Grand Yud Shevat Farbrengen with Rabbi YY Jacobson - 5785

I want to share with you a story that once shared of it was I think 1962 and it was a story that he heard from the balula from the Bal yard site of yat from his father-in-law the the previous the six whose yard site is today 75th yard site so he shared in a story actually the of which is his birthday in of the from stalinist prison a story that he heard from him when he came to America this was the summer of 1941 Shar a story that he heard from his his father and it's a story that he shared about his father the fifth the succeeded after his passing in 1920 the succeeded so he shared a story about his father that he was there he was he was present he said that his father that was once and one of the people that was there one of the turned to theb the rash his name was rash his name was shom shom and so this is the so somebody was there and he turned to the and he asked in he said what does it mean to be a so told them a is in he said a is Al or what is that so the Deb explained a Lamplighter and he explained that in the in the this is before the days that everybody had their own electricity and their own light so you had in the city you had What's called the panas fen basically they were tall tall poles and on top of them there was a lantern so you had a wick and you had oil and you needed somebody to go and ignite them so each night there was a fellow he was hired by the city and he was called a Panay in in in Hebrew or in yish it was called Al and he had a big stick CU it was very tall so he had a big stick and he had a fire burning a torch he had a long very long torch and he would go from Lantern to Lantern and he would ignite it that was his job so they called him inish which means a Lamplighter and he would ignite all the Wicks and that's how the city had some brightness and luminescence and light during the night so when this person asked so the a lamp lighter somebody who has a stick a torch and on top of it is a fire and he said and he knows that the fire is not his own he said the fire is it's not his own fire he doesn't own the fire he didn't create fire it's not his fire his job is to pass on the fire to the wick in the lantern so that it should be ignited and burn on its own said thus is a that's what a is so the Reb said this person didn't let go and he said what if this Lantern is in a desert a vist is like a vist vist it's a desolate place it's a desolate place do you still can you still light it so he says of course you have to go into the desert into the desolate place and ignite the lantern and they said and what happens then is to the point that the desert feels embarrassed feels ashamed because it knows that it's a desert the moment you light it it becomes aware that it's a desert and it's a desolate place and there's an element of Shame so the continued to ask and what happens if the lantern that's not lit is in yam it's in the ocean it's in the sea what do you do then so he said then you have to remove your garments and you have to jump into the sea without your clothes and you light the lantern in the sea too so the person tells he said I don't see any lanterns anywhere so the looked at him and he said that's because you're not a Lamplighter so therefore you don't see them so he says to theb say how do you become a Lamplighter so I could see other lanterns so he said you have to begin with yourself if you're crass if you're if you're gross if you're brute that's what you see Everywhere You Don't See lanterns you see crassness when you will get rid of your own grub kite when you'll clean yourself up and you'll find your own light then you'll see lanterns everywhere and then you'll be able to ignite them so you have to work on yourself say people who are refined they see refinement everywhere they see the potential for light everywhere people are in darkness that's what they see everywhere so this man turns to the and says is a this is really what a is said went into a meditation he didn't answer right away he went into AAS he thought about it for a few minutes then he lifted up his holy head and he said this is a this was the exchange exchange at theing and the said over and said it over already in New York 1962 and theb explained what the what what the of the story is what the saying he was asking what does it mean to be a so he said what it means a is that you're a Lamplighter in other words in every person there's a there's a candle that's waiting to be ignited it says it says in Mish the soul of a person is the light of Hashem it's a n but a n is a candle but it's sometimes not ignited the potential is there you have a wick you have wax you have oil but nobody ignites it so it's a n but it's not ignited so the JB the job of the lamp lighter is to have his own fire but to know that he doesn't belong to him he's not giving the person his own fire he's revealing the potential that exists in the person the moment he thinks it's his own fire and I'm doing you a favor cuz I'm giving you my fire you're the loser I'm the winner then you're not in touch with the true energy you yourself need to be like ignited he knows it's not his fire he has a the Fire doesn't belong to any person fire is a power that hasem put into the world and he's holding on to this fire so it's a merit it's a privilege that he has and he has the power to give it to somebody else to find it in themselves but when you ignite their Wick and their o it's not your Wick it's not your oil it's not your fire you're just a channel cuz anybody who's not a channel that ever said this all if you're not a channel if you think you own it then it's a then you're not really igniting them then you're just trying to impose yourself on them so you have to know it's not your fire now this person says but there's a desert it's a vist that looks like it's desolate There's No No Light No potential for light he says go into the desert and light the candle what's going to happen what's going to happen is the person will see that they're in a Vista and suddenly the Vista the midbar will start feeling shame from the flame which means in here he's giving the secret of how to influence somebody the moment the person sees their own light they're like what am I doing in a desert that contrast is the most powerful form of healing of transformation of growth the moment you see that you're in a desert till I don't see I'm in a desert I could remain in a desert and completely oblivious the moment there's a candle burning there's light so suddenly you see oh wow this is a desolate Place who wants to be in a desolate place and suddenly you see the contrast between the two parts of you there's a part of you that's a flame that's a glow and there's a part of me that's a midbar a midb it says Anam doesn't live there it's a place where there's no growth there's no energy there's no life nothing is growing it's not for to live there suddenly when you light a fire he said what's the point let him see that there's a midbar the moment you could see that there's a midbar there's a desolateness now you could say this is not where I want to be there's an element of shame but this is healthy shame healthy so then he comes to the Deb and he says but what if the person is in aam in in in an ocean in an ocean so the Reb said this is the opposite extreme the water represents says says in the Jews are like fish in water the Jews are like fish and the water is like T and the fish are in the water that's the place of life and the whole sea is filled with water so he says this is a Jew who's already learning and he's filled with but the is not bright the says a person could learn could be a person could Lear could be it could be poison the is not alive the is not bright there's no light in his life he learns and there's a lot of learning going on there's a lot of but there's no light in his life the is not burning so I still have to light his man says yeah but how do you do it he says for this you have to take off your clothes and jump into the sea so the said like this that meant was if you come to this person with with garments thought speech action it says in these are garments you're not going to affect them he knows all the thoughts he knows all the words he heard all the ver he heard all he was ready by malus he heard all the nice ver on the he saw all the clips he saw all the all the you need to take off your he says your essence have to touch his Essence it's not about Lush get rid of your garments and go to the core you know sometimes when you have to speak to somebody if you're with your Lush especially parents and children or parents and students you're busy with your garments dressing it up a certain way you're not touching the person you have to you have to have the courage to strip yourself from all your garments and all your masks and all the way you're dressed up and get to the core because that's where you're going to get essential love that you have that's going to touch his ET it's going to touch his Essence and then you'll be able to light him up even in the yam I forgot in the story that added the person asked am I allowed to grab him by his neckar by his neck he says yeah you can't grab him by his neck you can grab him by his uh by his lapel so he said the person was saying if I'm jumping into the sea so I'm sacrificing a lot maybe I could grab him by his neck he says no no no no anything that's going to damage his body and Soul you don't have a right to do by the Lael yeah but by the gargle not so the person said is a this is really a so the thought about it and he said yeah and the that was bringing out here is that in this story is conveyed the true energy of what didim of what did we're trying to teach people that everybody is a lamp lighter and a lamp lighter means we walk around life not just thinking my perfection my Holiness which is also a beautiful thing but we walk around as lamplighters to ignite people to ignite Jews so you might say m who am I what am I become a Lamplighter but the truth is it's not M if somebody if Hashem has G every person has inside of them a fire every person has inside of them love so this is what you give and you walk around in the night time and you ignite Souls say but this soul is in the desolate desert says no ignite it and the desert will become aware of what's Happening you spread light ignite light but this is in an ocean you can't take light the fire in an ocean it's going to be extinguished by the water it this jump in and swim over there and light it but you have to know that it's not your fire and when the person says I can't do this I don't see any lights he says that's because you're not a Lamplighter if you were really a Lamplighter you would see the potential everywhere and this is said when a person works on themselves when a person lives with their own pus when a person lives with their own light you see the potential for light everywhere even in a desert even in an ocean even in somebody who seems so remote he says un but if I'm in a place of Darkness then I'm going to see Darkness everywhere like the B said other people are like a mirror we see other people but we're really looking at ourselves so if when I look at you all I could see is there's nothing here I just see negativity I see Darkness I see dispair I see cynicism it's because that's where I am and because that's where I am I'm projecting it of course there's that part in people why am I seeing that pardon people cuz that's where I'm living but when you're living in a space of light you're a Lamplighter then you look around and you see oh here's a candle here there's a candle here there's a candle here there's a candle there's an expression in English no if you're a hammer if you're a hammer the whole world looks like nails all I see is Nails here's a nail here's a nail Knack Knack Knack Knack if you're a Lamplighter you know what you see you see candles everywhere you see candles it's a you see something else some people look at their children they see candles some people look at their students they see candles some people look at anybody they come into contact they see candles why because they're they're burning when you have a fire burning oh you're waiting you're waiting you're waiting you're waiting and doesn't take away from your fire you know fire is one of those few things in the world that Al he says thing beautiful beautiful it's one of the I don't think we actually have it learned it but I this year I was learning it I saw this V I mean we I don't think we learned it in public Al says if you want to give water to the whole world so how much water do you need you need a lot of water this cup of water this bottle of water it's very nice so I could drink and you could maybe drink from it but if you want to give water to the whole world you're going to need a lot more water than this bottle that's how is if you want to give food to the whole world you're going to need a lot of food you want to give apples to the whole food or what do we have