Accessing Belief in Self - Rabbi Efraim Stauber

[Music] okay so I've got another story for you today this one is told to us by the Rambam and this is a story that's going to once again bring out this incredible powerful idea that the most powerful force our disposal to improve our personal lives our relationships with friends family and even with a cottage bar clue is the ability the bravery to actually experience our own emotions and let's start this way you know people like to make these epic fails compilations right so if I would ask you what was the absolute greatest most epic fail in human history probably I would nominate me to my nomination that would have to be autumn harissa comes into GaN Eden everything is perfect a perfect world all he has to do is nothing for a few hours it makes it to Shabbos boom paradise forever of course he's got all kind of reasons why he doesn't do it that way he eats from the AIDS hadass and here we are thousands of years later suffering now this not personally go tell dem ruin cuz I already talked about don't mess with him because we do the same thing every day so let's not blame him too much the next runner up epic fail number 2 once again my nomination would be the Jewish people leaving Egypt because that was an awesome moment I mean just think about the build-up ten plagues God showing is awesome might blood frauds lie it's crazy stuff Maka's mokoros all egyptians dead chasing the Jews into the desert oh my gosh the arms of splitting the sea crazy miracles Wow now they're on their way to the promised land here we come and then at the finish line they blow it - em tourism he says guys y'all gonna die that's it you failed your children are gonna go in you failed you blew it you're gonna die now imagine being told by Hashem sure you can live out 40 years you know cuz way it worked as anyone who was at the age of 20 is high if Mesa is gonna get killed so you can live out your 40 years do you know - you hit 60 that's all imagine being told by God Himself that you failed and you could live out your life but there's really no purpose for your life anymore all of history's gonna remember what you blew it kind of depressing would you say here's what happened every year and the ROM mom wants to describe the holiday of what we call to Bob the fifteenth day of our and he says they chose to stay because of a crazy thing that happened to these people in that generation so here's a little background information before I read the ROM BOMs words to you every year on Tish above they would dig their grave and the first year people who are 60 years old they all died and their friends I guess buried them the next morning and the same thing happened every year tisha Bob dig your grave lie in it and you don't wake up in the morning a strange thing happened though on year 40 the last year of the Jews sojourn in the desert something different happened they dug the graves I could do every year well at least they saw other people don't get every year they lie down in their graves and they wake up in the morning now I would give a lot of money to watch what that looked like cuz you wake up in the morning you're like one second am i dead I think I'm supposed to be dead I mean every year people are dying now so what happens that you start pinching yourself right but once I can maybe I'm dreaming and I'm picturing myself in my dream or maybe I'm dead and I'm pinching myself after I'm dead who knows what death looks like maybe this is what it looks like I don't know whatever happened at a certain point they all looked around they got together and they said this is weird I guess we made a mistake and it's not the ninth of Av yet it must have been the eighth so guess what the next day everyone back in get back in those raves so y'all lied back down guess what they woke up again and they kept doing this until the fifteenth of the month guess what happened on the fifteenth of the month it's a full moon they looked up they saw the moon you're like oh my gosh we've been reprieved we've been forgiven we're not going to die and they were filled with such joy this became a holiday but that's not the real reason for the holiday and I want to read the words of the Rambam to you so you get a sense of what really is going on here Lou Bava ruyan hamesha ah sir Bob this is the Rambam in his parish Amish nice commentary mr. and mrs. tiniest the end of the mess after they chose the 15th day of our for this holiday the fee Shabo nostalgia homage fo me may say mid bore business our bottom because on that day the plague stopped in the 40th year kiha mothers who saw our baby hold tests Bob there was a lot of death going on in every tissue buff which are not grown in this talc on the last year it ended it left VMT new Alcott a reddish but they waited for half of the month just to make sure this is really going on for us and get these words the Oz but who beneficial they trusted their souls their amino Bharat's mom and they believed in themselves why we're here gives you boy rot saw in Hebei ray they felt inside their hearts and in their souls the God's desire for them but her Shabbos a boy Basilica Messiah he is no longer angry at them with a figure and therefore a suicide mission Valhalla yo mister this sussan from that day on we made a day of partying why you see there's a very important question to ask her why is the holiday on the 15th because if you think about it it's the wrong date the real reprieve happened on the 9th of off they just didn't realize that because they thought they made a mistake until the 15th so why was the holiday when they realized the holiday should have been on the actual day that they were forgiven that they didn't die that's what the Romney was telling us you know why they chose the 15th because their personal salvation was a private holiday that wouldn't have been a holiday for all of generation what they want every generation to know is what happened on the 15th on that day they believed in themselves they felt ASEAN's love for them and I said oh my gosh we who committed the worst failure ever and all of our generations are going to suffer because of what we did if we can feel a Shems love and we can do teshuva so can they and that's the holiday that they wanted for all of time that even that may say mid-war that generation of the may say mid bar they can do to ver also Hashem could forgive them Hashem could love them and they could believe in their own ability to deter Shiva that's the salvation they knew that that's what's can help us for all generations so to behave the holiday of to be' of is that no matter how far we've gone we can feel a sons love for us and we could always come back and that's why as we start to think about the base--emitter sure being destroyed and how far we are free caring about that or say how can i did sugar I am so far away just allow yourself to feel that and the next step will start to feel the hope in your own neshama and do Chuba turkish baku so join us in the spiritual you teshuva kabura send your e-mail to the torah center gmail.com as we train ourselves to escape all of the guilt and shame from our minds so we can access the power of hope that's coming from our neshama from our soul and return to a college bar [Music] [Applause]