For Some, Olam Haba is a Reward; For Others It's a Distraction - Likkutei Torah "Ki Seitzei" #4

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meaning she received from the afar Thalia that's that part of the neshamah that is manifested in the body and is consciously experienced because it's limited according to the parameters the container is the finite containers of the goof the tragedy is that the Asia see fast Toya is in captivity that's the issue the ISA Barcia VHS of Australia a person has a fast tire a person has an agency fast tire but the Asia see fast oil is in captivity what does it mean somebody is in captivity for Sevilla it literally means quite on a physical level when somebody is by Shiva is abducted Ronald Alana's kidnapped so they are now not free to be creative and to be able to realize their own potential x' and live a life consistent with who they are because they are confined and forced to be in a location to be in a spot where they don't want to be and not only that even force perhaps to work for the enemy and to harness their talents or skills to work for those who capture them but in either way however you define [ __ ] via whatever the circumstances of the shippi of the captivity are one thing is clear that that person which is Basha via is their their full glory is completely eclipsed they don't even have to have no access they can't choose they are in their life their lifestyle is given to them by somebody else what they do what they don't do somebody else decides the prison they are not in their own hands what does it that mean that the Asia see faster is Bolivia it's the condition that we addressed earlier in the mind my goal ax Adams renamed on when somebody has a very every person has this agency fast tire but they're unaware of it and not only they're unaware of it it's in captivity meaning it's completely concealed eclipsed and not only that it's not in touch with itself it doesn't have the freedom to live the life it would want to live on the contrary it's very powers and fashions may be harnessed and may be used in a way that is contrary to its very design it's very reality it's very purpose that's the behavior and that's the example he said that Menasha yavi laughs boy the person sometimes Vesey goes into paranoia and what do they bring into the work force they bring in their neshama they bring in their soul with all of the powers of the soul and therefore there's an infinity that defines whatever they are doing even though that it's not something that really deserves infinite attention it's not so prominent to deserve infinite attention but you give it infinite attention because your soul is harnessed into that area it's Barcia via its in captivity of course I didn't understand what well sometimes it only comes from other people from the feedback we get or from how we affect them positively oh I didn't understand of course you mean when you're just busy conforming to others I didn't bring it up you see he says boundaries well that's a form of captivity former captivity literally captivity means you're living for others no that's the definition that's quite a definition a bird a bird a bird is trapped and they can't fly it has to be trapped because I want it in my house some people they decide to live their whole life that way maybe unconsciously but they're trapped they're trapped by a relationship or by circumstances and there's connections to you're thinking of the bird huh thinking of the birds that's all a form of shimmy of course if I lived my whole life to please somebody else to get your validation and it's completely not based on Who I am that's that's that's the first state of [ __ ] I didn't understand the question well depends who the others are if the others are trying to manipulate and suck the energy out of you and just use you to manipulate you then it's not others you can get feedback from because they may be very unhealthy themselves and toxic themselves feedback you want to get from people who are not using you in order to deal with their own insecurities because the feedback they will give you is completely not based on what you need it here it's based on what they want you to be you know what I mean are you - my borderline personality what time is this no that's where it becomes very serious such relationships these types of things with our serious mental challenges people tell you things they make you feel guilty or horrible you really have to get feedback from people who are not there to suck your blood out and they may not mean bad they may just not have another way of surviving so that's what they're doing to you or to somebody so one has to get feedback from an objective person who sees your value not only in serving somebody else's problems and challenges which you won't even be able to help because their issue is not you their issue is themselves they have to really deal with their issues so that's a very important clawback law when a person is in that state of just being in an orbit of being in a [ __ ] and enslaved situation to somebody else or to other people that's a classic case of Shiva and then you have larger forms of Shiva in the sense of people will really never ever have the courage to do what they're capable of doing or what they really want to do to follow you know their true calling even their spiritual calling and their emotional calling or creative calling also because of the sense that they have to be repressed in order to fit into a particular model which is really alien to their to their chemistry to their neshama and that that's a tragedy in and of itself imagine imagine Mozart growing up in a home without a piano what would happen the genius would remain the outlet God protect us he had a he had a piano so the genius could come out through something that enriched the world with his music if there was no piano the genius doesn't go away talent doesn't go away but you do need outlets for it the Jewish of course you would have another outlet you find another outlet but what the outlet is it the Jewish soul has the Jewish soul as a Mozart it has a certain quality that is very powerful very trifling if it has a piano the talent could come out through the piano and enrich the world with its music if it doesn't have a piano it's gonna come out it's gonna come out you'll have a Carol marks you'll have a leon trotsky you're gonna have a lot of these people Mozza you'll have a a Chomsky or a Finkelstein you'll have you'll have this constantly with Jews huh Woody Allen Woody Allen is another good example a Freud is a nice example very unique unique revolutionary powerful into caps interesting people ah a fritz haber what Freud was Jewish his name was slime Allah slime well is that a Jewish name it was not the signal mother's name was one below college huh Freud was not only Jewish Roy could have had a minion four minutes every day with his people around there somebody once said send out the guy Carol young man you can make a minion familiar but probably he was the