Farbrengen for Rabbi Wagner

foreign all of us which are gathered here as real real people that were deeply affected by the light and life Wagner Rebecca to many Rabbi Wagner or just Akiva to his friends who really I heard this whole week from his friends that they felt even though they were his friends on a first name basis they also felt much even at a very very young age and of course to the mishpaka which we wish and the light brings nakama to every single person and of course to the mishpaka which that each and every one of us should feel to give back what we can we may not be able to inspire fabrein learn and Davin like Rabbi Wagner but we can all participate bigashmi as everyone has their abilities and friends and relatives and a circle which they can influence to be mistative in the campaign which is going on for the mishpacha at raystone.com forward slash Rabbi Akiva each and every one of us can participate and get others to participate it is always as see them we follow always the heroes and the have the Rockets of our holy River it's you can see on the video that by the CEO mashiva of the rabbits in Levits in which starts in the river's house and then it continues they have in 770 who wanted to connect with this very special and very sensitive time you could see the Timmy and the anash see them did they just wanted to gather together and to be mistative in this very very sensitive personal and unique occasion and that's why we're gathered here together because Hamilton someone that teaches his friend Toyota it's as if he gave birth to that person I can say from myself and I started being a talmud we're talking about it in the Yeshiva skyades and then two years as a town in the formative years of the Yeshiva which were my own formative years and then as I was two years in Toronto came back as a Hassan visited and was in touch on a personal basis many many occasions besides the recipient of the fabrangians via email but many many personal emails and discussions about how to view and and really really the right approach and perspective on so many different occasions so I see them we gather together it's first and foremost before we get to any personal idiot it's very very important that we start with a nakuda from a sikha and last night I was thinking what would be appropriate to start off the family in tonight you know of course we're gonna want to hear about Robbie Wagner from many different perspectives but it's important to hear from the Reba and basketball they played the weekly living Torah and the whole living Toyota is about the Revis feeling so connected to his malamid from many years earlier of Zalman blanken to the extent that there ever personally paid for his quota and part of his matseiva and he told the family members that he Zalman taught that ever from age 7 to 11. and told his family as Edith Mira vekistelt of mine feasts that set me up on my feet he really really set in my whole path now hearing this from the rebel the naziabad to say about it I mean just imagine what that means how much more so when we're talking about I'm not sure that I can say and I know from behalf of my Javed that I've spoken to when we've fabrained together and not just my favorite this is what's so unique is that for 30 years all the tummy didn't feel that way it's not just the first tummy then but for 30 years tell me even felt that way of where we are today with his fabrangians and with his shiorin and with his more important his living example of a closet um so therefore I'm going to start with we're going to start with the video of the The Dilemma speaks about the importance of and we're going to ask the the the back end to play the video of the living Toyota and then everybody should inspired in Alibi but more than that I'm asking that everybody should actually give not Ellie boy or mealy boy from their hearts to the again to the campaign at raystan.com forward slash rabi Akiva again we ask that the video now varamazos should start okay foreign [Music] foreign is it only me foreign not everything has to go exactly according to plan we don't plan these events and we don't uh these things don't all go according to plan but they did put together a small video of Robbie Wagner himself and has this I think they have all ready to go and we asked that the technician behind the scenes to please play the video that was put together about the keyboard is while the getting the video ready foreign you know during this week if a lot of there's a lot of time to think and to reflect and I was thinking about everything is niklal in the name of a person now Rabbi Wagner has given the name Akiva Gershon and then added the name Michelle Akiva obviously the one that inspired thousands of talmudim even though he may not have just like the bekiva maybe he didn't go to a what you would call it hater but he came to be one of the greatest people to inspire and be mahanish in our generation thousands computers and I was thinking and I I'm my last Publican with him we were discussing the name Nicole and he was telling me the answer that he received about adding the name of foil and that is not what I want to share you know the that's a personal Indian a letter that he wrote but I was thinking myself that everything is and I was thinking just the other day that I am sure throughout the last 30 years that really wanted to attach himself to Robbie wagon because we know that was been out of business for a long time for the last many many years with other engines so he really really wanted to connect he really wanted to be part of this tremendous person that inspired by spaden and it was big dollar to us and we brought us all to the highest of levels of each one according to our ability and that was something which was also extremely unique that Rabbi Wagner did not just work and tried to develop the tamidium which were excellent and naturally gifted and learning and avoida but we'd work with all the time which would you consider more which that's why it's so bad protest of his day of his potato you Zion ear is really an amazing we're the back end if you look in the letter which was written to a Rob in Canada in Calgary and it's a story that the Freda Gabba says that one time the group their friends the real tadiqib were talking amongst themselves how privileged they are to be tell me them of the balcante and that really the death of the Boston is only for the great the bowel Center heard that and he came out and he told them the Toyota which says his desirable land [Music] I am here that every single year should be able to give his yavu able to give his produce able to produce the best of his abilities the way the edit scrapets of the abistair can produce and that really we saw him with the whole son of the sonar the rabbi Wagner worked with each individual talmud to produce the best that that talmud can produce the koyages and the kishriness that that talmud had let that kiss Shrine and let that koyak shine so this is not Stam it happens to be on this day it's really megala because on the day of someone's potato that's the essence that call him and this is the essence of the avoid of and that's why when it comes gathering tonight you see there's people and by the levia hundreds and they say over a thousand people okay and this is people all different stripes and all different types because every single person felt and feels connected and feels there's not no greater gift that someone can give someone than but trusting in them believing in them giving them the confidence to be the best person that they can be and that we saw and that we saw push it the approach to each talmud how each talmud is good even when the you know Robbie Wagner started as Yeshiva after gimotamus when the whole world was talking about horben Lubavitch that uh the future is black and everyone was saying my year what's going to be and only that they keep a lot and that the key was saw not the horben of the past but the rebuilding of the future and that's healed and that smile and that positivity and that Outlook to produce and rebuild the base of God us to produce that are going to be able to take the leap forward and have the emuna in the his Gallows that's going to be taken from Yad this is something that we saw and we felt as tamidi and when I came back as a schlier I still felt it now even in our Yeshiva today the history they tell me that they felt it this was an Indian axmi which continued into every single colony and now I'm going to say and it's hard to go from the dear brother of Rabbi Wagner have noyan small naftali Wagner who also has gets a Mazel Tov tonight on the engagement of his son and that's how the amisters but the aim is to demands from us the nimna nimnoids wanna say a special and in my first encounter with Rabbi Wagner in Tannersville so Noam was an integral part of that yeshiva's kite as well he taught me by his example and continues to inspire and I'm going to ask arabnoyam revised in Johannesburg if I blame a little bit with the Islam with this very sensitive emotional and very important foreign they heard the loud noise that was being made by the Romans who are enjoying they were enjoying is and they started to cry and Rebecca started to laugh and they asked him why are you laughing and if Akiva said to them they might invite him why are you crying and they answered that when we see Allah these are those who are worshiping Idols they worship the dust of their feet and here they're enjoying themselves cry and the bekiva said to them this is the same reason the place this is why I'm laughing and never keep explaining that even the hybrid it's saying that cosplay City and those who are going against the abused or get this and for sure those who do the will of the amisture will get much much greater and the gamara continues another time they were walking and when they came to church they when they came to science film try is it getting any better now see if it's getting better so it can actually better now see if it's good so this time when they came and they reached cycling they ripped their garments foreign okay thank you but no it was better before what happened oh because they have to make you just talk okay and then we came to the place they saw a fox coming out of the place and so they started to cry and Rebecca was laughing foreign why are you laughing and again he asked him why are you crying and they accept him in the place where it says about it you must and now Saul and now there's a fox coming from this place and sort of Akiva told them this is why I'm lost because if and he said to them to tune the voice that it says about Sharia that says they told them these words you consult us and there's some you're so easily mother continues amen so just to say everybody knows the story and everybody knows also the point of the story the question is a very obvious question why are you laughing that's a very very good question and he's asking them name my Optimus Prime what's out why is that not obvious he also ripped his clothes and the devil explains that the concept of what happened over here is that they were asking of Akiva with name why are you laughing but it doesn't make any sense to laugh said to them why are you suddenly crying now what happened suddenly now that made you start to cry the fact that the base of expression is destroyed is something that was here before him and the crying is also envy and the the the gripping the garments is also something that we did already before it why did you suddenly Now remind to cry and so they set him the answers that Robert said to them they said to them that the reason and the issue is what we see we know that was destroyed we know that we're in Godless but does it have to be does it have to be does the Helen the Esther have to be so great and that's what Robert Kiva said to them that's why I'm laughing the idea was able to see him of course he was able to see the truth inside everything inside the greatest darkness and the greatest concealments are the truth and this idea is not just a story but this is exactly the concept of whatever keeper is all about and in fact in last week's pasture when we said at the end of it inside everything inside every aspect of the world and that's why the Kiva could see even the darkest things in the world and not only is he not crying but he's telling them that there's no reason and to the extent the day the other tournament even the one including rabbit show was a teacher remember that each one of them they all set together Akiva nikhamton and this idea is the concept of being able to see in everything the truth of them the truth is the angoster the truth is it doesn't matter what we see and what the world sees and what it looks like in the world is able to show and this is what Akiva is able to show I want to give us things to show everybody in the world at all times the truth of the locus no matter in what darkness no matter what it looks like to anyone else no matter what it seems to anyone else but when you look at the world and you see the truth you see the reality of everything it doesn't matter what looks like on the outside the reality of today's good design Goods the reality of everything in the world that even when things look tough when you see another Jew and it looks like he's far away from the aposture the reality of seeing the truth that really is closeness to the industry or something which is unparalleled he has the greatest idea of a locust to be able to reveal that to be able to see it that this is something which is there is it something which tonight as we sit at this time and everyone's gonna have stories to tell and everyone's gonna have something to say and the main thing is from all of the stories and from everything we hear of everything we see we have to take the idea of what he shows us and showed us and continues to show us this idea of Akiva nikhamton until that brings to Hashem that the abuser will give us the real it with our physical life so the fact that we'll start acting like it and seeing it and realizing it and taking the lessons that we learned from Akiva and that we continue to learn with from him taking the lessons and taking the idea into every single aspect of every part of the world no matter what it is to see it to understand it to recognize it and through that the image will show it to us the full and complete way that the amistor will show us the complete this Godless will take us to the base foreign there is no question that when we close our eyes and if you ask any of the time of Rebecca close your eyes and say what three words when you hear is what three words come to mind the answer is without a doubt any time it will say Amen is in my nightmares I hear the words [Applause] thousands of times how many times have every talmud heard that that La Cruz should be bipshitos and oil emotions there is no doubt that this is and was the theme that Rabbi Wagner instilled and wants to instill in each and every one of us to gain a 10 foreign for the first time after two years so I had a very consolation prize that I really didn't leave because at the end when I left yeshiven damos so my sister married Robbie Wagner's brother my dear Swagger of w who the Wagner University of Southern California so I'd like to ask my dear schwager the brother of Rabbi Wagner for playing a little bit with the oil um and this very sensitive and emotional and special time times um it's hard to talk but I wanted to share a couple of memories Akiva wasn't only my older brother but uh really the person who's as much or more than anybody else responsible I don't know if I should say that don't blame him for the for the for the failings but uh in my my own journey in life as he was in the Journey of life for so many of you Akiva played an extremely large role [Music] knots by convincing me of anything when I first started coming around granites around the revisions in noon and Olive on base there were a lot of people that tried to tell me what I should be doing and maybe it's something to do with the uh the nature of my my genes that doesn't always work so well to tell me what I should be doing Akiva never told me what I should be doing never tried to convince me of anything never tried to tell me what's what is the right way give a show by example every every day and in everything that he did the way it doesn't the way he learns we spoke to people the way he smiles in every facets you lived the life of the khasids and by example shared with you made you want to do a little bit more made you want to be a little bit better made you strive to see the world a little bit through that same perspective scarcity just mentions of Ms of ayalum of seeing a locusts and alumin scratches seeing reality for what it is I remember when I first started coming for Shabbos just the sitting down and learning the liquids Friday nights Fourth Avenue I would say it's a liquids came out every week before the February before before you entered into the the what was new that Chavez from that shot this is fairgreen and you had a liquids and there's as everybody knows was ever around Akiva the seriousness the depth with which he learned with which he took apart a piece of the rebeccera sitting down and going through the liquids and understanding it and giving it later what the liquid of that week said and that all in preparation for then going to the February the next day how he took its and and lived with it there's lots to say that I can't say I want to just share in uh there's a story in the free degree says a couple of times the decisions slightly different versions about it in the morning and uh he came to to ask for like or in one version it says that they didn't ask that everyone sitting on the table everybody took what they want in one version it says he says if keeper and soon we have to prepare for foreign said AB Zalman said that are you this is like a soldier first whatever he's told to do that's what he has to do that's what he does as many when he's told to be happy that he's happy when he's told to cry then third then he cries foreign and we have to do whatever it is that's involved in fulfilling that mission the time for vain inventment foreign what our Focus has to be what we saw most first and foremost by Akiva the focus always was on what was Monster what is demanded at this moment what is required what is this demand from us what is the rabbit demand from us at this moment and whatever that is whatever it is that's demanded to fulfill to fulfill our mission as soldiers that's what we have to do that's what we have to accomplish I remember it just came to me before I bring in I I think I was the only class that had Akiva officially as mashmir