Ferbrengen 2 Nissen , Rabbi Shmuel Lew London - 5785

told me I think it was one one of those years so this is already it's about six weeks before my birthday did they ever said to me until then after that any time I wrote I have a birthday what day the week it was I didn't know they there another 40 Days so what you I didn't know what to tell the he said is chabas and I didn't know and uh the opened up a drawer and in it there was a of with a picture of the on it and he opened up this and it said yes chab you should for the or for the that's who had a birthday on a Friday whoever the re very often will talk about the day of your birthday I know many B whose birthday fell out on a Friday never falls on a Friday but who birthday fell on Friday that year very often the would tell them before could be you do it Friday night or shabas morning but on the the week of your birthday of the day of your you should do it on the day itself and that's to all of us because what it means is that on way I understand it is you're looking for extra extra you're going to be anyway and if you're not going to take that half hour that hour out in the middle of that Friday you'll be doing something useful that time as well is saying it's we know this and of it has 10 related to like for example say did you manage even when you saw me and and you know say all extra and so the is a very important day for everybody and when it's not the you might think seven eight months ahead it's it because the is similar to the of and one year that was the theme that the spoke about is that which is in this time is the how do you know it where where's the where M no where M mes no compared I'll tell you it's in another saer which you might know there's a saer an old ancient saer it's called from you can check it out from and it speaks there about the of why what is some special about what's the special the a child the nails and the hair already ready an hour before a day before the child is born it's a lot so what's so special about the day that somebody is born and the answer is because the the the Uber the child before he's born is in the mother's womb and you cannot live without sustenance without any nutrition and you cannot live without oxygen but the baby doesn't breathe and doesn't eat the mouth is not working yet so he's the expression of he eats what his mother eat in other words her diet it has to sustain him that's what they say when a woman is expecting she should be more more careful about her lifestyle including the food that that one eats and breathes she breathes in that's he gets it when the child is born that the order changes in other words the said this in in other words birth means becoming independent until then he was living from his mother and the that day is the big day because it means that that's the day that you became a person not just something that's going to depend on somebody else and that's what it says took a nation out of a Nation it means theen were in and they were exposed to that culture and they were vulnerable to that culture they came out of said you now your mind now you are that's what you and you don't need anything else you got the a so anyway everybody here has a birthday this [Music] year we should all go out of we should all go in one of the most beautiful beautiful Concepts in is the beer of that you go from from bad to good but the real real real beautiful thing it's it's it's revolutionary is a thing which is what happens with a how is he going out he suggested how is it s doing the person who has abandon everything he good he's like he's doing everything he has to do it's the it's called it means even though you've achieved a lot and you're doing very well and you didn't get there by itself you struggled some things you struggle a drop some things you struggled a lot some things took your time you reached a certain level and you say it's been already so so long that I've been keeping this and thing well I've not been doing such and such thing it's a it's a very great achievement It's a Wonderful achievement but it says is something that you you're aiming for a and it's a connection to the it's a connection to the it's a connection to the infinite and no matter how good you are they can be more that's a re revolutionary concept it's called in is called that where something is as it should be but you're not happy with it because you're happy but you're not satisfied they never told a in my day that's 66 years ago the wasi he's today in already I think anyway so uh and the gave him tasks gave was a brilliant B he knew my he knew this and always gave him something to do so what time he was in his birthday and he told that you know you must be really disappointed in me you're never happy what what I'm doing so the told him I remember how I read it the story him telling it in interviews but I I'm going to say a sentence that I didn't see in any interview but I remember him saying it back in your test I have a certain nature it's a nature that I don't want to change see this is to change this is a a which I don't want to change namely I'm happy with everything you do I want more you put it in English words it means I'm happy with everything but I'm not satisfied with anything that's called g g is a it's it's it's a an infinite goal you cannot say I'm aiming I'm going to be I'm going to learn I'm going to get I'm going to get this I'm going to get that I'm going to become a doctor you have deal any in any thing in the world I'm going to go and earn enough money so I can buy myself a little cage a house this that whatever any goal you have in life people have a goal and they're happy and then they sit back and comes to again and that's what p is that's what is it means you can always do more and it's not in in a way which is ungrateful or not validating what you did already you're someone who is so capable and I want to help you to become even bigger than you are and better than you are and to achieve more than you achieve ask for questions all the time I didn't ask this time not because I forgot it I like that question because I want to I want everybody to partici you hear what say if anybody wants you can say on the day of of of of that's going to be now 67 years ago he's [Music] coming and I heard it from Rabbi shom beov he's a in Montreal from Russia R and he was a b then in Manchester and they did the so they they they did they deal dealt with all the things these B together with etc etc so I was fascinated I was just my first year Ina I was a few years already learning this but my my first year and I just the whole fact that every about a relative and this so he said she that she said that uh three things I remember from there one was that they asked the what to bury him in and the said in his and the second thing was that um that that she said that that last P which was a few weeks before he was he he followed very very closely try try to keep up with with the things that said and she found it difficult that I didn't say in the interview and and the third thing was and the third thing was that when he would write to the re a letter it's a brother writing to a brother he didn't write like a brother to wrote like a because if he was any mistake or something he would start again he want to send it like like like neat and nice and that's okay good ask any question you want um it so I want to talk about this goes I just heard a story this week from Rabbi naali l t and he read it that Rabbi Groner said that in the in the kin years in the years before the of the somehow or another he and Rabbi he didn't know which I think was probably RAB from later from Chicago RAB krinsky brother-in-law