Healing and blessings - Just prepare the right way! - Rosh Chodesh Sivan - Rabbi Alon Anava

So we're finishing the month of Iyar. Tomorrow night be that as sham is going to be Rosh Chodesh Sivan. And Friday this year we're going to be celebrating the Rosh Chodesh of Sivan. And in all the teachings that we learn about Rosh Chodesh or any other occasion that he has is the word Rosh like Rosh Hashanah then we understand from that that that day is the level of Rosh. And with that said we understand that everything is included in that day. So Rosh Chodesh as I explained many times it's called the head of the month. It's not called the beginning of the month. Cuz technically should have should have been called the head of the month. But we call it Rosh Chodesh. Rosh Why? Okay, one can understand explain and say in Hebrew head sheet is the beginning but it doesn't come from the word head sheet rather it comes from the word Rosh which means head. And in the head in the physical head is the brain which signifies the intelligence the the the head part of the month. So when we have a Rosh Chodesh or Rosh Hashanah or anything that uses the word Rosh then we know that the energy of the entire month is included in that day. So really the main part of the month if one wants to reach out and to attach to the energy of that month is on Rosh Chodesh. So tomorrow night is going to be the end of the month of Iyar going into the month of Sivan. So on a person who understands and values Rosh Chodesh then these two days are very busy. And I explained that many times because when I'm saying whoever understands, I'm hoping anyone who listens understand. Rosh Chodesh is a very very special day that should not be used on regular things. Rosh Chodesh is like a little Yom Tov. Many Ashkenazi, they fast on Erev Rosh Chodesh, like Yom Kippur Katan, like a small Yom Kippur. So, the Erev Rosh Chodesh in our case tomorrow or tomorrow's Erev Rosh Chodesh, the the eve of Rosh Chodesh. For us is a very special Erev Rosh Chodesh because we we were in mourning mode for the last few weeks. No music, no weddings, no parties, no haircuts, no no many things. All right, so Erev Rosh Chodesh, Chodesh Sivan, can start partying, bring back the music, bring back the joy. So, Rosh Chodesh is a very powerful day. Unfortunately, the reality is that as much as we love Hashem and as much as we love the Torah and as much as we try to follow the Torah, we're human beings and we and we sin a lot. Each one in their area. And there's no such thing. Don't say don't say to yourself I don't sin. There's no such thing. Even a tzaddik who is able to sin. So, how much more so we sin. We sin in Lashon Hara. And if we don't sin in Lashon Hara, then we should when we sin in Bitul Torah and and not learning Torah. And then we sin in so many other things that the reality is that our sages understood that, knew that, and they said, "Okay, I'll give you three loopholes every day when you confess your sins and you accept chuva and you move on." So, three times a day we say viduy. Shacharit, Mincha, and Kriyat Shema al Hamitah. When you confess your sins, I I see in many, many places that people love skipping the confession part, especially in Shacharit and Mincha. Everybody wishes that there's going to be some occasion that will cancel the Tachanun. I told you many, many years ago where I lived somewhere temporary, and the only shul that was close by was a very nice shul, but they didn't like saying Tachanun there. Tachanun is the confession part that we say after the the main prayer, Shmone Esrei. So, they had a book uh of all the Yahrzeits, all the death days of great tzaddikim, and every special event that ever happened, because if there's a special event, then we don't say Tachanun. If there's a groom, a chatan, in the minyan, there's no Tachanun. If there's a mohel, there's going to be a bris, no Tachanun. There's certain times that you don't say Tachanun. Of course, there are days that you don't say Tachanun. Uh like the entire month of Nissan we don't say Tachanun, but nevertheless, if on a regular day there's a certain event, a brit milah, a mohel, a hachnasat sefer Torah, something, then there's no Tachanun. Can't say Tachanun. So, they had a book that said all the days they What's today? Oh, the 22nd. Oh, Moshe ben Zuchman died 300 years ago. No Tachanun. So, if you want to do quick prayers, you go to that shul. They didn't ask for forgiveness for anything. Maybe they're in very high-level tzaddikim, they don't have to say Tachanun. But Tachanun, as much as we all don't like it, it's the highlight of the prayer where you confess your sin, and you should add your own sins according to the alphabet. After all, we say Ashamnu, Bagadnu, Gazalnu, Dibarnu Dofi. It goes by the alphabet, aleph, bet, gimel, dalet. I don't know how it is in English. In English it won't be in the in the alphabet. But in Hebrew when you're saying it in Hebrew Ashamnu aleph, Bagadnu bet, Gazalnu gimel. You go all the way. Chachamim say that if you know a certain sin that you did, then say it in the letter. Whatever it is, add that what you said with your words. You're confessing to Hashem. You're basically saying Hashem, you know, I'm I'm a piece of flesh. I have temptations all day long. I'm very, very weak. Spiritually, I sin. But at least I confess. So the Tachanun is the highlight of the day. The next highlight it will be Erev Shabbat on Friday evening when we do teshuvah. I'm talking about doing teshuvah because we sin a lot then at least I can at least do the minimum of the minimum of the teshuvah. So the next time is Friday and the next auspicious time before Yom Kippur was Rosh Chodesh. If you are particular and you're reading the the the text of the prayer of Rosh Chodesh in Musaf, Zman Kaparatchem. It's a time for atonement. It's a time for forgiveness. It's the time that we look up to the sky. Oh, you don't have to look up to the sky. I mean, you want your heart to be aimed to the heavens. That's what it means look up to the sky. And and ask for the forgiveness from the master of the universe and when you achieve forgiveness, then the bracha, the blessing, and the shefa, the abundance that is supposed to come to you is now able to come. Because what what What is stopping me from receiving my blessing? Only my sins. Not anything else. It's not that I'm some shlemazel and somehow I'm not able to bring down the shefa, this abundance, this blessing to myself. The only thing that will stop the shefa from coming down and shefa the translation is abundance but really what it means is the is the energy the blessing that comes from the master of the universe and it comes in a spiritual form but it transforms or the right way will be it manifests from the spiritual level into the physical level and that's how you receive your sustenance your parnassa your livelihood and your health and your love to Hashem your fear to Hashem everything in your life is is enlivened by this energy that comes down to the world through these channels of energy these channels are called in the Kabbalistic terms tzinorot pipes ממש pipes just imagine pipes going from your neshama to the heavens and for everything in your life there's one channel that through that comes energy the right way is to sit to call shefa call shefa means a lot of what Hashem wants to give you but let's keep it to our understanding let's call it now energy now on Rosh Hashanah will decide will be decided how much money I make but I need to now manifest this blessing into the world from the spiritual level into the physical level now the way it works there's a parable that there was a king and he had three sons and he financially supported them but the deal was that every day they had to come and take a check every day they came you want a cup of coffee you want a cup of tea maybe a piece of cake and then after a few minutes talking to the father he wrote them the checks one time one of the sons say father you know you're busy man you are a king you know it's fine if you just give us once a month a check you don't write every day even once a year. So the king says, "If I would write you a check once a year, I would see you once a year. So I write you a check once a day, so I see you every day." So Hashem says, "Okay, I write you checks three times a day. When you come in front of me to pray, then I give you one check of your sustenance, of your parnassa. You cannot get the whole thing in one shot. Now, that's if it works healthy, that every day you pray and you get your portion in your parnassa, and it doesn't matter what you're going to do, you will make the same amount of money. Doesn't matter if you work 20 hours a day or 2 hours a day. What will affect, so to say, how much money materializes from the spiritual to physical, A is how much and how you pray, how you conduct your business, if you are honest or not, if you steal or not, if you give tzedakah, if you give charity, and so forth. And also with your sins. Now, if I start sinning a lot, let's say I'm blessed to make a lot of money, but I sin a lot, then these channels where the abundance comes from start and start to tighten like any other pipe. Now, I'm giving you an example with parnassa, with your livelihood. This is the exact same thing with your health. And with your health it's even much more sophisticated, because every sin and