only one who would a vermin so there's old Jews over there was the Freud's heaven he was Jewish they were Jewish of course his wife lit Chiapas candles than when they got married he didn't let her like Shabbos candles anymore he was a complicated Jew very complicated Jewish she was so this is a spirit it's a spirit but it sometimes barcia via and when it goes into Sevilla what happens is it's the same energy but it's feeding it's it's fueling things that may be alien through your very design your very purpose so he says okay Dale I'd see him in a ship you see it's a second column I'm involved one two three four five six seven eight nine ten ten wives from the top okay they like cm inertia via a penis Massimo who saw the high knew her say ho Muhammad is a small shed tiene la sham Levada Olivia Rama Kevin McHale vocal in order to take it out from captivity the hsf Australia the penis adds Musallam oversaw in its very core meaning that the say Helen readers themselves of the nefesh Obamas should do Wang Tasha and their fur get rid of the fragmentation inside behind a bishop who Samba distiller allative mom actually called the kedusha commercial cause of a seifish Albanian in pedicure it's not just you're in control of your garments but you can even transform the midges sorry luckily Allah kuzmic - Mazel wanna show mashallah my lemon Agatha for this you have to access the Eliquis from Mazel in other words dinner Sharma that is beyond the goof you see in every person is what's called at samosa cycle vomitus and LaVon Shia Levu share say kilometers the difference is a very important one there's the core of your emotions and there's the garments of your emotions there's the core of your intellect as the garments of your intellect the difference is as follows love bushin like a personal version close you could put on and you can take off it's not a problem you could change your suit three times a day if you want ten times a day yes it's a little turtle but it's not a major turn people change their shirt every day they change their pants they change their jackets you change although foosh is not hard to change but if you want the nose job ah this is an avoider right cosmetic surgery facial surgery this is you want to change the X and this is not easy I can take off my jacket as nothing but to change the goof this is very deep avoid the same is true in the human personality Italia makes a distinction between the caiaphas and the love ocean well version are the garments the closest are the faculties of the soul the garments are thoughts words and actions so it keeps us a mash of a Dibble mice those are the garments of the song thoughts words and actions the faculties of the soul themselves they're not the garments of the soil they are the way you feel about things and the way you perceive and understand things I cannot easily change an emotion I can't tell you start loving this person doesn't work that way what you say what you don't say you have control over are you very angry you could still shut your mouth what you do what you don't do it's like a garment actions words and conscious thoughts are the clothes you get dressed in you get dressed in them you can also undress yourself from them and this is even sure about the thoughts you should always look at thoughts words and actions as clothes they're not you your thoughts are not you they're the clothes you wear you put on clothes you could take them off people don't realize that thoughts are clothes that we think our thoughts our constituents they don't constitute your they constitute your clothes some people never take off their shirts that's true but you should once in a while because it gets dirty and it gets smelly this is called addictive thinking or the same ah you choose what do you think about and how you think about it yes and the way we think about things ultimately will affect how we feel about things but these are the version it doesn't mean I want to take off my shirt sometimes I don't want sometimes it's hard for me sometimes about it but I'm always in control lavash them you're always in control because you don't have to do cosmetic internal spiritual emotional psychological surgery when it comes to changing emotions safe home in this this is already much more difficult with choose different stages this lavash them and the safe limits I should distinguish when it comes to thoughts there's two types of thoughts there are thoughts that are instinctive and there are thoughts that are conscious thoughts that are instinctive are not love ocean there are mirrors of the heart I'm walking in the street and I have an instinctive thought that wasn't a choice but engaging in this thought pursuing the thought that is putting on a jacket it's a jacket that's always there because we never stop thinking you could never stand you could stop speaking hopefully we will at some point you could stop doing things thinking you can't stop thinking it's impossible let's try to stop thinking and you'll see you're thinking about stopping to think a person cannot shut down their much other which is why my shove it gives the illusion that it's the essence but it's not your thoughts are not you so if I'm thinking this person Allah this person is this this person we don't even realize these are garments you can undress yourself you're in control of your thoughts always what you think about and how you think about it doesn't mean your emotions will change immediately they want emotions our hearts are changing your gouf that requires the surgery an emotional surgery is tough the fortune you may not be in the mood of changing it it may be lazy you may not be used to it but you could your cake of a person is always in control of garments Mohammed Ibrahim ice so therefore there's two stages the beginning of period gimel he spoke about transforming Levu shame akshatha deborah MYSA here he speaks about transforming seho Obidos Oxman for the Boucher Mohammed Ibrahim I say you need yello-ha or asana codasyl a yellow aha or a snake Odessa live here in the second stage its utmost Nicosia wave not given a colossal life you in accordance alive allows one to reorient Allah vache Muhammad Ibrahim ice ax ax Moustakas a lathe allows one to deal with the very safe hole and meanders of the nephrons obamas which appear as there are like we spoke with the para duma but when you reduce it back to its core you'll see it's not rot its manifestation could be robbed but in its core it's not raah then you can reorient a very safe whole admit of the net for a Bahamas then they become completely one with the godly soul and they become full partners the muscle which is outside the Gulf which is hovering that's the nefesh a locus that accesses the the the Soviet yeah yeah and so what's captured is only the inevitable Hamas's the one who's captured its this machete but it sounds like he's also saying that that antenna is also machete ok you'll see in a moment good good question another question close or something that's so somewhat meaningless what