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um today was of course is the month
OFA and I would like to begin our
discussion of CHA with an amazing
question this is a question that was
basically introduced by none other than
the
and among
the
the the
original were had a very strict program
of penance where they introduced the
concept of
chish chish as we know the ra outlines
the basic components of Chua R narrows
it down even further but basic basically
they three or four primary ingredients
of CHA they
are stopping to sin that's the key of
all of them that's analogous to throwing
away the
rodent part of that is accepting upon
yourself never to do it
again regret and VI
confession those are the key components
of
CHA introduced an idea of ch ch is
physical inflicting oneself and
abstaining from
pleasure commensurate with the sin so
for example they would fast X number of
days for particular
AO or they would roll in the snow now
when they would roll in the snow they
would not put on a uh you know a Down
full body coat in fact they weren't
wearing anything they would roll they
would roll arum in the snow as part of
the Penance or they would appear a in
front of a be
Nest which it could
hurt without being too
graphic you know that's this was the
program of Chua introduced by the the B
and other of
the for a sin for one sin they would
fast 40 days let's say somebody one
time between and Y spoke by
daving they would fast for 40 days one
word per
word
okay and uh that's just like a small
example of the system of so was asked
the what his thoughts were about this
system of penance and then says there's
no question that this part of chuva is
not the primary are not the primary
ingredients of chuva this is not the
main program of Chua and the proof is as
follows theud says that there's no
question that chuva is completely that
if a person doesn't a and they do chuva
the sin is wiped off completely as if
they never did it this is a fundamental
idea that's enunciated in the tah and
the and the and Andi all the M the nvi
says that if one does Chua their sin
will never be mentioned again and all of
these excessive uh penalties that were
introduced by are added additives but
they're not
made because now addresses the following
uh advances the following stunning
question so you have a guy we'll call
him
yanle yanle is having a challenge
yanle yanle can control himself he's
going to be M shabas so two a them come
and say hey yle if you're M shabas now
we're going to throw you off a building
and then Stone you to death this is not
a good idea you have a wife you have
kids you're alive you will not be alive
if you're M shabas we warn Yan and Yano
can't help himself he goes over to the
watermelon and he picks the pits out of
the
watermelon re might have a
cool but for askanazi
yeah and that's a Yano we told you not
to do this or Yano standing FR his sack
drawer and he has this ugly pair of
socks that he wants to take out of the
sock drawer he's taking the bad from the
good yanle don't do it you have the
whole Sunday to clean out your sock
drawer no I have to do it now and the
uncle selects the bad from the good we
warned him time to kill yanle we're
about to push him off the building he
turns around ha
I had yesterday and I said I'm never
going to do it again I did Chua can't
get
me you know H say nice try I did chuva
and then noi says if you do chuva the
sin is completely erased what's
the after all Chua takes care of any sin
he's a sadic the gar even says if you
marry someone on condition if if a guy
who's a mass murderer adulterer
idolator he marries a woman on condition
that I'm aad they might be married CU
maybe he thought Chua in his mind so Yan
says now did I think Chua you just heard
me say VI and I did it yesterday you
can't throw me off the building what do
we do y unle we take him we throw him
off the building we Stone him to
death then we wipe our hands and we call
it a
day so the question says really if cha
works and nothing stands in the face of
CH then why does the tell
us will not forgive the guy what do you
mean bz won't forgive the guy but
nothing stands in the way of chuva what
happened to chuva you believe in Chua
they do Chua here in the I mean what do
they do on Yumer here what they sell
Alias the whole
day at Night by kidre they sell they do
a kidre appeal and then the next day
they do a Yar appe and then an appeal
they got to do some chuva so if chuva
works then how could any how could
bezden administer capital punishment but
what happened
to that's the question of very
interesting
question so the know says an even more
interesting answer
the Torah says that there
are somebody
violat somebody violates other AO they
could be burned if somebody violates
others they could be strangulated there
for misz then that means god ordained
God wanted it whether liberals like it
or not there's a concept according to
the Bible according to the Tyra of
capital
punishment if there's an institution of
capital punishment then clearly you
can't get off the hook with chuva
because if you could get off get off the
hook of chuva then PE would never be