every mitzvah will affect a certain organ. So if I'm lacking, I have some type of health issue, then don't run to the doctor first. Run to the room or to the synagogue, uh run to Hashem, and try to reverse engineer why is this issue happening. I have certain pain now in in in my back that is shooting pain to my shoulder, and I'm trying to understand, okay, this certain pain, okay, it's not a sickness, baruch Hashem. Sickness is different than pain. But the first thing that goes through my mind, what's the significance of shoulder? Okay, katef, what are the letters? Katef, I'm starting to make all these gematriot. I'm looking for psukim, maybe a verse that has the the the connection. I'm trying to see what Hashem is telling me. And the exact same thing should be done in everything. If I get a ticket, a parking ticket, or something like that, I reverse engineer. Why Why am I getting this kiss from Hashem in a ticket? Because usually the the the uh reaction is going to be in the same category of what you did. You did some problem with money, then the the blemish will come in money. You did certain things that either you hurt a body or with a body, then the blemish will come back on the body. So, when they say reverse engineer, something I have an issue with health or a pain or wounds or something like that, then I reverse engineer, what did I do something with my body? So, when I'm ready to do teshuvah, I need to first of all focus on the and understand what what am I doing wrong? What what am I doing wrong? Am I sinning here? Am I sinning here? It says in the Talmud, haba adam isurin, when a person starts having all sorts of hardships, difficulties, and challenges, yefashpesh b'ma'asav. Go to fashpesh means to go through, like this. Go through actions. Why am I having this difficulty right now? And every person has their own difficulties. It can be in the health department, it can be in the financial department, it can be a lawsuit, it can be a neighbor is after you and annoying you, somebody trashing you. It can be so many different things, but in the message in the action is the message. So, constantly I need to be in a form of chuva. It says in the Mishna, "Kol chayecha yiyu b'tshuva." All your life has to be b'tshuva. "Al tismah Al tismah al atzmecha ad yom motcha." That's what it says in tractate Avot in the Mishna. Don't count on yourself till the day you die. Because I don't know really where I'm holding, and I don't know how much good is my chuva. So, when I sin, it will affect my life in my in the personal level. Some sins will affect my parnassah, some my livelihood, some sins sins my health, and so forth. But really when you want to focus to the most important things that one needs, then the Talmud says, "Banei, mezonae, v'revihae." Uh kids, which means your lineage, your family, uh your health, and your money. These are the three things that are are are are I don't know if to say the pillars, but three main things that in the person's life. You need parnassah, you need your livelihood, you can't live without your livelihood, you need your health, without your health you can't do anything or get your livelihood. And ultimately, banei, when it's talking about your kids, it's also it's referring to the life your lifestyle of Torah. When you teach your good your kids to go in the path of the Torah, you live a life of Torah. So, really when it boils down to the challenges that we have, it's the challenges are in these three categories. Parnassah and our livelihood, in our health, and our family. People have a lot of family issues. Either they can't get married, or they have a horrible marriage, or just They through a horrible divorce, or issues with the with their kids. The family matters, everybody has issues with family matters. Some to an extent that it's uh and levels of madness. And some uh Baruch Hashem, it's normal. But the the three major things that we that we have challenges are money, health, and family situations. So, with that said, knowing that Rosh Chodesh is coming soon and it's a time for teshuvah, here this month something very happens between the connection between the month of Iyar and the month of Sivan that the the usually the erev Rosh Chodesh, the night of Rosh Chodesh is a powerful day to start with. But here we have uh the connection of Iyar and Sivan together, a very interesting connection. So, I want to go through it, explain a little bit, and we'll see the great achievement you can reach tomorrow concluding the month of Iyar, which carries with it the the the potential of refuah, of health, refuat hanefesh urefuat haguf, the health of the mind, spirit, soul, and body, and also the brachah of the Torah, which signifies, of course, parnasah. So, we'll see how that comes together. It's very very interesting. So, it says that we all know Iyar signifies refuah, health. We spoke about it a few weeks ago in Rosh Chodesh. I told you I don't need to tell you. That's the the main slogan of Iyar, the acronym of Ani Hashem Rofecha. Everybody knows that. The acronym of how you write Iyar is aleph, yud, yud, resh, which is the acronym of Ani Hashem Rofecha, I'm God your healer. And many other situations and hints that we know that Iyar refers to health. But Iyar also signifies all that has to do with hochma. Hochma means wisdom. And I'm not talking about the hochma that you find what's called hochma bagoyim, the wisdom of the world. Not talking about math or geography or science or that type of hochma. Wisdom. Hochma I'm talking about the wisdom of the Torah, the wisdom of Hashem. That's not a regular wisdom. Take now a genius. Let's choose one from our nation. Let's take Einstein. And take a genius from the Torah world. And and put them together. And the the level of intelligence of the genius, in this case an Einstein, is yeah, great. But when it comes to compare to the level of the brain of the rabbi, there's no comparison. There's a great rabbi who lived I mean lived 50, 60, 70 years ago. Died many years ago. Who is known as the Ragachover. Uh you might recognize He's not famous, but you might recognize him. He had a lot a lot of hair. He has a full set of hair. And he said on himself, when he was asked why he doesn't cut his hair, he said that he feels pain when he cut his hair. That's the level I mean where I mean Kabbalah explains that the hair is the hemshichiyut, the continuation of the muchin, of the intelligence, the the spiritual part. Obviously, if he had pain in his is in his hair, you have to understand the level of muchin that this individual had. He's the rabbi who gave the rabbinical ordination to the Lubavitcher Rebbe. Uh but nevertheless, he met once Einstein. A same period. And when they left the room after a few hours of talking, Einstein said on him, "He is like three Einsteins." So the hochma of the Torah is a different level khokhmah. Why? Because it's khokhmah Elokit. It's a godly wisdom. It's not wisdom in something that is can be explained. Maths and equation or or in a geometry. This cannot be explained. Might take you a little bit longer than the other. Godly wisdom you cannot explain. You have to be a god to understand the godly wisdom. So, Iyar has a significance, but I would choose to say Iyar is the root. Spiritual root of all that has to do with divrei khokhmah, with words of wisdom that has to do with the Torah. And I'll and I'll explain a little bit that you'll relates and understand more. First of all, uh the first time that the well of Miriam, Be'er Miriam, was revealed was in the month of Iyar. And besides health that the well gave, it also was the wellspring of wisdom, which I will explain about Be'er Miriam shortly. The man started coming down in the month of Iyar, specifically on the 15th day of Iyar. And the man, it says the man was only given for the ones who learn Torah. From that we understand that in the power of the man, in the energy, in the food that they ate, that's what gave them the clarity to understand the Torah and to dive into the depth of the Torah. And when did this happen? In the month of Iyar. Uh In the month of Iyar was the first time that the Levi'im carried the Aron Habrit. And again, it was talking about it's referring to the Aron Habrit. It's carrying the Torah. And again, the first time that physically the Kohanim, the priests and the Levites carried Aron Kodesh. And again, on the month of Iyar. On the month of Iyar, exactly 480 years after the nation of Israel left Mitzrayim, that's the month that Hamelech started building the Beit Hamikdash. Exactly 480 years after that. And many other events that show that in the month of Iyar there's a connection to the Torah. Also, based on the teachings of the Book of Formation, Sefer Yetzirah, the tribe that is connected to the month of Iyar is the is the tribe of Issachar. And Issachar, again, is the tribe that sym- symbolizes the tribe that carries the Torah. The learn- the learners. The hundreds and hundreds of Rashei Sanhedrin, the heads of of great assemblies that they had. And I'm sure you are familiar with the deal of Zevulun and Issachar, that Issachar sits and learns Torah, Zevulun goes and works, uh gives Issachar half the money, and Issachar shares with him the Torah. So, Issachar represents the carrying of the Torah, and the tribe of the month of Iyar is Issachar. So, we have all these connections to the month of the Iyar