of infinity and there's the fact that as a result of simpson i have to find that within myself in order to find that within myself i have to go through a process of having that courage to be able to find that within me i can't just go back to preet simpson and say it never happened i can't just go into the world of attachment i have to embrace the eye and realign the eye with the essence of the eye that's the key i have to go through that and then bring in the light back into khashayca back into nahira i have to go through that process i have to go through that process of erev and then yeah that's the hard part and we're all working on it and getting better right question somebody asked a question so step one is the area inside of the light step two is that the creation of darkness in that place because god has withdrawn his infinite light step three is the cave the ray of light that refills the empty space if you start counting from step two darkness precedes light and the parallel is dark goats before light sheep but if you start counting from step one the light came before the dark that's true you're right that's the point and even when it's dark the light only went back to its source the light did not disappear the night was not obliterated we're talking here from the perspective of the victim of symptoms so to speak from the perspective of the empty space which experiences darkness first you're right the real symptom is rooted in the everything begins with the infinite light but in the experience of simpson right that which emerges in that space the first thing it experiences an empty space that empty space experiences emptiness first and it's trying to grapple with that emptiness and in its grapple of emptiness definitions are born language is born creation is born what's creation creation is a substitute identity for reality listen to this creation is a substitute identity for reality reality is enorde and creation says no i have a substitute identity for a night mulvaney and that comes from language asari mammarus that's language that's what letters do letters confer language and identity upon reality that's the amazing miracle of creation but it's all post simpson we live in a post-symptom world we live in a world of creation but our souls are also rooted in a pre-symptom world are you saying that simpson didn't change the essence of hashem just a change of his light so sometimes a parent is positive loving caring kind giving nurturing sometimes that same parent can be seemingly negative or punitive or withdrawing but it's the same parent there's no change in the essence of the parent only in the outward manifestation of the parent that symptom is only in the light never ever in the essence you said that asaph is the goat yaakov is the sheep we know that ace of source is higher than yaakov is that what yitzhak saw potential he's more powerful he misused these powers that's what rifka saw the actual this is similar to the difference between maybe hillary so the truth is that in the simpson the o goes back to the essence so in a way it's higher but it's also dark that's where asap is rooted in but in reality it has to come through yaakov because yaakov represents the manifestation of god's light in the world and my pre-trim summer posts in the womb were pure then we come out of the womb we could forget the whole terror we learned we could disalign from the source we could sully our souls it's not for nothing that birth is accompanied by contractions our contractions synonymous with simpson well you say the contraction is what allows the birth of a separate reality and that's what birth is interesting and that's painful heavily laid to the pangs of birth pangs of birth are the contractions that represent the fact that now there's a simpson but there's going to be a birth of a new child who's not anymore just part of his mother or her mother that's deep that's deep even the most simplistic understanding of the essence of god leads any thinking person to realize that there's no change in the essence like the philosopher's nonsensical question if god is omnipotent could god create another god could god kill himself could god create a rock that is too heavy so he cannot lift it these are nonsensical questions because no change in the essence of hashem is possible you have to explain what you mean more by those philosophical questions i'm not sure i understand we learned that asap's head was buried with his father in marissa macbella maybe it means that in his head and his mind in his understanding he realized that yaakov was pure and entitled to the blessings because asap has not yet reached his higher potential when will asap reach his higher potential when will his body also be entitled to join the head and the head of the family yaakov said one day they will meet up in the har sayer the mountain of here by the gaula yeah that's the ultimate realization of the unity in the world between the goats and the sheep yeah yeah beautiful great questions great questions great observations okay my dearest friends we're going to uh we're going to stop here and so what do we take out from this what's the exercise for today somebody says perhaps you could speak about which personality to emulate should i be a goat or should i be a sheep well they're very different characteristics sheep are very docile and submissive and benign and goats are more aggressive and sly and shrewd right if you see goats they can even if you have a fence they can sometimes you know literally like climb a fence and go over sheep are very different i think goats are more individualistic that's why yaakov was considered a sheep he was more he was more just dedicated to the tradition of his family and asev was you know much more rebellious much more much more individualistic in this case he's talking about the fact that sheep represent a certain a darkness and the early goats and the sheep represents the sheep represent represents a light so what does all this mean what does this mean in our lives it means that you know simpson what the simpson does is it conceals to our perception the truth of oneness the truth that you i all of us are an extension our manifestation of infinity and it creates a void it creates a an emptiness an emptiness that we try to fill and we try to fill it because we don't experience that oneness within scythe we don't that's the that's the darkness that we face and then the nahir and then we have to bring in the light