Erev Shabbos Shiur @ Yeshiva of South Florida

That we're always balancing. We're always balancing. In our avodas in our own in our own avodas Hashem and in avodas hachinuch, which is the balance between having expectations, believing in people, believing people can accomplish big things. Right? You want people to You want to believe in talmidim. You want to believe talmidim can accomplish big things. And you want to set expectations not just You could You could be great. You know what I'm saying? We want people to see and we want to give talmidim the space to grow into that on their own. And it's a very hard balance. I believe in chinuch a very very hard balance to one set the bar high and and and and have that expectation in in a healthy positive way. We We expect big things from you. And to give talmidim the space to grow into that at their pace, at their time, in the right way. It's It's like It's a constant balance that I think every mechanech every mechanech and every sheer and every yeshiva, again, in different ways is balancing and and dealing with. And I think that um for me personally um for me personally, what I've gained from Reb Keilich um and I think what we're all going to gain in the next few minutes together and I want to just frame the moment um is that unspoken tension between being real, right? Being real, being real to who you are and also you you there there things we do, right? There things that we do. We We show up and we we accomplish and so we do things. But there's there's this feeling of being very real. And I think for Reb Keilich um for all of us has has really uh has really brought to light the importance of this feeling of being real, of being a real person and being very, you know, true to who we are and at the same time balancing that with the expectations of life and the and the and the day in day out um you know, pieces of life and the grind a little bit of of life. Being able to do both I think is a really important avoda and we're we're really really privileged and we we we brought you all here because we think it's uh it's very worthwhile to have a few minutes together with Rabbi Kanievsky to learn from him, to learn with him, and to and to grow together. So without any further ado, please Rabbi Kanievsky. Thank Rabbi Great Shower. Thank you. >> [applause] >> Firstly, thank you Rabbi Great Shower for your kind words. Thank you for bringing the Yeshiva here. I feel I I should come to the Yeshiva, to the Robin. I'm very, very grateful, but it's Kedai to be in Rabbi Willig's presence and to be in the Yeshiva of South Florida. I thank Rabbi Willig for hosting and I want to express I was Zoche a few weeks ago. There was something came up in the city of Waterbury and I was asked they needed Rabbi Willig's help. And my father and Rabbi Willig were close, close friends for 60 years. For over 60 years. They They were first cousins and very, very close friends. And I was Zoche the community had a need in Waterbury and I was asked could you ask Rabbi Willig? He was flying to Eretz Yisrael. He lives like a youngster, but he's not He's the biggest youngster, but not in age. And he was going to Eretz Yisrael and his schedule's crazy busy and they needed an emergency time with him. And they were struggling. Somebody had called. He wasn't available. He was flying to Eretz Yisrael with a lot of his friends with him before. I called as my father's son and he said in a second come over to my house. So I went with some Rabbonim of Waterbury to to meet with Rabbi Willig. And Rabbi Willig that Rabbi Kanievsky brought to us Rabbi Yehuda Willig's father and Mordechai Willig is Rosh Yeshiva of Waterbury. So I think some of you might be confused. That's why I >> to Thank you. Thank you for clarifying. >> Thank you. I want to express like being in your father's presence. First of all, I felt my father, my own father. We're very, very close friends and two extremely big people. He has a glow, a shine Rabbi Willig of a person who spent his life learning Torah and teaching Torah. To be in his presence was so beautiful and comfortable and unforced and majestic. A Yid who has learned and taught Torah his whole life. The humility, the kindness. I went with a Rav who knows Kol HaTorah Kulah. You know, I went with a Rav who was Kol HaTorah. In the car ride home, most of the discussion was about being in the presence of Rabbi Wallerstein. About just being in such a person's presence. So, I want to express coming to Rabbi Wallerstein as a cousin. The word the titles like second cousin, fifth cousin. I wish that we were more in touch. Being with his father, I'm happy to sit next to you now. That this like it's I'll tell you a funny story like second cousin. Somebody came to the Chozeh of Lublin. Somebody came to the Chozeh of Lublin and they wanted in with the great Rebbe. So, they said to the Chozeh, "I'm a cousin." And he said a line, "Vaitens fun vaitens." Which means from a distance. Like a distant relative. Like calm down, you're a fifth cousin. Calm down. From a vaitens." So, one of the Somebody who was friends with the Chozeh told the Yid when the Chozeh is davening Shmoneh Esrei, say like, "Okay, I've run this He said what we I'll show you the okay, I've run." And you we speak about Avos. So, say from vaitens. Like you're a distant relative. You're a great, great, great, great, great grandson from vaitens. And he like whispered to the Chozeh from vaitens. And the Chozeh like felt like the most certain after Shmoneh Esrei was mikarev the Yid. Like, "You're my cousin." I'm not in the I don't care sixth cousin. We're cousins. Rabbi Wallerstein and I are brothers. It's not It doesn't describe enough. I wish I'm not in touch. Like we were zocheh in summers to be near each other. We we working there. I wish we like to schmooze and meet each other more more personally and talk. I can say that being in the presence of his father Yiddis one of the great lights of our generation, really a beautiful light of Torah, of Avos Yisroel, of Avos Hashem, of everything that's precious. It was like it was