uh with uh Chokhmah. Uh which the most significant of them is the the Be'er Miriam, the the well of Miriam. Now, you know the story. I told you the story. I'll just repeat it very, very fast. That when the Arizal was uh ready to reveal himself to Rabbi Chaim Vital, Rabbi Chaim Vital was already a great rabbi who lived in uh Syria, in Damascus, in Damascus. Rabbi Chaim Vital Rabbi Arizal was in Mitzrayim, in Egypt, and he was just learning and learning and learning every day with the Hanavi. And at some point when he was ready, he got the heavenly order, the divine message. He went up to Tzfat uh to meet Rabbi Hayyim Vital to give him over his Torah. He called Rabbi Hayyim Vital in his dream. He didn't use WhatsApp or Facebook. He appeared in Rabbi Hayyim Vital's uh dream many times telling him, "I'm your teacher. I came to uh here to teach you Torah, and you need to come to me." And in the beginning he ignored it. And after the dream came repeating itself over and over and over, then he understood it means business, and then Rabbi Hayyim Vital went to Tzfat, met the Ariza, and uh started learning. And the story says that in the beginning Rabbi Hayyim Vital was questioning the Ariza and asking him all those difficult questions. And not only that he was able to answer, he gave him like uh uh uh answers that he he barely understood. And then when the Ariza explained to him a few things, he didn't understand nothing. The story says that they went down together to Tiberias, took a little boat, went somewhere in the middle of the Kinneret, and uh Beer Miriam appeared. Rabbi Hayyim Vital got a little cup like this of water, took uh drank the water from the well of Miriam, and for a year and a half all the teachings of Kabbalah that the Ariza gave it to him, he was able to learn in a year and a half. Now take now the greatest rabbi in our generation or any generation and tell them to learn everything that the Ari taught Rabbi Hayyim Vital, it would take them 60 years, 80 years, 100 years. And he did that in a year and a half. Why? Because of the water of uh Beer Miriam. So, the water we know is very, very powerful A for opening the wellsprings of knowledge, but mainly the power of Be'er Miriam is the healing. We know that in the merit of Miriam and the water in the well, the nation of Israel was healed. There's a story that uh it's brought down by the the Bet Yosef of a special story about healing. But before I tell you the story, let me explain to you. The Bet Yosef explains that Bet Yosef is uh our neighbor here, the Maran Bet Yosef Yosef Caro who wrote the Shulhan Aruch. He and the it brings in Shulhan Aruch that one should drink something hot on Motzei Shabbat. Better to be have a cup of tea or coffee or soup, but something that is hot on Motzei Shabbat. And he says that that brings a refuah. It brings a health to the body and to the soul. And where does he learn that? He brings his a pasuk from the book of Tehillim, Tehillim 147, kuf mem zayin, verse gimel, and it says harofeh leshivurei lev umekhabesh le'atzei votam. Translation: Who heals the broken hearted and binds up their wounds. And he takes the word mekhabesh and he says that's the acronym of mayim khamim bemotzei Shabbat. Hot water on Motzei Shabbat. He brings that from the Talmud that one should drink a hot beverage on the end of Shabbat and on the Motzei Shabbat, Shabbat at night, and that brings a refuah, healing to the person. And and specifically has to be something to drink. Now here it's very very important. I'm just pointing it out because one might fail in that. If If don't do that already, then here you have a good uh lesson for today to take something from this class that every Motzei Shabbat have something hot. A cup of tea, cup of soup, uh better like liquid soup, not like a very thick soup. Uh but best cup of tea, or cup of coffee. And uh and to understand that bring this brings uh the four brings brings health. What's important is that if you're drinking a cup of tea or a cup of coffee Motzei Shabbat, you can't use it from the hot water you had on Shabbat. I saw people uh now I was traveling a lot. And I saw that a lot of people Motzei Shabbat don't empty the hot water urn. And they use it on Motzei Shabbat, and you're not allowed to cuz that's a hot water that was done on Shabbat and you're drinking it after Shabbat. So you have to empty the water and just make new water. But it's important to take on yourself the Motzei Shabbat you have a cup of tea with hot very very hot from new water that you did on Motzei Shabbat and uh and you and you know that is for the sake of health. So the story that I wanted to tell you uh yeah I I I saw I'm sorry I'm sidetracking again. I saw a lot of people that they leave the hot water uh running. And uh that's not good. Because what happens is with the water it cools down a little bit and then the machine uh warms it up again. It cools down warms it up. And if it's cooking the water on Shabbat if it's done automatically, it's fine. But if the water was cooked on Shabbat, then you can't have it on Motzei Shabbat. So you have to remember to empty your hot water Motzei Shabbat. But nevertheless, let's go back to our story. The story says that there was a uh uh a man that he had some skin issue. Mukebeshchin. Skin is type of I don't know fungus on the skin, some type of whatever it's called. Nevertheless, uh one Motzei Shabbat, she his wife went to the local well to pump water. We're lucky. We have the water in the faucets. At the time, people would go out. There was a well. Everybody went there, pumped the water. The women would gather there, sit there for 3 hours, chitchat. So, that's where they hung out. So, she spoke with her friend, and she was very late. By the time she came home, she was late. So, the husband was upset. "Where were you? I sent you to get the water. You Why were you late?" She's like, "I got caught up. I got I spoke with so-and-so, and I got caught up." He got so upset, he smashed the pitcher out of her hand, and all the water spilled everywhere. But what happened was that everywhere that the water splashed and splashed on then the shchin, the the skin disease was healed. And and it happened to be that the the story says, and again, this is brought by the Beis Yosef. It's not that some story somebody invented. The story as he explains that the well of Miriam travels, and every time the the well is feeding water to another to some well. And in that specific Motzei Shabbat, then the well of Miriam when the woman got the water was mixed with the the water of Miriam, and the and the water that he splashed over the floor, what if he would drink the whole thing, he would be healed without even knowing how. The water just splashed on different places. Wherever it splashed, he got healed. So, hey, you take from that the power of the the Be'er Miriam. But nevertheless, here you can learn also how it's not worth being angry, how your you know our sages say when a person is angry, his reward is it's his stupidity. And what do you get when you angry? Only to deal with whatever you broke or damaged or or you can't reverse. So you see, he could have get gotten healed, he broke the pitcher, now all the water on the floor. So back to Be'er Miriam. Uh interesting first of all to understand why is Miriam called Miriam. I mean the well is called after Miriam. Every name has a meaning. So our sages say her name is called Miriam because when she was born that's when the Holocaust really started. I'm talking about the Holocaust of Pharaoh, not of Hitler Shimo. Uh the uh exile was for 210 years. But 86 years, that's when it really was bad. And when did it start? When Miriam was born. So it says "Shame on you." On the because the bitterness started then her name was called Miriam. Because the Talmud says her name in the beginning was not even Miriam. She had a whole different name. Uh what was her name? Very weird name. Khila Va'azuba. That was her name. Yeah? Now Khila with Khet, not with a Kaf. Khila with a Khet is not a nice word. But it's not a Khila with a Khet. Uh the the translation for Khila What's the translation for Khila? It's like scum, I think. Right? I think Khila should come. But here it doesn't come from the word rather the Talmud says Holanit. She was very sick. Constantly health issues. Va'azuvah she had some type of health issue that she didn't look good. Probably all sorts of maybe acne, scars on the skin, I don't know. But the Talmud says she wasn't attractive at all. That she was like not I don't want to say ugly but but she wasn't attractive. Let's put it this way. And so Holah because she was Holanit all the time sick and Azuvah nobody wanted to marry her. At the end she married a young man 46 years younger than her. And the man that she married was Caleb ben Jephunneh. That later on became the Nasi, the prince, the president of the tribe of Judah. And he was 46 years younger than her. Just imagine he was 40 years old he married her when when she was 86 years old. Now A nobody wanted to marry her to start with. So he's also on top of that marrying her when she's 86. So it says in the Talmud that because he married her only for Shamayim he didn't marry her definitely not for the looks. I mean it's not bad to marry the sister of Moshe Rabbenu have your brother-in-laws Moshe Rabbenu and Aaron the Cohen and the great granddaughter of