The Enemy Within - Part 5: How to Deal with the Evil Inclination - Rebbetzin Avigial Gersht

[Music] so the last part so how do you deal with it then how do you feed it to Hera what were the tools we know we have these parts of ourselves what are the tools what Torah baracci to heretic travelling yes torez the antidote tours are a few it what does that mean I have a negative desire I should go open the bracelet and she will open the Torah I read it what does it mean practically what do we do ask yourselves what do I do what works for you meditation is so amazing meditation what do you mean totally centering yourself like grounding and and it recognizing was higher part of yourself that's what we spoke about when we said about when we're thinking speaking about thoughts right which this guy who had which this guy who had kept having who's a manic-depressive right and then he woke up one night in a cold sweat and he said I can't live with myself anymore if I can't live with myself and who's the me right there's this higher part of ourselves the faster I can think about my thoughts means I am higher than myself it's the fact that we ality that I'm sitting here saying mmhmm okay should I have a chocolate cake I always use chocolate cake I don't even like chocolate cake you should just know I would go for like gushers but we'll go with chocolate cake seems to be that people usually like chocolate more than gushers I like candy alright it's like should I have a chocolate cake should I not hmm the fact that I'm having this discussion in my own mind means I am above the chocolate cake but instead we limit ourselves we literally put ourselves in a box right and we're saying should we have how do you make a chocolate cake sprinkles I feel confused okay like this is this is me this is me I'm nothing to Hall Shh oh I'm confused okay whatever okay this is Olivia you're the closest thing to bangs or maybe Sam this is you and you like mmm chocolate cake right and then you're like should I have it should I not should I have it should I not I like the chocolate cake they're like I can't believe I'm just gonna have a stupid talking instead of recognizing actually your meta this picture you are above this picture you're thinking you are watching yourself having that you're washing yourself things should I have this k corner right you are literally washing yourself safe we're all able to I wish we could you I wish God a meditation group meditation would be so powerful even just for a moment here like watch yourself listening to me watch yourself in this room right now that means you are above it you're above your thoughts you're above your desires instead we identify with that what is my identification my identification is I'm a soul I'm a soul that's who I am I'm able to see myself having these desires right so what's a tool for the higher what Sam saying was tired with Sabrina saying what's a tool well well kind of ground yourself and and realize that your bacteria actually here which meat it's the same thing you're connected to the Torah it's the same idea there's something bigger than just this this physical world what else what works for us no no don't [Music] I have something to ask that yeah that's a really big one right which is which is just step away step step out of it stop trying to be superwoman start trying to be Superman about okay Frank so I'm gonna see this and he's I'm a soul she even said him a soul this teacher told me my saw and I'm higher than this I could be in the same room who's that why you testing yourself there's enough challenges in your life don't put more challenges in front of yourself if you know there's something there's there's there's a person in my life who I love very dearly for my emotional well-being she's not good for me okay just you know we spoke that the person who's just like you get angry every time you speak to them or see them right so it took me quite a while to realize whenever I speak to this person I leave angry I'm upset I'm upset by her okay Joe I do I have to work things I'm like yes it's me you cannot take anyone other than yourself anyone you can't take your spouse you can't change your kids you can't you you're not going to change anyone I'll save you many many years of fruitless trying's and effort if you just realize now you can't teach anyone but other than yourself and even if you think you change someone then either either it's really they change themselves we're also just gonna they did it for you and they'll just like you know I know quite a few people who they quit smoking because the person wouldn't marry them unless they got quit smoking and then the moment they got married they went back to smoking right not gonna change anyone other than yourself but I know I have to work on myself it's totally Naima dose like if you just accept people you wouldn't have to separate yourself from them but it's what sam says which is okay but I know myself right now I'm not there yet so let me work on myself but not tent myself at the same time okay if I know there are people who serve a surplus of food every Shabbos and I struggle with food don't go to that house I just don't go there don't test yourself I know this person I get angry so until I developed and worked on myself enough I was not gonna go I don't know wait hang out with this person