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How Much Longer Will I Hide? The Splitting of the Sea and the Death of the Ego (Pesach Lecture 5786)
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Welcome everybody. Good morning.
Thank you for gracing us with your
presence.
I'm always amazed on the crowd that
comes right before Pesach.
I know this is a
quite intense week for so many on many
different levels. So
it means so much that you come.
And [snorts] thank you very much for
gracing us. And a special welcome to
Brandy who we missed. A welcome back.
Thank you. It's a big zchus to have you.
And whenever you're here in the class it
gives the class so much more
uh authenticity and depth and meaning.
So thank you very much. And you should
be blessed among all of us. B'toch kol
Yisrael.
Today's class is dedicated by some
special friends. Number one, it's
dedicated by Harry and Dina Dornbush for
the continued recovery of the child
Chaya Mushka bas
Chava Yael and for complete and speedy
recovery for the child Ilan ben Tanya
Rivka larichus yomim v'shanim tovim
and arifuas krovah. Amen.
Also dedicated in the merit of Michal
Raya bas Lean Liba. May Hashem grant her
a complete healing in body and soul,
comfort and strength and many happy
years. May she be blessed with renewed
strength, light, days filled with true
true joy ahead. Dedicated with love by
her family. Amen. Also dedicated by Anne
Crane Lowy in honor of her husband
Rudolph for his dedication to Torah
learning which has inspired her and her
son to do more. Great. Beautiful. Amen.
Also dedicated by Chanie and Yisrael
Yitzchak Akiva Kaplan in honor of the
124th birthday of the Lubavitcher Rebbe
on the 11th of Nissan, Yud Alef Nissan
zchus sayogain aleinu. Thank you so so
much for everybody and may you all be
blessed. Especially our brothers and
sisters in the Holy Land and the air
force and everybody involved in America
and Israel to obliterate the Amalekim of
our times. Amen. B'karov.
So
we're living now, everybody can feel it
probably in their bones, in
extraordinary times
which was the theme of last week's class
with the war against Iran that began
literally the morning of parshas Zachor
Asher asah l'cha Amalek
a few days before Purim
and still continues with full force
as we can prepare for the redemption of
Pesach.
It's always important I think to be
sensitive to the fact that even though
we're not living in the Holy Land,
precisely we're not living in the Holy
Land, all the Jewish people are one body
literally one body. The Gemara says in
Yerushalmi Maseches Nedarim, like limbs
of one body.
And that there are millions of our
brothers and sisters often spending full
nights in shelters and and mamad rooms
and somehow combining normal life
in very very extraordinary and not
simple circumstances to say the least.
And uh
even though we're living here in very
different environment, every way
different circumstances
but as brothers and sisters and really
one family, klal Yisrael is literally
one family and it's been that way
thousands of years and it's the source
of our strength, our resilience
it affects us in ways that we know and
we don't know but it's literally like
one body. It's literally limbs of a body
and those who are more sensitive
feel it even more even though it's true
about every single Jew who's connected
to every other Jew. I once said I once
saw something very very powerful. And
that is uh
the Sfas Emes says in the Haggadah we
say v'hi sh'amda lanu v'la'avoseinu
sh'loi echad bilvad amda aleinu
l'chaloseinu b'chol dor v'dor amdu
aleinu l'chaloseinu. You know, sometimes
Jews, a few years ago, sometimes
doubted. Really now, we live in
different times.
You know, 70, 80 years after the
Holocaust beautiful country, beautiful
democracies, peace in the world. And
then suddenly out of the blue you saw
that the words of the Haggadah
were not unfortunately were not only
ancient but literally b'chol dor v'dor
amdu aleinu l'chaloseinu v'hakodesh
baruch hu matzilenu miyadam.
So the Sfas Emes gives an
interpretation. He says sh'loi echad
bilvad literally the meaning is it's not
just one who decided to annihilate us.
You know, we had a Pharaoh, we had a
Haman, we had a Hitler. It's not one.
B'chol dor v'dor, it's in every
generation. But he said there's also a
deeper interpretation.
That even though that's true, he says
it's the sh'loi echad bilvad, it's the
fact that we are not echad.
That is amda aleinu l'chaloseinu.
The sh'loi echad bilvad it's a very
emotional very emotional idea. In other
words, people want to do what they want
to do. But the power of a unified divine
nation is so powerful
that that trumps everything.
Pun intended.
With the help of
Trump sent by God, it trumps everything.
>> [laughter]
>> May Hashem give him the strength and the
resilience not to back down in the face
of so much pressure. It's not simple.
It's not simple what's happening.
Such a
unity between Israel and America we
haven't seen in any war fighting
literally side by side. So he said it's
the sh'loi echad bilvad, that's really
amda aleinu l'chaloseinu.
And it doesn't only mean on a global
level, that's of course true, but also
in a very very individual way.
And a beautiful example for this in the
world of of of science and botany is if
you ever go to California the area of
San Francisco, you can go visit the
sequoia trees. The redwoods they're
called. Redwoods, sequoias. These are
the most ancient trees on the planet.
Some of them date back 3,000 years. Some
3,500 years and some 4,000 years. That
means you're looking at a tree that's
literally been around from the days of
Noach uh Methuselah before Moshe
Rabbeinu was born. And it's like real.
Like this tree has been here 3,500
years. It's like physical, you know,
it's not an idea, it's not a concept,
it's not a faith. It's literally looking
at the tree.
Now, scientists wondered a number of
years ago, what would be the secret of
the success of these trees? How does a
tree gain such longevity? I mean, trees
like anything in nature is threatened.
Right? You have forest fires in
California
which are actually which are actually
good for sequoias. But you have viruses
and you have infections and you have
bacteria and you have
weeds and you have worms and you have
insects and you have all different types
of creatures that attack trees and take
down trees.
4,000 years is a long long time to live
and grow. You're talking about a few
hundred feet tall often.
So they imagined that the roots of such
trees are so deep maybe 50 feet deep,
100 feet deep to be able to weather
every type of storm, every type of
tsunami, every type of attack. When you
have such powerful roots
that's the source of longevity. How
astounded they were a number of years
ago when the technology was developed to
be able to see what is happening on the
subterranean levels under the earth,
that the roots are actually very
shallow. They're sometimes four or five
feet deep. What is then the secret of
this miracle? And then they realized
something incredible.
What the roots don't have in depth they
have in breadth.
Meaning when the sequoia tree the starts
developing roots, that's the first thing
the roots like grow out on the back they
grow down and they search for sources of
water to be able to channel all the
nutrients and the energy and the water
that the tree needs. When the roots of a
sequoia tree meet the roots of another
sequoia tree
instead of just worrying about their own
roots, they entangle themselves. They
start embracing the roots of the other
tree and they make a yad achas
literally. Like like they you could
physically they entangle each other,
like they embrace each other.
And now they start searching for others.
And when they find other sequoia trees,
they all embrace each other. So on the
top of the earth it looks like you have
100 different trees. But if you go down,
they're actually all hugging each other.
So they're not they're not deep, they're
shallow. But in breadth, you can have
100 trees and all the roots are
literally interconnected integrated and
intertwined with each other.
And that you can't destroy.
You know, a storm that could destroy one
tree, they can't destroy so many trees
together.
The Sfas Emes told us Adam, the Jewish
people are the sequoias of history.
What exists in nature is always a
reflection of the inner world. We are
the sequoias of peoplehood, of of
nations. And that's what the Sfas Emes
means sh'loi echad bilvad amda aleinu
l'chaloseinu.
And it doesn't mean that the trees are
one because on top of the earth every
tree has a different personality,
different shape, different color,
different flavor, different creed,
different identity. There are
distinctions and those are not bad,
those are actually blessings. But that's
at the surface. If you go deep deep down
and the deeper you go, the more you will
encounter it, you'll see that there's an
essential oneness.
Like the Baal Hatanya says in Tanya
perek leiv, chapter heart, chapter 32,
that all neshamos are one, raksha gufim
m'chulakim. The bodies they are
manifested differently which is the way
it's supposed to be. Ein dei'os shavos.
Our faces are not the same, our mindsets
are not the same and therefore the
quality of our souls and what we
manifest in this world is not the same.
And yet on a deeper level, there is that
oneness.
So therefore as though we live distant,
but that oneness is always at the core
of everything and the success of
everything and the truth of everything
and the source of healing and blessing
for everything.
In all of this we often feel and
experience a tug in different
directions.
Like on one hand you know, this
operation has been called epic fury.
And that's what a lot of people feel
like, like epic fury. In Israel they
called it sha'agas aryeh, the roar of
the lion, which is also not a very
serene name, or as some Yeshiva boys are
calling it Shaagas Aryeh, which is one
of the very famous s'farim in learning,
Shaagas Aryeh,
the roar of the lion. Actually, I should
say l'havdil, but Shaagas Aryeh, may the
s'chus of the Shaagas Aryeh and all the
s'farim protect them. Shaagas Aryeh is
the roar of the lion. Aryeh the Navi
says, "Aryeh shaag mi lo yira?" When the
lion roars, who does not Who does not
tremble? If you've ever heard a real
lion's roar, you know exactly what that
is like. It's It literally represents
its dominance and it demonstrates its
power and its force.
So, there is that that that intensity,
that emotion. And yet, on the other
hand, everybody
even in Israel and certainly continues
to live life. There's shopping and
there's laundry and there's cooking and
there's cleaning and there's preparing
and sometimes, you know, that is very
very It's always dealing with details
and and and small things and family
dynamics and who's coming and how
they're coming and do we have enough
beds and who's getting ready and how
stressed are we and how not stressed we
are.
The combination often seems very very
very difficult, very challenging. And
generally, Pesach is called zman
cheiruseinu, it's a time of liberation.
And yet, people know that the stress
before Pesach and the levels of
dysregulation are from the highest
throughout the entire year.
So, I would like to address this on a
very in a more personal psychological
way, but through the Haggadah.
And I want [snorts] to focus on one
piece, b'ezras Hashem, one piece of the
Haggadah that we're all familiar with,
even though usually when we come to this
part of the Haggadah, exhaustion has
saturated pretty profoundly.
And some people have already lost all
their patience and they're ready for
l'shana haba'ah b'Yerushalayim or even
for Chad Gadya and certainly for the
main course.
But, every piece of the Haggadah is
really a priceless nugget.
