Either the World Deceives Me, or I Deceive It - Likkutei Torah Balak Ma Tovu #4

the yeshiva dotnet good morning everybody welcome welcome welcome oh boy we're too slow so we're on iein download page 147 right 147 I in Dollard column two on the top three lot of four lines from the top iein download column two on top it says bollock so we explored in the mind me the three levels of chuva it's called sir mera vas a tithe and Baca Shalom sir made our step one the ability to be able to do true ver repentance to go away from all types of rah by discovering La Caille Beaucaire B which is the antithesis of mitsuna Jara sila there's des travaux vas a tithe the complete pass positive commitment and dedication and passion including going beyond one's tavern comfort zone even Delhi Kim to work through Ella Kim that symptom of Ella Kim by remembering the truth of save of and the truth afar say tithe the ability to replenish the light that was missing is always through the source where all the light comes from which is safe of Columbia and then there is the third Chava the trove of Baca Shalom of ultimate peace to truven not on anything that was missing in the terms of negative or anything that was missing in the terms of positive samara vas a tithe but it's the Shuvo a live or shrivel alaikum sugar Eli it's the truth as he puts it on the very distance on the very ashes on the very sense of ego and separateness it's not the true ver that we're used to you know you have to do true ver because he's such a bad boy it's that all life is one big true ver we're used to the word true vers associated with trauma I don't know what level of trauma but you have to chew because you're a bad boy if you would have been a good boy you wouldn't do children without that ever says then why would it say call you mom it's over your whole life you should retriever well your whole life you should be a bad boy no truth is the essence of life all of life is truven call your mother over to live life means to do true to return the yeahshe back to the iron to return the soul back to the source to over to overcome the tension and the frustration and the difficulty of the separateness of the ego that separates to be able to know da may I in ba so you come from I in I am Mazel you saw where somebody said yesterday a title so from look at the Toyota may I in your voice re not just a question it's an answer may I in the obviously my AZ my help comes from I am the noise lemon LaVon and this true ver is most personified through Toyota because Toyota is called Marshall Hakka Des Moines II it's the metaphor that captures CAD Moines oil shale oil um which means Hashem and ma machine his essence beyond my male and beyond save of which from there can be the synthesis and therefore Korea slams off' add the a ver am hashem you pass over even what's called you to cave of k save of kawaman and then dry land and water can be synthesized hoffa calmly amartia which means within the age of oil um Haza of Eretz of land there could be complete integration chuva this is the truth of bach a shallow him sir mayor SATA of baku solemn the piece de synthesis piece collage secretariat of the kumar's has made some shalom a p'malee on isla um so matatini creates peace in the higher you even the lower yeshiva p'malee shall milah what the peace that's needed over there as he puts it serve of Carla peace between save of Kalama namah male : and there's also the advantage of terror over mitzvahs that toy is ingested it's digested like a food verse a Rosko beside may I be Kerber hakodesh cleaner share besides may of repeating the various memorial hazael de the ballot Anja brings to bring out the uniqueness of toilet every Mitzvah is divine but mitzvos are called McKean they encompass the person person so to speak dresses himself or herself up in a mitzvah you do an act but Toyota it's like food it becomes part of you a person learns learns learns the ideas of Thai - the truth of Thailand tears Hamas - look at his vertical such gems will person really understands it it becomes completely United it's like food it goes into your bloodstream it's now your bloodstream it's not a separate piece of bread it was once a separate piece of bread but now it's Mama's shoe to the point that you can't recognize the difference between you and the food the food becomes you for good then hopefully for better and sometimes not always for good depends what type of food depends what type of food it is right it depends what everybody it is that's the uniqueness of tailor that's what the Casals said that our Shem said in a I'm ready to forego everything but not the more social Toyota and even it compares it because there's a varam the Malka there's a person gets a blemish and a part of the body even if it's very serious a limb is missing kalila a real defect so the person is among that is a blemish but there still doesn't necessarily take a life but when there's a little perforation in the wrong place and they varam happen in them in the internal vital organs along the heart a kidney a of course the brain you're dealing with the brain there there's no games even a tiny little blemish which would seem relative to other organs not big but that can completely snuff out the soul of the person because it's a vitamin mm he said mitzvahs are called a Varda the todos de Moya has the brain it's the premise it's a it's it's a bottom up in mmm so he continues Rizzo Masha cosa with Martin Taylor this is absurd that says by Martin Taylor on know thi melaka that's how math interior begins literally it means I am God your God I am the Lynn English they would trade I am the Lord your God but you have here all three names you have an earthy Hashem javea Allah Kevin Peters have al Aquinas save of Kalama know Malik Alam youth cave of K we explained represent sovath le Kim which always becomes personal alcoholic a new La Caille is mamala column I will ánotá me generation but there's something called done nicely on no fears who is innately there's no name so I know fears are no commission oka I am Who I am I am who are you whoever I am I am an OT me so nicely who adds misleading social of my leg a missive of Kabam this is the essence of the in surf which transcends even save of Kalam in boohoo I miss galavan named Julius Avila commoners and this our nightly Martin Taylor is that this our nightly can become your God your la caja shekinah's shame Avia's and Amisha hope unison le mames commercial kosumi ma mock him krithika Hawaii this Hawaii is one that does not conceal but it accesses the truth of an IV that subtract mom maken crissi Carvalho from the depth I call out to you subtract is not just from my depth I call out to you my mom Akamai know me as Messiah in South mama Shama Shama named Julius a viola kakum Amish are they a circuit Ida me ma ma confirm the ultimate depths from the air I want Hawaii to come out in other words in this silver van even in them are male it shouldn't be felt the separation from the Artemis it should all be a vehicle for the animals I day a secretary this is new Toyota shrink am Kim McGinnis iMac which is also defined as depth me my Macintosh a cause of my uncle market reverses Oh your thoughts your Toyota's very deep commercial cost of barabbas say the value Chris a partial Gitmo Ashley Adams she has made ability removing the other a lava cause of I mean my him a Mook him a table aviation mislay for I'm Emma mocking classic of I met Phil Alani so he the I'm ik is associated with Tyler behind away they had to vanilla but this is through first true vision your icing paternal Ashima that the person's involvement in Tyler should be genuine lachemann for her sake and he brings a few Madame economist kadai Shahir a circuit area after a lucid deliberate Villa I'm sorry Commissioner customer Camacho million Iranians Mariah hatch mania Scylla the Indian our chalet bar cobertura de la the Indian art philosophy is McCallum ito see it's explained the the Gemara says that the main Corbin was not they didn't learn and they didn't make a Brock on Tyler or the gomorian says about Benjamin that he wanted he begged that his fever should be near his smuggle to meet