it's about the same age they were and the asked them to produce a of the I imagine he didn't know exactly what I I was probably they were IM mographic you know they used to type the M onto a stencil and then you print it we roll it you know what that is you know what that is what and they said yeah look like an old fashion WhatsApp but no no aaph was it was a thing made of rubber or of plastic or something a sheet and you typed or you wrote on to to it with holes and then it and it Go went on to a drum which went which you turned around well they sometimes they had electronic ones and it had ink in it so we print out this this only typed from The Originals that you got and the were who did it to get spending money they would type for the other and they would type 20 copies and they sold it for one cent a page I think which was a lot of money in those days it means it can cost you 50 cents a big F or something and um the first the second the first page wasn't cheaper but the more expensive second page was the best because the first one sometimes had he had a tin very hard second page they charge maybe two cents I don't know with some kind of a the way they sold it and the 20th page must have been cheaper you you need a pair of glasses to to read it and um so they made like that a very thin onion paper it was called because the Reit did not allow them to print anything that was built in m and that change that was upgraded in they used a spirit stencil that's what they used also in something similar not not exactly the same and that came out and I think was the first one when they actually had stencils then then later they started you just for I can't hear when did start you're moving over to my wrong ear when did start allowing guilty muger he allowed me the question is when did you allow to print it and to what extent it when it became public that it's really something which is not muger sometimes was every area if you read through the I try to read since gim a little bit of igis every day the the the pure breadth of the but there's also a depth I saw in the I went in there before they were typing up was ail it says but they wrote and the made a circle around he said I left this out that those two words purposely because for that in this didn't fit another time I saw they prepared they would prepare suggested they never added whole and sometimes they took the all these long which the would make was 99% taken from the somewhere else but I saw one which was a whole big thing you know a whole big and said it's not relevant here for example so built is like it can be a word that's not and sometimes it can be much more than that it could be something which is which is wrong um rabri inas toldly he wrote an he writes an article every week in and he wrote something and he wrote a story from the G and theat was not 100% correct it was and that he that he went once in 13 years to go home and see what's happening with his property with his with his fields or whatever and you and and you and they someone told him how did you leave you and he said die but so somebody in in this article had it somehow not exactly as it is uh and he was called up by a a very very not that person he told me who it was a very famous person who was bucking everything and he said never say this he asked this told me that this it was not RAB he it was a quote from a different publication which had a slightly wrong in in that gamor and he said I took it from there so this said if I would have to and find out how work that's how much he trusted he but I just wanted to check out is that is that what really said so you see what what can happen this so um the that was there's times that you know I thing which was said the one said in a came from and the said I didn't say this certain thing and they said somehow it sounded like it in the end asked for the tape to be played for him and said listen to the tape like like his head like very very deep conentration and the Reba heard it and the said I can see where you got that impression from but that wasn't what I was saying this is so lat years if you as you wrote B mug in those days the rule was every page had to say B mug and even though it was not printed now later they printed it as long as it's on the cover this isil so with the the world knows that this is prepared by what year question is what year did what year so I said he allowed it to be typed and then he allowed it to be on the blue it was called a spirit stencil it what Happ you would write on a on a paper on a like on a on a it looked like a piece of paper but the back of the paper was like carbon paper it had some kind of in it could be of any color those pages and we made the camp magazines G I remember because I used I was an editor in Montreal that was that was and if I would known I would have brought one here today from the p i find from those Spirit probably from B the allowed stencil still not printed Mish printed I don't remember exactly when um you I don't remember it was probably you know maybe I don't know that when when things came out like you know much more it's it's fantastic how how much of the's Works was people had because they wrote notes I wrote for about 6 months I didn't write in the summer was after and in the winter was 10:00 at night and I I'm able to write very very quickly I was able and I would write very very quickly what he wrote scribbl it and then I went home I lived in Williamsburg I had a room in the dormatory but I I had my house was a half hour I went home and I sat through the night usually and I ride it out very very neat and Sunday I took it to the post office and sent it to BR to gold and uh so for those months that I did it once asked me those after they asked people for and somebody asked me to see the of this this very very very long M and I fact it to him you know what the facts and and uh uh so people gave those things later on and sometimes you can tell because the said what is is when K there was either a fullblown k i i just wrot what he said but sometimes he would he had to leave he had to go but he said in the and he could say in less than a page but would take five pages for him to write to be able to flesh out because it was you know that's all part of the thing but the is not that it gives you a whole different perspective in the whole 10 pages but was you know a person was able to to operate on that hi everybody here by the way so anyway so those are the questions you can ask other questions also now so anyway come back to the story so the RAB asked Rabbi Groner and Rabbi they were B to prepare this M for and this was maybe it started or even I don't know but they were working on it and it was O and they were working and working and um Mrs Groner nobody here remembers her was Rab's mother was a of the of the original the his daughter and uh she called up to 770 was a a public phone and she said I need you at home you know come home need a pair of hands so then the came down from from the second floor where the was and the Reb said and the Reb said yeah so so he the said that he was by the by the and he the asked is that m to me out for p and uh the Reb said to the re yeah working on it it will be out so said so the said then gr told the this mother him up so the said for for the it's worth you know tell your mother this is from the and that's in itself a big thing and what it means is that come this the time of you want to know one of my it was on this living Torah I just saw last time I missed half of it about how to be they had about four or five people and all of them one was myself that I saw one was Rabbi vog one was in one or two others and all of them said