Feel Compassion for Yourself - Likkutei Torah Pinchos "Tzav" #11

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heart the boss are and the Buster represents the DOM and the DOM is the the avid emotion that goes on the MS baya the sale of is the fact that pleasure that comes following the thirst of all you add very male are noise in itself I am she says there's one more good another Dara which helps there to be the Gili of the nefesh Eliquis for the nefesh of the kiss for the divine inner soul of a person to be able to be manifested in their life what does the nefesh Alec is doing its mask Ellis it's miss bananas it's for coming it's it's reflecting it's learning it's stunning it's contemplating the gudule of alien psycho so for that this is binding us should be pile your shoes Paul Yeshua's became if it's a play on words that says until impale you show us well the Kim Malcolm McCadden Paul Yeshua's back area for ins she plays on the word spoil your shoe is but care of ish it should be polo your shoe in other words that should have an effect internally on the person in his heart to be able to experience a visage on and not only that even the Clackamas above the nephesh a Bahamas the craving power of the animal song should also be able to be transformed and returned to other session there's one more direct that it's very helpful here and this is going to be an introduction to the last piece that's missing which is we did not discuss the fur of the animal the wool of the animal remember he started the premise that there's the part that goes in them is bear the part that doesn't honor if it goes to the coil yet every sheep of the carbon are like every carbon nylon the or the furthest skin and the sheep the wolf goes to the coil everything else in terms of the internal soft element of the animal besides the excrement they would take out they would clean up the dirt but when you had the bus or the sale of the Dom that summers in the kiddin that went up on them is bail but the oil that could not be included with the sea use of the net for show Bahamas that goes onto them is better so first to this he started a whole thing from sea free hakama Sonny talk from learning what it's disk explaining what's discussed in books of anatomy of physiology of how the structure of the body is the whole artifice so this is now gonna be the intro to the last piece that was not addressed yet she says it's another element in affecting his boiling nose affecting emotions and not only that all sequoia humus Ave of the nephron bahamas and the words koihime sour than a fish a bomb is a very interesting term the career come estaba the options miss happened we are some gum can lava Sasha usually we don't distinguish between the two between the time of the nefesh Obama's and the Toya commissar of the Natasha Bahamas the two are not the same there's the type of the person and there's the coil hummus our you see his words she a Claire Thomas Amish of an official Bahamas misshapen vo shove gunk and lava so you always have to be able to distinguish between the Tyva and the Koya hummus oven any difference the type is the actual craving the kya commissar is oh yeah that is behind the craving so it's completely separate reality the two becomes so intermingled in people's lives that we don't distinguish between the two but it's a very subtle and critical distinction in life and an avoider session the tiger you may have to get rid of the Chaya hummus Salva you need to cultivate not only you need to cultivate that he says Yosh of gum can lava Sasha it can be completely reoriented there's what I'm craving for externally there's what I'm craving for internally and the two of the type itself may be directed to a particular object of particular person the Koya comma Sava means what is the kayak in the taifa the stipend is getting fuel from somewhere it's getting gas from somewhere there's an energy feeding it there's the kayak on the sava that is often very innocent extremely pure so we say oh this whole type is horrible why is it so important because often when we want to destroy Tyva we destroy with it the kiya hai myself and then the person becomes a zombie they don't recognize themselves anymore because we're afraid of the tiger so we're petrified of the kiya hai Mustafa so we just lets kill anything let's just destroy everything you destroy everything you're good to go there's not gonna be any problems but that's not the case the cut scare everyone said very sharply said awesome it's a Breathitt Iver Maxima for name it's way when you break a tie if they took one he turned into two you have to be careful why because it sometimes looks like you're uprooting it you're not really uprooting it you caught it you broken it look everything look as good you created two you created even deeper energy sometimes now it's more repressed it may come back to bite you and want you what you need a distinguishes between the Tyva and the Korea that is Mesaba that Korea that got entangled in the timer is not bad it's looking for something it needs something it yearns for something that yearning may be a very pure one a very innocent one the outlet that it knows the language it's familiar with to satisfy its yearnings may be completely destructive you have your won over the big big amid today it's already a well-known idea but one of these big you since been able to make this distinction and we could the turn and hocus Miami para Duma Bala Tonya