PURIM - The True Source Of Energy - Rabbi YY Jacobson

breakfast class you [Music] she okay good morning [Music] everybody okay good morning everybody Welcome we'll begin with a chapter of tahim for our brothers and sisters in eritel and especially for the hostages and the soldiers and all of their families and all of the wounded and all of the bereaved families and all of our people since today is your Alf so we'll do the first capital from those who say till them every day today is Sak Capital 60 chapter 60 s l Al for I'm we'll do the next one also which is 61 man okay first of all welcome everybody to everybody happy to everybody and as was announced Mrs clown in a few weeks we'll be moving locations to 84 Viola road which what's nice about it is it'll be more private won't bump into so many people also a private parking lot it'll just be a lot a lot of pluses and I'm very thankful to uh Mrs kleene and to laser Shiner and Heather Shiner and the entire leadership of the sh for uh arranging that place which will be ready for us in a few weeks we'll announce of course the week before next week we're on as regular as well so but we're still here next week so just going to be in a few weeks I just wanted to give notice to everybody today's class is dedicated by Cynthia and the fernandz family in memory of their beloved mother and grandmother Dalma may she remain a source of blessing true kindness and peace for all those who love her and for all of our people and thank you very very much to Cynthia and the entire fernandz family and she indeed remain a sour source of inspiration and light and love to all of you and the entire family and all of her friends and all the community and all of our people and thank you very very much today's class is also dedicated by a very honorable member who comes who comes to many of the classes and that is shandel Silverstein in honor of her daughter's engagement the sh of her daughter fra and her she told me she's watching virtually so ma virtually on behalf of everybody here and uh may you always have only from the kala and from all of your children and good health happiness prosperity and the wedding and everything and the wedding and the main thing the life afterwards should be only with and to you and the whole family amen mazeltov mazeltov and thank you very very much for your partnership I also want to make another mention and that is uh for many years we have the honor of having uh Mrs fredman here and I want to dedicate this class to her son who was taken on yud Bas KV right ybas KV the 12th day of KV was a was a plane a plane crash and uh yank Freedman whom I also had the privilege of knowing personally actually I think one of the first times I met him I was taking a group of people to a trip in the Ukraine we went to meab and bichev so you don't usually meet people from Brooklyn or from Muny or from Lakewood in Ukraine but he walks on the bus and he joined our trip in middle and uh since then we've had a very warm relationship and he was a very very special young man extremely kind and gracious and sweet and uh his life cut short but his soul and presence and love will remain not only with his family but all those who knew him and all of us for eternity and I want to just Express here also in person my deepest condolences to his mother and father and siblings and uh to all of his friends and of course all the family um you know his mother comes to the classes for many years her mother came for many years until she decided to get a job and uh that's what you do when you get younger and yank's great grandmother who was an awood Survivor also used to come to the class for those of you remember in the tent I remember there once a snowy you remember that day it was snowing it was Ice I barely could walk and she marched in she said I'm not going to miss this I thought I guess you've been through harder things than uh marching through the snow so it's an honor to have you and we all participate in this uh in this terrible loss and just uh you're in our thoughts and prayers but I also want to wish a big mazeltov for your daughter's wedding just two weeks ago may you have only H yeah should be only revealed joy in the family with much health happiness and prosperity and his soul continue to shower down blessings from Heaven on all of you and all of us amen and wish should as the says one of our principles of faith of amen yeah okay I see the print came out this week a little uh a little difficult to read but fine we'll work with what is since of course purm is coming in a few days Friday we're going to uh discuss a very powerful and central theme in the Milla and in the holiday of purm last week for those who were here or those who heard it we discussed the story of Vash Vash and her relationship her marriage with aish and the reason that the entire first chapter of the Milla really focuses on the party that aish made and on vash's behavior during that party we spoke about it more from a literal perspective historical or literal perspective and the point was that uh it seems strange that a whole first chapter of the mill is all focusing on something that doesn't seem so relevant to the story of PM you could have just started and tell us that vashi was killed and K needed a new Queen and he chose Esther but obviously that story is an essential part of understanding the whole story of Pur and on a literal level what was really happening was that aashish felt very very insecure about his royalty vashi was his ticket to royalty because she was a great granddaughter of NES had what you might call today the ostra syndrome I this is what we discussed at length vashti disobeying him and vashti being stubborn and vashi actually insulting him and telling him remember who boss in this house not only infuriate furiated him but it triggered his deepest deepest wound and he eliminates her and the rest of his royalty and aristocracy is characterized by this insecurity which is how hm comes to power and it becomes the Brilliance of Esther who uses her husband's insecurity against him and uses Hon's ego against him The Genius of Esther understanding that hum's ego knew no bounds and A's childhood wounds knew no bounds and nobody dealt with it so she used A's insecurity against him H's ego against him and nobody realizing what was happening she created this web where ultimately she saves her people from absolute catastrophe and disaster so the whole story ofish in the beginning of the m not it's not just an isolated story about you know vashi who didn't want to listen to him and insulted him and he went crazy and he killed her and then he regretted her but it rather depicts the picture of who this King was what he was dealing with which is how hon managed to get so much power this is a very brief summation of what we discussed today we're going to go a step deeper into the story meaning every story exists on many different levels in T and in tanak so you have a story on a physical level you have the same story on the spiritual level in fact there's a saer called the price of wine it was written by the r the rabbi of who actually wrote the he wrote all the footnotes on the that are study till today incorporating all of the ashaz customs and traditions so he's considered one of the greatest authorities in history he's known as rabish he lived in the 16th century died on passed away on lag and theama has a the price of wine he basically sees the whole Milla as a metaphor for life it's fascinating he literally starts from the beginning aash the party it's all a metaphor of life and it develop it it depicts a person maturing from birth literally growing up until they reach their their their spiritual and physical Zenith so it was just an example how he saw the Milla not just as a physical concrete story put in history but also as a metaphor and the same the same is true with all stories in and tanak that they exist on many different levels there in fact that says that every PK every verse has 600,000 interpretations so it's it's pretty inexhaustible so today we want to go a step deeper into the whole story of uh of vashi and the contrast of vashi to Esther um we're going to begin it's going to be a strange Source like how does this fall into PM but you'll see everything will come together with God's grace we're going to begin with a mishna your First Source again I'm sorry the letters didn't come out good I don't know why I guess the one who printed it didn't realize but hopefully you'll be able to see I'll read it so this is a mish Mish now let me just give a little a little intro the mishna is basically the first text that wrote down the basics of the oral tradition of yish one of the big sections of Hal is known as T and Tara Purity and impurity now Purity and impurity for the most part is not so practically relevant nowadays in some cases it is of course you have the concept of nid and mik and all that but the way T and tar was practiced and lived in the time the bikash that we don't have today which means Purity and impurity was so essential it was so part of the fabric of all of the Jewish people men women and children that Jewish life revolved around it just like today Jewish life revolves around chabas and yam and daving and learning Etc these things are like part of of of of Jewish culture and life dayto day Purity and impurity for men women and children was an essential part of Jewish life and the reason was because there was a bikes to go into the bikes you had to be pure theim would eat sacred food like tra kala today we burn the kala but then they would eat it and it they had to be pure all these Foods were holy people would make eat carbon let's say p everybody would go to eat a carbon you had to be pure when you eat it the food had to be pure so therefore T and Purity and impurity was an essential part of Jewish life so for example of somebody died in a house everything in the house under the same roof became impure that was a very serious reality that had to be dealt with some things could be put into the Mikvah some things couldn't be put into the Mikvah it needed a sprinkling of the of the red heer and so tum and Tara Purity and impurity was an essential part of Jewish life is