learning learning my my learning what I learned it had to do withing and learning you connect your mind to the me you learn the it elevates your whole mind your whole perspective your whole life your life becomes more successful your way of thinking the way look at the world you can't push it you have a grip on life but the biggest reward is you have but besides the learning there's also sh for the something you don't share is a selfish act we have towar I I was in 770 one of the only guys did understood English and used to go to universities and to youth groups I went to many many places for shabat I went away 5 10 times a year to universities for shabas then with RAB he ran so I wrote to the maybe I'm going too much and maybe I'm not going enough I I I never asked anybody I just went when they asked me would you go I went I loved going I loved going and and seeing how you can get people interested and did all these things but I asked the am I in my am I doing what I'm supposed to be doing and in to me since whenever you go you check it out with the it's according to the of do exactly what you doing till now in other words sometimes this this certain time which is set aside from that's that's your own a special for that that's the created that before they started in the L and theid Friday afternoon you wrote a letter home you went to the laundry people did exercises they did different things people didn't some took a nap so you have he'll be have to step late Friday night to and then other you don't have this this is spend the Friday afternoon it's the most precious time because it's your time and they giving it to this is this is unbelievable it's unbelievable sometimes you're doing it and you don't realize how what a big achievement it is and you see who get just read the story about a this year pu they went to some stle D and then we got they got a uber back no no they got a ride back and then they found out that the driver was actually Jewish so one of the hour was driv something said you you should hear the Milla put just this just a couple of weeks ago so the kai says I got to go home sorry he says I'm going that way also and he went with him in the car and he said and he read the Milla for 30 minutes whatever took him to read the Milla quick as he could in the car and and then and and the guy listened captive audience then when he finished he said okay this where I got to get off and he took AA back I I had from such a story the want to see somebody do a not his own G he doing it for somebody else now somebody came to the rebba and he said he had a major substantial sum of money that he wants to donate he was another a c and one of the native to one of your projects and they talk about a very very large sum of money and the said donated to maybe well I don't I don't remember if that was the place was part of the story but said give the money from she says that's not what I'm talking about that I'm talking about like something like a big building or some kind of a thing so they say you big building a thing you you have to go some to somewhere else you're asking me what's called big to me is big now there's a here in England by the name of M donov and he told somebody this story say just mention it and this man said wow I hereby sponsor all your whole mat for this year is that's great isn't it you every was thinking how can I get a guy like that the answer is that he probably cultivated that guy for the last five years not it's not out of the blue he knows that this is somebody's going to do it he's impressed with what he does and he's happy to be part of it so I'm telling you this story because I want to tell you a story of the which I would imagine you never heard ever before I heard this story from my son-in-law RAB Shima in Rancho Mirage California some you might know him know my sister is married to David your sister is married to David oh you right for yeah wow Ben mil yeah that's she she is not the only we have in the family by a long shot but he's the only anyway so all right so have aim told me this story he's in Ranch Mirage and there is er there is like a lot of people come there from Los Angeles many of them have a house there with a swimming pool we as a mikah you whatever or from Chicago a lot of people to in Chicago Ranch Mirage to a certain type of people is they they have their summer or their weekend house over there but there also people from the East Coast that come a lot a lot of from so he told me there was one somebody there I think or something like Hungarian from vinand the KAS a very very kous operation in vinand and the man said I'll tell you a story of the story of the that he heard I believe from his father his parents was from his parents a story that happened in 1940s before they ever came to America you know 1940 41 when the the was in Paris or others in France and uh the Nazis occupied Europe and it was a very very frightening dangerous time and here's this from couple and and they couldn't get matzes hand matzes it was very hard to find the place it wasn't that popular they never made it popular in the whole world even when I was a boy in New York there was two or three places where they made baked mat today there's a 100 places anyway and so with all of the pressures it was very hard to get mat and one night about 1:00 in the morning knock on the door they were Mish terrified the middle of the war with an occupation so the man says who's there and the voice says he says was the he says his name then a young man you know 40 years under 40 years old he said the MS you know said his name say they open up the door and they say yeah what can I help you at 1:00 in the morning you know what are you coming for so the said have you managed to find a place where you can get and they thought that was like something wrong with him coming at 1:00 in the morning question where M they said no we haven't found it yet we're very Hungarian so the said look you're trying and I'm trying if you find somewhere with they have please get to me also and if I find a place where they have mat where where they're baking Matas I'll get for you and he left and they the couple said to themselves strange man funny kind of thing anyway him upon him about a week 10 days later 1:00 in the morning knock on the door and they got scar again who's there and he says and us so said I don't want to use the word that they used same the same whatever and they open up the door and had a package of he said I manag to get and these are yours he gave him under Nazi occupation I tell that because the they say somebody asked the once in France likely that same year he asked you know where did you get mat and he said don't have just have to the and then we had potatoes or something people didn't have there was no m i saw in the Soviet Union in the 1980s they asked us to bring in mat to send in mat it's perishable it's get used out and there were hundreds of B you know so they they they had to and and you you have to just eat fruits and vegetables any other questions okay Another Story Another from ah all the things that you hear from older people that's but you know I'm not I'm not that's what happened I'll tell you some things [Music] say the one thing that I really remember and I don't know anybody else I don't remember if anyone all these years it's 60 years the second night I think it was the second night and while in middle of at some stage said what time is it looks like wanted to have the even the second night remember just said what time is it andan of cats you heard of him he was he was the one he was a businessman in Chicago this guy and he was a major supporter at a time when there was no no