OC meaning when he gets up he first Davin's and before you learn you make a broker Kadesh year a sick a trader or a loose in the limits filler not just tired independently Turner comes after Davin in Toyota comes after a Brock after the eruption of Fela that's the tireless Schmo the ultimate limit our Toyota which made some Sholem which connects mammalian server that's the true ver of the yesh coming back to the source through Toyota which is the premise of Russia Rahzel boris hashem elokenu peters after Hina Musa Watts Musa is model sallim ala nabina stream Avaya Humes Leah Sal Vulcano mama that's the meaning of every broker we have different names borrow I taught you Hashem le cane why so many names barakaatuh Baraka Tom Ellis Island by the pre-aids barakato the shot is that the brushes brushes I'm shocked Sbrocco means bringing something down you wanted the ahta you you you yourself you were to whose you you at your core Musa Watts Musa beyond any names even be chime Avaya should come out it should come in it should be manifested in one youth cave of K and then in Lak no that's where we go through all three just like in math antara are noisy ash-sham loike so he says in the kitchen it's a methodical sometimes wrote a kid sir he see in the abbreviation the the summation truth agimo lops misleading social of my llama say llama normal o'clock third service trots Mossad the average am Jehovah beyond that beyond a fight behind new subbu a lime Amish to me gazelle why they say Caterina this is primarily through Toyota a varam happen in them which is compared to the inner organs the vital organs the pinna me is like the brain for zell one noise he to come in to our vienna LaCava because really it's all one it's just from our perception there's my malli to save him this optionals that's just our perception makes a differentiation because of our limitation and toyota bridges that gulf that are nicely could be javea and can be le cow so those are briefly the three layers of true ver that the ballot anya sets out the three layers of Trueba the sir my rod that's a tariff and the trooper that's called yama of maneuver all life is one big one big true ver to overcome the tension of separateness to go back to a place of oneness SIV Dalit faheen a call gimel true with Hikawa Gemmell traverse on now Nick Nick Nick Ryan Blair these three dimensions of trouve are also called Claire her literally means the first born male right that's the part what's the connection to the troopers hemolysis pi three letters base coverage hang if he does a serious amaze are in the units of the ones the tens and the hundreds but they're done with number two and the olive Bay's you have three sections you have the singles the decimals that are single the units from one till ten then you have ten all the way till a hundred which starts with cuff so those are we have the doubles 12 13 14 all the way to 99 and then you have the three digits you go to mayor's to hundreds and the olive Bay is you have from olive till yud aleph Bay's gimel dalet have of Zion cast test then you have from you'd all the way down tilt sadhaks including something and then you have the last ones which are kouf a hundred two hundred three hundred four hundred tough that's called the aikido's the single ones a series are the tens once you hit ten and you go on tens and then you have mayor's to hundreds behave the word Clare is the duty to on each unit Bayes is the first time to Hoff is twenty so when you come to the tens it's two and race when you come to the hundreds it's to but it's not number one it's number two number one would be a low fee okay you're tough Aleph is one unit is ten core 400 but this is number two base coverage in other words you're dealing with duality you're not dealing with one you're dealing with two - you have 20 a of 200 how bayes's you've hid this tough is a serious and Horatius mayor's what's the connection to these troopers for who again a gimel traverser now these three troopers explain how nice karim whale him- cleanest neshama starsia it's City Berea they correspond the state of the soul when it's in hacia when it's in yet Syria and when it's in Berea the hane makua gimmick winners nefesh drachma Shama it also corresponds to three states of the human consciousness the nefesh and the Ruach and the neshamah we know generally we speak about four worlds at sillas and Bria it seriousiy our world is called the world of RC a-- as i explained a few we explained a few times when you speak about the four worlds it's important to understand that it's not right that these four worlds and four different places in other words right here is eylem hacia if you'll take a spaceship and you'll take a trip maybe a billion light-years you'll hit its ear and then you'll continue the trip another fifty billion light-years and you crashing tea at Syria tabria and then sectarian bilious actlly in light years you'll crash into towards illness doesn't doesn't work that way for world doesn't mean halves for one world air war not the real the real definition of the forward is for perceptions of reality for states of the four worlds are right here it's four different pairs of glasses that you could wear that allow you to see reality in a different way ASEA is the basic level the superficial perception of reality the way we see it but what if I had microscopic eyes of youth Syria forget Micah had microscopic eyes bacalao I would see a different world you'd see remains you have certain set of eyes the same world but it's a different reality just like two people could look at the same table one looks with a microscope on those without a microscope it's a different world just like two people could come into the same house one looks at the houses wow it's so nice but an architect walks into the house they see something else the arena but oh so and if it is they see you know the parts that I wouldn't even know what I don't even know to look at it a musician listens to piece of me I hear a piece of music okay it may be nice the musician here's the piece of music when he's picking up is things that his antennas are sensitive to another person wouldn't know it same is true severy thing in the world you know animals pick up noises sounds that we don't pick up the frequency simply we don't have the calum to pick up those frequencies which world are they living in who's living in the right world everybody is living in the world that you you live in your world you live in the world that you create through your own senses through your own awareness to your own consciousness the lowest world is called the world of hacia or higher layers I'd say higher layers Bria there's that sillas those are the generally the four layers of reality of every reality at sinless and bring it Sara right here there are inertia um is called nashumba savate sillas what's it mean there's some Assam under Samba some breeding examples of it say it means even when they're in this world their consciousness their perception of reality is one of a deeper dimension so the ballot Anya says here when you speak about these three Chile's one is on a summer of ASEA it's Syria and Bria in other words under some in the world of RC a-- focuses on the first ruler in the world of each syria the second the world of really the third and it's connected to the three names that every soul has nefesh Rosanna summer which are three dimensions of consciousness sorry olive are anomalous acronym allow lies from the milah either gimel traverse are now because one needs to be my very refine and fix and sublimate the nefesh rosh hashanah through these traverse the nephesh is sublimated through the first true ver Ruach through the second and a summer through the third peters the meaning is care true VAR olive shizume da he shall cleanness nefesh genesis the first true ver of Samarra is always associated with nefesh which was always associated with us sia with action he he crave a yo still ahead Gummer the world of RC a-- and nefesh is always much closer to real sin to real transgression to real mistakes reppin Asia Alomar CEO Coralville a mother a Clippers which in sign enjoy it Zara the