this is and what what becomes pure what doesn't become not everything can become impure but food can become impure drinks can become impure vessels even beds mat is cloes because you have to know what fabric it is there's a lot a lot of details now at the surface it seems a little strange because it's not even something you could see with your eyes you know what's the difference if the vessel is pure impure if the food is pure impure you wouldn't even see it with your eyes but a sensitive Soul knows the difference things that are pure have a certain energy things that are impure have a certain energy and that's why it was so part of Jewish life because whenever somebody is sensitive even things that are invisible have a very very Deep Impact we today we don't have to explain it because in science we know that things that are invisible are usually much more powerful than things are Vis that are visible for example when you split an atom there's a lot of power there and nobody nobody sees atoms germs viruses bacteria infections these are all things that for thousands of years they didn't know about it because they're not visible with the naked eye it's only X-rays and MRIs Etc that show us what's happening inside so nobody's going to say an infection doesn't exist cuz I don't see it bacteria doesn't exist cuz I don't see it fungi doesn't exist cuz I don't see it germs don't exist because I don't see it viruses don't exist cuz I don't see it of course they exist you just have to know how to detect things with different instruments of reality the same is true with Purity and impurity it's a very serious reality but it's on a deeper deeper level one of the tractates that deals with Purity and impurity is called vessels it's 30 chapters and it deals with all different types of vessels that can become pure not become pure here there's a very interesting mishna and the commentators struggle with it because it seems out of context it's just like a piece of little history or like Jewish trivia I'll read it inside you also have it in the English as well yes he goes through the six days of creation there are things that were created on the first day that are suceptible to impurity B but anything created on the second day a is not suscept to impurity if it was created on the third day yes there are things that are susceptible to impurity on the on Wednesday the fourth day and on Thursday there was nothing created that is susceptible to impurity besides two things the bird the wing of a vulture and the Egg of an ostrich that is plated okay says no don't get dramatic wings of vultures are not different than any other Wings anything created on the sixth day is susceptible to impurity what is going on here suddenly we're learning about Sunday Monday Tuesday Wednesday Thursday Friday so he says it alternates back and forth what was created on Sunday is susceptible to impurity at least some things Monday no no Monday is pure Tuesday susceptible to impurity Wednesday no impurity pure Thursday almost no impurity besides the wing of a vulture and the Egg of an ostrich Friday anything created on Friday is susceptible to P to impurity so Sunday yes Monday no Tuesday yes Wednesday no Thursday is in limbo Friday yes first of all what's the point of this first of all what does it mean let's discuss what it means what it means is the way the commentators will discuss the commentary of the banura ra banura who explains as follows what was created on Sunday on Sunday we say in the beginning hasem created heaven and earth Heaven and Earth is created on Sunday what was created on Monday you remember bious on Monday created the firmament that separates the higher water from the lower water so Heaven is cre created on Monday what's created on Tuesday all produce all plants flowers shrubs trees legumes all the world of the B the ban the world of batan is created on Tuesday what about Wednesday the Sun the moon the stars the planets what about Thursday Thursday you have the birds and the fish what about Friday Friday you have all of the mammals all of the mammals all of the animals beasts mammals animals insects and the human being shabas chabas is a day of rest so now we'll understand the mishna if you look at what was created on Sunday from Earth you can make earn wear vessels earn wear vessels were the most common vessels that were made they're still made in a lot of places earn wear vessels is made from Earth you take Earth you mix it with water you put in some straw you have a Potter that molds it you have a made pottery earn wear vessels it's called clay you bake it in an oven or in the sun if it's a hot day and you have a beautiful earn wear vessel that is susceptible to Tuma in fact that's a very classic vessel that easily becomes impure and it penetrate so deeply because it's porous that a mikah doesn't even help you have to dissolve it you have to break it apart it's Earth you can break it apart and then put it together so that's Sunday so but also says Heaven and Earth and also water water also the first day we have water right it says and water like a cup of water like any liquid is also susceptible to impurity so more than one thing yeah yeah yeah cuz it says there was already water yeah now we look at Monday Monday is heaven heaven is not susceptible to impurity and you can't make vessels Out of Heaven okay so that's Monday so Monday is pure what about Tuesday Tuesday all the trees are created you could make vessels out of trees it's called clay eights wooden vessels wooden vessels are susceptible to impurity and they're all made from trees that's Tuesday what about Wednesday Wednesday you have the Sun the moon the stars I never heard anybody making a vessel from the Sun or from the moon or from the stars or from any other planet so it's not susceptible to impurity we'll skip Thursday for a moment what about Friday oh Friday you have mammals you have animals you have people so if you take an animal you make what's called clay etum vessels out of Bones this was a very common vessel they took bone and made out of a vessel it's T it's susceptible to to Tuma so Friday is also susceptible to impurity also a person could become impure and any dead animal if it's not Kosher and noted it's called a AA it gives T certain dead insects could give Tuma so that's why Friday is a day that susceptible things that were created on Friday are susceptible to impurity shabas of course not nothing was created on chabas what about Thursday Thursday is interesting fish and birds even when they die they don't give out impurity they're not like dead mammals that die which are called n a dead fish doesn't give t and a dead bird doesn't give T if you touch it or carry it so Thursday is a day that's like Wednesday it's pure but there is an exception and that is you see even if a person makes a vessel people sometimes made Vessels from from birds or from fish like from the skin but it's not susceptible to T it remains pure only if you make a vessel from a mammal what's called clay etum from the bone the bone of an animal which they use they use till today what a whale huh what is a whale a whale it's in the sea a whale is is Thursday is W is is Thursday so it's not maab so since it's in the water so it's in this case it's it's like in in this area even though it has similarities to mammals but in this area it's considered a fish so fish and birds if you make vessels out of them they're not susceptible to impurity mammals if you make a vessel out of the bone of a mammal or the skin leather all of leather leather clothes leather coats leather garments leather they would make leather leather jars leather bars it was very good to hold things in these are all made from the hide of an animal or this vessels made from the bones of an animal these are all susceptible to Tom that's all Friday but Thursday is only fish and birds and if you make vessels of fish and birds they're not susceptible to Tuma but Thursday has two exceptions the Egg of an ostrich is the largest egg that we have and it's a very powerful egg I don't know if you ever touched it or held it it's not like the egg of a chicken that you eat in the morning the egg of a chicken if you drop it a little bit yes you can eat a raw scrambled egg from your counter but the Egg of an ostrich is very powerful it also weighs heavy and therefore people would use that egg to turn it into a k turn it into a vessel the Egg of an ostrich also a vulture the wings of a vulture are very strong so they would use that also to turn it into a vessel so because of that even though usually birds and fish are not susceptible to impurity if they die they don't give off impurity and if you make vessels from them the rabbis knew that people in their house had metal vessels golden vessels silver vessels tin vessels copper vessels right leather vessels which are all susceptible to imp they may have the ostrich's egg also as a vessel especially if they plated it so it should look nice so people could get confused and if you say oh this is not impure this is impure people say What's the difference so that's why they made a decree that when you make a vessel from the Egg of an ostrich it's susceptible to impurity rabbinic biblically it's not because it's from a it's from a bird the same is true if you make a vessel from the bird of a vulture biblically it's not susceptable to impurity so for example even if a dead you'll forgive me a dead weasel or a dead mice mouse falls into it which usually is a source of impurity it would not become impure but the rabbi said because people would make in their homes vessels from these things and it could get confused with other vessels they didn't want to make a distinction so to keep it simple they said these vessels are also susceptible to impurity so that's why Thursday is somewhat of a limbo place okay so for those of you who did not shut down yet first of all first of all it's good for you to have an experience what your sons do for 15 years in Yeshiva not for 45 minutes okay for 10 hours a day so a little empathy a little empathy when they come home in a bad mood it's good for mommies to have empathy so I'm not giving you the 15-hour experience I'm not giving it to you I just gave you a