here Tomatoes or french fries or macaroni whatever we have here the beautiful salads and lettuce and Etc you're going to need a lot to feed the whole world says if you want to light up the whole world how much fire do you need and the answer is you need one candle you need one flame that's all you need one flame you can light up the whole world that's all you need I have a flame and then I light up your flame and another flame and another flame and it doesn't take away from the first candle one candle can light the entire world so how much do you need in order to light up every entire world every single heart you only need one candle and that's the of the that's the of the it's a candle but it's a candle that burns and this candle that burns goes and goes and goes and goes and goes and doesn't end and that's what the was telling this Jew the moment you're lit up you'll see candles everywhere and when you'll see candles everywhere you light them up everywhere even if they're in a desert and even in their ocean and if not he says he said but I don't see it so he thought that AB might say yeah it's a crazy world he said no no no your issue is you the issue is you it's a mirror issue is you you're looking around you saying my children don't care my students don't care nobody cares it's a for a generation he says no no no no you need the help you're overwhelmed you're anxious go into yourself everything is about what's happening inside of yourself the moment you the fire suddenly you'll see here's a lantern here's a l and you see this pra you see this practically when people come with an approach of positivity of light of truth of authenticity there's a potential to light everybody up everybody since this is the his whole life ignited souls and not St Ione search for my brother-in-law is a beautiful V and I said it over Friday night here in I said we have a CL everything hasem made in the world is there's Holiness and there's a counterbalance to Holiness unholiness and they always match each other because that way there's choice there's creativity if they don't match each other you know like a chess game the two teams have to be even if not it's not fair if one of them has a king and a queen and a castle and a knight and a bishop and the other one has porns it's not fair so whatever Kusha has kipa has it copies it it's a copy but it's a it's a good it's it's a fake it's fake news but it's a copy and that way that's the way history works the who were the people who represented Holiness in his generation was two people Stalin and Hitler Stalin and Hitler were the two most evil people who lived in all of history who is the of Stalin and Hitler the the so this explains to you a little bit of his kadus because we know that the we know the evil of these two people Stalin on his own and Hitler on his own didn't do a bad job in terms of evil imagine both of them together in the same generation and who was the k for this was the so you could understand I don't know if you could understand but you could beep a little bit of what type of Holiness you're talking about this and we know that in the of the is manifested in the world and when people come together and be inspired so it's a p to the that his whole life in the dark of times and in the deepest Darkness ignited souls and ignited a world and gave hope to the point that the last MIM that we've been learning now was starts off I came to my garden Hashem says I came back to my garden so the 1972 he said it's a thing that the last that he gave out and this was for the shabas when he passed away he gave out the M for that chabas to learn CU it was the artet of his grandmother so he gave out shab he gave shabas for that chabas 1950 gave M to Lear and it happened to be that was the day of his so he gave to learn on his because that's why we learn it every year so he said what was his last message that Hashem calls the world a garden says I'm The Man Who Saw all the pain didn't learn about the from some diary or some newspaper or even a clip he said in Lamentations I saw it all he saw theb and he describes in so theb said his father-in-law was he saw everything first in stalinist Russia where he remained alone and staged the revolution underground Revolution against Stalin this wasn't normal every normal and God will be so either they escaped or everything went underground you couldn't you're talking about stalinist Russia Stalin killed more people than Hitler killed the remain there and he created a whole underground Revolution that was unbelievable the librarian ofab Shalom 11 he told me once that the built 600 underground schools in Russia now people to build one school in America and not have a deficit and not close it down is Al also a miracle and here the government pays half or at least a big amount and there in Stalin underground he created 600 just imagine what this person did and it was Al literally alone the whole everything that exists in Russia Today Was all from that underground work his M was something that's it's beyond comprehension you thought what the person you're talking about so which is today the 75 years it says about 75 years I remember I once saw video was he a big his name is he wrote many he's a very famous he was aw and then he became close to the so his father was 75 years old there's a video I saw his son put up a video he goes by for the de by dollarss he tells that he has a 75th birthday so it's interesting the looks at him and says when was 75 years he left what's says is from the word anger right like is anger so was a place of was the place where made God angry in other words it was for corrupt place it was a place where God was angry place was the anger of the world so when he was 75 years old he left so the Reb said you're now 75 years old you could leave you could leave so his grandson told me it was unbelievable his father was his Z was an aitz and his whole life was just nightmares nightmares and Nightmares and nightmares of aitz you know people that were in outwoods saw what nobody saw so he tells the the 75th verse he says it's time to leave he said after that everything in his grandfather's life changed because he was dreaming he was living with nightmares he was was holding on to it he he lost his first family so you're living literally in in horrible horrible pain so this is the 75th yard site 75 years so one of the biggest Miracles one of the biggest miracles of the rebba was that he he gave the generation Aur of G not the trauma of the Holocaust I always say one of the biggest things about the that I saw was that you would think he was a he was he should have been a poster boy for all the pain of Galos everything that they saw they saw like everybody they saw craziness and Sanity I watched the E for so many years I didn't see all of that you saw you saw love and and joy and celebration and ecstasy was an incredible thing Ellie weizel his wife just passed away her name was Marian Marian wizel Ellie wizel was in awz and binval I knew Ellie wizel because he was close to my father he was a journalist my father was a journalist so they were friends for many many years so we I knew him I knew him a little bit Ellie wizel was like the most famous Holocaust Survivor he won the Nobel Prize for Peace and he was like the writer who commemorated the Holocaust so he wrote two books of memoir so one of the books he writes over there that he was once on by the by the and he says at some point itba turned to him and said you Des you deserve a what do you want you deserve a blessing so he turned to the and he said the should bless me I should be able to cry again because since the War I could I can't cry you know what happened was the pain was so deep that they stopped crying because if you start crying you don't stop so you cut you know you cut off the wire you cut off certain wires so you should be able to survive so there's certain emotions you go offline you know you go offline that's how you survive it was a survival coping mechanism so he asked the he understood this he asked the it's like what we said before you know when you see the when the candle burns you could see that you're in a desert he asked the rebel give me a able to stop start crying so he said that the rebel looked at him and the Reb nodded and he said yeah not only you should be able to cry that's the beginning you should be able to laugh you should be able to dance you should be able to sing that's what I want to give you a right that's the the end of right all the are crying they see the fox coming out of they all cry is laughing and they tell him so now just last week his wife passed away she was 84 she was I think 94 years old he passed away Ellie wizel passed away a few years ago so I was reading an obituary so I knew I heard this from Ellie wiel himself he didn't want to get married he didn't want to get married why didn't he want to get married because he said if the world allowed the Holocaust the first time who knows what's going to happen in 80 years why should I bring children to the world so they should what they should be GED that's what he felt he says it's a crazy world I saw what happened to my brothers my sisters and all the other kids why should I bring kids so I'm not getting married he'll die a single man and he refused to get married and uh who convinced him to get married at he wasn't he came from Sig he was a vision from the house he was a vision used to come a lot to the and there's a letter from the re from 1965 to Ellie wiel it's like a seven-page letter it's probably one of the long letters that I saw from the de it's in yish it's like a seven page letter and the second half of the letter is about why he should get married and he says you know you're dedicating your whole life to remember Hitler and it's important you have to remember what amik did but more important is not to let a mik win and if you're not getting married it's basically the end of the Vel Dynasty he said the greatest nail that you could put put into Hitler's coffin is that Hitler wasn't successful there should be one Vision less so get married and build a family while you talk about the Holocaust but make create a future that's the most powerful thing and then he said get married build a family and have children he says I don't care if your children will be I'm fine other or good Jews who learn and then he writes it then it's a very long letter but if after P you're going to get married the long letter was so this is a letter from 1965 he didn't want to get married he listened to the but he was already in his 40s and I think in 1970 71 he married Mar and Vel so there was an obituary a few days ago somebody sent me for him so his wife said that uh the convinced him to get married but he still he was hesitant and I convinced him that it's going to be good he's going to find love and he got married and I heard from him that uh you know people send for the weddings different gifts he says the most beautiful bqu of flowers for his wedding came from the rebba the rebba sent the most beautiful bqu of flowers and a year later his son was born the same year that I was born and he named his son Alisha which was was for his father who was who killed an schwitz and he once told me that he was at my bris and my father was at at his son's bris we were borned more or less the same time but I saw now in the bituary something I didn't know and that is Ellie weizel which I knew was a he was a free spirit he was a Hermit he liked Reading literature he liked traveling he wasn't uh into being a world personality he he liked being clandestine who turned him into the person he became his wife his wife said you have to become a voice and she she really you know trained him like a good W Jewish wife you know she modifies the man and molds him and she really turned him into a voice of tremendous kesem and he won the Nobel Prize and he became the most famous H ofar and he became like a voice of conscience and of justice and righteousness you know he would he would speak up in the whole world about these things about hatred and replacing hatred with love so then I realized that when the devil was encouraging him to get married it wasn't just for his own life really he became who he became because of his wife it was fascinating so this is what the told him I don't know I don't want to only teach you how to cry I want to teach you how to be able to laugh how to be able to dance now to think about this that after suchan to be able to understand yeah that the message of the future of the Jewish people is not a future of Despair and ofing and moreing and moreing but it's a message of G that was the uniqueness you know when the took over 1950 the Jewish world was licking wounds it's 5 years after a what do we have left everybody was trying to rebuild rebuild here the came out his first May man he said this is the we're going to bring the back to the world and we're going to bring the G it was a whole different in it was where does a person get this from a different it was it's