How the Alter Rebbe Made Peace Between the Litvish and Chassidic Paths

the yeshiva.net [Music] isaac told me yesterday that um after the shooter yesterday when he put on filling so he never put on phil in the same way his whole life [Music] and he said that uh in some circles um in some situations he saw people were told that uh if you're this type of person or this type of person or you have these characteristics of these characteristics that fill in is garnished your thrilling is nothing it's worthless you can get rid of it and yesterday he learned that not only is it phil and epis but even the highest levels of passion don't come close to the to the midst of itself so it's not just sometimes a person as he says doesn't have all the feelings that they would like to have and it's still very significant because as i gave her the metaphor you're doing what your best friend wants doing what your spouse wants you're doing what hashem wants it's even deeper than that even if you're having the most amazing passion in the world you talk about madriga you feel everything that that's not the ikea that pales in comparison to the to the to the mitzvah itself so he said they put on filler in the first time in a way that he never did before you have an employee employee who let's say sits in your office and works with you the person is near you all day they're in your office they speak to you they hear you they listen to you they have conversations with you okay today maybe after corona you have employees but uh you know in the olden days an employee worked near you we worked with you you have meetings you connect and so forth you don't say usually that the employee is the employer hopefully you don't say that right huh the inmates the inmate is running the the the the the employee is an employee hopefully before he does important things he asks you then you have another muslin it's called somebody you send away far from you to do a mission it could be another country you sent him to he doesn't see you he doesn't hear you he represents the one who sent him somebody wants to marry a woman betrothed the woman the does it for him it says no he did it same is true with the ghat and many other and and in england explains that there's a level of it's not just what you're doing works as though the person who sent you did it it's not even like an extended arm it's that you become the mashallah it's almost like you embody like a uh an embodiment of the michelle you become the [ __ ] so the paradox the employee is sitting with me a whole day 10 hours a day he's not me the shliyak is the other side of the world it's kamehameha what's the difference so this is the difference i could be near you and feel you and close to you so i'm feeling close to you i'm experiencing you which is very profound and it's beautiful and a relationship needs that a relationship needs that but that's the yesh part of the relationship the real oneness of the relationship is i may actually be sent far away from you there i'm not near you i'm you i'm you but i don't feel you don't have to feel you you have to feel when you're not me when you meet off the field and that's what he says that krishna carbon is the fire it's all the beginning of avodah sasha i say the beginning it's not so beginning it's it's pretty deep to develop the fire it's it's profound but he says david thomas actually to go to places that seem remote to you to use this martial vaiter when a person is passionate and on fire towards truth towards the rebel initial islam there's a closeness in many ways mitzvos miceas is going away it's stepping away from from the slavos from the from the experience of dracus he says it's stepping away from the experience of dracus but that vegas is actually much deeper oh mazel tov the day after the hasanah mail of the day of the khasana he didn't go to sleep last night huh that's a very devoted student automatic a on the finals you graduate with honors valedictorian you can give the speech tomorrow so the terms in terms of of the oneness it's it's much deeper he's why because i'm fulfilling your will and your will he says in hashem's will in heaven and earth is identical i want to also just convey one more point even though this really needs a a longer discussion but i just want to bring it out just the point of it with this line of the cotata valture was also synthesizing and making peace real peace not just fake peace not fake news synthesizing these two streams in yiddish that split up the jewish world in his time what was known then as the world of siddhis the world of the siddhim and the word of the misnakadam the opponents there was there was a huge huge unfortunately there was a huge huge conflict a lot of misunderstanding after a few decades later a few decades later things quieted down but during the the balatanas days you probably know the history the conflict was very very profound like in every macholicas there are rabble rousers who just like the action and you know can spread you know can gossip and slander etc but i'm not talking about that in the cuda which may may have been a major factor as well i'm talking now more the pneumonias of the conflict if somebody would ask even today what did the bolshevik want to accomplish what did siddhis want to accomplish so one of the common answers and to a certain degree it's also a correct answer even though it's not but to a certain degree it's also correct and i know i sound like i'm contradicting myself and i know that is to bring to bring much more feeling to judaism feeling hergish rahman liberboy god wants the heart all the stories about the shemitah and the students it's always