So, before Pesach, when we still have a
little more serenity to focus on it,
gives us perspective
as we experience it and we say it on the
night of Pesach, haba aleinu v'al kol
Yisrael l'tovah v'livrachah. And this
is, of course, the famous Dayeinu piece.
And the piece of Dayeinu begins with
kamah mailos tovos l'makom aleinu, as
you can see in your first source sheet,
I quoted it from I took it from the
Haggadah, one of the Haggadahs.
And we start going through a list,
a list of things we're grateful for.
But, it's built in an interesting way.
We don't just say we're grateful for
this and this and this and this. We do
it in a very interesting way.
And that is known as Dayeinu. It would
have been enough this with this and it
would have been enough with this and it
would have been enough with this,
So, we say, "Ilu
Ilu Ilu itiyanu I don't want to bring
nightmare. I want to bring I want to
remind you of
>> [laughter]
>> One GUY WHY ARE YOU RUSHING? SING IT
SLOW. Don't sing it. Just get through
it. Whatever. Okay. Every family with
its own beautiful dynamics, just stay
present and breathe and enjoy the
moment.
So, ilu hotziyanu m'Mitzrayim v'lo asah
bahem sh'fatim, dayeinu. If he would
have taken us out of Mitzrayim and not
make sh'fatim in them, which means not
execute judgment on the Egyptians, that
would have been sufficient. Dayeinu, it
would have been enough, like day.
Ilu asah bahem sh'fatim v'lo asah
b'elohayhem, dayeinu. If he would have
If he would have executed judgment on
them but not on their gods, dayeinu. Ilu
asah b'elohayhem v'lo harag es
b'choreihem, dayeinu. He could have
executed judgment on their gods but not
killed their firstborns, would have been
beautiful. Ilu harag es b'choreihem v'lo
nasan lanu es mamonam, he could have
done that but not given us their money.
We would GO OUT WITHOUT THEIR MONEY,
DAYEINU, free people. Ilu nasan lanu es
mamonam v'lo kara lanu es ha yam,
dayeinu. Could have given us their
money, not split the sea, it would have
been beautiful, dayeinu. Next. Ilu kara
lanu es ha yam v'lo he'eviranu b'socho
b'charavah, dayeinu.
If he would have split the sea for us
but not have us pass through the sea,
through dry land.
Dayeinu, it would have been enough.
Ilu he'eviranu b'socho b'charavah v'lo
shika es tzarainu b'socho, dayeinu. If
he would have passed us through dry land
but not have them drown in the in in the
sea, dayeinu, it would have been enough.
And so, he goes through everything all
the way till coming into Eretz Yisrael,
dayeinu.
And then we finish al achas kamah
v'chamah tovos m'chupalos l'makom
aleinu, she'hotziyanu m'Mitzrayim v'asah
bahem sh'fatim v'asah b'elohayhem
v'harag es b'choreihem v'nasan lanu es
mamonam v'kara lanu es ha yam, all the
way all of this abana lanu es Beis
Hamikdash l'chaper al kol avonoseinu,
that is the piece of Dayeinu.
The m'farshim of the Haggadah, the
Haggadah has quite a lot of
commentators, quite many this quite many
many commentaries on the Haggadah for
many generations,
focus on one something that's very
enigmatic. And that is Dayeinu means it
would have been enough, it would have
worked.
And we want to be grateful for it. What
is the point of doing it this way? The
point is that gratitude always comes by
having the ability to be able to see not
just one big thing,
but to be able to be able to really in a
granular fashion identify this point and
this point and this point and not take
anything for granted. Like we spoke last
week about walking on dry land, it's the
idea of not taking anything for granted.
Because then there is so much more
appreciation.
But, there is something strange. He
says, "Ilu kara lanu es ha yam v'lo
he'eviranu b'socho b'charavah." He would
have split the sea and we wouldn't have
passed in dry land. What would that look
like? What's the Dayeinu?
The He splits the sea and we don't go
through. Why? Either the water comes
back or he doesn't want to take us
through, whatever it is. So, we're
stuck. The Egyptians came to take the
Jewish people back to Egypt. I could
understand the next one. He took us
through the dry land and he didn't have
them drown, maybe they got afraid, they
backed off. Okay, we're free. But, the
first one, you split the sea and we're
still stuck on the other side, what's
the Dayeinu?
So, some m'farshim want to say,
there's a sefer called Zevach Pesach,
the Maharal, that the focus is
b'charavah.
He didn't take us through on dry land,
meaning we went through and we got wet.
The the the the the sea was muddy and
dirty, so we didn't go through with
luxury. It wasn't Kri'as Yam Suf deluxe.
It was Kri'as Yam Suf, you know,
economy. It wasn't first class.
That's what they want to say. He would
have taken us through, but it would be
shmutzik and smelly and WOULDN'T BE
G'SHMACK. NOW, IT was b'charavah. The
question on that is, though,
in Hebrew, there's two words, charavah
and yabashah.
Yabashah is really dry. Charavah means
semi-dry. We have it by the mabul. There
was a time that charvah aretz and
yafshah aretz.
Yafshah is really dry, so the word
should have been yabashah.
He'eviranu b'socho b'yabashah much more
than b'charavah. That's number one.
Number two, when we see in Tehillim, kuf
lamed vav, which we also say at the
Seder, it's known as Hallel Hagadol,
where we do the 26 ki le'olam chasdo.
Tehillim kuf lamed vav, over there he
says, "L'gozer Yam Suf l'g'zarim ki
le'olam chasdo." The next verse.
He split the sea into different pieces,
g'zarim is different paths, ki le'olam
chasdo, because his kindness is eternal.
Then there's a new pasuk, "V'he'evir
Yisrael b'socho ki le'olam chasdo." And
he passed the Jewish people through it
because his kindness is everlasting.
What do we see here? Two separate
p'sukim.
There's one ki le'olam chasdo for
splitting the sea. There's a second ki
le'olam chasdo for taking us through the
sea. Apparently, one without the other
would be inconsequential. I mean, it's
very nice to split the sea, it's a major
dramatic event, but what would be the
benefit if not us passing through there
to be able to avoid our enemy that
wanted to who wanted to bring us back to
Egypt. So, it should have said, "L'gozer
Yam Suf l'g'zarim v'he'evir Yisrael
b'socho ki le'olam chasdo."
You see, he says two separate ones and
in two separate verses. One is kuf lamed
vav pasuk kuf gimmel, one is kuf lamed
vav pasuk yud daled, verse 13 and then
verse 14. So, here you see again that
there's two separate experiences. One is
the splitting of the sea in and of
itself. Then there's a second thing, we
actually passed through it. And that's
why the Haggadah also says, there's two
Dayeinus. One is kara lanu es ha yam,
just splitting the sea, even if we
didn't pass through it. And then there's
a whole new chesed, a whole new Dayeinu,
and that is he'eviranu b'socho, he
passed us he passed through it and it
was b'charavah.
What what what is the inyan of this,
then? How How do we How do we actually
How do we actually understand this?
What would be the benefit of splitting
the sea in and of itself? So,
this is what we say in the Haggadah.
We also know that the second half of
Pesach, the last days of Pesach,
celebrate Kri'as Yam Suf.
The first days of Pesach celebrate the
Exodus of Egypt. On the seventh day of
Pesach, Shvi'i shel Pesach, that's when
the Jewish people
walked through the sea early in the
morning and that's why we read that we
read that on Shvi'i shel Pesach and
that's what we celebrate on the seventh
day of Pesach, Kri'as Yam Suf.
In fact, a number of years ago, I got a
call from somebody, quite a few years
ago. He wants to He offered me an
invitation to go on a cruise for Pesach
where in the Red Sea.
The boat would be in the Red Sea and it
stay there for Pesach. Yeah, he invited
me to come to speak there as scholar in
residence.
So,
I don't know what I didn't get so
excited. He said, "Imagine,
Shvi'i shel Pesach, in the morning,
you'll be saying Shirah, Az Yashir, we
read the Shirah, Az Yashir Moshe u'vnei
Yisrael and Miriam's song and you'll be
doing it where? IN THE YAM SUF, IN THE
RED SEA. LIKE, HOW CAN IT GET BETTER?"
SO, I told him, "Okay, I'll do it but
with one condition, if you could
guarantee that it's going to split.
I want to say Shirah on the Kri'as Yam
Suf." He said, "That I can't guarantee."
So, I said, "Okay, so I'm going to do it
spiritually wherever I am."
>> [laughter]
>> But, I still remember that invitation. I
don't know it ever worked out. I didn't
hear about it.
So, we have a very special celebration
for Krias Yam Suf.
Now, that's also very, very interesting
because actually
what is fascinating is that Tosfos
writes in Maseches Erchin, if you're
familiar with the geography or how the
Jewish people left Egypt and started
their journey, they didn't have to go
through the Yam Suf.
They literally didn't need it. Not only
that, according to Chazal, they went in
a semicircle.
They went in and they didn't go across.
They came out from the same side.
Literally, the same side they went in,
it was like a semicircle. They came up
from the same side.
So, that's an interesting thing. That
means that Krias Yam Suf wasn't a
practical solution in order to get to
the other side. It was rather an
objective in and of itself. So, you
might say in order to drown the
Egyptians. But just like there were
other 10 plagues, he could have had a
lot of other ways of getting rid of
them. So, this means that Krias Yam Suf
had some inherent objective in and of
itself. And that's why the Haggadah
points out the Dayeinu of Krias Yam Suf
itself.
Let's understand what this is cuz this
gives us a perspective
not just on Pesach and on Krias Yam Suf
and on Dayeinu, but on all of life
itself.
And in order to appreciate this, we're
going to learn a term from the Zohar
today. You'll see in your next source.
This is the introduction to the Tikunei
Zohar, now known as Patach Eliyahu. And
he says Hashem created two types of
worlds.
Almin Stimmin v'Almin d'Isgalin.
Almin Stimmin literally means Sasa means
concealed.
Isgalin from the word Gili means
revealed. There are concealed worlds and
there are revealed worlds. Now, what
does that mean? What does the Zohar mean
concealed worlds and revealed worlds?
So, there's a maamar from one of the
great masters known as the Mitteler
Rebbe, the son of the Baal HaTanya,
which begins with the words Baka Yam
Lifnei Moshe, which we say in the
evening in Maariv, Hashem split the sea
before Moshe and the Jewish people,
Zecharya Hanavi Amru.
