Follow The Thread | Rabbi Ari Kahn | February 26th 2026

Okay. So mo most of what I'm going to say is completely predictable. I mean to the extent that I don't even know why anybody had to come today because you because you oh para tatsav and it's going to be poor next week. So every and not only is it completely predictable I actually think that I've gone down this path a number of times. The only thing that I will say is that if I've gone down this path I perhaps have stepped on every slightly different cobblestones. So, it's the same path, but you'll get to see some slightly different things, and hopefully it will be informative. It begins with big. So, I'm I'm going to pause there for a moment. If last week the major focus was upon the mishkun itself and for that matter when we started the mishkun it was one of functionality. We need a place in order to put the lot. You need a place to put the l. You need an aron. You need an aron. You need a place to put the aron. So therefore it all seemed quite functional. Now we move to this other level. And in fact if you want I can use two words here. We can use we could say it's a question of honor to to ferret. How do you want to translate that? One of uh glory. So- which means that this place is an important place in order to use this important place or to be worthy to use this important place then the functionaries there need to dress in an appropriate way. So in a world which has dress down Fridays or a country like here that has dressed down every day. So, so per perhaps it's something which doesn't resonate the same way. But in certain cultures, we understand that clothing could be important. Clothing could be significant. Clothing could say something and it could could demand respect. It could demand a lack of respect. It could do all kinds of things. But the word the term beforehand in the earlier part of the same post big kesh that is such an interesting turn of phrase. those two words together, big day and kesh, because the word begged has its connotation of biggida, of rebellion, something treacherous. And you go back, and as I said, this was completely predictable for me to go all the way back, perhaps we go right back to to Adam and Eve. They were walking around in a very informal Friday, right? It was the There's an inexpensive porum cast. >> If you want, you could just say it's vashi. I mean, if you needed to be connected thematically, but begged nonetheless has this connotation of something treacherous. And on the other hand, you have big day cesh. So, I'm just saying those two words coming together really are interesting. you know, within uh you know, those couple of verses between when Adam and Kava realize that they're naked, moving over to this point that they then cover themselves in a somewhat probably ineffective fig leaf, moving on to God providing them with something which is a little bit more dignified and something which is a little bit more permanent. There are commentaries that say it it was it was leather, but they say it was snakes skin. theory of conservation of uh of animals and uh so therefore if you want to wear snakes skin you can dress as Adam and Eve after the sin. So again you have right there this uh this interesting clothing but I don't want to talk about Adam and Eve even though I just did. I don't want to but I'm just saying the big day Kodesh says that somehow we can sanctify our rebellion and what an interesting way of thinking about the Mishkan. The Mishkan is going to be a place that somehow we need to Who needs anti-semmites, right? That that that it's a place that because of our various rebellions requires there to be more holiness. So again, it's interesting. Big day kesh is an interesting thing. But um I' I'd rather pay attention to something else which is coming up very very soon when it talks about how to make these big. If you look at So, being that we don't necessarily have complete familiarity with each and every one of those objects, I'll I provided you with some English here. And those of you who complained I didn't have enough pages of sources. If you want, I can give you the English from each one, and we can double the the amount of pages. And they shall take the gold and the sky blue which is made out of wool because wool is something which is going to be easier to dye but that's wool and the purple again wool which is dyed and the crimson wool and the fine linen. Now some of you who may have some kind of religious sensibility may say oh first of all again it's two stages. First stage is oh that's a problem. Second stage is that's interesting. Or if you want, you can do the other way around. You can first be intrigued. That's interesting. And say, 'Well, isn't that a problem? Well, obviously it's not a problem. You know why? Because God said this is what you should do. So therefore, it's not a problem. But just to spell this out a little bit more, some of us are familiar that there is a prohibition which is called shes. And is the use together and clothing of wool and linen. And now we're told, now you you realize how beautiful it is, big decodesesh, right? this holy rebellion again if you want we are going to move towards pumm at some point and somehow within my lectures on purum this week I got to use one of our favorite words and that was antonyyomian various times and if you don't know what that means so then you have homework to do but but but antonyomian again it could be used in a religious sense and it could be used in other context as well but over here it would be going against the normal laws which means we'll put it this way. If all year round we're supposed to have our minds about us and we're supposed to have ability to have whether we're praying, whether we're learning, whatever, what a strange law is brought down in the that one drinks on pum to the point that they do not know the difference between whatever it was. We're not supposed to know the difference, right? That hmon should be that right and those who are very clever will know that the gamatra of each of them are the same. or H and B Mortai each have a gamatra of 502 and if you can't do that kamatra you've had enough to drink already but but obviously even those who drink you can never get to that level of confusion it's impossible you don't drink and then you say hold it a second so was Hill