after that he became officially a magnetier than a Rasha Shiva but in touch with military and in one of the vibranians who told over a story from Miss California this said that in one of the telethons I'm sure you by Akiva everything most things were CD probably you heard this later but on a Telethon there was a guy they would put on the people from the drug Center whatever it would come on so they had one guy that came on and he said and Akiva said this in the context when there was talk about giving years to the river and he was for grinding about it this was a very serious time and very serious concept he said there was a guy that came on there one of the the recovering addicts from the drug Center and he said you know Shabbat is such a great organization he said if I had a million dollars I'd give it to shabbat if I had five hundred thousand dollars I'd give it to somebody said five hundred dollars and then he stopped and Kiva told over there's a story about a guy in communist Russia that says if I had an error I would give it to the desire this I would give it to desire it says two chickens what would you do with it says two chickens that I would keep to myself so they asked why two chickens suddenly that you would keep to yourself a million dollars you're ready to give to the desire two chickens You're Gonna Keep for yourself says because two chickens a half foreign we're going to talk about all the good things all the good ideas that we're going to come up with and sometimes it's easy to say we're hearing stories all week and you could think and sitaka was it's easy to get into a mode of talking about akiva's greatness and saying he was which he was he's a guy named in Italy which he was he's accosted through and through which he was and therefore to think we're going to talk about a million dollars that I would give that I would give to desire whatever it is talk about big big big accomplishments of course that will do but the two chickens meaning the specific things that we can each walk away with the specific athletes that we can do different today they're not so quick right that's much harder to give away because that actually demands something for me that actually says I need to wake up tomorrow morning and do something different there's going to be a lot of us I know one of them that went up now was so much to split up to do so much for the last year there's practical steps that we each could take and it's not enough to sit here and talk about the big things that he did and the big things that we would do if only we could but we can't we don't have that what we have to focus on is the two chickens what we have to focus on is the actual practical steps that we can take away by should live a little bit more like a hasid to learn a little bit more it's a diving a little bit better and yes to give a little bit of money in the campaign either we have to talk about that too we have to walk away tomorrow and be different we have to walk away tomorrow a little bit do a little bit what he would do precious Peterson pushed to learn nobody remember spend a little bit more time doing the things that we know our rights he wrote the emails every week because it's demanding pushing we all know what's right we all know what's the matter of us you all know what it means to to live up to be a little bit more the real hasid in our lives give the two chickens live up to that make real alcoholics and take it with us so that's every day we continue to be forever when you have to be like and it should be more and more afraid of till the ultimate favorite kinds and will truly be able to be forever when the kids offer praying together in all of the good ways that we need to anyone that opens up the miner boss illegani knows right away that the Shri is connected to the region the whole idea that never says that we are doing and that Shri is connected to the reshoying the region is of ramadino and uh so here is a little bit Faker the Shri is Abram and I think the youngest brother of Rabbi Wagner who I also got to know we were in Tannersville that's more my age so grew up together or we got older together because they say getting older is mandatory growing up is voluntary so for sure he grew up and we're going to say especially to avrami but to me still have Remy I'm gonna say okay we should only be sharing simplest and please oh I am gershy you're gonna have to say an extra which I am for me I thought if I'm gonna find my brother no I'm gonna find look I am also but no um when he was a little boy in hey there he was once looking out the window and his bats told him it's better to be outside looking in than to be inside looking out and the Frida garaba said this over and for bringing and the rubber said it over later many years later for bringing again you repeated it so rebecciva as he was so very well able to do cut to the heart of the story and he said why did the why was the malav and masalik between being outside looking in and being inside looking out he should have said it's better to look inside than to look outside either way either way the free the Caribou was inside so he said he explained that this was a more fundamental lesson every person always has a choice you can either be on the inside looking out you can say is look how much higher I am than what's outside and then you'll be very satisfied with yourself and you're not going to go anywhere or you can choose to be on the outside looking in you can always look at those who are more Panini who are more amus who are greater and better than you and you can take their example and improve yourself this was how how Rebecca always was he was always looking at everybody every single person he was looking at him as a preemie he found the Myla in that person and he looked how he could grow from that person how he could learn from that person and become more to me and mamela like her Dove was saying yes he Akiva was much better than anywhere any any anything I can hope to reach ever but that Meda the way he got there is because he just looked at people better than him and tried to improve and each of us can do that wherever we are just look inside look at the panimi look more look at someone better than you and try to bring yourself a little closer to what he what he is and more than that I'm gonna lean more heavily on Dove now Friday night though Tommy a mimer I didn't understand most of it but the rabbit explains over there that um there's two there's two madriguez says Hashem sorry Iran she is sorry the Busters gosh me why is it that the Nashi is called race is the outside but the liby up sorry the Felicia hearts is the rabbit explains that when a person is not she when a person is thika then he can go to the khatri sasham he can go to Gilroy but when it's liby of sorry that means then you have to look for you have to look for atomas I still had no idea what it was talking about so Doug told the story Akiva said that by him the morning of simchastaro was a very special time if you came on time to davening at 10 o'clock when the rabbit came down there were a lot of people missing and the rabbit came in with a smile and with encouragement and that was a time where he felt he he got a lot from being there and he made sure to be in 770 every single three or ten o'clock sharp but one year he was running late was 9 55 he was standing outside 770. and he hadn't yet been to the what are you gonna do um you're gonna go to the Mexico before going to 770 or you're gonna go inside Akiva set the story over to one of us tell me them and he asked him do mandala license yeah we're going to make for tomorrow go to Mexico later you're missing out garnished you have to seek Atmos deluium are great you Liam are wonderful but William are for people who are on that madrigo you look him up for when you went to the mixer you have to do the right thing and that's for every person who you always have to look for optimals you have to look for what's the real right thing and this also speaks to what Dove was saying big things that I'm gonna do I'm gonna do these great things that are gonna make me feel very spiritual very special do something practical that's going to improve you there's a very famous story um which I'm sure everybody heard a million times but I'm going to say it anyways because of my favorite story there was once a closet who urgently needed to get a message a letter to the rebel okay already gone in that day with the mail but was it was an Indian we came up with a good idea he wrote the letter and he put it by the door handle that this way when Robert opens the door the letter will fall down he'll see it then I'll pick it up and bring it into the room we forgot one thing when a husted goes out from the rabbit he doesn't turn his back to the rebel from the club opened the door his back was to the door he didn't see the letter fall down but the rabbit saw the weather the rabbit got up from his desk and he went and picked up the letter of course it felt terrible I mean the rabbit get up and go pick up my letter so the next day he wrote in it was time he made sure to be in time and he wrote Into The Rev asking the rubber wrote him back you have nothing to ask what you look for Allah my entire interest and my entire purpose is ice to heaven to uplift Ed especially things that others overlooked they're ever identified his entire purpose as uplifting things especially things that others overlooked and this is an area in which Akiva as a true that's what he did he tried to uplift things that others overlook whether it was a new diktok in Allah Mercedes an extra come on and darwining a smile to a year than the supermarket whatever it was even take something real take something simple and apply that and change your life and change someone else's life in a very real way I just want to add one more thing says Asylum the possible tells us that Hashem promises that anything that was taken away anything that we had if we had silver he'll give us gold if we had copper it'll give us silver attributions foreign if he took Ruby Akiva we know he's going to pay back and he's going to pay back more and the only way he could pay back more is by bringing Michelle my nephew told me on Shabbos of Arts from the shalom because I'll tell us that Hashem wanted to make sure but he didn't because didn't think she practice law what do you mean he didn't think Shira there are Docs foreign there's an army outside waiting to destroy me waiting to kill me is I'm going to sleep I have absolute trust in Yoruba initial Islam this Army is waiting the greatest army the world has ever seen is waiting to annihilate me I don't care I'm going to sleep I have absolute faith this law you shouldn't have gone to sleep you should have sang Shira he should have already lived with the Yeshua that he knew was coming and saying Shira now so since we know that according we know that he's going to pay us back we know that he's going to bring mashiach right away we should sing Shira and that's how we have to phrase us tonight we have to sing Shira because mashiach is coming I think it's results and I on the way to the base so I was in a car and somebody mentioned that how I'm not ironic but how ironic it is that someone that gave hundreds of shiorin fabrangians one of his greatest gifts that is known prenatala saklau is a song that he wrote in toshib and Tess as a book that the gun saved every child knows this nigging so I want to say maybe we could unmute the man because the one thing for sure you don't want me singing solo that I can tell every one of you will destroy the entire publengan but if we can unmute the the organizers can unmute or ask anyone that wants to sing in Suzanne and either with the words or just the Negan keep his nigging every time you could hear him right because I felt by his publicans that finally his barbarians one week I did heard that the Reverend sumir that was the uftu of his fabrangians that he was able to bring hundreds of both him to realize as the remed sudir as the MS you so we asked however dogs please unmute and we'll sing together [Music] his friends thank you [Music] ignore the words [Music] I am now we have tremendous hosts to have with us the esteemed swear of Rabbi Akiva Wagner Shiva of 770. who obviously it's very Schmidt but he agreed to come on and to bring a little bit with the Olam from the gun savelt in this very very emotional and sensitive time thank you she went up shoes oh yeah [Music] foreign resolved I just stayed by Major League issues velocity reflect versus you better um dogs foreign [Music] to absolutely no man as I came under your slapping until I called the culture well as a mislative foreign uh where the Indian has reasons you have the Christian upon them is amazing [Music] your mother foreign blanket there's a black Canal stain Montana debate um foreign summation um foreign which is pushed bringing Earth like to ask I love yaakov Wagner in this very very special I heard that one time there was a law which was passed in New York state something related to Public Schools and the rebel was very upset about it the most curious head that the terrible is pacing in his office and complaining that New York verta jungle and the rabbit called up Gershon bear Jacobson and asked that he should gather together signatures of rabbanim and Prince an article with the names of all of these are abundant stating that these were abundant protests the new law which was passed and Gershon Jacobson he tried to do as he was told he called Rob after of and each rap that he called turned him away it wasn't something which was related to their kahila it wasn't something that they wanted their names attached to it wasn't something which was negue to them he finally found one RAV um that agreed to have his name attached to this makro and indeed in the following days newspaper there was a headline in the front page that said that this Rabbi so-and-so protests the new law that was passed and Robert Jacobson received the phone call was on the line and we had to have asked him there ever wants to know what is the reaction that people have to this article which was printed and where Jacobson said to tell the truth I'm getting a lot of luck for it there's a lot of complaints that a Hamish newspaper has no business missions this isn't something which is appropriate for a newspaper in hamisha homes and as he said this he heard the rabbit's voice on the line and there are they said the canister Leiden as that fillersen I can't tolerate that at silos and Asia are two distinct realities two different existences my experience with my brother Rebecca similar to so many other tamidam whom I've heard from was an experience where I came back from Earth's Israel as a 19 year old baker going through at the time challenges of my own and I was exposed to a lifestyle to a perspective to a reality where at silos and Russia were not two different realities I was exposed to a world I was excited by being able to see that the ideas of anonymous of Havana of Emma's we're not just ideas in a book but there were ideas that were lived with in life they were lived within learning they were lived with in walking in the streets they were lived with in the way one slept after I bring in that went an entire nights didn't remain just an inspirational favorite but was followed up immediately the next day with putting it into practicality into reality the highest experience of godliness that it's possible to be in sederation should be a reality here inside of our world inside of the things that we look at that we should live with it in every aspect of Our Lives and as I spent time with my brother over the last three and a half years I saw on a whole new level how this ideal was brought into practicality that in every single challenge which he faced it was with the shittus but with the tremendous Stoltz a certainty an absoluteness an uncompromising appreciation and recognition of the way that things are supposed to be without changing things accuser regardless of whatever Allah there are and making sure to do everything exactly as it should be done in a way that doesn't allow for any compromises for any differences for any separation this is something which I saw others and I myself was inspired to absorb and to try my best to live by and to continue in such a way foreign again you with all your entire family to only be sharing in simplest entire extended family there's no question that we all feel the sport limits of your dear brother now I would like to turn to Rabbi yitzvah Wagner one of the other brothers that we have the schools to have with us here for blending tonight who's a covers foreign to be able to share with us all one extended mishpocha throughout the entire world the specials it's difficult it's fully encompassed in words even just with a little bit that we have heard it was Messiahs to the so much that we knew about the tremendous achievements and the life of my brother of akiva's Pizza one of the ways for me personally the survey does isn't the fact that I have no longer the ability at least in the easiest move on against me to be mechanism one of the many nikudi one of the many misplaces which are bekiva excelled which was maybe somewhat a little bit thicker to Palmyra but probably not as much as it was to us as family was the Mitzvah of cupid of vein he had a tremendous and he carried out with myself both With My Father Allah with my mother to give them the proper coverage to be misamished them in every which way in a way that truly serves as an example for all of us there's a gemara and condition describes this tremendous aim and the gamara tells us that one time or the vote after a drink and by the time avimi returned with the drink he found that rebeau had fallen asleep and her Bevo waited there holding the drink waiting until his father awoke so that he could give him the drink that he had asked for and the gamara says that as a scar for this keep it of the aim that feed me had performed foreign made that it's there why is it misma why are we singing when we're talking about yourself why is there a mismar attached to that and the answer as he says that avimi said was that Elder to armor off of seriously I used to play police Joe avimi was saying Shira on this that only the eight women were destroyed but through that there was left over as the Avis I played the quiet show was able to continue and the question is what is decisive foreign was not only the answer to the question but it was the question itself till then navimi had never had this question of why is it Ms merloto it was only after he performed the Smithfield keep it of the aim that he got this theaters to have this question so what did avimi