Grand Farbrengen Yud Shevat 5782 with Rabbi YY Jacobson

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thank very much the shul and the rav raf pink's david webber for the hospitality for arranging this beautiful evening of chisok inspiration i especially want to thank rep david tilson for his incredible incredible efforts to put this all together together with rip moisture belzer boy chabels yeah what a beautiful job for the men's section the women's section and of course the one and only moisture reuben for being the the backbone the the spine behind it all and everybody else involved anonymously and somebody once said the best feeling in the world is to do something anonymously and then everybody finds out so hopefully we'll find out during the evening all the anonymous all the anonymous people the evening is dedicated also by a dear friend by abe and rochelle spitz in the merit of eitan joseph bin rahul shira for all of the blessings la riches yomem vashanam tavis thank you very very much and i want to thank fitzhiben shimon on the music al hashir anonymously al-hashir lam natsaya lam natsaya and yasi all time for video and live stream as well as small silver for live stream and uh thanks so thank you very much and of course thank you to everybody who's gracing us here physically virtually may this evening momentous evening of yorchwat bring brache to everybody but and i also want to use the opportunity dedicated for reforestriver i just want to mention a few minutes ago somebody walked into the room and when i saw him i remembered a story that he told me his parents were married and they couldn't have children and the doctor told the the woman that her infertility is something that is absolute in fact for health reasons they have to cut out the womb it's impossible to have a baby physically they should adopt a child they knew rabbi yankel hector by j.j so he took them in on the yakidis to the balayala to the balla yard site to the rebel yachts the frida one of the last people to go in before you swat the art site passed away shabbos morning parsha's boy yucha thompson yud 1950. that thursday night he received many people on your kid as they came to see him he passed away in his home on the second floor of 770 eastern parkway this couple was one of the couples that came to see and they told the rebel yachts what the doctor said so he started to laugh he picked up his hands and he says you're going to have your own children biological children j.j hecht heard this he was by the door he said i'm sandika the bruce a few days later they never passed away and her condition deteriorated she went back to the doctor and he said we have to do a surgery and cut out the womb so she decided to consult the person who was then known as the ramash who became known as the deva who was the son-in-law of the yachts then they called him ramach that was his acronym lady came to be known as the rebels and he tells her if the rebbe my father-in-law said you're going to have children biological children you're going to have children you don't have to worry for the next year the doctors were saying one thing every time they've ever kept on reassuring her sending her to this doctor that doctor the bottom line is as sammy friedland walked into this room i remembered he is the child who was born from his mother and father naturally biologically the bracha that the rebel rayats gave mamish a few hours before you're trot rabbi j.j hecht was the sandik he and another two siblings right two siblings three children so when i invited him yesterday to the fabregan i said a lot of people will come to the fabian game because they owe a lot to the rebel yachts to the river inspiration yiddish guide your shamayim but you your very existence your very existence belongs to that so he's here gracie goes this evening and i saw him walking i remember he couldn't refuse such an invitation so mazel tov for your birthday back then and uh la rica's young and vashanam tavis but this is uh this is live right here in person my dear friend sammy larissa vishanam tavis to you and everybody it brings to mind you know it brings to mind the balsamic one said of one said it's already broken that the definition of nature in yiddish guide is miracles that we become accustomed to that's what about the difference of a miracle and nature it's not that nature is not miraculous what part of nature is not miraculous the formation of a cell the formation of an atom the formation of a star the formation of an organism the formation of a brain what part of nature is not miraculous the shot is the bosses said nissim this is island teva is nissim kufas nature means miracles that happen constantly consistently perpetually so we call it nature if the sun would rise once in a thousand years nobody would imagine nobody can how we get light we live from the sun rising to the sun setting with photosynthesis and warmth and heat and energy and electricity we take it for granted right you expect the sun to rise if the sun wouldn't rise one day we would appreciate it more everybody would be up for the second that morning but uh you know right once in 28 years we make a blessing i semi separatious some people break us every morning you wake up you see sunrise those who are from the earlier shift then there are those who for the shift of sunset they celebrate and this is what the balsamic said so there's a beautiful word it says in this week's parish imposters bashallah when it speaks about kris yamself today's today's sheer today's partial so the lesson is the jewish people entered the yam they entered into the sea by abasha but it became dry ground it became dry land they went in but it became that's how the story is introduced at the end of the story and we say it every single morning the language is reversed do you remember what we say every morning right before you start yeah remember then the story gets reversed the jewish people walked in into dry land but it was in this scene why when the story begins when the story ends the terror reverses it and the end of the shira that's how we sing it who was one of the greatest students of the market of miss rich he was the one who really became he founded citizen poland he became the father of historic movement in poland known as rebellion of legends he passed away tough that would be 1787 in other she said he was a brother of zusha a brother of the bazoosh of a nepali and a colleague and a friend of the altitude he says as follows he says the point of kriyasyamsov the point of the splitting of the sea wasn't just to create a stupendous miracle the jews should walk through the sea as though it was dry land that was the beginning of it the point was something much deeper the point was to make them aware that all of existence all of life every moment every experience is supernatural let's think about it the fact that i walk on earth the fact that after a big bang earth was formed and we can walk on it we take it for granted but is that any less a miracle than walking through water how many trillions trillions trillions of coincidences where somebody once said coincidence is god wanting to be anonymous had to happen for earth to form in a way that it could support life it's extraordinary it's just we call it natural because it's there every day it's there every night but we make a blessing every morning yeah i don't know if you meditate divine you meditate on this blessing ever tomorrow morning he spreads out earth on top of the water there's a foundation that we could walk on we can build our homes we can build our infrastructures can support human and animal life can support growth vegetation roy car it's allah says the purpose of kriya samson was to show the jewish people that every moment of life every experience even the most mundane tedious routine encounters and experiences it's all anointed it's all divine energy hashem who elect him the sea splits if hashem wants but when the sea closes and now you're walking on dry land you become aware of the fact that the whole world every moment of it is conceived it's created it's orchestrated and it's supernatural so he says the beginning of the story is the end of the story is much deeper that even when the jewish people walk on dry land a regular stroll on the street the wonder the marvel is like it's like you're walking in the sea it made them aware acute of how to look at nature how to see the world don't take anything for granted nothing was supposed to happen if you're talking about statistics there should have been no existence not of a universe and out of a planet talk about the likelihood mathematically that there should be a universe that should be a planet yeah even if you put 60 zeros after one and i don't know if you could realize how how many how much that is you're not even getting close to it that when they walked by abortion it's also like in the sea no moment is taken for granted there's a jew i know his name is his original name is peter himmelman his present name is pesach he's the son-in-law of bob dylan peter himmelman grew up in minnesota where bob dylan is from as well and he's an artist he grew up in the real bohemian world of rock music completely alienated from religion from judaism he began learning with my brother rabbi simon jacobson in the early 1980s i remember as a child he would come every week to learn with him and he was extremely cynical very real very authentic and very cynical the first class he saw my brother with a beard with pears so he started to mock so he saw on the wall a picture of the rebel says my my brother and sister-in-law's i saw a picture of the rabbi she says why do you have this picture it's not your family why do you have this picture so my brother tells him that uh for me it's inspiring dude his life this is the early 80s did up his life is very inspirational it teaches me what a human being can be i could learn from it so that's why i have the picture he says what do you learn from him so my brother says you learn from a sadiq what a human person can make of himself or herself so in absolute cynicism he says aha so you probably believe that he could fly right you're from the hasidic fundamentalists who believe that he could fly i heard this from peter himself he says i thought your brother is going to get very defensive you know very defensive and aggressive you know you're you're attacking you know my group and my you know how it is right people get defensive and very calmly said he looks at me says i don't know if he could fly or not but one thing i know that for him the experience of walking on the ground is as marvelous and as wondrous as flying and peter said ah that's called living that's called sucking the marrow out of life you don't have to fly you could walk but why is walking any more boring than flying why is the miracle of what happens with your leg and your brain when you have to take one step any less and we see khalil when somebody is missing when somebody is missing a skill when somebody is missing a faculty you know how much money would you pay to get it back right how much money is your eye worth how much money is is eyesight work we take it for granted i open my eyes how many dollars is it worth a million five million ten million twenty million this is what the balchemt have meant look at nature as perpetual miracles that are happening every moment this was the kavanaugh of krishna so it's interesting that in the beginning of passages bashar allah my surabayan tells the jewish people hashem you don't do anything you're silent hashem fights the war at the end of bashallah there's also a war the beginning of rashallah there's a war at the end of bashar al-assad the beginning of mashaallah it's a war against paris at the end of its war against al-malik the beginning of the parish you have to be passive at the end of the parasha khalikanam lifted up his hands but the jewish people had to fight yeshua yahushua defeated amalek with a sword with swords what happened you know it's sandwiched in between is kris yamsen in between his curiosity there was a rebirth says that the splitting of the sea is like the splitting of the cosmic womb like a woman a mother there's a kriya yamsev and the baby comes out it says in nariza that laid us on the shamans all the shamans are born on sri shalom the seventh day of pesach it's not just the sea split the cosmic see the cosmic womb alma descassio opens up and the souls emerge so it says inaudible intimacy is a whole system so in any case so what happens i forgot what i was saying a very good thank you thank you senior moment it happens to the best families what happens in between kriyasyamso it's like a rebirth from slaves they turn into free people they're literally like they they go into the sea now when you walk into the sea you can't live like going into the mikvah stay in the mix for too long you can't live you come out of the mikveh it's a new birth gaerus conversion needs mikvah yeah i think this fassema says you understand the power of going to the mikveh motherhood goes to the mikvah he comes out a jew imagine a jew who goes to the mick for what comes out people don't think about it that way why because tv is habitual the middle earth says to feel the same letters like habitual underwater you can't live which means you lose your self-consciousness now i know not everybody who goes into the mick for loses their self-consciousness it would be nice but the concept of mikvy is you go into a place where essentially i have to cease to exist because if i stay there for too long i can't exist i'm not a fish and then you emerge from there it's not just you came out of the mikveh there's a paradigm shift a new person came out the gemara says in tamil what do you have to do to live you have to die what do you have to do to die you have to live in others i have to liberate myself from my fears from has to become a power paradigm shift so kriya samsuf they go into a place of death and they emerge transformed people pre-kriyas yamsev they look up to god he does the miracles we're quiet post kriyasyamso there's a deeper level and that is you yourself become a conduit for hashem your own creativity your own work you're not passive anymore something deeper happens trump is not just taking care of you you become a full partner your creativity your actions your individuality is all a manifestation of hashem they're seeing hashem in miracles and then they're seeing hashem in nature they're seeing the divine and something stupendous that defies nature that only he can do that was kris yamsev but then something deeper happens the abbasia becomes the suddenly you see that even your own actions what is it you're ashley hashem it's all a manifestation of divine energy divine power my mind and my heart and my wisdom and my hands and my legs it's all anointed that's the war at the end of bashar i think professor einstein once said there's only two ways to live either nothing is a miracle or everything is a miracle only two ways to live and one of the things you saw constantly in the sikhis both of the baalai lulu was this awareness this notion that every moment every moment is an opportunity every moment is a gift every encounter is experienced even the most natural tedious day is filled with marvel you have to just open your eyes effing in the organ to be able to seize the moment to seize the experience never take anything for granted shavanapali he was a hungry child they say that when he was starving as a child he used to turn to hashem say re-bonus shalom how can i thank you for giving me such an appetite right have an appetite don't take it for granted i have an appetite at chubba tones i say sometimes azavort i was once at a sabaton in sedona in arizona with rabbits in esther jungrez so she spoke and i spoke so she said that she was in bergen-belsen as a child and friday night they were surrounded by the ss and her father the david youngren started to sing so her brother turned to her father and says father i don't see any angels i see nazis we're the angels so she said my father without skipping a heart's beat looked at my brother and he said kindelach you are the angels you are the angels she said she never forget that never forgot that so i thought