incredible to be in the warmth, the the intelligence, the the just the beauty of the Yiddis like who's serving Hashem in a beautiful way. And honor to be in Rabbi Willig's Yeshiva, this Rabbi Willig's Yeshiva who's who's a Hemshech, brought Torah Davoin, who's a Talmud Chochom Muflah. And what he's doing, what I hear is going on, I was so excited I'm hanging with Mendel today. And he was describing Mendel was describing what what Rabbi Willig is bringing here. Ashreichem, Ashreichem, a welcome to all the guys. The truth is that I prepared Divrei Torah to say and I just sat down and while I I asked Mechila, I was listening to Rabbi Greisman, he was he was making me feel good, so I was definitely listening, but I just saw question four. I want to forget any Divrei Torah I was going to say and I need to talk about question four. I didn't see the other three questions, I'll be honest, but I just saw question four and I need to talk to everybody here. I need to talk to you. I if everybody if if guys can pay attention to this then space out the whole way, listen to this, then we could do other things. I need to talk to you about this. Parents will tell me about their son. We're going to learn something that's very dangerous this morning. It's dangerous cuz every truth actually could be dangerous. That's how truth works. Think about in the world for in in the name of truth, how many the most crimes have been committed in history in the name of truth. And the most dangerous people stand up for truth. So every truth is Tzadik in Yilchu Bam, Yesharim Yikashu Bam. Truth is like very very powerful. We're going to learn something that could be misused and still I think it's Kadai to learn it. It's a sensitive and subtle topic usher. I really want your I want to know we afterwards what you feel. Maybe that and I love parents and guys and over the years I'm closer to parents than ever. This is not a knock on any parent. It's not a knock on anybody. I want to talk about something for me and for you for our own lives and my life. Parents will tell me on my son is just lazy and guys will sound themselves. I'm just lazy. I see the other blockers like putting in so much and I'm lazier. So what they're describing what the other is the least lazy I met by my mission. It was crazy what he took on in a second on the way there it's his throw what he took on. We all the time and what is it's the right thing to do is in and I'll do and then he did it with his us. So people think like the other are just have more alacrity. They're just more energy and I can't use my energy. So I watch the shark guy in your shoes just pushes harder and you don't push hard enough. And a God knows the one who pushes the most. He leads he's the biggest pusher in the generation. So parents will tell me my son's lazy. That's the ace of a common I hear guys say it on themselves and parents saying on my child he's just lazy. I think it's a remarkably lazy understanding of lazy to be honest. People call their kids lazy is very lazy. You're not doing work. You're not like being miss finding. I have thought about it for myself. I need to talk about this topic of lazy. I think it could be life-changing one like really is my iron, it could change a lot in our own lives, a lot, Usher, a lot. I If you learn one thing I wanted to talk about lazy, about lazy and our own Sugya, every single person being honest is Sugya pushing. I want to push and the pushing's big. So is the Sugya Yeshiva, a place. How do we get the guys to push the most? And then we have Nachas from that guy. And what about the guy I I have a guy in Yeshiva who pushed like crazy, and then he like cracked into nothing. And today he's mad at all those who got into the push. What's the Sugya Yeshiva? How hard we could get to push that make sure he doesn't crack so make sure he plays by recess. What's the Sugya? There's a Sugya I want to talk about laziness, alacrity's resource. It's one of the mis- most misunderstood Sugyas. It is learned in a very Laziness is learned in a lazy way, to be honest. And I want to study it in a not a lazy way, and I want to talk about it. I'm going to come from a ver just to come from there, but I want to talk to you guys like this. On Chanukah, the Chanukah story. We're well past Chanukah. This story the Bach says is that Klal Yisrael was his Rashlus Ba'Avodah. We were lazy about Avodah. I struggle. I'm I'm with Mendel today. He's impressive. He's on time. And we've been running very on time, thanks to Mendel. I had struggled with time. My father was one of the most timely people I ever met in my life. My father time was a machine for decades and decades. His schedule was wild, crazy. He was an old man. His schedule I wouldn't do in a two months what my father did in a day. Not exaggerated, in a day. His schedule was wild. And he was a calm easy going person. He was not and you know it was not your father's like he's like a schmuck and his schedule is wild. And my father was a very very on time. It's anything about lateness is Hazal is very sensitive to me as being a guy who struggles with time and I'm getting better baruch Hashem working on it and and doing much better. I've learned a lot of Yesodus and working on it. But my the Hazal speak that there was a mishmar that was show your love and one of the mishmars of Kohanim came late. There was a srashel, there was a general laziness in avodah. What was the tikkun? What was the fixing up of the laziness? We fought for the avodah in the Beit Hamikdash. We were mesiras nefesh. We put up an army and we fought for it. Why is that the tikkun for laziness? If they're lazy, work hard. Do the avodah b'simcha. You're lazy, take a bochur in yeshiva he's being lazy, put in effort. Do you know effort is not the opposite of laziness? Sometimes a guy shouldn't work so hard. It's not the opposite. It's sheker and hisrashelus avodah, the opposite we should they should mamash do the avodah shtark, they should come early. No shaychus. They fought for the avodah. Why is that the opposite of hisrashelus? So I want to talk about the topic as follows. Asher, what do you know? If you see a guy who's functioning with a lot of energy, what do you know about him? Let's go a specific case. You see a guy who helps a lot of people and he seems to have a motor. Forget that. Forget that. Football, watch a football player. Okay, you know this there players in sports, I like sports a lot. There players who take off a lot of plays. They bring it some plays, other plays they don't bring it. Then you have the guy who functions with a crazy motor. Every play he brings it. Think about a defensive lineman. Every play and many plays like it's a pella they're bringing it. How many plays are there in a football game? The whole game? How many plays? 