six minute experience and some of you already shut down so it's just very interesting okay it was all planned I'm just joking but it's I'm not so I'm not completely joking so what's the summation of this the mission is telling us look at the days of creation Sunday you will find things that were created that are susceptible to Tuma impurity Monday gardish Tuesday yes because again all the plants all the shrubs all the trees Wednesday garnished Friday yes mammals people insects Thursday biblically no just like Wednesday purely pure but Rabin there's two things created Wednesday the ostrich and the vulture that can create that could become impure again if we fashion them into vessels in the case of the vulture we take the wing the wing of the vulture we have some vultures here sometimes if you notice on my black for a while there were vultures visiting very often they're very powerful wings and they're aggressive aggressive birds and their vessels the vessels are strong and the ostrich as well that is where Thursday the rabbi said two things could be now the question is what was the point of this mishna it's certainly interesting Sunday Monday Tuesday Wednesday Thursday Friday but so what like what is there here is there a law here and commentators struggled with this it's an interesting it's an interesting piece of information but what is the relevance of it is there a lesson here is there are there ramifications here it's hard to understand so for many generations it was a struggle like what did the mishna want to teach us is it just a sign to remember like the mishna says is there maybe something else one of the great Masters was known as thees which literally means the holy Jew his name was RAB yakowitz he passed away tala that would be 1813 and he was from the city called piska in Poland it's around 100 kilometers like 50 or 60 miles from warsa and he has two very famous students the K and of so he was one of the Great minaries of Polish jury in the 18th century and the first years of the 19th century he has a fascinating interpretation here and he says this is not just an abstract mishna talking about Sunday Monday Tuesday that doesn't seem relevant it actually has very profound ramifications because we know that our calendar is orchestrated very very carefully there's certain days when certain holidays will fall out and certain days they will never fall P out rash will never be on a Sunday will never be on a Wednesday will never be on a Friday and there's a reason for it there's astronomical reasons for it and there were practical reasons for it yipper will only be certain days of the week and won't be other days of the week for example you will never have y Kipper on a Sunday you won't have y Kipper on Sunday you will have y Kipper on a Monday you'll never have y Kipper on Tuesday you will have y Kipper on Wednesday you will have y on chabas the sign for this is Auer a is alive gim or ego aive gim AER will never be Al giml you will never have Yer on a Sunday never on a Tuesday never on a Friday you will have Yer on a Monday you'll have y on a Wednesday you'll have y on Thursday and chabas never Sunday Tuesday Friday PM is the opposite PM is porm you'll never have porm on Zion B doar you'll never have porm on chabas you'll never have porm on Monday you'll never have por him on Wednesday you will have por him on Sunday you will have por him on Tuesday you will have P him on Friday exciting porm now it's it's interesting in y in such a year they have what's called P which is a triple PM it goes Friday shabas Sunday and because of that they do different things each day it's very interesting like on Friday they're going to read the mill usually they have p on the on the 15th day but this shabas they read on Friday shab they do they read Sunday they have the meal and they give they give that's Tinus sester That's Thursday yeah that's so so your sh it extends but still cannot be ever on chabas so the days that Yer can be purm can't be the days that purm could be y Kipper could never be so let's see again yipper will never be Sunday will never be Tuesday will never be Friday it can be the other days it could be Monday could be Wednesday could be shabas we have on chabas purm will never be on those days you'll never have a PM on a Monday when y Kipper is you'll never have a purm on a Wednesday when y Kipper is you'll never have purm on chabas when will you have purm you'll have purm on a Sunday you'll have P him on a Tuesday you'll have P him on a Friday why in fact it says in Z that puim was named because of Y is the day like so even though the Milla says was named cuz threw Lots but let's rememberer they also threw Lots huh Thursday I'm going to ask you to wait for a few minutes but you don't have a chair so we have to get you a chair come here there's three chairs here if you want so because of course came after Kipper but puim is named this is what it says in Z it's connected to now it's very strange because if you would ask me which are the two most opposite days in the Jewish calendar I would say Pim and yipper they have no similarities Yer is a somber day it's a serious day there's no eating there's no drinking there's fasting purm I don't have to describe to you what purm is like the nightmare of many a Jewish woman and many a Jewish mother especially if you have teenagers who decide they're allow of smoke and drink so I don't mean to remind anybody but the pro the challenge is how does come together not only that it says in that is really so is like purm that means purm in many ways is even higher than Yim Kipper you're comparing Yim Kipper it's which means like and here in the calendar we see their exact opposite the days that purm will fall out Kipper can't the days thater could fall out purm can't oh says thees now you'll understand the mishna on Sunday things were created that are susceptible to Tom Monday not Tuesday yeah Wednesday not Friday yeah shabas not he says that's the mishna is describing yipper versus purm purm can be on a Sunday when you had the creation of things that could become impure Yer can't be on a Sunday but it could be on a Monday when there's no impurity but PM can't be on a Monday Tuesday it reverses yes PM noer it's a day of impurity Wednesday yeser no it's no impurity it's the Sun the moon the stars if you'll notice Monday and Wednesday Heavenly things are created Sunday and Tuesday Earthly things are also created Friday yipper will not be on a Friday Purim will be on a Friday like this year and that's a day of impur of impurity shabas is a day of Purity shabas KES nothing was created y could be on shabas PM can't be on chabas so that's so interesting purm will only be on a day when things were created that can become impure yipper will never be on such a day now in parenthesis we're going to get back to this we have Thursday Thursday we're going to as I told you we're going to wait a few minutes we're going to get to Thursday in a moment but now we're dealing with the other day so the says this is what really the mishna is saying and writes he was one of the great rabbis of Poland he was killed in the war Soto pesak 1943 and he writes that the Mish is actually telling us that because of this when you make the calendar you have to make sure that PM doesn't fall out on certain days and Y doesn't fall out on the other days P has to be on days that are and Y on days that are not so that's yeah yeah we're talking the big the biger but what is the meaning in all of this what is what is what is the message what is the theme behind this so for this we need to go a little deeper into to understand the story of vashi and Esther because this will shed light on understanding exactly how this holiday is created and why this change of the days we all know the story aashish asks Vash to come see him and show off her beauty in front of all the ministers and all of the people all of the people he invited to the feast this is after parting for 187 days drinking and on the seventh day the last day of the party his heart is merried he's inebriated he's into intoxicated vashi is sitting with the women because she made her own feast and he wants her to come and the Milla says Vash was gorgeous and he wants to show off he wants to display everybody should see his wife's Beauty she refuses to come the Milla doesn't explain why K say Rashi says because aish wanted she should come without any garments and there was a leprosy there so she didn't want to come so why couldn't she just send him a message and explain to him that this will be embarrassing for him and it's not he shouldn't take it personal it's actually to save his grace as much as her own Grace again the Milla doesn't explain any of this but something happens here that doesn't work and a is infuriated and he has her eliminated so that's the literal meaning of the story this is the entire introduction to the whole PM Story how are we supposed to understand this on a deeper level so there's a fascinating explanation of the maharal of Prague on the name of vashti the word vashi reminds you of which word in Hebrew anybody what does mean two two so that's what the maral says if you take a look in your Source sheet it's the fourth Source from the bottom eser she's called which means two stay because there was no one person there were two people very interesting commentary she wasn't one she was made up of two so that's what her that's her name Vash she's made up of two people what is this supposed to mean what does it mean to be made up of two people she's split she's a different person one day or another day what what is this take a look at the source right before M there's a called it was written by a it's the of a man named RAB Z of is a city in Ukraine he was a student of the maged of misri he was also one of the great kasic Masters in Ukraine he has a called mayor which means a Shining Light and he actually passed away on purm and he has a commentary on the Milla and I quote I heard in the name of the he says the king asked to bring and she didn't want to come so you have it on a physical level you also have it on a spiritual level what is it on a spiritual level say is a king but is also a [Music] metaphor is a metaphor for the ultimate