And there he gives tremendous
perspective on this whole this whole
idea of what Krias Yam Suf is and how it
relates to our lives. And another
interesting thing is that there's a
halacha that we have to mention Krias
Yam Suf every single day.
In the Torah it says to mention Yetzias
Mitzrayim every day, L'maan tiskor es
yom tzeischa mimitzrayim kol y'mei
chayecha. We say it also in the
Haggadah. But in addition to that,
Chazal say in the Tosefta Berachos that
there's a mitzvah to mention Krias Yam
Suf there, and that's what we do in
Shacharis twice. We do Az Yashir, we
literally do the song every day, and
then before Shemoneh Esrei there's a
whole section, Ezra's Avos Avraham,
Yitzchak, v'Yaakov, we go through the
story of the splitting of the sea.
Why is that so important? Apparently,
every single day Krias Yam Suf has to be
remembered, including the Dayeinu.
So, the idea here is
we could understand it through a
physical contemplation of the difference
between the sea
and the dry land.
Everybody knows there's a very special
attraction in going to the water.
When you go on vacation to the beach,
there's something very special about it.
Even people who live near the ocean
often years later still marvel at the
beauty, even though it says ta'anug
tmidi einu ta'anug. But nonetheless, if
you don't live by it, everybody knows
there's a something very special that
when you go to the water, you walk by
the water, or you see the water, you
wake up in the morning and you see a
sunrise over the ocean, or you take a
cruise into the ocean, there's something
very moving about it.
So, you could say on one level
it's beautiful. It's really, really
beautiful.
And it's true, it is it is beautiful.
But there is always there's something
much deeper.
And what it is much deeper is it stirs
something in a person. It reminds us of
something.
It's not just it's not just there's an
ocean, it's water, the grandness, the
expansiveness, which is all true, just
watching the waves, hearing the waves,
seeing the sight, the broadness, the
expansiveness, that's all part of it.
Water generally has something very
special. Most of the body is made up of
water. Our formation is in the amniotic
sac of our mothers, which is of course
we are submerged in water, and then
there's a Krias Yam Suf, which the
Arizal says birth is Krias Yam Suf.
It's literally Krias Yam Suf when Kria
means tearing, when things tear open and
the souls can come out as the Jewish
people went through it.
There's something very deep about this
experience.
And that is the following. The
difference between creatures that live
in the sea or the oceans
or the rivers and creatures that live in
dry land, amphibian creatures that live
in water, or creatures that live what's
called by yabasha on dry land, like
humans and mammals and so forth, is as
follows. When you come to the ocean, you
usually don't see the millions and
millions or billions and billions of
living fish and organisms under the
water. If you ever went snorkeling, if
you went snorkeling or scuba diving,
it's an incredible experience because
you go under the water and suddenly
there's like a whole universe that you
never knew about. The Gemara says Kol ma
she b'chulin kol ma she b'yam yesh
b'yabasha, kol ma she b'yabasha yesh
b'yam. Whatever is on the is in the dry
land you'll find in the sea, whatever is
in the sea you'll find in dry land, but
the difference is when you come to the
seas or the oceans, it's invisible. You
have to go down and sometimes deep down,
and even till today, when there's so
much research and so much incredible
awareness, they still they estimate one
or two million species of fish that they
still don't know about. So, you're
talking even today, thousands of years
after creation, millions of species of
fish that they don't even know about.
They push it, don't know about. I'm not
talking about actual fish. That's the
billions, but talking about species,
species of fish that they estimate we
don't know about, even though we know
already million Most people can't name
more than a few types of fish. Of
course, we have tuna, we have the hake,
and we have the carp. And if you want,
you can mention gefilte fish and sushi
if you really know about fish. But uh
salmon, of course, we won't forget
salmon and Chilean sea bass and of
course and turbot and all of the other
good stuff.
However, there's still there's still so
much we don't know about. Why? Cuz it's
invisible. The creatures of dry land,
you see.
Just like we see each other, and any
creature on dry land, whether it's a
squirrel or a deer or a bear or a
groundhog or a raccoon or a lioness or
an elephant or a tiger or a or an
antelope or a giraffe, we could see it.
So, that's one difference. Creatures of
the sea are invisible, creatures of dry
land are chasuf, they're conspicuous,
they're revealed. There's another
difference. And that is, as Rabbi Akiva
famously gave his metaphor, the moment
you take a fish out of the water, it
can't survive.
Not only does it have to be near the
water or on top of the water, it needs
to be submerged in the water.
It is so profound that there's an
opinion, it's not the halacha, but
there's an opinion of Shimon ben Gamliel
who holds that when somebody goes to the
mikvah, a fish if a fish gets stuck,
it's not a chatzitza. Again, it's not
the halacha because fish are completely
like one with the water. So, they're not
separate from water. That is the view of
Rabbi Shimon ben Gamliel in Mishna, even
though the Chachamim argue with him and
they say a person should take out the
fish or part of the fish that gets
stuck. It is a chatzitza. But what does
this mean? What this means is that
creatures of the sea, in order to live,
they can't just they don't have to be
near the water, they're completely
submerged in the water.
Submerged, submerged, invisible, and
inside the source of their life.
People or creatures on dry land, we also
live from the earth. We all need the
earth. Hakol hayim min ha'aretz. Without
earth, nobody could live because it's
earth that gives us all the produce.
It's earth that trees that give us
oxygen. Even if you're eating animals,
the animals get their nutrients from the
earth and what grows from the earth. So,
everybody needs the earth. But if you'll
offer a person and say, "Oh, you need
the earth, so why don't you go inside
the earth?" We know that when somebody's
put inside the earth, it means that they
already passed away.
Right? So, it's exact it's exactly an
opposite.
It's exact It's It's fine. It's exactly
an opposite dynamic.
If somebody comes to a fish and says,
"You know, I would like to honor you for
all your service to humanity and to the
universe and to the planet for so many
years, and therefore I'm going to invite
you to come to a dinner. We're going to
take pictures.
We're going to make you famous. We're
going to you know, give you a channel, a
YouTube channel. Everybody will talk
about you.
And and you'll you'll you'll get a lot
of honor." And the fish, if it could
speak, will tell you Tubenish kein a
toyvis. Don't do me any favors. I would
love to remain as invisible as possible
forever.
Because it's my invisibility that is
actually the source of my life. The
moment I become visible, too visible,
maybe for a second I could jump up, that
is death.
If you come to a person
and you say, "So, why don't you go to
the fish? Like be like the fish, right?
Let's make you as invisible as possible.
Go into the source." And that for a
person or for a mammal means chas
v'shalom the opposite of life. Birds fly
above the earth. Even produce, it grows
not inside the earth. It comes out.
Fish remain inside.
So, what does this teach us?
The meaning of life for a fish is to be
eclipsed and covered and invisible,
submerged in its source of life, which
is the water.
That which is life for the fish is death
for a human being or a mammal living on
dry land. What spells life for one
creature spells death for the other.
On the contrary, what spells life for us
spells death for the fish if it would be
taken out from being submerged and and
and and invisible. Why? We can't live in
the ocean, and we can't live under the
earth. On the contrary, that's the
that's the space of burial.
This is all a metaphor. It's a metaphor
for life.
There's two states of life. There's two
states of consciousness.
There is the consciousness of the sea
and the consciousness of dry land.
That's what the Zohar means. There's
almond stymie
and almond the isgalion.
Almond stymie is the world of water and
almond the isgalion is the world of
dry land. What is the difference? What
is the difference?
There is existence that is similar to
the existence of the fish.
When you're looking for the fish, it's
invisible. He's inside the water,
completely submerged in the water. And
in fact, if you take out the fish to
take a picture or to spend time with
him, the fish says, "You're killing me.
You're killing me." In other words,
if you want me to be alive, you can't
see me.
I need to be covered over in the water
and that's the most beautiful place to
be.
What does this represent in life? This
represents a state of life where there's
no eye, there's no ego outside of the
source of life.
Literally, like a fish inside the water.
So, what is there? There is the water.
THE FISH IS A FULLY ALIVE, but what
makes it alive? That it's actually not
separate even for a moment. The moment
you take it out even for 5 seconds, it's
over. I once had a student
and a very, very deep soul. He was a
baal teshuvah.
And he told me that his teshuvah process
began with an experience that he had
when he was 4 years old.
He wanted to have
a gift, a goldfish for his birthday. So,
his mother bought him a beautiful
goldfish with a tank of water and the
goldfish was in the dining room in the
living room and he loved his goldfish.
But he told me, "I felt bad for it. Life
was so boring. The goldfish would stay
in one place for like 12 hours
and then go to the other side and then
stay there for another 10 hours. I'm
like, that's not a life.
That is so boring and uneventful.
There's no relationships. So, I decided
I want to become its friend."
So, I took out the goldfish.
And suddenly,
IT BECAME LEBEDIK. IT'S JUMPING NOT
JUMPING UP AND DOWN. I PUT IT ON THE
FLOOR AND I RUN TO THE KITCHEN. I SAY,
"MA, THE FISH IS SO EXCITED to have a
friend." And the mother is like, "What
do you mean?" HE SAYS, "I TOOK IT OUT
AND IT'S JUMPING ALL OVER THE PLACE.
THERE'S EXCITEMENT." AND the mother
said, "Oy oy oy oy oy oy oy oy oy!
You're killing it." Comes running and
that moment, it breathed its last and
it was gone.
>> [laughter]
>> Yeah.
I'm sorry.
And this boy told me something very
profound. He said, "I realized sometimes
you see people and they're jumping all
over the place. Every night there's
another event. They're excited because
they're busy dying.
And sometimes you have a person in one
space, very, very calm,
very internal, very regulated, but
they're busy living. Either I'm busy
living or I'm busy dying. And living
doesn't always look exciting on the
outside.
Sometimes it's actually the frequencies
that are most invisible even to the ego
itself. It's like, "That's nothing."
It's everything. That fish was not
lonely. That fish was not depressed. He
was projecting his own stuff on the
fish.
And he said it taught him a lot as he
grew up and he watched different friends
of his. He asked himself, "Am I busy
living or am I busy running from one
distraction to another distraction?" And
yes, there's always something going on.
Every night there's a new event.
But it's actually it's not really alive.
So, now if we take this to the internal
landscape of a person,
the life of the water, the life of the
fish in the water, that's called almond
stymie, a concealed world. What does it
mean it's a concealed world? Not that
it's not alive. That there's no
separateness from the source of life.
