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Renewed Emuna & Consciousness - Key to Successful days, Connection to a TZADDICK - Likutei Halachos

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Eli “Midnightrabbi” Goldsmith

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Hey, in the mirror that book's saying we have a daily share in Unity Flow podcast, Leadership Flow podcast. I'll share with the vids after the first mariv, mincha mariv. And you know, today I'm going away. I'm going to Shulaim. It says netzach Yeshualaim. Today's netzach sh'ba netzach. So, that's I'm going away for a night. Yeshualaim and just have some avodas avodas Hashem's do over there. And it's Hashem being very clear cuz it's also going into the the sphere of hod sh'ba netzach. Hod is kodesh kodashim. Um so, this this is a vote that I heard that would give chizuk to some people I know who are very into it. Um the concept that netzach sh'ba netzach is really the yahrtzeit and the not just of Dovid Hamelech who was an anika from the Chernobyl tzaddikim who were not so close to to Rebbe Nachman. But, netzach sh'ba netzach has in it a very strong aura of Rebbe Nachman as well. And that's when it comes to the pnimius, all the tzaddikim are connected. There's no there's no argument and there's no difference. It's just you know, how does it play out in this world? There there's sometimes different paths, different shorshei neshamos. But, on a pnimius level, everyone's mekushar once together. So, netzach sh'ba netzach is Moshiach is Moshiach ben Yosef ushpizin. It's also Rebbe Nachman. There's a there's a big like koach ratzon and victory and then netzach. And Nachman Simcha is gematria 501. Shimon bar Yochai is gematria 501. So, the following week, a week later, hod sh'ba hod the sphere of hod sh'ba hod, we're really tapping into a very strong energy of the hemshech of Rebbe Nachman into Shimon bar Yochai. Chutz l'chavod Rebbe Nachman, the idea is that we're in a special tekufa now. We're heading to the climax of the sphere. It's already the second half now. From this point on, the 25th day is already counting towards the other 25 days towards the shach hamishim. And it's already dealing with more of the the lower aspects of the Adam Kadmon, of the holy sphere elyonim, of Nehem, of netzach, hod, yesod, malchus. So, to learn the today, especially with the Indian of Boca because the first victory a person can do every day is how you get up. And you know, don't be hard on yourself you didn't make today. It's okay. We're human beings. We you know, we're not meant to be perfect and part of Rebbe Nachman is he has all these about being patient with yourself and not and so we we were learning just to do a quick summary of this last of Boca revealing a moon. What does it mean to reveal a moon? The primary perfection of a moon occurs at the beginning of the morning. To reveal a moon a person must strengthen himself like a lion. He must exert great effort to rise up before daybreak to study Torah and and Doven and this way to elevate and complete and increase holy moon when the day arrives. The point is you're beginning the day with the first victory of a moon. Just having a moon having this this physical moon we're learning in the city that is this whole like say that anyway trying to get from from not to get down on ourselves to give ourselves encouragement to serve a sham especially before Messiah comes and that revealing a moon is the first a voter the first the first step every day the first victory and you if you would keep a notebook which I did at one point waking up all the time for Doven and doing and hopefully staying away as much as you can from from all the distractions. That is already a big victory. You can write that down already and take and say look I this much I did already today. Yeah, because the way the comes he comes with all the burdens from the night before and tells you there's no point getting up and all the things you have to take care of and and tells you it's too hot too cold this that anything to keep you away from getting up. Your voter is a moon. I got a moon a sham love. >> things to keep you away from getting up. Your vote is Amona. I got Amona and Hashem loves me. He He might He might remember me giving me my new soul again, the new Halacha and the Shammah, and I'm going to serve him again. Removing that, night and darkness signify foolish ignorance and absence of that. In the first half of the night, darkness and dinner are most intense. That's what we learned last bunch of Halachas. But overwhelming one's doubts and giving rise to the insoluble heretical question that would undermine Amona. The solution is sleep. Removing one's doubts and relying solely on Amona. So when you go to sleep, you're sort of letting go. That's surrender. We've been learning Gedaliah Spenser's book. It's all about surrender. It's all about letting go. When you let go and you go from a state of of absence of doubts to what? To Amona. So that when when it's dark at night before you get to sleep, that's your time now to Amona Amona Belaylus to