a different and it revived the whole generation literally the whole generation got a different confidence because of this I always tell people I say when you want to understand the laich you can understand it from laich laich is one part of it look at the whole Jewish World they'll understand the pride the dignity the confidence the during those years this was the confidence that they have been infused into the generation so the bottom line is that when you when you're full of light you see light everywhere you see light everywhere and you ignite it everywhere he said this is what a is a walks around with a with a uh with a torch and the first person he ignites is himself and he knows that it's not his own fire there's people they walk around they light everybody up as long as you know that it's my fire it's my fire you're lighting that means they don't even believe in their own fire if they would really believe in their own fire they wouldn't have to take credit for it you understand what I'm saying when you really connected to the True Light you don't take you don't have to take credit for it for the greatest credit is that you're just a channel and when you ignite the fire in people you let them shine it's an incredible thing so today is a time to take the torch and Light It Up in yourself and then when you walk around oh here's a candle here's a candle here's a candle here's a candle here's a candle and you light your presence your presence lights up Souls [Music] from [Music] oh [Music] oh [Music] oh you oh yeah [Music] I am oh [Music] oh oh [Music] oh [Music] oh [Music] oh I am oh [Music] you my oh [Music] oh you [Music] oh [Music] I am B I [Music] [Applause] [Music] la [Music] la [Music] oh oh [Music] Hall [Music] hey oh 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would say I want to hire you to be a teacher and you know I'll pay you how did say it he says I have it says in to you should teach your [Music] child you have aah to support your wife and children it's a mitzvah it's a Mitzvah on a husband not of every husband knows this but it's a Mitzvah on a husband that there's a Mitzvah right what do they say they say one of theas of parosa is to get a job it's one of theas not the only but it's one of theas of paros just parentheses I have aah to teach my child you have a Mitzvah to support your wife and children let's exchange our Mitzvah you will teach my child and I'll support your wife and child your wife and children that's how he set the proposal you're going to do my mitvah and I'll do your Mitzvah in other words I'll pay you so when the said the story he said it seems like the guy wasn't only a good teacher but he was also wise he was very smart so he turns to the Al and he said he understood it's an opportunity he said it's not a fear exchange you're part of the deal it's very clear what you have to do you got to pay money to support my wife and children but my part of the deal you want me to educate your child you want me to educate your child you have to know how how how am I supposed to know how it's not a simple thing so the told him onas you start off how do you teach a child you teach Olive Bas was a little kid he says an olive Bay what's the first letter of olive B the first letter of alive B is you start off all you start off with Al is an Al what's an Al now the Al said this when Al would speak he would always speak with a niggan he didn't St speak he spoke with a Melody with a melody the said when my father-in-law said over the story that he heard from his fatherhood from his fatherhood from the all the way back he said it over with the nigan that the Al said it to this person and said it over with the same nigan so he said it over in the N that Al said it to this person who he he wanted to teach the and when the Reb said it over he said and he stopped and he got very very emotional and he repeated Al's words and the's own also changed you can hear on the tape that his own voice changed him [Music] do is an Al now if you look at an Al what does an Al look like there's a UD on top there's a UD on the bottom and then there's a line in between that connects the two udes so said you want to teach my child this is what I want you to teach him in other words the whole thing I why to teach him is there's a on top that's Hashem there's AUD on the bottom a is that's a Jew and the two need to become one and that's the Cal the line in the middle of Shay fear of Heaven A of Heaven that connects the ud on top and the yud on the bottom and the Reb explained even deeper AUD is only on it's it's the smallest letter it's a seminal point it's AUD why does that represent Hashem because as much as a person understands and comprehends it's only a UD it's only aab the truth which is infinity how do you grasp Infinity anything we grasp of infinity is only a little seminal point of infinity so there's a recognition that a you only grasp as much as you grasp of it it's only a it's only a it's a little condensed condensed version and that creates a UD on the bottom which was the the but theud in the bottom is the B the person becomes a yud the person condenses themselves into a yud into the frequency of vulnerability and surrender and ble to be able to be T the yud above so it's all about a yud and this is what a child this is what I want my child this is what I want you to teach my child this is how you should start th is an parenthesis there's another story it's a very interesting story it's a power very deep story and when you hear the first story I think it gives a whole new gmak to the Second Story everybody knows everybody heard in Poland it was the Kut of K his last name was Marg Mar they call him the K the K so he was already a legend in his lifetime the K he was born and he was raised in a city in Poland called tasov they called him the Mela t later they called him the men of ksk because he moved to kot and that's where he was a famous leader but his youth was in a place called Tomas once when he was already a big Reb distinguished Master he went back to his youth to the place where he was born and he grew up and he went to Tam so because of who he was all the people all the distinguished people wanted him to stay at their their their home to host them and they all extended an invitation you have a beautiful home you could stay with your people and you'll have everything you need he so he said he wants to stay by his mamid of olive Bas the one who taught him Olive Bas the problem was that that e was a captain he barely had a home it was a tiny little home it was caved in it was destroyed it wasn't a place for for a big rabit to stay but he rejected all the other invitations and he went to the person the mamad who taught him Olive Bay when he was a little kid when he was a baby I don't know if he was 2 years old 3 years old four years old he that's the he went so all the all the wealthy Jews were very insulted they're like why do you do this they asked him later why did you want to stay by this person so you know what he answered this very deep he said the only thing I have clear in life is Olive base and that's he taught me that's the only thing I have clear life every after that everything was confusing everything was already confusing at this the only thing Le was from this teacher he taught me Olive bive B I was a few days ago I was traveling with RBI Waxman or fryan xman so he he said that he heard the story a little different that I mean it's similar said the said is the only thing that's true with this guy taught me after that I don't know what they sold me what they didn't sell me he said the only thing I know for sure as em is the Olive base so I went back there that's the place where I learned to truth and what I know after that this is what the k said the story with Al it gives a whole different it explains to us what it is this I had clear after that everything becomes you know sophisticated and I don't know what's true what's what I understand what I don't understand but what he was conveying what the story convey something very very simple but also very profound this D was telling this teacher what I want you to give my child what I want you to give my child is the essence and the essence is expressed in the the the is an that's the AL after that it's all you know said after that I don't know already it's very confusing once that finished and it's so true in life because it's always about coming back to the AL to that pure Simplicity in the most essential level that the child gets when the rebba said over the story and he started to quote Al the Reb's words you can hear it on the tape he started to cry very heavily years ago my children were small and this was still the days of a tape recorder I don't know how how many of you remember a tape recorder H it's still alive there's still a few people but when I grew up and those of you who are my age know a tape recorder that's how you listen to something you put a took a tape and it had ribbons and if the ribbons came out you had to sit with your finger and go like this for three hours and it's you bro you made it even worse and you put it in you press play and you heard the tape so I had a tape recorder in my house and I had all the tapes of the recordings of the Reb faans from 1950 1951 till 1992 was 1,400 tapes and around albums an album I had an albums all over in my house I lived in on New York Avenue in cron Heights and then in suddenly one day came out a little satka and one little and I couldn't believe that 1400 tapes that I paid a lot of money for it's all on one little tatka so because of my Nostalgia I couldn't get rid of it even though it didn't make sense cuz it took up a half a room but I couldn't accept my I couldn't be so humble to accept that this little uh this little drive this little sat has everything I just couldn't accept it so M I left it people said what it's just occupying space I left it but the truth is a few years later shashin was put into prison then I saw somebody said the only thing they allow him to listen to in prison are old tapes and he's looking for anybody who has tapes of the Reb so I took all my for 00 tapes and I shipped it off to prison to that's what he listened to so I was happy I didn't get rid of them that's in parenthesis but I'll go why am I telling you about the tapes ah so at night at night I used to play this story of the Reb of the alterb to my children when they were little kids they should hear what told the teacher what he wants the children to know I used to play it for them so once one of my boys he was m a little kid his name is he's named after Al so uh he listened to it so then I said I want to ask you a question why do you think that AB is crying it's not a sad story why do you think that e is crying when he tells the story it's a beautiful story why is the sobbing why do they think so he told me he was like I don't know 5 years old six years old he said that e is crying that you need a c in the middle to connect them really they're one why should you have to connect them so he's crying over the fact that you have to connect them the fact that they have to be connected through a line that's what's making him cry so I heard this and I remembered another story there's a story that brings ofan ofan was eight years old or nine years was a little baby he was a look or was a was an orphan and Al was once traveling through a city so the AL the Widow the mother of took him and he lifted him up to the wagon to get a from so he turns to the Al and he says he wants to ask a question he said f his question you know what his question was his question was you should love there's no you to love if so there's only so where is the you to love that was his question went into in Middle you say said this eight-year old boy asks what don't ask what's the what's you should love who's the you said you're right but the middle we says because you could say you should love or as we've been learning the of you could say they wanted a sandwich they wanted to get rid of they wanted from to go into wanted so I told my wife that I said this is said what's what's the in the middle what you need a yeah I want you to understand the sensitivity of our children this the sensitivity of our children he understood I wouldn't have even thought of that D was crying because you need a c to connect the ud and the yud to connect one you to another you you need a line in the middle an Alf in the middle that's your what do you what you don't need a c in the middle you don't need a c in the middle but since we live in this world and you could feel separate and you can experience separateness the whole inion of the AL is the Cav the line that connects to one you to the other you so what does this mean in our life in our life it means that everything begins with an Al everything begins with connection ction everything begins withas everything begins with a relationship right here right now when theb said over the story that I said earlier about theab with the lamp lighter that the