Fire 🔥 speech in Uman from Nachman Fried on “why am I here in UMAN”

then it was over so my name is Ned I'm an addict and [Music] um sober Tiss I don't count the days I should I'm so for at least a minute or 30 seconds when did I start about 30 seconds ago so at least about 30 seconds ago I became I'm sober you know what you're supposed to say welcome thank you for sharing okay and my story is that I was fortunate enough with God's grace to be born in this gilgal to family to a father that knew about this secret this anom bomb this bomb that was never created the bomb that explodes the whole world but does no damage only fixes and um my journey in life was not I wish I would have listened to my father and he was he showed my father was a bre of and it was not in fashion to be bre of became a brother of when he was 10 years old and he he gifted us with simple amuna to know that hey this is the place of Salvation here's the place where you come by the way this is not but we'll get to it's not about the T it's about the re this this sh is talking about re my personal experience with the reab and sharing it and hopefully you will share and that we'll be able to try since it's we have now a few days to make this different than any that we've been here before that's the point of this conversation and I wanted to to be to a dialogue I speak you speak like me you ready this kind of dialogue I don't know if you're going to be ready but I waned you to be ready now come on interrupt me now this kind of a this is not in a safer this is not questions on the re this is you want to challenge me challenge me my friend I'm ready so first of all open your hearts open your hearts open your brains open open your hearts you know something it's this is the time where we all try to open our hearts and open our brains no matter where we were no matter what we did so the first thing I want to tell you about myself is that my life's journey till today is a journey like everybody else and you would think that because I was fortunate enough to be in a breast of a home so I automatically we assume and understand and you know what I've been wearing that badge and feeling that superiority all my life at least I know about ran I was here 36 years consecutively the Reb is mine I own the rebel so I want to share with you the real me like we spoke about anybody who was here before earlier as the re told tell you about the real me I decided the real me real me the real me wants to connect the real me was the one that always wanted to connect but I was so stupid I was so foolish to think that I can balance this you know my father when I was a b so there were times that I had K I was really learning I was really pretending but I father said to me I'll never forget it and then I fought him and I didn't accept it so I wanted be you're listening cuz I know you're in here I want to be Mis that you're [Music] right you're right I tried to make peace with the AAR you can't make peace with terrorists it's lies they fool you they lie to you and they say okay I'll let you you give me this and I'll give you that they let you oh you want to go to no problem you're mine you know what I'm so bad I'll give you go to D come back from ding walk outside of pushin a little bit and uh you're back mine again and my whole life that's the way I went not guys today this moment this is the moment of change of change forever I'm not coming back here again and saying Reba I'm doing juva and I come back the next year it's worse than the year before this is the time where it's for real I'm Letting Go anybody who understands what I'm saying and I think that any everybody understands what I'm say cuz everybody has a place that it doesn't let go you want to know about let go everybody has that ice cream cake we spoke about earlier but it's not ice cream cake ice cream cake thank you ice cream cake is not ice cream cake ice cream cake is our divis our place of comfort temporary false comfort that we feel just for the moment and then we beat ourselves up again and then we don't want to feel bad about bealing ourselves up again so we just say that this is me it's okay to be this way anybody anybody identify what I'm saying so I just cuz I maybe I'm only one over here just want to share the truth we need to get into the place of the real me the only way to face that place is to face shame we need to face our shame we deny our shame we deny we deny we deny we deny we deny we deny all day long we're busy distracting and denying distracting deny distracting deny so what do we come here for really ah you know why I'm coming here I need isue why am I coming here maybe maybe maybe we not looking out me what am I doing here today's theme of our conversation is what am I doing here why am I here I don't even know why I don't even know what I was looking for party doing connection I don't even know what I'm doing here so you would think that somebody who was born brel that was taught that this is the place I think I wasn't challenged with this question what am I doing here how many times can I come back here and lie how many times can I come back here and say re I promise I'm never doing it again I feel that feeling like I never going to do it again and I believe that all those things are great and don't I'm not dismissing or discounting but I want to