right so if you know what you're saying about letting go I had a credit epiphany this week which was and I want to read this which was so again I told you we're moving and we need to rent out this basement apartment that's part of our apartment I'm if I said here not long story we need to rent it out it's been extremely stressful we were totally lied to by someone who wanted to make quite a few thousand shy girls so I'm just like openly lied to us and it was painful and it's it's been hard I might be we got to get this printed out otherwise have gonna cover our rent we can't afford a duplex here like right and someone like test and we've been trying we've been posting tons of people have been coming but they didn't want it and and we posted signs all around her nose and then husband our discussants it was anything else we should do until we came to the realization of yes let go right everyone that her stylist means something different okay so for some people the hash table which means their effort that the amount they put in it means putting up one sign because it literally is just the work we're just showing God like hi I'm the vessel like filming if I'm ready that's what the shofar is blow right through me I'm just a clean just a vessel for you right so stuff for some people really is putting up that one sign I felt like I have to put up a hundred signs so I put up a hundred signs I'm like who do you think is doing this who do you think is saying no to you and the moment I had that understanding I had such an opening within myself I think I was able to take a full breath and that moment why cuz let go what is the main thing that comes in my relationship in between the relationship between me and God it's me and my ego it's totally me and the ego it says God cannot do all of someone who has an ego who has guy but why it's like - it's Connor what I felt like with it doesn't matter not gonna go into media but when if someone whose head is so big knows people who their egos are so big you think you can't like hang you just can't their head is so big just like the same thing with God I come in my way so it was really powerful what you just said which is me right just let go of it and say I surrender cutters Bravo I'm giving up - doesn't mean being lazy it doesn't mean not trying just think I tried and I did everything I can and now it's out I can't do anything more right okay I want to read this oh you have it you have this sheet that gave you last classic you turn to the back of it I'm gonna read it quickly and then I want to make progress what we're doing it's a great advantage when a person still has a Yeats a higher right we said the attire is toque mode very good because then one is able to serve God with the gate Sahara itself meaning to capitalize on the passion one has to act upon the Sahara and draw it into their service of God right we've said it in Jamaat says you just serve God with both your hearts what does that mean both your hearts you just serve God with that good part of yourself obviously and then negative part of yourself right use it to channel the tourists speak up someone a redhead and someone's angry and they have and they have what's called a liking or they're more inclined to tip bloodshed going to go to be mo ha which means to be the one who gives bris Milla's instead of going or shaquita going to slaughtering right we have these drivers in ourselves the answer is you not to suppress them right that's just pushing a beach ball down into the water grit you got down for in seconds popping up here you've got down here right channel it do something with them okay if a person wouldn't have used to hire his service would be worthless it's for this weed no the entire service would be worthless it's for this reason that God allows you to hard to expand itself within men even more so and people who truly want to connect with God right so the greater the person the greater is there yet Sahara even though that through its strength and expression it will bring man to sin and other mistake so don't worry we're gonna miss out it is still worthwhile because of the movements towards goodness whenever a person garnishes the courage and strength to run away from the Sahara and move towards good these are precious moments to God far more than it would do all the rest farm wasn't this one line these are precious moments to God far more than if one would do all the right things in their service for a thousand years without any Sahara do you hear that line even when we have meat to her and we run away from it and we channel it that is way more precious to cut her off limit of our entire life I never had one negative desire and I just kept doing the right thing by rote or by whatever it is that wasn't tempted by things more than a thousand years of doing it's not worth it to God if you don't have the year to her for all of the world spiritual physical we're only created from mankind through this whole greatness lies in the fact that people have a give to her and they can stand against it okay when what are we doing with the 8th Sahara and so I'm gonna rush a bit right now we're channeling it when when Yosef hatzadik when he was in Egypt remember he was the Viceroy in Egypt or familiar with the story and Pharaoh said that there's gonna be a famine sorry and he predicted