The source of life is what is visible.
And the fish's entire objective is to be
as invisible as possible, to be
submerged completely.
In order to explain what this means
practically, I mean practically, what
this means in our life, take a look at
your next source. This is the third, the
fourth source, the third to the last.
The baal Tanya says,
very, very deep words.
I'm going to translate and then explain.
Every single existence and yesh that
exists is really
invisible and considered subsumed in the
divine power that activates it and
brings it into existence every moment
from nothingness to somethingness.
Why does every created being seem so
real and its ego so powerful? Because we
don't see the divine energy in it.
If the eye would be given permission to
detect
the divine energy of every single
creation that is flowing in it and
through it from Hashem's mouth, we
wouldn't even notice the physicality of
it and its physical substance because it
is completely subsumed in the divine
energy.
Cuz without that energy, we'd be naught
and nothing like it was before the 6
days of creation.
And it's the divine energy that flows in
it, which is literally extricating it
from nothingness into somethingness. And
therefore, anything outside of it
doesn't have a real existence besides
embodying that divine energy. What is he
saying here? Saying here something that
the truth is, when this was written in
the 1700s, it was hard to understand
this.
But today, actually, even in the world
of science and physics, this language is
already very, very common. So, one way
of understanding it or just to try to
bring it down a little bit is as
follows. What he's really telling us
here is that every physical reality that
we touch, we see within ourselves or in
the world, is really just a physical
embodiment of divine energy. It's the
divine energy becoming incarnated
and assuming a physical manifestation, a
physical identity. But it's the way our
physical eyes can translate spiritual
energy.
And I'll give you a very interesting
There was a very famous physicist. His
name was Heisenberg. And he had a big
fight with Albert Einstein about quantum
mechanics and so forth. And he gave a
brilliant, brilliant metaphor. He said
there was a fisherman
who decided that he wants to determine
how many fish are there in the Pacific
Ocean. So, he built this grand net and
he put it down into the Pacific Ocean
for a few weeks and then lifted it up
and he had all these millions of fish.
And he said there's no fish that's
smaller than 10 inches.
And he became the laughing stock of
humanity cuz in your own living room,
you have fish that are smaller than 10
inches. Your starter fish, your
goldfish. And then they realized he
actually wasn't lying. You know what the
issue was? The holes in the net were 10
inches.
The holes in the net were 10 inches, so
there were no fish smaller than 10
inches. It's the tools that we use to
define reality that will determine the
nature of reality that we are going to
define. So, now my eyes have a construct
that God gave them. It's the retina.
It's the way we process things. So, my
eyes interpret divine energy as
something physical.
Just like there are colors we can't see.
Birds can see them. There are sounds
dogs can hear, we can't hear them. Not
because they don't exist. Those colors
exist, but our eyes simply don't have
the receptacles, the sensors to be able
to interpret it. So, what do we say? It
doesn't exist. Cuz that's what it does.
It doesn't say it exists and I don't see
it. No, it doesn't exist.
I don't have the kaylim. The way eyes
interpret reality is it's physical. So,
the baal Tanya says if we had
microscopic eyes,
what would happen if we had actually
microscopic eyes? If I'm looking at this
bima, you know what I would be seeing? I
would be seeing trillions and trillions
and trillions of atoms. Literally. And
it wouldn't be We call this domem. Domem
means lifeless. This is anything but
lifeless. As we're talking, in the point
of a needle, in the point of a pen, in
the point of your pencil that you're
using right now, in the pencil that
you're using right now, whatever you're
writing with, that point has atoms
beyond what we can even say. It's not
trillions, it's not zillions, it's
beyond. Because atoms are the building
blocks of matter, but it's so tiny, the
eye can't see it. So, the eye makes it a
solid reality and we say this is it. So,
who's right? They're both right. From an
external perspective, it's one big
solid. If you go a little deeper and you
use micro you use a microscope, you see
a whole different universe. So, the baal
Tanya says if you go even deeper,
if you have a spiritual microscope, you
know what you're going to see? You're
going to see it's all divine energy.
It's all basar mamash
And as a result of that, he says when if
you would see the world that way, you
would just see the physical simply as
just manifesting energy. Everything is
manifesting energy. Our eyes, therefore,
our eyes cannot detect that. So, that's
what he says. If the eye would have
permission to see,
and the moment the eye does have
permission to see, the whole world
essentially is divine energy. It's a
divine flow.
And our eyes are interpreting it a
particular way.
So, now now
And and the truth is that even in in
plain plain science and physics
anything anything in the physical world
is made up of molecules.
Everything. Molecules are atoms
combined. Literally. They're atoms
combined. Every atom is made up of
subatomic particles. Most of an atom 99%
of an atom is empty space. Literally
empty space. As somebody once said
half jokingly that if you wanted to take
actually the matter of the planet,
anything that's real matter it could fit
into a carry-on suitcase. Because most
of it is really really empty space. And
at the source of it all is
which is divine energy.
The creatures of stemmen feel this.
They're aware of this. They have
microscopic eyes that see the divine
energy in everything. So, therefore if
you would come to such a type of
creature and say I want to see you.
I want to see your ego. I want to see
you. And the person would say
you want to kill me. You want to kill
me.
The moment there's an eye outside of the
source is like literally taking a fish
and taking it out of the water
and celebrating it. You're killing me.
On that level of reality
all ego is a death sentence. Because ego
is easing God out. Ego. Easing greatness
out.
Easing It's
It's detaching myself from the source of
my life.
The beauty of life here is definition of
life is
that it's completely completely
submerged in cosmic oneness.
And it's just channeling it. Channeling
it. There's no self-consciousness
outside of that. There's no
self-conscious Self-consciousness is the
greatest form of death. Some people live
for ego. Live for validation. Live for
attention.
For a creature of this world, that's the
worst thing in the world. The worst
thing in the world is that you notice me
that even I notice me.
Because the very experience of a self
outside of the source of life
is already not just a migraine headache,
but it's the greatest tragedy for this
type of creature. It's literally like
taking a fish outside of the water.
That's called almond stemmen. It's a
world it exists like fish, but
completely invisible. What do I mean
invisible? Not that it's not alive. It's
invisible as anything outside of the
source. It's completely aligned. It's
completely submerged. It just feels
itself as a complete channel. Like we
spoke many times
like he can not again
when the one who sings becomes like the
nigen itself. Just channeling channeling
channeling the music.
So
This is the reason the Gamara says that
arrogance is like a void is a raw.
Why? Why is arrogance like idolatry?
So, the Tanya explains in chapter 22
something very very powerful.
Because
why am I looking
for ego? Why do I need you to validate
me? Why do I need your attention? Why do
I need to be boastful? Why? What is it?
Why do I need people to adore me? What
is it? The answer is cuz I'm so broken.
Because I feel myself lonely and
separate from the source.
So, my eye
is a broken eye. So, the eye needs
somebody to build it up. So, the more
you can validate me
the more my fake eye can start believing
it has existence. And it's never enough.
It's like the cup in the hole. You can
pour and pour and pour and it never
really fills it up. You know why? Cuz
the eye doesn't really exist. Cuz the
eye is really submerged in the source.
So, really the eye
doesn't want to be separate. The eye
just wants to channel the source which
is Hashem.
And that's why
What's
the source of is the idea
that you are lonely, broken, separate
from the source. The fish is outside of
the water. So, the fish wants to live.
So, the fish creates a new definition
for life. And that is Imagine the fish
is outside of the water and it wants to
live. So, it says, "You know what? We're
going to call death life." That's what
we're going to do. So, the fish is now
dead and we start calling it life and
the fish starts imagining that it's
alive and that's what the ego does.
Literally it's what it does. And that's
why it's so torturous.
That's why it's so torturous. Those who
live in this frequency I used to live
this. I'm speaking from experience.
Those who live in this frequency I still
sometimes live there. It's daily work
not to live there. But those who live
those who understand the struggle, it's
very deep. It's not just an ego. It's
anything where I am trying to build
something that doesn't really exist. And
yet I'm trying to give it validity and
give it power and invest more in
camouflaging the truth in order to be
able to survive. Ultimately
it does not work. It's futile.
Because the source of life is one source
of life. And the greatest bliss of the
soul is to be completely submerged
submerged in that place. So, the
beginning of the source of is not
idolatry. The source of
is that I think that I'm anything
outside of a channel of the infinity.
I'm broken. I'm alone. In fact, the word
in Hebrew is evil. But the source of the
word the etymology is in
which means broken.
It's interesting. The word in Hebrew for
evil is broken. In Gamara we have
you could test your son
raw. A bad wall. What do you mean a bad
wall? How is a wall bad? The definition
of is flimsy, shaky, wobbly, broken.
Why? Why is that raw? Because the source
of raw is a sense of brokenness.
A sense that I'm separate I'm separate
from the source. The source is one.
Hashem
one.
But I'm separate. I'm broken. So, ego
now is broken. I'm So, now and I want to
live.
So, I have to build it up. So, now
everybody finds ways how to build it up.
One person needs validation. Another
person becomes a people pleaser. Another
person becomes a high achiever. Another
person is in control of everything.
Another person becomes
Everything has to be predictable.
Everything Whatever it is I find
mechanisms in order to be able to feel
that I'm small and safe, but at least
I'm in control.
I'm in control. Now it gets depleted.
So, tomorrow I need more stuff and more
stuff and more stuff. Some people do it
through binging and some people do it
through their phone and some people do
it through distractions and some people
do it through crushes and different
types of relationships and all different
types of things. But the point is I'm
trying to feed a self that is
desperately looking to nurture something
that is essentially broken.
And that's why
arrogance is called
It's not a judgmental statement. It's
more a compassionate statement to
understand what I'm looking for. I'm
looking for to invest and validate my
most broken non-existent part. So,
therefore stemmen is a world where this
is so clear
that I don't want anything outside of
the source. In fact visibility is a
punishment.
>> [laughter]
>> You know the
once told his students revealed himself
he said he was told by his teacher
that because he sinned whatever his sin
was he's going to be punished. And
what's the punishment? The punishment is
that he has to reveal himself to the
world. So, what for the whole world was
a reward the greatest light that existed
for him was a punishment. Like
right?