understand what am I doing here if I'm lying to myself I'm in hypocrisy I live hypocrisy I live a life of hypocrisy I live a life of false because who am I really am I Malik or am I G who am I so everybody has a part in him that's Mal and a part of them is G so what do we say to ourselves as long as I have more Mal than G then I'm but the truth is we don't say that he doesn't let you say that he finds a way to show you that the real you is G but you what should you do you were brought up in this environment the people around me my wife my children what am I going to do so we hide we hide our shame because we really don't want to do this but we do it anyway and then but we already ping on ourselves you know who I am oh yeah I didn't record this this is I can feel that this sorry filing is that you're recording oh you're filming okay so the the the we we what we we what we believe is in ourselves we didn't tell anybody that we're g we're really the B Vera and that guy that's not the real me that's only because I was born to this kind of an environment or I decided to marry in this kind of environment or my children are in this environment so I need to Pretend This is the pretend me because I can't hurt them how can I do this to that and tell them the truth that I am really a g the re teaches us this saing [Music] he doesn't need just teach us he accepts us you understand what means he accepts us he accepts you when you come here I know you think you're G your only Mal here is a new place but you came here with one thing one common denominator that everybody comes in whether you're a newbie a rookie or whether you're a guy that was here 36 years is a common denominator every time I'm coming here it's after a year of War of War where seemingly when I look at it with my perception of these eyes I'm losing the war the casualties of war the wounds the death of my war that I'm coming with for my whole year they're aimless Happ they're so big that I can't even count them I can't even remember them all I can do is deny them we're coming to this place coming to this place because we have hope maybe maybe maybe it'll give me something that at least will make me feel better in my pain but I know I'm going to be in pain because I don't believe in myself I don't believe that I have the ability to actually change this is the place of Salvation you know what salvation means when you're in stage four cancer physically and the doctor said I give up you know what there's nothing we can do live your life out at the best you can you have this amount to live time to live this amount of time to live what do you do somebody tells you you know what there that a doctor on the other side of the world that has some kind of a conventional remedy and he comes to you and that's what you go to because you're try cuz who doesn't want to live say I don't know about all of you and I don't want to condemn or judge but I am in stage four spiritual cancer that every doctor in the world gave up on me every doctor in the world gave up on me except for this doctor this is the only doctor that didn't give up not only did he give up not only did he give up he tells me you're just like everybody else not only you just like everybody else whatever I can do for the biggest I can do for you there's no person in the world there is nobody that I can help and save his life so you want to know what am I doing here you know what I'm doing here I'm by the doctor I by the biggest doctor of the world that gives me hope that I have hope in my stage four where everybody including myself gave up on me whether I know about it or I don't know about it because I'm just in denial this is the right I got this is the biggest doctor in the world that that's able to help us and save us and save us not just in for sure but he saves Us in this world he shows us how you in your G that you think you are no you're Mal the problem is you don't identify yourself as Mal you identify yourself as G this reel this reel that patience is re that with me patience and still please continue to have patience cuz I don't know what'll be tomorrow or the next minute but this this Rebel this Sonic this doctor this doctor has the remedies for stage for terminal illness and spirituality for anybody there's no one that he doesn't have a remedy for so what am I doing here what am I doing here you want to know what you're doing here you came for surgery we are on the operating table every single person that you see here is under surgery with you know who the biggest greatest doctor of all time and this doctor this doctor is telling me don't worry I got you I got you he doesn't just tell you maybe this will work like a doctor in this world he says I got you I promise you no matter what I got you no matter what no matter what happens you go to showus you know what showus is I don't know but I don't want to know but I think I know it's the darkest place in the world it's oil means that it's bottomless it doesn't stop going down you don't go up all you do is go down you know what happens when you go down all the time what kind of fear do you fear he says not only can I take you out of I can take you out of you know what is what's the address of is I know I know the address this he this re took responsibility for us and he has one request in return one request one request