Don't Break Your Ego; Just Allow It to Melt - Likkutei Torah Balak Ma Tovu #3

the yeshiva dotnet pated gamellia bollock page 147 the first column paid a gimel civic emo Vitruvius licious and paid a caliph of the Mimer Metoyer the ballot on you spoke about the first true ver which is Samira going away from rah the true before that and if somebody did not if somebody what got involved in any form of brokenness or immorality or negativity they can always come back how by discovering that alkenyl acai Baqir be Mitsuru neha Roy I saw Ella in the language of motion of the language of parties viola and therefore when I discovered that like Kaiba Kirby's the molecule almond Ella Kaiba Kirby that Lucas in me Baraka Tasha la que nous I go away I go away from there ah the second to visit Ravana say toy huh sometimes they are so made out what's missing isn't our say toy if the he puts it the Atlas laziness or the apathy the lack something is lacking in our say toy and the positive in the relationship and it's not a small thing because key other mates are sada the higher fruits when they're uprooted they fall much further from the tree than the lower fruits may agree Rama those who are on the tall on the peak on the tall peaks on the elevated roofs can fall the barometer to a much deeper abyss the fig doulos a higher my palasa says by the nosh is my Paula was commensurate with his greatness he was aroma coil he was more clever more crafty than all the other animals reptiles etc and his utter McHale says it was my pol is always consistent with the with the greatness neshama sister all alabama Shover they come from a much higher place for a much deeper place which is my shovel whatever is higher when it goes through a Nephila a fall a negative transformation so obviously then a fiddler then a fillers greater as he explains it with Isla maja tell you how it works whatever is higher falls lower that's why the tiny needs that say mayor and the Madaba needs that say mayor and the high even though they're so low because on the contrary this means that in their cherished to have a higher church so it's not a small thing and a fiddler from a high neshama on the contrary the true Verve I say tithe how'd he do children I say tithe the Earl was missing the light was missing as for this you need the save of Calallen the source of everything the source of Terror mitzvos to replenish it so to speak true vash Lycia cedars yet a third concept third layer third dimension of children RFLP Chasseur made a vertical is even though a person may be absolutely sir Mira but oculus means to the enth degree titla means the end call tickler ec hate right by your hulu a sham i am the Haaretz what is why a hulu mean the pastures it means completed like you say tackle us what's the tackle us yet at the end of a meeting what's the tackle US taxes means what's the purpose another what's the end what's the result so when you say something is but a close it means like to the end all the way complete even though somebody is submit a vertical is the gamma Saito vertical is and even I say tithe so super taxes is also there's also he's the true ver this the person is sir made out completely and the person is our safe completely as they had to vidalias so look I do what Shia Trevor this is actually it is even a greater truth now this airs trova you would think the main servicer made our safe there's no when those are good so now there's are much greater truth who could exceed this is what the posix has a Milwaukee payer gimel Shuvo a lie so our shoe violation returned to me and I will return to you sometimes we say like in slitaz Havana we bring in this little sash even wash amalaka varnish over cada semana que cada but here the passage says Shuvo a lie vashu valleca come back to me return to me and I return to you pedo Sh the deeper meaning of this is commotion is boy ever makamaka based on what's explained elsewhere mother my mother may finish call um of over because I'll have an expression that a person should be call Youm of petrova all his days introvert the madam economist in the back does madam McComas massage - ah purrs of coffin on gimel Amidala 'the call Youm of mature all your days your whole life should be in children what does this mean so on a very literal interpretation it means that you know person Evan the cameras all set person never knows when his time comes so don't push it off tomorrow for sure over the next day I'll do truven ten years and five years in a year call you my over like the POSIX S&K Hellas the hull AC yubico delavane immuno your your clothes should be white always this is it tomorrow I'll clean my clothes the next day the valet wear rags today is the day to do it but the literal interpretation call yama Betruger doesn't only mean don't delay it it means all their life should be a story of true ver mela somebody who stuck engaged in all types of undesirable things you understand do true ver but we talking to a fine Jew sir Maidana say Torre was was tough enough doesn't have to do truth she says they aimed its serene a layman olive a discus for shop the gomorian Shabbos doesn't mean on sins he did have a this yes into Dhruva didn't came now call your mouth then why would you say call you humble me your whole life you should be true but much better than a person you shouldn't be your whole life in truth Allah the chat is a true Bahia a riddle it's a different sugar it's true but not for our Vedas not for sins not for anything wrong the checklist is perfect not only sir morale but even our say type and not just a checklist but we explained before that it's with a passion with a commitment with an enthusiasm but there's something called racial distance what's the distance the a sure isotopomer came a mitzvahs even a person is I see toys not only is Sameera he engages in the good and the absorbs observes all the mistress in Cole's area coleus are dyin the penis yesh Vltava everything is good that's the problem the problem is that there's an ego there versus is an ego that there's a distance from the truth of ain't safe the gamma feel ooh I've Italian even if this love - yes Mischa if there's something called yesh Musharraf there's somebody who loves the Iike Dutch oven this is why the main server is not the sins that's not the main engine of truth that's you've got to deal with that because if you if you're betraying so you should stop sitting but that's not what truth is obviously there that's the basics of trova but he says it cannot rover the real truth is something else it's commercial cost of the passage doesn't tell us for our Ruach partial velak a Martian asana the spirit returns to the God who gave it into the world who gave it into the body the high new shared salish of the McCoy Deva shush the word chuva means return i want to return to my mucker to my source to my root penis Easter all all over much lava what's this show you - of a neshama we said earlier in pay database that you mattresses and bodacious he saw a little marsh over the Jewish so ascended all the way to the divine thought bhai no shared solidly Khalil valid avec but that's misleading save Buraku Sholem ila my llama mechanism ala kawaman receive of Kalam and Shana be gathered almond claw in other words he wants to be subsumed he wants to be Nicola and be connected to the essence of the light of the infinitive of the of infinity blessed be he which is even shred sense a molecule almond and transcends even serve of column on which mammal the column and we explained is the energy that is condensed with some some and tailor-made to every creature in the world size of kawaman is the energy that's believable it's infinite it transcends the individuality of the unit of the of every being in the universe that's what cheveux Masha caught the godlet equates the largest and the smallest but it's still called serveth Kuhlman then he says there's suddenly a maybe gathered almond cloud it's not even baguette there you're not gonna call it finite or even infinitely gobby the world's ain't no be gathered Owlman clout you saw a little more cover then a summer wants to go back to its ultimate source and be completely won with it oka Miami we say in chakras how miss na say me my solo right after Barca right a male artist with a daughter mahabharatham with two-way mccollins Macaulay I'm coming my simulations Muramasa kuhlenbeck hakama Caesars we're talking about the creation then we say hemella Amir Imam lavada Miyazawa Shabazz Varma fire Thomas NASA Amy my silo miss NASA means exalted above me moist eylem the days of the world i'll Denix an amoeba creations add the average i'm ha ha Shem at the end of the Shira when the Jewish people sing the song so we say people are lame a muscle fart Victoria Aida MOOC Arvin there was a fear that fell on all of the enemies of the Jewish people in your great arm they became silent like a rock add a ver I'm kasha until your nation are sham past I'd the other I'm suckin ISA until the nation that you acquired as fast as twice at the Avril the camera says this be reassuring and be Ashley R right the first time they came in Texas you all the second time they came in Teddy so what's odd the average I'm kasha literally means until your nation had sham past but you're talkin Tosh I'm a whole time so the ball Tania touches deeper I Devon I'm kasha means Java means to pass over right like lava VY average mi apana idea when I'm kasha means at the Aviram ha this is a quite an interpretation not your nation God passes at the average em until your nation overpasses Hashem you'd cave of K beyond you to came off shame Allah came is mamalu Kalam shame you'd cave of K save of Kalama but I'm rooted in the Exim Amish in the core which is even not described as