focused on the simplicity right the emotions the heart good will the average and there's talmidam sauce in the illa time that he was very very intense he was very serious so they realized that something is happening they darwin with more kavanaugh and nothing was uh while shampoo was like just crying and sobbing there was a kid who grew up on a farm a jewish kid he grew up on a farm he was an orphan a farmer took him in and he was illiterate which was very common at the time in eastern europe it was extremely common he was illiterate he didn't even know how to read not like he didn't understand hebrew he couldn't read the olive bay as well and he's there him kipper the ambiance of soul once a year they came to shilliam kipper usually they would you know be into being the farm far away from any community but this is ukraine ukrainian kid and he comes in to shul and he's there and he sees the ambiance and he's inspired but he doesn't know the darwin but one thing he knows he hangs around chickens so he knows how the chickens scream and get excited right and he was a professional because this was his whole life so when truly starts screaming but with with the whole heart so you know what they got by him do in these situations right they have a meltdown and they come over to you and they threaten you either you be quiet or you're chucked with the embarrassing ocean and this kid is screaming he was a kid huh over here the guy by we say wouldn't even uh blink compliments it was a measure bush and ukraine by the bolshevik so the bashamtive turned around with a big smile on his face and they saw that and he said leave him leave him but i am kevin by the sudden he said that there was a tremen he saw a tremendous xavier tremendous decree on a certain community and whatever he was doing wasn't accomplishing it and this kukuriku of this child obliterated all of the negative decrees so really it's a heartwarming story and that's the point it's a heartwarming story now you'll tell it for example to what they called it i don't like the name but i'll just use it for cultural reason you tell to a calteletvac what is he going to say [Laughter] you get the point all of all of the all of the i don't mean here up one person or another person i've learned that the labels don't really exist i'm talking about the attitude what do you want is how you dive in that today tucker things are much different because the achieved a lot of what he wanted to achieve at least some of what he wanted to achieve but the point is the heart the sincerity yeah there was another stream that focused much more on so they became as though there's this division here the focus is emotions sincerity attitude camaraderie god loves you and here the focus became much more just follow the laws emotions are not so important know your stuff and and it's there's respect for knowledge for information for scholarship and so forth and the two streams till today even though it's very very different today because there's cross-pollination but till today there's still this uh there's still ah yeah the cross-pollinations are critical you can't you can't you can't grow without that you can't have a world without it the altitude the the tell me them of the maggot called them the litvak now doesn't listen to why they called the litvak so he came from the area of lithuania that's true but that wasn't the reason the reason was that wanted to be megalo what's the pneumous of of al-shamtiv the premise of teresa of al-shamdev is not a different stream of yiddishkeit versus the more lithuanian derek that focuses on meticulous halacha you dive in the earliest time you do the mitzvos exactly it says review who was the grands of son of rebecca and brisket grandson of the best alevi came from the family the skin of raphael valarjana who was a student of the village the prime student of the villain god has just called the man you read it in english or in hebrew in english it's a very sophisticated book and in it he tells a story he tries to to paint the portrait of the halaq man versus the mystical man that's that's the point now he was got the in his shooting he would always call the balatanya but he tries to paint the picture very romantic picture of the man he tells a story he grew up in a city called khaslovic a russian city and uh his father was thereof his father's name was rep moisture sullivan he was the bachara the oldest son of rebecca in brisker abraham the brisker of revela was his uncle degrees his father's younger brother the beatrix elevated he he he was saved he moved to jerusalem moshe came to america and he became the reshushiva of yeshivas known as yeshiva university when his father passed away in 1942 so rabbi j b salvation replaced him it wasn't so simple it was a big machokus who should replace him it was actually the sixth laboratory who got involved wanted very much of his salvation should take over he writes my son-in-law knows him from berlin and he says he's an isha list he's a great figure in so any case should bear tells a story he says his father was with moshe's salvation a real lit real life son of the salvation the baltic ayah the one who blew shaytan and he bursts out sobbing and he can't control himself they finish the basilica he starts staying in the barracudas he's sobbing he was a kid why is he sobbing he says i can only speculate because he knew what it says in the quran about blowing chauffeur and he describes that the narrow part of the shaifer represents the simpson and the broad part of the shaifer minhamatsa the broad part of the sheikh represents vacus complete oneness and that the whole world is based on a tempting the whole