the good guy or the bad guy I'm saying it just does not get to that point you I mean you will pass out long before then I don't say this from experience I say is based upon uh logic. If anybody has experience that can counter what I'm saying, I'd be happy to back down, but I just don't believe that that's the case. Which obviously means there's something else going on here. But nonetheless, even the suggestion of that becomes again somewhat antonyomian. And if you had to put it in a word in Hebrew and then make it more philosophical, I would say that's that everything is backwards. That's what it means. It means that somehow the rules over here are different. Somehow things do not work on the in the same way and we could have chosen just to continue along that path and that's all what we would talk about. But of course we decided not to. We're continuing with this really interesting turn of big decodeses. And now you realize the big day codesh itself is antonyyomian. How is it antonyyomian? Because it's made out of chhatnes. And chness is something which ostensively is inappropriate. So now let's just back up a little bit and this is on a midrashic level what I'm about to say that when khazal are looking for the origin story of shates it takes us to a really interesting place. It takes us to cayenne and heel. One of them is a farmer and it says specifically he grows linen. The other one is a shepherd and therefore he has the wool. And the medum says that because of the murder that took place by the way get get again to this point of big day kodesh because of the murder that took place there needed to be more holiness in the world and then god created this law that these two realms can't be combined together and they need to be sele if cayen could not appreciate the uniqueness of heel. God is going to insist that some kind of heavil be swallowed up and combined together with cayenne and we need our separate realms. So therefore in a certain sense that this prohibition of shot is midashically again all of you know the shot is it's a ho means we don't know the reason for it and how disappoint and how disappointing that I can give you a reason for it because you prefer to have a a a hulk and have something which is unknowable but instead we can now have this perhaps subjective religious experience that when we stay away from wearing shot is that part of the motivation should be that we need to have a sense of of brotherhood and have a sense of appreciation of others. And then you look in and you see one verse after the other. One says and the next verse says right claimed and so on sh and so on. One verse after the other and you realize hold it maybe there really is something to this. Okay. But let's let us proceed a little bit more. Theoretically then theoretically if I'm following the same path that I just now started then the cohain the religious functionary in the Mishkan or the beta mikdash somehow has needed to transcend all kinds of feelings of jealousy and of hatred and everything which was there within cayenne and he and all dysfunctionality which follows afterwards. Somehow the person who's going to be the religious functionary needs to be able to transcend that. It can't be a question. Oh, I like them, I don't like them. It can't be like I'm going to do him, but I'm not going to have them in mind. No. If you're going to be a Cohen who's going to function in the beta mikdash, you need to be able to have love in your heart which is going to include everybody and therefore perhaps you're able to wear the wool and linen together. And it comes to get again this big day kesh which therefore and that's really interesting correct which means I should stop right now and and not try to uh to to to go any further however it's not just the cohine in source number two. That if you wear the with the blue dye in it, then you'll be wearing sits which has wool and linen. Now, the first thing that you then need to realize that on some level It is not merely the cohane who has this status. It really becomes that every single Jew and I know you think I said Jew. I know you think I said man and I didn't say Jew just now that every single Jew should also be able to function on that level and also have a certain sense of being a Cohen. Let me just fill this out a little bit more. I don't think it's an accident that it says as the conclusion of that section that you all need to be holy which means why are you wearing the wool and linen together because you're holy. I know you could have just said to me no that's but it's not just that because again this is something which is otherwise inappropriate. If you look for a moment at source number three again don't wear which is but what's the next but when you were then apparently you can I mean that's exactly what the garra understood this is normally no but yes but how could it be yes again this is antonyyian I'm not allowed to buy a suit which is 60% wool and 40% linen that I can't do well why Not because there's nothing holy about this. The opposite is true. The law of shness applies to this and to all kinds of things except for the clothing of holiness. And now you realize that we are very very short step from saying and I said it already if you didn't hear it that in a certain sense every single Jew who puts onid puts on a tal especially with the wool and linen combined together at that moment what they're wearing is big day kahuna. That's what they're wearing. They're wearing clothing of a cohane. Although there's another half a step to this and that is something that we explored a couple of years ago and the knowledge or the understanding that's the colors the beautiful colors of all of this of both the coin and these are colors that through a lot of history the average person was not allowed to wear there was a royal color blue there was a royal purple that these were colors of royalty and that may have been part of what contributed to the c I don't want to say the custom to the practice of falling into disuse at some point. Again, obviously part of it could be in terms of geography that especially as Ashkanaz Jews travel far away from where they're making this or so that you you forget. But there also may have been laws that were working against the ability to use some of these colors. But when you now realize this, it's not just saying