service at the Aviram kavaja until your nation passes over passes have iron Peter schlemazel Mishima fight why he shame I value the name of that values cave of K so you'd is called hokhmah and the hey hooli because he's intimated hey is Ben and eve of his six mythos and the last hey is Malthus funiculus save of Kalama generally it's associated with seven Kalam le Kim is the name of symptom it's the me the sad in that's why it's personalized l like a new allocate them L like I like I like we learned in pari calif with our you don't have that it's called Shaima at some shame I'm a furnish shame I'm a you slit it represents a vocal on but be curious yam so for yeah give Lima Milo Milo machina seven o'clock Korea slams off' there was a revelation even beyond that charles ii days a half a clam Leah marcia which is why this sea was transformed into the dry land shall me discuss here bub is gallium Amish what's the concept of half gamma Basha it's not just physical the deceived turns riser they can walk through represent something very profound Yama's Alma discussion meaning the concealed world the water you don't see Eretz earth dry land is our mother's galleon it's the world that's revealed Alma this gallium means the world that is manifested that is revealed the world that we see Yama's the world that's covered with water we don't see it the finish of Korea's Samsung was that almond is Galya was trans amethyst cassia was transformed into almond is galleon that which usually is not seen that what usually remains concealed becomes completely revealed to the point that it's dry there's not even mud as we say in the Indiana right aloo Kerala Norris a young fellow you have Iran to be so sure but her over Diana even if we split the yam and we had to walk through mud it's good just get me out of this place right and then there is heavy rano beside her but her Avila she cuts arena he not only that we went through in dry land us became much like collect dry land not only that it split Almeida's Galia is completely revealed an ominous alma disgust is completely bar biz gallium Amish what's the difference of our medallion Alma discuss I'm with is Galia is like the world of elk in the world of symptom it's the world of of everything is separate when you look at the yam there's one yarn that unites everything come my my young Mikasa there's a bed of water that encompasses everything and Eric's it's not like that I am are you are you everything is separate we think has its own identity the diversity and the fragmentation of the world is very visible in the world of Eretz the Gemara says in : whatever you have in the dry land you have in the sea whatever you have in the sea you haven't dry land call mashiach by yamimash by abortion call marsh area bars by yam but there's a big difference here you see and you see the variations in the differences this comes from what from a mallet column that the divine energy trickles down only a little trickle is manifested in every single BRE according to its capacity according to its chemistry like we spoke many times yama represent is the water that encompasses everything that's like so we've Kalam and the two don't meet that's two different worlds if I put it you put a person into water they can't live they could be for a few seconds and I'm maker or under the water and we'll come back up why because the environment is not one that is suitable for the human condition we have to live in a world of separateness that's the definition of our heels the world of saving Kalam and is absolutely no separateness it's two different worlds the fish the fish in the sea dog I am the finish of creation surf was that the two became one how he says ah that's why we say in the Shira at the average I'm kasha that the nation that passed went beyond shame avaya in the in the world of mama sh the essence mama sh there's no limitation whatsoever so therefore cyber Verma male can become integrated it could be in Eretz and be completely in the arm in Eretz and completely in the app in the yamen completely in Erik's the two dumbek are not a contradiction so see that's what happens by Korea Sam so that's all we said I'm kasha well that is Marsha Casa Brazil agimo pastor schlagg this is what the Sawyer says in schleier our bus Hashem became a new Amorian pass success and beshallach that the Jewish people after you teach miss Ryan they were refid them there was a place called after they left her freedom there was a place called masa ohmy River where they were complaining about water she says they asked hi a sham became a Noah Maya is Hashem among us or not so the question obviously is did they really doubt if our son was among them or not that's one of the pillars I mean they were living mama Jean miracles so this lawyer says I made of the cavort the question was much deeper hi eh assembly can be no a Mayan is the Hashem that is in us only the pinna of yes or no we're connecting us into the ioan which is beyond the yesh what stratified Shem is the plane of yesh there's the way Hashem so to speak becomes a yesh moach becomes a yet that's my mother Kalama that the divine energy assumes an identity that becomes the identity of every creature that you can identify you can feel you have hears we all feel that we're alive some of us feel more alive than other especially if you didn't if you had a good night's sleep maybe or you're feeling happy but every never this there's a consciousness of life the question is if we associated with the source of life or you just call it some electricity but it's an intangible feeling person feels life that is a locus that is like we looked in the previous Mimer about the MacLeish lava sasha Maliki who kayaker that is a Lucas but it's Ella cause the way it assumes the identity of every nivea the eye of every River and that's from a cockaroach to our little pebble to a grain of sand to a drop of water to a blade of grass to a human being to a great galaxy a star every one has its yesh its identity and what is the truth of that identity the PSLE key the kakapo el Beneful hi a sham big here banner the bigger banal Beaucaire be a Mayan or we have a relationship with ayan he literally means nothingness ayan is not right I am ayan yes or no I am means nothingness what what do we mean nothingness they're not nothingness that it doesn't exist it exists in a way that is beyond the ability of the Faculty of the Nivea to be able to describe it so therefore we call it iron since ia shameeka main ownership in this iron who I think additional myeloma shame of honor supreme is our unity iike the ACA's iron covers our ticket condition called a ticket condition literally means it's an expression from the kneel right Atika means the ancient one ethic is the old ancient expression in the kneel that he defines Hashem that way conditions the Holy One Shalem ila Mishima via Kabbalah it's called premier successor it's called ethic it's beyond you to cave of care which view this hakama this is even beyond it Vahine a show - neshama see slalom optimism on the some is rooted in the iron not in the yesh Kamehameha Matusow that's what the shot in the perky offices Dom a ayan basa literally it means you got to know where you're coming from right I copied by Mahalo luma and prickly of us look at three things and you won't sit down a I emboss know where you're coming from law not the Hallelujah heading well if let me out arson lootin dinner freshman may I am boss are methi paratha you don't come from such attack I have big year this but there's all sort of different niches that you have the frenemy at the hilar when Macomb offer remember say that you're heading to the grave the filling me at the house it looked and then welcomed a college bar over everybody knows taxes dibala Tonya there's a deeper touch Donnie I am boss are you should know that you come from I in value should know me iein boss saw you come from I am or right to the Gomorrah sesame sector Shabbos aim Mazel is all but you have a lot of times a concept of Mazel Mazzoli go ever others a good moment so he touches what st. massively so I in Mozilla strong the muzzle of his role is the union of iron with noise aluminum of online in the past success they flow from Livan a nor a similar one and kala he's not gay he's not explaining at length there but in other my mother my think he says livonian is nuna boy LaVon 9 is you have la midbass and known LaVon and is is a combination of two words right la midbass unknown in Cabal and say Fiat Syria there's something called the noon Shari bina right there 40 portals to go into bina and I'm sorry 50 right the famous noon Shari Boehner says Moshe received 49 in his life until hiring a voyeur voyeurs noon boy we got the 50th and then there's on a higher level la midbass Jerry Hoffman to go on to hakama that's that's livonian and it's Africa policy free scissors the noise lemon LaVon is a pasta can shoot him awesome you LaVon and collar the collar comes from LaVon and there's also posture concession all and period island of Sheena Sheena the point is that the neshamah is rooted in the highest places gizelle in inch over at Zuma zoo this is the theme of this Chava true Vox Ummah this powerful true ver she year it's a loss of a little bounce Merced inside but a homage not that he wants to get rid of sins he's he's good he's a he's a he's a pure Jew he wants to return and become subsumed in the essence of earning safe Mamas Rizzo subbu a lie a lie mama Sh that's the pasta shavoo a live I shall Violeta come back to me mama to me not only that you shouldn't do wrong things you should do good things but Shuvo a lie we should be completely completely aligned completely one sieve a knowin ya Havana one set off a bling and I heard from