hand yourself over to Hashem. So even the night, even because really Ashkam is not just about when you wake up. It's also about Hachana, the whole preparation. As that's one of these ways good that we learn every night after Mariv because the Hachana begins already from that time. From Mariv all the way through. So we learn Torah straight away or before Mincha or at some point will change when it gets a bit later. It's already. So but the point is you're starting already Mincha Mariv with that inyan of Torah. You're not just going into the night and you didn't learn anything and you just just about said Krias Shema Bizman because even here we don't even say it Bizman. You have to say it again later. So you have to remind yourself and the Sefirah and everything else. The point is you're in a state of Amona and your doubts has been removed from somewhere. Now he says during that, that is knowledge. During the second half of the night, the dinner are mitigated. That's the good news. Midnight Rabbi's time. Yeah, from Chatzos. And the heretical questions that arise then are the type that can be resolved. All the heresy that comes before Mashiach comes, you can resolve it at this time of night and the after Chatzos. Because it's still night, the pathways of doubts remain blocked. The solution is to rise at midnight to spend the second half of the night learning Torah davening to Hashem. This enables a person to draw down das and expand his intellect. They might then answer these questions that challenges a moon. Obviously, this is all with the eight of the city come. I wouldn't try dealing with her heresy by yourself. Yeah? Don't recommend it. Don't recommend learning any books, anything to do with that those Sugyas or trying to fight those kind of questions by yourself. Should always try have a mashpia, a rav, a tzaddik, learning Seforim because they give you the tools to rely on your own wisdom when it comes to the the Shaar Ha Nun Shaar Ha Tumah. I wouldn't recommend it. Shaar Ha Nun Shaar Ha Binah Teshuvah comes by connecting ourselves to the tzaddikim. That's That's where we're we're in safe territory and that's why they're advising us to to come at that time where the world's transforming from din to rachamim. That's from chatzos onwards. That's the time to get up early as we mentioned many times. The Pnei Menachem is very strong about that, the importance of the early hours. He says he doesn't start his parnassah until he's done at least four hours of avodas Hashem. Cuz he says otherwise I'm going to go into my It's all right. I'm not Rav You don't have to come. So he the he he won't deal with his parnassah. Yeah? So it's just funny over here in the shul. Like there's a thing like they're davening and learning. If it's not Rav road people don't come. Which is a shame cuz there's other people here also can learn Torah and he he'd agree. He'd maybe he'd even come sit and learn if he had time for it. But uh and he I've seen him with that. When a rabbonim come, he sits in the shiur like a talmid. What part of it from learning just cuz I'm Rav Whatever. I don't know. I'm not It's nothing to do with me. It's the Torah. We have a chiyuv to learn Torah. I don't I don't understand it. Anyway, but the idea that um a person's able to draw down das and expand his intellect. So this is the idea that a person's able to turn the dinim into rachamim and that's the avodah of Torah in the middle of the night. So what was I saying before about um Okay, I'm at chatzos. So he said if you go into parnassa and you haven't done your 4 hours of avodas Hashem yet, then what happens is you're doing it out of fear, out of fear, but not healthy fear. All the fallen fears that we were learning about last night in Tanya, we had a shear on Tanya, all these fallen fears, that you're doing it based on worrying. Whereas if you do it based on emunah and you do it based on daas and now you go into your parnassa, now you have expanded consciousness, now you can deal with everything. You're saying because you wake up in the middle of the night and and and and Yeah, or not even the middle of the night dafka, but just the idea of having a bunch of hours before you begin your day, yeah, of work. >> build up your emunah so then you can go to work with uh daas and expanded consciousness. Instead of going into work, you know, like people wake up and they just mumble davening and they run into work. >> to work. While they're le- leaving Shacharis already, they're on they're already in work already. And then they're suddenly like dealing with work all day is based on fear. And then he says, "What kind of decisions are you going to make?" And that's true. If you make decisions out of fear and worry, that's not it's a whole low level of way of serving Hashem. It's not our true self. Our true self is emunah, expanded daas, expanded consciousness. Bedtime Shema, so another help, another eitzah from Rebbe Nachman. While asleep, a person's daas departs completely as emunah ascends on high to be renewed. This is why before you go to sleep we recite Krias Shema al Hamita in which we