able to kill anyone because everybody
would say what are you doing exactly I
just did chuva you didn't see me
do I
said definitely there would be
more
then everyone would either be or would
go out of business
everyone would say I did
chuva must be that it doesn't help to do
chuva why
not if the ordains capital punishment
that means chuva does not is not
effective in the face of capital
punishment
why it's a chuva Works nothing stands in
the way of chuva but clearly it's not
going
to it's not going to remove Capital
punish because if you remove capital
punishment then there would never be
capital
punishment there would never be capital
punishment ah so
says
but
says if the main Chu was CH meaning
fasting or hurting yourself or rolling
in the snow or lying on dress in front
of a beehive or a wasp hiive or having
asking a snake to bite off your head if
that was the main
shua then
maybe really if somebody does chuva they
would get off Capital Punishment when is
there capital punishment when we see the
guy didn't roll in front of in the snow
and he didn't go in front of a beehive
and he didn't
fast meaning what's the proof that
what's the proof that Chua doesn't
remove capital punishment because if
Chua removed capital punishment then
there would never be capital punishment
but if the main chuva is chish this kind
of physical Penance then there would be
capital punishment if Bez and sees the
guy didn't fast and the guy didn't roll
in the snow must be the main cha is in
your
heart and the reason why even if a
person does Chua there's still capital
punishment is
because
it's that capital punishment does not
stand in the way of
chuva let me turn this off
it does not stand in the way of Chua
fine this is the answer very interesting
answer bottom line is why doesn't cha
work
it's
fine comes
the you ever hear
the and he wrote a number of uh
interesting one of them is is like an
encyclopedia of
Concepts he
wrote and he also deals with this
question if chuva works and is effective
and nothing stands in the way of Chua
then why doesn't Chua work let's say
someone we're about to give the guy
lashes the guy was say what are you
doing I did
Chua what do you think you're doing I'm
a sadic why would anyone ever be be
excommunicated why would bezin ever
administer
Misa something very interesting he says
toward the end of the
piece who wrote that it's he says I
don't agree that the reason why Chua
doesn't work for capitalist punishment
is because it's just like a Heavenly
decree that Chua doesn't work there's a
very simple reason that Chua doesn't
work and that is how in the world is B
supposed to know if a guy did Chua or
not what's chuva going like this that's
chuva by the way anybody know
interesting question when when you do
this where where are you hitting exactly
do you have a spot that you go for where
where do you do nose what what are you
punching your heart your heart so this
is your heart is all the way up in your
lungs your heart is near your neck your
heart is down here no doc your heart is
here are you supposed to clap your heart
or your chest which
one why why you hitting your heart what'
your heart do wrong it's been pumping
blood Faithfully the entire time you're
the one who did wrong maybe hit yourself
over the head what are you kiding your
heart so the med is you hit your heart
because you're saying it was my desire
that caused
this you know by the way the Mish says
either the or the you have two
options when was the last time you ever
heard you have two options of how to do
something very rare right either the I
saw something very interesting today it
says that when somebody um commits a
capital crime and we have witnesses
the hand of the should be the first to
punish the hand of the
ad who testifies a against a person if a
person doesn't have eror say a person's
hand will sign off that they did this
sin and that sin so technically the
first witness to testify against a
person is their own hand
therefore you hit yourself with your
hand because your hand is technically
the first witness to testify okay did
they know that you talk about like marus
or they only about he asked Mis bezen
but it would equally apply to malus or
it would equally apply to
excommunication meaning Chua works why
doesn't it work for
misz it's otherwise there wouldn't be
Mis the the says a little differently he
says what's chuva chuva is the guy who
goes like this to rub your hands
together that's ch Chua chuva is to
Shuckle chuva is to put your head down
what exactly is chuva it's a regret in
your heart and a commitment not to do it
again how in the world is bezan supposed
to know if anyone does Chua what if he
looks sincere come on you know there's
people people could train themselves to
be um imposters nobody can know if
somebody did Chua chuva is something
which is given to a person's heart
therefore it's impossible
that the institution of bezden will now
be subject to deciding whether somebody
did Chua or not chuva is something that
only the person themselves can know only
God can know the bezin can never know
with for with certainty whether somebody