to myself you say shalom welcome angel we're the angels the answer is it's your wife it's your children but all week we're stressed out so when you come home you don't always see them as angels friday night champions you have a little serenity so you take a look at your wife and you say ah i don't mean many i mean one you look at your children you say ah boy all week malachi ashalam terrorists yeah you know that there was a guy he needed an apartment in bar park so there was a sign on a door an apartment for leasing but an older couple lives downstairs so they're only agreeing to take somebody who has no children they go to sleep early they can't deal with commotion the guy says yeah i want the apartment they sign a lease for eight years he goes upstairs the first night the couple goes to sleep 8 30. right now they're already sleeping and suddenly they hear dancing her coffees for hours jumping bookcases are moving earthquakes volcanoes tsunamis the man runs up he's an old man the guy has 14 children and they're dancing accomplished in some casteria and put them together he calls the the tenant and he says how do you deceive me la married me sonny we made up no children a man looks at him he says you call them children they're highest it's not children it's animals so sometimes during the week people's vision gets eclipsed the stresses of life you don't see the reality you take things for granted you only see the hardship i have to deal with this i have to deal with that you're going to the dentist oh you have teeth you have teeth your car broke down your car was towed okay that's brooklyn language in the old days right your car was oh you have a car your kid has to go to the doctor you have a child your husband came home late you have a husband and you wish he comes home double miracle you have a husband and you want him to come home wow it's not usually the way we look at things when you're walking on dry land realize this is celebrate it suck the marrow out of life mendel futafast used to say that what's the greatest moment you'll ever experience in your life who's the most important person you're gonna meet in your life and what's the greatest moment you're gonna have in your life she said the proper way of looking at it is the greatest moment you'll have in your life is the present moment the most important person you're going to meet in your life is the person you're talking to right now and the most wonderful place you will ever be in your life is the place you are in right now and that's true that's true because if we believe in his creation is renewed every moment so all everything is happening right here right now if i'm living in the past or i'm living in the future i'm detached from the energy of life the heartbeat of life is always happening now the balsamic says creation happens every moment when is life happening always right here right now i there's no action there's no drama it's just another you know as they say right same old uh sushi that's the proper acronym for the record or whatever actually tonight is not sushi i'm impressed not a jewish event okay very impressive you're back to the chinese before we converted to the japanese we used to be chinese for many centuries that's from an external perspective if you go into a deeper perspective this is this is the moment so this is true about every moment and it's also true about tonight this tomorrow but this right now i bless myself i bless all of you that when you walk on dry land and when you walk through dry moments pun intended and when life seems dry you should be able to open your eyes and see it as kris yamsov you're not walking on dry land you're walking through the sea every moment every moment 70 trillion cells have to work in unison 100 billion neurons have to work in harmony did you ever see five people work in harmony did you ever see a board of directors in a shull agree could you tell me how 70 trillion jews inside of me work together the answer is god doesn't ask me god doesn't i once heard from happy jonathan sacks he said that yaakov woke up from his dream and he said anger ki and basil like him this must be a house of god or show how did he know so he said because rashi says that the iraq's were fighting with each other where the head should be so jacob said a place where even the rocks get into a fight ain's a key and basil like him this has to be a show present company of course excluded this show the whole pomona right anzac based silicon so how do 70 trillion cells work together the answer is god doesn't have a board of directors there's no chairman there's no president there's no vice president nobody needs that picture yeah so they work together actors everything is different but it's working together don't take it for granted every moment you open your eyes be grateful be full of gratitude look at the miracle of that moment even the challenge i have an appetite i have a yearning [Music] that even your independence hashem is not just running the supernatural things well after kriya their own independence [Music] mommy takes care now you emerge and you take responsibility but it's not me as an ego i'm i'm just the shleah i'm one with hashem even in my separateness even in my independence i'm connected [Music] foreign [Applause] [Music] thank you [Music] [Applause] oh [Applause] foreign [Music] you're right [Music] foreign [Music] here [Music] oh [Music] everybody [Music] [Applause] [Music] okay [Applause] [Music] [Applause] [Music] [Applause] [Music] foreign [Applause] [Music] [Applause] [Music] foreign [Music] is [Music] [Applause] [Music] i [Music] [Applause] is foreign [Applause] give sammy a little cayenne tell him to thank hashem that he was born it's about time what are you 17 years old you know teenagers today want to sue their parents for bringing them [Music] with you came a lot of blessings should continue to be an ambassador of light [Applause] sixty years ago exactly sixty years ago was your smart offshore base nineteen sixty two now with shin pepes this is with shimsha that we just finished learning i don't know you could say we finished learning i don't know that you could finish finish learning it we started to learn it by david geriman's house for a few weeks and uh it took the dab of 40 minutes to save the moment maybe 45 minutes right we learned it for four or five weeks and i don't know how much we scratched a little bit of it to scratch the surface but it's really a mimer that captures some of the most rich fundamental and powerful teachings of siddhis khabad as discussed at length i'm not going to give a summation because you know what happens with my summations the summation is our light we're all white right everything is light urine safe that's devoid of the mime everything is light and light doesn't only capture that which lends itself to be captured by light real light captures everything so when your light you capture even the essence of the darkness the invisible light as we call it right before the mimer right before the mind made it ever told a story this is not part of the miami the my maya was a separate part of the fabregan that ever would motion that they should sing a they would sing a before the mimer he would tie a handkerchief on his finger under the table you had to notice it he had to have an eye to notice it because he didn't do it conspicuously and then he would begin the mimer with closed eyes and with a special sing-song the of a mimer and then after that he would open his eyes and it would go back to the regular fabregan but right before the moment it ever said a sichua talk he began with a story he told the story and again people didn't realize that the mimer was a continuation of the story because he didn't say it clearly he wouldn't always identify the connections he had to figure it out but if you learned well the before in the miami you saw that there was a connection even though it was a very subtle connection i'm saying this because those who learned the mimer will appreciate it more but even those who didn't you'll appreciate it the story that he told was as follows goes back to the year tough reish membered tawfish member in the secular calendar would be tough foreign we need repentance here oh we have so many uh wow okay 83 or 84 right 1884. thank you the rabbit the frida keraba the ball high lula the person whose yard site is today he was four years old the rebel diaz was born youth based thomas tafreishman the 12th of thomas 1880 summer of 1880 in tufish mandala he was either three or four years old his father was the fifth bavarian in a home of two bedrooms and then the rabbit went off on a tangent he said he's now going to go off on a tangent this is 1962. he says here if people are living in a home with a few bedrooms they often feel that their life is cursed he went on a whole tangent house serenity doesn't come from space in the house it comes from space in the soul and those of us who have big homes and pomona muncie no it's nice to have a big home but serenity comes from the inside not from the outside as everybody probably knows from personal experience you can have a room you can have a home with 18 bathrooms and 23 bedrooms but it's a house right you can have speakers outs a homeless comes from a state of mind the state of consciousness that was cargo he said one bedroom was used to sleep in the rabbit shop was there's his bedroom him and the rabbits and the other room was used for everything else so it was the dining room and the kitchen and the family room and everything else and he says one night that was learning with the love of paltava paltava is a city in ukraine not far from the love of paltava was a drew named biakov mottel bes per love his last name was bespoke love he was known as the paltavirov rebecca of mordechai best beloved motto they called there's a famous known as the pultaver negan right you probably know the negan [Music] that negan is from the paltavirav he would darwin when he was davening he would sing this song the path he was a gigantic mind and a big heart he had a son actually who lived in california schneiderlin baseball he lived in the west coast he came to america he was a biakoval and he was a chavru and they were sitting at night and learning together he said my father-in-law was in a in a little bed in a cat four years old or three years old tough ishmael dalet and he was there sleeping the rebecca biak of mottle best pilaf de paltavirov takes a look at the at the baby at the young child that we're three years old or four years old sleeping the rabbit said and he noticed the shankaite and the edelkite you all know that when you watch a three-year-old sleeping what do you see any three-year-old right you see shane kite and you see adelkide right that's when you call them right when they're asleep their mom angels this is any child here you're talking about ben reber ben anasi ben nasi ben nasi so the biak of motto saw the the beauty on his face and he turns to the shop this is what the episode and he says listen to how a person speaks he says when i look at his face and i see the purity the holiness the refinement and the beauty it shows me the purity of thoughts with which he was brought into the world the terrorists you probably remember from tanya or others farm that the thoughts of a husband and a wife are very impactful their relationship the love the state of consciousness the emotions during conception during intimacy so the rebels language was he tells it you could see that with which he was brought into the world i'm now going to say in parentheses the katsuke was once talking to one of his children so somebody was trying to be a smart aleck and he made a snidey remark he said you even know this boy because the katsuki rebbe was you know he lived in transcendence you even know this boy he looked at him and he said welcome i know with which thoughts i brought him into the world i know my boy [Laughter] you know i know the dna i may not i may not have come to every sitter party and every graduation party maybe i missed some birthday cakes but i know the dna basement it's parentheses i'm just adding that that's what he answered i i know my child better than you know your child all right there's knowing your child behind signias there's knowing your child the premieres it's not easy for parents to know their children but premiums it usually takes a stranger wow i spent shampoos with your son he's an amazing kid really really why have me and my wife not been sleeping for 11 years if he's so amazing but that's how it is as i get the lemon yeah people get so entangled in anxiety that we stop seeing things from the divine perspective i spoke at kashinav you have to cultivate a heavenly perspective you have to look at things the way heaven looks at them so this is what he tells the darshan so the level said used to call the level he says it was aroused a deep craving to kiss his son he wanted to kiss him and then he thought to himself and he decided that instead of kissing him he's going to substitute the kiss with a mimer instead of kissing him he's going to write a mimer to capture the energy of the kiss he said again um he's going to timur it's called temura hilo he's going to substitute the kiss in a mimer and he sat down and he wrote a long mimer the mimer begins with the passage how diverse are your creations hashem all created and formed with wisdom with divine wisdom which we say every morning the first blessing before krishna after barack massachusetts now what are you going to do with a mimer a four-year-old it's a very very long deep hard complicated intricate nuanced moment tough race noon base that episode tough vision base that's 18 18 92. the rebel yachts turns 12. he starts putting on finland at 11 or 12. and his bar mitzvah is coming up gives him the my mesh and he says learn it and hazard it for your bar mitzvah you she said it for his bar mitzvah and in the right time i'll tell you the story four years later tafresh nunev that's 1896 that ebb rayats was now 16 years old his father called them in and he told them the whole story and he gave him the mimer and he said nadir ah here is a hasidic kiss now we never had this mimer we didn't have the mind we knew the story because the rabbit told over the story he heard it from his father-in-law who heard it from his father obviously he was four years old when it happened but told him but we didn't have a manuscript the last years literally in the last few years they found the mimer and it was printed not long ago it's a very very difficult and deep mind before now yeah now think about this how long does it take to give your child a kiss anybody here how long does it take you kiss your son i'm sure huh a second if you're an action two seconds if you're a luddnik three seconds yeah if you hold on to things and you don't know how to let go six seconds yeah until your son was like leave me alone right cheers say no so one second two seconds three seconds how long does it did it take that ever to write the mimer didn't take him two seconds to write the mime it took him either hours maybe days maybe weeks maybe months i don't know so when he substituted the kiss for a miami he wasn't substituting the kiss for doing something easier instead of giving him a physical kiss he put the kiss into the mimer why did he do it just give him a kiss he's sleeping give him a kiss i thought about this i think the answer is he learned it from somewhere that ebb shabbat knew i give my child a kiss especially when he's sleeping how long does this kiss stay with him when you give your child a kiss especially when they're sleeping they're not even aware of it even if they're aware of the kiss stays five seconds and even if they like you and have a good relationship with you it's there for a few minutes but then it's gone that ebb decided he wants to give a kiss that's going to remain with his child for eternity so he gave him a mimer and every time the rebel ayats looked at that mimer until his last breath he can feel his father's kiss and then i realized that ebon ashab wasn't the first one to do this there's one more person in history who hasn't seen his son for many years he finally meets him his son is kissing him falling on his neck