accept upon ourselves the yoke of kingdom of Hashem. There's a yoke, there's a ol malchus Shamayim, and belief in the oneness of Hashem. That's part of Krias Shema. And the nighttime one gets rid of all the negative forces, by the way. It's very important to try to say the Shema before you go to sleep. It has a big koach to fix up the pegam habris. There's a big tikkun going on with Krias Shema al Hamita. The Arizal has all this stuff. I I personally try to say it before I leave the shul, before I go back home, because I know once I get home all these things are going to happen. And then if you have it again, say the Shema again before you go to sleep. That'd be ideal, but I always try to say a lot of tefillos before I leave because I know that the eitz hara hops, >> You know that you could say that to be like but Victor Miller brought it once and I think it's a very good answer because you're in shul now, you're not rushing anywhere yet and that the wife's not there, your kids aren't there. I mean please God your wife, you know, like whatever it is the situation is the phone's not there. You're in a moment where you just you know, you're still in the you're still just davening, you learned something, you're in a bit of a more elevated place. That would be the best time to say Krias Shema al Hamita and then you can be mamesh you can say it again later when when you're in your bed then but the point is you've said the mitzvah you've you've already been mekadesh yourself to the right preparation for bed. The point is that people don't think that bed's such a big avodah but it's the whole key to the waking up is how you deal with the night and and tuning into the oneness of Hashem it's a big hamtaka it gets rid of all this negativity that goes on in the night time. Complete awareness by rising at midnight to study Torah and and davening you can merit complete awareness of Hashem's imminence and knowledge of the whole world is filled with His glory. This is what we're learning so it brings us it's actually a chiyuv to have a munach v'shte shnayim mikra v'echad targum we're going to see in the next halacha that Hashem fills the whole world of His glory and that's something we have to we're learning about it yes and Tanya everything's connecting up in the learning because part of connecting to Moshe Rabbeinu and Rebbe Nachman is having the true hashkafa which is Hashem's filling up the whole world and it's not about the what the the seemingly the space that's in the world or all the doubts and all the worries that's not the true reality. True reality Hashem fills the whole world he's mafni l'socho he's moshe b'cho he's all these different psukim that we say all the time. This is the emes. Yeah, this is the truth and that is gives us ability to have the right awareness and knowing that Hashem is listening to every single word of our davening will create a lot more kavana. To really believe it to get out of this small way of looking at Hashem expand our consciousness and know that Hashem is hearing our tefilos and and the potential is endless infinite that what Hashem can do for us. To expand our consciousness of when we're davening that Hashem is pasach etz edech me as beautiful as it really is. It's not just biutiful design and say the words and you know, you're thinking about all your worries while you're saying it. No, I'm giving you my worries to you Hashem cuz you know that you can change everything. You can bring everything to a good place and transforming every all my fallen fears to true yeshurun etc. etc. That's what we were learning yesterday in Tanya. Refraining from eating, even if you've been awake since this one was a hard one. The hardest. Getting up in you know early as that's possible and all these avodas you can do. But now to not eat before davening. You know, you say ah I don't need to eat before davening. Yeah, but if you're getting up at sois that's a long night. Yeah, and to come all the way to shachris So if you're davening late speed iya it's a bidding to eat before praying. Okay, so that you can do. What about having a coffee? Cuz really if you're really holding like Rebbe Nachman and Rebbe Nosson you won't be having a coffee even. Yeah, not even a coffee. Maybe some water may may maybe not even that. So you can recite cuz the whole thing is the dryness it creates some sort of extra segulah for you to feel this to be heard. Cuz that will then you can recite shachris with proper devotion. This satisfies and strengthens the clipa of the disturbed person's prayers. So one of the reason why we get all these bilbulim and thoughts is because we're not in the right physical, emotional, spiritual state when we're davening. We haven't done the proper preparation so that you can tell us how to do it. Halacha Halacha there's a way to get so we always say ah you know anyway I'm not even concentrating. But there are actually ways to fix it. There are strategies and there are always to come to a davening where you actually have kavana and you're focused and you're in a voter of ruchniyus. Refraining from eating before which is a