Jacob. I mean that's one hell of a lineage. But nevertheless it says that he married her just because of her qualities and her good midot. So Hashem did a miracle and he healed her completely. And in her 80s when she was 86 she was very beautiful. She became beautiful, gorgeous, attractive and probably like Sarah Imenu, Hava, and all that, and and she was completely healed. But nevertheless, after she healed, and that was only because the wedding was leshem shamayim, there was no agenda here, then the Talmud says that her name changed to Efrat. Efrat coming from the word rifua, healing. So, once she got the healing, then her name changed to Efrat. It's a very common name in Israel. And I guarantee to you that 99% of the Efrats in Israel don't even know who is Efrat. So, just the other day somebody asked me is if Alon is a biblical name. So, it's not a biblical name, but the name is mentioned in the Torah, and Alon Bachur was Avraham Avinu's good friend. So, it's you can squeeze in Okay, Alon is in the Torah. But there are many, many names that Israelis have, they think it's a Israeli common name, but really it's a biblical name. And one of them is Efrat. Efrat is a very common Israeli name. And like I told you, ask any Efrat in Israel, they're not going to know who she was. So, I'm telling you Efrat was Miriam, the the sister of Moshe Rabbeinu. Later on, when started the the strong part of the exile, her name was changed to Miriam al shem merirut, the bitterness that started to the nation of Israel. Uh so, we see again the connection that the Be'er Miriam, the well of Miriam, has the power of of healing. When is that? Specifically in the Yam. And why specifically in the Yam? Uh you know, one can get achieve rifua, healing, anytime. But for everything there's a time that has more access to it, less access to it. I know a lot of people when I say that in the the days of the calendar, every day has a different energy and some days there's a certain we'll call now an energy or certain closeness that you can come closer to Hashem and achieve a greater result. And we have days like that like Rosh Hashanah, Yom Kippur, we have special days, the night of the Seder of Pesach. There are special days that are auspicious times. And I know some people have have it hard. Well, what? I can only do A, B, and C on that day. So, it's important to understand that first of all, you can do whatever you want any day. You can do teshuvah any day of the year, but some days on the calendar, it's easier to do teshuvah. And why is that? I gave a long class many years ago how every day has a different energy, how God creates the world. In his great kindness, God recreates the world every second. Right? He didn't only create the world 5,000 plus years ago. He creates the world every second, which means if Hashem for 1 second stops creating the world, nothing exists. So, Hashem recreates the world every second and every second that he creates the world, it's a new energy. Of course, there's the energy of the year which comes down in Rosh Hashanah, and then you have the energy of the month that comes down in Rosh Chodesh, but every day is a completely different energy. And when I'm talking about energy as the the way the how the blessing manifests from the spiritual world into the physical world, and I gave a long lecture about that a few years ago how the spiritual light has to go through the Sefirot, through so many different things, through the elements, through through the letters that create everything and eventually manifests into the world. So, it affects the world with things like seasons. Cold, hot, rainy, snow. It's not that it's by chance. It's because something is happening in the spiritual world and it manifests into the world. So, every day is a brand new energy. Every day of the calendar is a whole different shifa light that is coming from the world above. Therefore, some days are more auspicious days to do things. Like Shabbat. You don't have the same energy on a Monday like Shabbat. And more than that, I spoke to somebody not too long ago. And I explained I also explained that in many of the classes. But, every day of the week corresponds to one of the sephirot that Hashem created the creates the world. So, we have seven sephirot that are midot. And each one corresponds to one day of creation. So, the first day on the first day of creation, Hashem used the sephirah of chesed. On the second day of creation, Monday, he used the sephirah of gevurah. And the third, tiferet, and so forth. And every day of the week has a different energy. With that said, that means that there are certain days that are more auspicious are are more easier to come closer to Hashem. If you want to understand that, sometimes you're in a mood that you're very lazy and sometimes you're in a mood that you go-getter and you want to do everything. So, the same way that sometimes you're in a lazy mood, sometimes you're in energy mood. So, sometimes there are days that doesn't matter what you're going to do to reach to your point is going to be very hard. And some days it's much easier to do teshuvah and to reverse things. So, how how do we Oh, sorry, not not how. Why is specifically the month of Iyar has a special power of healing? Is because I explained to you that every When I say explained to you, I mean I I did classes about that. And I know a lot of people later on say, "Which class? I I don't remember every class the name of it, where to find it." So, I'm just saying I already taught that and therefore and not the time now to repeat. But, every month there's a certain combination of the letters of Hashem, of the name of Hashem, that switch with the order of the month. And with that order of the letters is the entire energy of the month. Kind of like saying that if I have a transparent cup and I have clear water, then I see the water clear. But, if I put clear water in a transparent cup but has a blue shade, then the water would look blue. And the same thing with red and same thing with any color. Which means what causes the color? The shade of the cup, not the the the the the liquid. Same thing here. Hashem shines his light through the universe coming from the world of world of Atzilut, but the light is transparent. You can't see the light. When Hashem places his name in a certain order, every month is different. For example, the first month of the year, the month of Nisan, the order of the letters are like the name of Hashem, Yud Kay Vav Kay, Yud and then a Hay and then a Vav and then a Hay. The the actual order. Which means in the month of Sivan, the energy is flowing exactly how it's how it's supposed to be. But, every month the letters change. And the example that I'm trying to give you, I gave you with the cup. If you color the cup, the water will uh the color of the water will be different. Another example, if I will now shoot a beam of light on the wall, I project light on the wall, most likely on the wall it would be a tone of like a yellow tone or whatever the wall is, off-white, beige, whatever it would whatever the wall is, whatever it would it's reflecting. But if I now take some material like a liquid filter uh that will have a blue color or green or red and I put it between the beam of light and the wall that is projecting the light, now the wall the color on the wall will be red or whatever color I put. You follow the example? What do we get from that? The light doesn't change. So here I give two example, A with the water, so now in this example the light is the water, the water doesn't change, it's the cup that changes. Same thing here with the example on the light on the wall, the light doesn't change, it's the filter that the light is projecting through. Same thing here. So if the order of the letters of Hashem or Nissan is Yud and then a Hey and then a Vav and then a Hey, the order of Yud Hey Vav Hey, then when the godly light shines through the letters, it shines to the world in a certain way. Now switch the order of the letters, light is the same. Now the filter is different. So the energy that comes down to the month is is different. With that said, the combinations like I told you of Nissan is Yud Hey and then a Vav and then a Hey. The next month later Iyar, the combination is Yud, then a Hey, then another Hey, then a Vav. Yud Hey, then a Hey, then a Vav. The first thing that uh hits you when you're looking at it that both Heys are together. Okay? So let me give you a little bit of explanations. This is a little bit more in the level of Kabbalah, but I hope I'll be able to give it over clear. The Arizal says that these two combinations of Nissan and Ni'ar the order of the letters correspond to the tefillin of Rashi and Rabbenu Tam. What's the signifi- significance? Rashi says that the order of the tefillin has to be a certain way. For the ones of you who are aware, there are four types of tefillin. Okay, what do you mean four types? In the tefillin, there is a parchment. And in the four different types, four different commentaries says, "I think the order should be as follow." So, Rashi, which is the most common tefillin, all men put the tefillin of Rashi, he says the order of the parshiyot has to be in the order like Yud Key Vav Key. Right? Which makes more sense. First is the par- parasha of Kadesh, then Vehaya, then Sh'ma, and then V'haya im Sh'moa. Right? That's the order of