was the praise worthiness of the Jews in Israel well over there the main point is that they identified with the people they remained Jews like Shintoist Levu Sherman mitzrayim is that they remain Jews they identified with the people they didn't it says they didn't change their language in other words many ways the culture their culture remained very Jewish they wanted to be part of the Jewish people an example for garments versus surgery a person could be very very upset right does that mean I have to scream doesn't mean I have to insult my child but I'm reaching I'm raging okay so emotionally you have toxicity in your you have negativity in you you feel you lost control or you feel lost in the world and then there's only solution but your words is something you choose to get dressed them it's a love whoosh so what do I do with this rage okay we have to work on it but it doesn't mean there has to be deeper I can't tell you get rid of the rage right now stop I can't we're not in that state of consciousness that we could just switch an emotion on or off unless you're crazy a normal person can't but lavash him you could put it on and a moment later you can take it off the same is true with thoughts said mister with words and the same is true with actions person always have full control over them I'll talk about a healthy person functional person this is nurse trauma deals with with the way the person sees themselves that has to do with me dose that has to do with say no yes that has to do with the pen emmaus of the purse force that's why this is so important because the way we feel create the way we think that's why we we're these clothes and we always go back to the same you know people who wear the same suit 45 years of course but sometimes I have to know that I'm not capable right now of changing my insight but if I can identify that this is trauma I don't have to allow my garments to display it 24 hours a day pens what marks Ovid is my shovel that comes instinctive and then there's a mouse-over that you pursue that you have full control off I'm walking in the street and I see somebody and the stats that image whatever it is everyone according to their own capacity and chemistry triggers something very intense in me okay I'm in motion a crush of craving or hormone whatever it is I didn't have control over that at not at this point of my life let's put it that way I continue to move on I turn around then I have control over you understand I say I didn't have control over but you and I know that I had full control over that I chose to turn around was it an easy choice of course it was an easy choice when you're daydreaming but not when you become aware of it when you become aware of it when you're daydreaming you're right you're daydreaming your mind looks like a dream you're not a control of your dreams but when you wake up you're in control when you wake up you're in control what am I gonna think about you understand what I'm saying the voice' suru after a Leviathan battery Nathan I shot them Zoe mother am yours I'm a mother I am that's a fact I'm not telling you to change that at this point but Veloso suru you know it's the service remember the word where the word is used this isn't the end of schlock where's their word sudo used the same parsha slalekum a rad limb via suru cycle car now should be a suru as Eretz c'mon you know what you surah means scout the land send spies to scout the line what's Veloso suru my heart has an emotion my see something now I sent forth a scout go check out the check out you know give me an inspection do a survey this is a ready stage tool Veloso suru you don't have to now scout it out okay it is what it is of course only when you can identify that it's coming from a space in you that is not your true self can you have the courage and the understanding why not to get dressed in these muscles you know why shouldn't I get dressed in these thoughts these are my thoughts if I can understand that these thoughts are reflecting a certain part of me and not all of me and not to ultimate me then I could say okay not for me right now we choose our thoughts a whole day a whole day and choose your thoughts constantly you're walking home you're going into your house you choose how you're gonna think about entering your house oh you did it already for 25 years in the same way there was a choice every single time you may not be aware of it but it doesn't mean it's always easy to change the suit but it's not oh man easy and don't matter whew it's possible if you're in control that's the issue is it easy it's not always easy but you're in control people sometimes have thoughts about themselves I'm paralyzed I'm scared those are all choices I'm incapable I don't know how to do this those are conscious Marsh of us there's suits you could take it off here's a much better way of thinking about it say I have inside a fear about something but that's not all of me I'm not completely in touch with my full wholesomeness and therefore I'm gonna choose which part of me is gonna prevail and this is how I'm gonna think about it that's so much better much over you did not become addicted to this mush up your toughest they can try like to think a certain way but it really gonna get through this way of thinking there are situations where the trauma is so deep and it paralyzes it paralyzes their ability to think in any other way but I mean say is like point well-taken if you ignore the ab smus and you go to the lavash room it's just impossible because the Ottomans are so toxic and so dysfunctional it deprives them from any type of freedom you're right there the versamark to dysfunctional you're right but what does it mean to work out the odds most to work out the optimists does not mean that it's gone it means that you can at least quarantine it quarantine it means you couldn't come isolated you could say yes this is a certain voice in me speaking it's not the only voice and it's not really a voice that has much validity either it's a voice that's a result of blah blah blah blah blah a real it's not the ultimate it's not the ultimate it's not how I was born it's not who I was meant to be you understand what I'm saying Jean Nash it's on national zobelle the brilliant brilliant mathematician gained theorist economic genius won the Nobel Prize I believe was killed in a car accident on the New Jersey Turnpike a year ago with his wife they were coming back I think from Sweden he got a major award for his work and they ordered a taxi the taxi didn't come they had to take another taxi going home from the airport they were killed in a car crash right John Nash suffered from schizophrenia and he suffered badly and as a result of that he had like this D book he decided at some point that the Communists are after him and he imagined he built worlds then undermined his career he had a brilliant career undermined him it almost cost him his marriage and his children his whole life credit to his wife she was killed with him a year ago she believed with him and