Right? It's hard for people to
understand this cuz so many people they
search for the attention. But real real
people is the exact opposite. They did
it because it's a cuz that's what wants.
had to come out and had to come out and
so forth. But essentially on a deeper
level it's like the less visibility
the
more healthy it is.
Why can't I speak? So, the says cuz like
a fish fish don't even utter sounds.
People speak. Mammals utter sounds.
Fish don't even do that. BECAUSE IT'S
COMPLETE
I DON'T EVEN HAVE A SOUND. PEOPLE THINK
THEY'RE SOPHISTICATED. We have words.
Shut up.
Look who's talking. I could talk more
about not talking and
right? It says that when a child is born
in the womb we learn the whole Torah.
And then the child is born the comes so
right? They always told you that this is
there. Yeah? And then the kid asked his
teacher, "So, why do the Japanese have
it?" So, you got a
just like THE
AND THEY FORGET THE WHOLE TORAH. WHAT
DOES THIS MEAN? WELL, it comes and he
gives you a little thing on your mouth.
What what What is that?
What is that?
So, the says something very profound. He
says it represents the mouth which gives
you the ability to speak. He says the
moment we stop talking we start talking
we forget the Torah that we learned in
the womb. Cuz the Torah that you learned
in the womb was one and words
categorize. They define things.
So, that's where we start thinking of
life in a compartmentalized way. said
I can't talk.
I'm submerged in the water. What is
Why was he named
KEEP ME
IN
SO, JUST BECAUSE YOU PLUCKED THEM OUT OF
THE WATER THAT'S HIS NAME?
NO, that's his essence. Even when he was
out of the water he came from water.
Fish don't even utter a sound.
Completely invisible. THAT'S WHY HE'S
THE MOST humble person on earth. He's
not the most humble person cuz he
doesn't know who he is. Of course he
knew who he was. wasn't naive. Humility
doesn't MEAN YOU'RE TALL AND YOU SAY
YOU'RE SHORT. I'M SMART AND I SAY I'M
DUMB. THAT'S NOT HUMILITY. THAT'S
STUPIDITY.
WHEN SOMEBODY HAS A SKILL and a talent
that God gave them it's not humble to
say
That's not humility. It's fake. You know
when people get up at a Sheva Brachas
and they say I have nothing to say.
And I'm you'll forgive my arrogance and
I'm thinking like I agree. And then the
person says and then the person says and
after everything talking about humility,
after everything that was said a whole
night cuz there were already 13
speeches, I don't have anything to add.
And I'm thinking great, say mazel tov
and sit down. And 45 minutes later, he
still HAS WHAT TO ADD.
AT LEAST IN HIS OWN ESTIMATION. WE learn
sometimes to be humble, but it's not
very authentic. I have nothing to say. I
don't believe that he doesn't believe
that. So, if you don't believe it, don't
say I have nothing to say.
Say I want to share something. I hope
it's I want it to come from my heart and
then say it. Try to say it short. I
should learn from that. Yeah, there was
a guy who once
There was a guy who once introduced a
speaker. He says, "This speaker DOESN'T
NEED AN INTRODUCTION. HE needs an
ending." Yeah.
>> [laughter]
>> And the And the MC was right. The MC was
right.
Yeah, there was a there was a professor
of of of physics who was a little too
arrogant for his brain. And he spoke at
a conference. He was supposed to speak
for 45 minutes, reveal his his
revelations. So, the head of the
conference, the chairman, comes over to
him right before and he says,
"Professor,
7 minutes. Speak for 7 minutes." He was
so insulted. He said, "WHAT AM I GOING
TO SAY IN 7 MINUTES?" HE SAID, "SPEAK
SLOWLY."
>> [laughter]
>> OKAY, very good. Not Not all my
audiences get that. Wow, I'm very proud.
You wanted to ask something?
Great question. Great question.
Is the need to be seen only from the
animal consciousness that feels separate
from Hashem? That's a beautiful
beautiful question. So, the truth is is
the need to be seen, the need to be
seen, acknowledged, validated,
is that only a need of the animal soul
that feels broken and therefore is
looking for that external validation, or
is it deeper than that? That's a
beautiful question. It's a beautiful
question because it can come from two
different places. It can come from a
place of real brokenness.
I'll I be to be honest and vulnerable, I
I I I I know this so well because there
were years of my life where when I
finished the class, I would seek the
validation from the audience.
And
it was it was a very torturous feeling
because it's not like seeking validation
in order to get feedback which is
constructive. People understood, they
didn't understand. It was amazing. It
could have been more clear. Whatever
that's it's Feedback is good, right? You
want to taste your dish to see if it's
too salty or if it's too sweet. That's
not a bad thing. But I knew inside that
there was something wounded that I was
searching to compensate. I was searching
to fill. But that void you can't fill
through anybody. You can only fill it
internally. And the And I knew it, but I
didn't understand it fully. But this is
exactly where one has to be able to
ascertain where it's coming from. What
is the need here? What am I searching
for?
So, in the world of almond stymie, the
invisibility becomes the most blissful
experience. Moshe Rabbeinu says
because he was always in ecstasy. You
know, when you ever came to the Grand
Canyon, the first 30 seconds you can't
like breathe or speak.
You know, Moshe Rabbeinu was always like
In the presence of infinity, he was so
mesmerized. He was so mesmerized, he
couldn't talk. That's what the Alter
Rebbe says in one of his discourses. He
couldn't talk. He was like
Like literally, he's always like, "How
do you catch your breath?" Like this
this is this is incredible. This is
amazing.
Helen Keller writes that
somebody once came back from a hike in
the forest.
You know, Helen Keller once said, "The
only thing that's worse than not having
eyesight is lacking vision."
So, she said somebody came back from the
forest and Helen Keller said, "How was
it?" And the person said it was boring.
And Helen Keller said, "What? How can
you go out to nature
and call it boring?"
There was once a a Yeshiva bochur who
came to Rabbi Adin Steinsaltz. Rabbi
Adin having a soul. And he said, "You
know, the davening is so boring. Every
day the same thing. Hallelujah.
Hallelujah. Hallelujah. Look, I'm done.
I'm done. I know it already. Done." So,
Rabbi Steinsaltz says, "It's true. The
davening is boring The The davening is
the text is the same, but the person is
different. You're not today who you were
yesterday. Your struggles, your your
experiences, your internal emotions,
that's what makes it exciting."
And he says, "And what if not?"
Then he says, "So, it's not the davening
that's boring. You're boring. What do
you want? You're just like the SAME
YOU'RE THERE'S NOTHING HAPPENING. LIKE
FIND YOURSELF. Find your energy. Like
what are you dealing with? Let's see
your emo- Emotions are never boring.
Come on."
People's experiences are not boring.
They're not boring. In fact, if God's
energy is flowing through you every
moment, THAT'S NOT BORING. Ain Sof.
INFINITY HAS NEVER BEEN BORING. It's
never going to be boring. It can't be
boring cuz it's infinite. And infinity
never gets old cuz it's infinite. It's
not even defined by time. So, every day
it's as fresh AS IT GETS.
REAL Real energy never gets boring.
There's no such a thing. WE GET BORED
because we're in touch with fake energy,
not real energy. Fake energy gets stale.
Real energy can't get stale.
It can't. It's flowing. It's It's alive.
It's Ain Sof. It's infinite. That's what
it means that the world has a core. That
core is real.
Brokenness means I don't even know about
this part of the world. I just know
about matrix. It's simulations. It's
like fake energy. You understand what
I'm saying? Does this not the first
state? Okay. All too well, huh?
So, so now let's understand
This is also where real connection
between people come from. The
The end of the pasuk is Ani Hashem.
What's the connection?
Love somebody else like yourself. Ani
Hashem. Because essentially, when you go
to the ocean, what do you see? You see
oneness.
Even though on the bottom, inside the
ocean, there's diversity, but you see
oneness.
The moment we go into the frequency of
the divine that we're all part of, there
is oneness.
We may be different personalities like
the sequoia trees.
We may be different personalities, but
on a deeper level, there's a cosmic
oneness that connects us. Over there
there's no competitiveness. It's like
the rays of the sun, they don't compete
with each other because there's enough
light for every ray. It's not like the
ray coming into this barn is like, "I'm
jealous of the ray in THE OTHER HOUSE.
STOP SHINING. Why should I stop
shining?" We're both manifesting the sun
in different homes, in different
environments. That's what real unity
looks like. That's what real connection
looks like. That's what a powerful
relationship looks like. Ani Hashem.
When you recognize the Ani, I see it's
Ain.
The letters of Ain, the whole Yesh comes
from the Ain. So, then there's a very
very very powerful unity.
Now, let's take this one step further.
The Gemara says in Maseches Tamid, Eizo
chacham haroeh es hanolad. What does
that mean? Who is a wise person?
Somebody who sees that which is born.
Literally, it means wise people see the
future. They don't just see now, they
see what will be born. They could look
at things 5 years ahead, 10 years ahead.
They see consequences. It's called
long-term vision. But the question is
then it should have said Eizo chacham
haroeh masheyi voled, not haroeh es
hanolad. Not they see what is born now.
For that you don't HAVE TO BE A CHACHAM.
THE BABY IS BORN. EVERYBODY COULD see
the baby. They see the future. Haroeh
masheyi voled. What's haroeh es hanolad?
So, there's an incredible incredible
interpretation in your next source, the
second to last source, Tanya perek mem
gimmel.
So rich. Eizo chacham haroeh es hanolad
peirush she roeh kol davar ein nolad
venisav meayin leyash bidvar Hashem
veruach piv.
Piv kol tzva.
Eizo chacham haroeh es hanolad means you
see that the whole world is being born
right now.
You see the Yesh as emerging, birth
being birthed from the Ain, from the
source. The source is called Ain, which
means nothing, but really means no
thing. Because a thing can't give birth
to everything cuz it's just one thing.
But no thing is the place of
possibility. It's the place of Ain.
That's the source from which all
creativity happens. In life generally,
when we're dealing with a lot, it's one
of the hardest things, but also one of
the most beautiful things, is to go into
a place of Ain. Meaning, I am stuck in
my perception of my kids should be like
this, my husband, my wife, the seder,
whatever it is. I don't have the
answers. But can I go into a place where
I don't have to have the answers? I
could just be comfortable with not
knowing. And just like
No, no, no, you'll see. Part of us NO,
NO, NO, YOU HAVE to know. You have to
figure it out. You have to make A CALL.