that every single Jew has has holiness. It's also it's also royalty, but it's royal holiness. The big the big day cesh takes the royalty and it focuses specifically within a realm of holiness. And what's the realm of holiness? Now, I'll go back to what I said in the beginning. And that has to be this point of uh transcending what is very often very human emotions and realizing hold it. I'm here for a task. Again, you're going to do this. And and and what did the verse say in source 2? Get past all the other stuff, all the static which goes around in our minds and our hearts be able to realize that you are holy people. Holy people includes all kinds of interpersonal laws as well. What's really interesting then is when Yakov gives to Yoseph a code of many colors. That becomes really interesting because that is something which may actually be far closer again. What was he giving him? And it really would work into two possibilities. One is he is selecting him as the man who would be king and therefore the royal clothing. The other possibility is that he's choosing him as the man who would be the Cohen. Again, the Cohen followed the Bahour. Yakov very much could have felt that Yseph is my real Bahore. He is the one that he is the child of the woman who I wanted to marry from the beginning and he is the one. But in order for Yseph to be the Bakar or the other way around, in order for Yoseseph to be the Cohen, he has to have in his heart that he cares about all of his brothers. And Yseph absolutely does. But again, we have the dysfunctionality taking place. What is it? Is that all the brothers hate him. All the brothers are jealous of him. So now what what happens when you have a Cohen that everybody hates the Cohen. So So that becomes really interesting because Yakov may have felt that that's the job of Yoseph. Yoseph lives up to this completely where Yseph takes care of his brothers. Yseph does never takes revenge against them. He provides them with with clothing. He replies he he gives them food. He gives them places to live. Which means Yoseph is the brother who feels this brotherhood and and responsibility fraternity. Although it's not it doesn't go both ways. I mean that that's exactly the problem over here. But I'm just saying that coat now gives a little bit more makes this whole thing a little bit more interesting. Now once you realize that the sit have this possibility of being I'll call it quasi quasi cohene clothing to remind all of us that we are cohim. So you just have to think that through a little bit more. And just in case somebody thinks I mispoke before about men versus women, I'll just point anybody learning dafomi should have gotten to this in the last day or two. In source number four, it says Rabby Yehuda. You can all say that you're students of Rabby Yehuda. And if you give me the blame for this, okay, maybe the U won't let me teach her anymore. I'll get every Thursday off. So what's fortunate about this is that nobody understood a word of of what I just now said. Sashi writes right he would put on the on the clothing that his wife wore as well. So uh so there there not only see you could have argued you say okay maybe women could sit but you can't wear why you can't wear it's wool and linen together. So who said that a woman could do that? So the answer reb Yehuda thought that that a woman could or should do that and the garamaru then will use this as part of the the flow of the narrative and there's some questions and so on but I'm just saying is that you kind of can't erase that line and you can't erase that rashi and you can't erase all the other commentaries who go along the same way of understanding and again the only word he may not have owned the inete the people of his household so it's delishto and therefore this talking about his wife as I said rasham and others are understand that's what the line means. Now, now what perhaps should this help us with? What what is your and you all know this it's just a question of I mean it's a question of you accessing what's in your minds but you know this so after I say you'll say oh yeah so what happens where were we a moment ago we were in Bidbar right chapter 15 very end of that chapter and what happens right afterwards which means what follows next and the answer is what follows next is source number six because what happens after chapter 15 chapter 16 and that's korak So, so what does korak have to do with all of this? And again, it it is someplace in your minds. We just have to find it for you. So, what did korak take? So, the yonatan says it clearer than others will say it. Shakulo. Now those of you who are wondering now why in the world of that where did that come from and what is this trying to teach us and what was he trying to communicate so the first answer is it follows the flow of the last chapter and not only that there's another thing which now I'll read it for the third time and it says that you take this and then and you should be holy. Now if you go back and look at see the problem is you have this dangling modifier you don't know what he took but what did he take but it doesn't say what he took I'll tell you what he took he took so he's arguing Where did the last time we saw? Well, we saw it just now with in the context of the tit and the there you saw that we're holy. Now, if you and and again, if if it's easier for you, you can look at Rashi, but Rashi didn't say it as elegantly. Sorry for saying this as I just now did it because there is this really specific flow. See, Rashi assumes that you know what was written in the last verse. Rashi assumes that you're going to do the hard work and do all the connectors. I assume you won't. Right. I know you better than Rashi does. Right. I mean, Rashi tells that. He doesn't say it on the word. So that's why you get a little confused and so on. didn't get if you look at parakeutet right before matanra you'll be a treasure to me all of you are a nation of what's the obvious conclusion of that if we're all co-enim what do we all need to do to wear cohen clothing at least to remind us that We are. By the way, this doesn't mean that we're all I know you'll say I just contradicted myself, but I didn't. We're all in that we need at least a little strength to remind us that we're and everything involved in that, but we can't. But we still have a law of