she held on to him she encouraged him and he ultimately got to help he needed you know he lived with medication and he lived with good good therapists or psychiatrists who really helped him through it and ultimately he got back to Princeton he taught at Princeton University and he won the Nobel Prize he did well there's a scene there's a scene that is very very moving he wins the Nobel Prize and he gives a speech and it's a beautiful speech he asks the question he says I always wondered what is the sum total of all mathematics what is the the core that all mathematics is based on the ultimate would be called by ausma scholars who shine as the paradigms of mathematics and he says after years and years and years of study and research I realized that the underlying theory behind mathematical theories is love love and he thanks his wife for what she did for him it's a very special and moving moment he wins the prize the nobel prizes the highest prize you could with win today in the world you know it puts you into a certain to a certain category besides the money and the fame himself he goes out of the hall and at that moment it's so sad it's so tragic this schizophrenia attack so right at that moment he's at the height of his glory at the height of his success and it's mountains fall just in his mind you could suddenly see all the Communists that he imagined they're after him who were not existing suddenly are in his mind and he's taken into that place and he's not really normal anymore he doesn't see the world normal he doesn't see the world functionally they standing there it's beautiful beautiful sight that he spaces out into this place his wife who of course this was like a moment of tremendous healing she looks at her husband and sees that he's gone mentally he's standing there but he's he was he was literally kidnapped he was which is what mental illness is kidnapping person's soul is a kidnapped abducted hijack nobody knows this if they don't understand what it is or they don't experience it and she goes over to mrs. Jonah you were right are you good and he's not he's these demons are all over the place they're all over the place but he's been through so much that at this point he's capable of identifying the schizophrenia as the enemy as the devil and so to speak of the book a energy outside of him not his whole core that's what he's capable of he's not capable of not being abducted by it at all but he's capable of saying this is something that came into me that's what he's capable of and he looks at his wife and he says I'm perfect I'm perfect so they embrace each other and they they move on now he's far from perfect but he made a very powerful choice he could not make the choice to get rid of the devil but he could make the choice to tell the devil I will identify you as the devil and Quarantine you you will disturb me I know you will bark you will drive me mad you will stay here and non-stop but I will choose not to define myself my thoughts my words my actions my whole life based on you it's a great moment of human triumph a great moment of your joint this is in the language used here where you could control your mush of a deeper and my sickles you identified Gilley in this context their healer in the Kudus olive because of dueling akunis olive which is a space that could never fully be in captivity there's a state of well-being you can identify that and therefore not allow the lifestyle to be governed by a lower self there's the deeper state which is at most Nicholas olive which allows a person actually to transform to transform the core of the rap the tour of the brokenness and the fragmentation that allows for a much deeper deeper transformation which is a whole other a whole other mahalo in life which most people never fully fully achieve even through avoid that but that's the next stage next stage that he's addressing I know that there's some quite a few loose ends here because of its you know this is a pretty intense journey here into the IMF nefesh are don't the depth of the human soul I think will become more clear as we move on I doubt it he needed somebody to believe in him every person needs somebody to believe in them if there's nobody who believes in a person it becomes very very difficult even devanam Alec says rvv Mia's a loony Hashemi espheni he may have not had a mother a father huh but he had a relationship how shemyaza Feeney huh that's true yeah but if you have somebody who helps you you can't compare the success of the journey it's it's a whole different thing when somebody believes in you if somebody sees it in you somebody sees it in you I wrote an article this week for a certain website about issues of suicide and mental illness that have been discussed so I wrote there a story because I happen to know the person that who the individual person there was a woman a girl a young woman who suffered from serious mental illness and she was suicidal she was hospitalized I went through a very heavy treatment and the lubavitcher rebbe er was involved in guiding the parents how to help her some point she was so suicidal that the hospitalized ish she did some terrible terrible things to herself and they gave her electric a lecture about shocking it shock treatment right if she came out and she started to recover she was recovering well so her father went over to the Lubavitch remember and he thanked him he said he wants to thank him she wants to thank him for she said for schlepping her out from the darkness in which she was in so his response at the time I didn't understand when I heard the story from them he said she was not in any dark place that I had to schlep her out front and then she came out of the hospital the rotary said we should serve her from now on you'll serve Hashem matera simcha the tough level years later I understood when I watched this woman who I know well what he was trying to tell her in my opinion was he knew how serious her situation was he knew about the electrics that he was involved in it she was suicidal she was killed herself she tried to he tells her father she was in no dark place that I had to snap her out in my opinion what he was trying to say is I don't want her to ever think that I look at her and I see this dark scary crazy chaotic salt that's what I see I don't see that I see a piece of God that was sent into a very challenging world and into a space of darkness with the power to deal with it but I see you from a different perspective I don't see you that way I see you as somebody who's a never - M and conserve God with some combative level despite the challenges this is not from that doesn't come from naivete comes from actually depth and the depth not to run away from trauma some people when they see something they're uncomfortable with they turn their eyes away not because they feel bad for the other person because they want to protect themselves we all do that - lovely daughter Shoshanna toothfish so it says in Spartan because fish have in a pitcher the gemara says you have to watch