he didn't ask for anything all he says I'm giving I'm giving he says to you I'm asking you to come for me for me I need you why does he need us and why did he choose us who knows why he chose us but he needs us to bring this G let me tell you something you can call me a missionary you call me fanatic call me crazy but I'm telling you I learned this from my father and I thought he was crazy and I didn't tell him but I looked at him and I said okay I'm your son I got and my name is nin I have no choice I got to wear this that's bad so I pretended to pretend me in breel in the re but now T you're right you're so right this is everything the ra everything the the means everything and he chose us you and you and you and you and you and you and you we're chosen how grateful do we have to be to this re how much gratitude do we have to do and he says all I want you to do is come I don't need anything else everybody looks at it and says yeah of course who's not going to go to Oman when he says you don't got such shallowness in understanding what he said what he's saying the ra is telling me all I need is you to do something bring your presence here if you do something for me I'll be able to do not just for you but entire world cuz the whole world is controlled by this reab over here this reab controls the world yeah go out tell the world said this reab controls the world yes he controls the world which sadic if not this sadic does it make sense doesn't make sense saying think think think open your head look what's going on outside here tell me we're in the middle of Timbuktu somebody who lived 210 years ago died more he lived in a city that's not a city that's a village and maybe not even a village Woodridge is bigger than breast at his height at the height he they say a thousand and they say it was a GMA he only had 700 r People by R he said gave me he said the words he said nobody should be missing we are from the people that came here what are we doing here this is the theme of this uh this I don't know what you call this kab the theme is that what am I doing here so first of all you have to know that everybody has a moment or two or more where he says what am I doing here even if he's not conscious of it subconsciously there's the question what am I doing here am I fooling myself what am I doing here this is just a good place to escape not feeling but the answer is this is if if I could give back to you what my father gave to me that I didn't understand then I'm only as starting to understand now we are in the M of the biggest the biggest and I'll say it again the biggest source of spirituality in this generation is right here 2 minutes away by that c and Oman it's so it's so fireing that the whole Oman is fire so wherever you are you're there we're in the place we're in the of the place where we can actually really change and he tells you another thing that whatever you did till now don't worry I got you just just follow go through the process and it's a process takes you through a journey everybody through their journey and I was just want to say that that since we started learning look I learned look around my whole life and you know I learn look around I don't know bre see them here yeah see some bre see them here I don't know if you guys did it but this is what I did you know cuz you're in club breast what does a club breast guy do what par is this week ah par let me let me see what learn oh wow beautiful inspirational shall this however long it lasts give out there's another way another way of living the many live and forunate I'm so jealous of these people that really get up every night and I every day and they connecting and they M take the re to a level but the show guys anybody know anybody identify those guys may and and understanding of that kind of We're The Misfits we're the people that don't fit anywhere because we we don't have not spirituality and we're stuck that we're not in do our Titus anymore cuz we're older and and we're starting to realize that there's a tus in the world there's a purpose to this world so as the first thing that anybody asks when you say what am I doing here I'm here to connect I'm here because I'm here cuz I have hope here cuz I have salvation here because I have a rebel that takes responsibility from me who who takes responsibility for me who's going to be there when I come up to y when I'm going to come up to I'm going to have to face all my shame all the shame that I denied my whole life that I don't even remember anymore I don't even know about it anymore cuz I'm so clogged and so layered and layered and layered and distance and distance who is going to take responsibility this re this is the re that takes responsibility and says I got you no matter what so what am I doing here I want everybody to say together what am I doing here I'm here because you took responsibility for me and you're loyal to me I'm loyal to you and whether I feel or I don't feel whether I dve in or I don't whether I sleep or I don't sleep whether I eat or I don't eat that's a whole different understanding to these words it's a whole different understanding to these words I'm here because I'm loyal to you cuz you're loyal to me you you helped me in my daytoday spirituality and you took responsibility for me eternally shall you understand these words the lowest