the Lubavitcher ever he said that he heard this from his father-in-law the previous LaBarbera never delivered ayaats he said that once the day after Yom Kippur he went into his father that I better sharp the fifth hamada member and he asked he's had two words he says captive us yet today after Yom Kippur it was against what now he said yet stuff Minesh Trevorton now you have to start doing truth so they after Yom Kippur says verse yet yet stuff an extravert oh so how do you understand this so now we can understand what's yet yet tough my rivet on you could say there's no there's still avoid that you're not you're not complete the gomorrah says about bob rubin buta that he brought a carbon if he was not of a carbon every day Lamar says gimme Olivares ain't autumn it's old man bacala I'm little Toyota loshon Hara avec la Shannara he and filler these things that even very good people it's very hard to be careful so you brought a carbon every day sergeant they after him kipper you done your complete there's an interesting void from the Pacifica Bingham of chisca holy dip simcha minimums just the one said but this is still on a more basic level chuhwa Tata but it's important part and how true it especially today he said you finished nila what happens right after the illa my life's are made of right it's one of the very disease the commanders of the year I am kipper what's the first thing you say whoo-hoo Rock'em you happy over the law yeah she is a beloved about put don't worry forgive us don't get too angry then you Davidge mean Esther and you sing hashim's names it's not a Rasta song with drugs members names are no small thing / la nuova no Kitano McCullough no marquise Nicky where son has been then dick when exactly I wonder what you sin we believe Jim Kipp is a real thing that's forgiveness you did chauffeur you said I'll hate how many times nine times between the ill and might have even the most greatest social butterflies don't have time for loshon hora because if you speak for two seconds you lost a whole mind of right especially in certain shoals nobody we didn't you said where did you say you didn't go home to eat you didn't go to schmooze you didn't check your phone yet unless you're from Hatzolah but then your letter check in in the morning also probably so what's this Lachlan olivine okay autonomous Alana Malkin Baraka Tasha become a marble slab so you know what he answered yeah he said a very special word he said you know when you do you know what you know what your greatest sitting hours you don't believe God forgave you you still look at yourself as a as a sinner that's what you have to do true performance I am Kippur you don't believe you're forgiven me never or if you wanted more general terms you don't believe that you could really be a new person you belong to the realm of hopelessness the has withstood sir sometimes for this you have to do true ver more than anything else like the bar and Kalina said that depression doesn't say anywhere in the Toyota don't be depressed hasn't to tell you now that I eat meat and milk you know let aware shaatnez doesn't say you're not gonna be in a bad mood you're not gonna be delicious anywhere but he says but what depression can do to you Kay Nevada Kenaston no sin in the world can do why for a sin do we always know there's a tickin true ver but for the depression of sin for this there's no tickle now I'm just a lost case you understand I do an American stupid talk that's what truth is truth is you say I'm sorry we're talking the basic level of troubie you say I'm sorry like you said in the beginning let's Kyra tell our are your IQ drops you got neck your pologize were good we're good it's not a joke true ver people think it's not a joke and like the ballot on you says in Nigeria children pay the key dollar Visa murdered the cavort how many times a day do we say Hashi vain no and slock alone with three times a day shot whose mental might've said especially he'd have a menacing right afterwards might've yeah and some people go from chakras to Minster and I said you just apologized LMI you may have sinned in the middle well time you says you know with people how many times you apologize once twice three times four times at some point it's like get out of my life and he says like this and it would have been a Suffolk or specks fake if a sham forgives we would have never made a brother because a Suffolk brothel of Attalla you know what I make a broth see bharat rakshak cannon a marvelous lawyer maybe he got sick and tired of you maybe this time around after 50 years God said you know what I'm really not interested how can you say a brush is a Suffolk brothers if you're not sure you know what a surprise it's a Suffolk Brussels about our but we never tell anybody don't say this for you you know I searched his name you could that you could say the brachot without a shams name why he says cuz it's another bad day that he forgives and he explains there that when the love is infinite there's nothing and could destroy it there's nothing you can do that God says okay I had enough with this purse with dot for fun since that's not shy the Casal knew it and that's why they could say three times a day even if you take a sinned when I thought okay - true but if some cabin em says people don't believe this even after all Yom Kippur you don't believe this in others I am this is who I am I'm stuck and when we speak about the word sin it's not just the word sin like I always say rod doesn't mean bad rom means broken I'm stuck in sin with a sin mean the word evader comes to Irvine Alvin means crookedness Evos I'm stuck in crookedness for this one it's addiction for this one it's trauma for this one it's depression for this one it's hopelessness whatever it is but it's all the kinds of that I'm distance I'm not aligned ah mr. Lyon yeah mr. winder dis aligned misalign you miss you missed the target so he says for this you have to do Trula you don't believe you were forgiven it's locked I know a bit about know and I really don't believe that anything can change that's very very important idea just true patata you forgiving you good the debonair wherever established mercy Aydin was now revealing to sunny said it's the Duffman air shortened so whole new avoided the day after him caper what this is not a true von sin this is the true ver that I the trip on the yesh and I don't have to tell you that sometimes this is a voice from the camara the Rebbe of kumano he brings from his uncle three he shoves in Detroit does in Detroit view is called SAR bases ayah so in one of us one of my so once it's very interesting worth it says by average mi apana Vayu Kira Hashem Hashem CARICOM vahanam so the Gomorrah says in my secretary Shoshana why didn't say I Shem twice Hashem Hashem so the Gomorrah summation with a few design conchoidal she asked to come after she after Hashem is me the Syrah common one is before you sin one is after you said asks Dheeraj what do you need me the Ciroc woman before you sin you don't need compact you need compassion if somebody is in a sentence you need to George or the president have compassion he's in a good place he never sent the divorce is Hashem is Rock'em and one is before you sin one is so everybody rush has this question what does it be voice so there I think the rush has it so the registers are Shep knows you're gonna sit I saw this idiot chivor this is a sharp percentage of art he says before you since sometimes you need much more compassion because you become an arrogant person a person who makes mistakes there's a certain humility if your normal is accumulative but the person who walks around with the sense of perfection you become sometimes more dangerous than anybody else because I have this ear of complacency and smugness you know the holier-than-thou feeling you know the Finnick the holier-than-thou feeling is a very very subtle it could be very subtle but it's sometimes the biggest manag Adana Lucas the checklist is perfect but such - but there's something at the core that is rotten that's yes isn't in the real sense that sense of I'm so perfect that that's your problem your problem is you didn't sin that's code there say yeah that's the problem now you have to always say this with sensitivity he's not trying to say it's a mitzvah to sin so you could become humble but the point is we all know that people who made mistakes what's the power of all recovery meanings of all what's the power the power people who made mistakes that's what it is people who made mistakes when they come together and they look and teach others eyes there's a certain humility that's there and wherever it is humility God dwells right the gemara says in cited Ave a nun Eva who you Highland Lauder Takas cliff Arrakis I can't live with an arrogant person under the same roof I just can't chemist there's a story with delusion and the halo condition is so low vision the Valda come I see came to a city and there was a fellow he was very wealthy and affluent very prominent see he comes to their eben he says all the harsh of a guest stay by me so you also come to have place for you and you enter ours and you got by him you or you'll have the horses everything instead he goes to another house Abu Salah vision and the house of the other person he wasn't so affluent he wasn't so prominent and he also there were questions on his ears shamaya he wasn't considered the holiest guy in town so the fellow comes to him afterwards the cost of a year this is Reber a michael that you insulted me to say that you don't owe me anything but I own this and everybody knows that my level of years shamaya mister top and that guy is of ill repute why would you go there so he lands for neighbors I follow God I like