fish you have a tank with fish they don't go that they go to stay but they stay in one place but their eyes are always open it's very easy in the world to close your eyes you know look this I don't look at this if you make me a little crazy I don't look at you anymore because it makes us uncomfortable you know the ability why does it make it because we get scared of it why do we get scared of it because we don't believe there's something else to the person because there's nothing else to you so therefore your darkness overwhelms me that's what we always turn away we turn away from our kids for that reason you're too much for me why you too much for me because I don't see the light in you maybe because I don't see the light at myself so I think what he was trying to tell that what I understand I'm not sure we're trying to tell her it I don't see her in a very dark place that I have to schlep around not that there was there were very serious situations but I'm not gonna label you as this piece of hopeless darkness that I'm gonna schlep you out of nononono you're a piece of God God is with you he sent you here nobody's slepping you out you have a place that was never in the hell there's a part of you that was okay so you have to identify it you have to work with it and so forth you understand it's a different perspective so even to change my shove a dipper of my sir you need given a codicil a because if you don't have that if you don't have that like you said the trauma overwhelms you it just overwhelms you and then you can't even think any other way because this is you so even for the lavash I'm accepted a bit of mice to really get a hold of it you need to have some identification of who you really are to be able to see yourself as a particle of infinity then there is a transformation which is already a higher and higher level I should say the obvious because I know that you have to say the obvious nobody should think that all of this is advice for people who are dealing with a clinical situation people who are dealing with a clinical situation that needs a professional physician that's where we have it this year we have doctors and therapists do not confuse somebody once stop taking medication after a shear of mine because they said they don't need medication anymore because they know everything they have to know so never misconstrued the information that's given here which is a perspective on life with a personal needs certain type of assistance okay holding the flama vomit vase page 71 the middle of the key states a mind map and second column wine starts a Mazal who want to some la medieval thank you mom above the second column Mazel wanna show mashallah my alumina goof house they are marred of anomalous oliver shalom pops up all night how's that armored of Adar medical of a Shaolin this dove anomalous Oliver Sheldon says back shop owner since this is an ll dick discussion he say say we say dude of an Hashem I read that the mimic by eating is to say throughout ello to lashonna Rama there's a pasta claw on Marley be back so far no as Panetta Hashem a vaca me what does this pasta to me she says mm Allah says in the home I lead me to you my heart speaks and my heart says back Suppan I seek my face back shoe from the world Tuvok Aish seek to look we'll be customers show massage similar to search for something is called lava kesh right Lavaca Charvet I'm looking for something back supona means heat I just seek out my face Peter's Nemea surely seek out my enemies don't look only for my consignees look at my penis see that it's there I knew so what Jeju says in lol ahah my lead me back chiffon I don't only look at my head signees look you have to search for it sometimes why do you have to search he's gonna say sometimes it's lost like a Nevada it's there but it's lost you know it's in the house but you don't know where this so you go through every drawer and you look under the beds and in the closets you're 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answer me based on who I really am right back chiffon I don't don't believe that there's no Plinius in me house in Oaxaca Mayan one set of what in the update of you have to listen to the heaven to the heaven and people the Kate said democracy happen sucker how do you do this as Panera Shama varnish this is a Spanish Russian alacrity posture continues I will look for your face I know Panama is a via the panaka of Hashem the premieres of Russia winners via varnish a mop anova ikura Hashem passed over his face meaning he went Alpen off he goes Alpana that's the previous of assumption we summed him shopping the demoness Arahama there come there shamash I'm Kara from the in-game ominous venom sophism Alice's which come out always in the tank days of slippers shows Usman vase rot some of my alerts especially struts but then you have the ability to access the Plymouth of Russia which allows you to access your own premieres cohosh on all year around them circling me survival cleaners idea trade of amateurs the premise of our sham comes out through trade admits with Shane and commutes I never thought much look at his wonderful book about smack away off because the totem it's just really capture his internal will and his internal wisdom the lace macabre to disobey no thought can grasp him and therefore there's no way of grasping him ultimately only through the tide and the mitzvahs which capture his pen Amir Sorensen his play musical shy they a sack a titanic record a potato that's why cause alcohol learning tyler they call her call a potato what does coiling mean kinda means calling who you're calling you're learning turn you're not calling anybody ctype cheese should cut you the imam sugar hamas a his bar when you're learning tighter you're calling out to him your call you a bit tighter that's what credit doesn't only mean we'd Kylie means love in the would clear by you crash I'm oh my son call out learning Toyota is a way of actually call out to him you're calling him which part of him are you calling was Ida we explained earlier that Hashem fills the whole world mamala kawaman but that's Malka Malka scholar longer that's the aspect of godliness that becomes the battery of the world that cosmic consciousness of the world but then this pond Akasha amethyst economy is this I can only have through Terry damages because nature science even though all of nature bespeaks godliness every single Makuta with varnish amchem I am NASA and that's why is he said of a heart of a Shyam to be able to see the life force in everything but the panache and the permissive Russia to be able to connect our shams Plinius to the core that's entire and that's in mitzvahs because no thought could grasp him lay smash of it visa bathers ourselves the rice and me Hockman Africa's cause out desire says a rice that comes from commercial in asuras plumies commercial consul Hamas autumn tire bono so I'm on my luck says the wisdom of a man is luminescent that shines up his face in other words the hakama comes out in the pond of toy or