did Chu or not so therefore it has to be
that the processes of bezden are not
subject to a person's personal cha says
the
bz can't delve into the inner chambers
of one's
stomach to know the inner recesses of
one's
heart even if somebody bends their head
like a reed and they fast and they roll
in the snow that's not sha it could be
yeah they look contrite because they're
about to be
killed it's depend on person's heart but
bezan can't know that and therefore it
can't be that thez are subject to a
person's personal CH so it's not a it's
not like just
a din in the that Chua does not absolve
one from is it can't absolve one fromin
because the process of BZ cannot be
subjected to the the uh process of CHA
that's the answer of the in the in the
and you know the
wrote A series
called you know that multi volumes of we
need to know when Mia
comes he says something very
interesting if a person does one a could
they
be
malus and Mis bezan is there any AA that
you do this AA
bezin will kill you and they'll they'll
give you lashes no such thing says one
punishment but yet a person could
be and
malus in fact if you get malus it
absolves you from
KES but misas bezin getting malus will
not absolve
you why because malus will only absolve
you from a Heavenly punishment not from
an Earthly punishment just like chuva
will only absolve you from a Heavenly
punishment and not an Earthly punishment
and if you ask
why the answer is because if chuva would
absolve you from an Earthly punishment
people would just lie through their
teeth so it can't be it can't be that
Chua absolves you from a Earthly
punishment so this is a little bit of a
different point again theud says why
doesn't CH absolve you what says it
doesn't absolve you the says it doesn't
absolve
you the says why doesn't cha absolve you
because there's no way for bent to
know says if it absolved you everybody
would
lie says something very interesting
says that when the bikar stood and bezan
gave capital punishment if someone did
an if someone a and did Chua Chua won't
do anything but nowadays that there's no
bik and
nozin if a person does chuva they are
absolved so it's much more lenient
nowadays nowadays Chua could get you off
the hook but not when the B not when we
had
Azan because when we had a bezan bezan
had to be M the
that rested on them of administering
capital
punishment but say it could be because
you might ask you know what's the
fairness of that if chuva renders
someone a sadic why would Hashem make a
rule make a din that bz could kill a
righteous person yeah like why would
Hashem have such a so says maybe there
is no such maybe if
somebody does a Chua God will arrange
that the ADM will become disqualified or
that there won't be a or that the bezan
will cross-examine the witnesses and
they won't hold up to the
cross-examination in other words it
could be that even though technically in
a laboratory if somebody does chuva the
aidim could come nevertheless and
testify against
them but maybe hashm will orchestrate
things that if someone does chuva the
process won't work out and they'll
they'll get Off The Hook by hook or by
crook maybe that's why
they years right because I mean there
are many ways to be acquitted so maybe
Hashem would orchestrate that somebody
will be somebody who does a real Chua
will end up being acquitted by the way
there's a very interesting gamar the
gamar says that you know if somebody
comes out of bezden guilty and they have
tius on the bz they come to the Dion
they come and they start complaining
this Rabbi doesn't know what he's
talking about he made a mistake in my in
my decision he made a mistake in the
court
case we should tell the guy and the gar
says us that sometimes Hashem will
orchestrate that a Russia will win the
court case unrightfully there's such a
thing could happen so just because the
same way someone could unlawfully win a
court case someone
could get out of uh becoming
guilty okay so we have three we have
four answers so far
actually why doesn't Chua work against
capital punishment says
it's the says that it's the institution
of Chua is not possible for bz to work
with because they cannot ascertain
whether somebody did a real chuva or not
the says that we cannot account for
chuva because people would lie and say
they did Chua the says well maybe chuva
will get person off capital punishment
will orchestrate if someone did Chua bz
won't find the guy
guilty now you have to now I'm going to
give you the L
answer and
nowon is a contemporary saer of a yid
who lives inim
very and he clars the following
someone doesn't AA and there's capital
punishment why is there capital
punishment why is a capital punishment
somebody desecrates
chabas to be stoned why why is a lesson
to everybody else is it a lesson to
everyone
else is it to make sure this person does
it doesn't do it
again is there a concept just of
punishment someone they need to be
punished or is it that so the person
gets
atonement is in other words is the
reason why there's capital punishment to
give atonement or is the reason why
there's capital punishment it's to
punish someone once we punish him there