to go with goddess I know a posthumous passions after a how shows him eat him beside to Muslim so gurashi I for peace mayim Haim she no see beside her he dwells with them in their impurity I reserve even though they're impure he's there but the Gomorrah says if somebody is arrogant God says sorry I can't come since I wanted to go where God is he says there are people that may be impure but they're not arrogant that people maybe period they're very arrogant want to go with this I went there yeah any and he was conveying an idea he was conveying a powerful idea you have yes on a basic level sometimes this what's the word on ear of righteousness it's an ear of righteousness you can't pinpoint what the problem is the problem is there's no Eliquis Allah curses bitl Allah curses annoyed malvada with his godliness the ego loses itself not because you crush it because it loses itself it's a big difference and this people have to get rid of their heads the trauma of bitl was a person told me that every time he hears me say the word bit till he gets traumatized I said yeah get rid of the bit till the way it's in your brain understand what bitless this is not we want to crush the ego if that's what it is then you'll have a bigger ego because whenever you crush something whether the COTS grabbers say azmuth Sabratha time' hutments vay it's a very powerful idea when you break a tie you don't get rid of it you just have to and if so you break it again so now you got four so now you really break it so you got eight and then it's all over the place what do you mean the cuts could end but didn't know that it hasn't spawned him that they have to have Severus archivist you know simply what it says as well there's breaking and is breaking there's breaking the ego because it's also a form of ego it's like I'm so bad how do I get rid of this bad that's the guilt and the pain I'm trying to get if there's losing the ego in the presence of truth that's the Vaart there's losing the ego you lose your ego in the presence of truth you're you're embarrassed with the ego you don't have to break it you know if the fight I don't to destroy it then it's another issue of ego ego trying to kill the ego to be more egotistical you know so now I have the slightest about having an ego oh so so you know that's Lemus I'm so Muslim that I don't even have the feeling of Slimers that's a perfect I am first ago become psychotic I mean on a spiritual level sometimes on another level too but it's it could drive you crazy this is not a person you take a hammer and you kill you yesh it's the right of Actos you're completely aligned in the presence of truth there's no room for it it's like melts away it's like it's not it's not a strug you know breaking it you're not breaking it like you're the enemy oh it's not an enemy in the end in the world of real actors there's no room for it so what's the children's is it's a different extrovert um you have the ash in terms of the arrogant person who walks around and I was surprised I guess you know different people had different food I know you'd before um Kippy was walking around he said he partially doesn't have what the dude he doesn't have what to do choorah and he meant it like he really meant it go explain to me as to do true Han has exist because tell em it's it's a checklist I do everything perfect you can submit seizures once did it fair to Emma's there's no there's no liquid of Emma's if me me me me me me me I can him and God holy could of ain't safe of oneness of truth of infinity isn't not its fooled I'm just you know the Meister they say a good joke there was once a year walking to shul iam Kippur area and he's depressed he meets up sucks in the shallots he says why you depressed he says a whole iam keep is gonna be a waste I didn't do once in this year all mile hates are gonna be breakfast love art all Ursula K novella Kevin saying I have nothing to confess this is a half an hour left to em kipper a half an hour left to em kipper this is what can you do a half an hour says your next-door neighbor you love him will you hate him because I hate his guts he doesn't have any sins but he hates his guts so he says why don't you go beat him up will he ever better evader than beating up a Jew right before Yom Kippur then you'll have a gash lucky and could be unable to do video y'all Yom Kippur so he goes and he beats up his coffee right before Yom Kippur he walks to shirley's feeling good now it's gonna be a good Yom Kippur II could do video and everything he can ask but still arms at times as he's walking down the block the wife of the beaten drew comes out and says you're bleed I don't know who you are but you'll never know what a great mitzvah you just did just came on there's risks and muscle a mitzvah sash guitar yeah so dissing but even so you have it in a very good rubber fashion a person who walks around area but it's not what even look at the tightness talking about he's talking about here some a diverse a toy and I'm much more Adel away you see from the previous chapters but after everything said and done we live in a world of distance we live in a world of rehook we live in a world of separateness we live in the world of yesh so he says he it is even a deeper truven away it's greater than the previous troubles because the previous Chavez is true masseur made our state Ovitz give all dick but this truth is the Premiership of Linnaeus it's in the deepest deepest core there's a unit of label her if he said chasm pre-clovis my Bane talmidim shall of Rama V no the tomato shall be llama Russia yeah you family and pre-clear was paid okay what's the different in the students of bilham and the students of Avram she says that by built by a from a vinhos I entire Jewish Whelan nefesh animals we have a good eye you have a humble soul and by bilham it's the opposite she says why do you have to ask about the students why don't you ask about of rum and bilham themselves what's no I mean bilham why the students you know what he says uh you know the voice huh if you look at them you couldn't tell the difference you couldn't tell the difference you think bilham didn't walk around with made them intimate middle of ocean he was the prophet of the generation since you couldn't tell the difference you saw in the students they told me then what comes out so sometimes but it's only as everything is fine I once suffered from the fiduciary him the first Garrard ever in his Lakota man's forum that they were malakas so he says that the difference between being or being connected and not being connected as a HOTAS IRA it's a thread like I hear a strand over here thin as it gets this is and once you get to the other side the Sutton doesn't care how from you are how holy you are as long as you're on another side of the hood society the because it's all just feeding you yes as long as he gets you over to the other side he doesn't care anything you could do everything he does you ready sometimes you're so religious cuz it's a heart of left you along because he knows it's all good in other words there's something very very pretty mystic in the deepest level that's what we're describing a the deepest level is that after the traverser made after the 200s a toy if there's a different sugar the column of over column of Petrova means that even the greatest soul living is a form of distance and to say it in different words there's a lot of trauma that people go through in life but what's the greatest trauma that a person goes through in life then a summer leaving from a state of iron and going into a state of yesh and that exists even by the greatest Sadiq who grew up in the most nurturing loving functional psychologically wholesome life a home in which your mother fed you the healthiest food no cholesterol no carbs no sugar everything was perfect physically emotionally psychologically spiritually as though there's such a home but Nemea and your disposition all is good so we think this person doesn't have to face trauma no there's chuhwa because I distorted my life I made big mistakes or small mistakes this one went into addiction this one went into other things I have to do Trouville that's basic levels of truven but is the sugar what he calls the daily dose and that rule applies even to the greatest silac that's why it's called Yama over and that is to deal with the trauma of existence what's the trauma of existence distance there's separation and that creates a tension for the soul you say what's the big deal because the neshamah comes from iron iron means there's nothing outside of oneness over there and yet the tax was that the neshamah should leave da may I in Bossa and that's the true ver the true ver is that I have to overcome that tension and be able to go back to a place of Actos but in a world where that's not an easy simple thing so that that's Rama that tension is something every person has to deal with and when you can deal with that one ultimately it empowers a person to deal with everything else because everything else is a manifestation and a result of that singular tension or trauma that has to do with the very act of birth desire says a baby cries when it comes out of the womb so there's by reason why a baby cries but the Sawyer says then the shambhala comes into this world that sees the ear either there are tears when I can acknowledge that even the grain is sad even the healthiest most wholesome person has to face a certain void there's a void and life is overcoming that void that's facing it it's confronting it when you can deal with that void all the other voids you know what avoiders yeah all the other voids are a manifestation of that void there's sometimes much more intense they're brought about sometimes by people etc