people around that appreciated it he gave a lot and he was also the and he was the one that said the he was the the the leader of the of the S earlier years he didn't never beard even later he had nice so he said to the put to one which means it was already summertime so it means you wear a watch on y like with a p and he said no he pointed that was I was near near at the doorway was the thermostat and there was a like a clock with with hands like the oldfashioned clock like little little clock on the on the thermostat he said I saw on thermost to one and I remember that because a lot of people don't realize that in we don't wear watches on I heard from someone that the once people always work it's not a problem I I think they they should take a big plate or a big something big K and everybody should put down their their watches there J pick them up after um do not wear a watch on shabis is different story shabas everyone understands shabas because you don't wear a watch as a a piece of jewelry not a gold watch or something you wearing the watch to another time what the they used to say chabas how do you know how do you you know chabis how could you tell if it the watch is AIT or or or just something you're carrying they said in case the watch stops it's not going would you wear it if yes then it means it must be made of it's an accessory it's gold it's women watches we used to be like that now you so that was something you wore not because of carrying if of knowing the time you wore it because it was a fancy thing and if the person said I wouldn't wear it once I don't know the time mean you you wearing it order to another time you're carrying it but that's shab you can find other but it's not a thing to wear a watch could use the watch you can hold it in front of you you look at the clock anyway so that's that's one thing I remember even though it's not of the S as such but it's something that happened at a s and and that was the that was the last time I was in New York before which was the last year that there was a s upstairs in the second floor another thing I remember I remember seeing you know eating the the I remember hearing the saying afterward nishas it was a completely completely different type of there is a tape somewhere of where I offered it from Israel uh who remembers the very very well exactly how the said it was like like you classically you hear with a certain that's how you heard that saying strongly and loud it was like a very very intense experience now I remember something else until when the rebit mother was with us at the end of the sa that would walk home that would walk I once follow them down Kingston Avenue de would walk one step behind his mother life just half a step behind he was always like like in the front sort of and something which I never saw but I heard from a not kavich person a rabbi in New York a 95y old Rabbi and I I heard it from youngite you know younger guys like 75 year old who saw at my age that's anyway so uh They said that the Reb would go home with the rebbit that night the PES and uh there would meet the Reon was wait on by Union Street there would and from mun Street they won't come together that where the K was you know where the K building is behind 77 if they ever stopped they ever stopped at other Sedum stopped to visit other sedor that's what when did he stop he's asking if ever on the way on the way home no visited SAR before the and this was after the but second s the re spoke on the it was it was it was it was G what happened they finished the S they P the uh I saw this many times but no one no no one remember even didn't remember the exact same that ever pour the wine into his from his into the always back and forth into the main bottle it you know it was a whole and they sang Kata the whole time and then they continued singing Kata the whole time and the never went down and then then in previous years they never worked his mother home but every every year even afterwards well it's only one uh you a few more years that e came down with a and he explained the was the of the second night of P look at them learn them choose a year one year is in he asked about six seven questions and they get one answer which was the of the whole of of yeah that but you look any year take I was there it was an incredible and imagine that everybody's coming after the S started at about 2:00 in the morning and went for a couple of hours and there was obviously no because you don't drink after the after and it was but I'm going to tell you one that I remember I I was in with my father in Williamsburg so I walked probably with Sim what yeah good guess wasn't the guest anyway so Simer is a guy you know what he did on n he went to sleep at 4:00 woke up at midnight and learned the whole night a ma Midler anyway so I I walked with him was like a people told we walking that through the whole B at 1:00 in the morning but sometimes people said 1 1:00 in the afterno it might have been more dangerous anyway so we walked and the the Reba had in the upstairs and it was the 200th anniversary of the of the that the whole year that was told about the and it was a beautiful and I remember that the Z upstairs was not full by any means I don't know if was half full was packed together to be near the re very very so that was the they used to call it the that's in the Press not the Jewish papers would call it the the S after the S and and and uh so that's another thing which I remember very specially now I'll tell you something else which I remember and I want to tell you from a story that happened I wasn't there this one I heard from my brother-in-law rabbi yafi in Manchester jaffy that the it's known did not go to the bakery on AR P many went um I don't know why but I I heard from RAB I heard privately from shim he was the a big big big major everything he said that he told me that the never went and they asked him he was not and they asked him why don't you go he I'm certainly going to find some kind of a pick book I'm going to find some kind of a question and that I won't be able to eat the but here gave so I have the people who gave me the I I I I always think of that story but we love for sure but was by get by collecting the the evening before and G in outside 770 there's a pipe with water and the comes there and he had like a a thing like this with glass such a like a little picture without the pretzels obviously just it was a special thing just used for PES and there was big a big jug let's say 2 three gallons maybe I don't know Dr maybe this size glass jug and the would rinse it out quickly three times he would rinse out the other and they s k by the way we the whole crowd outside there and would pour in three uh little pitches into the big jug and uh now that's known this this this there on Jam you can see that in Jam but what's not as well known is that the also was in for other places especially they sent mat that was usually B I think that the would take the collect and they bake M the next day and also the did it for the B so one year they asked the re which day they should bake the B should bake the Matas and the said and he was the RO officially on the Mattis so he told the Reb would you mind if you do it on on on we if we bake on Monday he had some something was urgent on Tuesday he had to do so he asked the can we bake up Monday and said yeah okay let it be Monday and that means that has to take the on Sunday you with me everybody Sunday night [Music] night was that Rabbi khov a book should be written about him was was a like you know anywhere else he'd be a himself or he was a and as a of and uh ROV at the end of every day until one day they fainted