the parchment in the tefillin according to Rashi. In the order of Yud and then the Hey and the Vav and then the Hey. That's the common way of tefillin. Rabbenu Tam says, "No, I disagree with the order of the parchments because if you know or haven't, I'll explain. In the tefillin that we have in the hand, there's one parchment. It's rolled into a big roll. When you open it, it has the parashot on it. In the head, it's divided into four uh divisions. And in each one, there's one parchment roll, small, and it's placed into the leather case. According to Rashi, the the order of the parchments has to be, like I told you, Kadesh, V'haya im Sh'moa, Sh'ma Yisrael, the Sorry, Kadesh, Vehaya, Sh'ma Yisrael, V'haya im Sh'moa. That's the order of Rashi, and he explains it according to the follow flow of Yud Key Vav Key. Rabbenu Tam on the other hand, says, "No. It has to be first Kadesh, then Vehayam Shemua, then Vehaya Ki Yavi'acha, and then Shema Yisrael." That's how Rabbeinu Tam says, and many men, they put a next a second pair of tefillin. So, some, if you notice, they put two pairs of tefillin. They wear the small box, and they put put two pairs. One is Rashi, one is Rabbeinu Tam. They pray with both of them with this the whole time. Some people, it depends on what you follow, they finish the prayer completely, take the Rashi off, put the Rabbeinu Tam on, and they continue another part of the prayer. Some take it off in the middle of the prayer. There's different according to what no matter you go by. Nevertheless, it's a different type of tefillin. A lot of men take on themselves to upgrade their tefillin mitzvah, and they do both Rashi and Rabbeinu Tam to cover all grounds. Rabbeinu Tam, why does he hold so strong about his opinion? Because he says according to his order, the Vehayam Shemua, Vehaya Ki Yavi'acha, the two Havayot are together. The two Hays are together. And according to him, that does something as follow. He says as follows. If you're looking at the order of the parshiot, the first one is Kadesh, so it has the letter shin. Let's put shin aside, and shin has three arms. So, we're putting the first shin aside, three arms on the shin. It corresponds to the number three. Then the last pair the last parshia is Shema. Again, a shin. Here it starts with the shin because Kadesh ends with the shin. The shin and the shin again together. Three arms of the shin, another three. Now, look at the tefillin, the external part of the tefillin, cuz now we're talking about the internal part of that feeling. You follow? So, we have two shins in the internal part of that feeling bringing me the value of six. Now, the external part of that feeling, one side of that that feeling has a shin that has three arms and the other shin has four arms. That's another class. If you remember, I gave a long class in one of the parsha classes why we have the the fourth the the four arm shin. So, here we have four shins in total. Three of them with three arms and one with four arms. Arms, I'm talking about the arm of the shin. That's totaling 13. 13 is the gematria of Shema Yisrael Hashem Echad brings the unity of Hashem. And according to Kabbalah and according to Rabbeinu Tam, then there's two Havayots, they have to be together. That's the the the explanations of Rabbeinu Tam. The the two Heys should not be far away from each other. Uh what's interesting here that if we're looking at this explanation, again, based on the teachings of Kabbalah, then the Ari Zal says, "The level of the feeling of Rashi is in the sphere of Bina and the level of the feeling of Rabbeinu Tam is in the level of Hochma." So, again, we have the same we we we come to the same conclusion how Iyar is not only the month that brings down the refuah, rather the month that is rooted Hochma, the wisdom. Which the significance here is everything comes from the Hochma of the Kadosh Baruch Hu, from the wisdom of Hashem. Now, let's continue with the month of Iyar and Sivan. So, the combination of the month of Sivan of Iyar is Yud, then a Hey, then a Hey, then a Vav. So, we have the two Heys together, which according to Rabbeinu Tam and according to many other great Mekubalim, when the two Havayot are together, that is what brings the the opportunity for refuah, for healing. And by the way, that here the refuah, many of the times, the the the healing is dependent on the sins that we do, because uh when a person, has v'shalom, is sick is sick, the first thing thing he needs to ask himself is what sin did I do? Uh many examples for that from our sages, but we know that in the Talmud it says, "Lo hanachash mamit ela a chet." It's not the snake that makes you die, has v'shalom, if the snake bites you. It's the sin. Cuz we do find in the history that certain individuals, doesn't matter what happened to them, they didn't die, not as a result from a snake bite or anything. Our sages conclude by saying, "What kills you is your sin." So, 99% of the time our sicknesses and our diseases is our sins. And if you're able to reverse engineer, you'll figure out, hopefully, what is happening. What why? But now we want to concentrate on the fact that the the entire month of Iyar has the potential of healing. So, of course, I don't know what each and every person did, but some people they focus in the month of Iyar to get closer to the Master of the Universe, to do teshuvah, strengthen in Torah and mitzvot, to hopefully bring on themselves the refuah. But comes something very interesting. First of all, the the connection to Iyar to Chochmah, everything originates in in the sphere of Chochmah. Like I told you in the beginning of the class, everything is included in the head, in the Rosh. When we have a Rosh Chodesh, Rosh Hashanah, here is the same same idea that everything is included in Hochma. If you backtrack or reverse engineer in the Sefirot, first it says Hochma Me'ayin Timatzei, where does Hochma come from? Hochma comes from Ayin. Ayin is the place of nothingness, of of emptiness and oblivion obliviousness. That's the Sefirah that's the world of Atzilut. Hochma is the first Nekudah, the first dot of of wisdom that appears in the world world of Atzilut, and from that dot, exactly like you have a seed of a tree, that seed has in it the potential of a trunk and branches and leaves and fruit and the potential of rejuvenating and bringing fruit all the time. Imagine all this system is is genetically placed in that little seed. The exact same thing in a much larger scale is when we're talking about the Sefirah Sefirah of Hochma. Hochma is that first dot, the first Nekudah, that includes everything in it. That it takes many many levels of manifestation to develop the Hochma. So, the Iyar is the the root of Hochma is corresponding to Iyar. So, we have here the ability not only to reach great level of of healing, but to reach to the place of what would be the the right word because in Hebrew I would say Makor, to the source. To The thing is that anything you want to reverse, you need to go to the source. Any situation that that is a problem, you can take care of it on the surface. But really the only place how you can take care of something is if you go to the source. So, I'm saying Makor is is source. I I There's another word that I think will explain it different, but but you following what I'm saying is that the makor for everything, the source for everything is in the sphere of Hochma, which is in the month of Iyar. So, many things can be achieved in the month of Iyar. That's why we do Sefirat HaOmer. The the month where we can refine ourselves, work on ourselves, the month that we're preparing to receive the Torah. Without the month of Iyar, we can't receive the Torah. And the Torah, again, corresponds to the Hochma. So, the month of Iyar, again, each person in their level, hopefully you did you did well. Hopefully you were able to focus on the refining yourself. I know many people they start the Sefirat HaOmer. After 4 days, they forget to count, and then there's nothing really happens from that. Which is a great shame. It's not a hard mitzvah. Only takes a few minutes. I know there's a question if women should do it or not. Now it's past the fact. We're already almost done with Sefirat HaOmer. But these are things that I spoke about in many of my classes. Uh the opinions if a woman should do Sefirat HaOmer or not should do Sefirat HaOmer. There's difference of opinions. The the best way to do is to do it cuz the teachings of Kabbalah says women should not do Sefirat HaOmer. And if they do, not to not to do it with a bracha. And but mainly to do the work the the work of the refinement, not specifically the counting itself. But we see that in the month of Iyar you can achieve a lot. Now comes the big question. Now you're giving me the class. A month at the end of the month you're telling me I can achieve a lot in Iyar. So, first of all, we had a month in we had a class in Rosh Chodesh Iyar. So, when I said what you can achieve. So, you can rewind now. Go to YouTube. You'll find the class. But something very special happens tomorrow and Friday, which it will happen in every year. I mean, this year happens Thursday, Friday. I don't know if the video will be watched next year, it will be different days. But, the energy of the month of Sivan has a common denominator with the energy of Iyar. And if we're looking at the order of the letters of