YOU HAVE TO TEXT. CAN I be comfortable
in that place? Cuz actually in that
place, from there everything is created.
All the possibility comes from there.
So, Eizo chacham haroeh es hanolad. I
constantly look at everything, but I
don't allow myself to get stuck in the
existence and the ego of this existence.
I see that it's being born. It's being
born right now. It's being born from the
source. And that's what he says. Ve'eilu
zoise ad hashamayim ve'aretz vechol
tzva'am beteilim umati'us mamash bidvar
Hashem veruach piv. Uchol im mamash
chashuvi ve'ayin ve'efes mamash kibitul
or veziv hashemesh beguf hashemesh
atzma. It's an example, the ray of the
sun inside the sun itself.
Imagine the ray of the sun inside the
solar core. When we look at the ray of
the sun, it already left the sun. In
fact, it takes 8 minutes for light to
travel from the sun to us. So, the sun
that you see now is not the sun existing
now. It's the sun 8 minutes ago. Cuz
light travels 186,000
miles per second. You don't have to
remember all this information and be
tested. You're going to be tested by the
seder. Okay.
I'm sorry I'm speaking fast because
I want to get a lot in and you can hear
a recording if you need to or just take
it in. It's fine. But the sun light is
an incredible thing. It travels 186,000
miles per second. The sun The for the
light of the sun to get to us takes 8
minutes. 186,000 miles per second. You
can make a cheshbon how much 8 minutes
is. It's a long, long talukha. It's a
long journey. It's a long parade.
And it actually comes here. The reason
we see the ray is because it LEFT THE
SUN.
INSIDE the sun, you have much more
energy, much more heat. In fact,
nobody's ever thinking, even Elon Musk,
of landing on the sun. The moon, yeah.
Other planets, yeah. Mars, maybe. But
the sun, no. Cuz if you get close to the
sun, you become French toast or in our
case, American toast.
And it's not even toast. There's nobody
to tell the story. RIGHT. SO, INSIDE THE
SUN, YOU HAVE MUCH MORE INTENSITY. But
over there, it's just inside the sun. It
doesn't have an ego. Outside of the sun,
it's the ray. It's separate. So, the
Baal Hatanya says, really,
in the metaphor in spirituality, the sun
is here. Hashem is here. The ray is
inside the sun. Azo chochem ro'eh es
hanolad. So, the person lives with such
a sense of intimacy in the source. Like
the child in the womb. Completely
subsumed in the womb. It's not separate.
That's what real bittul means. It's not
I don't have an ego because I'm a
shmata. I don't have an ego because I'm
infinite. The fish doesn't have an ego
not because it's a shmata, because it's
alive. The more alive, the less death.
The more alive, the less ego. The more
ego, the less alive. The reason I need a
big ego is cuz I'm not alive. Whenever
you're really alive, you don't need any
external validation. The same is true
with anxiety. The same is true with
depression. The same is true with
laziness. The same is true with people
boasting. All of these things anger,
arrogance. These are all normal things,
normal emotions that we all deal with.
But they're usually coming from a place
in me that's broken. And because it's
broken, I have to The brokenness has to
go into different emotional postures in
order to feel that it survives. So, one
person is looking for validation.
Another person does it through always
being nervous and anxious. And that way
I'm in control. I need to be in control.
This is a way of living. Some of you may
relate to it. If you don't relate to it,
that's pretty amazing.
For some reason, I think some of us
relate to it. If I'm in control, it's
good. And whenever life throws a
curveball, and I'm not in control
anymore, so what do I do? Either I fall
apart. I get angry. I start making deals
with God. I get resentful. I get upset.
I need somebody to blame.
Or on the OTHER HAND, I BUCKLE under and
I take more control.
I now get more in control. Now I become
even more assertive and aggressive and
predictable until I can't anymore.
And that's when I fall apart. And then
one of two things happens. Either we
crack open and we let go.
And that's called bliss.
Or or
what happens is we never let go.
And that's when our system starts
rebelling.
Our system starts rebelling. There's a
lot of pain. There's a lot of ache.
There's a lot of disassociation.
And there's a lot of lot of anger and
rage and resentment. And these are all
normal things.
We're actually living now in a
generation. It's a fascinating time now.
I'm just telling you my observations.
But I feel that they're somehow
authentic. And that is people have been
holding together
things so much for such a long time. And
have done it well. Have done it well.
And that was the model that deep down
everybody felt is the way to go.
And it's simply not working even for the
most successful successful people. And
it's not even rational. Because you look
at a person, okay? Baruch Hashem, he can
afford a hundred people to help him
clean his house for Pesach. Help him
clean the Pesach. There are such people.
Thank God. Let everybody have that
money. And there is comfort. And there's
prosperity. And like from a physical
technical level, he has things or she
has things that their grandparents
couldn't even dream of in their sweetest
dreams.
And yet,
falling apart. Why? Why they falling
apart? The real answer is the closer we
get to redemption,
there is an invitation for truth.
There's an invitation for authenticity.
And as long as I was holding everything
together by camouflaging
and wearing masks and keeping it
together even though I didn't realize,
the more the fake energy can't really
enter into truth. So, it's the
truthfulness that's helping us crack
open. And it's tremendous gift. But the
gift comes with fear. The fear is to
really really let go. It's not easy.
It's not easy. The animal soul that's
detached doesn't feel it's connected to
Hashem wants to always blame. It wants
to blame. Now, here is the thing. This I
want you to understand very deeply. It
blames one of two people. Either it
blames the world or it blames itself.
Those who blame themselves
are also blaming. It's just a much more
kind and holy way of being detached.
When I blame the world, it's like the
world, the world, the world. My brother,
my wife, my this, MY HUSBAND, MY FATHER,
my mother, my brother, my sister, the
world, God. What What do we blame?
Blame. Blame.
My children, my in-laws, your
daughter-in-law, your son-in-law, your
machuten. It's a good one. THE SHVIGGER.
WHATEVER IT IS, SHUT. BLAME. BLAME.
BLAME.
Maybe you're right. Maybe you're wrong.
I'm not getting into it.
Sometimes I don't do that. I blame
myself.
You know what the common denominator in
both is? Disassociation. When I blame
the world, I disassociate from the
world. When I blame myself, I
disassociate from myself. I'm like, I
can't deal with that part. That part is
evil and horrible. And I end off all
relationships. And the most The greatest
tragedy is I'm not connected to myself
anymore.
Cuz that part of me that I'm blaming
is who I am.
Talk to it. Listen to it. There's
something going on over there. But I
don't want to do that.
So, I want to blame. Blame gives me fake
control. If I have somebody to blame in
my life, either me or you, I'm in
control. I'm good. YOU'RE CRAZY. OR I'M
CRAZY, SO I'M NOT GOOD. BUT AS LONG AS I
KNOW WHO'S CRAZY,
real real connection requires a whole
different set of skills. The first thing
it requires is this element of
surrender. Imagining the ray of the sun
inside the sun.
Imagining the fish inside the water.
Safe.
Protected. In the womb of the Shechinah.
In the womb of Hashem. Now, let's go to
dry land. Dry land has the opposite
paradigm.
What's the opposite in dry land? I don't
want to go into the earth. When I'm
dead, I go under the Into the earth.
That's what burial is. For us,
invisibility is death. What is
existence? Visibility.
That's what it looks like on dry land. I
exist. You see me. I see you.
In other words, there is separateness.
And I'm not submerged in my source. I
may use the earth, but you could be in a
plane for 22 hours and be disconnected
from the earth.
We don't have to be like fish. On the
contrary, WE CAN'T EVEN LIVE LIKE FISH
submerged in the earth. So, here
everything is different. I may know that
I have a source. I may believe that
Hashem exists.
That's not the issue. The issue is not
emunah. The issue is am I experiencing
myself as separate?
That's why emunah, it's much deeper.
We're not talking about basic I believe
that the earth gives me produce. I know
it.
But I'm not inside the earth. I have an
ego outside of the earth. And every
animal knows it. And even trees grow
from outside of the earth.
This is called olam digaliyan. A world
in which my existence
is revealed as a yesh, as a separate
being outside of Hashem.
Usually, there are two different types
of creatures.
There's what the Zohar calls nuneyama,
the fish of the sea.
No ego. Completely submerged in the
divine. Like angels. Malachim. Kadosh
kadosh kadosh. And then you have
physical creatures, mammals, humans that
walk on the earth. And we all have our
own ego, our own existence. I may
acknowledge I have a creator, but I, the
I, is who I am.
Now
comes the secret of creation.
When Yaakov Avinu is speaking to his
children, right before he passes away,
it's the last source. You remember
hamalach hagoyel oisi, yevarech es
hana'arim, veyikarei vahem shmi v'shem
avosai Avraham v'Yitzchak. And then he
says something fascinating. Veyidgu
larov bekerev ha'aretz. The word
veyidgu, you know what veyidgu means?
From the word dagim, fish.
VEYIDGU LAROV BEKEREV HA'ARETZ. YOU
SHOULD BECOME LIKE FISH
on the earth. What type of blessing is
that? Yaakov, that's the blessing? I
should become LIKE A FISH ON THE EARTH?
BEKEREV HA'ARETZ. IN THE MIDST OF THE
EARTH. DON'T GO TO THE OCEAN. I WANT YOU
TO BE ON THE EARTH AND BE A FISH.
WHAT'S YAAKOV Avinu saying?
What's this blessing? Which month is
mazel dagim? You remember? Adar.
V's kol hadagim,
What is this? What is this?
So, the Gemara tells a story about
Rabbah bar bar
He tells a story. We once went on a
cruise. That's what he says.
Cruises didn't get invented in the 21st
century. We went on a cruise. It was
amazing. But everybody got seasick. The
sea was not ending. And we got sick. And
we didn't see the end in sight. And we
had enough of it. And suddenly we saw a
beautiful island. So, we got off the
boat. And we went onto the island. And
this is what he says. We brought out the
meat and the chicken. And we made a
barbecue.
They gathered wood. And they lit fire.
And they started grill al ha'esh. They
got them lebbedik with shish kebabs and
burgers and steaks. And probably they
had barbecue sauce from Iraq.
It was amazing. That's what the Gemara
says about Rabbah bar bar Hana. Save the
barbecue sauce. And suddenly, this
island
starts moving.
It's moving and moving and moving and
moving. And suddenly, the island wants
to scratch its back. But it doesn't know
how to scratch its back. So, it decides
to make a mahapecha. Venahpechu. And the
island turns over onto its back.