think till then and he explains that avimi understood and as the gamara tells us that when people came and was not going to based on mcdosh a basketball came down from it you're Milling milled flower that you're destroying is justification it's just the eighth seminar abundant that make up the outside of the Masonic dust has already left and therefore what you are doing is nothing it has no real value and if that's the case then it's not such a castle why is it because was not really something that touched that reared on the premius of the base that make this however when I be me was being the kind the mythical keep it of the AIM and he was certainly being the kind and Mr um so I beat me was thinking what is this Mitzvah this mishpak that's because I'll tell us that some of the Misfits are mistaken that we would understand the reasons what is the reason behind the mishpat I'll keep it up the AIM obviously because our parents are the ones who gave us however we know that the places in a person his father his mother the father and the mother divide only the physical body the physical ghost the nishama which is the icker the nucleus of a person is given to him by the revolution why is all that they gave them is only the physical goods and not the icker not as the Shama basis that there is to the outside the verse of the summer the cutaneous of the Goof as well there's also an importance to the gospel because it says there's the mishkanasama it says that the way in which in the summer can be harnessed if that's the case avimi said then why is it a mismallah how could we say Shira on the fact that was destroyed that too had the value that too has something that gives it some reason for us to be missable to be a king of awesome to understand the answer the answer is no there's no value in anyone like that the whole purpose of anything like that is always the same as a means of elevating the nashama Justice in the basement key lock of his brothers [Music] Dash that was able to continue because after this so the Goof only serves the puppet when it serves to elevate in the summer when it serves to elevate the penis this was the theater the smile that avimi was safer to to understand that the keyboard of the AIM the way in which we'd strongly appreciate the Mitzvah is to recognize that true while we seem to be being the Cabbage The Good the reverse the cutaneous it doesn't have any intrinsic value but it's only because it enables us to better Elevate ourselves that were in the summer by creating a deer related by making a meme of being able to access the true kayak of the nisama and that is the whole purpose of islamaza Kiva the keeper recognized throughout his life obviously anybody who came into contact with them over the last three and a half years during the time when his girlfriend with every kind of level of being giving us this summer the wings to soar to get to the highest levels where it now is unanimous of Athena understands this computer but it wasn't only in the last three and a half years that it'll be keeper taught us this lesson he taught us this lesson with his entire life every aspect of his life what was he if not somebody who was spiking on them who was breathing out to all this time he'd been to all this family to all of us the MS are valuable that there is nothing accepting only premiers everything has to be with the premium and to recognize that the cuteness only has any value when it's used to serve as the way to elevate the penis to elevate the nashama foreign these are less than that we've learned from you the lessons that we have to internalize that we have to express Hashem that we have to bring to bear so that we can once again learn those lessons from you with the cause in a way that will be able to fully appreciate that as was mentioned before the level of casinos that the price of a perfect spend your list as one of the steps one of the ultimate steps which brings us to priusm and that title avocado can be said upon but we can go in his ways we can learn from his ways we can Infuse our entire existence with the correct level of Genius offer and we should be safer to that who was the name of them here I mean about a week ago my dear brother-in-law ravidove he wrote a public email that went out that said which the title was which Wagner are you that was the title of the article are you disrespa and that Russia our next speaker may come as a surprise for some they're going to say which Wagner are you but I think one of the Hidden Treasures is someone that I got to meet when I was in Toronto Arab mayor Wagner and really must be him in the city of Toronto and I would like to whistle High into the mayor and the entire extended right to ask the mayor to bling a little bit with this I know it's not easy but uh there's a time when we get that is and everyone just wants to hear Minal leave behind there's a famous story of a very prominent family that had six brothers five of them were great rabbis and one of them said in my family there are six brothers five of them are rabbis and one of them is a mensch I'm Not The Mensch but I want to say there was a lot shared and a lot to process a lot to think about over the course of the Shiva one thing that came through very very clearly about all of the Milas and all of the avoida that akivo did foreign and that is Akiva wasn't tafeism and I think that that quantifies everything that he was doing everything that he did and accomplished was because of that because he had no Jesus Market whether he was sitting in davening whether he was Far bringing whether he was fathering a mimer whether he was frying the the tuna patties for the bakram for lunch whether he was making a cooler whether he was giving sadaka to the myriads of Michelle that would line up outside his door it all had one thing in common not any one of them identified where Akiva was holding identified was Akiva was and and that's why whatever was required that's what God that's what God accomplished that's what God done someone said someone came into the shiver and they said that they were by a blabel groener when label was sitting shiva for his sister and he told over that he remembers from when he was a buffer before the nasias he was once at uh Shiva nikhamavelim by one of the rabbis that lived in Crown Heights and the devil before the nasias came in to be menacha model and the rabbit said that why do we say the name for the the the the name for Hashem said because when someone passes away it leaves a void it leaves a void in space [Music] there was fields it'll fill the void because I'll tell us sorry so I'm going to say something which is kind of look Fida and now I have all your attention I don't believe that the abistir is going to fill this void that Akiva left behind I think that that's balabatim from the investors been doing a pretty lousy job over the last two thousand years Yelp reviews are not good the void that Akiva left is going to be filled by each and every one of us each and every one of us when we put ourselves and push ourselves beyond the limits when we stop being taste for so much Market we stop how things and we add a little bit in our kavana bitsvilla like was mentioned earlier we add a little bit in our kavananashi yatsu specifically we add a little bit to another our limitations we add a little bit than our ibriggan kites because ultimately the one word for writing about the sunshab is the one word that was repeatedly associated with akiva's relationship with his talmudium is love that he loved his students and that love was reciprocated and mirrored that they loved him back we have to fill our hearts with a little bit at least of that love and right now besides for the void and all the days Akiva didn't come to us in a void and in fact there's a wife and children who had to put themselves aside who had to avoid their own existence in order to share Akiva with all of us now is the time that we have to give back there's two terms that are used everyone's familiar with that sadaka is not charity tadaka is righteousness wrecked that right now we have to open up our hearts and open up our wallets and give back to the wife and children who have shared Akiva with us who put themselves aside so we can experience the Godless of right now everyone needs to go to the website and give you gave her ready give a little bit more you can always find you'll have to skip your your your your your your your your latte Mo tomorrow morning go to the website give give back show that love that Akiva showed to us reciprocated to his family that they should never feel a need they should never feel for fetch they should never feel that they gave and khalilah they were forgotten and abandoned I think that's the Shah that's what has to that's the the real pale mamish of course and you could make another Havana but pale mamish right now go to the website doesn't matter what happened before and it doesn't matter what's gonna happen after because I'm telling you I'm not a fundraiser and there'll be a lot more professional fundraisers that are going to come on later and you'll give again later but right now seize the moment put yourself aside be like Akiva go to the website contribute give me fill that void and help us foreign [Music] someone just sent me a message that they tried to give and it's impossible to give online so please those that are working on the back end please uh fix that I do remember I don't know whose leviath was but we were in the Blue Mountain in for yeshiva's kayats and the holy Yeshiva got slipped back to a levia and I still don't know who Nevada was and we came in middle of a husband and all I remember from that has been is that the guy was whatever it was was speaking I don't know who it was I don't know who the nifter was got up and he said and it's not just a song that's what the person was saying the smoking on the on the on the raised on that they have is that our Toyota our growth and your growth is hers is the families it's not just the song it's not just the slogan this is the fact this is real and I see that yes they could give thank you Mendel so this is real it's not a slogan of a campaign it's not a catchy thing for our hearts we all have to realize that this is the truth and yes we all gave and can give and should give and encourage others to give because as a matter of fact there's a whole line of speakers I want to share one of the things that Robbie Wagner pushed us when we came to Zao and at the time I didn't really appreciate it so much but we did Kabbalah soil until we developed the appreciation was that after diving we should all walk to Isaiah and for playing with a show until he started coming to the Yeshiva but we'll go with sit around the table and you saw their Toyota in the show and he was there and I would say what are we doing here week after week he said so we would sit and one of the stories that he would say and I heard it from him many times is that there was one time a levia in a city and as the ordering came out people were crying and um and people mamas were crying for this wonderful person that passed away and somebody got up and turned to the island and he said how much do you care about this person and they cried more and more he says no no I didn't ask how much tears you have but how much do you care how much money did you give to mishpaka to be able to be mom ship that was the story I heard him to from remember we all cried many many tears and that's you know it's a testament that tell me them all around the world I got text and I saw messages and stories but she's crying until many tell medium hold that upon him if they should push it to your career which is not uh something you you hear of you know McLeod but this is how deeply connected people feel and felt but tears sometimes it feels good to feel bad and then we go home we get six of them because we felt good that we felt bad that can't be the case here we should have to give and someone mentioned that we're just three thousand dollars short of the five hundred thousand gold which is only part of the goal two thousand now so please everyone continue to give and I like to ask one of my great you didn't who really introduced me to Robbie Wagner by coming together to the Tannersville Camp someone that I know Mama's from kindergarten on a dear you deed of mine a dear swugger Robbie Wagner Thomas of Robbie Wagner Rabbi davidkovski de Levi schlier to Oakland California the please for bring with us in this very very sensitive and emotional time for you the family and for all this time medium in this very personal time that David should only have nakama you and your entire family and we should continue to share simplest form can you hear me can you hear her yes sorry I'm just out of sync over here it's a little noise in the background um thank you gershy and Rabbi absin and everybody who spoke earlier I wasn't able to hear everyone but I'm sure um I don't want to repeat anything um it's hard to talk obviously and after listening to the last uh week um you know that the whatever you thought you know is only ephes could say over um I got to know Akiva when um when I was nine years old one day I woke up in the morning and I was told that my sister is getting engaged through a guy named by Akiva Wagner I met him a few hours later and that was that was the start of our relationship it wasn't the time that we were together in a car or anywhere else where he tested me on the gamara that I was learning um it was you know it was somebody was Molly the goddess militar it was someone that that not only learned but but read and and wrote already at that time at a young age you know I overheard someone the other day and saying and marry his first daughter off to uh you know to not to someone who was not uh a laborator family and I remember when they spoke about it is whoever my parents went to to look for a if they all said that the the biggest Eloy the best of the best is Akiva Wagner and they kept on hearing it over and over and over again so um that was the beginning and later I became Miss talmud in the first year right off the pace we I went with many balcony we went to uh Foods Toronto and became part of that first year in the Yeshiva um and um we were the first students but there were thousands of students after us and then hearing how much effect that he had on all of the students um Akiva was very someone who was you know not only wasn't he the irregular guy but he was he was someone who was signed eagle and scientists um everything you know when Akiva started Yeshiva and he started the campus even earlier he was a Trailblazer at that time they were the only the institutional yes they were you know you can count on on two hands you can count all the yeshivists but they were all in yeshivas that were backed by you know by by uh you know dozens of years and yeshivists don't belong to communities and Akiva felt the importance to open up his own Yeshiva he felt an importance that there's something that the other yeshivists are not offering the bathroom there's something you know this expression because it's partials by mid bar and passions by mid Burger on the Eden going to Mid bar the the famous question is is why did he even have to say to be there for 40 years was punishing the hidden punishing lead in itself is not enough it says the Eden went out they went out the in a hurry oh the whole the whole pesach is all about the nakuda that that the Eden went out and they didn't even have time and here all of a sudden they're waiting 40 years why are they waiting 40 years obviously the ABC had another reason a reason why for the 40 years [Music] in the goof and then they can go in territory and I think that a buffer when he becomes Bar Mitzvah and he starts going becoming a teenager he realizes that he wants to be massive so what does the Abisha says a place where you this the food's not good it's Mama's like a meat bun you're not in your comfortable beds you're not anywhere where you feel like you're in their hand but you're in a place of a meatball those are the most important years of atalamid is the years that they're going through the Yeshiva the six or seven years they're going through massive and zawa and that's when a person is that then he's able to continue later and go into his Southern caramel not being battle Terror and Akiva felt that the other yeshivists were doing a good job but not not a good enough job and he felt there's another way of doing things and that's why he opened up as a first of all the we call today the smaller yeshivas that there are waiting lists for because he felt that he had something to offer that no one else was able to offer and he became but mainly a mashpia from hearing all of the tomidim or a lot of the Tommy them speak during Shiva you heard over and over the same Dakota not all of them connected to the gamada not all of them connected to the alumnus they said this flying over them if all didn't understand what was going on they felt last fall that they saw in him that he wasn't someone who was above them he was there though but he felt one-on-one with them he felt on the same level as the Tommy them each one felt that their small problems were his big problems you see it was it was he was must be on them he once told me he says I work on this bathroom and then they go to shudality then they lose it all they go back and that's why he wanted to open at one point he wanted to open he invited because he felt that he the bathroom are changing but then they go back into the system and it messes them up and that's something that you know that that a key was pale again not on one not on ten not on a hundred on a thousand but thousands and thousands of Tom medium that went through either directly or indirectly akimosa there those remember Thomasville he had a whole a whole a whole community of town as well that would love his fabrina's and Compass fabrings even though every once in a while after lahain you have to go to Schreiber but he it was anybody who knew him anybody when you when you think about it you know you know learning the history of of of of of the daily Israel and you see that some of the greatest passed away Young you see whether it was whether was that is and you ask yourself in such in 35 years 38 years 50 years how could a person accomplish so much when you look at Akiva you can see it in such a short time he changed over Lubavitch as we know it in the sense that Tommy them knew that their roshishiva you know when you look at the literacy you see this and they come to their the Hasina they want their roshishiva they're connected us she was their best friend and what the you know with him when you were 13 15 16 17. but when you when you get