world is based on restrictive energy and the soul yearns to be free to be emancipated from its spiritual slavery and become subsumed and ain't so he says and it's very emotional so you start crying he says my father was a mistarget so he looks at him was and he used the words of the gomorrah of course he didn't cry by lulu because by lulu if it says look at it's the celebration of nature and it's the affirmation that that god exists in every leaf and in every willow and in every citrus and in every palm branch and in every myrtle branch that's sukis but he is it's it's it's it's going out of the symptom it's a time to cry what was his father referring to the gemara says in rosh hashanah after zion why do we blow on the shaffer ash hashanah so the mario gets upset why we block his entire sister blow that's why we blow think about somebody says no he was asking why a ram's horn so he says because of the arcade of yitzhak so his father paraphrased that gemara and says the tenor would have said cry we would stand and cry remember salvation is trying to bring out the two worlds with tremendous respect for both it's not this is his father and this is something he was he felt very close to in this miner you could see what the alt with alternative is teaching here the treb is teaching that all the conflict is coming from a more superficial place even though it was sometimes between great people i say superficial i don't mean superficial like uh in a derogatory way i mean if you go to the oimek of the imek it's fakert the oimktur saksidis is not saying without passion there's nothing the mitzvah itself in a way that is bringing out here the [ __ ] that opposes siddhis you understand what i'm saying what what what if you why doesn't he start the mimo with this why doesn't he start the moment with the first with why does he start the mind with this or to ask another question why do you need a fire don't have a fire see this is what you want to see what you want i don't i don't feel the answer is because then the relationship is missing something very deep even though it's true but if a person doesn't experience anything it doesn't permeate me as a person so i remain estranged that's why you need the fire but then he says there's something even deeper than the fire the fire can lead you to a certain place like taking a marriage or good friends it doesn't begin let's have a relationship just tell me what you want and i'll do it do you want me to live at the other side of the world i live at the other end of the world that's not how it works you first build up a closeness where yes i'm on fire i love you i crave you i want to be close to you then you realize that there's something even deeper what's deeper oneness itself which the passion won't capture because the passion will always capture as he says what was this russian it's just those few words are uh are priceless when there's a slavos al koppen the prerequisite of passion is yesh as i said yesterday not a bad yes at all very very holy yesh but that's the prerequisite i'm on fire guinness lavender there's a heart there's a soul that's burning in oid and beethoven he doesn't find a space for himself why not because my will is your will and hashem's will is identical in the lowest places like in the highest places and my will is your will there's no separateness and that's the power of the mitzvah and that's why kalakai krishna belatefillin that's the power of the film filling again represents so i could step away from my spirituality and go into the place of as he says whether it's learning from terrorists or it's mitzvos maisius practical mitzvos physical actions mice that fill in the lula of the candle the fala the mezuzah that sits it's all physical the money that's daca the truman the meister is the pay most of the 630 mitzvahs deal with very very physical physical stuff or as he says even i go into business i completely step away from the world of ruchnius he says here you're not passionate about your master here you are your master you are so he gave he gave the real arm curse of what halakh is it's not like there's the passion in judaism and then there's those who believe in technicalities don't don't i see this revealed the imac of what allah is what a mitzvah is what the technicality of the mitzvah is if you don't understand it this way the technicalities can turn you into a technocrat you understand what i'm saying it can it can take away passion here is where you see the synthesis of the two streams in yiddish guide by revealing the atom of holocaust there's no contradiction it's all one i just wanted to say that it's a little clear what i'm saying you know it's easy you look at these two lines you have to understand what this meant because even this was fire fire except them diving with a fire and then you know it's i'm talking here real siddhis i'm not talking here the culture i'm not talking here kugel that's not siddhis you understand i'm talking here the the fire exodus they brought dancing fabrega and camaraderie right that whole that whole culture you don't just dive in through a darwining it's with passion and here is knight of the beholder was very against it he didn't like it he has a trooper right you know it's true no there was those from the big pisces came over the dirt now it's really much more nuanced because says that the villenegon most of his time he learned kabbalah not negla you know he's considered the father of all the literature yeshivas but there was a god himself learned kabbalah most of the time now try to introduce that as a curriculum into a mainstream yeshiva was a big big macabre so it's much more nuanced it's not