person said I don't see lamps so he said it's because you're not a Lamplighter and you have to clean yourself out so the Reb said it doesn't necessarily mean in a coarse way sometimes it's a very subtle thing and interesting example that EBA gave that sometimes a person is daving or doing a mitz for Learning and he's thinking to himself it would be nice if somebody notices what I'm doing and then it'll become a of a thing like there was somebody once said the best feeling in life is to do something anonymously and then somebody finds out and it's a very subtle thing nobody knows what I'm thinking but it's interesting this was what what does this mean this means you don't believe in your real connection what is the feeling in me that somebody has to see me it means you don't believe in the power of your own connection you don't believe in it it's like you're davening you're crying you're connecting it would be nice if somebody could see it of course to inspire them not for any other reason but they'll be inspired yeah what does that mean it means that the connection is not so powerful that that itself is a what do you need the intimacy this itself no no it's not people think yeah it's because they're looking for for for for uh for validation It's really because they have no validation if you would believe in your own that's the best thing that happened what else do you want what can be more validation than that that himself the creator of the world is standing right here and like yeah amazing thank you wow this is 40 years agoat is coming this week so it's I think it was the first the second so he he said to bishvat what do we do to bishvat on the 15th ofat when is to bishvat it's uh you know Thursday this Thursday so so we celebrate the seven species with which was praised and therefore we eat fruits eat grapes you eat figs you eat dates you eat pomegranates the first two are wheat and barley so the should be the first is to eat bread to eat to eat whatever but that's not the Min the is to eat the pis the fruits not the even though it's so he said there's a lesson here what's the lesson grain is something that you need it's a necessity right especially in the ancient world bread is what people ate in order to survive fruits are a delicacy you don't need fruits to survive it's a delicacy it's it's desert like we say in the the first is you created that which they need to live to give them pleasure which is fruits and Delicacies Etc so what do you focus on you focus on the Delicacies on the on the on the special treats that we eat not for survival but for pleasure what's there's a deep lesson here of trees that means you're just starting off the tree is just starting off because that's the time when the sap comes into the tree even though now if you look at the trees this Thursday you look at the snow tonight doesn't look like this is there's nothing happening on the trees but what's happening is is beneath the surface the tree is being recreated re it's getting it sap its energy that in the spring it's all going to come out so it's a person is compared to a tree you're starting you're just starting to your growth in other words you left from and you became a from a inanimate man you went into a world of so what's the first thing you should focus on first thing you focus on is necessity so he says what's the first thing you focus on on Pleasure on the fruits that are delicious you're just starting off so your focus should be necessity as much as you need to do to be say no right away start off with start off right away with bliss with pis with pleasure and he said a person wakes up in the morning they could say I'll just do my obligation I'll eat bread in other words I'll do what's necessary to fulfill my obligation he says no right away you start off with with bliss says what am I demanding for myself such high levels he said when a person wakes up and they think they remember that Hashem is standing there and he's waiting for the person's so what's a greater than that what's a greater what's a greater Bliss in life that the creator of all the worlds who's infinite Beyond infinite Beyond infinite he's here to listen to your to your gratefulness to your gratefulness to your gratitude that I have a soul that I have another day the moment I'm asking maybe somebody's going to see me maybe somebody's going to see my advas what does it mean it means I am so valueless in my own eyes the only way I can have value is if it's on WhatsApp or at least if there's a picture so there's a potential WhatsApp in 1962 it's before WhatsApp but the de was describing a person we sometimes think a person you're looking for recognition you're looking for validation you're looking for covet it just means yeah you want to you want to become somebody no it means you're you it means I feel I'm nobody and if you'll know about there'll be somebody so that's the it's the most desperate situation H it's really a form of of of emotional death the person is so detached I'm so I'm I'm so not in touch with my own life force and energy that I need to borrow other people's life force and energy to realize that your own vus your own experience your own Alf that's more powerful than anything else that's that's the light inside of you I think I once said this at one of my sh I probably said it if I was thinking I was thinking about it so I probably probably came out at some point I don't remember but I probably said it the who come to the sh will probably remember if I said it huh you don't even know what I'm saying yet there was a ye who once told me he's he's close to me and he's a mentor of mine and a good friend of mine and a very special a deep very authentic person so he once told me something very powerful it was really just a few months ago in the summer I think it was I was talking to him on the phone and he said something very very uh poignant and so real and he said as follows he said you know even if you're ego your ego you're yeses your ego decides that it wants you to become the most spiritually powerful person in the world and you shouldn't have on a video you shouldn't have a th000 views or 5,000 views or 10,000 views or even 1.5 million views but you should have 7 billion views now there's no s billion people who have YouTube right but theoretically seven billion other words every person in the world how many people are there eight billion already eight and a half billion every person watched watched the clip it's pretty good yeah even Trump does doesn't have that and his augus are big yeah so your ego wants that every person yeah should know and you know you should be influenced and imagine that you're even successful with this Fantasia with this Dian you're even successful and you reach that level of power and influence and fame Etc he says even if yeah I want you to know that that doesn't even scratch the surface of your true greatness whatever your ego Imagines for you with doesn't even scratch the surface of your true greatness that you're that you're part of cuz what's all that greatness joke it's a tip it's not even a drop from the Atlantic Ocean so even whatever your ego Imagines for your greatness it doesn't scratch the surface of who you really are that's the that's that's the ofas vas is not it doesn't even scratch the surface it's like reducing a tree it's like reducing a tree to the fruit that comes out of it the true fruit was very nice we appreciate the peach and we appreciate the Fig and we appreciate the orange and we appreciate the Apple but imagine the you define the whole Tree by the Apple the tree has so much more the tree produce this apple the tree is going to produce another thousand apples the tree is going to live another Thousand Years producing I don't know how many apples and then you reduce the whole tree to the Apple do we appreciate that app we appreciate the Apple so as much as people people appreciate and gain beautiful but don't reduce vas to that so the said The Lamplighter begins you have to be a light you have to be a flame it's all internal and then automatically you'll see lights everywhere and that's the AL the AL is that Theus isus it's all bimus doesn't need anybody's validation in the world but when I'm living in a in a wounded Soul when I'm living in a not a wounded soul but a wounded body and a wounded psyche so then maybe you'll see maybe he'll see maybe my wife will see maybe my child will see even better if a stranger sees especially if it's an influencer with WhatsApp but this is all coming from a desperation of a complete lack of connection with your own life force and energy and that's Al Al is when the yud connects to the other Y and there's that line of and that's what is not fear of heaven so that everybody should be afraid it's the structure of life that the ud should be able to be one with the with the yud and says this is what every child needs this is what a child needs the moment that you can give this to a child they won't need other stuff the moment you can give them this sense of attachment ofas with themselves with their life force and energy they won't be looking for anything else they're good thus is on alive so the K said it's the only thing that was ever true that anybody taught me the only thing that anybody taught me that was true was that so I went back to the place where I learned that everything else became confusing in other words when yides is divorced from this it's just we're selling thing selling stop with the words if you can experience this th is now you're going to ask me a question say how do you experience this how do you go back to the AL okay good that's a good question that's a good question but that's what it is it's the heartbeat of life it's being fully present and us this moment is the greatest moment this place is the greatest place you're never going to be in a better moment you're never going to be in a greater place we learned on Friday about that you're the right now right now by the you're right now by the you're with right now you'll say give me a break I'm just eating some pasta or Salad the power of was not that somebody took a picture of it that wasn't the power it was okay you want it would be nice to have a picture of B I don't know if somebody would record I don't know what it would sound like it could be it would be blank the tape I'm not sure huh I'm not sure the camera would pick it up huh I'm not sure that it would be recorded on the tape what mat if there was a video by mat what would what would the video show huho what does it look like to experience God and I'm not sure the MP3 would detect that you understand cuz you know in yourself when you get closer to these experiences it's not something that's recorded madaka c madaka yeah what does a how is a c madaka recorded it's not recorded it's experiened it's not recorded say but we live in a world of recordings that's true but don't reduce your experience to the recording you live in a world of recording so you record what you could record but it's not about recordings and when I mean recordings I'm not only talking about a mic and a type recorder we're talking about internally the internal experience the internal experience is infinitely greater than what any validation of it will Define and the moment I doubt that it's only because of how detached I am from the force because I'm detached from the life force and energy so all I have is your validation your validation your validation your validation that's what this person was saying you understand what I'm talking about [Music] give an EMS [Music] I just [Music] called next [Applause] [Music] above put you to work [Music] h l [Music] J [Music] h [Music] oh [Music] [Applause] [Music] h the she m she la [Music] a [Music] la [Music] hey you to so far [Music] on [Music] hey [Music] of hey to of this so [Music] far so far so for [Music] hey to so far [Music] to hey to wait to me so far [Music] [Applause] [Music] [Applause] [Music] I don't want to interrupt the nigan huh a in here [Music] B I heard a story froma Weger from the five towns from H KES huh two weeks ago yeah M's two weeks ago yeah very very powerful very moving deep story was one of the students of the maged of Mich that his yard site was recently I think dvat and he's one of the great sadim of the generation SV is a city in Poland so of he once married off an orphan a and a Kala groom and a bride who were both orphans and didn't have family and he arranged which he often did he arranged for the wedding and he got the money to be able to make for the me the meal and he hired also a kmer what they called a they called kmer cler right a band to be able to be to bring joy at the wedding and uh they played and at some point they played a beautiful beautiful Melody and it was really stunning Exquisite you know the language the language of the angels and he was so moved when they finished playing this melody he said you know I would really love if this melody could be played at my laaya at my funeral so powerful okay and life moved on as they