when you got to know Akiva you understood what I meant so many people are just sitting out at a cinema fan someone told me that the day he went to Toronto was the day that changed his life and it's not one person saying it not a dozen it's every single person that you meet that went to Toronto went to Yeshiva or went to even went to went to Tannersville before that or Hamilton or Hunter Mountain or even before that even though Theta and it wasn't easy it wasn't easy Toronto was then a midbrush mama for hasidus in a certain aspect and even when he went there it wasn't the place that was a mocking Taylor of philobavic it wasn't at all and it was there and yet he was able to create something so beautiful and so unique that it changed so many lives you know we always like like the quote de gamara in in Shabbos the three questions the famous questions they asked you have four questions and on the first question so there's an interesting pirush that says that you negotiate in a Muna that says did you accept did you accept them the amuna that you have is something that was just because you were born into it automatically you're gonna accept it or did you negotiate with someone did you struggle with the Mona did you find your own way in them one and I think by Akiva for sure um even at a young age 13 14 already he was he felt like he was questioning and he was trying to understand the data foreign and if in previous video is something that it's obviously not only 12 children but the thousands of Tom Needham stocked at the Peter viriba is talking about Tommy then someone who was Isaac it was never a moment that he didn't go into dorms and he didn't go look after this and see peace of the Yeshua which is the last one the cough the cough in mashiach and that that Akiva had I don't know if there's anybody who was able to match him in that Indian so I'll I'll leave it at that but I think that that um I'd love to hear others especially for me and gershi and Raleigh that will come later it's you know it's 20 something years ago and still you know man it was it's we're so connected to Akiva and we're so connected to the Yeshiva and we're so connected I'm sure for the bathroom that it's even newer and it's even more fresh that connection is even stronger and you were able to see it in in in in in in their life and obviously the height and everybody that we all have to take one piece of Akiva one piece that we saw by Akiva that was unique and there's so many things and every other Indian spin actually what it was that he saw that he can learn from that day to day and week and week a person can change their lives by small things like if it didn't believe in changing at once small things in life take upon yourself something small because even if you change one degree and you're driving you're going to end up somewhere else after a lot of miles we at least myself and many of the people on the zoom are the mccablin a rabbi Wagner of the Kiva and we would hear from him about his machine there's no question that there were two people that when he mentioned their name there was a new there and it was almost like a sitter of oil when he would mention there are two people he would say there are two people that the master better is one is unfortunately not here with us the fame legendary Who was the mashpia ishi of Rabbi Wagner and I remember one time we're sleeping and they woke up the whole dorm of the Yeshiva why because of the vitanski came to town doesn't matter what and when the the keshire that he had withansky is uh English Shire and then he would speak and the Bittle and the respect to not just someone that is a tremendous not just somebody that was is an uncle of the Wagner family but somebody that he took I know I heard it from him as a mentor as a Madre and as a dog that cares about tamidim he would always always covered to his very very famous and kosher uncle Russ who's here with us tonight foreign [Music] and one of the children said that he had a business government and he asked what do you mean I was very young so you said I didn't say I said every day with him was utilized and the days were long days that in other words they had a full the full time that says never explains the decisions that's [Music] that's uh that flame is naturally that he did to reach with David McGregor Bobby young is that neutralized each day and each day had its own taken yes that sometimes a person Works they have slam as an efforts but they but they enveloped in this man and mock him in he didn't manage to accomplish so much the things over there in the story with the with the base Joseph that because of a certain thing he he told him that he imagination told him that he won't be there but if he would have died of condition whoever says martial he wouldn't be able to write the show for North wouldn't have been able to write this for him that if he also is famous for it but he also because of missionaries so it says when it comes to zulkiness and there's no dagger that's higher than dying okay but when it comes to accomplishing the world again Sharma comes down over here also to accomplish in the world so if Boba young that's the English for everybody 's nationally so uh this singing was even students even when he had a communist wishes and everything is established to be able to say sure infinite on medium it started to utilize whatever the craziest he had was the government the time shouldn't go to waste and I can still accomplish something you can say another sheer I can say I could say make another for bringing give another they utilize up to the last minute uttering in my mind that sitting with the motherboard and they wanted to see this even though that he was very busy with the Yeshiva with scientific ideas of the tomadium and they asked him they want to share cities at 6 30 in the morning and he accepted and he said that she is succeeded in the morning until it had to be a different place of the town to utilize every opportunity to be Missouri to utilize every opportunity to be able to accomplish something I can do something more I can deal with another talmud holy that's something that we have to manage it was a dog of that of how you have to be a Bobby yum and utilize every opportunity that Aviation gives us to be able to accomplish whatever we could accomplish foreign [Music] gives us foreign [Music] that's the first thing that we have to learn from him that we have to try to maybe she gives us an opportunity and we have an opportunity to do another mix with to do another to learn a more Terrier to accomplish something more in this world which able to put us into this world and that he wasn't higher for everybody to do whatever you can do and opportunity arises and [Music] everything was done with a smile everything was done with simcha that he appreciated the opportunities to give them appreciate the opportunity that he's able to accomplish something and to realize that I I'm here and I can be that I have over here these days it's a known letter in secret from the river the intermediary kings are passed away and did it during this time because Lenovo called itself has never asked a question it was probably Noble College I was there and since they're called the media rabbits individual medium of very Achievers are therefore definitely learned with snipers off and and the big TV is the one that said so how's it possible and whoever explains he understands because the way to Media will keep it so there's the female and everybody has his Thomas and their fish one is oh and there's many how we draw from the market as many ways and each one of the intermedia everykither he learned a certain way from Liberty verse and whichever way he learns in whichever way he was served the English to Earth consumed him in totality consumerology that he felt their myelism and so there's an island each day everything has a mile over the other one there's a mile of a of of more highs more simplest mind over here there's more beautiful myocabulous oil to do to do that's what demanded from you without thinking any of his brain is every Derek has its mind and since they recommediately clever and whatever Dairy Queen had their registered in their limitations so it totally consumed them and it took them through and through again and when he saw somebody else that he doesn't go over there Jose even though he's David is Hashem but the the avoid of here it doesn't have the same mileage the original album and because he was a terminated every killer and wanted to be retirement Hospital the second one should also have the mileage of his death so he tried to influence him because whatever might as I feel now and I learned so I have to try to give it over to the other person but the other person was totally consumed and total taken through his death say there was no mock over him to to add the Derek of Matrix it wasn't the cable dashboard so the times it was even an hour inside a certain concerned into other times comes in the early local codes that was there is is because he felt that he was missing something that he could have had so that was the concern of congrat so if you ever said what we have to learn from that is that whatever there who is serving the average to each one according to the three turn this and after um so we have we have to be totally involved in that there that there was no time and which one was involved totally in his in the death and he was serving David he was limited and that when I have a certain in you know it's going to be closer today whatever a mile I have I have to try to see that the second person should have it that wasn't a tiny either the time it was that even when the second person wasn't a Cabo because he was even as Hashem but that Curry the feet from the snapshot so there still has to be no record reserves that you have to recognize that the Indus air showers and everybody has and his Twins and their fish and everybody has his way of the house miscarriage above and therefore that even though that you don't see it in the Milo of your death still you have to recognize the miners of the other tariffs and there has to be Noble coverage there was a that's the limit that we have from tomato Behavior and this is one one of the things that the Akiva also that by him he always saw the mileage in every single person and every single comment even if the talent has certainness he looked he always uh analyzed where does this restaurant come from and how can I make a way or how to fix it and try to be must be in every way possible even if he wasn't a cowboy he still saw the Midas and this was another thing that we have to learn from him is his life and his and his attachments to when he hears something that he feels that this is this is Amazon this is a radius of sharing this is this and this is this is the way I can read this album so to try to get involved in that in totally and fully academic seriousness like in southern the music by him that was mysterious and efforts in his days to be able to must be as much as he can even though the cost him a lot of ethereum and even though they cost them a lot of a lot of hardship but if I can help another eat to do it with my full concentration and even if he's not macabo because he has his mahalas that didn't take away his the this thing that he took this limit of the Weber's letter in before in full concentration but we have to concentrate on is how we can we hide up and draw frog and what he taught us what he tried to give us and one to two things that should only be idea was earlier so there's the fortune developeration whoever he could help another yet so the revolution since since [Music] therefore the the parents they are short film in his ultimate series over here so whatever meets with the son does it goes automatically automatic credit of the father when somebody else was not a son does something for somebody else he has to have a special cover on it I'm doing it this was playing you've been playing but when his son does something so it's an extension of the father and the and automatically it goes and Akiva had a lot of comedian that he was most enough shape to to that they should grow in the proper way in different you should develop in the proper way so it's the monument take whatever her spoil whatever you heard from him learn better because of that done better because of that do Mitch is better because of that to Think Through of how in which way you you taught me to to go to become a close Innovation I haven't allowed in like the river demanded from every single time and today everything should be in avoided Tama so that's the playoff that we can do if you want to and we want to make a for bringing code that previously you have to know the Bahrain that we do that is the ultimate for brain and that's the ultimate Way of the way we can see the Hampshire of of what he accomplished over here in this world the scenes that he planted that they can grow there should be at Sonic Atomic gift of that it didn't look only on his own Beauty like in heiress that grows high and strong but the Tumblr does not go so high and strong but as Miley is but he gives Paris and that's the biggest cruise that we can do over here and the the keyless Legacy should stay and remains and Beyond that to take the those things that he showed us that didn't hire you know how we have to learn how we have to dive and how we have to do Matrix and the cool limitations to everybody that we come in touch with then he always always came with a smile always came with it a good feeling when he said hello so we have a lot to learn about how eaten and Libre and we should go and his draw him and his way he is together with the web [Music] and it doesn't stop there should be a lot of that and remember that we have that if you had the Shadows with him and we heard from him and we learned from him so to take that and keep it alive a live with the highest naming the way we know he would do it and with the same type of mysteriousness another thing that we see that is clear was Seems like by Michael it wasn't the ambulance where him it was the day after the emeraldus this is stalkers it was it shows a certain shame is in there later well the web explains in a secret and even goes the darkness nostalgic on the game of letters itself the subject is they had that Shameless or volume call yarmov but except they had another thing to accomplish in the in the coming year after after the gamma letters so they came it was one day later it was uh whatever we do we have to try to do it as completely as possible is it for Slammers as possible okay it happened an email is and like I said before that every day has to be counted every day has to have its meaning every day has to have its misper every day is purple also every day has its territory and to utilize that to him um leader here or left over here and we still have something to do over here in this world we should go ahead and accomplish it the same type of Synthroid with the same type of mysterious message and foreign [Music] ER told me many times that he heard from Rabbi Shah that gives him a lot of his hook if and he says one of the things that kept him keeps him going and kept him going was one time his uncle Rabbi Shah told him when he opened the Yeshiva governed left something in that you enjoying if you open up the position biography it says and touching your Zion the devil's accomplishment is found it important that it should be in that it was to have it there having Yeshiva I don't know how I didn't know what the Yeshiva was or how long it lasted it definitely wasn't something that was Nim shocked and yet this is clearly for the whole world to see that and touching you Zion Toronto Wagner that when you opened up the Yeshiva that was the Yeshiva that delivers he said now in life and he says when he had his tough days he understood that it wasn't this Yeshiva in Toronto um now we would like to call our next speaker who to Toronto I know for sure is from the closest relatives and the Adidas nashes they had together as being schwaggers around the same air I know exactly the same age but around for sure and for Sean him shonim and the gishmak that they had together and the hours spent together for bringing together discussing together and mama is having kids raised in the house together I know the cashier is really really aimedly tired of England Shire like the astronaut and buffalo and a blazersky the oldest schwager so for playing abyssalm and I know it's difficult at this time but please officially on the side it said 9 30 is open mic so open the heart and let it be open mic for bring a Bissell thank you this you have to call them your two-year-old to help with the technology of today and your son's phone it you you have sound you hear me now you hear me now yes okay yeah as you mentioned I've been through I've been keep it for many years and known for 32 years it's very difficult to speak about him and um that way um the last couple uh this this winter you actually spent here to shabasim and one Shabbos was after he hasn't seen him he's giving shooting for a whole year and um he was able to come up to Buffalo and the vacuum came from Toronto and the Simpson he had he pretty much made it remember correctly was able to see the bathroom simply had to see the bathroom was just amazing his um Health was not good everything was very difficult for him but coming here and being with the bachelor remember if I bring the Friday nights Shabbos morning he called the bathroom to come before davley to come to English then service afternoon he prevent till after Midas and he's from there he went to Seoul it's meant so much for him the love he had for every one of the bahren was just amazing to see later on Sunday was totally out Monday was very difficult but he was so happy that he was able to see the bathroom it's time to meet him after so long it's really it was it was such a um difficult thing to see the way he felt but the Sim he had to see the bathroom that was teaching about to see them be part of them was was just amazing it gave him so much higher see suddenly it picked him up the whole Shabbos was different Shabbos he was going for hours and hours it was just um amazing to see I mean smoke it's now for the last few hours I was speaking about even those Akiva Islam this is getting this is um is davening everything he did that fully there's not much you could add I mean it was in every single aspect obviously slowly had for he had my my own three kids all the three kids live in this house for a couple of years quite a few years because they went to Toronto to get and every time I thank you he said enough to thank me you know this was something that he believes he was so happy to do