is all there is atonement in the
punishment but the atonement is an added
facet that's not why we give capital
punishment we don't give capital
punishment to atone for someone we give
capital punishment to to punish someone
and by the way once we punish them they
get atonement
now if the only reason why we punish
someone is so that they should get
kapar then if someone does
chuva they don't need
kapara because they already repented and
then the has a great question that if
Chua is effective then someone who did
Chua already got atonement so if they
already got atonement they they don't
need atonement so then why do we kill
them it's pointless it's futile to kill
them we kill someone to get atonement
this person doesn't need atonement they
did
Chua but if we don't kill someone to
give them atonement we kill them to
punish them they didn't have they get
punished once they get punished it
brings them atonement so someone who
does chuva it's true he doesn't need
atonement but he did not he he did he
sinned so gets punishment for example if
somebody sticks their hand in a
fire they get
burnt they don't get burnt for to atone
for the dumb thing they did they get
burnt because when you stick your hand
in a fire you get burnt so when you sin
you get punished oh but I'm really sorry
you bet you're sorry I'm sure you'll
never do it again now that you're
dead in other words maybe the answer to
ne's question is we're looking at
we're looking at capital punishment in
our 2024 glasses that whoa that we're
doing it to teach a lesson who says
there's a lesson over here who says it's
because there's a
lesson is there perhaps maybe there's a
concept that when you do something wrong
you get punished for it could that be is
there such an idea or does there have to
be a constructive
lesson not a lesson it's a lesson for
everybody else
that might also be true but can there be
an element that when someone does
something the Torah says you're know how
to do they get punished for
it if that's the case so even if they
did chuva they will get
punished but what do you mean they
removed it yeah they removed it but they
did it you I can say they didn't do it
they did it maybe they're not liable and
they don't need atonement but maybe they
still get
punishment that's
theon's answer to this question which
comes out that it's answer number five
so we
have doesn't work how in the world is
supposed to know if somebody did CH we
have the answer of the then everybody
would lie it's a little bit different
than the you see the is saying that the
institution of bzden cannot be subject
to something that they can't ascertain
it's not that we're afraid anybody is
lying let's say everyone in the world
was telling the truth but there's no way
for bzden to
know is saying no more more than
everybody would then
lie says well maybe Chua is effective in
the face of capital punishment Hashem
would orchestrate that someone who does
chuva will end up getting off the
hook says well if the purpose of capital
punishment is merely a punishment and
it's not necessar
to bring atonement maybe someone who
sins will still get it
now during
Co want
say it is no there's no question it's m
but is that the only reason for it I
agree it is also in other words Misa
brings atonement no question but is it
that that's the only reason we give Misa
and in that case if he did Chua there's
no reason to give Misa or is it that we
give Misa to punish someone once we
punish him he gets
atonement during Co in August 12th
Hashem led me in the following Direction
and I thought of the following
possibility today I
saw says
it understands differently but I'm going
to stick by my guns
no pun intended okay whatever
fine there's a very interesting Yi and
the reason I'm giving it today is
it's the P says look at number
nine based on the testimony of two or
three someone will die he will not die
based on the testimony of one witness
right a famous
P based testimony of
testimony somebody could
die so the is very difficult because if
you could kill someone with two ad for
sure you could kill him with three
ADM so there's an amazing on this it's
based on Yi and even more a yala the Yi
says God is good and just he therefore
teaches Sinners to
repent thei says follow they
asked what should the punishment be of a
sinner so said The Sinner should be
pursued with evil basically he should
die okay that's what they ask wisdom
what should be the fate of a sinner and
this wisdom
said prosecute him to the nth degree
they asked prophecy what should be the
fate of The
Sinner prophecy said should
die they asked God what should be the
fate of The Sinner God said should do
chuva so apparently wisdom does not
recognize
repentance prophecy does not recognize
repentance look in the prophets they
don't talk about repentance as an
option the medish in the expands this
statement
the number eight says they asked wisdom
what should be the fate of The Sinner
prosecuted to the an degree they asked
prophecy what should be the fate of The
Sinner he should die they asked the
toyra what should happen to someone who
does chuva someone who