King why would the ultimate King be called so if you look in the second to your last Source I'm going to go for a second to second last jump there because it says there it's a book and wrote they bring from the is three words AIS the end Rous the beginning shal are his the king that the end and the beginning are his in other words Hashem AIS is the end of everything Rous is the beginning of everything which means from the beginning till the end it's that's what they say but if you look in your last Source you know why he's called comes from the word Shak black the face of the Jewish people was blackened in his days like the bottom of your chin pot means the bottom of the pot doesn't say chin that was my addition but when you cook something and especially you know you let it you told your husband to take to shut the fire in 25 minutes okay not your husband the cleaning lady and she forgot and suddenly the whole pot is black and now you have to be rubbing for a few hours scrubbing so the bottom of the pot is black so he says comes from this word shakar Blackness like shakar is black because the face of the Jewish people were blackened in his days like the bottom of a pot interesting expression so we have a huge contradiction tells us the end and the beginning is his the says no it means actually Blackness and darkness because it was a very dark period for the Jewish people no kidding it was the first genocidal plan against the Jews that almost succeeded it was obviously anull but the danger was intense and it lasted almost for an entire year even after hamama was killed because the decree came out you gim that in a year you gim they should kill the Jewish people so this was a very very serious year a whole year people don't realize it didn't PM didn't happen as long as the Milla is read Milla is read in 2 minutes PM happened over more than a decade it's a long story yeah more than 10 years yeah a becomes a king in the third year he makes a party vashi gets killed he's now searching for a new Queen it takes another few years on the seventh year of his Reign Esther becomes the queen then he hires hamon okay in the 12th year of his Reign Esther was already a queen for five years years the decree comes out the decree comes out onim it's a decree that in 11 months gim all Jews should be exterminated in one day so Jews have a whole year to prepare for their death so to speak and every Jew is going to be killed Esther comes into the next day asks him to come to a party at the party she asks him to come to a second party at the second party she gets H executed but the decree is still there there's still a decree it's like if akman would be killed or himler would be killed you still have Hitler you still have a holocaust you just have the main guy who instigated it gone but the decree was still there Esther then convinces aish to send permission to the Jewish people that they could defend themselves AES never cancels the first decree people think he never canel the first decree he said I can't he just gave Jews permission to fight back that's it they got the second letter and now a whole year they were waiting for war they knew there's going to be War it wasn't a simple year it was like because they were gratified that they have permission to defend themselves and the government was behind them but you were dealing with very very serious situation listen to a 75,000 amim who came to kill Jews and the Jews killed them in self-defense right somebody once told me that they can't celebrate porum because it's too violent because they killed 75,000 people I said read the Milla these were 75 5,000 terrorists literally Hamas terrorists who came to kill children and the Jews killed them first you should be grateful and if not you're cuckoo you're cuckoo you're cuckoo you lost every sense of morality they still cucko till today I know that that's why I'm saying it that's why I'm saying it the reason I'm saying it you identify with the perpetrator much more than with the victim you have to choose do you love life or Do You Love Murder you have to choose in life I said the Milla is not a barbaric story the Jews did what every moral person did what you would do for your children I hope and if not you're an accomplice to evil in any case it was why am I saying this want to know how much time oh so this was a long time so was it was a difficult period so now let's come back it all starts off with aashish wanting vashi to come without clothes and she refuses to come so the gar says there's a leprosy that's one interpretation the B the whole story and he turns it into a psychological and spiritual story let's see what he says back to that Source you see the second line let me share the holy words all kpp means shells husks blockages don't have a real don't have a real reality in the world only if they dress up in something else they have to get dressed and camouflaged they have to wear clothes that's how they can exist and here the King of Kings asks vashi who is the embodiment of kipa of shells versus Esther which is holy she say he says I want vashi to come so vashi wants to come with her garments he says no I want kipa to come without its garments she couldn't come without garments there's no existence so if there's no existence there's nobody to come without having camouflage being camouflaged with garments there's nobody there that's what we said Kip has no msus no reality if it's not dressed up so when he summons Vash to come without it there's nobody to come there's nobody here this is deep and not every brain will contain these holy words so how do I have the audacity to try to explain these holy words so the answer is first of all because I'm speaking to women number one and it's all about Vash and Esther but with God's grace over the generations that the B's words have been explained by his students over the generations I think at least a little bit at least a little bit we can have some access to his holy and profound words yeah what is he saying he's saying and uh you all know the story or many of you know the story The Emperor has no cloth right what's the story yes they convinced him that there's a tailor that's going to weave such an amazing Royal aristocratic garment for the king that it's barely visible it's so adal it's so fine it's so subtle it's so refined that you can't even see it or touch it and this became the news of the entire Kingdom that this greatest tailor is making a garment that never existed in history it is so fine it is so subtle it's so adal it's like M thin of thin you have to have special microscopic eyes to see it and the day that the king put on these garments was you know some people dance with and this was of this garment that was so historic that regular eyes can't see it and the King took off his regular garments and he put on this garment and he goes out for a prayed and everybody's like wow wow wow wow and there was a young child and the child takes a look and screams the emperor is naked cuz children get it he has no clothes the emperor has no clothes that's it he said it as is and this became the greatest tragedy how can this child be educated and brainwashed in such a powerful way to say that the emperor has no clothes it's almost like in America till a few weeks ago saying that there's men and women like really wow wow like you need a president to get up in 2025 and like men and women wow I never knew that nobody ever knew that that's what happens to a country right it's like frightened of course not this pronoun that pronoun that pronoun yet a pronoun I think Mike Walsh did a documentary what is a woman so he goes to all the professors in America and they don't know what hit them they don't know what a woman is too complicated so finally he goes to a tri so he goes to a tribe in Africa and he asks them and they all start laughing what a muga he is and then he asks some guy here in America the guy says Get Married you'll figure it [Laughter] out the b says I'm just using this story the B says sometimes it's the opposite the kids Scream the child Scream the emperor has no clothes what if it's the other way the clothes have no Emperor the clothes have no Emperor and if the clothes have no Emperor they just have clothes of an emperor so when the King asks that the clothes be removed what's left nothing nothing that's why it doesn't even say the Milla vashi was killed on a spiritual level it's not about her being killed she just disappears it's interesting the Milla doesn't say aish killed Vash or anybody killed Vash it said she shouldn't show up anymore why is it said it why is it say it in such a strange way because spiritually that's the story vanish Gone With the Wind why is this what does this mean this is what the maral says cuz Vash means to there was no one person there were two people what does it mean one person what does it mean two people what does the B mean kipa can't exist without clothes what does that mean aren't clothes a good thing they can't exist and the moment you want it without garments there's nothing there where come from the message here is not just profound but it's also really a guide for Life the word kipa what does the word kipa mean a shell a husk right kipa is like in yish it's called Uh a peel a banana peel an orange peel you peel a banana to have access to the banana we're very thankful a banana has a peel because if bananas wouldn't have peels you could leave a banana on your counter without a peel and after a few hours it's going to get brown if on the tree it wouldn't have a peel it couldn't survive the peels of fruits are what allow it to survive through the weather would allow them to become ripe to develop maturity it's like a protector it's like a coat in the winter it's literally a coat so a cipa could be very very good it's like the skull protecting the brain it's a very important thing when you have such a precious thing you need protected grain has chaff it's called straw it protects it if not the kernel would either be scorched by the Sun or ruined by the rain the chaff protects the kernel but everybody understands when you want to eat a banana you peel the banana unless you're a monkey if you want to eat an orange you peel the orange