the month of Nissan, I told you Yud Kay Vav Kay. The month of Iyar, then it's a Yud, then a Hay, then a Hay, then a Vav. The Hays are together. The combination of the letters in the month of Sivan is a Yud, then a Vav, which is kind of like the outer part of Iyar, and then Hay Hay. So, again, we have the two Havayots together. According to the Kabbalah, where because these two months both have the Hay Hay and the Hay Hay, the two Havayots, then it's like a magnet, they attach to each other. And in the like I told you before, in the order of the uh uh um Shvatim, the order of the tribes, then the tribe of the month of Iyar is Issachar, and the tribe of the month of Sivan is Zebulun. Again, the the unity of them. Now, what comes so special is Erev Rosh Chodesh in our year is tomorrow tomorrow evening, Thursday evening, which means that from Thursday afternoon, from Mincha, around Chatzot, around midday, then the energy of Erev Rosh Chodesh kicks in. We don't say Tachanun, like I told you before, no confession, no Viduy. And the spirit of Rosh Chodesh is starting to to kick in. Then, of course, in the at night, sun goes down, stars go out, comes Rosh Chodesh. So, if we're looking at Rosh Chodesh in itself, then you know, Rosh Chodesh, Erev Rosh Chodesh is an auspicious time to do Teshuvah, to learn Torah, to take on yourself good things, to pray. And Rosh Chodesh, of course, is when you come. It's the time just follow what the Rosh Chodesh tells you to do. Pray three times. In the morning of Rosh Chodesh, you have to listen to the Torah, recite the prayer of Hallel. Whatever you need to do. I mean, our sages already told us exactly what you need to do. Don't know we need to guess something. Follow the Rosh Chodesh. Add on that a good Rosh Chodesh meal. Not mandatory, but highly recommended. And all the rest of the things that one wants to do on Rosh Chodesh, and you will be blessed blessed month for the entire month. But this month, the combination of Rosh Chodesh and Erev Rosh Chodesh, what happens is is that the last day of anything, or the last moment of everything, it's the conclusion. If you remember, last like two or three months ago, the last day of of Adar, we had classes, and I told you it's the last day of Adar, which means it's the last day of the year. Uh spiritual year starts on Rosh Chodesh Nisan, not Rosh Chodesh not on Rosh Hashanah. So, the last day of Adar has the energy of concluding the entire year. And gives over the conclusion to the next day. So, the conclusion always comes and affects the the following. Like the Zohar says about Shabbat, kolu yamim midbarim minay. All the days after Shabbat, they get blessed from the Shabbat. So, we here we have the conclusion of the month of Iyar, where the day that every day has a different energy. Like I told you before with the combinations of the letters of Hashem. I gave you the example with the cup, the example with the beam of light. Every day has a different energy. It's similar energy every every year when there's a repetition. Which means let's say the the today is the 28th of Iyar. So, every 28th of Iyar, every year has similar energy. It has the same so to say, I call it shablona, like like how would you call it? Like uh the the shape of it doesn't change. So, every 28th of Iyar has the same type of energy. Of course, it's different every year because it changes in many different factors, but every day of the year has a totally different energy. The day of the last day of Iyar that meets meets the first day of Sivan has a very powerful energy to bring a refuah to a person, to bring great healing to a person. Now, most of us, if you look very good in your medical sheet, have a medical issues. Uh everybody, I don't know the person that just hops all day long and no medical issues. I wish everybody great health and strong health. And Hashem should know if somebody's battling disease or sickness, should have an immediate recovery. The sad reality that we're all sick. And if we're not sick in our body, which I doubt that there's anyone in the world that doesn't have some type of sickness. And maybe maybe a lot of people are healthy and a lot of people are much healthier than others. They lead a healthy lifestyle, but they will still have different things they need to deal with in regards to the health department. They may be teeth problems or bones or whatever. Listen, it's a huge blessing to be healthy. I look around at people. Most people are not healthy. Most people are kvetching all day long, some type of pain. To live with painless, that's a huge blessing. And the reality is that I look around at people. Most people are in some type of pain. They might not be battling a disease right now. Has v'shalom. That's a whole different level. And that's a lot of people, too. I'm talking about a majority of people in the world that battling some type of disease. Then, of course, there's the things that are like day-to-day that we all have. Here, also, we're talking about a flu and a sniffle. Uh it's more severe the the sickness of the soul. If you pay attention in the blessing that we say on Shabbat, uh when we have the Torah and we're blessing the sick people, we say flu and a sniffle or a cough. First, the body, then the First, the the soul, then the body. So, tomorrow night is a very powerful night for a person to stop their life and to introspect, to do uh your self-assessment, and to uh we don't say tachanun on Rosh Chodesh and not on Erev Rosh Chodesh, but you can still introspect and do some self-assessment, and to come to the conclusion that I do have some uh physical or emotional sicknesses. You figure it out what's your sickness. We all have it. If you didn't come up with some type of sickness, something's wrong with you. That that is the sickness, the denial that everything is uh that thinking everything is okay. So, and again, you use your imagination. If you can't find physical uh sickness, then it has to be on the neshama. And uh I I strongly doubt everybody has something physically they deal with. And you can always reverse engineer. Why is my hip hurting? Why is my back hurting? Why is my leg hurting? I I always find a good answer when I have a certain pain. And by the way, sometimes it's hashgacha pratit. If you remember a year and a half ago, I broke my hand. And I was like, "Why Why?" I mean, I it was involved in in pain. It was involved in being very uncomfortable. It was in the summer. And And again, the mind was right away, "Why did I break the right hand? And why is it here and not here?" And you ask the right questions, you'll get the right answers. So, to conclude, A, we're concluding a very powerful month. Hopefully, you built a very good vessel this month through Sefirat HaOmer. I hope you were involved in that cuz usually in Sefirat HaOmer, you're also involved in also some learning. Uh cuz when you want to refine yourself, you need to learn a lot. So, hopefully, you did some type of action, knowingly or not knowingly, that gave you a very good vessel this month that our sages gave us Sefirat HaOmer. That's really how you build your vessel throughout the month of Iyar. Happens to be that you missed it. If you're now watching this video, you're now sitting here and you're saying, "Wow. Wow. The 28th day of of Iyar and I didn't do nothing in the month of Iyar." It's kind of like Elul. Rosh Chodesh Elul comes, everybody like Popeye, you know, full of energy. That's it. This Chodesh Elul, I'm doing everything. Three days later, you already forgot what you need to do. And comes the 28th day of Elul or the 27th. Uh and you're like, "I didn't do nothing. No Slichot. No Teshuvah. I didn't read Tehillim. I didn't do nothing." Two days before Rosh Hashanah. So, it's the same thing with the month of Iyar. Hopefully, hopefully, Hashem gave you this chud that you did things certain actions that gives you this chud to have the right clee from the month of Iyar. Why? Because in a few days, we're getting the Torah. Next Tuesday is the month this is the holiday of Shavuot and that's when we receive the Torah. And if it happened a 3,000 plus years ago, it happens every year. Which means what happens on Shavuot night is what happened in Matan Torah. If you are aligned to the to the light and you created the vessel throughout the month of Iyar, then yeah, and Shavuot next week you receive the Torah. Now, I will come with the solution to the majority. The minority will tell me, "Rabbi, this year my Omer was the best Omer in history." That's the minority. Uh the majority will be like, "Uh you know, I started, I lost count, I didn't do anything, I didn't learn, didn't do Tikun Hamidot, didn't try to refine myself, and here it is 2 days before the end of Iyar and I got nothing." So, don't worry, you're not the only one. I do hope and wish, I know many people take things serious. This year Baruch Hashem uh the the the book that I wrote for Sefirat Omer was available. I know a lot of people used it and commented that uh that it made their Sefirat Omer completely different. So, now comes the big question for the ones who uh I say the majority didn't do their Avodah in Sefirat Omer. So, what that's it? Now now what are we going to do? Sefirat Omer Sheni? We had Pesach Sheni, that didn't work. Now we're going to Sefirat Omer Sheni. So, many people say, "Listen, you know, I tried, but uh I I didn't do