say years and years passed the wedding was over years passed the kesma they came from different towns you know how it was with kma they would come from different towns and everybody moved on they went went back home and decades passed everybody already became older and older and uh they have also scattered you know bands when they're young you're together you play it's like it happens often and then everybody moves on with life you know they grow up in one way or another either they get older they get younger more mature less mature whatever but that's how life Works people move on and this clma band has dismantled it you know they everybody went back to their own life and many many years or decades actually have passed one morning each member of the band felt an urge to go to SV to go back to SV where they came from where they spent time and everybody on their own they just felt they want to go back to the city of SV so they started to travel and when they came to SV they see that there's a huge crowd huge crowd and they asked what's happening and they said he didn't hear passed away and this is and then they remembered that he asked that the song that they played at the wedding decades ago should be played as funeral and suddenly they saw everybody was there the whole chasma was there so the story is that at this Laya they played the niggan that they played years ago at the wedding that's the mice this is the mice huh yeah yeah yeah it's a different yeah there's different versions of the story that they were going to a wedding and the horses took them to svia what's really what's really what's really the point here the point is that uh you know he planted a seed in their hearts he planted a seed years ago and the right time their hearts took them to the right place and they all came together and each musician knew where to go to SV and to play that song there's two types of influence there's influence where you influence people right here right now and they're under your influence and you can influence them but that's shortlived the real fluence is you plant a seed there's a song Somebody once said what's the definition of Love definition of Love is learning the song in the other person's heart and singing it to them when they forget it you plant a song inside of them and in the right time the musicians are moved to come to the right place and to play that song that's a different type of that's a different type of influence it's one that permeates and penetrates to the core and it emerges in the right time like a few weeks ago I was in with a whole group of teachers and Mas and cabalists and Mystics and teachers of cab and so I was speaking at Chas so I said I sh with themart from the was two weeks ago so he says as followsm tells that you're going to come you're going to come to is gon to say to you make for yourself a wonder I want to see you know what you're worth so you should throw down your stick AD should throw down his stick will become Serpent and that's what happens so iron throws down his stick and it becomes a snake and then par tells all of his you do the same thing and they also throw down their sticks and become snakes and then par iron iron stick swallows their sticks strengthens the heart of and he remains stubborn he's not moved so the asks a question he says the words that hasem puts into's mouth is says make a for yourselves it's not what the point is saying you impress me you know Blow Me Away not or make up some not he doesn't need M IR to make a m for themselves in their bedroom he wants impress me blow me away that's he says make a for yourselves it's interesting question then he asked another question why he didn't have to strengthen sins the pares people did exactly what they did so there was nothing impressive they they they they they also did it of course he wasn't moved so name says as follows he says this isem quoting P was saying something very deep P knew how Kish Works he know he knew how magic works it's a skill people who have a skill they know how to manipulate and exploit a system and they can create Kish I want you should make a that for you guys it should be a you should be you should be blown away you know when a guy does a puppet show or does magic tricks right he doesn't come home to his wife and he says oh did I do tricks today it's all a game it was just the kids are wow wow wow wow you all the people that make tricks he's not impressed by his tricks he knows it he doesn't come home and say wow so P said I know how the from work it's a skill I don't want it to be a miracle for me I want it to be a miracle for you I want you guys to be blown away by the miracle that means it's not Kish how are you blown Away by the miracle if you're tuning into theem if you're tuning into the Divine energy the ins that's coming through and that's going to be the then it's then you're going to go like wow wow this is pretty incredible he says all my everybody else is blown away they're not blown away it's just another game they know the game it's just how you do it it's not a big deal it's a myus for everybody else it's not a myus for themselves let's see and because it was that saw that it's a different and therefore he had to become stubborn because on his own he would have realized that he knew that it was something different so says that this is also true with all people who communicate [Music] teachers parents whever you any person who's communication he says communication there two types you give give a beautiful presentation everybody wow wow wow he says that's nothing were you Blown Away by the presentation if it was just manipulation if it was just theatrics if it was an act the actor doesn't go home and say wow it was amazing he did it yesterday he's going to do it today he's going to do it tomorrow how many times can you get impressed says do you come home and say and says the one who needs to be most inspired by your speech is you cuz if you're a channel then you're blowing away more than anybody else it's like wow that was amazing I'm my life was changed that means it wasn't just your ego manipulating the information to be able to make a presentation he says that's it says in says like this literally it means I have told the news B I have given the of Justice because of in a large community my lips won't cease to praise you usually when people are speaking the they prepare what they want to say and everybody else may praise them but they're not coming home praising I I'm blowing away I'm like why wow Hashem that was incredible that was so moving that was so powerful why cuz you were just a channel if you're a Channel of the first one who's moved and transformed is you yourself so I told the I was talking to myself and to everybody else I said the first rule the first CL in teaching communicating is you should be blown away it's like wow that was amazing cuz it wasn't you you were just a channel if it was just you you know creating an act and you're not even there you're just presenting then says I have enough of these I have enough of the that's where it becomes something experiential and you see today that's what people everybody the words of these words of par are are are really hashem's words it's Hashem quoting stop telling stop giving me packaged information don't give me packaged information I want you to be blown away by what you're saying the first one to be inspired is you that means you're not giving me package information you're channeling real energy if you're channeling real energy from the source then you're the first one to be overwhelmed you won't stop praying praising it you come on say wow that was incredible that was lifechanging really why you said it yesterday you didn't say yesterday it's theem coming through you there once actually 60 years ago 1965 it's before my days but I heard it on the recording so said a story he said that there was the asked all the them to write their memories from their youth so he says one of the people who wrote down his he was living then in Melbourne Australia his name was he was a in Australia in Melbourne and he learned by the and he wrote down his memories and he sent them to the later they were printed in a it's called so said over one of the stories that he shared and one of the stories is that when he learned in the city of laich in there was a Masia there his name was bler they called him M the alter M the old one or M Nev because he came from Neville and the said that to understand who he was you have to understand that he was already old and weak and sick and he couldn't teach anymore and the financial situation was Dire so they suggested that he should be you know maybe they give him a severance pay but you know it's he's not doing his job they shouldn't give him the same salary so theab said they should pay him the same salary cuz just for the B to see him to look at him sh even though that salary should be given to a teacher and he can't teach anymore but just to look at him to see him and the yes is already the whole salary so the devil was trying to explain who he was so he that would speak to the and he would say it shouldn't be like letters of a stranger and he said what does he mean so he gave us he told a story and they the olden days in the there were Jews who owned kmas they owned ins Motel sixes like motels and they would they would people would stay there they would give brunin and vodka and Scotch to the Russian and polish peasants this was a big parosa for Jews in the 18th in the 16th and 17th and 18th and 19th century it's called kmas like little ins huh yeah the original version of Airbnb or motal 6 or whatever it is these Jews some of them were very good people and innocent and they were godframe but they were illiterate they didn't have an education so together they would hire a mamid they would hire a teacher to teach their children they would find some place in middle and the kids would go every morning and they would learn with this Mal and they would pay him and then he would go home for Yam this was a very common thing they were called Yus like Jews who lived in these small little towns they didn't have big communities and they would hire a teacher to come and the kids from all around would meet in some Center and they what they would learn one of the jobs of these teachers was to read the letters that came because they didn't know how to read they were illiterate so they would read the said told the story that one of these teachers were hired and one of the ketas the people the Jews owning the Inn said he got a letter if he could read it for him because he can't read so the teacher started to read the letter as he starts reading the letter the yesnik the Jew the in who heard the letter fainted they fainted what happened he read in the letter that his father the father of the Jew who owned the in passed away said felt he passed away he was very close to his father so he heard that his father died he fainted the AL says to the boys in the teacher the mamad was reading the actual letter he had access to the information the one who owned the kma was just hearing the information from the teacher so the teacher was much closer to the source so the teacher should have fainted But the teacher didn't faint who fainted the one who owned the Inn who didn't even have access to letter couldn't even read it why doesn't make sense said the answer is because it's his father the teacher was reading a letter about somebody else's father he read it he understood it but faint he didn't faint this person he Tak didn't have the information directly but it was his father and he loved his father he fainted so the Reb said what's the lesson from this he says there people who learn they learn and learn and learn he's learning about somebody else's father so he may be the greatest expert he knows the material as understands the my he knows how to read he knows how to teach it he knows how to explain it up it's not his father there's somebody else who's remote he doesn't have access to the source he doesn't even know how to read it you give him the M he looks at it he say I don't know what you're talking about but when he hears it he knows that it's about him and therefore it affects him so the was saying to the says people they Master they know everything but one thing they don't know that is talking about them so he says they have all the information and they could teach the information to everybody else but it's completely not effective it's completely ineffective because the LA one piece is missing it's nothing to do with me nothing to do it's not embodied it's not in visceral it's not in my nervous system it's all abstract it's all remote it's all about somebody else's father he says when you're learning say it's yours it's intimate it's it's your soul it's your body it's it's it's it's inside of you and that's a completely different experience completely different experience stop preaching stop preaching Judaism stop preaching it's a whole generation that grew up on