like there was a group that grew only only gemara and the group that believed in kabbalah the villenegon learned more kabbalah than uh he spent more time learning kabbalah but nonetheless these differences do have some you know some general accuracy even if it's much more nuanced than what i'm saying and that's why somebody who learned very well once told me he doesn't know how to make shalom bias between the torah and the rebels if you ever learned it's like uh i don't want to call it a litvish because but it's it's classic classic lumdus you know the quintessential quintessential london especially controversial and the the details and the accuracy of the details and the technicalities is and everything is accounted for and the definition of every halacha and then look at the toyota sometimes you see this ecstasy constantly but now here you see that it's not just two people somebody once wrote something very foolish about the rambam he wrote and the guy to the perplexed are two different rambams a split personality because the marion of washington is a very very free and liberal thinker so to speak real rationalist and all of its precision i once saw a professor in israel or shayta so he writes because he was nostalgic to how he grew up and marina expressed what he really thought so it's just it's a stupid joke because you read the other kazakh you see the number he's there in his full presence it's just people capture people according to themselves you understand whenever you make a judgment on somebody else you're really just making a judgment on yourself who knows somebody else when you start doing that to the rambam it becomes pretty pathetic the truth is so when you by the balatani it's one person i don't know if you know i told this to you a few years ago he would start you remember i wish i said this that although would very often the middle of a mimer he was sitting or standing and he would start rolling on the ground and not consciously he just went into a state of of of transcendence and he would start rolling and he would bump into the walls and the walls were made of concrete cement so he started to bleed so they cushioned all the walls he had one of his heiser him was rapin his noises so when thou trevor would roll it was hard to hear the words so he would roll after him so that he wouldn't miss anything sometimes would make a turn he would miss a word the my mottom that he wrote were almost verbatim so if the alternate turned without today lowered his his head while he was rolling he missed a few words surprises won't fill in those few words with his imagination he'll leave blank a few words and you know that here something happened something happened that's how precise he was he wouldn't fill it he wouldn't fill in the blanks and then you look at the so different but here in this mymare we see not just that there's shalom bias that the two can live together it's really one kuda and each one gives something priceless to the other one it's clear everybody understands what i'm talking about there's a continuation to yesterday's sheer obviously so to summarize it when you say there's something much deeper than passion right in many ways that's the most passionate thing you could say it's anything but technical because what it's really saying is you don't feel me you become me and never ever reduce the power of the relationship to feelings because even if there are tremendous feelings they don't capture the full incredible opportunity of real fusion of real fusion means real actors isaac should have told me that after yesterday's cheer when he put on filling it was the most boring experience of trillian ever because passion passion belongs in the dustbin he said it was the most exciting experience of what's the excitement that itself is the deepest excitement the oneness is tremendously exciting right but don't let the excitement define the depth of experience don't limit it to that this is not cold this is very hot this is very passionate this is not called technical technicalities the brazilians hashem wasn't afraid of the finite world don't be afraid of the finite world also somebody who doesn't have a christian mysticism it's hard to relate to all of this i don't have a problem being in the finite world i like the finite world you have to as i said yes you have to see how that al-tadaba saw a person he saw the shama as really infinite so you don't belong in in a finite world it's like a sandbox what do you have what do you have with trauma what do you have with abuse what do you have with agbala what do you have with all these things you're infinite that itself is very powerful just to ask that question and what's the answer the answer is you're god you're you're a peace of god god came into to to a world of trauma you also die you leverage shake it up and in that you're more one than anything else because you become an embodiment of the reader by initial element he wanted him so you go there and for him the whole learning what was it really it was finding the infinite and the finite when he opened up a gemara what did he see the infinite and the finite open the permission of the infinite and the finite amitzvah the infinite and the finite person going to their business the infinite and the finite daily shake it up it also explains something else what happened to meditation and judaism now this is a problem but i just want to explain culturally what happened you go over to many jews very observant jews and you say do you ever meditate and they'll look at you you know what are you taking whose classes have you been going to what happened to you you have a midlife crisis go over to