explains fascinatingly that this was essentially what they did with the para Duma when you take the para and you burnt it and you reduced it to ashes so basically you were reducing the Bahama to its bare bone so to speak you were reducing it all the way to the a fur which represents the offer the element of offer in it because the Asian rural and the Mayan go up in the flame they burnt it and the ashes is what remains and then from that you can actually create something that's gonna be material that's gonna purify you not only will have contaminate you on the contrary it cleanses the person from the Toma that's very animal the very ashes of that animal cleansed the person from Toma but for this you have to have the courage to go beyond all of the cosmetics to go back to the to the core to the core of the tiger the real real what is behind it what is really that you're searching for the system we always respond and we say I want this I want that I want that I want that what do you really really want what are you trying to heal yeah what's the emptiness and what's causing it go back to the original original kaya here and then you will see a completely different picture and when you address that first of all you're addressing the real issue then you're not running to the time in fact the tiger doesn't even help you with the real title misawa it's usually an escape from it it's running away so but yes this you have to be extremely honest and it's not easy because the tightest the more we get involved in them the more we forget even the original coach on the server the more distractions from the original story and you don't even know the original story and remember stories build on stories and to get back to the original story it's very very difficult this one's a Jewish let's he said in my house my mother always served leftovers we're still looking for the original meal we're always dealing with leftovers the leftovers this triggered a distributor where's the original meal I want to know what's the original meal give me the original meal so here that's what he that's why he says that's the vote that even the Claire Thomas abbath not only a visage on b'hala waha of the nefesh Elizabeth olive of Hamas even with a nephesh Obama so there's another Derek that's gonna be introduced to he penis Ramona's yeah yeah yeah this is sure about almost every dysfunction there is the dysfunction the outlet the actual experience and then there is what is behind it that's what he's saying it could return and not only that that could be transformed with your shove gunk in lava Sasha so when you say the nefesh a bahamas has to be challenged you have to be careful what that means some of it needs to be used should be used it could be metamorphosized could be a complete ally of the godly soul it's not bad it's not evil never the intention is never to obliterate it to destroy it to crush it the intention is to heal it to separate it from its toxicity to separated from its layers that actually don't let it be what it really is to go back to its own source and when it goes back to its own source it could become a complete ally of the divine soul so the batalov of kobish Nate Soraka that the Mishna says a breakfast he says means also the eggs are harder than a fish a Bahamas the animal saw how you look at all its cravings and once this and once this one's this you have to be able to go to the commissar yeah that's certainly one aspect he says he penis Ramona's this path has to do with the what we call Ramona's Ramona's literally means empathy to have to have compassion well I realize I am Robin I'll knit suits Eliquis Shabanov shine say your dad may agree rama holies expression of Gamora Haghighi Devane may agree Ramallah birria mikta it's just on a paraphrase from a tall mountain to a deep pit he just says holy maybe didn't want to use that expression what is this Ramona's a person really ought to feel compassion feel compassion for their own soul for their own infinite dignity for their needs it's Allah kuzmenok sure in every person sold is literally godliness it's divine spark it's divine energy that descendant lease la bridge before the schnitzels comes into a pool of a nephesh a bahamas - a beastly consciousness la zona low-fired Nisbet's our cargo for hillier sia and the rest of its life it's spending its time to nurture to give livelihood to support the needs of the body whether it's eating drinking holy files that tikhonova pursue code is Amira lime of Iraq on-base Palmer and this is an important component of domine that's why you'll see a radium tsukuda Zimmer you have the same positive twice for alpha remember we save a raffle twice at the huh he divided the end of unified we're asking the hopper of them where's the first time in how you do in hiding why are you repeating the same pasa because this is an essential component of the Avenue but you're not done began my breakfast yet sir when you come to the broth of yatesy oil we say I'mI'm Baraka meth for her album Rock'em Elena Laki love right number what do we say mail audits Hamaoka memoir they must allocate oil America mahabharatham Elena Ordonez a know etc now these are charged words Allah ki lung the god of the world of the god of eternity Baraka metal album Rock'em Elena with your great RAF come in with your great compassion have compassion for us so this is already a third time with discussing Rocco who Peter Schmidt I come ethical what does it mean but I come back