pond off so he says Toyota comes from Hawkman and Hawk must Adam Tori pawn of that system is by a daisy we say in the PASOK in the morning I'm not saying when Guinness Mesmer shear and leukemia Canaan liver hey no you're a pond of eternal seller we say dose of ice very sorry man what's your upon Evita no seller his face will shine with us forever you're a pawn of his plea means the same is true a mitzvah same enemy is resigning his burrow Tyagi Mitzvahs derisive as I administer a bond on is 620 you have 613 biblical myths for seven rabbinic mitzvahs become a tree at Tehran it's the democracy of 622 fresh off which is the first the same words like Kassar but as I'll talk about in Zoya Taraka moody radar 620 pillars of light Shane and Jacques LaMotta they key amar mitzvahs like a pillar which connects the roof the ceiling to the so each Mitzvah is another pillar that accesses his own command Manish record this tion of the mid slice of in the brothel we say she condition was that condition above its race off he but srothas thus my Russian condition through the mitzvah Sukumar - Allah could his motor home on near tefillin so the distances represent his own Rutzen which Sadaqat can negate coulomb from all the mitzvahs especially to Dhaka which has all say that stockers connected : riding America's school at stocker connected kilometers King you nuts doc you only is with us a hesitation amethyst rocks rollin the concept of stock is to give acid for free inna means it's not because you're expecting necessarily somebody to rest it to give back it you give javi a sort of solemn to give life to a humble spirit which is the concept of Dhaka either in money or verbally but the concept is somebody who's downtrodden you lift them up that's Tucker shame column at the Nagus traditional saw in them is the Kula Carmichael Akasha so this means that stuck and then represents everything that God is doing all the time because all of the levels of reality of the whole evolution is Kula comical Akasha it doesn't have a Shiva slug of a him and the fact that he's involved is the ultimate stalker so sadaqa represents his his mitzvah that captures all of existence is basically stuck in this so that's why the PASOK says he Shia says mahalia my SATs dr. Shaolin the action of sadaqa will create peace sucks if Shalom Shalom Larocque Aquila Karim so the Gemara asks al-qaeda it should have said first makaras and for the Gemara a reflection mass occurrence with Rafat Allah Karim is near Africa becomes a car if he Shalom Heineken assist Astra smile on matter she agama Rafa the penis car of karma because Shalom peace always represents connecting the higher and the lower that even the distance should become close and that's what stocker does okay shame shame shame oh my the LaMotta Genesis panache Hashem so just as during the slickest or all year during the trailer mitzvahs Hashem gives us his cominius carnem chakra Mottola my look in his back supona the time of slickers is the time that also from the person you have the same to Noah that he says I want you should look for my clemmy's park Lia's Nakota spinning Mia shall live Oliver Nicola Baden say Poirot homage it's the time of the year the code of the pen Aeneas a lathe goes up and become submerged in the energy of the infinite one Manish that's the flagship on I am looking for my pond I I want my pond I to emerge and so to speak melt away you become one with its source with the oil inside burrow home Amish so that's the void of La Jolla Marley be back chiffon I and therefore Espen and Hashem of a fish and one is connected to the other the panel of the neshamah is directly related to the panetta of hashem by yamaha sham al panov which is the source of atiba with the Ciroc Imam which comes out especially in the time of slippers he says there and and all year also in Toyota generally and amidst was generally especially in the mid stress in mitzvahs had stopped the lorry may allah azza Levant don't think when we say that the naku display miss olive his oil of a nickel beta and safe particle wasn't mean ila Allah meets its extricated from the fact that it's been hidden or exiled so you take and you bring out this Nikola spinning missile M and you fan the flame says don't think I'm talking about me or Elam huzzah lovato to lift it up from this world meaning so witnesses stop to sleep is an effort to gather all the sparks of you soul from the PISA an effort from the scattering of the soul as far as a room is fashioned the mush of a deborah my son who shall have proof our gosh wish and I'm shocked and after a Lamaze and not only this the first step is this piece of amethyst what's busy I'm effort your soul is scattered where's it scattered it's miss Fozzy like you take something and you split through it into many pieces and it's scattered everywhere so you said the soul is scattered or miss fashioned it's extended that's expanded it's it's it's lost its chaotically dispersed we're in thoughts words and actions with which they are blue fog ashley the garments of the physical bodies and I'm shocked Harlem house' which are it's obsessed it's addicted it gravitates Earlham house' and because the neshamah the nephron shell the kisses in the body and in the nephron obamas and not just in the summer but also the plumie assaleh is in it so therefore there could be pizza and nefesh Copic ella that basically the soul is scattered and dispersed everywhere so kyboots means lahar my Libby but you're funny means to extricate the soul and not have it scattered and be fueling fueling Tigers - means which they fuel with their own power gobble ahead the Machine a mom has explained earlier but not shy of a lot of money that the person what happens is the person's album is so Terrace becomes exiled and is being manipulated and used for that which is contrary to what it really is so the first stage is to gather it from Milam huzzah wasn't mean for my la maza from all thoughts words and actions with the soul as present but the soul is lost there it's scattered there it's manipulated there it's enslave there it's exiled but that's not what I'm talking about when I say visitor nefesh Lloyd Morales olive at that step one Elif aloo me Canadian ha captain the alien piece around nefesh means that the nefesh is scattering gan eden it's an innate not passed in anime denali that's also pizza enough what sayst got made in our past Indonesian Lu commercial cause of the past success me Lee Marshall I am the in colors of hats de Boris who do I have in heaven and with you I guess are you nothing in the earth color share a view love of it sur la vie vie in other words even some Mayan doesn't speak to me because this element of panama is alive what it seeks it seeks save of Kalama it's either Shabana fish it's connected to our geminus Koren in an essence that shred sends all of the world's so therefore even got made in our past Aang Elian is called Pizza Hut nephesh even the energy of the soul that is found in paradise not just the lower level of paradise the higher level