world of RC is close to the residents of what we call the Clippers the husks and the external forces which is the eighth Sahara Lacock on efforts dossier you square the last survey Nakamura so when I'm in a state of nefesh when I'm in a state of us see I'm capable of a real sin commercial Kosovo give all the convert nephesh key sector and buy a cure the Russian is nefesh key sector not through walk not neshama it's only the nefesh part that can sin because the Ruach the neshamah is already a deeper state of consciousness over there het is not shy it's just not you're not capable of it just you're not in that you're capable of it because you have a choice but it's not part of your it's meaningless in the world of nefesh we're am in a state of more physical consciousness nefesh represent the biological consciousness of a person which in many ways is similar to the animal were part the zoological species of course in a more elevated fashion as the Homo Sapien as the human being but the point is that the nefesh is the biological consciousness of a person what we call the electricity in the body the fact that I could function my alumni mice the noises and of the biotin systems of the of the of the organism that function that's the nefesh that's called I see it's the world of us see in the world of our cm is a world of action the world of physicality that's the world that I see so but there a person is very vulnerable to all types of brokenness Paul types of mistakes so here you have the troupe of sir Mira that's nefesh key set back to virtually what's his true ver locker it's showing him in Arabic we explain regret what's regret how do I do children i uproot my Rutzen I say I don't want this for me and it's not for me I don't want this you uproot your will your passion every every time a person person goes somewhere because of a reason to have some interested there's something that's doing for me and when I could realize this is not doing anything for me on the contrary I take away my ruts and that's what real regret is real regret is how can I be that I want to be there it's not for me I'm not interested in this this is sickening to me it's ugly it's ridiculous and as I said yesterday when we say hat we don't only mean the literal word this sin that said catarah represents everything that that's broken everything that does not as he puts it that separates you from truth that separates you from oneness that separates you from condition so therefore I'm a Kadir Upson from there are valued a a key that's right no and when a person uproots his will my earlier a little am sure he is legitimate not Sonali what a person does down here triggers everything above Hashem does the same thing when you do children he also does Shiva what Ferris m does true the fact is that you take away via decadence it's written in my earlier in LA alien murder la mile away let means lamella shallow you sure he's legit say to me rocks Analia hashem oseh gives here's to all the Clippers because he wants to when you take away your Rutzen soca vehicle you do this thing by Hashem that his fuse doesn't go to them because when I'm passionate about something my energy is there for person as an addiction to something that's where their mind is that's what all their energy goes there that's the tragedy tragedy is you have a big person with a lot of energy and where does it go - it goes sometimes just stupid things are destructive things if your mind would be somewhere else you would take your routes in and free it up you have to free up your Rutzen because whatever is happening in my life is because I want it I'm there I heard interest there I have an interest in it I have a Rutzen in it I have to free up that will I have to allow my Rutzen to be free it shouldn't be trapped by things that I have to want you don't have to take away your Upson and choose where your interest should be where your pageant should be okay vehicle when we do that Hashem does the same thing his ruxin that's fueling the Clippers he also takes out hachoo waha bays he shall finish raha or cleaner seats serie there's the second silver that's already a higher over the tomb of us a toy sir made ours covered but the Traverse a toy as we spoke about going beyond the comfort zone this is already the truth of Rua this is associated with the world of each Syria vac shivaji moly so cleanness neshama the third silver I want to undo this separateness the yesh the third sure of Ibaka Shalom this is associated with the state of a neshama consciousness which is very aware of the separateness and therefore wants to do the truth for Lehane sorrow loss of yosemite mikhalev and in this true ver the true ver has to be even deeper from the depth of the heart why she says something incredible Kim if he lost like dual emission I am then a filler the fall of the third level of the neshamah in the state of Bria in many ways is greater than in the filler of the first of the second which is very strange it's not Sur made out Nana c'est toi if she quotes as her ever as you know the bhava Tania was a very beloved and close student to the market of Miss rich his youngest students and a lot of the tighter that he taught well he said it's old based on the market but he doesn't very something that he quotes him you could see a lot of times he go back to the market you could see the foundation of a lot of the tighter but very seldom that he quotes the market a few places that he quotes them this is one of them that he quoted some commerciai maha-rathah Magnus mas ad he heard this from the Magan that the market of Miss richness mercy Aden once said listen to this line how much Ava's ah results are taken Komodo him poem you see my Venus Kimora's Ptolemy Auletes the marsh of azureus the alien thoughts of completes that they can create much more damage than the serious sins of the Hama yards that's what the market said the market said the marsh of azureus of sedition morons it's only a much Java plus thought and Zoras already just means it's it's a strange thought it doesn't belong there has a s'more serious impact in the inner fabric of the universe it creates a deeper challenge then sometimes the blatant raw brute sin of the merits of the ignorant one who's completely not in that state yeah I don't think he's talking about done we're not about the judgment just the energy that it generates he who they are vader costume Aveda so the Morales explains something similar the Gomorrah says he truly a very caution may avail the hero Rivera the thought of the evader sometimes more serious than the availa it doesn't mean in terms of penalty like crab Jakob says you're not judged from a shovel so the morale says because my shava is very deep in the person so therefore it affects a very deep place ah it's ironic if I would be dragged on board yes would cause pain or separateness yeah but this is the third trover this true before it's not a true before our Vedas or even for us a tithe rent rent right right right yeah yeah could be yeah sometimes could be that did somebody else's yeah yeah mrs. river of nice aroma right that's the parent element says around him is nice aroma is a very strong stir of storm Obama Rizal the Gemara says in the Obama's milometer Kurdish Baraka me dr. Kim's river of Quijote sila hashem is mad arctic with his Siddiqui with with river with those around them who decide like a strand over here so it doesn't only mean in other words you could you closer to me as I expect more from you so therefore I'm I'm very mad dr. Cohn you that I won't be mad acting on somebody else it's an Indian by Exim it's it's it's a truth that somebody who's rooted in a very very deep place like we gave the Marshall of nuclear energy when you get to the to the core over there even what seems very small a tiny atom that split unleashes a tremendous incredible incredible amount of energy the marsh of a sort of exotic is only a marsh of it it's very polemic its internal nobody even knows but it's in such a deep place it's rooted in such a deep place in reality that it its ramifications it reverberates in a very powerful way so but Mela it's not rather the third silver is obsess