it's the attitudes it's sometimes a lot more than what you do obviously spokes a lot of people actually met him was here yeah he spent the sun you spent the summer over here at least one summer if I remember correctly but the people really love them over here in Buffalo I'm so obviously spoke um I'm picky office whatever speaks in sikha about um I believe me this person's actually is a um and yes they mean the same and they never asked the question what's it doing in techyavas what does it mean and that explains the the secret is the person it's just what you say it's not how much you do but it's the way you you say it's when you're ready to give yourself totally over somebody else that it's not mine it's all yours that's it is also somebody that gives gives money and helps others and gives everything but later on that episode he has to put in a a a statue as to say I gave it to you it was so much he was able to give himself away so much he didn't feel he did something he felt this is part of his life this is who he was it wasn't something he gave something belongs to him he helped someone else who did something special this who this is who he was this he did it with so much everything he believed was the classes with the mission says trusted that a person who's willing to give up it's not mine it's really yours they used to gave it to me to help others everything he had he was able to give it away belief Sheldon he was able to he didn't feel special because he wasn't asleep nights he went straight from from fabrina instead to teaching again to was telling me he was in the hospital and he was waiting to get chemo and they pushed things up off so he had some more time he found himself a room on the side and he gave him sheer towards the end this year when the woman came complaining was making too much noise he says to the bathroom he says she does she doesn't like what I'm saying she slugs me up she doesn't agree with what I said but it wasn't like he felt he did anything special he felt this is who he was he gave everything he had he's willing to give away and the people used to come I remember always in the house nice to be in Toronto there were always lines of of people coming to collect money he gave it you know people that many of us may have not have given he he was so happy to give it um said he did I usually speak about her should be speak about Islam this is Tata his um his gayness but he had everything yeah I mean you don't think you don't speak usually about it or shiv about The Stockade games the opacity happens uh he's I was so so much female was saying about how somebody came to give um for for gamaks it took a loan everyone knew the guys no way he's going to be able to pay it everyone told him don't give he's not about to pay you he gave it anyway and the guy didn't have money to pay back and came again for another good month it's almost he's not gonna be able to pay it he gave him a second time he didn't think about anything special because that's who he was he was so gave himself over to everyone gave himself over to someone gave himself over to to the community gave himself over to anyone who came in contact with he did it with such slugs such EB Games that's who he was so like you know I mentioned before we can't be at Rabbi Akiva but at least some things you can learn the height and I'll leave the oven to learn something a little bit that we could take about how we can give with a good heart if it's giving learn giving a share of somebody asked you to learn a little bit you mentioned before yeah at 6 30 in the morning you're sharing that sure I'm at night during my day anyone that wanted to learn with them he was always available with whatever it was we had to learn to have to give ourselves a little bit away to help others yeah and you know spend all night speaking about him but just others so um for all of us again you and the entire family an extended family only because uh he would not allow us to get sad depressed and down only soon can only buy it someone asked me recently how did I feel when I was in Yeshiva so I said that I have a brother-in-law that's a campus there's no mask here it's up to the sleep to inspire the tummy them to come and be involved I said when we were in Yeshiva I don't really remember I mean there was a mashiach I think that there was a someone that was marking because a marker but it wasn't but there was no way of the typical that you think about and I was push it we were on fire but playing and also those days when we were in Yeshiva there was no such thing as say they're starting later I don't know if now they've adjusted we could probably until six say there was 7 30. why because and that's what it was there was no moving to say there so there were nights and days and there was no real enforcement but the other the energy just slept us all in so on campus you have what they call a fraternity which is the place where the students live but it's not just the dormitories it was in a dormitory and a fraternity in a fraternity they're known as brothers the people are connected forever they have their own men hug him it's a culture you can sleep in a dorm where you're at or you could sleep in a fraternity where you become brothers so Robbie Wagner was the campus Leah so then the dorm wasn't the dormitory it definitely didn't have a standard of a dome I slept on the floor of the kitchen apartment you know it definitely wasn't a dormitory but it definitely was a fraternity that made us all Brothers so and not just us but really the idea of a fraternity today is that anyone that's in the fraternity 50 years later feels a special Brotherhood to those that are in that fraternity today the Jewish fraternity is AE pie people will get jobs with the guy that was 50 years ago in aepi because there's a certain Brotherhood so there's a certain language a certain culture maybe even certain codes I don't know so really when I hear that there was a book of The Learning in Toronto it could be 20 years younger than me I feel a certain Brotherhood but to this book we we shared we we're in the same house with the same culture we share the same the same ideas and we got yelled at the same there's a certain culture that bonds us all together so one of my dear brothers that we entered the fraternity together is going to start the open mic for him we're going to ask all the alumni to fabrina is a quite quite an accomplished young man you know his serum I heard all over the world recently I was driving home and I hear his voice in the back of my car because my son was learning rambam I said oh it's like a nightmare he's coming he's coming he's coming for me from the back of my car it's a tremendous tremendous to ask Northern California one of the boygreen and one of the original class who joined the year Shana sneer like I did in Yeshiva in Toronto the police for playing abyss and with this we finished the formal program and we entered the open mic but Robert foreign um it said that people don't care how much you know until they know how much you care and that's of course true in life in general and especially true and the people that you're referring to are 16 to 19 year old buffer yes Rabbi Wagner was a true Renaissance Man a dynamic Wellspring of enigma Mercedes and the depths of ishiram really stimulated our young minds impressionably so I actually personally go back and glance at my notes every once in a while of the Christ some of the hottest of those years but I I know I speak for myself and and for all the time and and each one will express it in their own way the Gateway through which his third and his worldview penetrated my mind and my heart was this his masterous dedication because once you know that he cared that you cared about what he knew and to put it simply he had a push and obviously so yes young will Raleigh Resnick felt that his then 28 year old Russia honestly cared about her and that signature remained seared on my life because of that so I'd like to share an Insight from Arusha Shiva actually saw it was uh now printed in the uh book that they just put out after Shiva a collection of artists on rabi akiva's secret if you will that he wrote how to become an oil Israel now during the yeshiva's first year at Edinburgh I'll be Wagner's father passed away a young age and at the first yard site uh the Yeshiva had only months earlier moved into the bank Loop me where it stands now on Lawrence and Bathurst when we first arrived our first day they were still fresh deposit slips there the teller stations were all there they were being demolished and together on the first yard set of Rabbi Wagner's father with a very memorable and the inauguration of the yeshiva's library the Yeshiva published a clevis artist dedicated to the memory of Rabbi Wagner's father s was actually dated Wagner's father's yard side is Dallas and by the way when I say the Yeshiva publisher I mean a few others and Rabbi Wagner sitting with his two fingers at his computer uh typing his contributions and at that time when we were in Yeshiva that episode were first being published and that was the talk among everybody was studying and we all know para climate-based Tanya the paragraph Israel opens with the words now in other words about to teach how are you should love a fellow youth and we do that by mastering varim hanao the previously mentioned ideas now what are those what are they referred to and in the rapist notations he comments with two words he had written about this notation of the devil and he said that the payment the prophet the process you have to be fulfilling the procure before the empirical tests talk all about the lowly state of our body our shortcomings not living up to my potential and then paraglam and Olive Tales tells us that we Although our bodies and our material Pursuits are indeed despicable our shortcomings but nonetheless we should identify with our nisham well robertski said those are the messages you need to master in order to begin your journey into obvious Israel the aftermasters you have to feel a lowly state of your body your shortcomings then you have to relax and then you can start para comic bits now without getting into the nitty-gritty back and forth in that Clements that clip is the market Wagner's father's first guard Side by Wagner historically disagree he insisted he insisted that the pay doesn't stand for but probably Michelle it doesn't mean I don't know argued that it means but peric shall lift things up one chapter there's one parent of Tanya one chapter you have to be proficient in in order to fulfill and you have to fulfill that chapter in order to master loving a fellow you not hufftester llamic in other words the way Rabbi Wagner identified this if a year identifies his nashama once I start seeing what life through the lens of to the prism of elucus then automatically everything falls in place and if I can humbly suggest that this wasn't really Rabbi Wagner's academic analysis of the represents but it gives us a mindset into Russia and it gives us all food for a thought at this auspicious time his care his love for us his devotion for all of us it was predicated on based on the average of really working on himself to see the truth of life to call the bluff of this world the bluff of clipper to see the MS because when you see that when we all see that then we can truly have a love now many of us are in the business if you will of being influencers in some shape or form or capacity all of us are and if all of us can have a little bit of this can have a little bit of this perspective that we can really absorbit a little bit of our Russia's perspective on life just want to conclude you know uh my dear dear Rabbi Gershon we all actually got together a few months ago um for the 2015 you know in Chabad we don't usually have high school or college reunions but we had one which was very special people for Lynn from Ohio from California from Florida from around the country and where the first class Yeshiva we got together and uh I just want to conclude my my last exchange with Robbie Wagner I was in New York a few months ago for the Kennesaw and hours before the banquet I had disclosed to pay him you know a private visit in that front room that many that he spent so many hours in to visit our treasure and uh actually the European are our man you have an act of writing a very prevalent and perhaps even borderline controversial pieces usually in the realm of the generates very healthy conversations and discussions and lavage and just to say the days before the Guinness you had written a piece about whether or not we should continue raising with the expectation that they'll be appointed to slaughter him or not and somehow my conversation with Rabbi Wagner uh sort of turned to the topic of your uh of your talk and what was so beautiful was so beautiful and this I'll conclude because I know there's so many people who want to share what's so beautiful was his knee-jerk and instinctive reaction his instinctive reaction he really almost didn't understand why we're talking about there's a purpose for learning there's a perp no no no no learns because he's supposed to connect to the abstract what's going to happen how is going to develop it will develop into a foreign foreign and the last one there I just was listening to last night at the end of paradolot and he talks Rabbi Wagner sick at the time talking about the value being in this world in fact every week that's actually out to them but discusses that in great length this is one of the source in this parisha so may our favorite this world bring an amazing and to the availability to the family you don't need us to tell you who Rabbi wagon was but I hope you take some knowing that he lives on in all of us and all of us Hashem will continue to do children so that we can bring back thank you it'll be so late and uh we have to continue for blending and now again I want to ask everybody this is something I know it's coming out of your ears but that's to go from ears to action is we really really really have to encourage people to help and participate if for the mishpocha at rayston.com every one of us have people that we can share it with there is no reason the idea is that tomorrow the family should not even think that there was this thing it's not because anyone wants it we on our own want to make sure that the family at the very least should not have to worry about the nyanim dashmi there's enough digest enough shylist and there's enough worries and for so much that they gave for us this is so little for us to give back to them and that was really the most raw and special time it's time for the alumni and the comedian to sheer open and raw and Ms and with this because I turn over to an emissary talmud who uh really really uh forced behind this fabrengan and many of the ylt alumni initiatives driving force like tasmano IRL wine where we have a special cashier his mother was my babysitter when I was a little little boy so it's always uh somehow you know before Seattle and everything so uh thank you so much for giving me the opportunity to be part of this and continue to be part of this and uh really really take it away and make it real time thank you so much so we looked far and wide for uh a real a real um Rabbi uh someone who could appreciate Robbie Wagner for an intellectual genius that he was and various other qualities to MC from this point out but apparently all the uh all of a sudden my bedtimes apparently so everyone's checking out um first things first I want to encourage everybody this is very informal at this point you could tell uh the proof is the fact that I'm speaking um so please go ahead and turn on your cameras let's see your beautiful faces let's turn this into something a little bit a little bit more informal um then right after you turn on your camera turn on uh open another tab in Chrome and go to uh raisedmon.com and go donate something make a team let you know make make a little bit of a of a lasting impact past the the time of this call I'm obviously young I'm not going to there's people on here that have known Rebel wagon for much longer than we are we're seeing we're seeing some beautiful faces thank you everybody um so hopefully I'll just be able to facilitate people to come on and speak uh I have a couple people that I have uh from WhatsApp otherwise if you can private message me on on the zoom Channel if you'd like to speak uh we'll be able to coordinate accordingly um I don't know why from a very young age I was I was obsessed with Robbie Wagner um from when I was in even khader and sista um we we had uh we had a we had a special special connection um in sheer base was uh I was asked to leave from from the other masifa because of the financial issues for a bit and Robbie Wagner welcomed me into this all just to sit there and take care of me for for uh you know just just with open arms and then sure gimbal I was able to go to his system um and then from that point um yeah we had we had a great connection I'll just share one thing which is that a lot of people it's amazing that I think 90 of the people that are on this call probably appreciate Robbie Wagner for like 30 of of the person that he was I think there's very few people that could really appreciate him for like I said earlier the intellectual genius and and his other uh his you know philosophical and and so just knowledge qualities there's probably very few people that are even intelligent enough to be able to know how amazing it was from that point that's definitely not me but something that I found astounding we spent hours back and forth I used to try to make them breakfast they I used to I used to make them coffee and try to get them off you know from 13 sugars from having uh you know a little a little coffee and his sugar to try to make it 50 50. and I was definitely by no means I I wrote this already because it's something that that kind of stood out in my mind I was by no means the uh the best or even a good buffer showing up on time to see this or any of that and I think he realized about me that I did very well with with responsibility and um while I was in sheer Olive Zell he um there was two kids that were coming in younger like they were going this year off and stuffed up and and their parents asked for every Wagner they didn't really fit anywhere in different systems in town so their parents asked for Wagner to make a specific class for them so Rabbi Berkowitz taught them in the morning and Robbie Wagner tasked me with teaching in the afternoon so I was a Buckhorn Charles on yeshiva's payroll um and in the mo and and not a good buffer at that but I took it very serious and in the afternoon I was teaching them and I