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They put my head in there, put the iron
bars like this, and I just couldn't
That's it. Like you're trapped. I spat
blood, and they eventually buried me in
all that snow.
>> [music]
>> And I saw myself from above.
I I saw myself like screaming inside. I
feel myself screaming inside, and no one
hears me. When I'm up there, I see
that's it. The suffering is over. And
there's this kind of relief where you're
like I felt like steam coming out. This
tea that you drink. You drink tea,
coffee.
You know, the steam that comes out. So,
I felt like I was that steam coming
[music] out.
And I'm looking, and there's there's no
worry there. Everything's fine.
Fine.
He's there. I'm here.
It's not exactly me. [music] I already
feel that it's not me.
From then on, I knew that I'm here. I'm
not there.
>> [music]
>> And after that, suddenly that's it. It's
like
and I'm in a different place.
It's kind of like like in a game.
I just see myself, and that's it. I'm
moving away upwards, and I see it like,
you know, the fence just like a scene in
a movie.
And I see myself already in the hospital
hearing the voices of my mom and
grandma.
What's happening with him? What is this?
And the doctor say in this tone,
"Everything's fine. He's a strong boy.
He'll survive."
I really felt a sense of security.
But when I went into the darkness, I
felt infinite love. I felt like he's
hugging me, wrapping around me.
It was like an old TV turning on. Have
you ever seen that?
Yeah, it's like that. You know, it turns
on, and then you look, and he's there,
and the doctors are here with grandma
and everyone. And [music] you It's like
I'm there in the camera, like in the
corner. You see?
Right there in the corner. Like and
that's how I see the room just from that
spot, just quietly watching, you know.
And I'm trying to to see more clearly,
but I can't. I'm trying to hear the
voices of my worried mom and my grandma,
who's a doctor. She's calming the doctor
and my mom and everyone.
He's strong. Absalom is strong.
Everything's fine. He has my genes.
He'll pull through. Like that.
A grandma from Chechnya, you know.
I saw myself with a pacemaker here.
Look, a pacemaker right here.
The kind of thump thump thump thump
that's starting my heart with a needle
inside.
It's probably starting my heart. I don't
exactly remember.
But yeah, according to my mom's stories,
that's what happened to me.
And there was also resuscitation. What's
it called? Rehabilitation. Then a few
months.
>> [music]
>> Hello. My name is Absalom.
Formerly from Ashkelon, now I've moved
to Netanya.
I work in digital and recently became a
spiritual teacher, likely due to the
unusual things I've experienced in my
life. It was at age 6.
I was a very innocent child, and I had
two friends who shared my skin color. It
happened in Russia, in the city of
Kislovodsk.
I grew up there until I was 8 and 1/2,
actually, before we moved to Israel
>> [music]
>> in '92.
We were always running around playing,
and it's well known that people don't
like our kind much, and they knew we
were Jewish. With my face, it was hard
for me to hide it.
Anyway, they always treated us a bit
differently. It was a stormy day, and
there was a lot of snow, and it was fun.
To go skiing. We took the skis, went
out, played on the hill and all, as
usual, among the trees, until they
caught me. They were always running
after us, always chasing us. Jew and all
that.
>> [music]
>> Uh we used to play with those skis, and
sometimes with something else, like a
piece of wood from the hill.
There were also these icy patches. To
this day,
I still remember the smells from that
incident, by the way. What actually
happened was we were constantly running
away from them.
And on that day, I didn't manage to get
away.
I was the one who ended up in their
hands. They were older than me, 13, 16,
and 15 years old. [music] I was just 6
at the time, and my friends were also 6
and 8 years old, or maybe 7, I think.
Their names were Yevgeny and Igor.
I remember the moment which was very
traumatic for me.
I can really remember it now when they
put the
I mean, what did they do? They folded me
up. They shoved me inside. [music]
A kindergarten fence from the inside of
the kindergarten because I'd run in
there.
They shoved my head in there, put the
bars like this, and I couldn't
That was it. You're trapped.
>> [music]
>> And the cold of the
of the Russian winter. I remember it to
this day with the ringing in my ears.
And they started beating me. They kicked
my legs, and finally buried me in that
snow. I spat blood.
And just like that, I really remember
the smell of the blood, the snow, and
the iron combined.
I remember it to this day. When I talk
about it, I'm reminded of that smell.
They left me there, and I I screamed and
screamed until I just didn't have the
strength to scream anymore.
And it was an revealed miracle.
>> [music]
>> There was someone named Luba, Babushka,
Grandma Luba, Baba Luba. Like that joke
that
And it's no joke because she was already
half blind and half deaf, and her
caregiver was Jewish. I think her name
was Tatiana. I don't remember the
caregiver's name, but she [music] loved
Jews very much because of her
caregiver's devotion.
And specifically on a stormy day, she
went out to this mountain to go to the
market until [music] it before it closed
to buy something, vegetables.
Actually, she wouldn't leave the house.
The caregiver was always there.
Specifically on that day, she went out.
And when she returned, I with tears,
Baba Luba, Baba Luba. I say, "It can't
be. They won't hear me." I remember that
intention.
It can't be. [music] I wanted my
intention to reach, and it didn't reach.
It turns out it did reach.
>> [music]
>> She went and told everyone.
And she didn't show me because she
didn't have time. She's very rational,
Baba Luba.
>> [music]
>> She heard and saw, but she didn't give
me a sign that she saw.
I fell asleep there. I fainted in the
snow. I was there for 6 hours, about 6
hours.
Today, I am very grateful for this
incident [music] that happened because
it's
>> [snorts]
>> the true prayer that was actually born
already at [music] age 6, which caused
me to move forward with my spiritual
search.
Straight to God without all the, you
know, deviations here and there. There
were deviations, but I would always
return to the [music] line, to this thin
line, like a hair's breadth, as it is
written.
Today, I know what to call it. Back
then, I didn't.
Today, I understand that these are
garments. It's a type of garment in
matter. Back then, I didn't know what to
[music] call it.
That's it. I'm there. Inside the fence,
there's this mountain
of snow, which is already starting to
become ice, and I'm inside it, and
that's it. And I'm already
And that's it. I let go. Surrendered.
It happened after I had seemingly
already truly surrendered.
I screamed. I screamed until
I was full of hope, and I broke. That's
it. There's no [music] physical strength
left. That's it. There's no hope. And
what I believe is that this whole
experience of clinical death,
>> [music]
>> they tell you, "Hello, my dear. You need
to wake up. I chose you. You work with
me." Light that passes through. If you
try to resist, it's the same as
resisting the education of your mother
and father.
In the end, you will do it, but without
will and without experience.
And so, this light passes and passes on.
You just let it pass. After all, you
came [music] naked into this world, and
you will return naked.
What will you take from here?