crying and the father seems to be passive what does rashi say why didn't he kiss him i'm talking about yaakov avina with joseph he was busy doing shema new yosef didn't have to say shema earlier later you have to say shema right now at this moment you haven't seen your son in 22 years [Music] 22 years yeah something is the famous maharao what's the pnemy is sadvarim my raspberry says a lot about this but this is the nakuda yakov could have kissed yourself like we all do very nicely especially in our times but yaakov wanted the kiss should remain with yosef forever and he wanted the kiss should remain with every jew forever so every morning when i say shema's which is what yaakov said at that moment he put the kiss into shema israel with that he sublimated the kiss and he turned it into the stuff of eternity the kiss became transcendent eternity that transcends time and space and centuries and even millennia and geography so that wherever i am i say israel you can experience yaakov avinu's kiss so that's what the rebel ashab did at that moment now i go back to the business he said why did he choose this why did he choose this you want to give a kiss give a kiss you want to right turn right why did he choose so this was the rebbe's explanation why do people kiss why do you kiss a child why do you kiss somebody you say you want to express affection so the episode why don't you just tell them i love you just tell them i like tell them i like you i love you use your words why don't you use words what's the answer anybody the bottom why do we kiss why can't we just say i love you no we should always also say i love you but why do we kiss huh the answer is to the rebel said because there are emotions that can't be captured through words words are powerful but words by definition are containers they're caleb they limit things you want to express an emotion in a way that words can't capture it so we say i love you just like there is the sound of silence and there is poetry and there's music and there are words there's the love that you expressed through nishika he called it an ava from hanefesh a love that comes from the essence of your soul [Music] i can't say it in words all the words won't capture the love we're not talking here a superficial kiss my people will call your people here's my email we're talking on a shika he says that's every father and child every mother and child you talk about a rabbit to another he said it was a son and a father are one it's one essence especially such a son and such a father so the soul captured the kiss was capturing the essence of his soul i want you to feel the attachment that goes into my deepest place it's all about attachment [Applause] much deeper than words much deeper than gestures that's the kiss and now that ever said he decided he's going to substitute the kiss for something see he's not downgrading it he's upgrading it what could be deeper than a kiss that was the heaviest question what could be deeper than a genuine kiss that comes from the essence of a father to the essence of a son so he wrote a maimer marabou what's moral means creation is so diverse rabu comes from the word rao there's so many things going on if you look at our planet there's so much morable yeah how many how many species of insects are there anybody knows don't start googling me does anybody know they say talmud says why because there's no google on champions during the weekdays everybody's yeah you're talking about how many species of insects millions how many species of fish we know two million not how many fish how many species how many men we know two million we estimate that there's double maybe more thousands of species of mammals birds trees shrubs and then you have individual in one species so much diversity no two people alike no two flakes of snow alike no two grains of sound alike you share fifty percent of your dna with the banana ninety-nine percent of your dna with a chimpanzee but that tiny little sequence that tiny little difference in the sequence makes every every creature unique individualistic no two people alike marabo everything is defined by so much endless diversity literally lancates and if you look in your internal life life is about marabou there's so much going on people are torn in so many directions there's so much conflict there's so much internal internal doubt uncertainty marabo the greatest gift that the father could give his child substituting the kiss was empowering him that in the rabble in the diversity of life and the chaos of life and the fragmentation of life in life that is filled with so many vicissitudes and fluctuations from one extreme to another extreme internally and externally inside your own brain and everywhere else you should be able to find ma that it's all your creation it's all your massive it's all one it's all united you should be able to see the um the gemara says you should be able to see masaka the craftsman who made it you should be able to see kayak oil benefit the imprint of the craftsman in the rabu masaka and furthermore where does the etsom come out a kisses that's a kisses the essence of the essence where does the essence come out everyone always thought the higher you go the further you go away from the world the more transcendence the more detached the more heavenly the more spiritual the closer you get to that came the altar and was magala that marabou it's in the diversity of life it's in the physical world which seems so fragmented that you capture the ultimate etzem the ultimate essence as explained in the garrison edition in the basilica by riches at length in the marabou hashem in the endless diversity of life that's where you have the etsom so when he wants to give a kiss deeper than the kiss what does he substitute it with he substitutes he substitutes it with marabou empowering his child in literal and in simple language empowering your child that as you go through the journey of life there's so much going to be going on just ask your brain especially those of us who are hsps highly sensitive people those of you who your mental chatter is very very active right there's probably two or three people that know what i'm talking about maybe more but don't show it at this point people who deal with conflict mental conflict to worse conflict internal conflict conflict in your psyche conflict in your brain marabou there's so much and conflict in your environment and who like the ballet like that four-year-old child would have to deal standing up as one lion to stalin's regime in the 1920s and 1930s one last jew standing up to stalin talk about a world of chaos and tyranny and then a world governed by a europe governed by hitler people often don't understand you know people don't know but they don't understand who the rebel ayats was the fleet of krebs so i'm just going to say one thing this is again in parentheses we have a principle zello um everything in the world is holiness is counterbalanced by the antithesis of holiness so whenever you and it's always equal there's always an equal balance so there should be able to be choice and there should be you know a chess game a real chess game so there's pieces on both sides and they reflect each other you know in the wrestling match you have to have zelo um of a generation in kedusha who was his mother two people stalin and hitler these are the two most evil human beings who ever lived this gives you a little bit of an understanding about the kedusa of the balla there was a reason that abba became such a hostage a fiery hostage of the fleet there was something about him it's unfathomable he was the captain of the ship that hashem chose in those darkest days in the soviet union when either you left or you went underground but it gives you a little bit of appreciation if this is the evil what was the other side competing counterbalancing such darkness such horrific barbarity and sadism that the human vocabulary still doesn't have the words to describe what stalin and hitler did to the planet and not in many years just in two three decades hitler five years and stalin 30 years 1920 through 1924 lenin died he took over and he died march 53 put him 53. you know in terms of history it's not i mean it's a lot of years if you lived in russia even one year was a lot of years both my parents grew up there so i grew up in a home that was saturated with soviet history but you think about this is the um so you talk about marabu you talk about a world of chaos a world of diversity when a father needs to kiss his child and he wanted to give over his deepest etsa you know what he gave his child he gave his child i could give you a kiss but he wanted to give him an attachment that will last a lifetime and the attachment that lasts a lifetime from etzema nephesh is the gift of knowing that wherever you end up and all your journeys wherever they take you psychologically physically emotionally spiritually with your marriage with yourself with your children with your vocation with your career your physical emotional mental psychological journeys you should always be able to feel a kiss and always be able to go back to ma to be able to see that all of it ultimately is part of a rainbow it's a manifestation of oneness and as the mimer explains the only way that ultimate oneness is expressed is in radical diversity radical paradox says the middle earth comes out in rebuying the more diversity it only means there's more oneness why so we explain the nation in the maimarim and the basilagani and the point is and this is deep the point is meaning if you don't understand what i'm saying that means you understand if oneness is defined by a color it comes out in a particular color but if oneness is active the meaning it's undefined so how do you capture it you capture it always through paradox always through opposing views always through endless diversity but we look at diversity and it destroys us because we see the chaos so this comes and says when you look into the diversity you have to see it's been the reason there's la buchman the reason there's no hejman is because it's real real ah this real oneness could only come out in radical paradox can only come out in radical diversity because if it comes out in one particular mahalak then you're capturing only a oneness that is very limited it's very restricted it has its color it has its definition when you're talking about ain't safe real actors where's it gonna come out it's gonna come out in opposite colors because each color captures something of the truth no color captures the full truth together they get as close as you can get to recreating transcendent oneness does anything is anything i'm saying make sense to anybody because you're looking at me like i fell off from a persona huh you want to know what this has to do with your life this is the dna of life this is life the deepest gift you can give yourself and your children is this awareness as life takes you in to different journeys and down different mahalhim i was once talking to somebody and i said you know there's light at the end of the tunnel he said yeah but there's no tunnel if there was light at the end there right there was no tunnel i have a bad joke it's an old joke it's a bad one but i'll tell it to you i said why are people in new york so uptight i asked neil why are you always uptight the answer is you would also be if the light at the end of your tunnel was new jersey right so the question is what's the it's a bad joke oh you're saying it's not a joke okay but we love new jersey we love new jersey and we have some people from new jersey so it's quiet and lakewood is in new jersey yeah and we have people from lakewood and and it's all part of marabo new york new jersey everything but what's the point there's tunnels and there's roads and the roads take you in different directions the gift that he gives his son that's deeper than a physical kiss of etzema nefesh mamesh is that ability of diribit the ability to be able to go into a world and go into a psyche that could be so scattered you have moods you have ups you have downs you fluctuate and nonetheless don't allow the rabu to destroy you but create a sinus possum a multi-colorful coat like yosef the name is joseph where all the colors become part of a mosaic and a tapestry instead of destroying you it turns you into an ambassador of oneness because you learn the art of integration the art of integration is not the art of being in one place all the time it's the ability of sometimes being on a roller coaster sometimes on a super duper looper you ever went on a super duper looper my son took me to disney world once and he wanted to go on 12 roller coasters that all go upside down so i did a lot of chuva that day the guardian were taking pictures and i was saying vidui you know how it is yeah jews on roller coasters the are eating snapping pictures and jews are it also happens on the top of ferris wheels when the ferris wheel stops you ever see the gentiles take pictures and they start exercising because they didn't finish doing their push-ups and the jews are like it's probably broken i knew i should have never gone right and then he writes his last final will and testament and the way the money is and he sends messages etc that's how it is this has to do with two thousand years of gullah's trauma so every time something goes wrong it's like you know the next world war is about to come so sometimes life is a ferris wheel which is nice and even when it stops you know it's calm and even when it goes down it's just but sometimes it's a super duper looper you don't know what hit you you try to fasten your seat belt yeah and you fasten your seat belt you're going upside down marabou hashem the ability to be able to take a deep breath and surf the end when you go surfing in the waves you don't fight the waves you go up you go down the mountain says in your how did you survive he says daf shall swin on his diamondly i found a tablet of the boat tablets i held on it floated i floated on it valkol the gown every wave i said was really discussing the art of life his waves marabo masaka all oneness it's all to bring you to a place of oneness but for this you have to be anchored in oneness you have to be anchored in attachment you have to be anchored in somehow fish you have to feel the kiss of your father that's if you had a father who knew how to kiss you and take a kiss and substitute it in a miami what if you didn't have such a father so for this different has to go to a deeper place and his father held them till the last you could see how he spoke about his father the number one during the shiver your trapper said that we don't do hispay them but we tell stories he said fetch the chevrolet hespet so i'm going to tell stories he told the story that once went out of russia he traveled he came back and he bought his son who was a teenager he bought him a silver stick a silver cane and it was very expensive it was like dazzling in its brilliance and its glitter and its royalty and aristocracy his wife represent sort of knew that he didn't have any money he was broke and she looked at the cane she looked at the stick and she said did you really have to spend so much money on the gift you could have bought him a simpler gift said i visited a lot of courts he visited a lot of communities he visited was an intense trip and i saw different children of rabbis and i realized who our son is [Laughter] right at home i didn't you don't always realize who your child is he says i went around i realized who our child is so i spent everything on him i once saw this as fast by yava yosef as the boss yosef brought bad reports about his brothers to the yakov so everybody asks really joseph didn't have anything better to do he would come home at night and say jacob let's do a debriefing this is what rooven did by lunch this is what shimon did by sader this is what levy did in the morning this is what yahood so this was very deep he says he didn't bring a bad report speaking he brought a bad report through being yaakov saw joseph he was on a completely different level so compared with his brothers it denigrated them it wasn't something he said by joseph he brought himself his presence created a contrast and it's like how do