50, 60, 100 plays? Say 100. The guy go The guy charges most plays like it's a running play and it doesn't even run 10. It's a passing play. So, logically some plays the guy will like take it a little easy. Then he tries to bring it as much There's certain players function with the motor. What do you know about a guy who brings it every play? That inside he has a crazy drive to win. Winning's important to him. Anytime you see effort, if somebody If somebody is bringing it hard If somebody's bringing it crazy crazy hard It's funny the last night of Yeshiva, guys speak. Guys speak and tell their story. So, some people turn off the lights. Some will turn off the lights. Other people say you don't have to have the lights off to tell your story. You could tell it in So, it was like I have a meaning in Mascara. Yeah, this is after I'm I want to tell you my story again. There's a So, the light could be on. I'm happy when off and then it came on. You could tell your story. What chevre? When a guy brings it if you see Avraham Avinu when he did chesed was crazy. The psukim describe five times Avraham's running coming my hair. What do you know about Avraham that he has a guest and he's busting it? You know that inside he has a tremendous cheshek. Zrizus is megaleh, reveals. Zrizus [clears throat] is a very pnimius, a very internal thing. We live in a generation that's very internal. Zrizus does not mean to try hard. Zero. Zero. Zrizus means you try hard, you probably further from zrizus. Zrizus means that inside you care about this. That's what zrizus means. That's all it means. Zrizus is a pnemiustica thing. Avraham Avinu killing himself for guests is megaleh he really loves people. He believes in people. Wow. He thinks it's very important and precious and valuable to help people. Zrizus is megaleh something on the pnim. It has nothing to do with an external thing. Histashlus Avoda deKlal Yisrael was lazy. What do you know? They don't think their Avoda counts. They're lazy. It doesn't matter. It makes no difference. The opposite of lazy, if somebody gave a shmooze deKlal Yisrael, said, "Let's go." If I I have dorm counts, there's 30 dorm counts in yeshiva. It They They work their head off. Let's say there's a time they're not working so gishmak. I see the dorm counts as a being a little slow. Should I gather them and give them a FIERY SPEECH? "LET'S GO! COME ON!" THAT'S actually the silliest speech. I'm not helping the zrizus. That is silly. I don't want them If they're putting in big effort and they don't feel it, they'll actually burn out and crack. It's not deitza. You know what the eitzah of the speech is? Is to talk about the value of being a dorm counselor. To remind people how much people are worth. That's all. If I can inspire and encourage and bring that out and they can access an inner place, that's zrizus. They're like, "Oh." The next day they're all bringing it and busting it. Zrizus is a pnemiustica thing. This is valuable. Histashlus Avoda, the opposite would not be busted and bring it. The opposite would be fight for it. it's valuable. The tikkun avodah is somehow we have done and it was taken away by the Greeks. We had to give up our life for this. This is worth something. My shtaygings worth something. It counts what I do. Then of course there's this reason. So understand this. When you say a guy's lazy, he doesn't think it matters. It's not putting more effort, he doesn't think it matters. Now it's very dangerous what I'm giving over. Because then we could see I don't push minyanim, so I don't care. What do you want me to do? I don't have to say shiyur, what should I don't care about it. Try harder my kid. What do you mean try harder? I don't care about it. I don't care about it. Let's not be pretend. So everybody says try harder. It's not I don't In sports, I die for every loose ball. So I like winning. You tell a guy to get bus, he probably doesn't care to win as much. If you want to win, I care more about winning than looking stupid. So in baseball, I watch a baseball watch before a game. Everybody can catch every every Before the game everybody looks good. During the game there's a pop up in the left field or fields it on a bounce. Why don't you Before the game you can catch it. Cuz if he makes an effort for you also can look stupid. Cuz it can hit him on the head. So instead he he just feel I want to win more than I want to look good. So I'm willing I'll I'll kill myself if if I don't get it, okay, but I'm going to try to win. This reason is a pnimiyus thick of place that you care about it. So what should a guy do? You say try harder. I don't care about this. I don't care about the shiyur. I don't care about prayer. And then they say my son is lazy. What's the opposite? He doesn't care, he doesn't think it's valuable. So what should I do for myself? Very dangerous what we're learning. Crazy dangerous. Now here I want to tell you a little secret that we have nishamas that care about Hashem to the end of the world. I promise you. I have a nishama that wants Hashem. That's all it wants. You have a nishama that wants Hashem. That's all it wants. We have nishamas. Little secret. Now the question is how do I access it? I promise you you and I I don't know as a big nishama. So we don't we don't have such a neshama. We have nishamas that want Hashem from one end of the world to the other that are craving