one night just sitting there in the office he would go into the Reb's room before the re went that was the last thing of the's day was a meeting with RAB it was sometimes 5 10 minutes and it could be an hour I understand that they made calls to well they did what what did they did in that time was usually you know 10 15 minutes it was things that accumulated the day probably that was that was the S when when he gave it over to the de that's generally every day to one day he fainted I think about 3 in the morning or something and and they ever told him that when it's very late he shouldn't come that was much later years after my time at now umov would go into the before would start at 8:30 night in the winter it was already after myv but in the summer there' be a break somewhere in the middle at about it could be 9 10 no not 9 it would be about 10 11 even 12 late you know late at night and there will be a break between for before y started about 8:00 in the evening 8:15 went into and one of the things he brought was I think the list of who's coming in tonight a list of the names of who's coming to tonight and he had this list and then in the middle of Y maybe 10 11:00 RAB KH would walk in again to the rebba to see if he wanted anything any instructions so this night when they already took the goes in at 8:15 before about 6:00 time he goes into the and the said what's happening with which was a funny question because he never asked it before so said they took it the B took it the the matah bakery was not on on on Al like it is today it was in the East Side in Manhattan on Broom Street raash kov pof's father was the he was the head of IT big also he was the head of that Bakery and it was on at a building on the east side with it was like in the basement of an apartment house or something and it was pretty primitive like it was steps Stone steps very steep going down and then ER there was no equipment you know as it was in the early in theth and so said they took the water and they went to the side finished but later a couple of hours later went into in the middle of he would go in so he went in and he walked into the Reb's room and the re said two times in one [Music] night that ask such a question so he made a mental note that when I get back to my office I'm going to phone up right away to find out what's happening at the at Bakery we didn't have to bother as he walked into the office the phone was ringing and the the it might have been bar that I'm not sure there was a b who was in charge of the baking of the Mattis and he was crying they took this jug this glass jug and they're going down these steep Stone steps and it fell and it smashed and they were Mish to and you can't get my mayal the same night has to be earlier it's water very very upset so said what to do he went in he told the that was very upset but it broke what should we do and then gave a big smile and said I said it's going to be Tuesday now so I like that story it's a beautiful story because the didn't say look we have a plan B this is the plan this we not another I believe part of it was he was addressing the B shouldn't be upset because the result of it is that instead of doing the thing you're doing the my story a lot you can learn from it about Sensitivity I give you one more story you a story that went out of the and he met on Street excellent I usually interrupt myself in the middle of how how I I never saw it so I would imagine that the ne stayed by her mother in that appear time or something where she came down after 2 hours and she 2 hours and two4 hours or something everything was very very careful that everon once came out of the house on a Friday it was late Friday night that hadn't come home she was worried she came out and she saw B and she asked was there her bring you tonight so something she didn't know he said no she said where the man she said to him do you mind going and just checking everything okay 7 70 and she this like across the street I'm pres the street and uh they're walk to the corner he said okay so starts walking and the minute he gets to the to un to Brooklyn and president they see the turning the corner so he started running away so the Reon said you don't leave a woman alone in New York streets at night and so H so the Reon was probably ER behind you know by the co behind the co it was like to go for that that that's where the place was and they would meet there and and went home this I heard I read about this I never saw that I saw with my eyes that walking home with the also shim laar you heard of him went to buy so if shim lazarov was asked by to be for she lived in like a small apartment in the back the bottom floor in 1418 president and he did it couple of years and uh I heard this from himself when he finished he told please God next year and the said ah next next year you'll make your own in your own house in other words you'll be married and uh the interesting thing is that the was nostal six months later and Sh got engaged somehow around it worked out that he was just married then to do it and as as a m for doing the uh oh somebody gave the a Talis c a very special Talis cuton but it was it was cotton not not it was not wool but it was very this whatever you know all the levels and gave it to and he told him give it to so gave it to sh Lazar for having done the uh for having done the ask if he wears it you know you can always wear it together with another one I think he I don't remember okay one more story then we wait for questions what which did he use the had his s and had of on the on with him at the table he had the first print from that he used to when he explained parts of the it had like this was in was in red or orangish red uh uh it was not just one color the only safer of course of the said it said was in a different color but it didn't have the cover didn't have the soft cover that they they had it was either that how it came out the original Edition or de had one without it maybe you know he got the first print or the first I'll digress for a minute last year gim I was at and I met Rabbi krinsky kinsky and he was there with a song he was just coming from the oil I actually had been there already before I was there to give a talk uh of in one of the buildings with the night of and he has a minor lotion which used is min Lo and uh it was in a in a in a special folder which with plastic cover on each page you you you had to turn just the plastic cover so you never touched the actual page he offered me to go in and use it the is min but he told me this I said what's the story of it he said that I was using this and then they printed one of it's a small pocket size it's the size of a pat let's say that the the length and the width and then they printed one which was the size like a regular size so they had two they used to be two you remember two different minor lotions so he got the re a new one uh a a uh you know one what was bigger and easier to read and then you not ripped or anything and he gave it to the rebba when he took him to the so the rebba took the old one that he had and he G gave it to and he said nah that's what he said n told me the story so he said he had a suff but said n does that mean put it where it's supposed to go in the library and where it is or does it mean it's yours and he didn't know what it was he said about five months later his car got stolen so we went to the he told my car got stolen the's first answer was was was the so then he knew it was his was his car asked him is was the the wasn't in it but that for that he understood that it's that he can keep it just on the side so that so that the they never used was one of the that put out there