a regular rob in muncie in borough park you could try it out you don't have to quote me you've been going to rabbi why why huh you're having issues yeah your marriage is not uh you must be lonely right and somebody once told me he said your classes are good but they're good for sick people they're not for healthy people you told me he says your classes are very good it's like you tell a doctor you know you're an unbelievable doctor but you're for sick people i don't i'm not sick what do you say about such a compliment huh i should i don't know if i should have said it to this crowd here but i'm just being honest with you that's what he told me very good ah nice el says that khoiler is begimatri memtess you know that khailah is 49. he says because why are you sick because you have the 40 49 gates of wisdom and you're you're you're you're sick you're yearning for the nun so you're a kyla very good yeah okay thank you you comforted me but what was his point what would i i'm not going to explain i said although i've explained the the other side i can also explain what he meant what did he meant he meant mainstream judaism what are you hacking me mices what are you hacking just do the right thing and be happy yeah so that's why the whole world of meditation of of rukhni is of do you have an intimate experience with god i don't know what that looks like i'll eat matz i'll eat matzah but i want to explain to you the beauty of it and the problem of it the beauty of it is because in the heart of hearts the jewish soul feels what this mimer says that all the meditation in the world won't come close to the to the matzah to the lula vanessa to the film the challenge is that sometimes that's why the balsamic came to the world that can become stripped from its depth but but but you understand where it's coming from explaining to you how that developed it developed because i could sit and meditate on the exodus of egypt and not do matzah and you know what i'll have an amazing experience what does redemption look like in my life and you should do it by the say there by the way not a bad idea i have to eat a piece of stale matzah which is not carbs and doesn't even taste good fill it sit and meditate there's people who do i know a person i have a friend he meditates every day in the morning two hours two hours he meditates outcome so now i have to take a black box that was made from the part from the high the epidermis of a cow right so take my jewish blood pressure okay that went over you ah and and start tying i mean that really contributes to meditation i mean it's we don't we take it for granted because you're here in shul right try something to go go go to an airport in kentucky and do it you know i have a friend he was flying to atlanta put on the phil and it was after 9 11 they made an emergency landing they saw him putting on boxes you know what they thought the next step is normally you got allah scared if you go on a plane like you have to tell the flight attendant what you're doing and the people near you because people can get very scared so i'm explaining to you again you have either two streams there's a big spiritual consciousness today and yet many jews who are so immersed in tighter they laugh from it they're cynical they want to know if you're sick go do it if you're not sick don't do it we who's right again here you have here you have the nakuda of everything without the spirituality without the spiritual experience often the the most powerful unity is stripped from the significance of it in a way that you can really viscerally appreciate it and yet and yet yiddish kite takes it a step deeper and says it's not only about me wanting to be connected to you but it's the ability and opportunity to experience true true full vacancy full unity and that's deeper than the fire it's deeper than the experience of it what is it it's actually when the i and the thou the i and the you experience fusion and it's even beyond the experience and and the passion of that moment is beautiful and tremendous and it certainly feels good but that pales in comparison to the to the vagus itself makes sense what i'm saying okay so let's learn another few minutes we'll learn another nine minutes i just want to learn here another piece because i want to finish the miami this week so we're up to mem olive column one page 81. these last few lines that we learned you could read these lines literally 101 times and not get enough of it i would do it but then you're going to start saying that i'm also sick [Laughter] i'm just joking but uh joyless ava but these these few lines i don't know how many times you could say it you know you know what i mean it's almost like just to hear the person who says these words just these words okay i'm going to say it i have to say it again over there there's no high and low oh yeah i'm in such a low place i want to be near you now you are me you could go to a low place you are me it's also a tremendous comfort for people who are going go through lows in life there are people let's tucker talk about you know who's not sick right that's another point right if you're not sick you're not alive it's like if you don't have any pain you know which world you're living in god is in pain the skin is in pain you're the only one not in pain but that ability to be able to know that all my journeys right it's not i'm excited i'm not excited it's not it's not kashmic not but here you're not connected to the source you are the source it's the infinite consciousness having a finite experience it's almost like hashem is taking this journey through you because at this point there's no you and i and in the heavenly