craving dying for Hashem. All I promise you me and you have a nishama that wants the truth that wants that wants meaning and purpose and valuable work. We want everything. I promise you. So then the question is very nice Kodesh. How do I access that? How do I get in touch with that Adam? I don't I'm I'm excited. Nice coffee. You're excellent coffee. You've made it sugar. You're smart. Thank you Mendel. You're smart. We have things we like. I play I I I go to a I go to a game. I enjoy the game. So what do you tell me I have a nishama? We have to access the soul. It's a part of us. It's the biggest part of us. We have to access it and feel and experience it. I want to say like this. Kitzonius versus Pnimius. If we do it we'll sometimes feel that's overused and misunderstood. It is true. If a person's on fire, they'll act in a way of zrizus themselves. The Shaar Hamitzvos explains that if you act fast, you'll feel it. But it's very important kitzonius my reishus Pnimius to be in touch with something aroused. IT DOESN'T JUST MEAN BUST IT AND WORK HARD. Certainly bring it, but be sensitive. What hit you? What resonates inside? The I don't My own children, I don't want them to be stark. I'm not interested in that. Zero. Zero. I want alone in the room, privately. They like nod. When you learn Torah, it's not to be the starkest guy in your share. You have a neshama and a light that the world needs. It's to access it. What resonates by you? As you're studying, big tzaddikim don't just bring it hard, though of course they have a mailis, but they're sensitive and patient and present to inside what resonates. What hits? When you learn Torah, maybe a certain share didn't hit you. Find in Torah you and your place and your find in prayer. Now, it doesn't mean when it doesn't resonate, you don't do it. It means you're working towards a very pnimiyustical place. Even when you push externally, you're ever present internally. I this the guys in Yeshiva changed my life. I was completely When I knew I will we hung in summers, I was a foreigner to my inner world. I wasn't honest about my insecurities. I didn't know myself. I watched people stare with a presentness of self, with an honesty, with an awareness and a connection to self. The sugiyos resources is a very pnimiyustical sugiya of finding things that really mean something to me. I can learn Torah like, "Woah." I want my kids to have different to not a nice vort. There's nothing wrong. You could say over your Shabbos table a nice vort. I could share different to I'm not I don't want to share a nice vort, which is nothing wrong. Somebody's vort is beautiful. I want to share something that lights my soul on fire. When I hear this, it's like Now, I don't say Usher will light your soul on fire. I say two things will happen. Either either because it means something to me, it will go will light your soul also. That happens at the very least you'll be around somebody who's saying something that clearly means something to them. So, on the sugiya of laziness, what I like to express is as follows. The sugiya [clears throat] of laziness is not necessarily trying hard is part of a sugiya that's effort, but it's also finding an inner space, finding that space that this means something to me, to become a space. I wanted to be better with minyanim. My father with minyanim is is wild and by me it's hard to go to a minyan. So, I work on more understanding minyan. Minyan, I love the social aspect of praying with my community. I need a certain type of minyan. I don't like forest chills. I need the minyan in Yeshiva shacharis is like off the charts beautiful. It's very comfortable and nice. I need a certain thing. I relate to it in a certain way and I think it could be beautiful getting like praying together, a community. It's taken some time. I have a tremendous I was by the minyan here very fast. Very fast it was wonderful. There's a style of prayer like that. I just like getting come together in that way and pray and I appreciate a lot. Let's say it goes slow. Am I sitting there with deep kavanas? I thought it was cool they were very fast. They come and they rip it off. I think there was a beauty to it. I know here they come that's in a way that with big tzadikim would daven faster. I sit there and crunching my eyes and they went fast. We had the same kavana and I like getting get together early in the morning and they come together to talk to Hashem and to be loyal. I you could really emotionally, internally, in a deep way find a connection to things. And I want to express that the Sugya of Zrizus and the question how do I know if I'm remiss if it's because I feel I'm just lazy, why I'm not doing it? Please understand laziness. Laziness he said like two sides. How do I know if I'm not remiss if it's because I don't feel connected, I'm just lazy? It's not two Sugyas. Lazy means I haven't accessed that place that this means something to me. I want my children to I love filling. I want my kids and this is a process that filling means a lot to them. I like in Yeshiva and I don't say how to do this and every Yeshiva has its customs. I don't care if a guy comes to Yeshiva 3 in the afternoon put on your filling. I want filling. I'm not saying every Yeshiva should do that. Everybody has their ways. I want my kids that filling's like the world to them. Like filling's don't hide. I don't care. Do it in front of everybody. Put on Put on filling midday. I put on my filling midday in Yeshiva all the time because I want Baruch Hashem to be free. Put on filling anytime you want. Get on your filling. I want it to be precious filling, the crown of the Yid. A Yid's precious, the crown of the Yid. Put on your filling and form a relationship to filling. But like real, it takes time and and a person studies and invests in something. And I don't say you'll always feel it. That's not That's not a truth. And Reb Nachman says for 2 years he felt nothing in his Avodah. There's There's all different difficult times in our life. I am saying that the Sugya of Zrizus is a Sugya of a very pnimiyusdika place