place in the world it's not even in this world we of it's not even there's no this world can't hold me and I will get you out and I will take you out how could we not how could we not have gratitude to this person to this I don't know what it is I can't even imagine what the Reel look like in his good I certainly can't imagine what the Rea is now the Rea is running the world the world everything is here everything happens I read everything this all the movements are from here I want to just you say I'm a fanatic so going to tell you story I just heard am I uh too long no you're good you're good you're good well so the the the the story someone just told me and you may not be able to see the connection to it the way I see it I'm going to try it someone told me my sh told me my sh told me on the way here my sh told me that my sh is and he told me that you know there was a time I don't know the exact amount of time but 70 years I think that the re scene was closed or 40 years that the re scene was closed what was it what was it there was a c for long for many many years that no one was able to come to the re there was no minion here R in om and uh you know many people from tried to come you know at the yearning of to come to by the way just you have to we have to say this word n said that the reab told him that when you come up to Shay and they him that you got to come back to this world the told him that you could a and say no do whatever you want with me here I'm not going back to this room and the re told him it in a way that you should know no matter what happens there you stay strong and you say no do whatever you want to me here I'm not coming back again to this world I'm not going through the challenges of this world why because you never know how do I know this one's going to be better and probably the re understood that if you come back again it's definitely not going to be better than the first time said said I give is the ultimate dma of what a of the re should look like that's the dma of he was practical and understanding and on this world anyone who opens can see that is talking as if he he would think it's me exactly me talking and said if they told me in the and I and I said no I'm not coming back to this world but they told me you know what you get one thing I'll give you you get to go to the of the H one time in your life re says I will be masking to be this g go back in this world so one said we don't understand you understand what we we're dealing with it we don't understand but at least let's surrender to the place after we don't understand and we accept even though we don't understand but we could feel that that place of surrender which is really AA which is really belief surrender to the belief in the sad when you surrender to the belief in the sad you actually believe it you become like me a missionary that's a loser but that's it not till now till this second now I'm not a loser anymore you know who I am I'm a I'm I'm a person that wants to get connected to all the time I want to be one and I'm asking bu to let go I'm Letting Go I'm Letting Go and I all I want to do is surrender to you because this s gives me hope this s gives me Sal salvation what does salvation mean it's not just hope he we said stage four terminal caner and he gives me the and he takes me out I'm alive again what would you pay what would you pay to be alive in stage four of cancer so what am I doing here back to the question this is the question you have to ask this question by the way the more you're asking this question you just have to change the Ling of the question you know first starts off what am I doing here why am I even here and then the question changes and it becomes what am I doing here and then the question becomes what am I doing here I'm wasting my time I'm letting myself get distracted when I have the opportunity to go to this nuclear power plant of spirituality what's the problem you can't take the intensity of the Delight it's too delightful for you it's too delightful for you cuz you know you're going to go you know you're going to go say you know if you really let it in you're going to have that zapping of the Reel where you cry like you never cried in your entire life and then you're going to have to go back so if you're going to have to go back you know you're going to fail so you're already predicting your failure in advance and not letting yourself even go you're not letting yourself with the more distractions I can have I'm here the re said I'm here Y and this what's the difference and you're right you're here but there could be a whole another what am I doing here so if we can keep asking the question question ourselves what am I doing here what am I doing here change the niggga as you say you know change it go from what am I doing here to what am I doing here I'm wasting my time yet I have opportunity and that's the layers and the layers that the rebel Shields away of the separation of the place of G until you're going to get that moment everybody every one of us is going to get the moment and don't let that moment just be a moment don't let that moment go away the moment of I'm a Mal you know who I am I'm a Malik I'm not a G I'm a Malik feel it identify with it yeah you stop making the chart of accounts oh you no I'm got no liar you counting the my look where