of the ain't safe into that space that's the cave that's the flow that comes in we have to bring in that light into that space in other words i could go into depression i could go into my traumas i could go into my different stories that all take me away from that essential truth i could fall into the abyss of simpson but i have to be able to challenge that symptom i have to be able to transform it to bring the light into the darkness i could walk around life sleeping and when i'm sleeping what happens the full presence of my soul is not being manifested the full electricity of the soul is not being manifested in the guth when i'm asleep i'm still here everything is here but it retreats upwards the energy is now subsumed in the essence of the soul just like by simpson the earth is subsumed in the essence but even when the earth has absorbed in the essence never think that the essence is compromised the changes are only in the light in the manifestation of it and the way you perceive it and the way you define it in the way you articulate it never in the truth of who you are never in the truth of who you are the etsom of ain't so if the etsom of hashem is the question is how much am i experiencing it how much am i feeling it just like the core the solar core is not compromised even on a cloudy day it's fully there even though i'm not enjoying or experiencing that light fully that you always have to remember and this light also is not gone this light is not gone this light has been subsumed and what i have to do is wake up so in a world of simpson bereisha in a world where there's darkness we can tell ourselves other stories about ourselves until we can go into exile how many stories we tell about ourselves depends where we are there is trauma in its deepest spiritual sense of facing the symptom and there is the trauma the way it's manifested sometimes in very very dysfunctional ways but it all begins with the fact that i tell a story about myself in which i conceptualize myself and i define myself within terms and within definitions and within a world that is detached from the solar core the ray is detached and therefore it's not there's no seamless flow now we'll understand why the essence of purim was that the king couldn't sleep that the king that night balailla he couldn't sleep as we will see in the continuation of the mimer which we will be azer hashem continue on thursday morning which is of course tainus esther heir of purim and bayes rashan finished the mimer as well it's going to be thursday 7 30. tomorrow morning we have our women's class 9 45 a.m and you don't want to miss it we're going to be learning tomorrow a short an incredible mimer of the balatanya emporium explaining why hashem's name is not mentioned in the megillah it's an incredible short powerful mind we're going to learn it tomorrow by the women's class that's tuesday 9 45 as usual you could come on live or you can watch the replay of it and i wish you all a beautiful beautiful day the question somebody asks here is today's methods and tools to remove blockages seems like to me that if we stay in this mimer and we stay in its consciousness the blockages aren't blockages well amen but sometimes you do have to perceive you do have to acknowledge the fact that our mind really can tell itself that it's experiencing blockages so you're right but you'll also have to have compassion for other alternate alternative perceptions just not don't worship them but you will have to have compassion for them um you could speak you could speak here it says you can speak allow participants to unmute themselves yeah you could speak yeah could you just explain again very briefly the difference between the idea that the simpson did not affect the essence and and i wasn't sure how to distinguish between the oil and the mark in terms of the application how do you distinguish between the light and the essence yeah very good it was also that was also my question or comment was that the muscle of the sun the rays of the sun which is often used it's a little bit it does lacking which is that when light goes out from the sun then if you put a curtain or something the light keeps going and it eventually dissipates but by sleep it's a better muscle because the um the kaya doesn't leave still there um it's a really amazing muscle and um you're saying by sleep the kayak doesn't leave it's still there it's just it's just just retreated into its essence so to speak right it's still there yeah and i was thinking also that ultimately the whole the whole paradox which is so geshmak in a way is that hashem gave us this incredible gift which is the hummus and since then there's been so much torah written about it and the rabbits give us access to so many different ideas and connections with hashem that makes good life but ultimately we can we're not we ultimately can't [Music] that's the light also we don't need the darkness anymore we can live in simpson and and with the light on so yeah beautiful thank you to modern thank you for sharing so very briefly i'll just say this in a minute in what very briefly that o'neill in response to your the difference between the light and the essence is light is the way the impact of the sun travels in other words it's the way it's communicated to us i can't sit near the sun i can't go up to the sun unless i want to become toast for breakfast but the light the ray of the solar core is what communicates something of its brightness something of its heat something of its intensity something of its life-giving properties to our planet right the whole process of photosynthesis which is of course essential to life on our planet happens from the fact that the trees can take sunlight and convert the sunlight into glucose which is basically the food for the trees and take it take carbon dioxide turn it into oxygen and all of the other processes that the tree does if the sun actually was living on the tree the tree would be destroyed would be burnt up in a moment but there's a ray of the sun that comes and the tree can absorb that ray and convert that into life-giving properties right this is very important to understand so there's the ray of the sun and there's the sun itself if it's a cloudy day if it's a rainy day yeah the sun is still present sun has not set but i have no access to the rays so to speak just like when i put down when i closed the door i closed the window and i put down the venetian i put down the blind over the window right the