you compare anybody to joseph like it says in total that's why their sheaves had to bow down to his sheath you see that contrast he said well i saw who my son was i bought him the cane where it is so he had that in the shaker so that's really it's really what it's all about you know i bless we have to bless each other tonight that first of all we should be able to experience the kiss the kiss of our father the kiss of our mother and the kiss of our father in heaven the kiss of a experience the kiss you say in the morning you say it in the morning by you and you sit there it says by you it says when you said it's not to stop for a moment take a breath reflect the avas oil it means literally hashem loves me did you ever experience it not words i'm talking in the kishkas talking in the gut when i was a child my mother once told me a famous of art khabaks didn't grow up with this that that was talking about his father-in-law the middle arab and he said huh i said it tonight no of dallatevis i said you're listening to me too much that's your problem that's not my problem you have an addiction that's your problem not my problem i don't know what happens in your car what happens in vegas stays in vegas but you're spending too much time with me it's obvious he thinks i said it tonight oh in your car i said it tonight yeah that yeah in your car i say it every night i'm just joking but thank you it's very nice the best compliment i got from a drew is the best compliment i have to say i get cumbersome the best he says he goes from muncie to manhattan and i don't have to tell you these days the gw yeah it's a nightmare you make you could sit over there he says i used to curse traffic he says then i started to listen to you sure him in the car and i hope that the traffic continues a little longer so i could finish this year and he says you never disappoint you always go an hour longer so that i can always hope for the traffic he says you never disappoint the traffic doesn't disappoint these days but you're even worse than the traffic because traffic once in a while you know if it's a tuesday you're gonna get lucky right the gw will be open the palisades the fdr he says with you we never get lucky it's you're consistent he says but now i actually welcome the traffic i could finish the shia wasn't it that wasn't that nice yeah that was like a kiss so ah huh oh you also say that no i know that you told it to me okay i'm glad you feel the same way if only i could charge the tolls so uh oh so when i was a kid it's about that said if you would cut the finger of the middle rabbit instead of blood flowing exits would flow it was very moving vert and i always understood it was it was a it was like a poem it's it's called a euphemism a melitza it's an expression he wanted to bring out how the mithril rabbit was davo said everyone knows that little it was uh or something else so he said blood wouldn't flock see this would flow it's an expression test kislev is the birthday in the middle the birthday and the yard side of the is mid-length kislov tough shannon bay is 1991 at the fabregan i was a baker and that ever said over the vart and he gave an interpretation it took maybe five ten seconds and he said that wasn't using poetic language he was actually describing the truth because what he was saying is that by the middle siddhis is given wasn't being poetic if you would cut this finger blood would influx this with flow which is poetic of course blood would flow if he would cut his finger somebody said he meant it literally what the middle mentor what the tsa meant was by the middle east was blood he said this wasn't something you read in books data information no by the middle of if you cut his finger siddhis would flow because that was blood never said it was life it was oxygen godliness is not the canadian godliness is what's your oxygen what's your blood hadama nephesh your blood is life what is that that's a lucas that's how you have to learn i don't mind the word have to because you start hearing guilt and trauma i don't like going there take get rid of the word have to you heard it too many times in your life right you know i don't use that word you have the opportunity to be able to be able to turn it into oxygen it becomes blood where's your blood your blood is like it says in tanya khalil it's it's you that's who you are your blood hadamu nefesh it's you so to be able to feel ava's islam is you hashem loves you he's kissing you and a kiss is my nephesh essence to essence and where does the kiss come out much deeper than just a kiss it comes out of the marabou as you go into your day and you take on all aspects of your life that sometimes seem to scatter you in all directions to be able to experience that all of that is a journey towards eczema may you and i and all of us and all of your children and our children 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that's 1956. youtube it was the sixth year outside youtube the river opened the fabregan then and he said something fascinating he says when you go to different hollim you go to different oils different grave sites you go into different moods you know i don't have a havon in these things by me you know but that be said something sometimes you come to an oil or certain oil and it triggers a cave from meridos there's an element of sadness it's an element of introspection miridos meridius means you get frustrated with yourself you realize your flaws i don't use the word bitterness because that's not what it means but it is not bitterness medidos is ah that's what the word means context we need context or market he said there's all your limits he says there are oihalim that are ordered bring out joy and he said that the deb is oil that ebb even before you go into you already feel you already feel joy there so he said and the reason is because his whole life he was full of simcha and he brought simica to many his second name was yitzhak which means laughter and it's not that he wasn't abolished him he had a lot of his but despite that he greeted everybody with joy and he brought yitzhak there was a positivity that was always present and he said even before you go in you can already feel the kava simcha that was the first sister after that sit there they were singing and the middle that ever it's an interesting thing that you see that 1951 the first yard site if you didn't hear it ever on on audio it's kadai to hear it so you hear how much he weeps he sobs almost uncontrollably he goes through all of their ebbers and he speaks about every one of them and then especially about his father-in-law and the sobbing is just you could become a jew just from that miami just from the tears of that miami you could become a yid i'm telling you you're just a jew you could become a jew from it a real the real jew but you would expect that the tone of the mighty mary the ultimate summation would be it's five years after auschwitz stuck it was five years after the holocaust claudius everybody was broken every community lost the best and the holiest every community people were just beginning to pick up the pieces and in america where there was freedom and prosperity a million jews were lost to assimilation america was a wonderful country is a wonderful country but you had more than a million jews lost to assimilation in the previous century so it's not like the situation from a jewish perspective was hopeful when the rebel ayats came here in march 1940 he came tess other shaney tough shin he would hold a diary some of those diaries were published he wrote a diary he said the first night he came to america on the boat he escaped nazi occupied warsaw was taken by the ss a half a jew there was a half a jew he was half jewish and he served in the varmacht and he owed a favor to america he saved the rebel yachts he brought him to berlin imagine in the middle of the second world war he went to stockholm he got a ship and he came to america he arrived in 1940 tesla dershaini he stayed at the grayston hotel the grace of manhattan phil pacer he went to lakewood he considered lakewood we almost ended up in lakewood and and then he he decided he wanted new york he wanted bustling new york and he settled in brooklyn crown heights 770s to parkway he has a diary he said the first night he came off the ship and he made the famous statement that night four words america is unders america is not different in other words don't think that god died in the united states of america the same toyota the same as the same lacus ms ms now it's you know today it's not so hard to say it trust me in 1940 my mother told me she was dating my father in 1950 they got married in 1955. so they were dating in manhattan my father had a beard 1955 and everybody stopped the point she was dating this guy i mean it was very complimentary for him she's dating this boy and everybody's like pointing but it was only because the beard but that's what a kid is it was never mind the vibrant yiddish guy never mind the siddhas so he writes in his diary that night two people knocked on the door of my hotel room they introduced themselves they came in and they said we're in america for a while who's and they turned to me and they said we respect you too much not to tell you the truth you're making a mockery out of yourself you got to lower your expectations you got to climb down from the tree and save face because your dream is going to end up in shambles you're going to be frustrated everybody will laugh of you you'll become laughingstock so for your covet not for our cove for your covet and for the honor of your zedas all the way to the balatanya you've got to change your strategy finishes the diary in yiddish she says it ken's the first time you can imagine the tears that flowed that night during my krishna shalom he says how the siddhar was soaked with tears he says my nahesa's tired and my heart sudden my hot tears that came down my face when i said the airstrikes the first krishna mitta on american soil how soaked it was in tears it was so in tears because he lived in this world marabo masera but the visions and the determination was not changed so did that be five years after the war that could have been the focus we're a broken generation but we're going to try to rebuild but that's not basila ganet of schneider this is going to be the generation that's going to revolutionize the landscape of planet earth this is going to be generation that's going to bring the shrine down to the earth he quoted the madrid that there were seven sadiq that brought the shriner from heaven seven to six five four three two one and martial abandoned the seventh brought it down to the earth and he says that's how history functions there's the number seven and the function is to bring the shrine down to the earth so with all of the sobbing and he said number seven should never think that he's greater than one in fact he quoted ahmedish rabbits unbelievable madrid when hashem turns to moshe by the burning bush so the madrid says was he if you want i'll be the king if you want i'll be the kind god if you want i'll be the queen i'll be the goddess just like avramovino said take your shoes off your feet even maisha you don't stand in the place of avraham of he's the first the devil was comparing it of course to the al-tarabha the first of the rebels of cambodia what makes seven seven is that there's six before me can't be number seven if there's no six the matter says it's not all those who are beloved are seven all those who are seven are beloved and the fact that you're seven you never chose it hashem chose it so you have to have that humility and there was you wanna you wanna know what a deb is you you listen to that mimer again and again you hear the bittle with there's no matzias outside of hashem but together with that the message was not a message we're all broken and traumatized and insane and there's nothing left and we'll do whatever we can you know to hold up the little yiddish guy that's not the message the message was this is going to be the most exciting day we're going to transform history we're going to culminate jewish history we're going to be the mark of the partisan of malacca shabbas bringing the shrine down to earth a mandate for people to bring out their deepest potentials there's accidents of art from rebuttal of measure bush and the market of lechevich here we say in ashrae i just told the whole story about it on youtube i just want to say the vart we say in ashrae how do we explain that pastor you remember the possibility you say it over there in ashrae and you're no such chapter 145. three times a day yeah so how do we translate it for those of you who ever think about the translation i know that it triggers a lot of stuff ashrae [Laughter] but if we can get beyond the triggers what is it right hashem wants people should know about his strength about his glory about his royalty the bottom hall of measure which the grandson of the balshem to have said no it's a mitzvah hashem is telling you what mitzvah commandment is you have to let people know about their strength you have to let every person know about his or her coveted hudder malchus your beauty your grace your glory your royalty aristocracy it's a mitzvah it's a mitzvah to let people know how powerful they are it begins with yourself begins with yourself this is he was sitting once by a yid on old hassett and he asked him what's the pathway to siddhis so he said to love another person like yourself he says but israel begins with loving yourself you have to find you have to love the jew that you have to love your real self so the idea of adam always begins with the self you have to let yourself know then you could let other people know if you don't believe it how are you going to let anybody know anything you can't preach things that you don't believe i mean you could but at some point it's going to at some point it's either you're going to feel like a loser or somebody else will call you out on it usually your mother-in-law not mine i said yours not mine huh from then from the first to the last fabric that was one common denominator why did i start over there ever didn't stop crying in the miner because sometimes people could speak about empowerment from a place of naivete you know you live in la la land and you see only goodness and you say yeah you guys are good and holy but that's not bad and there's trauma right we know it there's brokenness this virus there's a lot of sriracha caleb when things are superficial you can ignore the brokenness let's just get into a good mood we'll sing a nice we'll go a tensile we'll say a joke we'll tell a good story say absolutely and move on but that's not what but whatever was that siddhas has to be in the blood the blood means integration i have to be able to breathe it it's real i have to talk to my nephew bahamas exodus wanted should be spoken to the nephesh of bahamas not to the enough for sherlock's never shall look his vases in this nevada kiss is born with siddhis take it through his also gets educated this is the ms because whenever like it learns siddhis when it learns existence is a lakus whenever the kiss learns siddhis it learns about atsumos also gains but bahamas should foreign if you don't have a daily conversation with your animal soul there is no how do you have a conversation with your animal so anybody here speaks to their animal soul you speak youth i know you feed it and i know you listen to it but i want to know if you also speak to it we all feed it and we all listen to it it's triggering us right but i want to know if you talk to whatever that's what avoid the successes to talk to your nephew bahamas huh sometimes you got to laugh at it yeah sometimes you gotta massage it yeah sometimes you gotta stretch it right but you gotta work with it you have to reveal like that but says that the shoe is just got lost in translation how did i get into the nephesh obama sir ah i could go into la la land and everything is beautiful but it happened the first nightmare the tears are so genuine when he tells the story about the mithridate with with khatus nurem you know the story yeah no the first miami tells the story of me you don't know the story oh okay but let me finish the point let me