this means something to me. And the Sugya of finding the place that is mamish means something to me to learn is the Sugya of Zrizus. Effort could help. Chitzoniyus mered sapnimiyus. Do it, but be very attuned and sensitive to what's what's coming on is something arousing inside. So the opposite of this rash way the why were they lazy? Cuz they didn't think it mattered. Who cares if we serve Hashem? Do I really count? I learn or not? If I'll be the strongest in the sheer then I'll be Let's say I'm not. Let's say I'm the weakest guy. Let's say my learning's not in I'm not this crazy scholar. The acres have that the individual the very his own journey and in his story and through his story and in his work is irreplaceable. That's the acres so good. And then if I can find that space that it matters A guy came to me when I was sitting shiva for my father. He said for 14 years I sat in your father's sheer and slept for 14 years. The man I'm talking about a real person. I promise I'm talking about a real guy who's wealthy, successful man. For 14 years a successful guy who was there in the world they call that successful and he came for 14 years to sleep in the sheer. Why did he keep coming back? Is he a jokester? Very busy guy. Beautiful family. Supports a lot of institutions. Why is he going to a lecture that he's sleeping for 14 years? You know why? Cuz my father was more impressed with him maybe than anybody. My father was much It was like late sonnis by my kids kids coming to learn to tell what are you talking? If you would ask my father don't like late sonnis. He loved jokes. He didn't like late sonnis. Late sonnis is when you take serious things and you devalue them. If you ask my zayde would come to my father's sheer. My zayde in the great depression left yeshiva at 13. Didn't know how to learn well. I once asked my father my father hated late sonnis. I asked him does I be follow your sheer? That was late sonnis. My father ignored the He was very I'm close to my father. We not do this that to a son. We had a beautiful relationship. That was like solace. The zaidy fellowship. That was like like solace. He was 100% right. Stupid question. The zaidy fellowship. Zaidy comes to learn Torah. When my grandfather was sick, he was in his 80s, my father would pick him up every morning about 6:00 in the morning so he should come to daf. One day my grandfather overslept. My father was happy. His father should sleep and he went to daf yomi. My zaidy was in his 80s, couldn't drive anymore, walked over a mile to hear the last few minutes of shiur. A zaidy walked over a mile. In his 80s he couldn't see straight. He couldn't drive a car. He walked over a mile to hear the last few minutes of shiur. You hear let's? Does he follow shiur? He gets learning Torah. The zaidy came. He was glowing like the shemesh, the sun saying the shiur. And zaidy is sitting in the shiur. He walked over a mile to come to the shiur. Came to the shiur. And at a let's and you think zaidy what's his lung does you don't know what you're talking about. You know why zaidy came for 14 years? Because it's a big thing. Zaidy came to learn Torah. He's sitting there. Came to learn by your rebbe to learn Torah. It's a big thing. It was mash it. The zaidy kept coming back cuz it's true. It's a big thing. By the way, the next 21 years he learned shas three times and knows it backwards and forwards by the way. By the way. But the zaidy came for 14 years, slept through shiur, and kept coming back and I don't know which which the first years or the last years were bigger. What do we we don't know anything. Zaidy came to learn Torah. The ikker so gives reasons is a so you're finding that it resonates. This matters to me. When you when you talk about zaidy it matters to me it means that brings that turns you on. You mean you do things It means I don't want to just say it turns you on cuz I want to say we have a neshama. It can help us access it, be attentive to it. We live in a very pnimiusdike dar and the people want to connect deeply. I look at my own children and the guys in the Shiva they I love that they're not willing to just come on be like me and just be a robot. I tell my guy my kids come on I just did it I don't know. No, they're not willing. We live in a dark that's crazy play me a web site that spoke that that even you read this the leaves going to get bigger. We live in a very good dark. So I want to ex Okay, let me explain what you mean by that. You live in a very dark because sometimes they don't see that. See that way it seems like people are very superficial. People are not so deep. I I I My kids my kids my 11 year old son emotionally I 17 year old daughter emotionally is ahead of where I'm up to my 11 year old son we're in similar places emotionally. We're in a generation that's feeling the latest very awake. People are asking does this mean something? We were able we were people and this not to knock earlier there's we were heroes of action. We did. We could do. Let's go come on. What's with this kid? Just get up and do. I don't feel it. I don't relate to this. To an external eye looks like they're just lazy. They're very famous. It needs to mean something. I need to connect. We're in a generation asking who am I? We're in generation asking identity questions crazy stuff a tremendous want I have to relate to this. The external say very emotional dark slave. There's much more inside we never saw I see in my kids anxiety all the things for a hundred years. Me and my grandparents ignored my kids are anxious. They're they're present the things are very anxious there because they're feeling so beautiful. I watch the way they relate to things and need to like connect to things and do things in a way of connection is crazy. I'll tell you like this I want to say like this. This is not to knock anybody. Say this carefully. If I bring to Yeshiva a speaker comes to Yeshiva, the guys are jumping around. I'm as the head of the Yeshiva a visiting speaker comes and I'm like, "Guys!" And the guys are jumping that that that they're not interested. Guys