there's gonna be a famine what did your Sephardic do yeah how many years seven years right he made seven years of plenty when the crops and things were growing and there it's gonna be a famine what should we do quickly eat enough so what so our stomachs can be full he put aside for seven years seven years of grains why cuz there's gonna be seven years of a famine and during the seven years of famine he took out all that surplus that he stored and that's what they ate lehoczky's babo care cost a fee we said it to Helen you steal out of a book care costeja you sing his praises in the daytime the moon ask about Leila so you have faithfulness at night they always represents when things are clear and good night Alger presents darkness I don't see clearly right what does that mean to see God's praises during the day when things are going good when I just seem to be in a good headspace when the world makes sense to me write it down have a clarity journal do something why because the Lila midnight is going to come that's the way the world goes there's daytime and then there's nighttime so store up during the years of plenty for the years of famine does that make sense right yeah when there's things are making sense to you so store up why have a clarity journal okay oh I get it why I know I'm gonna go through hit depression again so I let me read this but I'm going through a depression dear Shira I know I have complete clarity that blank blank blank is true why because when we get into that low space we tend to believe our thoughts so Reed was actually true when you wrote it down when you had the clarity when I have the clarity I wrote this down now that I'm in a dark place I know myself well enough to not try my thoughts or what I'm believing and let me read was actually true when my in-laws live and live in spa they we drive back you don't it's fought before okay so it's very very windy and we come back Saturday night usually and my husband drives cuz if you like miss it then you're literally end up in the Kinneret god forbid so it's just like and there's like barely any shoulders it's like really like a pretty intense drive beautiful during the day but at night there's no lights on the road so how do we stay on the road what what do they have hmm barricades were on on the guardrail they had those little white and black lines right that you see into the dirt so if you stick just to that like little guardrail and you see those little white and black line you're kind of like it so it's okay so you can you can make it down there the same thing if there's fog what do you do if there's fog you you stay just in the little white line you can see on the street and then you're not gonna drive off into wherever because you can't see one of those little white lines what's this little black and white line string on the highway it's the clarity that you had when things made sense it's what you know to be true right it's not trusting yourself when you're in that low place or when it's like hmm so how about y'all cake should not have chocolate should I just like run right like don't have that back and forth the moment you have that back and forth you lost it right the moment the guy starts talking to and in your hand you like it can't be the whole cart pack you know if you Moini like get into conversation it's done right it's done the moment you start like it's just holding hands all day kinda good right you're done right wipes our brains go out the window it's not a bad thing it's reality so the moment we stopped rejecting reality and accept what is then we can work with it what's reality it's those little little white lines so I wouldn't say one point never finish we know the story of Yaakov how he was tricked he had to mail a instead of Rafa okay so it says the days for Yaakov when he waited for Rafa was like yawning cutting loose to translate less what is yummy mean yum a day right young Mahajan loosely translated as a few days right hey I'm waiting another seven years for Rafa was like a few days younger Mahad him however really what does which means like the time flew by that's what I mean what does aha didn't really mean what's the root of akkad him a card which means one what does it mean they were like yeah me Mahad him to see it was like a few days that's not correct right it's young and i hada means yawning days a hard one he took one day at a time making it for Rafa right yeah oh yeah so so how did he get through he worked seven years to marry this woman of his dreams and then surprise Wow right that's why we're we get you have to cut pick up the veil right by Jewish ceremony they pick up the veil cuz you're not allowed to marry someone who you've never seen them before that we get that from Yaakov being tricked marylee right he didn't know that it was her so young Mahajan means how do I get through the state Sahara and there's so much I can speak that but we have to finish here is he took each day at a time like one day at a time it's like okay my life is always gonna be like this right just today you're struggling with this wake up in the morning you'll see what happens and when he was able to do one day at a time one day at a time then he was able to it now the time flew by and that's he was able to get rock on okay we'll stop here 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