was one year when they printed a run of the you know the small little ha this small little tiny this really they printed that plain simple ha a big addition of it really they did it because for the theit to use but they felt if they to tell the to make you a big one you know so what they did they made it they made maybe 100 copies I don't know how many copies it we actually reprinted later on but the original idea was for that for ever to use so they already made it r and I have one of those at home and the re so that so one year he used that I know at least one year after be used at least one year not the very thick one but one of theas of with with a lot of pages you know with with with with already and I know that because the person who had it lent it to me for the say one year somebody let somebody who has it that person probably set it out whatever now one more story and then I if anybody has a question I'll believe to try to answer if not you know I'm not coughed once since we started maybe if I stay a few more hours all of anyway so uh this is a story which I heard from a different not the right P this was from from the kler well but it's also POS kler he's M of my daughter and son-in-law his name is Yi KLA in Mont comes from family originally and somehow or another we made a deal we haven't worked at it lately but that when we meet I tell him a story of the and he tells me a story of the and I think he might have even F me from Canada what what he got a story that the person told him who heard it from his father or from you know also similar with with the mice with the matzah this person um had a wine wholesale business in Vienna a wholesale business of wine in Vienna and they dealt with a lot of you know big shops and companies and hotels he also was a from a obviously and he would provide if if if an individual of ye came to get a case of wine not a bottle but if it was a case or something he would give them but he would not arrange he he delivered for companies and hotels but for an individual he did not deliver but he gave them the special wholesale price now one day the was in Austria for y and the always came to the for not in Vienna but it was in a suburb of Vienna and the sent the to get the wine and the went to this um wine place and the man thought you know he said he saw right away that this man is I don't want to use the same word I to but he saw that this man is something you know holy but the other hand most people came with they became dressed like in a more modernish style but he could tell that this is not you know this is a cover but he didn't ask he was polite he didn't ask the re and uh he said what do you need he said I need there three cases of this two that whatever he gave him the order and he said it will be ready for you tomorrow at 11:00 a.m. or whatever time and uh you'll have to arrange transport to pick it up and they say fine it he had to take it to the train station to to take it to the town where the was was for the next morning this wine merchant who saw told the story to told to me comes to for and he sees the sitting there and was learning was ding in the so he went over to the gab of the sh and he says because he was wondering what you know this Paradox he said do you know who that man is so uh he said I'll tell you the story this man came to SCH yesterday you know the story he said he said he came to he came yesterday evening DAV with a minion and then he took out a gar he took out a saer and he was intensely intensely learning and he sat there for hours came about six 7:00 and it was 11:00 at night and I'm the Gabby I got to lock the building so I went to him at 11:00 and I said it's time to go he said please let me stay here and he said I have to lock the building and I have if you stay I have to stay so the told him lock me in lock the building I'll stay in here and he begged me beged me so I said okay and so I did and uh at 5:30 this morning 6:00 in the morning I came in he was still sitting the same sa in the same intense concentration so I asked him who are you and he said he tells this to the wine merchant so the wine merchant walked over to the and he says I'll get it delivered to the trade station uh we worked out which train we going I'm it's all on my it's I'm going to do it now this is this is uh in the 1940s in 30s 1930s then he came and this wine merchant survived also and he came to America I don't know if he came to live but he certainly came to visit and he went to see the so when he walked in said I he told him I have to give you you recognize who my son-in-law is and you saved him brother that's the story you can use it in karakus yeah that's that's my P story everyone outside Somebody went the door no no somebody went to the door Somebody went one of the at at the table every there was at that table there was a million approximately just about a million by invitation was there was there was a man one year and he never left New York he stayed here he was a very very sweet guy and then there was you know then there would be some but then there was also the waiters there would be a couple of who would serve so they were part of that uh so one of them I think went out I just I don't recall um yeah that ever went out after that never went out those three years um the first time he went out there was a handful of people there but then the word got around that they never came out so the next night there was about 100 people there okay they all speed it up the or they didn't start it until [Music] after I remember myself I would never have grape juice forid but the second S I would use grape ju have grape juice because I wanted to be alert by the I remember there's an there was an atmosphere but every the was Mish like I remember just shab in this summer Crown Heights had thousands and thousands of families of not laish people middle of the summer I remember such a shab some maybe I was in I remember walk down Brooklyn Avenue and the people going for shabas walks and stuff like that I I don't understand that somebody could live here and not and not come in and and and taste grenade keepo a different world you you you you ask yourself afterwards devel this regular just a regular world that was you know the kind of question and you can taste it if you if you take a tape of of and listen to it three four times you don't have to do it take for and you do over the next half a year make it CLE listen to a tce a week twice a week whatever and again and again and you and and you you realize it's not just it's not just information it's an experience but having said that the the of of the after the was special and that you can check on look at the I remember when spoke about the story he told the story other time also I think it was the story about uh a ye uh the was going on holiday was going to vacation together with a mus and the greatest greatest he wanted to know about malim he got questioned whether malim exist exist Al together he question is is there such a thing where it just a fantasy the whole existence of and the as they were in this coach explained it to him on all different types of levels and and he didn't and he didn't wasn't convinced this Mas so then the said to him you know we're now going to data in this journey there are three there are three makas right he says this's the of you and me what's what what's your intention what's your purpose what's your mindset your mindset is you work hard a whole year and you need a break to be able to come back to work so that's why you now in this thing that's one then there's the Coachman the B might be a might be whatever it is he is earning a living he's a taxi driver he's our is