over in many ways as he puts it that children needs much more to avert a greater depth cause then they fill over there could be greater even than a full of Semiramis a tithe thank Thomas have a paradise shark of tests sharra time impaired gimbal safe dibbler Maskull possibly but the is ADHD can you test I have to look it up he brings to the reason for this engine of of the river of nasarah might pizzelle winging gibble Isis before so now we can understand the concept of the three letters coil shame your feeders a serious mayor's but all in the twos key debris schon ich muss astonished biblia show neshama because Bria which is neshama has Swedish clue land call a cod me you'd be--you'd me you'd in Bria which represents neshama all the Spheeris every world is made up of ten building blocks the building blocks that Hashem uses to build all the worlds are ten building blocks those are called as Spheeris right hawks Mabini das has Edward to Ferris all the way Nets a hide your side Marcos those are the building blocks of creation everything is made up of that 10 Severus but in Bria he says call Akkad mute all the spirits each one encompasses ten and the ten encompass ten the mela bulkini macrinus maius it becomes hundreds because there's ten theorists but if each one encompasses all ten like we have my sphere sorry my right the seven minutes each one encompasses seven see a 49 if you have ten encompassing ten yeah so you have 100 so it's not just discuss it this ha commission but I said then there's been a sham of stress and this - it hasn't discussed in hazard because over there you have the soul of the Spheeris in a summer so you have the full unity OB it's either a nun Coulomb rock mute being it's Syria it's only ten so therefore it's tens Oh bossy a micropenis in the coup de lavit and a Nasia it's once it's on the coup de comercio so baits crime sharma Messiaen paid okay shebar CEO holiness in the coup de lavit the gamba sharra pursue from shark of tasbih so free cost of the resources in the CUDA sphere parts of the Cabal had something called Nick CUDA as a point Spira is already the way he puts it in its era where they're included they have 10 their Coulomb mute each one encompasses 10 that's called sphere and then you have parts of parts of means a full face a full structure that's the way Umbria each one has all ten and that itself is encompassing of Tennessee have already hundreds a thousand and more carrot is da same town esbit atlas the Nick crooner could the bad atmosphere it's called an echo Darrell through this video I'm Sean yeah-yeah-yeah-yeah-yeah the film Agong says that right yes it's a beautiful work ah beside inherits double cuz he's the double bassist to Huff is 20 races two hundred yeah ah Misaka Misaka me Musa right Melissa I mean it's discussed right I think the master Kaufman's it's discussed at length oh there's something from the Vilna Gaon I have to look it up about this I have to remember I saw once a few years ago the the decisis with bass huh fresh with Musa can drops are very interesting right now I look at AB lean edit generally speaking a person is made up of a lot of different feelings in kosis and emotions we all know you have different moods in different states and different stages in life and so many different experiences in Arcia everything is more isolated the higher you go the more the unity the more the integration the more the synthesis to give an example you know sometimes huh one of the differences you'll say between immaturity and maturity is a person has it's basically are you one-dimensional or not a person has a certain emotion so does you see a child has a certain emotion there's no room for anything else there's no negotiations ah sorry no negotiations now there's something refreshing about it because it's authentic now I'm crying I'm gonna cry for the next hour and that's it there's no no good enough nothing to talk about but the sign of maturity is the ability to be able to appreciate right now there's another perspective there's another way of looking at it there's something that has to be done to be able to put it on the side and to be able to focus on something else to be able to also appreciate that this may be true right now I may have to be able to see things in a different way it doesn't mean to judge what you're feeling and des legitimize it but it means the ability to understand your limitations and the fact that there may be more to the story whenever have an emotion and that's the only thing that exists and I started worshiping it it's often a sign of a lack of maturing a lack of growth because a person may be in a very difficult emotional state something makes examples only make sure you very very heavily but if that becomes the only reality that exists and nothing else you can get stuck there and submerged in the quicksand there's the ability to say yes this is what I'm feeling right now and the reason may be X or Y or Z and yet have the ability to be able to put it aside for a moment or not even to put it aside to honor it and to respect it and then to be able to say you know but what do I really want to do now is this the action I want to take because if every action you take is just following your impulse at that moment it can get very very ugly sometimes I have to be able to say yeah this is my emotion I want to say certain words to you because that's what I'm feeling but saying those words could really burn a lot of bridges they could be very negative sometimes take with your child something happens you really want to say certain things so some people do that and then they regret it for five years right like telling your child you don't belong in this house get out of my house find another house and then the father comes down yeah somebody comes and was down and he realizes it was the wrong thing to say to his teenage girl what happened what happened was I had a strong emotion and I said it you strong emotions you tell your therapist not your daughter so what I'm supposed to deny my emotion of to deny your emotions but I have to ask a question what are the words I really want to say that will promote a relationship and what are not I am feeling horrible I'm feeling crazy okay you're a person you have your limitations dementia if aren't something took you over maybe something a very deep trigger who knows from your childhood your psychoanalyst will figure that out or maybe you'll figure it out one day or maybe not but it's not always so relevant because the question is so what's gonna be my behavior now what am I gonna say what am I gonna do what am I gonna think where am I gonna go with this the ability of maturity the ability of development is always the ability to be able to see another side and to be able to say you know I'm not going to speak the words that are dictated by this emotion because these words I may regret very very badly I want to ultimately yes I'm in the mood of running away for life people have that but I don't really want to run away for life I really want to be close to you so therefore I'm going to transcend that instinct and I'm going to choose what is really valuable to me so I'm going to say words that will ultimately help us come closer together the more a person can do that the more a person can actually heal and bring things together and tow is the ability to be able to see things from a more inclusive state not get stuck and what's the word fixated sucked in sucked in yeah that's why the higher the world are higher the consciousness the more there's the unity of the Spheeris in a lower primitive place everything isn't it CUDA that's it there is this is what I'm feeling this is the only reality there's no other reality the deeper a person goes into a higher state of consciousness or to mean a higher state of consciousness the deeper you go every sphere it becomes part of a network there's a web there's a food chain is a food web there's a web there's a network there's Heston in his glory and this the fairies and this net so that is heightened disease sign and his mouth goes let's conquer there's been a disasters Kesser and the deeper you go the more unity the