and if you want to eat the kernel of a grain you remove the chaff and you take out the kernel so the ciper knows it's space [Music] oopsie huh so so the CIP knows its space it knows its role was it what is its role its role is I'm here to protect the moment I'm done protecting you want to eat the banana discard me throw me in the garbage and eat the banana enjoy it throw out the chaff for use it for fuel or use it for animal whatever it is and eat the kernel grind the kernel make flour and make a delicious H that's healthy without carbs and cholesterol invisible yeah an invisible hitach an invisible hitach very good very good yeah the one I'm eating right now you see it yes okay I don't gain weight that's a good Kiper that's a beautiful Kiper the skin our it's called epidermis protects us that's very very important what happens however when the kipa stops calling itself kipa when the kipa says I am the real thing I'm not covering I'm not covering anything I am a substitute I am the I'm the substitute for reality oh here kipa becomes dangerous here it's not doing its job anymore it's not just an accessory it takes over it occupies when we talk about Cosmic kadus and kipa in cabala andas and there's always the contrast Kip Holiness unholiness why is it called kipa the answer is because the only reality that really exists is the Divine energy that saturates every single creation that's the only Ms every single reality is created every single Moment by Hashem and therefore the only reality that really exists is is the Divine energy that flows and cruises and vibrates in every heartbeat in every breath in every cell atom neuron in every black hole star frog Turtle squirrel gazelle every tree shrub plant every droplet of rain flake of snow and grain of sand is essentially a physical embodiment of the Divine energy it's the word of Hashem that continuously creates and vivifies and animates every moment of existence but we don't see that it's called kipa there's a shell there's a husk the choice a person makes and what we come down here to the world is to choose in which reality am I going to live am I going to live in the reality of kipa am I going to live in the reality of kadus to live in the reality of kipa means I get stuck in the shells in the coverups that's what I start worshiping that's what I start accepting and validating as power and that means anything and anybody outside of Hashem when the B was a little child on the death bed he lost his parents at a very young age he was 5 years old and as they say the last words his father told him before he passed away was isik two things I want to tell you don't fear anybody or anything in the world outside of Hashem love every Jew with every fiber of your being and the father passed away I guess with those two lines he gave him more than sometimes we can get a whole life from listening to somebody he gave him his soul and he gave him a mission he gave him a mission and that's how he live that's what he taught that's essentially what he's teaching here as well what does aora mean idolatry we translated often as I worship a statue or I worship a rock or I worship a person but really what AAR means anytime I grant reality reality to Kiper rather than seeing it as a ciper that's just covering that's a form of AAR I'm taking it away from the frequency of Oneness means strange other right zor means strange anything outside anything outside of that Oneness now what does that mean in a person's life in a person's life AAR is not always dramatic sometimes it's very very subtle but it means whenever I give any power to anything anything outside of the true source and core of all reality and I give that power and that's how I'm living by and that's what's making me stressed out and anxious so it's a very human thing to do but right now I'm not in touch with my own true life force and energy I'm living in another space I was taken away from that space and now I'm living in a space of Brokenness of loneliness of Separation that's why the B says kipa always exists in a garment it never shows up beer why not why do you think kipa always has to be dressed up in something else why do you think what would happen if you removed all the garments and it just shows what would happen huh yeah it ceases to exist why does it cease to exist because its whole power of existence is that it's a garment it's a coverup so if you if you if you expose it and sh there's nothing there yeah let's give a simple example yeah how do you know if a business or an organization is legit or it's corrupt if it's corrupt or illegal Etc they will not want you to open the books why not very simple cuz if you start digging you're going to find skeletons and you're going to say this whole thing is a farce when somebody a few years ago somebody had a bonsai scheme you remember $50 billion deceive people what was the power of the panai scheme people invested millions of dollars and they thought they're getting a tremendous amount of returns they were getting nothing but everything was covered over by lies Every Lie could only exist if there's a cover if there's no cover if you say it as is it's never going to survive name yeah yeah yeah yeah and the same is true in so many areas of life right whenever anybody needs to cover up something why are they covering up because they're afraid if you reveal the truth its powerlessness or its corruption or its evil is going to be revealed so it's always dressed up and camouflaged now the question is in a person's own personal life and that is how many blockages do we live with I want you to ask yourself I'm going to ask myself how many things in our life do we have blockages with that we're dressed up in many many spiritual or psychological and emotional garments and they exist in order to protect us but sometimes instead of protecting us what happens is they can cause us to become alienated from who we really are so if you were to ask a person and this is exactly what happens here the King of Kings asks vashi to show up this is says is a story about life every person in life at some point is summoned to show up it can happen when I'm young if I'm lucky it can happen when I'm a little older it can happen much older that depends on the circumstances of of life but there's a moment that the King of Kings the one true reality that is the source of everything Cosmic Oneness summons vashi come come I want to see you vashi is very good at this what does she do she has beautiful clothes she's dressed up she's about to come show off the beauty he says no this time I need you to come with you just you nothing else Vash is like no way no way this is what I need to come without any blockages and what happens there's no vashi left there's no vashi left in a person's life what does this mean what does it look like to show up to life with full presence without any any coverups sometimes a person has so many coverups they don't even know how many clippies they have sometimes my cipo have developed so brilliantly over the years that I don't even know there's anything else I'm operating from that place cuz I don't have anything else to operate with these are the blockages through which I operate what does that look like in people's lives it can have a billion different stories and different colors but one feature for example could be yeah I just to what deserve disappear yeaha in a bunker April yeah it'ses like but no Punishment No earthy punishment by any Court would be able to give Hitler what he deserved you realize that that's why we say on every Jew who was killed it's not just it's not just we're not looking for Revenge if you could punish a criminal you have to punish a criminal but it's something much deeper it's something completely beyond the imagination of what evil can accomplish but this is what's so important to understand about evil Evil's reality is not real what do I mean it's not real it's very real it reeks Havoc it means its entire reality is based on a lie and anything that's based on a lie cannot endure Forever both of my parents grew up in the Soviet Russia communism so my mother describes to me may she be well that in hisory their history lesson she went to Public School in Georgia South Russia every few months they had to tear out new pages from the history book because this new person became person nrata by Stalin so they never existed so for 70 years what was the power of communism a lie they held the world in the grip of Terror and millions of Jews supported communism they thought Russia was a paradise and it was all one big lie it was a geham for for for millions of people it was pure Purgatory all evil all evil in the world all negativity in the world its entire power is kipa kipa is always covers Stalin didn't come to say I'm destroying the world Kamas doesn't say we're here to burn babies alive Iran Iran andala don't say or Hitler didn't say we're here because we're evil no we are the ones who are just we're Freedom Fighters we love children that's how it always is because that's how kipa lives it lives in Shadows it lives with coverups the moment you remove it it's gone that's why no evil lasts forever because its entire existence is coming from what from reality being buried now let's go to our own life let's not call it evil let's call it blockages anything that exists in our life that its entire Power is coming only because there's blockages is never going to be able to carry you through life because it doesn't really have an existence only things that when you remove all the blockages they're there that's kadus and that's when you could start breathing but imagine if when I grew up when I grew up and I didn't even know this we all have a we have a Divine Soul we have an animal Soul the animal soul is a ciper for the Divine Soul it's like a banana pill it's here to protect it it's here to make sure that I live physically if I need to go to the bathroom I need to go to sleep I need to eat I need to drink I'm too cold I'm too hot that's the animal Consciousness like an animal has a Consciousness that says now you're hungry now you're thirsty now you're in danger it's very very important to have an animal's Soul if you don't have an animal so you can survive