sun is still there and the rays has also still there it's just there's a blockage in how it's being communicated into my home so in my dining room my living room i don't see it so this is just an example to define the difference between ayur and etzem the tamartek is saying whenever there is a whenever you learn about simpson don't think it's a symptom in the etzem it's only a symptom in the orange side what do we mean it's only a symptom in the iron sight it means as follows in the way the enzyphus communicated and manifested and articulated in a form that can be communicated to the outside which is what the ray is over there in that communication there was a concealment the clouds have emerged the curtain has been drawn so that you do not see and experience the presence of the irene scythe but the core which is beyond articulation beyond language that has not been altered in the slightest that simpson has not affected that in the slightest gallows dalton has an expression in terror approaches via the moyer the source of light is in its full intense revelation as it was before creation it's just revelation for the mayor is not the language and that's where again we have to understand the sensitivity of the metaphor and the limitations of the metaphor and the metaphor the light of the sun comes from the sun in the in the nimshal in the idea we're talking about the light of the inn surface the way enzyph is manifested on the outside which means it's already the way the enzyme is articulated as light and over there there could be concealment if you want to use different words orange seif is already a world where they're somewhat language and because there's language that could be different stories you tell yourself about yourself etsum is the core of the self which transcends language and therefore there's no change in that i just have to open myself up to it so when a person is in a serious state of darkness so when a person is in a state of darkness they always can cling onto the mire where there's never ever darkness in the mirror there's also no light so there's no darkness the mirror transcends the language of light or darkness and therefore there's no darkness there's also no light and because there's no light it can't be dark it's not the way the insight is being communicated and therefore it can't be diminished it can't be mitigated compre compromised it can't be concealed the way the air is communicated from the enzyme which is already restricted which is already channeled like this solar core versus the solar ray there's the solar core in the solar again only a metaphor not a good metaphor because even the solar core is limited it's just the sun but it's a powerful metaphor in the terms of the distinction over here i can block the ray but blocking the ray will not block the sun it will not cl it will it will block my axis to the sun in terms of the ray not reaching me but it will not affect the sun in any way sun is not going to go into a depression sun is not going to get traumatized because it's a cloudy day the sun doesn't come home crying and going to therapy it was a cloudy day it was a cloudy day okay so my light did not reach everywhere people did not experience it but the core was unchanged i come i i go to therapy crying it was a cloudy day why because i don't know about my son i think i don't have a son so i'm cloud i'm crying my ray has not reached anywhere the sun wants to commit suicide the sun says i'm not alive look how dark it is no no no no the darkness is only in the perception and the perception of other people of your light you don't doubt don't doubt yourself you're you're you're full you're in your full you're in your full brightness and intensity very often that happens to us i'm looking at myself from the perspective of the outsider who's waiting for the ray i'm like i'm not receiving any raise i must not exist that's it i'm done i'm finished with life you understand i'm judging myself based on the light of myself that has not reached me but the sun itself is completely okay it was a dark day that tomorrow it's going to be lighter hope tomorrow maybe less clouds even though the rain is also important clouds are also important they distribute the rain everywhere the point is that the sun doesn't go into a depression or doesn't challenge its identity or doesn't start thinking it's worthless and it doesn't really exist why because all it sees is its own light and then it says oh there's no light there's no sun no no there's a sun you get it and that's the idea that the etson there's no simpson there's never a simpson in the ur there's a symptom and even in the eye he says it's not that the iris is gone diet is subsumed in its mucker and that's what sleep is that's the example of sleep well the kaisers are there they're just not necessarily being channeled in a revealed way they're in a state of concealment when that happens this the posture of a person changes so in a post simpson world bareish the goats could be ahead of the sheep and we have to wake up and say [Music] you're used to saying camp your intentional counselors and campers your attention please 25 minutes to line up right and those who came early woke up six o'clock in the morning got coco coco club for learning mishnay is about six o'clock in the morning okay my dearest friends have a beautiful day tomorrow morning 9 45 thursday morning 7 30 but azer hashem have an amazing day 180 and another 60s 240. suffolk amalek is doubt yeah yeah we have to obliterate we have to obliterate yeah in this shape skirt the six things that we remember every day one of the things to remember is amalek why do we have to remember it every day what's going to happen if we forget about our malik one day because inner doubt is a very paralyzing force i doubt myself i doubt god i doubt history i doubt the world i doubt the people that love me i doubt i just doubt everybody that's the ultimate symptom the world of doubt that's what rab nachman writes in the kutima that there's the doubts that come from facing that void everything looks empty and dark so you have a lot of doubts yeah i think simon sama dalit in 64. we'll learn it one day it's a very powerful piece it's a very long piece we have to learn it one day um yeah yeah i learned it many years ago and then a few days ago i had to look something up so i looked it up and i realized what a powerful piece it is and i thought you know one day we should teach that piece of style okay [Music]