preaching and more preaching and more preaching and more preaching the question is if the speeches this this professional that professional how many jokes how many stories I want to be a you should go away you should go away transformed and then it's a completely different experience when he put the nigan inside their souls and this is essentially what tried to accomplish not to teach people a niggan to plant implant a niggan in their hearts the most moment it's in your heart then in the right time you'll come the musicians show up why cuz it's inside of them you know by the sh it says there's three opinions how the sh worked one opinion is that M said the sh everybody repeated after him was just repeating another opinion Isa started off and then they finished the third opinion is yeah that everybody one opinion is that they repeated to him they repeated they didn't the first opinion is and they they did they did what's called what's it called the middle of a nigan they did the the chorus the chorus so did the whole they just the second opinion is did they repeated after him word for word the third opinion is started and they did the whole thing on their own but they all did the same thing so it was once this I was there in 1988 that explained the three the first sh is that it was the Jews just said we're in the second sh is they repeated after it became there the third sh he said started and they did the whole thing on their own because it became theirs became their niggan it became their nigan yeah that's the real thing the real thing is it becomes your song and then even when mha is not there he's not doing the sh you they're all singing the same song because they found the song of MAA inside of themselves that's the real inion you know to find that song in yourself once you find a song in yourself it's a whole different thing and then everybody will sing the same song because the song of MAA is inside their hearts right I want to and I know I'm a king I know how the tricks work Dominion so this is mish what you see now what's the search everybody's searching what what what are they seeking the whole generation of speeches of telling people they should they should they should they should it's it's done it's finished you can officially say Kadesh on that so love it's not working why is it not working not because everybody is spoiled because V is on alive you're looking for a relationship relationship means it's all internal everything is real it's authentic it's your own heartbeat you can't forge that it's not something you could pre don't make me another K another good Russ that's going to be impressive it's not working why is it not working it's not working because were you going to teach me how to do magic says I've been doing this for years we're experts on this so we have been experts for many many many years on presenting something very beautiful for other people and suddenly everybody's surprised that a lot of the kids are not buying into it a lot of the B are not buying into what happened it's so talented it's so nice it's so G I want to see if you're blowing away if you're blowing away oh it's a different inion in other words how authentic is it how much has the niggan permeated your own soul your own identity your own inion and that's the whole of learning learning is not reading a letter about somebody else's father if it's not going to be yours if it's not going to be internalized it's not going to M do much the same is true with education we educate our children we educate our students the first person you have to educate is yourself if you educate yourself you'll be able to educate everybody else by osmosis you'll radiate your light and oh this is it it should blow you away don't talk to me about daving and don't talk to me about learning and don't talk to me about let God live through you if you become a channel for everybody will feel it they'll feel it they don't you won't even have to say anything you won't even have to say anything they'll experience it but let's face it this is the hardest thing because it's not about anybody else this is all internal that's what theab told his Jew you're not a Lamplighter you don't see lamps because you're not a Lamplighter you're not worked out so go inside yourself and find your bliss find your joyful presence once you find your joyful presence you'll radiate it it's who you are there was a Jew who once told me many years ago he said I want you to know Rabbi why why that there's only one sermon you will give in your life I'm like what are you talking about that's not true there's a lot of different sermons he says there only one the way you live the way you live is the only ser you'll give in your life yeah you'll give a lot of different it's all nice but the only real sermon you'll give is the way you live and this is true it's true because everything else is just a presentation which is fine it's nice the niggan inside you know the niggan inside the niggan inside is it's your nigan it's your deas it's your Alf and the more that's aive the more that's present it gets radiated and then people around you see ah want it you know it's their nigging they were all moved but the all moved the musicians come people ask know it's 75 years from the of the more than it's how many years ago was 3 31 years years yeah but the EMS is that sadim who revealed the niggan in each person's soul it gets stronger every year if it's copying somebody else's song so with time it gets weaker and weaker but if it's the niggan that's in the n and they ignited that niggan so every year you get more and more and more that's why it grows more and more and more it doesn't become weak it doesn't decline becomes stronger and stronger every [Music] year you understand [Music] was it a good [Applause] presentation it's true this is true as somebody who speaks a lot trust me this is true [Music] of of [Music] just to be a cub with s sh we start [Music] crying whenever a person experiences Source they start Happ [Music] that's a good idea that's a good idea is a very high sh he's a very high sh no that's one thing but it's not always grief it's sometimes it's just just like WS motion P overwhelming like wow the moment the moment with there usually a lot of tears from it's like wow it's it's very it's it's the [Music] [Applause] Cale n n n n n n n by by [Music] oh yeah my Bye by by by by you know [Music] the [Music] may may may High higher taste [Music] yeah May May y May May [Applause] [Music] ahy I l [Music] I I [Music] hey [Music] hey may may hey [Music] May [Music] that I am [Music] may may may [Music] hey m m [Music] that I am [Music] am [Music] there was a I knew you probably heard his name I remember sh they would give him an alah in 770 so the B would call him up because he was born his father passed away when his mother was pregnant with him so he was named after his father he was a Jew who grew up in Russia in the Soviet Union before the Soviet the Soviet Union and um he was in Syria for I think more than 10 years he survived the gulag I already knew him as an elderly man when he came out of Russia and he used to come he lived in but he would come for Tish he would come to New York and he spent as I said a decade or even more in Siberia and he was a very interesting person he was very charismatic he was very wise yet he was an intelligent he was a he was sharp and he had a lot of common sense and he went through a lot in life he was but he would come to to New York and he would he liked and he was he had a good sense of humor he didn't take himself so seriously it was very gmar to to talk to him he was a very uh delightful conversationalist and he used to love telling stories from his years Siberia and the gulak he had a lot of stories so the mendal once shared the following story he had a very interesting stories he was in a very intelligent person and he had a lot of wisdom of life as you say you know wisdom a person who experiences life so he once he once shared a very interesting story he said that there was one once a person in the gulag in Siberia nobody could Escape you couldn't escape it was impossible one person who came over to him and said tomorrow I'm escaping and I want you to pray for me I want you to DAV for me this was a Russian a Russian peasant who's going to escape so he says how how are you going to escape he says I've been working for months on making a hole in one of the fences but it's unnoticeable and I'm going to be able to roll out and leave but he said they'll shoot you immediately he says there's 60 seconds when the guards change so the first group leaves the second group leaves the 60 seconds that they're not looking and I'm going to run he says yeah but there's dogs everywhere I mean it's it's impossible he said it's all arranged all I want from you is don't tell a word to anybody cuz I'll kill you if you say anybody but I need you to pray for me look okay so the mendal said he was very curious like how this guy's going to pull it off and tomorrow he made sure to stand there you know the right time he wanted to see and uh indeed there was the change of the guards and he had this hole in the fence that he made you know he could push and get through and at that moment he he crawled through and he ran he ran to the forest immediately there were dogs dos that were trained for this they began chasing and these dogs you know they weren't nice dogs nice puppies here in M they caught you they mold you you know you were done isad and mendal sees he's running and the dogs are chasing and as they're chasing him he takes out a steak from one pocket and a steak from another pocket and he throws it to the dogs and the dogs jump on the steak AK was good stakes and he runs into the forest a few seconds later the guards notice what's happening they see dogs running and eating steak and they're all out of the fence and he says the main nachalnik the main prison waren takes his gun and he shoots both dogs dead both dogs dead and the guy escaped the mendal realized that this man had it all prepared he had his Escape Route he had the stakes to give to the dogs they won't they won't mle him he said after a while he was curious and he was speaking to the prison Warden and he says I have a question I was there and I saw that you shot the dogs these dogs were trained to protect the prison and to make sure nobody escapes why did you shoot them so the man says to him he says these dogs you know how much money we put into them you know how many resources you know how many years of training for one purpose and that is that when a prisoner escapes they should mle him they should kill him they should eat him up they should destroy him and tear him to pieces so he says you put in so much money so many resources why did you kill them he says when I saw that the steak can distract them I said they're worthless all their training was worthless if the steak can distract them I'm done with them I don't need them I shot them dead these are not the dogs I need so the mendal was talking to yes and he said the guy he looks at the guy he says put so much money he says but they were trained for one purpose this is the purpose and they lost it the stakes distracted them they're worthless I don't need them dead so the mendal turned to the when he said like this he said people go through a lot of training in life everything you go through in life is training and it's training for a moment there's going to be a moment that all your training was for that moment and if that moment somebody drops a piece of steak and that's what you go after he say it's all it was all for that moment don't he told the he says don't lose sight that's the moment that was your moment don't allow the steak to distract you that was the lesson that this learned from that moment and it was a very very powerful very powerful lesson I didn't hear it directly from men but this is the story that he said they I saw it printed or written or heard whatever I don't remember what what's what's what what what's the point the point is every person in life every person in life is training we don't realize how we're being trained but that's what that's what life is every experience you go through is another part of the training of your soul to be able to achieve your mission but when that moment comes don't let the steak distract you what happens is there comes the moment and nobody knows what that moment looks like nobody prepares us the B says that a comes down for 7080 years to do a favor for one Jew especially physically and especially spiritually I once heard from he said that there was on the came out of his house on President Street and he was walking to SCH 77 it was a few blocks and a Jew came over to him and started to talk to them and the B came over to this Jew and what are you disturbing the why distracting theb and they got very upset at him and so he wrote to the Deb and he apologized because they gave him all this mus so the wrote that the the said first of all I don't understand who gave