but it's a ciper it's a shell but what happens when it's not only a shell it replace es my Divine soul I don't even know that anything is inside so now my animal Soul develops all of these instincts and drives and Cravings right for example one thing I may do is I may numb my feelings because my animal soul is frighten maybe it was hurt a lot as a child so if I don't have feelings I'm fine maybe it will become disassociated from life because if I'm disassociated I won't feel pain maybe it doesn't trust anybody cuz as a child maybe I couldn't trust so now I don't trust anybody maybe if I'm criticized by some body I feel like I'm being stabbed to death and that's why I can't deal with it I become defensive I shut down because my animal soul is frightened because maybe criticism as a child meant you're worthless so these are all protective mechanisms that we live with we develop personalities around them we think this is our personality but really what is it it's a coverup for the truth this is all based on a cover up of my truth what's your truth truth your truth is that right now you're a Channel of God's light in this world which is infinite and therefore you're full of power you're full of love trust compassion curiosity inquisitiveness creativity kindness yeah nice question good question SAS means to cover you're saying here that kipa doesn't exist with only in a cover isn't nearest cover beautiful question okay one moment yeah yeah yeah yeah that's how you know how do I know if I'm touching something of Holiness or something of unholiness so let's say I have a cing to something yeah this is a very good lmus test if it's an if it's AER craving and you tell theer you know what I want to First research this which I'm craving give me a few days I want to see exactly what it is CER will always say no no no no no now it always is impulsive it's right now it's urgent why because it knows that if you give it time if you dig a little bit you're going to see there's nothing there so it right away it's temptation is always immediate its reaction is right now it's overwhelming it's an urgency kadus doesn't mind if you research it for 20 years you could excavate you can go deeper and deeper and deeper and deeper you're going to find truth as deep as you dig in ourselves there's things that if I puncture the blockage wow there was nothing there I was just protecting something that doesn't really have power I thought it does but it didn't kadus means you're living with your innermost core that never has to protect itself with any coverups so what does this look like in a relationship how many coverups do I bring into a relationship with another person how many blockages huh yeah and sometimes if I know somebody for long it may be that the blockages are just entrenched in a much more sophisticated and Powerful way because to come without blockages is very vulnerable because it's full presence full presence is vulnerable full presence is I'm not wearing any vests I'm not wearing any bulletproof vests I'm not wearing any Lush I'm completely completely open that is extremely extremely vulnerable that is why I dress up that is why we cover up it's a way of protecting a person's self so now Vash is called Vash what did the say she is two people what does it mean she's two people she's two people is she does not know who she is there's the vashi at the core and there's the vashi of the kipa when the vashy of the kipa takes over so now you're not dealing with a person you're dealing with a shell of a person and sometimes people could walk around their whole life and you say there's two people the real person is buried somewhere invisible we don't know where they are a woman once told me she's very deep and spiritual person so she told me that her husband had a lot a lot of trauma in her life she also did but she worked it through he's in middle of it so uh so she told me that sometimes in their marriage you just put it on vibrate so sometimes in their marriage she's talking to him and he just shuts down there's nobody there it's like a shell a shell of a person so I asked her so what do you do then so she told me she said I speak to his Nish I speak to his soul because there's nobody there and I said does his soul speak back she says yeah his soul says yeah I also miss him you miss him and I also miss him so sometimes it was a very very deep response like I said what do you tell her soul I tell him that I miss him so much and the Soul says yeah I also do right so this is really where there's like this disassociation like I'm just living behind shells and husks and I can't get let I can't let anything anything get to me and this is what you really talk about a shell of a person there's a person they're alive they're breathing they may be functional they may have even 3,000 employees or 100 employees they may make money they make they figur it out how life works but essentially behind it all the person is not there it's hidden person has been alienated from themselves and there's reasons we do this in life it's usually unconscious but then it becomes a nightmare for the person themselves they are tortured we could feel it whenever there is anxiety is always a wakeup call that there's a split in me something is split something is off something is off base comes Esther what's Esther interesting what does the name Esther mean hiddenness concealment whoa you just attacked vashi for being behind Kip and what's Esther Esther is concealment but what's the difference between Esther and vashi Vash is called vashi which means two Esther means concealment that's her name what does it mean that's her name why she why is that her name cuz Esther knows that there's a concealment and that's the difference Esther's name is concealment not because there's no concealment there is a concealment but she just knows how to distinguish between that which is concealed and that which is not concealed the moment you know that there's a h that's already a whole different situation you see we all have blockages in our lives there's no person who's alive that doesn't have blockages kipa is a part of reality our animal soul is kipa and it sometimes can get out of hand there's a few sadim that transform it completely that's not the challenge the real challenge is that I don't know what is kipa and what is not kipa Esther knows this is concealment she knows what's behind it I know this a banana peel I know I can't eat the banana peel what does that mean in a person's life a person's life it means you could really look at yourself and you say you know what my animal Soul just took over yeah I went into shutdown mode I went into angry mode I went into jealous mode I went into hatred mode I went into empty mode I went into blah blah blah mode I went into anxiety mode I went into fear mode I went into comparing myself to other people mode I went into the mode of oh my God oh my God my family is falling apart mode oh my God the world is falling apart mode okay got it got it so give your little boy or your little girl is throwing a tantum the world is falling apart porum is coming we don't have shus Yankee doesn't have a costume yet where are we going to do the meal OMG and whoever called porm a happy day the happiest day really the happiest day and then you hear some sheer this person says that what you D in porum is going to come true but P him you're so anxious who's ding what's daving the power power of Kip is anything that takes you away from presence in this moment realizing is ver shal that's kipa kipa is very sophisticated it uses Holiness it's like PM is coming PM is coming and you're not inspired oh let's feel guilty guilt great way to celebrate guilt helps everybody get inspired we all know that it just shuts everybody down life is about here now Esther knows there's concealments but she knows it's a concealment she doesn't worship the concealment self awareness the awareness the awareness of what self is an animal Consciousness that's hijacking my creativity and what self is a Divine Consciousness that the animal Soul needs to needs to flow through every person in this life right I have moments in my life I know I'm now in flow there's an openness there's a vulnerability there's a presence and there's always a joy because whenever you're in Hashem space there's joy and confidence and then there's moments I'll just eat whatever I see I'm desperate there's an anxiety I'm afraid okay what do you do then what do I do then the worst thing is just go there don't go that RAB but weirdness the ability to observe that and see that to to see the Hester to see wow my soul is about to be hijacked that's it that's what you got to know my soul is about to be hijacked your child says something your husband says something your wife says something some men will watch this anybody says your mother your sister your brother your sh your partner your sh whatever it is your sister-in-law who never makes right and she calls you why don't you visit your mother right and and a part of me gets triggered what is it I don't know maybe my insecurity maybe history maybe I feel used in this family I'm the one who helps always and then I'm the whatever it is and my animal soul is now getting I'm trying to protect myself jealousy is a way to protect hatred is a way to protect gossip is a way but it's all CIP doesn't make anybody feel better because it's all living from coverups that don't have a real true reality and whenever my life is not a manifestation of true reality it plates it's like a balloon that gets deflated and there's nothing there it's like a marriage that looks good to the world but inside is ratten how much joy is there going to be in that marriage it's like a couple ones came to see me years ago and uh they're telling me you know that that that last night they were Mitzvah and there was a couple at theog Bo and they said that couple was what we want to be like they didn't know that that couple was there earlier my point is I'm saying in you we things could look good on the outside really how how much does that mean but it's true in everybody's life that way there could be things on the outside that are very very glamorous but that's the moment the moment you open