which dictates most of what we do. The Cohen has this on a much higher level. But now when you realize that the fight over here from Korak is about who is the real Cohen, do you realize that really simple connection that I just now showed you? It's at least the midrashic backdrop to this but maybe a little bit more because what is his argument? Everybody's holy. Where did you get everybody's holy from? And by the way, as far as I know, none of the commentaries pointed out that verse, which is obvious to me. But not only did we see it there, we just saw it immediately before this in the context of the titid and the but that actually gives us this tangible visible way of being to connect what really is the cohane and a remnant of it. The remnant is on the sits. The real coal functions in the beta mikdash is obviously very very different. And again if this is too subtle and I apologize but what we're realizing now just following you know the path of what we've seen you know we we started with Adam and Kava and then we moved on to K and he and then we moved on to Yoseph and his brothers and then we we moved on to Korak and Mosha. And by the way, you need if you need to go cababalistically, you will be told that cabalistically korak and Moshe is a replay of cayenne and he if you've never heard that. So no, and by the way, in both cases, you have the earth opening up and swallowing something, right? Swallowing the the blood and then swallowing up the perpetrator of the korak who follows the cayenne. Because what you have are the people who live the dysfunctionality who are full of the jealousy and that is cayenne and that is Korak. And then you have the people who care for others and they transcend the jealousy and the hatred and that really is Yoseph. And that's really what's interesting and that's why he's given this kind of clothing. And then we have Aon who's going to now walk in to the beta mikdash into the Mishkan and he's going to be given this job of wearing this and then he his heart has to be full to be able to do this which means if you ultimately going to ask me so why can't Korak be because Korak is full of jealousy. If you're full of jealousy then that is not that you can't do this and when you argue you know who are you who put you in charge and so on and so forth. So then it it's you realize that there's that there really is true jealousy and by the way his argument is not so much a shouldn't be his argument is that everybody else should be which ultimately he he wants to take this position but as I said is that you you have here in Korak a pretender you have within a somebody who is authentic and it's this authenticity versus this you know pretending which is really going to be the issue all of us pretend Anders get to wear, you know, a limited string. And if your husband is ribbuda, then you get to wear it as well. But that's still going to be far more limited than just saying, "Oh, this law doesn't apply to us." Say this law doesn't apply to us goes back to something which is completely antonyomian. No, we can't throw laws away, but God has the right to say there is a law, but follow this because there is such a thing as big day cages. There is such a thing uh nonetheless clothing which represents rebellion but nonetheless there's holiness over there because we have the ability of living this world of contradiction and being able to transcend past this contradiction and somehow be able to create holiness within a world which is full of lack of holiness. And I again I hope some of what I'm saying right now makes even a little sense otherwise I just should have gone to Boston. >> Right. >> Yeah. No, I think it's amazing to see the thread >> the thread. Very good. >> The nature of a person which happens to this day that there's a jealousy there's tension and the only way that we can rise above it is we have to work on not having that kind of tension that looking at the other person who has a mach and that we're not here to make judgment calls. Yeah. So I really liked that you did the thread that I never even thought I knew and showed something that I never even considered the bed. So thank you. >> Okay. Beautiful. Let us now try to continue. >> Yes. >> Do I have a do I have a choice? >> No. >> Not as beautiful as hers. >> What you said was really beautiful. I'm back if it's why I don't know. >> Yeah. So that's how that's how they would make it and I'll leave it at that for now. But that's what Yeah. Yes. Yes. Yes. Yes. Which means very specifically on that verse is but it's right there is where the Gmorra then goes into the discussion about it of the connection between those two >> in source number 10. we have this beautiful midrash and as Rab Yehuda you know he covers his wife with this uh and see I would actually say the symbol of of of of friendship this symbol of love and the symbol of caring and it's actually beautiful he cover I I don't know if she's asleep she's awake what it becomes just so interesting that he would cover his wife because there's something very tender about that as well of uh you know somebody's cold and you put a sweater on top of them but Rab Yehuda we have this again be beautiful image of caring for his wife. And then we have the midrash in source number 10. And again, I'm going to insist you know all of this, but it's just a question of uh of right of jarring the memory and putting them together. And he goes ask his wife for ad advice. Very simply, his wife would rather be the wife of the rather than being the wife of Korak. That's what the whole thing comes down to. And So if you go back to how the Levites were prepared to become sanctified to become kadosh, one of the things they did is that they shaved all of the hair on their body as part of the process. Okay, that's that's part by the way you I hope you love this because it just gave you insight why he's called Korak because >> he's completely he's completely bald he he's completely which means it's that point it's that point that that that he's fixating on and korak now becomes bald so korak now becomes korak kak if you will it's actually I believe I looked very quickly I didn't say it but I believe there's a midash that also says that he lost what he had and he didn't get what he wants which is like a ter like you okay if you never heard the phrase but I believe that it was