will walk at the amazing Derek Harris, but they'll walk out. They can. Bring somebody who's sharing who's sharing in an honest way, there's not a sound in the room. Not a sound. I have asked the grandfather that hearing aids a month ago to speak. Wasn't the speaker, it was not a guy moved. What happened? Pnimiyus. We live in the one in an incredibly It's changing my life. I have started to look into my inside because of my kids, cuz the guys in the Yeshiva. To really ask myself and to admit I'm much more sensitive than I ever admitted. And I thought my like job was if if my kids said something to be strong. Now I like getting insulted. I'm hurt. And it's what I used to do is part of me would shut down, but I was strong. Now I'm insulted I go and I walk with my wife and I bring all of myself to my children. It's It's a crazy Pnimiyus thinker. They're crazy. Very Pnimiyus. And this Sugya of lazy, guys want to relate to things. We don't want to just do what we're not feeling. And it's beautiful. Reb Cook writes about this. Says the Dar Maschiach Hotzpa'aski, proliferation of Hotzpa. That's That's Mamesh this Nekuda. HOTZPA, JUST COME ON. WHAT'S WITH YOU? Let's go. No. No. No. No. No. We're not We're not We're not doing that show. I like the guys talking out perfect. No problem. I'm not saying how Yeshiva should run. Everybody has to do it their own way. I am saying it's a crazy We're not doing that thing. But guys are refusing. Minyanim across America, ask every seventh and eighth grade Minyan. Every I've spoken to dozens of Menahalim. How to run a Minyan for a high school seventh and eighth graders. They're talking by talking. They're not doing the robotic thing. I'm not saying they should be talking. I'm saying we have to find the space of connection. This means something to me. So, we need minyanim. The guys in Yeshiva started a minyan in Baltimore. You can't get a seat if you're a minute late. You think what's going to be with our minyanim? But it's a gorgeous minyan. It's a lot of chaos. They love each other. It's friendly. A good minyan, a guy counts. Somebody greets every person who walks into the shul. You can't get a seat. You have to If the minyan starts 9:00, 9:01, you might not get a seat. I'm telling you. The singing is stunning. It's chaos. The rubs and hugs the person. That we could do it with chaos and and sincerity. And it's like you matter. A person comes in, your prayer matters. This iker sod gives reshus is finding the inner spot. Understand you have it already. I said it's dangerous cuz it can come A guy can draw the conclusion. I don't get it. For the ski trip, you're up early in the morning. And for minyan, you're not. So, you see you don't care. I'm not in touch with my care. My neshama cares about prayer. My neshama just wants to pray. So, I'm not in touch. So, how do I access that space? So, then we have to figure out ways. Now, sometimes doing it, but it's not just busting it cuz I rera sapnimius means it arouses. Big tzaddikim are very in touch with their pnimius. I met Rabbi Willig. I want to say being with him, he's so comfortable with himself. My father was like that. They don't try to be other things. He's just himself. So, when I was with this talmid chacham, he's not trying to impress, trying to use himself. Beautiful talmid chacham and tzaddik being him. Not forcing things. The big tzaddikim and leaders, of course, they bring it. They found themselves. My father [clears throat] functioned a crazy day you would meet him, he was a chiller. He was not like There was no But here's a person who has a day that's crazy, he was himself. He wasn't being some He found comfortably himself. His neshama was on fire. Was on fire. Mamish him. The job in Yeshiva is to find you real. Real authentically. Real. Every guy it's not a It's not a slogan. I promise when a shamash it's not meant like a struggling guy when a shamash like a nice smooth guy. Promise. Every coil guy and coil chosid needs to know this. It's not It's not a slogan. It's a truth. It's changed my life, Yosef. And I'm finding places our inner world beautiful, not just our outer world. We think our outer world lies inside. I thought I was the biggest mess in the inner world. It's more beautiful than outer world beautiful. It's interesting. Our own inner things, our desires, our wonderful with desire connection, our insecurities are wonderful. There's an essence, there's a person here. You can meet him, you can touch him, you can feel it, and you can serve Hashem with it. So, that's this last question just got me fired up. I apologize. It's getting later and we're supposed to have question and answers and divrei Torah. We didn't even sing yet and we're 45 minutes. This is wild, Yosef. But I saw lazy here and that that works me up, Yosef. I want to express that the sugiyah of zrizus Zrizus means somebody's passionate about something. Whoa, this means something to you. Laziness means it's not valuable to you. Now, you might then say, "So, I see it feels not valuable to me." Please understand to your neshama if the only value is Hashem. That's me and that's you. That's our neshamas. Okay, we have to access that space that there's a sugiyah to access it. Doing efforts big help in that. But be attentive to what's resonating. When you learn, try to be aware of what divrei Torah Hashem hit you. Don't you learn stark, but also ask, "That hit me. That didn't really hit. Different times in my life, different things hit. Different times, different things hit. So, be like attentive, be aware what's hitting, what's resonating, what's what what what wow. MS MS that like hits them. When you learn Torah, learn present. I want to tell you a little about Reb Nachman, but I've spoken far too long without singing. Could you do us a favor? Let's the sing the dish. I want What's your name? Yes. Ezra. So, I'm some guy who comes to hear and I'm here like yapping away. I really want to talk to you. But MS, I promise you, Ezra. I want me I want to tell you about Reb Nachman of Breslov. I want to tell you about him. Maybe we'll have time there, we'll