more each one is inclusive of all the other ones there's different dimensions of it as different aspects of it generally speaking or so the more on a different level but it's all connected the higher you go the deeper you go McLeod things become more United because the source of actus is our Shem the more one feels the divine the more united things are the less I feel the divine the more disconnected things are so you have to separate people they're completely disconnected I am i and you are you I take care of me you take care me the more we go to a higher state of consciousness the more disconnection that's then it could of why BRE is connected with hundreds because every spheria is part of a huge family of a huge unit it encompasses ten and each one of that encompasses ten so each sphere itself is considered in the hundreds there's not just a black asset this commercial professor doesn't worry summer classes but that's not enough because that would just be ten right this coffee shop Wiscasset is very similar so how much is their interests and not hundred button Khakassia process in itself this car commercial car commercial percocet it gets really intricate because emotions are very intricate and then there is the been there in the hakama which isn't acid and then there is the the acid which is in the sock man that has said you know that each one encompasses ten but each one of them encompasses ten so each one is in a state of hundreds each Syria is considered tens because each one encompasses ten but to say that every detail now encompasses also another ten that's already a stretch and then I see it's called once you're on your own and that's what growth is growth is from a state of ASEA to a state of each Syria to a state of Korea the difference is nefesh Wasserman F which is biological like an animal animals are one-dimensional you know an animal is angry don't start explaining things to the beer to stay away the rambam says animals are one dimension every equals in one pile this is who they are it's Syria is already a higher place it's Syria is connected with Ruach deeper emotions and over there there's a larger perspective Bri is associated with cycle neshama the intellect this is the unique cognate we could see the full picture and here you can have a much deeper unity so that's why I see as associated with you he does and it's Syria with a serious and Bria with mayors the gimel osseous illumiroom Muslim Gump convenient Abraha these three letters are also hinted in Broca's because borrow what's borrow borrow barbaric is Bay's race cough hi new game alarm Jacques the opera viola K note the name is potatoes Barack hi Rossi bear crossing when you say abraca you say Bora Otto Hashemi like a No that's what you say Boris's you want to bring back you want to bring in otter we said as Atmos that's the third silver Hashem the second silver alakay no is the first true ver Bora I want the base I want the cuff and I wonder if the base is doing true before sir Mira la que no the cuff is doing sugar-phosphate I've Avaya and the range is doing true via ferrata that the burrows every brother is I'm trying to unite the duality with the walnuts so it's Berra it's Prosecco and it's because it's all Bharath base Rick off bazooka - Lee called Claire this is the deep shot in the person we say some of them say it in the morning and fillin weather actually I've been at Toms Veda brush i'm a moisture car - Lee called - boy what does it mean sanctified to me every prayer what's every player every firstborn male is commonly called Kirkpatrick or illuminator all bothered by bahama leo the first one who comes out whether it's a human being or a Bahama Leo because even a card Bahama simple Long's - let me have to give it to the client who's mocking reading the base I'm a nurse that's called carbon core a human being you know and obviously has McCallum give us a carbon but it's conditionally its holy and then we have to redeem it from the coin it's called patina Ben what's the deeper meaning of Kaddish like a bride had say you Jewish Lucia illumise breed sericea to pick up the car the three worlds breeds you know they pick them up chay nephesh Rakesh Sharma I they actually ship in is Chula ha mascara Snell through the three dimensions of children V is bara do miss v rasa they should become elevated and sublimated from their brokenness vez al Lulu lamotte sillas they should go up to the fourth well that still is Rizzoli Kaddish LICO Claire what Scottish League Cup car the world is the world is constructed from base huh fresh there was a duality in the world it's not once but two viewers do others fragmentation everywhere this fragmentation and me segmentation and us fragmentation in the universe but in different layers in the world of ASEA the fragmentation is the base there a person can get stuck in sin in addiction in crazy stuff and broken behavior in the world of youth Syria is not nefesh key sector but over there the fragmentation we call it tough it's not nephesh it's Rua over there the fragmentation is the lack of over Delhi Kim the fact that I remain stuck in my comfort zone what's missing isn't our say toy in the world of rage in the world of Bria it's not sir made out that I say toys but it's the yesh that's driving me crazy and in many ways that can be the biggest nephila because the Micawber's are of that sabic is playing in more than the oven of them or it's a sham says Kaddish li cobbler the challenge in life is to take every dimension of bathe ruffridge the duality the fragmentation the doubleness that exists on every level of reality and a line that with li bring it back to the full oneness that's what service trubiz return the duality to oneness from her to make one ah two other maxilla switch is the Earlham of Actos the olam of oneness because Bria's creation you'd serious formation I see as action I still this is the oil um of X Lovis sum of eight cell eight that means close the world of oneness in other words of perspective about Zyliss into perspective where you see the divine in everything that's the oneness so Kaddish Li like Xu Lu Li bring it back to me she is a low mystery rasam they should be elevated from their brokenness from their fragmentation predetermine Fidelia chakras be Trouville and this is the idea of your chakras which over one moment of truth in this world is greater she Houston Lerman associates in his body shy days an intensifier do something about the light comes from darkness that is transformed it creates a whole new type of oil you have two types of light there's light and then there's a much deeper light the light that comes from darkness and whenever you transform negative energy and the negative energy becomes the fuel for positive energy the energy has something very deep about it something very special about it because whenever you take the opposite and the opposite becomes oxygen fuel to produce the light the light has something in it that is very very powerful very unique always in life when you have something opposing you and it gets transformed if you take anything that's negative that's toxic and you realize how that can transform you take that very energy and you transform it so then the whole Koyuk of the whole shock now becomes oil it's a different quality of our but that energy that energy that allows for that perception yeah but I guess you're right in the ultimate sense right but when we say an illusion we don't mean momís an illusion in other words it's the world that God created right but I'm saying that was part yeah that ability was part of the plan right right right right yeah yeah yeah yeah yeah there's now a parentheses again from the t'market edek a pretty long parenthesis I'm not so long around like eight lines on 148 around eight lines from the top after the parentheses the calls are high no there shall akia uphold a momento but for this to happen you have to take away the Kyra now we come to play literally the firstborn male represents like the the podium were considered you know the elitists yeah the elites the firstborn so you have to take away the player from the hood sure he a some higher Blair ASA was the