sins they asked the T what should happen
to someone who sins T said maybe try
bring a
carbon they ask God what should happen
to a sinner God says what do mean let
him do
cha so the others far bring this as well
say based on the testimony of two
witnesses who are
they
wisdom
prophecy somebody will die wisdom would
say if you sin you should die prophecy
will say if you sin you should die or
even even three Witnesses who's the
third witness the Tyra itself
but you know when you won't die I'll P
based on the one and only based on the
one and
only so that's like a nice way to
remember this teaching of kazal let's
think about that for a moment it's
really a beautiful teaching if you ask
wisdom what should happen to someone who
sins what should happen should die right
imagine you know there's a capital Case
Case of the century you have like a mass
murderer
and you have the prosecutor and the
defense attorney and the judge is about
to give the verdict and the guy says I
don't understand
judge and the guy does cha he said
you're going to put me away forever I
did Chu don't you know
judge don't you know the story about
manasha and uh Y and all and ruen all
the the great balet chuva so I'm out of
here let's go maybe I'll take you out to
eat
tonight what will the judge
say dead man I don't what do you mean
you did chuva what's
chuva what do you mean what's chuva so
wisdom doesn't recognize Chua prophecy
doesn't recognize why the process of
Chua should work even the toyra will
never say oh sinner he could just do
chuva only God himself
appreciates and allows for Chua to
work so here's how I see
it
chuva is a really a gift from heaven
like RAB says in the sh it's one of
the that gave is that he gave us an
opportunity to change our ways in real
life there's no such thing as
repentance there there's no way to
repent if you commit a crime you pay for
it there's no repent there's no concept
of
repentance in in what area of Life Could
you
repent Chua is only something God
recognizes but perhaps then if only God
recognizes Chua it's only
effective between you and
God chuva is between you and him it's
not recognized in this
world this is not something it's not a
process that has relevance to how others
look at you it's irrelevant if somebody
sins your chuva is very personal it's
between you and Hashem in a way this is
a very difficult idea because that means
that it's really only affecting my
status in the eyes of Hashem it's not
really affecting my status to how other
people view me or to my status Visa
others but in a way it's it's a very en
nobling idea because Chua is very
personal the only one who appreciates
and accepts and welcomes CH himself you
know it's very interesting do
say I'm sorry do
say did you ever hear such a statement
that is great it reaches the Throne of
Glory no Tyra is great it reaches the
Throne of Glory no
chuva is great that it reaches a throne
of Glory why why do kazal have to say
that chuva is great that it reaches a
throne of Glory you know why because if
it didn't reach the Throne of Glory it
would be worthless because in the realm
of this world and even the realm of the
Angels it's not relevant that you
repented you did the crime you're going
to pay for it in order for chuva to work
it has to go to a place that only God
could see
it so
therefore the Kasha is that if Chua is
effective and it's like you never did it
so then why can't a person say hey Court
why you killing me I did Chua because
the court will say as beautiful you did
chuva Chua is great it's irrelevant to
us that you did chuva we don't care that
you did Chua it doesn't change your
status to us your chuva is your personal
relationship with are you far from him
or are you close to him but that's not
something that's relevant
to the way bezden will conduct
themselves with you let me give you an
example a bad example take it with a few
grains of
salt somebody reads to your daughter on
the resume it says the guy was a mass
murderer and he committed every sin in
the book but he did chuva according to
Ru he did
Chua he has a he has a from R and the
ram they both say that he did
a you're going for it or you're not
going for
it yeah it's aush of a family they have
money but but he did a lot of bad things
but he did Chua you're going for it I'll
lose the door what I'll lose the door
right that was recorded you know
you're not going for it what do you mean
so what it's I'm I'm very happy for this
guy that he did Chua and he repaired his
relationship with God but how does what
does it have to do with
me so that's not a great
example and if you look in um if you
look
in I think is saying that the realm of
chuva is only
something that has ramifications Vis you
and God for example The gumar Yuma
says there are four categories of kapar
if somebody violates uh a CH alone
doesn't work you need yipper if you
violate by you're not atoned unless you
have if you violate you also need mis
mean you also need Misa but you did Chua
right there certain that you need Misa
to atone for what do you mean you need
Misa to atone for doesn't Chua work say
the limitations of chuva come from this