have time there, maybe we will I don't know. Let's first sing the dish of a nigan. Reb Levi Yitzchak was a Yid who saw Yid, who saw the pnimius of Yidden and valued a Yid. I want I want to pray you could have in mind whatever you want. It's a song without words. So, nobody puts words to the song. It's without words. I like praying that Hashem gives me an ayin to see the value of myself and to see the value in others, but real, not pretend. I have a guy in Yeshiva Chevron a guy in Yeshiva came went on a walk with me. He said, "Rebbi, I came here that you should like me. I wanted you to like me and you haven't liked me this year." And I've been here 8 months and you don't like me. And he attacked. He said, "You don't like me." I thought about it. I came back to him and we walked for 2 hours. And you're right. You're right. He's right. Right, I didn't like I promise he's right. He was right. Person's being real with you, you don't No, no, you're wonderful. He's right. Did not like him. I told him my own segulah, what stops me from liking. We're like this today. But I want an ayin. We all have our own things. Every person has people they appreciate and people they struggle. It's really just a reflection on yourself. I'll tell you something funny. There's a Yid in Eretz Yisrael that I that I meet always is like too heavy for me. There's something heavy and I just can't handle it. It's too heavy. I started working. I got out of school it's very hectic. You run here and there. I don't care you go to five places nothing. That means nothing. You went to no places. I'm here now I want to be I want to be with Ezra now just with you. I don't want to hear you run this place who cares. That's nothing that's zero. Speak to tell me you spoke to no one. I want to speak to Ezra this morning. We're going to sit down and talk together. So it doesn't matter how many places. I was trying and I'm working the guys have brought me to a place of trying to just be more relaxed and more present to chill out. And I'm trying just to be more present. That's it. Calmly be here. Who cares what's next? What we'll get to it doesn't matter. I want to be here and be with the chevre here and if you all we spoke about I don't hope prepared. I wrote a speech on the plane. It all nothing was said from that. Who cares? Blazy was the point. Be present. So I was working on that. I met this year I'm in a much calmer place. I met this year he was so much calmer. It turns out it was like true call a pace of the moment of the moment pace of it was just true. He was much calmer. It was just the reflection of me. I saw him as so heavy. He's a stickle heavy much calmer. Did he work on himself? I worked on me. And all of a sudden it was a pleasure being with him. So >> [clears throat] >> let's sing the bar ditch for let's I'm going to pray that Hashem should give me a night to see good in me and good in others and you could do whatever you want with this song. High key. 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Now we can definitely learn something else. I have a stickle that's going to take more than the time and I was like to be around people that are timely. So, I don't want to do that. I'm going to minus the stickle to where I'll tell you a story. I was just in Aris throw. And I went some year I went somewhere with you beautiful place with you that are with a lot of you that are struggling fighting to find. And a guy stops me I sure he was like 3:00 in the morning. And he said I've been meaning to tell you this for 2 years. He said you're a fake. He said you're a fake, admit it. So So, I love that question a lot. I like that question. And what the Yids grappling is what all of us grapple. All of us grapple. We're in the sharmas and we're human beings. And we're very human and we're not always in touch. And the question always fake fake is it real? And this darn more than anything is a very prenumerous stick a dirt. We want things that are real that we connect to. And I want to express we won't always connect. We won't always connect to to we'll have moments we'll have moments of clarity. We'll have moments I just sense this is big. And then there's a darkness. It's hard I there times we learn tired we connect and it what we real the the and Barry the and sign is like a lion and you're you're on fire. And there times where it's difficult where it's difficult to feel what you're doing. And and I want to express that it's valuable and it serves a sham. And it's valuable even when we don't touch it. But to yes look for the times that I sense that I'm in touch that this is that this means something to me to be present to that. I want to I want to close I want to close to the February with one card to the Rebbe. And I want to tell this to you about your own families. I want you to I want you to hear this. What's what's your name right? What's your name? Yes. Barry. Barry. I want you to remember this for your own kids Barry. I'm Barry Horowitz. You It's a nice name yeah yeah. What's your full name Barry? You have a name? Mhm. It's called Barry. And they call Barry like that cuz it goes with Barry I want you to hear this. I think this is important for every year it's from a normal moment. It's a longer discussion but we have 3 minutes I want to share this. When my show comes to parry so parry says who are you? So I'm a man of God. Please who are you? So parry says to my show to new one new my a sham quotes parry a sham says my show parry is going to say to you to new one new my face. Give. But he doesn't say one he says to new one new my face. Give for yourself a miracle. Show me something. You're a man of God, prove it. But he says give yourself a miracle. Do a magic trick. Do something crazy. You're You're from God, prove it to me. But he doesn't say get He should say to new Lana He says to Lana Give yourself a magic trick. Do your Why yourself? Give for me. My show shows up to pirate. So pirate says prove your metal. Hey, you're such big stuff. Give it He doesn't say give He says give for yourself. And the name of the Malik is Why does