but ultimately even in the Adel's the eyghon a day after Yom Kippur I still just know because number three is because if I'm in a state of Iran I have to be able to go out of that this is but this is already a whole other thing it's not that I'm missing is sir made honest a toy but that life is about overcoming distance that's the definition of life not because I did something wrong it's not about wrong I don't know if something to correct I'm not busy lying I'm not busy cheating the world yeah of course yeah of course of course yeah of course there's a void open did the void is quite ready for person is living a dysfunctional life yeah obviously there's a void you know you're you're living in a dysfunctional situation it's not so much the word rectify its you know have to get to you they're ready now may I ambassador ah like also vets about York's perception you there Tommy I am BA so at the Avraham at the Avalon fashion I am massively so but you can't even relate to this if you're stuck in Samara you have to clean up the mess you have to always clean up the mess you know what I mean I'll give an example in another field if somebody is in active addiction they can't hear anything you understand the truth is you have to talk to them about this because addiction is running away from the void that life is causing and the deepest void is always this I told you once doctor Twersky told me that addicts are just more sensitive people who can't deal with the dysfunctions of life word they don't know how to deal with it like others ah the ignoramus causes you to be in a beer I'm mic'ed if they would be a little lower Souls that'd be fine move on get a job make a couple of bucks go on another vacation eat another slice of pizza and move on what if to become a Michigan addict the bottom line is I'm regular AMA once you're up there you don't know how to do this because you feeling desperate so what do you do you end up and being a mikta cuz you have to fill that high expectations I think this is what he told me since 60 years there are my Jacobsen 60 years of experience I tell you that the addiction community every one of them is more spiritually sensitive than usually everybody else in their family this is not a justification it's it's it's it's it's it's not about it's not about comparing people it's just about the true that they have to understand it's the agura drama that causes the bed admitted but if somebody is in active addiction they can't understand anything there's nobody to look at you're talking to a person he's not here his mind is his addicts are never present because they're always thinking about either they have to make up for a lawyer they have to think about the next moment you're never present because you your shakier intoxicated you're not normal so the first thing is you got to clean up the mess always without cleaning up a mess there's no going deeper if a person is in that act of plays they have to break from it and get out of the vicious cycle then you could communicate as a person this that could be inspiration of hula-hula from whom yeah yeah yeah yeah that's the slack Llano Salama some people believe they made a mistake some people believe they are a mistake yeah and some people when they make many mistakes they start believing that it's probably because they are a mistake why me I made the mistake yesterday why am i doing it today and tomorrow must be I'm just one mistake I am a producer of mistakes I am the machine that makes mistakes if you want mistakes put them according to my machine you'll get mistakes that's what I'm good for in this world I could teach you about mistakes so Dom AI in bas a means a person has to know where you come from you come from a place of I in other words the most unnatural thing for a soul is to have an ego that's the vert and that's that's how you have to look at it yesh it's not about correct if you're crushing it you missed the point it's the point is the most unnatural thing when something is unnatural you don't have to crush it you just got to be natural the most unnatural thing for a soul is to have an ego first taste I can't wait to get for the answer the first wish how do I go through this one trust you always wait patiently but it's it's it's it's a tight it's a precious awareness it's not like the ego of course we all wanna yesh and never clouded episodes you have to be bottled it yes no Dommy i am both so the most uncomfortable thing for a solace to have an ego it's the biggest burden and the reason we do it is only to compensate for the void I need to protect myself after have an ego the ego is the greatest dysfunction it's the most unnatural thing it's an aberration of Who I am da ein buzzsaw you want to be one to be who you are who are you you're so you're subsumed in apps most stains out of announcements ah when I'm walking around with an ego I'm walking around with with with washing machines am I am I on my head on my shoulders and I have to protect it all my defense mechanisms it's all by deep insecurities that the ego is never trying to compensate for the distance I'm distant I don't know how a lion I am so my ego becomes my new gear to protect myself so I substitute my real self with a new self called ego they say ego is right easing God out so depression is a different type of ego obviously doesn't look like they have an ego but sometimes it's even a more dangerous ego it's not the inflated ego right an eva op cit but it's the opposite huh I'm a nobody and I'm certain that I'm nobody and you're not gonna convince me otherwise I'm a bigger nobody than you and I'm more hopeless than you and I'm really a meshuggeneh and I'm really you know messed up it's a different form there's ego that's expressed in arrogance and there's ego that's expressed in in in in in dysfunctional humility you know I become a rag and I become a schemata and in both cases I'm busy with myself a whole time in both cases now you can't tell somebody don't have an ego doesn't work though again you can't take a sledgehammer and knock it out then you have two tigers and you have four Tigers and you have 20 egos let me get rid of your ego here boo you're you look in the mirror and say it's been I garnished it's gonna help you a lot you ever try to do that look in the mirror and say it's been a garnish you can't look in the mirror and take rid of a sledgehammer that's the void it's an ADA Linda could it's a moment of awareness the comes from very deep place it's like I don't need this this is not who I am I'm much better than this and in the real I it's not even I'm much better than this do the ultimate truth is the complete Actos will you go back to your shoulders you go back to your marker and in the deepest sense that means there's absolutely no separateness even the separateness of an eva - em or of I have Asha even yes Misha I if that's the Adel kite of the ballot Anya that even a ver is Yeshua sure if love always has to be preceded by the word I although today in texts people write love you without i but that's because they don't follow the rules of language there's no love without i and that's true also in a positive sense if you think you're nobody you're not gonna be able to love because if I'm nothing why would my love be anything I mean if the source of the love is a piece of garbage so the love is also garbage you can't expect the love to be more powerful than where it's coming from die Alabama Nadine Leah's Canada this is very important right you can't expect the love to be of significance if the source of the love is a rag and a schemata so all love is based on a certain sense of identity in a very good way I love you in a very deep place the yesh misha are you've represents a certain distance I love you I'm experiencing you and in the ultimate ruler this yesh goes back to iron and the ultimate source of the neshamah is not just my male and it's not even sovath it's mom it's the etson that's even beyond which is beyond shame avaya it's called ayan ayan Mozilla or take a condition so forth yeah yeah completely United close enough for sure you think so how could you do it in this world that's why he brings in Korea see ourself the cities of Korea Sampson was that Alma discuss and Alma does Galya can be one in other words there is a reality where mammalian serve of converge add the Aviram Hashem yeah but he's gonna now explain when I finish with one more piece before we spoke about sir Mira I say toy if the third trove the third Alma was connected to another dimension of yiddish kite that he's gonna discuss I want to do one more piece here for sale juvenile I'm Amish behind by eight Shyam Shyam Ramallah of Peleg emo the result says in its climate Shyam is the main work of that reason with American veto the penis hehe - Shabana fish boy miss lavish and it sets a leaky mom-ish Zelda masak assertion akira ishida hoo-boy malleable spring a tactile nature of maths the hidden Shabana fish the acidity of an average is the oneness of the soul where the divine spark is mama she enclosed this is the embodiment the reflection of caster which is called youth leader and which is manifested so to speak kinetic lineage of matzah Hashem himself VM Kane Chavez ooh hi new show yo show of a you Hoboken is shorter show who our cast sir Eric amp invitation the truth is in a summer to go back to be aligned with the Hidde which is cancer both levels of caster Eric I think without sugar huh gimbal the penis neshama show yo show vehicle Bashar slippery Messiah you hid the nefesh has five names nefesh Rosanna Chama Cha Hidde be able to be aligned with Hayashi Devine a true Vesuvio penis at isla the first true verse samara second true versus a toy if the third silver is associated primarily you're