up there's nothing there and that's the clown you have to ask some yourself when all the garments are removed what's there how much power is there how much relevance is there how how much is this going to sustain you that's where you want to spend your time that's where you want to be because that's your energy that's your life force that's the only place to be Esther knows this the moment she knows that she's in a different place the king summons every person and that's a gift what does it mean to get summoned by The King by a what does it mean it means that there's situations in life that challenge us to be able to go much deeper and those are gifts they're usually curve balls in life that challenge us to go into a much deeper place it may be a crisis with a child it may be a crisis with a marriage it may be a crisis with your own mental health it may be a challenge in your family in yourself physically financially emotionally spiritually it may be something else that happens inside or outside but these are curveballs that challenge my kipus they're like oh not everything is perfect you know people create a trajectory for life I'm going to have a perfect marriage and perfect kids and they're all going to give me nakas and put them on the conveyor belt I'm going to hatch them and match them and dispatch them and then call me for and I'll pay for a little bit of the Mitzvah and then things are like not working out exactly that way really it's the king knocking on the door of vashi I want to see you I want a relationship with you and I want to come with my clothes again I always want to come with my clothes a nice suit a nice tie whatever that means he says no no no this time I want you what does that look like I don't even know Vash I'm split I don't know who I am I'm one person for the world I'm another person inside I'm one person for the for the planet I'm another person on the inside I'm one person for everybody else I'm another person for me and even for myself I may be two people so vashi puts on the clothes of the emperor says I want to see you you you you you and the every year puim it's a deeper invitation go deeper into you you you but Vash at her core is Kiper so she dissipates when you get to the truth there's nothing there that's what kipa is there's Mish nothing there people who have invested their whole life in Clipper and they meant well Prestige and fame and power and and uh and social status to whatever it is it could by the way spirituality and religion can also be used in this way it's just a way of inflating my poor ego that's looking for protection problem agressive problem that become very very toxic it become very I can use God for this too but how do you know this you know it that it's very hard for you to be vulnerable it's very hard to for you to be joyfully alive and present because there's always an anxiety vashy means there's going to be anxiety because there's a split and whenever there's a split in the soul there's anxiety it's like alarm clock something is off something is off something is off just to say a word about sasas means to cover but what's the real purpose of it the real purpose is actually to speak the truth to uncover because after theas before theas without close the moment kipa comes into the world now you have to understand what it does that nurtures it and what it does actually to pause and see the truth when you live in a world that if somebody walks around without why are we wearing clothes if kipa has clothes the answer is two types of clothes it's like a banana peel there's clothes that actually protect the person from themselves and from others of seeing them simply as a piece of meat whatever that means seeing that there's something deeper here so these are clothes that are actually inviting me to go deeper like a peel of a banana and then there's clothes that are like blockages like a sack a sack that just blocks so you have to understand what type of cover it is there's a cover in order to honor what is inside not to block it not to destroy it s is by Jews is not like in some other cultures where we don't believe that people are allowed to be beautiful and have dignity on the contrary it's actually to preserve to preserve the dignity and the beauty in the right places in the right context so that it's not abused and manipulated and exploited and actually undermines the Dignity of the woman or of the man in a world where there is cipa you need to be able to use protectors in a very productive and healthy way if I just walk around vulnerable naked I don't mean physically emotionally psychologically you could get hurt we do all have prote there's etiquette there's ways of talking I don't walk around telling everybody every problem I have in my classes I do sometimes but not every problem I have a few I have some more it's not because everybody is dishonest because because it's it's about it's being it's the key is are you the owner of your kipa or does your kipa own you that's the key difference you have to have covers just like we go to sleep with blankets but do I own it or does it it own me am I aware of what's Happening you show up to certain relationships the person may not be ready for more that's fine it's not about lying or manipulation it's presence with my true self but it's presence in this relationship with these circumstances so now now we understand what it means that a has two opposite meanings the beginning and the end is his means their story was the Jewish people were BL were black which one is it that's The KES of Esther you could look at life and everybody's life has two different interpretations and it's not about judging or arguing it's really about a frequency of energy I could look at life and say this is a time when the face of the Jewish people is blackened like the bottom of a pot those are the moments of stress or anxiety or crisis collectively that we have or individually that we have in our own lives and that's that's you can also look at the same reality and see I'm in the grip of the one that the beginning and the end is his which am I going to live with it's both both it's both kazal say both it's not one is right the other one is crazy you're not crazy it's very normal Vash in her life is split she lives in a split World cuz the inner truth is buried somewhere Esther walks the world and says there is concealment and I'm going to choose to live in Revelation and not in concealment if you'll see the third to the last Source the source of Esther and is the I will hide but who's going to hide I will hide but it says hter Aster twice because when the hiddenness is hidden then it's not Esther anymore then you have a problem if I know that there's something hiding here you're good if the hiddenness is hidden the Hester is beer ooh that's really that's the problem of kipa I may know I have a challenge I am now in survival mode I am now in coping mechanism mode I just shut down for the next 2 hours don't talk to me cuz I'm shut down you know what you're pretty healthy good stuff I am now I'm now in in a difficult space I need to come back home okay so let's find the mechanism to come back home maybe you need to breathe maybe you need a sleep that's always a good thing maybe a salt bath maybe some exercise maybe a hike in kakat park maybe a brisk walk maybe a telephone conversation maybe DAV learn whatever it is you find the mechanism to bring yourself back home I'm not home but Esther knows about Hester and because of that it changes everything and that's why what's the Milla millas Esther what's migas eser literally to reveal that which is hidden M look at lot so now you'll understand the difference of P you remember what we started with when you shut down in the beginning cuz you didn't know how this is going to help your marriage I hope you figured it out by now so let's go back to Y this is exactly the whole point will only be in a day that can't be T cuz what's Kipper we're like angels for 24 hours we don't eat we don't drink people don't bathe we don't engage and all the things that ker we abstain from it's a day we even dress in white people pray all day it's a day of spiritual Transcendence the goes into and we go into our the only day we say loud because we're like the Angels so we're not hiding anything so Yer is a day in which you're uplifted from the world it's a day of Sublimity does it mean yipper we don't have difficult moments we may have some people have very very traumatized yippers that's things we have to work through but the energy of Yer is an energy of purity of Sublimity of transcendence then comes Pur purm is precisely in days that are susceptible to t you don't make puim on a day that can't become T Sunday yeah Monday no Tuesday yeah Wednesday no shabas no Friday yeah why what do we have against PM that's the whole what does t mean what does it mean to be pure what does it mean to be impure Purity is that's why death which is the opposite of is the opposite ofus means alignment connection attachment no you're not split when I'm split I'm not aligned there's a split I'm broken alignment means there's Oneness you're in a place of alignment over there there's always joy and confidence because you're a manifestation of Oneness over there I can always be present and vul vable and experience the flow of Love cuz that's what I am the flow of love that's Tara what's Tuma Tuma is there's a disconnect that's what impurity is Tuma will always attract itself to places that are potentially rich and holy like bees go to the honey a real robber doesn't steal from a snarer you go to the bank you go with the money is yeah you know they say about the thief that went into some Jewish Bank in Israel right and they found a billion dollars in pledges that's not going to work the kipa goes where the Kusha is that's why those who do more spiritual work will always have more resistance at some point the says it's like you lift weights the stronger you get you lift heavier weights they're going to give you a heavier weight to create more resistance to tear the tissue it's not a punishment it's precisely that when we reach a higher frequency of Life boom we get tested in that space to work through that kipa too people get