finish the point because i say this i feel in bilty say that of zion so even without a say they always need to say there i'll never forget organized chaos just the memory just came into my mind i was maybe uh how old was it 15 or 16 it was simple rabbi oliver sit down make yourself comfortable it's the director of hilo hillary canaan you know some cypher says huh it's a good speech for the next hill board meeting pesach are jews who are delicious because pesach is beef yeah are jews who are bitter you know jerusalem are always in a bad mood they always complain you haven't pomona such a jews and matzah are jews who are bland the kiddush of hillel was he was a good danced for hours and it was a pellet porsche we talked about bayabasha but the crowd with five or ten thousand people knew nobody could keep up the devil was already this higher 80s i remember after atari he started the negan [Music] and then he started the dancing just he was jumping in the air pushed the oil after 10 20 minutes couldn't keep up after atari so yeah goodnight a cough is not but after after three hours he would always start the negan usually there were a similar negotiator not always the same but this was one of the common ones uh yeah yeah so so that year that coffes went for hours and it finished i think three or four in the morning some custard at night they sell eleno and the rebel would go out of 770. i was in the front and the place was just it was rocking beyond what about the moon the moon was outside you don't always see the moon but yeah i don't remember the weather but that was outside i see after elena say the last kaddish and the rebbe starts talking osika and i'm like omg this is exactly what we need now four in the morning yeah either people were asleep or drunk the dancing it was i was in the front and i knew if i'm not going to listen it's not going to be remembered i i i leaped i leaped towards the devil's place i think only me and rabbi label groaner heard that it was so noisy i don't think anybody else heard it it was short it was short but the debbie said that before he leaves akafus he wants to be ma'ira the islam and there's also the shurim of gitas you have to finish with isa and do passions and he spoke for a few moments that in all the symbols shouldn't forget to be my verse and then the never went out and he stopped in the back by the bleachers there were bleachers and he danced with oil in there for 20 minutes but i saw you saw here the fusion of bleak vulnerable diffusion of infinity but with finiteness and that comes from atomos in other words sometimes we get transported into a world of so much ecstasy and you stay there but there was no s hashem atmos is in greekville doesn't capture him gull doesn't capture him together you have it huh yeah but it's not juggling it's it's the deepest integration it's the achtus that comes from libya calculus ah yeah so when you have such you have so many tears like in the first nightmare you could think you can get stuck in brokenness there's so much brokenness you can also run to a place of ammunition which is beautiful but the rabbit did that in that nightmare and in all the subsequent years all year especially yuchabat but to realize that you we are the people who were chosen to be the midgets on the shoulders of the giants in his words kinanas the is a but because the is standing on the shoulders of the giant the sees much further and the can reach places that the giant can't reach not because the is arrogant but because he's standing on the shoulders of the giant shrielerish to recognize and to transform all the pain into a call not just for transformation but for an unprecedented revolution and metamorphosis to bring it all together and this is the people sitting around the table that's who we're talking to ah you and i look in the mirror and we say the idea of talk to my therapist talk to my wife yeah talk to your kids sushi freshers so now we can go down the whole musser route or you can go down the route yes good hey look but the emma says that the truth lay in the real truth and the real truth is that there's no contradiction here it all works together everything that's coming out all the pain that's coming out is nothing is a mistake nothing is a mistake there's no coincidences it's not like we fell into some abyss by mistake the empowerment and invigoration that we ought to live with is one that can integrate all the paradoxes in our lives and can lift up all the pieces to make you aware of your infinite power as the divine ambassador to transform the jewish world and to transform the world no less to bring the shrine down here to the earth and it begins in my heart it begins in my brain it begins in my home begins in my kitchen in my bedroom and my demons and my skeletons it extends like a ripple effect to my home my community my environment and it extends ultimately to the whole world how did it ever manage to be able to send schluch to every place in the world including pomona because it ever didn't recognize that some people our ambassadors and some people are not that doesn't exist everyone has their own way of doing it but every person that was a very talented tolerant person two things he couldn't tolerate he couldn't tolerate header ich batte people who don't care he also couldn't tolerate when you thought of yourself as mediocre those are the two things i saw that ever could not tell he was very tolerant person couldn't tolerate two things [Music] guilty kite means apathy adishit kite that everyone's told my father and you hid this i heard this from my father listen avert my father told this to the rabbit told them that it says by moshe we just learned it he turned here he turned there there was no man he struck the midstream and he buried him and he saved the jew who was being beaten to death so all the mafia said there was nobody there there was there were people there because they informed on him they were maestro people told paris what moisha did at least one person that's why it actually gives an interpretation and other mufashim give different interpretations that ever gave his interpretation maisha looks here he looks there vayari there's no man to stand up to the criminal kia nish there's people they're sighing they're cletching they're part of the problem they're not part of the solution they're saying everybody is a bunch of abusers and and all the kharadim are a bunch of cover-ups yeah and zaczal's everybody becomes a satsang there's nobody to stand up to this criminal and say we need normalcy we need truth we need authenticity and he had to ask himself will i just be part of the kian-ish mentality or i'm going to say there's no ish i'm going to be the man. and that made me s could not tolerate when a person looks and says i don't care i have my life it didn't register that everyone said he said the beginning of gullus how does ghalos begin joseph is sold to egypt why was joyce of salt rumen threw him into the pit well shiver your lover he wanted to bring him back so how was he sold because they sat down to eat so i wasn't drove in there because he couldn't eat why couldn't he he took yakov's bed out of bill has tent and he put it into leia's tent because he felt it's enough that leia suffered from rocco now she has to suffer from billa from the maid of rahul so even into fear in yakov's intimacy was fasting so when the shvatim were eating he couldn't eat because he was doing chuva for what he did so he was wearing a sack and he was doing sugar so when they sold the ice if he wasn't there so therefore he missed it so therefore joseph was on the slavery and colors began so here with his rooted his analysis he says how does gullahs begin goddess doesn't begin from bad people doing bad things gullah's begins from holy people who are fasting and doing truther while their brother is languishing in a pit with snakes and scorpions that's where gullahs begins colors doesn't begin with bad people doing bad things obviously that's gullus but gullus begins with a jew and when did he do this and he didn't do this sin a week earlier if he would have done this sin a week early i understand the story of billah and and leia happened nine years earlier rouven was doing children nine years later the man is fasting bahab and eric monday and thursday and sunday and wednesday to do children wearing a sack you understand what it was you understand who even was some people don't do truva a day later that day they won't eat for 20 minutes time is show you smash of tightness beerus xiaomi you show me a tightness reuben nine years later he puts on a sack and he fast all the schwatzma reading sorry i can't be part of the sudha so the devil said avart here's a vart gallus begins when a spiritual person says i need to perfect myself i need to repent i need to put on a sack i need a fast nine years later that's how sensitive he is but your brother isn't a boy your brother is languishing in a pit how can you go into a world of transcendence and segregation and spiritual perfection when your brother is rotting in a pit of scorpions and snakes you can't leave your brother there onani no he couldn't underst couldn't tolerate apathy and difference one other thing that eber couldn't tolerate was when people don't realize when you thought you were small when you thought you're just a victim you're just a traumatized mata you're damaged goods and you have good reason for it you have good reason the eight sahara wants to squash you not because nothing happened things may have happened and there are real struggles again we're not going to make if khabad is pneumonias never about denial and amputation and repression and suppression those of you who listen to the shooting know huh there's other people we have a few addicts in the audience every part of your journey including the journey down broken boitis nishbarim maya mainbai is also part of masakasha it's all there to be elevated from galas to gola with tears sometimes with grief with deep pain but with resilience with hope with asymmetry with an ammunition of gula how could it ever take a broken door and not only make them rededicate themselves to yiddish guides but send them as long in arabic and facade that's where everybody warned them nothing is going to remain of them they're not going to be able to retain their jewishness we're barely holding on to the younger light here in the 1950s and 40s you're sending them out alone without support systems without kahila without community you know without the challenge how are you going to do how are you going to do it there's only one way they can do it at every moment of their journeys they felt the kiss they felt the nishika that came from etsam hanefesh if they wouldn't have felt kissed to be a hostage of the rebel means that you open yourself up to the nishika to the kiss and the kiss comes from the essence there's no a kiss doesn't come from superficiality a kiss doesn't there's no politics in the kisses the kiss of the evidence there's no politics not like you know dropped whatever cushman [Music] huh you know the mice you don't know the mice it's a good maiser i don't know that it's mama's for this why not because they had a lot they had nothing the reason is because the middle and ever sometimes one shabbos could say exit is for 17 hours the whole union of meshiach is there and by the middle of whatever they felt it already if you live by the middle it but it was incats without a limit the vitality said he was a cousin in a show he was about fully a good voice the rav of the shul was a very big opponent exidus so he made sure to uh undermine this house cousin really wanted to go to the middle ebber for him he said no he said i'll get you another bald philly you'll pay him no if you go now you don't have pronounce a whole year so you stay in keep it you also have to stay so before call nigeria he wanted to prepare himself spiritually so he took out a mimer from the middle it up and he started to learn so the rav got very annoyed before committed he's learning he said this yeah so he says no what are you learning so you'll forgive me he told them to what's the nice word uh he told them as a cushion you shaking him in a shake his peel foreign if you want you could postpone at the shabbos column right now the only way to hold to hold a person in darkness you can't just hold them there you can just dispatch them every person felt and feels on a shikka you feel the kiss and how do you feel the kiss if it was just a physical kiss how long can you hold on to it you can have nostalgia my father once kissed me he put in a shikka into marabu hashem you're going to go out and you're going to meet people who are different than you and you're going to be able to be torn and fragmented by the chaos of the world and you're going to meet jews who are self-hating and you're going to meet jews who are tanaka and you're going to meet jews and yourself who inside of you who are self-hating at are you going to be able to hold on to the kiss in that environment that can only come marabo to be able to give them that gift that wherever you are and whoever you are and whatever situation you are you're not just connected but you're being kissed right now somebody knows which pair is ah nobody learns tanya not one person how do you hold on you could only hold on to it you have to be able to feel that nishiki that comes from the essence of the essence that can't come out through words where does it come out it comes out asila ela comes out in diribitating it comes out in yeshus the yeshaniv which is one with the ash amity doesn't come out in words it doesn't come out in giluyum it can't even come out in words because words are limited words can't capture atmos what captures atmos the yes the geshem the goof that which seems so remote but it's real it's so real that it can deny god rookney's can't deny god gash me is the nice god says that although nigerian it's the theme of vasila gandhi that's atom only gash me has such a take if it denies god why because it is god only god can deny god that's what sinners did only god can deny god theirs god can deny god such a good speculation from god the power of the gashmi is the power of the yesh that says i am i i don't have a source we learned comes from the last letter of the alternative that he wrote a few days before he passed away gary sarkozy so the yeast that is the yashamiti that's with the kisses that allows people to go into every space within their own brain and within their own world and not only not falter not only not fall not only not get deterred not only not melt away not only not surrender and acquiesce but actually see themselves as conduits as ambassadors of transformation ambassadors of love light hope authenticity wisdom healing redemption captures them i'm not now talking about only people who are in the far flung corners of the world of course but i'm talking about every person sitting around this table because each person you know today the concept is not only in the philippines or in kentucky or in wyoming or in siberia of course and those are places of real mysteriousness but today schlichtas is with you and with your wife and with your children trust me it's with your children and it's with yourself and it's with the person who sits near you in shul and it's with your neighbor ah huh yeah yeah yeah and for this like dealer beneath them it's easy to get there's a lot going on you know people get upset that i talk so much about trauma some of my caveat them get traumatized from my traumas lectures trauma trauma trauma trauma and of course i tell them it's your trauma you're being triggered by by talking about trauma not everybody someone just barakasha they don't know what i'm talking about i say you know what you should never know what i'm talking about there's a lot coming out now there's a lot coming out but the first one who could have surrendered to that trauma of our generation was the rebel when he took it in the seas and he could have said it we'll pick up the pieces there was a lot of peace and a lot of brokenness but the nakuda was that this is going to be a doer that is going to do what no other generation did in history and that is bring god into reality like never before now