the right to be there they were supposed to be in Yeshiva during seders they were supposed to be learning so I don't know why they were there that's the number one number two he says the B said a comes down to the world to do a favor for another Jew maybe this is why my came down to the world how do they know so what I don't know why people are mixing into this so looked at it he can help a a Jew on President Street that stopped him why the B telling me what I should do what I shouldn't do how do they know why why sh came down to the world but every person's life it's all training we don't know how the training works and then there comes the moment in the mendal said this guy said these dogs they lost it didn't hint he said and I sh a hint they're cursed dogs I'm going to shoot them they don't deserve to live so in every person's life you have to know that there's that moment and it's very easy the steak gets dropped and I could run after the steak now I don't mean necessarily steak sometimes it's like a steak but sometimes the Stak is a little more subtle it's a little more sophisticated and the person completely loses sight of what the is at that moment today also it's a moment in history now it's not simple times it's a moment in history and it's very easy to get distracted by this p piece of steak that piece of steak and the steak doesn't necessarily it's not called steak could be called even spiritual things but the person gets distracted from what their mission is what their is he got and what is that in a person's life you need to know what your mission is and not to Forfeit it not to run away from it we learned today in the morning we were learning so says there that sometimes there's a moment that comes to you it's a thought it's a craving it's a TAA it's anxiety it's depression it's laziness it's sluggishness it's jealousy it's hatred it's being overwhelmed but it's the animal Soul taking you away from who you really are and he said the person has to know that that ability to be able to say I'm not going to fall prey to this piece of steak whatever that means in my life and I'm going to stay true to my Divine Soul so he says this is M say it's talking about over there what's the difference if you kill it completely or kill it halfway doesn't necessarily mean that I die I sacrifice my life it could mean that this one t this one craving I put in its place and I don't fall prey to it that's you don't know what doesn't necessarily look like this Granda you sacrificed your whole life you have those people they're completely unique you know but he says means it's one thought you're dealing with you can get angry you could remain centered you can get jealous you could remain true you could be overwhelmed and explode and implode and detach and numb yourself and distract yourself and you know go into hibernation and instead you choose to be present to be real to be authentic to be divine that's you just took your soul and you gave it to the source you came back to to the source says this is and it's Moment by moment you know they throw Stakes every moment sometimes it's a steak sometimes it's a rugula sometimes it's pasta sometimes it's money sometimes it's power sometimes it's anxiety anxiety is also stake Sometimes the best steak in the world you know keeps you overwhelmed you're overwhelmed you don't have to deal with anything anxiety the biggest AK but it's a clipp it's a shell it keeps you away from reality away from Life The V anxiety is [Laughter] anxiety it's judgmentalism it's yeah very good but it's all not being inas not being present right here right now as a channel I can't be a Lamplighter because my light is not ignited so it's a piece of steak we all have the animal soul looks for steak here's the steak here the steak here the steak everything to take me away from presence what's presence presence is the frequency of vulnerability of surrender of trust and of right now being a Channel of everything and it has sophisticated ways of taking me away from it because there's always something going on there's always a piece of steak I can devour so you would tell the B don't be like those dogs you were trained you were trained rise up to the moment rise up to the moment and be the person you were chosen to be live become the best version of yourself and when you do this when you do this it's sometimes it's it's literally it's dealing with one thought it's doesn't look very dramatic necessarily it's not dramatic but inside of you it's victory and why is it Victory it's victory because you chose presence over absence life over death connection over disconnection attachment over dist attachment dis attachment I don't know if I just made up a word Detachment attachment over Detachment and it's right here right now with the person you're looking at that he's this superficial coping mechanism that takes me away fromus and by the way one of the greatest Temptations is don't take it so seriously just be cynical but that's another piece of stake and what's the proof the proof is in the pudding the proof is in the pudding is that you're absent you're not alive you're not joyous you're not present may we know the difference between the stake and the mission and it's not the same even if the steak is very rich I have nothing against steak I like steak [Music] huh but do you understand what the steak [Music] represents so then said all the money I put into him was huh yeah would say it huh yeah huh every moment you can get easily distracted boom you're off you're gone you're [Music] offline first taste huh what that's true we don't know what's going to be part of being present is that we're very vulnerable we don't know what it's going to be it's giving up control that's true the animal Soul wants to control everything so every relationship if you come into the room I need to control what's happening so I need to know what's going to happen and how I should respond is you don't have to control anything you could just be present and be vulnerable and be in a relationship but that's the only way to be in a relationship to be in a relationship means my heart is open I don't know what's going to happen I'm not closing it I'm not going to control you so it's very difficult it's scary but it's only scary when we don't Master the art of surrender once you master the art of surrender of B then it's the only way to live everything else is just it's looking for pieces of steak it's just distractions [Music] first tast yeah the too well huh to well oh [Music] aha m [Music] la la la la la la la la la la la la la la my la [Music] I must I must I must [Music] I la la la la la la la la la [Music] my ah [Music] s must I must I must I [Music] ah m [Music] B [Music] a [Music] B [Music] oh [Music] you [Music] h [Music] h [Music] ah [Music] oh [Music] know [Music] thank for coming [Music] oh you [Music] my no [Music] oh my am I [Music] am I [Applause] oh [Music] oh n n [Music] by [Music] [Applause] [Music] this is that now what's the name of the nigan you know the name of it [Music] h [Music] oh you know m [Music] the [Music] n [Music] you [Music] I [Music] h [Music] h [Music] a [Music] n [Music] oh [Music] every [Music] in [Music] the [Music] h [Music] the [Music] it's [Music] ni [Music] [Applause] this I've man yeah yeah yeah [Music] leic y for [Music] h a [Music] oh [Music] [Applause] [Music] n [Applause] [Music] Z [Music] right in B which we read today so the expression that thek uses the term that when the sea split when the Y split the the children of is came in they came into the yam but it was B was dry land at the end of the story it says and we also say it in the morning in the before so the beginning of the story it's they came into the yam but it was Basha they came in into the sea but it was dry land at the end of the story they came into dry land but it was in the Y it's the same story why change the order a very strong question so in the he says something very powerful he says the beginning of the story is they came into the yam which became dry land they went into the sea but the sea wasn't a regular sea when you walk into the sea he can't breathe here it was byas but what was the purpose the purpose of it was the purpose of it was afterwards after they came out and they're walking on dry land they should be able to experience the consciousness when you're walking by it's also when you're walking on dry land it's also like you're walking in the sea in other words the whole purpose ofam of the splitting of the sea wasn't just the splitting of the sea the great miracle that you could walk inside the sea and it's dry land that's a beautiful thing but that's just a few minutes the real purpose is even when the Sea comes back and you're walking on dry land it should be you should experience it as though you're walking in the sea the ability to be able to walk on dry land and to know that this is exactly the same Miracle like walking in the sea cuz just the fact that you're walking and there's ground under your feet we take for granted I'm walking on the ground what's the big deal why not I'm not walking in the sea just show them the truth of reality don't take anything for granted walking in the sea is a miracle and walking by abash is not a miracle what has to happen for there to be Earth that's formed that's under your ground that's solid that you could walk on it's exactly the same Miracle like that's what says the whole was that afterwards you're walking it should be don't take it for granted it's the same mess is a Jew his name is PES himman Peter himman he's a son-in-law of Bob Dylan so he he shared with me once he's a about tra tra for my brother my older brother so he shared with me once that when he started to come to class my brother would give a class every Wednesday night in his house the early 1980s and he would come and he was very very secular he's from the world of rock and roll was a rock and roll player his father father-in-law's Bob Dylan very very secular Jew so he shared with me once that uh right when he started to come he came to my brother's house and he was learning over there and he was extremely cynical so my brother's house there was a picture of the Reb a painting so he asked him why do you have this painting so he said just like a person has a painting of a a picture of a grandfather a father or a mother whatever it's it's family and it's you know it's people you love and and they touch you so he says this is a picture of the reab he's a sadic and it inspires me see Peter him told us to me so he said I was very cynical so I said oh you probably believe that he knows how to fly right he could fly yeah that's probably what you think so he says your brother told me he says I don't know if he could fly I'm not sure what I do know is that when he walks on the ground for him it's the same Miracle like if he would be flying he considers it as miraculous as flying he said he said he said that that transformed him but the real purpose was that the is the same Miracle as what does this mean in a person's life there's moments in every person's life where there's a flow of inspiration it's a moment of what you would call a moment of coherence where everything converges into one Alia opens up and you see what's under the water what's a concealed World which you usually don't see there are such moments in life but then the water you know things come back to Reg and you're not walking in Seas you're walking on dry land the purpose ofam is not the splitting of the sea that's a special moment of Grace it's afterwards the water comes back you're walking by abasha can you still be in the state realize it's and in a person's life what that means is there are moments of Grace there's moments of special Revelation where you have a every person in their own life they have a of things open up and you could see what's behind everything and you could see your coping mechanisms and you could see what's in your subconscious especially people you know who have worked on themselves and gone on different healing Journeys and they see yamu the sea opens up and you see what's been hidden you know what's underground what's under the water and it's a very special moment because it's a Moment of clarity but at some point the water comes back and everything gets covered up again and many people at that moment that's when they lose it you come back to Yasha you're walking it's a regular world it's dry land nobody's splitting the sea you're not inside of aladia you're in your regular position people around you are making the conventional comments to be able to be walk by that's really where the AV is a isem is that when I come back to my regular ordinary self regular days regular responsibilities there's no drama there's no action there's no splitting of the sea but that's where real that's where the real is what calls to embody it in your regular life in your body in your nervous system in your home in your kitchen in your dining room in your living room in your regular day-to-day relationships