there and he started going around public nobody recognized him who did this to you like like what happened you look like the victim of a prank from a fraternity like what in the world happened to you Moshe did this to And not only that they had to pick him up also there's the also has to be lifted picked him up and said now you're and then he brings out and dressed him up as beautiful as a bride like like like you said like like like and put him in the hall mowing. So you you needed a little uh jealousy over here. Look at me. They shaved every hair of my body and they lifted me up and they treated me like this and Aron is beautiful and dressed as beautiful as a bride on her wedding day. So the again you needed the jealousy. This is such an interesting way of saying it. But remember something the jealousy is focused. Again till now we were only talking about about do you realize what I just now did really? It was very subtle. What did I just now did? Did you see it or you didn't see it? He wants to be Coin. What does Cohen have to do with with the Talid? See, I did it and it was so obvious to all of you. You didn't recognize what I just now did, did you? So, let me now have to tell you what I did, otherwise you miss it. Korak is arguing about the kuna. What does a kuna have to do with a tal? What does kuna have to do with? But now you realize because that's what I was telling you from the very beginning is because anybody wearing a and is a quasi. So therefore he could put on the tal of because that's still within the realm of what a person can do and claim but we're and then the midrash tells you exactly what's going on, right? He puts I mean that's the starting line of this thing. He takes he takes the talit. But what if it continues today? But look at look at look at him. He's dressed like a kala. He's dressed so beautifully. He's we but that's the kohhen. So I'm going to say it again. The talit and the are being compared directly with the begot of the kohhen. And both of them are ultimately to some extent big day kesh which is the interesting turn of phrase that I try to show you from the very beginning. So again, it was really easy to just read these midrashim to know these midrashim and have no idea what they're trying to do. So that's what I was trying to show you again that subtle point about the talent and the being connected to first of all they both have this antonyomian aspect to them of the wool and linen together but secondly the reason why they can is because it's big day kesh and therefore again it would seem to me that the talit becomes some kind of a quasi big day kahuna there is an interesting thing in source Number I'm going to skip 11 and 12 first and read 13. There were two very wealthy people who lived incredibly wealthy people. So in case you didn't notice, we just now kind of just now jumped over to Porim. How did we do that? Well, because we're told that they had something in common. There's also something else that you need to notice. And it it frames them both as very wealthy people. You can have people who are very wealthy and very happy because they're very wealthy. You can have very wealthy people who have $1 billion. They want $2 billion. Okay. I don't know. I haven't figured out yet how to spend 1 billion, but but I'm I'm sure you can, right? There's lots of ways to spend a billion dollars. I mean, I don't spend a lot of time thinking about it. I guess the first thing I have to do is get a bigger house to buy more sparum, right? I still have to sneak sparum into my house. Well, my wife doesn't care. She's fine with it. But if but if I'm out with her, where you going to put them? That's a good point. So, they're both very wealthy, but they're not satisfied with their wealth. They want prestige as well. They want to become an ambassador. They want to I don't know. I now I'm going to pick on some ambassador. They they they they want to become knited. They want they want something else which gives them more no >> cover vitifer >> covetifer that's what they want. So what can give somebody more than cover vitifer than actually being the coing god? So it's interesting just to frame this. He has all this money but he wants what money he can't buy. But it but it created a parallel between two people. And again, there's going to be a really interesting subtext over here. I will point out by both of them, there's some interesting things. First of all, what I'm obviously going to move towards is the wearing of the clothing of the king or the Cohen. That's where obviously we're going to go. But I will notice there's something else which is interesting. In verse 11, we're told but the children of Korak, they didn't fall for this children of Korak. Again, we have to saf and so on. So korak they don't fall for their they uh they they are able to have kadusha is descendant of kor. So again, it's really interesting. On the other hand, in source number 12, we're told 12 miban bonu shaman lambdu tora mbra >> descendants of hland became yeshiva students in >> benbra killed >> wow really interesting the gammorra asked the people asked that so they say it must have been his daughter they killed Sarah Ben Haman but he had a daughter remember the daughter who threw the garbage on his head >> yes >> so she had descendants and there's this whole question which we're not going to talk about I wrote about it if anybody wants to read it you'll you'll contact me I'll send it to you about whether someone can from from a malik can convert so this is one of the sources which is which is used which means as much as some of us are bloodthirsty lunatics and your and our favorite mitzvah is right that's the one that we live for but uh getting rid of amalik could take place in various ways again it' be very surprising to some of us that according to the Rambam before you go to war every war you try to make peace with them and if they accept the mitzvah no you don't go to war the Rambam includes Muhammad Malik there that means that if the if the people from Malik accept Mitz Noah you don't get to kill them right if they accept monotheism which means again the way to take revenge against the Malik is to give them religion and give them guilt and therefore you know we we get even with them um on the other hand for the Rambam it is implied that if they want to not just accept shevitz