of paradise is also pissing on a fish the soul is being betrayed because it's in Dunedin huh oh yeah that's also visit on a fish because Panama is a lave wants only you comely be back shall for my melee Bashar my endemic Alicia Fox T Barrett's the famous expression on the ballot Anya that I don't merely by shammai emit foolish Dalai Lama has that foolish Donna Lum ha but whom is like a laden a Hellion you Wilmers tank I need not constant it will manage to sniffling I don't want your alum Harbor alum has even a Denali a great not often I want only you I got Maiden Hallion is a place of ultimate spirituality of ultimate godliness but it's mamala Kalam it's not españa Hashem Ibaka it's not back supona it's I seek a relationship in order for my divine spiritual fulfillment the polybius ha lave wants only you the pen Aeneas olive is rooted in save of kalau mean it's la my lumina tomba das it's not know who score mouth was coloring lemon when he said in painted olive that neshama sand my Lawson oh they could capture his shame of kala mellow ha does look a move on Ida kulamish Optima far in my recent edition mom listen a shame okay your name your reputation your projection your aura your life your charisma that's what a name is a name is the way I experience you the way you allow me to have access to that shame michaela nellams an amalgam of Honor these burners Shemp hashem elokenu scottish we always speak about your name your name music of smoking is coughs my Levada at the end of a meilooruns you say this bars are simultaneous my mouth alcohol sever my say or death huh i'ma earlier she exciter that's the level of its own is a life that's not small that's looking at the world and seeing it as the seeing it as the playground the reflection of the Divine looking at the world from that perspective that's it Sonia Saleh and the emotions that come with that that the vehicles that comes with that the driver must held the grain of the hair of her fears beyond that comes with that soken a Denali and then Adan Italian is a place with Ziva Schliemann where there's no concealment can I tell you that's like the ultimate American Italian but he says here that that's prisoner that's piece of a nephesh that's still called the soul is scattered the soul is not one with himself the soul is stuck in a very big spiritual place but the soul is still scattered what makes it scattered it's busy with matter agus it's busy with rock Aeneas it's busy with spiritual perfection it's still busy with a spiritual ego it's deep it's heavy it's beautiful it's intense but it's still pisser her nephesh that's not then it could of premieres away then it could of clemmy's olive is I want only you back Shobana and this pen amis exists in every single Jew in other words to understand what a Jew is you have to be able to understand what this looks like what Plinius olive looks like and they says in this time of the year what goes up then the goodness eliminate a celeb it it gathers itself from all the pieces it gathers together all the pieces you know in the 12-step programs to somebody who does the program maybe you'll tell us which step it is there's a point where you have to go back and make men's right anybody knows which step it is you have to go back to people you insulted people you hurt the people you you caused grievance to and you have to make up with them have to take accountability it's a very very powerful and very vulnerable and very important step what does that really mean it means that anybody who ever had a relationship with there's a piece of us that's there we we plant seeds all day we walk around just like a person you know when it's snowing and you walk around with salt and you throw the salt everywhere you walk around with a bag of seeds and you throw it all over the place and you plant seeds every conversation you have with somebody a part of yourself is there you leave a part of yourself there you leave an impression you say something that goes into them even though Sholem Aleichem we're over what whoever you met in your whole life they have a little Stickle of Europe that someone is a person you meet you say something they have you forever that's that part remains it could be I hate your guts that's also a PC you could be I love you that's a PC you could be a hugger to be a slap it can be a Shalom Aleichem it could be a drop dead whatever it is a piece of you is with anybody you meet anybody you meet the question is is that you unified or scatter it's a piece around a fish there comes a time where you have to pick up all your pieces you have to go back you know there's a famous much-loved thereof somebody was spoke a lot of Russian horror and he came for a ticklin so he talked to take a pillow with feathers right and cut open the pillow and go outside and let the wind scatter the feathers okay comes back he says now go gather the feathers it's impossible he says that's what happens when you gossip that's what happens when you speak when you slander go gather the feathers let's piss around nephesh the soleus made up of feathers it's everywhere there comes a point in life where I have to retrieve it because it's pieces of me everywhere and the person feels it whether you exist you exist in hundreds thousands millions of places and it could be filled riddled and in you dated with contradiction and conflict so the comes of time a person wants to retrieve all the feathers bring back all the pieces so a person is everywhere and they have to sometimes if there is negative energy in that interaction they have to go back and and reclaim it and change it because it affects them ah I don't mean to go back to every person you ever met in the world for the certain key people I think we have to confront yeah you know people that own big chunks of ourselves let's put it that way you know not every Sholem Aleichem it's also a seed that you plant but and you sometimes hear it from people people will sometimes say you know five years ago you said this to me six years ago you said this they remember it and the positive or the negative you did this you said this you looked at me this way because we're always planting seeds the question is what type of trees are growing from your seeds Ilan a strap or cedar trees if we learn to think more about a cedar tree right what type of trees but you always planting you always plant it wherever you are you plant seeds a person speaks volume Yashiro chakra if the offices for a keystroke the Navia shia says Yaakov is you're always making sure are always making roots and then you have your own Pizarro nefesh where do you where are you where are you if a person in the morning exercises for example a partial things on but then at lunch they can't contain themselves and they eat like a Bahama dasa so their soul is now dichotomized they don't know who they are I'm here now I'm here this today I'm angry now I'm generous today I give stuck at tomorrow I'm stingy today I'm nice tomorrow I'm obnoxious it's a piss or a nephesh I have to reclaim who my soul