returning to Tyra matzah cha-cha to Danny commercial huh cut my knee it's very interesting hazael based on Apothic call the Tyler Marshall huh cut my knee kashi om r Marshall Akkad my knee may we show him Yeats a Rasha Rasha brings it also I think in Paris miss Potter it's a second small Alif of Dalit that the trailer is called Marshall huh cut my knee well truck Marshall luck had my new well the passage says it when the Toyota wants to say something cachet you're my much like at my knee like the original Marshall says maybe show you me eight Suresh why is it called Marshall look at my knee she muscle Oliver sloppiness cut my initial on the trailer is a muscle which is a lavash a garment a metaphor in a garment for CAD - shillelagh for that which transcends all the worlds Shane liebe gathered almond cloud that which is beyond world's show Optimus Aidan safe mama Toyota is a Marshall I cut my knee what does this mean much a muscle what's a Marshall a Marshall is a lavash he says Marshall Oliver's if I'm trying to explain a concept and it's very abstract I always try to find them Marshall why you'll sometimes hear once in a while I'll give a muscle for marriage why we're talking about our share whatever billion married right the marriage right there man it's true it wakes up the chevre that's true but why does it wake up everybody because the concept may be very abstract up there the muscle dresses it up and illustrates it in a way that's very concrete that people can relate to it oh yeah oh this happened last night in my house somebody once told me after cleanser do you have a bug in my house that you listen to and you you repeat all the conversations in this year so I said I hate to break it to you but we're all in the same boat not all but many are in the same boat the business dancer kazakh in moscow as they used to say you know you're not the only struggling male and moscow it's an old Russian expression where Pinson hat is a that above Ramayanam which said the business day are a muscular you're not the only male in Moscow I should say in New York once he doesn't work well but Moscow works better because you know Moscow has a lot of males so what a muscle is always on the bush you're dressing how something up it's called in simple English we call it PR business public relations you can have the greatest product in the world but if you don't know how to present it no one has access to it right that's the it's the billion-dollar industry of promotion it's it's called Levu Shimla versa means dressing things up nicely yeah you come to presentation you got a dress up why what if the dress up you like me you like me you don't like me you don't like me they say one's deserts and old mice of the Czar was which sometimes come to inspect the soldiers so it was a hot summer day you know like these days in July and August and they were at a river and they said the Tsar may be coming soon well one of the son they're standing by attention in their full garb for hours and one of the soldiers he felt he's gonna dock and there was a fresh river sea then you know there's our didn't come for a few hours they probably will take sometimes if they thinks of his clothes he jumps into the river our Messiah his Mazal the Czar comes to be found in the water would not be a good idea they would keep him there so he jumps right out he starts getting dressed but the Tsar is here and he sees him like before the head date so does he looks at him he says what's this he says listen your majesty everybody everybody is coming to you with their garments you have my essence you have my essence beyond garments pian you have my good he got away with it but in life you need love ocean look every martial is a lavash a martial is a garment to be able to present it in a way that people can capture huh and that's why you need a muscle for and that's why you have to know that a marshal is a garment but it's only a garment it's only a garment a person will you they'll tell you if you take these seminars that when you speak you have to use humor say a joke right what's the idea it's not just to the Bema kind of the midst of saying a joke the idea is you want to present the message in a way that it's easier for people to grasp that's what the ballot on you saying Toyota is Marshall Hakka Domini it's a muscle forked mono shel olam what's cut my national oil um cuz - love them is that which is higher than the world's but how do we relate to it we could relate to the male Savior maybe cut minor shallow them how do you relate to it so there's a Marshall the whole trader is a marshal for cut - a little so when I'm learning a su game but become a but see obsession with some bizarre alien or a pasta call Michelle Los Angeles tomorrow I'm talking about concrete things it's a martial but it's a martial hack on my knee Forked my initial eylem that's what today is the ultimate truth of hashem is conveyed through a martial that's why every new container has layers and layers and layers because the muscle brings you to the nem cell which relative to a higher level is also a muscle which brings you to a higher emotional but relative to a higher level that's also a martial remember there's a muscle and a muscle we learned once in a manner of purium kiya vanish that slime I'm Ellicott says slam I'm Alex spoke on everything 3,000 mashaallah me remember so the maggot says why 3,000 mashaallah the concept why - delicious a lot of muscles in the world types is that Shlomi Manhattan is in his what is it called the repertoire 3000 stories which is a good thing for a teacher to have you know 3,000 filing cabinets okay with her much solemn bias you opened the finally gonna have a story we talk about the moon a story the story at 3,000 stories very nice the market says that the shot is that schleimann Malik's ideas were so deep that he could only convey it through a marshal but the marshal was too deep so the marshal needed a muscle but that much Lawson needed a muscle 3,000 McCallum he had to bring it down dr. everett says he had to bring it down 3,000 mother vegas and then you can understand it once he got to the third flat 30,000 my leg and now you understand and then you go back till you go to the first one Toyota is Marshall Akkad my knee it's a muscle forked my initial Island that's what traders well ok number Rizal in son head inside the testicle oysters battalion Mason Samba Maya show my love Amalia not somebody who's immersed and Tyler creates peace in the heavenly pimalia and the heavenly the heavenly realms or groups or enter ages or yeshiva and promotional Matt what's at Peter's family shall my llama for makamaka die nourish a macabre penis save of Imam Ali will fishy I'm shocked her Pinelli only a submissive a commoner Malik Lama it makes peace and pimalia some I love what they're fighting up there there's a fight in heaven there's McCoy cuz there too does it makes peace between a male and savor between the two states of consciousness to find that in the infinite Maga for them or are they amidst rasam shock of a penis Marcus Avila de arte de name Shahaji little penis premieres when a person does a mitzvah there's always the oiler of Eliquis that shines in him but as boy - Marcus meaning it encompasses him but Toyota is a pinup enemies because Toyota you learn you understand it's internalized mr. Roscoe besides may it doesn't tell them your Toyota is in my womb it becomes like food why is it called the safe mayor when you eat something you digest it it becomes part of you it's not like a garment a mitzvah I do I am dressed up in the midst I put on filler and I put on synthesis I give sadaqa Toyota becomes me when you eat you don't eat bread and it stays bread it becomes you we are what we eat it becomes part of the bloodstream the Kubica Kaddish the expression is in isaiah be careful Hakodesh inside of you is holy von Nora's alkie Lou Kaddish sorry rabbit Ishmael when a jeweler in Steiner says the gomorian tiny seed Aleph it's like the Kaddish is in your may I in your stomach be cured with her Kaddish Toyota becomes your enemy is like food becomes who you are it doesn't stay separate that's what Toyota does trainer is not just an act it's a transformation of identity you think a certain way it broadens your perspective it becomes part of who you are that's what it is Rahzel gum cleaning in my but Madras a sherbet kilo sorry the map has all same address Rama Asia VT record is vertical of a district of Amelia rice versus dumb him believe it in a more social Tyler fascinating that God was Nevada Nevada means he uh overlooks or for goes on the cardinal sins idolatry adultery etcetera which is dumb him but not on more social Toyota on the disgusting or disgust of Tyler what does this mean says the he made commercially H brother may very much concern in vivo time up enemy if you look at a person's body there are outer organs and inner organs I should have he use mama styler bath the inner one's life depends on it my shaking a very much concern him the outer ones you need them and they're important but there's a big difference when there's a wound alpha P she acted the hospital them a person can lose an arm you siliceous Percy could still live rock she a bowel movement he's going to be blemished and it's not an easy thing but the person could live I've obeyed vitamin him in but the inner organs I feel like a neck of lavallee enough to lose an arm even a hole a perforation live action Tanaka Maria the lung is perforated a crucial Maya or the brain membrane of the brain who traffic in halacha it's called trade fair trade means develops a terminal illness that the animal or the person the organism can't live vein a your siliceous why officially karana some of our she is Taliban