if they want to convert then they can indeed convert and one of the sources it is agadic but there are all agotic sources in this discussion that one of the sources they bring is this one is that hmon's descendants study Torah in pneak others argue that maybe you know what is the line of a malik does it follow the mother does it follow the father maybe this is his daughter's kid so this I you you realize now that there's all kinds of discussions about this none of that concerns me what concerns me instead is this parallel Well, between Korak and between Haman that both of them are people who are very wealthy. Both of these people are full of jealousy and both of these people are people who eventually we see that their kids end up moving in a very very different direction. Both of them moving towards holiness and that and that itself I think is is interesting. What? And again, for some of you, what a disappointing for some of you, I hope. What an enlightened way of getting rid of a Malik from the world by getting all of a Malik to believe in uh in one in in one God. Getting them to believe in uh in monotheism, getting to believe that God created the world for a purpose and for decency. Getting them to get to this point of feeling love and brotherhood and so on. So, I'm saying that there is this other way of uh of of doing this. Um Rav Cook has this wonderful uh quote Cohen God had a wonderful quote that he says that the that again I I don't I'm going to get it wrong right now that that some people complain that there's too much darkness in the world while the fully righteous bring more light while some people complain that there's too there's a lack of belief in the world but other people bring more belief. So the question is is how you try to fix problems. Do you just complain about the lack which is there or do you try to fill the world with good and filling the world with good is such a fascinating idea when it talks about getting rid of uh Amal Lake as well? Yeah, >> just a quick thought is that I think we in a time where build there is hope that you know we see so many students who are trying to who are religious about them. So that maybe this is a message for us to have vote if it was a family member. It's not >> oh 100 100%. Let's continue then a little bit. >> London Torah. >> So there's two different gear. >> There's two different gear. You can take a look. The Gmorra is both here in Eng. You can take a look at Margolio Tayam on the side. Not on the side separate book. You can look there. But yes, there's a whole literature on this or you can read my essay that I wrote about this and uh I collected a lot of it. Namik continue or you had enough already. >> Keep going. >> So in the middle of migil stair source 14 perv. So again I'll point out a couple things as we go on. Um the king can't sleep that night. He's laying in bed and notice something but saydah. How was was Morai nighted? Was Mori given some kind of uh so here we have searching for somebody who is deserving of honor and now you don't realize how important this is yet do you? >> No. Okay, there's many things to read as you're reading through McGill stair. Are you going to wait till poor night to read it? So, if you're going to wait till then, so there's a couple things to notice. One of the things to notice is to keep track how many parties there are. And by the way, almost all of them are not no food is served. It's mist, right? They're all drinking. They're all drinking on empty stomachs. Just just realize it's full of drinking all the way from beginning to end. Second thing is that that Akashir has lots of advisers and different advisers give him different advice. So who was the adviser who said to kill Vashi? It's a trick question. No one. No one ever said to kill Vashi and Vashi was never killed in the book. So she disappears. So which adviser said you have to do something. So that's important. You need to you need to track down which adviser is saying what? Which adviser is saying to get rid of the Jews? So that you know that's Hmon. Which advisor said that you should have a beauty contest, which is not really a beauty contest. It's far more misogynist than that. Who was the which adviser said that? And can you be honest right now? You have no idea. Unless maybe you've read the McGill many times and now you're going to have to go and process in your head to to get to it. >> Wrong. It's actually it's actually comical if I tell you the the right answer. If you look at source 18 for a moment, it was teenage boys gave the idea. Okay. Who? Who? >> It's not fair. >> It's not a fair question. Not only is a fair question, you're not going to forget the answer now. I'm sure. They said you know it's fascinating he doesn't feel comfortable again as far as we know Hmon sorry is somebody who usurp the kingdom he himself the gar tells us was a stable boy he was one of the naramelik so the the fancy advisers that he have these people who are more aristocratic who know all of the things you could do you don't do and so on he doesn't completely trust them they're the ones who leverages him you got to get rid of Ashta you can't you can't keep her he wants to keep Again, he's probably very ambivalent about this, which is why it never tells us what happened to her. On the other hand, who are the guys who say, "Oh, I got a great idea. Let's get all the pretty girls and you collect them all and then you can keep them all." So, is it should I read that again or or or did you believe him the first time? And what happens after Esther wins the contest? What what is the what is the continuation then? So, also you don't remember. So, it's fine. It's fine. You would never yay reading the migilla. If you look at in the same source 18, so they have a celebration of Esther. That means she won. And then they do a second one. Esther already won. But wow, this is such a great idea. Do I need to explain any more than this? So it's interesting that night when he can't sleep, who is in his inner circle around him? It's not the advisers. What does it say instead? It it and by the way, they may be the worst people to get advice from, right? Although he may be the beneficiary of their really bad advice. Um it's at that point that Hammon comes and which is a terrible mistake coming in the middle of the night and he should have waited for