that's where it really happens that's where it counts cuz that's where integration is that's where it's real everything else there moments great enjoy it celebrate it but what the key is we spoke many times the ra says the end ofer right says takes off his clothes he goes home so the re once asked why is that in the ra what's the should go bowling goes to the pizza shop where should he go should he go to a restaurant he goes home puts it into put him it's is that at the end ofer you have to go home what if the king doesn't want to go home he wants to go to his sister's house he wants to go to his mother's house he wants to sit in the he wants to go to and learn for a few hours so the says it's part of he goes home not St where else should he go it's it's after you have to go home and it's the hardest go home CU when he comes home his wife didn't tell him wow you were amazing today his wife said take out the garbage does the garbage here from you away 7 days nobody took out the garbage for seven days take out the garbage and by the way Yankee has the flu and Dori has been screaming AER put them to sleep they need a bath they haven't had a bath in seven days God looks at and says I'm coming from the the whole place is enamored by me is the hardest part of him Kipper you know it's byha take out the garbage and that's where many people lose the plot they're like I don't need this I'm in the holy of holies the whole CLA is celebrating me the one said how do you know the theer was a real Yip is if he could take it home how do you know the was a real he could bring it home you have to make KES where you're GNA eat everybody knows if you make in and then you come home you have to make KES again unless you start eating in you have to make the only kadha that counts is the kadha that's in the place of the meal for some people Kish is Kish I'm holy but now comes the meal now I'm an animal in I scream now you're at home now it's the time to eat what's the connection now he's a shark he goes to the office he's a shark he goes to this kitchen he screams like a nut job the only Kad that is considered real K is if it's if it informs if it enlightens the place of the meal if the meal is not informed by The KES if there's a disconnection between The KES and it's not we don't believe in Holiness that is Heavenly that is detached says we're going to learn in a few weeks said you should be people of holy it should be a human Holiness what does this mean in every person's life you could learn you could you could learn even it's right here right now but then that's all C it's a you're high you're in ecstasy and then you come home and you get a cab P you know what type of cab P you get what's called a and everything gets forgotten why because you're dealing with a different reality and then all the insecurities of a person come to the four and it's all over you get triggered by Your Wife by your husband by your son by your daughter by by your coworker by your partner by your employee and the and now it's the whole is it's good for the she is good for the she there's no very nice now you look in yourself you see how triggered you are so this is the whole inion this is the moment yeah not no sea split it's as dry as it gets but the whole purpose of the learning was all for this moment that when you're walking by dry land your home you're not in whatever that means to be able to know that now is this is the moment this is the real thing and it's difficult it's challenging because to be able to be present in this moment there seems to be so many concealments and it's difficult it's hard there's grief here there's pain but when a person could work this through and remain present and realize that this is the moment you know don't run to the stakes don't run don't be the dog that forgets everything right here is right here right now so from the B my son showed it to me mendal showed it to me sometimes the whole is dealing with one all of a is sometimes dealing with one thought what's the big deal one thought who cares but that's what it is it's dealing with one thought literally one thought comes into your brain dealing with that thought that's where your hasem is in an hour maybe the is going to change but right now it's dealing with one the that wants to take you away from presence wants to take you away from love wants to take you away from connection wants to take you away from attachment wants to take you away from the the knowledge and the conviction that you are right now a channel and it wants to put you in a a web of anxiety and distress and being overwhelmed being angry etc etc which is all normal a is dealing with that that that thought that's what it is you say yeah what's the big deal what this isem is taking over the world no no this is the world this is the World by this is to know is right here right now in this moment in your heart the fact that nobody sees it and nobody knows it besides you that doesn't make it less significant the moment you realize what Infinity is you realize that seven billion and one is exactly the same leabi Infinity so if one doesn't matter s billion also doesn't matter what what matters that 7 billion one also doesn't matter and if one matters and if seven billion matters one also matters so I think said that once said about that he said that he was he cared about but he cared about a about an individual so he said it's how do you know somebody cares about CL if they care about one Jew because CL is made up ofs it's not made up of Cl what's cl cl is one person another person another person another person if you don't care about one person what happens a 100 people you do care a thousand people you do care a million people you do care why if one person doesn't matter so why do a million people matter it's just because the picture because it's nice in the picture if they really matter then one person matters and if they don't matter it was in the nurburg trials after the Holocaust the famous nurur trial so there was a Nazi a doctor so he told the American judge he said in 1935 when he killed one Jew he thought it was just one Jew he didn't think it's going to be 6 million so the judge told him the moment you take one innocent life there's no difference between one and six million if if one life doesn't matter so two lives do matter three at what point do they matter a 100 a thousand it's just the picture it's just the pr it doesn't look good yeah Stalin once said one death is a tragedy a million deaths is a statistic the moment it's a statistic statistica then you lost the plot so one doesn't matter two doesn't matter three doesn't matter 100 matters a th at what point does it matter why does it matter it's just because it's drama because it's on WhatsApp so how do you know that somebody cares about the clol it's about an individual so it starts with yourself if you don't matter so who matters your your wife matters your child matters who matters CLA all matters it starts with your own light if you don't see the infinite light inside of yourself so who who when does it start when does it start mattering either it's real or it's not real right you're inspiring the whole world but you yourself I'm worthless l so if you're worthless when does it become worthwhile at what point does it become worthwhile like somebody once said he said you know my mother always served leftovers we're still looking for the original when I'm doing it so my children should be happy so they'll do it so their children should be happy they'll do it that at what point does it stop here and say no it's for me it's not we're doing it for the next generation who're doing it for the next Generation what's the where does it stop youus means right here right now is person comes home and life is monotonous life is predictable there's no always was a moment in history it was a moment in history to show you who you really are when goes back and you come back it goes back to the regular system the whole of means that in the regular mundane moment day to day in your kitchen and in your dining room and in your living room and in your bedroom and in your work every person person that's where all the action happens that's embodiment in your very self you're drinking a cup of water and you're eating something and you're talking to somebody and you're having a conversation that's the is also and that includes every person also in their own struggles you know people struggle I don't have to explain it to theum here everyone in their own way yeah it's not always this Camu the splitting of the sea there's such moments but then you come back to moments that you're dealing with serious challenges and blockages and sometimes people who are not on your wavelength and it's becom very very difficult you can go into a despar you can go into y you can go in to very neg negative feelings yeah what does we learned in what does that mean it means right here right now keep your heart open Don't Close It Don't Run Away you're right here right now be present stay here don't numb don't judge don't escape don't fly away by abha it's the same Miracle like will you fly I don't know if you'll fly but walking is the same Miracle like flying and that's where it's at that's where it happens maybe the deeper than the k being inash is his ability to go home how do you know he was in Kash if he can go home the ultimate purpose of Kash was that he goes home he connects right here right now that's what means means right here right now in this moment in this relationship people look for moments they look for spaces they look for situations but the truth is as teaches there's no greater moment than this moment this is the most exciting moment you'll ever be in you'll say no next month next week next year and 10 years no no no this is the most exciting moment you'll ever be in you know why cuz it's now and what's the most interesting place you'll ever be in the place you're in right now I you'll say 24 sh is not the most interesting place in the world now it is right now it is the most interesting place in the world tomorrow you'll be somewhere else that will be the most interesting place in the world and who's the most interesting fascinating person you're going to meet in your life the person you're talking to right now you'll say the person I'm talking to right now with all do respect ain't the most interesting person in life but that's all a distortion that's running away from reality that's the opposite ofus if this is the person you're talking to this is it there's not you're not going to find greater than this there from think says in the beginning in the past our forefathers were idolators and now hasem brought us close to his so he said a very there a philos of it used to be you know he says that's the philosophy of it's idolatry H the philosophy of now this means you're close to God the whole idea used to be it used us to be you know the good old days there used to be good Jews holy Jews sweet Jews we're all a bunch of losers that's that's it's all stories about people that used to exist they don't exist anymore you a young man once told me that he went to his father his father would tell him stories he said it's so interesting that all the Miracles you talk about all happened before I was born why are there no Miracles that happened after I was born all the Miracles before once I was born Darkness came into the world what happened so am I so bad that when I was born like the whole world became dark all your M before so I said what do your father say he said this is aicuris this is so he said and then I realized I realized V isus is then he checked out completely it's all his father could tell him it's up curses so this is you know we live everything was was was that's all of it's all right now that's all right here right now that's where it is you say there's nothing going on right now that that's where it all is wants to say there's nothing going on right now everything was everything was but that's not where it is it's all right here right now so you say where what when me we within me yeah yeah that's where it is says I want to get close to the bush and hasm says take your shoes off your feet because the place you're standing that's holy the place where you're standing is Holy ad you don't have to go anywhere or to put it differently if you're not going to find the Holiness in the place where you're standing wherever you run you're not going to find anything it's all I was at some event in the five town so somebody asked me there was a guy interviewing so he said if you could meet one person in history who would you like to meet so I told him myself I would like to meet myself was surprised I said that's the truth because if you don't meet yourself you could meet everybody you're not going to meet anybody if once you meet yourself you'll be able to meet everybody if you don't meet yourself you're not they all going to be distractions it's going to be another high another 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