firstborn commercial cosa Bella by masquerade a ebony but Deborah Maskull mashaallah para gizelle we ensure your tuition that's why he came out first he was like the first iron sham hate off' but sorry le chemin de la raza so ace of screams I'm the Claire I'm the boss I'm the firstborn I get everything can I take away that Clara demeaning I they had shavasana on the level of base Hoffman rates through these three Chavez Peters bhakti-rasa Robson might've Asylum hotha hain Visser Mira the first true V is to take away my desire from the cravings of oil Omaha's er which take me away from munnis whether it's in sir Mira going away from bad bazooka - Lee khadisha socks macabre Mutola that's the first level of Kaddish li that even that which is permissible you should always aligned with Kaddish with holiness even that which is permissible sanctify yourself because in every moment I want to be able to see that opportunity for the divine behavior it's I never have to reverse a tithe the same is true in his desire in to do goodness or basic a tight and unlearning tighter so on this all three levels of Chavez I take away the pride of a mace of Shia days are Kira sir rots in night only men okay awesome Amish when you take away your oxen from rah you take away the status of Korea from ace of why can he now it's a heart of our clippers same akopplin gum kimchi is merits Analia everything gets life from God's will nothing could live if our sham doesn't want it to live what is the life energy of everything hashem Rutzen when i have a will for something i have a desire for something that's an energy when Hashem has a desire for something that desire is the energy of the world you're here because God wants you to be here so that is your energy your energy is his Rutzen him like in Malayalam here there was no ruts in Ali and they wouldn't have life so everything that exists including the eights are including the Clippers there is a divine will that they should be if there was no divine will they can't be so there in her life ultimately comes from our shams will adarama even more hey Mac beer my socks mom Linda Callum I love my specialist McGinnis V Roth Cassatt they try to inflate themselves to get from God's will from God's energy beyond the structure of the world from a place called Ralph Cassatt abundant facet why cause I'll share some nem are in seductive Matassa let me rub of shechem apostle a the posix says in yo if you think if you're righteous you're gonna give him something and you think if you sin a lot you're gonna take away something from him in others they want to go to a place so to speak in God that is beyond the structure of the universe where what I do doesn't matter he's so beyond and then I can get everything I can get from that place even more pious cuz nothing matters Rizzo aim to be a connector says when you'll rise like our Eagle clipper likes to rise like an eagle to get from the highest places because from Hashem who transcends the world who cares what I do what I don't do like a little ant in rubble deposits SMC doctor might eaten Laurium ruble comet asteroid into dr. Matt eaten my mama Eureka what can you give him the cashier are the masala Creed Serena meat Iverson la maza generates a bam cloud when a person takes away his roots from Tyra salamati he's not interested that's first River Mallika Mikan lamella he triggers the same thing la mala hashem oseh she is taluk ma'am Rutzen our symbol our spiel I'm oversized macrinus la casa come on your call your true ver is mirrored by Hashem he does the same thing he takes away his roots to be my spear to the Clippers light and energy from Ralph guess it came a penis Simpson kadaifi you son he only gives them a little restricted energy as much as they need to live basic oxygen nothing extras so when I do true ver I take away the chloroform Asaph kadish leak opioid when I'm the cottage Kobler the power that ace of has the player of a sub is literally taken away why because the whole kayak is from Rutzen alien that it should be when I take away my Rutzen from negativity convey your call I trigger that in a sham that he takes away his Rutzen not to give man to be my shreya only the tiny little that they need so it's not just you're creating something in yourself it has a cosmic impact on all the Clippers in the world every time a Jew does true ver in a real way it reverberates in the whole cosmos and in all of the worlds it gives other people a strength too why because they like they it's like you bomb you bomb the central center of clipper energy like the center where the energy is coming from you know the the Niagara Falls of the Clippers where their electricity is coming from gets weakened because Hashem also takes his Rutzen away from being much be in them by color cuz their weirdoes a Jew get his power the fishiest roll all over my shovel we said before that the Jew ascends in our shams much over the - um of a Jew with my iron Buster comes from a shovel before dimmer for Lehane I feel Lucretia need with joy happiness I feel except Remus Barney be such a gorilla who are my heart fire finish my java hug Duma I mean line is a NACA belt did not mean who of your Haskell starts off Ezekiel starts off as prophecy the Hashem spoke to me Vonnie Basilica gala I am in exile on the heart Kivar on a river called Kivar mr. Bhalla Tania says sometimes vani Basilica guerrilla drew finds himself in exile he thinks he's very lowly but he's really on the heart Kivar he's on the river of car what does Guevara mean grand means it was he's rooted in my shovel how to do me is rooted in the primordial thought of God so you could think about niba touch my girl I'm stuck somewhere but you're really on the river that goes back all the way to the beginning of everything so therefore one Act one one change in your life affects everything ghazal hashem silca that's why we say into Ilham god is your shadow what does it mean a same as your shadow right he Nayla Yanam below you should show me you sir all right what's the lotion chamcham ravish em sylco Allah Dominica God is your sail your shadow will trap your shadow so most most before sham will say when it's a hot sunny day and the Sun is scorching you you go into a tree cast a shadow to protect yourself are some silica your shadow to protect you the ballot on you here says something else what's silicon's listen to this it sails show pointer a qura Adam cat who use birth giving wholesale Schalke your shadow follows you your foot moves and the shadow moves says God is your shadow what struck your shadow the shadow follows the person Hashem is your shadow in other words every movement that you make has an effect give a yahoo in the shadow the shadow follows you Hashem silca I tell you daisy ashore the masala curd say Annamayya Rama earlier kala Milam Amish true when a person takes his Rutzen away from raah the sugar that we spoke about what happens Hashem silica God as the shadow so the whole divine energy responds to what happened in you one movement in your life and your my shoving your Dipper in your mice in your mid this that one motion it looks like a little small thing but Hashem silca God is your shadow so the shadow is affected so what happens now soshim does the same thing earlier kala mai la mama l'm ila the same thing happens Akira's are Autzen from the clipper so the whole power of Sonia Singh Clipper gets shaken up it goes through an earthquake or volcano even it gets shattered because his Ruxin is also taken from it Obama may submit sign of a hefted meseta eve ii shiver by placing your desire and the positive Guardium lamella gillip enemy struck Sonali ambassador institution you do the same thing l'm ila that his Rutzen should come in to the spirits of condition just like sir mayor causes that are Shems Rutzen should be uprooted from the Clipper so that's a toy of causes that are Shems inner rod sign should be in kedusha what happens by me is a sham so song it's it's affected in the shadow there's a vine shadow the Indian Akira's are rotten what's the idea of uprooting your will it doesn't mean you don't do anything it means how much a cursive ba he could be mere ma because