here the whole life force depends on it you will not be able to continue to live in other organs Khalil even if it is a serious amputation god forbid it's tragic the person is about moon but the person could live in deeper more vital organs there could be a little tiny dysfunction sound of septic amputation something goes wrong in the blood flow and the heartbeat in the brain in the lungs and the person can't live anymore but it's a subtle thing they didn't amputate it's a whole leg oh why because these are nish these are a variant the whole neshama stall unit he says unbelievable Marshall here talking about a Marshall antonyms Kane lamella a mitzvah snake rhyme remark a Werdum the Malkin mitzvahs are called in Zohar the 248 organs of the king Avraham Oh shame penis Kaelin very much in seinem they are like all of the vessels of the person's body that all have within them the soul the hand in the leg and every finger and every element of all the outer limbs they're all vessels and containers for the salt every Mitzvah is an Ava of Hashem a vehicle Avila Tony Hawk Macias bada third is like the brain the divine brain divine wisdom he cleaver Ava toponymy mama SH this is like the inner inner organ the innermost organ share earnings so Fanny militia lobokoff Madhava they in safe is manifest in Atacama that says while Cain leave it there and therefore he says form it's all mitzvahs I can forego but the more social Toyota that this connection ultimately that you can't live the dude you can't live without it there's a mush so that's the net could that's the finish of Toyota the finish of Toyota League a beam its verses Toyota's marshal Academy Academy initially law it makes peace Papa Marshall Milo Mitzvah Samak if Toyota is enemies and finally this third component that he brings our Toyota is they've are in my opinion it's like the core the core relationship you know they used to there's still people who think that by the Presidium learning Toyota wasn't such a big deal right I mean thing was for bringing in a versus row Mitzvah is he doing him at airship so this you read this my man you see how the ballot Anya speaks about Tyler vs. mitzvahs especially that comes from a lot of ignorance because Indus empathized Spindler and emphasized qivana and emphasized Alva sister all and emphasized Vegas so therefore those who are not familiar right when you only talk about Tyler you don't have to tell you either coli mainly Taylor I feel Italian lay the game or assessing your Varmus if you say only Toyota there's nothing else to you this guy you don't even have to know it's gonna like that the only thing in the organism is the brain there's nothing else in the organism cut off your hands caught a feeler get rid of the heart get rid of the kidneys get it call lima anglia taylor Filat area inland so because I said this emphasize so many things so people who didn't understand said all trader is not important anymore the other world Toyota is important to them but you see a moment like this you see a moment like this and the more time he speaks about Toyota what he says about Tyra how he explains why Shem said I'll be mater and all the mitzvahs but not on Tyra stay pardon my premium dinner shaman is taller unit it's like the deepest form is the Myers itself and that traitor goes in top enemy is it is the premise it is the premise it's the premieres of Eliquis ah yeah yeah yeah yeah Mizell masha Cosmo just finished with him so much accustomed atonte Don no Thea viola caca Peter SHhhh okay we'll continue tomorrow yes huh yesterday at the end there finish the replenishing head of course in governor you learn enough so smile we typed over to the king oh so are you sorry but ten minutes of Simpson governing of saying so say again over the leukocytes habit another consume you said you do a certain percentage share how are you my other than you have of the second quarter so of course of course I'll tell episode cuvee laws but something against at roville others what a line if Bittle crushes you it's never gonna be bittle it's gonna be another form of yes or another form of guilt which huh either word oil you mean the yoke new reps Lima was the answer but white whiskey never gave a about us I'll give you a marshal I understand you don't just say caballes early say caballo sell mouthwash Amaya very important accepting the yoke of the kingdom of heaven l mouthwash Amaya Dakotas Oh Malcolm I am the yoke of the Kingdom of Heaven simple example I mean I think I gave it a ready but I think it's an important I Dan here it's even more but again we always do Michelle right we need love worship so some Marshall the the but say I I'm not feeling well I'm I feel heavy and lethargic and every time I go upstairs I can't breathe and what have all these types of things so you come where I come to a nutritionist strange they take all these tests and the tests MST's and everything and then the person who appears a whole exact regiment in terms of food in terms of whatever it is don't know real expert not some you know those that you pay a thousand dollars for the first visit and you feel good about it because they must know everything cash second visit is only only six hundred and eighty dollars yet and you don't have to come every week you come once a month so you look at it right and you say this is an oil this is a yoke it means that I come up here I can't eat the breakfast here cuz it's all the everything that they have here we know the breakfast that means I can't eat I go to my parents home for Shabbos I can't eat have the food there go to a Sheva brachot but my sister I can't eat the food there yeah from a sugar mask in with this it's an oil that's of course an oil but every bar safe hell understands that it's a it's a type of oil it's an oil because it's going against my comfort zone it's going against what I'm used to it's going against what's easier for me right on the other hand though on the contrary it's not because he's a dictator wants to control my life on the contrary he wants I should be able to have more energy wake up in the morning with more heels with Mo Kaya function much better in other words it's a type of diet that's allowing me to be aligned with myself it's allowing me to actualize my energy of course that can only come from a person I trust person who's an expert if I don't trust you then I'll say you're just trying to control my life you want to take away all my pleasures from me that's why they can be caballes Malka shamayim without awareness and a moon of hashem is if you have kabbalah psalm al hashamayim without the concept of a muna knowing that God loves you then it's not a it's not gonna work it's gonna be too too painful and it'll be a part of you that will rebel against it the Jews one with the Jews macabre love Malcolm I am by her Cena but it came after UTS mixer I am and after curious of what happened bicurious off by Irish myths we say every morning by races from maize varieties sauceman's I'm a sauce wasallam by Irish I know my associate dr. lost Assemblyman sir I am oh yeah me noobish a mellow mashallah once there was an awareness of who is the one giving me this oil then when he gives me an isle it's like NASA vanish MA no kidding of course not seven ish mo if you'll take me out of Egypt right you'll do the ten markers then you'll split to see and then you'll say and now I'm gonna give you a diet for life I'm like go ahead I'm here I'm in you gotta be crazy not to be in you know what I mean you have the best nutritionist in the world the best scientists in the world the most loving father in the world who wants to give you a diet you got to be crazy not to take it you don't have to know what it says in the diet but that's only if I trust you if I think you're a tyrant and a dictator and it's iterated and an impulsive mashugana and you yourself are crazy I'm gonna let it all out on me then I gotta be crazy to listen to you know what I mean I go to somebody calls themselves a nutritionist but they have a Cossack of killing every patient everyone who follows that diet has a heart attack or a stroke within 24 hours and you gotta be crazy so when you say the word caballo searle it has to be very careful whose oil are you carrying whose oil if you're gonna take that bin and a washing machine and another washing machine and put it on me and I'm like what do you want me to do this walk with this for ten years I'm like why caballo so excuse my whose oil am i carrying a washing machine so that's a big difference you understand the difference I know that this is not explaining your Shiva offer right you're making like this you agree or you don't agree I understand I understand but it's not really hard it's hard because many of us have been programmed the other way that's why it's hard you understand what I'm saying it's not really hard because with a new trick with a personal trainer people pay money to people to torture them every morning in the gym he's paying him a hundred dollars an hour to torture I did ten push-ups No another two I'm paying you to torture me no you want him to come back can you pay him more cuz of course he's not torturing you he's making you strong we all understand that doesn't mean I'm in the mood no I'm not in the mood of doing two more push yourself push yourself I'm paying him because I know he's trying to help me is that a yoke of course it's a yoke I have to show up I have to do what he says if not it's a joke if you're not gonna do what he says then don't show up don't pay money but it's it's a yoke that everyone does with simcha why because they see the benefit after a week two weeks three weeks in lowest weight he feels better whatever it is if you Tucker don't see the benefits at some