the morning and whatever and he asks Hammon you know what should we do and he probably doesn't trust Tom completely at this point and he says that what should you do he thinks it's him so therefore he wants all of this royalty he he desires which means to say that there is a capac comparison between Korak and between Haman. You see this in terms of the clothing as well. The other thing is is afterwards this fails completely and uh Lin Paul you're going to keep on falling in front of him. His wife tells him this once you start falling to the Jews you're going to keep on falling. What else do we want over here? Yeah. by source 15 by and then noelita. So it's also an interesting advice from his wife here along the way. I'm just saying the this midash connection with Korak is much richer than I think that sometimes we appreciate. And then what happens to this clothing? What happens to this clothing? Well, it ends up coming to Morai. But there's this other point about Morai. Mortai's clothing has changed a number of times in the story as well. Back in Peric Dalid, it says that he rips his clothing and then he puts on sakair and she sends him clothing to put on instead. Okay, did we do enough then? Yes, we did enough. Esther puts on her royal clothing. Let's move on to page three. There was one more thing I wanted to say this. Okay, we're we're going to skip a little bit and go to source number 25 and so on. And then it says these are all the same words used to describe the clothing of the which is why the Gmorra says in 26. So that that that's where that question. So now when Hmon wanted the clothing of Akashro, what he really wanted was the clothing of the Cohen, which what's again we're not being clear enough. If Korak is a pretender and Korak can't wear clothing of the Coen God, because it's not that he has in his heart the hopes and aspirations and the well-being of all of his brothers. Quite the opposite. If there's anybody who's worse than Korak, then it's Hmon because not only does he not have the you not only does he not care about others, he wants to murder all of the others. So over here you have like this ultimate pretender for that matter is a pretender. Why is Akasher a pretender? Because Akash is willing to sign off on genocide of a people and he doesn't even know the identity of the people that he signed off the genocide on. Which means when you're when you're going to go back to this point, are you like Cayenne, right? Are you like Yoseph? Are you like Aon? Or are you like Korak? Are you like Haman? You like a veros? Or or perhaps are you like somebody else? And we need to go a little bit a little bit further. Ultimately, this clothing of the king, which we're now told is the clothing of the Cohen doll, and that's the fancy clothing that he has. So, who's the one who gets to wear this? So, that's Morai. So, and and that we can find only when we move all the way down to do we finally have wearing the clothing. Source 24, which again I gave you the English here. know what ingredients we have there. Morai went forth a sky blue and white with a great golden crown, fine linen and purple wool garment. What is Morai wearing right now? He's wearing shot. He's wearing shottness which you did not necessarily ever notice. And this goes back to this Antonyomian aspect of Purim because Morai now is wearing shness as being taken about. We can give all kinds of explanations and say all kinds of things about it. But now realize again you may not have ever just gone step after step and think about it. If Akash is truly wearing the clothing of the Coen that means that it has shness in it. If you re if Hmon wants to wear this that means that Hmon again becomes like Korak because he wants to wear the clothing of the Coen. If Morai gets placed upon us, well, Morai is the person who has the wellbeing of the entire people in his heart and therefore Morai actually becomes somebody who's more appropriate. But there's somebody else as well which will uh which we'll get to in one more second. F first I want to note something which may have uh eluded us as well. If you look on the very last line of s of of page two, source 19, it's the sharak laws of migillah and this is the strange law. First of all, this goes to my preamble before we started. You allowed to get married on you realize all kinds of problems can come out of this. Yes, it was a joke. It wasn't a joke. I was serious. I wasn't serious. Anyway, the Rama adds regarding the custom of putting on masks. And I thought at some point of going much more into the masks and to crossdress this and what I'm about to read mystifies everybody except for you. Now you'll know and also people who want to wear some types of who in the world would ever want to wear sh or some kind of rabbitic on purim unless you're wearing the clothing of morai which is the clothing of the coening which may have then wool and linen together which again that may have made no sense whatsoever until you learned everything prior to this and then it seems to make a little bit a little bit more sense. >> So it could be that they didn't want to actually allow real coll and why would anybody have a desire to do it? It's a bigger question like where's the there's a lot of yates in this world. I understand one I don't understand is why men want to do it in the Ezra nashim. I never understand that. Right? I don't know if any women know this. If there's no women in the sh there's got to be men in the Ezra nashim. Why? >> Then a woman walks in and they shoot her. No, no, no. They can't. In your sho, in my sho. First of all, first of all, I tell them I tell someone to tell them that it's a school to become uh trans. >> Oh, really? >> Yes. You have no idea how that chases people out of there so quickly. >> I said I've seen in holy books that this is what happens if you thin me. >> Yeah. Yeah. But we uh No, I've I've I've said in said not ding over there. They said, "How can that be?" I said, "Not y not ying." Anyway, mitzvah. You could argue with me on this, but let's go back. That was really interesting just in terms of, you know, the dressing up. Also, the crossdressing is different. We we'll do some more crossdressing in a moment as uh in a moment as well. Not we, but we'll do it. Um, in source number 22, the Zohar says, So again, you want this in English that we know we