much and I want to come now to Shavuot with a good strong vessel. I want to receive the Torah. I want to receive Refuah." You know what's the first thing that happened in Matan Torah? They all got healed. They couldn't receive the Torah sick. So, the first event that happened before the show, they all got healed. The blind started seeing, the deaf started hearing, crippled people stood up, everybody got healed. So, we know that we have the ability for us to receive the Torah, you need the health, you need the health. But more than that, the month of Iyar, forwarding the month of Nissan with the events before Shavuot, brings to the soul and to the body the health. So, what can be achieved in the next two days? No, it's not the same thing what you could have done the last month. And really the time of Sefirat HaOmer for refining your midot, it's the perfect time where you have the vessels to refine yourself. Every day you work on one midah. Hopefully you did it the right way, then you can receive the Torah. I recommend that people work on their midot is a daily thing, it's not once a year, limited to once a year. But today, the we want to to understand that even if I didn't do much throughout Sefirat HaOmer, and I now can come to fall into despair, what? I missed the whole month of Iyar, what can I do? What should I do? Not fair. We had Pesach Sheni a few weeks ago, why can't I have a second chance, third chance, fourth chance? Then, first of all, every person can have as many chances as they need. What one can do, and this is just explained, like I told you, based on the teachings of Kabbalah, the connection of Iyar and Sivan is very very strong. Which means that a person still has the ability to take the power of Rosh Chodesh, which is the power of teshuvah, and retroactively achieve what he could have achieved in he, she in the month of Iyar, as long as they're both together. The the four Havayot. And again, not to overexplain the complicated part what we explained on Rabbeinu Tam, but I explained to you the four Havayot V'haya Im Shamoa V'haya Ki Yavi'acha. And the four Havayot, Havaya is also the way how we change the name when we want to say Yud Kay Vav Kay, we say Havaya. Nevertheless, we have here a strong combination that when the month of Iyar meets the the turning point not the turning point, the meeting point. The meeting point, that's where the the power and the energy is. So, what is left to do is tomorrow. Erev Rosh Chodesh, I'm still in the month of Iyar. So, I'm holding the energy of Iyar. I can tap into the energy of Iyar. And then I'm already meeting, greeting the month of Sivan. Energy both together tomorrow night, you have one hell of a party. Okay? So, that's really what you want to take from that. You want to take from that that a there's never lost the opportunity. You still have another few days before Shavuot to brighten your vessel, to brighten your clay, and to receive a unbelievable blessing on Shavuot. Nothing is ever lost. What's important to take from that is that tomorrow you want to be available in the after Chatzot. And and to be available to start your Teshuvah process. And to know that you have a few hours to do your preparation of Teshuvah, and then comes in Rosh Chodesh, but you have to do on Rosh Chodesh do what you need to do. Uh you want to make sure men for sure, no question, the three minyanim. And you should make a huge effort, and we're now talking to the women, that on Friday morning you go to a shul to hear the Kriat HaTorah, the hearing of the Torah. To hear and recite the Hallel. And then to hear Musaf. And Friday morning, yeah, to hear Musaf and to be able to answer because tfilat Musaf, the prayer of Musaf, that was the prayer that was the the ritual. We now praying. Musaf is a is an offering. It's an offering that the Kohanim used to do, the priests, on Rosh Chodesh, a special offering. And that would be for forgiveness and atonement. We don't have Beit Hamikdash yet, so we prayer. We prayer. So, what you want to do? If you available tomorrow, Thursday afternoon, and this Listen, every Rosh Chodesh is amazing. Every Erev Rosh Chodesh is amazing. Here this month then we have the two months attached. Uh I don't want to continue explaining. I see the time is already going very long. But there's another explanation how could it be that the Sefirat HaOmer the the whole entire month of Iyar is Sefirat HaOmer, a little bit of Nissan, a little bit of of of Sivan. So, again, the same level, same idea. I'll see Iyar is holding both ends together. So, we getting the energy of Nissan, the energy of Sivan to make things simple, not to overcomplicate things. Tomorrow afternoon is when you need to look into yourself, do your teshuvah. There's a certain prayers that one needs to recite. I myself, I go every Rosh Chodesh to the grave of Rabbi Meir. That I go I explained to you many times. I go there, very special place to pray. If you can make it out there and pray on Rosh Chodesh. But there's also inyan, if you can, on Erev Rosh Chodesh of Sivan, to go in Tiberias to the Shal HaKadosh. And I like going Rambam and the Shal right next to each other. Uh good to pray also by Rambam. Rambam you all know was a doctor. Excuse me. We pray for all the children. For the children, yeah. Yes, there's a certain prayer for the children. So, I I will spend my Rosh Chodesh and Rosh Chodesh in Tiberias. But, there are certain prayers that one should recite. I have it on my website. I don't remember the name of the page. I think it's at smu.org/rabbi Meir. I'm not sure. So, best to go on the website or on the any of social media you have the link to the to the page, but it has all the prayer that one wants to recite. Not a lot. One of them is to read the name of Rabbi Meir through chapter Tehillim 119. Kuf Yud Tet. So, if we want to read Rabbi Meir Baal HaNes, that's one thing that we read. So, we take the word Rabbi, we find in Kuf Yud Tet in 119 Resh, and we read the eight lines of Resh. And then the letter Yud, so I go to Kuf Yud Tet 119, I find the Yud, read the Yud once. And that's how you read the name. If it's long, uh the right way, if one needs salvation, refuah, any type of miracle, is to read the same way the name of the person. So, I have a lot of Yud to read. A lot of Yud Yud Alef Sameach. That's That's 13 letters. Mhm? Yeah, that's So, it's 13 letters, so I have to read Alef all the Alefs in Kuf Yud Tet. Then I do Lamed all the Lameds in Kuf Yud Tet. Kuf Yud Tet is 119. If you read in English, it's not going to work for you. You have to read it in Hebrew to understand, or in English you can read it. You just have to find what corresponds to the letters. Cuz in English it's not the same letters. In Hebrew, the first verses of Kuf Yud Tet is all the Alefs. And then the next is all the Bets. So, if you can do that for your name, best. Uh and then a few other prayers, it's all on the webpage. Like you said, the prayers for the kids and prayer the Shalah has very special prayers for Rosh Chodesh. If you if you can make it to Tveria by the way Shala I don't speak enough of him. I want to make a series of classes about the Tikun because I tell people to read Tikun but I never explained it. But the Shala is the one who exposed and explained the story that I told you and it's the Shala that explains that. And the Shala actually says exactly where the Beer Miriam is. I mean you can't find it. But he gives the location where it is and in Tveria there is location that was once the shoe of the Shala. Now there's a minister there some How do you say monastery? Something like that. Not not a church. I think it's a monastery. That's where the shoe of the Shala was. The Shala he lived in Jerusalem. He was like any normal rabbi very unliked. And they were constantly bothering him there to a some point that it was so bad they put him in jail. They locked him up. There was one guy there that he knew that he was a great rabbi. He kidnapped him and demanded a huge amount that he knew the Jews will pay. He had a lot of issues in Jerusalem so he relocated to Tveria and he opened his shoe. He says it's exactly you see from that place the Kinneret. He says it's exactly in front of it. If you want to go and look for Beer Miriam. Where is it in Tveria? Yeah because the Kinneret's everywhere. Well I don't know the name of the streets but it's close to where the grave of the Shala right now is. And there's a place right now it's called the the of the and and and that's it. You can see the Kinneret from there. It's in the city of Tiberias. But nevertheless, he says that he knows I mean he says that's where the well Miriam is. So he has all very very powerful prayers on air of Rosh Chodesh also good to recite. So you'll find it all on the on the website. I I I think it's at smudat.org/rabbimeir. Maybe I'm wrong, but if you go on the website, it will be on the homepage. You'll see it. But definitely recommended tomorrow. Remember this year it's on a Thursday. Take your time. Take your time to read the Tehillim. Take the time to sit with yourself and to do teshuvah, real teshuvah because right now the Kadosh Baruch Hu is closing and closing on everybody. It's stronger now. Everybody now, whatever challenges they had, it's now intensifying. Everybody now is dealing with something. It's actually unbelievable to what extent everybody is dealing with things in so