haha Robin not with Myra come honest with your document us you come over to somebody say huh Brock monosoff me no we're not saying that we're saying have Ramona's on me with Yura come on it's not with - mothers to use my ClearCorrect monism won't be good but i cameto card album rock simulator it's not only saying you're compassionate so have compassion for me it's also describing the nature of the compassion it's a much deeper touch but I come math card out of Malcolm Elaine oh I need your document Oh Peters Baraka matter Luffy this is a very very sensitive stuff now if we should call Derek is your Shabana generally the nature is people love thinking that they're always doing the right thing they like it we like justifying our behavior there is Kali Shasha beya cold air Athena Shasha beya it's an expression in tomas the path of every person is your Shabana Bedoya Alicia Katya Madonna cleaner and he feels this is what's called the right way to live the way the balanced one and in the process he becomes desensitized to the reality the controversy says this is obligation which damage butter Chicago to utilize myself to do the needs of my body each la Fiera each person according to his era the me the char the my did lots my cartographer every person decides what his needs are this person lives this type of life well they soggy beloved it's not good without it every person decides this is what I invited lots my and therefore it's a completely justified way of life every person taking care of all of their needs exactly the way they decide what works from evil I suck no he says you're right offerings IC Rua Enosh but you have to realize this is the spirit of man of mortal man talking in yuba shag em whoo buzzer because he's a piece of flesh Avila Gabi couch Abreu he need the daily hema idling so fertilis God sees your soul your soul is infinite it's mama she ain't safe so the way Kutcher Briscoe experiences you is that what you may resign to I'm just a physical human being he doesn't see you that way he sees the infinity in you so the reader of the soul getting involved in things we're not talking here illegal and moral criminal activity that he's talking about that's already a different you didn't hear he's talking about just the entanglement of life she needed early my Alaska may Hashem me Ruben Mahalo da-da-da-da-da source his compassion for this descent is enormous it's an enormous rocker man so what happens is a people we get used to living a life of resignation what the depowered say most people live lives of quiet desperation you're desperate but you're quiet you know when you're young you still have dreams and then somebody has to pay a mortgage somebody has to pay tuition right somebody has to pay bills and then there's always a leak in the house and then the toilet breaks and then somebody has an earache and then suddenly medical bill comes a curveball and suddenly you have to get money etc etc so we've just resigned a person cannot constantly live on that state of being completely sensitive to who they are but in a burning we say Barack America horrible now from Elena don't allow me to become apathetic to who I really am don't allow me to become comfortable with living a mediocre life as though I was just a piece of flesh but still my body was just a machine a robot and I have to take care of the Machine don't allow me to lose the unique idealism the unique sensitivity that comes from understanding was I either in a shaman is what it means they have a chemical economy mouth what it means that you really ain't safe that you're a piece of a locust so he says rascally I chamois rubanoid all you need the villas on um of action rock emission Miami Ruben Valerio how gum shall the physically no I doubt in on oh my gosh America Mona's I may not feel that come on it's for my cell you know I don't even believe I have a song I'm just a physical guy I'm a simple guy I like a piece of steak I like a piece of sushi like a couple of thousand ways there are Mona's Macomb okay but I come at Colorado not come Elena but you know the truth about myself so I'm asking you that you who knows the truth you know who you are and therefore you know who I am because I'm part of you rock I'm Elena because this year it is a real you need do you need of a soul of a neshama that's mom is a piece of infinity it's even in this whole languages is is hard for us it's hard for us to imagine but the truth is there are some onus of not knowing who you are that's the greatest Ramona's at least if you know who you are the prince who knows that he's a prince and he ended up in a sewer system and a cesspool in a stable with hipot with hippos or with axes so he knows he can cry about it but the prince who decides that he's dirty then he's filthy that he doesn't deserve anything better because he's not anything better that's the realest bonus so you say that's where I am but I have Mahara mr. Phil but I don't feel I were completely resigned to it that's where the doctor - it's not that you lose your dignity it's that you don't know that you had dignity to lose that's a much more - much deeper tragedy I lose my dignity I lose my dignity I don't even know that there was dignity to lose I met the younger man a few days ago he came to speak to me so it's not a very comfortable story quite perversely grew up in Borough Park and at the age of six he was touched inappropriately and it continued till the age of 13 by four different people - from his family one a guest in the house and a fourth the GABAA initial from age six to thirteen and it was horrific behavior I say inappropriately - to speak aesthetically somewhat but it was horrific horrific behavior and he told me about his journey since then and in his mind in his mind he said I started to think and believe that for me to be productive in life I basically have to become a victim of other men they should be able to fulfill their pleasures through me and that started to bring me joy and satisfaction because it justified my existence in life I said I'm worth something and if I'm not doing this I'm not worth anything so it took me time even to understand what he was saying I'm saying but do you understand that that's not the truth he says you could speak about it a whole day this is my experience there's no way for me at the moment to change that experience my emotional experience is that this is what brings me happiness because it justifies my existence I know here that it's it's absurd but it doesn't how doesn't do anything for me that's how deeply he was affected so here you have a drama example it's not that his dignity was robbed that's half the problem it's that he doesn't believe anymore that he has any dignity that was robbed the cloud there's no protest there's no my harm nepenthez currency says bah bah bah sir some people finished recently acceptable of master mazelTov they have painted khuskhus a bottom you have a whole panic about choices his name AHA yeah if you live in my house a squatter you come into my house I have three years to make her my home if I don't make my cost three years then it's a riot listen three years he didn't say a word three years of living in your basement you didn't say anything I put this guy is legit but if you make him on call within three years sorry unless of course if he has a star with them if he doesn't understand the pinnacles currents it says what's the Hawaii what's the meaning of a decision what's the Union somebody's living in your house you may not be able to throw Mount Abu Maha Maha Maha macaque tell somebody the guy is a criminal maybe they're mafioso you can't get rid of him why have you been silent for three years this is an avoid that sometimes these things going on in your life you can't get rid of them of a Maha Maha now at least screams say something make a protest once in three years say you don't own this place I know you make believe you own it I know you behave as though you own it I know sometimes it looks like you own it but you don't on it that that's the spark of humaneness is the person did nefesh alec is that at least make him a heart there's something wrong - something inappropriate hairs if you know but you have to know right you have to know that you still own it on some level there's still something left and when that's gone so what do you say say but I'm a cop I don't feel that I want to sell me any more there's nothing left I don't feel finished now every person is look I gave you an attic example of this younger month but the concept is in a much more able life much my idol - I'm gonna tell you a story and I'm gonna tell you this and this is a very deep story and you need very Adel a wholesome to appreciate the story everybody will appreciate this story which is fine I'm telling you beforehand you need very sensitive cushion to be able to appreciate the story somebody who learnt Lakota tighter for a long time will appreciate the story immediately and even if you don't it's just good sometimes they have such a miser there was a year he lived in Brooklyn his name was red he did eight sons so angle of rocker we did eight sons he was a Talmud in time commitment in art Watts but what is a city in Poland it's a suburb not far from Morrison beautiful beautiful resort area people would go there for the summer do we achieve is there the the six lebara chariots of the revered are yachts built a yeshiva there and very very big since even in 1930s it was an extremely successful achievement he had to leave the Soviet Union escape Stalinism and he proposed and he relocated to Poland Jenny is even worsen and he moved it to at once and it exists until the day that the war broke out use ILO to finish static test September 1 1939 when hitler yimach shmo invaded Poland two weeks before Rosh Hashana Tufts in 1939 and of course many of the talmidim were killed some survived some survived then I knew a few of them and so there was a UW did 8 soldiers in the barrage and Habad there was a mafia mentor his name was about to some coverage about to some coverage was known as a very big bolts or a very serious person a genuine person he was a mafia mechanic and he Shiva Terrace Emerson yerushalayim he died very very young extremely young in 1939 and he came to Poland once and vomited ever 3 so my time I asked him if he could be in the achievement for some time so he stayed in the yeshiva for some time but what's even though was Alabama to yeshiva it attracted a lot of the Polish Urbana the publisher kevrah they came so he did it some said the first Friday night he thought or go home with about er darvany and I'll have you know inspiring uplifting soda sharpness with a lot of good food and delicious drinks you know the covered shoppers Kadish about to some coverages - 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Davin long there was a lot to deal with work through a lot of issues the sale of the bus and with the get without