have a tradition that ever says the melik in the migilla it's really God. So if she's standing outside of the entry to the place where the king is that means she's standing outside the beta mikdash and and that's really important much more radical and if you've heard me talk about purim then you've heard me say what I'm about to say again now and that's source 23 also from the zor everybody knows at some place in their minds that there's some kind of connection between purim and yam kiper yum kipurim so the actual context that says it is one which is mysterious to some people in source 23. And I'm going to read the Hebrew part, the Hebrew translation, which is in brackets the next paragraph. When beautiful clothing is put on, what makes clothing beautiful? That is clothing of atonement. That is the tits that the calling wears that includes the four types of white clothing that the calling god wears when he enters into the inner sanctum and the four clothing was called big which represents the forces of the leftal at the moment that the coing puts on all this beautiful clothing of atonement. What makes it beautiful? It's atonement. When the co gets to this level of atonement, what level has he achieved? What verse applies to him? Esther he gets to the level of Esther when she put on the royal clothing as she was about to enter in to see the king which means what is and that's how she entered in to the inner sanctum to see the king which means what the zor is and and a couple lines later it says and that's what it means yum kipurim that purim is like yum kiper because Esther is dressed as the kohhen cuz she I have to add a line over here. She's not going in there because she really has a thing for Akash. She's not going in there because she loves to party. She's going in there for one reason and that is that she loves the entire Jewish people. She's willing to sacrifice everything about her life to save the entire Jewish people. which means is that she is a cohen her which means and again this is so important to understand midrash and to understand truth. What did Esther do that day? Because you could be cynical and say well she put on a little makeup and then she hooked up with a ver and if you say that you may be historically correct but you're religiously wrong. What did Esther do that day? She walked in with the same devotion, with the same cavana, with the same inner world as the kohhing walks in to do the avod which means she walked in her emotional truth was she is the cohen of that moment. She walks in at that moment with one thing in mind that she cares about the entire Jewish people to save the entire Jewish people. So what clothing would you wear then? Then you can wear sh then you can wear the clothing of the coango because that's who you are. So therefore now I mean this whole talk today was about this antonyomian aspect and now again it's not just but his wife can you imagine this by the way is right is so she also is from Yehuda from the gar is the whole thing is his father from from his mother's from Yehuda but she's his cousin she comes from the same family she's also remember yehuda was the one who put the on his wife she also is able to wear and by the Yehuda and binyam the com combination between the two of them geographically that's where the beta mikdash was it was the combination of yehuda and binyamin that is the keshakin that is what Esther is that is this point of holiness so therefore and I'm going to say it again there is a thing called historical truth and then there's a thing which is called emotional truth and there's a thing which is religious truth and the religious truth is full of this porum is an antonyyomian Purim is full of every vin everything is upside down. Everything is wrong about this. But we had this strand over here the strand of clothing the strand of the strand of shot and going into those you know going in from the very beginning the concept of big day kesh going through the tragedy of kim and he if you want to start early about that's fine with me but going to tragedy of k and how see the same thing is played out again with korak and mosha but it's not mosha it's korak it's not it's korak but it's korak it's this jealousy and then we see this really interesting comment that korak and h it's coming from the same place and they both are very wealthy people whose kids see right through them which is fascinating and it's great and the kids end up finding Kaduca and then there's hope. You also then see that they are pretenders and they can't wear this clothing. It's going to be their downfall to wear this clothing and on the other hand and then they probably both get bad advice from their wives as well. But instead we find something else. We find somebody who can wear this clothing and it's placed upon him and that's Morai. we find somebody else who wears this clothing and it's far more dramatic and it's somebody whose entire life is destroyed but it's destroyed at this moment that she's trying to save the entire Jewish people and that's Esther. So of course Esther is the god of putting on the clothing because somebody like that can wear clothing like that because that is not something which is sorted and that's not something which is compromising values that is something which is the emotional truth of what took place at that point is that Esther truly is the coal and as I said follow the thread follow the lead follow what's taking place over here because ultimately every single Jew has a little bit of Cohen in them every single Jew has a little bit of coal in them every single Jew needs to know this but it's Not just that you wear this and that. No, you wear this and it has to be transformative. You wear this and then you feel the responsibility. You wear this and then you feel the kaduca. You wear this and then you feel that there are other people over here that we live our lives for others as well and not just for ourselves. And that then becomes this completely different uh identity. And then you understand how Rab Yehud is able to feel that this is not just me. This this needs to be my everybody my everybody needs to feel this. And you have people like this, like Rabbi Yehud, you have people like Morai, you have people like Esther, and you have people like Auron. And God is saying that all of us ultimately should be to guide.