point after three years he says trust me that I'm doing you well but I'm getting more sick it's not gonna work you typhus what I'm saying the reason it's difficult was Kobe will have been programmed the opposite so they have to get rid of the old programs but it's not really difficult understand ah how do you get rid of the old programs oh you have to hang out here more you have to hang out him more you get rid of all the old problem [Laughter] I'll tell you I'll tell you how the way is it's always awareness yeah we always say the ball sometimes says goalless and Google is always in das it's always awareness awareness means that when you're feeling the frustration at any point you have to stop right and as your parents say take a deep breath right and if possible five deep breaths and just process it and saying you know what's the voice there's a CD playing in my brain the CD say now it's time to get stressed and to be able to go back and say you know I'm gonna try to do it differently this time we're gonna take out the old CD but these are very subtle things cuz you don't realize it's happening the frustration is so deep the anxiety just comes up but but it's not real the anxieties coming from an awareness it's triggering you said something to me and I'm anxious but I can go back I could stop and say let me see why am i anxious now you'll go back and you'll see that there's a certain toxic awareness that's feeding the anxiety something about you disguise something about a sham something about you know something about the world something about the Canadian Jahannam there's something there and you could say you know what it's time to take out the old CD we're gonna put in a new one if you train yourself this way you'll see a lot of changes but it's not an easy thing to do but again it's not that it's a hard thing to do it's not easy because the CD is there for twenty years thirty years forty years I'm not talking about you by the way cuz you didn't grow up with dermis agasa yet other mishegoss public school experience okay so it's also good for you to hear that public school is not the most perfect environment in the world they got their own challenges including metal detectors today they want to know who's coming in with a gun for spaced huh I was giving a lecture in Dallas or somewhere so I said you know I was a date a Jewish day school I said our days schools have a lot of issues trust me I know are you Shiva's got a lot of issues our high schools got a lot of issues some are better than others some are places that need a lot a lot of help I said well one thing we still did not have any shootings every no one is suspecting that our kid you know 14 year old kid in Muncie a lake water Crown Heights at Borough Park or Williamsburg or Bnei Brak suddenly with a couple boom boom boom there's something to say about that it's not a push to thing doesn't mean it's perfect but it's a special thing it's not right it's a real thing well I'm saying you know so uh they also have suicide listen a so hakama Leben McCallum wherever there is to learn from something positive you learn from something positive wait did I answer your question a little bit but only you can answer this question I can't really answer these questions it's a personal journey but the more you learn the more you learn to see this the more the hushka first starts changing opening up every mind man adds another every time dalton emphasized by Malecha Lealman you feel a little more oil there was a you'd once told me why does altar never speak so much about malice so ever he already said it I said it's like asking somebody why do you why are you breathing today you breathed yesterday stop it already it wasn't the it wasn't in cyclable my my was an encyclopedic knowledge you said it yesterday it's gallup madam we started this apartment and he's speaking about fallout villain whatever and then observer says so I didn't come down to the world class listen he's dependable any possible start any part four lines five lines ten lines boom widenar Shama come down to the world well let's understand always back to the beginning familiar territory ah he did it last Shabbos some new Shabbos we have to go back to the beginning why are we here today / always goes back to the beginning there's never okay we're here there's a comfort zone let's move on no no I go back you always go back to the beginner you have to always see the whole picture because if you don't always go back to the beginning that you're missing part of it you know you get stuck somewhere in the highway go back to the beginning but to go back to the beginning you have to have a good trainer because it's dangerous if you don't know what you're doing most people don't go back to the beginning because it's complicated it just you know get in the car and move on just move when you have a real train you have a real lab you can go back to the beginning because going back to the beginning is really it's it's you know it's like birth and birth is a serious thing it's not simple so you have to have somebody to hold your hand gift of a good mommy when you're born right you have to have a good mommy to be born ah okay very well of you're with us give albick us us I didn't mean me I meant Chloe's strong very good damn me I am basa right right right the degree that the person is someone has to review it in myself it's inside right the process it's not so punch it right because the notes too much in theory right of course yeah yeah yeah okay nothing was beautiful oh look eight basis eight system look what they ate sis it's called no it's very nice it's very good but they're always asking what how we do this the mice Lamai sir the exercises it says he gives a very good yeah it's a pleasure to have you start the beginning and you or you look at a subject that interests me like money in you are very good energy you could tell your wife and my name you're a mirror you're a mirror of Isaac's energy of his energy or average Slimers energy to Volvic that's that's beautiful that's the shot iron very good iron means that you're just a mirror you're a mirror oh you should call you a year ago around here and I've had a good feeling for him really see that you see that he says it's your problem you're just projecting really Kamiya my poem the poem can leave out the melodic so ah what's that stuff you have very good energy everybody knows everybody knows you have good energy level it's me but the truth is that it's a very good definition ego means that I don't realize that I'm a mirror of ain't safe so I have to create a new entity to substitute for it so I take my little self that doesn't exist and I turn it into something big and in that I become such a small person and Dom may I in bossa means you don't have to be a yes you're a mirror it's much greater what a mirror reflect is everything why would you want to limit yourself to some little creature the handsomest answer when you're a mirror you're reflecting everything but that's only if I could see myself as a reflection right you heard the women's class yesterday yeah there's a thinking is Shia Hanavi there's an expression after look that Hashem will will will refine the Jewish people like a silversmith refines a piece of silver thank you thank you so I once read an article somebody wrote that he went to a silversmith and he asked them you know you're working on a piece of silver and taking out all over the sediments and the dret what's called a drastic the dross and the dirt and all that he says how do you know that it's it's refined to the enth degree to the ultimate degree and the man looks at me says it's simple I can look I look at it and I could see my reflection events the Hearst so God says I'll refine them like the silversmith refines the silver I look at you and I see my reflection on it you're a mirror so it's a very deep idea and when you're a mirror where's the mirror doesn't have an ego how can i mirror have an ego if a mirror has an ego it's not a mirror anymore imagine a mirror says why should i reflect you who are you I got my own identity so the mirror the mirror takes and what does it do it covers the silver with a sheet of cement okay now you're a beautiful we call you sheet rock from a $10,000 beautiful mirror you became a piece of sheet rock silver is the most reflective substance okay Wow it's an interesting thing yeah I sought many years ago after look it up a very powerful idea he was trying to explain the plastics he went to a silversmith and he said when when when I when I see it when I see myself there I know that it's perfect powerful MA now we're gonna go learn the marshal huh cut my knee which is a muscle forked my initial olam that's beyond the male and beyond savor the Hester estate is they've on a map mmm they've run him up in mmm huh why how about I do you mean what you do the destination is one that is emotion oh it's the questions yeah so we always said people to send moving guy that Shane gave us Howie yeah instead of an air sugar top he was with us he was with us the only difference is that we don't hear his comments cuz he he keeps them to himself I know you comment but it's only to you just just one statement was incorrect because you said only one okay son get that you have that somebody tells you that you have buzz oh you see everything but the truth is we have bugs in your head because you're answering executive questions okay you don't have to wait here a few weeks to be able to give comments you can jump right in you know what I meant you already established your presence years ago you could just jump in and argue very good well all you could all you yes all you can say all you can 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