some miss with the domitor everything is a lot of work so Friday 90,000 then he'd abandoned oven and this boy waited for him I mean they come home he takes him home she sees on the table he sees a piece of hair a few pieces of airing I kill her a book Allah does a cuticle so he says the Balta Shabbos Shabbos he says bottle for a marsh be and temperate mmmm this does left to fill from Ashby and time commitment even this is too much even this is too much the set the spiritual sensitivity of a person the spiritual awareness of a person right societal film he understood how much a person is capable of how deep a person is what a neshama is he would not resign he would make him a car that's purse auntie maker maja it's a perspective but sometimes a person completely doesn't feel they don't even know what you're talking about I am a physical IM the stake I am the stake myself so this is America Mecca I need your glasses to be able to understand who I am I look at myself and I don't see anything sorry I need your prism your literally your Mishka fiim Banda Brillon but I come ask are not mine to be able to understand what is going on to be able to understand the godless ordem the infinite awesome divinity of what the human soul is and what it goes to them because tell a person can't identify that the person doesn't know what's going on the fact is that life is a marriage of infinity with a very beastly consciousness that's what it is the person is the highest of the high that comes into the lowest and the low in half to create a solemn bias between the two and if you can't recognize that tension you can't recognize what is going on in your life that's what he says Barack I'm a car album ran from Elena well as I said hug am Shila physically no have Dow ain't no no migration mekomo came back on my card Abenaki mal in the gobble kaya Rahman is ooh don't underestimate this Cobra homeowners it's tremendously powerful well either the savage to believe and not only that Vanessa Bahamas I did be Nevada as an official kiss on my skeletal Sasha this rack'em that a person literally feels compassion for themselves for their own soul this is not a form of self-pity will you just you just have self-pity and you become a victim but this is a genuine compassion for a person for themselves or for another person this has a tremendous Koya to trigger emotion to be milady Dava sometimes emotions are in exile you can't experience them and the Clara commonness helps them come out welcome I'm mayor that's why we say before krishna another piece on rock Mona's avenue over a common American rock hymnal a know the same Billy Bain Obinna so here's vitae so you haven't Sookie the same river rock them twice in the big in the beginning of yo timaya Laurens you have a gambler a comic Arab the next brothy you think we're gone no sabes first on a vino of a rock come on and do zinc's north then again a vino over a c'mon hammer after him Rock him Norway know how many times he gonna tell me about laughing Avenue over Alma I got it ha maraca not enough rock him no Elena three times and what's that I'll come in the same building be nice and have awareness Lahav in maja skill shmaaya then is little Malala militiamen vilasa you ever think about these words when you say that they're amazing amazing words people go through them as a tional they're very powerful to think the same Billie Bay no I should have been I should have perception Lahav in lajas skill is shmaaya to be able to listen luma to learn to understand to comprehend etc she says because the Cuyahoga Manas literally has the ability for a person to be able to open themselves up intellectually and emotionally feeling bad having Romanus for yourself and for another person feeling bad doesn't mean turning people into victims this is not about paralysis depression stagnation this is about having compassion for the tragic state of humanity for the own tragedy of the human can you have to be able to feel compassion for yourself you ever feel compassion for yourself huh it's not easy to feel compatibly though we like guilt we don't like compassion we're Jews we like feeling guilty that's not what he's talking about guilt doesn't doesn't bring out any other of course the definition of a Jew is if he doesn't feel guilty he blames himself who he really is what a neshama is what ain't sophist yeah oh so of course loma de l'homme also means that when he opens on the code athina this is a life in the vectors on life then he should be able to be open to the energy because the person could be so nam it's like i don't know what you want you know somebody wrote to me a Nima that he can't learn this I said why he says it's too truthful that's what he says he says it's too much M s too much animus it's too much he says he says I need dumbed down sugar I'm just tell me nice simple things told me to be a nice person don't start telling mister missus too much too intense doesn't he shuts down he's city starlet says he doesn't know why people keep on coming back doesn't know I also don't know the fill sister says I am pissed but but that's with sable available it's not so it's not knowing knowing MS is very difficult so you see the wreckage of Rackham is different than the wreckage of guilt is it different in feeling guilty and feeling compassion feeling compassion means you really feel compassion when you look at any life story there's a lot of compassion and who is the compassion on ultimately Kauai