type of partial day fast you merit to express the words of tefilah perfectly with complete sincerity and devotion. And the world knows that nowadays the power of fasting, holding back a little bit from food and drink is a tremendous koach. Yeah, not to be like subservient. Your body is craving but it doesn't have to have you craving you have to listen to. Beginnings, beginnings. One inch energy in serving Hashem is according to the beginning. So, it's all about how you begin the day. When he first begins serving him, someone must uh And this is important foundation of Rebbi Nachman. Remember, Rebbi Nachman is And this is you hear if you really understand the all Indian of Rebbi Nachman's Yemei HaMiluim on Rosh Chodesh Nissan. And we we we've been talking about it cuz we had Parshas Shmini, which is connected to Rosh Chodesh Rosh Chodesh Nissan. The idea is constant renewal, constant chotches, constant elevating your your day again and again and beginning again and beginning again. So, we we have to always go back into the beginnings. Re-experiencing the excitement and drive he felt to then go on and freshen inspiration from there. the fast when it first began. This is why each morning when one begins his devotions new fast and full prayer gives him the power of the beginning and fills him with renewed inspiration for serving Hashem. Okay, colorful world. We finished another chapter in in a Kitzur Halachos. We're going to do just talk We're just going to start Daled. And we're going to read. We're not going to There's a whole intro here. We'll leave that for a second. We'll do that next time. It says Halacha Daled. It's important to read inside a little bit in that that'll be today's learning. It's Gavriel Aryeh Lam of Abuchatzeira Moreh Hashachar she v'sisha megid ta'am b'chulu. So, he's bringing the Shulchan Aruch again, the first Halacha, the first sif. Now, you'd say, "Well, but didn't we learn this one over about four five times already or maybe more?" So, why he keeps bringing the first Halacha, go to the next Halacha. Well, Rebbi Nachman and Rebbi Noson, one of the most important nekudos of them, Netzach sheb'Netzach, beginning again, beginning again. It's chazering, chazering, going over and over. The sfirah is this cycle you're going over and over with your middos. The I you know, I have a pnimiyus sfirah the whole year round we're really counting sfirah cuz it's 50 * 7 is 350. We do the whole year round. I don't know what we do with the other 16, but I once asked tzaddikim and they said there is such a thing as a pnimiyus sfirah throughout the whole year. So, all the time tzaddikim are constantly working on their middos. They're going They're bringing Sefiras HaOmer is a giluy of what we have to do. But really, the whole year round, once you've become a tzaddik, you're going around and around in higher and higher cycles. You're not going around in circles, just going in the same space. The Maro says you're going up and up and up. So every time you learn this Torah again, this Gaba Keri, you're getting a little bit more clear. What does it mean this Gaba Keri? Shvitsi Hashem Naiti Tamid. Af al Pi Torah Mishael de Sakina u'Khinuch Na'arim. So this Siman Lamed, this is a Torah in Likutei Moharan. So he what what Rebbe Nachman does, being a talmid, he says go learn the Torah Rebbe Nachman and Torah Lamed. Torah Lamed, this is the really way he's getting this whole Torah from. Cuz everything Rebbe Nachman did all of his in Halacha is based on a Torah from Rebbe Nachman in Likutei Moharan. So here this is Siman Lamed in the in the in the Torah's of Rebbe Nachman. And he says over there that um it's all about discussing attaining a perception of godliness. That's going to be the whole nekuda, which fits cuz that's the beginning of the day really should be that you start of the day, the foundation of a Jew's life should be Shvitsi Hashem Naiti Tamid. Your emunah in Hashem, your histavus, your connection to Hakadosh Baruch Hu, how you perceive Hashem. Af al Pi Torah Mishael de Sakina u'Khinuch Na'arim, Haklal ki sak Adam levakesh u'lekhapes me'od me'od acher Rebbe Amitai hagadol me'od me'od u'mefulag me'od she'efshar lehiyot bo mis hasagas Elokus. So says Rebbe Nachman, for it is impossible or here it is, Haklal, he says the general theme of the Rebbe's lessons that every person must diligently seek out and search for the true Rav. So that's why they wanted to come to Rav cuz he's the true Rav here and I'm just you know, they say they say that I once was getting a little bit famous online through Rebbe Nach uh through Rav Arush's platforms. Like I was getting a lot of views and we were we're doing this podcast. So this son came up to me and said, "Oh, Rebbe Rebbe Elie, you're becoming a blazer, you're becoming a tzaddik mefursam." So you think, oh, tzaddik mefursam, you know, famous tzaddik. It's the worst thing you could say in Breslov. It's the biggest insult, yeah. It's like you know, it's the it's the most horrible thing you could say. So it's the I don't know if it's lashon hara to say that this son said that to me, but whatever