passion you don't have that the heavenly passion i'm excited about you and here i'm not excited about you i'm actually in a place that's not exciting that's what the means but i'm you so that gives another level of excitement another level of meaning so he says that's why it says the end of my so that's the first makshava what does that mean the safe mice which seems like the most remote that's the that's where you connect to the first thought safe mice the end of mice in other words the end and end of myself which is the most remote that's the max this state this this awareness this is called eretz cannot why educa's grandsons had three sons and come had his son cannot and he lived in arizona but he said the word quran comes from the word what is that humility says means yeah i wouldn't use that word here i wouldn't use that word here i guess because subservience are different it couldn't but the point is it is a humble a humbling element should i feel the mashpalace because what's eric's kanan telling you i have to humble myself to go away from heaven to go to go down to go down daiyla evident i'm going away from from the experience of dvacus i'm going into the physical uh there's also a danger here when you're right near your best friend when you're right near your spouse you're close when you go far away maybe you become me but you're in a different place and you could get captured by the physical including by physical addictions so it says you have to work on yourself that's why there's a temptation to stay close because with this fire it's also much healthier it seems there's an element of regulation now here there's a small parenthesis for a few lines okay the past success is going to send some type of hornet called it seerah until it will obliterate those who remain and those who are hiding the enemies who don't want the jews to go into strong vinya not syria what's this this horn that didn't cross the jordan stayed on one side of the jordan remember this and it would blind the eyes of the enemy on top and it would make them sterile on the bottom what does that mean she explains it means something spiritual when you're going in turrets you have to have it syria you have to have a hornet what is this so he says as follows where does gehennam come from fire it comes from the sweat of the malachim zayasan the sweat of the highest their sweat creates a river of fire nahar di nur di nur is dinura fire in aramaic the sweat of the malachim creates a river sweat is wet creates a river of fire on the head of the rishaway megaherm what does this mean what does this mean gehennam is made up out of sweat it's fire it's water what's been a river of fire i thought fire it's not a river a river is not fire it says pirush it's very interesting zaya who errors vegema sweat represents here a certain form of poison and anger commercial kosovo there's a storm of god a wrath went out vahoop soylus this is the dregs the soilus silas is like the sediments the the leftover sediments the unwanted parts of in every world in every state of consciousness there's toivan ra good and bad news i don't mean in every world is real evil we call evil no doesn't necessarily mean heinous evil in every world no means an element of anger of unforgive of unforgiveness of wrath in every world is guru is not bad but guru could be a source of judgmentalism of negativity i'm angry i'm angry he says that's what i mean this tavern on every world toy is generosity love closeness and glory is rejection every person is a miniature world you always have both you have the taif and you have the but sorry what's the point of guru you need to trigger it sometimes internally a person needs to be able to be harsh towards their own toxicity not to allow it to rule your life to be able to put it in its place to be able you have to have compassion that it exists but don't let it take over your life you have to put it you have to put it in context you're not going to rule you may have a backseat driver who wants to take over the steering wheel and crash straight into uh to a pump or go down a cliff hospital you have to tell the backseat driver i get it but there's a you need a guru you need a strength you need a severity to put your own toxicity in its place not let it rule your life that's a very important idea extremely important so he says sahara you should always get the toiv angry at the hr what does this mean always this is what i do 24 hours a day i have to get my agent he says if not the anger is going to come out towards your wife it's going to come out towards your kids it's going to come out towards everything else besides what it has to come out to a person always has a regas there is anger waiting in you it's not usual for dalton ever to say this this is waiting it's waiting to implode it's waiting to explode it's there. so use it but use it for the right things use it to be able to put it in its place and say well i don't i'm not so small i don't have to surrender to this negativity to this toxicity and if i do i put it in this place that's what it means doesn't mean you deny it doesn't mean you repress it doesn't mean you get angry at yourself and delegitimize yourself but deny me i have to be able in a good way i have to be able to be strong with it to be stern with it and when you do it to that part of you then you don't have to do it to anybody else you don't even have to do it to your good parts the problem is we often misplace it i take my anger and i use it towards my positivity i'm bad i'm evil i'm a sick person i'm a loser he says well no no that's not good direct it towards the ra that's it internally the parts of me that