awful discriminant because it's a helical a car that's what goes they say in breslav there's a my son that the Beretania doubt you'd ever want to visit your Nachman you know he went in topic of iron we for a little bit which she did have not gone passed away so our breasts love it though ah who is there understand okay of coffee and a love doctor topic of a Anala via 1801 1818 11 or so so he was a very young man a year before two years before the altar never went to visit him he went to breslav he went to breslav is in the Ukraine not Oman Pressler and Oman is where he's buried he went to a lot of places there he went to measure bush to visit to borrow a whole measure bush he went to buy ditch have to be Menachem oval down monitor blue talked about did ship made a trip around Ukraine said a lot of considers then so they say them when altered ever was might've Nachman or if knocking was by the altar that but one of the visits so doctor ever asked him national to say Turner would have not I'm sorry doctor that became their max when asked alternate but to say Taylor he didn't want to say I guess it's in his honor whatever below pale he said of heart that I've been told them but it says n't to Hill him rah intro few tests raha Maha Lobby Martian commish mater Haney literally yattaman Hashem is Robin is a lot you have a lot of Rahman chimera Masha Allah protects does a raha Miriam Hashem of dear God is a great set of Mama's Rock'em echo lab Marcia the Rock'em among you was Robin of dear God is aggressor of Manas because then the soul is divine the soul is infinite so the Blackman was very moved this is our fourth when I had the daughter that's what they saved one in a generation to say such a part so what's the point here to really have ragaman on one's condition that's a form of it that's a form of empowerment it brings out good things in a person it basically to be able to really have compassion can you have compassion for your father you could you can have compassion for your mother even more you can have compassion you can have compassion for a child heart it's hard gonna have compassion for a spouse and can you have compassion for yourself it's very very hard it's very hard not compassionate it doesn't mean you your your your your clueless your spineless you have no discipline you don't want to grow no no on the contrary when you have compassion then you could really grow when you don't have compassion when you have guilt you don't really grow because then you're denying what's really happening also yeah yeah when you start feeling oh so passionate I don't have these experiences I'm above it I would feel guilty to have this then out and then ultimately you're living from a place that's locked up because you're denying what's really going on compassion means everything in my life is fully on display and I have compassion yeah there's sadness here this brokenness ah well here the word is Rock'em and Rock'em it could be associated you have to be careful with that word because it sounds like murder ah yeah avisail Amalfitano hashem elokenu that's one that's love but love is not enough Hamlet day Livia sailor Kemal Delano gemelas compassion there's loving somebody is having compassion for somebody that's something else compassion is deeper than love you know that I love you I love you huh yeah love is I love you compassion is really of being sensitive to everything that transpired and transpires in this person's life beginning with the first year either the first year there was that a failure can economy mile ain't safe right the drop in the Atlantic Ocean made a tremendous you didn't comes in that's the first thing you have to confront and that's a painful reality the temblor album yeah there is some differences but it's it's a separate so it gets not for now say men but not comments at them basil Russia so therefore when a person has this experience it's a completely different experience than denying crushing repressing what is it have a feeling guilty about guilt is actually usually covering up pain I don't want to deal with pain so therefore I deal with guilt it's a secondary emotion I feel guilty in guilt it all becomes about what I was supposed to do what I wasn't supposed to do certain expectations I had instead of focusing on the reality of the real situation instead of focusing on the fact is a painful situation guilt becomes it all becomes about me I'm this I'm this I'm a bad mother I'm a bad father I'm good I'm it's all about a bad I am a good I am no I'm really bad I'm worse than you'll ever imagine so what happens I'm bad bad I'm bad I'm bad I'm bad I feel guilty I feel more guilty I feel guilty that I don't feel enough guilty and the bottom line is that I'm evil that is because the person is actually escaping from Rockman if they're escaping from the pain it's a very good distraction yes and we lie and we like this distract we like this distraction we call it guilt they say why do Jewish women why don't Jewish women drink they don't want anything to interfere with their misery with their guilt so you have here the concept of Minister a common Minister Ottoman means I could really feel the pain just be it just to be to be there to be able to bring it to the presence and to be able to appreciate that there is something to feel compassion for and that you would think that that's not helpful on the contrary he says what that does is it allows the Alpha to come and it allows the full beauty of