Mercosur Yakov is told by his father Yitzhak I'm sorry a service told by your cook your brother came Damir ma what's been mere ma deceitfully deceitfully and he took away your bracha bracha ganas Bey's race cough he took away a career a took away he broke right everything his Bay's very tough because that's true truth is he's undoing the duality of the world he took away you brought her baisemeaux phrase he took away abuela he brought it back the Kaddish li that's the occurred through the three levels of truven so he took away your brock Abbes race cough that's what he took he took it all the condition she says peters he says Bakshi have a memory he's your brother he's your brother but he came with deceitfulness peters shallow ye aha of advocacy on al Amasa a filler ciub ascaris amethyst Kimba Mira we are connected to this world we are brothers with Asaph he says but the Brotherhood and the duvet cocina la maza eating drinking shouldn't be on authentic breakers Kimba murmur it should be deceitful one shot I'll Dennis my house out that Silver's mother says kilo cough I shed like a shed forces and what does this mean she he is a you read that's why you should realize that it's really a dissent and let Shama cavern after birthday levar Ibrahim York Ivana is to elevate the sparks financial alkylation is palpable a fast healer an example is you're eating in order to Davin with the power of that food hooli etcetera commercial customers on our affair hi I'm Simon racial ah man I love the semen that deals with coma circle of shame shame eye and behold Rebekah there you had to eat and had a drink and I'm asleep and now to do business and I have relations etc what's then I could hear ba hiccup Amir ma he's your brother but the Brotherhood is really deceitful meaning it's almost like like a spa you know what's the success of a spy he goes into enemy territory right you know the story of le Cohen and Syria you know the story right not only do you go into enemy territory you become integrated and the point is they should think that you're a brother you're one of ours but at the point of truth you're not one of theirs you use that information and you pass it on you pass it on to your country at that moment that moment but for that the after party and you have to become friends and you have to do business but that's all that's all Tuffle that's all secondary then there comes that one moment maybe once a year will you heard that information you got that information because they were drunk and that's what you were looking for and you took that cuz that saves your country from destruction right you understand the word well Tania says this is I end he comes in tyler massa so the world look sim says are you one of us i'ii die tree i do everything like everybody else boss he called me brother a brother means we're connected says baba mama was an element of Miramar in other words he doesn't really belong to the world of Tyrus he doesn't really belong to the world of Elam Asin he belongs to the world of godliness he belongs to the world of kedusha boss of a member of a ye caucus but in order to be able to get those sparks you have to go there if you're not gonna go there you're not gonna get it so I have to go into that world I have to go into the world so he says the whole life is this way what's the mistake of a person the mistake of a person is when you destroyed that Yutaka Asaph attacker that's who you are so this much of life where i go into places that are unnatural for the soul the great worst thing is when it becomes natural because then i losing touch with myself and sometimes and every place I go is sometimes an unnatural place sometimes you go into places this difficult energy there but there's one objective don't melt don't lose yourself don't allow yourself to die over there you're here on a mission you have to learn something from this you have to be provided blew them you have to extract information you have to become more aware you have to lift somebody up it's a one-way relationship it's not a relationship where your tachyonic hija with a llama Haza and therefore you could fall in it there's always an element of miramar and it starts from the miramar vase of hinako show you our room the snake was my mama and the snake took hold a lot of holiness into it now I gotta bring it back up so that's the murmur so that what's the murmur heard the murmur is the deceitfulness is you look physical but you're not physical you look like a guy who just likes eating but it's not really who you are you look like a guy who just likes a drink of these there's a Hitler see or anything else it's not really who you are who are you you're sticking lucia your stick ella course you're hey look the common mouth that's who you are do you do a lot of things that everybody in the world does of course you dressed up well if not if not you can't get any any of the sparks you can't create the you Senora Manohar sure you can't take the right out of the culture and this is even true with yourself so who are you who are you the challenge here is not for others a challenge is for yourself it's much deeper for yourself who are you who am I really you could look at yourself as just a piece of meat and potato that's who you are a meat potato and it's true there's a lot of meat here and there's usually a lot of potatoes - tonight is already cholent Thursday night so there's a lot of meat there's a lot of potato yeah there was a hustle of the time I said that you used to save us as I eat I eat as a hawk my law in our Zach from Vasudha conflation with Boehner a Jewish hawkmail ah which is our Shems Kakuma in a sack of hot meat and bones Cox I'm a loner but a person can deceive themselves I don't know who I am anymore when I don't know who I am so that it's very easy for the person to lose touch with that so that's the Kaddish LICO ploy the ability to go into the base of the coffin narration ace of who up cleric and to take the broker to take the Clara to align at all with oneness which is the truth of it it's even the truth of ASA ASA vis the current but only Yaakov could teach ace of who he really is because ace of himself ASA represents that which there is a clipper there's a shelters ask so yeah come Altima Lea has to teach ace of that the follow machine Bart's English which is our ace of voice of our shaman Luka so when a Jew does this it's not just did you does it in himself Cabaye your call Hashem silca the shadow also gets affected the shadow follows the same pattern so the true villain the Jew creates the same system and all over the universes take a look in the cancer take a look in the kit sir gimel chievous nefesh rock neshama vey me see this serious mayors and CUDA sweeter parts of Mahina breed sericea the car - leash the euphoria days a vehicle about Zyliss or parish Kadesh Aisha Iker at Sinai can mikeandmary Allah my Allah by his true vet cause the same thing the same thing Allah my Allah of course the shadow is much bigger than the purse now we understand the shadow is much bigger than the person that's true it does depend on the angle of the Sun be saying where they say it was designated face of you my father-in-law was he served in the six-day war and he's one of the soldiers who captured the Golan Heights and it was an impossible feat because the galan are very tall slopes and yet so you're fighting with an enemy who's on top so strategically it's very very difficult one of the things that Elie Cohen did was an unbelievable thing the Syrians had you know soldiers over there to be able to guard the border and they also they would you know I don't know if you know they would send bombs and kill civilians from below the slopes of the Golan Heights because add this strategic upper hand and they had bunkers in Sally Cohen said you know something that gets very hot over there the summer months so he suggested that they build a they plant trees wherever there's a group of soldiers with his a bunker to be able to cast shadow to protect them that's what he did so the Six Day War they knew this ray the Jews knew exactly where they were stationed it was an incredible thing yeah my father my father