he say Lana? To new Lana [clears throat] my face. Cash in the name of Malik. Listen to this. My kids and I we go to a Pesach hotel Hashem. And the hotel hires a magician. He goes around table to table do magic tricks. So what's the instinct of family? My kids start like figuring out some of my kids want to figure out the trick. I want to look it up how he does it. I never tell me the secret. I have a friend Lavenger, learned in Yeshiva, crazy magician. I don't want to know his tricks. Don't tell me nobody on the way out tell me how he does it. It's not a smack if you know the trick. You think the magician says You think the magician's amazed from his own trick? Please, it's boring. It's a smack for us. I was once I was in Lakewood with two Bachman at a Hasman. I grew up two guys and I want I want a guy to see part of the world that two guys have been through a lot in their life. They don't have a Yeshiva never world. And I want them to feel you just the world's with you you're with the world. We have a whole world getting and we like together. Lavenger walks into the restaurant. He's from the best magicians in the world. He walks in. I say he had come from a gig. We had come from a wedding. So I wanted them to see that they have talented brothers. I said do a trick. So he said sure. He He doing tricks in front of the whole restaurant in Lakewood. These guys like their brother is the best. He was putting rings on people, taking it off, doing crazy stuff. So he put it on a Yeshiva Shiguy. The guy was like, "Beggedish!" "Hot!" That guy quickly takes it off. The other guy is "I know how you did that." He starts handling like how he did it. So always like people love figuring out by me, I never want you to figure out. I never I don't tell me the trick cuz when you know the trick, it loses the gishmak. Says the Naimi L'Melech Parshas was saying to to Moshe Rabbeinu, "We're a place of magic. We know how to do great tricks. And we're magicians. It's only for the other. For us, it's not gishmak cuz we know the trick. It's gishmak for you. If you're really a shliach of Hashem, don't do a magic trick for us. Then you're just like us. We do tricks for you, you do tricks for us. Tenu lachem mofes. Do something that startles yourself. If you do a neis that you can't believe, then you're a person of Hashem beyond yourself. Don't do us a miracle. You're just like us. We do tricks for you, you do tricks us. Tenu lachem mofes. Do something that's amazing for you." Says the Naimi L'Melech, that's how chinuch has to work. Don't be gishmak for the guys. I don't sing the ba'al dikri cuz you like it. I don't know what you like. I sing the ba'al dikri cuz I connect to that song. Tenu lachem mofes. When you teach Torah, teach my father taught it with a chiyus from self. Rabbi Willig, you walk into me as a chiyus mofes. He's not playing for you. What usually happens is because it emanates from him, it goes into our heart. And even if it doesn't, people who were around my father heard his shiurim, they were around somebody who the Torah was precious to him. That alone is like huge. Tenu lachem mofes. Give for yourself. You know, people tell the little kids, "Who made the triangle?" I don't want to tell you shalom aleichem who made the tree. I want to live in gratitude to Hashem. I want to be in that place. If I'm in that place, my son's around my face. Do for yourself something. Do for yourself something that's precious. Yes, if you're raising the son, Yes, if that's Hashem to know what you're my face. When we're around something that resonates by us, do something wondrous, something my sure I have been to plug in that you yourself are amazed by Hashem will feel that it's true. To know what you're my face. So, this is the directive to every single panic their own children. To know what you're my face. Find ways of connecting and relating in meaningful and deep ways to Torah, to Yiddishkeit in a way that's special for you and that will resonate, that will go over to tell me them. In the Gamara you're teaching Gamara, what people ask what share should I get? Just now there was a whole speech prepared, but laziness is on my mind. That's what I'm doing at to know what you're my face. It has to be something where you are. Say where you are and then hopefully either somebody will also go into them with the very least they'll see somebody what's it means something to you. To know what you're my face. So, I want to give a bracha. Rebbe Nachman says all Torah should end in a tefillah. I want to give a bracha and a tefillah. I want to say a tefillah to you and I that Hashem should assist us as benei Torah who are in Yeshiva, who are zocheh to learn Torah. Clearly have special rebbeim. I want to give us a bracha we should be zocheh all of us to find a deep space inside of ourselves that our avodah counts, that we are learning Torah accounts, our prayer matters, our kiddush Hashem matters should deeply resonate within us. And then we should from that space be a fire to the world as reshus. We should function with tremendous alacrity as reshus of somebody who helps. Their avodah counts and matters are tremendous. Hashem values my Torah, my tefillah, my relationship to him, my chesed that I can bring out to the world. Then as reshus should work. Now, certainly there's effort. Bust it and bring it. But the effort should be in sync with the idea of plainness and inner awareness. My avoid matters big sadikim certain work hard, but it's very comfortable. Looks like it fits them because they have found a deep plainness to take a place. To get to his reasons we should all be risen. This reason might be limited. We should get to deep places where I avoid the counts and matters we should fight. The opposite of his rash we should fight for our life. This is something worth fighting for. It's not always easy. Something worthwhile. Fighting for my light should shine to the world in a beautiful and meaningful way. Fight for it. Bring for it. Battle for it. We should all be given the strength to discover this. Have a wonderful Shabbos. >> [applause]