bringing god into valor like never before creates resistance and everything comes up and we have to work it through avoid this but to do this you have to feel the nishika you have to have the kiss because the kiss holds you attachment how do you get the kiss today how do you feel the nishika today you open yourself up to each other it's the most precious thing when people have support systems you could be open heart to heart you sing a negan together you dance together you cry together you laugh together the ikea is you're honest with each other you need davening a real filler you need a lot of learning you need a lot of toyota toyota's oxygen toyota keeps you connected davening of course and you need to be there you need to be a leader you have to be involved either you're influencing or you're being influenced either you're part of the problem or you're part of the solution there's no other chat or no other option beyond all of it a jew who learns existence and you don't learn exodus you breathe it's the oxygen today that keeps you anchored in the kiss of atsumu that reaches foreign [Music] a product [Applause] [Music] what's 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the russians near vilna in lithuania there was a fabregan and the rebbe said then that that night did happen my father spoke a lot about the altar and he shared the following story that the rabbit said over this was tadik bay so this is shin bay's you'd based 24 years later the altar once called in a young man he called in a young man and he wanted to hire him as a teacher as a muhammad for his son dalton had three sons he had the mittali rabbit the one who succeeded him rabbenu dave bear they called them battle he had a son of ram and he had the youngest son of moisha besides his daughters he needed that he wanted to hire a teacher for the middle earth so what do most people do you find somebody and you say here be the teacher and i'll pay you somehow the alternative said listen because that itself you could learn a lot that episode turned hashem says you have to educate your child you have a mitzvah shairik susa vainasalayra a husband has a mitzvah to support his wife and children not everybody knows about this mitzvah but it's a mitzra it's a mitzvah you're obligated you men are obligated to support their wife and children it's an old mitzvah every mitzvah needs maslow i have a mitzvah to teach my child you have a mitzvah to support your family [Music] itself it teaches you how to live it's a mitzvah we're going to exchange mitzvahs you will educate my child and i will support the family so that ever said vice it's apparent that this man was wise he turned to the altar and he said it's an unfair deal mela when it comes to your mitzvah you know exactly what to do it's called money my wife and children need money so you know what to do it's very clear about but you're telling me that i should take your mitzvah and educate your child how that's what the advice is i'll teach you a child he understood this is an opportunity how so that ebba said that he heard from his father-in-law desvarie dr meditated he was misboing in for a few moments and he said how haben hate men on aleph remember the middleweight ebba was a very very young child you're not talking about an older kid he was mama shaw just started haider so he said how do you start you start with an aleph because you start teaching the language olive base the first letter is aleph versus what is an aleph and that ever hear interrupted and he said that al-qaeda even when he had regular conversations in the middle of the week he would speak with a special negan he spoke with a unique melody that was reserved for the altar so as he was communicating with this person with the potential teacher of his son he also communicated with this and the rabbit said that the shiver my father-in-law he repeated the words of the altar with the negan and when there ever repeated it he also did the negan which is the of the altar and if you hear on the tape i heard the tape before he started he stops and it's silent and the voice changes that his voice changes and it's almost like you can hear he stops and you could almost sense that he's kavayakal going into a different world and he says over the of dalton and as he says it over that ever breaks down crying sobbing is telling this to the teacher who wants to know how so he says you start with an aleph this is an aleph if you look at an aleph an aleph has a youth on the top little ute it has a line that extends diagonally and then it has the same ure on the bottom says what's an aleph there's a youth on the top there's a you're on the bottom there's a pin ivan the point on the top the unit there's our pinterest and there's a car there's a line that connects the two youths so the rabb explained the youth from iben that's hashem the youth from untin that's a jew the cow foreign that's the line that integrates and synthesizes interconnects and interlaces the two so they become one thus is an aleph and with this that ever said i'll tell every gave this teacher what i want from you this is what you want to know you wanna educate my child this is what i want you to give my child and this negan and this void out to them encapsulated the essence of all genoch what's the essence of all genoch allah foreign so i know a father who used to play this for his children at night this is the days of tape recorders allah mashallah today you're not going to find them to the old days of tape records was a father he had this fabregas and he would play this for his children at night often he would play this for the kids to hear the void from the altar the way that ebb says it over one night so the kids knew with my heart because the father would always play it one night the father asked one of the children why do you think that ever was crying it's not a sad story you know people cry there's a tragic story it's a painful story he's talking about an aleph what is that savannah why is it ever crying father asked all of his children so the different children gave different reasons why that ever would cry when he says the story why is he so emotional he starts sobbing when he says it one of the boys said that the reason that ever was crying is the reason that ever was crying is the fact that you need a carve to connect them because really they're one and the fact that you need to connect them that's already a painful reality even though you connect them he said that's why the devil is crying he's crying because you have to create a connection and really you don't have to create a connection why should you have to create a connection it's one it's kulekhand the fact that you think you have to create a connection that's the pain of existence what we call the simpson the khala the makampanu for this he's crying this is what the boy said this is what this boy said how do i know the story because it's my child my child said it and the truth is that today this boy is struggling with yiddishkait and when we look at a boy struggling with yiddishkeit it's so easy to look at the kitsanias but the boy struggling with yiddishkait is the same boy who said that the reason that eva was crying is because the connection has to be created in other words it's the people who are connected most who feel the pain of the smallest slightest disconnection and because of the depth of their spirituality and their oneness the slightest disconnection is so painful and when you can't be in the pain you have to run away somewhere else you're typhus you understand what's happening there's a void from the ishbit sir why should i know at the end you're rebellious you're you're traitors you should have said yeah you have rebelled against god you don't rebel with god so you know what he says [Laughter] even your mom name is imagine there's no such a thing it's negative it's imhashem even then it's him of leblind says yeah you know the gomorrah how do you know that you could be makadej bristar you remember on the bottom the last one how do you know you could be mikados bistar anybody knows they believe we need you again very good it says the yachts of ohio the same possibility we have two words in the same plastic it's called the hakkish we the juxtaposition means you could compare one to another it's called hakkis it compares going into the relationship to leaving the relationship just like leaving the relationship you can have a star when you go in he says by a jew going out is just like going in he's not going out it's another way of going in this is a famous poem one of the great poets that might you'll have to tell me who you look it up or you maybe know he writes one of the great jewish poets i run away from you towards you looks like maybe one of the earlier ones the blessing ajirah one of the big ones yeah i run away from you towards you the yachts are is also a vahison it's the same of the rebound he took himself to one side to fight with aaron and marshall the isp he took himself to one side so he said on the shot level it means that qaeda separated himself to fight but there's also a deeper level what's the deeper level the deeper level he said is as follows sometimes you see a jew who separates he says goodbye bye bye i'm not interested she says externally he goes on his own path internally what he's really trying to do even though he doesn't know it is he wants to reach a level of truther and but makkim shabali ain't shiva stands even aaron can't stand even maisha can't stand so he takes himself away to stand apart because he's now searching for the path of truva that's going to put him in a distinct position separated from my shamara externally it looks like he's distancing himself internally he's the beginning his journey towards a new relationship truva and the rebels said this in the february and i was there he said when you see a jew who leaves yiddish or is not interested you could say two things you could say three things but one thing that ever wasn't goidus so he didn't say it but i'll tell it to you just so you should understand one thing is you know throw him out of your house get rid of him that ever was he didn't even that wasn't even a havamin so he didn't even mention it the two things he did mention is one thing is one day he'll come back every jew will come back one day that's one thing the episode that's not the ms there's something much deeper even his distancing himself is part of his coming back he's searching for god he's searching for his soul he's searching for oneness he doesn't know what he's searching for he's responding to his pain he's responding don't look at the external you have to always see the premise don't get caught up in the external trap of kritzanius don't you have to always be able to see the panemias i have a sister-in-law i have a brother some of you know my brother simmon he has a wife her name is shane d her maiden name is gansburg her maiden maiden name which means her mother's maiden name is denberk was denmark her mother's mother's mother was nemena very good we have a real history buff here so they come from a city called shadrin the denver city called children is in in white russia belarus lithuania that area that you know that zip code it was a very very bad hasidic city that's where her family comes from the denmark family so she shared with me a story this story i'm telling you if you came here tonight just to hear the story it's worth the hate sauce whatever you paid to get in emotionally psychologically mentally whatever it's going to cost you to come home late it's my sister-in-law to me today today she says treat it with me she had a relative she has a relative her name was ida bloomberg her maiden name was finkelstein she was a relative of the denver's it could be her mother's maiden name was denver which was a relative of the khabar demberg family from shaddrin she was born in tafreshnun dalid 1894. so she was 14 years older than the rabbit ayat the bala he was born remember 1880 tough ishmael she was born tough region dalit and she grew up in real it was what's called the it was a very warm siddish russian community with serious jews authentic jews if they hashem i knew some jews who came from the dembergs and others real jews no no fakeness no no fake news it was real news but she left this she left russia like many jews and she came to canada she was a girl and she wanted a new life and freedom and prosperity as there was once uh sam levinson was a jewish comedian he said my father came to america they told them it was the golden medina it was the golden country the streets were paved with gold when he came here he found out three things number one the streets of america are not paved with gold number two they're not paved at all number three he has to pave them all right so that was the end of the dream of the golden medina right like some of you came to pomona right because the golden medina yeah the streets of pomona are paved with gold the houses are 11 times larger than you're to get in brooklyn for half the price it's tempting then you figure out not all the streets are paved some of them you have to pave yourself right life catches up to everybody you just have to have resilience and be anchored in emmaus emmis you have to have the kiss she came to canada she came from hasidic stock and she had a very real jewish heart so she decided she's not working on shabbos she's not giving up her judaism she got hired in a factory like many jewish immigrants and she didn't show up on shoppers you don't work on shabbos she came back on sunday and they told her one more time you don't come on shabbos you don't come on sunday you don't come on monday you don't come on tuesday she was stubborn she didn't come on shabbos she was fired no bread so she got hired in a new company she didn't come on shoppers they told her don't come on sunday don't come on monday she was fired again and so she went from factory i said company factory to factory to factory you don't work on shabbos there's no future for you how long can a person fight at some point she broke she couldn't you need bread you need a place to live you need to support yourself she surrendered this happened to hundreds of thousands of jews probably a million or two million jews very few can hold out there was just you had to eat people had to eat you didn't have a show you have them for sure by yours you have soup all day and challenge all day and everybody brings the leftover kugel and sushi and cake so you can there's people there 24 hours they eat better than anybody else eats i'm telling you you could see it on them america canada or america and in the 1920s and early 1900s yeah there was no way to go for toyama thursday evening with a nice challenge there was no food there was no food you starve she couldn't resist she surrendered and she started to work on shops she was a talented girl ida my sister-in-law's relative and she did very very well she was resourceful she was smart she was creative she was ambitious she wasn't lazy and she rose in the factory her position was elevated and promoted higher and higher and higher she did so well for herself like every good jew she decided what do i have to work for somebody yeah like every good jew right we all know that yeah [Laughter] at some point every juices with the baller bust we don't have to work for you you all know anybody who hires a jew you know you're not hiring a jew you're hiring a bella boss yeah the gemara says because they'll offer them whatever yeah so she decided to go on her own and she went on her own and she did amazingly well and of course after a few years she already had franchises and now she had people working for her and there were branches she had a gevaldecarzloche she got married her name was finkelstein but it became bloomberg she got married her jewish warmth she always kept this was the immigrant generation especially she who grew up in a very warm religious froome siddisha family khabad family but she wasn't keeping shabbos and she felt hypocritical i'm not going to keep shabbos and i'm going to do other things you know so she let go of a lot of the what we call the mitzvahs the rituals the commandments the traditions but the heart the hearts years pass she's very wealthy