told me he remembers they said okay that's where it is a lot of soldiers lost their lives in that but it was incredible how they got that it was one of the most incredible moments over there then the Syrians ran the pile ah the Syrian trees became Hashem Shadia some silk the serious le Cohen we told them to do it no he did it because they this he recommended he could recommend it to the Syrians he was an Israeli spy so he recommend and they did it yeah it was years before years before years before so you have you're a marshal where you become completely integrated but in truth you're not you're the leader you're the leader you're as a Jew goes into Kashmir's you're not not in it you have to be there not only there you could be a leader there but in the Nakota of M s you don't belong there you don't your soul is never sold to it you're there because you have a mission and on the country doesn't mean you shouldn't be successful I'm gonna go back to my marshall le cohen became one of the most leading he became a leading figure in there and that's what allowed him access to secrets that nobody would have had because he was he was so close many years of 50s nineteen he was caught at the end he was caught in hong he was hung in the sixties 64 maybe i think his wife is still a lot the body never they never got the body back i think right that's still in Syria so the marsh are chamois income Damai he say he was tortured he was murdered oh so that's the point it's not shot it's up shot the person said okay so now I have to starve and you could even be a leader but you have to remember that you're a leader you're not a follower in other words in the Nakota of truth you were sent there on a mission to be able to bring the world back to God not to think that this is who you are and just to lose your identity so how far every person has to know sometimes the mission of a person Mordecai was mr. lamella straightish right Yosef was the prime minister of Egypt he ran the show he ran the gunsa belt over there but he knew who he was he was never a victim and the same is true in every person's life in your own life wherever you are there's the BOHICA we often enter into places where it feels like a self sometimes you enter into very dark and challenging places but you're not really there you don't really belong there you your core is somewhere else you're a free person your divine Devoy this caddish leak up her to go to a servant to take the pirate to take the career and the Baraka from clipper and bring it back to do show if a sub is associated with the knowledge of the wouldn't be an HR das then kedusha wouldn't be mixed into Clippers he wouldn't have to do that but since there was an eight so dozens didn't Akash was Amir MA so the mera of Yaakov is moussaka and emiram of Asaph first days the mayor mum of the Norrish okay Hashem Tulsa Hashem is your shadow I know I know I'm just giving a mush lied it came into my mind it's a good marshal I think you know it's a good marshal with Ali : I thought I know I know I know so yes we we really I don't know every moment but the point is is an awareness as an awareness a Jew is not happy if he becomes completely dovakin alum Haas he's not gonna be happy huh it's right you could try it it's not you tried already he's not gonna be happy I'll go on another vacation I'll get another car I'll get a new watch I'll get this I'll eat better food I'll go to fancy restaurants I'll drink more wine fine it's not the so when you know that when you look up he'll go to a place because you have a mission it's a whole different perspective you bring them to the sheer I have one remedy for everything you know like the old doctors they gave you one remedy for everything [Laughter] mom and pop mom and pop shop you know there's a few items another in exam would be an ambassador an ambassador of a country you're an ambassador of the u.s. to whichever country France Italy yes Kazakhstan and and you uproot your whole family there and you have to speak their language right and you have to dress and you have to if you become you become part of the country if not you can be a successful ambassador but you make sure that on your house you have a flag of your country and you tell your children we're here we have a job right but we don't belong here huh huh yeah yeah same thing so your kids they're part of it but they're never really part of it it's been mere mud there's a mirror here and then you don't lose yourself you don't you don't lose your identity you don't assimilate in the process and their children know that we'll have the look hibachi look em how do they do it with their kids yeah you would think that most of them shouldn't be able to remain connected to Tate it's impossible I had a guest in my house for Shabbos ueshiba Baca she said I don't understand he said is there a statistic of how many hibachi look him left you this guy to ask smees near statistic I said yeah none I said of course the statistic it's called zero she says really I said yeah really you could call I mean I know I know the guys she says that's impossible I said why isn't masters cuz if I would go after a few months I wouldn't be I wouldn't be from so there was a Russian there was a Russian family buy me a couple and they grew up in communism and they did it she didn't know she was Jewish they were so far they know she was Jewish she found out she was Jewish because her best friend stopped being her friend cuz she says you're a dirty Jew her best friend she grew up with stop because you're dirty that's how she found that she her welcoming to the Jewish world was you're a dirty Jew I can't be a friend anymore and then she discovered Yiddish Crichton she lives in Philadelphia she's a fireball so she turns to this be Shiva boss was asking this question she's that guy so if you go out for a few months you're not gonna be from so why you from now I just explained this to me so why now he says now this community I don't know he says she says so you mean it's nothing is real it's just peer pressure he says basically so she says if you read this guy's will become real and even if you travel you'll still be you'll still be connected it was a very interesting contrast inste is a person who grew up without anything but it was a very interesting contrast yeah yeah yeah he was using the internet to learn tater so super mama it's a very deep idea because it's basically saying you could be everywhere you could be involved in everything you could be a leader in the industry you could run the world but it'd still be murmur you have an agenda what's the agenda the agenda is a Lukas that's very you don't have to detach them anything I'm talking of it's a coin towel Walker we're not mean if it's forbidden you don't have to detach enough to run away could be a heater but it didn't it didn't it could there you know and in a very deep place it's it's Burma there's something deceitful in a positive way of course deceitful not that you're lying in a positive way that your purposes are Lucas your purposes avoider Sascha yeah that really it's usually thank you very much that you have purpose that's that's the truth it's no way I have the meetings first thing you can tell them the story that explores interested when you met Bill Gates that's interesting he says when he met Bill Gates he wasn't captivated by all of his computer stories was captivated by the yarmulke so you're saying ultimately ace of also appreciates it that you have purpose that you're not just in for another dollar that's very powerful yeah I never actually told my boss someone : I never did know right right okay where are we yeah but when Jews assimilated it didn't help it's not like they trusted them more [Music] there is something different about the Jew so Jews thought I'll assimilate but that never helped right at best it brought it under it made it dormant for a couple of years but in Germany the community was most assimilated you never had assimilated Jews as much as in German this class is brought to you by the achieve Annette please help us continue the classes make even a small contribution at triple w dot a yeshiva net slash donate