many different areas, but all in the three that I told you. Banim, mazon, and revicha. Household issues, uh health, and parnassah, your livelihood. And the sad reality, it's going to become worse because that's the birth canal of Mashiach. We have to go through this suffering. But a lot of the suffering is our own doing. It's our own stupidity. Like the man that I told you with the water that he threw the water on the floor. He could have he could have healed you. What you could What could have healed you, you smashed on the floor. So it's our own limitation that brings on ourselves the suffering. We're judgmental. We're jealous. We speak bad about other people. We hear lashon hara. Speak lashon hara. Spread lashon hara. We can all become much much better in in our avodat Hashem to become much more closer to the Torah and and get to a level that Shabbat is much greater, kashrut is better. We all have what to do. I That's my first line of defense. Something happens in my life, I right away go and ask myself, "What did I sin?" And that's because the Talmud says clearly, "A ball been a dummy so lame if I scratch my master." If it comes hardship, challenges, something, look in your actions. If you didn't find, then could very much be that it's a tikun from a previous incarnation. Could very much be or from a sin from 40 years ago. And he continues in the Talmud and says, "And if you still didn't find anything, then it's a one big tool Torah." That you you you are on Facebook, Tik Tok, Instagram. That's big tool Torah. You could you can learn Torah. Instead of that, you're wasting your time. That's a one big tool Torah. Even women, they don't have that sin. But nevertheless, why even women should have instead of being on Instagram for 3 hours, learn Torah. So, and then he continues in the Talmud and if still you find that you don't have any sins and you don't have big tool Torah and you still have hardship, so it says any you so lame chill over. Means Hashem loves you so much. He's bringing some type of hardship on you that to cleanse whatever it needs to be cleansed. So, the the reality is we're all going through a lot of challenges. We're going through a lot of difficulties in all three departments of the how I call it households, bunny, with raising my kids, shalom bite, finding my other half, dealing with a horrible marriage. When it comes to marriage, Hashem this is a department that everybody has their hands full. On one side, you have the ones who are single praying all day long to find their other half. Bring the other side and tell them the ones who are praying all day long, "Whoa, whoa, whoa, hold those prayers. Uh you might be better off by yourself now that I'm on the other side." So, when we single, we pray all day long to find our other half. Finally, we have the other half praying all day long, "What did you send? What did What What is this?" So, so the recommendation is don't pray for your other half. You know, when I when I when we first got married, my wife and me, she and my wife was very very upset that she didn't get pregnant the first few months. And but upset in levels of upset. How can it be? What's going on? And I kept telling her, "We're going to have the next 30 years uh kids around us. I want to enjoy my wife for at least a year. Once we have kids, I we won't have our our private life. So, why are you in a rush to have kids? Uh if it will come in a year, at least I enjoy my wife for another year." She didn't relate with what I'm saying. So, Hashem answered her prayers, she got pregnant. But what I'm saying is when I was single, as I also got married considerably late, uh I was like, "Okay, now I'm single. Get it Take advantage." Uh I know it's not fun to be single, especially when you older and you waiting and you but now you single, take advantage. Do things that you cannot do when you married or you won't do when you married or you can't do when you married. Et le ledet, et le mout. HaMelech says there's a time for everything. It's like God has now took away from my money. I don't have money right now. I don't need to look at it, "Oh my God, now Hashem is punishing me." Hashem is telling me other words, "Right now you don't need money. Right now you need to focus on other things." Or right now you single, you need to focus on other things, not not on a spouse. Et le ledet ve et le mout. This is should be your motto. A time to live, time to die. But nevertheless, the majority of bad things that happens to us in our life is our own action. That's it. That's how it is. And again, big things A lot of people think, "Oh, I I I missed my shidduch." I'm talking now in I'm finding the other half. Maybe I did this sin, I missed the shidduch. You didn't miss the shidduch. People are have all these things in their mind. Hashem is not going to make you miss your other half. It may be in your stupidity will come in with a lot of challenges, but Hashem is not going to say like, "Okay, you ignored moving next." But it's important for us to understand that we have to take responsibility to our actions. I believe that a large amount of our difficulties and challenges in our life is because of our our own actions. Therefore, one needs to do teshuvah and to work on themselves. And tomorrow you have an opportunity to take such a powerful time with the energy of Sivan and Nissan and Iyar, everything together. It's just like I told you, every day on the calendar, 365 days, every day has a different color. When Mashiach is going to come, we are going to be exposed to a lot more colors. What we have now in the world is not all the colors that exist. The world right now is very pale and very uh washed out. That's what I say, washed out, washed washed off. Like looking at a picture from the '60s. Worn out. Worn out. Very pale, no uh contrast, low contrast. When Mashiach is going to come, boom, something is going to happen, the colors are going to be insane. As it says with Adam and Hava, ta'anug la'einayim, it was pleasure to the eyes. They couldn't get it off. They couldn't take it, stop looking. So, the colors will be very very vivid. Why? Every day has a different color. Every day is a a different color on the color spectrum. Now, you have millions of colors. We only have 365 days of the year, but every day they're all different color. When you take two colors together, then you get another shade of color. So, tonight Sorry, tomorrow we're taking two shades of color. We're taking the last day of Iyar, the first day of Sivan, putting them together. Let's trust Rabbeinu Tam and the Beit Yosef and the Shalakh HaKadosh. You have the four Havayot between us. I don't even know what it means when you have the four Havayot together. I understand what he's saying. But to put it in my mind when the four Heys meet, that's beyond us. I can understand the math here and I understand what he's saying. But to picture in my mind why four Heys together, arba Havayot, what it does, I just trust the big boys. I do what they say. Therefore, I take it that tomorrow is a good day to do teshuvah. To understand that everything can be reversed. Hashem is waiting for us to do teshuvah. All it needs to take is a little bit of effort. And to also understand that when you do teshuvah, when you're coming in a very powerful day, why did I tell you also before, the day makes a difference. If you're coming to a court case, which is a very severe court case, and you're coming by yourself, you have less chances if you're coming with a lawyer. This is the same thing. Sometimes the day itself is your lawyer. So, you're coming to do teshuvah with a lawyer because it's a special day, and it was Rosh Chodesh, Rosh Chodesh. So, the day is your lawyer. Your teshuvah is accepted much better. So, Be'ezrat Hashem, all that's left is to wish you Chodesh Tov. Be'ezrat Hashem, we should all be blessed with the healing power of the month of Iyar with true health, strong health, where we need them, a miraculous and immediate recovery. And going into the month of Sivan, where we're blessed with receiving the Torah, receiving the the shefa, the abundance. Hashem should bless us all with parnassah tovah, with good livelihood, and with all the things that we need. That we should be blessed that we ourselves should not be stopping our own blessing. And I hope you take to consideration the good advice, take the time. If you you're local, if you can make it out, go to the grave of the Shalah and Shalah and Rambam are right next to each other. If you can't, still recite the prayer and and do it on the right time. Beautify Rosh Chodesh. I know it's Erev Shabbat. A lot of people don't like washing and doing a meal on Shabbat on Friday. If you do, then do it on Friday morning. You can't wash for a meal after chatzos or tomorrow night, do your Rosh Chodesh meal. Uh come tomorrow. It's my son's bar mitzvah. You can do here your Rosh Chodesh meal. But you want to do a meal that you say Birkas Hamazon and you can add all the additions. You want to make Rosh Chodesh special. And why? That Hashem should see our effort, should have mercy on our on our actions and on our sins, forgive our actions and our sins and bless us with a great month, with a great health, bless us to receive the Torah, bless us to receive the healing that the Torah came with and we should have a a healthy and safe summer wherever wherever we are. Amen.