tell me how bad i am the parts of me that tell me how what a loser i am the parts of me that want to constantly take me off the highway and throw me into a cliff put it in its place say i get you you have it but you're not going to control my life this is what's called gehenna this fire of gehenna where does it come from it comes from the sweat of the malachan from the passion of the malachim which is the first parish of krishna when a person experiences the fire of the malachim so from the sweat of that fire comes the fire of gehenna what's that from that passion comes also agura a sense of anger but what what type of anger a sense of anger with a person says i know who i am i'm infinity you shall allah you want to be one when he experiences hashem so the person says why do i feel that i have to live in a way that's not really me the zealousness after the fire of the first parishes we explained before it's a carbon comes the second part of the second major we speak about hashem getting angry so how does everybody read this hashem gets angry at you he says it's much deeper you remember what it says right i'll give you rain all day you're not you're not a political even if you're not involved in avoid this hashem you're a fine person but bashar as the person gets into davaning and krishna they experience a much deeper level of unity and they get on fire so now you see yourself in a new way and now even the smallest distance you see in a different way so he says now you could say hisham rulers beside them from what from the true actors from the true oneness and then the person gets upset why i want to live in this place that's what happens is the god inside of you getting angry that you feel you're so low that you don't have to that you that that you feel you're so low that you can't live in unity and oneness he says um that that anger takes away the anger towards other parts of yourself and towards other people if not it comes out in in in all types of dysfunctional ways this is another type of yeah so you you told us what he's saying here only in the second part of krishna do we speak about this anger because before that there's no panyifta of africa you didn't go to aveda you're a good person once a person experiences a different level of oneness so now i'll give you an example okay let's take in a marriage again sometimes you have people that are married it's more technical yeah you know it's like business partners once you experience a real level of unity now you get upset what do you get upset you get upset at all the times and all the times that you didn't uh you could get upset at all the times that you didn't realize how good it could be now you get upset before that i didn't have to get upset you know what i mean if we're just distant fine i like you you like me once you get so close like the baron carlin rosh hashanah when they said hamelik he fainted why did he faint you know the mice because that's the story in gittin that vespasian told rebecca and zacchaeus came out of jerusalem during the time of the khurban and he went to meet vespasian aspersions and he called him the king so he said imal khanna if i'm the king why didn't you come till now so marion kalinda said when he said hamelech if god says if i'm the king where were you a whole year survivor kalina fainted you understand we were you a whole year if we remain distant okay once you become close now you get upset this is a good upsetness because there's another standard there's another reality sometimes in healing much more anger comes out that's what he's saying you hear when you're estranged you can't afford anger you just you survive you do what you have to do once you feel the closeness now you get angry because you see all the pain you see all the hurt you see all the distance you get upset you have sometimes people who went through terrible abuse and they don't feel that they exist when they start feeling the right to exist the first thing they'll be unbelievably angry now you can say don't get angry no no no no get angry veins veins get angry for this this person the anger is basically wow i exist i'm entitled to have a life i'm entitled to have a relationship wow wow wow so why'd you do this to me why did you do this to me that's a good sign it's not a bad sign it's a very good sign that's what although saying here he says that's what the gehenna is it comes from the zayasan it comes from the from the passion of the malachi when you have the passion and the passion gives you a real experience so now i'm like wow where was i who stole this for me [Applause] people read that person in krishna they again we experience it wrong hashem gets angry at you you're you are hashem you're getting angry at yourself you're one with god when you experience that oneness where was i what happened here who took this away from me why did i think i'm so estranged yesterday it's not an anger of judgment just to make you feel bad it's an anger that comes from dignity the heist was exact this is very important stuff very important because part of the abuse is that you're not going to get angry you don't exist you're going to get angry what are you going to get angry for shh there's no anger you're an edelkite right and then you get a ticket a certificate midas tyves he never got angry in eight years of course you killed him the cemetery nobody gets angry you kill the kid how can he get angry call her coyotes kilo over the video he never did have a desire of course not dead people don't do away disorder this class is brought to you by the yeshiva.net please help us continue the classes make even a small contribution at www.theyshiva.net donate