world this world doesn't recognize Chua
in this world Chua is not effective I
think what he's saying is in this world
and whatever is relevant to this world
chuba is limited it's infinite regarding
your connection and your and your
relationship with but it has limitations
caused by one of those limitations arez
operates in and because bz operates in
Chua doesn't operate in Chua is not
recognized in this world chuva is not a
currency of man it's not a currency of
this world it's a currency of of another
world try going into the store buy
gasoline and you pay with uh Rubble they
don't take that currency over here it's
not it's not an active currency chuva is
not a currency of this world it's not
that bzden doesn't believe the guy it's
not that there's no way for bzen to
know it's it's not understood chuva is
not a process that works in it's not a
currency that's operable in this world
it's only between you and
God so I think asks a question on this
understanding and I'm going to stand by
it and I think it's question
is that Chua is operable in this world
what's the
proof let's say somebody becomes P
Adas let's say a BAL he can't
testify could he ever regain
his CH if he does
chuva why why would that be effective
but it's not a currency that's operable
in this
world so we see says the nuda is not
that chuva is not recognized in this
world I might I would say
that it's not when somebody regains
his it's not the process of CHA that's
regaining
his it's that there's a the is that if
someone's there is a way to regain your
how if someone does
chuva there's
a that bzden could say regarding gaining
your credibility we will rely on this
process to get your credibility back
but it doesn't mean that it's a process
that's recognized in this world to make
it as if you never did it maybe you
still did it but for regaining
credibility the Chua will be effective R
has a little bit of a different angle on
this he says that what
means is that is the process of
CHA or
when bezden operates what processes
bezen doing it's
mid the
operational procedure ofen the operating
principle of BZ is bezin is executing
D when bezden executes
D they don't
utilize so shuva is not one of the
operating principles of the executions
of
bzen so you could still ask well why
will
bzen accept somebody uh to to regain his
kasas if they do chuva that's not a
procedure of bzen that's a that if you
have someone who did era and they do
chuva they regain their kasas but for
bezden to issue a
verdict a punishment
right the is that bzen if somebody is
warned bzen will give capital punishment
so that process cannot take into account
chuva because chuva is a process of RA
and in the process of they can't utilize
a contrary
process I like what I'm saying
better I'm
entitled that Chua is a procedure which
is not recognized
not
by how doesz how should Bez
pasin Bez has to utilize the the
procedures of
and could say well let's ask
God God is not one of the operating uh
pillars and and
uh operating principles of how bezan
operates bezan doesn't use okay what
would God say about this bezen could say
what does wisdom say what does Tyra say
so wisdom says Chua doesn't work Tyra
says Chua doesn't work so in the world
of bzden chuba doesn't
work so you say How could somebody get
their kasas back that's not necessarily
in the world of bezin that's a you get
your kasas back when you do Chua but in
the oper when for bzden to operate bezan
operates based
on and Tyra doesn't operate based
on
so a little bit different than is saying
is saying the procedure ofz is
and we're saying bz operates based on
the procedure of and and
not so in this very short chair we
presented seven answers to the question
of the namely why when someone
is why can't they say I did now says
what it's a Heavenly decree there's
something called capital punishment and
nothing will interfere not even Chua the
says Chua cannot operate in bz bezin has
no way to determine if somebody actually
did Chua says we can't allow Chua
because then people will
lie says you know what if somebody
really did Chua Hashem will orchestrate
that capital punishment will not be
administered says
that
that is not merely an atonement it's a
punishment and therefore even if you do
chuva that's the ramifications those are
the rep repercussions whether you
repented or not Rai says
chuva is a process
of and the which operates through cannot
utilize the ra of Chua and we're
suggesting and I think this is what is
saying that Chua is not a process
appreciated by anyone other than it it's
not appreciated by it's not appreciated
by are the operating principles of bzen
what says is not how bzen operates bz
doesn't say what does God say over here
bezin has to follow the wisdom and the T
and I think this gives us an important
understanding of the realm of Chua
because it's a very exalted realm it's
really a reparation of your personal
relationship
with it's something very specific and
very personal it's between you and and
it's the one procedure and process
that's I wish everyone a wonderful night
okay next week There's no no regular
share Wednesday night I'm sorry I heard
that