remember this one time where he called me to his office and he was giving it to me over the head for just being me and not showing up in the morning and slacking off in general and I was playing I was reciprocating a kind I was I was I was responding you know with excuses and and um and he suddenly like flipped the switch and went from like the disciplinarian and just completely changed course and we all of a sudden next thing I knew we were having a PTA meeting we were discussing these two buffers where they're holding what the tests are and what I'm teaching them and the sovietas and the other and that immediately was you know reflected a change Within Me um where I was you know all of a sudden I became now I'm we're having a conversation where I have responsibility so I immediately reciprocated in kind and you know through um my years later in Yeshiva there's a lot of a lot of uh people in hinoff that unfortunately it's a default job and such they get there they're not that emotionally intelligent necessarily so they get wrapped up very quickly in in um in in their in their educating um and he like Robbie wagon he never got himself wrapped up he was always just trying to do whatever was most effective for the buffer and if if being a disciplinarian was effective and great and if not he was able to completely flip on a dime and move on to to a kind of a different thing so that's some that's something that always astounded me about Ruby Wagner even later when I was thinking of doing different things he was having conversations with me on the phone I was thinking of leaving aletara and doing various things and he was talking to me like what my what I wanted to do in general that I can't want to have an impact on the world and and talking through things that in retrospect there was no reason for him to have a serious conversation with a 19 year old you know that was something that that uh there was one one specific episode that really stands out in my mind um we're seeing a couple more cameras come on once again hit the uh hit the link speaking of going to Remy wagons with one of the very special uh staff that were there that year was um zemel of a tansky who's uh here on this call so without further Ado uh Zeno a few words please yeah you're putting me on the spot man though but it's okay I am um so I actually ended up in Toronto the first time as a buffer I landed there Zion over Wagner was very strict on having guys showing up with a shadow but I didn't have Yeshiva to go to which was another story um so I ended up the Zion they didn't have room for me in the Yeshiva and for the first three months I ended up in uh Mendel plotkin's house and then they rearranged the whole I don't know who was saying before with the girl she asked and he was sleeping on the floor of the kitchen um that's basically where I ended up they put a bed somewhere in a a hole and uh I ended up there and yeah that was how I ended up in Toronto I ended up coming back to Toronto sometime later as a um as a dorm counselor and I had a lot of interactions with Rabbi Wagner some of them which were quite tense because Robert Wagner was telling me there was things that I needed to do that I felt weren't in my contract um the contract didn't exist but my contract was to be a dorm counselor and then I ended up being a maggot sheer and the schlier and a lot of other roles and the uh slapping bathroom to the doctor and anyways so at one point I remember I said I can't do this anymore and you know I didn't sign up for this this is my job I'm just gonna put them to sleep and wake them up and that's it and Robert Wagner looked at me he says what do you mean you have to make the bathroom happy that was part of the description I said yeah it's true it says new make them happy Means make sure they they go to the doctor make sure if they're sick you bring them food to the dorm make sure that if they're bored that there's a mystery for them to do make sure make sure make sure make sure it's all part of making sure that they're the baham are happy and then I took in the Carlos Wagner actually uh mental why is the recording stops it's okay I'm not offended um Wagner actually uh he lived there and just a touch back on on what uh gershy absent said when my father came to to Toronto I believe he was I don't know where he was coming from I think maybe he was going from Montreal back to California and he had a few hours stopover in Toronto and he if I recall correctly rolled into Yeshiva unannounced and if you call her a Wagner maybe knocked on his door I don't remember how he got him um Wagner went to the dorms himself and he knocked on all the doors and he woke up all the bathroom he slept them out to Yeshiva and they had if I bring him and there wasn't a lot of um there wasn't much for bison there wasn't a plan for bringing I guess Metro wasn't open then so they served um they served cake and the cake was uh I guess it left something to be desired it was a little hard maybe it was cake from that was barbangan and uh and they were serving the cake and after the fabregan or maybe he was at the Fairing and my father Wagner what is this how could it be that the bathroom you're giving the buff and this hard Kate they have to eat and uh Wagner was uh he said he's you know giving a little bit whatever to make if I bring a little exciting something to that degree but then sometime later he said he spoke he was speaking with my father about something else and um my father said I was with the cake you know did you get the normal cake and my wagon said you know I realized it wasn't just uh you know militia and jokes and whatever he was actually uh he actually cared he was actually very um and he I guess he made sure that there was good cake that was one of the things I actually did in Toronto won the extra the extra things I did was my mips ass and find out and but uh maybe it was close to that story yes now that you remember that um I just one other thing that really sticks out in my mind somebody mentioned this earlier um about Robert Wagner always having maybe it was on the chat or something but um always having a mimer to say and whatnot we went in sheer I want to say I was in Shir alef we went to Ontario to London Ontario sorry for uh when I was in Charles um now we went to London Ontario for a shabbaton the the the College had off and actually I've invited us to come it was sometime shortly after your trot because I remember one of the buffering that switched also mid-year that year the previous year and then when I went to Toronto Toronto didn't have a bet for him and he I came to iron flash when he came Utah um so he he had just rolled in and we went to London Ontario and we needed to go to Mikvah the problem was from the uh Chabad house on campus to by block show where the Mikvah was the 45 minute walk it was heavy snow your time and rubber Wagner service first shot we're gonna I'll go we're gonna go on a morning hike and we're gonna go to the Mikvah that's it 45 minutes each way through the snow and uh how are we gonna pass the time this is we're going to do hazard and uh instead of crossing a mimer I forget which one it was but I remember I had 12 uh 12 oysts and the reason I remember is because you got to always he went out through valve he said no somebody else continued by Zion I only got to evolved this morning come on there's nobody else nobody else learned this in my room nobody else could continue resign it doesn't make sense out of all the bathroom and Yeshiva nobody nobody can continue so it's just a certain their hair that he had she went the sheets the passions that I am what do you mean I I only got so loved but someone must have gone someone must have you know we gotta it's impossible that nobody has any any mimer in his back pocket just stamped to survive from the race so uh with that I'll turn the mic back over to you to Mendel amazing yeah and as someone uh I'm saying I have the second degree think for that lessons because every day Faithfully when we were when we were in Sugar had these incredible chocolate chip cookies so Zello will be posting the rest only if you came on time only if you came on time you can't and it was too purr and they were stacked really nicely in the freezer the recipe will be in the comments um someone else to share a few words one of the uh a member of anash up north in Toronto um I don't know much about Jeremy Cohen but I know that uh if they if there was anything to do with Robbie Wagner in the context of Chabad gate it was uh because of Jeremy Cohen so um that much I know hear me call and take it away thank you you may have seen a few minutes ago I posted a message here on the chat here but a fellow um torontonian businessman who actually attributes his whole Yiddish guide that's not a secret that whatever whatever level of British guy that he has he attributes totally to Rebecca very heartfelt um message um so I approached Trevor Wagner um two years ago to see if you'd be interested in giving a Shear to uh to the married guys to the anash and uh with his wife saraki's permission he um he agreed happily 6 20 in the morning and uh that was uh that was it for just under three years every single week 6 20 in the morning by Snow by rain his wife gave birth uh I remember that like today she gave birth at night and he was there that same same morning at Chabad gate giving us so you talk about dedication and love it's hard it's hard not to love um perhaps if after I finish if my fellow my cousin my first cousin from California maybe uh love to hear from him about Mandy Cohen who's a fellow in California would love to hear some words about it from my cousin Mendel Cohen but um talk about fundraising fundraising he wasn't the most uh fundraiser per Excellence but uh you gave to bakiva because because you loved him you loved him how could you not not when I want to want to give away Kiva I still have actually right next to me a pile of papers from whatever little money that I uh that I that I gathered together um for this year and and keep up the amazing work uh just I treasure these these words these these letters uh forever every time we we said Minnesota the emotion the emotion um was was was was was real was have you loved you loved the man and uh please uh whatever whatever you can doesn't have to be a huge but whatever you can please give please dig deep and give give a lot in the link that mental Airline shared his family uh is appreciated so much help now and you'll be reunited the family very very soon on Main thank you thank you yeah go visit that link I see a stroke munchkin gave 360 Canadian I don't know if the same you struck munchkin from the camp but if it is you won the lottery man for the last couple years you had Robbie Wagner coming out for the most smitten program so we want to see a team and add a couple zeros um okay we have a another gentleman that that that that jumped in the chat here you could show your face um where is he something Goldberg Daniel Goldberg are you here a couple seconds Daniel Goldberg where you at okay um until Danielle Goldberg finds his microphone we're gonna move to um to your straw Lane please I'm not sure why uh why I was asked to speak but now that I have the mic I'm happy to share a few things about the Robbie Wagner so it's hard to imagine the the jolt that a 14 year old kid who grew up in Fahrenheit who comes to a regular Yeshiva um in Toronto you know you there's a few things that really stick out of me and I think these are really interesting things that I've been Wagner really gave to me as a young buck and they really stuck with me for the longest time when I came to Yeshiva I remember thinking that it was weird that you had buckram that had keys to rooms in the building yeah the one guy who was maybe in charge of the Spartan Library yet another guy who was in charge with the key to the storage and another guy who had a key to the tape library was in charge of the tape Library The Carter had Buckner who had like these jobs in the Yeshiva and I always thought as a blocker I thought wow that's such a weird thing like bunker mini places and I guess for the next three years I really experienced what it means to empower a Booker to really uh to take to take control is not the right word but to really to grow up and to become a mensch and take responsibility and to learn how to take initiative and to uh and to uh and to really contribute to really contribute back to the to Yeshiva in various ways in a meaningful way but to the extent after three years of spending the issue of three years in Toronto I remember I went to another Yeshiva afterwards and I came to the issue and I was wondering what's like where where all the keys and you know where's where's all the initiatives at the back room that the Buck Room would uh would take you know in Toronto Buckner book a library everything A to Z was Buckner Buckingham did everything nobody else that holoca nothing personal to anybody who's a manhole then but if you needed something you knew if you needed something to get done besides returning to Bobby Wagner bochum were the ones that that really ran the Yeshiva and I thought that was normal I thought that okay come to do you see if I thought okay this is normal of average and then you uh and then I went to another issue afterwards and I was wondering what happened to uh what happened to this business of bahram taking the lead what happened to this business of of Bakr I'm running the Yeshiva and it took me years to realize that this was really something which was unique to rather Wagner that he really gave the space without the locker room I gave them responsibilities allowed them to to really be a real partner really in the Yeshiva uh to the extent that even when he would he would give Shiro and he would he would he would type up his serum afterwards of course you always remember still type it was you know with his fingers there um but what he was when you when you would participate in this year you got your name into the sheer of course was such a such a big deal or such a big uh it was such a big school so it was like such a good feeling you came away with wow you're able to participate you know you understood what was going on you were able to contribute something after they casted you your name was was on the paper you know something on the on the paper and then every time Robert Wagner's computer was crashed and he'd freak out and they said oh my God I lost almost sure for the last three months and uh you you know the blocker would care about me almost as much as he did because we knew that for us we knew that our name was in the paper our name was in the computer and uh if you lost the shield if I've always gonna forget what we asked him this year so for us this really empowered us on such a tremendous way to really be to really grow personal people to be able to grow as people to be able to grow and see them and and I think for each of us really to become the people that we are today uh influenced by who he was then you know going back I want to kind of piggyback on something that was mentioned earlier of course the February so we had guests I think that there were two two guests you have to mention that there were two guests when they came to Yeshiva everything could stop and it would be a February the first thing is every time uh would come Yeshiva would come to an end and of course I'll be Wagner would would bring everyone whether it was 11 o'clock at night four in the afternoon it made no difference two three times that he came everyone showed up what was interesting was probably why I actually had his feet on the ground when somebody when the when the fabrina would start but if you make an announcement to be a fabrangian he wouldn't just send someone to the dorm to wake up the bathroom he would also give somebody a few hundred dollars I think it was truly died she gave money and he he gave truly the H uh 200 and he said it's really go by the go by the Verizon because again the February has to be supervising so he made sure on every front he made sure make sure to take care of every single side everything will be taken care of again maybe 200 didn't find the transcription that definitely didn't buy enough but just just that that appreciation of having his feet on the ground the knowing what was necessary showing that he cared showing that it was it was important showing that he was invested in it of course those were things that that lived that continued to live with us that responsibility making sure that you know we're taking care of the gases also for something that's needed there's something that I don't think anybody touched tonight and that is Robert Wagner's um I don't want to say specifics of what he said in this year I'm not going to repeat anything that he said I don't know if I remember any of it but just just a bit of a taste of what it meant to you know he had such a such a such a Gish Mark anytime one of the suggests that we were learning um had something from the red on it he had such a schmuck in it I could it comes to mind now a few different circuits where I can get the details of course but there are a few things that anytime it came up and I think it came out multiple times he would mentioned it every time and he would go into it and say last year we said this industry said this so first of all whenever we mentioned this I believe it's a condition and maybe in babakam also I don't remember but every time the sugu came off the few sickness and the Horizon and he will just go in and in it you just non-stop just keep on digging and digging and digging and at some point George okay let me move on let me see we we did this already you know we discussed this but for him when anything that had to me for that it was something that he would really dig and dig and dig a little deeper and dig a little bit more because there's a something in the harder we didn't address it something that we didn't we didn't fully we didn't fully touch on and of course when we learn the sickness especially now project into the circus and so many of us we don't have the sickness and we just make it through it and we don't yeah we don't give it the due diligence you don't really give it the amount of time that it really needs but to learn to ask a question and to to to not let go until you come up with a good answer that was something that really gave us a real good and then also there's another city of the studio so that also of course I mean these are things that he would just go Non-Stop and just dig and dig and dig and just not let go and and and it was just it just gave us such a such a such an enjoyment to learn the life of Torah and something we appreciate it so much