she's very affluent not anymore the days of an immigrant you know trying to find money for khala she's really doing very well she has a husband she has children the war is coming to an end and the shanghai the shanghai refugees those who ran away from lithuania from poland to shanghai sugihara zakharov saved thousands and thousands of jews were coming back the group went to israel the mir yeshiva canada united states of america also a group of them came to montreal and they established yeshiva's montreal there was a very small yeshiva i think it was nine or ten bakarim you had to evolve green glass weinberg marshall galitsky i think rabbi kramer right huh so they became the nucleus to build an educational institution but ultimately became a school a day school basement but it was literally the early years they needed a opinion they needed a structure and there was no money this is the early 1940s there was nothing you know nobody had anything it's the end of the year mid 1940s early 40s i think they came in 45 which year did they come you're a historian which year they come to montreal okay she saw us an ad somewhere that they want to know they're looking for a place so she wrote a letter to the reber dayats she wrote a letter to the previous laboratory in new york from montreal she wrote a letter and she said like this i don't know if you'll accept my money the idle kaido i don't know that you'll accept my money because i'm not what i used to be i know who you are i know who your father was i know jose there was but i'm not who i was so i don't know if you'll accept money from me but if you will accept money from me it would be my privilege to purchase and build a building enthusiastically and thanked her and indeed i believe ada if you'll go to westbury uh yeshiva you'll see ida bloomberg the good angst montreal he's a montreal okay ida bloomberg that's her from denmark family she did it she bought it she built it she paid for it and it became a major foundation for the jewish community montreal not only for the chabad community for the whole montreal began to blossom the toyota mitzvahs of jews of many different stripes and communities and persuasions foreign one day after this uh she was coming to new york and she wanted to have the schools to go into the laborats so she asked and he agreed and she came in she was born as i told you she was born so she was already you know she was a mature grown lady she was seasoned she was accomplished she was very wealthy very wealthy and very affluent and very successful person that ever saw her and he thanked her profusely for what she did and he was very immaculate to her and grateful and he started to give her tremendous amounts of brachas tremendous blessing after blessing and with every bloody dish she was speaking yiddish and she understood yiddish but with every blessing she felt more and more uncomfortable why because she had you know good old jewish guilt matspoon right www.jewishguilt.com every jew feels guilty and if you ever find a jew doesn't feel guilty he blames himself and she was a classic and she felt that she was simply undeserving of all these blessings his blessing and he was blessing her like you bless you know a matriarch a rebecca he was just blessing her abundantly and she she had an adel kai to her and she knew she was a machole shampoo so she felt uncomfortable but she kept on saying amen amen on me and that ever was continuing at some point she says so the devil was taken aback he says i never heard somebody is blessing you and you're saying enough i don't want any more why why why do you say good look she says from i'm not film those were her words and she said that you know his face was a molecule he looked up his eyes looked straight at her she felt it was like her grandfather looking straight into her eyes and he said these words in yiddish verse my dear daughter he called her my dear daughter we don't know who's from that was she went out she remembered it my sister-in-law tells me a post script that a few years ago there was a montrealer program called the week of the jewish woman and they invited her to speak so she was speaking of montreal it was a very secular jewish canadian crowd so she thought what should i say she said this story because it's her relative she finishes a woman comes over to her and says ida bloomberg is my grandmother and it touched her so deeply because she was second family was secular touched her so deeply that it helped her get closer to yiddish so you know sometimes commentary just ruins things you know the buddhism it's we don't need the buddha we need the kiss right that's not the buddha look who's talking right you know they say there's three types of events there's a sermon there's a party and there's a fabregan anybody knows the difference huh should i tell you the difference sometimes you're stuck in no difference the difference is as follows at a sermon one person speaks and nobody listens right any of you who go to a show with sermons one person speaks nobody listens at a party everybody speaks and nobody listens at a fabrengan nobody speaks and everybody listens i somebody speaks so that stuck at the problem so the commentary is not to give commentary the commentary is for internalization what he didn't know who's from if you read his letters if you read his sister's readers my modem the fight that he put up was unprecedented in history rabbi berry levin the librarian of the chabad the goddess library told me that i asked him he said told me that the yachts built underground schools in the soviet union you know people who in america build 600 schools you know anybody who builds two 600 schools you know people who build two schools it's hard to sustain one school ask muncie people about one school right where's the board trust me one school is this is kosher and this is an america with grants with with with without with space you come in the soviet union where you go to siberia you get shot 600 schools that ever built in the 20s and 30s with the most of them didn't survive they were open for a few weeks a few months a few years and then but this is what he did do you understand what the person is you hear 600 schools he built underground all secrets nobody knows about them some of you is either got an education there my father got an education there so he didn't know he didn't know we don't know who's from what do you mean the one who spoke about this and the most uh clarity and passion was that especially during the years of america in the 1940s where he confronted the apathy and indifference of america in terms of toyota mitzvos the rebel knew very well but the lebanons were saying to ms the pneumous this woman stood up and said rebecca nougat finished and they never looked into her eyes and he said talk to my name and what he meant to say was don't allow mitzvahs to turn you into a holier than thou person don't allow religion to become a quagmire don't allow religion to make you arrogant will you become the representative of god in contrast to everybody else who's inferior to you then you miss the whole plot mervy we like in our sociological boxes to define people this guy's froome this guy is not from it's resumes it's good for resumes but when it comes to ponemius when it comes to lacos you really know you know what's going on in people's souls i'll give you a marshall avi fish have told us to meet up slimy is still here avi fisher told this to me there was a boy he announced in yeshiva that he's an atheist you know those kids in the middle of the shia right baba bastard in the middle of a tigers i'm an atheist it's exactly what razer shiva wanted to hear became an uproar of the chutzpah ravi told me let me tell you the background story okay not an easy story to listen to but i want you to understand this this is what hashem told shmola navi al tabit the boy had a babysitter the parents would go away a lot they would leave him with a babysitter a female babysitter and for three years the babysitter molested him every night he would dive into hashem that either they move or that the babysitter moves or that the babysitter dies the prayers weren't fulfilled for three years she molested him and destroyed his soul destroyed his life now he's 18 19 he's in yeshiva so he said as follows for me to believe that god exists means that god didn't listen to my praise for three years i can't accept that god is so cruel so what's the alternative he doesn't exist if he doesn't exist then he's not cruel so you understand what this atheism is about a jewish boy can't accept that god is cruel because how could you be deaf to what filler of a nine-year-old an eight-year-old a seven-year-old three years begging you to bernie shalilum get rid of her and you're not listening if you don't exist you're not cruel you hear what this atheism is about and then you scream at him you're completely clueless you're going to break him more he's protecting hashem he can't accept that hashem is happy of arachim so what does he do he doesn't exist so now it's fine god is not cruel atheism is not holy but this boy is very holy and his atheism i'm running away from you towards you the otso vahe is he can't let go of god so what does he do he says you don't exist i don't then he doesn't have to let go of god in his plymouth we judge people we so often misread what's going on we break them not realizing that the challenge is that they're broken what they need is wholeness and it doesn't begin with other people it begins with yourself lahidia livne adam guerrero so the rabbit tells this girl now she was she wasn't 17 she was a millionaire a multi-millionaire he says you hear how you speak my daughter first thing is you're my child talk to mine i don't look at people like you think i look at people i don't box them in i don't stereotype people you want to give an x-ray let's do an x-ray you want an x-ray let's do the whole net fish let's do etzeman fish this is not justifying it's not rationalizing this is not liberal progressiveness where you're so open-minded that your brain falls out and there's no hammer if you knew anything about it you knew that he was the opposite he was the biggest but it does mean yiddish guy is never about ego and it's never about my comfort zone and it's never about me protecting myself with this camouflaged figure of i'm holier than you and therefore i can be dismissive of you it's never about judgmentalism real your shamaya means less judgmental not more than judgmental why because if you really have your shamayim when you look at another person what do you see you see heaven in them and you bring it out in them when i'm busy judging you and being avatar you and breaking you what does it mean it means that i'm living in that space of narrowness and restrictiveness today i tell you when you look at a child and you look at a bachelor teenager remember these words mervy sinistve of course every person needs to put on the phone of course every person needs to keep shabbos and keep tayang mitsu but don't be fooled by deceptiveness don't be fooled by externalities tune into panemias and you'll see and you'll discover a whole other world and what's the key what does dalton ever say what's the key the key is there's a youth from ibn and there's a youth from unten and it's one because you then you the one is and hashem is you dude youth is to show that the two are not separate to show that the two are one or besides what education is what education is you want to teach your children not just to do certain things not just to follow the tradition of the family and the rituals of ada what you really want to teach your children is who they are what you really want to teach their children is what you really want to teach your children is all in aleph all in aleph is about the cava virus to create healing to create oneness to create integration if it's ever about separation about detachment about uh crushing somebody about judging somebody about making you fit into my back so i can have knackers from you you weren't typhus if you weren't typhoons the whole premieres of it the real nakuda of everything that ever says is an aleph i want you to be one with you echoed us at to become one with yourself and the only way you can become one with yourself is if you become one with your own essence with your premiers with your atsumies and what is your essence the youthful the youthfulness so the whole yiddish guide is really an exercise in discovering oneness in you realizing who you really are and therefore how you can maximize your ultimate potential and how you could be truly true to yourself ah it's never a froomkite where it becomes about agendas and externalities and play games and acting and and politics and elitism and and classes and gradations where it's like sometimes it becomes echeldic it's like all of god becomes i'm better than you and social pressure and social social conformity sometimes people say without that you can't hold it together you need the pressure the social conformity maybe but that obey him and khabar de la bayem probably gave up a lot just for premiums take the matzah with sneeze i'm not going to get in trouble taking them outside with sneers yeah in other communities there's so much pressure right if you deviate in the slightest your kids are out of school right kabata doesn't work like that and people said there would be more pressure if there would be more fear if there would be more external pressure everybody would look better there'll be much more sneeze things would look better it's an area people tell it to me all the time but tell me what you think the altitude that obey him they believed so much in the ms and the pinemius of yiddish they said that ultimately it can't be about social conformity it has to be about authenticity and authenticity doesn't come through coercion authenticity comes through real years shamaya because that's the only thing that survives forever whenever something is created because of social conformity at some point the pandura box gets break broken and boom the skeletons come out you see what happened in israel the last few weeks there was a community that prided itself as one of the most religious communities in the world and it emerged to be one of the most corrupt places on planet earth calling a serial rapist without shame what does that do to people it shows people that if you want truth you will never find it here here you will find only corruption and cover-ups ms you will never find here it showed people that you can't trust a word a word of religious establishment intelligent people look at this and they vomit if this is your religion i'm out there's plenty of people that are not intelligent so they just go along that's fine but with this you can't change a world that ever wanted individuals he wanted people who are personalities they think for themselves you're not going to sell them bubbam isis in 50 years of the debossities of my modem he never disappointed he never sold anybody a brooklyn bridge he never said something that wasn't true he never turned anything into a cover-up that looks good to be able to impress people you knew that here's a place where he invested everything this whole ms his whole pony so you can invest your whole atmos because you're not going to get stabbed in your back and it's not a small thing ah when i look around today and i see how much politics how much false and how much corruption you begin to appreciate when you see a nitsuits of ms nobody owns god you don't make skaida you don't make business with toyota with mitzvos with the initial island it's not a chess game maneuvering pieces with garboyim and rashishivas and mesham shem and positions and and khatsaris and mices that's that's good for pettiness that's good for certain newspapers for certain websites that's that's the vision of hasheming creation the tagless habria is that we should become a community that covers up rapists that that's the for this we lived for 5 000 years for this we had to survive hitler that we should be able to cover up all the corruption in our schools and in our homes what does this do for young people who are searching you know he's a therapist client after client tells you this especially people