And we are all in the ocean. What we
thought was an island was a huge huge
fish. A huge whale.
We thought it was an island. We set up a
barbecue. I guess it didn't like the
fire.
>> [laughter]
>> It didn't like the schvitz too much and
it had enough of us. And he says, "Thank
God the boat was not too far. So we all
So we got saved." That's the story.
What's What is he talking about? What a
funny story. Did you ever go on an
island and suddenly it was a fish?
So the meforshim say it's a metaphor for
life.
It's this metaphor that we're talking
about. I'm looking for an island.
I want serenity. This ocean is long.
It's hard. It's intense. It never ends.
And you can't own the ocean. You know,
you can't own the ocean. When you're in
the ocean, you're like,
>> [snorts]
>> this is beyond.
It's beyond. It's not a place where we
can control.
So I want my little island. THE OCEAN IS
BIG, BUT I WANT MY LITTLE ISLAND, SMALL,
SAFE, AND CONTROLLED. AND I WANT MY
BARBECUE. DON'T TOUCH MY BARBECUE,
WHATEVER THAT MY BARBECUE LOOKS LIKE.
And suddenly,
the island is not stable.
It's starting to get rock It's starting
to fidget. It's starting to get
tumultuous. And suddenly it turns me
over completely.
Vayigdal Yaakov be kerev ha'aretz is the
great blessing of Yaakov. What it means
to be a Jew.
You're a fish be kerev ha'aretz on dry
land.
Of course it's easy to be a fish in
water.
That's what's drop. Of course it's easy
to be a malach in heaven. It's heaven.
Vayigdal Yaakov be kerev ha'aretz. In
the language of Isaiah, they call the
Jewish people nune yamma d'azlin be
yabasha, fish of the sea who walk on dry
land.
So the Mitteler Rebbe says this is the
metaphor of life.
You're walking on dry land. I'm walking
in a world where I am visible. I have
emotions. I have separateness. I need
validation. I have triggers. I get
insecure. I have pain. I don't know
what's going to be. All these parts tell
me I'm separate, separate, separate,
separate. I'm feeling SEPARATENESS CUZ
I'M BE'ARA, I'M NOT BE'YAM. I'm not an
almond styman. I don't have microscopic
eyes. I don't see the noylad every
moment. I don't see the ray of the sun
inside of the sun.
Sometimes I don't even know if there's a
sun.
And yet, vayigdal Yaakov be kerev
ha'aretz. Can you be a fish be kerev
ha'aretz? What was the uniqueness of the
month of Adar? This was the whole class
last week. That the teva itself was
miraculous. You remember we explained
the difference of Pesach and Purim.
PURIM WAS A NATURAL STORY, but it was
all a miracle. That's why Purim is not
going to be nullified when Mashiach
comes because that's the whole idea of
geulah. That the nature is miracle. The
nature is a miracle. BY A YABASHA
BE'SOCH HAYAM, YOU REMEMBER? IT'S ALL
ONE HEMSHECH. WHEN WE COME into Krias
Yam Suf, it says be'soch HAYAM BY A
YABASHA. BUT THE PURPOSE IS IT SHOULD BE
BY A YABASHA BE'SOCH HAYAM. WHEN YOU'RE
WALKING ON DRY LAND, it's the same
miracle.
That was the uniqueness of the month of
Adar. That's why it's mazel dagim, but
it's in the time of the year. So Rabbi
Bar Bar Chana says, "We had a boat
not to get deceived by this reality, by
this component." So what Yaakov Avinu is
telling the children of Yosef, and Yosef
had to personify this because he went
down to the lowest of places, is even
higher than angels. When the angels came
down, hanefilim yardu bar, it says
hanefilim hayu bar, the angels came down
cuz they told God people are corrupt. So
God said, "Okay, you do the work." And
it says that the malachim fell down
terribly cuz they didn't have the
mechanism of integration.
In the ocean they're great, but when you
come down to dry land, they lost
everything.
So they're amazing. They're amazing in
heaven. The moment you take a malach
outside of his comfort zone, pun
intended,
he loses it.
The uniqueness of a person is neshama
and guf. Neshama [snorts] and guf means
to reveal the divinity inside the body.
INSIDE THE TRIGGERS. INSIDE THE EGO.
INSIDE THE EARTH.
THIS COMES BACK TO WHAT WE SPOKE ABOUT
LAST WEEK. What I once heard from the
Lubavitcher Rebbe, it says in Pirkei
Avos, omer davar b'shem omro meivi
geulah l'olam. You remember you say
something in the name of the speaker,
you bring redemption. On a deeper level,
IN EVERYTHING YOU IDENTIFY SHEM OMRO.
DAVAR IS THING. Davar is dibur. Like we
spoke from Reb Moshe Shapiro, meivi
geulah l'olam. You redeem the world from
its concealment. In other words, you
identify baruch she'amar v'haya olam.
That's the whole purpose of Torah.
So now, what does it really mean? It
means you don't get embarrassed and
ashamed by the fact that I have an By By
the fact that we have an ego. And by the
fact that we have to work through
things. That is be kerev ha'aretz. The
guilt and the shame that I'm not a fish
is foolish. Of course you're not a fish.
That's not your purpose. Vayigdal Yaakov
be kerev ha'aretz. So I must deal with
all of the dynamics that exist in eretz,
where there is a sense of separateness,
where the ego reigns supreme and I can
live there completely. And yet, I have
the choice
through a lot of inner, gentle,
compassionate avodah, avodas Hashem, to
be able to synthesize.
And now we can understand Krias Yam Suf.
Ilu kara lanu es hayam v'lo he'eviranu
b'socho b'charavah, dayenu. Chazal say
that when Krias Yam Suf happened, all
the waters in the world split. So if I
was giving my child a bathtub, suddenly
the bathtub would split. What does that
mean? And who needs that?
>> [laughter]
>> Like what's the point? You're having a
cup of water, split.
Right? You're trying to wash the dishes.
Yeah? Shvi'i shel Pesach, your cleaning
lady's trying to split. Boom. All the
water split. Okay, it's nice. What's the
idea? What's wrong if only the Yam Suf
split so they should go through?
The point is this was a moment that
changed history forever. For one moment,
we saw b'soch hayam by a yabasha.
They had a vision of what the world
looks like under the water. Usually when
we go under the water, we can't survive.
It's death.
That's the power of a mikvah. Why is a
mikvah such a central theme in Jewish
life? A mikvah is a place really where
we can't survive for too long. If I stay
under the water for too long, I can't
live. In other words, it's ego death.
We live in a world where there is
separateness. And yet the mikvah is the
source of purity. Because what's the
mikvah? The mikvah is going into that
space, recharging, and then emerging. I
can't stay in a mikvah forever. Can't.
But I emerge from the mikvah a new
person, a metzius chadasha, a a a briah
chadasha. It's a whole different
experience. And that is why
the concept of Krias Yam Suf wasn't just
a concept. It was that at that moment,
it opened up and the sea became dry
land. Meaning, in our visceral
experience on dry land, we can
experience
the truth of reality the way it's
experienced
by almond styman, by those who live in
the frequency of oneness without any
visibility. That's why Chazal say, they
said, "Zakeili van ve'aya, rasho shifcha
al hayam asher lo ra'ah Yechezkel." A
maid on the sea saw what Yechezkel
Hanavi, the great prophet, did not see.
Zakeili van ve'aya because a navi
divests himself from the physical. In
fact, they said that the nevi'im would
take off their clothes during nevu'ah.
And here, in their physical life, the
shifcha in the yabasha, they can
experience it. Now look here at the
depth of this.
What happens the next step? The Jewish
people walk through and the Egyptians
drown.
So we look at it as a great miracle. The
water came back and they couldn't
survive. They drowned. The water was
split so we walked through and then they
came back. They went into it and the
water came back and they died.
There's also a much deeper
interpretation.
And that is as follows.
What happens to your existence during
Krias Yam Suf?
What happens to me when I have an ego
death? There's a big difference who I
am. If my entire existence is ego,
so what happens when there's an ego
death, you think?
I'm done. I'm dead. But if my whole
existence really is I'm ein sof, I'm
part of Hashem, so what happens when I
have an ego death?
I start to live.
Krias Yam Suf was ego death.
For the Jewish people, they came to
life. For the Egyptians, they died. It
was the same experience. It's not two
separate stories. It's the same
experience. What happens when all the
curtains are gone?
When the doors of perception are
cleansed?
When the egg cracks open
and all the veils and curtains and
camouflage AND MASKS AND COVER-UPS,
EVERYTHING IS GONE.
How comfortable will you be?
>> [panting]
>> Right? Think about it. If everybody
could know everything about me.
>> [laughter]
>> Or everything ABOUT EVERY
[clears throat] BUT MAMESH LIKE THE
DEEPEST, DEEPEST SECRETS.
Get the how you're doing with that.
Don't worry, you're a tzadekes inside
also, it's fine. We know We're not
worried.
Got it.
I don't I'm not talking about private
things. I'm talking about the real like
who am I for real?
Of course we all make mistakes and
that's why we could say I'm sorry and
that's the beauty of teshuvah.
How comfortable am I really, really,
really, really with that?
The truth is, that's the question.
The whole philosophy of Egypt was based
on sheker.
The Whatever it's based on sheker, the
moment truth opens up, there's nothing
left. If my existence is oppressing
people. If my existence is manipulation,
exploitation, deception, brokenness. So
now when the truth comes out, when ein
sof comes out, there's nothing left. I'm
dead.
But when the truth is that the ego is
just a layer. It's just an external
layer. Now with Krias Yam Suf,
ah, you could finally breathe. You come
to life. I let go of everything else. I
let go OF EVERYTHING ELSE. THAT'S WHAT
HAPPENED. It's a moment when you realize
you could let go of every definition of
self outside of the fact
that your real self is subsumed in
infinity in the ain soph, like the ray
of the sun inside the sun, like the
child inside the womb.
Haraya es anoilet.
Like the fish inside the sea.
And it's completely safe, completely
completely regulated. And yet, a moment
later, the water may come back together
and suddenly I don't have that vision
anymore. I'm on dry land, but I remember
it. I have a reference point. And the
moment you have a reference point of
what's true, what's not true, you know
where to live, where to go. So when a
person's life, what that means is that
when the Egyptian expose when the truth
is exposed,
if I'm divine, I start to live.