intellectual thing the the the uh wagon driver has in mindos of his family and then there's the of Def the horses that are leading the coach what's their so they used to have the horse wants to get to its destination where it's going to get a straw hay to eat he wants to eat some hay but in order to make the horse reminded that that's what you're going for so you give him like the the motivation to keep on going they would have a long pole and at the end of the pole was a big a chunk of hay so the horse the whole way there was me I'm going for the ha and so so said to the you he says the of and the of and and then he said just because the horse only knows how to think about hey does that mean that the Malik is not a Malik what he was telling him is that every person has in themselves a and a practical and a and that the exist but if you're living on the level of a that's what then you're not you're not a k you're not a receptical you don't take it in but that doesn't affect like saying I know I heard that story from number of times which has B him different as different aspects one was a when I was visiting the one year but if you look at this it's in and said because the night of the S the night of the S the doesn't operate 364 I think I'm just remembering out from 60 years ago I never worked it out since then but I think it is this 365 is not a p even the there was a group of in Jewish them say the night they didn't steal that was speaking about the special or that's there I if you don't feel it it's because the FED is only thinking about because if you would sensitize yourself to be able to appreciate a more subtle existence and certainly a more spiritual existence and certainly certainly a more Godly existence a more eloquest existence you appreciate it something you have to cultivate you have to work on it you to learn take of second night it's now two weeks from the first day of PES today work on that take one go over it 5 times or at least four times you'll see it's a different it's a different different with okay question what I have a question could he's going to keep me till 3 in the morning here with this question more basic question but um I hear I I can look after I actually hear if I go like this I can hear were slaves and took them out of and basically gave it seems like you know they were slaves to and that now that we're supped to speak slaves to hasem so what's the idea of the freedom of P like obviously there's difference but it seems like you're slaves to one person to another person how do you beautiful question because also I feel like a beautiful question but then the answer to that question is an answer to all existential problems of life because what that question is saying is that everybody is really a Slave people say I do whatever I want they a ye they say fries Out friy means free he's free you're enslaved and he's free but that person is mish they said it was once an Aus and they gave him a Le in the and he was saying saying it with such a then he did Bigg so they told him he says they tell him why do you say with such he said I'm thanking God for giving the Tet to theen because he gave it the I would have to do it he said I only do things that do so thank God you gave it to the anyway but the truth is the truth is your choice nobody create really you choose who you want to follow and what you want to follow and the says if you that's the deepest deepest fulfillment of yourself is to know that you're doing what you were created for it's like it's it's like the whole the whole purpose of existence so that that's the one enslavement which is not which is really coming home it's the The Specialist genius that it says this is exactly the medicine for you in other words that's how you yourself are expressed and anything else you have you there's automatically a tension and there's and and there's a a tenseness and an angst in the person the the the real a person who works on this and he's and he's he knows this is what I'm there where hasem wants me to be and that's what what I am and where I am it's all clicking together the maral says in in about about P there's another question not not if you become a slave to but he said what's the big deal if we're in Gus now anyway and he gives a there's a msh about a person well the mus but the is that when by they what didn't just become they became in other words they are the Jewish people are free even if they might be enslaved someone is inz somebody who knew what they are and who they are what happens to you you have no control over what you do with it you have total control over and that's called freedom mean means being your own person told me once that they had to get up at I think it had to get up at 5:00 in the morning in the in the gulad and 6: to 9 they would walk in the darkness to the forest they they were chopped wood wood making Timber he wanted to D so every night there was a different prisoner who had to stay up the whole night as the OD was who was on God for for the for the whole barracks and that person that day next day didn't have to go to work so rendle asked whoever was OD wake me up at 4:00 a.m. or whatever it was you know earlier time and that guy was happy get go to sleep an hour earlier and and I'll be the old and I'll be awake and I'll be so and there's also what the police Le the the the from the from the system from the from the prison system who who would come so one time is Ding and in comes at 5 in the morning at 4 in the morning comes this the prison the the head you know guy and he's there sitting with a Talis drilling he says what are you doing he says I'm praying he says didn't help you much did it so he said uh what do you mean he says you are you are in imprisoned you're you're you know he says you're imprisoned by the same system I am he said you're also a prisoner in other words I'm I knowing you're in a prison is already a because your mind is still yours and your actions stood you it's still your choice it's tremendous tremendous tremendous yeah because I tell you A lot of times people you know yeah and um said is doing something you don't want to do how do you find that g you're saying is that like you know there is a secular book with on this thing by about by uh rck the Franco there was that person who was a surv people he's he was a Jew assimilated actually what didn't realize is that he was Ling F and everything they never had a CER with him found out later on but anyway but that's that's from a secular Source but he's he he was a psycho a psychiatrist before the war in Vienna and he so he noticed he noticed how people reacted and he saw that the deepest is not what Freud said that the deepest is and he said the deepest of a person is a sense of meaning he said the people who had meaning not he said he l a religion I'm going to have to go and tell my uncle what happened to me that made people survive people survive if there was a reason if there was a meaning to their life it's the biggest gift the says in that is it better that a person was born was created or better that they were not created and they spent two and a half years discussing this and at the end they concluded he were not created now that he's created be careful what he's doing now I got a phone call once from a guy in flat Bush he a single relative not laich but I met him unfortunately whatever and he he met me and he called me up he was preparing for was in he's preparing for y and he went to the that story is in the it's not there is a hint of it but not not there so he asked me one question this guy you know what this question was he asked me question he said what took them two and a half years he wants to know the