who were abused and molested what does this do to them so you have to appreciate this that yiddish guide is all about ms there's nothing but ms i see this is all ms nothing but ms if it's not truth it's not worth anything you could take it and do with it what you want if it's not ms if it's all about social conformity and pleasing you and getting into the right schools and getting the right shidduchim and the right resume who needs it go to world go to another world with much more interesting people and much more diversity and that's what people are now feeling there they're spitting up they're sick and tired of being sick and tired does that make sense they're sick and tired of being sick and tired you get sick and tired like how much how long are you going to lie to me and you have these puppet shows and the puppet shows are supposed to impress everybody and it's just about keeping people in place real people can't deal with this today you have in science and physics and psychology and astrophysics and cosmology and theology and quantum mechanics you have the greatest revolutions of the synthesis between spirituality and physicality and if judaism remains basically about a primitive culture where everything is put under the rug it's like what age are you living in and that's why today without real siddhis there's no way that young people who are intelligent could compete with the explosion of spiritual depth that came out in the secular world especially in areas of therapy and psychology and neuroscience and neuroplasticity and biology and medicine and cosmology and mathematics and astrophysics it's it's it's incredible what's emerging now the world is emerging as a spiritual place of infinity and what does judaism have to offer zeitz that's the beginning in the anzac southern level that's all we have to offer zeitgeist are there for this that god came down on harassina so people who are deep people who are not deep people who are deeper are getting very very annoyed very very and people who are hurt and people who are sensitive so this is where today there's an unprecedented opportunity i sounded pessimistic but i'm not i'm very optimistic because this is all an indian of regular it's all beerum it's time for this not mixed up anymore to even iran we spoke to schistler we had the family with her by shea's town not mixed up anymore it's not mixed good and evil are not mixed anymore this time of it is it's not mixed it used to be very mixed in it it's not mixed there's ra and there's stuff and it's very clear lmi what's that avoid it is to open eye to open your eyes and to be able to embrace the tife and to be able to become an ambassador of ms and show the ms of everything the every the panimi is the ms a world in which every challenge is seen as an opportunity for growth and everything that triggers us as an opportunity for healing a world in which people are not victims but they're leaders a world in which we understand that oneness is the truth of everything not a hierarchy of elitism and arrogance and holier than now thou and superiority complexes and judgmentalism and dismissiveness a world in which each of us realizes that each of us carries a fragment of infinity nobody has all of infinity together we have it insafe has so the altitude was teaching this jew what it's all about it's all about an aleph it's all about becoming an aleph becoming an aleph becoming an ambassador of unity becoming an ambassador of oneness and if you could give this to every person you meet beginning with yourself and your spouse and your children [Music] aleve you gave them the greatest gift you gave them the greatest gift of their life you're a youth you will always be a youth you're one you're connected you're never ever disconnected when i see you i see light i see beauty i see holiness i see infinity i see love i see godliness i see a kela kilikami you could scream gnug and i'm gonna say get to know yourself better get to know yourself better and you'll see you'll see that you're the best of the best you're creme de la creme you're the holiest of the holy and when you believe in them they'll be able to believe in themselves whatever said this that say he said this with his etzema nefesh he said it with his panemias he said it with the kiss that he received from his father the kiss decision the father taught him don't get in this ball from externalities marabou it's all and if it's all massage go to the craftsman who made me and tell her how ugly is your vessel tell the craftsman who made me the gemara says how ugly is your vessel when you find out about the craftsmen who made me you look at the vessel and you'll say ah ages you're going through a journey you're going through a journey a woman told me she told this to me directly this is a very deep story i'll tell you the story then we'll sing a negan she lives in israel you have to you have to open your hearts for the story you're with me the islam is with me ah one more story ah what's wrong with this uh this is huh yeah i run away from you towards you never forget that that episode i was there you look at a jew who's running away don't say no that's not enough anymore that was good a hundred years ago now you don't say that now you say he's on his way the hairst the dev is a cook you see somebody struggling here you see somebody struggling with psychological demons will find healing that's not enough that's good in gallows now is titus aguila it's not they're going to find healing one day this is their journey this is their journey towards healing this is their journey towards god when you see darkness the devil wasn't going to say i see darkness i see darkness what do i see i see a deeper light that's waiting to be revealed because it's so deep and it needs me to go out of my comfort zone it's called darkness you put your hands on which villain yo you put your hands on which fill in you didn't sit in a seer this is the first time in 30 years you're sitting in one place thomas 30 years he hasn't sat for more than six minutes ms besides when you recorded me yeah he recorded me once and you know how recorders are we you know how video record recorders people who record they're busy with the camera i'm talking and i see he's crying and event there's a recorder and there's a recorder there's a videographer this is a hashtag and then there's a videographer versus this so how do we get into you there's darkness in this darkness this darkness that we call darkness this darkness that's a light that my comfort zone is not open yet to but if i open myself up to it it's really my depth so when you're experiencing unresolved stuff what you're experiencing is an invitation for boiler it's time to go higher but when you go higher you know when you when you any any bench pressers here nobody huh you bench that i know but unless you bench press so you know you lift weights you know you tear the tissue right and it rebuilds that's the clown so when you're stretching spiritually psychologically it tears tissue right it's kosher it's like ouch there's no light it's darkness but what is it it's an invitation to discover your true calling your true light that's the cloud today that's that's terry sagula it's not yet one day he's gonna find no this is it this is it you have to embrace all the parts of yourself and embrace all the parts of your children don't run away marabou master it's all a kiss it's all in the shikka and where does the kiss come out so here's the story a woman told me she grew up in a very very secular family very jewish secular family very spiritual soul very sensitive song 1960s woodstock yid stock revolution people searching for truth for infinity and she travels the world to find oneness nirvana one and all all in one she was spent years on her spiritual journey she spent months and years in monasteries in ashrams in spiritual buddhist zen christian centers for years not for two weeks it wasn't a backpacker you know from yeshiva going to explore for two weeks years and she got involved in the fasting and in karma and in transcendental meditation and in zen buddhism in the practices the rituals including burning the incense and many of the pagan rituals and practices prevalent in the far east and she really excelled in that environment she got a call that our very close relative is sick and she had to come back to america and somebody invited her for pesach to be in crown heights that ever came to visit the cedar in ghana which was a girls school for balichuva and she saw the debbie and it touched her something touched her and somebody said why don't you stay here a few months and learn about judaism she really began to develop a very deep connection to yiddishkai because of her spiritual sensitivity when she decided to stay and study so she wrote a letter to the deb the letter was a very long letter and the letter simply shared with everything she went through the home she grew up in the secularism she was raised in and then she went through every monastery avoided zorro all the fasting all the meditations all the rituals all the incense burnings all of the dancing and orgies everything she spent time in europe in western europe and in eastern europe and in the far east in india and other places a full letter a long letter eight pages everything and she said here i am today i want to become jewish i'm jewish but i want to become jewish and she said these words to me she told this to me directly she said people told me that the rebbe is the right person to give you a tikkun for all that vaidhara but is this serious it's a cardinal sin it's the one of the three heart of and it's not of a desire of one week it's a deserted for years but he's the right sadiq who can give you a tickle and people speculated that there's probably going to be fasting for like 40 years you know monday he'll do it in a nice way you know monday thursday you know but 40 years you'll be messaging available and you'll become aided that and she told me she was expecting it just years of of being entrenched in pagan idolatry and literally pagan idolatry not the american versions of buddhism the real buddhism and its core and she's waiting for the tikkun that ever read the letter it says vintage and he wrote an answer to her the answer consisted of two words with a little explanation the two words were your gaiter um just like by you was mikuy of the gaiter you search you'll find obviously you fulfilled the first part very well you searched so it's obvious that the second part will be fulfilled you will find that was the answer what did he do he took all of her ears and he put it into one word yagaito and the agata is the prerequisite for matsusa another person would look at her and say wow how tami you are look at the tuma that episode what were you doing you were searching you were searching for truth you were searching for god you ended up in crazy places um what's also and god brought you where you had to be and by you as making the egypta will be the queen just like the agata was makoyam because you went everywhere to extremes that was her tickle that was her tikkun and this is more than fasting 40 years you could fast 40 years and not have a tickle right you know the mice with some you know the mice you don't know there was a yid who came through he said he wants guillotine he wants to see leo navi and he read and swarm that if you do if you fast 40 days straight you eat at night and you do gilgal shellac you roll in the snow without clothes you have guillermo he said i did it 40 years i ate grass at night and i rolled in the snow and no guillermo so what do you do with such a jew he takes him out to the stable and he points and he says you see those guys he says yeah faired horses says let me tell you something they eat grass not 40 days 40 years and they roll in the snow and they never saw leo one of me you know why the guy said yeah vases ain't unfair because they're horses he said exactly a fetid can eat grass for 40 days and 40 years and roll in the snarls are fed in other words but those of you you understand you understand very well no i mean i don't mean it i mean exactly as i said it in other words all of us you close your eyes right you don't need grass you you know you eat grass you don't need other stuff you don't eat egg rolls you eat grass and you roll and snow whatever that means and you cup was once escorting the altar back home from the market was the margaret's son gets into the coach and he tells the bellagallo leave above spontaneously he turns to the coachman he says zolchmeis al-shmeisen the third bis as his own vicinas is an effect whip those horses until they become aware that they're horses and then you whip those horses until they cease to be horses so i heard from the rebbe he said over the story and he said escapia and tanya there's two paths so scaffias is whipping the horses until they become aware that they're horses that's a scaffold what's tradiscafia it's coffee doesn't mean people think it's caffeine means you destroy yourself means you're aware of your triggers that's it iscafia means you're aware of the horse you look at the horse you say shalom alaikum that's it you don't have to get angry at him you just look he's oh that was the horse we call it the reptilian brain the mammalian brain you know what i'm talking about yeah the limbic the reptile whatever if you follow my uh my uh it's defend okay so the horse went crazy you came home tonight from the fabregan of yuchabot right your wife gives you a cabal of spawned em commercial costs of potato a beautiful cabela's pond right and the horse vet abyssal mashiga you know when horses start jumping that's fine what's this cafe a scaffo means you look at the horse and you say thank you for sharing your opinion but you don't need that the horse should dictate when you go horseback riding those of you you know about horses it's probably some people in pomona who know about horses you don't know nobody ah mela pedic mem hey you don't know about absolutely huh oh who's that's another that's another one also ramallah so there was once a big rabbit from poland he was on a train and he meets a jew he said he says what do you do you know the first question right what do you do so he says a handle with ferret so the rebbe says punktv i handle with horses he says just like me we have the same job means you don't get rid of the horse you identify it's a horse it's an efficient bahamas okay so the animal is screaming the dog is barking so therefore you have to surrender your soul this hapka means the threads of an ice means you reveal that the horse really only externally is a horse deep down it's a clipper deep down he's looking for something else when you find out the plymouth is then that's already there's no trigger that's already a deeper level then there's the third printer but one said far far cooking stuff deferred go don't look at the horse sometimes you get too entangled you have to travel david is over you saw how did we get into this i know fair but before the fed before the galileo okay there's a sequence but fine so what's what did that ever tell this this lady a half liver fella he put all of her years all over her years he put into one word yagata first of all you're not a demon you're not a low life you're not a despot you're not a sick person you've got to you're a searcher god didn't make a mistake by putting you in the family where he put you of ramsay i'm the same he came with all the days but the first three years he was in away this other soda yeah it was a search the search is part of the discovery that that's the word your guide to um you can't get to what's also without the agata so i look at the yagata and i say what a lost jewish girl that's golos gaulu says wow what a courageous jewish girl who's ready to go to the other end of the world to find god no what god she's an avoid disorder what a lost soul and you're right she is a lost soul but if you see the pyramid is if you see a lakus if you see the emma's the yachts of a horizon may use some it's a journey and the journey is to get to a deep room so you took all of the years of yagata tikkun the ultimate tikkun but not tikkun through la la land machife 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