discouraged you don't have to get discouraged it's part of the process of growth so as a result of that when is puim only in days that are susceptible to T because the whole idea of you could look at life and say it's black it's like the bottom of a pot the bottom of a pot is just it's like you don't even want to eat it it's like the leftover food like the drgs god forgot about me or you could look and say if you were living in that story it was a story at the surface it seemed like Jews were completely random victims of two crazy people one worse than the other that's what it looked at the surface what was Esther's power Esther's power was she did not lose herself even for a moment why she knew it's a concealment it's really you're in the world of God you're in the grip of Hashem every moment of life and even every challenge of life it's a challenge and it's dark and it's black and it's difficult Esther doesn't say there's no concealment puim is on a day that you could become T it's susceptible to impurity if there would be no Darkness you can't become impure Angels don't become impure in holy of Holiness there was no impurity puim is made precisely on a day when you could become not when you could become T that's why it's higher than because it does something that even Pur can't accomplish even physically purm is a very different day there's no high on purm puim you're eating and you're drinking and you're making a meal and sending and giving people are waiting for the inspiration of purm to hit them the whole P huh drunk I'm not sure the whole power depends what drunk means depends what drunk means we spoke about m going higher than the real idea of puim is you have nowhere to run right here it's some people are waiting put him something to happen nothing happens this is what the nothing that's happening that is what's happening that's why it says when mhia comes the one holiday that won't be nullified is pur what's all the holidays will be here but all the represent an Ascend to a higher reality and more inspiration so now the question is how much inspiration are you experiencing when mhia com going to be so much inspiration that all the other holidays are going to be like lighting a candle in the afternoon the is not inspiration the of is that the itself the nature itself the Hester itself this moment itself that I'm in in here is the beginning and the end is all his it's a place of infinity that encompasses everything that's why the first words of the what's the word hide in Hebrew means what glory is light right told take your light and put it on yesu what's the word Kush black so one is light and one is dark from the greatest light to the greatest Darkness I'm not only a m when there's no T even when there is T even when there is a Hester Vash represent that's what she invests in and that's why she had such a hard time she hated chabas she used to make Jewish girls work on chabas without clothes shabas freaked her out cuz shabas is the time of kadha Esther is the opposite she knows about that p and therefore she pierces through it and therefore she doesn't get no SPO from it in a person's life it means that I could be in a state where it's dark and I feel that and then I could bring myself back home and sayous shal right here right now in this situation right here right now in this situation there's a larger truth that I may not understand that I may not know but I can hold on to and it could give me a very very profound sense of presence and vulnerability and there's a lot of tears but there's also tremendous joy and that's why it says so thear says he wasn't from sh yud he was from sh so the gar says because he was he denied AAR and agreed to what does it mean he denied AAR this is M and Esther it's not that he didn't bow down to aara that's for sure he didn't do he denied the reality of aara that aara really exists that's what drove hmon crazy hmon wasn't so perturbed that he didn't bow down to him you know what drove him crazy when M looked at ham ham F looked at him and said you don't really exist Hashem exists you're a conduit you're a channel some people are part of the play by being the heroes and some people are part of the play by being the villains you remember in Camp when you did a production in school right which one were you the hero or the villain they're both part of the play and at the end everybody takes a bow together the question in history is do you have the to be the hero or you the villain looks at H and says you don't have power the says what's the source of H and what type of question is this the answer is there's no h without T there's no h without t m looks at H and doesn't think he's a reality he knows it is you're a big fat coverup God wanted it to be a cover up it's a challenge it's painful but I'm going to bow down to this I'm going to sell my soul hon went crazy from this somebody that denied the core of his reality he went crazy and that's why the worst thing for kipa is when it suddenly has to surrender its very existence it dies if there's kadus under it it starts living when you surrender what's called an ego death you let it go and the real thing comes out now you now now you could breathe finally I was under like you're living under a rock your whole life you come up from under the rock H you could start breathing but that's only if there's something there ham went why did he have to kill M he didn't bow down to why did he have to kill every Jew because there was no pain for H like the pain of knowing that these people don't think he really exists imagine his whole life he invested in trying to build up his existence and deep down M looks and says he doesn't even exists Hashem exists if you exist as part of Hashem of course you exist then you're Eternal then you're infinite you don't need you don't have a better existence and if not you never existed you're never going to exist you're a challenge that was created that's what he looks at H H couldn't forgive him so therefore PM is precisely in a day that's susceptible cuz that's the whole of Esther to reveal the truth of the concealment that in a place where you could easily be disconnected you choose connection you choose Oneness you choose the relationship now let's let now let's bring it all together so now let's come back Sunday Sunday because it's t Monday CU there's no T Tuesday T Wednesday because there's no Friday is not there is shabas is not because there's no the problem is Thursday Thursday is the only day of the week that can be both and could be Thursday could be Thursday so that under Ms the whole class so now you can go home but but so here listen to this and here you see how precise and meticulous every word in is is a holiday that was created whener was who who where does Yer come from what's the source of Yer soer is a Biblical holiday that comes from when was purm created is it's not biblical didn't exist in the time of puim it's not like the Mitzvah of shabas or kashus or sukus or PES Purim is a rabic institution and the time of M and Es after the miracle happened which was already after the destruction of the first bikes the end of the Babylonian exile the beginning of the period of the second bikes that's when PM is created not by mha not by Hashem it's created by the sages and the rabbis just like Kaneka was created later so now let's look at Thursday Thursday let's ask this question biblically from a Biblical tah perspective can there be impurity on Thursday no no from a Biblical perspective so therefore Yer which is a Biblical holiday is on a day when there's no T because on Thursday from a t perspective there's no T but now let's ask another question from a Rabin perspective on Thursday can there Bea yeah the wing of a vulture and the ostrich egg porm is a RAB holiday so from a Rabin perspective is there t on Thursday yeah from a biblical IAL perspective there's no t on Thursday because nothing gets t on Thursday soer which is a Biblical Holiday from the days of M is on a day when there's no Tom Thursday but p is a rabic holiday from a rabic perspective is there Tom on Thursday yeah two things the wing of an ostrich or the wing of a vulture what's called KF from the word o and bait as Bas and the Egg of an ostrich which are strong strong Birds very strong very powerful and there there could be T So p is on a day of T so Thursday is the only day that the two can come together because on this day you have from one side from one aspect of History there's no t for from another aspect there is T so now if so we come to the idea and we understand the gor says whenever it says wherever it says it's it's pain means it was it came to pass it's like passive is it will be when somebody says it came to pass like and it's interesting if you what's the what's the pain if it's why do we say but that's again the whole point of Esther because the tar is that it's not revealed that in a revealed way you see you have to learn in that it's once spoke to hasem and he said I don't know what you want if you would have put all the cravings and negativity of this world into books and ganen would be right in front of our eyes M but you did the opposite G you put into the oh all the problems of the world you put in front of our eyes come on it's not it's not fear so what do you want that's what the B said that's since in a revealed way it's the regular you need to learn and think and meditate and work on yourself and find your inner soul but at the surface is a that conceals so that's why is because there's still the pain that it's not revealed in the manifested way because ultimately it's all in so really it's but it's work it takes work and there's a pain over there why is it not revealed why is it not manifested the soul has Bliss but there's a pain why is it not manifested why is it not revealed why are there so many coverups why are there so many blockages that's even in in the and that's why puim is the quintessential holiday that gave the Jewish people the power in gas to be able to penetrate and see the truth in the darkness but still know that is the pain that the infinite full love is not revealed in the most manifested way which is the ultimate G may we see it before have a beautiful and a [Music] years