I am look where I am I am why I connected to this s that surpasses not just your G but every G in your history from the day that you started till now this re is bigger he's bigger than you so you can't convince me that I'm G cuz I'm that's I give by the way if anybody wants to learn the title that D tells us about finding yourself I'm talking from want I should be where I want but you know where I want to be I want to be Mal I don't want I'm a show R I want to learn I want to learn I want to D in and I want to have his this every single day cuz I want to have a relationship with you by because I want to be connected cuz all I'm searching for in my whole life is connection so I get misled money money money money money I get misled women money food Glory big buildings big things The Voice SES distractions it's all distractions the only distractions to help us deny the real me and the real me is my love today tonight is annivers sh the ones who really understood and surpassed us they got out of t for sure they got out of T and they understood that what am I doing here means I can't waste a minute I can't waste a second there I need to go to this place that gives me the feeling of connection I need to go to this place that's going to change me that took responsibility for me that says to me I am loyal to you I want to be loyal to you too so what am I doing here you hear that megga what am I doing what what am I doing what am I [Music] doing yeah anybody want to sing sit here sing Jimmy my brother Jimmy come up here right here yi yi my love oh I I sorry he he just reminded me I start I forgot to say there was a story I wanted to prove I wanted to prove that this is the new the rebba is in charge not just in nor man but in the whole world so the story most of you will say from this story that I'm not proving anything so my sh was I was on the way here my sh my sh told me so when om was closed and there was nobody coming for so many people attempted to come come with false passport because of the great yearning that they had to come to to to the rebel because we know that the ultimate salvation the RAB said is come to me so K who was my my sh my wife's grandfather and my father's re said to him Mas I'm saying it in yish and how I'll interpret it in English they for sure asked the re before they closed the borders to Russia that no one was able to enter for 40 years or 70 years or whatever it was because they knew that it would be staring his R and the rebel was masing which means that the re is in charge you understand you understand the message what that means the re is in charge the re is in charge and he chose us he chose us so what am I doing here what am I doing here what am I doing here what am I doing here what am I doing here Set Me Free what are we doing what am I doing here my [Music] [Laughter] [Music] [Laughter] feel [Music] [Laughter] better [Laughter] [Music] mighte again for [Music] [Laughter] [Music] the edit [Music] [Laughter] la [Music] [Laughter] together [Music] la [Music] I see [Laughter] am [Music] your I your together [Music] God your God your together [Music] your together [Music] y [Music] angel angel angel [Music] it's [Music] Ang Ang [Music] I just want to say one more thing that uh first of all you know that there's something called Ty Manus which means you learn Tyra for a few months you live that t and you find yourself in that t every single day so my friend M who inspired me to be part of this great big movement of learning and living the re Tyrus which do I understand is Thousands is plural that are learning the same tit at the same time so I just want to ask everybody to join PE part of this is going to change the world not just in an individual way but in the global way we're going to change the world we have already four years that we are in we have a place with to sit to be able to learn especially the RBIs Ty so just promoting promoting I'm sorry I'm using the platform to promote I'm promoting getting involved and learning the you know everybody's scared of when we wereas even the guys who learned like the better than Ian because the Ian there was always people better than me and I never really knew it exactly but the Ian doesn't mean just that way re there's many I to learn the means to me in means living the T and everybody has a different light and a different way of understanding to be able to live the T and all I want my mission in life going forward for every day that every minute gives me to get more and more people to live the re so join us join the after starting it's going to be a journey every is a journey every T is another Plateau where the Reit takes you and you think he got you ready okay that's where you can get to and he gets you even more the biggest thing just last before we were talking about what am I what what what am I doing here what am I doing here so now the Reb says so which one is it the answer is it's both she really want change she really want to El Elevate yourself in a way where you get out of your addictions and you really change if you learn this tell and you come here Adam Bomb Adam Bomb Ty talks about I don't want to go this was not about the tyus but if you take Tyra and feel it together you're able to bring it together y yeah yeah we won't even know what this is oh yeah [Music] is that going to get posted