they were maybe they were joking around, but the point was they were saying like, you know, once you become famous, that's a problem, yeah. Sad and awesome. A real tzaddik, what's what's a true rav, a gadol mad ameflugus mod, shiyokla aibos sagas adikus, for a real rav, he's going to be capable in his greatness to enlighten everyone with godliness. That's where his focus is, not his ego, not his following, not his how much views he's getting and all that rubbish. It's going to be about how much he's able to bring more godliness to the Yidden around him. That they are more connected to Hashem in their davening and their learning. Like, you know, Gedaliah, for example, you take this guy, he said himself, he didn't go to any fancy Yeshiva high school, he went to public school, he's not like a highly educated guy, hasn't sat in for years in Yeshiva. He says this about himself, but because he's doing the eitzos of Rabbi Nachman, and he's going doing like getting up early and putting in the time in his bodedus and the learning, so Hashem shines on him. Yeah, the right kind of mesagim that bring other people like me, who's sitting in Yerushalayim, or for years I was in Yerushalayim listening to him, but I was surrounded by rebbe's, and I was I used to say to him, I said I can't believe I'm spending more time listening to your Torah than my rebbe's Torah. And you're some business guy in Miami with all kinds of challenges that going over there. Like because the point bottom line is what is he helping me with? Like we said, so I wake up in the morning, my rebbe never told me that. I mean, he my rebbe said it in his way. My rebbe said it that you have to have a gisas Torah, it's like a more different lashon. He said the same thing. Just Gedaliah's lashon is more like our our language, you know, the universal language that we grew up with in being a English speaking, and you know, being a more involved in the world. Whereas my rebbe is talking about like tzaddikim, like, you know, yegias haTorah, hasmadah Torah, you know, bitzifus haTorah. He's talking about lashonus that you know, that they're right, that if If listen to him, everything Gedaliah says is in the Sadiq Torah, but it's just only help to access that a little bit. So So, you need someone who can help you access this godliness. The perception of godliness is all about das. So, internalizing of Hashem imminence fills all creation is what we've been learning about. And uh to know that Hashem is Elokim, Hashem Elokim. And to get rid of the fact that there's anything else other than Hashem. So, everything you're experiencing in life is Hashem. So, we'll just be one more line. >> [clears throat] >> So, what's the concept? For it's impossible to attain perceptions of godliness except through many constrictions of divine wisdom. That's what I was trying to explain anyway. You need someone to constrict the wisdom into language you can understand. Need a rebbe, a tzaddik, a Gedalia, whoever it is, to say over the Torah that you can in your Yeah, let's just be real. In your smaller level, yeah? Let's be humble. It's a simsum, to constrict the light so you can get it. And that is these constrictions simplify wisdom through the concepts of indirect explanations, how to da ma, explain introductory Um it is comparable to the pedagogical methods employed by the teacher who teaches a young child. That's what That's what Rav Chaim says over here, Rav Chaim Kramer. But the idea that a teacher is teaching a child, he can't say it in the same way that he says it to an adult. It has to be clarified. It has to be put in the right kinds of mashalim, story form, that the child's going to get it. That the the language of the child. So, we need that help. And that's something which you should daven for every day. You know, one of the most important things is we should daven. One, please God will come back, so then it will be a full shiur in here, so people won't miss out learning. But the idea is uh that we should daven that the the people should be talking to find the the people that really help them come closer to a sham you know one of the things I done for every day is in our city came and other times my own feelings we should have a catcher to the true Sadiq if that's for you if it's about if it's going to go and whatever there is whoever whatever Sadiq it is the some people nowadays is the the whatever you know whatever Sadiq it is yeah the main point is one thing it definitely is is that definitely not that guy dressing up like the thinking is machine I don't know if you seen that guy definitely not him but you should dive in every day yeah that you should be talking to the side of and you should have a catcher to him and it should give you the true and the true we will be ultimately victorious in every level and that that's with the right with the right start to the day with the right and the right and connecting to the right side of the true side of the true then we will be to the because yeah what's after we say comes the morning comes the comes and we're getting ready for the guy I mean I mean