the human soul the bener the havona the Haskalah it allows the other two commands guilt further drives it away rack'em in actually allows it to come out very honest and not and and to let it be to really be able to contain that to be able to say this is the story this is it and to be able to sit in it to be able to sit in the story to be able to not escape the story not run from it we run what do we run and we have good cover up we always have good stuff but to be able to really do this any system shook it as ever you do it twice because you don't see you do it twice and then by breakfast Christian you do it again and here comes the cold my sir / - when I'm around cannot come no Elena this is he says I see I eat a cos see Derek another important component in addition to what was discussed before Bozell Indian carbon atomic tsubame knock Vassa and this is where the Sheep comes in we discussed the makeup of the animal we didn't discuss which animal it was a sheep Kiev awesome yeah sure - Ramona's because sheep are very compassionate animals in the nature of course animals don't choose their nature it's a genetic program but possum represent Ramona's there are Mona's they're compassionate animals they're not like goats are much more aggressive and shrewd and smarter and slime sheep are much more docile much more submissive much more adel and they're compassionate the coil and color are common even their coil their sound you ever hear the Mara sheep it's a sound of Rahman and here you see what's proper coat rack what's not a co a comma a comma meaning is really a sound that summons me the Seraphim ona's it's a sound that there are sounds of aggression there are sounds of guilt there are sounds of intense certain intense feelings this is the sound of ref Manas virus among us who commercia Kossoff what's the rock monastery the posix is Nia Shia ker-rah Caliph Naga is is there an alum like a you a Rahul is a sheep are you e w e a you a ruffle a sheep with snake eyes is out in front of her Shearer's those who caught her wall wool now llama she's silent other animals they've Athens if they won't let you do this a sheep you come and you cut off all this beautiful summer this wonderful coat that has grown on the sheep and their lung but she doesn't say a word the Indian goes is out what does this mean you cut the wool of the Sheep Shahin a hawk ever see Ashley salmon burger the Sheep has summer wool in its skin but you are moths it minimus of hot summer and the skin interrupts between the meat the flesh and it's Emmer so you have the flesh the boss you have a December the wool and you have the skin which interposes it's a hot seats a partition between the Boston and the oil give me an hour boss or ask me if she'll it's my assadís at summer if you wouldn't have the oil you're not gonna have from the flesh the year and the wool growing I'm gonna have kemar they have Sekar you have to have the earth protecting covering the flesh and from the iron you have the semi growing when that cemre is removed from the iron the sheep is silent as we're going to see this is the story of life as the wool was being removed the sheep remained silent and that is there a common that the Sheep experiences and that is their argument that the Sheep represents their alcaman that the Sheep cries about in its coil that's the document that the carbon comet which has comes from cross and comes out as he will explain what this is in the initial what this process of the flesh skin wool and sharing the wool and the Silence of the Sheep the real term guilt I don't know if you have it translators Rajesh ma it's basically the focus how bad I am that becomes the focus it sounds wholly guilt always sound although I'm so bad while you're such a holy person I'm bad I'm where I'm much worse than you ever think and it's in our mind more than in our words you don't stop what do they say that a Jewish woman went to jury duty and they let her go why she heard the case she claims she was guilty so so when that happens you just you know you become you're not even dealing with the reality you're dealing with your guilt I don't want to deal with the reality I'm explaining the difference between your coming and guilt it's a completely different or why it came in because when you describe when every Yiddish plan is misinterpreted rahman becomes guilt whenever Judaism becomes misrepresented guilt right away comes in you should feel horrible about yourself you're a disappointment to everything is appointment to God to the Jewish people to decide that the ababa to your Shiva you're just the worst of the worst what it does oh it gives us what to think about it occupy our days that's one one thing a mile another mile that puts you in depression so you're not creative a third mile is you become a frustrated person so you don't revolt there's a lot of my list of the biggest milah is that you die early and therefore everything is good you don't make too much trouble right when I went to Manchester the first time to speak so there's a rabbi there I was up so his caballes poem to me was he came from London she said that they said that Mark Twain said that before he dies he would like to move to Manchester because from there the transition won't be noticeable so that's one one of the big my lists of this this class is brought to you by the achieve Annette please help us continue the classes make even a small contribution at triple w dot the yeshiva net slash donate