is what I am because I don't know who I am someone goes everywhere wherever there's something enticing I go I'm not in control of my life of my control of my relationship so that's pizza a nephesh visit on nefesh exists on many different levels but he is talking about the piece of unofficially Mia's away piece or unofficial let me SLA there's not just an addiction or bad habits or bad tempers or negative actions or words or thoughts that are basically hollow of meaning and purpose and godliness this piece it on necklace is even Canadian Elia and ganado doctor because the neshamah just wants oneness it just wants oneness it's not looking I think I told you once upon a time he attaches the first Mitzvah after Martin Taylor in history is Miss pea Adama Tassili right after Martin Taylor make him his bear cub Adama this I've asked all of us a Lucetta the s schlemiel so the first thing after Martin taters build a Miss Bay of Earth and you should slaughter at that Miss pea ELISA Yamaha Dinah a learson will dine Ashley misen the first thing you have to give up is the need to be a Muslim the meat for shameless now sometimes at least maybe some from some perspectives that's what all that's all that Judaism is about to reclaim the still here sometimes fuzhen how do you reach flameless in life how do you each perfection from look at the tennis perspective that's called piece of amethyst if you're looking for slimmest you have you have peaceful on that fish there's a vast L of a sailor second wish Lama said get rid of the need to be a Muslim and get rid of the need for earliest this means the relationship is compromised you're looking for shameless you're looking for perfection you're looking for our lease you're looking for my Vegas then the summer is not looking for Matt Integris anemia so lave is looking for the truth the ultimate ultimate ultimate core truth and not because it's a moderator not because I can add that on to my spiritual resume it hub the spire so for some people Olam haba is a reward and for some people Olam haba is at the stretch the heist it's a distraction reals NMR this deposit says miso is aluminum midburn mishra pekus al-qaeda who is this one coming up from the mid bar misra pekus he's a chemist Rebekah's know anybody here with a good hebrew mr. a pekus it's beyond infatuation she completely becomes infatuated and golf development overwhelmed consumed wants to just hug like a child is miss rapid he wants to just be hugged and embraced outgoing the elderly demolish the servile a character with Alicia so we now go back to the pasta he said Salem will come a step one alavesa step two una Sonia Shambala Casa baya de her the Shah visa Sevilla is step three the harsh act of Avila cocktail hallo ich beginning of T soft so we're dealing here with the Mahama he said between the two souls but there's two parts of this Mohammed is that which you can accomplish and then there's the gift you get from above the daughter of the king the daughter of the king from above doesn't mean above have means above and you you know kudos to me a cell life there it's a level you're above your enemy it's not anymore on equal terms over there the cabbie wish of visa she VI what's wish a visa she behind you could take out the captain you could take out the captive one who is the captive one very nice of a Sevilla Asia's a fast tire so you have Sevilla you have the lavash image of a dipper of mice of the nefesh a bahamas that you get from alavesa from google in the Kudus alive in shiver you find asia see faster who's Asia's if a state agency faster is your owner Sharma that's also captivity the harsh act of are you desire ins what trad you desire her we desire this woman so he says it's not just you in control of the lavash am your awesome control of the mythos the myth is themselves are transformed because when you have the Ghibli the CUDA salad mr. kotis olive the Middle's can be transformed so there's a cash active or you desire your mid this a transfer now what happens is well Acosta Mahalo Isha the hi new king and Shamima by your ma who take really issue the famous neva Vaishya that day you won't call me Bailey you'll call me is she Bailey means my husband is she means my husband but Bailey comes from the word bow master if she comes from the word like ish and Isha he may ish ish I was called easier than the past success he may ish because Russian I flush he was taking from ish so there's two types of marriages one is there's a master and is a servant and one there's a husband and there's a wife they share a fire so our Shem says he won't call me Bailey you'll call me Ishi he is I know why they I tell you that commandment as I'll be own customer so that Martin Taylor shot a deep in his house in an SEC soul Nicholas color in his collar sure a real evolving Amish that Hassan it creates complete intimacy that's Martin Taylor car wash the area love avocado from the word color likewise my whole heart goes up to you Yoga spinners whoosh along chuckles our tailor our Mitch's Pina mr. tiniest Massa today la how is patinas pinning me is my goodness a label in a submersible Sammamish in order to access the premise of his roster which attracts the plumies Mukunda sol live in its essence not just in this reflection but in its essence Sarris actively as the winners but her shocked about the first has to be the fuch October before you can become her wife her husband Shakeology shave at Hephzibah sir you should really desire it in the rotation he you are I see you I am chakra the rule in life is your spirit brings forth that other person spirits Ruach I see you are juruá generates the other one I'm shackled and wings you are your spirit you are your passion brings forth the other passion and Yas and may love rule EBA Rukavina Schmauss a love yes of the past success if you place to him your all right your spirit your soul he will gather it to him my shaking the magnifier come miss Avila hollow spinning me look at this live idly uncle a clue if he doesn't have a face it didn't either because from the Mesa lathe to get in touch with it and to allow it to come out of its concealment in the world if there's no box upon my soul I am sugar Klum there's no rule I see you if you won't be able to be mum sure his pinion is but if he has his hatred so then Hashem gives him his penis and that pen amis attracts his penis and they become one like a husband and a wife and then you have at her shack the bar the Muhammed takes on a different nature then you have a situation we're thus a hell and myth is themselves become transformed the myth is themselves become transformed why because once you have the you eponymous napadas alive then what happens is one who can reveal that the never Aramis at his core is not evil anymore not only are you in control of the revolution but even the absolutist also becomes masala through the premiere salad this class is brought to you by the yeshiva net please help us continue the classes make even a small contribution at triple w dot they ueshiba net / donate