of course um there's more there's more of course I mean uh someone just mentioned someone just message me privately you know and he had this whole shear and Purim uh you know and I remember asking Masters like you really paid attention to the Gamora like you know you really you read the Magilla every year and it gives me his wink his eyes and he says it was a smile and he's like what do you mean he says what else do you think I'm doing during the megillah you know imagine there's a mcgilla reading he's coming up on a question based on the gumar and Baba Khan or something in the middle doesn't make sense he just took it very seriously he just didn't let go you know you heard something he got something he it was just the the the the the the commitment to learning was so so intense one last thing I want to share which is something that I shared with with friends and um it's something that I personally have learned from him so much and I and and I and I try to do this myself when I learned also I'll never forget if you're sitting in Yeshiva it was the morning of 9 11 of course you couldn't forget 9 11 to where you were so we were sitting in Zao um we were sitting in Zao of course it was the end of it was uh for my first year in Zao beginning of touch year was the end of year before and of course uh half of the Yeshiva ran outside to go to go to anachment Pearl's car and to hear what was going on and to listen to the radio and to find out what was happening oh yeah happening not happening you could see you couldn't see and of course Robert Wagner comes down and he's looking around to his eyes and he's trying to figure out where all the blockers were so someone told by Wagner says 9 11 you know just going on and he sat down didn't take his eyes out of the Gilmore for two hours and I'll never forget just that that commitment and that refusal to be disturbed he posted sat down and he learned Kumar for two hours I think he was the only one in the South that day who learned but of course he took it so seriously he was so committed to show that example of what it means to sit and learn in a real way and posture to lose yourself in learning posture to forget about it doesn't exist or something that I'll never forget the scene and when I do shiram uh whenever I teach a gemara class I always tell people I was like listen the gamara class is starting I said put your phone away this is the way I was what you're supposed to learn yeah open a safer phone goes on the side you don't allow yourself to be disturbed whatsoever 45 minutes here and hours here but just that that Focus to be able to sit and learn and not allow yourself to be distracted is something that we it's something that I that I took from such a strong way of course it wasn't the only time I mean like that every day but that was it just it stuck out so much how unique it was that he was able to do that it's the image of that is literally is seared steered into my mind steered in my brain to be able to to visualize I'm sitting and learning in the dial there under the spiral staircase Etc the old real estate over there anyway so of course for us for us as tell me them for us to tell me them of course you know everyone we know that we don't we don't spay them um but one last thing I want to share for my Wagner and again this is so interesting Robert Wagner had a special hush and I hope uh whoever uh takes this recording afterwards and disseminate won't quote me on the Fly yeah didn't care about what other people said if he thought something was right he did it and he didn't care about anybody else so I remember I remember we had a fabrangian when it actually was actually the Shabbos this time of the year the Yeshiva from Detroit came to join us in the Shivan Toronto and uh the one I think which is the first and the second year of the Shabbos actress and the human Detroit came and the commandering from Detroit this image of the stick and you couldn't imagine there was a there was a yeah it was a there was a big um for some of us maybe we were there was a bit of a uh of an intimidation you know you can imagine the Detroit Buckingham are coming wow it's a big deal and there was a certainly level of intimidation and I remember how I was sitting there with uh with um with the family guy I think the Russians did that shot it's also if I'm not mistaken I have a chakra and I remember that a Wagner sat there by the footballing again and he used to say he said his piece I remember Harry afterwards literally went into him and you know with his style touch it you know gave it to him over the head in his style and I'll never forget that Wagner sad they laughed at him and he continued the punching to happen but he posted said what he thought was the right thing to say he said what he thought was important to say and he didn't care if somebody else sitting next to him would laugh at him in his face he partially didn't care he possibly the right thing to do and that's what he did I remember when Wagner came out with his lips about the uh she also come on and actually answer thinking to myself you know if you think like a typical Swedish uh language so another constitutional language they have Covenant where are you supposed to have cavana in the morning of Dominic where is the kavan of Daphne I mean these are the you know these are the uh these are the uh the the the classical areas of cavana we're always supposed to have cavan and Daphne you know like of course it's just like a weird thing and I remember thinking to myself it's a weird thing I'm sorry it doesn't sound like a finisher thing it sounds weird to me on day one doesn't care doesn't care about what you think doesn't care about what anybody else thinks he posted new this is an important thing for him it's an important thing that's it he spoke about it didn't care about what other people thought when it came to this scene and what he thought was right so hopefully us as his family then we should have that good in the actors of our lives in our hands when people from other crimes would come to Yeshiva he would speak openly back to this he he had to get a special skill in person so we as is confidently of course we have to learn from that like to be proud of ourselves we have nothing to be embarrassed of we're still over there we have everything everything hi beautiful dude you can't just speak for five minutes then not say hi I'm pretty sure that's against the bylaws okay um speaking of uh someone that maybe could appreciate a little bit a little bit of of Robin Wagner's genius um we have a gentleman here today who's a who's an Alum that uh learned to throw a Wagner very very often and if I remember correctly even made a theme on shots while he was in zel yes Jaya yes um what was the next year the next year okay for the purposes of this call was Wally zinzel and um shy zircon yeah just so you mentioned that and I finished shots I finished asked the next day I was in favor and uh Wagner came in made a whole symphon out of it and if I bring um I just had two thoughts I wanted to say about Rebel Wagner two things that really um I was thinking about past week I could disturb for a second when you're when your brother made a CMA shots in Toronto Robert Wagner made it his his uh business to go and make sure there was sushi continue yeah um one thing that I remember remember we all experience this is to the sky you know the fact that he gives shioram he was a Russian but the fact that he cooked in his kapata while he was saying um when we were in um we were in Buffalo for one year for one summer was saying before we were by him it was Tashan Ayan uh five seven seventy and he and his wife would would uh cook for us whatever three meals every day um sometimes they would bring the meals sometimes they cooked in the Chabad house um but it was it was uh it was at sear but it was also a very big Heritage because you felt that you know he really he really cared he really cared for the background every single thing had a problem yeah go on yes that year he was everything there was nobody else in Buffalo he was he was our driver he was 100 there was no other staff yeah only him and the 1520 buffer that's it it wasn't fifty dollars there was like 12 bucks but um yes he took us to Walmart in his car yeah I was gonna say another thing so Mary you mentioned that he said I'm going to the mixer in London I remember sitting in the back of that white big van and uh I was making a movement sugar asked him yeah so I started to see me Mr tipada you know word for word I'm like all right so it's going on and on and on I'm not even listening anymore that says pretty impressive anyway so the evening came was was my mission in the shower he was he was given everything and he did it without you know with complete Bittle he was as mayor Wagner said it wasn't typhus mocking that's one thing I remember from him expert we all experience them and we all experience with uh with Ruby Wagner and something that obviously you could take a lesson for that uh you know you have we have responsibilities to different young that we have try to be a little bit uh a little bit less yes just a little bit more Bittle I'll tell if it's smoking so much I also when he used to he used to used to try me with hazard class and as the uh you know man mentioned earlier that we used to end up in the shield knows that the fact that he had the previous artists and the mountains so it didn't matter to every Wagner because spent time he wrote something he thought about something whether it made sense but it didn't make sense he tried to make a little sense but uh he put him okay so it's just too much when it came to the Wagner to give you a staff of Art he did it the way you know he really really cared for the Baja and it was an end of uh small death of a meme the strong strong guard the human is Mercado foreign to me and uh yeah afterwards he always came back and uh yeah you know so we went with I was talking with somebody on Shabbos about someone mentions me I understand why we didn't he tried to tell someone off he tried to tell someone off loud hello so when he asked me that question I was thinking of Robert Wagner you've tongue somebody off it's only a hundred percent when you you feel like saying aloud because you're you're the cast but if you're doing good because you want the other person to hear then you're gonna do it low you want him to make that's number one guy the second thing for me personally I don't know about everybody because everybody is different level whatever but for me personally I was born after um another because I was born after you know I grew up after gamotamus and a lot of the uh my age and even a little bit older than me but we didn't really have much precises because even if you know much is done devastated and watched it up by February you know the videos it wasn't like you lived in 770 where in uh you know before gimbal tamils Robert Wagner was the link where the Wagner was a link for me and the science that he had came from the labra and the highest that he had was the link between us between me and the rabbi I'm talking to myself I don't know about everybody else and that's uh something very very um I think very important because you know after after getting more tunnels but you know we live with Robert Wagner Wagner everything was about a lot of machine we talk about talk about yeah and the Wagner spoke about rabba that's all I have to say I am like a Wagner used to say that he that he went to Dr Goldberg who is the optometrist and Dr Goldberg told him that he has physician eyes because his right eye was Far Side and his left eye was nearsighted I remember I remember once upright you know he spit it out I went to the optometrist and my eyes are suicides and everything else but my eyes at least uh there's there's quite a cue we're gonna we're gonna try to uh we're gonna try to get through um Shalom Cass please hi everybody so obviously everybody has a lot of stories but there's there's one story that I want to share and the reason why I want to share it is because I mean I've left Toronto almost 20 years ago but every every day or multiple times a week for sure I relive this scene in my head because it replays itself um so everybody knows that Debbie Wagner had his moods sometimes he was in better mood sometimes he wasn't not in such great moves and it was during zero and the bathroom we were having a uh me and my roommates were having a disagreement on what kind of music we're allowed to listen to during zero yes music no if it's negunim could you hear instruments can you not hear instruments and uh I thought I would take it to every Wagner and asking what his opinion is like uh could we listen to um Chabad Classics during during Syria you know so I asked him and he wasn't in such a good mood I don't know what was going on but he he looked at me and he said what do you mean since the destruction of the face of English you're not allowed to hear music ever Hoosier and you went on he went like a little tangent like who like who I mean I considered him I must be at the time so when he said that to me like all the all the blood went out of my face it was a middle it was the middle of gamara and Eon and I went back to myself and I I put my head down on the table I just started crying I was so broken like I didn't know what to do I just I would just started crying and he was like what's going on everything okay like like they thought like somebody in my family must have died or something um like a bunch of buffham started coming over to me like what's the matter um I don't know I just I just I kept my head down the table and I was just I was just lost it um a few minutes later I feel a tap on my shoulder I look up I see you everywhere and I said show them I'm sorry for what I said um turned around he went back into his office and it took me a few minutes to get back to myself but like the two things that I take out from the story and I haven't with my children all the time you know you think you always have to be right you know the children are always wrong sometimes it's okay to be wrong and you have to be humble enough to recognize sometimes you made a mistake and and to go on to make it right so like I have this with my children all the time I'll go to something we'll have a disagreement and it's another come out and say listen you know I was wrong and that's something that it's it's something which is only somebody who's has true greatness can recognize that and can actually do that because I went through a lot of different unhauls and throughout my years in YouTube and I've never had anybody an experience like that where I was told off and he came back later to to make it right so like I know one of somebody touched on it earlier but that's just a story which I felt I had to share so let the next person say a story yeah okay I I think I think another thing that you may not see because it's your own your own lens but I think that you took it so it affected you so greatly that he in your words you said that the fact that you realized that he asked you who's your master and you thought he was your must be and that kind of like wait where's the relationship and you obviously had such a such a good relationship with him and that that puncher broke you I don't think that's a that's a standard thing I was uh I was writing back from on Monday to for on Monday afternoon to um Jacquard Heights from from the aisle with with labeled Salen and he said a very a very interesting point he said that you know back in the day people want to go to yeshivas for the Yeshiva they were going to characters if you weren't going to bermois because it's in France you were going to the cinema of and you weren't going to crack and he said it seems like Robbie Wagner may have been uh with all due respect to all the current people but Robbie Wagner no one went to Toronto for Toronto most people besides from of science didn't know that there were any blocks in Toronto past bathrooms and alarms and then and and the dorms um they were going to Robbie Wagner and he had he was a character and and and a personality that people were going for and building that relationship and we know time and time again all these stories between that and the birthday cakes and and the way that that they took care and it wasn't just Robbie Wagner the amount of sleep the amount of nights that he never made at home he went straight from for bring it to go to Jeremy Cohen's shear and all these things I just want to bring it back to really uh focusing on the family for a second you know every single second there will be Wagner outside of the nine to five um spent with us he was not spending with the family and there were years and years and years that they really gave up um time and precious time with their father and husband so it's it's on us to give back you know go go to the link and um let's let's let's keep let's keep the donations coming in um the next in the queue mental state line please few words I'm Haim as I'm hearing some of the other uh share a few things some other things are coming to mind uh just one one point what tell Elaine mentioned and also um um circumvention as well about him always mentioning in his year so I thought Elaine says that mid is still very good that we asked the question wow I'm actually following along I'm following his share but the for some of us it was uh before that we asked I already made it into again you know people that they're a Reiner uh wrote up and later you saw you saw your name and you and this year you almost didn't recognize that this was the Shiloh this was the board the answer that you gave in the share but he definitely made uh made us feel good that um that we have our name in there even if it wasn't the mom is exactly what the what we attended he was 10 steps ahead of us but he definitely took it and uh together um it was mentioned about uh coming to Yeshiva and seeing how the bottom were very much involved with the keys Etc so I had a little bit of a different experience being from Toronto and even though I'm a lot I'm younger than the first age and those who were there for the first year and uh we had mishimar and we had uh you know we were very much involved potato when they moved into the bank the new building we were all there as children and growing up I didn't know any other Russia all right that I knew was Sarah Wagner obviously didn't know him very well until I got into YouTube myself but uh but that was the tear that's what that's our that's what roshishiva is so uh just talking about his even given kites which we all know we've all been to the Yeshiva we all know but sometimes we take for granted when this is just what we're what we're