If I'm a lie, that's when I die. I can't
live anymore. I can only live in a world
of
cover-ups.
And that's what the real avodah here is.
That's what the real avodah is. To be
able to let go of every other definition
of self. Why have we been trying so
hard? Cuz we try to keep it together.
Why is it not happening anymore? It's a
gift. Hashem is expediting
consciousness, expediting consciousness,
allowing us
to be able to let go of everything that
doesn't really belong to us. It's hard
because if I'm wearing this coat for
100,000 years,
I can't let go. This is me. This is me.
This is my shirt. This is my tie. THIS
IS MY WATCH. This is my identity.
THIS IS WHO I AM. I CAN'T LET GO. IF I
LET GO, you're not GOING TO LOOK AT ME
AGAIN. Nobody's going to look at me
again. I'm not going to look at myself.
I'm too ugly.
WHOA.
I GOT TO LET go of that, too.
It's so much letting go, letting go,
letting go.
And yet, when you really really let go,
it's an energetic experience that nobody
will see, but you will see it. You will
feel it. And you'll know that that's
what krias yam suf is. That's exactly
what it looks like.
That's the moment where I really really
let go of control.
It doesn't mean I become an
irresponsible couch potato.
I'm like, "God, you make Pesach. Rabbi
WW said, 'Let go.' I'm going to go out.
I want an iced coffee, then there's
Pilates, then there's yoga, then there's
gym, then there's going on a hike, which
is not a bad idea, all these things
anyway to do.
>> [snorts]
>> And we're going to do some window
shopping. Maybe I'll go away to Florida
for a few days, and I'll come back
Monday, and hopefully my husband,
knowing him, will have the whole house
prepared for Pesach." So, sometimes you
we talk about letting go, it's like,
"Okay, so let's just be couch potatoes."
It's the opposite. Letting go means I
actually realize haraya es anoilet.
Every moment is being born. And control
is an illusion. It's bushita d'alusha.
I want to show up with an open heart to
do the shlichus that Hashem wants me to
do right now. And that may be cleaning
my room.
That may be shopping. That may be doing
something else. But with complete
complete presence. And when other things
come into me, which they will, cuz we're
all normal. We're not fish. We're
people. I can watch that. I can observe
it. I could see what's happening. I
don't have to crush it. I don't have to
judge it. I don't have to denigrate it.
And I also don't have to REPRESS IT AND
DENY IT BECAUSE I BECAME A FISH. You did
not become a fish. Thank God.
We want you to be human.
>> [laughter]
>> We want you to remain human.
It's the power of the human being to
work at this, to work on this, to
realize it, to make space for it.
And
as somebody told me yesterday,
when you can observe, when there's an
eye, somebody told me yesterday a very
profound line. Disassociated people
don't know that they're disassociated.
When you know that you're disassociated,
you're not disassociated because there's
an eye that's observing it.
So when I can watch a sandbox in my
chest with 100 little babies screaming,
but there's an eye that's watching it,
I'm not dysregulated. I'm watching my
dysregulation.
Give yourself credit. The fact that you
can watch your thoughts, you can watch
your emotions, you can observe the
craziness inside your heart right now,
that means you're not that craziness. If
you would really be that craziness, you
would just be crazy. You're actually
observing it and I'm like, "Wow. Wow.
Wow, these little kids are very scared.
They want control. They need to do this.
They
Okay. Wow."
They didn't hear the sheer. Fine.
>> [laughter]
>> They didn't get the memo or they don't
believe it. Give them a little hug. Give
them a little hug. Watch them, and then
you can choose to stay open-hearted
without blaming
and turn to Hashem and say, "Hineni.
I'm ready to let go and channel the love
and infinity." And you'll see the
miracles that happen emotionally. This
is not a snap of the finger and my
system is clear forever. That's not
true, and if that's the expectation,
it's always going to be disappointed cuz
it's not the avodah even. The avodah is
v'yidgol areiv
b'kerev ha'aretz. And that's why that's
why
we say ilu karanu es hayam v'lo eviranu
bo b'socho b'charavah,
the splitting of the sea just to see the
truth. Wow. Just to see truth, just to
see authenticity. I said Shabbos in my
morning class, I think probably one of
the I think the greatest, but probably
certainly one of the greatest gifts of
life is authenticity. If you would give
me every blissful experience in the
world, but you say, "Rabbi WW, there's
one price to pay. Give up your
authenticity. Give up your truth.
Just lie, but you'll have every bliss IN
THE WORLD. PERFECT NACHAS. PERFECT DAY
OUT. [screaming] OUT. OUT. NEVER. WHAT A
CURSE. What a curse.
Right? I would rather all the pain,
all the pain, but authenticity. Now,
nobody should have any pain. It should
be authentic bliss. But my point is that
the greatest gift is the gift of
authenticity. Just to see the truth. I
don't want to live in lies anymore. I
don't want to live in lies. That's what
the gift of krias yam suf IT OPENED UP.
THE DOORS OF PERCEPTION WERE CLEANSED,
and everything appeared as is, infinite.
You got to see it. You got to see what
ain soph looks like.
Now came the second miracle.
Haviranu b'socho b'charavah.
We walked through this experience, and
it remained dry land. Wow. That's the
SECOND ONE. L'GOZEI YAM SUF L'G'ZARIM IS
AMAZING. YOU GOT TO SEE REALITY. NOW
THERE'S SOMETHING EVEN DEEPER. V'havei
Yisrael b'socho. We walked through it,
and we came out on the other side, and
it was dry land.
You walked through the consciousness of
infinity, huh? That's integration.
Integration.
And you brought it into your identity.
Wow. Which brings us to the answer to
your question.
We live in a world where we need
feedback. But the feedback could come
from two places. It could come from an
integris place where I desire
connection, and all connection is based
on feedback.
What did these words do to you? What did
these words do to you? It's the
connection of sharing of emotions and
experiences. And then there is I need
feedback because I'm in a desperate
desperate space of disconnection, and I
just need you to fill my cup in any way
I can. And I do it in so many so many
different ways.
The danger here is that as so many of us
are really everybody is a is a good
person.
And people are trying to keep it
together for themselves, for their
children, for their grandchildren, for
their marriages, for Pesach, for Hashem,
for the world.
And therefore, often the masks that we
put on are not sinister. They look very
selfless. They're filled with goodness
and good deeds. And yet sometimes we
become more and more disassociated from
ourselves, doing amazing things and
keeping it together. So Pesach is here.
The seder is here. Everything is here.
Maror mit charoses mit beitzim mit
zero'im. One year when I was a little
kid erev Pesach, I was starving.
And [snorts] I was I guess a little
absent-minded. I went into the kitchen,
and I saw this amazing pan with a bunch
of little gargalach. What are they
called? Zero'im.
Huh?
The next. Chicken necks. And they looked
so juicy and good and everything. So and
I was starving. So you know, one doesn't
really satisfy
most people, I should say, at least
certainly not me. So I basically
finished them. I didn't think. I thought
my mother made some chicken for the
kavod Yom Tov. You know, you can All
kids come in and they eat up all the
kugel that you made, all the chicken you
made, and then somehow they really
believe in you that when you light the
candles, the heavens will open up, and
the manna will fall down, and there'll
be a second Shabbos dinner that suddenly
appears. I wasn't really thinking that
much. So uh suddenly comes to the seder
a few hours later. Zero'im.
Everybody's looking for zero'im. My
mother's like, "I MADE A LOT OF THEM. I
MADE A LOT of them." And there was no
zero'im to be found in the house. I
don't I still don't remember if I
confessed or I didn't, but probably I
did, or somebody figured out that I ate
all the zero'im. So we have everything.
Today you have zero'im, beitzim, maror,
charoses, karpas, chazeret, AGADOS. THE
HOUSE IS amazing amazing amazing. And
sometimes the saddest thing is I have
everything ready. We have everything
ready. There's one person who's not
there. I'm not there.
I'm not there.
Deep down, I'm just disconnected. I have
it under control, but deep down, there's
such a disconnect. And you can't even
blame somebody. Between the exhaustion
and the depletion and the
responsibilities and the emotional
stuff. And then when people start acting
out in the middle of the Seder because
that's when families act out,
they're all around the same table,
everybody shows up, nobody's running to
their room, so that's where all the
beautiful family dynamics show up. And
that's where
this is the most important avodah.
We always I always want to put it on
somebody else.
>> [snorts]
>> It's never about that person. If I can
go in
and
I am right now a part of God.
So this person shouldn't have the power
to destroy my Pesach.
Now I could with compassion stay
open-hearted. Instead of like if she
would just learn how to behave and if he
would learn how to behave and if that
person would be quiet for the next 3
hours, I would be a happy and we would
have the most beautiful Seder.
The beauty of the Seder the Maharal says
is, like I said told you last week, it's
not an orderly night, let's face it.
If you have a house where tonight that
night is mesudar organized,
then you somehow sell that copyright and
pat- and patent because it's unique.
The Maharal says the Seder happens
inside.
And the Seder happens inside doesn't
mean I don't get triggered I don't get
triggered. I'm not a malach. It means
that I know how to bring it back in for
it.
When I see that what just happened
is getting me off course
and it's literally shutting me down,
I could compassionately
be present
with what is happening, observe it,
watch it
and
tune in also to another part
that is completely safe
and one with Hashem at that moment.
And I could really really be present in
that.
And nobody else can do that for me.
That's a very very internal internal
space. I'm speaking to myself, I'm not
preaching to you.
Because these are it's a stressful time.
And in that moment
things soften. The heart softens. The
heart opens. And when we learn to stay
there more and more and be able to go
into the ayin that doesn't have to
control.
And we ask Hashem for help
to be able to be there and still present
and open-hearted without blame. That's
where we start experiencing a little bit
of that taste of kriyat Yam Suf.
And then have yeranu besimcha berina.
And each one of those is dayenu. And
that's why acharon shel Pesach, when the
navi wants to describe the time of
redemption, how does he describe it? One
word. Ki mala ha'aretz de'ah et Hashem
kamayim layam mechassim. The earth will
be filled with divine consciousness like
the water covers the sea.
May we experience that fully and
viscerally even before Pesach. Take it
from me ad mamesh. Have a beautiful and
amazing and redemptive Yom Tov acharon
shel Pesach and complete victory and
complete redemption.