doesn't even say which of the two it was says which it was it's one of the of project this year I think it was where brings down that GAR and you know anyway but he he asked me what what's it to take 2 and 1/2 years you're an optimist you're right away well he said let me think about it for an hour or a day or a week two and a half years and I asked him where you he said I'm driving to work from Flatbush to New Jersey I have a 1 hour drive is I have to give you a whole background the gar does not say this this particular to say doesn't say it's good it says is it the word means is it comfortable is it comfortable to have been created that was the question and that is a real question because comfortable comfortable means to do something that you want to do no no no boss no I'm not a slave to any person I'm not a slave to God to everybody right comfortable means sleep8 hours at night uninterrupted that's comfortable now what do you do if 3:00 in the morning your best friend calls you up and says I need you got a flat tire or you got a problem somewhere and that person is is is is mish really really in a bad shape and you that day you just had a c power cut tomorrow you have a major major interview this that it always comes at the least convenient time and uh what do you do what do you do so you get up and you do it it's l it's not but you're doing the right thing and if you work on yourself you'll have in other words it's it'll become pleasurable thank God my friend has me to be able to help him you work on these different levels of consciousness I told him like a yishai a beautiful shabas table somebody in Sanford Hill once told me how do you invite these guys long hair and jeans and tattoos and and nose rings to come to a shopping table you're trying to bring up a generation of children beautiful tablecloth with silver candlesticks that's you're supposed to do it and you do it is your friend your friend is your friend is he friend is the and he says you know get from because he went and helped another make p somebody called me up in s this is em story you know I were my first 10 years in England here now just will soon be 60 years so 50 years I'm a principal in the school 10 years I worked with students I was teaching but I was working with students with young people with this kind of thing so somebody F me up in those within those 10 years very nice guy and I knew him very well a young guy and he says look I have nobody coming to me for my I made a whole bunch of could you please find me a student or young person who needs a Savor but I need somebody who will understand my my and doesn't have long hair those are his two conditions so I said the people with short hair and who understand they have where to go you know you want you we're try here to find place somewhere to go say gave such a Clarity there no problem in how it there no problem how the people today who the Young Generation if they they who are not keeping it's not because it's hard for them because they don't see the meaning or the Duty or the importance Jonathan saaks he was one of the students I used to do with but he said he said if people you want to make the religion easier for people make all kinds of concessions and dispensations and and and coolest everything else he said the two most popular festivals amongst the most secular people is Yum and PES say here you cannot eat anything all together and here you you know it's a complete different kind of a diet it's not it's not it's not what's comfortable but it means something to them that's why they want it okay when was the last time that when where was the previous huh anybody rememb nobody remembers it was all of your living memory what came first the lockdown of Co or the or the most recent was Co was first was pay the lock down but here pay Al it was restrictions when's the next one if M doesn't come according to the calendar 20 years when I'm 105 invite me for you save anyway so listen yeah guarante excuse mebody we'll see a lot of things a lot of big only so here this is four years ago so it was not a lockdown but it was distancing we couldn't have any help in our house they us to deliver groceries to us elderly people they delivered this stuff Thursday evening from the one of our Tas and her daughter one of us would come to our house every Thursday evening and uh drop off the stuff for the week and with no help in the house so me I for me for PES when we make PES I do approximately maximum 1% of the work in that house but that year it was social distancing so I had to do at least two or 3% P potato and my floors stuff you know we there's nobody else me but I could go out I this is It's distancing so no one's in the house get everything ready for the it's afternoon I went to Tasty Pizza and he made espec they make the pizza bread because you have to have kala which doesn't have crumbs Pizza doesn't have crumbs but it's m which I don't eat but they made that year especially I'm sure I'll do it this year too he made specially h p so that that hardly has any crumbs and um I'm there I just remember where I was and I remember I was wearing plastic gloves I don't know what I was doing of the different 2% jobs whatever but the phone rings a long distance overseas call the man who called is the most beautiful beautiful Jew but he never ever F me before then and has not that I remember and I don't think he ever F me since but I met him many I met him he's a teacher Mitzvah boys and I spoke in this town and I uh they asked me to visit the class say I I saw him teaching gar I was so impressed I was impressed with his for and he show me had a little pad each he had a name of every to in that were doing and it was like a chart something like like your father with her and which exactly which T which B was capable that was his level this was this that you know he a really beautiful person and I was there once or twice and he a for about 45 like a long English American guy about 60 years old and he called me up and heab you have a couple of minutes I have a problem come your problem and if shabas which is is must be really really serious I get called the whole time every every day I got called this evening 15 minutes where I left the house I said sure what's the problem he says the the is your problem I said what's your problem he says the Ben russer I said what's your problem and he screams why give him a label why do you label him and I it hit me m when I thought it over I was Mish a lump in my I was ready for tears not because of the question but because that this is what BS the guy he suddenly and this guy he know the also he's bed by this and so it forced me to have to come up with something quickly to be able to go back to my 2% as well so what I told him was from I think but it's based on what the I said to him the told us that it does not say that's what it does not say what does it say that's the essence of every Jew I say Russ is not his label is his label label I why is it Russia it's telling this man Mr Russia you think you're a Russia you're not that's kind you you don't realize what you yourself really are and what you have you're in an echo just like the biggest s in the world is that a good answer about five years later I met this guy and I I said did you I said you never told me if you he said the right answer for him at that moment I didn't but just plan to get off the phone so how do you recognize the of the other person every time you're going you going to people whose lifestyle you would never choose but they're the most important person in the world because the taught us that that person has an e that's waiting to be coaxed out from froming before this before