used to someone to be in Yeshiva Shiva to be there for 7 30. he's already sitting there learning sit this for an hour and a half and he's dominant with dominion and he's there for say the and he's often there an afternoon state there and very often they're in the evening at night and every year with the packet of History again and the yeshivas call kulay Robert Wagner and then I'm in Toronto when I would see him every once in a while davening him it's a different shoulders it was like almost like Madonna Like what's happening Yeshiva is this is where he is his whole life is Yeshiva and I suspend the young child every second I used to be in Crown Heights and every night of the uh where was he was from begging for the bathroom he was no other he wasn't praying for other yeshivas for other anash for other Shoals at least in my days um every single night he was with the bar and like nothing else this was his Matthias and I was there for you know in Yeshiva itself for five years and then when I moved on to another Yeshiva you know it's a stroll which is a good YouTube for sure but I guess they uh like a regular Yeshiva where the Shiva the mashpia is different to this shows up at 11 o'clock he's there for two three hours he gives he gives a sheer and then that's all you you see him from him and then the game of the pocket uh they gave the pocket yeah they have their own life they have the Anastasia they have their own family they have their they have you know the Yeshiva something that they do but it's not their life but uh sound like every Wagner uh only after that that I realized his email this is um in the later years just to mention one thing I had a conversation with him this is already when uh when he was also taking charge of the goshamis of Yeshiva um and fundraising as well um the oil of fundraising was on him and um so now it wasn't just him accepting but it was also him speaking to the parents about tuition inside working out the tuition whatever people want scholarships people want discounts or whatever he has to work it out so I was Amendment Crown Heights once it was in this I think it was in the summer he was getting again maybe Gilman Thomas time he was preparing getting ready for the new the newsman and he was telling me that uh first of all he says that he can't say no to a family anyone who basically wants to come he said he had a very hard time saying uh saying you know but then like when he was talking about the tuition he was telling me that uh you know he the numbers have to work he hasn't hello he has a payroll he has overhead he has all the expenses of Yeshiva and he has a tuition based on that but people are asking for discounts people asking for Discount what can he do he can't get him on a discount because uh he can't teach you know he can't run Yeshiva that way but what he told me is I what I thought it was amazing and maybe I'm not involved in a yeshivas and Hollis and I don't know not yet I'm not paying tuition as a parent yet as a pan out of town Yeshiva or or high school but um to me it was a it was a kiddish and I think it was unique but maybe it's not to me it was uh I was very uh you know taken by it what he told me is that when he tells parents whatever the tuition is I can give you this break you know this amount of uh off I could give I can't give you more I can't give you more because uh I have to have you know yeah you have to try something for Yeshiva but what he would tell the parents is start paying whatever the you know the the payment plan based on this amount said but in the middle of the year I'm making a fundraiser a charity campaign whatever it is and based how much I raise if I raise an extra five thousand dollars I'll call you up and I'll tell you whether you have a bigger discount because I made more money I raise extra ten thousand I have more to me I mean I thought I was amazing a parent with already agreed for whatever it would have to agreed upon so either going to pay numbers on ten thousand dollars in the middle of the year he's going to call them a raise actually five thousand dollars so now you only have to pay five thousand dollars I think most an holiday members will say there are many other expenses I'm sure other yeshivas don't don't have extra money relying around if they raise extra five thousand dollars I'm sure if you go the payroll should go way easier and there's an overhead and there's you know Herman's Bakery probably has a uh surprise a bill whatever whatever the bills are I'm sure there's ways to use the extra two thousand dollars but to think about the parents and call them back throughout during the year and said listen I raised more money than I than I was hoping it's like this I could give you another uh I think it's a part of his his his his his mindset that he's cold Kool-Aid that the Buckner should be happy the parents should be happy that the the I mean that's his life it's not it's not for himself but just to make the Yeshiva run and and to we must be about a bit about him so that was a little part that I mean obviously we could go on and on but there are many here and um that should take the heart and we should be a little better the next day and um it really went a lot further what you're saying it wasn't just him hoping for for fundraising events um I don't know how much I could say or not but everyone knows that that personally Robert Wagner whenever he could he took he took the hit if he was able to financially um he put it on his shoulders nobody knows anyone that ever looked at the finances of Yeshiva had any idea how he how he covered how he just continued because it did not cover and I think that uh that the secret that people didn't take into account is that very often Robin wagon was not was was really taking the hit personally so um once again you know I know probably everyone that's on this call we have 108 people on this call everybody's uh for sure given and created pages but to make an extra Initiative for these kind of stories there's many of these kind of stories yes sir boshkin shared a similar story and um there's probably a very very high percentage of people on this on on this call that that personally benefited from rubber giving them discounts Etc so go reach out to 10 10 more people you know when people speak what people think people think that people are speaking for the crowd at least the speaker thinks that they're speaking for the crowd when people speak it's to make themselves feel good so it's not actually very important that you listen so mute the call and call 10 people and uh and bring some money in um I don't know if he's still on the call but uh there's a gentleman named copper Goldberg who uh had a shot of Glory by Wagner who wants to say a few words if you're still on the call then by all means we'll give you uh we'll give you a couple seconds um otherwise the next in the queue is uh is a is a buffer named Ellie holtarak I hope I'm pronouncing that right as a uh as a member of the Society of complicated last names I apologize um yeah you're here yes I don't know I got on this queue I uh didn't uh volunteer I guess someone volunteer to be but uh anyhow I wasn't expecting to say anything but I guess so now he put me on the spot um so I I went to Wagner in uh before before Toronto above I was in this class in a potato so a little bit of a slightly different relationship with them also uh the age difference wasn't that big that get apart in age so it's more like a he's like a friend a big brother as opposed to she you know so I I and I observed them different perspectives over the years I I worked for him for a year and uh right uh but Wayne mentioned earlier about the Shabbos with the Detroit candles a very colorful Shabbos that was a memory that was very um the Roche was there and regulari was very interesting but anyways I I and I spent the summer with him um lived in his house uh Toronto there and we weren't together um somebody to me for the summer a couple days a week and go down to Hamilton um so I just observed them many different um situations and then perspectives and um he was a very very unique person uh on one hand you know when I was growing up in military there was uh the must be in where people like uh these were people from uh they seemed like a different planet you know they were like it was hard to relate to them um uh you know we of course we looked up to them tremendously but uh he was very uh he could talk to him already he wanted from the stock market the politics the Schmucker guy he was you know he was he was one of us uh and and he understood he wasn't like uh as much as he was a mafia then the way he you know the way he looked and didn't pay attention to the to his appearance or anything but but it wasn't that he was uh removed he understood that was it but it was like uh to paraphrase a term he was uh Marcus but it was uh he was dividowski wasn't gay so as he was um you know so it was a very uh different perspective somebody so it was someone that we can see as as really a role model for us how we can be as I said uh and you know it's also it's amazing I I saw somebody wrote this on on the WhatsApp I don't say I I thought he must have read my mind because Shabbos night I was I was thinking I couldn't sleep I you know I didn't have the WhatsApp to distract myself I was just thinking now it's incredible how one person usually hear somebody is going Enigma it's a masculine said it's somebody who's uh Southern uh everybody has their mind was but it's you never hear somebody that's that's Muslim and everything that's it's it's incredible I never saw him anything everything about him was 100 Psy is gayness was unbelievable English I mean if he would have been uh anything he put himself into he would have been number one he could have also been uh Captain of industry you would have gone into business it would have been a billionaire that is his talents are unbelievable values is his genius was just unbelievable incredible he's the most incredible genius I've ever encountered in my life uh and uh his his Charisma his uh his energies Boundless Energy it was just but but you know those are talents that that he had and that he but but the way he he used everything out to the utmost and every single poem and every area and every it's just it's mind-boggling so the conclusion I came to is that it's not you know if somebody puts himself into one thing so he'll be channeled in that thing it'll be a great uh it'll be uh but uh by reciva it was his he he was his cautious was such that he had no desire no nothing of his own that's it so whatever you know whatever the devil wants that's what that's what he wanted so whether it was so this 7 30 in the morning um whatever it was getting stuck unbelievably helping him and you know being in his house I saw you know what isn't he sure he was on he was performing he was he was uh you know you have to have this uh character usually but then he would come home and you see his his own helmet he would sit down at first he would sit with his children and he would uh be with his family and then um after you know 11 12 at night he would put his feet up on the couch take a pillow perched under his chin and then take a safe if he had calf he would sit over commodity but some days he was so exhausted you could see he was barely keeping his eyes awake he would hold his eyes open she would take a pillow and purchase safer on it and start to start wording and save her and he could you know three four hours later he was still sitting there with the safer that's that that was his happy place that's it was something he probably sit and win 24 7 and but he knew that he had his and he had his Focus was to make the bahren experience not just here in in uh and we're in Florida but the experience that the Amazon uh everybody that he came in contact with um and uh uh is this cautious I think that's what gave him the the that's what that's why that's what really stood out more than everything else was just a pact the crowd was done he was so even again but that whatever it took and you know somebody mentioned before is sometimes he wasn't in the best moods you know and and Yeshiva and everything but he had he foreign you know and I'll talk to him about it then he didn't always have an easy time with it you know and he really worked on it and he was so dedicated that whatever it took whatever it was he would come to Yeshiva and he would simcha and foreign from height and a little bit and um what can I say talking about the family everybody's talking about everybody could donate as much as they can I saw so in the time in in the last couple years how I suppose we spoke a few times about the different uh treatment options he had his only concern was his family what is how his family would uh would you know even if one treatment might be easier on him but house family would feel about it how they would how would it affect them everything was about his family and and and of course he still made them this time was also's family so so whatever we could do for his immediate family that gave so much to allow him to uh to be able to be perfect that we all no one loved we can all do our very best and I think also if we can uh the exactly in the state of so many children now just about it's unbelievable that they were able to put together in just one week this campus that came out tonight it's incredible uh even though these are all things that were published previously but to put it all together and publish it in the canvas it's a tremendous amount of work and foreign and uh very soon my kids there we go I mean thank you okay um raisethonn.com if you want to take a little bit of action on anything that Ellie said um ladies and gentlemen not from Greenwood take it away well yeah okay very nice first of all Amanda I just want you to know that we've ever met but you are a fantastic MCE arranging and having this beautiful Zoom for bringing it thank you but but just also because no one's mentioned yet org I mean really A to Z thank you so much beautiful all right that won't speak for long I was in uh Toronto for uh what was that summer design summer class I felt before the best years in Toronto best years of my life probably many of you felt your years in Veronica were the best but uh that's the way it should be um so many memories um I just were share one or two that you know jumps out I remember it was one Mata shot this and we're all in Yeshiva and it was a beautiful tabrina in Shabbos many hours and what just came out was the early years one of the early years that we get one what what volume of you know people speaking about the rep is life in the earlier and they were showing it in zal and I remember we all sat down to watch it remember if it was in front of the slow home office and the wagon was there also and we're all watching the video and I turned around and I remember I was shot I saw Robert Wagner fell asleep on the table Mama fell asleep and I was so impressed because until then I thought he was Kim he never never and I sleep what sleepy little learning and learning in the morning and night they didn't all be shy at the fall asleep in the middle of something he didn't know it's a possibility all right imagine every bullet ever someone fall asleep learning the law or a minor it never happened but uh if you hear old man talking about you know some story that happened years ago it was supposed to say a whole lot about coming around during the video but then I realized that you know what he's a regular uh he's a regular person like me and you but he just pushed it the works on himself you know my whole uh perception changed and had much more respect um I remember that I remember a few uh one I don't ask why we're up at 12 30 1am now we're going home to the dormitory and we passed by his house the address is 26 front connect if I remember correctly correct Nick are wrong and we saw one light on the room sorry one light of the house that was open so me and whoever was with me decided I don't know it's a nice thing I'm sure after 1am Rabbi Wagner would want mssarkin it's a very nice thing you know the Mitzvah myself from a beautiful opportunity who doesn't want to speak about him at 1am about Luna's work and we were uh I don't know some just like we thought the next thing so it all went up our hearts were beating and knocked on the door either we would you know throw us out or who knows what and you open the door I still remember such a smile 1am and he let us in and they said come come to his office and still remember his office on the right of the house there's a folding table there we had like 15 storm open Was preparing even here for the next day and you know people do this at 1am and that was that was that was normal you know preparing for us nuts and I mean giving us attention and just question making us uh feel special in the last few days I was thinking came to mind that young man I think it's a test specimen where whoever speaks about that you have an about all the other is no relationship to each other but when uh after each part of to do something it makes them too much teeth it makes them to a man to make them to a someone and remember Wagner to play all the titles you know but he push it gave us little pushers attention by bring in and like was mentioned earlier in this year as a question would quote him and you know writing the shirt I'll be push it made us little nobodies into uh into uh into a summer that's something I'm gonna you know and try to you know try to emulate this when you see you know encounter someone else anyone push it to give them attention and to smile and make them feel their I think we're gonna try to you know to continue that and and uh you know convey and give over that that feeling to others I remember when his mashed here at this time of year Rumble of Defense who passed away with Barbarian unbelievable covering and uh so many stories and so much you know love and respect yet the hizmosphere would just you know amazing to see it's someone so great throughout the Wagner and how much of my respect and admiration he had for uh for others and how much he was going to travel from others so again the time of time to Batman we all can give not just us but inquired others to give it's important and there's no reason why not they would say you ask if someone said no it's no but you have someone can give so uh we should all you know forward and ask to give them like I mentioned whatever we're gonna give us so much roughness it's now our time to give back the gosh Smith a little as long as we can do you know I was waiting we're all waiting for the grants that's what that was in the plan but I guess it delayed a bit but the tackle will still